第2章

CantoIII。

YettothewondrousSt。Peter’s,andyettothesolemnRotunda,Minglingwithheroesandgods,yettotheVaticanWalls,Yetmaywego,andrecline,whileawholemightyworldseemsaboveus,Gatheredandfixedtoalltimeintooneroofingsupreme;

Yetmaywe,thinkingonthesethings,excludewhatismeaneraroundus;

Yet,attheworstoftheworst,booksandachamberremain;

Yetmaywethink,andforget,andpossessoursoulsinresistance。——

Ah,butawayfromthestir,shouting,andgossipofwar,Where,uponApennineslope,withthechestnuttheoak-treesimmingle,Where,amidodorouscopsebridle-pathswanderandwind,Where,undermulberry-branches,thediligentrivuletsparkles,Oramidcottonandmaizepeasantstheirwater-worksply,Where,overfig-treeandorangeintierupontierstillrepeated,Gardenongardenupreared,balconiessteptothesky,——

Ah,thatIwerefarawayfromthecrowdandthestreetsofthecity,Underthevine-trellislaid,Omybeloved,withthee!

I。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper,——onthewaytoFlorence。

Whydoesn’tMr。Claudecomewithus?youask。——Wedon’tknow,Youshouldknowbetterthanwe。HetalkedoftheVaticanmarbles;

ButIcan’twhollybelievethatthiswastheactualreason,——

Hewassoreadybefore,whenweaskedhimtocomeandescortus。

Certainlyheisodd,mydearMissRoper。TochangesoSuddenly,justforawhim,wasnotquitefairtotheparty,——

Notquiteright。Ideclare,Ireallyalmostamoffended:

I,hisgreatfriend,asyousay,havedoubtlessatitletobeso。

NotthatIgreatlyregretit,fordearGeorginadistinctlyWishesfornothingsomuchastoshowheradroitness。But,oh,myPenwillnotwriteanymore;——letussaynothingfurtheraboutit。

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Yes,mydearMissRoper,Icertainlycalledhimrepulsive;

SoIthinkhim,butcannotbesureIhaveusedtheexpressionQuiteasyourpupilshould;yethedoesmosttrulyrepelme。

WasittoyouImadeuseoftheword?orwhowasittoldyou?

Yes,repulsive;observe,itisbutwhenhetalksofideasThatheisquiteunaffected,andfree,andexpansive,andeasy;

Icouldpronouncehimsimplyacoldintellectualbeing。——

Whendoeshemakeadvances?——Hethinksthatwomenshouldwoohim;

Yet,ifagirlshoulddoso,wouldbebutalarmedanddisgusted。

Shethatshouldlovehimmustlookforsmallloveinreturn,——liketheivyOnthestonewall,mustexpectbutarigidandniggardsupport,andE’entogetthatmustgosearchingallroundwithherhumbleembraces。

II。ClaudetoEustace,——fromRome。

Tellme,myfriend,doyouthinkthatthegrainwouldsproutinthefurrow,DiditnottrulyacceptasitssummumandultimumbonumThatmerecommonandmay-beindifferentsoilitissetin?

Wouldithaveforcetodevelopandopenitsyoungcotyledons,Coulditcompare,andreflect,andexamineonethingwithanother?

WoulditenduretoaccomplishtheroundofitsnaturalfunctionsWereitendowedwithasenseofthegeneralschemeofexistence?

WhilefromMarseillesinthesteamerwevoyagetoCivitaVecchia,VexedinthesquallyseasaswelaybyCaprajaandElba,Standing,uplifted,aloneontheheavingpoopofthevessel,Lookingaroundonthewasteoftherushingincuriousbillows,’ThisisNature,’Isaid:’wearebornasitwerefromherwaters;

Overherbillowsthatbuffetandbeatus,heroffspringuncared-for,Castingonesingleregardofapainfulvictoriousknowledge,Intoherbillowsthatbuffetandbeatuswesinkandareswallowed。’

Thiswasthesenseinmysoul,asIswayedwiththepoopofthesteamer;

AndasunthinkingIsatinthehallofthefamedAriadne,Lo,itlookedatmetherefromthefaceofaTritoninmarble。

Itisthesimplerthought,andIcanbelieveitthetruer。

Letusnottalkofgrowth;wearestillinourAqueousAges。

III。ClaudetoEustace。

Farewell,Politics,utterly!WhatcanIdo?IcannotFight,youknow;andtotalkIamwhollyashamed。AndalthoughI

GnashmyteethwhenIlookinyourFrenchoryourEnglishpapers,Whatisthegoodofthat?Willswearing,Iwonder,mendmatters?

Cursingandscoldingrepeltheassailants?No,itisidle;

No,whateverbefalls,Iwillhide,willignoreorforgetit。

Letthetailshiftforitself;Iwillburymyhead。Andwhat’stheRomanRepublictome,orItotheRomanRepublic?

Whynotfight?——Inthefirstplace,Ihaven’tsomuchasamusket;

Inthenext,ifIhad,Ishouldn’tknowhowIshoulduseit;

Inthethird,justatpresentI’mstudyingancientmarbles;

Inthefourth,IconsiderIowemylifetomycountry;

Inthefifth——Iforget,butfourgoodreasonsareample。

Meantime,praylet’emfight,andbekilled。Idelightindevotion。

SothatI’listnot,hurrahforthegloriousarmyofmartyrs!

