Foryourownsakereviseit,forthereadersofyourbookwon’tbelievethatyouaretellingatruestoryanyhow;theywillsaythatyouwrotethischapterandattributedittome,andyouwillfindyourselfheldresponsibleforitsshortcomings。IhaveinsertedafewnoteshereandtherewhichwillgiveyouanideaofwhatI
sufferedasIwroteonandfoundhergrowingdailylessandlesstractable,withoccasionallyanindicationofthepointofdivergencebetweenheractualbehaviorandthatwhichIexpectedofher。\"
Toafellow—workmaninliteraryfieldsthischapterisofpatheticinterest,thoughitmaynotsoappeartothereaderwhoknowslittleofthedifficultiesofauthorship。IcanhardlyreaditmyselfwithoutafeelingofmostintensepityforpoorHarley。Icanimaginethesleeplessnightswhichfollowedtheshatteringofhishopesastowhathisstorymightbebytherecalcitrantattitudeoftheyoungwomanhehadhonoredsohighlybyselectingherforhisheroine。Icanalmostfeelthebittersenseofdisappointment,whichmusthaveburnedtotheverydepthsofhissoul,whenhefinallyrealizedhowcompletelyoverturnedwereallhisplans,andIcannotforegocallingattentiontotheconstancytohiscreedofStuartHarley,insacrificinghisopportunityratherthanhisprinciples,asshownbyhisresolutedeterminationnottoforceMissAndrewstodohisbidding,eventhoughitrequiredmerelythedippingofhispenintotheinkandtheresolutiontodoso。
Icannotblameher,however。GrantingtoHarleytherighttoacreed,MissAndrews,too,itmustbeadmitted,wasentitledtohaveviewsastohowsheoughttobehaveundergivencircumstances,andifshefoundhernotionsrunningcountertohis,itwasonlyproperthatsheshouldactaccordingtothedictatesofherownheart,ormind,orwhateverelseitmaybethatawomanreasonswith,ratherthanaccordingtohiswishes。
Astoallquestionsofthiskind,however,asbetweenthetwo,thereadermustjudge,andonedocumentinevidenceisHarley’schapter,whichraninthiswise:
AMEETING
\"Stopbeating,heart,andinamomentcalmThequestionanswer——isthis,then,myfate?\"
—PERKINS’S\"Odes。\"
AsthecorrespondentsoftheNewYorkpapershadsurmised,invitationsfortheHowlettballwereissuedonthe12th。Itisnotsurprisingthatthecorrespondentsinthisinstanceshouldbeguiltyofthatrarecrimeamongsocietyreporters,accuracy,fortheirinformationwasderivedfromaperfectlyreliablesource,Mrs。
Howlett’sbutler,inwhosehandstheaddressingoftheenvelopeshadbeenplaced——amanofimposingpresence,andofgreatvaluetotheprofessionalsnappers—upofunconsideredtriflesofsocialgossipinthepayoftheSundaynewspapers,withmanyofwhomhewasontermsofclosestintimacy。OfcourseMrs。Howlettwasnotawarethatherhouseholdcontainedapersonageofgreatjournalisticimportance,anymorethanherneighbor,Mrs。Floyd—Hopkins,wasawarethatitwashermaidwhohadfurnishedtheWeeklyJournalofSocietywiththevividaccountofthescandalousbehavior,atherlastdinner,ofMajorPompoly,whohadtobeforciblyejectedfromtheFloyd—HopkinsdomicilebythehusbandofMrs。JerniganSmith——asocialmorselwhichattractedmuchattentionseveralyearsago。Everyeffortwasmadetohushthatmatterup,andtheguestsallsworeeternalsecrecy;buttheWeeklyJournalofSocietyhadit,and,strangelyenough,haditright,initsnextissue;butthemaidwasneversuspected,eventhoughshedidappeartobepossessedofmoreamplemeansthanusualforsometimeafter。Mrs。Floyd—Hopkinspreferredtosuspectoneofherguests,and,onthewhole,wasnotsorrythatthematterhadgotabroad,foreverybodytalkedaboutit,andthroughtheepisodeherdinnerbecameoneofthehistoricbanquetsoftheseason。
TheWillards,whowerebythistimecomfortablysettledat\"TheNeedles,\"theircottageonthecliff,itishardlynecessarytostate,wereamongthoseinvited,andwiththeircardswasincludedoneforMarguerite。AddedtothecardwasapersonalnotefromMrs。
HowletttoMissAndrews,expressingtheespecialhopethatshewouldnotfailthem,allofwhichwasverygratifyingtotheyounggirl。
\"SeewhatI’vegot,\"shecried,gleefully,runningintoMrs。
Willard’s\"den\"attheheadofthebeautifuloakenstairs。
(Note。——AtthispointinHarley’smanuscriptthereisevidenceofindecisionontheauthor’spart。Hisheroinehadbeguntobotherhimatrifle。Hehadwrittenahalf—dozenlinesdescriptiveofMissAndrews’semotionsatreceivingaspecialnoteofinvitation,subsequentlyerasingthem。Theword\"gleefully\"hadbeenscratchedout,andthenrestoredinplaceof\"scornfully,\"whichhadatfirstbeensubstitutedforit。ItwasplainthatHarleywasnotquitecertainastohowmuchawomanofMissAndrews’stypewouldcareforaspecialattentionofthisnature,evenifshecaredforitatall。
Asamatteroffact,thewordchosenshouldhavebeen\"dubiously,\"
andneither\"gleefully\"nor\"scornfully\";fortherealtruthwasthattherewasnoreasonwhyMrs。HowlettshouldsohonorMarguerite,andthegirlatoncebegantowonderifitwerenotanextraprecautionofHarley’stoassureherpresenceattheballforthebenefitofhimselfandhispublishers。TheauthorfinallywroteitasIhavegivenitabove,however,andMissAndrewsreceivedherspecialinvitation\"gleefully\"——accordingtoHarley。Heperceivesherdoubt,however,withoutcomprehendingit;forafterdescribingMrs。
Willard’sreadingofthenote,hegoeson。)
\"ThatisveryniceofMrs。Howlett,\"saidMrs。Willard,handingMargueritebackhernote。\"Itisaspecialhonor,mydear,bywhichyoushouldfeelhighlyflattered。Shedoesn’toftendothingslikethat。\"
\"Ishouldthinknot,\"saidMarguerite。\"Iamaperfectstrangertoher,andthatsheshoulddoitatallstrikesmeasbeingmostextraordinary。Itdoesn’tseemsincere,andIcan’thelpthinkingthatsomeextraneouscircumstancehasbeenbroughttobearuponhertoforcehertodoit。\"
(Note。——StuartHarleyhascommenteduponthisasfollows:\"AsIreadthisoverImustadmitthatMissAndrewswasright。WhyIhadMrs。
HowlettdosuchathingIdon’tknow,unlessitwasthatmyownadmirationformyheroineledmetobelievethatsomemorethanusualattentionwasherdue。InmyownbehalfIwillsaythatIshouldinallprobabilityhaveeliminatedorcorrectedthisfalsenotewhenI
cametotherevisionofmyproofs。\"Thechapterthenproceeds。)
\"Whatshallwewear?\"musedMrs。Willard,asMargueritefoldedMrs。
Howlett’snoteandreplaceditinitsenvelope。
\"Imustpositivelydeclinetodiscussthatquestion。Itisofnopublicinterest,\"snappedMarguerite,herfaceflushingangrily。\"Myclothingismyownbusiness,andnoone’selse。\"Shepausedamoment,andthen,inanapologetictone,sheadded,\"I’dbeperfectlywillingtotalkwithyouaboutitgenerally,mydearDorothy,butnotnow。\"
Mrs。Willardlookedatthegirlinsurprise。
(Note。——StuartHarleyhaswrittenthisinthemargin:\"Hereyouhaveoneofthesituationswhichfinallycompelledmetorelinquishthisstory。Youknowyourselfhowharditistomake30,000wordsoutofaslightsituation,andatthesametimesticktoprobability。Ihadanidea,inmappingoutthischapter,thatIcouldmakethreeorfourinterestingpages——interestingtothegirls,mindyou——outofadiscussionofwhattheyshouldwearattheHowlettdance。Itwasaperfectlynaturalsubjectfordiscussionatthetimeandunderthecircumstances。Itwouldhavebeenagoodthinginthebook,too,foritmighthaveconveyedafewwholesomehintsinthelineofgoodtasteindresswhichwouldhavemademystoryofsomevalue。Womenarealwayswritingtothepapers,asking,’WhatshallIwearhere?’
