第6章

DORN。Right。

MASHA。Haveyouputdownthree?Eight。Eighty—one。Ten。

SHAMRAEFF。Don’tgosofast。

ARKADINA。Couldyoubelieveit?IamstilldazedbythereceptiontheygavemeinKharkoff。

MASHA。Thirty—four。[Thenotesofamelancholywaltzareheard。]

ARKADINA。Thestudentsgavemeanovation;theysentmethreebasketsofflowers,awreath,andthisthinghere。

Sheunclaspsabroochfromherbreastandlaysitonthetable。

SHAMRAEFF。Thereissomethingworthwhile!

MASHA。Fifty。

DORN。Fifty,didyousay?

ARKADINA。Iworeaperfectlymagnificentdress;Iamnofoolwhenitcomestoclothes。

PAULINA。Constantineisplayingagain;thepoorboyissad。

SHAMRAEFF。Hehasbeenseverelycriticisedinthepapers。

MASHA。Seventy—seven。

ARKADINA。Theywanttoattractattentiontohim。

TRIGORIN。Hedoesn’tseemabletomakeasuccess,hecan’tsomehowstriketherightnote。Thereisanoddvaguenessabouthiswritingsthatsometimesvergesondelirium。Hehasnevercreatedasinglelivingcharacter。

MASHA。Eleven。

ARKADINA。Areyoubored,Peter?[Apause]Heisasleep。

DORN。TheCouncilloristakinganap。

MASHA。Seven。Ninety。

TRIGORIN。DoyouthinkIshouldwriteifIlivedinsuchaplaceasthis,ontheshoreofthislake?Never!Ishouldovercomemypassion,andgivemylifeuptothecatchingoffish。

MASHA。Twenty—eight。

TRIGORIN。AndifIcaughtaperchorabass,whatblissitwouldbe!

DORN。IhavegreatfaithinConstantine。Iknowthereissomethinginhim。Hethinksinimages;hisstoriesarevividandfullofcolour,andalwaysaffectmedeeply。Itisonlyapitythathehasnodefiniteobjectinview。Hecreatesimpressions,andnothingmore,andonecannotgofaronimpressionsalone。Areyouglad,madam,thatyouhaveanauthorforason?

ARKADINA。Justthink,Ihaveneverreadanythingofhis;Ineverhavetime。

MASHA。Twenty—six。

TREPLIEFFcomesinquietlyandsitsdownathistable。

SHAMRAEFF。[ToTRIGORIN]Wehavesomethingherethatbelongstoyou,sir。

TRIGORIN。Whatisit?

SHAMRAEFF。Youtoldmetohavethesea—gullstuffedthatMr。

Constantinekilledsometimeago。

TRIGORIN。DidI?[Thoughtfully]Idon’tremember。

MASHA。Sixty—one。One。

TREPLIEFFthrowsopenthewindowandstandslistening。

TREPLIEFF。Howdarkthenightis!Iwonderwhatmakesmesorestless。

ARKADINA。Shutthewindow,Constantine,thereisadraughthere。

TREPLIEFFshutsthewindow。

MASHA。Ninety—eight。

TRIGORIN。See,mycardisfull。

ARKADINA。[Gaily]Bravo!Bravo!

SHAMRAEFF。Bravo!

ARKADINA。Whereverhegoesandwhateverhedoes,thatmanalwayshasgoodluck。[Shegetsup]Andnow,cometosupper。Ourrenownedguestdidnothaveanydinnerto—day。Wecancontinueourgamelater。[Toherson]Come,Constantine,leaveyourwritingandcometosupper。

TREPLIEFF。Idon’twantanythingtoeat,mother;Iamnothungry。

ARKADINA。Asyouplease。[ShewakesSORIN]Cometosupper,Peter。

[ShetakesSHAMRAEFF’Sarm]LetmetellyouaboutmyreceptioninKharkoff。

PAULINAblowsoutthecandlesonthetable,thensheandDORN

rollSORIN’Schairoutoftheroom,andallgooutthroughthedoorontheleft,exceptTREPLIEFF,whoisleftalone。TREPLIEFF

