第5章

XLII。

Forachancetomakeyourlittlemuch,Togainaloverandloseafriend,Venturethetreeandamyriadsuch,Whennothingyoumarbuttheyearcanmend:

Butalastleaf——feartotouch!

XLIII。

YetshoulditunfastenitselfandfallEddyingdowntillitfindyourfaceAtsomeslightwind——bestchanceofall!

Beyourhearthenceforthitsdwelling-placeYoutrembledtoforestall!

XLIV。

Worthhowwell,thosedarkgreyeyes,Thathairsodarkanddear,howworthThatamanshouldstriveandagonize,AndtasteaveriesthellonearthForthehopeofsuchaprize!

XIIV。

Youmighthaveturnedandtriedaman,Sethimaspacetowearyandwear,Andprovewhichsuitedmoreyourplan,Hisbestofhopeorhisworstdespair,Yetendashebegan。

XLVI。

Butyousparedmethis,liketheheartyouare,Andfilledmyemptyheartataword。

Iftwolivesjoin,thereisoftascar,Theyareoneandone,withashadowythird;

Onenearoneistoofar。

XLVII。

Amomentafter,andhandsunseenWerehangingthenightaroundusfastButweknewthatabarwasbrokenbetweenLifeandlife:weweremixedatlastInspiteofthemortalscreen。

XLVIII。

Theforestshaddoneit;theretheystood;

Wecaughtforamomentthepowersatplay:

Theyhadmingledusso,foronceandgood,Theirworkwasdone——wemightgoorstay,Theyrelapsedtotheirancientmood。

XLIX。

Howtheworldismadeforeachofus!

HowallweperceiveandknowinitTendstosomemoment\'sproductthus,Whenasouldeclaresitself——towit,Byitsfruit,thethingitdoesL。

Behatethatfruitorlovethatfruit,Itforwardsthegeneraldeedofman,AndeachoftheManyhelpstorecruitThelifeoftheracebyageneralplan;

Eachlivinghisown,toboot。

LI。

Iamnamedandknownbythatmoment\'sfeat;

Theretookmystationanddegree;

Sogrewmyownsmalllifecomplete,Asnatureobtainedherbestofme——

Oneborntoloveyou,sweet!

LII。

Andtowatchyousinkbythefire-sidenowBackagain,asyoumutelysitMusingbyfire-light,thatgreatbrowAndthespirit-smallhandproppingit,Yonder,myheartknowshow!

LIII。

So,earthhasgainedbyonemanthemore,Andthegainofearthmustbeheaven\'sgaintoo;

Andthewholeiswellworththinkingo\'erWhenautumncomes:whichImeantodoOneday,asIsaidbefore。

ANYWIFETOANYHUSBAND。

I。

Mylove,thisisthebitterest,thatthou——

Whoartalltruth,andwhodostlovemenowAsthineeyessay,asthyvoicebreakstosay——

Shouldstlovesotruly,andcouldstlovemestillAwholelonglifethrough,hadbutloveitswill,Woulddeaththatleadsmefromtheebrookdelay。

II。

Ihavebuttobebythee,andthyhandWillneverletminego,norheartwithstandThebeatingofmyhearttoreachitsplace。

WhenshallIlookfortheeandfeeltheegone?

Whencryfortheoldcomfortandfindnone?

Never,Iknow!Thysoulisinthyface。

III。

Oh,Ishouldfade——\'tiswilledso!MightIsave,GladlyIwould,whateverbeautygaveJoytothysense,forthatwasprecioustoo。

Itisnottobegranted。ButthesoulWhencethelovecomes,allravageleavesthatwhole;

Vainlythefleshfades;soulmakesallthingsnew。

IV。

ItwouldnotbebecausemyeyegrewdimThoucouldstnotfindthelovethere,thankstoHimWhoneverisdishonouredinthesparkHegaveusfromhisfireoffires,andbadeRememberwhenceitsprang,norbeafraidWhilethatburnson,thoughalltherestgrowdark。

V。

So,howthouwouldstbeperfect,whiteandcleanOutsideasinside,soulandsoul\'sdemesneAlike,thisbodygiventoshowitby!

