第2章

\"Iamthewidowofaprovincialdoctor,withanincomeofjusttwohundredandthirtypoundsperannum,\"sheargued。\"Thesensiblethingformetodoistomakethebestofit,andtoworrymyselfaboutthesehighandmightyrelationsofmineaslittleastheyhaveeverworriedthemselvesaboutme。\"

Thestrangerappearedunabletothinkofanythingworthsaying。

\"Ihaveotherconnections,\"rememberedSirWilliam’scousin;\"thoseofmypoorhusband,towhominsteadofbeingthe’poorrelation’Icouldbethefairygod—mama。Theyaremypeople——orwouldbe,\"addedSirWilliam’scousintartly,\"ifIwasn’tavulgarsnob。\"

Sheflushedtheinstantshehadsaidthewordsand,rising,commencedpreparationsforahurrieddeparture。

\"NowitseemsIamdrivingyouaway,\"sighedthestranger。

\"Havingbeencalleda’vulgarsnob,’\"retortedtheladywithsomeheat,\"IthinkitabouttimeIwent。\"

\"Thewordswereyourown,\"thestrangerremindedher。

\"WhateverImayhavethought,\"remarkedtheindignantdame,\"nolady——leastofallinthepresenceofatotalstranger——wouldhavecalledherself——\"Thepoordamepaused,bewildered。\"Thereissomethingverycuriousthematterwithmethisevening,thatIcannotunderstand,\"sheexplained,\"Iseemquiteunabletoavoidinsultingmyself。\"

Stillsurroundedbybewilderment,shewishedthestrangergood—night,hopingthatwhennexttheymetshewouldbemoreherself。Thestranger,hopingsoalso,openedthedoorandcloseditagainbehindher。

\"Tellme,\"laughedMissDevine,whobysheerforceoftalentwascontrivingtowringharmonyfromthereluctantpiano,\"howdidyoumanagetodoit?Ishouldliketoknow。\"

\"HowdidIdowhat?\"inquiredthestranger。

\"Contrivetogetridsoquicklyofthosetwooldfrumps?\"

\"Howwellyouplay!\"observedthestranger。\"IknewyouhadgeniusformusicthemomentIsawyou。\"

\"Howcouldyoutell?\"

\"Itiswrittensoclearlyinyourface。\"

Thegirllaughed,wellpleased。\"Youseemtohavelostnotimeinstudyingmyface。\"

\"Itisabeautifulandinterestingface,\"observedthestranger。

Sheswungroundsharplyonthestoolandtheireyesmet。

\"Youcanreadfaces?\"

\"Yes。\"

\"Tellme,whatelsedoyoureadinmine?\"

\"Frankness,courage——\"

\"Ah,yes,allthevirtues。Perhaps。Wewilltakethemforgranted。\"

Itwasoddhowseriousthegirlhadsuddenlybecome。\"Tellmethereverseside。\"

\"Iseenoreverseside,\"repliedthestranger。\"Iseebutafairgirl,burstingintonoblewomanhood。\"

\"Andnothingelse?Youreadnotraceofgreed,ofvanity,ofsordidness,of——\"Anangrylaughescapedherlips。\"Andyouareareaderoffaces!\"

\"Areaderoffaces。\"Thestrangersmiled。\"Doyouknowwhatiswrittenuponyoursatthisverymoment?Aloveoftruththatisalmostfierce,scornoflies,scornofhypocrisy,thedesireforallthingspure,contemptofallthingsthatarecontemptible——especiallyofsuchthingsasarecontemptibleinwoman。Tellme,doInotreadaright?\"

Iwonder,thoughtthegirl,isthatwhythosetwoothersbothhurriedfromtheroom?Doeseveryonefeelashamedofthelittlenessthatisinthemwhenlookedatbythoseclear,believingeyesofyours?