and’WhatshallIwearthere?’TheideasoftwowomenlikeMrs。
WillardandMargueriteAndrewswouldhavebeencertaintobeinteresting,elevating,andexceedinglyusefultosuchpeople,butthemomentIattemptedtoinvolvetheminthatdiscussionMissAndrewsdeclinedutterlytospeak,andIwascutoutofsomesixorsevenhundredquiteimportantwords。Ihadsupposedallwomenalikeinthatmatter,butIfindIwasmistaken;one,atleast,won’tdiscussclothes——butIdon’twonderthatMrs。Willardlookedupinsurprise。Iputthatinjusttopleasemyself,forofcoursethewholeincidentwouldhavehadtobecutoutwhenthemanuscriptwenttothetype—setter。\"Thechaptertakesanewleadhere,asfollows:)
Mrs。WillardwaspunctiliouslypromptinsendingtheacceptancesofherselfandMr。WillardtoMrs。Howlett,andatthesametimeMarguerite’sacceptancewasdespatched,althoughshewasatfirstdisposedtosendherregrets。Shewasonlymoderatelyfondofthoseinconsequentpleasureswhichmakethelifesocial。Shewasagooddancer,butamoreexcellenttalker,andshepreferredtalkingtodancing;buttheinanityofwhatareknownasstairtalksatdancesoppressedher;nordidshelookforwardwithanydegreeofpleasuretowhatwemighttermconservatoryconfidences,whichintheseluxuriousdayshavebecomesolargeafactorinterpsichoreandiversions,forMargueritewasofapracticalnature。ShehadoncechilledtheheartofayoungpoetbycallingVenicemalarious(HarleylittlerealizedwhenhewrotethishowhewouldhavesufferedhadhecarriedouthisoriginalintentionandtransplantedMargueritetotheCityoftheSea!),andaconservatorytoherwasathingformid—day,andnotformidnight。Shewasthereforenotparticularlyanxioustospendanevening——whichbeganatanaggravatinglylatehourinsteadofatareasonabletime,thankstoasocialcustomwhichhasitsfoundationinnothingshortofabsoluteinsanity——inthepursuitofnothingofgreatervaluethandancing,stairtalks,andconservatoryconfidences;butMrs。Willardsoonpersuadedherthatsheoughttogo,andgoshedid。
Itwasabeautifulnight,thatofthe22dofJuly。Newportwasatherbest。Themorninghadbeenoppressivelywarm,butalongaboutthreeintheafternoonaseriesofshortandsharpelectricalstormscame,andasquicklywent,coolingtheheatedcity,andfresheninguptheairuntilitwasasclearascrystal,andrefreshingasadraughtofcoldspring—water。
AttheHowlettmansiononBellevueAvenueallwasinreadinessfortheevent。Thecaterer’swagonshadarrivedwiththeirdaintycontents,andhadgone,andnowtheHungarianbandwassendingforthoverthecoolnightairthosebeautifulandweirdwavesofmelodywhichentrancethemostunwillingear。Aboutthebroadandspaciousgroundsfestoonedlightshungfromtreetotree;hereandtherelittlerose—scentedbowersfortete—a—tetetalkswereset;fromwithin,streamingthroughthewindowsinregalbeauty,camethelightsofthevastballroom,thereception—rooms,andthebeautifullydesigneddining—hall——latelyaddedbyyoungMorrisBlack,thearchitect,toMrs。Howlett’salreadyperfecthouse。
OntheballroomflooraresometenortwentycouplesgracefullywaltzingtothestrainsofSullivan,andinthemidstoftheseweseeMargueriteAndrewsthreadingherwayacrosstheroomwithsomedifficulty,attendedbyMr。andMrs。Willard。Theyhavejustarrived。AsMargueritewalksacrossthehallsheattractseveryone。
Thereisthataboutherwhichcommandsattention。AttheinstantofherentranceCountBonettiisonthequiVive。
\"PyChove!\"hecries,asheleansgracefullyagainstthedoorwayopeningintotheconservatory。\"Zare,mydearfriend,zatissmyideaofzetrulypeautifulwoman。Vatisshername?\"
\"ThatisMissAndrewsofNewYork,Count,\"thepersonaddressedreplies。\"SheisupherewiththeWillards。\"
\"Imusdmeedher,\"saystheCount,hiseyefollowingMargueriteasshewalksuptoMrs。Howlettandisgreetedeffusivelybythatlady。
Margueriteispale,andappearsanxious。Eventotheauthorthewaysofthewomeninhisworksareinscrutable;souponthisoccasion。
Sheispale,butIcannotsaywhy。Canitbethatshehasanintuitiveknowledgethatto—nightmaydecideherwholefuturelife?
Whocantell?Woman’sintuitionsaregreat,andtherebethosewhosaytheyareunerringlytrue。Onebyone,withtheexceptionofCountBonetti,theyoungmenamongMrs。Howlett’sguestsarepresented——Bonettipreferstoawaitamorefavorableopportunity——andtoallMargueriteappearstobethebeautifulwomansheis。Hersisaninstantsuccess。AnewbeautyhasdawnedupontheNewporthorizon。
Letusdescribeherasshestands。
(Note。——Thereisablankspacelefthere。AtfirstIthoughtitwasbecauseHarleywishedtoreflectalittlebeforedrawingapictureofsosuperbawomanasheseemedtothinkher,andgoontotheconclusionofthechapter,themainincidentsbeinghotinhismind,andthepurelydescriptivemattersmoreeasilylefttocalmermoments。Heinformsme,however,thatsuchwasnotthecase。\"WhenIcametodescribeherasshestood,\"hesaid,\"shehaddisappeared,andIhadtosearchalloverthehousebeforeIfinallyfoundherintheconservatory。SoIchangedthechaptertoreadthus:\")
Afterahalf—hourofdancingandholdingcourt——forMarguerite’striumphwastrulythatofaqueen,itwassocomplete——MissAndrewsturnedtoMr。Willardandtookhisarm。
\"Letusgointotheconservatory,\"shesaid,inawhisper。\"IhaveheardsomuchaboutMrs。Howlett’sorchids,Ishouldliketoseethem。\"
Willard,seeingthatshewastiredandslightlyboredbytheincessantchatterofthoseabouther,escortedheroutthroughthebroaddoorintotheconservatory。AsshepassedfromtheballroomthedarkeyesofCountBonettiflasheduponher,butsheheededthemnot,movingonintothefloralbowerinapparentlysereneunconsciousnessofthatperson’spresence。HereWillardgotherachair。
\"Willyouhaveanice?\"heasked,assheseatedherselfbeneathoneoftheloftypalms。
\"Yes,\"sheanswered,simply。\"Icanwaitherealoneifyouwillgetit。\"
Willardpassedout,andsoonreturnedwiththeice;butashecamethroughthedoorwayBonettistoppedhimandwhisperedsomethinginhisear。
\"Certainly,Count,rightaway,\"Willardanswered。\"Comealong。\"
Bonettineedednosecondbidding,butfollowedWillardclosely,andsoonstoodexpectantbeforeMarguerite。
\"MissAndrews,\"saidWillard,\"mayIhavethepleasureofpresentingCountBonetti?\"
TheCount’sheadnearlycollidedwithhistoesinthebowthathemade。
\"Mr。Willard,\"returnedMissAndrews,coldly,ignoringtheCount,\"feelingasIdothatCountBonettiismerelyabogusCountwithacquisitiveinstincts,broughthere,likemyself,forliterarypurposesofwhichIcannotapprove,Imustreplytoyourquestionthatyoumaynothavethatpleasure。\"
Withwhichremark(concludesStuartHarley)MissMargueriteAndrewssweptproudlyfromtheroom,orderedhercarriage,andwenthome,therebyutterlyruiningthesecondstoryofherlifethatIhadundertakentowrite。ButIshallmakeonemoreeffort。
