第5章

IfeltthatIwentpale,andthoughnat\'rallyaboldspeaker,I

couldn\'thardlysay,\"Where\'sNormandy?\"

\"Bolted。Withtheplate,\"saidMr。Chops。

\"Andt\'otherone?\"meaninghimasformerlyworethebishop\'smitre。

\"Bolted。Withthejewels,\"saidMr。Chops。

Isatdownandlookedathim,andhestoodupandlookedatme。

\"Magsman,\"hesays,andheseemedtomyselftogetwiserashegothoarser;\"Society,takeninthelump,isalldwarfs。AtthecourtofSt。James\'s,theywasalladoingmyoldbusiness——allagointhreetimesroundtheCairawan,intheholdcourt-suitsandproperties。Elsewheres,theywasmostof\'emringintheirlittlebellsoutofmake-believes。Everywheres,thesarserwasagoinround。Magsman,thesarseristheuniwersalInstitution!\"

Iperceived,youunderstand,thathewassouredbyhismisfortunes,andIfeltforMr。Chops。

\"AstoFatLadies,\"hesays,givinghisheadatremendiousoneaginthewall,\"there\'slotsofTHEMinSociety,andworsethantheoriginal。HERSwasaoutrageuponTaste——simplyaoutrageuponTaste——awakenincontempt——carryinitsownpunishmentintheformofaIndian。\"Herehegivhimselfanothertremendiousone。\"ButTHEIRS,Magsman,THEIRSismercenaryoutrages。LayinCashmeershawls,buybracelets,strew\'emandalotof\'andsomefansandthingsaboutyourrooms,letitbeknownthatyougiveawaylikewatertoallascometoadmire,andtheFatLadiesthatdon\'texhibitforsomuchdownuponthedrum,willcomefromallthepintsofthecompasstoflockaboutyou,whateveryouare。They\'lldrillholesinyour\'art,Magsman,likeaCullender。Andwhenyou\'venomorelefttogive,they\'lllaughatyoutoyourface,andleaveyoutohaveyourbonespickeddrybyWulturs,likethedeadWildAssofthePrairiesthatyoudeservetobe!\"Herehegivhimselfthemosttremendiousoneofall,anddropped。

Ithoughthewasgone。HisEdwassoheavy,andheknockeditsohard,andhefellsostoney,andthesassagerialdisturbanceinhimmusthavebeensoimmense,thatIthoughthewasgone。But,hesooncomeroundwithcare,andhesatuponthefloor,andhesaidtome,withwisdomcominoutofhiseyes,ifeveritcome:

\"Magsman!Themostmaterialdifferencebetweenthetwostatesofexistencethroughwhichyourunhappyfriendhaspassed;\"hereachedouthispoorlittlehand,andhistearsdroppeddownonthemoustachiowhichitwasacredittohimtohavedonehisbesttogrow,butitisnotinmortalstocommandsuccess,——\"thedifferencethis。WhenIwasoutofSociety,Iwaspaidlightforbeingseen。

WhenIwentintoSociety,Ipaidheavyforbeingseen。Iprefertheformer,evenifIwasn\'tforceduponit。Givemeoutthroughthetrumpet,intheholdway,to-morrow。\"

Arterthat,heslidintothelineagainaseasyasifhehadbeeniledallover。Buttheorganwaskepfromhim,andnoallusionswasevermade,whenacompanywasin,tohisproperty。Hegotwisereveryday;hisviewsofSocietyandthePublicwasluminous,bewilderin,awful;andhisEdgotbiggerandbiggerashisWisdomexpandedit。

Hetookwell,andpulled\'eminmostexcellentfornineweeks。Attheexpirationofthatperiod,whenhisEdwasasight,heexpressedoneevenin,thelastCompanyhavinbeenturnedout,andthedoorshut,awishtohavealittlemusic。

\"Mr。Chops,\"Isaid(Ineverdroppedthe\"Mr。\"withhim;theworldmightdoit,butnotme);\"Mr。Chops,areyousureasyouareinastateofmindandbodytositupontheorgan?\"

Hisanswerwasthis:\"Toby,whennextmetwithonthetramp,I

forgiveherandtheIndian。AndIam。\"

