Itwaspastmidnightwhenthepriestwasawakenedfromhissleepbyaknockonthedoor。Hewrappedhisgreatbuffalo-coatabouthim,andansweredthesummons。
WithoutinthedampdarknessstoodPierre。
\"Father,\"hecried,\"Ninonhassentforyou。Sincesheleftyou,shehasbeenveryill。IhavedonewhatIcould;butnowshehardlyspeaks,butImakeoutthatshewantsyou。”Tenminuteslater,theywereinNinon\'scabin。WhenFatherdeSmetlookedatherheknewshewasdying。HehadseentheIndianslikethatmanytimesduringthewinter。Itwastheplague,butdrivenintopreyuponthesystembytheexposure。TheParisienne\'steethwereset,butshemanagedtosmileuponhervisitorashethrewoffhiscoatandbentoverher。
Hepouredsomewhiskeyforher;butshecouldnotgettheliquidoverherthroat。
\"Donot,\"shesaidfiercelybetweenthosesetwhiteteeth,\"donotforgetthelilies。”Shesankbackandfixedherglazingeyesontheantlers,andkeptthemtherewatchingthosedanglingsilkenscarves,whilethepriest,inhaste,spokethewordsforthedepartingsoul。
Thenextmorningshelaydeadamongthosehalfbarbaricrelicsofhercoquetry,andtwowhitelilieswithheartsofgoldshedperfumefromanaltarinawilderness。
UptheGulch\"GOWest?\"sighedKate。\"Why,yes!I\'dliketogoWest。”
Shelookedatthebabies,whowereplay-
ingonthefloorwiththeirfather,andsighedagain。
\"You\'vegottogosomewhere,youknow,Kate。Itmightaswellbewestasinanyotherdirection。Andthisissuchachance!
Wecan\'thavemammalyingaroundonsofaswithoutanyrosesinhercheeks,canwe?\"Heputthislasttothechildren,who,beingyetattheagewhentheytalkedin\"EarlyEnglish,\"astheirfathercalledit,madeaclamorousbutinarticulatereply。
MajorShelly,thegrandfatheroftheseveryyoungpersons,strokedhismustacheandlookedindulgent。
\"Showalmosthumanintelligence,don\'tthey?\"saidtheirfather,ashelayflatonhisbackandpermittedthebabiestoclimboverhim。
\"Ya-as,\"drawledthemajor。\"Theydo。
Don\'tseehowyouaccountforit,Jack。”
Jackroared,andthelipsofthebabiestrembledwithfear。
Theirmothersaidnothing。Shewasonthesofa,herhandslyinginert,hereyesfixedonherrosybabieswithanexpressionwhichherfather-in-lawandherhusbandtriedhardnottonotice。
ItwasnoteasytotellwhyKatewasailing。Ofcourse,thebabieswereyoung,buttherewereotherreasons。
\"Ibelieveyou\'retoohappy,\"Jacksome-
timessaidtoher。\"Trynottobequitesohappy,Kate。Atleast,trynottotakeyourhappinesssoseriously。Pleasedon\'tadoremeso;I\'monlyacommonplacefellow。Andthebabies——they\'renotgoingtoblowaway。”
ButKatecontinuedtolookwithintenseeyesatherlittleworld,andtodrawintoitwithlovingandgeneroushandsallwhowerewillingtocome。
\"Kateisjustlikeakite,\"Jackexplainedtohisfather,themajor;\"shecan\'tkeepafloatwithoutjustsomanybobs。”
Kate\'s\"bobs\"weretheunfortunatesshecollectedaroundher。Theseabsorbedherstrength。Shefelttheirmiserywithsym-
pathiesthatwereabnormal。Theverylaborerinthestreetsfelthistoillesskeenlythanshe,asshewatchedthedropsgatheronhisbrow。
\"Islifeworthkeepingatthecostofalotlikethat?\"shewouldask。Shefeltashamedofherownease。Sheapologizedforherownsereneandperfecthappiness。
Sheevenfeltsorryforthosemotherswhohadnotchildrenasradiantlybeautifulasherown。
\"Katemusthaveachange,\"themajorhadgivenout。HewasgoingWestonbusinessandinsistedontakingherwithhim。Jacklookeddoubtful。Hewasn\'tsurehowhewouldgetalongwithoutKatetolookaftereverything。Secretly,hehadanideathatservantswereakindofwildanimalthathadtobefedbyanexperiencedkeeper。Butwhenthetimecame,hekissedhergood-byinasjocularamannerashecouldsummon,andrefusedtoseethetearsthatgatheredinhereyes。
UntilChicagowasreached,therewasnothingverydifferentfromthatwhichKatehadbeeninthehabitofseeing。
Afterthat,shesetherselftowatchforWesterncharacteristics。Shefeltthatshewouldknowthemassoonasshesawthem。
\"Iexpectedtobestirredupandshocked,\"
sheexplainedtothemajor。Butsomehow,theWesterntypedidnotappear。Common-
placewomenwithwornfaces——brownedandseamed,thoughnotaged——wereatthestations,waitingforsomethingorsomeone。Menwithahurried,nervousairwereeverywhere。KatelookedinvainforthegayetyandheartinesswhichshehadalwaysassociatedwiththeWest。