Theideaoccurredtoher:\"Papaseemedtohaveagooddealtosaytoyouduringdinner。Tellme,whatwereyoutalkingabout?\"

\"Themilitarylookinggentlemanuponmyleft?Wetalkedaboutyourmotherprincipally。\"

\"Iamsorry,\"returnedthegirl,wishfulnowshehadnotaskedthequestion。\"Iwashopinghemighthavechosenanothertopicforthefirstevening!\"

\"Hedidtryoneortwo,\"admittedthestranger;\"butIhavebeenabouttheworldsolittle,Iwasgladwhenhetalkedtomeabouthimself。I

feelweshallbefriends。Hespokesonicely,too,aboutMrs。

Devine。\"

\"Indeed,\"commentedthegirl。

\"Hetoldmehehadbeenmarriedfortwentyyearsandhadneverregretteditbutonce!\"

Herblackeyesflasheduponhim,butmeetinghis,thesuspiciondiedfromthem。Sheturnedasidetohidehersmile。

\"Soheregrettedit——once。\"

\"Onlyonce,\"explainedthestranger,\"inapassingirritablemood。Itwassofrankofhimtoadmitit。Hetoldme——Ithinkhehastakenalikingtome。Indeedhehintedasmuch。Hesaidhedidnotoftengetanopportnnityoftalkingtoamanlikemyself——hetoldmethatheandyourmother,whentheytraveltogether,arealwaysmistakenforahoneymooncouple。Someoftheexperiencesherelatedtomewerereallyquiteamusing。\"Thestrangerlaughedatrecollectionofthem——\"thatevenhere,inthisplace,theyaregenerallyreferredtoas’DarbyandJoan。’\"

\"Yes,\"saidthegirl,\"thatistrue。Mr。Longcordgavethemthatname,thesecondeveningafterourarrival。Itwasconsideredclever——butratherobviousIthoughtmyself。\"

\"Nothing——soitseemstome,\"saidthestranger,\"ismorebeautifulthanthelovethathasweatheredthestormsoflife。Thesweet,tenderblossomthatflowersintheheartoftheyoung——inheartssuchasyours——that,too,isbeautiful。Theloveoftheyoungfortheyoung,thatisthebeginningoflife。Buttheloveoftheoldfortheold,thatisthebeginningof——ofthingslonger。\"

\"Youseemtofindallthingsbeautiful,\"thegirlgrumbled。

\"Butarenotallthingsbeautiful?\"demandedthestranger。

TheColonelhadfinishedhispaper。\"Youtwoareengagedinaveryabsorbingconversation,\"observedtheColonel,approachingthem。

\"WewerediscussingDarbiesandJoans,\"explainedhisdaughter。\"Howbeautifulisthelovethathasweatheredthestormsoflife!\"

\"Ah!\"smiledtheColonel,\"thatishardlyfair。Myfriendhasbeenrepeatingtocynicalyouththeconfessionsofanamoroushusband’saffectionforhismiddle—agedandsomewhat——\"TheColonelinplayfulmoodlaidhishanduponthestranger’sshoulder,anactionthatnecessitatedhislookingstraightintothestranger’seyes。TheColoneldrewhimselfupstifflyandturnedscarlet。

SomebodywascallingtheColonelacad。Notonlythat,butwasexplainingquiteclearly,sothattheColonelcouldseeitforhimself,whyhewasacad。

\"Thatyouandyourwifeleadacatanddogexistenceisadisgracetobothofyou。Atleastyoumighthavethedecencytotryandhideitfromtheworld——notmakeajestofyourshametoeverypassingstranger。Youareacad,sir,acad!\"

Whowasdaringtosaythesethings?Notthestranger,hislipshadnotmoved。Besides,itwasnothisvoice。IndeeditsoundedmuchmorelikethevoiceoftheColonelhimself。TheColonellookedfromthestrangertohisdaughter,fromhisdaughterbacktothestranger。

Clearlytheyhadnotheardthevoice——amerehallucination。TheColonelbreathedagain。

Yettheimpressionremainingwasnottobeshakenoff。Undoubtedlyitwasbadtastetohavejokedtothestrangeruponsuchasubject。Nogentlemanwouldhavedoneso。

Butthennogentlemanwouldhavepermittedsuchajesttobepossible。

Nogentlemanwouldbeforeverwranglingwithhiswife——certainlyneverinpublic。Howeverirritatingthewoman,agentlemanwouldhaveexercisedself—control。