ItwaswithfearandtremblingthatIbegantoturnthehandle;buthesatlikealamb。Iwillbemybelieftomydyingday,thatIseehisEdexpandashesat;youmaythereforejudgehowgreathisthoughtswas。Hesatoutallthechanges,andthenhecomeoff。

\"Toby,\"hesays,withaquietsmile,\"thelittlemanwillnowwalkthreetimesroundtheCairawan,andretirebehindthecurtain。\"

Whenwecalledhiminthemorning,wefoundhimgoneintoamuchbetterSocietythanmineorPallMall\'s。IgivMr。Chopsascomfortableafuneralaslayinmypower,followedmyselfasChief,andhadtheGeorgetheFourthcanvasscarriedfirst,intheformofabanner。But,theHousewassodismalarterwards,thatIgivitup,andtooktotheWanagain。

\"Idon\'ttriumph,\"saidJarber,foldingupthesecondmanuscript,andlookinghardatTrottle。\"Idon\'ttriumphoverthisworthycreature。Imerelyaskhimifheissatisfiednow?\"

\"Howcanhebeanythingelse?\"Isaid,answeringforTrottle,whosatobstinatelysilent。\"Thistime,Jarber,youhavenotonlyreadusadelightfullyamusingstory,butyouhavealsoansweredthequestionabouttheHouse。Ofcourseitstandsemptynow。Whowouldthinkoftakingitafterithadbeenturnedintoacaravan?\"I

lookedatTrottle,asIsaidthoselastwords,andJarberwavedhishandindulgentlyinthesamedirection。

\"Letthisexcellentpersonspeak,\"saidJarber。\"Youwereabouttosay,mygoodman?\"-

\"Ionlywishedtoask,sir,\"saidTrottledoggedly,\"ifyoucouldkindlyobligemewithadateortwoinconnectionwiththatlaststory?\"

\"Adate!\"repeatedJarber。\"Whatdoesthemanwantwithdates!\"

\"Ishouldbegladtoknow,withgreatrespect,\"persistedTrottle,\"ifthepersonnamedMagsmanwasthelasttenantwholivedintheHouse。It\'smyopinion——ifImaybeexcusedforgivingit——thathemostdecidedlywasnot。\"

Withthosewords,Trottlemadealowbow,andquietlylefttheroom。

ThereisnodenyingthatJarber,whenwewerelefttogether,lookedsadlydiscomposed。Hehadevidentlyforgottentoinquireaboutdates;and,inspiteofhismagnificenttalkabouthisseriesofdiscoveries,itwasquiteasplainthatthetwostorieshehadjustread,hadreallyandtrulyexhaustedhispresentstock。Ithoughtmyselfbound,incommongratitude,tohelphimoutofhisembarrassmentbyatimelysuggestion。SoIproposedthatheshouldcometoteaagain,onthenextMondayevening,thethirteenth,andshouldmakesuchinquiriesinthemeantime,asmightenablehimtodisposetriumphantlyofTrottle\'sobjection。

Hegallantlykissedmyhand,madeaneatlittlespeechofacknowledgment,andtookhisleave。FortherestoftheweekI

wouldnotencourageTrottlebyallowinghimtorefertotheHouseatall。Isuspectedhewasmakinghisowninquiriesaboutdates,butI

putnoquestionstohim。

OnMondayevening,thethirteenth,thatdearunfortunateJarbercame,punctualtotheappointedtime。Helookedsoterriblyharassed,thathewasreallyquiteaspectacleoffeeblenessandfatigue。Isaw,ataglance,thatthequestionofdateshadgoneagainsthim,thatMr。MagsmanhadnotbeenthelasttenantoftheHouse,andthatthereasonofitsemptinesswasstilltoseek。

\"WhatIhavegonethrough,\"saidJarber,\"wordsarenoteloquentenoughtotell。OSophonisba,Ihavebegunanotherseriesofdiscoveries!Acceptthelasttwoasstorieslaidonyourshrine;

andwaittoblamemeforleavingyourcuriosityunappeased,untilyouhaveheardNumberThree。\"