Aftertheygotbeyondthetimbercountryandrodehourafterhouronatractsmoothasabecalmedocean,shegaveherselfuptothefeelingofimmeasurablevastnesswhichtookpossessionofher。Thesunrolledoutoftheskyintooblivionwithafrantic,head-
longhaste。Nothingsoftenedtheaspectofitswrath。Near,red,familiar,itseemedtovisiblybowlalongtheheavens。Inthemorningitroseasbaldlyasithadset。
Andbackandforthovertheawfulplainblewthewinds,——blewfromeasttowestandbackagain,strongasiffreshfromthechambersoftheirbirth,fullofelementalscentsandofmightymurmurings。
\"ThisistheWest!\"Katecried,againandagain。
Themajorlistenedtoherunsmilingly。
Italwaysseemedtohimawasteofmuscu-
larenergytosmile。Hedidnottalkmuch。
Conversationhadneverappealedtohiminthelightofanart。Hespokewhentherewasadirectionoracommandtobegiven,oraninquirytobemade。Themajor,ifthetruthmustbeknown,wasmaterial。
Thingsthathecouldtaste,touch,see,appealedtohim。Hehadbeenavolunteerinthecivilwar,——avolunteerwithagoodrecord,——whichhenevermentioned;and,havingacquittedhimselfdecently,letthemattergowithoutaskingreprisalorpay-
mentforwhathehadfreelygiven。Hewentintobusinessandsoldcerealfoods。
\"Ibelieveinusefulthings,\"themajorexpressedhimself。\"Oatmeal,wheat,——
menhavetohavethem。Godintendedtheyshould。There\'sJack——myson——
JackShelly——lawyer。What\'stheuseoflitigation?Goddidn\'tdesignlitigation。
Itdoesn\'tdoanybodyanygood。Itisn\'tjusticeyouget。It\'ssomethingentirelydifferent,——averdictaccordingtolaw。
TheysayJack\'sclever。ButI\'mmightygladIsellwheat。”
Hedidn\'tsellitasaspeculator,how-
ever。Thatwasn\'thisway。
\"IearnwhatImake,\"heoftensaid;andhehadgrownrichinthesellingofhiswholesomefoods……
Helenaliesamonground,brownhills。
Aboveitisaskyofdeepandillimitableblue。Inthestreetsarecrumbsofgold,butitnolongerpaystomineforthese;
because,asrealestate,thepropertyismorevaluable。Itisaplaceoffictitiousvalues。
Thereisexcitementintheair。Menhavethefacesofspeculators。Everylaborerispatientathistaskbecausehecherishesahopethatsomedayhewillbeamillion-
naire。Thereishospitality,andcordialityandgoodfellowship,andanundeniabledemocracy。Thereiswealthandluxuriousliving。Thereisevenculture,——butitisobtrudedasasortofnovelty;itisnotacceptedasamatterofcourse。
Kateandthemajorweredrivenovertwoorthreemilesofdusty,hardroadtoadis-
tanthotel,whichstandsinthemidstofgreenness,——inanoasis。Immediatelyabovethegreenswardthatsurroundsitthebrownhillsrise,thegrassscorchedbythesun。
Kateyieldedherselftothealmostabsurdluxuryoftheplacewitheaseandcompla-
cency。Shetookkindlytothegreatveran-
das。Sheadaptedherselftotheelaborateandill-assortedmeals。Shebathedinthemarvellouspool,warmwiththeheatofeternalfiresinmid-earth。ThispoolwascoveredwithapicturesqueMoorishstruct-
ure,andatoneendacascadetumbled,overwhichthesun,comingthroughcoloredwin-
dows,madeamimicprisminthewhitespray。Thelifewasnotunendurable。Themajorwasseldomwithher,beingobligedtogoabouthisbusiness;andKateamusedherselfbydrivingoverthehills,bywatch-
ingtheinhabitants,bywonderingaboutthelivesinthegreat,pretentious,unhomelikehouseswiththeirtreelessyardsandtheirclosedshutters。Thesunlight,whiteastheglareonArabiansands,penetratedeverywhere。Itseemedtofairlyscorchtheeye-balls。
\"Oh,we\'reWest,now,\"Katesaid,exult-
antly。\"I\'veseenathousandtypes。Butyet——notquiteTHEtype——nottheimper-
sonationofsimplicityanddaringthatIwaslookingfor。”
Themajordidn\'tknowquitewhatshewastalkingabout。Butheacquiesced。
Allhecaredaboutwastoseehergrowstronger;andthatshewasdoingeveryday。
Shewasgrowingamazinglylovely,too,——
atleastthemajorthoughtso。Everyonelookedather;butthatwas,perhaps,be-
causeshewassuchasylphofawoman。
Besidethestalwartmajor,shelookedlikeafairyprincess。
Onedayshesuddenlyrealizedthefactthatshehadhadacompanionontheverandaforseveralmornings。Ofcourse,therewereagreatmanypersons——invalids,largely——sittingabout,butoneofthemhadbeenobtrudinghimselfpersistentlyintoherconsciousness。Itwasnotthathewasrude;itwasonlythathewasthinkingabouther。ApersonwithatemperamentlikeKate\'scouldnotlongbeoblivioustoathinglikethat;andshefurtivelyobservedtheoffenderwiththatgeniusforpsycho-
logicalperceptionwhichwasatoncehergreatestdangerandhercharm。
