Involuntarilyhestretchedhishandstowardsit,feltapangofgriefwhenitvanished,leavingonlythegreylight。Hedrewtherustybolts,flungopenthegreatdoor。Astrangeworldlaybeforehim,anewworldoflightsandshadows,thatwooedhimwiththeirbeauty——aworldoflow,softvoicesthatcalledtohim。Therecametohimagainthatbittersenseofhavingbeenrobbed。
\"Icouldhavebeensohappyalltheseyears,\"murmuredoldNicholastohimself。\"ItisjustthelittletownIcouldhaveloved——soquaint,soquiet,sohomelike。Imighthavehadfriends,oldcronies,childrenofmyownmaybe——\"
AvisionofthesleepingChristinaflashedbeforehiseyes。Shehadcometohimachild,feelingonlygratitudetowardshim。Hadhehadeyeswithwhichtoseeher,allthingsmighthavebeendifferent。
Wasittoolate?Heisnotsoold——notsoveryold。Newlifeisinhisveins。ShestilllovesJan,butthatwastheJanofyesterday。
Inthefuture,Jan’severywordanddeedwillbepromptedbytheevilsoulthatwasoncethesoulofNicholasSnyders——thatNicholasSnydersrememberswell。Cananywomanlovethat,letthecasebeashandsomeasyouwill?
Oughthe,asanhonestman,tokeepthesoulhehadwonfromJanbywhatmightbecalledatrick?Yes,ithadbeenafairbargain,andJanhadtakenhisprice。Besides,itwasnotasifJanhadfashionedhisownsoul;thesethingsarechance。Whyshouldonemanbegivengold,andanotherbegivenparchedpeas?HehasasmuchrighttoJan’ssoulasJaneverhad。Heiswiser,hecandomoregoodwithit。
ItwasJan’ssoulthatlovedChristina;letJan’ssoulwinherifitcan。AndJan’ssoul,listeningtotheargument,couldnotthinkofawordtoofferinopposition。
ChristinawasstillasleepwhenNicholasre—enteredthekitchen。Helightedthefireandcookedthebreakfastandthenarousedhergently。
TherewasnodoubtitwasChristina。ThemomenthereyesrestedonoldNicholas,therecamebacktoherthefrightenedrabbitlookthathadalwaysirritatedhim。Itirritatedhimnow,buttheirritationwasagainsthimself。
\"YouweresleepingsosoundlywhenIcameinlastnight——\"Christinacommenced。
\"Andyouwereafraidtowakeme,\"Nicholasinterruptedher。\"Youthoughttheoldcurmudgeonwouldbecross。Listen,Christina。Youpaidoffyesterdaythelastdebtyourfatherowed。Itwastoanoldsailor——Ihadnotbeenabletofindhimbefore。Notacentmoredoyouowe,andthereremainstoyou,outofyourwages,ahundredflorins。Itisyourswheneveryouliketoaskmeforit。\"
Christinacouldnotunderstand,neitherthennorduringthedaysthatfollowed;nordidNicholasenlightenher。ForthesoulofJanhadenteredintoaverywiseoldman,whoknewthatthebestwaytolivedownthepastistoliveboldlythepresent。AllthatChristinacouldbesureofwasthattheoldNicholasSnydershadmysteriouslyvanished,thatinhisplaceremainedanewNicholas,wholookedatherwithkindlyeyes——frankandhonest,compellingconfidence。ThoughNicholasneversaidso,itcametoChristinathatsheherself,hersweetexample,herennoblinginfluenceitwasthathadwroughtthiswondrouschange。AndtoChristinatheexplanationseemednotimpossible——seemedevenpleasing。
Thesightofhislittereddeskwashatefultohim。Startingearlyinthemorning,Nicholaswoulddisappearfortheentireday,returningintheeveningtiredbutcheerful,bringingwithhimflowersthatChristinalaughedat,tellinghimtheywereweeds。Butwhatmatterednames?ToNicholastheywerebeautiful。InZandamthechildrenranfromhim,thedogsbarkedafterhim。SoNicholas,escapingthroughbyways,wouldwanderfarintothecountry。Childreninthevillagesaroundcametoknowakindoldfellowwholovedtolinger,hishandsrestingonhisstaff,watchingtheirplay,listeningtotheirlaughter;whoseamplepocketswerestorehousesofgoodthings。Theirelders,passingby,wouldwhispertooneanotherhowlikehewasinfeaturestowickedoldNick,themiserofZandam,andwouldwonderwherehecamefrom。Norwasitonlythefacesofthechildrenthattaughthislipstosmile。Ittroubledhimatfirsttofindtheworldsofullofmarvellouslyprettygirls——ofprettywomenalso,allmoreorlesslovable。Itbewilderedhim。Untilhefoundthat,notwithstanding,Christinaremainedalwaysinhisthoughtstheprettiest,themostlovableofthemall。Theneveryprettyfacerejoicedhim:itremindedhimofChristina。
