GladandPollyoccupiedthemselveswiththeirownfood。
AntonyDartgazedatthefire。
Herehesatwarminghimselfinaloftwithabeggar,athief,andahelplessthingofthestreet。Hehadcomeouttobuyapistol——itsweightstillhunginhisovercoatpocket——
andhehadreachedthisplaceofwhoseexistencehehadanhouragonotdreamed。Eachstepwhichhadledhimhadseemedasimple,inevitablething,forwhichhehadapparentlybeenresponsible,butwhichheknew——yes,somehowheKNEW——hehadofhisownvolitionneitherplannednormeant。Yetherehesat——apartofthelivesofthebeggar,thethief,andthepoorthingofthestreet。Whatdiditmean?
\"Tellme,\"hesaidtothethief,\"howyoucamehere。\"
Bythistimetheyoungfellowhadfedhimselfandlookedlesslikeawolf。Itwastobeseennowthathehadblue—grayeyeswhichweredreamyandyoung。
\"Ihavealwaysbeeninventingthings,\"hesaidalittlehuskily。\"I
diditwhenIwasachild。Ialwaysseemedtoseetheremightbeawayofdoingathingbetter——gettingmorepower。WhenotherboyswereplayinggamesIwassittingincornerstryingtobuildmodelsoutofwireandstring,andoldboxesandtincans。IoftenthoughtIsawthewaytothings,butIwasalwaystoopoortogetwhatwasneededtoworkthemout。TwiceIheardofmenmakinggreatnamesandfortunesbecausetheyhadbeenabletofinishwhatIcouldhavefinishedifI
hadhadafewpounds。Itusedtodrivememadandbreakmyheart。\"
Hishandsclenchedthemselvesandhishuskinessgrewthicker。\"Therewasaman,\"catchinghisbreath,\"wholeapedtothetopoftheladderandsetthewholeworldtalkingandwriting——andIhaddonethethingFIRST——IswearIhad!Itwasallclearinmybrain,andIwashalfmadwithjoyoverit,butIcouldnotaffordtoworkitout。Hecould,sototheendoftimeitwillbeHIS。\"Hestruckhisfistuponhisknee。
\"Aw!\"ThedeeplittledrawlwasagroanfromGlad。
\"Igotaplaceinanofficeatlast。
Iworkedhard,andtheybegantotrustme。I——hadanewidea。Itwasabigone。Ineededmoneytoworkitout。I——Irememberedwhathadhappenedbefore。Ifeltlikeapoorfellowrunningaraceforhislife。IKNEWIcouldpaybacktentimes——ahundredtimes——whatItook。\"
\"Youtookmoney?\"saidDart。
Thethief’sheaddropped。
\"No。IwascaughtwhenIwastakingit。Iwasn’tsharpenough。
Someonecameinandsawme,andtherewasacrazyrow。Iwassenttoprison。Therewasnomoretryingafterthat。It’snearlytwoyearssince,andI’vebeenhangingaboutthestreetsandfallinglowerandlower。I’verunmilespantingaftercabswithluggageinthemandnothadstrengthtocarryintheboxeswhentheystopped。I’vestarvedandsleptoutofdoors。ButthethingIwantedtoworkoutisinmymindallthetime——likesomemachinetearinground。Itwantstobefinished。Itneverwillbe。
That’sall。\"
Gladwasleaningforwardstaringathim,herroughenedhandswiththesmearedcracksonthemclaspedroundherknees。
\"Things’AStobefinished,\"shesaid。\"Theyfinishtheirselves。\"
\"Howdoyouknow?\"Dartturnedonher。
\"Dunno’OWIknow——butIdo。
Whenthingsbegintheyfinish。It’slikeawheelrollin’downan’ill。\"
HersharpeyesfixedthemselvesonDart’s。\"Allofus’llfinishsomethin’——
’coswe’vebegun。Youwill——Pollywill——’ewill——Iwill。\"
Shestoppedwithasuddensheepishchuckleanddroppedherforeheadonherknees,giggling。\"DunnowotI’mtalkingabout,\"shesaid,\"butit’strue。\"
Dartbegantounderstandthatitwas。Andhealsosawthatthisraggedthingwhoknewnothingwhatever,lookedoutontheworldwiththeeyesofaseer,thoughshewasignorantofthemeaningofherownknowledge。Itwasaweirdthing。HeturnedtothegirlPolly。
\"Tellmehowyoucamehere,\"