Mrs。Devinehadrisen,wascomingslowlyacrosstheroom。FearlaidholdoftheColonel。Shewasgoingtoaddresssomeaggravatingremarktohim——hecouldseeitinhereye——whichwouldirritatehimintosavageretort。

Eventhisprizeidiotofastrangerwouldunderstandwhyboarding—housewitshaddubbedthem\"DarbyandJoan,\"wouldgraspthefactthatthegallantColonelhadthoughtitamusing,inconversationwithatableacquaintance,toholdhisownwifeuptoridicule。

\"Mydear,\"criedtheColonel,hurryingtospeakfirst,\"doesnotthisroomstrikeyouascold?Letmefetchyouashawl。\"

Itwasuseless:theColonelfeltit。Ithadbeentoolongthecustomofbothofthemtoprefacewithpolitenesstheirdeadliestinsultstoeachother。Shecameon,thinkingofasuitablereply:suitablefromherpointofview,thatis。Inanothermomentthetruthwouldbeout。

Awild,fantasticpossibilityflashedthroughtheColonel’sbrain:Iftohim,whynottoher?

\"Letitia,\"criedtheColonel,andthetoneofhisvoicesurprisedherintosilence,\"Iwantyoutolookcloselyatourfriend。Doeshenotremindyouofsomeone?\"

Mrs。Devine,sourged,lookedatthestrangerlongandhard。\"Yes,\"

shemurmured,turningtoherhusband,\"hedoes,whoisit?\"

\"Icannotfixit,\"repliedtheColonel;\"Ithoughtthatmaybeyouwouldremember。\"

\"Itwillcometome,\"musedMrs。Devine。\"Itissomeone——yearsago,whenIwasagirl——inDevonshire。Thankyou,ifitisn’ttroublingyou,Harry。Ileftitinthedining—room。\"

Itwas,asMr。AugustusLongcordexplainedtohispartnerIsidore,thecolossalfoolishnessofthestrangerthatwasthecauseofallthetrouble。\"Givemeaman,whocantakecareofhimself——orthinkshecan,\"declaredAugustusLongcord,\"andIampreparedtogiveagoodaccountofmyself。Butwhenahelplessbabyrefuseseventolookatwhatyoucallyourfigures,tellsyouthatyourmerewordissufficientforhim,andhandsyouoverhischeque—booktofillupforyourself——well,itisn’tplayingthegame。\"

\"Auguthuth,\"wasthecurtcommentofhispartner,\"you’reafool。\"

\"Allright,myboy,youtry,\"suggestedAugustus。

\"JuthtwhatImeantodo,\"assertedhispartner。

\"Well,\"demandedAugustusoneeveninglater,meetingIsidoreascendingthestairsafteralongtalkwiththestrangerinthedining—roomwiththedoorshut。

\"Oh,don’tarthme,\"retortedIsidore,\"thillyath,thathwhatheith。\"

\"Whatdidhesay?\"

\"Whatdidhethay!talkedabouttheJewth:whatagrandrathetheywere——howpeoplemithjudgedthem:allthatthortofrot。

\"ThaidthomeofthemoththonorablemenhehadevermethadbeenJewth。ThoughtIwathoneof’em!\"

\"Well,didyougetanythingoutofhim?\"

\"Getanythingoutofhim。Ofcourthenot。Couldn’tverywellthellthewholerathe,athitwere,foracoupleofhundredpoundth,afterthat。Didn’ttheemworthit。\"

ThereweremanythingsForty—eightBloomsburySquarecamegraduallytotheconclusionwerenotworththedoing:——Snatchingatthegravy;

pouncingoutofone’sturnuponthevegetablesandhelpingoneselftomorethanone’sfairshare;manoeuveringfortheeasy—chair;sittingontheeveningpaperwhilepretendingnottohaveseenit——allsuch—liketiresomebitsofbusiness。Forthelittleonemadeoutofit,reallyitwasnotworththebother。Grumblingeverlastinglyatone’sfood;grumblingeverlastinglyatmostthings;abusingPennycherrybehindherback;abusing,forachange,one’sfellow—boarders;squabblingwithone’sfellow—boardersaboutnothinginparticular;sneeringatone’sfellow—boarders;talkingscandalofone’sfellow—boarders;makingsenselessjokesaboutone’sfellow—boarders;talkingbigaboutoneself,nobodybelievingone——allsuch—likevulgarities。Otherboarding—housesmightindulgeinthem:

Forty—eightBloomsburySquarehaditsdignitytoconsider。

Thetruthis,Forty—eightBloomsburySquarewascomingtoaverygoodopinionofitself:forthewhichnotBloomsburySquaresomuchasthestrangermustbeblamed。ThestrangerhadarrivedatForty—eightBloomsburySquarewiththepreconceivedidea——whereobtainedfromHeavenknows——thatitsseeminglycommonplace,mean—minded,coarse—fibredoccupantswereinrealityladiesandgentlemenofthefirstwater;andtimeandobservationhadapparentlyonlystrengthenedthisabsurdidea。Thenaturalresultwas,Forty—eightBloomsburySquarewascomingroundtothestranger’sopinionofitself。

Mrs。Pennycherry,thestrangerwouldpersistinregardingasaladybornandbred,compelledbycircumstancesoverwhichshehadnocontroltofillanarduousbuthonorablepositionofmiddle—classsociety——asortoffoster—mother,towhomwereduethethanksandgratitudeofherpromiscuousfamily;andthisviewofherselfMrs。

Pennycherrynowclungtowithobstinateconviction。Thereweredisadvantagesattaching,buttheseMrs。Pennycherryappearedpreparedtosuffercheerfully。Aladybornandbredcannotchargeotherladiesandgentlemenforcoalsandcandlestheyhaveneverburnt;afoster—mothercannotpalmoffuponherchildrenNewZealandmuttonforSouthdown。Amerelodging—house—keepercanplaythesetricks,andpockettheprofits。Butaladyfeelsshecannot:Mrs。Pennycherryfeltshenolongercould。

TothestrangerMissKitewasawittyanddelightfulconversationalistofmostattractivepersonality。MissKitehadonefailing:itwaslackofvanity。Shewasunawareofherowndelicateandrefinedbeauty。IfMissKitecouldonlyseeherselfwithhis,thestranger’seyes,themodestythatrenderedherdistrustfulofhernaturalcharmswouldfallfromher。ThestrangerwassosureofitMissKitedeterminedtoputittothetest。Oneevening,anhourbeforedinner,thereenteredthedrawing—room,whenthestrangeronlywasthereandbeforethegaswaslighted,apleasant,good—lookinglady,somewhatpale,withneatly—arrangedbrownhair,whodemandedofthestrangerifheknewher。Allherbodywastrembling,andhervoiceseemedinclinedtorunawayfromherandbecomeasob。Butwhenthestranger,lookingstraightintohereyes,toldherthatfromthelikenesshethoughtshemustbeMissKite’syoungersister,butmuchprettier,itbecamealaughinstead:andthateveningthegolden—hairedMissKitedisappearednevertoshowherhigh—colouredfaceagain;andwhatperhaps,morethanallelse,mighthaveimpressedsomeformerhabitueofForty—eightBloomsburySquarewithawe,itwasthatnooneinthehousemadeevenapassinginquiryconcerningher。

SirWilliam’scousinthestrangerthoughtanacquisitiontoanyboarding—house。Aladyofhigh—classfamily!Therewasnothingoutwardorvisibleperhapstotellyouthatshewasofhigh—classfamily。Sheherself,naturally,wouldnotmentionthefact,yetsomehowyoufeltit。Unconsciouslyshesetahigh—classtone,diffusedanatmosphereofgentlemanners。Notthatthestrangerhadsaidthisinsomanywords;SirWilliam’scousingatheredthathethoughtit,andfeltherselfinagreementwithhim。