SanguismartyrumsemenEcclesiae;thoughitwouldseemthisChurchisindeedofthepurelyInvisible,Kingdom-comekind:

Militanthereonearth!Triumphant,ofcourse,then,elsewhere!

Ah,goodHeaven,butIwouldIwereoutfarawayfromthepother!

IV。ClaudetoEustace。

Not,aswereadinthewordsoftheolden-timeinspiration,Aretheretwoseveraltreesintheplacewearesettoabidein;

ButontheapexmosthighoftheTreeofLifeintheGarden,Budding,unfolding,andfalling,decayingandfloweringever,FloweringissetanddecayingthetransientblossomofKnowledge,——

Floweringalone,anddecaying,theneedlessunfruitfulblossom。

Orasthecypress-spiresbythefair-flowingstreamHellespontine,WhichfromthemythicaltombofthegodlikeProtesilausRosesympatheticingrieftohislove-lornLaodamia,Evermoregrowing,andwhenintheirgrowthtotheprospectattaining,Overthelowsea-banks,ofthefatalIliancity,Witheringstillatthesightwhichstilltheyupgrowtoencounter。

Ah,butyethatextrudefromtheoceanyourhelplessfaces,Yeoverstormyseasleadinglonganddrearyprocessions,Ye,too,broodofthewind,whosecomingiswhencewediscernnot,Makingyournestonthewave,andyourbedonthecrestedbillow,Skimmingroughwaters,andcrowdingwetsandsthatthetideshallreturnto,Cormorants,ducks,andgulls,fillyemyimagination!

Letusnottalkofgrowth;wearestillinourAqueousAges。

V。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper,——fromFlorence。

DearestMissRoper,——Alas!weareallatFlorencequitesafe,andYou,wehear,areshutup!indeed,itissadlydistressing!

Weweremostlucky,theysay,togetoffwhenwedidfromthetroubles。

Nowyouarereallybesieged;theytellusitsoonwillbeover;

OnlyIhopeandtrustwithoutanyfightinthecity。

DoyouseeMr。Claude?——Ithoughthemightdosomethingforyou。

Iamquitesureonoccasionhereallywouldwishtobeuseful。

Whatishedoing?Iwonder;——stillstudyingVaticanmarbles?

Letters,Ihope,passthrough。Wetrustyourbrotherisbetter。

VI。ClaudetoEustace。

Juxtaposition,infine;andwhatisjuxtaposition?

Lookyou,wetravelalongintherailway-carriageorsteamer,And,pourpasserletemps,tillthetediousjourneybeended,Layasidepaperorbook,totalkwiththegirlthatisnextone;

And,pourpasserletemps,withtheterminusallbutinprospect,Talkofeternaltiesandmarriagesmadeinheaven。

Ah,didwereallyacceptwithaperfecthearttheillusion!

Ah,didwereallybelievethatthePresentindeedistheOnly!

Orthroughalltransmutation,allshockandconvulsionofpassion,Feelwecouldcarryundimmed,unextinguished,thelightofourknowledge!

Butforhisfuneraltrainwhichthebridegroomseesinthedistance,Wouldhesojoyfully,thinkyou,fallinwiththemarriageprocession?

Butforthatfinaldischarge,wouldhedaretoenlistinthatservice?

Butforthatcertainrelease,eversigntothatperilouscontract?

Butforthatexitsecure,everbendtothattreacherousdoorway?——

Ah,butthebride,meantime,——doyouthinksheseesitashedoes?

Butforthesteadyfore-senseofafreerandlargerexistence,Thinkyouthatmancouldconsenttobecircumscribedhereintoaction?

Butforassurancewithinalimitlessoceandivine,o’erWhosegreattranquildepthsunconsciousthewind-tostsurfaceBreaksintoripplesoftroublethatcomeandchangeandendurenot,——

Butthatinthis,ofatruth,wehaveourbeing,andknowit,Thinkyouwemencouldsubmittoliveandmoveaswedohere?

Ah,butthewomen,——Godblessthem!theydon’tthinkatallaboutit。

Yetwemusteatanddrink,asyousay。AndaslimitedbeingsScarcelycanhopetoattainuponearthtoanActualAbstract,LeavingtoGodcontemplation,toHishandsknowledgeconfiding,Surethatinusifitperish,inHimitabidethanddiesnot,LetusinHissightaccomplishourpettyparticulardoings,——

Yes,andcontentedsitdowntothevictualthatHehasprovided。

Allahisgreat,nodoubt,andJuxtapositionhisprophet。

Ah,butthewomen,alas!theydon’tlookatitthatway。

Juxtapositionisgreat;——but,myfriend,Ifearme,themaidenHardlywouldthankoracknowledgetheloverthatsoughttoobtainher,Notasthethinghewouldwish,butthethinghemustevenputupwith,——

HardlywouldtenderherhandtothewooerthatcandidlytoldherThatsheisbutforaspace,anad-interimsolaceandpleasure,——

Thatintheendsheshallyieldtoaperfectandabsolutesomething,WhichIthenformyselfshallbehold,andnotanother,——

Whichamidfondestendearments,meantimeIforgetnot,forsakenotAh,yefemininesouls,soloving,andsoexacting,Sincewecannotescape,mustweevensubmittodeceiveyou?

