第8章

THEWELL—BELOVED

IwayedbystarandplanetshineTowardsthedearone\'shomeAtKingsbere,theretomakehermineWhenthenextsunupclomb。

IedgedtheancienthillandwoodBesidetheIklingWay,NighwherethePagantemplestoodIntheworld\'searlierday。

AndasIquickandquickerwalkedOngravelandongreen,Isangtosky,andtree,ortalkedOfherIcalledmyqueen。

—\"Ofaultlessisherdaintyform,Andluminoushermind;

SheistheGod—creatednormOfperfectwomankind!\"

Ashapewhereononestar—blinkgleamedGlodesoftlybymyside,Awoman\'s;andhermotionseemedThemotionofmybride。

Andyetmethoughtshe\'ddrawnerstwhileAdowntheancientleaze,WhereoncewerepileandperistyleFormen\'sidolatries。

—\"Omaidenlitheandlone,whatmayThynameandlineagebe,WhosoresemblestbythisrayMydarling?—Artthoushe?\"

TheShape:\"ThybrideremainswithinHerfather\'sgrangeandgrove。\"

—\"Thouspeakestrightly,\"Ibrokein,\"ThouartnotsheIlove。\"

—\"Nay:thoughthybrideremainsinsideHerfather\'swalls,\"saidshe,\"Theonemostdeariswiththeehere,Forthoudostlovebutme。\"

ThenI:\"Butshe,myonlychoice,IsnowatKingsbereGrove?\"

Againhersoftmysteriousvoice:

\"IamthyonlyLove。\"

Thusstillshevouched,andstillIsaid,\"Osprite,thatcannotbe!\"

Itwasasifmybosombled,Somuchshetroubledme。

Thespriteresumed:\"ThouhasttransferredToherdullformawhileMybeauty,fame,anddeed,andword,Mygesturesandmysmile。

\"Ofatuousman,thistruthinfer,Bridesarenotwhattheyseem;

Thoulovestwhatthoudreamesther;

Iamthyverydream!\"

—\"Othen,\"Iansweredmiserably,SpeakingasscarceIknew,\"Mylovedone,ImustwedwiththeeIfwhatthousay\'stbetrue!\"

She,proudly,thinninginthegloom:

\"Though,sincetroth—plightbegan,I\'veeverstoodasbridetogroom,Iwednomortalman!\"

ThereatshevanishedbytheCrossThat,enteringKingsberetown,Thetwolonglanesform,nearthefosseBelowthefanelessDown。

—WhenIarrivedandmetmybride,Herlookwaspinchedandthin,Asifhersoulhadshrunkanddied,Andleftawastewithin。

HERREPROACH

Conthedeadpageas\'twerelivelove:presson!

Coldwisdom\'swordswilleasethytrackforthee;

Aye,go;castoffsweetways,andleavemewanTobitingblaststhatareintentonme。

ButifthyobjectFame\'sfarsummitsbe,Whoseinclinesmanyaskeletono\'erliesThatmissedbothdreamandsubstance,stopandseeHowabsencewearsthesecheeksanddimstheseeyes!

ItsurelyisfarsweeterandmorewiseTowaterlove,thantoiltoleaveanonAnamewhoseglory—gleamwillbutadviseInvidiousmindstoquenchitwiththeirown,AndoverwhichthekindliestwillbutstayAmoment,musing,\"He,too,hadhisday!\"

WESTBOURNEPARKVILLAS,1867。

THEINCONSISTENT

Isay,\"Shewasasgoodasfair,\"

Whenstandingbyhermound;

\"Suchpassingsweetness,\"Ideclare,\"Nolongertreadstheground。\"

Isay,\"WhatlivingLovecancatchHerbloomandbonhomie,AndwhatinnewermaidensmatchHeroldenwarmthtome!\"

—Therestandswithinyonvestry—nookWherebondedloverssign,HernameuponafadedbookWithonethatisnotmine。

TohimshebreathedthetendervowSheoncehadbreathedtome,ButyetIsay,\"Olove,evennowWouldIhaddiedforthee!\"

