第4章

IamtogivelessonsinEnglishandLatintotheyoungerdaughter,too,butIshallhavealittletimetomyself,andIshallbeearningfiftydollarsamonth!Doesn’tthatimpressyouasaperfectlyexorbitantamount?Sheofferedit;Ishouldhaveblushedtoaskformorethantwenty-five。

IfinishatMagnolia(that’swhereshelives)thefirstofSeptember,andshallprobablyspendtheremainingthreeweeksatLockWillow——

IshouldliketoseetheSemplesagainandallthefriendlyanimals。

Howdoesmyprogrammestrikeyou,Daddy?

Iamgettingquiteindependent,yousee。

YouhaveputmeonmyfeetandIthinkIcanalmostwalkalonebynow。

Princetoncommencementandourexaminationsexactlycoincide——

whichisanawfulblow。SallieandIdidsowanttogetawayintimeforit,butofcoursethatisutterlyimpossible。

Goodbye,Daddy。Haveanicesummerandcomebackintheautumnrestedandreadyforanotheryearofwork。(That’swhatyououghttobewritingtome!)Ihaven’tanyideawhatyoudointhesummer,orhowyouamuseyourself。Ican’tvisualizeyoursurroundings。

Doyouplaygolforhuntorridehorsebackorjustsitinthesunandmeditate?

Anyway,whateveritis,haveagoodtimeanddon’tforgetJudy。

10thJuneDearDaddy,ThisisthehardestletterIeverwrote,butIhavedecidedwhatImustdo,andthereisn’tgoingtobeanyturningback。

ItisverysweetandgenerousanddearofyoutowishtosendmetoEuropethissummer——forthemomentIwasintoxicatedbytheidea;

butsobersecondthoughtssaidno。Itwouldberatherillogicalofmetorefusetotakeyourmoneyforcollege,andthenuseitinsteadjustforamusement!Youmustn’tgetmeusedtotoomanyluxuries。

Onedoesn’tmisswhatonehasneverhad;butit’sawfullyhardgoingwithoutthingsafteronehascommencedthinkingtheyarehis——

hers(Englishlanguageneedsanotherpronoun)bynaturalright。

LivingwithSallieandJuliaisanawfulstrainonmystoicalphilosophy。

Theyhavebothhadthingsfromthetimetheywerebabies;

theyaccepthappinessasamatterofcourse。TheWorld,theythink,owesthemeverythingtheywant。MaybetheWorlddoes——inanycase,itseemstoacknowledgethedebtandpayup。Butasforme,itowesmenothing,anddistinctlytoldmesointhebeginning。

Ihavenorighttoborrowoncredit,fortherewillcomeatimewhentheWorldwillrepudiatemyclaim。

Iseemtobeflounderinginaseaofmetaphor——butIhopeyougraspmymeaning?Anyway,Ihaveaverystrongfeelingthattheonlyhonestthingformetodoistoteachthissummerandbegintosupportmyself。

MAGNOLIA,FourdayslaterI’dgotjustthatmuchwritten,when——whatdoyouthinkhappened?

ThemaidarrivedwithMasterJervie’scard。Heisgoingabroadtoothissummer;notwithJuliaandherfamily,butentirelybyhimselfItoldhimthatyouhadinvitedmetogowithaladywhoischaperoningapartyofgirls。Heknowsaboutyou,Daddy。Thatis,heknowsthatmyfatherandmotheraredead,andthatakindgentlemanissendingmetocollege;Isimplydidn’thavethecouragetotellhimabouttheJohnGrierHomeandalltherest。Hethinksthatyouaremyguardianandaperfectlylegitimateoldfamilyfriend。

IhavenevertoldhimthatIdidn’tknowyou——thatwouldseemtooqueer!

Anyway,heinsistedonmygoingtoEurope。HesaidthatitwasanecessarypartofmyeducationandthatImustn’tthinkofrefusing。Also,thathewouldbeinParisatthesametime,andthatwewouldrunawayfromthechaperonoccasionallyandhavedinnertogetheratnice,funny,foreignrestaurants。

Well,Daddy,itdidappealtome!Ialmostweakened;ifhehadn’tbeensodictatorial,maybeIshouldhaveentirelyweakened。

Icanbeenticedstepbystep,butIWON’Tbeforced。HesaidI

wasasilly,foolish,irrational,quixotic,idiotic,stubbornchild(thoseareafewofhisabusiveadjectives;therestescapeme),andthatIdidn’tknowwhatwasgoodforme;Ioughttoletolderpeoplejudge。Wealmostquarrelled——Iamnotsurebutthatweentirelydid!

Inanycase,Ipackedmytrunkfastandcameuphere。IthoughtI’dbetterseemybridgesinflamesbehindmebeforeIfinishedwritingtoyou。Theyareentirelyreducedtoashesnow。

HereIamatCliffTop(thenameofMrs。Paterson’scottage)withmytrunkunpackedandFlorence(thelittleone)alreadystrugglingwithfirstdeclensionnouns。Anditbidsfairtobeastruggle!

Sheisamostuncommonlyspoiledchild;Ishallhavetoteachherfirsthowtostudy——shehasneverinherlifeconcentratedonanythingmoredifficultthanice-creamsodawater。

Weuseaquietcornerofthecliffsforaschoolroom——Mrs。Patersonwishesmetokeepthemoutofdoors——andIwillsaythatIfinditdifficulttoconcentratewiththeblueseabeforemeandshipsa-sailingby!

AndwhenIthinkImightbeonone,sailingofftoforeignlands——

butIWON’TletmyselfthinkofanythingbutLatinGrammar。

Theprepositionsaorab,absque,coram,cum,deeorex,prae,pro,sine,tenus,in,subter,subandsupergoverntheablative。

Soyousee,Daddy,Iamalreadyplungedintoworkwithmyeyespersistentlysetagainsttemptation。Don’tbecrosswithme,please,anddon’tthinkthatIdonotappreciateyourkindness,forIdo——always——always。TheonlywayIcaneverrepayyouisbyturningoutaVeryUsefulCitizen(Arewomencitizens?