Since,socruelistruth,sincerityshocksandrevoltsyou,Willyouhaveusyourslavestolietoyou,flatterand——leaveyou?

VII。ClaudetoEustace。

Juxtapositionisgreat,——but,youtellme,affinitygreater。

Ah,myfriend,therearemanyaffinities,greaterandlesser,Strongerandweaker;andeach,bythefavourofjuxtaposition,Potent,efficient,inforce,——foratime;butnone,letmetellyou,Savebythelawofthelandandtheruinousforceofthewill,ah,None,Ifearme,atlastquitesuretobefinalandperfect。

Lo,asIpaceinthestreet,fromthepeasant-girltotheprincess,Homosum,nihilhumaniamealienumputo,——

Virsum,nihilfaeminei,——ande’entotheuttermostcircle,AllthatisNature’sisI,andIallthingsthatareNature’s。

Yes,asIwalk,Ibehold,inaluminous,largeintuition,ThatIcanbeandbecomeanythingthatImeetwithorlookat:

Iamtheoxinthedray,theasswiththegarden-stuffpanniers;

Iamthedoginthedoorway,thekittenthatplaysinthewindow,Onsunnyslaboftheruinthefurtiveandfugitivelizard,Swallowabovemethattwitters,andflythatisbuzzingaboutme;

Yea,anddetect,asIgo,byafaintbutafaithfulassurance,E’enfromthestonesofthestreet,asfromrocksortreesoftheforest,Somethingofkindred,acommon,thoughlatentvitality,greetsme;

Andtoescapefromourstrivings,mistakings,misgrowths,andperversions,Faincoulddemandtoreturntothatperfectandprimitivesilence,Fainbeenfoldedandfixed,asofold,intheirrigidembraces。

VIII。ClaudetoEustace。

AndasIwalkonmyway,Ibeholdthemconsortingandcoupling;

Faithfulitseemeth,andfond,veryfond,veryprobablyfaithful,AllasIgoonmyway,withapleasuresincereandunmingled。

Lifeisbeautiful,Eustace,entrancing,enchantingtolookat;

Asarethestreetsofacitywepacewhilethecarriageischanging,Asachamberfilled-inwithharmonious,exquisitepictures,EvensobeautifulEarth;andcouldweeliminateonlyThisvilehungeringimpulse,thisdemonwithinusofcraving,Lifewerebeatitude,livingaperfectdivinesatisfaction。

IX。ClaudetoEustace。

Mildmonasticfacesinquietcollegiatecloisters:

Soletmeofferasingleandcelibatarianphrase,aTributetothosewhomperhapsyoudonotbelieveIcanhonour。

But,fromthetumultescaping,’tispleasant,ofdrummingandshouting,Hither,obliviousawhile,towithdraw,ofthefactorthefalsehood,AndamidplacidregardsandmildlycourteousgreetingsYieldtothecalmandcomposureandgentleabstractionthatreigno’erMildmonasticfacesinquietcollegiatecloisters。

Terribleword,Obligation!Youshouldnot,Eustace,youshouldnot,No,youshouldnothaveusedit。But,oh,greatHeavens,Irepelit!

Oh,Icancel,reject,disavow,andrepudiatewhollyEverydebtinthiskind,disclaimeveryclaim,anddishonour,Yea,myownheart’sownwriting,mysoul’sownsignature!Ah,no!

Iwillbefreeinthis;youshallnot,noneshall,bindme。

No,myfriend,ifyouwishtobetold,itwasthisaboveallthings,Thisthatcharmedme,ah,yes,eventhis,thatsheheldmetonothing。

No,IcouldtalkasIpleased;comeclose;fastenties,asIfancied;

Bindandengagemyselfdeep;——andlo,onthefollowingmorningItwasalle’enasbefore,likelosingsingamesplayedfornothing。

Yes,whenIcame,withmeanfearsinmysoul,withasemi-performanceAtthefirststepbreakingdowninitspitifulroleofevasion,WhentoshuffleIcame,tocompromise,notmeet,engagements,Lo,withhercalmeyesthereshemetmeandknewnothingofit,——

Stoodunexpecting,unconscious。SHEspokenotofobligations,Knewnotofdebt——ah,no,Ibelieveyou,forexcellentreasons。

X。ClaudetoEustace。

HANGthisthinking,atlast!whatgoodisit?oh,andwhatevil!

Oh,whatmischiefandpain!likeaclockinasickman’schamber,Tickingandticking,andstillthrougheachcovertofslumberpursuing。

WhatshallIdotothee,OthouPreserverofmen?Havecompassion;

Befavourable,andhear!Takefrommethisregalknowledge;

Letme,contentedandmute,withthebeastsofthefields,mybrothers,Tranquilly,happilylie,——andeatgrass,likeNebuchadnezzar!

