第4章

\"Thesechildrenwillbethedeathofmeatlast!\"saidMrs。

Tetterby,afterbanishingtheculprit。\"Andthesoonerthebetter,Ithink。\"

\"Poorpeople,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"oughtnottohavechildrenatall。TheygiveUSnopleasure。\"

HewasatthatmomenttakingupthecupwhichMrs。Tetterbyhadrudelypushedtowardshim,andMrs。Tetterbywasliftingherowncuptoherlips,whentheybothstopped,asiftheyweretransfixed。

\"Here!Mother!Father!\"criedJohnny,runningintotheroom。

\"Here’sMrs。Williamcomingdownthestreet!\"

Andifever,sincetheworldbegan,ayoungboytookababyfromacradlewiththecareofanoldnurse,andhushedandsoothedittenderly,andtotteredawaywithitcheerfully,Johnnywasthatboy,andMolochwasthatbaby,astheywentouttogether!

Mr。Tetterbyputdownhiscup;Mrs。Tetterbyputdownhercup。Mr。

Tetterbyrubbedhisforehead;Mrs。Tetterbyrubbedhers。Mr。

Tetterby’sfacebegantosmoothandbrighten;Mrs。Tetterby’sbegantosmoothandbrighten。

\"Why,Lordforgiveme,\"saidMr。Tetterbytohimself,\"whateviltempershaveIbeengivingwayto?Whathasbeenthematterhere!\"

\"HowcouldIevertreathimillagain,afterallIsaidandfeltlastnight!\"sobbedMrs。Tetterby,withheraprontohereyes。

\"AmIabrute,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"oristhereanygoodinmeatall?Sophia!Mylittlewoman!\"

\"’Dolphusdear,\"returnedhiswife。

\"I—I’vebeeninastateofmind,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"thatI

can’tabeartothinkof,Sophy。\"

\"Oh!It’snothingtowhatI’vebeenin,Dolf,\"criedhiswifeinagreatburstofgrief。

\"MySophia,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"don’ttakeon。Inevershallforgivemyself。Imusthavenearlybrokeyourheart,Iknow。\"

\"No,Dolf,no。Itwasme!Me!\"criedMrs。Tetterby。

\"Mylittlewoman,\"saidherhusband,\"don’t。Youmakemereproachmyselfdreadful,whenyoushowsuchanoblespirit。Sophia,mydear,youdon’tknowwhatIthought。Ishoweditbadenough,nodoubt;butwhatIthought,mylittlewoman!—\"

\"Oh,dearDolf,don’t!Don’t!\"criedhiswife。

\"Sophia,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"Imustrevealit。Icouldn’trestinmyconscienceunlessImentionedit。Mylittlewoman—\"

\"Mrs。William’sverynearlyhere!\"screamedJohnnyatthedoor。

\"Mylittlewoman,Iwonderedhow,\"gaspedMr。Tetterby,supportinghimselfbyhischair,\"IwonderedhowIhadeveradmiredyou—I

forgotthepreciouschildrenyouhavebroughtaboutme,andthoughtyoudidn’tlookasslimasIcouldwish。I—Inevergavearecollection,\"saidMr。Tetterby,withsevereself—accusation,\"tothecaresyou’vehadasmywife,andalongofmeandmine,whenyoumighthavehadhardlyanywithanotherman,whogotonbetterandwasluckierthanme(anybodymighthavefoundsuchamaneasilyI

amsure);andIquarrelledwithyouforhavingagedalittleintheroughyearsyouhavelightenedforme。Canyoubelieveit,mylittlewoman?Ihardlycanmyself。\"

Mrs。Tetterby,inawhirlwindoflaughingandcrying,caughthisfacewithinherhands,andhelditthere。

\"Oh,Dolf!\"shecried。\"Iamsohappythatyouthoughtso;Iamsogratefulthatyouthoughtso!ForIthoughtthatyouwerecommon—

looking,Dolf;andsoyouare,mydear,andmayyoubethecommonestofallsightsinmyeyes,tillyouclosethemwithyourowngoodhands。Ithoughtthatyouweresmall;andsoyouare,andI’llmakemuchofyoubecauseyouare,andmoreofyoubecauseI

lovemyhusband。Ithoughtthatyoubegantostoop;andsoyoudo,andyoushallleanonme,andI’lldoallIcantokeepyouup。I

thoughttherewasnoairaboutyou;butthereis,andit’stheairofhome,andthat’sthepurestandthebestthereis,andGodblesshomeoncemore,andallbelongingtoit,Dolf!\"

\"Hurrah!Here’sMrs。William!\"criedJohnny。

Soshewas,andallthechildrenwithher;andsoshecamein,theykissedher,andkissedoneanother,andkissedthebaby,andkissedtheirfatherandmother,andthenranbackandflockedanddancedabouther,troopingonwithherintriumph。