Themanwasdressedwithachildishattemptatdisplay。Hisshirt-frontwasdecoratedwithadiamond,andhiscuff-
buttonswereofonyxwithdiamondsettings。
Hisclotheswereexpensiveandperceptiblynew,andheoftenchangedhiscostumes,butwithanoticeabledisregardforpro-
priety。Hewasveryconsciousofhissilkhat,andfrequentlywipeditwithahandker-
chiefonwhichhismonogramwasworkedinblue。
Whenthe\'bussesbroughtuptheirloads,hewasalwaysonhandtowatchthenew-
comers。Hetookalongtimeathisdin-
ners,andappearedtoorderagreatdealandeatverylittle。Therewerecard-roomsandabilliard-hall,nottomentionabowling-
alleyandatennis-court,wheretheotherguestsofthehotelspentmuchtime。Butthismannevervisitedthem。Hesatoftenwithoneofthelatereviewsinhishand,lookingasifheintendedgivinghisatten-
tiontoitatanymoment。Butafterhehadscrupulouslycuttheleaveswithalittlecarvedivorypaper-cutter,hesatstaringstraightbeforehimwiththebookopen,butunread,inhishand。
Katetookmoreinterestinthismelan-
choly,middle-agedmanthanshewouldhavedoneifshehadnotbeenontheout-
lookforherWesterntype,——themanwhowastocombineallthequalitiesofchivalry,daring,bombast,andgenerosity,seasonedwithpiquantgrammar,whichshefirmlybelievedtobetherealthing。Butnotwith-
standingthiskindlyandsomewhatcuriousinterest,shemightneverhavemadehisacquaintanceifithadnotbeenforaratherunpleasantadventure。
Themajorwas\"closingupadeal\"andhadhurriedawayafterbreakfast,andKate,intheluxuryofconvalescence,half-reclinedinagreatchairontheverandaandwatchedtheduskybluemisttwiningitselfaroundthebrownhills。Shewasnotthinkingofthebabies;shewasnotworryingabouthome;shewasnotlongingforanything,orevenindulginginadream。Thatvacuouscontentwhichengrossesthebodyafterlongindisposition,heldherimperatively。Sud-
denlyshewasarousedfromthishappycon-
ditionofnothingnessbythespectacleofanenormousbull-dogapproachingherwiththreateningteeth。Shehadnoticedthemonsterofteninhiskennelnearthesta-
bles,anditwaswellunderstoodthathewasnevertobepermittedhisfreedom。Nowhewalkedtowardherwithasolidstepandanalarmingdeliberateness。Katesatstillandtriedtoassureherselfthathemeantnomis-
chief,butbythetimethegreatbodyhadmadeitselffeltontheskirtofhergownshecouldrestrainherfearnolonger,andgaveanervouscryofalarm。Thebruteansweredwithagrowl。Ifhehadlackedprovocationbefore,heconsideredthathehaditnow。
Heshowedhisteethandflunghisdetestablebodyuponher;andKatefeltherselfgrow-
ingdizzywithfear。Butjustthenanarmwasinterposedandthedogwasflungback。
Therewasamomentarystruggle。Somegentlemencamehurryingoutoftheoffice;
andastheybeatthedogbacktoitsretreat,Katesummonedwordsfromherparchedthroattothankherbenefactor。
Itwasthemelancholymanwiththenewclothes。Thismorninghewasdressedinasuitofthelightestgray,withawhitemarseilleswaistcoat,overwhichhisglitter-
ingchainshoneostentatiously。Whitetennis-shoes,awhiteroseinhisbutton-
hole,andawhitestrawhatinhishandcom-
pletedatoiletoverwhichmuchtimehadevidentlybeenspent。Katenotedthesedetailsassheheldoutherhand。
\"Imayhavebeenalarmedwithoutcause,\"
shesaid;\"butIwashorriblyfrightened。
Thankyousomuchforcomingtomyres-
cue。AndIthink,ifyouwouldaddtoyourkindnessbygettingmeaglassofwater——\"
Whenhecameback,hishandwastrem-
blingalittle;andasKatelookeduptolearnthecause,shesawthathisfacewasflushed。Hewasembarrassed。Shedecidedthathewasnotaccustomedtothesocietyofladies。\"Bruteslikethatdogain\'tnoplaceinth\'world——that\'smyopinion。
Therearesomebadthingswecan\'thelphavin\'aroun\';butabull-dogain\'toneof\'em。”
\"Iquiteagreewithyou,\"Kateacqui-
esced,asshedrankthewater。\"ButasthisisthefirstunpleasantexperienceofanykindthatIhavehadsinceIcamehere,Idon\'tfeelthatIhaveanyrighttocomplain。”
\"You\'reherefuryurhealth?\"
\"Yes。AndIamgettingit。You\'renotaninvalid,Iimagine?\"
\"No——no-op。I\'mherebe——well,I\'vethoughtfuralongtimeI\'dliket\'stayatthisherehotel。”
\"Indeed!\"
\"Yes。I\'vebeenupth\'gulchthesefif-
teenyears。Binlivin\'onashelfofblackrock。
Th\'sungot\'round\'boutten。Couldn\'tmakeathinggrow。”Themanwaslook-