XI。ClaudetoEustace。

Tiburisbeautiful,too,andtheorchardslopes,andtheAnioFalling,fallingyet,totheancientlyricalcadence;

TiburandAnio’stide;andcoolfromLucretilisever,WiththeDigentianstream,andwiththeBandusianfountain,FoldedinSabinerecesses,thevalleyandvillaofHorace:——

SonotseeingIsang;soseeingandlisteningsayI,HereasIsitbythestream,asIgazeatthecelloftheSibyl,HerewithAlbunea’shomeandthegroveofTiburnusbesideme;*

Tivolibeautifulis,andmusical,OTeverone,Dashingfrommountaintoplain,thypartedimpetuouswaters,Tivoli’swatersandrocks;andfairuntoMonteGennaro(Haunt,evenyet,Imustthink,asIwanderandgaze,oftheshadows,Fadedandpale,yetimmortal,ofFaunus,theNymphs,andtheGraces)。

Fairinitself,andyetfairerwithhumancompletingcreations,FoldedinSabinerecessesthevalleyandvillaofHorace:——

SonotseeingIsang;sonow——Norseeing,norhearing,Neitherbywaterfalllulled,norfoldedinsylvanembraces,NeitherbycelloftheSibyl,norsteppingtheMonteGennaro,SeatedonAnio’sbank,norsippingBandusianwaters,ButonMontorio’sheight,lookingdownonthetile-cladstreets,theCupolas,crosses,anddomes,thebushesandkitchen-gardens,Which,bythegraceoftheTibur,proclaimthemselvesRomeoftheRomans,——

ButonMontorio’sheight,lookingforthtothevapourymountains,CheatingtheprisonerHopewithillusionsofvisionandfancy,——

ButonMontorio’sheight,withthesewearysoldiersbyme,WaitingtillOudinotenter,toreinstatePopeandTourist。

*——domusAlbuneaeresonantis,EtpraecepsAnio,etTibunilucus,etudaMobilibuspomariarivisXII。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。

DearMissRoper,——Itseems,GeorgeVernon,beforeweleftRome,saidSomethingtoMr。Claudeaboutwhattheycallhisattentions。

Susan,twonightsago,forthefirsttime,heardthisfromGeorgina。

ItisSOdisagreeableandSOannoyingtothinkof!

Ifitcouldonlybeknown,thoughwemaynevermeethimagain,thatItwasallGeorge’sdoing,andwewereentirelyunconscious,Itwouldextremelyrelieve——YoureveraffectionateMary。

P。S。(1)

Hereisyourletterarrivedthismoment,justasIwanted。

Soyouhaveseenhim,——indeed,andguessed,——howdreadfullyclever!

Whatdidhereallysay?andwhatwasyouranswerexactly?

Charming!——butwaitforamoment,Ihaven’treadthroughtheletter。

P。S。(2)

Ah,mydearestMissRoper,dojustasyoufancyaboutit。

IfyouthinkitsincerertotellhimIknowofit,doso。

ThoughIshouldmostextremelydislikeit,IknowIcouldmanage。

Itisthesimplestthing,butsurelywhollyuncalledfor。

Doasyouplease;youknowItrustimplicitlytoyou。

Saywhateverisrightandneedfulforendingthematter。

Onlydon’ttellMr。Claude,whatIwilltellyouasasecret,ThatIshouldlikeverywelltoshowhimmyselfIforgetit。

P。S。(3)

IamtosaythattheweddingisfinallysettledforTuesday。

Ah,mydearMissRoper,yousurely,surelycanmanageNottoletitappearthatIknowofthatodiousmatter。

ItwouldbepleasanterfarformyselftotreatitexactlyAsifithadnotoccurred:andIdonotthinkhewouldlikeit。

Imustremembertoadd,thatassoonastheweddingisoverWeshallbeoff,Ibelieve,inahurry,andtraveltoMilan;

TheretomeetfriendsofPapa’s,Iamtold,attheCrocediMaltaThenIcannotsaywhither,butnotatpresenttoEngland。

XIII。ClaudetoEustace。

Yes,onMontorio’sheightforalastfarewellofthecity,——

Soitappears;thoughthenIwasquiteuncertainaboutit。

So,however,itwas。Andnowtoexplaintheproceeding。

Iwastogo,asItoldyou,Ithink,withthepeopletoFlorence。

Onlythedaybefore,thefoolishfamilyVernonMadesomeuneasyremarks,aswewalkedtoourlodgingtogether,Astointentionsforsooth,andsoforth。Iwasastounded,Horrifiedquite;andobtainingjustthen,asithappened,anoffer(Nocommonfavour)ofseeingthegreatLudovisicollection,Why,Imadethisapretence,andwrotethattheymustexcuseme。

HowcouldIgo?GreatHeavens!toconductapermittedflirtationUnderthosevulgareyes,theobservedofsuchobservers!

Well,butInow,byaseriesoffinediplomaticinquiries,Findfromasortofrelation,agoodandsensiblewoman,WhoisremainingatRomewithabrothertooillforremoval,Thatitwaswhollyunsanctioned,unknown,——not,Ithink,byGeorgina:

She,however,erethis,——andthatisthebestofthestory,——

SheandtheVernon,thankHeaven,areweddedandgone——honey-mooning。

So——onMontorio’sheightforalastfarewellofthecity。

TiburIhavenotseen,northelakesthatofoldIhaddreamtof;

TiburIshallnotsee,norAnio’swaters,nordeepen-

FoldedinSabinerecessesthevalleyandvillaofHorace;

TiburIshallnotsee;——butsomethingbetterIshallsee。

TwiceIhavetriedbefore,andfailedingettingthehorses;

TwiceIhavetriedandfailed:thistimeitshallnotbeafailure。

Thereforefarewell,yehills,andye,yeenvineyardedruins!