Oh,three-partsthroughtheworstoflife\'sabyss,Whatplauditsfromthenextworldafterthis,Couldstthourepeatastrokeandgainthesky!

VI。

AndisitnotthebitterertothinkThat,disengageourhandsandthouwiltsinkAlthoughthylovewasloveinverydeed?

Iknowthatnature!Passafestiveday,Thoudostnotthrowitsrelic-flowerawayNorbiditsmusic\'sloiteringechospeed。

VII。

Thoulet\'stthestranger\'sgloveliewhereitfell;

Ifoldthingsremainoldthingsalliswell,ForthouartgratefulasbecomesmanbestAndhadstthouonlyheardmeplayonetune,Orviewedmefromawindow,notsosoonWiththeewouldsuchthingsfadeaswiththerest。

VIII。

Iseemtosee!Wemeetandpart;\'tisbrief;

ThebookIopenedkeepsafoldedleaf,TheverychairIsaton,breakstherankThatisaportraitofmeonthewall——

Threelines,myfacecomesatsoslightacall:

Andforallthis,onelittlehourtothank!

IX。

Butnow,becausethehourthroughyearswasfixed,Becauseourinmostbeingsmetandmixed,Becausethouoncehastlovedme——wiltthoudareSaytothysoulandWhomaylistbeside,``Thereforesheisimmortallymybride;

``Chancecannotchangemylove,nortimeimpair。

X。

``So,whatifintheduskoflifethat\'sleft,``I,atiredtravellerofmysunbereft,Lookfrommypathwhen,mimickingthesame,``Thefire-flyglimpsespastme,comeandgone?

``——Wherewasittillthesunset?whereanon``Itwillbeatthesunrise!What\'stoblame?\'\'

XI。

Isitsohelpfultothee?CanstthoutakeThemimicup,nor,forthetruething\'ssake,Putgentlybysucheffortsatabeam?

Istheremainderofthewaysolong,Thouneed\'stthelittlesolace,thouthestrongWatchoutthywatch,letweakonesdozeanddream!

XII——

Ah,butthefresherfaces!``Isittrue,\'\'

Thou\'ltask,``someeyesarebeautifulandnew?

``Somehair,——howcanonechoosebutgraspsuchwealth?

``Andifamanwouldpresshislipstolips``Freshasthewildinghedge-rose-cupthereslips``Thedew-dropoutof,mustitbebystealth?

XIII。

``ItcannotchangethelovestillkeptforHer,``MorethanifsuchapictureIprefer``Passingadaywith,toaroom\'sbareside:

Thepaintedformtakesnothingshepossessed,Yet,whiletheTitian\'sVenusliesatrest,Amanlooks。Oncemore,whatistheretochide?\'\'

XIV。

SomustIsee,fromwhereIsitandwatch,Myownselfsellmyself,myhandattachItswarranttotheverytheftsfromme——

Thysinglenessofsoulthatmademeproud,ThypurityofheartIlovedaloud,Thyman\'s-truthIwasboldtobidGodsee!

XV。

Loveso,then,ifthouwilt!GiveallthoucanstAwaytothenewfaces——disentranced,(Sayitandthinkit)obduratenomore:

Re-issuelooksandwordsfromtheoldmint,Passthemafresh,nomatterwhosetheprintImageandsuperscriptiononcetheyboreXVI。

Re-cointhyselfandgiveitthemtospend,——

Itallcomestothesamethingattheend,Sinceminethouwast,mineartandmineshaltbe,Faithfulorfaithless,scalingupthesumOrlavishofmytreasure,thoumustcomeBacktotheheart\'splacehereIkeepforthee!

XVII。

Only,whyshoulditbewithstainatall?

WhymustI,\'twixttheleavesofcoronal,Putanykissofpardononthybrow?

Whyneedtheotherwomenknowsomuch,Andtalktogether,``Suchthelookandsuch``Thesmileheusedtolovewith,thenasnow!\'\'

XVIII。

MightIdielastandshowthee!ShouldIfindSuchhardshipinthefewyearsleftbehind,Iffreetotakeandlightmylamp,andgoIntothytomb,andshutthedoorandsit,SeeingthyfaceonthosefoursidesofitThebetterthattheyaresoblank,Iknow!

