第6章

ConfidentasIamthatyouwillnottriflewiththisappeal,myheartsinksandmyhandtremblesatthebarethoughtofsuchapossibility。Thinkofmeatthishour,inastrangeplace,labouringunderablacknessofdistressthatnofancycanexaggerate,andyetwellawarethat,ifyouwillbutpunctuallyserveme,mytroubleswillrollawaylikeastorythatistold。Serveme,mydearCanyon,andsaveYourfriend,H。J。

PS-Ihadalreadysealedthisupwhenafreshterrorstruckuponmysoul。Itispossiblethatthepostofficemayfailme,andthisletternotcomeintoyourhandsuntilto-morrowmorning。Inthatcase,dearCanyon,domyerrandwhenitshallbemostconvenientforyouinthecourseoftheday;andoncemoreexpectmymessengeratmidnight。Itmaythenalreadybetoolate;andifthatnightpasseswithoutevent,youwillknowthatyouhaveseenthelastofHenryJekyll。Uponthereadingofthisletter,Imadesuremycolleaguewasinsane;buttillthatwasprovedbeyondthepossibilityofdoubt,Ifeltboundtodoasherequested。ThelessIunderstoodofthisfarrago,thelessIwasinapositiontojudgeofitsimportance;andanappealsowordedcouldnotbesetasidewithoutagraveresponsibility。Iroseaccordinglyfromtable,gotintoahansom,anddrovestraighttoJekyll\'shouse。Thebutlerwasawaitingmyarrival;hehadreceivedbythesamepostasminearegisteredletterofinstruction,andhadsentatonceforalocksmithandacarpenter。

Thetradesmencamewhilewewereyetspeaking;andwemovedinabodytooldDrDenman\'ssurgicaltheatre,fromwhich(asyouaredoubtlessaware)

Jekyll\'sprivatecabinetismostconvenientlyentered。Thedoorwasverystrong,thelockexcellent;thecarpenteravowedhewouldhavegreattrouble,andhavetodomuchdamage,ifforceweretobeused;andthelocksmithwasneardespair。Butthislastwasahandyfellow,andaftertwohours\'

work,thedoorstoodopen。ThepressmarkedEwasunlocked;andItookoutthedrawer,haditfilledupwithstrawandtiedinasheet,andreturnedwithittoCavendishSquare。

HereIproceededtoexamineitscontents。Thepowderswereneatlyenoughmadeup,butnotwiththenicetyofthedispensingchemist;sothatitwasplaintheywereofJekyll\'sprivatemanufacture;andwhenIopenedoneofthewrappers,Ifoundwhatseemedtomeasimplecrystallinesaltofawhitecolour。Thephial,towhichInextturnedmyattention,mighthavebeenabouthalf-fullofablood-redliquor,whichwashighlypungenttothesenseofsmell,andseemedtometocontainphosphorusandsomevolatileether。AttheotheringredientsIcouldmakenoguess。Thebookwasanordinaryversionbook,andcontainedlittlebutaseriesofdates。

Thesecoveredaperiodofmanyyears,butIobservedthattheentriesceasednearlyayearagoandquiteabruptly。Hereandthereabriefremarkwasappendedtoadate,usuallynomorethanasingleword:`double\'occurringperhapssixtimesinatotalofseveralhundredentries;andonceveryearlyinthelistandfollowedbyseveralmarksofexclamation,`totalfailure!!!\'Allthis,thoughitwhettedmycuriosity,toldmelittlethatwasdefinite。Herewereaphialofsometincture,apaperofsomesalt,andtherecordofaseriesofexperimentsthathadled(liketoomanyofJekyll\'sinvestigations)tonoendofpracticalusefulness。Howcouldthepresenceofthesearticlesinmyhouseaffecteitherthehonour,thesanity,orthelifeofmyflightycolleague?Ifhismessengercouldgotooneplace,whycouldhenotgotoanother?Andevengrantingsomeimpediment,whywasthisgentlemantobereceivedbymeinsecret?ThemoreIreflected,themoreconvincedIgrewthatIwasdealingwithacaseofcerebraldisease;

andthoughIdismissedmyservantstobed,Iloadedanoldrevolver,thatImightbefoundinsomepostureofself-defence。