ForMr。Longcordandhispartner,asrepresentativesofthebesttypeofbusinessmen,thestrangerhadagreatrespect。Withwhatunfortunateresultstothemselveshasbeennoted。ThecuriousthingisthattheFirmappearedcontentwiththepricetheyhadpaidforthestranger’sgoodopinion——hadeven,itwasrumoured,acquiredatasteforhonestmen’srespect——thatinthelongrunwaslikelytocostthemdear。Butweallhaveourpetextravagance。

TheColonelandMrs。Devinebothsufferedagooddealatfirstfromthenecessityimposeduponthemoflearning,somewhatlateinlife,newtricks。Intheprivacyoftheirownapartmenttheycondoledwithoneanother。

\"Tomfoolnonsense,\"grumbledtheColonel,\"youandIstartingbillingandcooingatourage!\"

\"WhatIobjectto,\"saidMrs。Devine,\"isthefeelingthatsomehowI

ambeingmadetodoit。\"

\"Theideathatamanandhiswifecannothavetheirlittlejoketogetherforfearofwhatsomeimpertinentjackanapesmaythinkofthem!it’sdamnridiculous,\"theColonelexploded。

\"Evenwhenheisn’tthere,\"saidMrs。Devine,\"Iseemtoseehimlookingatmewiththosevexingeyesofhis。Reallythemanquitehauntsme。\"

\"Ihavemethimsomewhere,\"musedtheColonel,\"I’llswearI’vemethimsomewhere。Iwishtogoodnesshewouldgo。\"

AhundredthingsadaytheColonelwantedtosaytoMrs。Devine,ahundredthingsadayMrs。DevinewouldhavelikedtoobservetotheColonel。Butbythetimetheopportunityoccurred——whennobodyelsewasbytohear——allinterestinsayingthemwasgone。

\"Womenwillbewomen,\"wasthesentimentwithwhichtheColonelconsoledhimself。\"Amanmustbearwiththem——mustneverforgetthatheisagentleman。\"

\"Oh,well,Isupposethey’reallalike,\"laughedMrs。Devinetoherself,havingarrivedatthatstageofdespairwhenoneseeksrefugeincheerfulness。\"What’stheuseofputtingoneselfout——itdoesnogood,andonlyupsetsone。\"Thereisacertainsatisfactioninfeelingyouarebearingwithheroicresignationtheirritatingfolliesofothers。ColonelandMrs。Devinecametoenjoytheluxuryofmuchself—approbation。

Butthepersonseriouslyannoyedbythestranger’sbigotedbeliefintheinnategoodnessofeveryonehecameacrosswasthelanguid,handsomeMissDevine。ThestrangerwouldhaveitthatMissDevinewasanoble—souled,high—mindedyoungwoman,somethingmidwaybetweenaFloraMacdonaldandaJoanofArc。MissDevine,onthecontrary,knewherselftobeasleek,luxury—lovinganimal,quitewillingtosellherselftothebidderwhocouldofferherthefinestclothes,therichestfoods,themostsumptuoussurroundings。Suchabidderwastohandinthepersonofaretiredbookmaker,asomewhatgreasyoldgentleman,butexceedinglyrichandundoubtedlyfondofher。

MissDevine,havingmadeuphermindthatthethinghadgottobedone,wasanxiousthatitshouldbedonequickly。Andhereitwasthatthestranger’sridiculousopinionofhernotonlyirritatedbutinconveniencedher。Undertheveryeyesofaperson——howeverfoolish——convincedthatyouarepossessedofallthehighestattributesofyoursex,itisdifficulttobehaveasthoughactuatedbyonlythebasestmotives。AdozentimeshadMissDevinedeterminedtoendthematterbyformalacceptanceofherelderlyadmirer’slargeandflabbyhand,andadozentimes——thevisioninterveningofthestranger’sgrave,believingeyes——hadMissDevinerefuseddecidedanswer。Thestrangerwouldonedaydepart。Indeed,hehadtoldherhimself,hewasbutapassingtraveller。Whenhewasgoneitwouldbeeasier。Soshethoughtatthetime。