Idon’tsupposetheyare。)Anyway,aVeryUsefulPerson。Andwhenyoulookatmeyoucansay,`IgavethatVeryUsefulPersontotheworld。’

Thatsoundswell,doesn’tit,Daddy?ButIdon’twishtomisleadyou。

ThefeelingoftencomesovermethatIamnotatallremarkable;

itisfuntoplanacareer,butinallprobabilityIshan’tturnoutabitdifferentfromanyotherordinaryperson。Imayendbymarryinganundertakerandbeinganinspirationtohiminhiswork。

Yoursever,Judy19thAugustDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Mywindowlooksoutontheloveliestlandscape——ocean-scape,rather——

nothingbutwaterandrocks。

Thesummergoes。IspendthemorningwithLatinandEnglishandalgebraandmytwostupidgirls。Idon’tknowhowMarionisevergoingtogetintocollege,orstayinaftershegetsthere。

AndasforFlorence,sheishopeless——butoh!suchalittlebeauty。

Idon’tsupposeitmattersintheleastwhethertheyarestupidornotsolongastheyarepretty?Onecan’thelpthinking,though,howtheirconversationwillboretheirhusbands,unlesstheyarefortunateenoughtoobtainstupidhusbands。Isupposethat’squitepossible;theworldseemstobefilledwithstupidmen;

I’vemetanumberthissummer。

Intheafternoonwetakeawalkonthecliffs,orswim,ifthetideisright。Icanswiminsaltwaterwiththeutmosteaseyouseemyeducationisalreadybeingputtouse!

AlettercomesfromMr。JervisPendletoninParis,ratherashortconciseletter;I’mnotquiteforgivenyetforrefusingtofollowhisadvice。However,ifhegetsbackintime,hewillseemeforafewdaysatLockWillowbeforecollegeopens,andifI

amveryniceandsweetanddocile,Ishall(Iamledtoinfer)

bereceivedintofavouragain。

AlsoaletterfromSallie。ShewantsmetocometotheircampfortwoweeksinSeptember。MustIaskyourpermission,orhaven’tIyetarrivedattheplacewhereIcandoasIplease?Yes,IamsureIhave——I’maSenior,youknow。Havingworkedallsummer,Ifeelliketakingalittlehealthfulrecreation;IwanttoseetheAdirondacks;IwanttoseeSallie;IwanttoseeSallie’sbrother——

he’sgoingtoteachmetocanoe——and(wecometomychiefmotive,whichismean)IwantMasterJervietoarriveatLockWillowandfindmenotthere。

IMUSTshowhimthathecan’tdictatetome。Noonecandictatetomebutyou,Daddy——andyoucan’talways!I’moffforthewoods。

JudyCAMPMCBRIDE,6thSeptemberDearDaddy,Yourletterdidn’tcomeintime(Iampleasedtosay)。Ifyouwishyourinstructionstobeobeyed,youmusthaveyoursecretarytransmittheminlessthantwoweeks。Asyouobserve,Iamhere,andhavebeenforfivedays。

Thewoodsarefine,andsoisthecamp,andsoistheweather,andsoaretheMcBrides,andsoisthewholeworld。I’mveryhappy!

There’sJimmiecallingformetocomecanoeing。Goodbye——sorrytohavedisobeyed,butwhyareyousopersistentaboutnotwantingmetoplayalittle?WhenI’veworkedallthesummerIdeservetwoweeks。Youareawfullydog-in-the-mangerish。

However——Iloveyoustill,Daddy,inspiteofallyourfaults。

Judy3rdOctoberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,BackatcollegeandaSenior——alsoeditoroftheMonthly。

Itdoesn’tseempossible,doesit,thatsosophisticatedaperson,justfouryearsago,wasaninmateoftheJohnGrierHome?

WedoarrivefastinAmerica!

Whatdoyouthinkofthis?AnotefromMasterJerviedirectedtoLockWillowandforwardedhere。He’ssorry,buthefindsthathecan’tgetuptherethisautumn;hehasacceptedaninvitationtogoyachtingwithsomefriends。HopesI’vehadanicesummerandamenjoyingthecountry。

AndheknewallthetimethatIwaswiththeMcBrides,forJuliatoldhimso!Youmenoughttoleaveintriguetowomen;youhaven’talightenoughtouch。

Juliahasatrunkfulofthemostravishingnewclothes——aneveninggownofrainbowLibertycrepethatwouldbefittingraimentfortheangelsinParadise。AndIthoughtthatmyownclothesthisyearwereunprecedentedly(istheresuchaword?)beautiful。IcopiedMrs。Paterson’swardrobewiththeaidofacheapdressmaker,andthoughthegownsdidn’tturnoutquitetwinsoftheoriginals,IwasentirelyhappyuntilJuliaunpacked。Butnow——IlivetoseeParis!

DearDaddy,aren’tyougladyou’renotagirl?Isupposeyouthinkthatthefusswemakeoverclothesistooabsolutelysilly?Itis。

Nodoubtaboutit。Butit’sentirelyyourfault。

DidyoueverhearaboutthelearnedHerrProfessorwhoregardedunnecessaryadornmentwithcontemptandfavouredsensible,utilitarianclothesforwomen?Hiswife,whowasanobligingcreature,adopted`dressreform。’Andwhatdoyouthinkhedid?

Heelopedwithachorusgirl。

Yoursever,JudyPS。Thechamber-maidinourcorridorwearsbluecheckedginghamaprons。

Iamgoingtogethersomebrownonesinstead,andsinktheblueonesinthebottomofthelake。IhaveareminiscentchilleverytimeIlookatthem。

17thNovemberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Suchablighthasfallenovermyliterarycareer。Idon’tknowwhethertotellyouornot,butIwouldlikesomesympathy——

silentsympathy,please;don’tre-openthewoundbyreferringtoitinyournextletter。

I’vebeenwritingabook,alllastwinterintheevenings,andallthesummerwhenIwasn’tteachingLatintomytwostupidchildren。

Ijustfinisheditbeforecollegeopenedandsentittoapublisher。

Hekeptittwomonths,andIwascertainhewasgoingtotakeit;

butyesterdaymorninganexpressparcelcame(thirtycentsdue)

andthereitwasbackagainwithaletterfromthepublisher,averynice,fatherlyletter——butfrank!HesaidhesawfromtheaddressthatI

wasstillatcollege,andifIwouldacceptsomeadvice,hewouldsuggestthatIputallofmyenergyintomylessonsandwaituntilI

graduatedbeforebeginningtowrite。Heenclosedhisreader’sopinion。

Hereitis:

`Plothighlyimprobable。Characterizationexaggerated。

Conversationunnatural。Agooddealofhumourbutnotalwaysinthebestoftaste。Tellhertokeepontrying,andintimeshemayproducearealbook。’

Notonthewholeflattering,isit,Daddy?AndIthoughtIwasmakinganotableadditiontoAmericanliterature。Ididtruly。

IwasplanningtosurpriseyoubywritingagreatnovelbeforeIgraduated。IcollectedthematerialforitwhileIwasatJulia’slastChristmas。ButIdaresaytheeditorisright。

Probablytwoweekswasnotenoughinwhichtoobservethemannersandcustomsofagreatcity。

Itookitwalkingwithmeyesterdayafternoon,andwhenIcametothegashouse,IwentinandaskedtheengineerifImightborrowhisfurnace。Hepolitelyopenedthedoor,andwithmyownhandsIchuckeditin。IfeltasthoughIhadcrematedmyonlychild!

