Hewalkeddowntotheveryedgeofthestream;itrandeepandfastjusthere,underahighbankandarowofoldwillows。
Smuggsatdownonthebank,wetthoughthegrasswas,andclaspedhishandsoverhisknees。Icroucheddownalittlewaybehindhim,readyandalert。Iamagoodswimmer,andIdidnotdoubtmypowertopullhimout,evenifIwerenotintimetopreventhimjumpingin。Isawhimrise,lookoverthebrink,andsitdownagain。IalmostthoughtIsawhimshiver。Andpresently,throughthestillnessofthesummernight,camethestrangest,saddestsound;catchingmyearasitdriftedacrossthemeadow。
Smuggwassobbing,andhissobs——neverloud——roseandfellwiththesubduedstressofintolerablepain。
Suddenlyheleapedup,criedaloud,andflunghishandsabovehishead。Ithoughthewasgonethistime;buthestopped,poised,asitseemed,overthewater,andIheardhimcry,\"Ican’t,I
can’t!\"andhesankdownallinaheaponthebank,andfellagaintosobbing。Ihopenevertoseeaman——ifyoucancallSmuggaman——likethatagain。
Hesatwherehewas,andIwhereIwas,tillthemoonpaledandadistanthintofdaydiscoveredus。Thenherose,brushedhimselfwithhishands,andslunkquicklyfromthebank。Hadhelookedanywherebutontheground,hemusthaveseenme;asitwas,I
onlynarrowlyavoidedhim,andfellagainintomyplacebehindhim。AllthewaybacktoourgardenIfollowedhim。Ashepassedthroughthegate,Iquickenedmypace,overtookhim,andlaidmyhandonhisarm。Theman’sfacegavemewhatIremembermyoldnurseusedtocall\"quiteaturn。\"
\"You’reanaverageidiot,aren’tyou?\"saidI。\"Oh,yes;I’vebeensquattinginthewetbythatinfernalriver,too。Yououghttogetthreemonths,byrights。\"
Helookedatmeinadazedsortofway。
\"Idaren’t,\"hesaid。\"Iwantedto,butIdaren’t。\"
Thereisreallynothingmore。Wewenttothewedding,leavingSmugginbed;andintheeveningwe,leavingSmuggstillinbed(ItoldMarytokeepaneyeonhim),andcarryingadozenofthegrocer’sbestport,wentuptodanceatDill’sfarm。JoewaspolishedtillIcouldalmostseemyselfinhischeek,andPyrrhalookedmorecharmingthanever。SheandJoeweretoleaveusearly,togotoJoe’sownhouseinthevillage,butImanagedtogetonedancewithher。Indeed,Ibelieveshewantedawordwithme。
\"Well,all’swellthatendswell,isn’tit?\"Ibegan。\"Nomorescoldings!NotfromMrs。Dill,anyhow。\"
\"Youcan’tletthatalone,sir,\"saidPyrrha。
Ichuckledgently。
\"Oh,I’llneverrefertoitagain,\"saidI。\"Thisisafineweddingofyours,Betsy。\"
\"It’sgoodofyouandtheothergentlementocome,sir。\"
\"Wehadtoseethelastofyou,\"andIsighedveryostentatiously。
Pyrrhalaughed。Shedidnotbelieveinit,andsheknewthatI
knewshedidnot,butthelittlecomplimentpleasedher,allthesame。
\"Smugg,\"Ipursued,\"isillinbed。Butperhapshewouldn’thavecome,anyhow。\"
\"Ifyouplease,sir————\"Pyrrhabegan;butshestopped。
\"Yes,Betsy?Whatisit?\"
\"Wouldyoutakeamessageforme,sir?\"
\"Ifit’saproperone,Betsy,foramarriedladytosend。\"
Shelaughedalittle,andsaid:
\"Oh,it’snoharm,sir。I’mafraidheaint——he’sratherdown,sir。\"
\"Who?\"
\"Why,thatSmugg,sir。\"
\"Oh,thatSmugg!Why,yes;alittledown,Betsy,Ifear。\"
\"YoumighttellhimasIbearnomalice,sir——asI’mnotangry——
withhim,Imean。\"
\"Certainly,\"saidI。\"Itwillprobablydohimgood。\"
\"Hegotmeintotrouble;butthere,Icanmakeallowances;andit’sallrightnow,sir。\"
\"Infactyouforgivehim?\"
\"Ithinkyoumighttellhimso,sir,\"saidBetsy。
\"But,\"saidI,\"areyouawarethathewasanother’sallthetime?\"
\"What,sir?\"
\"Oh,yes!engagedtobemarried。\"
\"Well,Inever!Him!What,allthewhilehe————\"
\"Precisely。\"
\"Well,thatbeatseverything。Oh,ifI’dknownthat!\"
\"I’llgivehimyourmessage。\"
\"No,sir,notnow,Ithankyou。Thevillain!\"
\"Youareright,\"saidI。\"Ithinkyourmotheroughttohave——
scoldedhim,too。\"
\"Nowyoupromised,sir————\"butJoecameup,andIescaped。
IV。
AREPENTANTSINNER。
Itwas,Ibelieve,mainlyasacomplimenttomethatMissAudreyListonwasaskedtoPoltons。MissListonandIwereverygoodfriends,andmycousinDoraPoltonthought,assheinformedme,thatitwouldbeniceformetohavesomeoneIcouldtalktoabout\"booksandsoon。\"Ididnotcomplain。MissListonwasapleasantyoungwomanofsix—and—twenty;Ilikedherverymuchexceptonpaper,andIwasawarethatshemadeitapointofdutytoreadsomethingatleastofwhatIwrote。Shewasinthehabitofdescribingherselfasan\"authoressinasmallway。\"Ifitwerepointedoutthatsixthree—volumenovelsinthreeyears(thetermofherliteraryactivity,atthetimeofwhichI
write)couldhardlybecalled\"asmallway,\"shewouldsmilemodestlyandsaythatitwasnotreallymuch;andifsheweretoldthattheEnglishlanguageembracednosuchwordas\"authoress,\"shewouldsmileagainandsaythatitoughtto;apositiontowardthebugbearofcorrectnesswithwhich,Iconfess,Isympathizeinsomedegree。Shewasverydiligent;sheworkedfromtentooneeverydaywhileshewasatPoltons;howmuchshewroteisbetweenherandherconscience。
TherewasanotherimpeachmentwhichMissListonwashardlyatthetroubletodeny。\"Takemycharactersfromlife?\"shewouldexclaim。\"Surelyeveryartist\"(MissListonoftenreferredtoherselfasanartist)\"must?\"Andshewouldproceedtomaintain——whatisperhapstruesometimes——thatpeopleratherlikedbeingputintobooks,justastheylikebeingphotographed,forallthattheygrumbleandpretendtobeafflictedwheneitherprocessisleviedagainstthem。IndiscussingthismatterwithMissListonIfeltmyselfondelicateground,foritwasnotoriousthatIfiguredinherfirstbookintheguiseofamisogynisticgenius;thefactthatshelengthened(andthickened)
myhair,converteditfromanindeterminatebrowntoaduskyblack,gavemeadroopingmustache,andinvestedmyveryordinaryworkadayeyeswithastrangemagneticattraction,availednothing;Iwasatoncerecognized;and,Imayremarkinpassing,anuncommonlydisagreeablefellowshemademe。ThusIhadpassedthroughthefire。IfelttolerablysurethatIpresentednootheraspectofinterest,realorsupposed,andIwasquitecontentthatMissListonshouldservealltherestofheracquaintanceasshehadservedme。Ireckonedtheywouldlasther,atthepresentrateofproduction,aboutfiveyears。
FatewaskindtoMissListon,andprovidedherwithmostsuitablepatternsforhernextpieceofworkatPoltonsitself。Therewereayoungmanandayoungwomanstayinginthehouse——SirGilbertChillingtonandMissPamelaMyles。ThemomentMissListonwasapprizedofapossibleromance,shebeganthestudyoftheprotagonists。Shewaslookingout,shetoldme,forsomenewtypes(ifitwereanyconsolation——andthereisasortofdignityaboutit——tobecalledatype,MissListon’svictimswerealwayswelcometosomuch),andshehadfoundtheminChillingtonandPamela。Theformerappearedtomydulleyetooffernosalientnovelty;hewastall,broad,handsome,andhepossessedamannerofenviableplacidity。Pamela,Iallowed,wasexactlytheheroineMissListonloved——haughty,capricious,difficile,butsoundandtrueatheart(IwasmentallyskimmingVolumeI)。MissListonagreedwithmeinmyconceptionofPamela,butdeclaredthatIdidnotdojusticetotheartisticpossibilitieslatentinChillington;hehadacuriousattractionwhichitwouldtaxherskill(soshegravelyinformedme)totheutmosttoreproduce。
SheproposedthatIalsoshouldmakeastudyofhim,andattributedmyhurriedrefusaltoashrinkingfromthedifficultiesofthetask。
\"Ofcourse,\"sheobserved,lookingatouryoungfriends,whoweretalkingnonsenseattheothersideofthelawn,\"theymusthaveamisunderstanding。\"
\"Why,ofcourse,\"saidI,lightingmypipe。\"Whatshouldyousaytoanotherman?\"
\"Oranotherwoman?\"saidMissListon。
\"Itcomestothesamething,\"saidI。(AboutavolumeandahalfImeant。)
\"Butit’smoreinteresting。Doyouthinkshe’dbetterbeamarriedwoman?\"AndMissListonlookedatmeinquiringly。