Oneafternoonthestrangerenteredtheroomwhereshewasstandingbythewindow,lookingoutuponthebarebranchesofthetreesinBloomsburySquare。Sherememberedafterwards,itwasjustsuchanotherfoggyafternoonastheafternoonofthestranger’sarrivalthreemonthsbefore。Nooneelsewasintheroom。Thestrangerclosedthedoor,andcametowardsherwiththatcurious,quick—leapingstepofhis。Hislongcoatwastightlybuttoned,andinhishandshecarriedhisoldfelthatandthemassiveknottedstickthatwasalmostastaff。

\"Ihavecometosaygood—bye,\"explainedthestranger。\"Iamgoing。\"

\"Ishallnotseeyouagain?\"askedthegirl。

\"Icannotsay,\"repliedthestranger。\"Butyouwillthinkofme?\"

\"Yes,\"sheansweredwithasmile,\"Icanpromisethat。\"

\"AndIshallalwaysrememberyou,\"promisedthestranger,\"andIwishyoueveryjoy——thejoyoflove,thejoyofahappymarriage。\"

Thegirlwinced。\"Loveandmarriagearenotalwaysthesamething,\"

shesaid。

\"Notalways,\"agreedthestranger,\"butinyourcasetheywillbeone。\"

Shelookedathim。

\"DoyouthinkIhavenotnoticed?\"smiledthestranger,\"agallant,handsomelad,andclever。Youlovehimandhelovesyou。Icouldnothavegoneawaywithoutknowingitwaswellwithyou。\"

Hergazewanderedtowardsthefadinglight。

\"Ah,yes,Ilovehim,\"sheansweredpetulantly。\"Youreyescanseeclearlyenough,whentheywantto。Butonedoesnotliveonlove,inourworld。IwilltellyouthemanIamgoingtomarryifyoucaretoknow。\"Shewouldnotmeethiseyes。Shekepthergazestillfixeduponthedingytrees,themistbeyond,andspokerapidlyandvehemently:\"Themanwhocangivemeallmysoul’sdesire——moneyandthethingsthatmoneycanbuy。Youthinkmeawoman,I’monlyapig。

Heismoist,andbreatheslikeaporpoise;withcunninginplaceofabrain,andtherestofhimmerestomach。Butheisgoodenoughforme。\"

Shehopedthiswouldshockthestrangerandthatnow,perhaps,hewouldgo。Itirritatedhertohearhimonlylaugh。

\"No,\"hesaid,\"youwillnotmarryhim。\"

\"Whowillstopme?\"shecriedangrily。

\"YourBetterSelf。\"

Hisvoicehadastrangeringofauthority,compellinghertoturnandlookuponhisface。Yes,itwastrue,thefancythatfromtheveryfirsthadhauntedher。Shehadmethim,talkedtohim——insilentcountryroads,incrowdedcitystreets,wherewasit?Andalwaysintalkingwithhimherspirithadbeenliftedup:shehadbeen——whathehadalwaysthoughther。

\"Therearethose,\"continuedthestranger(andforthefirsttimeshesawthathewasofanoblepresence,thathisgentle,child—likeeyescouldalsocommand),\"whoseBetterSelfliesslainbytheirownhandandtroublesthemnomore。Butyours,mychild,youhaveletgrowtoostrong;itwilleverbeyourmaster。Youmustobey。Fleefromitanditwillfollowyou;youcannotescapeit。Insultitanditwillchastiseyouwithburningshame,withstingingself—reproachfromdaytoday。\"Thesternnessfadedfromthebeautifulface,thetendernesscreptback。Helaidhishandupontheyounggirl’sshoulder。\"Youwillmarryyourlover,\"hesmiled。\"Withhimyouwillwalkthewayofsunlightandofshadow。\"

Andthegirl,lookingupintothestrong,calmface,knewthatitwouldbeso,thatthepowerofresistingherBetterSelfhadpassedawayfromherforever。

\"Now,\"saidthestranger,\"cometothedoorwithme。Leave—takingsarebutwastedsadness。Letmepassoutquietly。Closethedoorsoftlybehindme。\"

Shethoughtthatperhapshewouldturnhisfaceagain,butshesawnomoreofhimthantheoddroundnessofhisbackunderthetightlybuttonedcoat,beforehefadedintothegatheringfog。

Thensoftlysheclosedthedoor。