第3章

Thedrum—beatoftherainfollowedhimdownthestaircase,butheshutitoutwithhisotherthoughts,whenheagainclosedthedoorofhisoffice。Hesetdiligentlytoworkbythedecliningwinterlight,untilhewasinterruptedbytheentranceofhisChinesewaitertotellhimthatsupper——whichwasthemealthatMulradyreligiouslyadheredtoinplaceofthelatedinnerofcivilization——

wasreadyinthedining—room。Mulradymechanicallyobeyedthesummons;butonenteringtheroomtheoasisofafewplatesinadesertofwhitetable—clothwhichawaitedhimmadehimhesitate。

Initsbestaspect,thehighdarkGothicmahoganyecclesiasticalsideboardandchairsofthisroom,whichlookedliketheappointmentsofamortuarychapel,werenotexhilarating;andto—

day,inthelightoftherain—filmedwindowsandthefeebleraysofalamphalf—obscuredbythedarkshiningwalls,itwasmostdepressing。

\"Youkintakeupsupperintomyoffice,\"saidMulrady,withasuddeninspiration。\"I’lleatitthere。\"

Heateitthere,withhisusualhealthyappetite,whichdidnotrequireeventhestimulationofcompany。Hehadjustfinished,whenhisIrishcook——theonefemaleservantofthehouse——cametoaskpermissiontobeabsentthateveningandthenextday。

\"Isupposethelikesofyourhonorwon’tbeathomeontheChristmasDay?Andit’smecousinsfromtheoldcounthryatRough—

and—Readythatareinvitin’me。\"

\"Whydon’tyouaskthemoverhere?\"saidMulrady,withanothervagueinspiration。\"I’llstandtreat。\"

\"Lordpreserveyouforajinerousgintleman!Butit’sthelikesofthemandmyselfthatwouldn’tbeathomehereonsuchaday。\"

TherewassomuchtruthinthisthatMulradycheckedasighashegavetherequiredpermission,withoutsayingthathehadintendedtoremain。Hecouldcookhisownbreakfast:hehaddoneitbefore;

anditwouldbesomethingtooccupyhim。Astohisdinner,perhapshecouldgotothehotelatRough—and—Ready。Heworkedonuntilthenighthadwelladvanced。Then,overcomewithacertainrestlessnessthatdisturbedhim,hewasforcedtoputhisbooksandpapersaway。Ithadbeguntoblowinfitfulgusts,andoccasionallytherainwasdrivensoftlyacrossthepaneslikethepassingofchildishfingers。Thisdisturbedhimmorethanthemonotonyofsilence,forhewasnotanervousman。Heseldomreadabook,andthecountypaperfurnishedhimonlythefinancialandmercantilenewswhichwaspartofhisbusiness。Heknewhecouldnotsleepifhewenttobed。Atlastherose,openedthewindow,andlookedoutfrompureidlenessofoccupation。Asplashofwheelsinthedistantmuddyroadandfragmentsofadrunkensongshowedsignsofanearlywanderingreveller。Therewerenolightstobeseenattheclosedworks;aprofounddarknessencompassedthehouse,asifthedistantpinesinthehollowhadmovedupandroundit。Thesilencewasbrokennowonlybytheoccasionalsighingofwindandrain。Itwasnotaninvitingnightforaperfunctorywalk;butanideastruckhim——hewouldcallupontheSlinns,andanticipatehisnextday’svisit!Theywouldprobablyhavecompany,andbegladtoseehim:hecouldtellthegirlsofMamieandhersuccess。Thathehadnotthoughtofthisbeforewasaproofofhisusualself—containedisolation,thathethoughtofitnowwasanequalproofthathewasbecomingatlastaccessibletoloneliness。

Hewasangrywithhimselfforwhatseemedtohimaselfishweakness。

Hereturnedtohisoffice,and,puttingtheenvelopethathadbeenlyingonSlinn’sdeskinhispocket,threwaserapeoverhisshoulders,andlockedthefrontdoorofthehousebehindhim。Itwaswellthatthewaywasafamiliaronetohim,andthathisfeetinstinctivelyfoundthetrail,forthenightwasverydark。Attimeshewaswarnedonlybythegurglingofwateroflittlerivuletsthatdescendedthehillandcrossedhispath。Withouttheslightestfear,andwithneitherimaginationnorsensitiveness,herecalledhow,thewinterbefore,oneofDonCaesar’svaqueros,crossingthishillatnight,hadfallendownthechasmofalandslipcausedbytherain,andwasfoundthenextmorningwithhisneckbrokeninthegully。DonCaesarhadtotakecareoftheman’sfamily。Supposesuchanaccidentshouldhappentohim?

Well,hehadmadehiswill。Hiswifeandchildrenwouldbeprovidedfor,andtheworkoftheminewouldgoonallthesame;hehadarrangedforthat。Wouldanybodymisshim?Wouldhiswife,orhisson,orhisdaughter?No。Hefeltsuchasuddenandoverwhelmingconvictionofthetruthofthisthathestoppedassuddenlyasifthechasmhadopenedbeforehim。No!Itwasthetruth。IfheweretodisappearforeverinthedarknessoftheChristmasnighttherewasnonetofeelhisloss。HiswifewouldtakecareofMamie;hissonwouldtakecareofhimself,ashehadbefore——relievedofeventhescantpaternalauthorityherebelledagainst。AmoreimaginativemanthanMulradywouldhavecombatedorhavefollowedoutthisidea,andthendismissedit;tothemillionaire’smatter—of—factminditwasadeductionthat,havingoncepresenteditselftohisperception,wasalreadyarecognizedfact。Forthefirsttimeinhislifehefeltasuddeninstinctofsomethinglikeaversiontowardshisfamily,afeelingthatevenhisson’sdissipationandcriminalityhadneverprovoked。Hehurriedonangrilythroughthedarkness。

Itwasverystrange;theoldhouseshouldbealmostbeforehimnow,acrossthehollow,yettherewerenoindicationsoflight!Itwasnotuntilheactuallyreachedthegardenfence,andtheblackbulkofshadowroseoutagainstthesky,thathesawafaintrayoflightfromoneofthelean—towindows。Hewenttothefrontdoorandknocked。Afterwaitinginvainforareply,heknockedagain。