CHAPTERV:ANEXPERIMENT
\"AndthusI’llcurbhermadandheadstronghumor。
Hethatknowsbetterhowtotameashrew,Nowlethimspeak;’tischaritytoshow。\"
——\"TamingoftheShrew。\"
\"Whatwouldhavehappenedifshehadbehaveddifferently,Stuart?\"I
asked,afterIhadreadthepageshehadsokindlyplacedatmydisposal。
\"Oh,nothinginparticulartowhichshecouldreasonablyobject,\"
returnedHarley。\"Theincidentsofatrulyrealisticnovelarerarelyobjectionable,excepttopeopleofacaptiousnature。I
intendedtohaveBonettidanceattendanceuponMissAndrewsforthebalanceoftheseason,that’sall,hopingtherebytopresentagoodpictureoflifeatNewportinJulyandpartofAugust。AboutthemiddleofAugustIwasgoingtotransportthewholecasttoBarHarbor,forvariety’ssake。ThatwouldhavebeenanotheropportunitytogetagooddealoftheAmericansummeratmosphereintothebook。
IwishIcouldaffordthekindofsummerIcontemplatedgivingher。\"
\"Youdidn’tintendthatsheshouldfallinlovewithBonetti?\"I
asked。
\"Nottoanyseriousextent,\"saidHarley,deprecatingly。\"Evenifshehadalittle,she’dhavecomeoutofitallrightassoonastheheroturnedup,andshehadachancetoseethedifferencebetweenamanlymanofherowncountryandalittletitledfortunehunterfromthelandofmacaroni。Bonettiwasn’ttobeabadfellowatall。HewasmerelyanItalian,whichhecouldn’thelp,beingbornso,andtherefore,asshesaid,ofanacquisitivenature。Thereisnovillanyinthat,however——thatis,noreprehensiblevillany。Hewasafterarichmarriagebecausehewasfondofalifeofease。She’dhavefoundhimamusing,atanyrate。\"
\"Buthewasbogus!\"Isuggested。
\"Notatall,\"saidHarley,impatiently。\"That’swhatvexesmemorethananythingelse。Shemadeaverybadmistakethere。AsaCount,Bonettiwasquiteasrealashisfinancialnecessities。\"
\"Itwasabeastlyawkwardsituation,thatconservatoryscene,\"saidI。\"EspeciallyforWillard。TheCountmighthavechallengedhim。
WhatbecameoftheCountwhenitwasover?\"
\"Idon’tknow,\"saidHarley。\"Ilefthimtogetoutofhispredicamentasbesthecould。PossiblyhedidchallengeWillard。I
haven’ttakenthetroubletofindout。If,asIthink,however,he’salivingperson,he’llextricatehimselffromhisdifficultyallright;ifhe’snot,andIhaveunwittinglyallowedmyselftoconjurehimupinmyfancy,there’snogreatharmdone。Ifhe’snothingmorethanamarionette,lethimfallonthefloor,andstaythereuntilI
findsomeimaginativewriterwhowilltakehimoffmyhands——you,forinstance。YoucanhaveBonettiforaChristmaspresent,withmycompliments。I’mthroughwithhim;butasforMissAndrews,shehasbeensoconfoundedlyelusivethatshehasarousedmydeepestinterest,andIcouldn’tgiveherupifIwantedto。Ineverencounteredaheroinelikeherinallmylifebefore,andtheoneobjectofmyfuturecareerwillbetocatchherfinallyinthemeshesofaromance。Romancewillcomeintoherlifesometime。Sheisnotatallofanunsentimentalnature——onlyfractious——new—womanish,perhaps;butnonethelesslovable,andCupidwillhaveashotatherwhensheleastexpectsit;andwhenitdoescome,I’llbeonhandtoreporttheattemptedassassinationforthedelectationoftheHerring,Beemer,&Chadwickpublic。\"
\"Ishouldthinkyouwouldtryalittlepersuasion,justforlarks,\"I
suggested。
\"YouforgetIamarealist,\"hereplied,ashewentout。
NowIsincerelyadmiredStuartHarley,andIwishedtothebottomofmyhearttohelphimifIcould。Itseemedtomethat,howeveradmirableMissAndrewshadshownherselftobegenerallyasawoman,shehadbeenanaltogetherunsatisfactorypersonintheroleofaheroine。Irespectedherscruplesaboutmarryingmenshedidnotcarefor,and,asIhavealreadysaid,noonecoulddenyhertherighttoherownconvictions;butitseemedtomethatintheBonettiincidentshemightandtrulyoughttohaveacteddifferentlywhenthetimecameforthepresentation。ThereisnodoubtinmymindthatherlittlespeechtoWillard,inwhichshestatedthattheCountwasafraudandmightnotbepresented,wasadeliberatelyplannedrebuff,andthereforenotinanysenseexcusable。ShecouldhaveavoideditbytellingWillardbeforeleavinghomethatshedidnotcaretomeettheCount。TomakeasceneatMrs。Howlett’swasnotathingwhichasober—minded,self—containedwomanwouldhavedone;itwasbadformtobehavesorudelytooneofMrs。Howlett’sguests,andwassoinconsiderateofWillardandunreasonableinotherwaysthatI
blamedherunreservedly。
\"Shedeservestobepunished,\"Ithoughttomyself,asHarleywentdejectedlyoutoftheroom。\"Andthereisnokindofpunishmentforawomanlikethatsogallingtohersoulastofindherselfinthehandsofarelentlessdespotwhoforcesherthiswayandthat,accordingtohiswhim。I’dliketoplayPetruciotoherKatherineforfiveminutes。She’dsoonfindoutthatI’mnotarealistboundbyacreedtowhichImustadhere。WhateverIchoosetodoIcandowithoutviolatingmyconscientiousscruples,becauseIhaven’tanyconscientiousscruplesinliterature。And,byJove,I’lldoit!
I’lltakeMissMargueriteAndrewsinhandmyselfthisveryafternoon,andI’llputherthroughacourseoftrainingthatwillmakeherruethedaysheevertrifledwithStuartHarley——andwhenhetakesherupagainshe’llbeasmeekasMoses。\"
StronginmybeliefthatIcouldbringtheyoungwomantoterms,I
wenttomydeskandtriedmyhandatastory,withMissAndrewsasitsheroine,andIwasnotparticularaboutbeingrealisticeither。
NeitherdidIgooffintoanytrancesinsearchofheroesandvillains。IdidwhatHarleycouldnotdo。IbroughttheNewYorkbacktoportthatveryday,anddespatchedRobertOsborne,thedespisedloverofthefirsttale,toNewport。
\"Sheshallhavehimwhethershelikeshimornot,\"saidI,grittingmyteethdeterminedly;\"andshewon’tknowwhethersheloveshimorCountBonettibest;andshe’llpromisetomarrybothofthem;andsheshallgotoVeniceinAugust,despiteheruncompromisingrefusaltodosoforHarley;andsheshallmeetBalderstonethere,and,nomatterwhatheropinionofhimorofhisliterarywork,sheshallbefascinatedbythestoryI’llhavehimwrite,andunderthespellofthatfascinationsheshallpromisetomarryhimalso;whereupontheWillardswillturnupandtakehertoHeidelberg,whereI’llhavehermeettheheroshecouldn’twaitforattheHowlettdance,thedespisedProfessor,andsheshallpromisetobehiswifelikewise;
andfinallyI’llputheronboardasteameratSouthampton,boundforNewYork,withMrs。Corwinandthetwins;andtheseconddayout,whensheisfeelingherveryworst,allfourofherfianceswillturnupatthesametimebesideherchair。ThenIshallleavehertogetoutofhertroublethebestwayshecan。Iimagine,aftershehashadatasteofmyliteraryregimen,she’llquitefallinlovewiththeHarleymethod,andbehaveherselfasaheroineshould。\"