Twelveo\'clockhadscarcerungoutoverLondon,eretheknockersoundedverygentlyonthedoor。Iwentmyselfatthesummons,andfoundasmallmancrouchingagainstthepillarsoftheportico。

`AreyoucomefromDrJekyll?\'Iasked。

Hetoldme`yes\'byaconstrainedgesture;andwhenIhadbiddenhimenter,hedidnotobeymewithoutasearchingbackwardglanceintothedarknessofthesquare。Therewasapolicemannotfaroff,advancingwithhisbull\'seyeopen;andatthesight,Ithoughtmyvisitorstartedandmadegreaterhaste。

Theseparticularsstruckme,Iconfess,disagreeably;andasIfollowedhimintothebrightlightoftheconsulting-room,Ikeptmyhandreadyonmyweapon。Here,atlast,Ihadachanceofclearlyseeinghim。Ihadneverseteyesonhimbefore,somuchwascertain。Hewassmall,asIhavesaid;Iwasstruckbesideswiththeshockingexpressionofhisface,withhisremarkablecombinationofgreatmuscularactivityandgreatapparentdebilityofconstitution,and-lastbutnotleast-withtheodd,subjectivedisturbancecausedbyhisneighbourhood。Thisboresomeresemblancetoincipientrigor,andwasaccompaniedbyamarkedsinkingofthepulse。

Atthetime,Isetitdowntosomeidiosyncratic,personaldistaste,andmerelywonderedattheacutenessofthesymptoms;butIhavesincehadreasontobelievethecausetoliemuchdeeperinthenatureofman,andtoturnonsomenoblerhingethantheprincipleofhatred。

Thisperson(whohadthus,fromthefirstmomentofhisentrance,struckinmewhatIcanonlydescribeasadisgustfulcuriosity)wasdressedinafashionthatwouldhavemadeanordinarypersonlaughable;hisclothes,thatistosay,althoughtheywereofrichandsoberfabric,wereenormouslytoolargeforhimineverymeasurement-thetrousershangingonhislegsandrolleduptokeepthemfromtheground,thewaistofthecoatbelowhishaunches,andthecollarsprawlingwideuponhisshoulders。Strangetorelate,thisludicrousaccoutrementwasfarfrommovingmetolaughter。

Rather,astherewassomethingabnormalandmisbegottenintheveryessenceofthecreaturethatnowfacedme-somethingseizing,surprisingandrevolting-thisfreshdisparityseemedbuttofitinwithandtoreinforceit;sothattomyinterestintheman\'snatureandcharactertherewasaddedacuriosityastohisorigin,hislife,hisfortuneandstatusintheworld。

Theseobservations,thoughtheyhavetakensogreataspacetobesetdownin,wereyettheworkofafewseconds。Myvisitorwas,indeed,onfirewithsombreexcitement。

`Haveyougotit?\'hecried。`Haveyougotit?\'Andsolivelywashisimpatiencethatheevenlaidhishanduponmyarmandsoughttoshakeme。

Iputhimback,consciousathistouchofacertainicypangalongmyblood。`Come,sir,\'saidI。`YouforgetthatIhavenotyetthepleasureofyouracquaintance。Beseated,ifyouplease。\'AndIshowedhimanexample,andsatdownmyselfinmycustomaryseatandwithasfairanimitationofmyordinarymannertoapatient,asthelatenessofthehour,thenatureofmypreoccupations,andthehorrorIhadofmyvisitorwouldsuffermetomuster。

`Ibegyourpardon,DrCanyon,\'hereplied,civillyenough。`Whatyousayisverywellfounded;andmyimpatiencehasshownitsheelstomypoliteness。

Icomehereattheinstanceofyourcolleague,DrHenryJekyll,onapieceofbusinessofsomemoment;andIunderstood……\'hepausedandputhishandtohisthroat,andIcouldsee,inspiteofhiscollectedmanner,thathewaswrestlingagainsttheapproachesofthehysteria-`Iunderstood,adrawer……\'

