第4章

GladandPollyoccupiedthemselveswiththeirownfood。

AntonyDartgazedatthefire。

Herehesatwarminghimselfinaloftwithabeggar,athief,andahelplessthingofthestreet。Hehadcomeouttobuyapistol——itsweightstillhunginhisovercoatpocket——

andhehadreachedthisplaceofwhoseexistencehehadanhouragonotdreamed。Eachstepwhichhadledhimhadseemedasimple,inevitablething,forwhichhehadapparentlybeenresponsible,butwhichheknew——yes,somehowheKNEW——hehadofhisownvolitionneitherplannednormeant。Yetherehesat——apartofthelivesofthebeggar,thethief,andthepoorthingofthestreet。Whatdiditmean?

\"Tellme,\"hesaidtothethief,\"howyoucamehere。\"

Bythistimetheyoungfellowhadfedhimselfandlookedlesslikeawolf。Itwastobeseennowthathehadblue—grayeyeswhichweredreamyandyoung。

\"Ihavealwaysbeeninventingthings,\"hesaidalittlehuskily。\"I

diditwhenIwasachild。Ialwaysseemedtoseetheremightbeawayofdoingathingbetter——gettingmorepower。WhenotherboyswereplayinggamesIwassittingincornerstryingtobuildmodelsoutofwireandstring,andoldboxesandtincans。IoftenthoughtIsawthewaytothings,butIwasalwaystoopoortogetwhatwasneededtoworkthemout。TwiceIheardofmenmakinggreatnamesandfortunesbecausetheyhadbeenabletofinishwhatIcouldhavefinishedifI

hadhadafewpounds。Itusedtodrivememadandbreakmyheart。\"

Hishandsclenchedthemselvesandhishuskinessgrewthicker。\"Therewasaman,\"catchinghisbreath,\"wholeapedtothetopoftheladderandsetthewholeworldtalkingandwriting——andIhaddonethethingFIRST——IswearIhad!Itwasallclearinmybrain,andIwashalfmadwithjoyoverit,butIcouldnotaffordtoworkitout。Hecould,sototheendoftimeitwillbeHIS。\"Hestruckhisfistuponhisknee。

\"Aw!\"ThedeeplittledrawlwasagroanfromGlad。

\"Igotaplaceinanofficeatlast。

Iworkedhard,andtheybegantotrustme。I——hadanewidea。Itwasabigone。Ineededmoneytoworkitout。I——Irememberedwhathadhappenedbefore。Ifeltlikeapoorfellowrunningaraceforhislife。IKNEWIcouldpaybacktentimes——ahundredtimes——whatItook。\"

\"Youtookmoney?\"saidDart。

Thethief’sheaddropped。

\"No。IwascaughtwhenIwastakingit。Iwasn’tsharpenough。

Someonecameinandsawme,andtherewasacrazyrow。Iwassenttoprison。Therewasnomoretryingafterthat。It’snearlytwoyearssince,andI’vebeenhangingaboutthestreetsandfallinglowerandlower。I’verunmilespantingaftercabswithluggageinthemandnothadstrengthtocarryintheboxeswhentheystopped。I’vestarvedandsleptoutofdoors。ButthethingIwantedtoworkoutisinmymindallthetime——likesomemachinetearinground。Itwantstobefinished。Itneverwillbe。

That’sall。\"

Gladwasleaningforwardstaringathim,herroughenedhandswiththesmearedcracksonthemclaspedroundherknees。

\"Things’AStobefinished,\"shesaid。\"Theyfinishtheirselves。\"

\"Howdoyouknow?\"Dartturnedonher。

\"Dunno’OWIknow——butIdo。

Whenthingsbegintheyfinish。It’slikeawheelrollin’downan’ill。\"

HersharpeyesfixedthemselvesonDart’s。\"Allofus’llfinishsomethin’——

’coswe’vebegun。Youwill——Pollywill——’ewill——Iwill。\"

Shestoppedwithasuddensheepishchuckleanddroppedherforeheadonherknees,giggling。\"DunnowotI’mtalkingabout,\"shesaid,\"butit’strue。\"

Dartbegantounderstandthatitwas。Andhealsosawthatthisraggedthingwhoknewnothingwhatever,lookedoutontheworldwiththeeyesofaseer,thoughshewasignorantofthemeaningofherownknowledge。Itwasaweirdthing。HeturnedtothegirlPolly。