Thereforefarewell,yewalls,palaces,pillars,anddomes!

Thereforefarewell,farseen,yepeaksofthemythicAlbano,SeenfromMontorio’sheight,TiburandAesula’shills!

Ah,couldweonce,erewego,couldwestand,while,tooceandescending,Sinkso’ertheyellowdarkplainslowlytheyellowbroadsun,Stand,fromtheforestemergingatsunset,atonceinthechampaign,Open,butstuddedwithtrees,chestnutsumbrageousandold,E’eninthosefairopenfieldsthatincurvetothybeautifulhollow,Nemi,imbeddedinwood,Nemi,inurnedinthehill!——

Thereforefarewell,yeplains,andyehills,andtheCityEternal!

Thereforefarewell!Wedepart,buttobeholdyouagain!

CantoIV。

Eastward,orNorthward,orWest?IwanderandaskasIwander;

Weary,yeteagerandsure,WhereshallIcometomylove?

Whitherwardhastentoseekher?YedaughtersofItaly,tellme,Gracefulandtenderanddark,issheconsortingwithyou?

Thouthatout-climbestthetorrent,thattendestthygoatstothesummit,Calltome,childoftheAlp,hasshebeenseenontheheights?

Italy,farewellIbidthee!forwhithersheleadsme,Ifollow。

Farewellthevineyard!forI,whereIbutguessher,mustgo;

Wearinesswelcome,andlabour,whereveritbe,ifatlastitBringmeinmountainorplainintothesightofmylove。

I。ClaudetoEustace,——fromFlorence。

GonefromFlorence;indeed!andthatistrulyprovoking;——

GonetoMilan,itseems;thenIgoalsotoMilan。

Fivedaysnowdeparted;buttheycantravelbutslowly;——

Iquickerfar;andIknow,asithappens,thehometheywillgoto。——

Why,whatelseshouldIdo?Stayhereandlookatthepictures,Statuesandchurches?Alack,Iamsickofthestatuesandpictures!——

No,toBologna,Parma,Piacenza,Lodi,andMilan,Offgoweto-night,——andtheVenusgototheDevil!

II。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

GonetoComo,theysaid;andIhavepostedtoComo。

Therewasaletterleft;butthecamerierehadlostit。

Couldithavebeenforme?Theycame,however,toComo,AndfromComowentbytheboat,——perhapstotheSpluegen,——

OrtotheStelvio,say,andtheTyrol;alsoitmightbeByPorlezzaacrosstoLugano,andsototheSimplonPossibly,ortheSt。Gothard,——orpossibly,too,toBaveno,Orta,Turin,andelsewhere。Indeed,Iamgreatlybewildered。

III。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

IhavebeenuptheSpluegen,andontheStelvioalso:

NeitherofthesecanIfindtheyhavefollowed;innooneinn,andThiswouldbeodd,havetheywrittentheirnames。IhavebeentoPorlezza;

Theretheyhavenotbeenseen,andthereforenotatLugano。

WhatshallIdo?GoonthroughtheTyrol,Switzerland,Deutschland,Seeking,aninverseSaul,akingdomtofindonlyasses?

Thereisatide,atleast,intheLOVEaffairsofmortals,Which,whentakenatflood,leadsontothehappiestfortune,——

Leadstothemarriage-mornandtheorange-flowersandthealtar,Andthelonglawfullineofcrownedjoystocrownedjoyssucceeding。——

Ah,ithasebbedwithme!Yegods,andwhenitwasflowing,PitifulfoolthatIwas,tostandfiddle-faddlinginthatway!

IV。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

IhavereturnedandfoundtheirnamesinthebookatComo。

CertainitisIwasright,andyetIamalsoinerror。

Addedinfemininehand,Iread,BytheboattoBellaggio。——

SotoBellaggioagain,withthewordsofhewritingtoaidme。

YetatBellaggioIfindnotrace,nosortofremembrance。

SoIamhere,andwait,andknoweveryhourwillremovethem。

V。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

Ihavebutonechanceleft,——andthatisgoingtoFlorence。

Butitiscrueltoturn。Themountainsseemtodemandme,——

Peakandvalleyfromfartobeckonandmotionmeonward。

SomewhereamidtheirfoldsshepasseswhomfainIwouldfollow;

Somewhereamidthoseheightsshehaplycallsmetoseekher。

Ah,couldIhearhercall!couldIcatchtheglimpseofherraiment!

Turn,however,Imust,thoughitseemIturntodeserther;

ForthesenseofthethingissimplytohurrytoFlorence,Wherethecertaintyyetmaybelearnt,Isuppose,fromtheRopers。

VI。MaryTrevellyn,fromLucerne,toMissRoper,atFlorence。

DearMissRoper,——Bythisyouaresafelyaway,wearehoping,ManyaleaguefromRome;erelongwetrustweshallseeyou。

Howhaveyoutravelled?Iwonder;——wasMr。Claudeyourcompanion?