ButhereItookpityonmyvisitor\'ssuspense,andsomeperhapsonmyowngrowingcuriosity。

`Thereitis,sir,\'saidI,pointingtothedrawerwhereitlayonthefloorbehindatable,andstillcoveredwiththesheet。

Hesprangtoit,andthenpaused,andlaidhishanduponhisheart;

Icouldhearhisteethgratewiththeconvulsiveactionofhisjaws;andhisfacewassoghastlytoseethatIgrewalarmedbothforhislifeandreason。

`Composeyourself,\'saidI。

Heturnedadreadfulsmiletome,and,asifwiththedecisionofdespair,pluckedawaythesheet。Atsightofthecontents,heutteredoneloudsobofsuchimmensereliefthatIsatpetrified。Andthenextmoment,inavoicethatwasalreadyfairlywellundercontrol,`Haveyouagraduatedglass?\'heasked。

Irosefrommyplacewithsomethingofaneffort,andgavehimwhatheasked。

Hethankedmewithasmilingnod,measuredoutafewminimsoftheredtinctureandaddedoneofthepowders。Themixture,whichwasatfirstofareddishhue,began,inproportionasthecrystalsmelted,tobrightenincolour,toeffervesceaudibly,andtothrowoffsmallfumesofvapour。

Suddenly,andatthesamemoment,theebullitionceased,andthecompoundchangedtoadarkpurple,whichfadedagainmoreslowlytoawaterygreen。

Myvisitor,whohadwatchedthesemetamorphoseswithakeeneye,smiled,setdowntheglassuponthetable,andthenturnedandlookeduponmewithanairofscrutiny。

`Andnow,\'saidhe,`tosettlewhatremains。Willyoubewise?willyoubeguided?willyousuffermetotakethisglassinmyhand,andtogoforthfromyourhousewithoutfurtherparley?orhasthegreedofcuriositytoomuchcommandofyou?Thinkbeforeyouanswer,foritshallbedoneasyoudecide。Asyoudecide,youshallbeleftasyouwerebefore,andneitherrichernorwiser,unlessthesenseofservicerenderedtoamaninmortaldistressmaybecountedasakindofrichesofthesoul。Or,ifyoushallsoprefertochoose,anewprovinceofknowledgeandnewavenuestofameandpowershallbelaidopentoyou,here,inthisroom,upontheinstant;andyoursightshallbeblastedbyaprodigytostaggertheunbeliefofSatan。\'

`Sir,\'saidI,affectingacoolnessthatIwasfarfromtrulypossessing,`youspeakenigmas,andyouwillperhapsnotwonderthatIhearyouwithnoverystrongimpressionofbelief。ButIhavegonetoofarinthewayofinexplicableservicestopausebeforeIseetheend。\'

`Itiswell,\'repliedmyvisitor。`Lanyon,yourememberyourvows:whatfollowsisunderthesealofourprofession。Andnow,youwhohavesolongbeenboundtothemostnarrowandmaterialviews,youwhohavedeniedthevirtueoftranscendentalmedicine,youwhohavederidedyoursuperiors-behold!\'

Heputtheglasstohislips,anddrankatonegulp。Acryfollowed;

hereeled,staggered,clutchedatthetableandheldon,staringwithinfectedeyes,gaspingwithopenmouth;andasIlooked,therecame,Ithought,achange-heseemedtoswell-hisfacebecamesuddenlyblack,andthefeaturesseemedtomeltandalter-andthenextmomentIhadsprungtomyfeetandleapedbackagainstthewall,myarmraisedtoshieldmefromthatprodigy,mymindsubmergedinterror。

`OGod!\'Iscreamed,and`OGod!\'againandagain;fortherebeforemyeyes-paleandshaken,andhalffainting,andgropingbeforehimwithhishands,likeamanrestoredfromdeath-therestoodHenryJekyll!

