第6章

ThenfollowedtoClarencethreeuneventfulyears。DuringthatintervalhelearntthatJacksonBrant,orDonJuanRobinson——forthetieofkinshipwastheleastfactorintheirrelationstoeachother,andafterthedepartureofFlynnwastacitlyignoredbyboth——wasmoreSpanishthanAmerican。AnearlyresidenceinLowerCalifornia,marriagewitharichMexicanwidow,whosedyingchildlesslefthimsoleheir,andsomestrangerestrainingidiosyncrasyoftemperamenthadquitedenationalizedhim。A

bookishrecluse,somewhatsuperfastidioustowardshisowncountrymen,themoreClarenceknewhimthemoresingularappearedhisacquaintancewithFlynn;butashedidnotexhibitmorecommunicativenessonthispointthanupontheirownkinship,Clarencefinallyconcludedthatitwasduetothedominantcharacterofhisformerfriend,andthoughtnomoreaboutit。HeentereduponthenewlifeatElRefugiowithnodisturbingpast。

Quicklyadaptinghimselftothelazyfreedomofthishaciendaexistence,hespentthemorningsonhorsebackrangingthehillsamonghiscousin\'scattle,andtheafternoonsandeveningsbusiedamonghiscousin\'sbookswithequallylawlessandundisciplinedindependence。Theeasy-goingDonJuan,itistrue,attemptedtomakegoodhisrashpromisetoteachtheboySpanish,andactuallysethimafewtasks;butinafewweeksthequick-wittedClarenceacquiredsuchacolloquialproficiencyfromhiscasualacquaintancewithvaquerosandsmalltradersthathewasgladtoleavethematterinhisyoungkinsman\'shands。Again,byoneofthoseillogicalsequenceswhichmakealifelongreputationdependuponasingletrivialact,Clarence\'ssocialstatuswassettledforeveratElRefugioRanchobyhispicturesquediversionofFlynn\'spartinggift。Thegratefulpeontowhomtheboyhadscornfullytossedthecoinrepeatedtheact,gesture,andspiritofthescenetohiscompanion,andDonJuan\'sunknownandyouthfulrelationwasatoncerecognizedashijodelafamilia,andundeniablyahidalgobornandbred。ButinthemorevividimaginationoffeminineElRefugiotheincidentreacheditshighestpoeticform。\"Itistrue,MotherofGod,\"saidChuchaoftheMill;\"itwasDomingowhohimselfrelatesitasitweretheCreed。WhentheAmericanescorthadarrivedwiththeyounggentleman,thisescort,lookyou,beingnotofthesamequality,heisdepartingagainwithoutawordofpermission。Comestohimatthismomentmylittlehidalgo。\'Youhaveyourselfforgottentotakefrommeyourdemission,\'hesaid。Thisescort,thinkingtomakehispeacewithameremuchacho,givestohimagoldpieceoftwentypesos。ThelittlehidalgohastakenitSO,andwiththewords,\'Ah!youwouldmakeofmeyouralmonertomycousin\'speople,\'hasgivenitatthemomenttoDomingo,andwithagraceandfireadmirable。\"ButitiscertainthatClarence\'ssingularsimplicityandtruthfulness,afacultyofbeingpicturesquelyindolentinawaythatsuggestedadreamyabstractionofmindratherthananyvulgartendencytobodilyeaseandcomfort,andpossiblythefactthathewasagoodhorseman,madehimapopularheroatElRefugio。AttheendofthreeyearsDonJuanfoundthatthisinexperiencedandapparentlyidleboyoffourteenknewmoreofthepracticalrulingoftheranchothanhedidhimself;alsothatthisunletteredyoungrustichaddevourednearlyallthebooksinhislibrarywithboyishrecklessnessofdigestion。

Hefound,too,thatinspiteofhissingularindependenceofaction,Clarencewaspossessedofaninvincibleloyaltyofprinciple,andthat,askingnosentimentalaffection,andindeedyieldingnone,hewas,withoutpresumingonhisrelationship,devotedtohiscousin\'sinterest。Itseemedthatfrombeingaglancingrayofsunshineinthehouse,evasivebutneverobtrusive,hehadbecomeadailynecessityofcomfortandsecuritytohisbenefactor。

Clarencewas,however,astonished,when,onemorning,DonJuan,withthesameembarrassedmannerhehadshownattheirfirstmeeting,suddenlyaskedhim,\"whatbusinessheexpectedtofollow。\"

Itseemedthemoresingular,asthespeaker,likemostabstractedmen,hadhithertoalwaysstudiouslyignoredthefuture,intheirdailyintercourse。Yetthismighthavebeeneitherthehabitofsecurityorthecautionofdoubt。Whateveritwas,itwassomesuddendisturbanceofDonJuan\'sequanimity,asdisconcertingtohimselfasitwastoClarence。Soconsciouswastheboyofthisthat,withoutreplyingtohiscousin\'squestion,butstrivinginvaintorecallsomedelinquencyofhisown,heasked,withhisusualboyishdirectness——

\"Hasanythinghappened?HaveIdoneanythingwrong?\"

\"No,no,\"returnedDonJuanhurriedly。\"But,yousee,it\'stimethatyoushouldthinkofyourfuture——oratleastprepareforit。