Mr。andMrs。Tetterbywerenotabitbehind—handinthewarmthoftheirreception。Theywereasmuchattractedtoherasthechildrenwere;theyrantowardsher,kissedherhands,pressedroundher,couldnotreceiveherardentlyorenthusiasticallyenough。Shecameamongthemlikethespiritofallgoodness,affection,gentleconsideration,love,anddomesticity。

\"What!areYOUallsogladtoseeme,too,thisbrightChristmasmorning?\"saidMilly,clappingherhandsinapleasantwonder。\"Ohdear,howdelightfulthisis!\"

Moreshoutingfromthechildren,morekissing,moretroopingroundher,morehappiness,morelove,morejoy,morehonour,onallsides,thanshecouldbear。

\"Ohdear!\"saidMilly,\"whatdelicioustearsyoumakemeshed。HowcanIeverhavedeservedthis!WhathaveIdonetobesoloved?\"

\"Whocanhelpit!\"criedMr。Tetterby。

\"Whocanhelpit!\"criedMrs。Tetterby。

\"Whocanhelpit!\"echoedthechildren,inajoyfulchorus。Andtheydancedandtroopedaboutheragain,andclungtoher,andlaidtheirrosyfacesagainstherdress,andkissedandfondledit,andcouldnotfondleit,orher,enough。

\"Ineverwassomoved,\"saidMilly,dryinghereyes,\"asIhavebeenthismorning。Imusttellyou,assoonasIcanspeak。—Mr。

Redlawcametomeatsunrise,andwithatendernessinhismanner,moreasifIhadbeenhisdarlingdaughterthanmyself,imploredmetogowithhimtowhereWilliam’sbrotherGeorgeislyingill。Wewenttogether,andallthewayalonghewassokind,andsosubdued,andseemedtoputsuchtrustandhopeinme,thatIcouldnothelptryingwithpleasure。Whenwegottothehouse,wemetawomanatthedoor(somebodyhadbruisedandhurther,Iamafraid),whocaughtmebythehand,andblessedmeasIpassed。\"

\"Shewasright!\"saidMr。Tetterby。Mrs。Tetterbysaidshewasright。Allthechildrencriedoutthatshewasright。

\"Ah,butthere’smorethanthat,\"saidMilly。\"Whenwegotupstairs,intotheroom,thesickmanwhohadlainforhoursinastatefromwhichnoeffortcouldrousehim,roseupinhisbed,and,burstingintotears,stretchedouthisarmstome,andsaidthathehadledamis—spentlife,butthathewastrulyrepentantnow,inhissorrowforthepast,whichwasallasplaintohimasagreatprospect,fromwhichadenseblackcloudhadclearedaway,andthatheentreatedmetoaskhispooroldfatherforhispardonandhisblessing,andtosayaprayerbesidehisbed。AndwhenI

didso,Mr。Redlawjoinedinitsofervently,andthensothankedandthankedme,andthankedHeaven,thatmyheartquiteoverflowed,andIcouldhavedonenothingbutsobandcry,ifthesickmanhadnotbeggedmetositdownbyhim,—whichmademequietofcourse。

AsIsatthere,heheldmyhandinhisuntilhesankinadoze;andeventhen,whenIwithdrewmyhandtoleavehimtocomehere(whichMr。Redlawwasveryearnestindeedinwishingmetodo),hishandfeltformine,sothatsomeoneelsewasobligedtotakemyplaceandmakebelievetogivehimmyhandback。Ohdear,ohdear,\"saidMilly,sobbing。\"HowthankfulandhowhappyIshouldfeel,anddofeel,forallthis!\"

Whileshewasspeaking,Redlawhadcomein,and,afterpausingforamomenttoobservethegroupofwhichshewasthecentre,hadsilentlyascendedthestairs。Uponthosestairshenowappearedagain;remainingthere,whiletheyoungstudentpassedhim,andcamerunningdown。

\"Kindnurse,gentlest,bestofcreatures,\"hesaid,fallingonhiskneetoher,andcatchingatherhand,\"forgivemycruelingratitude!\"

\"Ohdear,ohdear!\"criedMillyinnocently,\"here’sanotherofthem!Ohdear,here’ssomebodyelsewholikesme。WhatshallI

everdo!\"

Theguileless,simplewayinwhichshesaidit,andinwhichsheputherhandsbeforehereyesandweptforveryhappiness,wasastouchingasitwasdelightful。

\"Iwasnotmyself,\"hesaid。\"Idon’tknowwhatitwas—itwassomeconsequenceofmydisorderperhaps—Iwasmad。ButIamsonolonger。AlmostasIspeak,Iamrestored。Iheardthechildrencryingoutyourname,andtheshadepassedfrommeattheverysoundofit。Oh,don’tweep!DearMilly,ifyoucouldreadmyheart,andonlyknewwithwhataffectionandwhatgratefulhomageitisglowing,youwouldnotletmeseeyouweep。Itissuchdeepreproach。\"