WhathetoldmeinthenexthourIcannotbringmymindtosetonpaper。

IsawwhatIsaw,IheardwhatIheard,andmysoulsickenedatit;andyet,nowwhenthatsighthasfadedfrommyeyes,IaskmyselfifIbelieveit,andIcannotanswer。Mylifeisshakentoitsroots;sleephasleftme;thedeadliestterrorsitsbymeatallhoursofthedayandnight;

Ifeelthatmydaysarenumbered,andthatImustdie;andyetIshalldieincredulous。Asforthemoralturpitudethatmanunveiledtome,evenwithtearsofpenitence,Icannot,eveninmemory,dwellonitwithoutastartofhorror。Iwillsaybutonething,Utterson,andthat(ifyoucanbringyourmindtocreditit)willbemorethanenough。Thecreaturewhocreptintomyhousethatnightwas,onJekyll\'sownconfession,knownbythenameofHydeandhuntedforineverycornerofthelandasthemurdererofCarew。

HASTIELANYON

HENRYJEKYLL\'SFULL

STATEMENTOFTHECASE

Iwasbornintheyear18——toalargefortune,endowedbesideswithexcellentparts,inclinedbynaturetoindustry,fondoftherespectofthewiseandgoodamongmyfellow-men,andthus,asmighthavebeensupposed,witheveryguaranteeofanhonourableanddistinguishedfuture。Andindeed,theworstofmyfaultswasacertainimpatientgaietyofdisposition,suchashasmadethehappinessofmany,butsuchasIfoundithardtoreconcilewithmyimperiousdesiretocarrymyheadhigh,andwearamorethancommonlygravecountenancebeforethepublic。HenceitcameaboutthatIconcealedmypleasures;andthatwhenIreachedyearsofreflection,andbegantolookroundmeandtakestockofmyprogressandpositionintheworld,Istoodalreadycommittedtoaprofoundduplicityoflife。ManyamanwouldhaveevenblazonedsuchirregularitiesasIwasguiltyof;butfromthehighviewsthatIhadsetbeforeme,Iregardedandhidthemwithanalmostmorbidsenseofshame。Itwasthusrathertheexactingnatureofmyaspirations,thananyparticulardegradationinmyfaults,thatmademewhatIwasand,withevenadeepertrenchthaninthemajorityofmen,severedinmethoseprovincesofgoodandillwhichdivideandcompoundman\'sdualnature。

Inthiscase,Iwasdriventoreflectdeeplyandinveteratelyonthathardlawoflifewhichliesattherootofreligion,andisoneofthemostplentifulspringsofdistress。Thoughsoprofoundadouble-dealer,Iwasinnosenseahypocrite;bothsidesofmewereindeadearnest;IwasnomoremyselfwhenIlaidasiderestraintandplungedinshame,thanwhenIlaboured,intheeyeofday,atthefurtheranceofknowledgeorthereliefofsorrowandsuffering。Anditchancedthatthedirectionofmyscientificstudies,whichledwhollytowardsthemysticandthetranscendental,reactedandshedastronglightonthisconsciousnessoftheperennialwaramongmymembers。Witheveryday,andfrombothsidesofmyintelligence,themoralandtheintellectual,IthusdrewsteadilynearertothattruthbywhosepartialdiscoveryIhavebeendoomedtosuchadreadfulshipwreck:

thatmanisnottrulyone,buttrulytwo。Isaytwo,becausethestateofmyownknowledgedoesnotpassbeyondthatpoint。Otherswillfollow,otherswilloutstripmeonthesamelines;andIhazardtheguessthatmanwillbeultimatelyknownforamerepolityofmultifarious,incongruousandindependentdenizens。I,formypart,fromthenatureofmylife,advancedinfalliblyinonedirectionandinonedirectiononly。Itwasonthemoralside,andinmyownperson,thatIlearnedtorecognizethethoroughandprimitivedualityofman;Isawthat,ofthetwonaturesthatcontendedinthefieldofmyconsciousness,evenifIcouldrightlybesaidtobeeither,itwasonlybecauseIwasradicallyboth;andfromanearlydate,evenbeforethecourseofmyscientificdiscoverieshadbeguntosuggestthemostnakedpossibilityofsuchamiracle,Ihadlearnedtodwellwithpleasure,asabeloveddaydream,onthethoughtoftheseparationoftheseelements。Ifeach,Itoldmyself,couldbutbehousedinseparateidentities,lifewouldberelievedofallthatwasunbearable;theunjustmightgohisway,deliveredfromtheaspirationsandremorseofhismoreuprighttwin;andthejustcouldwalksteadfastlyandsecurelyonhisupwardpath,doingthegoodthingsinwhichhefoundhispleasure,andnolongerexposedtodisgraceandpenitencebythehandsofthisextraneousevil。Itwasthecurseofmankindthattheseincongruousfaggotswerethusboundtogether-thatintheagonizedwombofconsciousnessthesepolartwinsshouldbecontinuouslystruggling。How,then,weretheydissociated?

Iwassofarinmyreflectionswhen,asIhavesaid,asidelightbegantoshineuponthesubjectfromthelaboratorytable。Ibegantoperceivemoredeeplythanithaseveryetbeenstated,thetremblingimmateriality,themist-liketransience,ofthisseeminglysosolidbodyinwhichwewalkattiredCertainagentsIfoundtohavethepowertoshakeandtopluckbackthatfleshlyvestment,evenasawindmighttossthecurtainsofapavilion。Fortwogoodreasons,Iwillnotenterdeeplyintothisscientificbranchofmyconfession。First,becauseIhavebeenmadetolearnthatthedoomandburthenofourlifeisboundforeveronman\'sshoulders;

andwhentheattemptismadetocastitoff,itbutreturnsuponuswithmoreunfamiliarandmoreawfulpressure。Second,because,asmynarrativewillmake,alas!tooevident,mydiscoverieswereincomplete。Enough,then,thatInotonlyrecognizedmynaturalbodyforthemereauraandeffulgenceofcertainofthepowersthatmadeupmyspirit,butmanagedtocompoundadrugbywhichthesepowersshouldbedethronedfromtheirsupremacy,andasecondformandcountenancesubstituted,nonethelessnaturaltomebecausetheyweretheexpression,andborethestamp,oflowerelementsinmysoul。

IhesitatedlongbeforeIputthistheorytothetestofpractice。I

knewwellthatIriskeddeath;foranydrugthatsopotentlycontrolledandshooktheveryfortressofidentity,mightbytheleastscrupleofanoverdoseorattheleastinopportunityinthemomentofexhibition,utterlyblotoutthatimmaterialtabernaclewhichIlookedtoittochange。

Butthetemptationofadiscoverysosingularandprofoundatlastovercamethesuggestionsofalarm。Ihadlongsincepreparedmytincture;Ipurchasedatonce,fromafirmofwholesalechemists,alargequantityofaparticularsalt,whichIknew,frommyexperiments,tobethelastingredientrequired;

and,lateoneaccursednight,Icompoundedtheelements,watchedthemboilandsmoketogetherintheglass,andwhentheebullitionhadsubsided,withastrongglowofcourage,drankoffthepotion。

Themostrackingpangssucceeded:agrindinginthebones,deadlynausea,andahorrorofthespiritthatcannotbeexceededatthehourofbirthordeath。Thentheseagoniesbeganswiftlytosubside,andIcametomyselfasifoutofagreatsickness。Therewassomethingstrangeinmysensations,somethingindescribablynewand,fromitsverynovelty,incrediblysweet。

Ifeltyounger,lighter,happierinbody;withinIwasconsciousofaheadyrecklessness,acurrentofdisorderedsensualimagesrunninglikeamillraceinmyfancy,asolutionofthebondsofobligation,anunknownbutnotaninnocentfreedomofthesoul。Iknewmyself,atthefirstbreathofthisnewlife,tobemorewicked,tenfoldmorewicked,soldaslavetomyoriginalevil;andthethought,inthatmoment,bracedanddelightedmelikewine。Istretchedoutmyhands,exultinginthefreshnessof`thesesensations;andintheact,IwassuddenlyawarethatIhadlostinstature。