NumberThreelookedlikeaveryshortmanuscript,andIsaidasmuch。Jarberexplainedtomethatweweretohavesomepoetrythistime。InthecourseofhisinvestigationshehadsteppedintotheCirculatingLibrary,toseekforinformationontheoneimportantsubject。AlltheLibrary-peopleknewabouttheHousewas,thatafemalerelativeofthelasttenant,astheybelieved,had,justafterthattenantleft,sentalittlemanuscriptpoemtothemwhichshedescribedasreferringtoeventsthathadactuallypassedintheHouse;andwhichshewantedtheproprietoroftheLibrarytopublish。Shehadwrittennoaddressonherletter;andtheproprietorhadkeptthemanuscriptreadytobegivenbacktoher(thepublishingofpoemsnotbeinginhisline)whenshemightcallforit。Shehadnevercalledforit;andthepoemhadbeenlenttoJarber,athisexpressrequest,toreadtome。

Beforehebegan,IrangthebellforTrottle;beingdeterminedtohavehimpresentatthenewreading,asawholesomecheckonhisobstinacy。TomysurprisePeggyansweredthebell,andtoldme,thatTrottlehadsteppedoutwithoutsayingwhere。Iinstantlyfeltthestrongestpossibleconvictionthathewasathisoldtricks:

andthathissteppingoutintheevening,withoutleave,meant——

Philandering。

Controllingmyselfonmyvisitor\'saccount,IdismissedPeggy,stifledmyindignation,andprepared,aspolitelyasmightbe,tolistentoJarber。

THREEEVENINGSINTHEHOUSE

NUMBERONE。

I。

Yes,itlook\'ddarkanddrearyThatlongandnarrowstreet:

Onlythesoundoftherain,Andthetrampofpassingfeet,Thedullerglowofthefire,AndgatheringmistsofnightTomarkhowslowandwearyThelongday\'scheerlessflight!

II。

Watchingthesullenfire,Hearingthedrearyrain,Dropafterdrop,rundownOnthedarkeningwindow-pane;

ChillwastheheartofBertha,Chillasthatwinterday,-

ForthestarofherlifehadrisenOnlytofadeaway。

III。

ThevoicethathadbeensostrongTobidthesnaredepart,Thetrueandearnestwill,Andthecalmandsteadfastheart,Werenowweigh\'ddownbysorrow,Werequiveringnowwithpain;

Theclearpathnowseem\'dclouded,Andallhergriefinvain。

IV。

Duty,Right,Truth,whopromisedTohelpandsavetheirown,Seem\'dspreadingwidetheirpinionsToleavehertherealone。

So,turningfromthePresentTowell-knowndaysofyore,Shecall\'donthemtostrengthenAndguardhersouloncemore。

V。

ShethoughthowinhergirlhoodHerlifewasgivenaway,ThesolemnpromisespokenShekeptsowellto-day;

HowtoherbrotherHerbertShehadbeenhelpandguide,Andhowhisartist-natureOnhercalmstrengthrelied。

VI。

Howthroughlife\'sfretandturmoilThepassionandfireofartInhimwassoothedandquicken\'dByhertruesisterheart;

HowfuturehopeshadalwaysBeenforhissakealone;

Andnow,whatstrangenewfeelingPossess\'dherasitsown?

VII。

Herhome;eachflowerthatbreathedthere;

Thewind\'ssigh,softandlow;

Eachtremblingsprayofivy;

Theriver\'smurmuringflow;

Theshadowoftheforest;

Sunset,ortwilightdim;

Dearastheywere,weredearerByleavingthemforhim。

VIII。

AndeachyearasitfoundherInthedull,feverishtown,Sawselfstillmoreforgotten,AndselfishcarekeptdownBythecalmjoyofeveningThatbroughthimtoherside,Towarnhimwithwisecounsel,Orpraisewithtenderpride。

IX。

Herheart,herlife,herfuture,Hergenius,onlymeantAnotherthingtogivehim,Andbetherewithcontent。

To-day,whatwordshadstirr\'dher,Hersoulcouldnotforget?

Whatdreamhadfill\'dherspiritWithstrangeandwildregret?

X。

Toleavehimforanother:

Coulditindeedbeso?

CouldithavecostsuchanguishTobidthisvisiongo?

Wasthisherfaith?WasHerbertThesecondinherheart?

DiditneedallthisstruggleTobidadreamdepart?