hesaid。
Hespokeinalowvoiceandgently。Hedidnotwanttofrightenher,buthewantedtoknowhowSHE
hadbegun。Whensheliftedherchildisheyestohis,herchinbegantoshake。Forsomereasonshedidnotquestionhisrighttoaskwhathewould。Sheansweredhimmeekly,asherfingersfumbledwiththestuffofherdress。
\"Ilivedinthecountrywithmymother,\"shesaid。\"Wewasveryhappytogether。Inthespringtherewasprimrosesand——andlambs。I
——can’tabidetolookatthesheepintheparkthesedays。Theyremindmeso。Therewasagirlinthevillagegotaplaceintownandcamebackandtoldusallaboutit。
Itmademesilly。Iwantedtocomehere,too。I——Icame——\"
Sheputherarmoverherfaceandbegantosob。
\"Shecan’ttellyou,\"saidGlad。
\"Therewasaswellinthe’ousemadelovetoher。Sheusedtocarryupcoalsto’isparloran’’etalkedto’er。’E’adawyewith’im——\"
Pollybrokeintoasmotheredwail。
\"Oh,Ididlovehimso——Idid!\"
shecried。\"I’dhavelethimwalkoverme。I’dhavelethimkillme。\"
\"’Enearlydidit,\"saidGlad。
\"’Ewentawaysuddenan’she’snever’eardwordof’imsince。\"
FromunderPolly’sface—hidingarmcamebrokenwords。
\"Icouldn’ttellmymother。I
didnotknowhow。Iwastoofrightenedandashamed。Nowit’stoolate。Ishallneverseemymotheragain,anditseemsasifallthelambsandprimrosesintheworldwasdead。
Oh,they’redead——they’redead——
andIwishIwas,too!\"
Glad’seyeswinkedrapidlyandshegaveahoarselittlecoughtoclearherthroat。Herarmsstillclaspingherknees,shehitchedherselfclosertothegirlandgaveheranudgewithherelbow。
\"Buckup,Polly,\"shesaid,\"weain’tnoneofusfinishedyet。Lookatusnow——sittin’byourownfirewithbreadandpuddin’insideus——
an’thinkwotwewasthismornin’。
Whoknowswotwe’ll’avethistimeto—morrer。\"
ThenshestoppedandlookedwithawidegrinatAntonyDart。
\"OwdidIcome’ere?\"shesaid。
\"Yes,\"heanswered,\"howdidyoucomehere?\"
\"Idunno,\"shesaid;\"Iwas’erefirstthingIremember。Ilivedwithaoldwomaninanother’ouseinthecourt。Onemornin’whenIwokeupshewasdead。SometimesI’vebeggedan’soldmatches。SometimesI’vetookcareofwomen’schildrenor’elped’emwhenthey’adtolieup。
I’veseenalot——butIliketoseealot。’OpeI’llseealotmoreaforeI’mdone。I’musedtobein’’ungryan’cold,an’allthat,but——butI
allersliketoseewhat’scomin’to—
morrer。There’sallerssomethin’
elseto—morrer。That’sallaboutME,\"andshechuckledagain。
Dartpickedupsomefreshsticksandthrewthemonthefire。Therewassomefinecracklingandanewflameleapedup。
\"Ifyoucoulddowhatyouliked,\"
hesaid,\"whatwouldyouliketodo?\"
Herchucklebecameanoutrightlaugh。
\"IfI’adtenpounds?\"sheasked,evidentlypreparedtoadjustherselfinimaginationtoanyformofun—
looked—forgoodluck。
\"Ifyouhadmore?\"
Histonemadethethieflifthisheadtolookathim。
\"IfI’adawandliketheoneJemtoldmewasinthepantermine?\"
\"Yes,\"heanswered。
Shesatandstaredatthefireafewmoments,andthenbegantospeakinalowluxuriatingvoice。
\"I’dgetabetterroom,\"shesaid,revelling。\"There’soneinthenext’ouse。I’d’aveafewstickso’
furnisherinit——abedan’achairortwo。I’dgetsomewarmpetticutsan’ashawlan’a’at——withaostrichfeatherinit。Pollyan’
me’dlivetogether。We’d’avefirean’grubeveryday。I’dgetdrunkenBet’sbibyputinan’ome。
I’d’elpthewomenwhenthey’adtolieup。I’d——I’d’elp’IMabit,\"
withajerkofherelbowtowardthethief。\"If’ewaskeptfedp’r’aps’ecouldworkoutthatthingin’is’ead。
I’dgoroundthecourtan’’elpthemwith’usbandsthatknocks’emabout。
I’d——I’dputastoptotheknockin’