ingofftowardthehills,withanexpressionofdeepsadnessinhiseyes。\"Didn\'tneverliveinaplacewherenothin\'\'dgrow,didyou?Itookgeraniumsupthartimean\'timeagin。Redones。Mademethinkofmother;she\'sinGermany。Watered\'emmornin\'an\'night。Th\'damnedthingsdied。”
Theoathslippedoutwithanartlessun-
consciousness,andtherewasalittlemoist-
ureinhiseyes。Katefeltsheoughttobringtheconversationtoaclose。ShewonderedwhatJackwouldsayifhesawhertalkingwithaperfectstrangerwhousedoaths!Shewouldhavegoneintothehousebutforsomethingthatcaughthereye。Itwasthehandoftheman;thathandwasabludgeon。Allgraceandflexibilityhadgoneoutofit,andithadbecomeamereinstrumentoftoil。Itwasseamedandmisshapen;yetithadbeencarefullymani-
cured,andthepointednailslookedfantasticandanimal-like。Agreatseal-ringboreanelaboratemonogram,whilethelittlefingerdisplayedacollectionofdiamondsandemeraldstrulydazzlingtobehold。Animpulseofhumanityandasortofartisticcuriosity,muchstrongerthanherdiscretion,urgedKatetocontinueherconversation。
\"Whatwereyoudoingupthegulch?\"
shesaid。
Themanleanedbackinhischairandregardedheramomentbeforeanswering。
Herealizedthesignificanceofherquestion。
Hetookitasasignthatshewaswillingtobefriendly。Alookofgratitude,almosttender,sprangintohiseyes,——dullgrayeyes,theywere,withakindlinessfortheironlyrecommendation。
\"Makin\'mypile,\"hereplied。\"I\'vebeeninthesepartstwentyyears。WhenI
comehere,IthoughtIwasgoin\'tomakeafortunerightoff。Ihadallth\'moneythatmothercouldgiveme,andIlosteverythingI
hadinthreemonths。Iwentupth\'gulch。”
Hepaused,andwipedhisforeheadwithhishandkerchief。
TherewassomethinginhisremarkandtheintonationwhichmadeKatesaysoftly:
\"Isupposeyou\'vehadahardtimeofit。”
\"Tharyouwere!\"hecried。\"Tharwasth\'rock——risin\',risin\',black!Atth\'
bottomwusth\'creek,howlin\'dayan\'
night!Lonesome!Gee!Noonet\'talkto。Ofcourse,th\'men。Hadsomewithmealways。Theydidn\'ttalk。It\'stoo——
tooquiett\'talkmuch。Theyplayedcards。
Curious,butIneverplayedcards。Don\'tthinkI\'dfinditamusin\'。No,Iworked。
Camedownhereonceinsixmonthsorthreemonths。Hadt\'come——grub-stakedth\'men,youknow。Didyouevereatsaltpork?\"HeturnedtoKatesuddenlywiththisquestion。
\"Why,yes;afewtimes。Didyouhaveit?\"
\"Nothin\'else,much。Iusedt\'thinkofth\'thingsmothercooked。Motherunder-
stoodcookin\',ifeverawomandid。I\'llneverforgetth\'dinnershegavemeth\'dayIcameaway。Awomanoughtt\'cook。I
hearAmericanwomendon\'tgoinmuchforcookin\'。”
\"Oh,Ithinkthat\'samistake,\"Katehastenedtointerrupt。\"AllthatIknowun-
derstandhowtoserveexcellentdinners。Ofcourse,theymaynotcookthemthemselves,butIthinktheycouldifitwerenecessary。”
\"Hum!\"HepickedupalongglovethathadfallenfromKate\'slapandfingereditbeforereturningit。
\"Is\'poseyoucook?\"
\"Imakeaspecialtyofsaladsandsor-
bets,\"smiledKate。\"IguessIcouldroastmeatandmakebread;butcircumstanceshavenotyetcompelledmetodoit。ButI\'veatheorythatanAmericanwomancandoanythingsheputshermindto。”
Themanlaughedoutloud,——alaughquiteoutofproportiontothemildgoodhumoroftheremark;butitwasevidentthathecouldnolongerconcealhisdelightatthiscompanionship。
\"Howaboutraisin\'flowers?\"heasked。
\"Areyoustrongonthat?\"
\"I\'veonlytolookataplanttomakeitgrow,\"Katecried,withenthusiasm。
\"Whenmyfriendsareindespairoveraplant,theybringittome,andIjustpetitalittle,anditbrightensup。I\'vethemostwonderfulferneryyoueversaw。It\'sgreen,summerandwinter。Hundredsofpeoplestopandlookupatit,itissogreenandenticing,thereabovethecitystreets。”
\"Whatcity?\"
\"Philadelphia。”
\"Mother\'sjestthatway。Shehasagar-
denofroses。Andthemignonette——\"
Buthebrokeoffsuddenly,andsatoncemorestaringbeforehim。
\"Butnotadamnedthing,\"headded,withpoeticpensiveness,\"wouldgrowinthatgulch。”
\"Whydidyoustaytheresolong?\"askedKate,afteralittlepauseinwhichsheman-
agedtoregainherwaningcourage。
\"Badluck。Youneverseeaplacewithsomanyfalseleads。To-dayyou\'dgetastreakthatlookedbig。To-morrowyou\'dfinditapocket。OnenightI\'dgot\'bedwithmyheartgoin\'likearace-horse。
Nextnightitwouldbeploddin\'alonglikeawindedburro。Don\'tknowwhatmademestickt\'it。Itwashotthere,too!Andcold!Alwaysroastin\'urfreezin\'。It\'dbeendifferentifI\'dhadanyonet\'helpmestandit。Butth\'menwerealwaysfindin\'
