第6章

That’sthewaythewillisdonein’eaven。That’swotIarstforalldaylong——forittobedoneonearthasitisin’eaven。’WhatcouldIsay?CouldItellherthatthewilloftheDeityontheearthhecreatedwasonlythewilltodoevil——togivepain——tocrushthecreaturemadeinHisownimage。Whatelsedowemeanwhenwesayunderallhorrorandagonythatbefalls,`ItisGod’swill——God’swillbedone。’

BaseunbelieverthoughIam,Icouldnotspeakthewords。Oh,shehassomethingwehavenot。Herpoor,littlemisspentlifehaschangeditselfintoashiningthing,thoughitshinesandglowsonlyinthishideousplace。

Sheherselfdoesnotknowofitsshining。ButDrunkenBetwouldstaggeruptoherroomandasktobetoldwhatshecalledher`pantermine’

stories。Ihaveseenhertheresittinglistening——listeningwithstrangequietonheranddullyearninginhersoddeneyes。Sowouldotherandworsewomengotoher,andI,whohadstruggledwiththem,couldseethatshehadreachedsomeremotelongingintheirbeingswhichIhadnevertouched。Intimetheseedwouldhavestirredtolife——itisbeginningtostirevennow。Duringthemonthssinceshecamebacktothecourt——thoughtheyhavelaughedather——bothmenandwomenhavebeguntoseeherasacreatureweirdlysetapart。Mostofthemfeelsomethinglikeaweofher;theyhalfbelieveherprayerstobebewitchments,buttheywantthemontheirside。

Theyhaveneverwantedmine。ThatIhaveknown——KNOWN。ShebelievesthatherDeityisinAppleBlossomCourt——inthedireholesitspeoplelivein,onthebrokenstairway,ineverynookandawfulcrannyofit——

agreatGlorywewillnotsee——onlywaitingtobecalledandtoanswer。

Do_I_believeit——doyou——doanyofthoseanointedofuswhopreacheachdaysoglibly`GodisEVERYWHERE’?

Whoistheonewhobelieves?IfthereweresuchamanhewouldgoaboutasMosesdidwhen`Hewistnotthathisfaceshone。’\"

Theyhadgoneouttogetherandwerestandinginthefoginthecourt。Thecurateremovedhishatandpassedhishandkerchiefoverhisdampforehead,hisbreathcomingandgoingalmostsobbingly,hiseyesstaringstraightbeforehimintotheyellownessofthehaze。

\"Who,\"hesaidafteramomentofsingularsilence,\"whoareyou?\"

AntonyDarthesitatedafewseconds,andattheendofhispauseheputhishandintohisovercoatpocket。

\"IfyouwillcomeupstairswithmetotheroomwherethegirlGladlives,Iwilltellyou,\"hesaid,\"butbeforewegoIwanttohandsomethingovertoyou。\"

Thecurateturnedanamazedgazeuponhim。

\"Whatisit?\"heasked。

Dartwithdrewhishandfromhispocket,andthepistolwasinit。

\"Icameoutthismorningtobuythis,\"hesaid。\"Iintended——nevermindwhatIintended。Awrongturntakeninthefogbroughtmehere。Takethisthingfrommeandkeepit。\"

Thecuratetookthepistolandputitintohisownpocketwithoutcomment。

Inthecourseofhislaborshehadseendesperatemenanddesperatethingsmanytimes。Hehadevenbeen——atmoments——adesperatemanthinkingdesperatethingshimself,thoughnohumanbeinghadeversuspectedthefact。Thismanhadfacedsometragedy,hecouldsee。

Hadhebeenonthevergeofacrime——hadhelookedmurderintheeyes?

Whathadmadehimpause?WasitpossiblethatthedreamofJinnyMontaubynbeingintheairhadreachedhisbrain——hisbeing?