Iwenttobedlastnightutterlydejected;IthoughtIwasnevergoingtoamounttoanything,andthatyouhadthrownawayyourmoneyfornothing。Butwhatdoyouthink?Iwokeupthismorningwithabeautifulnewplotinmyhead,andI’vebeengoingaboutalldayplanningmycharacters,justashappyasIcouldbe。

Noonecaneveraccusemeofbeingapessimist!IfIhadahusbandandtwelvechildrenswallowedbyanearthquakeoneday,I’dbobupsmilinglythenextmorningandcommencetolookforanotherset。

Affectionately,Judy14thDecemberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Idreamedthefunniestdreamlastnight。IthoughtIwentintoabookstoreandtheclerkbroughtmeanewbooknamedTheLifeandLettersofJudyAbbott。Icouldseeitperfectlyplainly——

redclothbindingwithapictureoftheJohnGrierHomeonthecover,andmyportraitforafrontispiecewith,`Verytrulyyours,JudyAbbott,’

writtenbelow。ButjustasIwasturningtotheendtoreadtheinscriptiononmytombstone,Iwokeup。Itwasveryannoying!

IalmostfoundoutwhomI’mgoingtomarryandwhenI’mgoingtodie。

Don’tyouthinkitwouldbeinterestingifyoureallycouldreadthestoryofyourlife——writtenperfectlytruthfullybyanomniscientauthor?

Andsupposeyoucouldonlyreaditonthiscondition:thatyouwouldneverforgetit,butwouldhavetogothroughlifeknowingaheadoftimeexactlyhoweverythingyoudidwouldturnout,andforeseeingtotheexacthourthetimewhenyouwoulddie。

Howmanypeopledoyousupposewouldhavethecouragetoreaditthen?orhowmanycouldsuppresstheircuriositysufficientlytoescapefromreadingit,evenatthepriceofhavingtolivewithouthopeandwithoutsurprises?

Lifeismonotonousenoughatbest;youhavetoeatandsleepaboutsooften。ButimaginehowDEADLYmonotonousitwouldbeifnothingunexpectedcouldhappenbetweenmeals。Mercy!Daddy,there’sablot,butI’monthethirdpageandIcan’tbeginanewsheet。

I’mgoingonwithbiologyagainthisyear——veryinterestingsubject;

we’restudyingthealimentarysystematpresent。Youshouldseehowsweetacross-sectionoftheduodenumofacatisunderthemicroscope。

Alsowe’vearrivedatphilosophy——interestingbutevanescent。Ipreferbiologywhereyoucanpinthesubjectunderdiscussiontoaboard。

There’sanother!Andanother!Thispenisweepingcopiously。

Pleaseexcuseitstears。

Doyoubelieveinfreewill?Ido——unreservedly。Idon’tagreeatallwiththephilosopherswhothinkthateveryactionistheabsolutelyinevitableandautomaticresultantofanaggregationofremotecauses。That’sthemostimmoraldoctrineIeverheard——

nobodywouldbetoblameforanything。Ifamanbelievedinfatalism,hewouldnaturallyjustsitdownandsay,`TheLord’swillbedone,’

andcontinuetosituntilhefelloverdead。

Ibelieveabsolutelyinmyownfreewillandmyownpowertoaccomplish——

andthatisthebeliefthatmovesmountains。Youwatchmebecomeagreatauthor!Ihavefourchaptersofmynewbookfinishedandfivemoredrafted。

Thisisaveryabstruseletter——doesyourheadache,Daddy?

Ithinkwe’llstopnowandmakesomefudge。I’msorryIcan’tsendyouapiece;itwillbeunusuallygood,forwe’regoingtomakeitwithrealcreamandthreebutterballs。

Yoursaffectionately,JudyPS。We’rehavingfancydancingingymnasiumclass。Youcanseebytheaccompanyingpicturehowmuchwelooklikearealballet。

Theoneattheendaccomplishingagracefulpirouetteisme——ImeanI。

26thDecemberMyDear,Dear,Daddy,Haven’tyouanysense?Don’tyouKNOWthatyoumustn’tgiveonegirlseventeenChristmaspresents?I’maSocialist,pleaseremember;

doyouwishtoturnmeintoaPlutocrat?

Thinkhowembarrassingitwouldbeifweshouldeverquarrel!

Ishouldhavetoengageamoving-vantoreturnyourgifts。

IamsorrythatthenecktieIsentwassowobbly;Iknititwithmyownhands(asyoudoubtlessdiscoveredfrominternalevidence)。

Youwillhavetowearitoncolddaysandkeepyourcoatbuttoneduptight。

Thankyou,Daddy,athousandtimes。Ithinkyou’rethesweetestmanthateverlived——andthefoolishest!

JudyHere’safour-leafcloverfromCampMcBridetobringyougoodluckfortheNewYear。

9thJanuaryDoyouwishtodosomething,Daddy,thatwillensureyoureternalsalvation?Thereisafamilyherewhoareinawfullydesperatestraits。Amotherandfatherandfourvisiblechildren——

thetwoolderboyshavedisappearedintotheworldtomaketheirfortuneandhavenotsentanyofitback。Thefatherworkedinaglassfactoryandgotconsumption——it’sawfullyunhealthywork——

andnowhasbeensentawaytoahospital。Thattookalltheirsavings,andthesupportofthefamilyfallsupontheoldestdaughter,whoistwenty-four。Shedressmakesfor$1。50aday(whenshecangetit)andembroiderscentrepiecesintheevening。Themotherisn’tverystrongandisextremelyineffectualandpious。

Shesitswithherhandsfolded,apictureofpatientresignation,whilethedaughterkillsherselfwithoverworkandresponsibilityandworry;shedoesn’tseehowtheyaregoingtogetthroughtherestofthewinter——andIdon’teither。Onehundreddollarswouldbuysomecoalandsomeshoesforthreechildrensothattheycouldgotoschool,andgivealittlemarginsothatsheneedn’tworryherselftodeathwhenafewdayspassandshedoesn’tgetwork。

YouaretherichestmanIknow。Don’tyousupposeyoucouldspareonehundreddollars?ThatgirldeserveshelpalotmorethanI

everdid。Iwouldn’taskitexceptforthegirl;Idon’tcaremuchwhathappenstothemother——sheissuchajelly-fish。

Thewaypeopleareforeverrollingtheireyestoheavenandsaying,`Perhapsit’sallforthebest,’whentheyareperfectlydeadsureit’snot,makesmeenraged。Humilityorresignationorwhateveryouchoosetocallit,issimplyimpotentinertia。I’mforamoremilitantreligion!