fault。Theyblamedmefureverythin\'。I
usedt\'lieawakeatnightan\'hear\'emtalkin\'meover。Itmademelonesome,I
tellyou!Tharwasn\'tnoone!Motherusedt\'write。ButInevertoldherth\'
truth。Sheain\'tasuspicionofwhatI\'vebeena-goin\'through。”
Katesatandlookedathiminsilence。
Hisfacewasseamed,thoughfarfromold。
Hisbodywasawkward,butimpressedherwithasenseofmagnificentstrength。
\"Icouldn\'tasknowomant\'sharemyhardtimes,\"heresumedafteratime。\"I
alwayssaidwhenIgotawoman,itwasgoin\'t\'bet\'makeherhappy。Itwer\'n\'tt\'bet\'askhert\'drudge。”
Therewasanothersilence。Thismanoutofthesolitudeseemedtobeelatedpastexpressionathisnewcompanionship。HelookedwithappreciationatthelittlepointedtoesofKate\'sslippers,astheyglancedfrombelowtheskirtofherdaintyorgandie。Henotedthebandofpearlsonherfinger。Hiseyesrestedlongonthedaisiesatherwaist。
Thewindtosseduplittlecurlsofherwarmbrownhair。Hereyessuffusedwithinter-
est,hertendermouthseemedreadytolenditselftoanyemotion,andwithalshewassosmall,socompact,soexquisite。Themanwipedhisforeheadagain,inmereexuberance。
\"Here\'smycard,\"hesaid,verysolemnly,ashedrewanengravedbitofpasteboardfromitsleathercase。Katebowedandtookit。
\"Mr。PeterRoeder,\"sheread。
\"I\'venocard,\"shesaid。\"MynameisShelly。I\'mhereformyhealth,asItoldyou。”Sheroseatthispoint,andheldoutherhand。\"Imustthankyouoncemoreforyourkindness,\"shesaid。
Hiseyesfastenedonherswithanappealforalessformalword。Therewassomethingalmostterribleintheirsilenteloquence。
\"Ihopewemaymeetagain,\"shesaid。
Mr。PeterRoedermadeaverylowandawkwardbow,andopenedthedoorintothecorridorforher。
ThateveningthemajorannouncedthathewasobligedtogotoSeattle。Thejourneywasnotaninvitingone;Katewaswellplacedwhereshewas,andhedecidedtoleaveher。
Shewaswellenoughnowtotakelongerdrives;andshefoundstrange,lonelycan-
yons,wildandbeautiful,whereyellowwatersburstthroughrockybarrierswithroarandfury,——tortuous,terribleplaces,suchasshehadneverdreamedof。Comingbackfromoneofthesedrives,twodaysafterherconversationonthepiazzawithPeterRoeder,shemethimridingamassiveroan。
HesattheanimalwiththatairofperfectunconsciousnesswhichistheattributeoftheWesternman,andhisattire,eventohisEnglishstock,wasfaultless,——faultilyfaultless。
\"Ihopeyouwon\'tobjecttohavin\'meridebesideyou,\"hesaid,wheelinghishorse。Totellthetruth,Katedidnotobject。Shewasalittledull,andhadbeenconsciousallthemorningofthatpeculiarphysicaldepressionwhichmarksthebegin-
ningofafitofhomesickness。
\"Thewindgitsafinesweep,\"saidRoeder,afterhavingobtainedthepermis-
sionhedesired。\"Nowinthegulchweeitherhadadeadstagnation,orelsethewindwastearin\'upanddownlikeawildbeast。”
Katedidnotreply,andtheywentontogether,facingtheriotouswind。
\"Youcan\'tguesshowqueeritseemst\'
behere,\"hesaid,confidentially。\"Itseemst\'measifIhadcomefromsomeotherplanet。Thardon\'trightlyseemt\'benoplacefurme。Itellyouwhatit\'slike。
It\'sasifI\'dcomedownt\'enlistinth\'
ranks,an\'found\'emfull,——everymanmarchin\'alonginhisplace,an\'noplaceleftfurme。”
Katecouldnotfindareply。
\"Iain\'tafriend,——notafriend!Iain\'tcomplainin\'。Itain\'tth\'faultofanyone——butmyself。Youdon\'knowwhatadurnedfoolI\'vebin。Someway,uptharinth\'gulchIgott\'seemin\'sosortofimpor-
tantt\'myself,andmymakin\'mystakeseemedsuchabigthing,thatIthoughtI
hadonlyt\'comedownheret\'Helenat\'
havefolkswantt\'knowme。Ididn\'tparticularwantth\'moneybecauseitwusmoney。Butouthereyouworkfurit,jestasyouworkfurotherthingsinotherplaces,——jestbecauseeveryoneisworkin\'furit,andit\'sthemanwhogetsth\'mostthatbeats。Itain\'tthattheyareanymoregreedythanmenanywhereelse。Mypile\'saprettygood-sizedone。An\'it\'slikelytobebigger;butnooneelseseemst\'care。
Th\'paperprintedsomepiecesaboutit。
Someofth\'mencameroundt\'seeme;
butIsawtheirgame。IsaidIguessedI\'dlookfurtherfurmyacquaintances。I
ain\'tspokentoalady,——notareallady,youknow,——t\'talkwith,friendlylike,butyou,fur——years。”
Hisfaceflushedinthatsuddenwayagain。
Theywerepassingsomeofthosepreten-
tioushouseswhichriseinthemidstofHelena\'sraggedstreetswithsuchanextra-