\"Tellmehowyoucamehere,\"

hesaid。

Hespokeinalowvoiceandgently。Hedidnotwanttofrightenher,buthewantedtoknowhowSHE

hadbegun。Whensheliftedherchildisheyestohis,herchinbegantoshake。Forsomereasonshedidnotquestionhisrighttoaskwhathewould。Sheansweredhimmeekly,asherfingersfumbledwiththestuffofherdress。

\"Ilivedinthecountrywithmymother,\"shesaid。\"Wewasveryhappytogether。Inthespringtherewasprimrosesand——andlambs。I

——can’tabidetolookatthesheepintheparkthesedays。Theyremindmeso。Therewasagirlinthevillagegotaplaceintownandcamebackandtoldusallaboutit。

Itmademesilly。Iwantedtocomehere,too。I——Icame——\"

Sheputherarmoverherfaceandbegantosob。

\"Shecan’ttellyou,\"saidGlad。

\"Therewasaswellinthe’ousemadelovetoher。Sheusedtocarryupcoalsto’isparloran’’etalkedto’er。’E’adawyewith’im——\"

Pollybrokeintoasmotheredwail。

\"Oh,Ididlovehimso——Idid!\"

shecried。\"I’dhavelethimwalkoverme。I’dhavelethimkillme。\"

\"’Enearlydidit,\"saidGlad。

\"’Ewentawaysuddenan’she’snever’eardwordof’imsince。\"

FromunderPolly’sface—hidingarmcamebrokenwords。

\"Icouldn’ttellmymother。I

didnotknowhow。Iwastoofrightenedandashamed。Nowit’stoolate。Ishallneverseemymotheragain,anditseemsasifallthelambsandprimrosesintheworldwasdead。

Oh,they’redead——they’redead——

andIwishIwas,too!\"

Glad’seyeswinkedrapidlyandshegaveahoarselittlecoughtoclearherthroat。Herarmsstillclaspingherknees,shehitchedherselfclosertothegirlandgaveheranudgewithherelbow。

\"Buckup,Polly,\"shesaid,\"weain’tnoneofusfinishedyet。Lookatusnow——sittin’byourownfirewithbreadandpuddin’insideus——

an’thinkwotwewasthismornin’。

Whoknowswotwe’ll’avethistimeto—morrer。\"

ThenshestoppedandlookedwithawidegrinatAntonyDart。

\"OwdidIcome’ere?\"shesaid。

\"Yes,\"heanswered,\"howdidyoucomehere?\"

\"Idunno,\"shesaid;\"Iwas’erefirstthingIremember。Ilivedwithaoldwomaninanother’ouseinthecourt。Onemornin’whenIwokeupshewasdead。SometimesI’vebeggedan’soldmatches。SometimesI’vetookcareofwomen’schildrenor’elped’emwhenthey’adtolieup。

I’veseenalot——butIliketoseealot。’OpeI’llseealotmoreaforeI’mdone。I’musedtobein’’ungryan’cold,an’allthat,but——butI

allersliketoseewhat’scomin’to—

morrer。There’sallerssomethin’

elseto—morrer。That’sallaboutME,\"andshechuckledagain。

Dartpickedupsomefreshsticksandthrewthemonthefire。Therewassomefinecracklingandanewflameleapedup。

\"Ifyoucoulddowhatyouliked,\"

hesaid,\"whatwouldyouliketodo?\"

Herchucklebecameanoutrightlaugh。

\"IfI’adtenpounds?\"sheasked,evidentlypreparedtoadjustherselfinimaginationtoanyformofun—

looked—forgoodluck。

\"Ifyouhadmore?\"

Histonemadethethieflifthisheadtolookathim。

\"IfI’adawandliketheoneJemtoldmewasinthepantermine?\"

\"Yes,\"heanswered。

Shesatandstaredatthefireafewmoments,andthenbegantospeakinalowluxuriatingvoice。

\"I’dgetabetterroom,\"shesaid,revelling。\"There’soneinthenext’ouse。I’d’aveafewstickso’

furnisherinit——abedan’achairortwo。I’dgetsomewarmpetticutsan’ashawlan’a’at——withaostrichfeatherinit。Pollyan’

me’dlivetogether。We’d’avefirean’grubeveryday。I’dgetdrunkenBet’sbibyputinan’ome。

I’d’elpthewomenwhenthey’adtolieup。I’d——I’d’elp’IMabit,\"

withajerkofherelbowtowardthethief。\"If’ewaskeptfedp’r’aps’ecouldworkoutthatthingin’is’ead。