Imeanyououghttohavesomemoreregulareducation。Youwillhavetogotoschool。It\'stoobad,\"headdedfretfully,withacertainimpatientforgetfulnessofClarence\'spresence,andasiffollowinghisownthought。\"Justasyouarebecomingofservicetome,andjustifyingyourridiculouspositionhere——andallthisd——dnonsensethat\'sgonebefore——Imean,ofcourse,Clarence,\"heinterruptedhimself,catchingsightoftheboy\'swhiteningcheekanddarkeningeye,\"Imean,youknow——thisridiculousnessofmykeepingyoufromschoolatyourage,andtryingtoteachyoumyself——don\'tyousee。\"

\"Youthinkitis——ridiculous,\"repeatedClarence,withdoggedpersistency。

\"ImeanIamridiculous,\"saidDonJuanhastily。\"There!there!

let\'ssaynomoreaboutit。To-morrowwe\'llrideovertoSanJoseandseetheFatherSecretaryattheJesuits\'Collegeaboutyourenteringatonce。It\'sagoodschool,andyou\'llalwaysbeneartherancho!\"Andsotheinterviewended。

IamafraidthatClarence\'sfirstideawastorunaway。Therearefewexperiencesmorecrushingtoaningenuousnaturethanthesuddenrevelationoftheaspectinwhichitisregardedbyothers。

TheunfortunateClarence,consciousonlyofhisloyaltytohiscousin\'sinterestandwhathebelievedwerethedutiesofhisposition,awoketofindthatposition\"ridiculous。\"Inanafternoon\'sgloomyridethroughthelonelyhills,andlaterinthesleeplesssolitudeofhisroomatnight,heconcludedthathiscousinwasright。Hewouldgotoschool;hewouldstudyhard——sohardthatinalittle,averylittlewhile,hecouldmakealivingforhimself。Heawokecontented。Itwastheblessingofyouththatthisresolveandexecutionseemedasoneandthesamething。

Thenextdayfoundhiminstalledasapupilandboarderinthecollege。DonJuan\'spositionandSpanishpredilectionsnaturallymadehisrelationacceptabletothefaculty;butClarencecouldnothelpperceivingthatFatherSobriente,thePrincipal,regardedhimattimeswithathoughtfulcuriositythatmadehimsuspectthathiscousinhadespeciallybespokenthatattention,andthatheoccasionallyquestionedhimonhisantecedentsinawaythatmadehimdreadarenewaloftheoldquestioningabouthisprogenitor。

Fortherest,hewasapolished,cultivatedman;yet,inthecharacteristic,materialcriticismofyouth,IamafraidthatClarencechieflyidentifiedhimasapriestwithlargehands,whosesoftpalmsseemedtobecushionedwithkindness,andwhoseequallylargefeet,encasedinextraordinaryshapelessshoesofundyedleather,seemedtotreaddownnoiselessly——ratherthantoostentatiouslycrush——theobstaclesthatbesetthepathoftheyoungstudent。Inthecloisteredgalleriesofthecourt-yardClarencesometimesfelthimselfbornedownbytheprotectingweightofthispaternalhand;inthemidnightsilenceofthedormitoryhefanciedhewasoftenconsciousofthesoftbrowsingtreadandsnufflymuffledbreathingofhiselephantine-footedmentor。

Hisrelationswithhisschool-fellowswereatfirstfarfrompleasant。Whethertheysuspectedfavoritism;whethertheyresentedthatoldandunsympatheticmannerwhichsprangfromhishabitsofassociationwithhiselders;orwhethertheyrestedtheirobjectionsonthebroadergroundsofhisbeingastranger,Idonotknow,buttheypresentlypassedfromcruelsneerstophysicalopposition。Itwasthenfoundthatthisgentleandreservedyouthhadretainedcertainobjectionable,rude,direct,rusticqualitiesoffistandfoot,andthat,violatingallrulesanddisdainingthepompandcircumstanceofschool-boywarfare,ofwhichheknewnothing,hesimplythrashedafewofhisequalsoutofhand,withorwithoutceremony,astheoccasionortheinsulthappened。Inthisemergencyoneoftheseniorswasselectedtoteachthisyouthfulsavagehisproperposition。Achallengewasgiven,andacceptedbyClarencewithafeverishalacritythatsurprisedhimselfasmuchashisadversary。Thiswasayouthofeighteen,hissuperiorinsizeandskill。

ThefirstblowbathedClarence\'sfaceinhisownblood。Butthesanguinarychrism,tothealarmofthespectators,effectedaninstantaneousandunhallowedchangeintheboy。Instantlyclosingwithhisadversary,hesprangathisthroatlikeananimal,andlockinghisarmaroundhisneckbegantostranglehim。Blindtotheblowsthatraineduponhim,heeventuallyborehisstaggeringenemybysheeronsetandsurprisetotheearth。Amidstthegeneralalarm,thestrengthofhalfadozenhastilysummonedteacherswasnecessarytounlockhishold。Eventhenhestruggledtorenewtheconflict。Buthisadversaryhaddisappeared,andfromthatdayforwardClarencewasneveragainmolested。