Thesecondknockprovingequallyfutile,hetriedthedoor;itwasunlocked,and,pushingitopen,hewalkedin。Thenarrowpassagewasquitedark,butfromhisknowledgeofthehouseheknewthe\"lean—to\"wasnexttothekitchen,and,passingthroughthedining—

roomintoit,heopenedthedoorofthelittleroomfromwhichthelightproceeded。Itcamefromasinglecandleonasmalltable,andbesideit,withhiseyesmoodilyfixedonthedyingembersofthefire,satoldSlinn。Therewasnootherlightnoranotherhumanbeinginthewholehouse。

FortheinstantMulrady,forgettinghisownfeelingsinthemutepictureoftheutterdesolationofthehelplessman,remainedspeechlessonthethreshold。Then,recallinghimself,hesteppedforwardandlaidhishandgaylyonthebowedshoulders。

\"Rouseupouto’this,oldman!Come!thiswon’tdo。Look!I’verunoverhereintherain,jisttohaveasociabletimewithyouall。\"

\"Iknewit,\"saidtheoldman,withoutlookingup;\"Iknewyou’dcome。\"

\"YouknewI’dcome?\"echoedMulrady,withanuneasyreturnofthestrangefeelingofawewithwhichheregardedSlinn’sabstraction。

\"Yes;youwerealone——likemyself——allalone!\"

\"Then,whyinthunderdidn’tyouopenthedoororsingoutjustnow?\"hesaid,withanaffectedbrusquerietocoverhisuneasiness。

\"Where’syourdaughters?\"

\"GonetoRough—and—Readytoaparty。\"

\"Andyourson?\"

\"Henevercomesherewhenhecanamusehimselfelsewhere。\"

\"YourchildrenmighthavestayedhomeonChristmasEve。\"

\"Somightyours。\"

Hedidn’tsaythisimpatiently,butwithacertainabstractedconvictionfarbeyondanysuggestionofitsbeingaretort。

Mulradydidnotappeartonoticeit。

\"Well,Idon’tseewhyusoldfolkscan’tenjoyourselveswithoutthem,\"saidMulrady,withaffectedcheerfulness。\"Let’shaveagoodtime,youandme。Let’ssee——youhaven’tanyoneyoucansendtomyhouse,hevyou?\"

\"Theytooktheservantwiththem,\"saidSlinn,briefly。\"Thereisnoonehere。\"

\"Allright,\"saidthemillionaire,briskly。\"I’llgomyself。Doyouthinkyoucanmanagetolightupalittlemore,andbuildafireinthekitchenwhileI’mgone?Itusedtobemightycomfortableintheoldtimes。\"

Hehelpedtheoldmantorisefromhischair,andseemedtohaveinfusedintohimsomeofhisownenergy。Hethenadded,\"Now,don’tyougetyourselfdownagainintothatchairuntilIcomeback,\"anddartedoutintothenightoncemore。

Inaquarterofanhourhereturnedwithabagonhisbroadshoulders,whichoneofhisporterswouldhaveshrunkfromlifting,andlaiditbeforetheblazinghearthofthenowlightedkitchen。

\"It’ssomethingtheoldwomangotforherparty,thatdidn’tcomeoff,\"hesaid,apologetically。\"Ireckonwecanpickoutenoughforaspread。ThatdarnedChinamanwouldn’tcomewithme,\"headded,withalaugh,\"because,hesaid,he’dknockedoffwork’alleesame,Mellicanman!’Lookhere,Slinn,\"hesaid,withasuddendecisiveness,\"mypay—rollofthemenaroundheredon’trunshortofahundredandfiftydollarsaday,andyetIcouldn’tgetahandtohelpmebringthistruckoverformyChristmasdinner。\"

\"Ofcourse,\"saidSlinn,gloomily。

\"Ofcourse;soitoughterbe,\"returnedMulrady,shortly。\"Why,it’sonlytheironedayoutof364;andIcanhave363daysoff,asIamtheirboss。Idon’tmindaman’sbeingindependent,\"hecontinued,takingoffhiscoatandbeginningtounpackhissack——acommon\"gunnybag\"——usedforpotatoes。\"We’reindependentourselves,ain’twe,Slinn?\"

Hisgoodspirits,whichhadbeenatfirstlaboredandaffected,hadbecomenatural。Slinn,lookingathisbrightenedeyeandfreshercolor,couldnothelpthinkinghewasmorelikehisownrealselfatthismomentthaninhiscounting—houseandoffices——withallhissimplicityasacapitalist。AlessabstractedandmoreobservantcriticthanSlinnwouldhaveseeninthispatientaptitudeforrealwork,andtherecognitionoftheforceofpettydetail,thedominanceoftheoldmarket—gardenerinhisformerhumble,aswellashislatermoreambitious,successes。

\"Heavenkeepusfrombeingdependentuponourchildren!\"saidSlinn,darkly。

\"Lettheyoungonesaloneto—night;wecangetalongwithoutthem,astheycanwithoutus,\"saidMulrady,withaslighttwingeashethoughtofhisreflectionsonthehillside。\"Butlookhere,there’ssomechampagneandthemsweetcordialsthatwomenlike;

there’sjelliesandsuchlikestuff,aboutasgoodastheymake’em,Ireckon;andpreserves,andtongues,andspicedbeef——takeyourpick!Stop,let’sspreadthemout。\"Hedraggedthetabletothemiddleofthefloor,andpiledtheprovisionsuponit。Theycertainlywerenotdeficientinqualityorquantity。\"Now,Slinn,wadein。\"

\"Idon’tfeelhungry,\"saidtheinvalid,whohadlapsedagainintoachairbeforethefire。

\"NomoredoI,\"saidMulrady;\"butIreckonit’stherightthingtodoaboutthistime。Somefolksthinktheycan’tbehappywithoutthey’regettingoutsideo’suthin’,andmydirectorsdownat’Friscocan’tdoanybusinesswithoutadinner。Takesomechampagne,tobeginwith。\"

Heopenedabottle,andfilledtwotumblers。\"It’spasttwelveo’clock,oldman,sohere’samerryChristmastoyou,andbothofusezishere。Andhere’sanothertoourfamilies——ezisn’t。\"

Theybothdranktheirwinestolidly。Therainbeatagainstthewindowssharply,butwithoutthehollowechoesofthehouseonthehill。\"ImustwritetotheoldwomanandMamie,andsaythatyouandmehadahigholdtimeonChristmasEve。\"