neousair,andKateleanedforwardtolookatthem。Thedriver,seeingherinterest,drewupthehorsesforamoment。
\"Fine,fine!\"ejaculatedRoeder。\"Buttheyain\'tgotnogarden。Ahousedon\'tseemanythin\'t\'mewithoutagarden。
DoyouknowwhatIthinkwouldbeth\'
mostbeautifulthinginth\'world?A
babyinarose-garden!Doyouknow,I
ain\'thadababyinmyhands,excep\'NedRamsey\'slittlekid,once,fortenyear!\"
Kate\'sfaceshonewithsympathy。
\"Howdreadful!\"shecried。\"Icouldn\'tlivewithoutababyabout。”
\"Likebabies,doyou?Well,well。
Boys?Likeboys?\"
\"Notabitbetterthangirls,\"saidKate,stoutly。
\"Ilikeboys,\"respondedRoeder,withconviction。\"Mymotherlikedboys。Shehadthreegirls,butshelikedmeadamnedsightthebest。”
Katelaughedoutright。
\"Whydoyouswear?\"shesaid。\"I
neverheardamanswearbefore,——atleast,notonewithwhomIwastalking。That\'soneofyourgulchhabits。Youmustgetoverit。”
Roeder\'sblondfaceturnedscarlet。
\"Youmustexcuseme,\"hepleaded。
\"I\'llcuremyselfofit!Jestgivemeachance。”
ThiswasalittlemorepersonalthanKateapprovedof,andsheraisedherparasoltoconcealherannoyance。Itwasabrilliantlittlefluffofathingwhichlookedasifitweremadeofbutterflies\'wings。Roedertoucheditwithawe。
\"Youhavesechbeautifulthings,\"hesaid。\"Ididn\'tknowwomenworesechnicethings。Nowthatdress——it\'slike——Idon\'tknowwhatit\'slike。”Itwasasimplelittletaffeta,withwarpandwoofofazureandofcream,andgayknotsofribbonaboutit。
\"Wehavetheadvantageofmen,\"shesaid。\"Ioftenthinkoneofthegreatestdrawbackstobeingamanwouldbethesombreclothes。Iliketoweartheprettiestthingsthatcanbefound。”
\"Lace?\"queriedRoeder。\"Doyoulikelace?\"
\"Ishouldsayso!Didyoueverseeawomanwhodidn\'t?\"
\"Hu——um!ThesewomenI\'veknowndon\'tknowlace,——thesewivesofth\'menouthere。They\'reth\'onlykindI\'veseenthislongtime。”
\"Oh,ofcourse,butImean——\"
\"Iknowwhatyoumean。Mymotherhasachestfulloflinenan\'lace。Sheshoweditt\'meth\'dayIleft。\'Peter,\'shesaid,\'somedayyoubringawifehomewithyou,an\'I\'llgiveyouthatlacean\'thatlinen。\'
An\'I\'mgoin\'t\'doit,too,\"hesaidquietly。
\"Ihopeso,\"saidKate,withhereyesmoist。\"Ihopeyouwill,andthatyourmotherwillbeveryhappy。”……
Therewasahopatthehotelthatnight,anditwasalmostamatterofcourtesyforKatetogo。Ladieswereindemand,fortherewerenotverymanyofthematthehotel。Everyonewasexpectedtodohisbesttomakeitasuccess;andKate,notatallaversetoawaltzortwo,dressedherselffortheoccasionwithherhabitualstrivingafterartisticeffect。Shewasoneofthosewomenwhomakeapictureofthemselvesasnaturallyasabirdsings。ShehadanopalnecklacewhichJackhadgivenherbecause,hesaid,shehadasmanymoodsasanopalhadcolors;andsheworethiswithacré;pegown,thetintofthegreenlightsinhernecklace。Aboxofflowerscameforherasshewasdressing;theywerePuritanroses,andPeterRoeder\'scardwasinthemidstofthem。Shewasusedtohavingflowersgivenher。Itwouldhaveseemedremark-
ableifsomeonehadnotsentherabouquetwhenshewasgoingtoaball。
\"Ishalldancebuttwice,\"shesaidtothosewhosoughtherforapartner。
\"Neithermorenorless。”
\"Ain\'tyougoin\'t\'dancewithmeatall?\"Roedermanagedtosaytoherinthemidstofherlaughingaltercationwiththegentlemen。
\"Dancewithyou!\"criedKate。\"Howdomenlearntodancewhentheyareupagulch?\"
\"Ikendance,\"hesaidstubbornly。Hewasmortifiedatherchaffing。
\"Thenyoumayhavethesecondwaltz,\"
shesaid,inquickcontrition。\"Nowyouothergentlemenhavebeendancinganynumberoftimestheselastfifteenyears。
ButMr。Roederisjustbackfromahardcampaign,——acampaignagainstfate。Mysecondwaltzishis。AndIshalldancemybest。”
Ithappenedtobejusttherightsortofspeech。Thewomentriedgood-naturedlytomakeRoeder\'seveningapleasantone。
Theywerefilledwithcompassionforamanwhohadnotenjoyedthesocietyoftheirsexforfifteenyears。Theyfoundmuchamuse-
mentinleadinghimthroughthesquaredances,theformsofwhichwereutterlyunknowntohim。Buthewaltzedwithasortofseriousalertnessthatwasnotsobadasitmighthavebeen。
Katedancedwell。Herslightbodyseemedasfullofthespiritofthewaltzasathrush\'sbodyisofsong。PeterRoedermovedalongwithherinamaze,onlyhalf-
answeringherquestions,hisgrayeyesfullofmystery。