Asforourselves,wewentfromComostraighttoLugano;

SobytheMountSt。Gothard;wemeanttogobyPorlezza,Takingthesteamer,andstopping,asyouhadadvised,atBellaggio,Twoorthreedaysormore;butthiswassuddenlyaltered,Afterweleftthehotel,ontheverywaytothesteamer。

Sowehaveseen,Ifear,notoneofthelakesinperfection。

Well,heisnotcome,andnow,Isuppose,hewillnotcome。

Whatwillyouthink,meantime?andyetImustreallyconfessit;——

Whatwillyousay?Iwrotehimanote。Weleftinahurry,WentfromMilantoComo,threedaysbeforeweexpected。

ButIthought,ifhecameallthewaytoMilan,hereallyOughtnottobedisappointed:andsoIwrotethreelinestoSayIhadheardhewascoming,desirousofjoiningourparty;——

Ifso,thenIsaid,wehadstartedforComo,andmeanttoCrosstheSt。Gothard,andstay,webelieved,atLucerne,forthesummer。

Wasitwrong?andwhy,ifitwas,hasitfailedtobringhim?

DidhenotthinkitworthwhiletocometoMilan?Heknew(youToldhim)thehouseweshouldgoto。Ormayit,perhaps,havemiscarried?

Anyway,now,Irepent,andamheartilyvexedthatIwroteit。

ThereisahomeontheshoreoftheAlpinesea,thatupswellingHighupthemountain-sidesspreadsinthehollowbetween;

Wilderness,mountain,andsnowfromthelandoftheoliveconcealit;

UnderPilatus’shilllowbytheriveritlies;

Italy,uttertheword,andtheoliveandvinewillallurenot,——

Wilderness,forest,andsnowwillnotthepassageimpede;

Italy,untothycitiesreceding,thecluetorecover,Hither,recoveredtheclue,shallnotthetravellerhaste?

CantoV。

Thereisacity,upbuiltonthequaysoftheturbulentArno,UnderFiesole’sheights,——thitherarewetoreturn?

Thereisacitythatfringesthecurveoftheinflowingwaters,Undertheperiloushillfringesthebeautifulbay,——

Parthenope,dotheycallthee?——theSiren,Neapolis,seatedUnderVesevus’shill,——arewerecedingtothee?——

Sicily,Greece,willinvite,andtheOrient;——orareweturntoEngland,whichmayafterallbeforitschildrenthebest?

I。MaryTrevellyn,atLucerne,toMissRoper,atFlorence。

Soyouarereallyfree,andlivinginquietatFlorence;

Thatisdelightfulnews;youtravelledslowlyandsafely;

Mr。Claudegotyouout;tookroomsatFlorencebeforeyou;

WrotefromMilantosayso;hadleftdirectlyforMilan,Hopingtofindussoon;——ifhecould,hewould,youarecertain。——

DearMissRoper,yourletterhasmademeexceedinglyhappy。

Youarequitesure,yousay,heaskedyouaboutourintentions;

YouhadnotheardasyetofLucerne,buttoldhimofComo。——

Well,perhapshewillcome;however,Iwillnotexpectit。

Thoughyousayyouaresure,——ifhecan,hewill,youarecertain。

Omydear,manythanksfromyoureveraffectionateMary。

II。ClaudetoEustace。

Florence。

Actionwillfurnishbelief,——butwillthatbeliefbethetrueone?

Thisisthepoint,youknow。However,itdoesn’tmuchmatter。

Whatonewants,Isuppose,istopredeterminetheaction,Soastomakeitentail,notachancebelief,butthetrueone。

Outofthequestion,yousay;ifathingisn’twrongwemaydoit。

Ah!butthisWRONG,yousee——butIdonotknowthatitmatters。

Eustace,theRopersaregone,andnoonecantellmeaboutthem。

Pisa。

Pisa,theysaytheythink,andsoIfollowtoPisa,Hitherandthitherinquiring。Iwearyofmakinginquiries。

Iamashamed,Ideclare,ofaskingpeopleaboutit。——

Whoareyourfriends?Yousaidyouhadfriendswhowouldcertainlyknowthem。

Florence。

Butitisidle,moping,andthinking,andtryingtofixherImageoncemoreandmorein,towritethewholeperfectinscriptionOverandoveragainuponeverypageofremembrance。

IhavesettledtostayatFlorencetowaitforyouranswer。

Whoareyourfriends?Writequicklyandtellme。Iwaitforyouranswer。

III。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。——atLuccaBaths。

YouareatLuccabaths,youtellme,tostayforthesummer;

Florencewasquitetoohot;youcan’tmovefurtheratpresent。

Willyounotcome,doyouthink,beforethesummerisover?

Mr。C。gotyououtwithveryconsiderabletrouble;

Andhewasusefulandkind,andseemedsohappytoserveyou。

Didn’tstaywithyoulong,buttalkedveryopenlytoyou;

Madeyoualmosthisconfessor,withoutappearingtoknowit,——

Whatabout?——andyousayyoudidn’tneedhisconfessions。

OmydearMissRoper,Idarenottrustwhatyoutellme!