Wearegettingthemostdreadfullessonsinphilosophy——allofSchopenhauerfortomorrow。Theprofessordoesn’tseemtorealizethatwearetakinganyothersubject。He’saqueeroldduck;

hegoesaboutwithhisheadinthecloudsandblinksdazedlywhenoccasionallyhestrikessolidearth。Hetriestolightenhislectureswithanoccasionalwitticism——andwedoourbesttosmile,butIassureyouhisjokesarenolaughingmatter。

Hespendshisentiretimebetweenclassesintryingtofigureoutwhethermatterreallyexistsorwhetherheonlythinksitexists。

I’msuremysewinggirlhasn’tanydoubtbutthatitexists!

Wheredoyouthinkmynewnovelis?Inthewaste-basket。Icanseemyselfthatit’snogoodonearth,andwhenalovingauthorrealizesthat,whatWOULDbethejudgmentofacriticalpublic?

LaterIaddressyou,Daddy,fromabedofpain。FortwodaysI’vebeenlaidupwithswollentonsils;Icanjustswallowhotmilk,andthatisall。`Whatwereyourparentsthinkingofnottohavethosetonsilsoutwhenyouwereababy?’thedoctorwishedtoknow。

I’msureIhaven’tanidea,butIdoubtiftheywerethinkingmuchaboutme。

Yours,J。A。

NextmorningIjustreadthisoverbeforesealingit。Idon’tknowWHYIcastsuchamistyatmosphereoverlife。IhastentoassureyouthatI

amyoungandhappyandexuberant;andItrustyouarethesame。

Youthhasnothingtodowithbirthdays,onlywithALIVEDNESSofspirit,soevenifyourhairisgrey,Daddy,youcanstillbeaboy。

Affectionately,Judy12thJan。

DearMr。Philanthropist,Yourchequeformyfamilycameyesterday。Thankyousomuch!

Icutgymnasiumandtookitdowntothemrightafterluncheon,andyoushouldhaveseenthegirl’sface!Shewassosurprisedandhappyandrelievedthatshelookedalmostyoung;andshe’sonlytwenty-four。Isn’titpitiful?

Anyway,shefeelsnowasthoughallthegoodthingswerecomingtogether。

Shehassteadyworkaheadfortwomonths——someone’sgettingmarried,andthere’satrousseautomake。

`ThankthegoodLord!’criedthemother,whenshegraspedthefactthatthatsmallpieceofpaperwasonehundreddollars。

`Itwasn’tthegoodLordatall,’saidI,`itwasDaddy-Long-Legs。’

(Mr。Smith,Icalledyou。)

`ButitwasthegoodLordwhoputitinhismind,’saidshe。

`Notatall!Iputitinhismindmyself,’saidI。

Butanyway,Daddy,ItrustthegoodLordwillrewardyousuitably。

Youdeservetenthousandyearsoutofpurgatory。

Yoursmostgratefully,JudyAbbott15thFeb。

MayitpleaseYourMostExcellentMajesty:

ThismorningIdideatmybreakfastuponacoldturkeypieandagoose,andIdidsendforacupoftee(achinadrink)

ofwhichIhadneverdrankbefore。

Don’tbenervous,Daddy——Ihaven’tlostmymind;I’mmerelyquotingSam’lPepys。We’rereadinghiminconnectionwithEnglishHistory,originalsources。SallieandJuliaandIconversenowinthelanguageof1660。Listentothis:

`IwenttoCharingCrosstoseeMajorHarrisonhanged,drawnandquartered:helookingascheerfulasanymancoulddointhatcondition。’Andthis:`Dinedwithmyladywhoisinhandsomemourningforherbrotherwhodiedyesterdayofspottedfever。’

Seemsalittleearlytocommenceentertaining,doesn’tit?AfriendofPepysdevisedaverycunningmannerwherebythekingmightpayhisdebtsoutofthesaletopoorpeopleofolddecayedprovisions。

Whatdoyou,areformer,thinkofthat?Idon’tbelievewe’resobadtodayasthenewspapersmakeout。

Samuelwasasexcitedabouthisclothesasanygirl;hespentfivetimesasmuchondressashiswife——thatappearstohavebeentheGoldenAgeofhusbands。Isn’tthisatouchingentry?

Youseehereallywashonest。`TodaycamehomemyfineCamlettcloakwithgoldbuttons,whichcostmemuchmoney,andIprayGodtomakemeabletopayforit。’

ExcusemeforbeingsofullofPepys;I’mwritingaspecialtopiconhim。

Whatdoyouthink,Daddy?TheSelf-GovernmentAssociationhasabolishedtheteno’clockrule。Wecankeepourlightsallnightifwechoose,theonlyrequirementbeingthatwedonotdisturbothers——

wearenotsupposedtoentertainonalargescale。Theresultisabeautifulcommentaryonhumannature。Nowthatwemaystayupaslongaswechoose,wenolongerchoose。Ourheadsbegintonodatnineo’clock,andbynine-thirtythependropsfromournervelessgrasp。

It’snine-thirtynow。Goodnight。

SundayJustbackfromchurch——preacherfromGeorgia。Wemusttakecare,hesays,nottodevelopourintellectsattheexpenseofouremotionalnatures——

butmethoughtitwasapoor,drysermon(Pepysagain)。Itdoesn’tmatterwhatpartoftheUnitedStatesorCanadatheycomefrom,orwhatdenominationtheyare,wealwaysgetthesamesermon。

Whyonearthdon’ttheygotomen’scollegesandurgethestudentsnottoallowtheirmanlynaturestobecrushedoutbytoomuchmentalapplication?

It’sabeautifulday——frozenandicyandclear。Assoonasdinnerisover,SallieandJuliaandMartyKeeneandEleanorPratt(friendsofmine,butyoudon’tknowthem)andIaregoingtoputonshortskirtsandwalk’crosscountrytoCrystalSpringFarmandhaveafriedchickenandwafflesupper,andthenhaveMr。CrystalSpringdriveushomeinhisbuckboard。Wearesupposedtobeinsidethecampusatseven,butwearegoingtostretchapointtonightandmakeiteight。

Farewell,kindSir。

Ihavethehonourofsubscribingmyself,Yourmostloyall,dutifull,faithfullandobedientservant,J。AbbottMarchFifthDearMr。Trustee,TomorrowisthefirstWednesdayinthemonth——awearydayfortheJohnGrierHome。Howrelievedthey’llbewhenfiveo’clockcomesandyoupatthemontheheadandtakeyourselvesoff!Didyou(individually)everpatmeonthehead,Daddy?Idon’tbelieveso——

mymemoryseemstobeconcernedonlywithfatTrustees。

GivetheHomemylove,please——myTRULYlove。IhavequiteafeelingoftendernessforitasIlookbackthroughahazeoffouryears。