XI。

Andyet,withinherspiritAfar-offlandwasseen;

Ahome,whichmighthaveheldher;

Alove,whichmighthavebeen;

AndLife:notthemerebeingOfdailyebbandflow,ButLifeitselfhadclaim\'dher,Andshehadletitgo!

XII。

Withinherheartthereecho\'dAgainthewell-knowntuneThatpromisedthisbrightfuture,Andask\'dherforitsown:

Thenwordsofsorrow,brokenByhalf-reproachfulpain;

Andthenafarewell,spokenInwordsofcolddisdain。

XIII。

WherenowwasthesternpurposeThatnervedhersoulsolong?

Whencecamethewordssheutter\'d,Sohard,socold,sostrong?

WhatrighthadshetobanishAhopethatGodhadgiven?

Whymustshechooseearth\'sportion,AndturnasidefromHeaven?

XIV。

To-day!Wasitthismorning?

Ifthislong,fearfulstrifeWasbuttheworkofhours,Whatwouldbeyearsoflife?

WhydidacruelHeavenForsuchgreatsufferingcall?

Andwhy——O,stillmorecruel!-

Mustherownwordsdoall?

XV。

Didsherepent?OSorrow!

WhydowelingerstillTotakethylovingmessage,Anddothygentlewill?

See,hertearsfallmoreslowly;

Thepassionatemurmurscease,AndbackuponherspiritFlowstrength,andlove,andpeace。

XVI。

Thefireburnsmorebrightly,Therainhaspassedaway,HerbertwillseenoshadowUponhishometo-day;

OnlythatBerthagreetshimWithdoublytendercare,KissingafonderblessingDownonhisgoldenhair。

NUMBERTWO。

I。

Thestudioisdeserted,Paletteandbrushlaidby,Thesketchrestsontheeasel,Thepaintisscarcelydry;

AndSilence——whoseemsalwaysWithinherdepthstobearThenextsoundthatwillutter-

Nowholdsadumbdespair。

II。

SoBerthafeelsit:listeningWithbreathless,stonyfear,WaitingthedreadfulsummonsEachminutebringsmorenear:

Whentheyounglife,nowebbing,Shallfail,andpassawayIntothatmightyshadowWhoshroudsthehouseto-day。

III。

Butwhy——whenthesickchamberIsontheupperfloor-

WhydaresnotBerthaenterWithintheclose-shutdoor?

Ifhe——herall——herBrother,Liesdyinginthatgloom,WhatstrangemysteriouspowerHassentherfromtheroom?

IV。

Itisnotoneweek\'sanguishThatcanhavechangedherso;

Joyhasnotdiedherelately,Struckdownbyonequickblow;

ButcruelmonthshaveneededTheirlongrelentlesschain,ToteachthatshrinkingmannerOfhelpless,hopelesspain。

V。

ThestrugglewasscarceoverLastChristmasEvehadbrought:

ThefibresstillwerequiveringOftheonewoundedthought,WhenHerbert——who,unconscious,Hadguessednoinwardstrife-

Badeher,inprideandpleasure,Welcomehisfairyoungwife。

VI。

Badeherrejoice,andsmiling,Althoughhiseyesweredim,Thank\'dGodhethuscouldpayherThecareshegavetohim。

ThisfreshbrightlifewouldbringherAnewandjoyousfate-

OBertha,checkthemurmurThatcries,Toolate!toolate!

VII。

Toolate!CouldshehaveknownitAfewshortweeksbefore,Thathislifewascompleted,Andneedinghersnomore,Shemight——Osadrepining!

What\"mighthavebeen,\"forget;

\"Itwasnot,\"shouldsufficeusTostiflevainregret。

VIII。

Heneededhernolonger,Eachdayitgrewmoreplain;

Firstwithastartledwonder,Thenwithawonderingpain。

Love:why,hiswifebestgaveit;

Comfort:durstBerthaspeak?