\"No,no,\"saidMilly,\"it’snotthat。It’snotindeed。It’sjoy。

It’swonderthatyoushouldthinkitnecessarytoaskmetoforgivesolittle,andyetit’spleasurethatyoudo。\"

\"Andwillyoucomeagain?andwillyoufinishthelittlecurtain?\"

\"No,\"saidMilly,dryinghereyes,andshakingherhead。\"Youwon’tcareformyneedleworknow。\"

\"Isitforgivingme,tosaythat?\"

Shebeckonedhimaside,andwhisperedinhisear。

\"Thereisnewsfromyourhome,Mr。Edmund。\"

\"News?How?\"

\"Eitheryournotwritingwhenyouwereveryill,orthechangeinyourhandwritingwhenyoubegantobebetter,createdsomesuspicionofthetruth;howeverthatis—butyou’resureyou’llnotbetheworseforanynews,ifit’snotbadnews?\"

\"Sure。\"

\"Thenthere’ssomeonecome!\"saidMilly。

\"Mymother?\"askedthestudent,glancingroundinvoluntarilytowardsRedlaw,whohadcomedownfromthestairs。

\"Hush!No,\"saidMilly。

\"Itcanbenooneelse。\"

\"Indeed?\"saidMilly,\"areyousure?\"

\"Itisnot—\"Beforehecouldsaymore,sheputherhanduponhismouth。

\"Yesitis!\"saidMilly。\"Theyounglady(sheisveryliketheminiature,Mr。Edmund,butsheisprettier)wastoounhappytorestwithoutsatisfyingherdoubts,andcameup,lastnight,withalittleservant—maid。Asyoualwaysdatedyourlettersfromthecollege,shecamethere;andbeforeIsawMr。Redlawthismorning,Isawher。SHElikesmetoo!\"saidMilly。\"Ohdear,that’sanother!\"

\"Thismorning!Whereisshenow?\"

\"Why,sheisnow,\"saidMilly,advancingherlipstohisear,\"inmylittleparlourintheLodge,andwaitingtoseeyou。\"

Hepressedherhand,andwasdartingoff,butshedetainedhim。

\"Mr。Redlawismuchaltered,andhastoldmethismorningthathismemoryisimpaired。Beveryconsideratetohim,Mr。Edmund;heneedsthatfromusall。\"

Theyoungmanassuredher,byalook,thathercautionwasnotill—

bestowed;andashepassedtheChemistonhiswayout,bentrespectfullyandwithanobviousinterestbeforehim。

Redlawreturnedthesalutationcourteouslyandevenhumbly,andlookedafterhimashepassedon。Hedroppedhisheaduponhishandtoo,astryingtoreawakensomethinghehadlost。Butitwasgone。

Theabidingchangethathadcomeuponhimsincetheinfluenceofthemusic,andthePhantom’sreappearance,was,thatnowhetrulyfelthowmuchhehadlost,andcouldcompassionatehisowncondition,andcontrastit,clearly,withthenaturalstateofthosewhowerearoundhim。Inthis,aninterestinthosewhowerearoundhimwasrevived,andameek,submissivesenseofhiscalamitywasbred,resemblingthatwhichsometimesobtainsinage,whenitsmentalpowersareweakened,withoutinsensibilityorsullennessbeingaddedtothelistofitsinfirmities。

Hewasconsciousthat,asheredeemed,throughMilly,moreandmoreoftheevilhehaddone,andashewasmoreandmorewithher,thischangeripeneditselfwithinhim。Therefore,andbecauseoftheattachmentsheinspiredhimwith(butwithoutotherhope),hefeltthathewasquitedependentonher,andthatshewashisstaffinhisaffliction。

So,whensheaskedhimwhethertheyshouldgohomenow,towheretheoldmanandherhusbandwere,andhereadilyreplied\"yes\"—

beinganxiousinthatregard—heputhisarmthroughhers,andwalkedbesideher;notasifhewerethewiseandlearnedmantowhomthewondersofNaturewereanopenbook,andhersweretheuninstructedmind,butasiftheirtwopositionswerereversed,andheknewnothing,andsheall。

Hesawthechildrenthrongabouther,andcaressher,asheandshewentawaytogetherthus,outofthehouse;heheardtheringingoftheirlaughter,andtheirmerryvoices;hesawtheirbrightfaces,clusteringaroundhimlikeflowers;hewitnessedtherenewedcontentmentandaffectionoftheirparents;hebreathedthesimpleairoftheirpoorhome,restoredtoitstranquillity;hethoughtoftheunwholesomeblighthehadsheduponit,andmight,butforher,havebeendiffusingthen;andperhapsitisnowonderthathewalkedsubmissivelybesideher,anddrewhergentlebosomnearertohisown。