WhenIfirstcametocollegeIfeltquiteresentfulbecauseI’dbeenrobbedofthenormalkindofchildhoodthattheothergirlshadhad;butnow,Idon’tfeelthatwayintheleast。Iregarditasaveryunusualadventure。Itgivesmeasortofvantagepointfromwhichtostandasideandlookatlife。Emergingfullgrown,Igetaperspectiveontheworld,thatotherpeoplewhohavebeenbroughtupinthethickofthingsentirelylack。

Iknowlotsofgirls(Julia,forinstance)whoneverknowthattheyarehappy。Theyaresoaccustomedtothefeelingthattheirsensesaredeadenedtoit;butasforme——IamperfectlysureeverymomentofmylifethatIamhappy。AndI’mgoingtokeeponbeing,nomatterwhatunpleasantthingsturnup。I’mgoingtoregardthem(eventoothaches)asinterestingexperiences,andbegladtoknowwhattheyfeellike。`Whateversky’saboveme,I’veaheartforanyfate。’

However,Daddy,don’ttakethisnewaffectionfortheJ。G。H。

tooliterally。IfIhavefivechildren,likeRousseau,Ishan’tleavethemonthestepsofafoundlingasyluminordertoinsuretheirbeingbroughtupsimply。

GivemykindestregardstoMrs。Lippett(that,Ithink,istruthful;

lovewouldbealittlestrong)anddon’tforgettotellherwhatabeautifulnatureI’vedeveloped。

Affectionately,JudyLOCKWILLOW,4thAprilDearDaddy,Doyouobservethepostmark?SallieandIareembellishingLockWillowwithourpresenceduringtheEasterVacation。

Wedecidedthatthebestthingwecoulddowithourtendayswastocomewhereitisquiet。Ournerveshadgottothepointwheretheywouldn’tstandanothermealinFergussen。Dininginaroomwithfourhundredgirlsisanordealwhenyouaretired。

Thereissomuchnoisethatyoucan’thearthegirlsacrossthetablespeakunlesstheymaketheirhandsintoamegaphoneandshout。

Thatisthetruth。

Wearetrampingoverthehillsandreadingandwriting,andhavinganice,restfultime。Weclimbedtothetopof`SkyHill’

thismorningwhereMasterJervieandIoncecookedsupper——

itdoesn’tseempossiblethatitwasnearlytwoyearsago。Icouldstillseetheplacewherethesmokeofourfireblackenedtherock。

Itisfunnyhowcertainplacesgetconnectedwithcertainpeople,andyounevergobackwithoutthinkingofthem。Iwasquitelonelywithouthim——fortwominutes。

Whatdoyouthinkismylatestactivity,Daddy?YouwillbegintobelievethatIamincorrigible——Iamwritingabook。Istarteditthreeweeksagoandameatingitupinchunks。I’vecaughtthesecret。

MasterJervieandthateditormanwereright;youaremostconvincingwhenyouwriteaboutthethingsyouknow。AndthistimeitisaboutsomethingthatIdoknow——exhaustively。Guesswhereit’slaid?

IntheJohnGrierHome!Andit’sgood,Daddy,Iactuallybelieveitis——justaboutthetinylittlethingsthathappenedeveryday。

I’marealistnow。I’veabandonedromanticism;Ishallgobacktoitlaterthough,whenmyownadventurousfuturebegins。

Thisnewbookisgoingtogetitselffinished——andpublished!

Youseeifitdoesn’t。Ifyoujustwantathinghardenoughandkeepontrying,youdogetitintheend。I’vebeentryingforfouryearstogetaletterfromyou——andIhaven’tgivenuphopeyet。

Goodbye,Daddydear,(IliketocallyouDaddydear;it’ssoalliterative。)

Affectionately,JudyPS。Iforgottotellyouthefarmnews,butit’sverydistressing。

Skipthispostscriptifyoudon’twantyoursensibilitiesallwroughtup。

PooroldGroveisdead。Hegotsothathecouldn’tchewandtheyhadtoshoothim。

Ninechickenswerekilledbyaweaseloraskunkoraratlastweek。

Oneofthecowsissick,andwehadtohavetheveterinarysurgeonoutfromBonnyriggFourCorners。Amasaistayedupallnighttogiveherlinseedoilandwhisky。Butwehaveanawfulsuspicionthatthepoorsickcowgotnothingbutlinseedoil。

SentimentalTommy(thetortoise-shellcat)hasdisappeared;

weareafraidhehasbeencaughtinatrap。

Therearelotsoftroublesintheworld!

17thMayDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Thisisgoingtobeextremelyshortbecausemyshoulderachesatthesightofapen。Lecturenotesallday,immortalnovelallevening,maketoomuchwriting。

CommencementthreeweeksfromnextWednesday。Ithinkyoumightcomeandmakemyacquaintance——Ishallhateyouifyoudon’t!Julia’sinvitingMasterJervie,hebeingherfamily,andSallie’sinvitingJimmieMcB。,hebeingherfamily,butwhoisthereformetoinvite?

JustyouandLippett,andIdon’twanther。Pleasecome。

Yours,withloveandwriter’scramp。

JudyLOCKWILLOW,19thJuneDearDaddy-Long-Legs,I’meducated!Mydiplomaisinthebottombureaudrawerwithmytwobestdresses。Commencementwasasusual,withafewshowersatvitalmoments。Thankyouforyourrosebuds。Theywerelovely。

MasterJervieandMasterJimmiebothgavemeroses,too,butIlefttheirsinthebathtubandcarriedyoursintheclassprocession。

HereIamatLockWillowforthesummer——forevermaybe。Theboardischeap;thesurroundingsquietandconducivetoaliterarylife。

Whatmoredoesastrugglingauthorwish?Iammadaboutmybook。

Ithinkofiteverywakingmoment,anddreamofitatnight。AllI

wantispeaceandquietandlotsoftimetowork(interspersedwithnourishingmeals)。

MasterJervieiscomingupforaweekorsoinAugust,andJimmieMcBrideisgoingtodropinsometimethroughthesummer。

He’sconnectedwithabondhousenow,andgoesaboutthecountrysellingbondstobanks。He’sgoingtocombinethe`Farmers’National’

attheCornersandmeonthesametrip。

YouseethatLockWillowisn’tentirelylackinginsociety。

I’dbeexpectingtohaveyoucomemotoringthrough——onlyIknownowthatthatishopeless。Whenyouwouldn’tcometomycommencement,Itoreyoufrommyheartandburiedyouforever。