IsatdownallaglowwiththeideaofbeingabletotameHarley’sheroineandplaceherinamoodmoresuitedforhispurposes。ThemoreIthoughtofhowhisfailureswereweighingonhismind,themoreviciouslyreadywasItoplaythetyrantwithMarguerite,and——
well,Imightaswellconfessitatonce,withallmyrighteousindignationagainsther,Icouldnotdoit。FivetimesIstarted,andasmanytimesdidIdestroywhatIwrote。OnthesixthtrialI
didhaultheNewYorkrelentlesslybackintoport,neverforaninstantconsideringtheinconvenienceofthepassengers,ortheprotestsoftheofficers,crew,orpostalauthorities。Thisdone,I
seizedupontheunfortunateOsborne,spiritedhisluggagethroughtheCustom—house,andsenttheshiptoseaagain。Thatpartwaseasy。I
havewrittenagreatdealforthecomicpapers,andacrobaticnonsenseofthatsortcomesalmostwithoutaneffortonmypart。
WithequaleaseIgotOsbornetoNewport——how,Idonotrecollect。
ItisjustpossiblethatItookhimthroughfromNewYorkwithoutatrain,bythemeresay—soofmypen。Atanyrate,Igothimthere,andIfullyintendedtohavehimmeetMissAndrewsatadanceattheOceanHousethedayafterhisarrival。Ievenprogressedsofarastogetupthedance。Idescribedtheroom,thedecorations,andtheband。IhadOsbornedressedandwaiting,withBonettialsodressedandwaitingontheothersideoftheroom,ScyllaandCharybdisalloveragain,butbynopossibilitycouldIforceMissAndrewstoappear。Whyitwas,Idonotpretendtobeabletosay——shemayhaveknownthatBonettiwasthere,shemayhaverealizedthatIwastryingtoforceOsborneuponher;butwhateveritwasthatenabledhertodoso,sheresistedmesuccessfully——ormypendid;forthatsituationuponwhichIhadbasedtheopeningsceneofmystoryofcompulsionI
foundbeyondmyabilitytodepict;andasHarleyhaddonebeforeme,sowasInowforcedtodo——tochangemyplan。
\"I’llhaveherrunawaywith!\"Icried,growingviciousinmywrath;
\"andbothBonettiandOsborneshallplaceherundereternalobligationsbyrushingouttostopthehorse,onefromeithersideofthestreet。She’llhavetomeetBonettithen,\"Iadded,withachuckle。
AndItriedthatplan。Asdocileasalambsheenteredthephaeton,whichIconjuredupoutofmyink—pot,andlikeaveteranJehudidsheseizethereins。IcouldnothelpadmiringherasIwroteofit—
—shewassolikeagoddess;butIdidnotrelent。Runawaywithshemustbe,andrunawaywithshewas。Butagaindidthisextraordinarywomanassertherselftomydiscomfiture;forthemomentshesawBonettirushingouttorescueherfromtheeast,shejerkedtheleftreinsoviolentlythatthehorseswervedtooneside,toppledoveronOsborne,whohadsprunggallantlytotherescuefromthewest;andBonetti,missinghisaimasthehorseturned,fellallinaheapintheroadwaytwoyardsbackofthephaeton。MissAndrewswasnothurt,butmystorywas,forshehadnotevenobservedtheunhappyOsborne;andasforBonetti,hecutsoridiculousafigurethat,Italianthoughhewas,evenheseemedawareofit,andheshrankdejectedlyoutofsight。Againhadthissupernaturallyelusiveheroineupsettheplansofonewhohadessayedtoembalmhervirtuesinaliterarymould。Icouldnotbringherintocontactwitheitherofmyheroes。
Ithrewmypendownindisgust,slammedtothecoverofmyink—well,andfortwohourspacedmadlythroughthemaze—likewalksoftheCentralPark,angryanddepressed;andfromthatmomentuntilI
undertookthenarrationofthispatheticstoryIgaveHarley’sheroineupasunavailablematerialformypurposes。Shewasworse,ifanything,inimaginativeworkthaninrealism,becausesheabsolutelydefiedtheimagination,whiletherealistshewouldbegladtohelpsolongashisrealismwaskeptinstrictaccordwithherideasofwhattherealreallywas。
ItwassomedaysbeforeIsawHarleyagain,andIthoughthelookedtiredandanxious——soanxious,indeed,thatIwasafraidhemightpossiblybeinfinancialstraits,forIknewthatforthreeweekshehadnotturnedoutanyofhisusualpot—boilers,havingbeentoobusytryingtowritethestoryforMessrs。Herring,Beemer,&Chadwick。
Ithappened,oddlyenough,thatIhadtwoorthreeuncashedchecksinmypocket;so,feelinglikeamillionaire,Ibroachedthesubjecttohim。
\"What’sthematter,oldfellow?\"Isaid。\"Youseeminabluefunk。
Hasthemintstopped?Ifithas,commandme。I’moverburdenedwithchecksthisweek。\"
\"Notatall;thanksjustthesame,\"hesaid,wearily。\"MyTiffinroyaltiescameinWednesday,andI’mallrightforawhile,anyhow。\"
\"What’sup,then,Stuart?\"Iasked。\"Youlookworried。I’vejustofferedtosharemyprosperitywithyou,youmightshareyourgriefwithme。Lendmeapeckoftroubleovernight,willyou?\"
\"Oh,it’snothingmuch,\"hesaid。\"It’sthatrebelliousheroineofmine。She’sweighingonmymind,that’sall。She’sveryrealtome,thatwoman;and,byJove!I’vebeenasjealousasaloverfortwodaysoverafancythatcameintomyhead。You’lllaughwhenItellyou,butI’vebeenhalfafraidsomebodyelsewouldtakeherupand——
well,treatherbadly。Thereissomethingthattellsmethatshehasbeenforcedintosomebrutalsituationbysomebody,somewhere,withinthepasttwoorthreedays。IbelieveI’dwanttokillamanwhodidthat。\"
Ididn’tlaughathim。Iwasthemanwhowasinafairwaytogetkilledfor\"doingthat,\"andIthoughtlaughterwouldbealittlebitmisplaced;butIamnotacoward,andIdidn’tflinch。Iconfessed。
ItriedtoeasehismindbytellinghimwhatIhadattemptedtodo。
\"Itwasamistake,\"hesaid,shortly,whenIhadfinished。\"Andyoumustpromisemeonething,\"headded,veryseriously。
\"I’llpromiseanything,\"Isaid,meekly。
\"Don’tevertryanythingofthesortagain,\"hewenton,gravely。
\"Ifyouhadsucceededinwritingthatstory,andsubjectedhertoallthathorror,Ishouldneverhavespokentoyouagain。Asitis,I
realizethatwhatyoudidwasoutofthekindnessofyourheart,promptedbyadesiretobeofservicetome,andI’mjustasmuchobligedasIcanbe,onlyIdon’twantanyassistance。\"
\"Untilyouaskmeto,Stuart,\"Ireplied,\"I’llneverwriteanotherlineabouther;butyou’dbetterkeepverymumaboutheryourself,orgethercopyrighted。ThewaysheupsetthathorseonOsborne,completelyobliteratinghim,andatthesametimegettingoutofthewayofthatlittlesimianCount,inspiteofallIcoulddotoplaceherunderobligationstobothofthem,waswhattheancientswouldhavecalledacaution。Shehasmadeaslaveofmeforever,andI
venturetopredictthatifyoudon’thurryupandgetherintoabook,somebodyelsewill;andwhoeverdoeswillmakeanameforhimselfalongsideofwhichthatofSmithwillsinkintooblivion。\"
\"Countonmeforthat,\"saidhe。\"’Faintheartneverwonfairlady,’
andIdon’tintendtostopclimbingjustbecauseIfearafewmorefalls。\"
CHAPTERVI:ANOTHERCHAPTERFROMHARLEY
\"Waseverwomaninthishumourwoo’d?
Waseverwomaninthishumourwon?