\"Byourselves,\"addedtheinvalid。

Mr。Mulradycoughed。\"Nat’rally——byourselves。Andherprovisions,\"headded,withalaugh。\"We’rereallybeholdentoHER

for’em。Ifshehadn’tthoughtofhavingthem——\"

\"Forsomebodyelse,youwouldn’thavehadthem——wouldyou?\"saidSlinn,slowly,gazingatthefire。

\"No,\"saidMulrady,dubiously。Afterapausehebeganmorevivaciously,andasiftoshakeoffsomedisagreeablethoughtthatwasimpressinghim,\"ButImustn’tforgettogiveyouYOUR

Christmas,oldman,andI’vegotitrightherewithme。\"Hetookthefoldedenvelopefromhispocket,and,holdingitinhishandwithhiselbowonthetable,continued,\"Idon’tmindtellingyouwhatideaIhadingivingyouwhatI’mgoin’togiveyounow。I’vebeenthinkingaboutitforadayortwo。Amanlikeyoudon’twantmoney——youwouldn’tspendit。Amanlikeyoudon’twantstocksorfancyinvestments,foryoucouldn’tlookafterthem。Amanlikeyoudon’twantdiamondsandjewellery,noragold—headedcane,whenit’sgottobeusedasacrutch。No,sir。Whatyouwantissuthin’thatwon’trunawayfromyou;thatisalwaystherebeforeyouandwon’twearout,andwilllastafteryou’regone。That’sland!Andifitwasn’tthatIhaveswornnevertosellorgiveawaythishouseandthatgarden,ifitwasn’tthatI’veheldoutagintheoldwomanandMamieonthatpoint,youshouldhaveTHIS

houseandTHATgarden。But,mebbee,forthesamereasonthatI’vetoldyou,Iwantthatlandtokeepformyself。ButI’veselectedfouracresofthehillthissideofmyshaft,andhere’sthedeedofit。Assoonasyou’reready,I’llputyouupahouseasbigasthis——thatshallbeyours,withtheland,aslongasyoulive,oldman;andafterthatyourchildren’s。\"

\"No;nottheirs!\"brokeintheoldman,passionately。\"Never!\"

Mulradyrecoiledforaninstantinalarmatthesuddenandunexpectedvehemenceofhismanner,\"Goslow,oldman;goslow,\"hesaid,soothingly。\"Ofcourse,you’lldowithyourownasyoulike。\"Then,asifchangingthesubject,hewentoncheerfully:

\"Perhapsyou’llwonderwhyIpickedoutthatspotonthehillside。

Well,first,becauseIreserveditaftermystrikeincasetheleadshouldrunthatway,butitdidn’t。Next,becausewhenyoufirstcamehereyouseemedtoliketheprospect。Youusedtosittherelookingatit,asifitremindedyouofsomething。Youneversaiditdid。Theysayyouwassittingonthatbouldertherewhenyouhadthatlastattack,youknow;but,\"headded,gently,\"you’veforgottenallaboutit。\"

\"Ihaveforgottennothing,\"saidSlinn,rising,withachokingvoice。\"IwishtoGodIhad;IwishtoGodIcould!\"

Hewasonhisfeetnow,supportinghimselfbythetable。Thesubtlegenerousliquorhehaddrunkhadevidentlyshakenhisself—

control,andburstthosevoluntarybondshehadputuponhimselfforthelastsixmonths;theinsidiousstimulanthadalsoputastrangevigorintohisbloodandnerves。Hisfacewasflushed,butnotdistorted;hiseyeswerebrilliant,butnotfixed;helookedashemighthavelookedtoMastersinhisstrengththreeyearsbeforeonthatveryhillside。

\"Listentome,AlvinMulrady,\"hesaid,leaningoverhimwithburningeyes。\"Listen,whileIhavebraintothinkandstrengthtoutter,whyIhavelearnttodistrust,fear,andhatethem!Youthinkyouknowmystory。Well,hearthetruthfromMEto—night,AlvinMulrady,anddonotwonderifIhavecause。\"

Hestopped,and,withpatheticinefficiency,passedthefingersandinward—turnedthumbofhisparalyzedhandacrosshismouth,asiftocalmhimself。\"ThreeyearsagoIwasaminer,butnotaminerlikeyou!Ihadexperience,Ihadscientificknowledge,Ihadatheory,andthepatienceandenergytocarryitout。Iselectedaspotthathadalltheindications,madeatunnel,and,withoutaid,counselorassistanceofanykind,workeditforsixmonths,withoutrestorcessation,andwithscarcelyfoodenoughtosustainmybody。Well,Imadeastrike;notlikeyou,Mulrady,notablunderofgoodluck,afool’sfortune——there,Idon’tblameyouforit——butinperfectdemonstrationofmytheory,therewardofmylabor。Itwasnopocket,butavein,alead,thatIhadregularlyhunteddownandfound——afortune!

\"IneverknewhowhardIhadworkeduntilthatmorning;IneverknewwhatprivationsIhadundergoneuntilthatmomentofmysuccess,whenIfoundIcouldscarcelythinkormove!Istaggeredoutintotheopenair。Theonlyhumansoulnearmewasadisappointedprospector,amannamedMasters,whohadatunnelnotfaraway。Imanagedtoconcealfromhimmygoodfortuneandmyfeeblestate,forIwassuspiciousofhim——ofanyone;andashewasgoingawaythatdayIthoughtIcouldkeepmysecretuntilhewasgone。Iwasdizzyandconfused,butIrememberthatImanagedtowritealettertomywife,tellingherofmygoodfortune,andbegginghertocometome;andIrememberthatIsawMastersgo。I

don’trememberanythingelse。Theypickedmeupontheroad,nearthatboulder,asyouknow。\"

\"Iknow,\"saidMulrady,withaswiftrecollectionofthestage—

driver’saccountofhisdiscovery。

\"Theysay,\"continuedSlinn,tremblingly,\"thatIneverrecoveredmysensesorconsciousnessfornearlythreeyears;theysayIlostmymemorycompletelyduringmyillness,andthatbyGod’smercy,whileIlayinthathospital,Iknewnomorethanababe;theysay,becauseIcouldnotspeakormove,andonlyhadmyfoodasnaturerequiredit,thatIwasanimbecile,andthatIneverreallycametomysensesuntilaftermysonfoundmeinthehospital。TheySAY

that——butItellyouto—night,AlvinMulrady,\"hesaid,raisinghisvoicetoahoarseoutcry,\"Itellyouthatitisalie!IcametomysensesaweekafterIlayonthathospitalcot;IkeptmysensesandmemoryeverafterduringthethreeyearsthatIwasthere,untilHarrybroughthiscold,hypocriticalfacetomybedsideandrecognizedme。Doyouunderstand?I,thepossessorofmillions,laythereapauper。Desertedbywifeandchildren——aspectacleforthecurious,asportforthedoctors——ANDIKNEWIT!Iheardthemspeculateonthecauseofmyhelplessness。Iheardthemtalkofexcessesandindulgences——I,thatneverknewwineorwoman!I

heardapreacherspeakofthefingerofGod,andpointtome。MayGodcursehim!\"