\"Theageprefersthemmarried,\"Iremarked。
ThisconversationhappenedontheseconddayofMissListon’svisit,andshelostnotimeinbeginningtostudyhersubjects。
Pamela,shesaid,shefoundprettyplainsailing,butChillingtoncontinuedtopuzzleher。Again,shecouldnotmakeuphermindwhethertohaveahappyoratragicending。Intheinterestsofatenderheartedpublic,Ipleadedformarriagebells。
\"Yes,Ithinkso,\"saidMissListon,butshesighed,andIthinkshehadanideaortwoforaheart—brokenseparation,followedbymutual,lifelong,hopelessdevotion。
ThecomplexityofyoungSirGilbertdidnot,inMissListon’sopinion,appearlessonfurtheracquaintance;andindeed,Imustadmitthatshewasnotaltogetherwronginconsideringhimworthyofattention。AsIcametoknowhimbetter,Idiscernedinhimasmotheredself—appreciation,whichcametolightinresponsetotheleasttributeofinterestoradmiration,butwasyetfarremotefromtheaggressivenessofacommonplacevanity。InamomentofindiscretionIhadchaffedhim——hewasverygood—
natured——ontherisksheranatMissListon’shands;hewasnotdisgusted,butneitherdidheplumehimselforspreadhisfeathers。Hereceivedthesuggestionwithoutsurprise,andwithoutanyattemptatdisclaimingfitnessforthepurpose;buthereceiveditasamatterwhichentailedaresponsibilityonhim。Idetectedtheconvictionthat,iftheportraitwastobepainted,itwasduetotheworldthatitshouldbewellpainted;
thesubjectmustgivetheartistfullopportunities。
\"Whatdoessheknowaboutme?\"heasked,inmeditativetones。
\"She’sveryquick;she’llsoonpickupasmuchasshewants,\"I
assuredhim。
\"She’llprobablygoallwrong,\"hesaidsomberly;andofcourseI
couldnottellhimthatitwasofnoconsequenceifshedid。Hewouldnothavebelievedme,andwouldhavedonepreciselywhatheproceededtodo,andthatwastoaffordMissListoneverychanceofappraisinghischaracterandplumbingthedepthsofhissoul。
ImaysayatoncethatIdidnotregretthiscourseofaction;
fortheeffectofitwastoallowmeachanceoftalkingtoPamelaMyles,andPamelawasexactlythesortofgirltobeguilethelong,pleasantmorninghoursofaholidayinthecountry。NoonehadtoldPamelathatshewasgoingtobeputinabook,andI
don’tthinkitwouldhavemadeanydifferencehadshebeentold。
Pamela’sattitudetowardbookswasoneofhealthyscorn,confidentlybasedonadmittedignorance。Soweneverspokeofthem,andmycousinDoracondoledwithmemorethanonceonthewayinwhichMissListon,falsetotheimpliedtermsofherinvitation,desertedmeinfavorofSirGilbert,andleftmetothemerciesofafrivolousgirl。PamelaappearedtobeaslittleaggrievedasIwas。IimaginedthatshesupposedthatChillingtonwouldaskhertomarryhimsomeday,beforeverylong,andIwassureshewouldaccepthim;butitwasquiteplainthat,ifMissListonpersistedinmakingPamelaherheroine,shewouldhavetosupplyfromherownresourcesalargesupplementofpassion。Pamelawasfartoodeficientinthecommoditytobemadeanythingofwithoutsuchre—enforcement,evenbyanartmoreadeptatmakingmuchoutofnothingthanMissListon’sstraightforwardmethodcouldclaimtobe。
Aweekpassed,andthen,oneFridaymorning,anewlightburstonme。MissListoncameintothegardenateleveno’clockandsatdownbymeonthelawn。ChillingtonandPamelahadgoneridingwiththesquire,Dorawasvisitingthepoor。Wewerealone。TheappearanceofMissListonatthishour(usuallysacredtotheuseofthepen),nolessthanherpuzzledlook,toldmethatanobstructionhadoccurredinthenovel。Presentlysheletmeknowwhatitwas。
\"I’mthinkingofalteringtheschemeofmystory,Mr。Wynne,\"
saidshe。\"Haveyouevernoticedhowsometimesamanthinkshe’sinlovewhenheisn’treally?\"
\"Suchacasesometimesoccurs,\"Iacknowledged。
\"Yes,andhedoesn’tfindouthismistake————\"
\"Tillthey’remarried?\"
\"Sometimes,yes,\"shesaid,ratherasthoughsheweremakinganunwillingadmission。\"Butsometimesheseesitbefore——whenhemeetssomebodyelse。\"
\"Verytrue,\"saidI,withagravenod。
\"Thefalsecan’tstandagainstthereal,\"pursuedMissListon;
andthenshefellintomeditativesilence。Istoleaglanceatherface;shewassmiling。Wasitinthepleasureofliterarycreation——anartisticecstasy?Ishouldhavelikedtoansweryes,butIdoubteditverymuch。WithoutpretendingtoMissListon’spowers,Ihavethelittlesubtletythatisneedfultoshowmethatmorethanonekindofsmilemaybeseenonthehumanface,andthatthereisoneverydifferentfromothers;and,finally,thatthatoneisnotevoked,asarule,merelybytheevolutionofthetroublesomeencumbranceinprettywritingvulgarlycalleda\"plot。\"
\"If,\"pursuedMissListon,\"someonecomeswhocanappreciatehimanddrawoutwhatisbestinhim————\"
\"That’sallverywell,\"saidI,\"butwhatofthefirstgirl?\"
\"Oh,she’s——shecanbemadeshallow,youknow;andIcanputinamanforher。Peopleneedn’tbemuchinterestedinher。\"
\"Yes,youcouldmanageitthatway,\"saidI,thinkinghowPamela——Itookthelibertyofusinghernamefortheshallowgirl——wouldlikesuchtreatment。
\"Shewillreallybevaluablemainlyasafoil,\"observedMissListon;andsheaddedgenerously,\"Ishallmakehernice,youknow,butshallow——notworthyofhim。\"
\"Andwhatareyougoingtomaketheothergirllike?\"Iasked。
MissListonstartedslightly;alsoshecoloredveryslightly,andsheanswered,lookingawayfrommeacrossthelawn:
\"Ihaven’tquitemadeupmymindyet,Mr。Wynne。\"
Withthesuspicionwhichthisconversationarousedfreshinmymind,itwascurioustohearPamelalaugh,asshesaidtomeontheafternoonofthesameday:
\"Aren’tSirGilbertandAudreyListonfunny?Itellyouwhat,Mr。Wynne,Ibelievethey’rewritinganoveltogether。\"
\"PerhapsChillington’sgivingherthematerialsforone,\"I
suggested。
\"Ishouldn’tthink,\"observedPamelainherdispassionateway,\"thatanythingveryinterestinghadeverhappenedtohim。\"
\"Ithoughtyoulikedhim,\"Iremarkedhumbly。
\"SoIdo。What’sthatgottodowithit?\"askedPamela。
ItwasbeyondquestionthatChillingtonenjoyedMissListon’ssociety;theinterestsheshowedinhimwasincensetohisnostrils。Iusedtooverhearfragmentsofhisideasabouthimselfwhichhewasrevealinginanswertohertactfulinquiries。ButneitherwasitdoubtfulthathehadbynomeanslosthisrelishforPamela’slightertalk;infact,heseemedtoturntoherwithsomerelief——perhapsitisrefreshingtoescapefromself—analysis,evenwhentheprocessisconductedinthepleasantestpossiblemanner——andthehourswhichMissListongavetoworkweredevotedbyChillingtontomaintaininghiscordialrelationswiththeladywhosecomfortableandnotover—
tragicaldisposalwastaxingMissListon’sskill。Forshehaddefinitelydecidedallherplot——shetoldmesoafewdayslater。
Itwasallplannedout;nay,thesceneinwhichthetruthastohisownfeelingsburstsonSirGilbert(Iforgetatthemomentwhatnamethenovelgavehim)was,Iunderstood,actuallywritten;theshallowgirlwastoexperiencenothingworsethanawoundtohervanity,andwastoturn,withasmuchalacrityasdecencyallowed,tothesubstitutewhomMissListonhadnowprovided。Allthiswaspouredintomysympatheticear,andIsaysympatheticinallsincerity;for,althoughImayoccasionallytreatMissListon’sliteraryeffortswithlessthanproperrespect,sheherselfwasmyfriend,andtheconvictionunderwhichshewasnowlivingwould,Iknew,unlessitwerejustified,bringherintomuchofthatunhappinessinwhichonegenerallyfoundherheroineplungedabouttheendofVolumeII。
Theheroinegenerallygotoutallright,andtheknowledgethatshewouldenabledthereadertopreservecheerfulness。ButwouldpoorlittleMissListongetout?Iwasnonetoosureofit。
Suddenlyachangecameinthestateofaffairs。Pamelaproducedit。ItmusthavestruckherthattheincreasingintimacyofMissListonandChillingtonmightbecomesomethingotherthan\"funny。\"