I’llhaveher,——butIwillnotkeepherlong。\"
—\"RichardIII。\"
TherewasnodoubtaboutitthatHarley,truetohispurpose,wasmakingagoodfighttoconquerwithoutcompulsion,andappreciatedasmuchasIthenecessityofreducinghisheroinetoconcreteformasspeedilyaspossible,lestsomeothershouldprovemoresuccessful,andsodeprivehimofthelaurelsforwhichhehadworkedsohardandsufferedsomuch。Inhisfavorwashisdisposition。Hewasamanofgreatdetermination,andoncehesetaboutdoingsomethinghewasnotaneasymantoturnaside,andnowthat,forthefirsttimeinhislife,hefoundhimselfbaffledateverypoint,andbyaheroineofnoverygreatliteraryimportance,hebecamemoredeterminedthanever。
\"I’llconqueryet,\"hesaidtome,aweekorsolater;butthewearinesswithwhichhespokemademefearthatvictorywasafaroff。
\"I’venodoubtofit——ultimately,\"Ianswered,toencouragehim;\"butdon’tyouthinkyou’llstandabetterchanceifyouletherrestforawhile,andthenstealinuponherunawares,andcatchherlittleromanceasitflies?Sheisapparentlynervedupagainstyounow,andthemoreconscioussheisofyoureffortstoputheronpaper,themoreshewillrebel。Infact,herrebelliousnesswillbecomemoreandmoreamatterofwhimthanofprinciple,unlessyouletuponherforalittlewhile。Halfofheroppositionnowstrikesmeasobstinacy,andthemoreyoutrytobreakherspirit,eventhoughyoudoitgently,themorestubbornwillshebecome。Putthisbookasideforafewweeksanyhow。Whynottacklesomethingelse?You’ddobetterwork,too,afteralittlevariety。\"
\"ThismustbefinishedbySeptember1st,that’swhynot,\"saidStuart。\"I’vepromisedHerring,Beemer,&Chadwicktosendthemthecompletedmanuscriptbythattime。Besides,noheroineofmineshalleversaythatsheswervedmefromdoingwhatIhavesetaboutdoing。
ItisnoworneverwithMargueriteAndrews。\"
SoIlefthimathisdesk,andforaweekwasbusywithmyownaffairs。LatethefollowingFridaynightIdroppedinatHarley’sroomstoseehowmatterswereprogressing。AsIenteredIsawhimathisdesk,hisbackturnedtowardsme,silhouettedinthelamp—light,scratchingawayfuriouslywithhispen。
\"Ah!\"Ithought,asmyeyetookinthepicture,\"itgoesatlast。I
guessIwon’tdisturbhistrainofthought。\"
AndItriedtostealsoftlyout,forhehadnotobservedmyentrance。
Asluckwouldhaveit,IsteppeduponthesillofthedoorasI
passedout,anditcreaked。
\"Hello!\"criedHarley,wheelingaboutinhischair,startledbythesound。
\"Oh!It’syou,isit?\"headded,asherecognizedme。\"Whatareyouupto?Comebackhere。Iwanttoseeyou。\"
Hismannerwascheerful,butIcouldseethatthecheerfulnesswasassumed。Thecolorhadcompletelylefthischeeks,andgreatringsunderhiseyesbetokenedwearinessofspirit。
\"Ididn’twanttodisturbyou,\"saidI,returning。\"Youseemtohaveyourpenonacleartrack,withfullsteamup。\"
\"Ihad,\"hesaid,quietly。\"IwasjustfinishingupthatHerring,Beemer,&Chadwickbusiness。\"
\"Aha!\"Icried,graspinghishandandshakingit。\"Icongratulateyou。Successatlast,eh?\"
\"Well,I’vegotsomethingdone——andthat’sit,\"hesaid,andhetossedtheletterblockuponwhichhehadbeenwritingacrossthetabletome。\"Readthat,andtellmewhatyouthinkofit。\"
Ireaditovercarefully。ItwasalettertoMessrs。Herring,Beemer,&Chadwick,inwhichStuartaskedtoberelievedofthecommissionhehadundertaken:
\"Ifindmyselfutterlyunabletocompletetheworkinthestipulatedtime,\"hewrote,\"forreasonsentirelybeyondmycontrol。NorcanI
atthiswritingsaywithanydegreeofcertaintywhenIshallbeabletofinishthestory。Ihavemadeconstantandconscientiousefforttocarryoutmyagreementwithyou,butfruitlessly,andIbegthatyouwillrelievemeoftheobligationintowhichIenteredatthesigningofourcontract。OfcourseIcouldsendyousomethinglongenoughtocovertherequiredspace——wordscomeeasyenoughforthat——
buttheresultwouldbeunsatisfactorytoyouandinjurioustomewereItodoso。Pleaseletmehearfromyou,releasingmefromtheobligation,atyourearliestconvenience,asIamabouttoleavetownforafortnight’srest。Regrettingmyinabilitytoserveyouatthistime,andhopingsoontobeabletoavailmyselfofyourverykindoffer,Ibegtoremain,\"Yoursfaithfully,\"STUARTHARLEY。\"
\"Oh!\"saidI。\"You’vefinishedit,then,by——\"
\"Bygivingitup,\"saidhe,sadly。
\"It’sthestrangestthingthateverhappenedtome,butthatgirlisimpossible。Itakeupmypenintendingtosaythatshedidthis,andbeforeIknowitshedoesthat。Icannotcontrolmystoryatall,norcanIperceiveinwhatgivendirectionshewillgo。IfIcould,Icouldarrangemyscenariotosuit,butasitis,Icannotgoon。
Itmaycomelater,butitwon’tcomenow,andI’mgoingtogiveherup,andgodowntoBarnegattofishfortendays。Ihatetogivethebookup,though,\"headded,tappingthetablewithhispen—holderreflectively。\"Chadwick’sanawfullygoodfellow,andhisfirmisoneofthebestinthecountry,liberalandallthat,andhereatmyfirstopportunitytogetontheirlist,I’mcompletelyfloored。It’sbeastlyhardluck,Ithink。\"
\"Don’tbefloored,\"saidI。\"Takemyadviceandtacklesomethingelse。Writesomeotherbook。\"
\"That’sthedevilofit!\"hereplied,angrilypoundingthetablewithhisfist。\"Ican’t。I’vetried,andIcan’t。Mymindisfullofthatwoman。IfIdon’tgetridofherI’mruined——I’llhavetogetapositionasasalesmansomewhere,orstarve,foruntilsheiscaughtbetweengoodstiffboardcoversIcan’twriteanotherline。\"
\"Oh,youtaketooseriousaviewofit,Stuart,\"Iventured。\"You’remadandtirednow。Idon’tblameyou,ofcourse,butyoumustn’tberash。Don’tsendthatletteryet。Waituntilyou’vehadtheweekatBarnegat——you’llfeelbetterthen。Youcanwritethebookintendaysafteryourreturn;orifyoustillfindyoucan’tdoit,itwillbetimeenoughtowithdrawthen。\"
\"Whathopeisthereafterthat?\"hecried,tossingabundleofmanuscriptintomylap。\"Justreadthat,andtellmewhat’stheuse。
I’dmappedoutameetingbetweenMargueriteAndrewsandacertainMr。
ArthurParker,afellowwithwealth,position,brains,goodlooks——inshort,everythingagirlcouldaskfor,andthat’swhatcameofit。\"
Ispreadthepagesoutuponthetablebeforemeandread:
CHAPTERIV:ADECLARATION
\"IhavenotseenSolikelyanambassadoroflove。\"
—\"MerchantofVenice。\"
Parkermountedthestepslightlyandrangthebell。Marguerite’skindnessofthenightbefore,whichwasinmarkedcontrasttohercoolnessattheMacFarlanddance,hadledhimtobelievethathewasnotwhollywithoutinteresttoher,andherinvitationthatheshouldcalluponherhadgivenhimasincerepleasure;infact,hewonderedthatheshouldbesopleasedoversotrivialacircumstance。
\"I’mafraidI’velostmyheartagain,\"hesaidtohimself。\"Thatis,againifIeverlostitbefore,\"headded。
AndhismindrevertedtoalittleepisodeatBarHarborthesummerbefore,andhewasnotsorrytofeelthatthatwoundwascured——
though,asamatteroffact,ithadneveramountedtomorethanascratch。
Amomentlaterthedooropened,andParkerentered,inquiringforMissAndrewsashedidso。
\"Idonotknow,butIwillseeifMissAndrewsisathome,\"saidthebutler,usheringhimintotheparlor。ThatimposingindividualknewquitewellthatMissAndrewswasathome,buthealsoknewthatitwasnothisplacetosaysountiltheyoungladyhadpersonallyassuredhimofthefactsinsofarastheyrelatedtothisparticularcaller。AllwentwellforParker,however。MissAndrewsconsentedtobeathometohim,andfiveminuteslatersheenteredthedrawingroomwhereParkerwasseated。
\"Howdoyoudo?\"shesaid,frigidly,ignoringhisoutstretchedhand。
(\"Thinkofthat,willyou?\"interposedHarley。\"He’dcometopropose,andwastoleaveengaged,andsheinsistsuponopeninguponhimfrigidly,ignoringhisoutstretchedhand。\"
Icouldn’thelpsmiling。\"Whydidyouletherdoit?\"Iasked。
\"IcouldnomorehavechangeditthanIcouldfly,\"returnedStuart。
\"Sheoughtnevertohavebeenathomeifshewasgoingtobehavethatway。Icouldn’tforeseetheincident,andbeforeIknewitthat’sthewayithappened。ButIthoughtIcouldfixituplater,soI
wenton。Readalong,andseewhatIgotletintonext。\"
Iproceededtoreadasfollows:)
\"Yousee,\"saidParker,withanadmiringglanceathereyes,inspiteofthefactthatthecoolnessofherreceptionratherabashedhim——
\"yousee,Ihavenotdelayedverylongincoming。\"
\"SoIperceive,\"returnedMarguerite,withaboredmanner。\"That’swhatIsaidtoMrs。WillardasIcamedown。Youdon’tallowyourfriendsmuchleeway,Mr。Parker。Itdoesn’tseemmorethanfiveminutessinceweweretogetheratthecardparty。\"
(\"That’scordial,eh?\"saidHarley,asIread。\"Nicesortoftalkforaheroinetoahero。Makesiteasyforme,eh?\"
\"Imustsayifyoumanagetogetaproposalinnowyou’reagenius,\"
saidI。
\"Oh——asforthat,IgotrecklesswhenIsawhowthingsweregoing,\"
returnedHarley。\"Ilostmytemper,andtookitoutofpoorParker。
Heproposes,asyouwillseewhenyoucometoit;butitisn’trealism——it’scompulsion。Isimplyforcedhimintoit——poordevil。
Butgoonandreadforyourself。\"
Ididso,asfollows:)
ThiswashardlythetreatmentParkerhadexpectedatthehandsofonewhohadbeenundeniablygracioustohimatthecard—tablethenightbefore。Hehadreceivedthenoticethatshewastobehispartneratthetableswithmisgivings,onhisarrivalatMrs。Stoughton’s,becausehisrecollectionofherbehaviortowardshimattheMacFarlanddancehadledhimtobelievethathewaspersonallydistastefultoher;butastheeveningatcardsprogressedhefeltinstinctivelydrawntowardsher,andhervivacityofmanner,clevernessatrepartee,andextremeamiabilitytowardshimselfhadcompletelywonhisheart,whichvictorytheirlittletete—a—teteduringsupperhadconfirmed。Buthere,thismorning,wasreversiontoherfirstattitude。
Whatcoulditmean?Whyshouldshetreathimso?