\"Goslow,oldman;goslow,\"saidMulrady,gently。

\"Iheardthemspeakofmeasafriendlessman,anoutcast,acriminal——abeingwhomnoonewouldclaim。Theywereright;nooneclaimedme。Thefriendsofothersvisitedthem;relationscameandtookawaytheirkindred;afewluckyonesgotwell;afew,equallylucky,died!Ialonelivedon,uncaredfor,deserted。

\"Thefirstyear,\"hewentonmorerapidly,\"Iprayedfortheircoming。Ilookedforthemeveryday。Ineverlosthope。Isaidtomyself,’Shehasnotgotmyletter;butwhenthetimepassesshewillbealarmedbymysilence,andthenshewillcomeorsendsomeonetoseekme。’Ayoungstudentgotinterestedinmycase,and,bystudyingmyeyes,thoughtthatIwasnotentirelyimbecileandunconscious。Withtheaidofanalphabet,hegotmetospellmynameandtowninIllinois,andpromisedbysignstowritetomyfamily。ButinanevilmomentItoldhimofmycursedfortune,andinthatmomentIsawthathethoughtmeafoolandanidiot。Hewentaway,andIsawhimnomore。YetIstillhoped。Idreamedoftheirjoyatfindingme,andtherewardthatmywealthwouldgivethem。PerhapsIwasalittleweakstill,perhapsalittleflighty,too,attimes;butIwasquitehappythatyear,eveninmydisappointment,forIhadstillhope!\"

Hepaused,andagaincomposedhisfacewithhisparalyzedhand;buthismannerhadbecomelessexcited,andhisvoicewasstronger。

\"Achangemusthavecomeovermethesecondyear,forIonlydreadedtheircomingnowandfindingmesoaltered。Ahorribleideathattheymight,likethestudent,believemecrazyifIspokeofmyfortunemademepraytoGodthattheymightnotreachmeuntilafterIhadregainedmyhealthandstrength——andfoundmyfortune。Whenthethirdyearfoundmestillthere——Inolongerprayedforthem——Icursedthem!Isworetomyselfthattheyshouldneverenjoymywealth;butIwantedtolive,andletthemknowI

hadit。Ifoundmyselfgettingstronger;butasIhadnomoney,nofriends,andnowheretogo,Iconcealedmyrealconditionfromthedoctors,excepttogivethemmyname,andtotrytogetsomelittleworktodotoenablemetoleavethehospitalandseekmylosttreasure。OnedayIfoundoutbyaccidentthatithadbeendiscovered!Youunderstand——mytreasure!——thathadcostmeyearsoflaborandmyreason;hadleftmeahelpless,forgottenpauper。

ThatgoldIhadneverenjoyedhadbeenfoundandtakenpossessionofbyanother!\"

HecheckedanexclamationfromMulradywithhishand。\"Theysaytheypickedmeupsenselessfromthefloor,whereImusthavefallenwhenIheardthenews——Idon’tremember——IrecallnothinguntilIwasconfronted,nearlythreeweeksafter,bymyson,whohadcalledatthehospital,asareporterforapaper,andhadaccidentallydiscoveredmethroughmynameandappearance。Hethoughtmecrazy,orafool。Ididn’tundeceivehim。Ididnottellhimthestoryoftheminetoexcitehisdoubtsandderision,or,worse(ifIcouldbringprooftoclaimit),haveitperhapspassintohisungratefulhands。No;Isaidnothing。Ilethimbringmehere。Hecoulddonoless,andcommondecencyobligedhimtodothat。\"

\"Andwhatproofcouldyoushowofyourclaim?\"askedMulrady,gravely。

\"IfIhadthatletter——ifIcouldfindMasters,\"beganSlinn,vaguely。

\"Haveyouanyideawheretheletteris,orwhathasbecomeofMasters?\"continuedMulrady,withamatter—of—factgravity,thatseemedtoincreaseSlinn’svaguenessandexcitehisirritability。

\"Idon’tknow——Isometimesthink——\"Hestopped,satdownagain,andpassedhishandsacrosshisforehead。\"Ihaveseenthelettersomewheresince。Yes,\"hewenton,withsuddenvehemence,\"Iknowit,Ihaveseenit!I——\"Hisbrowsknitted,hisfeaturesbegantoworkconvulsively;hesuddenlybroughthisparalyzedhanddown,partlyopened,uponthetable。\"IWILLrememberwhere。\"

\"Goslow,oldman;goslow。\"

\"Youaskedmeonceaboutmyvisions。Well,thatisoneofthem。I

rememberamansomewhereshowingmethatletter。Ihavetakenitfromhishandsandopenedit,andknewitwasminebythespecimensofgoldthatwereinit。Butwhere——orwhen——orwhatbecameofit,Icannottell。Itwillcometome——itMUSTcometomesoon。\"

HeturnedhiseyesuponMulrady,whowasregardinghimwithanexpressionofgravecuriosity,andsaidbitterly,\"Youthinkmecrazy。Iknowit。Itneededonlythis。\"

\"Whereisthismine,\"askedMulrady,withoutheedinghim。

Theoldman’seyesswiftlysoughttheground。

\"Itisasecret,then?\"

\"No。\"

\"Youhavespokenofittoanyone?\"

\"No。\"

\"Nottothemanwhopossessesit?\"

\"No。\"

\"Why?\"

\"BecauseIwouldn’ttakeitfromhim。\"

\"Whywouldn’tyou?\"

\"Becausethatmanisyourself!\"

Intheinstantofcompletesilencethatfollowedtheycouldhearthatthemonotonouspatterofrainontheroofhadceased。

\"ThenallthiswasinMYshaft,andtheveinIthoughtIstrucktherewasYOURlead,foundthreeyearsagoinYOURtunnel。Isthatyouridea?\"