JudyAbbott,A。B。

24thJulyDearestDaddy-Long-Legs,Isn’titfuntowork——ordon’tyoueverdoit?It’sespeciallyfunwhenyourkindofworkisthethingyou’dratherdomorethananythingelseintheworld。I’vebeenwritingasfastasmypenwouldgoeverydaythissummer,andmyonlyquarrelwithlifeisthatthedaysaren’tlongenoughtowriteallthebeautifulandvaluableandentertainingthoughtsI’mthinking。

I’vefinishedtheseconddraftofmybookandamgoingtobeginthethirdtomorrowmorningathalf-pastseven。It’sthesweetestbookyoueversaw——itis,truly。Ithinkofnothingelse。

Icanbarelywaitinthemorningtodressandeatbeforebeginning;

thenIwriteandwriteandwritetillsuddenlyI’msotiredthatI’mlimpallover。ThenIgooutwithColin(thenewsheepdog)andrompthroughthefieldsandgetafreshsupplyofideasforthenextday。

It’sthemostbeautifulbookyoueversaw——Oh,pardon——Isaidthatbefore。

Youdon’tthinkmeconceited,doyou,Daddydear?

I’mnot,really,onlyjustnowI’mintheenthusiasticstage。

MaybelateronI’llgetcoldandcriticalandsniffy。No,I’msureIwon’t!ThistimeI’vewrittenarealbook。Justwaittillyouseeit。

I’lltryforaminutetotalkaboutsomethingelse。Inevertoldyou,didI,thatAmasaiandCarriegotmarriedlastMay?Theyarestillworkinghere,butsofarasIcanseeithasspoiledthemboth。

Sheusedtolaughwhenhetrampedinmudordroppedashesonthefloor,butnow——youshouldhearherscold!Andshedoesn’tcurlherhairanylonger。Amasai,whousedtobesoobligingaboutbeatingrugsandcarryingwood,grumblesifyousuggestsuchathing。

Alsohisnecktiesarequitedingy——blackandbrown,wheretheyusedtobescarletandpurple。I’vedeterminednevertomarry。

It’sadeterioratingprocess,evidently。

Thereisn’tmuchofanyfarmnews。Theanimalsareallinthebestofhealth。Thepigsareunusuallyfat,thecowsseemcontentedandthehensarelayingwell。Areyouinterestedinpoultry?

Ifso,letmerecommendthatinvaluablelittlework,200EggsperHenperYear。Iamthinkingofstartinganincubatornextspringandraisingbroilers。YouseeI’msettledatLockWillowpermanently。

IhavedecidedtostayuntilI’vewritten114novelslikeAnthonyTrollope’smother。ThenIshallhavecompletedmylifeworkandcanretireandtravel。

Mr。JamesMcBridespentlastSundaywithus。Friedchickenandice-creamfordinner,bothofwhichheappearedtoappreciate。Iwasawfullygladtoseehim;hebroughtamomentaryreminderthattheworldatlargeexists。PoorJimmieishavingahardtimepeddlinghisbonds。

The`Farmers’National’attheCornerswouldn’thaveanythingtodowiththeminspiteofthefactthattheypaysixpercent。

interestandsometimesseven。Ithinkhe’llendupbygoinghometoWorcesterandtakingajobinhisfather’sfactory。He’stooopenandconfidingandkind-heartedevertomakeasuccessfulfinancier。

Buttobethemanagerofaflourishingoverallfactoryisaverydesirableposition,don’tyouthink?Justnowheturnsuphisnoseatoveralls,buthe’llcometothem。

Ihopeyouappreciatethefactthatthisisalongletterfromapersonwithwriter’scramp。ButIstillloveyou,Daddydear,andI’mveryhappy。Withbeautifulsceneryallabout,andlotstoeatandacomfortablefour-postbedandareamofblankpaperandapintofink——whatmoredoesonewantintheworld?

Yoursasalways,JudyPS。Thepostmanarriveswithsomemorenews。WearetoexpectMasterJervieonFridaynexttospendaweek。That’saverypleasantprospect——onlyIamafraidmypoorbookwillsuffer。

MasterJervieisverydemanding。

27thAugustDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Whereareyou,Iwonder?

Ineverknowwhatpartoftheworldyouarein,butIhopeyou’renotinNewYorkduringthisawfulweather。Ihopeyou’reonamountainpeak(butnotinSwitzerland;somewherenearer)lookingatthesnowandthinkingaboutme。Pleasebethinkingaboutme。

I’mquitelonelyandIwanttobethoughtabout。Oh,Daddy,IwishIknewyou!Thenwhenwewereunhappywecouldcheereachotherup。

Idon’tthinkIcanstandmuchmoreofLockWillow。I’mthinkingofmoving。SallieisgoingtodosettlementworkinBostonnextwinter。Don’tyouthinkitwouldbeniceformetogowithher,thenwecouldhaveastudiotogether?IwouldwritewhilesheSETTLEDandwecouldbetogetherintheevenings。Eveningsareverylongwhenthere’snoonebuttheSemplesandCarrieandAmasaitotalkto。Iknowinadvancethatyouwon’tlikemystudioidea。

Icanreadyoursecretary’sletternow:

`MissJerushaAbbott。

`DEARMADAM,`Mr。SmithprefersthatyouremainatLockWillow。

`Yourstruly,`ELMERH。GRIGGS。’

Ihateyoursecretary。IamcertainthatamannamedElmerH。

Griggsmustbehorrid。Buttruly,Daddy,IthinkIshallhavetogotoBoston。Ican’tstayhere。Ifsomethingdoesn’thappensoon,Ishallthrowmyselfintothesilopitoutofsheerdesperation。

Mercy!butit’shot。Allthegrassisburntupandthebrooksaredryandtheroadsaredusty。Ithasn’trainedforweeksandweeks。

ThislettersoundsasthoughIhadhydrophobia,butIhaven’t。I

justwantsomefamily。

Goodbye,mydearestDaddy。

IwishIknewyou。

JudyLOCKWILLOW,19thSeptemberDearDaddy,SomethinghashappenedandIneedadvice。Ineeditfromyou,andfromnobodyelseintheworld。Wouldn’titbepossibleformetoseeyou?It’ssomucheasiertotalkthantowrite;andI’mafraidyoursecretarymightopentheletter。

JudyPS。I’mveryunhappy。

LOCKWILLOW,3rdOctoberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Yournotewritteninyourownhand——andaprettywobblyhand!——

camethismorning。Iamsosorrythatyouhavebeenill;Iwouldn’thavebotheredyouwithmyaffairsifIhadknown。Yes,Iwilltellyouthetrouble,butit’ssortofcomplicatedtowrite,andVERYPRIVATE。

Pleasedon’tkeepthisletter,butburnit。

BeforeIbegin——here’sachequeforonethousanddollars。

Itseemsfunny,doesn’tit,formetobesendingachequetoyou?