Willhecome,doyouthink?Iamreallysosorryforhim。

Theydidn’tgivehimmyletteratMilan,Ifeelprettycertain。

YouhadtoldhimBellaggio。Wedidn’tgotoBellaggio;

Sohewouldmissourtrack,andperhapsnevercometoLugano,Wherewewerewritteninfull,ToLucerneacrosstheSt。Gothard。

Buthecouldwritetoyou;——youwouldtellhimwhereyouweregoing。

IV。ClaudetoEustace。

Letme,then,beartoforgether。Iwillnotclingtoherfalsely:

Nothingfactitiousorforcedshallimpairtheoldhappyrelation。

Iwillletmyselfgo,forget,nottrytoremember;

Iwillwalkonmyway,acceptthechancesthatmeetme,Freelyencountertheworld,imbibethesealienairs,andNeveraskifnewfeelingsandthoughtsareofherorofothers。

Isshenotchangingherself?——theoldimagewouldonlydeludeme。

Iwillbebold,too,andchange,——ifitmustbe。Yetifinallthings,YetifIdobutaspireevermoretotheAbsoluteonly,Ishallbedoing,Ithink,somehow,whatshewillbedoing;——

Ishallbethine,Omychild,someway,thoughIknownotinwhatway,Letmesubmittoforgether;Imust;Ialreadyforgether。

V。ClaudetoEustace。

Utterlyvainis,alas!thisattemptattheAbsolute,——wholly!

I,whobelievednotinher,becauseIwouldfainbelievenothing,HavetobelieveasImay,withawilful,unmeaningacceptance。

I,whorefusedtoenfastentherootsofmyfloatingexistenceIntherichearth,clingnowtothehard,nakedrockthatisleftme,——

Ah!shewasworthy,Eustace,——andthat,indeed,ismycomfort,——

WorthyanoblerheartthanafoolsuchasIcouldhavegivenher。

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Yes,itrelievesmetowrite,thoughIdonotsend,andthechancethatTakesmaydestroymyfragments。Butasmenpray,withoutaskingWhetherOnereallyexisttohearordoanythingforthem,——

SimplyimpelledbytheneedofthemomenttoturntoaBeingInaconceptionofwhomthereisfreedomfromalllimitation,——

SoinyourimageIturntoanensrationisoffriendship,EvensowriteinyournameIknownottowhomnorinwhatwise。

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Therewasatime,methoughtitwasbutlatelydeparted,When,ifathingwasdeniedme,IfeltIwasboundtoattemptit;

Choicealoneshouldtake,andchoicealoneshouldsurrender。

Therewasatime,indeed,whenIhadnotretiredthusearly,Languidlythus,frompursuitofapurposeIoncehadadopted,Butitisallover,allthat!IhaveslunkfromtheperilousfieldinWhosewildstruggleofforcestheprizesoflifearecontested。

Itisover,allthat!Iamacoward,andknowit。

Courageinmecouldbeonlyfactitious,unnatural,useless。

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Comforthascometomehereinthedrearystreetsofthecity,Comfort——howdoyouthink?——withabarrel-organtobringit。

Mopingalongthestreets,andcursingmydayasIwandered,AllofasuddenmyearmetthesoundofanEnglishpsalm-tune,Comfortmeitdid,tillindeedIwasverynearcrying。

Ah,thereissomegreattruth,partial,verylikely,butneedful,Lodged,Iamstrangelysure,inthetonesoftheEnglishpsalm-tune。

Comfortitwasatleast;andImusttakewithoutquestionComfort,howeveritcome,inthedrearystreetsofthecity。

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Whatwithtrustingmyselfandseekingsupportfromwithinme,AlmostIcouldbelieveIhadgainedareligiousassurance,Formedinmyownpoorsoulagreatmoralbasistoreston。

Ah,butindeedIsee,Ifeelitfactitiousentirely;

Irefuse,reject,andputitutterlyfromme;

Iwilllookstraightout,seethings,nottrytoevadethem;

Factshallbefactforme,andtheTruththeTruthasever,Flexible,changeable,vague,andmultiform,anddoubtful-

Off,anddeparttothevoid,thousubtle,fanaticaltempter!

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Ishallbeholdtheeagain(isitso?)atanewvisitation,Oillgeniusthou!Ishallatmylife’sdissolution(Whenthepulsesareweak,andthefeeblelightofthereasonFlickers,anunfedflameretiringslowfromthesocket),Lowonasick-bedlaid,hearone,asitwere,atthedoorway,And,lookingup,seetheestandingby,lookingemptilyatme;

Ishallentreattheethen,thoughnowIdaretorefusethee,——

Paleandpitifulnow,butterriblethentothedying。——

Well,Iwillseetheeagain,andwhileIcan,willrepelthee。

VI。ClaudetoEustace。

Romeisfallen,Ihear,thegallantMedicitaken,NobleManaraslain,andGaribaldihaslostilMoro;——

Romeisfallen;andfallen,orfalling,heroicalVenice。

I,meanwhile,forthelossofasinglesmallchitofagirl,sitMopingandmourninghere,——forher,andmyselfmuchsmaller。

Whitherdepartthesoulsofthebravethatdieinthebattle,Dieinthelost,lostfight,forthecausethatperisheswiththem?