\"Yes。\"

\"ThenIdon’tsabewhyyoudon’twanttoclaimit。\"

\"IhavetoldyouwhyIdon’twantitformychildren。Igofurther,now,andItellyou,AlvinMulrady,thatIwaswillingthatyourchildrenshouldsquanderit,astheyweredoing。Ithasonlybeenacursetome;itcouldonlybeacursetothem;butI

thoughtyouwerehappyinseeingitfeedselfishnessandvanity。

Youthinkmebitterandhard。Well,Ishouldhaveleftyouinyourfool’sparadise,butthatIsawto—night,whenyoucamehere,thatyoureyeshadbeenopenedlikemine。You,thepossessorofmywealth,mytreasure,couldnotbuyyourchildren’slovingcareandcompanywithyourmillions,anymorethanIcouldkeepmineinmypoverty。Youwereto—nightlonelyandforsaken,asIwas。Wewereequal,forthefirsttimeinourlives。Ifthatcursedgoldhaddroppeddowntheshaftbetweenusintothehellfromwhichitsprang,wemighthaveclaspedhandslikebrothersacrossthechasm。\"

Mulrady,whoinafriendlyshowofbeingathiseasehadnotyetresumedhiscoat,roseinhisshirt—sleeves,and,standingbeforethehearth,straightenedhissquarefigurebydrawingdownhiswaistcoatoneachsidewithtwopowerfulthumbs。Afteramoment’scontemplativesurveyofthefloorbetweenhimandthespeaker,heraisedhiseyestoSlinn。Theyweresmallandcolorless;theforeheadabovethemwaslow,andcrownedwithashockoftawnyreddishhair;eventherudestrengthofhislowerfeatureswasenfeebledbyalong,straggling,goat—likebeard;butforthefirsttimeinhislifethewholefacewasimpressedandtransformedwithastrongandsimpledignity。

\"EzfarezIkinsee,Slinn,\"hesaid,gravely,\"thepintbetweenyouandmeain’ttobesettledbyourchildren,orwotweallowisdooandrightfromthemtous。Aforewepreachatthemforplayingintheslumgullion,andgettin’themselvessplashed,perhapswemoutezwellrememberthatthattharslumgullioncomesfromourownsluice—boxes,wherewewashourgold。Sowe’lljustputTHEM

behindus,so,\"hecontinued,withabackwardsweepofhispowerfulhandtowardsthechimney,\"andgoeson。Thenextthingthatcropsupaheadofusisyourthreeyearsinthehospital,andwotyouwentthroughatthattime。Iain’tsayin’itwasn’troughonyou,andthatyoudidn’thaveitaboutasbigasit’smade;butezyou’llallowthatyou’dhevhadthatforthreeyears,whetherI’dfoundyourmineorwhetherIhadn’t,IthinkwecanputTHATbehindus,too。There’snothin’nowlefttoprospectbutyourstoryofyourstrike。Well,takeyourownproofs。Mastersisnothere;andifhewas,accordin’toyourownstory,heknowsnothin’ofyourstrikethatday,andcouldonlyproveyouwereadisappointedprospectorinatunnel;yourletter——thatthepersonyouwrotetonevergot——YOUcan’tproduce;andifyoudid,wouldbeonlyyourownstorywithoutproof!Thereisnotabusinessmanezwouldlookatyourclaim;thereisn’tafriendofyoursthatwouldn’tbelieveyouwerecrazy,anddreameditall;thereisn’tarivalofyoursezwouldn’tsayezyou’dinventedit。Slinn,I’mabusinessman——Iamyourfriend——Iamyourrival——butIdon’tthinkyou’relyin’——I

don’tthinkyou’recrazy——andI’mnotsureyourclaimain’tagoodone!

\"EfyoureckonfromthatthatI’mgoin’tohandyouoverthemineto—morrow,\"hewenton,afterapause,raisinghishandwithadeprecatinggesture,\"you’remistaken。Foryourownsake,andthesakeofmywifeandchildren,you’vegottoproveitmoreclearlythanyouhev;butIpromiseyouthatfromthisnightforwardIwillspareneithertimenormoneytohelpyoutodoit。Ihavemorethandoubledtheamountthatyouwouldhavehad,hadyoutakentheminethedayyoucamefromthehospital。Whenyouprovetomethatyourstoryistrue——andwewillfindsomewaytoproveit,ifitIS

true——thatamountwillbeyoursatonce,withouttheneedofawordfromlaworlawyers。Ifyouwantmynametothatinblackandwhite,cometotheofficeto—morrow,andyoushallhaveit。\"

\"AndyouthinkI’lltakeitnow?\"saidtheoldmanpassionately。

\"Doyouthinkthatyourcharitywillbringbackmydeadwife,thethreeyearsofmylostlife,theloveandrespectofmychildren?

Ordoyouthinkthatyourownwifeandchildren,whodesertedyouinyourwealth,willcomebacktoyouinyourpoverty?No!Lettheminestay,withitscurse,whereitis——I’llhavenoneofit!\"

\"Goslow,oldman;goslow,\"saidMulrady,quietly,puttingonhiscoat。\"Youwilltakethemineifitisyours;ifitisn’t,I’llkeepit。Ifitisyours,youwillgiveyourchildrenachancetoshowhattheycandoforyouinyoursuddenprosperity,asIshallgivemineachancetoshowhowtheycanstandreverseanddisappointment。Ifmyheadislevel——andIreckonitis——they’llbothpanoutallright。\"

Heturnedandopenedthedoor。Withaquickrevulsionoffeeling,SlinnsuddenlyseizedMulrady’shandbetweenbothofhisown,andraisedittohislips。Mulradysmiled,disengagedhishandgently,andsayingsoothingly,\"Goslow,oldman;goslow,\"closedthedoorbehindhim,andpassedoutintotheclearChristmasdawn。

Forthestars,withtheexceptionofonethatseemedtosparklebrightlyovertheshaftofhisformerfortunes,wereslowlypaling。

Aburdenseemedtohavefallenfromhissquareshouldersashesteppedoutsturdilyintothemorningair。Hehadalreadyforgottenthelonelymanbehindhim,forhewasthinkingonlyofhiswifeanddaughter。Andatthesamemomenttheywerethinkingofhim;andintheirelaboratevillaoverlookingtheblueMediterraneanatCanneswerediscussing,intheeventofMamie’smarriagewithPrinceRossoeNegro,thepossibilityofMr。