Onhisreturnthesecondday,Christinahadmethimwithsadnessinhereyes。FarmerBeerstraater,anoldfriendofherfather’s,hadcalledtoseeNicholas;notfindingNicholas,hadtalkedalittlewithChristina。Ahardheartedcreditorwasturninghimoutofhisfarm。
ChristinapretendednottoknowthatthecreditorwasNicholashimself,butmarvelledthatsuchwickedmencouldbe。Nicholassaidnothing,butthenextdayFarmerBeerstraaterhadcalledagain,allsmiles,blessings,andgreatwonder。
\"Butwhatcanhavecometohim?\"repeatedFarmerBeerstraateroverandover。
ChristinahadsmiledandansweredthatperhapsthegoodGodhadtouchedhisheart;butthoughttoherselfthatperhapsithadbeenthegoodinfluenceofanother。Thetaleflew。Christinafoundherselfbesiegedoneveryhand,and,findingherintercessionsinvariablysuccessful,grewdaybydaymorepleasedwithherself,andbyconsequencemorepleasedwithNicholasSnyders。ForNicholaswasacunningoldgentleman。Jan’ssoulinhimtookdelightinundoingtheevilthesoulofNicholashadwrought。ButthebrainofNicholasSnydersthatremainedtohimwhispered:\"Letthelittlemaidthinkitisallherdoing。\"
ThenewsreachedtheearsofDameToelast。ThesameeveningsawherseatedintheinglenookoppositeNicholasSnyders,whosmokedandseemedbored。
\"Youaremakingafoolofyourself,NicholasSnyders,\"theDametoldhim。\"Everybodyislaughingatyou。\"
\"Ihadrathertheylaughedthancursedme,\"growledNicholas。
\"Haveyouforgottenallthathaspassedbetweenus?\"demandedtheDame。
\"WishIcould,\"sighedNicholas。
\"Atyourage——\"commencedtheDame。
\"IamfeelingyoungerthanIeverfeltinallmylife,\"Nicholasinterruptedher。
\"Youdon’tlookit,\"commentedtheDame。
\"Whatdolooksmatter?\"snappedNicholas。\"Itisthesoulofamanthatistherealman。\"
\"Theycountforsomething,astheworldgoes,\"explainedtheDame。
\"Why,ifIlikedtofollowyourexampleandmakeafoolofmyself,thereareyoungmen,fineyoungmen,handsomeyoungmen——\"
\"Don’tletmestandinyourway,\"interposedNicholasquickly。\"Asyousay,IamoldandIhaveadevilofatemper。TheremustbemanybettermenthanIam,menmoreworthyofyou。\"
\"Idon’tsaytherearenot,\"returnedtheDame:\"butnobodymoresuitable。Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Ihaven’tlostmywits,NicholasSnyders,ifyouhave。Whenyouareyourselfagain——\"
NicholasSnyderssprangtohisfeet。\"Iammyself,\"hecried,\"andintendtoremainmyself!WhodaressayIamnotmyself?\"
\"Ido,\"retortedtheDamewithexasperatingcoolness。\"NicholasSnydersisnothimselfwhenatthebiddingofapretty—faceddollheflingshismoneyoutofthewindowwithbothhands。Heisacreaturebewitched,andIamsorryforhim。She’llfoolyouforthesakeofherfriendstillyouhaven’tacentleft,andthenshe’lllaughatyou。Whenyouareyourself,NicholasSnyders,youwillbecrazywithyourself——rememberthat。\"AndDameToelastmarchedoutandslammedthedoorbehindher。
\"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。\"Thephrasekeptringinginhisears。Hithertohisnew—foundhappinesshadfilledhislife,leavingnoroomforthought。ButtheoldDame’swordshadsowntheseedofreflection。
WasChristinafoolinghim?Thethoughtwasimpossible。Neveroncehadshepleadedforherself,neveronceforJan。TheevilthoughtwasthecreatureofDameToelast’sevilmind。Christinalovedhim。Herfacebrightenedathiscoming。Thefearofhimhadgoneoutofher;aprettytyrannyhadreplacedit。Butwasitthelovethathesought?
