第2章

Involuntarilyhestretchedhishandstowardsit,feltapangofgriefwhenitvanished,leavingonlythegreylight。Hedrewtherustybolts,flungopenthegreatdoor。Astrangeworldlaybeforehim,anewworldoflightsandshadows,thatwooedhimwiththeirbeauty——aworldoflow,softvoicesthatcalledtohim。Therecametohimagainthatbittersenseofhavingbeenrobbed。

\"Icouldhavebeensohappyalltheseyears,\"murmuredoldNicholastohimself。\"ItisjustthelittletownIcouldhaveloved——soquaint,soquiet,sohomelike。Imighthavehadfriends,oldcronies,childrenofmyownmaybe——\"

AvisionofthesleepingChristinaflashedbeforehiseyes。Shehadcometohimachild,feelingonlygratitudetowardshim。Hadhehadeyeswithwhichtoseeher,allthingsmighthavebeendifferent。

Wasittoolate?Heisnotsoold——notsoveryold。Newlifeisinhisveins。ShestilllovesJan,butthatwastheJanofyesterday。

Inthefuture,Jan’severywordanddeedwillbepromptedbytheevilsoulthatwasoncethesoulofNicholasSnyders——thatNicholasSnydersrememberswell。Cananywomanlovethat,letthecasebeashandsomeasyouwill?

Oughthe,asanhonestman,tokeepthesoulhehadwonfromJanbywhatmightbecalledatrick?Yes,ithadbeenafairbargain,andJanhadtakenhisprice。Besides,itwasnotasifJanhadfashionedhisownsoul;thesethingsarechance。Whyshouldonemanbegivengold,andanotherbegivenparchedpeas?HehasasmuchrighttoJan’ssoulasJaneverhad。Heiswiser,hecandomoregoodwithit。

ItwasJan’ssoulthatlovedChristina;letJan’ssoulwinherifitcan。AndJan’ssoul,listeningtotheargument,couldnotthinkofawordtoofferinopposition。

ChristinawasstillasleepwhenNicholasre—enteredthekitchen。Helightedthefireandcookedthebreakfastandthenarousedhergently。

TherewasnodoubtitwasChristina。ThemomenthereyesrestedonoldNicholas,therecamebacktoherthefrightenedrabbitlookthathadalwaysirritatedhim。Itirritatedhimnow,buttheirritationwasagainsthimself。

\"YouweresleepingsosoundlywhenIcameinlastnight——\"Christinacommenced。

\"Andyouwereafraidtowakeme,\"Nicholasinterruptedher。\"Youthoughttheoldcurmudgeonwouldbecross。Listen,Christina。Youpaidoffyesterdaythelastdebtyourfatherowed。Itwastoanoldsailor——Ihadnotbeenabletofindhimbefore。Notacentmoredoyouowe,andthereremainstoyou,outofyourwages,ahundredflorins。Itisyourswheneveryouliketoaskmeforit。\"

Christinacouldnotunderstand,neitherthennorduringthedaysthatfollowed;nordidNicholasenlightenher。ForthesoulofJanhadenteredintoaverywiseoldman,whoknewthatthebestwaytolivedownthepastistoliveboldlythepresent。AllthatChristinacouldbesureofwasthattheoldNicholasSnydershadmysteriouslyvanished,thatinhisplaceremainedanewNicholas,wholookedatherwithkindlyeyes——frankandhonest,compellingconfidence。ThoughNicholasneversaidso,itcametoChristinathatsheherself,hersweetexample,herennoblinginfluenceitwasthathadwroughtthiswondrouschange。AndtoChristinatheexplanationseemednotimpossible——seemedevenpleasing。

Thesightofhislittereddeskwashatefultohim。Startingearlyinthemorning,Nicholaswoulddisappearfortheentireday,returningintheeveningtiredbutcheerful,bringingwithhimflowersthatChristinalaughedat,tellinghimtheywereweeds。Butwhatmatterednames?ToNicholastheywerebeautiful。InZandamthechildrenranfromhim,thedogsbarkedafterhim。SoNicholas,escapingthroughbyways,wouldwanderfarintothecountry。Childreninthevillagesaroundcametoknowakindoldfellowwholovedtolinger,hishandsrestingonhisstaff,watchingtheirplay,listeningtotheirlaughter;whoseamplepocketswerestorehousesofgoodthings。Theirelders,passingby,wouldwhispertooneanotherhowlikehewasinfeaturestowickedoldNick,themiserofZandam,andwouldwonderwherehecamefrom。Norwasitonlythefacesofthechildrenthattaughthislipstosmile。Ittroubledhimatfirsttofindtheworldsofullofmarvellouslyprettygirls——ofprettywomenalso,allmoreorlesslovable。Itbewilderedhim。Untilhefoundthat,notwithstanding,Christinaremainedalwaysinhisthoughtstheprettiest,themostlovableofthemall。Theneveryprettyfacerejoicedhim:itremindedhimofChristina。