Mulrady’spayingtwohundredandfiftythousanddollars,thegamblingdebtsofthatunfortunatebutdeeplyconscientiousnobleman。

CHAPTERVI

WhenAlvinMulradyreenteredhisownhouse,henolongernoticeditsloneliness。Whethertheeventsofthelastfewhourshaddrivenitfromhismind,orwhetherhislatereflectionshadrepeopleditwithhisfamilyunderpleasanterauspices,itwouldbedifficulttodetermine。Destituteashewasofimagination,andmatter—of—factinhisjudgments,herealizedhisnewsituationascalmlyashewouldhaveconsideredanybusinessproposition。Whilehewasdecidedtoactuponhismoralconvictionspurely,hewaspreparedtosubmitthefactsofSlinn’sclaimtotheusualpatientandlaboriousinvestigationofhispracticalmind。ItwastheleasthecoulddotojustifythereadyandalmostsuperstitiousassenthehadgiventoSlinn’sstory。

Whenhehadmadeafewmemorandaathisdeskbythegrowinglight,heagaintookthekeyoftheattic,andascendedtotheloftthatheldthetangiblememoriesofhispastlife。Ifhewasstillundertheinfluenceofhisreflections,itwaswithverydifferentsensationsthathenowregardedthem。Wasitpossiblethattheseashesmightbewarmedagain,andthesescatteredembersrekindled?

HispracticalsensesaidNo!whateverhiswishmighthavebeen。A

suddenchillcameoverhim;hebegantorealizetheterriblechangethatwasprobable,morebytheimpossibilityofhisacceptingtheoldorderofthingsthanbyhisvoluntarilyabandoningthenew。

Hiswifeandchildrenwouldneversubmit。Theywouldgoawayfromthisplace,faraway,wherenoreminiscenceofeitherformerwealthorformerpovertycouldobtrudeitselfuponthem。Mamie——hisMamie——shouldnevergobacktothecabin,sincedesecratedbySlinn’sdaughters,andtaketheirplaces。No!Whyshouldshe?——

becauseofthehalf—sick,half—crazydreamsofanoldvindictiveman?

Hestoppedsuddenly。Inmoodilyturningoveraheapofminingclothing,blankets,andindia—rubberboots,hehadcomeuponanoldpickaxe——theonehehadfoundintheshaft;theonehehadcarefullypreservedforayear,andthenforgotten!Whyhadhenotremembereditbefore?Hewasfrightened,notonlyatthissuddenresurrectionoftheproofhewasseeking,butathisownfatefulforgetfulness。WhyhadheneverthoughtofthiswhenSlinnwasspeaking?Asenseofshame,asifhehadvoluntarilywithhelditfromthewrongedman,sweptoverhim。Hewasturningaway,whenhewasagainstartled。

Thistimeitwasbyavoicefrombelow——avoicecallinghim——

Slinn’svoice。Howhadthecrippledmangotheresosoon,andwhatdidhewant?Hehurriedlylaidasidethepick,which,inhisfirstimpulse,hehadtakentothedooroftheloftwithhim,anddescendedthestairs。Theoldmanwasstandingatthedoorofhisofficeawaitinghim。

AsMulradyapproached,hetrembledviolently,andclungtothedoorpostforsupport。

\"Ihadtocomeover,Mulrady,\"hesaid,inachokedvoice;\"Icouldstandittherenolonger。I’vecometobegyoutoforgetallthatIhavesaid;todriveallthoughtofwhatpassedbetweenuslastnightoutofyourheadandmineforever!I’vecometoaskyoutoswearwithmethatneitherofuswilleverspeakofthisagainforever。ItisnotworththehappinessIhavehadinyourfriendshipforthelasthalf—year;itisnotworththeagonyIhavesufferedinitslossinthelasthalf—hour。\"

Mulradygraspedhisoutstretchedhand。\"P’raps,\"hesaid,gravely,\"theremayn’tbeanyuseforanotherword,ifyoucanansweronenow。Comewithme。Nomatter,\"headded,asSlinnmovedwithdifficulty;\"Iwillhelpyou。\"

Hehalfsupported,halfliftedtheparalyzedmanupthethreeflightsofstairs,andopenedthedooroftheloft。Thepickwasleaningagainstthewall,wherehehadleftit。\"Lookaround,andseeifyourecognizeanything。\"

Theoldman’seyesfellupontheimplementinahalf—frightenedway,andthenliftedthemselvesinterrogativelytoMulrady’sface。

\"Doyouknowthatpick?\"

Slinnraiseditinhistremblinghands。\"IthinkIdo;andyet——\"

\"Slinn!isityours?\"

\"No,\"hesaidhurriedly。

\"Thenwhatmakesyouthinkyouknowit?\"

\"IthasashorthandlelikeoneI’veseen。\"

\"Andisisn’tyours?\"

\"No。Thehandleofminewasbrokenandspliced。Iwastoopoortobuyanewone。\"

\"ThenyousaythatthispickwhichIfoundinmyshaftisnotyours?\"

\"Yes。\"

\"Slinn!\"

Theoldmanpassedhishandacrosshisforehead,lookedatMulrady,anddroppedhiseyes。\"Itisnotmine,\"hesaidsimply。

\"Thatwilldo,\"saidMulrady,gravely。

\"Andyouwillnotspeakofthisagain?\"saidtheoldman,timidly。

\"Ipromiseyou——notuntilIhavesomemoreevidence。\"

Hekepthisword,butnotbeforehehadextortedfromSlinnasfulladescriptionofMastersashisimperfectmemoryandstillmoreimperfectknowledgeofhisformerneighborcouldfurnish。Heplacedthis,withalargesumofmoneyandthepromiseofastilllargerreward,inthehandsofatrustworthyagent。WhenthiswasdoneheresumedhisoldrelationswithSlinn,withtheexceptionthatthedomesticlettersofMrs。MulradyandMamiewerenolongerasubjectofcomment,andtheirbillsnolongerpassedthroughhisprivatesecretary’shands。

Threemonthspassed;therainyseasonhadceased,thehillsidesaroundMulrady’sshaftwerebridal—likewithflowers;indeed,therewererumorsofanapproachingfashionablemarriageintheair,andvaguehintsinthe\"Record\"thatthepresenceofadistinguishedcapitalistmightsoonberequiredabroad。Thefaceofthatdistinguishedmandidnot,however,reflectthegayetyofnaturenortheanticipationofhappiness;onthecontrary,forthepastfewweeks,hehadappeareddisturbedandanxious,andthatrudetranquillitywhichhadcharacterizedhimwaswanting。Peopleshooktheirheads;afewsuggestedspeculations;allagreedonextravagance。

