第7章

Itlookedasifithadbeenbuiltofdiscardedthings,scrapsandfragmentsofotherbuildings,puttogetherwithcareandpains,bysomeonewhohadtriedtomakethemostofcast-offmaterial。

Therewassomethingpitifulandshamefacedaboutthehut。

Itshrankanddroopedandfadedinitsbarrenfield,andseemedtoclingonlybysufferancetotheedgeofthesplendidcity。

\"This,\"saidtheKeeperoftheGate,standingstillandspeakingwithalow,distinctvoice——\"thisisyourmansion,JohnWeightman。\"

Analmostintolerableshockofgrievedwonderandindignationchokedthemanforamomentsothathecouldnotsayaword。

Thenheturnedhisfaceawayfromthepoorlittlehutandbegantoremonstrateeagerlywithhiscompanion。

\"Surely,sir,\"hestammered,\"youmustbeinerroraboutthis。

Thereissomethingwrong——someotherJohnWeightman——aconfusionofnames——thebookmustbemistaken。\"

\"Thereisnomistake,\"saidtheKeeperoftheGate,verycalmly;

\"hereisyourname,therecordofyourtitleandyourpossessionsinthisplace。\"

\"Buthowcouldsuchahousebepreparedforme,\"criedtheman,witharesentfultremorinhisvoice——\"forme,aftermylongandfaithfulservice?Isthisasuitablemansionforonesowellknownanddevoted?Whyisitsopitifullysmallandmean?

Whyhaveyounotbuiltitlargeandfair,liketheothers?\"

\"Thatisallthematerialyousentus。\"

\"What!\"

\"Wehaveusedallthematerialthatyousentus,\"repeatedtheKeeperoftheGate。

\"NowIknowthatyouaremistaken,\"criedtheman,withgrowingearnestness,\"forallmylifelongIhavebeendoingthingsthatmusthavesuppliedyouwithmaterial。HaveyounotheardthatIhavebuiltaschool-house;thewingofahospital;two——yes,three——smallchurches,andthegreaterpartofalargeone,thespireofSt。Petro——\"

TheKeeperoftheGateliftedhishand。

\"Wait,\"hesaid;\"weknowallthesethings。Theywerenotilldone。

ButtheywereallmarkedandusedasfoundationforthenameandmansionofJohnWeightmanintheworld。Didyounotplanthemforthat?\"

\"Yes,\"answeredtheman,confusedandtakenaback,\"IconfessthatIthoughtoftenoftheminthatway。Perhapsmyheartwassetuponthattoomuch。Butthereareotherthings——myendowmentforthecollege——mysteadyandliberalcontributionstoalltheestablishedcharities——mysupportofeveryrespectable——\"

\"Wait,\"saidtheKeeperoftheGateagain。\"Werenotallthesecarefullyrecordedonearthwheretheywouldaddtoyourcredit?

Theywerenotfoolishlydone。Verily,youhavehadyourrewardforthem。

Wouldyoubepaidtwice?\"

\"No,\"criedtheman,withdeepeningdismay,\"Idarenotclaimthat。

IacknowledgethatIconsideredmyowninteresttoomuch。Butsurelynotaltogether。Youhavesaidthatthesethingswerenotfoolishlydone。

Theyaccomplishedsomegoodintheworld。Doesnotthatcountforsomething?\"

\"Yes,\"answeredheKeeperoftheGate,\"itcountsintheworld——whereyoucountedit。Butitdoesnotbelongtoyouhere。Wehavesavedandusedeverythingthatyousentus。Thisisthemansionpreparedforyou。\"

Ashespoke,hislookgrewdeeperandmoresearching,likeaflameoffire。

JohnWeightmancouldnotendureit。Itseemedtostriphimnakedandwitherhim。Hesanktothegroundunderacrushingweightofshame,coveringhiseyeswithhishandsandcoweringfacedownwarduponthestones。Dimlythroughthetroubleofhismindhefelttheirhardnessandcoldness。

\"Tellme,then,\"hecried,brokenly,\"sincemylifehasbeensolittleworth,howcameIhereatall?\"

\"ThroughthemercyoftheKing\"——theanswerwaslikethesofttollingofabell。

\"AndhowhaveIearnedit?\"hemurmured。

\"Itisneverearned;itisonlygiven,\"cametheclear,lowreply。

\"ButhowhaveIfailedsowretchedly,\"heasked,\"inallthepurposeofmylife?WhatcouldIhavedonebetter?Whatisitthatcountshere?\"

\"Onlythatwhichistrulygiven,\"answeredthebell-likevoice。

Onlythatgoodwhichisdonefortheloveofdoingit。

Onlythoseplansinwhichthewelfareofothersisthemasterthought。

Onlythoselaborsinwhichthesacrificeisgreaterthanthereward。

Onlythosegiftsinwhichthegiverforgetshimself。\"

Themanlaysilent。Agreatweakness,anunspeakabledespondencyandhumiliationwereuponhim。ButthefaceoftheKeeperoftheGatewasinfinitelytenderashebentoverhim。

\"Thinkagain,JohnWeightman。Hastherebeennothinglikethatinyourlife?\"

\"Nothing,\"hesighed。\"Ifthereeverweresuchthings,itmusthavebeenlongago——theywereallcrowdedout——Ihaveforgottenthem。\"

TherewasanineffablesmileonthefaceoftheKeeperoftheGate,andhishandmadethesignofthecrossoverthebowedheadashespokegently:

\"ThesearethethingsthattheKingneverforgets;andbecausetherewereafewoftheminyourlife,youhavealittleplacehere。\"

ThesenseofcoldnessandhardnessunderJohnWeightman\'shandsgrewsharperandmoredistinct。Thefeelingofbodilywearinessandlassitudeweigheduponhim,buttherewasacalm,almostalightness,inhisheartashelistenedtothefadingvibrationsofthesilverybell-tones。Thechimneyclockonthemantelhadjustendedthelaststrokeofsevenasheliftedhisheadfromthetable。

Thin,palestripsofthecitymorningwerefallingintotheroomthroughthenarrowpartingsoftheheavycurtains。

Whatwasitthathadhappenedtohim?Hadhebeenill?Hadhediedandcometolifeagain?Orhadheonlyslept,andhadhissoulgonevisitingindreams?Hesatforsometime,motionless,notlost,butfindinghimselfinthought。Thenhetookanarrowbookfromthetabledrawer,wroteacheck,andtoreitout。

Hewentslowlyupthestairs,knockedverysoftlyathisson\'sdoor,and,hearingnoanswer,enteredwithoutnoise。Haroldwasasleep,hisbarearmthrownabovehishead,andhiseagerfacerelaxedinpeace。

Hisfatherlookedathimamomentwithstrangelyshiningeyes,andthentiptoedquietlytothewriting-desk,foundapencilandasheetofpaper,andwroterapidly:

\"Mydearboy,hereiswhatyouaskedmefor;dowhatyoulikewithit,andaskformoreifyouneedit。IfyouarestillthinkingofthatworkwithGrenfell,we\'lltalkitoverto-dayafterchurch。

Iwanttoknowyourheartbetter;andifIhavemademistakes——\"

Aslightnoisemadehimturnhishead。Haroldwassittingupinbedwithwide-openeyes。

\"Father!\"hecried,\"isthatyou?\"

\"Yes,myson,\"answeredJohnWeightman;\"I\'vecomeback——ImeanI\'vecomeup——no,Imeancomein——well,hereIam,andGodgiveusagoodChristmastogether。\"