(\"Icouldn’tanswerthatquestiontosavemylife,\"saidStuart。
\"Thatis,notthen,butIfoundoutlater。Iputitin,however,andletParkerdrawhisownconclusions。I’dhavehelpedhimoutifI
could,butIcouldn’t。Goonandseeforyourself。\"
Iresumed。)
Parkercouldnotsolvetheproblem,butitpleasedhimtobelievethatsomethingoverwhichhehadnocontrolhadgonewrongthatmorning,andthatthishaddisturbedherequanimity,andthathewasmerelythevictimofcircumstances;andsomehoworotheritpleasedhimalsotothinkthathecouldbethevictimofhercircumstances,sohestoodhisground。
\"Itisabeautifulday,\"hebegan,afterapause。
\"Isit?\"sheasked,indifferently。
(\"Frightfullysnubbish,\"saidI,appalledatthelengthstowhichMissAndrewswasgoing。
\"Dreadfully,\"sighedHarley。\"Andsounlikeher,too。\")
\"Yes,\"saidParker,\"soverybeautifulthatitseemedapitythatyouandIshouldstayindoors,withplentyofwalkstobetakenand——\"
Margueriteinterruptedhimwithasarcasticlaugh。
\"Withsomuchpityandsomanywalks,Mr。Parker,whydon’tyoutakeafewofthem!\"shesaid。
(\"GoodLord!\"saidI。\"Thisistheworstactofrebellionyet。Sheseemsbesideherself。\"
\"Readon!\"saidHarley,insepulchraltones。)
ThiswasParker’sopportunity。\"Iamnotfondofwalking,MissAndrews,\"hesaid;andthenheadded,quickly,\"thatis,alone——I
don’tlikeanythingalone。Livingalone,likewalkingalone,is——\"
\"Let’sgowalking,\"saidMarguerite,shortly,assheroseupfromherchair。\"I’llbedownintwominutes。Ionlyneedtoputmyhaton。\"
Parkeracquiesced,andMissAndrewswalkedmajesticallyoutoftheparlorandwentup—stairs。
\"Confoundit!\"mutteredParker,asshelefthim。\"Aminutemore,andI’dhaveknownmyfate。\"
(\"Yousee,\"saidHarley,\"I’dmadeupmymindthatthatproposalshouldtakeplaceinthatchapter,andIthoughtI’dworkedrightuptoit,inspiteofallMissAndrews’sdisagreeableremarkswhen,pop—
—offshegoestoputonherhat。\"
\"Oh——asforthat——that’sallright,\"saidI。\"Parkerhadsuggestedthewalk,andagirlreallydoesliketostaveoffaproposalaslongasshecanwhensheknowsitissuretocome。Furthermore,itgivesyouachancetodescribethehat,andsomakeupforafewofthewordsyoulostwhensherefusedtodiscussball—dresseswithMrs。
Willard。\"
\"Ineverthoughtofthat;butdon’tyouthinkIworkeduptotheproposalskilfully?\"askedHarley。
\"Very,\"saidI。\"Butyou’redreadfullyhardonParker。Itwouldhavebeenbettertohavehadthebutlerfirehimout,headoverheels。Hecouldhavethrashedthebutlerfordoingthat,butwithyourheroinehishandsweretied。\"
\"Goonandread,\"saidHarley。)
\"ShemusthaveknownwhatIwasdrivingat,\"Parkerreflected,asheawaitedherreturn。\"Possiblyshelovesmeinspiteofthisfrigidbehavior。Thismaybehermethodofconcealingit;butifitis,I
mustconfessit’sacaseof’Perhapsitwasrighttodissembleyourlove,But——whydidyoukickmedown—stairs?’
Certainly,knowing,asshenowmust,whatmyfeelingsare,herbeingwillingtogoforawalkonthecliffs,oranywhere,isafavorablesign。
(\"Parkermerelyechoedmyownhopeinthatremark,\"saidHarley。\"IfIcouldgetthemengaged,Iwassatisfiedtodoitinanywaythatmightbepleasingtoher。\")
AmomentlaterMargueriteappeared,arrayedforthewalk。Parkerroseassheenteredandpickeduphisgloves。
\"Youareaperfectpicturethismorning,\"saidhe。
\"I’mready,\"shesaid,shortly,ignoringthecompliment。\"Wherearewescheduledtowalk?——orarewetohavesomethingtosayaboutitourselves?\"
Parkerlookedatherwithawonderingsmile。Theaptnessoftheremarkdidnotstrikehim。However,hewasequaltotheoccasion。
\"Youdon’tbelieveinfreewill,then?\"heasked。
(\"Itwastheonlyintelligentremarkhecouldmake,underthecircumstances,yousee,\"explainedHarley。
\"Hewasacleverfellow,\"saidI,andresumedreading。)
\"Ibelieveinagreatmanythingswearesupposedtodowithout,\"
saidMarguerite,sharply。
Theyhadreachedthestreet,andinsilencewalkedalongBellevueAvenue。
\"Thereareagreatmanythings,\"vouchsafedParker,astheyturnedoutoftheavenuetothecliffs,\"thatmenaresupposednottodowithout——\"
\"Yes,\"saidMarguerite,sharply——\"vices。\"
\"Ididnotrefertothem,\"laughedParker。\"Infact,MissAndrews,theheartofmanissupposedtobeincompleteuntilhehaslostit,andhassucceededingettinganotherforhisvery——\"
\"AreyouanadmirerofMaxNordau?\"interposedMarguerite,quickly。
(\"Whateverledyoutoputthatin?\"Iasked。
\"Goon,andyou’llsee,\"saidHarley。\"Ididn’tputitin。It’swhatshesaid。I’mnotresponsible。\")
\"Idon’tknowanythingaboutMaxNordau,\"saidParker,somewhatsurprisedatthissuddenturnoftheconversation。
\"AreyoufamiliarwithSchopenhauer?\"sheasked。
(\"Itwasawfullyroughonthepoorfellow,\"saidHarley,\"butI
couldn’thelphim。I’dforcedhiminsofarthatIcouldn’tgethimout。HisanswerflooredmeascompletelyasanythingthatMissAndrewseverdid。\")
\"Schopenhauer?\"saidParker,nonplussed。\"Ohyes,\"headded,anideadawningonhismind。\"Thatistosay,moderatelyfamiliar——though,asamatteroffact,I’mnotatallmusical。\"
MissAndrewslaughedimmoderately,inwhichParker,thinkingthathehadpossiblysaidsomethingwitty,althoughhedidnotknowwhatitwas,joined。Inamomentthelaughtersubsided,andforafewminutesthetwowalkedoninsilence。FinallyParkerspoke,resignedly。
\"MissAndrews,\"hesaid,\"perhapsyouhavenoticed——perhapsnot——thatyouhavestronglyinterestedme。\"
\"Yes,\"shesaid,turninguponhimdesperately。\"Ihavenoticedit,andthatiswhyIhaveontwoseparateoccasionstriedtokeepyoufromsayingso。\"
\"AndwhyshouldInottellyouthatIlove——\"beganParker。
\"Becauseitishopeless,\"retortedMarguerite。\"Iamperfectlywellaware,Mr。Parker,whatwearedownfor,andIsupposeIcannotblameyouforyourpersistence。Perhapsyoudon’tknowanybetter;perhapsyoudoknowbetter,butarewillingtogiveyourselfoverunreservedlyintothehandsofanother;perhapsyouarebeingforcedandcannothelpyourself。Itisjustpossiblethatyouareaprofessionalhero,andfeelunderobligationstoyouremployertofollowouthiswishestotheletter。Howeveritmaybe,youhavetwiceessayedtocometothepoint,andIhavetwicetriedtoturnyouaside。Nowitistimetospeaktruthfully。Iadmireandlikeyouverymuch,butIhaveawillofmyown,amnobody’spuppet,andifStuartHarleyneverwritesanotherbookinhislife,heshallnotmarrymetoamanIdonotlove;and,frankly,Idonotloveyou。I
donotknowifyouareawareofthefact,butitistrueneverthelessthatyouarethethirdfiancehehastriedtothrustuponmesinceJuly3d。Liketheothers,ifyouinsistuponblindlyfollowinghiswill,andproposemarriagetome,youshallgobytheboard。Ihavewarnedyou,andyoucannowdoasyouplease。Youweresaying——?\"
\"ThatIloveyouwithallmysoul,\"saidParker,grimly。