WheredoyouthinkIgotit?

I’vesoldmystory,Daddy。It’sgoingtobepublishedseriallyinsevenparts,andtheninabook!YoumightthinkI’dbewildwithjoy,butI’mnot。I’mentirelyapathetic。OfcourseI’mgladtobeginpayingyou——Ioweyouovertwothousandmore。It’scomingininstalments。Nowdon’tbehorrid,please,abouttakingit,becauseitmakesmehappytoreturnit。Ioweyouagreatdealmorethanthemeremoney,andtherestIwillcontinuetopayallmylifeingratitudeandaffection。

Andnow,Daddy,abouttheotherthing;pleasegivemeyourmostworldlyadvice,whetheryouthinkI’lllikeitornot。

YouknowthatI’vealwayshadaveryspecialfeelingtowardsyou;

yousortofrepresentedmywholefamily;butyouwon’tmind,willyou,ifItellyouthatIhaveaverymuchmorespecialfeelingforanotherman?Youcanprobablyguesswithoutmuchtroublewhoheis。

IsuspectthatmylettershavebeenveryfullofMasterJervieforaverylongtime。

IwishIcouldmakeyouunderstandwhatheislikeandhowentirelycompanionableweare。Wethinkthesameabouteverything——

IamafraidIhaveatendencytomakeovermyideastomatchhis!

Butheisalmostalwaysright;heoughttobe,youknow,forhehasfourteenyears’startofme。Inotherways,though,he’sjustanovergrownboy,andhedoesneedlookingafter——

hehasn’tanysenseaboutwearingrubberswhenitrains。HeandI

alwaysthinkthesamethingsarefunny,andthatissuchalot;

it’sdreadfulwhentwopeople’ssensesofhumourareantagonistic。

Idon’tbelievethere’sanybridgingthatgulf!

Andheis——Oh,well!Heisjusthimself,andImisshim,andmisshim,andmisshim。Thewholeworldseemsemptyandaching。Ihatethemoonlightbecauseit’sbeautifulandheisn’theretoseeitwithme。

Butmaybeyou’velovedsomebody,too,andyouknow?Ifyouhave,Idon’tneedtoexplain;ifyouhaven’t,Ican’texplain。

Anyway,that’sthewayIfeel——andI’verefusedtomarryhim。

Ididn’ttellhimwhy;Iwasjustdumbandmiserable。Icouldn’tthinkofanythingtosay。AndnowhehasgoneawayimaginingthatIwanttomarryJimmieMcBride——Idon’tintheleast,Iwouldn’tthinkofmarryingJimmie;heisn’tgrownupenough。

ButMasterJervieandIgotintoadreadfulmuddleofmisunderstandingandwebothhurteachother’sfeelings。ThereasonIsenthimawaywasnotbecauseIdidn’tcareforhim,butbecauseIcaredforhimsomuch。Iwasafraidhewouldregretitinthefuture——

andIcouldn’tstandthat!Itdidn’tseemrightforapersonofmylackofantecedentstomarryintoanysuchfamilyashis。

Inevertoldhimabouttheorphanasylum,andIhatedtoexplainthatIdidn’tknowwhoIwas。ImaybeDREADFUL,youknow。

Andhisfamilyareproud——andI’mproud,too!

Also,Ifeltsortofboundtoyou。Afterhavingbeeneducatedtobeawriter,Imustatleasttrytobeone;itwouldscarcelybefairtoacceptyoureducationandthengooffandnotuseit。

ButnowthatIamgoingtobeabletopaybackthemoney,IfeelthatIhavepartiallydischargedthatdebt——besides,IsupposeIcouldkeeponbeingawriterevenifIdidmarry。Thetwoprofessionsarenotnecessarilyexclusive。

I’vebeenthinkingveryhardaboutit。OfcourseheisaSocialist,andhehasunconventionalideas;maybehewouldn’tmindmarryingintotheproletariatsomuchassomemenmight。Perhapswhentwopeopleareexactlyinaccord,andalwayshappywhentogetherandlonelywhenapart,theyoughtnottoletanythingintheworldstandbetweenthem。

OfcourseIWANTtobelievethat!ButI’dliketogetyourunemotionalopinion。YouprobablybelongtoaFamilyalso,andwilllookatitfromaworldlypointofviewandnotjustasympathetic,humanpointofview——soyouseehowbraveIamtolayitbeforeyou。

SupposeIgotohimandexplainthatthetroubleisn’tJimmie,butistheJohnGrierHome——wouldthatbeadreadfulthingformetodo?Itwouldtakeagreatdealofcourage。I’dalmostratherbemiserablefortherestofmylife。

Thishappenednearlytwomonthsago;Ihaven’theardawordfromhimsincehewashere。Iwasjustgettingsortofacclimatedtothefeelingofabrokenheart,whenalettercamefromJuliathatstirredmeallupagain。Shesaid——verycasually——that`UncleJervis’

hadbeencaughtoutallnightinastormwhenhewashuntinginCanada,andhadbeenilleversincewithpneumonia。AndIneverknewit。

Iwasfeelinghurtbecausehehadjustdisappearedintoblanknesswithoutaword。Ithinkhe’sprettyunhappy,andIknowIam!

Whatseemstoyoutherightthingformetodo?

Judy6thOctoberDearestDaddy-Long-Legs,Yes,certainlyI’llcome——athalf-pastfournextWednesdayafternoon。

OfCOURSEIcanfindtheway。I’vebeeninNewYorkthreetimesandamnotquiteababy。Ican’tbelievethatIamreallygoingtoseeyou——

I’vebeenjustTHINKINGyousolongthatithardlyseemsasthoughyouareatangibleflesh-and-bloodperson。

Youareawfullygood,Daddy,tobotheryourselfwithme,whenyou’renotstrong。Takecareanddon’tcatchcold。Thesefallrainsareverydamp。

Affectionately,JudyPS。I’vejusthadanawfulthought。Haveyouabutler?I’mafraidofbutlers,andifoneopensthedoorIshallfaintuponthestep。

WhatcanIsaytohim?Youdidn’ttellmeyourname。ShallIaskforMr。Smith?