about,\"aqueerfixedlookshowingitselfinhereyes。\"IfI’admoneyIcoulddoit。’Owmuch,\"withsuddenprudence,\"couldabody’ave——withoneo’themwands?\"
\"Morethanenoughtodoallyouhavespokenof,\"answeredDart。
\"It’sashimeabodycouldn’t’aveit。AppleBlossomCourt’dbeadifferentthing。It’dbethesimeasMissMontaubynsaysit’sgoin’tobe。\"Shelaughedagain,thistimeasifrememberingsomethingfantastic,butnotdespicable。
\"WhoisMissMontaubyn?\"
\"She’sa’oldwomanaslivesnextfloorbelow。Whenshewasyoungshewasprettyan’usedtodanceinthe’alls。DrunkenBetsaysshewasoneo’thewust。Whenshegotolditmade’ermadan’shegotwusser。
Shewasreadytoteargalseyesout,an’whenshe’dgettookformakin’
arowshe’dfightlikeatigercat。
Aboutayearagoshetumbleddownstairswhenshe’d’adtoomuchan’
shebrokeboth’erlegs。Youremember,Polly?\"
Pollyhidherfaceinherhands。
\"Oh,whentheytookherawaytothehospital!\"sheshuddered。\"Oh,whentheyliftedheruptocarryher!\"
\"IthoughtPolly’d’aveafitwhenshe’eard’erscreamin’an’swearin’。
My!itwaslangwich!Butitwasthe’orspitledidit。\"
\"Didwhat?\"
\"Dunno,\"withanuncertain,evenslightlyawedlaugh。\"Dunnowotitdid——neitherdoesnobodyelse,butsomethin’’appened。Itwasalongofalidyascomeinonedayan’talkedto’erwhenshewaslyin’
there。Myeye,\"chuckling,\"itwasqueertalk!ButIlikedit。P’rapsitwaslies,butitwascheerfleliesthat’elpsyer。WhatIsesis——ifTHINGSain’tcheerfle,PEOPLE’Sgottobe——tofightitout。Thewomeninthe’ouselarftfittokilltheirselveswhenshefustcome’omelimpin’an’
talkedto’emaboutwhatthelidytold’er。Butarterabittheylikedto’ear’er——justalongo’thecheerfleness。Saiditwaslikeapantermine。DrunkenBetsaysifshecouldget’old’fitan’believeitsimeasJinnyMontaubyndoesit’dbeascheerin’asdrinkan’lastlonger。\"
\"Isitakindofreligion?\"Dartasked,havingavaguememoryofrumorsoffantasticnewtheoriesandhalf—bornbeliefswhichhadseemedtohimweirdvisionsfloatingthroughfaggedbrainsweariedbyolddoubtsandargumentsandfailures。Theworldwastired——thewholeearthwassad——centurieshadwroughtonlytotheendofthistwentiethcentury’sdespair。Wasthestrugglewakingevenhere——inthisbackwaterofthehugecity’shumantide?
hewonderedwithdullinterest。
\"Isitakindofreligion?\"hesaid。
\"It’scheerfler。\"Gladthrustouthersharpchinuncertainlyagain。
\"There’sno’ellfireinit。An’
thereain’tnoblimelaidonGodamighty。\"(ThewordassheuttereditseemedtohavenoconnectionwhateverwithherusualcolloquialinvocationoftheDeity。)\"WhenadrayrunoverlittleBillyan’crushed’iminterarag,an’’ismotherwasscreamin’an’draggin’’er’airdown,thecurick’eses,`It’sGawd’swill,’
’eses——an’’eain’tnobadsortneither,an’’isficewaswhitean’wetwithsweat——`Gawddoneit,’’eses。
An’me,I’dnussedthechildan’I
clawedme’airsimeasifIwas’ismotheran’Iscreamedout,`Thendamn’im!’An’thecurick’edroppedsittin’downonthecurb—
stonean’’id’isficein’is’ands。\"
Darthidhisownfaceafterthemannerofthewretchedcurate。
\"Nowonder,\"hegroaned。Hisbloodturnedcold。
\"But,\"saidGlad,\"MissMontaubyn’slidyshesaysGodamightyneverdoneitnorneverintendedit,an’ifwekep’sayin’an’believin’’e’sclosetousan’notmillyunso’milesaway,we’dbetookcareofwhilstwewasalivean’not’avetowaittillwewasdead。\"
Shegotuponherfeetandthrewupherarmswithasuddenjerkandinvoluntarygesture。
\"I’malive!I’malive!\"shecriedout,\"I’vegotterbetookcareofNOW!That’swhyIlikewotshetellsaboutit。Sodoesthewomen。