SeatedbeforeFatherSobrienteintheinfirmary,withswollenandbandagedface,andeyesthatstillseemedtoseeeverythinginthemurkylightofhisownblood,Clarencefeltthesoftweightofthefather\'shanduponhisknee。

\"Myson,\"saidthepriestgently,\"youarenotofourreligion,orIshouldclaimasarighttoaskaquestionofyourownheartatthismoment。Butastoagoodfriend,Claro,agoodfriend,\"hecontinued,pattingtheboy\'sknee,\"youwilltellme,oldFatherSobriente,franklyandtruthfully,asisyourhabit,onelittlething。Wereyounotafraid?\"

\"No,\"saidClarencedoggedly。\"I\'lllickhimagainto-morrow。\"

\"Softly,myson!ItwasnotofHIMIspeak,butofsomethingmoreterribleandawful。Wereyounotafraidof——of——\"hepaused,andsuddenlydartinghiscleareyesintotheverydepthsofClarence\'ssoul,added——\"ofYOURSELF?\"

Theboystarted,shuddered,andburstintotears。

\"So,so,\"saidthepriestgently,\"wehavefoundourrealenemy。

Good!Now,bythegraceofGod,mylittlewarrior,weshallfightHIMandconquer。\"

WhetherClarenceprofitedbythislesson,orwhetherthisbriefexhibitionofhisqualitypreventedanyrepetitionofthecause,theepisodewassoonforgotten。Ashisschool-fellowshadneverbeenhisassociatesorconfidants,itmatteredlittletohimwhethertheyfearedorrespectedhim,orwerehypocriticallyobsequious,afterthefashionoftheweaker。Hisstudies,atallevents,profitedbythislackofdistraction。Alreadyhistwoyearsofdesultoryandomnivorousreadinghadgivenhimafacilefamiliaritywithmanythings,whichlefthimutterlyfreeofthetimidity,awkwardness,ornon-interestofabeginner。Hisusuallyreservedmanner,whichhadbeenlackofexpressionratherthanofconviction,haddeceivedhistutors。Theaudacityofamindthathadneverbeendominatedbyothers,andowednoallegiancetoprecedent,madehismerelysuperficialprogresssomethingmarvelous。

Attheendofthefirstyearhewasaphenomenalscholar,whoseemedcapableofanything。Nevertheless,FatherSobrientehadaninterviewwithDonJuan,andasaresultClarencewasslightlykeptbackinhisstudies,alittlemorefreedomfromtheruleswasconcededtohim,andhewasevenencouragedtotakesomediversion。

OfsuchwastheprivilegetovisittheneighboringtownofSantaClaraunrestrictedandunattended。Hehadalwaysbeenliberallyfurnishedwithpocket-money,forwhich,inhiscompanionlessstateandSpartanhabits,hehadasingularandunboyishcontempt。

Nevertheless,healwaysappeareddressedwithscrupulousneatness,andwasratherdistinguished-lookinginhisolderreserveandmelancholyself-reliance。

LoungingoneafternoonalongtheAlameda,aleafyavenuesetoutbytheearlyMissionFathersbetweenthevillageofSanJoseandtheconventofSantaClara,hesawadoublefileofyounggirlsfromtheconventapproaching,ontheirusualpromenade。AviewofthisprocessionbeingthefondestambitionoftheSanJosecollegian,andespeciallyinterdictedandcircumventedbythegoodFathersattendingthecollegeexcursions,Clarencefeltforittheprofoundindifferenceofaboywho,intheintermediatetemperatezoneoffifteenyears,thinksthatheisnolongeryoungandromantic!Hewaspassingthemwithacarelessglance,whenapairofdeepvioleteyescaughthisownunderthebroadshadeofacoquettishlyberibbonedhat,evenasithadoncelookedathimfromthedepthsofacalicosunbonnet。Susy!Hestarted,andwouldhavespoken;

butwithaquicklittlegestureofcautionandameaningglanceatthetwonunswhowalkedattheheadandfootofthefile,sheindicatedhimtofollow。Hedidsoatarespectfuldistance,albeitwondering。AlittlefurtheronSusydroppedherhandkerchief,andwasobligedtodartoutandrunbacktotheendofthefiletorecoverit。Butshegaveanotherswiftglanceofherblueeyesasshesnatcheditupanddemurelyranbacktoherplace。Theprocessionpassedon,butwhenClarencereachedthespotwhereshehadpausedhesawathree-corneredbitofpaperlyinginthegrass。Hewastoodiscreettopickitupwhilethegirlswerestillinsight,butcontinuedon,returningtoitlater。

Itcontainedafewwordsinaschoolgirl\'shand,hastilyscrawledinpencil:\"Cometothesouthwallnearthebigpear-treeatsix。\"

DelightedasClarencefelt,hewasatthesametimeembarrassed。

Hecouldnotunderstandthenecessityofthismysteriousrendezvous。Heknewthatifshewasascholarshewasundercertainconventualrestraints;butwiththeprivilegesofhispositionandfriendshipwithhisteachers,hebelievedthatFatherSobrientewouldeasilyprocurehimaninterviewwiththisoldplay-

fellow,ofwhomhehadoftenspoken,andwhowas,withhimself,thesolesurvivorofhistragicalpast。AndtrustedashewasbySobriente,therewassomethinginthisclandestinethoughinnocentrendezvousthatwentagainsthisloyalty。Nevertheless,hekepttheappointment,andatthestatedtimewasatthesouthwalloftheconvent,overwhichthegnarledboughsofthedistinguishingpear-treehung。Hardbyinthewallwasagratedwicketdoorthatseemedunused。

Wouldsheappearamongtheboughsorontheedgeofthewall?