Onemorning,afterofficehours,Slinn,whohadbeenwatchingthecarewornfaceofhisemployer,suddenlyroseandlimpedtohisside。

\"Wepromisedeachother,\"hesaid,inavoicetremblingwithemotion;\"nevertoalludetoourtalkofChristmasEveagainunlesswehadotherproofsofwhatItoldyouthen。Wehavenone;Idon’tbelievewe’lleverhaveanymore。Idon’tcareifweeverdo,andIbreakthatpromisenowbecauseIcannotbeartoseeyouunhappyandknowthatthisisthecause。\"

Mulradymadeamotionofdeprecation,buttheoldmancontinued——

\"Youareunhappy,AlvinMulrady。Youareunhappybecauseyouwanttogiveyourdaughteradowryoftwohundredandfiftythousanddollars,andyouwillnotusethefortunethatyouthinkmaybemine。\"

\"Who’sbeentalkingaboutadowry?\"askedMulrady,withanangryflush。

\"DonCaesarAlvaradotoldmydaughter。\"

\"Thenthatiswhyhehasthrownoffonmesincehereturned,\"saidMulrady,withsuddensmallmalevolence,\"justthathemightunloadhisgossipbecauseMamiewouldn’thavehim。Theoldwomanwasrightinwarnin’meaginhim。\"

Theoutburstwassounlikehim,andsodwarfedhislargethoughcommonnaturewithitslittleness,thatitwaseasytodetectitsfeminineorigin,althoughitfilledSlinnwithvaguealarm。

\"Nevermindhim,\"saidtheoldman,hastily;\"whatIwantedtosaynowisthatIabandoneverythingtoyouandyours。Therearenoproofs;thereneverwillbeanymorethanwhatweknow,thanwhatwehavetestedandfoundwanting。Isweartoyouthat,excepttoshowyouthatIhavenotliedandamnotcrazy,Iwoulddestroythemontheirwaytoyourhands。Keepthemoney,andspenditasyouwill。Makeyourdaughterhappy,and,throughher,yourself。

Youhavemademehappythroughyourliberality;don’tmakemesufferthroughyourprivation。\"

\"Itellyouwhat,oldman,\"saidMulrady,risingtohisfeet,withanawkwardminglingoffranknessandshameinhismannerandaccent,\"IshouldliketopaythatmoneyforMamie,andletherbeaprincess,ifitwouldmakeherhappy。IshouldliketoshutthelanternjawsofthatDonCaesar,who’dbetoogladifanythinghappenedtobreakoffMamie’smatch。ButIshouldn’ttouchthatcapital——unlessyou’dlendittome。Ifyou’lltakeanotefromme,payableifthepropertyeverbecomesyours,I’dthankyou。A

mortgageontheoldhouseandgarden,andthelandsIboughtofDonCaesar,outsidethemine,willscreenyou。\"

\"Ifthatpleasesyou,\"saidtheoldman,withasmile,\"haveyourway;andifItearupthenote,itdoesnotconcernyou。\"

ItdidpleasethedistinguishedcapitalistofRough—and—Ready;forthenextfewdayshisfaceworeabrightenedexpression,andheseemedtohaverecoveredhisoldtranquillity。Therewas,infact,aslighttouchofconsequenceinhismanner,thefirstostentationhehadeverindulgedin,whenhewasinformedonemorningathisprivateofficethatDonCaesarAlvaradowasinthecounting—house,desiringafewmoments’conference。\"Tellhimtocomein,\"saidMulrady,shortly。ThedooropeneduponDonCaesar——erect,sallow,andgrave。MulradyhadnotseenhimsincehisreturnfromEurope,andevenhisinexperiencedeyeswerestruckwiththeundeniableeaseandgracewithwhichtheyoungSpanish—Americanhadassimilatedthestyleandfashionofanoldercivilization。Itseemedratherasifhehadreturnedtoafamiliarconditionthanadoptedanewone。

\"Takeacheer,\"saidMulrady。

TheyoungmanlookedatSlinnwithquietlypersistentsignificance。

\"Youcantalkallthesame,\"saidMulrady,acceptingthesignificance。\"He’smyprivatesecretary。\"

\"Itseemsthatforthatreasonwemightchooseanothermomentforourconversation,\"returnedDonCaesar,haughtily。\"DoI

understandyoucannotseemenow?\"

Mulradyhesitated,hehadalwaysreveredandrecognizedacertainsocialsuperiorityinDonRamonAlvarado;somehowhisson——ayoungmanofhalfhisage,andonceapossibleson—in—law——appearedtoclaimthatrecognitionalso。Herose,withoutaword,andprecededDonCaesarup—stairsintothedrawing—room。ThealienportraitonthewallseemedtoevidentlytakesideswithDonCaesar,asagainstthecommonintruder,Mulrady。

\"IhopedtheSenoraMulradymighthavesavedmethisinterview,\"

saidtheyoungman,stiffly;\"oratleasthavegivenyousomeintimationofthereasonwhyIseekit。AsyoujustnowproposedmytalkingtoyouinthepresenceoftheunfortunateSenorEsslinnhimself,itappearsshehasnot。\"

\"Idon’tknowwhatyou’redrivingat,orwhatMrs。Mulrady’sgottodowithSlinnoryou,\"saidMulrady,inangryuneasiness。

\"DoIunderstand,\"saidDonCaesar,sternly,\"thatSenoraMulradyhasnottoldyouthatIentrustedtoheranimportantletter,belongingtoSenorEsslinn,whichIhadthehonortodiscoverinthewoodsixmonthsago,andwhichshesaidshewouldrefertoyou?\"

\"Letter?\"echoedMulrady,slowly;\"mywifehadaletterofSlinn’s?\"