I’dgoroundthecourtan’’elpthemwith’usbandsthatknocks’emabout。

I’d——I’dputastoptotheknockin’

about,\"aqueerfixedlookshowingitselfinhereyes。\"IfI’admoneyIcoulddoit。’Owmuch,\"withsuddenprudence,\"couldabody’ave——withoneo’themwands?\"

\"Morethanenoughtodoallyouhavespokenof,\"answeredDart。

\"It’sashimeabodycouldn’t’aveit。AppleBlossomCourt’dbeadifferentthing。It’dbethesimeasMissMontaubynsaysit’sgoin’tobe。\"Shelaughedagain,thistimeasifrememberingsomethingfantastic,butnotdespicable。

\"WhoisMissMontaubyn?\"

\"She’sa’oldwomanaslivesnextfloorbelow。Whenshewasyoungshewasprettyan’usedtodanceinthe’alls。DrunkenBetsaysshewasoneo’thewust。Whenshegotolditmade’ermadan’shegotwusser。

Shewasreadytoteargalseyesout,an’whenshe’dgettookformakin’

arowshe’dfightlikeatigercat。

Aboutayearagoshetumbleddownstairswhenshe’d’adtoomuchan’

shebrokeboth’erlegs。Youremember,Polly?\"

Pollyhidherfaceinherhands。

\"Oh,whentheytookherawaytothehospital!\"sheshuddered。\"Oh,whentheyliftedheruptocarryher!\"

\"IthoughtPolly’d’aveafitwhenshe’eard’erscreamin’an’swearin’。

My!itwaslangwich!Butitwasthe’orspitledidit。\"

\"Didwhat?\"

\"Dunno,\"withanuncertain,evenslightlyawedlaugh。\"Dunnowotitdid——neitherdoesnobodyelse,butsomethin’’appened。Itwasalongofalidyascomeinonedayan’talkedto’erwhenshewaslyin’

there。Myeye,\"chuckling,\"itwasqueertalk!ButIlikedit。P’rapsitwaslies,butitwascheerfleliesthat’elpsyer。WhatIsesis——ifTHINGSain’tcheerfle,PEOPLE’Sgottobe——tofightitout。Thewomeninthe’ouselarftfittokilltheirselveswhenshefustcome’omelimpin’an’

talkedto’emaboutwhatthelidytold’er。Butarterabittheylikedto’ear’er——justalongo’thecheerfleness。Saiditwaslikeapantermine。DrunkenBetsaysifshecouldget’old’fitan’believeitsimeasJinnyMontaubyndoesit’dbeascheerin’asdrinkan’lastlonger。\"

\"Isitakindofreligion?\"Dartasked,havingavaguememoryofrumorsoffantasticnewtheoriesandhalf—bornbeliefswhichhadseemedtohimweirdvisionsfloatingthroughfaggedbrainsweariedbyolddoubtsandargumentsandfailures。Theworldwastired——thewholeearthwassad——centurieshadwroughtonlytotheendofthistwentiethcentury’sdespair。Wasthestrugglewakingevenhere——inthisbackwaterofthehugecity’shumantide?

hewonderedwithdullinterest。

\"Isitakindofreligion?\"hesaid。

\"It’scheerfler。\"Gladthrustouthersharpchinuncertainlyagain。

\"There’sno’ellfireinit。An’

thereain’tnoblimelaidonGodamighty。\"(ThewordassheuttereditseemedtohavenoconnectionwhateverwithherusualcolloquialinvocationoftheDeity。)\"WhenadrayrunoverlittleBillyan’crushed’iminterarag,an’’ismotherwasscreamin’an’draggin’’er’airdown,thecurick’eses,`It’sGawd’swill,’

’eses——an’’eain’tnobadsortneither,an’’isficewaswhitean’wetwithsweat——`Gawddoneit,’’eses。

An’me,I’dnussedthechildan’I

clawedme’airsimeasifIwas’ismotheran’Iscreamedout,`Thendamn’im!’An’thecurick’edroppedsittin’downonthecurb—

stonean’’id’isficein’is’ands。\"

Darthidhisownfaceafterthemannerofthewretchedcurate。

\"Nowonder,\"hegroaned。Hisbloodturnedcold。

\"But,\"saidGlad,\"MissMontaubyn’slidyshesaysGodamightyneverdoneitnorneverintendedit,an’ifwekep’sayin’an’believin’’e’sclosetousan’notmillyunso’milesaway,we’dbetookcareofwhilstwewasalivean’not’avetowaittillwewasdead。\"