WhentheyarrivedattheLodge,theoldmanwassittinginhischairinthechimney—corner,withhiseyesfixedontheground,andhissonwasleaningagainsttheoppositesideofthefire—place,lookingathim。Asshecameinatthedoor,bothstarted,andturnedroundtowardsher,andaradiantchangecameupontheirfaces。

\"Ohdear,dear,dear,theyareallpleasedtoseemeliketherest!\"criedMilly,clappingherhandsinanecstasy,andstoppingshort。\"Herearetwomore!\"

Pleasedtoseeher!Pleasurewasnowordforit。Sheranintoherhusband’sarms,thrownwideopentoreceiveher,andhewouldhavebeengladtohaveherthere,withherheadlyingonhisshoulder,throughtheshortwinter’sday。Buttheoldmancouldn’tspareher。Hehadarmsforhertoo,andhelockedherinthem。

\"Why,wherehasmyquietMousebeenallthistime?\"saidtheoldman。\"Shehasbeenalongwhileaway。Ifindthatit’simpossibleformetogetonwithoutMouse。I—where’smysonWilliam?—I

fancyIhavebeendreaming,William。\"

\"That’swhatIsaymyself,father,\"returnedhisson。\"Ihavebeeninanuglysortofdream,Ithink。—Howareyou,father?Areyouprettywell?\"

\"Strongandbrave,myboy,\"returnedtheoldman。

ItwasquiteasighttoseeMr。Williamshakinghandswithhisfather,andpattinghimontheback,andrubbinghimgentlydownwithhishand,asifhecouldnotpossiblydoenoughtoshowaninterestinhim。

\"Whatawonderfulmanyouare,father!—Howareyou,father?Areyoureallyprettyhearty,though?\"saidWilliam,shakinghandswithhimagain,andpattinghimagain,andrubbinghimgentlydownagain。

\"Ineverwasfresherorstouterinmylife,myboy。\"

\"Whatawonderfulmanyouare,father!Butthat’sexactlywhereitis,\"saidMr。William,withenthusiasm。\"WhenIthinkofallthatmyfather’sgonethrough,andallthechancesandchanges,andsorrowsandtroubles,thathavehappenedtohiminthecourseofhislonglife,andunderwhichhisheadhasgrowngrey,andyearsuponyearshavegatheredonit,Ifeelasifwecouldn’tdoenoughtohonourtheoldgentleman,andmakehisoldageeasy。—Howareyou,father?Areyoureallyprettywell,though?\"

Mr。Williammightneverhaveleftoffrepeatingthisinquiry,andshakinghandswithhimagain,andpattinghimagain,andrubbinghimdownagain,iftheoldmanhadnotespiedtheChemist,whomuntilnowhehadnotseen。

\"Iaskyourpardon,Mr。Redlaw,\"saidPhilip,\"butdidn’tknowyouwerehere,sir,orshouldhavemadelessfree。Itremindsme,Mr。

Redlaw,seeingyouhereonaChristmasmorning,ofthetimewhenyouwasastudentyourself,andworkedsohardthatyouwerebackwardsandforwardsinourLibraryevenatChristmastime。Ha!

ha!I’moldenoughtorememberthat;andIrememberitrightwell,Ido,thoughIameight—seven。Itwasafteryouleftherethatmypoorwifedied。Youremembermypoorwife,Mr。Redlaw?\"

TheChemistansweredyes。

\"Yes,\"saidtheoldman。\"Shewasadearcreetur。—IrecollectyoucomehereoneChristmasmorningwithayounglady—Iaskyourpardon,Mr。Redlaw,butIthinkitwasasisteryouwasverymuchattachedto?\"

TheChemistlookedathim,andshookhishead。\"Ihadasister,\"

hesaidvacantly。Heknewnomore。

\"OneChristmasmorning,\"pursuedtheoldman,\"thatyoucomeherewithher—anditbegantosnow,andmywifeinvitedtheladytowalkin,andsitbythefirethatisalwaysaburningonChristmasDayinwhatusedtobe,beforeourtenpoorgentlemencommuted,ourgreatDinnerHall。Iwasthere;andIrecollect,asIwasstirringuptheblazefortheyoungladytowarmherprettyfeetby,shereadthescrolloutloud,thatisunderneaththatpictur,’Lord,keepmymemorygreen!’Sheandmypoorwifefellatalkingaboutit;andit’sastrangethingtothinkof,now,thattheybothsaid(bothbeingsounliketodie)thatitwasagoodprayer,andthatitwasonetheywouldputupveryearnestly,iftheywerecalledawayyoung,withreferencetothosewhoweredearesttothem。’Mybrother,’saystheyounglady—’Myhusband,’saysmypoorwife。—