Toputitbrieflyandmetaphorically,shewhistledherdogbacktoherheels。Iamnotskilledinunderstandingordescribingtheartificesofladies;butevenIsawthetransformationinPamela。Sheputforthherstrengthandputonherprettiestgowns;sherefusedtotakeherplaceinthesea—sawofsocietywhichChillingtonhadrecentlyestablishedforhispleasure。IfhespentanhourwithMissListon,Pamelawouldhavenothingofhimforaday;shemethisattentionswithscornunlesstheywereundivided。Chillingtonseemedatfirstpuzzled;IbelievethatheneverregardedhistalkswithMissListoninotherthanabusinesspointofview,butdirectlyheunderstoodthatPamelaclaimedhim,andthatshewasprepared,incasehedidnotobeyhercall,toestablishagrievanceagainsthim,helostnotimeinmanifestinghisobedience。Awholedaypassedinwhich,tomycertainknowledge,hewasnotaloneamomentwithMissListon,anddidnot,saveatthefamilymeals,exchangeawordwithher。
AshewalkedoffwithPamela,MissListon’seyesfollowedhiminwistfullonging;shestoleawayupstairsanddidnotcomedowntillfiveo’clock。Then,findingmestrollingaboutwithacigarette,shejoinedme。
\"Well,howgoesthebook?\"Iasked。
\"Ihaven’tdonemuchtoitjustlately,\"sheanswered,inalowvoice。\"I——it’s——Idon’tquiteknowwhattodowithit。\"
\"Ithoughtyou’dsettled?\"
\"SoIhad,but——oh,don’tlet’stalkaboutit,Mr。Wynne!\"
Butamomentlatershewentontalkingaboutit。
\"Idon’tknowwhyIshouldmakeitendhappily,\"shesaid。\"I’msurelifeisn’talwayshappy,isit?\"
\"Certainlynot,\"Ianswered。\"Youmeanyourmanmightsticktotheshallowgirlafterall?\"
\"Yes,\"Ijustheardherwhisper。
\"Andbemiserableafterward?\"Ipursued。
\"Idon’tknow,\"saidMissListon。\"Perhapshewouldn’t。\"
\"Thenyoumustmakehimshallowhimself。\"
\"Ican’tdothat,\"shesaidquickly。\"Oh,howdifficultitis!\"
Shemayhavemeantmerelytheartofwriting——whenIcordiallyagreewith——butIthinkshemeantalsothewayoftheworld——
whichdoesnotmakemewithdrawmyassent。Ileftherwalkingupanddowninfrontofthedrawing—roomwindows,aratherforlornlittlefigure,thrownintodistinctnessbythecoldraysofthesettingsun。
Allwasnotoveryet。ThateveningChillingtonbrokeaway。Ledbyvanity,orinterest,orfriendliness,Iknownotwhich——tiredmaybeofpayingcourt(theattitudeinwhichPamelakepthim),andthinkingitwouldbepleasanttoplaytheotherpartforawhile——afterdinnerhewentstraighttoMissListon,talkedtoherwhilewehadcoffeeontheterrace,andthenwalkedaboutwithher。Pamelasatbyme;shewasverysilent;shedidnotappeartobeangry,butherhandsomemouthworearesoluteexpression。ChillingtonandMissListonwanderedonintotheshrubbery,anddidnotcomeintosightagainfornearlyhalfanhour。
\"Ithinkit’scold,\"saidPamela,inhercool,quiettones。\"Andit’salso,Mr。Wynne,ratherslow。Ishallgotobed。\"
IthoughtitalittleimpertinentofPamelatoattributethe\"slowness\"(whichhadundoubtedlyexisted)tome,soItookmyrevengebysayingwithanassumptionofinnocencepurposelyandobviouslyunreal:
\"Oh,butwon’tyouwaitandbidMissListonandChillingtongoodnight?\"
Pamelalookedatmeforamoment。Imadeboldtosmile。
Pamela’sfacebrokeslowlyintoanansweringsmile。
\"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,Mr。Wynne,\"saidshe。
\"No?\"saidI。
\"No,\"saidPamela,andsheturnedaway。Butbeforeshewentshelookedoverhershoulder,andstillsmiling,said,\"WishMissListongood—nightforme,Mr。Wynne。AnythingIhavetosaytoSirGilbertwillwaitverywelltillto—morrow。\"
Shehadhardlygoneinwhenthewandererscameoutoftheshrubberyandrejoinedme。Chillingtonworehisusualpassivelook,butMissListon’sfacewashappyandradiant。Chillingtonpassedonintothedrawingroom。MissListonlingeredamomentbyme。
\"Why,youlook,\"saidI,\"asifyou’dinventedthefinestsceneeverwritten。\"
Shedidnotanswermedirectly,butstoodlookingupatthestars。Thenshesaid,inadreamytone:
\"IthinkIshallsticktomyoldideainthebook。\"
Asshespoke,Chillingtoncameout。EveninthedimlightIsawafrownonhisface。
\"Isay,Wynne,\"saidhe,\"where’sMissMyles?\"
\"She’sgonetobed,\"Ianswered。\"Shetoldmetowishyougoodnightforher,MissListon。Nomessageforyou,Chillington。\"
MissListon’seyeswereonhim。Hetooknonoticeofher;hestoodfrowningforaninstant,then,withsomemutteredejaculation,hestrodebackintothehouse。Weheardhisheavytreadacrossthedrawingroom;weheardthedoorslammedbehindhim,andIfoundmyselflookingonMissListon’salteredface。
\"Whatdoeshewantherfor,Iwonder!\"shesaid,inanagitationthatmademypresence,mythoughts,mysuspicions,nothingtoher。\"Hesaidnothingtomeaboutwantingtospeaktoherto—
night。\"Andshewalkedslowlyintothehouse,hereyesontheground,andallthelightgonefromherface,andthejoydeadinit。WhereuponI,leftalone,begantorailatthegodsthatadear,sillylittlesoullikeMissListonshouldbotherherpoor,sillylittleheadaboutahulkingfool;inwhichreflectionsI
did,ofcourse,immenseinjusticenotonlytoaneminentauthor,butalsotoaperfectlyhonorable,thoughsomewhatdenseanddecidedlyconceited,gentleman。
ThenextmorningSirGilbertChillingtonatedirt——thereisnootherwayofexpressingit——ingreatquantitiesandwithinfinitehumility。
MyadmirablefriendMissPamelawassevere。Isawhimwalksixyardsbehindherforthelengthoftheterrace:notalooknoraturnofherheadgavehimleavetojoinher。MissListonhadgoneupstairs,andIwatchedthescenefromthewindowofthesmokingroom。Atlast,attheendofthelongwalk,justwherethelaurel—bushesmarkthebeginningoftheshrubberies——onthethresholdofthesceneofhiscrime——Pamelaturnedroundsuddenlyandfacedtherepentantsinner。Themostinterestingthingsinlifearethosewhich,perhapsbytheinevitablenatureofthecase,onedoesnothear;andIdidnothearthescenewhichfollowed。Forawhiletheystoodtalking——rather,hetalkedandshelistened。Thensheturnedagainandwalkedslowlyintotheshrubbery。Chillingtonfollowed。Itwastheendofachapter,andIlaiddownthebook。
HowandfromwhomMissListonheardthenewswhichChillingtonhimselftoldme,withoutaglimmerofshameoratouchofembarrassment,sometwohourslater,Idonotknow;buthearitshedidbeforeluncheon;forshecamedown,readyarmedwiththeneatestlittlespeechesforboththehappylovers。
IdidnotexpectPamelatoshowanouncemorefeelingthanthestrictestcanonsofproprietydemanded,andshefulfilledmyexpectationstotheletter;butIhadhoped,Iconfess,thatChillingtonwouldhavedisplayedsomelittleconsciousness。Hedidnot;anditismybeliefthat,throughouttheeventswhichI
haverecorded,heretained,andthathestillretains,theconvictionthatMissListon’sinterestinhimwaspurelyliteraryandartistic,andthatshedevotedherselftohissocietysimplybecauseheofferedaninterestingproblemandaninspiringtheme。
Aningeniouscharitymayfindinthatattitudeevidenceofmodesty;tomythinking,itarguesamoresubtleandmagnificentconceitthanifhehadfathomedthetruth,asmanyhumblermeninhisplacewouldhavedone。
OnthedayaftertheengagementwasaccomplishedMissListonleftustoreturntoLondon。Shecameoutinherhatandjacketandsatdownbyme;thecarriagewastoberoundintenminutes。
Sheputonherglovesslowlyandbuttonedthemcarefully。Thisdone,shesaid:
\"Bytheway,Mr。Wynne,I’veadoptedyoursuggestion。Themandoesn’tfindout。\"
\"Thenyou’vemadehimafool?\"Iaskedbluntly。
\"No,\"sheanswered。\"I——Ithinkitmighthappenthoughhewasn’tafool。\"
Shesatwithherhandsinherlapforamomentortwo,thenshewenton,inalowervoice:
\"I’mgoingtomakehimfindoutafterward。\"
Ifeltherglanceonme,butIlookedstraightinfrontofme。