Shegotuponherfeetandthrewupherarmswithasuddenjerkandinvoluntarygesture。

\"I’malive!I’malive!\"shecriedout,\"I’vegotterbetookcareofNOW!That’swhyIlikewotshetellsaboutit。Sodoesthewomen。

Weain’tnomorereasonterbesureofwotthecuricksaysthanterbesureo’this。DunnoasI’vegotterchooseeitherway,butifI’ad,I’dchoosethecheerflest。\"

Darthadsatstaringather——sohadPolly——sohadthethief。Dartrubbedhisforehead。

\"Idonotunderstand,\"hesaid。

\"’Tain’tunderstanding!It’sbelievin’。Blessyer,SHEdoesn’tunderstand。Isay,let’sgoan’talkto’erabit。Shedon’tmindnothin’,an’

she’llletusin。WecanleavePollyan’’im’ere。Theycanmakesomemoreteaan’drinkit。\"

Itendedintheirgoingoutoftheroomtogetheragainandstumblingoncemoredownthestairway’scrookedness。AtthebottomofthefirstshortflighttheystoppedinthedarknessandGladknockedatadoorwithasummonsmanifestlyexpectantofcheerfulwelcome。Sheusedtheformulashehadusedbefore。

\"’Son’yme,MissMontaubyn,\"

shecriedout。\"’Son’yGlad。\"

Thedooropenedinwidewelcome,andconfrontingthemasshehelditshandlestoodasmalloldwomanwithanastonishingface。Itwasastonishingbecausewhileitwaswitheredandwrinkledwithmarksofpastyearswhichhadoncestampedtheirrecklessunsavorinessuponitseveryline,somestrangeredeemingthinghadhappenedtoitanditsexpressionwasthatofacreaturetowhomtheopeningofadoorcouldonlymeantheentrance——thetumblinginasitwere——ofhopesrealized。

Itssurfacewassweptcleanofeventhevaguestanticipationofanythingnottobedesired。Smilingasitdidthroughtheblackdoorwayintotheunrelievedshadowofthepassage,itstruckAntonyDartatoncethatitactuallyimpliedthis——

andthatinthisplace——andindeedinanyplace——nothingcouldhavebeenmoreastonishing。Whatcould,indeed?

\"Well,well,\"shesaid,\"comein,Glad,blessyer。\"

\"I’vebroughtagentto’earyertalkabit,\"Gladexplainedinformally。

Thesmalloldwomanraisedhertwinklingoldfacetolookathim。

\"Ah!\"shesaid,asifsummingupwhatwasbeforeher。\"’Ethinksit’sworsethanitis,doesn’t’e,now?

Comein,sir,do。\"

ThistimeitstruckDartthatherlookseemedactuallytoanticipatetheevolvingofsomewonderfulanddesirablethingfromhimself。Asifevenhisgloomcarriedwithittreasureasyetundisplayed。Assheknewnothingofthetensovereigns,hewonderedwhat,inGod’sname,shesaw。

Thepovertyofthelittlesquareroomhadanoddcheerinit。MuchscrubbinghadremovedfromittheobjectionsmanifestinGlad’sroomabove。Therewasasmallredfireinthegrate,astripofold,butgaycarpetbeforeit,twochairsandatablewerecoveredwithaharlequinpatchworkmadeofbrightoddsandendsofallsizesandshapes。Thefoginallitsmurkyvolumecouldnotquiteobscurethebrightnessoftheoftenrubbedwindowanditsharlequincurtaindrawnacrossuponastring。

\"Blessyer,\"saidMissMontaubyn,\"sitdown。\"

Dartsatandthankedher。GladdroppeduponthefloorandgirdledherkneescomfortablywhileMissMontaubyntookthesecondchair,whichwasclosetothetable,andsnuffedthecandlewhichstoodnearabasketofcoloredscrapssuchas,withoutdoubt,hadmadetheharlequincurtain。

\"Yerwon’tmindmegoin’onwithmebito’work?\"shechirped。

\"Tell’imwotitis,\"Gladsuggested。

\"Theycomefromadressmakerasisinasmallway,\"designatingthescrapsbyagesture。\"Icleanupfor’eran’

sheletsme’ave’em。Imake’emupintoanythinkIcan——pin—cushionsan’

bagsan’curtingsan’balls。Nobody’dthinkwottheyruntosometimes。

Nowan’thenIsellsomeof’em。

WotIcan’tsellIgiveaway。\"

\"DrunkenBet’sbibyplayswith’erballallday,\"saidGlad。

\"Ah!\"saidMissMontaubyn,drawingoutalongneedlefulofthread,\"Bet,SHEthinksitworsethanitis。\"