’Lord,keephismemoryofme,green,anddonotletmebeforgotten!’\"

Tearsmorepainful,andmorebitterthanhehadevershedinallhislife,courseddownRedlaw’sface。Philip,fullyoccupiedinrecallinghisstory,hadnotobservedhimuntilnow,norMilly’sanxietythatheshouldnotproceed。

\"Philip!\"saidRedlaw,layinghishanduponhisarm,\"Iamastrickenman,onwhomthehandofProvidencehasfallenheavily,althoughdeservedly。Youspeaktome,myfriend,ofwhatIcannotfollow;mymemoryisgone。\"

\"Mercifulpower!\"criedtheoldman。

\"Ihavelostmymemoryofsorrow,wrong,andtrouble,\"saidtheChemist,\"andwiththatIhavelostallmanwouldremember!\"

ToseeoldPhilip’spityforhim,toseehimwheelhisowngreatchairforhimtorestin,andlookdownuponhimwithasolemnsenseofhisbereavement,wastoknow,insomedegree,howprecioustooldagesuchrecollectionsare。

Theboycamerunningin,andrantoMilly。

\"Here’stheman,\"hesaid,\"intheotherroom。Idon’twantHIM。\"

\"Whatmandoeshemean?\"askedMr。William。

\"Hush!\"saidMilly。

Obedienttoasignfromher,heandhisoldfathersoftlywithdrew。

Astheywentout,unnoticed,Redlawbeckonedtotheboytocometohim。

\"Ilikethewomanbest,\"heanswered,holdingtoherskirts。

\"Youareright,\"saidRedlaw,withafaintsmile。\"Butyouneedn’tfeartocometome。IamgentlerthanIwas。Ofalltheworld,toyou,poorchild!\"

Theboystillheldbackatfirst,butyieldinglittlebylittletoherurging,heconsentedtoapproach,andeventositdownathisfeet。AsRedlawlaidhishandupontheshoulderofthechild,lookingonhimwithcompassionandafellow—feeling,heputouthisotherhandtoMilly。Shestoopeddownonthatsideofhim,sothatshecouldlookintohisface,andaftersilence,said:

\"Mr。Redlaw,mayIspeaktoyou?\"

\"Yes,\"heanswered,fixinghiseyesuponher。\"Yourvoiceandmusicarethesametome。\"

\"MayIaskyousomething?\"

\"Whatyouwill。\"

\"DoyourememberwhatIsaid,whenIknockedatyourdoorlastnight?Aboutonewhowasyourfriendonce,andwhostoodonthevergeofdestruction?\"

\"Yes。Iremember,\"hesaid,withsomehesitation。

\"Doyouunderstandit?\"

Hesmoothedtheboy’shair—lookingatherfixedlythewhile,andshookhishead。

\"Thisperson,\"saidMilly,inherclear,softvoice,whichhermildeyes,lookingathim,madeclearerandsofter,\"Ifoundsoonafterwards。Iwentbacktothehouse,and,withHeaven’shelp,tracedhim。Iwasnottoosoon。AverylittleandIshouldhavebeentoolate。\"

Hetookhishandfromtheboy,andlayingitonthebackofthathandofhers,whosetimidandyetearnesttouchaddressedhimnolessappealinglythanhervoiceandeyes,lookedmoreintentlyonher。

\"HeISthefatherofMr。Edmund,theyounggentlemanwesawjustnow。HisrealnameisLongford。—Yourecollectthename?\"

\"Irecollectthename。\"

\"Andtheman?\"

\"No,nottheman。Didheeverwrongme?\"

\"Yes!\"

\"Ah!Thenit’shopeless—hopeless。\"

Heshookhishead,andsoftlybeatuponthehandheheld,asthoughmutelyaskinghercommiseration。

\"IdidnotgotoMr。Edmundlastnight,\"saidMilly,—\"Youwilllistentomejustthesameasifyoudidrememberall?\"

\"Toeverysyllableyousay。\"

\"Both,becauseIdidnotknow,then,thatthisreallywashisfather,andbecauseIwasfearfuloftheeffectofsuchintelligenceuponhim,afterhisillness,ifitshouldbe。SinceI

haveknownwhothispersonis,Ihavenotgoneeither;butthatisforanotherreason。Hehaslongbeenseparatedfromhiswifeandson—hasbeenastrangertohishomealmostfromthisson’sinfancy,Ilearnfromhim—andhasabandonedanddesertedwhatheshouldhaveheldmostdear。Inallthattimehehasbeenfallingfromthestateofagentleman,moreandmore,until—\"sheroseup,hastily,andgoingoutforamoment,returned,accompaniedbythewreckthatRedlawhadbeheldlastnight。