Helookedalmostappealinglyathim,butheonlysaidaloud:

\"Letusgoupstairs,then。\"

Sotheywent。

AstheypassedthedooroftheroomwherethedeadwomanlayDartwentinandspoketoMissMontaubyn,whowasstillthere。

\"Iftherearethingswantedhere,\"

hesaid,\"thiswillbuythem。\"Andheputsomemoneyintoherhand。

Shedidnotseemsurprisedattheincongruityofhisshabbinessproducingmoney。

\"Well,now,\"shesaid,\"IWAS

wonderin’an’askin’。I’dlike’ercleanan’nice,an’there’smilkwantedbadforthebiby。\"

IntheroomtheymountedtoGladwastryingtofeedthechildwithbreadsoftenedintea。Pollysatnearherlookingonwithrestless,eagereyes。Shehadneverseenanythingofherownbabybutitslimpnewbornanddeadbodybeingcarriedawayoutofsight。Shehadnotevendaredtoaskwhatwasdonewithsuchpoorlittlecarrion。Thetyrannyofthelawoflifemadeherwanttopawandtouchthislatelybornthing,asheragonyhadgivenhernofruitofherownbodytotouchandpawandnuzzleandcaressasmothercreatureswillwhethertheybewomenortigressesordovesorfemalecats。

\"Letmeholdher,Glad,\"shehalfwhimpered。\"Whenshe’sfedletmegethertosleep。\"

\"Allright,\"Gladanswered;\"wecouldlookafter’erbetweenuswellenough。\"

Thethiefwasstillsittingonthehearth,butbeingfullfedandcomfortableforthefirsttimeinmanyaday,hehadrestedhisheadagainstthewallandfallenintoprofoundsleep。

\"Wot’sup?\"saidGladwhenthetwomencamein。\"Isanythin’

’appenin’?\"

\"Ihavecomeupheretotellyousomething,\"Dartanswered。\"Letussitdownagainroundthefire。Itwilltakealittletime。\"

GladwitheagereyesonhimhandedthechildtoPollyandsatdownwithoutamoment’shesitance,avidofwhatwastocome。Shenudgedthethiefwithfriendlyelbowandhestartedupawake。

\"’E’sgotsomethin’totellus,\"

sheexplained。\"Thecurick’scomeupto’earit,too。Sit’ere,Polly,\"

withelbowjerktowardthebundleofsacks。\"It’sgotitsstummickfullan’it’llgotosleepfastenough。\"

Sotheysatagainintheweirdcircle。Neitherthestrangenessofthegroupnorthesqualorofthehearthwereofanaturetobenewthingstothecurate。HiseyesfixedthemselvesonDart’sface,asdidtheeyesofthethief,thebeggar,andtheyoungthingofthestreet。Nooneglancedawayfromhim。

Histellingofhisstorywasalmostmonotonousinitssemi—reflectivequietnessoftone。Thestrangenesstohimself——thoughitwasastrangenessheacceptedabsolutelywithoutprotest——layinhistellingitatall,andinasenseofhisknowledgethateachofthesecreatureswouldunderstandandmysteriouslyknowwhatdepthshehadtouchedthisday。

\"JustbeforeIleftmylodgingsthismorning,\"hesaid,\"IfoundmyselfstandinginthemiddleofmyroomandspeakingtoSomethingaloud。IdidnotknowIwasgoingtospeak。IdidnotknowwhatI

wasspeakingto。Iheardmyownvoicecryoutinagony,`Lord,Lord,whatshallIdotobesaved?’\"

Thecuratemadeasuddenmove—

mentinhisplaceandhissallowyoungfaceflushed。Buthesaidnothing。

Glad’ssmallandsharpcountenancebecamecurious。

\"`Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,’\"shequotedtentatively。

\"No,\"answeredDart;\"itwasnotlikethat。Ihadneverthoughtofsuchthings。Ibelievednothing。

IwasgoingouttobuyapistolandwhenIreturnedintendedtoblowmybrainsout。\"

\"Why?\"askedGlad,withpassionatelyintenteyes;\"why?\"

\"BecauseIwaswornoutanddonefor,andalltheworldseemedwornoutanddonefor。AndamongotherthingsIbelievedIwasbeginningslowlytogomad。\"

Fromthethiefthereburstforthalowgroanandheturnedhisfacetothewall。

\"I’vebeenthere,\"hesaid;\"I’mneartherenow。\"