Jan’ssoulinoldNick’sbodywasyoungandardent。ItdesiredChristinanotasadaughter,butasawife。CoulditwinherinspiteofoldNick’sbody?ThesoulofJanwasanimpatientsoul。Bettertoknowthantodoubt。
\"Donotlightthecandles;letustalkalittlebythelightofthefireonly,\"saidNicholas。AndChristina,smiling,drewherchairtowardstheblaze。ButNicholassatintheshadow。
\"Yougrowmorebeautifuleveryday,Christina,\"saidNicholas——
\"sweeterandmorewomanly。Hewillbeahappymanwhocallsyouwife。\"
ThesmilepassedfromChristina’sface。\"Ishallnevermarry,\"sheanswered。\"Neverisalongword,littleone。\"
\"Atruewomandoesnotmarrythemanshedoesnotlove。\"
\"Butmayshenotmarrythemanshedoes?\"smiledNicholas。
\"Sometimesshemaynot,\"Christinaexplained。
\"Andwhenisthat?\"
Christina’sfacewasturnedaway。\"Whenhehasceasedtoloveher。\"
ThesoulinoldNick’sbodyleaptwithjoy。\"Heisnotworthyofyou,Christina。Hisnewfortunehaschangedhim。Isitnotso?Hethinksonlyofmoney。Itisasthoughthesoulofamiserhadenteredintohim。HewouldmarryevenDameToelastforthesakeofhergold—bagsandherbroadlandsandhermanymills,ifonlyshewouldhavehim。
Cannotyouforgethim?\"
\"Ishallneverforgethim。Ishallneverloveanotherman。Itrytohideit;andoftenIamcontenttofindthereissomuchintheworldthatIcando。Butmyheartisbreaking。\"Sheroseand,kneelingbesidehim,claspedherhandsaroundhim。\"Iamgladyouhaveletmetellyou,\"shesaid。\"ButforyouIcouldnothaveborneit。Youaresogoodtome。\"
Foranswerhestrokedwithhiswitheredhandthegoldenhairthatfelldisorderedabouthiswitheredknees。Sheraisedhereyestohim;theywerefilledwithtears,butsmiling。
\"Icannotunderstand,\"shesaid。\"Ithinksometimesthatyouandhemusthavechangedsouls。Heishardandmeanandcruel,asyouusedtobe。\"Shelaughed,andthearmsaroundhimtightenedforamoment。
\"Andnowyouarekindandtenderandgreat,asoncehewas。ItisasifthegoodGodhadtakenawaymyloverfrommetogivetomeafather。\"
\"Listentome,Christina,\"hesaid。\"Itisthesoulthatistheman,notthebody。Couldyounotlovemeformynewsoul?\"
\"ButIdoloveyou,\"answeredChristina,smilingthroughhertears。
\"Couldyouasahusband?\"Thefirelightfelluponherface。
Nicholas,holdingitbetweenhiswitheredhands,lookedintoitlongandhard;andreadingwhathereadthere,laiditbackagainsthisbreastandsootheditwithhiswitheredhand。
\"Iwasjesting,littleone,\"hesaid。\"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Andso,inspiteofall,youstillloveJan?\"
\"Ilovehim,\"answeredChristina。\"Icannothelpit。\"
\"Andifhewould,youwouldmarryhim,lethissoulbewhatitmay?\"
\"Ilovehim,\"answeredChristina。\"Icannothelpit。\"
OldNicholassatalonebeforethedyingfire。Isitthesoulorthebodythatistherealman?Theanswerwasnotsosimpleashehadthoughtit。
\"ChristinalovedJan\"——soNicholasmumbledtothedyingfire——\"whenhehadthesoulofJan。Sheloveshimstill,thoughhehasthesoulofNicholasSnyders。WhenIaskedherifshecouldloveme,itwasterrorIreadinhereyes,thoughJan’ssoulisnowinme;shedivinedit。ItmustbethebodythatistherealJan,therealNicholas。IfthesoulofChristinaenteredintothebodyofDameToelast,shouldI
turnfromChristina,fromhergoldenhair,herfathomlesseyes,heraskinglips,todesiretheshrivelledcarcassofDameToelast?No;I