XIX。

Why,timewaswhatIwanted,toturno\'erWithinmymindeachlook,getmoreandmoreByhearteachword,toomuchtolearnatfirst;

Andjointheeallthefitterforthepause\'Neaththelowdoorway\'slintel。ThatwerecauseForlingering,thoughthoucalledst,ifIdurst!

XX。

AndyetthouartthenoblerofustwoWhatdareIdreamof,thatthoucanstnotdo,Outstrippingmytensmallstepswithonestride?

I\'llsaythen,here\'satrialandatask——

Isittobear?——ifeasy,I\'llnotask:

Thoughlovefail,Icantrustoninthypride。

XXI。

Pride?——whenthoseeyesforestallthelifebehindThedeathIhavetogothrough!——whenIfind,NowthatIwantthyhelpmost,allofthee!

WhatdidIfear?ThyloveshallholdmefastUntilthelittleminute\'ssleepispastAndIwakesaved——Andyetitwillnotbe!

TWOINTHECAMPAGNA。

I。

Iwonderdoyoufeelto-dayAsIhavefeltsince,handinhand,Wesatdownonthegrass,tostrayInspiritbetterthroughtheland,ThismornofRomeandMay?

II。

Forme,Itouchedathought,Iknow,Hastantalizedmemanytimes,(LiketurnsofthreadthespidersthrowMockingacrossourpath)forrhymesTocatchatandletgo。

III。

Helpmetoholdit!FirstitleftTheyellowingfennel,<*1>runtoseedThere,branchingfromthebrickwork\'scleft,Someoldtomb\'sruin:yonderweedTookupthefloatingwet,IV。

WhereonesmallorangecupamassedFivebeetles,——blindandgreentheygropeAmongthehoney-meal:andlast,EverywhereonthegrassyslopeItracedit。Holditfast!

V。

ThechampaignwithitsendlessfleeceOffeatherygrasseseverywhere!

Silenceandpassion,joyandpeace,Aneverlastingwashofair——

Rome\'sghostsinceherdecease。

VI。

Suchlifehere,throughsuchlengthsofhours,Suchmiraclesperformedinplay,Suchprimalnakedformsofflowers,SuchlettingnaturehaveherwayWhileheavenlooksfromitstowers!

VII。

Howsayyou?Letus,Omydove,Letusbeunashamedofsoul,Asearthliesbaretoheavenabove!

HowisitunderourcontrolToloveornottolove?

VIII。

Iwouldthatyouwerealltome,Youthatarejustsomuch,nomore。

Noryoursnormine,norslavenorfree!

Wheredoesthefaultlie?WhatthecoreO\'thewound,sincewoundmustbe?

IX。

IwouldIcouldadoptyourwill,Seewithyoureyes,andsetmyheartBeatingbyyours,anddrinkmyfillAtyoursoul\'ssprings,——yourpartmypartInlife,forgoodandill。

X。

No。Iyearnupward,touchyouclose,Thenstandaway。Ikissyourcheek,Catchyoursoul\'swarmth,——IplucktheroseAndloveitmorethantonguecanspeak——

Thenthegoodminutegoes。

XI。

AlreadyhowamIsofarOutofthatminute?MustIgoStilllikethethistle-ball,nobar,Onward,wheneverlightwindsblow,Fixedbynofriendlystar?

XII。

JustwhenIseemedabouttolearn!

Whereisthethreadnow?Offagain!

Theoldtrick!OnlyIdiscern——

Infinitepassion,andthepainOffiniteheartsthatyearn。

1Herbwithyellowflowersandseedssupposedtobemedicinal。

MISCONCEPTIONS。

I。

ThisisaspraytheBirdclungto,Makingitblossomwithpleasure,Erethehightree-topshesprangto,Fitforhernestandhertreasure。

Oh,whatahopebeyondmeasureWasthepoorspray\'s,whichtheflyingfeethungto,——

Sotobesingledout,builtin,andsungto!