Onhisreturnthesecondday,Christinahadmethimwithsadnessinhereyes。FarmerBeerstraater,anoldfriendofherfather’s,hadcalledtoseeNicholas;notfindingNicholas,hadtalkedalittlewithChristina。Ahardheartedcreditorwasturninghimoutofhisfarm。

ChristinapretendednottoknowthatthecreditorwasNicholashimself,butmarvelledthatsuchwickedmencouldbe。Nicholassaidnothing,butthenextdayFarmerBeerstraaterhadcalledagain,allsmiles,blessings,andgreatwonder。

\"Butwhatcanhavecometohim?\"repeatedFarmerBeerstraateroverandover。

ChristinahadsmiledandansweredthatperhapsthegoodGodhadtouchedhisheart;butthoughttoherselfthatperhapsithadbeenthegoodinfluenceofanother。Thetaleflew。Christinafoundherselfbesiegedoneveryhand,and,findingherintercessionsinvariablysuccessful,grewdaybydaymorepleasedwithherself,andbyconsequencemorepleasedwithNicholasSnyders。ForNicholaswasacunningoldgentleman。Jan’ssoulinhimtookdelightinundoingtheevilthesoulofNicholashadwrought。ButthebrainofNicholasSnydersthatremainedtohimwhispered:\"Letthelittlemaidthinkitisallherdoing。\"

ThenewsreachedtheearsofDameToelast。ThesameeveningsawherseatedintheinglenookoppositeNicholasSnyders,whosmokedandseemedbored。

\"Youaremakingafoolofyourself,NicholasSnyders,\"theDametoldhim。\"Everybodyislaughingatyou。\"

\"Ihadrathertheylaughedthancursedme,\"growledNicholas。

\"Haveyouforgottenallthathaspassedbetweenus?\"demandedtheDame。

\"WishIcould,\"sighedNicholas。

\"Atyourage——\"commencedtheDame。

\"IamfeelingyoungerthanIeverfeltinallmylife,\"Nicholasinterruptedher。

\"Youdon’tlookit,\"commentedtheDame。

\"Whatdolooksmatter?\"snappedNicholas。\"Itisthesoulofamanthatistherealman。\"

\"Theycountforsomething,astheworldgoes,\"explainedtheDame。

\"Why,ifIlikedtofollowyourexampleandmakeafoolofmyself,thereareyoungmen,fineyoungmen,handsomeyoungmen——\"

\"Don’tletmestandinyourway,\"interposedNicholasquickly。\"Asyousay,IamoldandIhaveadevilofatemper。TheremustbemanybettermenthanIam,menmoreworthyofyou。\"

\"Idon’tsaytherearenot,\"returnedtheDame:\"butnobodymoresuitable。Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Ihaven’tlostmywits,NicholasSnyders,ifyouhave。Whenyouareyourselfagain——\"

NicholasSnyderssprangtohisfeet。\"Iammyself,\"hecried,\"andintendtoremainmyself!WhodaressayIamnotmyself?\"

\"Ido,\"retortedtheDamewithexasperatingcoolness。\"NicholasSnydersisnothimselfwhenatthebiddingofapretty—faceddollheflingshismoneyoutofthewindowwithbothhands。Heisacreaturebewitched,andIamsorryforhim。She’llfoolyouforthesakeofherfriendstillyouhaven’tacentleft,andthenshe’lllaughatyou。Whenyouareyourself,NicholasSnyders,youwillbecrazywithyourself——rememberthat。\"AndDameToelastmarchedoutandslammedthedoorbehindher。

\"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。\"Thephrasekeptringinginhisears。Hithertohisnew—foundhappinesshadfilledhislife,leavingnoroomforthought。ButtheoldDame’swordshadsowntheseedofreflection。

WasChristinafoolinghim?Thethoughtwasimpossible。Neveroncehadshepleadedforherself,neveronceforJan。TheevilthoughtwasthecreatureofDameToelast’sevilmind。Christinalovedhim。Herfacebrightenedathiscoming。Thefearofhimhadgoneoutofher;aprettytyrannyhadreplacedit。Butwasitthelovethathesought?