Weain’tnomorereasonterbesureofwotthecuricksaysthanterbesureo’this。DunnoasI’vegotterchooseeitherway,butifI’ad,I’dchoosethecheerflest。\"
Darthadsatstaringather——sohadPolly——sohadthethief。Dartrubbedhisforehead。
\"Idonotunderstand,\"hesaid。
\"’Tain’tunderstanding!It’sbelievin’。Blessyer,SHEdoesn’tunderstand。Isay,let’sgoan’talkto’erabit。Shedon’tmindnothin’,an’
she’llletusin。WecanleavePollyan’’im’ere。Theycanmakesomemoreteaan’drinkit。\"
Itendedintheirgoingoutoftheroomtogetheragainandstumblingoncemoredownthestairway’scrookedness。AtthebottomofthefirstshortflighttheystoppedinthedarknessandGladknockedatadoorwithasummonsmanifestlyexpectantofcheerfulwelcome。Sheusedtheformulashehadusedbefore。
\"’Son’yme,MissMontaubyn,\"
shecriedout。\"’Son’yGlad。\"
Thedooropenedinwidewelcome,andconfrontingthemasshehelditshandlestoodasmalloldwomanwithanastonishingface。Itwasastonishingbecausewhileitwaswitheredandwrinkledwithmarksofpastyearswhichhadoncestampedtheirrecklessunsavorinessuponitseveryline,somestrangeredeemingthinghadhappenedtoitanditsexpressionwasthatofacreaturetowhomtheopeningofadoorcouldonlymeantheentrance——thetumblinginasitwere——ofhopesrealized。
Itssurfacewassweptcleanofeventhevaguestanticipationofanythingnottobedesired。Smilingasitdidthroughtheblackdoorwayintotheunrelievedshadowofthepassage,itstruckAntonyDartatoncethatitactuallyimpliedthis——
andthatinthisplace——andindeedinanyplace——nothingcouldhavebeenmoreastonishing。Whatcould,indeed?
\"Well,well,\"shesaid,\"comein,Glad,blessyer。\"
\"I’vebroughtagentto’earyertalkabit,\"Gladexplainedinformally。
Thesmalloldwomanraisedhertwinklingoldfacetolookathim。
\"Ah!\"shesaid,asifsummingupwhatwasbeforeher。\"’Ethinksit’sworsethanitis,doesn’t’e,now?
Comein,sir,do。\"
ThistimeitstruckDartthatherlookseemedactuallytoanticipatetheevolvingofsomewonderfulanddesirablethingfromhimself。Asifevenhisgloomcarriedwithittreasureasyetundisplayed。Assheknewnothingofthetensovereigns,hewonderedwhat,inGod’sname,shesaw。
Thepovertyofthelittlesquareroomhadanoddcheerinit。MuchscrubbinghadremovedfromittheobjectionsmanifestinGlad’sroomabove。Therewasasmallredfireinthegrate,astripofold,butgaycarpetbeforeit,twochairsandatablewerecoveredwithaharlequinpatchworkmadeofbrightoddsandendsofallsizesandshapes。Thefoginallitsmurkyvolumecouldnotquiteobscurethebrightnessoftheoftenrubbedwindowanditsharlequincurtaindrawnacrossuponastring。
\"Blessyer,\"saidMissMontaubyn,\"sitdown。\"
Dartsatandthankedher。GladdroppeduponthefloorandgirdledherkneescomfortablywhileMissMontaubyntookthesecondchair,whichwasclosetothetable,andsnuffedthecandlewhichstoodnearabasketofcoloredscrapssuchas,withoutdoubt,hadmadetheharlequincurtain。
\"Yerwon’tmindmegoin’onwithmebito’work?\"shechirped。
\"Tell’imwotitis,\"Gladsuggested。
\"Theycomefromadressmakerasisinasmallway,\"designatingthescrapsbyagesture。\"Icleanupfor’eran’
sheletsme’ave’em。Imake’emupintoanythinkIcan——pin—cushionsan’
bagsan’curtingsan’balls。Nobody’dthinkwottheyruntosometimes。
Nowan’thenIsellsomeof’em。
WotIcan’tsellIgiveaway。\"
\"DrunkenBet’sbibyplayswith’erballallday,\"saidGlad。
\"Ah!\"saidMissMontaubyn,drawingoutalongneedlefulofthread,\"Bet,SHEthinksitworsethanitis。\"