DonCaesarregardedthemillionaireattentively。\"ItisasI

feared,\"hesaid,gravely。\"Youdonotknoworyouwouldnothaveremainedsilent。\"HethenbrieflyrecountedthestoryofhisfindingSlinn’sletter,hisexhibitionofittotheinvalid,itsdisastrouseffectuponhim,andhisinnocentdiscoveryofthecontents。\"Ibelievedmyselfatthattimeontheeveofbeingalliedwithyourfamily,SenorMulrady,\"hesaid,haughtily;\"andwhenIfoundmyselfinthepossessionofasecretwhichaffecteditsintegrityandgoodname,Ididnotchoosetoleaveitinthehelplesshandsofitsimbecileowner,orhissillierchildren,butproposedtotrustittothecareoftheSenora,thatsheandyoumightdealwithitasbecameyourhonorandmine。IfollowedhertoParis,andgavehertheletterthere。Sheaffectedtolaughatanypretensionofthewriter,oranyclaimhemighthaveonyourbounty;butshekepttheletter,and,Ifear,destroyedit。Youwillunderstand,SenorMulrady,thatwhenIfoundthatmyattentionswerenolongeragreeabletoyourdaughter,Ihadnolongertherighttospeaktoyouonthesubject,norcouldI,withoutmisapprehension,forcehertoreturnit。Ishouldhavestillkeptthesecrettomyself,ifIhadnotsincemyreturnheremadetheneareracquaintanceofSenorEsslinn’sdaughters。I

cannotpresentmyselfathishouse,asasuitorforthehandoftheSenoritaVashti,untilIhaveaskedhisabsolutionformycomplicityinthewrongthathasbeendonetohim。Icannot,asacaballero,dothatwithoutyourpermission。ItisforthatpurposeIamhere。\"

ItneededonlythislastblowtocompletethehumiliationthatwhitenedMulrady’sface。ButhiseyewasnonethelessclearandhisvoicenonethelesssteadyasheturnedtoDonCaesar。

\"Youknowperfectlythecontentsofthatletter?\"

\"Ihavekeptacopyofit。\"

\"Comewithme。\"

Heprecededhisvisitordownthestaircaseandbackintohisprivateoffice。Slinnlookedupathisemployer’sfaceinunrestrainedanxiety。Mulradysatdownathisdesk,wroteafewhurriedlines,andrangabell。Amanagerappearedfromthecounting—room。

\"Sendthattothebank。\"

Hewipedhispenasmethodicallyasifhehadnotatthatmomentcountermandedtheordertopayhisdaughter’sdowry,andturnedquietlytoSlinn。

\"DonCaesarAlvaradohasfoundtheletteryouwroteyourwifeonthedayyoumadeyourstrikeinthetunnelthatisnowmyshaft。

HegavethelettertoMrs。Mulrady;buthehaskeptacopy。\"

UnheedingthefrightenedgestureofentreatyfromSlinn,equallywiththeunfeignedastonishmentofDonCaesar,whowasentirelyunpreparedforthisrevelationofMulrady’sandSlinn’sconfidences,hecontinued,\"Hehasbroughtthecopywithhim。I

reckonitwouldbeonlysquareforyoutocompareitwithwhatyourememberoftheoriginal。\"

InobediencetoagesturefromMulrady,DonCaesarmechanicallytookfromhispocketafoldedpaper,andhandedittotheparalytic。ButSlinn’stremblingfingerscouldscarcelyunfoldthepaper;andashiseyesfelluponitscontents,hisconvulsivelipscouldnotarticulateaword。

\"P’rapsI’dbetterreaditforyou,\"saidMulrady,gently。\"YoukinfollowmeandstopmewhenIgowrong。\"

Hetookthepaper,and,indeadsilence,readasfollows:——

\"DEARWIFE,——I’vejuststruckgoldinmytunnel,andyoumustgetreadytocomeherewiththechildren,atonce。Itwasaftersixmonths’hardwork;andI’msoweakI……It’safortuneforusall。Weshouldberichevenifitwereonlyabranchveindippingwesttowardsthenexttunnel,insteadofdippingeast,accordingtomytheory——\"

\"Stop!\"saidSlinn,inavoicethatshooktheroom。

Mulradylookedup。

\"It’swrong,ain’tit?\"heasked,anxiously;\"itshouldbeEAST

towardsthenexttunnel。\"

\"No!IT’SRIGHT!Iamwrong!We’reallwrong!\"

Slinnhadrisentohisfeet,erectandinspired。\"Don’tyousee,\"

healmostscreamed,withpassionatevehemence,\"it’sMASTERS’

ABANDONEDTUNNELyourshafthasstruck?Notmine!ItwasMasters’

pickyoufound!Iknowitnow!\"

\"Andyourowntunnel?\"saidMulrady,springingtohisfeetinexcitement。\"AndYOURstrike?\"

\"Isstillthere!\"

Thenextinstant,andbeforeanotherquestioncouldbeasked,Slinnhaddartedfromtheroom。Intheexaltationofthatsupremediscoveryheregainedthefullcontrolofhismindandbody。

MulradyandDonCaesar,nolessexcited,followedhimprecipitately,andwithdifficultykeptupwithhisfeverishspeed。TheirwaylayalongthebaseofthehillbelowMulrady’sshaft,andonalinewithMasters’abandonedtunnel。OnlyoncehestoppedtosnatchapickfromthehandofanastonishedChinamanatworkinaditch,ashestillkeptonhisway,aquarterofamilebeyondtheshaft。Herehestoppedbeforeajaggedholeinthehillside。Baredtotheskyandair,theveryopennessofitsabandonment,itsunpropitiousposition,anddistancefromthestrikeinMulrady’sshafthadnodoubtpreserveditsintegrityfromwayfarerorprospector。

\"Youcan’tgointherealone,andwithoutalight,\"saidMulrady,layinghishandonthearmoftheexcitedman。\"Letmegetmorehelpandpropertools。\"

\"Iknoweverystepinthedarkasinthedaylight,\"returnedSlinn,struggling。\"Letmego,whileIhaveyetstrengthandreason!

Standaside!\"

Hebrokefromthem,andthenextmomentwasswallowedupintheyawningblackness。Theywaitedwithbatedbreathuntil,afteraseemingeternityofnightandsilence,theyheardhisreturningfootsteps,andranforwardtomeethim。Ashewascarryingsomethingclaspedtohisbreast,theysupportedhimtotheopening。

Butatthesamemomenttheobjectofhissearchandhisburden,amisshapenwedgeofgoldandquartz,droppedwithhim,andbothfelltogetherwithequalimmobilitytotheground。HehadstillstrengthtoturnhisfadingeyestotheothermillionaireofRough—

and—Ready,wholeanedoverhim。

\"You——see,\"hegasped,brokenly,\"Iwasnot——crazy!\"

No。Hewasdead!