\"Coulditbeworse?\"askedDart。

\"Couldanythingbeworsethaneverythingis?\"

\"Lots,\"suggestedGlad;\"might’avebrokeyourback,might’aveafever,mightbeinjailforknifin’

someone。’Ewantsto’earyoutalk,MissMontaubyn;tell’imallaboutyerself。\"

\"Me!\"herexpectanteyesonhim。

\"’Ewouldn’twantto’earit。I

shouldn’twantto’earitmyself。

Bein’onthe’allswhenyeraprettygirlain’tan’elpfullife;an’bein’

tookupan’droppeddowntillyerdroppedinthegutteran’don’tknow’owtogetout——it’swotyermustn’tletyermindgobackto。\"

\"That’swotthelidysaid,\"calledoutGlad。\"Tell’imaboutthelidy。

Shedoesn’tevenknowwhoshewas。\"

TheremarkwastossedtoDart。

\"Nevereven’eard’ername,\"withunabatedcheersaidMissMontaubyn。

\"Shecomean’shewentan’metoolowtodoanythingbutliean’lookat’erandlisten。An’`Whichofustwoismad?’Isestomyself。ButI

laythinkin’andthinkin’——an’itwassocheerfleIcouldn’tgetitoutofme’ead——nornever’avesince。\"

\"Whatdidshesay?\"

\"Icouldn’trememberthewords——itwasthewaytheytookawaythingsabody’safraidof。Itwasaboutthingsnever’avin’reallybeenlikewotwethoughttheywas。

Godamightynow,thereain’tabitof’armin’im。\"

\"What?\"hesaidwithastart。

\"’Eneverdonetheaccidentsandthetrouble。Itwasusaswentoutofthelightintothedark。Ifwe’dkep’inthelightallthetime,an’

thoughtaboutit,an’talkedaboutit,we’dnever’adnothin’else。’Tain’tpunishmentneither。’Tain’tnothin’

butthedark——an’thedarkain’tnothin’butthelightbein’away。

`Keepinthelight,’sheses,`neverthinkofnothin’else,an’thenyou’llbeginan’seethings。Everybody’sbeenafraid。Thereain’tnoneed。

YoubelieveTHAT。’\"

\"Believe?\"saidDartheavily。

Shenodded。

\"`Yes,’sesIto’er,`that’swherethetroublecomesin——believin’。’

Andsheanswersascoolascouldbe:`Yes,itis,’sheses,`we’veallbeenthinkin’we’vebeenbelievin’,an’noneofus’as。Ifwe’adwhat’dtherebetobeafraidof?Ifwebelievedakingwasgivin’usourlivin’an’takin’careofuswho’dbeafraidofnot’avin’enoughtoeat?’\"

\"Who?\"groanedDart。Hesathanginghisheadandstaringatthefloor。Thiswasanotherphaseofthedream。

\"`Whereis’E?’Ises。`’Imasbreaksoldwomen’slegsan’crushesbabiesunderwheels——soasthey’llberesigned?’An’allofasuddenshecallsoutquiteloud:`Nowhere,’

sheses。`An’neverwas。But’Imasstretchedforththe’eavensan’laidthefoundationsoftheearth,’ImasistheLifean’Loveoftheworld,’E’s’ERE!Stretchoutyer’and,’sheses,’an’callout,\"Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,\"an’ye’ll’earan’SEE。

An’neveryoustopsayin’it——letyer’eartbeatitan’yerbreathbreatheit——an’yer’llfindyergoin’aboutlaughin’softtoyerselfan’lovin’

everythin’asifitwasyerownchildatbreast。An’no’armcancometoyer。Tryitwhenyergo’ome。’\"

\"Didyou?\"askedDart。

Gladansweredforherwithatremulous——yesitwasaTREMULOUS——

giggle,aweirdlymovedlittlesound。

\"Whenshewakesinthemornin’

shesesto’erself,`Goodthingsisgoin’tocometo—day——cheerflethings。’Whenthere’saknockatthedoorsheses,`Somethin’friendly’scomin’in。’An’whenDrunkenBet’smakin’arowan’ragin’an’tearin’

an’threatenin’to’ave’ereyesoutof’erfice,sheses,`Lor,Bet,yerdon’tmeanawordofit——yerafriendtoeverywomaninthe’ouse。’Whenshedon’tknowwhichwaytoturn,shestandsstillan’ses,`Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,’an’thenshedoeswotevernextcomesinto’ermind——

an’shesaysit’sallustherightanswer。