EitherwouldbeliketheoldSusy。Buttohissurpriseheheardthesoundofthekeyturninginthelock。Thegrateddoorsuddenlyswungonitshinges,andSusyslippedout。Graspinghishand,shesaid,\"Let\'srun,Clarence,\"andbeforehecouldreplyshestartedoffwithhimatarapidpace。Downthelanetheyflew——verymuch,asitseemedtoClarence\'sfancy,astheyhadflownfromtheoldemigrantwagonontheprairie,fouryearsbefore。Heglancedatthefluttering,fairy-likefigurebesidehim。Shehadgrowntallerandmoregraceful;shewasdressedinexquisitetaste,withaminutenessofluxuriousdetailthatbespokethespoiltchild;buttherewasthesameprodigaloutburstofrippling,goldenhairdownherbackandshoulders,violeteyes,capriciouslittlemouth,andthesamedelicatehandsandfeethehadremembered。Hewouldhavepreferredamoredeliberatesurvey,butwithashakeofherheadandanhystericlittlelaughsheonlysaid,\"Run,Clarence,run,\"

andagaindartedforward。Arrivingatthecross-street,theyturnedthecorner,andhaltedbreathlessly。

\"Butyou\'renotrunningawayfromschool,Susy,areyou?\"saidClarenceanxiously。

\"Onlyalittlebit。Justenoughtogetaheadoftheothergirls,\"

shesaid,rearrangingherbrowncurlsandtiltedhat。\"Yousee,Clarence,\"shecondescendedtoexplain,withasuddenassumptionofoldersuperiority,\"mother\'shereatthehotelallthisweek,andI\'mallowedtogohomeeverynight,likeadayscholar。Onlythere\'sthreeorfourothergirlsthatgooutatthesametimewithme,andoneoftheSisters,andto-dayIgotaheadof\'emjusttoseeYOU。\"

\"But\"beganClarence。

\"Oh,it\'sallright;theothergirlsknewit,andhelpedme。Theydon\'tstartoutforhalfanhouryet,andthey\'llsayI\'vejustrunahead,andwhentheyandtheSistergettothehotelI\'llbetherealready——don\'tyousee?\"

\"Yes,\"saidClarencedubiously。

\"Andwe\'llgotoanice-creamsaloonnow,shan\'twe?There\'saniceonenearthehotel。I\'vegotsomemoney,\"sheaddedquickly,asClarencelookedembarrassed。

\"SohaveI,\"saidClarence,withafaintaccessionofcolor。

\"Let\'sgo!\"Shehadrelinquishedhishandtosmoothoutherfrock,andtheywerewalkingsidebysideatamoremoderatepace。\"But,\"

hecontinued,clingingtohisfirstideawithmasculinepersistence,andanxioustoassurehiscompanionofhispower,ofhisposition,\"I\'minthecollege,andFatherSobriente,whoknowsyourladysuperior,isagoodfriendofmineandgivesmeprivileges;and——and——whenheknowsthatyouandIusedtoplaytogether——why,he\'llfixitthatwemayseeeachotherwheneverwewant。\"

\"Oh,yousilly!\"saidSusy。\"WHAT!——whenyou\'re——\"

\"WhenI\'mWHAT?\"

Theyounggirlshotavioletbluerayfromunderherbroadhat。

\"Why——whenwe\'regrownupnow?\"Thenwithacertainprecision,\"Why,they\'reVERYparticularaboutyounggentlemen!Why,Clarence,iftheysuspectedthatyouandIwere——\"Anothervioletrayfromunderthehatcompletedthisunfinishedsentence。

Pleasedandyetconfused,Clarencelookedstraightaheadwithdeepeningcolor。\"Why,\"continuedSusy,\"MaryRogers,thatwaswalkingwithme,thoughtyouwereeversoold——andadistinguishedSpaniard!AndI,\"shesaidabruptly——\"haven\'tIgrown?Tellme,Clarence,\"withheroldappealingimpatience,\"haven\'tIgrown?Dotellme!\"

\"Verymuch,\"saidClarence。

\"Andisn\'tthisfrockpretty——it\'sonlymysecondbest——butI\'veaprettieronewithlacealldowninfront;butisn\'tthisonepretty,Clarence,tellme?\"

Clarencethoughtthefrockanditsfairownerperfection,andsaidso。WhereatSusy,asifsuddenlyawareofthepresenceofpassers-

by,assumedanairofseverepropriety,droppedherhandsbyherside,andwithanaffectedconscientiousnesswalkedon,alittlefurtherfromClarence\'sside,untiltheyreachedtheice-creamsaloon。

\"Getatableneartheback,Clarence,\"shesaid,inaconfidentialwhisper,\"wheretheycan\'tseeus——andstrawberry,youknow,forthelemonandvanillaherearejusthorrid!\"

Theytooktheirseatsinakindofrusticarborintherearoftheshop,whichgavethemtheappearanceoftwoyouthfulbutsomewhatover-dressedandover-consciousshepherds。Therewasanintervalofslightawkwardness,whichSusyendeavoredtodisplace。\"Therehasbeen,\"sheremarked,witheasyconversationallightness,\"quiteanexcitementaboutourFrenchteacherbeingchanged。Thegirlsinourclassthinkitmostdisgraceful。\"

Andthiswasallshecouldsayafteraseparationoffouryears!