preparestowrite。Herunshiseyeoverwhathehasalreadywritten。

TREPLIEFF。Ihavetalkedagreatdealaboutnewformsofart,butIfeelmyselfgraduallyslippingintothebeatentrack。[Hereads]\"Theplacardcrieditfromthewall——apalefaceinaframeofduskyhair\"——cried——frame——thatisstupid。[Hescratchesoutwhathehaswritten]Ishallbeginagainfromtheplacewheremyheroiswakenedbythenoiseoftherain,butwhatfollowsmustgo。Thisdescriptionofamoonlightnightislongandstilted。Trigorinhasworkedoutaprocessofhisown,anddescriptionsareeasyforhim。Hewritesthattheneckofabrokenbottlelyingonthebankglitteredinthemoonlight,andthattheshadowslayblackunderthemill—wheel。Thereyouhaveamoonlightnightbeforeyoureyes,butIspeakoftheshimmeringlight,thetwinklingstars,thedistantsoundsofapianomeltingintothestillandscentedair,andtheresultisabominable。[A

pause]Theconvictionisgraduallyforcingitselfuponmethatgoodliteratureisnotaquestionofformsneworold,butofideasthatmustpourfreelyfromtheauthor’sheart,withouthisbotheringhisheadaboutanyformswhatsoever。[Aknockisheardatthewindownearestthetable]Whatwasthat?[Helooksoutofthewindow]Ican’tseeanything。[Heopenstheglassdoorandlooksoutintothegarden]Iheardsomeonerundownthesteps。

[Hecalls]Whoisthere?[Hegoesout,andisheardwalkingquicklyalongtheterrace。InafewminuteshecomesbackwithNINAZARIETCHNAYA]Oh,Nina,Nina!

NINAlaysherheadonTREPLIEFF’Sbreastandstifleshersobs。

TREPLIEFF。[Deeplymoved]Nina,Nina!Itisyou——you!Ifeltyouwouldcome;alldaymyhearthasbeenachingforyou。[Hetakesoffherhatandcloak]Mydarling,mybelovedhascomebacktome!Wemustn’tcry,wemustn’tcry。

NINA。Thereissomeonehere。

TREPLIEFF。Nooneishere。

NINA。Lockthedoor,someonemightcome。

TREPLIEFF。Noonewillcomein。

NINA。Iknowyourmotherishere。Lockthedoor。

TREPLIEFFlocksthedoorontherightandcomesbacktoNINA。

TREPLIEFF。Thereisnolockonthatone。Ishallputachairagainstit。[Heputsanarm—chairagainstthedoor]Don’tbefrightened,nooneshallcomein。

NINA。[Gazingintentlyintohisface]Letmelookatyou。[Shelooksabouther]Itiswarmandcomfortableinhere。Thisusedtobeasitting—room。HaveIchangedmuch?

TREPLIEFF。Yes,youhavegrownthinner,andyoureyesarelargerthantheywere。Nina,itseemssostrangetoseeyou!Whydidn’tyouletmegotoyou?Whydidn’tyoucomesoonertome?Youhavebeenherenearlyaweek,Iknow。Ihavebeenseveraltimeseachdaytowhereyoulive,andhavestoodlikeabeggarbeneathyourwindow。

NINA。Iwasafraidyoumighthateme。Idreameverynightthatyoulookatmewithoutrecognisingme。IhavebeenwanderingaboutontheshoresofthelakeeversinceIcameback。Ihaveoftenbeennearyourhouse,butIhaveneverhadthecouragetocomein。Letussitdown。[Theysitdown]Letussitdownandtalkourheartsout。Itissoquietandwarminhere。Doyouhearthewindwhistlingoutside?AsTurgenieffsays,\"Happyishewhocansitatnightundertheroofofhishome,whohasawarmcornerinwhichtotakerefuge。\"Iamasea—gull——andyet——no。

[Shepassesherhandacrossherforehead]WhatwasIsaying?Oh,yes,Turgenieff。Hesays,\"andGodhelpallhouselesswanderers。\"

[Shesobs。]

TREPLIEFF。Nina!Youarecryingagain,Nina!

NINA。Itisallright。Ishallfeelbetterafterthis。Ihavenotcriedfortwoyears。Iwentintothegardenlastnighttoseeifouroldtheatrewerestillstanding。Iseeitis。Iweptthereforthefirsttimeintwoyears,andmyheartgrewlighter,andmysoulsawmoreclearlyagain。See,Iamnotcryingnow。[Shetakeshishandinhers]Soyouareanauthornow,andIamanactress。Wehavebothbeensuckedintothewhirlpool。Mylifeusedtobeashappyasachild’s;Iusedtowakesinginginthemorning;Ilovedyouanddreamtoffame,andwhatisthereality?