(\"Hedidn’treallyloveherthen,youknow,\"saidHarley。\"He’dbeencuredofthatinfiveminutes。ButIwasresolvedthatheshouldsayit,andhedid。That’showhecametosayitgrimly。Hediditjustasasoldierrushesuptothecannon’smouth。Headded,also:\")
\"Willyoubemywife?\"
\"Mostcertainlynot,\"saidMarguerite,turningonherheel,andleavingtheyoungmantofinishhiswalkalone。
(\"Andthen,\"saidHarley,withachuckle,\"Parker’smanhoodwouldassertitselfinspiteofallIcoulddo。Hemadeananswer,whichI
wrotedown。\"
\"Isee,\"saidI,\"butyou’vescratcheditout。Whatwasthatline?\"
\"’\"ThanktheLord!\"saidParkertohimself,asMissAndrewsdisappearedaroundthecorner,’\"saidStuartHarley。\"That’swhatI
wrote,andIflattermyselfontherealismofit,forthat’sjustwhatanyself—respectingherowouldhavesaidunderthecircumstances。\"
Asilencecameoverus。
\"DoyouwonderI’vegivenitup,\"askedStuart,afterawhile。
\"Yes,\"saidI,\"Ido。Suchoppositionwouldnervemeuptoabattleroyal。Iwouldn’tgiveitupuntilI’dreturnedfromBarnegat,ifI
wereyou,\"Iadded,anxioustohavehimrenewhisefforts;foranideahadjustflashedacrossmymind,which,althoughitinvolvedabreachoffaithonmypart,Ineverthelessbelievedtobegoodandjustifiable,sinceitmightrelieveStuartHarleyofhisembarrassment。
\"Verywell,\"Irejoicedtohearhimsay。\"Iwon’tgiveitupuntilthen,butIhaven’tmuchhopeafterthatlastchapter。\"
SoHarleywenttoBarnegat,afterdestroyinghislettertoMessrs。
Herring,Beemer,&Chadwick,whilstIputmybreachoffaithintooperation。)
CHAPTERVII:ABREACHOFFAITH
\"Havingsworntoohard—a—keepingoath,Studytobreakit,andnottobreakmytroth。\"
—\"Love’sLabor’sLost。\"
WhenIassuredHarleythatIshouldkeepmyhandsoffhisheroineuntilherequestedmetodootherwise,aftermyfruitlessattempttodisciplineherintoalessrefractorymood,Ifullyintendedtokeepmypromise。Shewashis,asfarasshepossessedanyvalueasliterarymaterial,andhehadascleararighttoherexclusiveuseasifshehadbeencopyrightedinhisname——atleastsofarashisfriendswereconcernedhehad。Othersmightmakeuseofherforliterarypurposeswithaclearconscienceiftheychosetodoso,butthehandofafriendmustbestayed。Furthermore,myownexperiencewiththeyoungwomanhadnotbeensuccessfulenoughtoleadmetobelievethatIcouldconquerwhereHarleyhadbeenvanquished。
PhysicalforceIhadfoundtobeunavailing。ShewastoocunningtostumbleintoanyofthepitfallsthatwithallmyimaginationIcouldconjureuptoembarrassher;butsomethinghadtobedone,andInowresolveduponacourseofmoralsuasion,andwhollyforHarley’ssake。Themanwasactuallysufferingbecauseshehadsopersistentlydefiedhim,andhisdiscomfiturewasallthemoredeplorablebecauseitmeantlittleshortoftheruinofhislifeandambitions。Theproblemhadtobesolvedorhiscareerwasatanend。Harleynevercoulddotwothingsatonce。Thetaskhehadinhandalwaysabsorbedhiswholebeinguntilhewasabletowritethewordfinisonthelastpageofhismanuscript,anduntilthefinistothiselusivebookhewasnowstrugglingwithwaswritten,Iknewthathewouldwritenoother。Hispot—boilershecoulddo,ofcourse,andsoearnaliving,butpot—boilersdestroyratherthanmakereputations,andHarleywastooyoungamantorestuponpastachievements;neitherhadhedonesuchvastlysuperiorworkthathisfamecouldwithstandmuchdiminutionbythecontinuousproductionofephemera。ItwasthereforeinthehopeofsavinghimthatIbrokefaithwithhimandtemporarilystolehisheroine。Ididnotdreamofusingheratall,asyoumightthink,asaheroineofmyown,butratherasaninterestingpersonwithideasastothedutyofheroines——asortofPastGrandMistressoftheArtofHeroinism——whowasworthinterviewingforthedailypress。Iflattermyselfitwasagoodidea,worthyalmostofagenius,thoughIamperfectlywellawarethatIamnotagenius。Iammerelyamanofexceptionaltalent。I
havetalentenoughforagenius,butnotastefortheunconventional,andbyjustsomuchdoIfallshortoftherealizationofthehopesofmyfriendsandfearsofmyenemies。TherearestoriesIhaveinmindthatareworthyofthemostexaltedFrenchmasters,forinstance,andwhenIhavethetimetobecareful,whichIrarelydo,IcanwritewiththepolishedgraceofaDeMaupassantoraJames,butIshallneverwritethem,becauseIvaluemysocialpositiontoohighlytoputmynametoanythingwhichitwouldneverdotopublishoutsideofParis。Idonotcaretoprovemygeniusatthecostoftherespectofmyneighbors——allofwhich,however,isforeigntomystory,andisputinheremerelybecauseIhaveobservedthatreadersareverymuchinterestedintheirfavoriteauthors,andliketoknowasmuchaboutthemastheycan。
Myplan,totakeupthethreadofmynarrativeoncemore,was,briefly,towriteaninterviewbetweenmyself,asarepresentativeofanewspapersyndicate,andMissMargueriteAndrews,the\"Well—KnownHeroine。\"Ithasbeenquitecommonoflateyearstointerviewthemodelsofwell—knownartists,sothatitdidnotrequiretoogreatastretchoftheimaginationtomakemyschemeareasonableone。Itmustberemembered,too,thatIhadnointentionofusingthisinterviewformyownaggrandizement。Iplanneditsolelyintheinterestsofmyfriend,hopingthatImightsecurefromMissAndrewssomeunguardedadmissionthatmightoperateagainstherownprinciples,asHarleyandIknewthem,andthat,thatsecured,I
mightinducehertofollowmeeklyhisscheduleuntilhecouldbringhisstorytoareasonableconclusion。Failinginthis,Iwasgoingtotryanddiscoverwhatstyleofmanitwassheadmiredmost,whatmightbeherideasoftheromanceinwhichshewouldmostliketofigure,andallthat,sothatIcouldgiveHarleyafewpointswhichwouldenablehimsotoconstructhisromancethathisheroinewouldwalkthroughitaseasilyandasdocilelyasonecouldwish。
Finally,allotherthingsfailing,IwasgoingtothrowHarleyonhergenerosity,callattentiontothefactthatshewasruininghimbyherstubbornbehavior,andaskhertosubmittoalittletemporaryinconvenienceforhissake。
AsIhavealreadysaid,somustIrepeat,therewasgeniusintheidea,butIwasforcedtorelinquishcertainfeaturesofit,aswillbeseenshortly。Itookupmypen,andwiththreeboldstrokesthereoftransportedmyselftoNewport,andgoingdirectlytotheWillardCottage,Irangthebell。MissAndrewswasstillelusive。
Withalltheresourcesofimaginationathand,andwithnotanobstacleinmywaythatIcouldnotclearatabound,shestillheldmeatbay。Shewasnotathome——had,infact,departedtwodayspreviouslyfortheWhiteMountains。Fortunately,however,thebutlerknewheraddress,and,withoutbotheringabouttrains,luggage,oraughtelse,inonebriefparagraphIlandedmyselfattheProfileHouse,whereshewasspendingaweekwithMr。andMrs。RushtonofBrooklyn。Thischangeoflocationcausedmetomodifymyfirstidea,toitsadvantage。Isaw,whenIthoughtthematterover,that,onthewhole,theinterview,asaninterviewforanewspapersyndicate,waslikelytobenippedinthebud,sincethemomentIdeclaredmyselfareporterforasetofnewspapers,andstatedtheobjectofmycall,shewouldprobablydismissmewiththestatementthatshewasnotaprofessionalheroine,thatherviewswereofnointeresttothepublic,andthat,nothavingthepleasureofmyacquaintance,shemustbegtobeexcused。IwonderIdidn’tthinkofthisattheoutset。IsurelyknewHarley’sheroinewellenoughtohaveforeseenthispossibility。Irealizedit,however,themomentIdroppedmyselfintothegreathomelikeofficeoftheProfileHouse。MissAndrewswalkedthroughtheofficetothedining—roomasIregistered,andasIturnedtogazeuponherasshepassedmajesticallyon,itflashedacrossmymindthatitwouldbefarbettertoappearbeforeherasafellow—guest,andfindoutwhatIwantedandtellherwhyI