\"Doyouknowme?\"askedtheChemist。

\"Ishouldbeglad,\"returnedtheother,\"andthatisanunwontedwordformetouse,ifIcouldanswerno。\"

TheChemistlookedattheman,standinginself—abasementanddegradationbeforehim,andwouldhavelookedlonger,inanineffectualstruggleforenlightenment,butthatMillyresumedherlatepositionbyhisside,andattractedhisattentivegazetoherownface。

\"Seehowlowheissunk,howlostheis!\"shewhispered,stretchingoutherarmtowardshim,withoutlookingfromtheChemist’sface。

\"Ifyoucouldrememberallthatisconnectedwithhim,doyounotthinkitwouldmoveyourpitytoreflectthatoneyoueverloved(donotletusmindhowlongago,orinwhatbeliefthathehasforfeited),shouldcometothis?\"

\"Ihopeitwould,\"heanswered。\"Ibelieveitwould。\"

Hiseyeswanderedtothefigurestandingnearthedoor,butcamebackspeedilytoher,onwhomhegazedintently,asifhestrovetolearnsomelessonfromeverytoneofhervoice,andeverybeamofhereyes。

\"Ihavenolearning,andyouhavemuch,\"saidMilly;\"Iamnotusedtothink,andyouarealwaysthinking。MayItellyouwhyitseemstomeagoodthingforus,torememberwrongthathasbeendoneus?\"

\"Yes。\"

\"Thatwemayforgiveit。\"

\"Pardonme,greatHeaven!\"saidRedlaw,liftinguphiseyes,\"forhavingthrownawaythineownhighattribute!\"

\"Andif,\"saidMilly,\"ifyourmemoryshouldonedayberestored,aswewillhopeandprayitmaybe,woulditnotbeablessingtoyoutorecallatonceawronganditsforgiveness?\"

Helookedatthefigurebythedoor,andfastenedhisattentiveeyesonheragain;arayofclearerlightappearedtohimtoshineintohismind,fromherbrightface。

\"Hecannotgotohisabandonedhome。Hedoesnotseektogothere。

Heknowsthathecouldonlycarryshameandtroubletothosehehassocruellyneglected;andthatthebestreparationhecanmakethemnow,istoavoidthem。Averylittlemoneycarefullybestowed,wouldremovehimtosomedistantplace,wherehemightliveanddonowrong,andmakesuchatonementasisleftwithinhispowerforthewronghehasdone。Totheunfortunateladywhoishiswife,andtohisson,thiswouldbethebestandkindestboonthattheirbestfriendcouldgivethem—onetoothattheyneedneverknowof;

andtohim,shatteredinreputation,mind,andbody,itmightbesalvation。\"

Hetookherheadbetweenherhands,andkissedit,andsaid:\"Itshallbedone。Itrusttoyoutodoitforme,nowandsecretly;

andtotellhimthatIwouldforgivehim,ifIweresohappyastoknowforwhat。\"

Assherose,andturnedherbeamingfacetowardsthefallenman,implyingthathermediationhadbeensuccessful,headvancedastep,andwithoutraisinghiseyes,addressedhimselftoRedlaw。

\"Youaresogenerous,\"hesaid,\"—youeverwere—thatyouwilltrytobanishyourrisingsenseofretributioninthespectaclethatisbeforeyou。Idonottrytobanishitfrommyself,Redlaw。

Ifyoucan,believeme。\"

TheChemistentreatedMilly,byagesture,tocomenearertohim;

and,ashelistenedlookedinherface,asiftofindinitthecluetowhatheheard。

\"Iamtoodecayedawretchtomakeprofessions;Irecollectmyowncareertoowell,toarrayanysuchbeforeyou。ButfromthedayonwhichImademyfirststepdownward,indealingfalselybyyou,I

havegonedownwithacertain,steady,doomedprogression。That,I

say。\"

Redlaw,keepinghercloseathisside,turnedhisfacetowardsthespeaker,andtherewassorrowinit。Somethinglikemournfulrecognitiontoo。

\"Imighthavebeenanotherman,mylifemighthavebeenanotherlife,ifIhadavoidedthatfirstfatalstep。Idon’tknowthatitwouldhavebeen。Iclaimnothingforthepossibility。Yoursisterisatrest,andbetterthanshecouldhavebeenwithme,ifIhadcontinuedevenwhatyouthoughtme:evenwhatIoncesupposedmyselftobe。\"

Redlawmadeahastymotionwithhishand,asifhewouldhaveputthatsubjectononeside。

\"Ispeak,\"theotherwenton,\"likeamantakenfromthegrave。I

shouldhavemademyowngrave,lastnight,haditnotbeenforthisblessedhand。\"