To—morrowmorningearlyImuststartforEltzbytraininathird—classcarriage,withalotofpeasants,andatEltztheeducatedtrades—peoplewillpursuemewithcompliments。Itisaroughlife。

TREPLIEFF。WhyareyougoingtoEltz?

NINA。Ihaveacceptedanengagementthereforthewinter。Itistimeformetogo。

TREPLIEFF。Nina,Ihavecursedyou,andhatedyou,andtornupyourphotograph,andyetIhaveknowneveryminuteofmylifethatmyheartandsoulwereyoursforever。Toceasefromlovingyouisbeyondmypower。IhavesufferedcontinuallyfromthetimeIlostyouandbegantowrite,andmylifehasbeenalmostunendurable。Myyouthwassuddenlypluckedfrommethen,andI

seemnowtohavelivedinthisworldforninetyyears。Ihavecalledouttoyou,Ihavekissedthegroundyouwalkedon,whereverIlookedIhaveseenyourfacebeforemyeyes,andthesmilethathadilluminedformethebestyearsofmylife。

NINA。[Despairingly]Why,whydoeshetalktomelikethis?

TREPLIEFF。Iamquitealone,unwarmedbyanyattachment。IamascoldasifIwerelivinginacave。WhateverIwriteisdryandgloomyandharsh。Stayhere,Nina,Ibeseechyou,orelseletmegoawaywithyou。

NINAquicklyputsonhercoatandhat。

TREPLIEFF。Nina,whydoyoudothat?ForGod’ssake,Nina![Hewatchesherasshedresses。Apause。]

NINA。Mycarriageisatthegate。Donotcomeouttoseemeoff。

Ishallfindthewayalone。[Weeping]Letmehavesomewater。

TREPLIEFFhandsheraglassofwater。

TREPLIEFF。Whereareyougoing?

NINA。Backtothevillage。Isyourmotherhere?

TREPLIEFF。Yes,myunclefellillonThursday,andwetelegraphedforhertocome。

NINA。WhydoyousaythatyouhavekissedthegroundIwalkedon?

Youshouldkillmerather。[Shebendsoverthetable]Iamsotired。IfIcouldonlyrest——rest。[Sheraisesherhead]Iamasea—gull——no——no,Iamanactress。[ShehearsARKADINAandTRIGORINlaughinginthedistance,runstothedoorontheleftandlooksthroughthekeyhole]Heistheretoo。[ShegoesbacktoTREPLIEFF]Ah,well——nomatter。Hedoesnotbelieveinthetheatre;heusedtolaughatmydreams,sothatlittlebylittleIbecamedown—heartedandceasedtobelieveinittoo。Thencameallthecaresoflove,thecontinualanxietyaboutmylittleone,sothatIsoongrewtrivialandspiritless,andplayedmypartswithoutmeaning。1neverknewwhattodowithmyhands,andI

couldnotwalkproperlyorcontrolmyvoice。Youcannotimaginethestateofmindofonewhoknowsashegoesthroughaplayhowterriblybadlyheisacting。Iamasea—gull——no——no,thatisnotwhatImeanttosay。Doyourememberhowyoushotaseagullonce?Amanchancedtopassthatwayanddestroyeditoutofidleness。Thatisanideaforashortstory,butitisnotwhatI

meanttosay。[Shepassesherhandacrossherforehead]WhatwasIsaying?Oh,yes,thestage。Ihavechangednow。NowIamarealactress。Iactwithjoy,withexaltation,Iamintoxicatedbyit,andfeelthatIamsuperb。Ihavebeenwalkingandwalking,andthinkingandthinking,eversinceIhavebeenhere,andIfeelthestrengthofmyspiritgrowinginmeeveryday。Iknownow,I

understandatlast,Constantine,thatforus,whetherwewriteoract,itisnotthehonourandgloryofwhichIhavedreamtthatisimportant,itisthestrengthtoendure。Onemustknowhowtobearone’scross,andonemusthavefaith。Ibelieve,andsodonotsuffersomuch,andwhenIthinkofmycallingIdonotfearlife。