Clarencewasdesperate,butasyetidealessandvoiceless。Atlast,withaneffortoverhisspoon,hegaspedafloatingrecollection:\"Doyoustilllikeflapjacks,Susy?\"

\"Oh,yes,\"withalaugh,\"butwedon\'thavethemnow。\"

\"AndMose\"(ablackpointer,whousedtoyelpwhenSusysang),\"doeshestillsingwithyou?\"

\"Oh,HE\'Sbeenlosteversolong,\"saidSusycomposedly;\"butI\'vegotaNewfoundlandandaspanielandablackpony;\"andhere,witharapidinventoryofherotherpersonaleffects,shedriftedintosomedesultorydetailsofthedevotionofheradoptedparents,whomshenowreadilyspokeofas\"papa\"and\"mamma,\"withevidentlynodisturbingrecollectionofthedead。FromwhichitappearedthatthePeytonswereveryrich,and,inadditiontotheirpossessionsinthelowercountry,ownedaranchoinSantaClaraandahouseinSanFrancisco。Likeallchildren,herstrongestimpressionswerethemostrecent。Inthevainhopetoleadherbacktothismaterialyesterday,hesaid——

\"YourememberJimHooker?\"

\"Oh,HEranaway,whenyouleft。Butjustthinkofit!Theotherday,whenpapaandIwentintoabigrestaurantinSanFrancisco,whoshouldbethereWAITINGonthetable——yes,Clarence,arealwaiter——butJimHooker!Papaspoketohim;butofcourse,\"withaslightelevationofherprettychin,\"Icouldn\'t,youknow;fancy——

awaiter!\"

ThestoryofhowJimHookerhadpersonatedhimstoppedshortuponClarence\'slips。Hecouldnotbringhimselfnowtoaddthatrevelationtothecontemptofhissmallcompanion,which,inspiteofitsnaivete,somewhatgratedonhissensibilities。

\"Clarence,\"shesaid,suddenlyturningtowardshimmysteriously,andindicatingtheshopmanandhisassistants,\"Ireallybelievethesepeoplesuspectus。\"

\"Ofwhat?\"saidthepracticalClarence。

\"Don\'tbesilly!Don\'tyouseehowtheyarestaring?\"

Clarencewasreallyunabletodetecttheleastcuriosityonthepartoftheshopman,orthatanyoneexhibitedtheslightestconcerninhimorhiscompanion。Buthefeltareturnoftheembarrassedpleasurehewasconsciousofamomentbefore。

\"Thenyou\'relivingwithyourfather?\"saidSusy,changingthesubject。

\"YoumeanmyCOUSIN,\"saidClarence,smiling。\"YouknowmyfatherdiedlongbeforeIeverknewyou。\"

\"Yes;that\'swhatYOUusedtosay,Clarence,butpapasaysitisn\'tso。\"Butseeingtheboy\'swonderingeyesfixedonherwithatroubledexpression,sheaddedquickly,\"Oh,then,heISyourcousin!\"

\"Well,IthinkIoughttoknow,\"saidClarence,withasmile,thatwas,however,farfromcomfortable,andaquickreturnofhisoldunpleasantrecollectionsofthePeytons。\"Why,Iwasbroughttohimbyoneofhisfriends。\"AndClarencegavearapidboyishsummaryofhisjourneyfromSacramento,andFlynn\'sdiscoveryoftheletteraddressedtoSilsbee。ButbeforehehadconcludedhewasconsciousthatSusywasbynomeansinterestedinthesedetails,norintheleastaffectedbythepassingallusiontoherdeadfatherandhisrelationtoClarence\'smisadventures。Withherroundedchininherhand,shewasslowlyexamininghisface,withacertainmischievousyetdemureabstraction。\"Itellyouwhat,Clarence,\"shesaid,whenhehadfinished,\"yououghttomakeyourcousingetyouoneofthosesombreros,andanicegold-braidedserape。They\'djustsuityou。Andthen——thenyoucouldrideupanddowntheAlamedawhenwearegoingby。\"

\"ButI\'mcomingtoseeyouat——atyourhouse,andattheconvent,\"

hesaideagerly。\"FatherSobrienteandmycousinwillfixitallright。\"

ButSusyshookherhead,withsuperiorwisdom。\"No;theymustneverknowoursecret!——neitherpapanormamma,especiallymamma。

Andtheymustn\'tknowthatwe\'vemetagain——AFTERTHESEYEARS!\"ItisimpossibletodescribethedeepsignificancewhichSusy\'sblueeyesgavetothisexpression。Afterapauseshewenton——

\"No!Wemustnevermeetagain,Clarence,unlessMaryRogershelps。

Sheismybest,myONLIESTfriend,andolderthanI;havinghadtroubleherself,andbeingexpresslyforbiddentoseehimagain。