Oncetheystoppedforamoment,andhelookeddownather,aswithflushedfaceshestoodsmilingandwavinghergossamerfan,eachmotionstirringthefrailleavesoftheroseshehadsenther。
\"It\'scur\'ous,\"hesaidsoftly,\"butIkeepthinkin\'aboutthatblackgulch。”
\"Forgetit,\"shesaid。\"Whydoyouthinkofagulchwhen——\"Shestoppedwithasuddenrecollectionthathewasnotusedtopersiflage。Butheanticipatedwhatshewasabouttosay。
\"Whythinkofthegulchwhenyouarehere?\"hesaid。\"Why,becauseitisonlyth\'gulchthatseemsreal。Allthis,——thesepleasant,politepeople,thisbeautifulroom,th\'flowerseverywhere,andyou,andmeasIam,seemasifIwasdreamin\'。Tharain\'tanythinginitallthatislikewhatI
thoughtitwouldbe。”
\"Notasyouthoughtitwouldbe?\"
\"No。Different。Ithoughtitwouldbe——well,Ithoughtth\'peoplewouldnotbequitesohigh-toned。Ihopeyoudon\'tmindthatword。”
\"Notintheleast,\"shesaid。\"It\'samu-
sicalterm。Itappliesverywelltopeople。”
Theytookupthedanceagainandwaltzedbreathlesslytilltheclose。Katewastired;
theexertionhadbeenalittlemorethanshehadbargainedfor。Shesatverystillontheverandaunderthewhiteglareofanelectricball,andletRoederdothetalking。Herthoughts,inspiteoftheentertainmentshewasderivingfromherpresentexperiences,wouldgobacktothebabies。Shesawthemtuckedwellinbed,eachinalittleironcrib,withthemuslincurtainsshieldingtheirrosyfacesfromthelight。ShewonderedifJackwerereadingaloneinthelibraryorwasattheclub,orperhapsatthesummercon-
cert,withtheswelloftheviolinsinhisears。Jackdidsolovemusic。Asshethoughthowdelicatehisperceptionswere,howherespondedtoeverythingmostsubtleinnatureandinart,ofhowlifeitselfwasafineartwithhim,andjoyathingtobecultivated,sheturnedwithasenseofdeepcompassiontothesimplemanbyherside。
Hisroughfacelookedalittlemoreunat-
tractivethanusual。Hiseveningclotheswerealmostgrotesque。Hisfaceworealookofsolitude,ofhunger。
\"Whatwereyousaying?\"shesaid,dreamily。\"Ibegyourpardon。”
\"Iwassayin\'howIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'onthestepsofahotellikethis,andnothavin\'athingt\'do。WhenIusedt\'
comedownhereoutofthegulch,andseemenwhohadhadgooddinners,an\'goodbaths,sittin\'aroundsmokin\',withmoneyt\'goovertheret\'th\'bookstan\'an\'getany-
thin\'they\'dwant,itusedt\'seemt\'meaboutallasinglemancouldwishfur。”
\"Well,you\'vegotitallnow。”
\"ButIdidn\'tanyofth\'timesupposethatwouldsatisfyamanlong。OnlyIwassodarnedtiredIcouldn\'thelpwantin\'t\'
rest。ButI\'mnotsoselfishurs\'narrowastobesatisfiedwithTHAT。No,I\'mnotgoin\'t\'spendm\'pilethatway——quite!\"
Helaughedoutloud,andthensatinsilencewatchingKateasshelaybackwearilyinherchair。
\"I\'vegott\'havethattheregarden,\"hesaid,laughingly。\"Gott\'getthemroses。
An\'I\'llhaveabigbath-house,——plentyofspringsinthiscountry。Youkenhaveabathherethatwon\'tfreezesummerNOR
winter。An\'ababy!I\'vegott\'haveababy。He\'llgowithth\'rosesan\'th\'
bath。”Helaughedagainheartily。
\"It\'saqueerjoke,isn\'tit?\"Roederasked。\"Talkin\'aboutmybaby,an\'I
haven\'tevenawife。”Hisfaceflushedandheturnedhiseyesaway。
\"HaveIshownyouthepicturesofmybabies?\"Kateinquired。\"You\'dlikemyboy,Iknow。Andmygirlisjustlikeme,——inminiature。”
Therewasasilence。Shelookedupafteramoment。Roederappearedtobeexaminingthemonogramonhisringasifhehadneverseenitbefore。
\"Ididn\'tunderstandthatyouweremar-
ried,\"hesaidgently。
\"Didn\'tyou?Idon\'tthinkyouevercalledmebyanynameatall,orIshouldhavenoticedyourmistakeandsetyouright。
Yes,I\'mmarried。Icameoutheretogetstrongforthebabies。”
\"Gotaboyan\'agirl,eh?\"
\"Yes。”
\"Howold\'sth\'boy?\"
\"Five。”
\"An\'th\'girl?\"
\"She\'llsoonbefour。”
\"An\'yerhusband——he\'slivin\'?\"
\"Ishouldsayso!I\'maveryhappywoman,Mr。Roeder。IfonlyIwerestronger!\"
\"Yerlookin\'muchbetter,\"hesaid,gravely,\"thanwhenyoucome。You\'llbeallright。”
Themoonbegantocomeupscarletbeyondtheeasternhills。Thetwowatcheditinsilence。Katehadafeelingofguilt,asifshehadbeenhurtingsomehelplessthing。
\"Iwasinhopes,\"hesaid,suddenly,inavoicethatseemedabruptandshrill,\"thetyou\'dseefitt\'stayhere。”
\"HereinHelena?Oh,no!\"
\"Iwasthinkin\'I\'dofferyouthattwohundredthousanddollars,ifyou\'dstay。”
\"Mr。Roeder!Youdon\'tmean——
surely——\"