hadcomeinthatguise,ratherthanintroducemyselfasoneofthoseyoungmenwhoearntheirdailybreadbypokingtheirnosesintootherpeople’sbusiness。
Hadthiscoursebeenbaseduponanythingmoresolidthanapurebitofimagination,Ishouldhavefounditdifficulttoaccommodatemyselfsoeasilytocircumstances。IfithadbeenHarleyinsteadofmyself,itwouldhavebeenimpossible,forHarleywouldneverhavestoopedtoprovidehimselfwithatrunkcontainingfreshlinenandevening—dressclothesandpatent—leatherpumpsbyastrokeofhispen。ThisIdid,however,andthatevening,havingcreatedanotherguest,whoknewmeofoldandwhoalsowasacquaintedwithMissAndrews,justasIhadcreatedmyexcellentwardrobe,Iwaspresented。
Theeveningpassedpleasantlyenough,andIfoundHarley’sheroinetobeallthathehadtoldmeandagreatdealmorebesides。Infact,sogreatlydidIenjoyhersocietythatIintentionallyprolongedtheeveningtoaboutthreetimesitsnormallength——whichwasaveryinartisticbitofexaggeration,Iadmit;butthenIdon’tpretendtobearealist,andwhenIsitdowntowriteIcanmakemyeveningsaslongorasshortasIchoose。Iwillsay,however,that,longasmyeveningwas,Imadeitgothroughitswholelengthwithouthavingrecoursetosuchcopy—makingsubterfugesasthedescriptionofdoorknobsandchairs;andexceptforitsunholylength,itwasnotatalllackinginrealism。MissAndrewsfascinatedmeandseemedtofindmerathergoodcompany,andIfoundmyselfsuggestingthatasthenextdaywasSundayshetakemeforawalk。FromwhatIknewofHarley’sexperiencewithher,Ijudgedshe’dbemorelikelytogoifIaskedhertotakemeinsteadofofferingtotakeher。Itwasasubtledistinction,butwithsomewomensubtledistinctionsarechasmswhichmenmustnottrytooverleaptoovaingloriously,lestdisasterovertakethem。Mybitofsubtletyworkedlikeacharm。
MissAndrewsgraciouslyacceptedmysuggestion,andIretiredtomycouchfeelingcertainthatduringthatwalktoBaldMountain,oraroundtheLake,ordowntotheFarm,orwhereverelseshemightchoosetotakeme,IcoulddomuchtohelppoorStuartoutofthepredicamentintowhichhislucklesschoiceofMissAndrewsashisheroinehadplungedhim。AndIwasn’tfarwrong,astheeventtranspired,althoughthemannerinwhichitworkedoutwasnotexactlyaccordingtomyschedule。
Idismissedthenightwithafewparagraphs;themorning,withitsdivineserviceintheparlor,wentquicklyandimpressively;foritISanimpressivesighttoseegatheredbeneaththosetoweringcliffsahundredormoreofpleasureandhealthseekersofdifferentcreedsworshippingheartilyandsimplytogether,asaccordantlyasthoughtheyknewnodifferencesandallmenwerepossessedofonecommonreligion——itwastooimpressive,indeed,formypen,whichhasbeenlargelygivenovertomattersoflessmoment,andIdidnotventuretotouchuponit,passinghastilyovertotheafternoon,whenMissAndrewsappeared,readyforthestroll。
Igazedatheradmiringlyforamoment,andthenIbegan:
\"Isthatthecostumeyouwore\"——Iwasgoingtosay,\"whenyourejectedParker?\"butIfortunatelycaughtmyerrorintimetopassitoff——\"atNewport?\"Ifinished,withahalfgaspatthenarrownessofmyescape;for,itmustberemembered,Iwassupposedasyettoknownothingofthatepisode。
\"HowdoyouknowwhatIworeatNewport?\"sheasked,quickly——soquicklythatIalmostfearedshehadfoundmeout,afterall。
\"Why——ah——Ireadaboutyousomewhere,\"Istammered。\"Somenewspapercorrespondentdrewapictureofthesceneonthepromenadeintheafternoon,and——ah——hehadyoudown。\"
\"Oh!\"shereplied,archinghereyebrows;\"thatwasit,wasit?Anddoyouwasteyourvaluabletimereadingthevulgareffusionsofthesocietyreporter?\"
Wasn’tIgladthatIhadnotcomeasamanwithanosetoprojectintotheaffairsofothers——asanewspaperreporter!
\"No,indeed,\"Irejoined,\"notgenerally;butIhappenedtoseethisparticularitem,andreaditandrememberedit。Afterall,\"Iadded,aswecametothesylvanpaththatleadstotheLake——\"afterall,onemightaswellreadthatsortofstuffasmostofthenovelsofthepresentday。Thevulgarreportermaybeignorantoraboor,andallthatisreprehensibleinhismethods,buthewritesaboutrealfleshandbloodpeople;and,whatisworse,hegenerallyapproximatesthetruthconcerningtheminhiswriting,whichismorethancanbesaidoftheso—calledrealisticnovelwritersoftheday。Ihaven’treadanovelinthreeyearsinwhichithasseemedtomethattheheroine,forinstance,wasanythingmorethanamarionette,withnowillofherown,andreadytodoatanytimeanyfoolishthingtheauthorwantedhertodo。\"
AgainthoseeyesofMissAndrewsrestedonmeinamannerwhichgavemeconsiderableapprehension。Thenshelaughed,andIwasateaseagain。
\"Youareveryamusing,\"shesaid,quietly。\"Themostamusingofthemall。\"
Theremarknettledme,andIquicklyretorted:
\"ThenIhavenotlivedinvain。\"
\"Youdoreallylive,then,eh?\"sheasked,halfchaffingly,gazingatmeoutofthecornersofhereyesinafashionwhichutterlydisarmedme。
\"Excuseme,MissAndrews,\"Ianswered,\"butIamafraidIdon’tunderstandyou。\"
\"Iamafraidyoudon’t,\"shesaid,thesmileleavingherlips。\"Thefactthatyouarehereontheerrandyouhavechargedyourselfwithprovesthat。\"
\"Iamnotaware,\"Isaid,\"thatIhavecomeonanyparticularlyridiculouserrand。MayIaskyouwhatyoumeanbytheexpression’mostamusingofthemall’?AmIoneamongmany,and,ifso,onewhatamongmanywhat?\"
\"Yourerrandisagoodone,\"shesaid,gravely,\"andnotatallridiculous;letmeassureyouthatIappreciatethatfact。YourquestionIwillanswerbyaskinganother:Areyouhereofyourownvolition,orhasStuartHarleycreatedyou,ashedidMessrs。
Osborne,Parker,andtheProfessor?Areyoumynewhero,orwhat?\"
Thequestionirritatedme。Thiswomanwasnotcontentwithinterferingseriouslywithmyfriend’shappiness:shewasactuallyattributingmetohim,castingdoubtsuponmyexistence,andplacingmeinthesamecategorywithherself——amerebookcreature。Toamanwhoregardshimselfasbeingtherealthing,fleshandblood,and,well,eighteen—caratfleshandbloodatthat,tobeaccusedoflivingonlyafigmentaryexistenceistoomuch。Iretortedangrily。
\"Ifyouconsidermenothingmorethananidea,youdonotmanifestyourusualastuteness,\"Isaid。
Herreplylaidmeflat。