II。

ThisisahearttheQueenleanton,Thrilledinaminuteerratic,Erethetruebosomshebenton,Meetforlove\'sregaldalmatic。<*1>

Oh,whatafancyecstaticWasthepoorheart\'s,erethewandererwenton——

Lovetobesavedforit,profferedto,spenton!

1Avestmentusedbyecclesiastics,andformerlybysenatorsandpersonsofhighrank。

ASERENADEATTHEVILLA。

I。

ThatwasI,youheardlastnight,Whenthererosenomoonatall,Nor,topiercethestrainedandtightTentofheaven,aplanetsmall:

Lifewasdeadandsowaslight。

II。

Notatwinklefromthefly,Notaglimmerfromtheworm;

Whenthecricketsstoppedtheircry,Whentheowlsforboreaterm,Youheardmusic;thatwasI。

III。

Earthturnedinhersleepwithpain,Sultrilysuspiredforproof:

Inatheavenandoutagain,Lightning!——whereitbroketheroof,Bloodlike,somefewdropsofrain。

IV。

Whattheycouldmywordsexpressed,Omylove,myall,myone!

Singinghelpedtheversesbest,Andwhensinging\'sbestwasdone,TomyluteIlefttherest。

V。

Soworenight;theEastwasgray,Whitethebroad-facedhemlock-flowers:

Therewouldbeanotherday;

EreitsfirstofheavyhoursFoundme,Ihadpassedaway。

VI。

Whatbecameofallthehopes,Wordsandsongandluteaswell?

Say,thisstruckyou——``Whenlifegropes``Feeblyforthepathwherefell``Lightlastontheeveningslopes,VII。

``Onefriendinthatpathshallbe,``Tosecuremystepfromwrong;

``Onetocountnightdayforme,``Patientthroughthewatcheslong,``Servingmostwithnonetosee。\'\'

VIII。

Neversay——assomethingbodes——

``So,theworsthasyetaworse!

``Whenlifehalts\'neathdoubleloads,``Betterthetaskmaster\'scurse``Thansuchmusicontheroads!

IX。

``Whennomoonsucceedsthesun,``Norcanpiercethemidnight\'stent``Anystar,thesmallestone,``Whilesomedrops,wherelightningrent,``Showthefinalstormbegun——

X。

``Whenthefire-flyhidesitsspot,``Whenthegarden-voicesfail``Inthedarknessthickandhot,——

``Shallanothervoiceavail,``Thatshapebewherethesearenot?

XI。

``Hassomeplaguealongerlease,``Profferingitshelpuncouth?

``Can\'toneevendieinpeace?

``Asoneshutsone\'seyesonyouth,``Isthatfacethelastonesees?\'\'

XII。

Ohhowdarkyourvillawas,Windowsfastandobdurate!

HowthegardengrudgedmegrassWhereIstood——theirongateGrounditsteethtoletmepass!

ONEWAYOFLOVE。

I。

AllJuneIboundtheroseinsheaves。

Now,rosebyrose,IstriptheleavesAndstrewthemwherePaulinemaypass。

Shewillnotturnaside?Alas!

Letthemlie。Supposetheydie?

Thechancewastheymighttakehereye。

II。

HowmanyamonthIstrovetosuitThesestubbornfingerstothelute!

To-dayIventureallIknow。

Shewillnothearmymusic?So!

Breakthestring;foldmusic\'swing:

SupposePaulinehadbademesing!

III。

MywholelifelongIlearnedtolove。

ThishourmyutmostartIproveAndspeakmypassion——heavenorhell?

Shewillnotgivemeheaven?\'Tiswell!

Losewhomay——Istillcansay,Thosewhowinheaven,blestarethey!

ANOTHERWAYOFLOVE。

I。

JunewasnotoverThoughpastthefall,AndthebestofherrosesHadyettoblow,WhenamanIknow(Butshallnotdiscover,Sinceearsaredull,Andtimediscloses)

Turnedhimandsaidwithaman\'strueair,Halfsighingasmileinayawn,as\'twere,——

``IfItireofyourJune,willshegreatlycare?\'\'

II。

Well,dear,in-doorswithyou!

True!serenedeadnessTriesaman\'stemper。

What\'sintheblossomJunewearsonherbosom?