\"Coulditbeworse?\"askedDart。
\"Couldanythingbeworsethaneverythingis?\"
\"Lots,\"suggestedGlad;\"might’avebrokeyourback,might’aveafever,mightbeinjailforknifin’
someone。’Ewantsto’earyoutalk,MissMontaubyn;tell’imallaboutyerself。\"
\"Me!\"herexpectanteyesonhim。
\"’Ewouldn’twantto’earit。I
shouldn’twantto’earitmyself。
Bein’onthe’allswhenyeraprettygirlain’tan’elpfullife;an’bein’
tookupan’droppeddowntillyerdroppedinthegutteran’don’tknow’owtogetout——it’swotyermustn’tletyermindgobackto。\"
\"That’swotthelidysaid,\"calledoutGlad。\"Tell’imaboutthelidy。
Shedoesn’tevenknowwhoshewas。\"
TheremarkwastossedtoDart。
\"Nevereven’eard’ername,\"withunabatedcheersaidMissMontaubyn。
\"Shecomean’shewentan’metoolowtodoanythingbutliean’lookat’erandlisten。An’`Whichofustwoismad?’Isestomyself。ButI
laythinkin’andthinkin’——an’itwassocheerfleIcouldn’tgetitoutofme’ead——nornever’avesince。\"
\"Whatdidshesay?\"
\"Icouldn’trememberthewords——itwasthewaytheytookawaythingsabody’safraidof。Itwasaboutthingsnever’avin’reallybeenlikewotwethoughttheywas。
Godamightynow,thereain’tabitof’armin’im。\"
\"What?\"hesaidwithastart。
\"’Eneverdonetheaccidentsandthetrouble。Itwasusaswentoutofthelightintothedark。Ifwe’dkep’inthelightallthetime,an’
thoughtaboutit,an’talkedaboutit,we’dnever’adnothin’else。’Tain’tpunishmentneither。’Tain’tnothin’
butthedark——an’thedarkain’tnothin’butthelightbein’away。
`Keepinthelight,’sheses,`neverthinkofnothin’else,an’thenyou’llbeginan’seethings。Everybody’sbeenafraid。Thereain’tnoneed。
YoubelieveTHAT。’\"
\"Believe?\"saidDartheavily。
Shenodded。
\"`Yes,’sesIto’er,`that’swherethetroublecomesin——believin’。’
Andsheanswersascoolascouldbe:`Yes,itis,’sheses,`we’veallbeenthinkin’we’vebeenbelievin’,an’noneofus’as。Ifwe’adwhat’dtherebetobeafraidof?Ifwebelievedakingwasgivin’usourlivin’an’takin’careofuswho’dbeafraidofnot’avin’enoughtoeat?’\"
\"Who?\"groanedDart。Hesathanginghisheadandstaringatthefloor。Thiswasanotherphaseofthedream。
\"`Whereis’E?’Ises。`’Imasbreaksoldwomen’slegsan’crushesbabiesunderwheels——soasthey’llberesigned?’An’allofasuddenshecallsoutquiteloud:`Nowhere,’
sheses。`An’neverwas。But’Imasstretchedforththe’eavensan’laidthefoundationsoftheearth,’ImasistheLifean’Loveoftheworld,’E’s’ERE!Stretchoutyer’and,’sheses,’an’callout,\"Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,\"an’ye’ll’earan’SEE。
An’neveryoustopsayin’it——letyer’eartbeatitan’yerbreathbreatheit——an’yer’llfindyergoin’aboutlaughin’softtoyerselfan’lovin’
everythin’asifitwasyerownchildatbreast。An’no’armcancometoyer。Tryitwhenyergo’ome。’\"
\"Didyou?\"askedDart。
Gladansweredforherwithatremulous——yesitwasaTREMULOUS——
giggle,aweirdlymovedlittlesound。
\"Whenshewakesinthemornin’
shesesto’erself,`Goodthingsisgoin’tocometo—day——cheerflethings。’Whenthere’saknockatthedoorsheses,`Somethin’friendly’scomin’in。’An’whenDrunkenBet’smakin’arowan’ragin’an’tearin’
an’threatenin’to’ave’ereyesoutof’erfice,sheses,`Lor,Bet,yerdon’tmeanawordofit——yerafriendtoeverywomaninthe’ouse。’Whenshedon’tknowwhichwaytoturn,shestandsstillan’ses,`Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,’an’thenshedoeswotevernextcomesinto’ermind——
an’shesaysit’sallustherightanswer。