\"Ohdear,helikesmetoo!\"sobbedMilly,underherbreath。

\"That’sanother!\"

\"Icouldnothaveputmyselfinyourway,lastnight,evenforbread。But,to—day,myrecollectionofwhathasbeenissostronglystirred,andispresentedtome,Idon’tknowhow,sovividly,thatIhavedaredtocomeathersuggestion,andtotakeyourbounty,andtothankyouforit,andtobegyou,Redlaw,inyourdyinghour,tobeasmercifultomeinyourthoughts,asyouareinyourdeeds。\"

Heturnedtowardsthedoor,andstoppedamomentonhiswayforth。

\"Ihopemysonmayinterestyou,forhismother’ssake。Ihopehemaydeservetodoso。Unlessmylifeshouldbepreservedalongtime,andIshouldknowthatIhavenotmisusedyouraid,Ishallneverlookuponhimmore。\"

Goingout,heraisedhiseyestoRedlawforthefirsttime。

Redlaw,whosesteadfastgazewasfixeduponhim,dreamilyheldouthishand。Hereturnedandtouchedit—littlemore—withbothhisown;andbendingdownhishead,wentslowlyout。

Inthefewmomentsthatelapsed,whileMillysilentlytookhimtothegate,theChemistdroppedintohischair,andcoveredhisfacewithhishands。Seeinghimthus,whenshecameback,accompaniedbyherhusbandandhisfather(whowerebothgreatlyconcernedforhim),sheavoideddisturbinghim,orpermittinghimtobedisturbed;andkneeleddownnearthechairtoputsomewarmclothingontheboy。

\"That’sexactlywhereitis。That’swhatIalwayssay,father!\"

exclaimedheradmiringhusband。\"There’samotherlyfeelinginMrs。William’sbreastthatmustandwillhavewent!\"

\"Ay,ay,\"saidtheoldman;\"you’reright。MysonWilliam’sright!\"

\"Ithappensallforthebest,Millydear,nodoubt,\"saidMr。

William,tenderly,\"thatwehavenochildrenofourown;andyetI

sometimeswishyouhadonetoloveandcherish。Ourlittledeadchildthatyoubuiltsuchhopesupon,andthatneverbreathedthebreathoflife—ithasmadeyouquiet—like,Milly。\"

\"Iamveryhappyintherecollectionofit,Williamdear,\"sheanswered。\"Ithinkofiteveryday。\"

\"Iwasafraidyouthoughtofitagooddeal。\"

\"Don’tsay,afraid;itisacomforttome;itspeakstomeinsomanyways。Theinnocentthingthatneverlivedonearth,islikeanangeltome,William。\"

\"Youarelikeanangeltofatherandme,\"saidMr。William,softly。

\"Iknowthat。\"

\"WhenIthinkofallthosehopesIbuiltuponit,andthemanytimesIsatandpicturedtomyselfthelittlesmilingfaceuponmybosomthatneverlaythere,andthesweeteyesturneduptominethatneveropenedtothelight,\"saidMilly,\"Icanfeelagreatertenderness,Ithink,forallthedisappointedhopesinwhichthereisnoharm。WhenIseeabeautifulchildinitsfondmother’sarms,Iloveitallthebetter,thinkingthatmychildmighthavebeenlikethat,andmighthavemademyheartasproudandhappy。\"

Redlawraisedhishead,andlookedtowardsher。

\"Allthroughlife,itseemsbyme,\"shecontinued,\"totellmesomething。Forpoorneglectedchildren,mylittlechildpleadsasifitwerealive,andhadavoiceIknew,withwhichtospeaktome。WhenIhearofyouthinsufferingorshame,Ithinkthatmychildmighthavecometothat,perhaps,andthatGodtookitfrommeinHismercy。Eveninageandgreyhair,suchasfather’s,itispresent:sayingthatittoomighthavelivedtobeold,longandlongafteryouandIweregone,andtohaveneededtherespectandloveofyoungerpeople。\"

Herquietvoicewasquieterthanever,asshetookherhusband’sarm,andlaidherheadagainstit。

\"Childrenlovemeso,thatsometimesIhalffancy—it’sasillyfancy,William—theyhavesomewayIdon’tknowof,offeelingformylittlechild,andme,andunderstandingwhytheirloveisprecioustome。IfIhavebeenquietsince,Ihavebeenmorehappy,William,inahundredways。Notleasthappy,dear,inthis—thatevenwhenmylittlechildwasbornanddeadbutafewdays,andIwasweakandsorrowful,andcouldnothelpgrievingalittle,thethoughtarose,thatifItriedtoleadagoodlife,IshouldmeetinHeavenabrightcreature,whowouldcallme,Mother!\"