Darttookupspeechagain。

\"Therewasnoanswer——none。

AsIstoodwaiting——Godknowsforwhat——thedeadstillnessoftheroomwaslikethedeadstillnessofthegrave。

AndIwentoutsayingtomysoul,`Thisiswhathappenstothefoolwhocriesaloudinhispain。’\"

\"I’vecriedaloud,\"saidthethief,\"andsometimesitseemedasifananswerwascoming——butIalwaysknewitneverwould!\"inatorturedvoice。

\"’Tain’tfairtoarstthatwye,\"

Gladputinwithshrewdlogic。

\"MissMontaubynsheallersknowsitWILLcome——an’itdoes。\"

\"Something——notmyself——turnedmyfeettowardthisplace,\"saidDart。

\"Iwasthrustfromonethingtoanother。Iwasforcedtoseeandhearthingscloseathand。IthasbeenasifIwasunderaspell。Thewomanintheroombelow——thewomanlyingdead!\"Hestoppedasecond,andthenwenton:\"Thereistoomuchthatiscryingoutaloud。AmansuchasIam——ithasFORCEDitselfuponme——cannotleavesuchthingsandgivehimselftothedust。IcannotexplainclearlybecauseIamnotthinkingasIamaccustomedtothink。Achangehascomeuponme。Ishallnotusethepistol——asImeanttouseit。\"

Gladmadeafriendlyclutchatthesleeveofhisshabbycoat。

\"RightO!\"shecried。\"That’sit!YoubuckupsimeasItoldyer。

Y’ain’tstonybrokean’there’s’allersto—morrer。\"

AntonyDart’sexpressionwasweirdlyretrospective。

\"Ididnotthinksothismorning,\"

heanswered。

\"Butthereis,\"saidthegirl。

\"Ain’ttherenow,curick?There’saloto’workinyeryet;yercoulddoallsortso’thingsify’ain’ttooproud。I’ll’elpyer。So’llthecurick。Y’ain’tfoundoutyetwhatalittlefolkscanliveontillluckturns。Me,I’mgoin’totryMissMontaubyn’swye。Le’sbothtry。Le’sbelievethingsiscomin’。

Le’sget’ertotalktoussomemore。\"

Thecuratewasthinkingthethingoverdeeply。

\"Yersee,\"Gladenlargedcheerfully,\"yerlookalmostlikeagentleman。

P’rapsyercanwriteagood’andan’spellallright。Canyer?\"

\"Yes。\"

\"Ithink,perhaps,\"thecuratebeganreflectively,\"particularlyifyoucanwritewell,Imightbeabletogetyousomework。\"

\"Idonotwantwork,\"Dartansweredslowly。\"AtleastIdonotwantthekindyouwouldbelikelytoofferme。\"

Thecuratefeltashock,asifcoldwaterhadbeendashedoverhim。

Somehowithadnotonceoccurredtohimthatthemancouldbeoneoftheeducateddegenerateviciousforwhomnopowertohelplayinanyhands——yethewasnotthecommonvagrant——andhewasplainlyonthepointofproducinganexcuseforrefusingwork。

Theotherman,seeinghisstartandhisamazed,troubledflush,putoutahandandtouchedhisarmapologetically。

\"Ibegyourpardon,\"hesaid。

\"OneofthethingsIwasgoingtotellyou——Ihadnotfinished——wasthatIAMwhatiscalledagentleman。

Iamalsowhattheworldknowsasarichman。IamSirOliverHolt。\"

Eachmemberofthepartygazedathimaghast。Itwasanenormousnametoclaim。Eventhetwofemalecreaturesknewwhatitstoodfor。Itwasthenamewhichrepresentedthegreatestwealthandpowerintheworldoffinanceandschemesofbusiness。

Itstoodforfinancialinfluencewhichcouldchangethefaceofnationalfortunesandbringaboutcrises。Itwasknownthroughouttheworld。YesterdaythenewspaperrumorthatitsownerhadmysteriouslyleftEnglandhadcausedmenon’Changetodiscusspossibilitiestogetherwithloweredvoices。