Jan’ssoulinoldNick’sbodywasyoungandardent。ItdesiredChristinanotasadaughter,butasawife。CoulditwinherinspiteofoldNick’sbody?ThesoulofJanwasanimpatientsoul。Bettertoknowthantodoubt。

\"Donotlightthecandles;letustalkalittlebythelightofthefireonly,\"saidNicholas。AndChristina,smiling,drewherchairtowardstheblaze。ButNicholassatintheshadow。

\"Yougrowmorebeautifuleveryday,Christina,\"saidNicholas——

\"sweeterandmorewomanly。Hewillbeahappymanwhocallsyouwife。\"

ThesmilepassedfromChristina’sface。\"Ishallnevermarry,\"sheanswered。\"Neverisalongword,littleone。\"

\"Atruewomandoesnotmarrythemanshedoesnotlove。\"

\"Butmayshenotmarrythemanshedoes?\"smiledNicholas。

\"Sometimesshemaynot,\"Christinaexplained。

\"Andwhenisthat?\"

Christina’sfacewasturnedaway。\"Whenhehasceasedtoloveher。\"

ThesoulinoldNick’sbodyleaptwithjoy。\"Heisnotworthyofyou,Christina。Hisnewfortunehaschangedhim。Isitnotso?Hethinksonlyofmoney。Itisasthoughthesoulofamiserhadenteredintohim。HewouldmarryevenDameToelastforthesakeofhergold—bagsandherbroadlandsandhermanymills,ifonlyshewouldhavehim。

Cannotyouforgethim?\"

\"Ishallneverforgethim。Ishallneverloveanotherman。Itrytohideit;andoftenIamcontenttofindthereissomuchintheworldthatIcando。Butmyheartisbreaking。\"Sheroseand,kneelingbesidehim,claspedherhandsaroundhim。\"Iamgladyouhaveletmetellyou,\"shesaid。\"ButforyouIcouldnothaveborneit。Youaresogoodtome。\"

Foranswerhestrokedwithhiswitheredhandthegoldenhairthatfelldisorderedabouthiswitheredknees。Sheraisedhereyestohim;theywerefilledwithtears,butsmiling。

\"Icannotunderstand,\"shesaid。\"Ithinksometimesthatyouandhemusthavechangedsouls。Heishardandmeanandcruel,asyouusedtobe。\"Shelaughed,andthearmsaroundhimtightenedforamoment。

\"Andnowyouarekindandtenderandgreat,asoncehewas。ItisasifthegoodGodhadtakenawaymyloverfrommetogivetomeafather。\"

\"Listentome,Christina,\"hesaid。\"Itisthesoulthatistheman,notthebody。Couldyounotlovemeformynewsoul?\"

\"ButIdoloveyou,\"answeredChristina,smilingthroughhertears。

\"Couldyouasahusband?\"Thefirelightfelluponherface。

Nicholas,holdingitbetweenhiswitheredhands,lookedintoitlongandhard;andreadingwhathereadthere,laiditbackagainsthisbreastandsootheditwithhiswitheredhand。

\"Iwasjesting,littleone,\"hesaid。\"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Andso,inspiteofall,youstillloveJan?\"

\"Ilovehim,\"answeredChristina。\"Icannothelpit。\"

\"Andifhewould,youwouldmarryhim,lethissoulbewhatitmay?\"

\"Ilovehim,\"answeredChristina。\"Icannothelpit。\"

OldNicholassatalonebeforethedyingfire。Isitthesoulorthebodythatistherealman?Theanswerwasnotsosimpleashehadthoughtit。

\"ChristinalovedJan\"——soNicholasmumbledtothedyingfire——\"whenhehadthesoulofJan。Sheloveshimstill,thoughhehasthesoulofNicholasSnyders。WhenIaskedherifshecouldloveme,itwasterrorIreadinhereyes,thoughJan’ssoulisnowinme;shedivinedit。ItmustbethebodythatistherealJan,therealNicholas。IfthesoulofChristinaenteredintothebodyofDameToelast,shouldI

turnfromChristina,fromhergoldenhair,herfathomlesseyes,heraskinglips,todesiretheshrivelledcarcassofDameToelast?No;I