\"What,afterhe’smarriedtheshallowgirl?\"
\"Yes,\"saidMissListon。
\"Rathertoolate,isn’tit?Atleast,ifyoumeanthereistobeahappyending。\"
MissListonenlacedherfingers。
\"Ihaven’tdecidedabouttheendingyet,\"saidshe。
\"Ifyou’reintenttobetragical——whichisthefashion——you’lldoasyoustand,\"saidI。
\"Yes,\"sheansweredslowly,\"ifI’mtragical,IshalldoasI
stand。\"
Therewasanotherpause,andratheralongone;thewheelsofthecarriagewereaudibleonthegravelofthefrontdrive。MissListonstoodup。Iroseandheldoutmyhand。
\"Ofcourse,\"saidMissListon,stillintentonhernovel,\"I
could————\"Shestoppedagain,andlookedapprehensivelyatme。
Myface,Ibelieve,expressednothingmorethanpoliteattentionandfriendlyinterest。
\"Ofcourse,\"shebeganagain,\"theshallowgirl——hiswife——
might——mightdie,Mr。Wynne。\"
\"Innovels,\"saidIwithasmile,\"whilethere’sdeath,there’shope。\"
\"Yes,innovels,\"sheanswered,givingmeherhand。
Thepoorlittlewomanwasveryunhappy。Unwisely,Idaresay,I
pressedherhand。Itwasenough,thetearsleapedtohereyes;shegavemygreatfistahurriedsqueeze——Ihaveseldombeenmoretouchedbyanythanks,howeverwarmoreloquent——andhurriedaway。
V。
’TWIXTWILLANDWILLNOT。
Imustconfessatoncethatatfirst,atleast,Iverymuchadmiredthecurate。Iamnotreferringtomyadmirationofhisfinefigure——sixfeethighandstraightasanarrow——norofhishandsome,open,ingenuouscountenance,orhiscandidblueeye,orhisthickcurlyhair。No;whatwonmyheartfromanearlyperiodofmyvisittomycousins,thePoltons,ofPoltonsPark,wasthefervent,undisguised,unashamed,confident,andaltogethermatter—of—coursemannerinwhichhemadelovetoMissBeatriceQueenborough,onlydaughterandheiressofthewealthyshipowner,SirWagstaffQueenborough,Bart。,andEleanor,hiswife。Itwaspurelythemannerofthecurate’sadvancesthattookmyfancy;inthemerefactofthemtherewasnothingremarkable。Forallthemeninthehouse(andagoodmanyoutside)madecovert,stealthy,andindirectstepsinthesamedirection;forTrix(asherfriendscalledher)was,ifnotwise,atleastprettyandwitty,displayingtothematerialeyeacharmingfigure,andtothementaladelicateheartlessness——bothattributeswhichchallengeaself—respectingman’sbestefforts。
Butthencamethefatalobstacle。Fromheiressesinreasonagentlemanneedneithershrinknorlethimselfbedriven;butwhenitcomestosomethingliketwentythousandayear——thereportedamountofTrix’sdot——hedistrustshisownmotivesalmostasmuchasthelady’srelativesdistrustthemforhim。Weallfeltthis——Stanton,Rippleby,andI;and,althoughIwillnotswearthatwespokenotenderwordsandgavenomeaningglances,yetwereducedsuchconcessionstonaturalweaknesstoaminimum,notonlywhenLadyQueenboroughwasby,butatalltimes。Tosaytruth,wehadnodesiretoseeourscalpsaffixedtoMissTrix’sprettybelt,nortohaveourheartsbroken(likethatoftheyoungmaninthepoem)beforeshewenttoHomburgintheautumn。
Withthecurateitwasotherwise。He——JackIves,bytheway,washisname——appearedtorush,notonlyuponhisfate,butinthefaceofallpossibilityandofLadyQueenborough。Mycousinandhostess,DoraPolton,wasverymuchdistressedabouthim。Shesaidthathewassuchaniceyoungfellow,andthatitwasagreatpitytoseehimpreparingsuchunhappinessforhimself。
Nay,IhappentoknowthatshespokeveryseriouslytoTrix,pointingoutthewickednessoftriflingwithhim;whereuponTrix,whomaintainedabowingacquaintancewithherconscience,avoidedhimforawholeafternoonandendangeredallAlgyStanton’sprudentresolutionsbytakinghimoutintheCanadiancanoe。
Thisdemonstrationinnowayperturbedthecurate。Heobservedthat,astherewasnothingbettertodo,wemightaswellplaybilliards,andproceededtodefeatmeinthreegamesofahundredup(no,itisquiteimmaterialwhetherweplayedforanythingornot),afterwhichhetoldDorathatthevicarwastakingtheeveningservice——ithappenedtobethedaywhentherewasoneattheparishchurch——apieceofinformationonlyrelevantinsofarasitsuggestedthatMr。Ivescouldacceptaninvitationtodinnerifonewereprofferedhim。Dora,veryweakly,rosetothebait。JackIves,airilyremarkingthattherewasnouseinceremonyamongfriends,seizedtheplacenexttoTrixatdinner(hermotherwasjustopposite)andwalkedontheterraceafterdinnerwithherinthemoonlight。Whentheladiesretiredhecameintothesmokingroom,drankawhiskyandsoda,saidthatMissQueenboroughwasreallyaverycharmingcompanion,andapologizedforleavingusearly,onthegroundthathissermonwasstillunwritten。Mygoodcousin,thesquire,suggestedrathergrimlythatadiscourseonthevanityofhumanwishesmightbeappropriate。
\"Ishallpreach,\"saidMr。Ivesthoughtfully,\"ontheopportunitiesofwealth。\"
Thisresolutionhecarriedoutonthenextdaybutone,thatbeingaSunday。IhadthepleasureofsittingnexttoMissTrix,andIwatchedherwithsomeinterestasMr。Ivesdevelopedhistheme。Iwillnottrytoreproducethesermon,whichwouldhaveseemedbynomeansabadonehadanyofourpartybeenabletoignorethepersonalapplicationwhichwereadintoit;foritsmainburdenwasnootherthanthis——thatwealthshouldbeusedbythosewhowerefortunateenoughtopossessit(hereTrixlookeddownandfidgetedwithherPrayer—book)asameansofpromotinggreaterunionbetweenthemselvesandthelessrichlyendowed,andnot——as,alas!hadtoooftenbeenthecase——asthoughitwereanewbarriersetupbetweenthemandtheirfellow—creatures(hereMissTrixblushedslightly,andhadrecoursetohersmelling—bottle)。\"You,\"saidthecurate,waxingrhetoricalasheaddressedanimaginary,butbloated,capitalist,\"havenomorerighttoyourmoneythanIhave。Itisintrustedtoyoutobesharedwithme。\"AtthispointIheardLadyQueenboroughsniffandAlgyStantonsnigger。IstoleaglanceatTrixanddetectedaslightwaverintheadmirablelinesofhermouth。
\"Averygoodsermon,didn’tyouthink?\"Isaidtoher,aswewalkedhome。
\"Oh,very!\"shereplieddemurely。
\"Ah,ifwefollowedallweheardinchurch!\"Isighed。
MissTrixwalkedinsilenceforafewyards。Bydintofneverbecominganythingelse,wehadbecomeverygoodfriends;andpresentlysheremarked,quiteconfidentially:
\"He’sverysilly,isn’the?\"
\"Thenyououghttosnubhim,\"Isaidseverely。
\"SoIdo——sometimes。He’sratheramusing,though。\"
\"Ofcourse,ifyou’repreparedtomakethesacrificeinvolved————\"
\"Oh,whatnonsense!\"
\"Thenyou’venobusinesstoamuseyourselfwithhim。\"
\"Dear,dear!howmoralyouare!\"saidTrix。
Thenextdevelopmentinthesituationwasthis:MycousinDorareceivedaletterfromtheMarquisofNewhaven,withwhomshewasacquainted,prayinghertoallowhimtorundowntoPoltonsforafewdays;heremindedherthatshehadoncegivenhimageneralinvitation;ifitwouldnotbeinconvenient——andsoforth。Themeaningofthiscommunicationdidnot,ofcourse,escapemycousin,whohadwitnessedthewriter’sattentionstoTrixintheprecedingseason,nordiditescapetherestofus(whohadtalkedoverthesaidattentionsattheclub)whenshetoldusaboutit,andannouncedthatLordNewhavenwouldarriveinthemiddleofthenextday。Trixaffecteddenseunconsciousness;hermotherallowedherselfamysterioussmile——which,however,speedilyvanishedwhenthecurate(hewastakinglunchwithus)
observedinacheerfultone:
\"Newhaven!Oh,IrememberthechapattheHouse——plowedtwiceinSmalls——stumpyfellow,isn’the?Notabadchap,though,youknow,barringhislooks。I’mgladhe’scoming。\"
\"Youwon’tbesoon,youngman,\"LadyQueenborough’sangryeyeseemedtosay。
\"Irememberhim,\"pursuedJack;\"awfullysmittenwithatobacconist’sdaughterintheCorn——oh,it’sallRIGHT,LadyQueenborough——shewouldn’tlookathim。\"