Redlawfelluponhisknees,withaloudcry。

\"OThou,hesaid,\"whothroughtheteachingofpurelove,hastgraciouslyrestoredmetothememorywhichwasthememoryofChristupontheCross,andofallthegoodwhoperishedinHiscause,receivemythanks,andblessher!\"

Then,hefoldedhertohisheart;andMilly,sobbingmorethanever,cried,asshelaughed,\"Heiscomebacktohimself!Helikesmeverymuchindeed,too!Oh,dear,dear,dearme,here’sanother!\"

Then,thestudententered,leadingbythehandalovelygirl,whowasafraidtocome。AndRedlawsochangedtowardshim,seeinginhimandhisyouthfulchoice,thesoftenedshadowofthatchasteningpassageinhisownlife,towhich,astoashadytree,thedovesolongimprisonedinhissolitaryarkmightflyforrestandcompany,felluponhisneck,entreatingthemtobehischildren。

Then,asChristmasisatimeinwhich,ofalltimesintheyear,thememoryofeveryremediablesorrow,wrong,andtroubleintheworldaroundus,shouldbeactivewithus,notlessthanourownexperiences,forallgood,helaidhishandupontheboy,and,silentlycallingHimtowitnesswholaidHishandonchildreninoldtime,rebuking,inthemajestyofHispropheticknowledge,thosewhokeptthemfromHim,vowedtoprotecthim,teachhim,andreclaimhim。

Then,hegavehisrighthandcheerilytoPhilip,andsaidthattheywouldthatdayholdaChristmasdinnerinwhatusedtobe,beforethetenpoorgentlemencommuted,theirgreatDinnerHall;andthattheywouldbidtoitasmanyofthatSwidgerfamily,who,hissonhadtoldhim,weresonumerousthattheymightjoinhandsandmakearingroundEngland,ascouldbebroughttogetheronsoshortanotice。

Anditwasthatdaydone。ThereweresomanySwidgersthere,grownupandchildren,thatanattempttostatetheminroundnumbersmightengenderdoubts,inthedistrustful,oftheveracityofthishistory。Thereforetheattemptshallnotbemade。Buttheretheywere,bydozensandscores—andtherewasgoodnewsandgoodhopethere,readyforthem,ofGeorge,whohadbeenvisitedagainbyhisfatherandbrother,andbyMilly,andagainleftinaquietsleep。

There,presentatthedinner,too,weretheTetterbys,includingyoungAdolphus,whoarrivedinhisprismaticcomforter,ingoodtimeforthebeef。Johnnyandthebabyweretoolate,ofcourse,andcameinallononeside,theoneexhausted,theotherinasupposedstateofdouble—tooth;butthatwascustomary,andnotalarming。

Itwassadtoseethechildwhohadnonameorlineage,watchingtheotherchildrenastheyplayed,notknowinghowtotalkwiththem,orsportwiththem,andmorestrangetothewaysofchildhoodthanaroughdog。Itwassad,thoughinadifferentway,toseewhataninstinctiveknowledgetheyoungestchildrentherehadofhisbeingdifferentfromalltherest,andhowtheymadetimidapproachestohimwithsoftwordsandtouches,andwithlittlepresents,thathemightnotbeunhappy。ButhekeptbyMilly,andbegantoloveher—thatwasanother,asshesaid!—and,astheyalllikedherdearly,theyweregladofthat,andwhentheysawhimpeepingatthemfrombehindherchair,theywerepleasedthathewassoclosetoit。

Allthis,theChemist,sittingwiththestudentandhisbridethatwastobe,Philip,andtherest,saw。

Somepeoplehavesaidsince,thatheonlythoughtwhathasbeenhereinsetdown;others,thathereaditinthefire,onewinternightaboutthetwilighttime;others,thattheGhostwasbuttherepresentationofhisgloomythoughts,andMillytheembodimentofhisbetterwisdom。Isaynothing。

—Exceptthis。ThatastheywereassembledintheoldHall,bynootherlightthanthatofagreatfire(havingdinedearly),theshadowsoncemorestoleoutoftheirhiding—places,anddancedabouttheroom,showingthechildrenmarvellousshapesandfacesonthewalls,andgraduallychangingwhatwasrealandfamiliarthere,towhatwaswildandmagical。ButthattherewasonethingintheHall,towhichtheeyesofRedlaw,andofMillyandherhusband,andoftheoldman,andofthestudent,andhisbridethatwastobe,wereoftenturned,whichtheshadowsdidnotobscureorchange。

Deepenedinitsgravitybythefire—light,andgazingfromthedarknessofthepanelledwalllikelife,thesedatefaceintheportrait,withthebeardandruff,lookeddownatthemfromunderitsverdantwreathofholly,astheylookedupatit;and,clearandplainbelow,asifavoicehadutteredthem,werethewords。

LordkeepmyMemorygreen。