YoucanspeaktoheraboutSuzette——that\'smynamenow;IwasrechristenedSuzetteAlexandraPeytonbymamma。Andnow,Clarence,\"droppinghervoiceandglancingshylyaroundthesaloon,\"youmaykissmejustonceundermyhat,forgood-by。\"Sheadroitlyslantedherbroad-brimmedhattowardsthefrontoftheshop,andinitsshadowadvancedherfreshyoungcheektoClarence。

Coloringandlaughing,theboypressedhislipstoittwice。ThenSusyarose,withthefaintestaffectationofasigh,shookoutherskirt,drewonhergloveswiththegreatestgravity,andsaying,\"Don\'tfollowmefurtherthanthedoor——they\'recomingnow,\"walkedwithsuperciliousdignitypastthepreoccupiedproprietorandwaiterstotheentrance。Hereshesaid,withmarkedcivility,\"Good-afternoon,Mr。Brant,\"andtrippedawaytowardsthehotel。

Clarencelingeredforamomenttolookafterthelitheandelegantlittlefigure,withitsshiningundulationsofhairthatfelloverthebackandshouldersofherwhitefrocklikeagoldenmantle,andthenturnedawayintheoppositedirection。

Hewalkedhomeinastate,asitseemedtohim,ofabsurdperplexity。ThereweremanyreasonswhyhisencounterwithSusyshouldhavebeenofunmixedpleasure。Shehadrememberedhimofherownfreewill,and,inspiteofthechangeinherfortune,hadmadethefirstadvances。Herdoubtsaboutherfutureinterviewshadaffectedhimbutlittle;stillless,Ifear,didhethinkoftheotherchangesinhercharacteranddisposition,forhewasofthatagewhentheyaddedonlyapiquancyandfascinationtoher——asofonewho,inspiteofherweaknessofnature,wasstilldevotedtohim!Buthewaspainfullyconsciousthatthismeetinghadrevivedinhimallthefears,vagueuneasiness,andsenseofwrongthathadhauntedhisfirstboyhood,andwhichhethoughthehadburiedatElRefugiofouryearsago。Susy\'sallusiontohisfatherandthereiterationofPeyton\'sskepticismawokeinhisolderintellectthefirstfeelingofsuspicionthatwascompatiblewithhisopennature。Wasthisrecurringreticenceandmysteryduetoanyactofhisfather\'s?But,lookingbackuponitinafter-years,heconcludedthattheincidentofthatdaywasapremonitionratherthanarecollection。

CHAPTERXI

WhenhereachedthecollegetheAngelushadlongsincerung。InthecorridorhemetoneoftheFathers,who,insteadofquestioninghim,returnedhissalutationwithagravegentlenessthatstruckhim。HehadturnedintoFatherSobriente\'squietstudywiththeintentionofreportinghimself,whenhewasdisturbedtofindhiminconsultationwiththreeorfourofthefaculty,whoseemedtobethrownintosomeslightconfusionbyhisentrance。ClarencewasabouttoretirehurriedlywhenFatherSobriente,breakingupthecouncilwithasignificantglanceattheothers,calledhimback。

Confusedandembarrassed,withadreadofsomethingimpending,theboytriedtoavertitbyahurriedaccountofhismeetingwithSusy,andhishopesofFatherSobriente\'scounselandassistance。

TakinguponhimselftheideaofsuggestingSusy\'sescapade,heconfessedthefault。Theoldmangazedintohisfrankeyeswithathoughtful,half-compassionatesmile。\"Iwasjustthinkingofgivingyouaholidaywith——withDonJuanRobinson。\"Theunusualsubstitutionofthisfinaltitleforthehabitual\"yourcousin\"

struckClarenceuneasily。\"Butwewillspeakofthatlater。Sitdown,myson;Iamnotbusy。Weshalltalkalittle。FatherPedrosaysyouaregettingonfluentlywithyourtranslations。Thatisexcellent,myson,excellent。\"

Clarence\'sfacebeamedwithreliefandpleasure。Hisvaguefearsbegantodissipate。

\"Andyoutranslateevenfromdictation!Good!Wehaveanhourtospare,andyoushallgivetomeaspecimenofyourskill。Eh?

Good!IwillwalkhereanddictatetoyouinmypoorEnglish,andyoushallsitthereandrenderittomeinyourgoodSpanish。Eh?

Soweshallamuseandinstructourselves。\"

Clarencesmiled。ThesesporadicmomentsofinstructionandadmonitionwerenotunusualtothegoodFather。HecheerfullyseatedhimselfatthePadre\'stablebeforeablanksheetofpaper,withapeninhishand。FatherSobrientepacedtheapartment,withhisusualheavybutnoiselesstread。Tohissurprise,thegoodpriest,afteranexhaustivepinchofsnuff,blewhisnose,andbegan,inhismostlugubriousstyleofpulpitexhortation:——