ThisquasiapologywascalledforthbythefactofLadyQueenboroughpushingbackherchairandmakingforthedoor。Itdidnotatallappeasehertohearofthescornofthetobacconist’sdaughter。SheglancedsternlyatJackanddisappeared。HeturnedtoTrixandremindedher——withoutdiffidenceandcorampopulo,ashishabitwas——thatshehadpromisedhimastrollinthewestwood。
WhathappenedonthatstrollIdonotknow;butmeetingMissTrixonthestairslaterintheafternoon,Iventuredtoremark:
\"Ihopeyoubrokeittohimgently,MissQueenborough?\"
\"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,\"repliedTrixhaughtily。
\"Youwereoutnearlytwohours,\"saidI。
\"Werewe?\"askedTrix,withastart。\"Goodgracious!Wherewasmamma,Mr。Wynne?\"
\"Onthelawn——watchinhand。\"
MissTrixwentslowlyupstairs,andthereisnottheleastdoubtthatsomethingseriouspassedbetweenherandhermother,forbothofthemwereinthemostatrociousofhumorsthatevening。
Fortunately,thecuratewasnotthere;hehadaBibleclass。
ThenextdayLordNewhavenarrived。IfoundhimonthelawnwhenIstrolledup,afteraspellofletter—writing,aboutfouro’clock。Lawntenniswastheorderoftheday,andwewereallinflannels。
\"Oh,here’sMark!\"criedDora,seeingme。\"Now,Mark,youandMr。IveshadbetterplayagainstTrixandLordNewhaven。That’llmakeaverygoodset。\"
\"No,no,Mrs。Polton,\"saidJackIves。\"Theywouldn’thaveachance。Lookhere,I’llplaywithMissQueenboroughagainstLordNewhavenandWynne。\"
Newhaven——whoseappearance,bytheway,thoughhardlydistinguished,wasnotquitesounornamentalasthecuratehadledustoexpect——lookedslightlydispleased,butJackgavehimnotimeforremonstrance。HewhiskedTrixoffandbegantoserveallinamoment。IhadavisionofLadyQueenboroughapproachingfromthehousewithfaceaghast。Thesetwenton;and,owingentirelytoNewhaven’sabsurdchivalryinsendingalltheballstoJackIvesinsteadoffollowingthewell—knownmaximto\"poundawayatthelady,\"theybeatus。Jackwipedhisbrow,strolleduptotheteatablewithTrix,andremarkedinexultanttones:
\"Wemakeaperfectcouple,MissQueenborough;weoughtnevertobeseparated。\"
Doradidnotaskthecuratetodinnerthatnight,buthedroppedinaboutnineo’clocktoaskheropinionastothehymnsonSunday;andfindingMissTrixandNewhaveninthesmalldrawingroom,hesatdownandtalkedtothem。ThiswastoomuchforTrix;shehadtreatedhimverykindlyandhadallowedhimtoamuseher;butitwasimpossibletoputupwithpresumptionofthatkind。DifficultasitwastodiscourageMr。Ives,shedidit,andhewentawaywithadisconsolate,puzzledexpression。Atthelastmoment,however,Trixsofarrelentedastoexpressahopethathewascomingtotennisto—morrow,atwhichhebrightenedupalittle。Idonotwishtobeuncharitable——leastofalltoacharmingyounglady———butmyopinionisthatMissTrixdidnotwishtosetthecuratealtogetheradrift。I
think,however,thatLadyQueenboroughmusthavespokenagain,forwhenJackdidcometotennis,Trixtreatedhimwithmostfreezingcivilityandahardlydisguiseddisdain,anddevotedherselftoLordNewhavenwithasmuchassiduityashermothercouldwish。Wemen,overourpipes,expressedtheopinionthatJackIves’littlehourofsunshinewaspast,andthatnothingwaslefttousbuttolookonattheprosperous,uneventfulcourseofLordNewhaven’swooing。Trixhadhadherfun(soAlgyStantonbluntlyphrasedit)andwouldnowsettledowntobusiness。
\"Ibelieve,though,\"headded,\"thatshelikesthecurateabit,youknow。\"
Duringthewholeofthenextday——Wednesday——JackIveskeptaway;
hehad,apparently,acceptedtheinevitable,andwashealinghiswoundedheartbyastrictattentiontohisparochialduties。
Newhavenremarkedonhisabsencewithanairofrelief,andMissTrixtreateditasamatterofnoimportance;LadyQueenboroughwasallsmiles;andDoraPoltonrestrictedherselftoexclaiming,asIsatbyherattea,inalowtoneandaproposofnothinginparticular,\"Oh,well——poorMr。Ives!\"
ButonThursdaythereoccurredanevent,thesignificanceofwhichpassedatthemomentunperceived,butwhichhad,infact,mostimportantresults。ThiswasnootherthanthearrivaloflittleMrs。Wentworth,anintimatefriendofDora’s。Mrs。
Wentworthhadbeenleftawidowearlyinlife;shepossessedacomfortablecompetence;shewasnothandsome,butshewasvivacious,amusing,and,aboveall,sympathetic。ShesympathizedatoncewithLadyQueenboroughinhermaternalanxieties,withTrixonhercharmingromance,withNewhavenonhissweetdevotedness,withtherestofusinourobviousdesolation——and,afteraconfidentialchatwithDora,shesympathizedmoststronglywithpoorMr。Ivesonhisunfortunateattachment。
Nothingwouldsatisfyher,soDoratoldme,excepttheopportunityofplyingMr。Iveswithhersoothingbalm;andDorawasabouttositdownandwritehimanote,whenhestrolledinthroughthedrawingroomwindow,andannouncedthathiscook’smotherwasill,andthatheshouldbeverymuchobligedifMrs。
Poltonwouldgivehimsomedinnerthatevening。TrixandNewhavenhappenedtoenterbythedooratthesamemoment,andJackdarteduptothem,andshookhandswiththegreatesteffusion。Hehadevidentlyburiedallunkindness——andwithit,wehoped,hismistakenfolly。Howeverthatmightbe,hemadenoefforttoengrossTrix,buttookhisseatmostdocilelybyhishostess——andshe,ofcourse,introducedhimtoMrs。Wentworth。
Hisbehaviorwas,infact,soexemplarythatevenLadyQueenboroughrelaxedherseverity,andcondescendedtocross—
examinehimonthemoralsandmannersoftheoldwomenoftheparish。\"Oh,thevicarlooksafterthem,\"saidJack;andheturnedtoMrs。Wentworthagain。
TherecanbenodoubtthatMrs。Wentworthhadaremarkablepowerofsympathy。Itookherintodinner,andshewasdeepinthesubjectofmy\"nobleandinspiringart\"beforethesoupwasoffthetable。Indeed,I’msurethatmylife’sambitionswouldhavebeenanopenbooktoherbythetimethatthejointarrived,hadnotJackIves,whowassittingonthelady’sotherside,cutintotheconversationjustasMrs。WentworthwascomparingmyearlystruggleswiththoseofMr。Carlyle。AfterthisinterventionofJack’sIhadnotachance。Iatemydinnerwithoutthesauceofsympathy,substitutingforitacertainamusementwhichI
derivedfromstudyingthefaceofMissTrixQueenborough,whowasplacedontheoppositesideofthetable。AndifTrixdidlooknowandagainatMrs。WentworthandJackIves,Icannotsaythatherconductwasunnatural。Totellthetruth,Jackwassoobviouslydelightedwithhisnewfriendthatitwasquitepleasant——and,asIsay,underthecircumstances,ratheramusing——towatchthem。WefeltthatthesquirewasjustifiedinhavingahitatJackwhenJacksaid,inthesmokingroom,thathefoundhimselfratheratalossforasubjectforhisnextsermon。
\"Whatdoyousay,\"suggestedmycousin,puffingathispipe,\"totakingconstancyasyourtext?\"
Jackconsideredtheideaforamoment,butthenheshookhishead。
\"No。Ithink,\"hesaidreflectively,\"thatIshallpreachonthepowerofsympathy。\"
Thatsermonaffordedme——Imustconfessit,attheriskofseemingfrivolous——verygreatentertainment。AgainIsecuredaplacebyMissTrix——onherleft,Newhavenbeingonherright,andherfacewasworthstudywhenJackIvesgaveusamosteloquentdescriptionofthewonderfulgiftinquestion。Itwas,hesaid,theessenceandthecrownoftruewomanliness,anditshoweditself——well,toputitquiteplainly,itshoweditself,accordingtoJackIves,inexactlythatsortofmannerandbearingwhichsohonorablyandgracefullydistinguishedMrs。
Wentworth。Theladywasnot,ofcourse,named,butshewasclearlyindicated。\"Yourgift,yourpreciousgift,\"criedthecurate,apostrophizingtheimpersonationofsympathy,\"isgiventoyou,notforyourprofit,butformine。Itisyours,butitisatrusttobeusedforme。Itisyours,infact,tosharewithme。\"Atthisclimax,whichmusthavestruckuponherearwithacertainfamiliarity,MissTrixQueenborough,notwithstandingtheplaceandoccasion,tossedherprettyheadandwhisperedtome,\"Whathorridstuff!\"