Canitclearscoreswithyou?

Sweetnessandredness。

_Eademsemper!_

Go,letmecareforitgreatlyorslightly!

IfJunemendherbowernow,yourhandleftunsightlyBypluckingtheroses,——myJunewilldorightly。

III。

Andafter,forpastime,IfJuneberefulgentWithflowersincompleteness,Allpetals,noprickles,DeliciousastricklesOfwinepouredatmass-time,——

AndchooseOneindulgentTorednessandsweetness:

Orif,withexperienceofmanandofspider,JuneusemyJune-lightning,thestronginsect-ridder,Andstopthefreshfilm-work,——why,Junewillconsider。

APRETTYWOMAN。

I。

Thatfawn-skin-dappledhairofhers,AndtheblueeyeDearanddewy,Andthatinfantinefreshairofhers!

II。

Tothinkmencannottakeyou,Sweet,Andenfoldyou,Ay,andholdyou,Andsokeepyouwhattheymakeyou,Sweet!

III

Youlikeusforaglance,youknow——

Foraword\'ssakeOrasword\'ssake,All\'sthesame,whate\'erthechance,youknow。

IV。

Andinturnwemakeyouours,wesay——

Youandyouthtoo,Eyesandmouthtoo,Allthefacecomposedofflowers,wesay。

V。

All\'sourown,tomakethemostof,Sweet——

Singandsayfor,Watchandprayfor,Keepasecretorgoboastof,Sweet!

VI。

Butforloving,why,youwouldnot,Sweet,Thoughweprayedyou,Paidyou,brayedyouinamortar——foryoucouldnot,Sweet!

VII。

So,weleavethesweetfacefondlythere:

BeitsbeautyItssoleduty!

Letallhopeofgracebeyond,liethere!

VIII。

Andwhilethefaceliesquietthere,WhoshallwonderThatIponderAconclusion?Iwilltryitthere。

IX。

As,——whymustone,fortheloveforegone,Scoutmereliking?

Thunder-strikingEarth,——theheaven,welookedabovefor,gone!

X。

Why,withbeauty,needstheremoneybe,Lovewithliking?

Crushthefly-kingInhisgauze,becausenohoney-bee?

XI。

Maynotlikingbesosimple-sweet,Iflovegrewthere\'TwouldundothereAllthatbreaksthecheektodimplessweet?

XII。

Isthecreaturetooimperfect,WouldyoumenditAndsoendit?

Sincenotalladditionperfectsaye!

XIII。

Orisitofitskind,perhaps,Justperfection——

Whence,rejectionOfagracenottoitsmind,perhaps?

XIV。

Shallweburnup,treadthatfaceatonceIntotinder,AndsohinderSparksfromkindlingalltheplaceatonce?

XV。

Orelsekissawayone\'ssoulonher?

Yourlove-fancies!——

AsickmanseesTruer,whenhishoteyesrollonher!

XVI。

Thusthecraftsmanthinkstogracetherose,——

Plucksamould-flowerForhisgoldflower,Usesfinethingsthateffacetherose:

XVII。

Rosyrubiesmakeitscupmorerose,PreciousmetalsApethepetals,——

Last,someoldkinglocksitup,morose!

XVIII。

Thenhowgracearose?Iknowaway!

Leaveit,rather。

Mustyougather?

Smell,kiss,wearit——atlast,throwaway!

RESPECTABILITY。

I。

Dear,hadtheworldinitscapriceDeignedtoproclaim``Iknowyouboth,``Haverecognizedyourplightedtroth,Amsponsorforyou:liveinpeace!\'\'——

HowmanypreciousmonthsandyearsOfyouthhadpassed,thatspeedsofast,Beforewefounditoutatlast,Theworld,andwhatitfears?

II。

HowmuchofpricelesslifewerespentWithmenthateveryvirtuedecks,Andwomenmodelsoftheirsex,Society\'strueornament,——

Erewedaredwander,nightslikethis,Thro\'windandrain,andwatchtheSeine,AndfeeltheBoulevartbreakagainTowarmthandlightandbliss?