\"Ithasbeenwrittenthatthesinsofthefathershallbevisiteduponthechildren,andtheunthinkingandworldlyhavesoughtrefugefromthislawbydeclaringitharshandcruel。Miserableandblind!Fordowenotseethatthewickedman,whointheprideofhispowerandvaingloryiswillingtoriskpunishmenttoHIMSELF——andbelievesittobecourage——mustpausebeforetheawfulmandatethatcondemnsanequalsufferingtothoseheloves,whichhecannotwithholdorsufferfor?Inthespectacleoftheseinnocentsstrugglingagainstdisgrace,perhapsdisease,poverty,ordesertion,whatavailshishaughty,all-defyingspirit?Letusimagine,Clarence。\"

\"Sir?\"saidtheliteralClarence,pausinginhisexercise。

\"Imean,\"continuedthepriest,withaslightcough,\"letthethoughtfulmanpictureafather:adesperate,self-willedman,whoscornedthelawsofGodandsociety——keepingonlyfaithwithamiserablesubterfugehecalled\'honor,\'andrelyingonlyonhisowncourageandhisknowledgeofhumanweakness。Imaginehimcruelandbloody——agamblerbyprofession,anoutlawamongmen,anoutcastfromtheChurch;voluntarilyabandoningfriendsandfamily,——thewifeheshouldhavecherished,thesonheshouldhaverearedandeducated——forthegratificationofhisdeadlypassions。Yetimaginethatmansuddenlyconfrontedwiththethoughtofthatheritageofshameanddisgustwhichhehadbroughtuponhisinnocentoffspring——towhomhecannotgiveevenhisowndesperaterecklessnesstosustainitsvicarioussuffering。Whatmustbethefeelingsofaparent——\"

\"FatherSobriente,\"saidClarencesoftly。

Totheboy\'ssurprise,scarcelyhadhespokenwhenthesoftprotectingpalmofthepriestwasalreadyuponhisshoulder,andthesnuffybutkindlyupperlip,tremblingwithsomestrangeemotion,closebesidehischeek。

\"Whatisit,Clarence?\"hesaidhurriedly。\"Speak,myson,withoutfear!Youwouldask——\"

\"Ionlywantedtoknowif\'padre\'takesamasculineverbhere,\"

repliedClarencenaively。

FatherSobrienteblewhisnoseviolently。\"Truly——thoughusedforeithergender,bythecontextmasculine,\"herespondedgravely。

\"Ah,\"headded,leaningoverClarence,andscanninghisworkhastily,\"Good,verygood!Andnow,possibly,\"hecontinued,passinghishandlikeadampspongeoverhisheatedbrow,\"weshallreverseourexercise。IshalldelivertoyouinSpanishwhatyoushallrenderbackinEnglish,eh?And——letusconsider——weshallmakesomethingmorefamiliarandnarrative,eh?\"

TothisClarence,somewhatboredbythesepresentsolemnabstractions,assentedgladly,andtookuphispen。FatherSobriente,resuminghisnoiselesspacing,began:

\"OnthefertileplainsofGuadalajaralivedacertaincaballero,possessedofflocksandlands,andawifeandson。But,beingalsopossessedofafieryandrovingnature,hedidnotvaluethemashedidperilousadventure,featsofarms,andsanguinaryencounters。

Tothismaybeaddedriotousexcesses,gamblinganddrunkenness,whichintimedecreasedhispatrimony,evenashisrebelliousandquarrelsomespirithadalienatedhisfamilyandneighbors。Hiswife,bornedownbyshameandsorrow,diedwhilehersonwasstillaninfant。Inafitofequalremorseandrecklessnessthecaballeromarriedagainwithintheyear。Butthenewwifewasofatemperandbearingasbitterasherconsort。Violentquarrelsensuedbetweenthem,endinginthehusbandabandoninghiswifeandson,andleavingSt。Louis——IshouldsayGuadalajara——forever。

Joiningsomeadventurersinaforeignland,underanassumedname,hepursuedhisrecklesscourse,until,byoneortwoactsofoutlawry,hemadehisreturntocivilizationimpossible。Thedesertedwifeandstep-motherofhischildcoldlyacceptedthesituation,forbiddinghisnametobespokenagaininherpresence,announcedthathewasdead,andkepttheknowledgeofhisexistencefromhisownson,whomsheplacedunderthechargeofhersister。

Butthesistermanagedtosecretlycommunicatewiththeoutlawedfather,and,underapretext,arrangedbetweenthem,ofsendingtheboytoanotherrelation,actuallydispatchedtheinnocentchildtohisunworthyparent。Perhapsstirredbyremorse,theinfamousman——\"

\"Stop!\"saidClarencesuddenly。

Hehadthrowndownhispen,andwasstandingerectandrigidbeforetheFather。

\"Youaretryingtotellmesomething,FatherSobriente,\"hesaid,withaneffort。\"Speakout,Iimploreyou。Icanstandanythingbutthismystery。Iamnolongerachild。Ihavearighttoknowall。Thisthatyouaretellingmeisnofable——Iseeitinyourface,FatherSobriente;itisthestoryof——of——\"

\"Yourfather,Clarence!\"saidthepriest,inatremblingvoice。

Theboydrewback,withawhiteface。\"Myfather!\"herepeated。

\"Living,ordead?\"

\"Living,whenyoufirstleftyourhome,\"saidtheoldmanhurriedly,seizingClarence\'shand,\"foritwashewhointhenameofyourcousinsentforyou。Living——yes,whileyouwerehere,foritwashewhoforthepastthreeyearsstoodintheshadowofthisassumedcousin,DonJuan,andatlastsentyoutothisschool。