ThursdayMorningMyVeryDearestMaster-Jervie-Daddy-Long-LegsPendleton-Smith,Didyousleeplastnight?Ididn’t。Notasinglewink。Iwastooamazedandexcitedandbewilderedandhappy。Idon’tbelieveIevershallsleepagain——oreateither。ButIhopeyouslept;

youmust,youknow,becausethenyouwillgetwellfasterandcancometome。

DearMan,Ican’tbeartothinkhowillyou’vebeen——andallthetimeIneverknewit。Whenthedoctorcamedownyesterdaytoputmeinthecab,hetoldmethatforthreedaystheygaveyouup。

Oh,dearest,ifthathadhappened,thelightwouldhavegoneoutoftheworldforme。Isupposethatsomedayinthefarfuture——

oneofusmustleavetheother;butatleastweshallhavehadourhappinessandtherewillbememoriestolivewith。

Imeanttocheeryouup——andinsteadIhavetocheermyself。

ForinspiteofbeinghappierthanIeverdreamedIcouldbe,I’malsosoberer。Thefearthatsomethingmayhappenrestslikeashadowonmyheart。AlwaysbeforeIcouldbefrivolousandcare-freeandunconcerned,becauseIhadnothingprecioustolose。

Butnow——IshallhaveaGreatBigWorryalltherestofmylife。

WheneveryouareawayfrommeIshallbethinkingofalltheautomobilesthatcanrunoveryou,orthesign-boardsthatcanfallonyourhead,orthedreadful,squirmygermsthatyoumaybeswallowing。Mypeaceofmindisgoneforever——butanyway,Inevercaredmuchforjustplainpeace。

Pleasegetwell——fast——fast——fast。IwanttohaveyouclosebywhereIcantouchyouandmakesureyouaretangible。Suchalittlehalfhourwehadtogether!I’mafraidmaybeIdreamedit。

IfIwereonlyamemberofyourfamily(averydistantfourthcousin)

thenIcouldcomeandvisityoueveryday,andreadaloudandplumpupyourpillowandsmoothoutthosetwolittlewrinklesinyourforeheadandmakethecornersofyourmouthturnupinanicecheerfulsmile。

Butyouarecheerfulagain,aren’tyou?YouwereyesterdaybeforeIleft。ThedoctorsaidImustbeagoodnurse,thatyoulookedtenyearsyounger。Ihopethatbeinginlovedoesn’tmakeeveryonetenyearsyounger。Willyoustillcareforme,darling,ifI

turnouttobeonlyeleven?

Yesterdaywasthemostwonderfuldaythatcouldeverhappen。

IfIlivetobeninety-nineIshallneverforgetthetiniestdetail。

ThegirlthatleftLockWillowatdawnwasaverydifferentpersonfromtheonewhocamebackatnight。Mrs。Semplecalledmeathalf-pastfour。

Istartedwideawakeinthedarknessandthefirstthoughtthatpoppedintomyheadwas,`IamgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!’Iatebreakfastinthekitchenbycandle-light,andthendrovethefivemilestothestationthroughthemostgloriousOctobercolouring。

Thesuncameupontheway,andtheswampmaplesanddogwoodglowedcrimsonandorangeandthestonewallsandcornfieldssparkledwithhoarfrost;theairwaskeenandclearandfullofpromise。

Iknewsomethingwasgoingtohappen。Allthewayinthetraintherailskeptsinging,`You’regoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs。’

Itmademefeelsecure。IhadsuchfaithinDaddy’sabilitytosetthingsright。AndIknewthatsomewhereanotherman——dearerthanDaddy——

waswantingtoseeme,andsomehowIhadafeelingthatbeforethejourneyendedIshouldmeethim,too。Andyousee!

WhenIcametothehouseonMadisonAvenueitlookedsobigandbrownandforbiddingthatIdidn’tdaregoin,soIwalkedaroundtheblocktogetupmycourage。ButIneedn’thavebeenabitafraid;

yourbutlerissuchanice,fatherlyoldmanthathemademefeelathomeatonce。`IsthisMissAbbott?’hesaidtome,andIsaid,`Yes,’soIdidn’thavetoaskforMr。Smithafterall。

Hetoldmetowaitinthedrawing-room。Itwasaverysombre,magnificent,man’ssortofroom。Isatdownontheedgeofabigupholsteredchairandkeptsayingtomyself:

`I’mgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!I’mgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!’

Thenpresentlythemancamebackandaskedmepleasetostepuptothelibrary。Iwassoexcitedthatreallyandtrulymyfeetwouldhardlytakemeup。Outsidethedoorheturnedandwhispered,`He’sbeenveryill,Miss。Thisisthefirstdayhe’sbeenallowedtositup。You’llnotstaylongenoughtoexcitehim?’

Iknewfromthewayhesaiditthathelovedyou——anIthinkhe’sanolddear!

Thenheknockedandsaid,`MissAbbott,’andIwentinandthedoorclosedbehindme。

ItwassodimcominginfromthebrightlylightedhallthatforamomentIcouldscarcelymakeoutanything;thenIsawabigeasychairbeforethefireandashiningteatablewithasmallerchairbesideit。AndIrealizedthatamanwassittinginthebigchairproppedupbypillowswitharugoverhisknees。BeforeIcouldstophimherose——rathershakily——andsteadiedhimselfbythebackofthechairandjustlookedatmewithoutaword。Andthen——

andthen——Isawitwasyou!ButevenwiththatIdidn’tunderstand。

IthoughtDaddyhadhadyoucometheretomeetmeorasurprise。

Thenyoulaughedandheldoutyourhandandsaid,`DearlittleJudy,couldn’tyouguessthatIwasDaddy-Long-Legs?’

Inaninstantitflashedoverme。Oh,butIhavebeenstupid!

Ahundredlittlethingsmighthavetoldme,ifIhadhadanywits。

Iwouldn’tmakeaverygooddetective,wouldI,Daddy?Jervie?

WhatmustIcallyou?JustplainJerviesoundsdisrespectful,andI

can’tbedisrespectfultoyou!

Itwasaverysweethalfhourbeforeyourdoctorcameandsentmeaway。

IwassodazedwhenIgottothestationthatIalmosttookatrainforStLouis。Andyouwereprettydazed,too。Youforgottogivemeanytea。Butwe’rebothvery,veryhappy,aren’twe?IdrovebacktoLockWillowinthedarkbutoh,howthestarswereshining!

AndthismorningI’vebeenoutwithColinvisitingalltheplacesthatyouandIwenttotogether,andrememberingwhatyousaidandhowyoulooked。Thewoodstodayareburnishedbronzeandtheairisfulloffrost。It’sCLIMBINGweather。Iwishyouwereheretoclimbthehillswithme。Iammissingyoudreadfully,Jerviedear,butit’sahappykindofmissing;we’llbetogethersoon。Webelongtoeachothernowreallyandtruly,nomake-believe。Doesn’titseemqueerformetobelongtosomeoneatlast?Itseemsvery,verysweet。

AndIshallneverletyoubesorryforasingleinstant。

Yours,foreverandever,JudyPS。Thisisthefirstlove-letterIeverwrote。Isn’titfunnythatIknowhow?