shouldstillshudderatthethoughtofher。YetwhenIhadthesoulofNicholasSnyders,Ididnotloatheher,whileChristinawasnaughttome。Itmustbewiththesoulthatwelove,elseJanwouldstillloveChristinaandIshouldbeMiserNick。YethereamIlovingChristina,usingNicholasSnyders’brainandgoldtothwartNicholasSnyders’everyscheme,doingeverythingthatIknowwillmakehimmadwhenhecomesbackintohisownbody;whileJancaresnolongerforChristina,wouldmarryDameToelastforherbroadlands,hermanymills。Clearlyitisthesoulthatistherealman。ThenoughtInottobeglad,thinkingIamgoingbackintomyownbody,knowingthatI
shallwedChristina?ButIamnotglad;Iamverymiserable。IshallnotgowithJan’ssoul,Ifeelit;myownsoulwillcomebacktome。
Ishallbeagainthehard,cruel,meanoldmanIwasbefore,onlynowIshallbepoorandhelpless。Thefolkswilllaughatme,andIshallcursethem,powerlesstodothemevil。EvenDameToelastwillnotwantmewhenshelearnsall。AndyetImustdothisthing。SolongasJan’ssoulisinme,IloveChristinabetterthanmyself。Imustdothisforhersake。Iloveher——Icannothelpit。\"
OldNicholasrose,tookfromtheplace,whereamonthbeforehehadhiddenit,thesilverflaskofcunningworkmanship。
\"Justtwomoreglassfulsleft,\"musedNicholas,ashegentlyshooktheflaskagainsthisear。Helaiditonthedeskbeforehim,thenopenedonceagaintheoldgreenledger,fortherestillremainedworktobedone。
HewokeChristinaearly。\"Taketheseletters,Christina,\"hecommanded。\"Whenyouhavedeliveredthemall,butnotbefore,gotoJan;tellhimIamwaitingheretoseehimonamatterofbusiness。\"
Hekissedherandseemedlothtolethergo。
\"Ishallonlybealittlewhile,\"smiledChristina。
\"Allpartingstakebutalittlewhile,\"heanswered。
OldNicholashadforeseenthetroublehewouldhave。Janwascontent,hadnodesiretobeagainasentimentalyoungfool,eagertosaddlehimselfwithapennilesswife。Janhadotherdreams。
\"Drink,man,drink!\"criedNicholasimpatiently,\"beforeIamtemptedtochangemymind。Christina,providedyoumarryher,istherichestbrideinZandam。Thereisthedeed;readit;andreadquickly。\"
ThenJanconsented,andthetwomendrank。Andtherepassedabreathbetweenthemasbefore;andJanwithhishandscoveredhiseyesamoment。
Itwasapity,perhaps,thathedidso,forinthatmomentNicholassnatchedatthedeedthatlaybesideJanonthedesk。Thenextinstantitwasblazinginthefire。
\"Notsopoorasyouthought!\"camethecroakingvoiceofNicholas。
\"Notsopoorasyouthought!Icanbuildagain,Icanbuildagain!\"
Andthecreature,laughinghideously,dancedwithitswitheredarmsspreadoutbeforetheblaze,lestJanshouldseektorescueChristina’sburningdowrybeforeitwasdestroyed。
JandidnottellChristina。InspiteofallJancouldsay,shewouldgoback。NicholasSnydersdroveherfromthedoorwithcurses。Shecouldnotunderstand。TheonlythingclearwasthatJanhadcomebacktoher。
\"’Twasastrangemadnessthatseizeduponme,\"Janexplained。\"Letthegoodseabreezesbringushealth。\"
SofromthedeckofJan’sshiptheywatchedoldZandamtillitvanishedintoair。
Christinacriedalittleatthethoughtofneverseeingitagain;butJancomfortedherandlaternewfaceshidtheold。
AndoldNicholasmarriedDameToelast,but,happily,livedtodoevilonlyforafewyearslonger。
Longafter,JantoldChristinathewholestory,butitsoundedveryimprobable,andChristina——though,ofcourse,shedidnotsayso——didnotquitebelieveit,butthoughtJanwastryingtoexplainawaythatstrangemonthofhislifeduringwhichhehadwooedDameToelast。YetitcertainlywasstrangethatNicholas,forthesameshortmonth,hadbeensodifferentfromhisusualself。
\"Perhaps,\"thoughtChristina,\"ifIhadnottoldhimIlovedJan,hewouldnothavegonebacktohisoldways。Pooroldgentleman!Nodoubtitwasdespair。\"