Counsel:whenquickresentmentFlush\'dontheyoungwife\'scheek。

IX。

NomorelongtalksbyfirelightOfchildishtimeslongpast,AnddreamsoffuturegreatnessWhichhemustreachatlast;

Dreams,whereherpurerinstinctWithtruthunerringtoldWherewastheworthlessgilding,Andwhererefinedgold。

X。

Slowly,butsurelyever,Dora\'spoorjealouspride,Whichshecall\'dloveforHerbert,DroveBerthafromhisside;

And,spiteofnervouseffortTosharetheiralter\'dlife,ShefeltachecktoHerbert,Aburdentohiswife。

XI。

Thiswastheleast;forBerthaFear\'d,dreaded,KNEWatlength,HowmuchhisnatureowedherOftruth,andpower,andstrength;

Andwatch\'dthedailyfailingOfallhisnoblerpart:

Lowaims,weakpurpose,tellingInlower,weakerart。

XII。

Andnow,whenheisdying,ThelastwordsshecouldhearMustnotbehers,butgivenThebrideofoneshortyear。

Thelastcareisanother\'s;

ThelastprayermustnotbeTheonetheylearnttogetherBesidetheirmother\'sknee。

XIII。

Summon\'datlast:shekissesTheclay-coldstiffeninghand;

And,readingpleadingeffortsTomakeherunderstand,Answers,withsolemnpromise,Inclearbuttremblingtone,ToDora\'slifehenceforwardShewilldevoteherown。

XIV。

Nowallisover。BerthaDaresnotremaintoweep,ButsoothesthefrightenedDoraIntoasobbingsleep。

Thepoorweakchildwillneedher:

O,whocandarecomplain,WhenGodsendsanewDutyTocomforteachnewPain!

NUMBERTHREE。

I。

TheHouseisalldesertedInthedimeveninggloom,OnlyonefigurepassesSlowlyfromroomtoroom;

And,pausingateachdoorway,SeemsgatheringupagainWithinherhearttherelicsOfbygonejoyandpain。

II。

ThereisanearnestlongingInthosewhoonwardgaze,LookingwithwearypatienceTowardsthecomingdays。

Thereisadeeperlonging,Moresad,morestrong,morekeen:

Thoseknowitwholookbackward,Andyearnforwhathasbeen。

III。

Ateveryhearthshepauses,Toucheseachwell-knownchair;

Gazesfromeverywindow,Lingersoneverystair。

WhathavethesemonthsbroughtBerthaNowonemoreyearispast?

ThisChristmasEveshalltellus,Thethirdoneandthelast。

IV。

Thewilful,waywardDora,Inthosefirstweeksofgrief,CouldseekandfindinBerthaStrength,soothing,andrelief。

AndBertha——lastsadcomfortTruewoman-heartcantake-

HadsomethingstilltosufferAnddoforHerbert\'ssake。

V。

Spring,withherwesternbreezes,FromIndianislandsboreToBerthanewsthatLeonardWouldseekhishomeoncemore。

Whatwasit——joy,orsorrow?

Whatwerethey——hopes,orfears?

Thatflush\'dhercheekswithcrimson,Andfill\'dhereyeswithtears?

VI。

Hecame。AndwhosokindlyCouldaskandhearhertellHerbert\'slasthours;forLeonardHadknownandlovedhimwell。

Dailyhecame;andBertha,Poorwearheart,atlength,Weigh\'ddownbyother\'sweakness,Couldrestuponhisstrength。

VII。

YetnotthevoiceofLeonardCouldhertruecarebeguile,Thatturn\'dtowatch,rejoicing,Dora\'srevivingsmile。

So,fromthatlittlehouseholdTheworstgloompass\'daway,TheonebrighthourofeveningLitupthelivelongday。

VIII。

Dayspassed。ThegoldensummerInsuddenheatboredownItsblue,bright,glowingsweetnessUponthescorchingtown。

AndsightsandsoundsofcountryCameinthewarmsofttuneSungbythehoney\'dbreezesBorneonthewingsofJune。

IX。

Onetwilighthour,butearlierThanusual,BerthathoughtSheknewthefreshsweetfragranceOfflowersthatLeonardbrought;

Throughopen\'ddoorsandwindowsItstoleupthroughthegloom,AndwithappealingsweetnessDrewBerthafromherroom。

X。

Yes,hewasthere;andpausingJustneartheopen\'ddoor,Tocheckherheart\'squickbeating,Sheheard——andpausedstillmore-

HislowvoiceDora\'sanswers-

Hispleading——Yes,sheknewThetone——thewords——theaccents:

Sheoncehadheardthemtoo。

XI。