IntheensuingweekJackIveswasourconstantcompanion;thecontinuedillnessofhisservant’smotherlefthimstranded,andDora’skindheartatonceofferedhimthehospitalityofherroof。FormypartIwasglad,forthelittledramawhichnowbeganwasnotwithoutitsinterest。ItwasapleasantchangetoseeJackgeniallypolitetoTrixQueenborough,butquiteindifferenttoherpresenceorabsence,andcontenttoallowhertotakeNewhavenforherpartnerattennisasoftenasshepleased。Hehimselfwasoftenanabsenteefromourgames。Mrs。
Wentworthdidnotplay,andJackwouldsitunderthetreeswithher,ortakeheroutinthecanoe。WhatTrixthoughtIdidnotknow,butitisafactthatshetreatedpoorNewhavenlikedirtbeneathherfeet,andthatLadyQueenborough’sfacebegantoloseitstransientlypleasantexpression。Ihadavagueideathataretributionwasworkingitselfout,anddisposedmyselftoseetheprocesswithallthecomplacencyinducedbythespectacleofothersreceivingpunishmentfortheirsins。
Alittlescenewhichoccurredafterlunchonedaywassignificant。Iwassittingontheterrace,readybootedandbreeched,waitingformyhorsetobebroughtround。Trixcameoutandsatdownbyme。
\"Where’sNewhaven?\"Iasked。
\"Oh,Idon’talwayswantLordNewhaven!\"sheexclaimedpetulantly。\"Isenthimoffforawalk——I’mgoingoutintheCanadiancanoewithMr。Ives。\"
\"Oh,youare,areyou?\"saidI,smiling。AsIspoke,JackIvesranuptous。
\"Isay,MissQueenborough,\"hecried,\"I’vejustgotyourmessagesayingyou’dletmetakeyouonthelake。\"
\"Isitagreatbore?\"askedTrix,withaglance——aglancethatmeantmischief。
\"Ishouldlikeitawfully,ofcourse,\"saidJack;\"butthefactisI’vepromisedtotakeMrs。Wentworth——beforeIgotyourmessage,youknow。\"
Trixdrewherselfup。
\"Ofcourse,ifMrs。Wentworth————\"shebegan。
\"I’mverysorry,\"saidJack。
ThenMissQueenborough,forgetting——asIhope——orchoosingtodisregardmypresence,leanedforwardandasked,inhermostcoaxingtones:
\"Don’tyoueverforgetapromise,Mr。Ives?\"
Jacklookedather。Isupposeherdaintyprettinessstruckhimafresh,forhewaveredandhesitated。
\"She’sgoneupstairs,\"pursuedthetempter,\"andweshallbesafeawaybeforeshecomesdownagain。\"
Jackshuffledwithonefootonthegravel。
\"Itellyouwhat,\"hesaid;\"I’llaskherifshemindsmetakingyouforalittlewhilebeforeI————\"
Ibelievehereallythoughtthathehadhituponacompromisesatisfactorytoallparties。Ifso,hewasspeedilyundeceived。
Trixflushedredandansweredangrily:
\"Praydon’ttrouble。Idon’twanttogo。\"
\"Perhapsafterwardyoumight,\"suggestedthecurate,butnowrathertimidly。
\"I’mgoingoutwithLordNewhaven,\"saidshe。Andsheadded,inanaccessofuncontrollableannoyance。\"Go,pleasego。I——I
don’twantyou。\"
Jacksheeredoff,withalookofpuzzledshamefacedness。Hedisappearedintothehouse。NothingpassedbetweenMissTrixandmyself。AmomentlaterNewhavencameout。
\"Why,MissQueenborough,\"saidhe,inapparentsurprise,\"IvesisgoingwithMrs。Wentworthinthecanoe!\"
InaninstantIsawwhatshehaddone。InrashpresumptionshehadtoldNewhaventhatshewasgoingwiththecurate——andnowthecuratehadrefusedtotakeher——andIveshadmethiminsearchofMrs。Wentworth。Whatcouldshedo?Well,sherose——orfell——totheoccasion。Inthecoldestofvoicesshesaid;
\"Ithoughtyou’dgoneforyourwalk。\"
\"Iwasjuststarting,\"heansweredapologetically,\"whenImetIves。But,asyouweren’tgoingwithhim————\"Hepaused,aninquiringlookinhiseyes。Hewasevidentlyaskinghimselfwhyshehadnotgonewiththecurate。
\"I’dratherbeleftalone,ifyoudon’tmind,\"saidshe。Andthen,flushingredagain,sheadded。\"IchangedmymindandrefusedtogowithMr。Ives。SohewentofftogetMrs。
Wentworthinstead。\"
Istarted。Newhavenlookedatherforaninstant,andthenturnedonhisheel。Sheturnedtome,quickaslightning,andwithherfaceallaflame。
\"Ifyoutell,I’llneverspeaktoyouagain,\"shewhispered。
Afterthistherewassilenceforsomeminutes。
\"Well?\"shesaid,withoutlookingatme。
\"Ihavenoremarktooffer,MissQueenborough,\"Ireturned。
\"Isupposethatwasalie,wasn’tit?\"sheaskeddefiantly。
\"It’snotmybusinesstosaywhatitwas,\"wasmydiscreetanswer。
\"Iknowwhatyou’rethinking。\"
\"Iwasthinking,\"saidI,\"whichIwouldratherbe——themanyouwillmarry,orthemanyouwouldlike————\"
\"Howdareyou!It’snottrue。OhMr。Wynne,indeedit’snottrue!\"
WhetheritweretrueornotIdidnotknow。Butifithadbeen,MissTrixQueenboroughmighthavebeenexpectedtoactverymuchinthewayinwhichsheproceededtoact:thatistosay,tobeextravagantlyattentivetoLordNewhavenwhenJackIveswaspresent,andmarkedlyneglectfulofhiminthecurate’sabsence。
ItalsofittedinverywellwiththetheorywhichIhadventuredtohintthatherbearingtowardMrs。Wentworthwasdistinguishedbyastatelycivility,andherremarksaboutthatladybyasuperfluityoflaudation;forifthesebenottwodistinguishingmarksofrivalryinthewell—bred,Imustgobacktomyfavoritebooksandlearnfromthem——morefolly。AndifTrix’smannerswereallthattheyshouldbe,praisenolesshighmustbeaccordedtoMrs。Wentworth’s;sheattainedanaltitudeofadmirableunconsciousnessandconductedherflirtation(thepovertyoflanguageforcesmetotheword,butitisover—
flippant)withthecurateinastaid,quasi—maternalway。Shecalledhimadelightfulboy,andsaidthatshewasintenselyinterestedinallhisaimsandhopes。
\"Whatdoesshewant?\"IaskedDoradespairingly。\"Shecan’twanttomarryhim。\"IwasreferringtoTrixQueenborough,nottoMrs。
Wentworth。
\"Goodgracious,no!\"answeredDora,irritably。\"It’ssimplejealousy。Shewon’tletthepoorboyalonetillhe’sinlovewithheragain。It’sahorribleshame!\"
\"Oh,well,hehasgreatrecuperativepower,\"saidI。
\"She’dbetterbecareful,though。It’saverydangerousgame。
HowdoyousupposeLordNewhavenlikesit?\"
AccidentgavemethatverydayahinthowlittleLordNewhavenlikedit,andaglimpseoftheriskMissTrixwasrunning。
Enteringthelibrarysuddenly,IheardNewhaven’svoiceraisedabovehisordinarytones。
\"Iwon’tstandit!\"hewasdeclaring。\"Ineverknowhowshe’lltreatmefromoneminutetothenext。\"
Myentrance,ofcourse,stoppedtheconversationveryabruptly。Newhavenhadcometoastandinthemiddleoftheroom,andLadyQueenboroughsatonthesofa,aformidablefrownonherbrow。Withdrawingmyselfasrapidlyaspossible,IarguedtheprobabilityofaseverelectureforMissTrix,endinginacommandtotryhernoblesuitor’spatiencenolonger。Ihopeallthishappened,forI,notseeingwhyMrs。Wentworthshouldmonopolizethegraceofsympathy,tookthelibertyofextendingminetoNewhaven。HewascertainlyinlovewithTrix,notwithhermoney,andthetreatmentheunderwentmusthavebeenastryingtohisfeelingsasitwasgallingtohispride。
Mysympathywasnotpremature,forMissTrix’sfascinations,whichwereindubitablygreat,begantohavetheireffect。Thesceneaboutthecanoewasre—enacted,butwithadifferentdenouement。Thistimethepromisewasforgotten,andthewidowforsaken。ThenMrs。Wentworthputonherarmor。Wehad,infact,reachedthisveryabsurdsituation,thatthesetwoladieswerecontendingforthefavorsof,orthedominationover,suchanobscure,poverty—stricken,hopelesslyineligiblepersonasthecurateofPoltonsundoubtedlywas。Thepositionseemedtomethen,andstillseems,toindicatesomeremarkablequalitiesinthatyoungman。