TREPLIEFF。[Sadly]Youhavefoundyourway,youknowwhereyouaregoing,butIamstillgropinginachaosofphantomsanddreams,notknowingwhomandwhatendIamservingbyitall。I

donotbelieveinanything,andIdonotknowwhatmycallingis。

NINA。[Listening]Hush!Imustgo。Good—bye。WhenIhavebecomeafamousactressyoumustcomeandseeme。Willyoupromisetocome?Butnow——[Shetakeshishand]itislate。Icanhardlystand。Iamfainting。Iamhungry。

TREPLIEFF。Stay,andletmebringyousomesupper。

NINA。No,no——anddon’tcomeout,Icanfindthewayalone。Mycarriageisnotfaraway。Soshebroughthimbackwithher?

However,whatdifferencecanthatmaketome?Don’ttellTrigorinanythingwhenyouseehim。Ilovehim——IlovehimevenmorethanIusedto。Itisanideaforashortstory。Ilovehim——Ilovehimpassionately——Ilovehimtodespair。Haveyouforgotten,Constantine,howpleasanttheoldtimeswere?Whatagay,bright,gentle,purelifeweled?Howafeelingassweetandtenderasaflowerblossomedinourhearts?Doyouremember,[Sherecites]

\"Allmenandbeasts,lions,eagles,andquails,hornedstags,geese,spiders,silentfishthatinhabitthewaves,starfishfromthesea,andcreaturesinvisibletotheeye——inoneword,life——all,alllife,completingthedrearyroundsetbeforeit,hasdiedoutatlast。Athousandyearshavepassedsincetheearthlastborealivingcreatureonitsbreast,andtheunhappymoonnowlightsherlampinvain。Nolongerarethecriesofstorksheardinthemeadows,orthedroneofbeetlesinthegrovesoflimes————\"

SheembracesTREPLIEFFimpetuouslyandrunsoutontotheterrace。

TREPLIEFF。[Afterapause]Itwouldbeapityifshewereseeninthegarden。Mymotherwouldbedistressed。

Hestandsforseveralminutestearinguphismanuscriptsandthrowingthemunderthetable,thenunlocksthedoorontherightandgoesout。

DORN。[Tryingtoforceopenthedoorontheleft]Odd!Thisdoorseemstobelocked。[Hecomesinandputsthechairbackinitsformerplace]Thisislikeahurdlerace。

ARKADINAandPAULINAcomein,followedbyJACOBcarryingsomebottles;thencomeMASHA,SHAMRAEFF,andTRIGORIN。

ARKADINA。Puttheclaretandthebeerhere,onthetable,sothatwecandrinkwhileweareplaying。Sitdown,friends。

PAULINA。Andbringtheteaatonce。

Shelightsthecandlesandtakesherseatatthecard—table。

SHAMRAEFFleadsTRIGORINtothecupboard。

SHAMRAEFF。Hereisthestuffedsea—gullIwastellingyouabout。

[Hetakesthesea—gulloutofthecupboard]Youtoldmetohaveitdone。

TRIGORIN。[lookingatthebird]Idon’trememberathingaboutit,notathing。[Ashotisheard。Everyonejumps。]

ARKADINA。[Frightened]Whatwasthat?

DORN。Nothingatall;probablyoneofmymedicinebottleshasblownup。Don’tworry。[Hegoesoutthroughthedoorontheright,andcomesbackinafewmoments]ItisasIthought,aflaskofetherhasexploded。[Hesings]

\"SpellboundoncemoreIstandbeforethee。\"

ARKADINA。[Sittingdownatthetable]Heavens!Iwasreallyfrightened。Thatnoiseremindedmeof——[Shecoversherfacewithherhands]Everythingisblackbeforemyeyes。

DORN。[Lookingthroughthepagesofamagazine,toTRIGORIN]

TherewasanarticlefromAmericainthismagazineabouttwomonthsagothatIwantedtoaskyouabout,amongotherthings。

[HeleadsTRIGORINtothefrontofthestage]Iamverymuchinterestedinthisquestion。[Helowershisvoiceandwhispers]

YoumusttakeMadameArkadinaawayfromhere;whatIwantedtosaywas,thatConstantinehasshothimself。

Thecurtainfalls。