Gladstaredatthecurate。Forthefirsttimeshelookeddisturbedandalarmed。

\"Blimme,\"sheejaculated,\"’e’sgoneoff’isnut,porechap!——’e’sgoneoffit!\"

\"No,\"themananswered,\"youshallcometome\"——hehesitatedasecondwhileashadepassedoverhiseyes——\"TO—MORROW。Andyoushallsee。\"

Herosequietlytohisfeetandthecuraterosealso。Abnormalastheclimaxwas,itwastobeseenthattherewasnomistakeabouttherevelation。Themanwasacreatureofauthorityandusedtocarryingconvictionbyhisunsupportedword。

Thatmadeitself,bysomeclear,unspokenmethod,plain。

\"YouareSirOliverHolt!Andafewhoursagoyouwereonthepointof——\"

\"Endingitall——inanobscurelodging。Afterwardtheearthwouldhavebeenshovelledontoawork—

housecoffin。Itwasanawfulthing。\"

Heshookoffapassionateshudder。

\"Therewasnowealthonearththatcouldgivemeamoment’sease——

sleep——hope——life。ThewholeworldwasfullofthingsIloathedthesightandthoughtof。Thedoctorssaidmyconditionwasphysical。Perhapsitwas——perhapsto—dayhasstrangelygivenahealthfuljolttomynerves——perhapsIhavebeendraggedawayfromtheagonyofmorbidityandplungedintonewintenseemotionswhichhavesavedmefromthelastthingandtheworst——SAVED

me!\"

Hestoppedsuddenlyandhisfaceflushed,andthenquiteslowlyturnedpale。

\"SAVEDME!\"herepeatedthewordsasthecuratesawtheawedbloodcreepinglyrecede。\"Whoknows,whoknows!Howmanyexplanationsoneisreadytogivebeforeonethinksofwhatwesaywebelieve。

Perhapsitwas——theAnswer!\"

Thecuratebowedhisheadreverently。

\"Perhapsitwas。\"

ThegirlGladsatclingingtoherknees,hereyeswideandawedandwithasuddengushofhysterictearsrushingdownhercheeks。

\"That’sthewye!That’sthewye!\"shegulpedout。\"Noonewon’tneverbelieve——theywon’t,NEVER。That’swhatshesees,MissMontaubyn。Youdon’t,’Edon’t,\"

withajerktowardthecurate。\"I

ain’tnothin’butME,butblimmeifI

don’t——blimme!\"

SirOliverHoltgrewpalerstill。

HefeltashehaddonewhenJinnyMontaubyn’spoordresssweptagainsthim。Hisvoiceshookwhenhespoke。

\"SodoI,\"hesaidwithasuddendeepcatchofthebreath;\"itwastheAnswer。\"

InafewmomentsmorehewenttothegirlPollyandlaidahandonhershoulder。

\"Ishalltakeyouhometoyourmother,\"hesaid。\"Ishalltakeyoumyselfandcareforyouboth。Sheshallknownothingyouareafraidofherhearing。Ishallaskhertobringupthechild。Youwillhelpher。\"

Thenhetouchedthethief,whogotupwhiteandshakingandwitheyesmoistwithexcitement。

\"Youshallneverseeanothermanclaimyourthoughtbecauseyouhavenottimeormoneytoworkitout。

Youwillgowithme。Thereareto—morrowsenoughforyou!\"

Gladstillsatclingingtoherkneesandwithtearsrunning,buttheuglinessofhersharp,smallfacewasathinganangelmighthavepausedtosee。

\"Youdon’twanttogoawayfromhere,\"SirOliversaidtoher,andsheshookherhead。

\"No,notme。ItoldyerwotI

wanted。Lemmedoit。\"

\"Youshall,\"heanswered,\"andIwillhelpyou。\"

ThethingswhichdevelopedinAppleBlossomCourtlater,thethingswhichcametoeachofthosewhohadsatintheweirdcircleroundthefire,therevelationsofnewexistencewhichcametoherself,arousednoamazementinJinnyMontaubyn’smind。Shehadaskedandbelievedallthings——andallthiswasbutanotheroftheAnswers。