AtlastNewhavenmadeamove。Atbreakfast,onWednesdaymorning,heannouncedthat,reluctantasheshouldbetoleavePoltonsPark,hewasdueathisaunt’splace,inKent,onSaturdayevening,andmust,therefore,makehisarrangementstoleavebynoononthatday。Thesignificancewasapparent。Hadhecomedowntobreakfastwith\"NoworNever!\"stampedinfierylettersacrosshisbrow,itwouldhavebeenmoreobtrusive,indeed,butnotawhitplainer。Wealllookeddownatourplates,exceptJackIves。Heflungoneglance(Isawitoutofthecornerofmylefteye)atNewhaven,anotheratTrix;thenheremarkedkindly:
\"Weshallbeuncommonlysorrytoloseyou,Newhaven。\"
Eventsbegantohappennow,andIwilltellthemaswellasIamable,supplementingmyownknowledgebywhatIlearnedafterwardfromDora——shehavinglearneditfromtheactorsinthescene。
InspiteofthesolemnwarningconveyedinNewhaven’sintimation,Trix,greatlydaring,wentoffimmediatelyafterlunchforwhatshedescribedas\"alongramble\"withMr。Ives。Therewas,indeed,theexcuseofanoldwomanattheendoftheramble,andTrixprovidedJackwithasmallbasketofcomfortsfortheusefuloldbody;buttheramblewas,wefelt,thething,andIwasmuchannoyedatnotbeingabletoaccompanythewalkersinthecloakofdarknessorotherinvisiblecontrivance。Therambleconsumedthreehours——fullmeasure。Indeed,itwashalf—pastsixbeforeTrix,alone,walkedupthedrive。Newhaven,asolitaryfigure,pacedupanddowntheterracefrontingthedrive。Trixcameon,herheadthrownbackandasteadysmileonherlips。ShesawNewhaven;hestoodlookingatherforamomentwithwhatsheafterwarddescribedasanindescribablesmileonhisface,butnot,asDoraunderstoodfromher,byanymeansapleasantone。
Yet,ifnotpleasant,thereisnottheleastdoubtintheworldthatitwashighlysignificant,forshecriedoutnervously:
\"Whyareyoulookingatmelikethat?What’sthematter?\"
Newhaven,stillsayingnothing,turnedhisbackonher,andmadeasifhewouldwalkintothehouseandleaveherthere,ignored,discarded,donewith。She,realizingthecrisiswhichhadcome,forgettingeverythingexcepttheimminentdangeroflosinghimonceforall,withouttimeforlongexplanationoranyround—
aboutseductions,ranforward,layingherhandonhisarmandblurtingout:
\"ButI’verefusedhim。\"
IdonotknowwhatNewhaventhinksnow,butIsometimesdoubtwhetherhewouldnothavebeenwisertoshakeoffthedetaininghand,andpursuehislonelyway,firstintothehouse,andultimatelytohisaunt’s。But(tosaynothingofthetwentythousandayear,which,afterall,andbeyouasromanticasyoumaypleasetobe,isnotathingtobesneezedat)Trix’sface,itsmingledeagernessandshame,itsflushedcheeksandshiningeyes,thepiquancyofitsunwontedhumility,overcamehim。Hestoppeddead。
\"I——Iwasobligedtogivehiman——anopportunity,\"saidMissTrix,havingthegracetostumblealittleinherspeech。\"And——
andit’sallyourfault。\"
Thewarwasthus,byhappyaudacity,carriedintoNewhaven’sownquarters。
\"Myfault!\"heexclaimed。\"Myfaultthatyouwalkalldaywiththatcurate!\"
ThenMissTrix——andletnoirrelevantconsiderationsmartheappreciationoffineacting——droppedhereyesandmurmuredsoftly:
\"I——IwassoterriblyafraidofseemingtoexpectYOU。\"
Wherewithshe(andnothe)ranawaylightlyupthestairs,turningjustoneglancedownwardasshereachedthelanding。
Newhavenwaslookingupfrombelowwithan\"enchanted\"smile——thewordisTrix’sown;Ishouldprobablyhaveusedadifferentone。
WasthenthecurateofPoltonsutterlydefeated——broughttohisknees,onlytobespurned?Itseemedso;andhecamedowntodinnerthatnightwithasubduedandmelancholyexpression。
Trix,ontheotherhand,wasbrilliantandtalkativetothelastdegree,andthegayetyspreadfromherallaroundthetable,leavinguntouchedonlytherejectedloverandMrs。Wentworth;forthelastnamedlady,truetoherdistinguishingquality,hadbeguntotalktopoorJackIvesinlow,soothingtones。
AfterdinnerTrixwasnotvisible;butthedoorofthelittleboudoirbeyondstoodhalf—open,andverysoonNewhavenedgedhiswaythrough。AlmostatthesamemomentJackIvesandMrs。
Wentworthpassedoutofthewindowandbegantowalkupanddownthegravel。Nobodybutmyselfappearedtonoticetheseremarkableoccurrences,butIwatchedthemwithkeeninterest。
Halfanhourpassed,andthentheresmoteonmywatchfulearthesoundofalowlaughfromtheboudoir。Itwasfollowedalmostimmediatelybyastrangersoundfromthegravelwalk。Then,allinamoment,twothingshappened。Theboudoirdooropened,andTrix,followedbyNewhaven,camein,smiling;fromthewindowenteredJackIvesandMrs。Wentworth。Myeyeswereonthecurate。Hegaveonesudden,comprehendingglancetowardtheothercouple;thenhetookthewidow’shand,ledheruptoDora,andsaid,inlowyetpenetratingtones。
\"Willyouwishusjoy,Mrs。Polton?\"
Thesquire,Rippleby,andAlgyStantonwereroundtheminaninstant。Ikeptmyplace,watchingnowthefaceofTrixQueenborough。Sheturnedfirstflamingred,thenverypale。I
sawherturntoNewhavenandspeakoneortwourgent,imperativewordstohim。Then,drawingherselfuptoherfullheight,shecrossedtheroomtowherethegroupwasassembledroundMrs。
WentworthandJackIves。
\"What’sthematter?Whatareyousaying?\"sheasked。
Mrs。Wentworth’seyesweremodestlycastdown,butasmileplayedroundhermouth。Noonespokeforamoment。ThenJackIvessaid:
\"Mrs。Wentworthhaspromisedtobemywife,MissQueenborough。\"
Foramoment,hardlyperceptible,Trixhesitated;then,withthemostwinning,touching,sweetestsmileintheworld,shesaid:
\"Soyoutookmyadvice,andourafternoonwalkwasnotwasted,afterall?\"
Mrs。Poltonisnotusedtothesefineflightsofdiplomacy;shehadheardbeforedinnersomethingofwhathadactuallyhappenedintheafternoon;andthesimplewomanpositivelyjumped。JackIvesmetTrix’sscornfuleyesfullandsquare。
\"Notatallwasted,\"saidhe,withasmile。\"Notonlyhasitshownmewheremytruehappinesslies,butithasalsogivenmeajusterideaofthevalueandsincerityofyourregardforme,MissQueenborough。\"
\"Itisasreal,Mr。Ives,asitissincere,\"saidshe。
\"Itislikeyourself,MissQueenborough,\"saidhe,withalittlebow;andheturnedfromherandbegantotalktohisfiancee。
TrixQueenboroughmovedslowlytowardwhereIsat。Newhavenwaswatchingherfromwherehestoodaloneontheothersideoftheroom。
\"Andhaveyounonewsforus?\"Iaskedinlowtones。
\"Thankyou,\"shesaidhaughtily;\"Idon’tcarethatmineshouldbeapendenttothegreattidingsaboutthelittlewidowandcurate。\"
Afteramoment’spauseshewenton:
\"Helostnotime,didhe?Hewaswisetosecureherbeforewhathappenedthisafternooncouldleakout。Nobodycantellhernow。\"
\"Thisafternoon?\"
\"Heaskedmetomarryhimthisafternoon。\"
\"Andyourefused?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Well,hisbehaviorisinoutrageouslybadtaste,but————\"
Shelaidahandonmyarm,andsaidincalm,leveltones。
\"IrefusedhimbecauseIdarednothavehim;butItoldhimI
caredforhim,andhesaidhelovedme。AndIlethimkissme。
Good—night,Mr。Wynne。\"
Isatstillandsilent。Newhavencameacrosstous。Trixputupherhandandcaughthimbythesleeve。
\"Fred,\"shesaid,\"mydear,honestoldFred;youloveme,don’tyou?\"
Newhaven,muchembarrassedandsurprised,lookedatmeinalarm。
Butherhandwasinhisnow,andhereyesimploringhim。
\"IshouldratherthinkIdid,mydear,\"saidhe。
IreallyhopethatLordandLadyNewhavenwillnotbeveryunhappy,whileMrs。Ivesquiteworshipsherhusband,andisconvincedthatsheeclipsedthebrilliantandwealthyMissQueenborough。
Perhapsshedid——perhapsnot。
Thereare,asIhavesaid,greatqualitiesinthecurateofPoltons,butIhavenotquitemadeupmymindpreciselywhattheyare。Iought,however,tosaythatDoratakesamorefavorableviewofhimandalesslenientviewofTrixthanI。
Thatisperhapsnatural。Besides,Doradoesnotknowtheprecisemannerinwhichthecuratewasrefused。Bytheway,hepreachednextSundayonthetext,\"Thechildrenofthisworldarewiserintheirgenerationthanthechildrenoflight。\"
VI。
WHICHSHALLITBE?