III。

Iknow!theworldproscribesnotlove;

AllowsmyfingertocaressYourlips\'contouranddowniness,Provideditsupplyaglove。

Theworld\'sgoodword!——theInstitute!

GuizotreceivesMontalembert!

Eh?Downthecourtthreelampionsflare:

Putforwardyourbestfoot!

LOVEINALIFE。

I。

Roomafterroom,IhuntthehousethroughWeinhabittogether。

Heart,fearnothing,for,heart,thoushaltfindher——

Nexttime,herself!——notthetroublebehindherLeftinthecurtain,thecouch\'sperfume!

Asshebrushedit,thecornice-wreathblossomedanew:

Yonlooking-glassgleanedatthewaveofherfeather。

II。

Yetthedaywears,Anddoorsucceedsdoor;

Itrythefreshfortune——

Rangethewidehousefromthewingtothecentre。

Stillthesamechance!ShegoesoutasIenter。

Spendmywholedayinthequest,——whocares?

But\'tistwilight,yousee,——withsuchsuitestoexplore,Suchclosetstosearch,suchalcovestoimportune!

LIFEINALOVE。

Escapeme?

Never——

Beloved!

WhileIamI,andyouareyou,Solongastheworldcontainsusboth,MethelovingandyouthelothWhiletheoneeludes,musttheotherpursue。

Mylifeisafaultatlast,Ifear:

Itseemstoomuchlikeafate,indeed!

ThoughIdomybestIshallscarcesucceed。

ButwhatifIfailofmypurposehere?

Itisbuttokeepthenervesatstrain,Todryone\'seyesandlaughatafall,And,baffled,getupandbeginagain,——

Sothechacetakesupone\'slife\'that\'sall。

While,lookbutoncefromyourfarthestboundAtmesodeepinthedustanddark,NosoonertheoldhopegoestogroundThananewone,straighttotheself-samemark,Ishapeme——

EverRemoved!

INTHREEDAYS

I。

So,IshallseeherinthreedaysAndjustonenight,butnightsareshort,Thentwolonghours,andthatismorn。

SeehowIcome,unchanged,unworn!

Feel,wheremylifebrokeofffromthine,Howfreshthesplinterskeepandfine,——

Onlyatouchandwecombine!

II。

Toolong,thistimeofyear,thedays!

Butnights,atleastthenightsareshort。

Asnightshowswheregeronemoonis,Ahand\'s-breadthofpurelightandbliss,Solife\'snightgivesmyladybirthAndmyeyesholdher!WhatisworthTherestofheaven,therestofearth?

III。

Oloadedcurls,releaseyourstoreOfwarmthandscent,asoncebeforeThetinglinghairdid,lightsanddarksOutbreakingintofairysparks,WhenundercurlandcurlIpriedAfterthewarmthandscentinside,Thro\'lightsanddarkshowmanifold——

Thedarkinspired,thelightcontrolledAsearlyArtembrownsthegold。

IV。

Whatgreatfear,shouldonesay,``Threedays``Thatchangetheworldmightchangeaswell``Yourfortune;andifjoydelays,``Behappythatnoworsebefell!\'\'

Whatsmallfear,ifanothersays,``Threedaysandoneshortnightbeside``Maythrownoshadowonyourways;

``Butyearsmustteemwithchangeuntried,``Withchancenoteasilydefied,``Withanendsomewhereundescried。\'\'

Nofear!——orifafearbebornThisminute,itdiesoutinscorn。

Fear?IshallseeherinthreedaysAndonenight,nowthenightsareshort,Thenjusttwohours,andthatismorn。

INAYEAR。

I。

Neveranymore,WhileIlive,NeedIhopetoseehisfaceAsbefore。

Oncehislovegrownchill,Minemaystrive:

Bitterlywere-embrace,Singlestill。

II。

Wasitsomethingsaid,Somethingdone,Vexedhim?wasittouchofhand,Turnofhead?

Strange!thatverywayLovebegun:

IaslittleunderstandLove\'sdecay。

III。

WhenIsewedordrew,IrecallHowhelookedasifIsung,——Sweetlytoo。

IfIspokeaword,FirstofallUphischeekthecoloursprang,Thenheheard。