shouldstillshudderatthethoughtofher。YetwhenIhadthesoulofNicholasSnyders,Ididnotloatheher,whileChristinawasnaughttome。Itmustbewiththesoulthatwelove,elseJanwouldstillloveChristinaandIshouldbeMiserNick。YethereamIlovingChristina,usingNicholasSnyders’brainandgoldtothwartNicholasSnyders’everyscheme,doingeverythingthatIknowwillmakehimmadwhenhecomesbackintohisownbody;whileJancaresnolongerforChristina,wouldmarryDameToelastforherbroadlands,hermanymills。Clearlyitisthesoulthatistherealman。ThenoughtInottobeglad,thinkingIamgoingbackintomyownbody,knowingthatI

shallwedChristina?ButIamnotglad;Iamverymiserable。IshallnotgowithJan’ssoul,Ifeelit;myownsoulwillcomebacktome。

Ishallbeagainthehard,cruel,meanoldmanIwasbefore,onlynowIshallbepoorandhelpless。Thefolkswilllaughatme,andIshallcursethem,powerlesstodothemevil。EvenDameToelastwillnotwantmewhenshelearnsall。AndyetImustdothisthing。SolongasJan’ssoulisinme,IloveChristinabetterthanmyself。Imustdothisforhersake。Iloveher——Icannothelpit。\"

OldNicholasrose,tookfromtheplace,whereamonthbeforehehadhiddenit,thesilverflaskofcunningworkmanship。

\"Justtwomoreglassfulsleft,\"musedNicholas,ashegentlyshooktheflaskagainsthisear。Helaiditonthedeskbeforehim,thenopenedonceagaintheoldgreenledger,fortherestillremainedworktobedone。

HewokeChristinaearly。\"Taketheseletters,Christina,\"hecommanded。\"Whenyouhavedeliveredthemall,butnotbefore,gotoJan;tellhimIamwaitingheretoseehimonamatterofbusiness。\"

Hekissedherandseemedlothtolethergo。

\"Ishallonlybealittlewhile,\"smiledChristina。

\"Allpartingstakebutalittlewhile,\"heanswered。

OldNicholashadforeseenthetroublehewouldhave。Janwascontent,hadnodesiretobeagainasentimentalyoungfool,eagertosaddlehimselfwithapennilesswife。Janhadotherdreams。

\"Drink,man,drink!\"criedNicholasimpatiently,\"beforeIamtemptedtochangemymind。Christina,providedyoumarryher,istherichestbrideinZandam。Thereisthedeed;readit;andreadquickly。\"

ThenJanconsented,andthetwomendrank。Andtherepassedabreathbetweenthemasbefore;andJanwithhishandscoveredhiseyesamoment。

Itwasapity,perhaps,thathedidso,forinthatmomentNicholassnatchedatthedeedthatlaybesideJanonthedesk。Thenextinstantitwasblazinginthefire。

\"Notsopoorasyouthought!\"camethecroakingvoiceofNicholas。

\"Notsopoorasyouthought!Icanbuildagain,Icanbuildagain!\"

Andthecreature,laughinghideously,dancedwithitswitheredarmsspreadoutbeforetheblaze,lestJanshouldseektorescueChristina’sburningdowrybeforeitwasdestroyed。

JandidnottellChristina。InspiteofallJancouldsay,shewouldgoback。NicholasSnydersdroveherfromthedoorwithcurses。Shecouldnotunderstand。TheonlythingclearwasthatJanhadcomebacktoher。

\"’Twasastrangemadnessthatseizeduponme,\"Janexplained。\"Letthegoodseabreezesbringushealth。\"

SofromthedeckofJan’sshiptheywatchedoldZandamtillitvanishedintoair。

Christinacriedalittleatthethoughtofneverseeingitagain;butJancomfortedherandlaternewfaceshidtheold。

AndoldNicholasmarriedDameToelast,but,happily,livedtodoevilonlyforafewyearslonger。

Longafter,JantoldChristinathewholestory,butitsoundedveryimprobable,andChristina——though,ofcourse,shedidnotsayso——didnotquitebelieveit,butthoughtJanwastryingtoexplainawaythatstrangemonthofhislifeduringwhichhehadwooedDameToelast。YetitcertainlywasstrangethatNicholas,forthesameshortmonth,hadbeensodifferentfromhisusualself。

\"Perhaps,\"thoughtChristina,\"ifIhadnottoldhimIlovedJan,hewouldnothavegonebacktohisoldways。Pooroldgentleman!Nodoubtitwasdespair。\"