ABROKENAPPOINTMENT

Youdidnotcome,AndmarchingTimedrewon,andworemenumb。

YetlessforlossofyourdearpresencethereThanthatIthusfoundlackinginyourmakeThathighcompassionwhichcanoverbearReluctanceforpurelovingkindness\'sakeGrievedI,when,asthehope—hourstrokeditssum,Youdidnotcome。

Youlovenotme,Andlovealonecanlendyouloyalty;

—Iknowandknewit。But,untothestoreOfhumandeedsdivineinallbutname,WasitnotworthalittlehourormoreToaddyetthis:Once,you,awoman,cameTosootheatime—tornman;eventhoughitbeYoulovenotme?

\"BETWEENUSNOW\"

Betweenusnowandhere

TwothrowntogetherWhoarenotwonttowearLife\'sflushestfeather

Whoseethescenesslidepast,Thedaytimesdimmingfast,Lettherebetruthatlast,Evenifdespair。

SothoroughlyandlongHaveyounowknownme,SorealinfaithandstrongHaveInowshownme,ThatnothingneedsdisguiseFurtherinanywise,OrasksorjustifiesAguardedtongue。

Faceuntoface,then,say,Eyesmineownmeeting,Isyourheartfaraway,Orwithminebeating?

Whenfalsethingsarebroughtlow,Andswiftthingshavegrownslow,Feigninglikefrothshallgo,Faithbeforaye。

\"HOWGREATMYGRIEF\"

(TRIOLET)

Howgreatmygrief,myjoyshowfew,Sincefirstitwasmyfatetoknowthee!

—HavetheslowyearsnotbroughttoviewHowgreatmygrief,myjoyshowfew,Normemoryshapedoldtimesanew,Norloving—kindnesshelpedtoshowtheeHowgreatmygrief,myjoyshowfew,Sincefirstitwasmyfatetoknowthee?

\"INEEDNOTGO\"

IneednotgoThroughsleetandsnowTowhereIknowShewaitsforme;

ShewillwaitmethereTillIfinditfair,AndhavetimetospareFromcompany。

WhenI\'veovergotTheworldsomewhat,WhenthingscostnotSuchstressandstrain,IssoonenoughBycypresssoughTotellmyLoveIamcomeagain。

Andifsomeday,Whennonecriesnay,IstilldelayToseekherside,(ThoughamplemeasureOffittingleisureAwaitmypleasure)

Shewillriotchide。

What—notupbraidmeThatIdelayedme,NoraskwhatstayedmeSolong?Ah,no!

Newcaresmayclaimme,Newlovesinflameme,Shewillnotblameme,Butsufferitso。

THECOQUETTE,ANDAFTER

(TRIOLETS)

I

ForlongthecruelwishIknewThatyourfreeheartshouldacheformeWhilemineshouldbearnoacheforyou;

For,long—thecruelwish!—IknewHowmencanfeel,andcravedtoviewMytriumph—fatednottobeForlong!ThecruelwishIknewThatyourfreeheartshouldacheforme!

II

Atlastonepaysthepenalty

Thewoman—womenalwaysdo。

Myfarce,Ifound,wastragedyAtlast!—OnepaysthepenaltyWithinterestwhenone,fancy—free,Learnslove,learnsshameOfsinnerstwoAtlastONEpaysthepenalty

Thewoman—womenalwaysdo!

ASPOT

Inyearsdefacedandlost,Twosathere,transport—tossed,LitbyalivingloveThewiltedworldknewnothingof:

ScaredmomentlyBygaingivings,ThenhopingthingsThatcouldnotbe。

OfloveandusnotraceAbidesupontheplace;

Thesunandshadowswheel,Seasonandseasonserewardsteal;

FouldaysandfairHere,too,prevail,AndgustandgaleAseverywhere。

ButlonelyshepherdsoulsWhobaskamidtheseknollsMaycatchafaerysoundOnsleepynoontidesfromtheground:

\"OnotagainTillEarthoutwearsShallloveliketheirsSuffusethisglen!\"