\"Why,yes。Whynot?\"Hespokeratherdoggedly。\"I\'llneverseenootherwomanlikeyou。You\'redifferentfromothers。Howgoodyou\'vebeent\'me!\"
\"Good!I\'mafraidI\'vebeenverybad——atleast,verystupid。”
\"Isay,now——yourhusband\'sgoodt\'
you,ain\'the?\"
\"Heisthekindestmanthateverlived。”
\"Oh,well,Ididn\'tknow。”
AratherawkwardpausefollowedwhichwasbrokenbyRoeder。
\"Idon\'tseejestwhatI\'mgoin\'t\'dowiththatthartwohundredthousanddol-
lars,\"hesaid,mournfully。
\"Dowithit?Why,livewithit!Sendsometoyourmother。”
\"Oh,I\'vedonethat。Fivethousanddollars。Itdon\'tseemmuchhere;butit\'llseemalott\'her。I\'dsendhermore,onlyitwould\'vebotheredher。”
\"Thenthereisyourhouse,——thehousewiththebath-room。ButIsupposeyou\'llhaveotherrooms?\"
Peterlaughedalittleinspiteofhimself。
\"IguessIwon\'thaveahouse,\"hesaid。
\"An\'Icouldn\'tmakeagardenalone。”
\"Hireamantohelpyou。”Katewastrembling,butshekepttalkinggayly。Shewasprayingthatnothingveryseriouswouldhappen。Therewasanundercurrentofsom-
brenessintheman\'smannerthatfrightenedher。
\"IguessI\'lljesthavet\'keepondreamin\'ofthatboyplayin\'withth\'roses。”
\"No,no,\"criedKate;\"hewillcometruesomeday!Iknowhe\'llcometrue。”
Petergotupandstoodbyherchair。
\"Youdon\'tknownothin\'aboutit,\"hesaid。\"Youdon\'tknow,an\'youcan\'tknowwhatit\'sbint\'met\'talkwithyou。HereIcomeoutofaplacewherethereain\'tnosoundbutthewaterandthepines。Yearscomean\'go。Stillnosound。Onlythinkin\',thinkin\',thinkin\'!Missin\'allth\'thingsmencarefur!Dreamin\'ofatimewhenIsh\'dstriketh\'pile。ThenI
seedhome,wife,aboy,flowers,everythin\'。
You\'resobeautiful,an\'you\'resogood。
You\'veawayofpickin\'aman\'sheartrightoutofhim。FirsttimeIsetmyeyesonyouIthoughtyouwereth\'nicestthingI
eversee!Andhowlittleyouare!Thathandofyours,——lookatit,——it\'slikealeaf!An\'howeasyyousmile。Upth\'
gulchwedidn\'tsmile;welaughed,butgen\'lybecausesomeonegotinafix。Thenyourvoice!Ah,I\'vethoughtfuryearsthatsomedayImighthearavoicelikethat!Don\'tyougo!Sitstill!I\'mnotblamin\'youfuranythin\';butImaynever,\'slong\'sIlive,findanyonewhowillunderstandthingsth\'wayyouunder-
stand\'em。Here!Itellyouaboutthatgulchan\'youseethatgulch。Youknowhowth\'rainsoundedthar,an\'howth\'
shacklooked,an\'th\'lifeIled,an\'allth\'
thoughtsIhad,an\'th\'longnights,an\'
th\'timeswhen——butnevermind。Iknowyouknowitall。Isawitinyereyes。I
tellyouofmother,an\'yousee\'er。Youknow\'eroldGermanface,an\'\'erproudways,an\'herprideinme,an\'howshewouldthinkIwuzawfullyrich。An\'youseehowshewouldgiveoutthemlinens,allmarkedfurmywife,an\'howIwouldsitan\'watchherdoin\'it,an\'——youseeevery-
thing。Iknowyoudo。Icouldfeelyoudoin\'it。ThenIsaytomyself:\'Hereisth\'onewomaninth\'worldmadefurme。
WhateverIhave,sheshallhave。I\'llspendmylifewaitin\'onher。She\'lltellmeallth\'thingsIoughtt\'know,an\'hevmissedknowin\';she\'llreadt\'me;she\'llbepatientwhenshefindshowdullI\'vegrown。Andthar\'llbeth\'boy——\'\"
Heseizedherhandandwrungit,andwasgone。Katesawhimnomorethatnight。
Thenextmorningthemajorreturned。
Katethrewherarmsaroundhisneckandwept。
\"Iwantthebabies,\"sheexplainedwhenthemajorshowedhisconsternation。\"Don\'tmindmycrying。Yououghttobeusedtoseeingmecrybythistime。Imustgethome,that\'sall。ImustseeJack。”
Sothatnighttheystarted。
AtthedoorofthecarriagestoodPeterRoeder,waiting。
\"I\'mgoingt\'ridedownwithyou,\"hesaid。Themajorlookednonplussed。
Kategotinandthemajorfollowed。
\"Come,\"shesaidtoRoeder。Hesatoppositeandlookedatherasifhewouldfastenherimageonhismind。
\"Youremember,\"hesaidafteratime,\"thatItoldyouIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'ontheverandaofth\'hotelandhavin\'nothin\'
t\'do?\"
\"Yes。”
\"Well,Idon\'tthinkIcarefurit。I\'vehadamonthofit。I\'mgoin\'backupth\'gulch。”
\"No!\"criedKate,instinctivelyreachingoutherhandstowardhim。
\"Whynot?Iguessyoudon\'tknowme。
IknewthatsomewhereI\'dfindafriend。I
foundthatfriend;an\'nowI\'maloneagain。It\'sprettyquietuptharinthegulch;butI\'lltryit。”
\"No,no。GotoEurope;gotoseeyourmother。”
\"Ithoughtaboutthatagooddeal,awhileago。ButIdon\'tseemt\'havenoheartfuritnow。IfeelasifI\'dbesaferinth\'gulch。”
\"Safer?\"