Therewasnomirror,atthatdate,inmyroom;thatwhichstandsbesidemeasIwritewasbroughttherelateron,andfortheverypurposeofthosetransformations。Thenight,however,wasfargoneintothemorning-themorning,blackasitwas,wasnearlyripefortheconceptionoftheday-theinmatesofmyhousewerelockedinthemostrigoroushoursofslumber;

andIdetermined,flushedasIwaswithhopeandtriumph,toventureinmynewshapeasfarastomybedroom。Icrossedtheyard,whereintheconstellationslookeddownuponme,Icouldhavethought,withwonder,thefirstcreatureofthatsortthattheirunsleepingvigilancehadyetdisclosedtothem;

Istolethroughthecorridors,astrangerinmyownhouse;andcomingtomyroom,IsawforthefirsttimetheappearanceofEdwardHyde。

Imustherespeakbytheoryalone,sayingnotthatwhichIknow,butthatwhichIsupposetobemostprobable。Theevilsideofmynature,towhichIhadnowtransferredthestampingefficacy,waslessrobustandlessdevelopedthanthegoodwhichIhadjustdeposed。Again,inthecourseofmylife,whichhadbeen,afterall,nine-tenthsalifeofeffort,virtueandcontrol,ithadbeenmuchlessexercisedandmuchlessexhausted。Andhence,asIthink,itcameaboutthatEdwardHydewassomuchsmaller,slighter,andyoungerthanHenryJekyll。Evenasgoodshoneuponthecountenanceoftheone,evilwaswrittenbroadlyandplainlyonthefaceoftheother。

Evilbesides(whichImuststillbelievetobethelethalsideofman)

hadleftonthatbodyanimprintofdeformityanddecay。AndyetwhenI

lookeduponthatuglyidolintheglass,Iwasconsciousofnorepugnance,ratherofaleapofwelcome。This,too,wasmyself。Itseemednaturalandhuman。Inmyeyesitborealivelierimageofthespirit,itseemedmoreexpressandsingle,thantheimperfectanddividedcountenanceIhadbeenhithertoaccustomedtocallmine。AndinsofarIwasdoubtlessright。

IhaveobservedthatwhenIworethesemblanceofEdwardHyde,nonecouldcomeneartomeatfirstwithoutavisiblemisgivingoftheflesh。This,asItakeit,wasbecauseallhumanbeings,aswemeetthem,arecommingledoutofgoodandevil:andEdwardHyde,alone,intheranksofmankind,waspureevil。

Ilingeredbutamomentatthemirror:thesecondandconclusiveexperimenthadyettobeattempted;ityetremainedtobeseenifIhadlostmyidentitybeyondredemptionandmustfleebeforedaylightfromahousethatwasnolongermine;andhurryingbacktomycabinet,Ioncemorepreparedanddrankthecup,oncemoresufferedthepangsofdissolution,andcametomyselfoncemorewiththecharacter,thestature,andthefaceofHenryJekyll。

ThatnightIhadcometothefatalcrossroads。HadIapproachedmydiscoveryinamorenoblespirit,hadIriskedtheexperimentwhileundertheempireofgenerousorpiousaspirations,allmusthavebeenotherwise,andfromtheseagoniesofdeathandbirthIhadcomeforthanangelinsteadofafiend。Thedrughadnodiscriminatingaction;itwasneitherdiabolicalnordivine;itbutshookthedoorsoftheprisonhouseofmydisposition;

and,likethecaptivesofPhilippi,thatwhichstoodwithinranforth。

Atthattimemyvirtueslumbered;myevil,keptawakebyambition,wasalertandswifttoseizetheoccasion;andthethingthatwasprojectedwasEdwardHyde。Hence,althoughIhadnowtwocharactersaswellastwoappearances,onewaswhollyevil,andtheotherwasstilltheoldHenryJekyll,thatincongruouscompoundofwhosereformationandimprovementIhadalreadylearnedtodespair。Themovementwasthuswhollytowardtheworse。