Living,Clarence,yes;butlivingunderanameandreputationthatwouldhaveblastedyou!AndnowDEAD——deadinMexico,shotasaninsurgentandinastilldesperatecareer!MayGodhavemercyonhissoul!\"

\"Dead!\"repeatedClarence,trembling,\"onlynow?\"

\"Thenewsoftheinsurrectionandhisfatecameonlyanhoursince,\"continuedthePadrequickly;\"hiscomplicitywithitandhisidentitywereknownonlytoDonJuan。Hewouldhavesparedyouanyknowledgeofthetruth,evenasthisdeadmanwould;butIandmybrothersthoughtotherwise。Ihavebrokenittoyoubadly,myson,butforgiveme?\"

AnhystericallaughbrokefromClarenceandthepriestrecoiledbeforehim。\"ForgiveYOU!Whatwasthismantome?\"hesaid,withboyishvehemence。\"HeneverLOVEDme!Hedesertedme;hemademylifealie。Heneversoughtme,camenearme,orstretchedahandtomethatIcouldtake?\"

\"Hush!hush!\"saidthepriest,withahorrifiedlook,layinghishugehandupontheboy\'sshoulderandbearinghimdowntohisseat。

\"Youknownotwhatyousay。Think——think,Clarence!Wastherenoneofallthosewhohavebefriendedyou——whowerekindtoyouinyourwanderings——towhomyourheartturnedunconsciously?Think,Clarence!Youyourselfhavespokentomeofsuchaone。Letyourheartspeakagain,forhissake——forthesakeofthedead。\"

Agentlerlightsuffusedtheboy\'seyes,andhestarted。Catchingconvulsivelyathiscompanion\'ssleeve,hesaidinaneager,boyishwhisper,\"Therewasone,awicked,desperateman,whomtheyallfeared——Flynn,whobroughtmefromthemines。Yes,Ithoughtthathewasmycousin\'sloyalfriend——morethanalltherest;andItoldhimeverything——all,thatInevertoldthemanIthoughtmycousin,oranyone,orevenyou;andIthink,Ithink,Father,Ilikedhimbestofall。Ithoughtsinceitwaswrong,\"hecontinued,withatremblingsmile,\"forIwasfoolishlyfondevenofthewaytheothersfearedhim,hethatIfearednot,andwhowassokindtome。

Yethe,too,leftmewithoutaword,andwhenIwouldhavefollowedhim——\"Buttheboybrokedown,andburiedhisfaceinhishands。

\"No,no,\"saidFatherSobriente,witheagerpersistence,\"thatwashisfoolishpridetospareyoutheknowledgeofyourkinshipwithonesofeared,andpartoftheblindandmistakenpenancehehadlaiduponhimself。Forevenatthatmomentofyourboyishindignation,heneverwassofondofyouasthen。Yes,mypoorboy,thisman,towhomGodledyourwanderingfeetatDeadman\'sGulch;themanwhobroughtyouhere,andbysomesecrethold——I

knownotwhat——onDonJuan\'spast,persuadedhimtoassumetobeyourrelation;thismanFlynn,thisJacksonBrantthegambler,thisHamiltonBranttheoutlaw——WASYOURFATHER!Ah,yes!Weepon,myson;eachtearofloveandforgivenessfromtheehathvicariouspowertowashawayhissin。\"

WithasinglesweepofhisprotectinghandhedrewClarencetowardshisbreast,untiltheboyslowlysankuponhiskneesathisfeet。

Then,liftinghiseyestowardstheceiling,hesaidsoftlyinanoldertongue,\"AndTHOU,too,unhappyandperturbedspirit,rest!\"……

ItwasnearlydawnwhenthegoodPadrewipedthelasttearsfromClarence\'sclearereyes。\"Andnow,myson,\"hesaid,withagentlesmile,asherosetohisfeet,\"letusnotforgettheliving。

Althoughyourstep-motherhas,throughherownact,nolegalclaimuponyou,farbeitfrommetoindicateyourattitudetowardsher。

EnoughthatYOUareindependent。\"Heturned,and,openingadrawerinhissecretaire,tookoutabank-book,andplaceditinthehandsofthewonderingboy。

\"ItwasHISwish,Clarence,thatevenafterhisdeathyoushouldneverhavetoproveyourkinshiptoclaimyourrights。TakingadvantageoftheboyishdeposityouhadleftwithMr。Cardenatthebank,withhisconnivanceandinyournameheaddedtoit,monthbymonthandyearbyyear;Mr。Cardencheerfullyacceptingthetrustandmanagementofthefund。Theseedthussownhasproducedathousandfold,Clarence,beyondallexpectations。Youarenotonlyfree,myson,butofyourselfandinwhatevernameyouchoose——yourownmaster。\"

\"Ishallkeepmyfather\'sname,\"saidtheboysimply。

\"Amen!\"saidFatherSobriente。

HereclosesthechronicleofClarenceBrant\'sboyhood。Howhesustainedhisnameandindependenceinafteryears,andwho,ofthosealreadymentionedinthesepages,helpedhimtomakeormarit,maybeamatterforfuturerecord。