Itwasacharminglymildandbalmyday。Thesunshonebeyondtheorchard,andtheshadewascoolinside。Alightbreezestirredtheboughsoftheoldappletreeunderwhichthephilosophersat。
Noneofthesethingsdidthephilosophernotice,unlessitmightbewhenthewindblewabouttheleavesofthelargevolumeonhisknees,andhehadtofindhisplaceagain。Thenhewouldexclaimagainstthewind,shuffletheleavestillhegottherightpage,andsettletohisreading。Thebookwasatreatiseonontology;
itwaswrittenbyanotherphilosopher,afriendofthisphilosopher’s;itbristledwithfallacies,andthisphilosopherwasdiscoveringthemall,andnotingthemontheflyleafattheend。Hewasnotgoingtoreviewthebook(assomemighthavethoughtfromhisbehavior),oreventoansweritinaworkofhisown。Itwasjustthathefoundapleasureinstrippinganypoorfallacynakedandcrucifyingit。
Presentlyagirlinawhitefrockcameintotheorchard。Shepickedupanapple,bitit,andfounditripe。Holdingitinherhandshewalkeduptowherethephilosophersat,andlookedathim。Hedidnotstir。Shetookabiteoutoftheapple,munchedit,andswallowedit。Thephilosophercrucifiedafallacyontheflyleaf。Thegirlflungtheappleaway。
\"Mr。Jerningham,\"saidshe,\"areyouverybusy?\"
Thephilosopher,pencilinhand,lookedup。
\"No,MissMay,\"saidhe,\"notvery。\"
\"BecauseIwantyouropinion。\"
\"Inonemoment,\"saidthephilosopherapologetically。
Heturnedbacktotheflyleafandbegantonailthelastfallacyalittletightertothecross。Thegirlregardedhim,firstwithamusedimpatience,thenwithavexedfrown,finallywithawistfulregret。Hewassoveryoldforhisage,shethought;hecouldnotbemuchbeyondthirty;hishairwasthickandfullofwaves,hiseyesbrightandclear,hiscomplexionnotyetdivestedofallyouth’srelics。
\"Now,MissMay,Iamatyourservice,\"saidthephilosopher,withalingeringlookathisimpaledfallacy。Andheclosedthebook,keepingit,however,onhisknee。
Thegirlsatdownjustoppositetohim。
\"It’saveryimportantthingIwanttoaskyou,\"shebegan,tuggingatatuftofgrass,\"andit’svery——difficult,andyoumustn’ttellanyoneIaskedyou;atleast,I’dratheryoudidn’t。\"
\"Ishallnotspeakofit;indeed,Ishallprobablynotrememberit,\"saidthephilosopher。
\"Andyoumustn’tlookatme,please,whileI’maskingyou。\"
\"Idon’tthinkIwaslookingatyou,butifIwasIbegyourpardon,\"saidthephilosopherapologetically。
Shepulledthetuftofgrassrightoutofthegroundandflungitfromherwithallherforce。
\"Supposeaman————\"shebegan。\"No,that’snotright。\"
\"Youcantakeanyhypothesisyouplease,\"observedthephilosopher,\"butyoumustverifyitafterward,ofcourse。\"
\"Oh,doletmegoon。Supposeagirl,Mr。Jerningham——Iwishyouwouldn’tnod。\"
\"ItwasonlytoshowthatIfollowedyou。\"
\"Oh,ofcourseyou`followme,’asyoucallit。Supposeagirlhadtwolovers——you’renoddingagain——or,Ioughttosay,supposethereweretwomenwhomightbeinlovewithagirl。\"
\"Onlytwo?\"askedthephilosopher。\"Yousee,anynumberofmenMIGHTbeinlovewith————\"
\"Oh,wecanleavetherestout,\"saidMissMay,withasuddendimple;\"theydon’tmatter。\"
\"Verywell,\"saidthephilosopher。\"Iftheyareirrelevant,wewillputthemaside。\"
\"Suppose,then,thatoneofthesemenwas——oh,AWFULLYinlovewiththegirl——and——andproposed,youknow————\"
\"Amoment!\"saidthephilosopher,openinganotebook。\"Letmetakedownhisproposition。Whatwasit?\"
\"Why,proposedtoher——askedhertomarryhim,\"saidthegirl,withastare。
\"Dearme!Howstupidofme!Iforgotthatspecialuseoftheword。Yes?\"
\"Thegirllikeshimprettywell,andherpeopleapproveofhimandallthat,youknow。\"
\"Thatsimplifiestheproblem,\"saidthephilosopher,noddingagain。
\"Butshe’snotin——inlovewithhim,youknow。Shedoesn’tREALLYcareforhim——MUCH。Doyouunderstand?\"
\"Perfectly。Itisamostnaturalstateofmind。\"
\"Well,then,supposethatthere’sanotherman——whatareyouwriting?\"
\"Ionlyputdown(B。)——likethat,\"pleadedthephilosopher,meeklyexhibitinghisnotebook。
Shelookedathiminasortofhelplessexasperation,withjustasmilesomewhereinthebackgroundofit。
\"Oh,youreallyare————\"sheexclaimed。\"Butletmegoon。Theothermanisafriendofthegirl’s;he’sveryclever——oh,fearfullyclever;andhe’sratherhandsome。Youneedn’tputthatdown。\"
\"Itiscertainlynotverymaterial,\"admittedthephilosopher,andhecrossedout\"handsome。\"\"Clever\"heleft。
\"Andthegirlismostawfully——sheadmireshimtremendously;shethinkshimjustthegreatestmanthateverlived,youknow。Andshe——she————\"Thegirlpaused。
\"I’mfollowing,\"saidthephilosopher,withpencilpoised。
\"She’dthinkitbetterthanthewholeworldif——ifshecouldbeanythingtohim,youknow。\"
\"Youmeanbecomehiswife?\"
\"Well,ofcourseIdo——atleastsupposeIdo。\"
\"Youspokerathervaguely,youknow。\"
Thegirlcastoneglanceatthephilosopherasshereplied:
\"Well,yes。Ididmean,becomehiswife。\"
\"Yes。Well?\"
\"But,\"continuedthegirl,startingonanothertuftofgrass,\"hedoesn’tthinkmuchaboutthosethings。Helikesher。Ithinkhelikesher————\"
\"Well,doesn’tdislikeher?\"suggestedthephilosopher。\"Shallwecallhimindifferent?\"
\"Idon’tknow。Yes,ratherindifferent。Idon’tthinkhethinksaboutit,youknow。Butshe——she’spretty。Youneedn’tputthatdown。\"
\"Iwasnotabouttodoso,\"observedthephilosopher。
\"Shethinkslifewithhimwouldbejustheaven;and——andshethinksshewouldmakehimawfullyhappy。Shewould——wouldbesoproudofhim,yousee。\"
\"Isee。Yes!\"
\"And——Idon’tknowhowtoputit,quite——shethinksthat,ifheeverthoughtaboutitall,hemightcareforher;becausehedoesn’tcareforanybodyelse;andshe’spretty————\"
\"Yousaidthatbefore。\"
\"Oh,dear!IdaresayIdid。Andmostmencareforsomebody,don’tthey?Somegirl,Imean。\"
\"Mostmen,nodoubt,\"concededthephilosopher。
\"Well,then,whatoughtshetodo?It’snotarealthing,youknow,Mr。Jerningham。It’sin——inanovelIwasreading。\"Shesaidthishastily,andblushedasshespoke。
\"Dearme!Andit’squiteaninterestingcase!Yes,Isee。Thequestionis,Willsheactmostwiselyinacceptingtheofferofthemanwholovesherexceedingly,butforwhomsheentertainsonlyamoderateaffection————\"
\"Yes。Justaliking。He’sjustafriend。\"