AretheyupbornefromthefieldontheslumberouspinionsofangelsUntoafar-offhome,wherethewearyrestfromtheirlabour,Andthedeepwoundsarehealed,andthebitterandburningmoistureWipedfromthegenerouseyes?ordotheylinger,unhappy,Pining,andhauntingthegraveoftheirby-gonehopeandendeavour?

Alldeclamation,alas!thoughItalk,IcarenotforRomenorItaly;feeblyandfaintly,andbutwiththelips,canlamenttheWreckoftheLombardyouth,andthevictoryoftheoppressor。

Whitherdepartthebrave?——Godknows;Icertainlydonot。

VII。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。

Hehasnotcomeasyet;andnowImustnotexpectit。

Youhavewritten,yousay,tofriendsatFlorence,toseehim,Ifheperhapsshouldreturn;——butthatissurelyunlikely。

Hashenotwrittentoyou?——hedidnotknowyourdirection。

Oh,howstrangeneveroncetohavetoldhimwhereyouweregoing!

YetifheonlywrotetoFlorence,thatwouldhavereachedyou。

Ifwhatyousayhesaidwastrue,whyhashenotdoneso?

IshegonebacktoRome,doyouthink,tohisVaticanmarbles?——

OmydearMissRoper,forgiveme!donotbeangry!——

YouhavewrittentoFlorence;——yourfriendswouldcertainlyfindhim。

Mightyounotwritetohim?——butyetitissolittlelikely!

Ishallexpectnothingmore。——Everyours,youraffectionateMary。

VIII。ClaudetoEustace。

IcannotstayatFlorence,noteventowaitforaletter。

Galleriesonlyoppressme。RemembranceofhopeIhadcherished(Almostmorethanashope,whenIpassedthroughFlorencethefirsttime)

Lieslikeaswordinmysoul。Iammoreacowardthanever,Chicken-hearted,pastthought。Thecaffesandwaitersdistressme。

Allisunkind,and,alas!Iamreadyforanyone’skindness。

Oh,Iknewitofold,andknewit,Ithought,toperfection,IfthereisanyonethingintheworldtoprecludeallkindnessItistheneedofit,——itisthissad,self-defeatingdependence。

Whyisthis,Eustace?Myself,wereIstronger,IthinkIcouldtellyou。

Butitisoddwhenitcomes。SoplumbIthedeepsofdepression,Dailyindeeper,andfindnosupport,nowill,nopurpose。

Allmyoldstrengthsaregone。AndyetIshallhavetodosomething。

Ah,thekeyofourlife,thatpassesallwards,opensalllocks,IsnotIWILL,butIMUST。Imust,——Imust,——andIdoit。

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Afterall,doIknowthatIreallycaredsoabouther?

DowhateverIwill,Icannotcallupherimage;

ForwhenIclosemyeyes,Isee,verylikely,St。Peter’s,OrthePantheonfacade,orMichelAngelo’sfigures,Or,atawish,whenIplease,theAlbanhillsandtheForum,——

Butthatface,thoseeyes,——ah,no,neveranythinglikethem;

Only,tryasIwill,asortoffeaturelessoutline,Andapaleblankorb,whichnorecollectionwilladdto。

Afterall,perhapstherewassomethingfactitiousaboutit;

Ihavehadpain,itistrue:Ihavewept;andsohavetheactors。

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AtthelastmomentIhaveyourletter,forwhichIwaswaiting;

Ihavetakenmyplace,andseenogoodininquiries。

Donothingmore,goodEustace,Iprayyou。Itonlywillvexme。

Takenomeasures。Indeed,shouldwemeet,Icouldnotbecertain;

Allmightbechanged,youknow。Orperhapstherewasnothingtobechanged。

Itisacurioushistory,this;andyetIforesawit;

Icouldhavetolditbefore。TheFates,itisclear,areagainstus;

ForitiscertainenoughImetwiththepeopleyoumention;

TheywereatFlorencethedayIreturnedthere,andspoketomeeven;

Stayedaweek,sawmeoften;departed,andwhitherIknownot。

GreatisFate,andisbest。IbelieveinProvidencepartly。

Whatisordainedisright,andallthathappensisordered。

Ah,no,thatisn’tit。ButyetIretainmyconclusion。

IwillgowhereIamled,andwillnotdictatetothechances。

Donothingmore,Ibeg。Ifyouloveme,forbearinterfering。

IX。ClaudetoEustace。

Shallwecomeoutofitall,someday,asonedoesfromatunnel?

Willitbeallatonce,withoutourdoingorasking,Weshallbeholdclearday,thetreesandmeadowsaboutus,Andthefacesoffriends,andtheeyeswelovedlookingatus?

Whoknows?Whocansay?Itwillnotdotosupposeit。

X。ClaudetoEustace,-fromRome。

Romewillnotsuitme,Eustace;thepriestsandsoldierspossessit;

Priestsandsoldiers:——and,ah!whichistheworst,thepriestorthesoldier?

Politics,farewell,however!ForwhatcouldIdo?withinquiring,Talking,collatingthejournals,gofevermybrainaboutthingso’erWhichIcanhavenocontrol。No,happenwhatevermayhappen,Time,Isuppose,willsubsist;theearthwillrevolveonitsaxis;

Peoplewilltravel;thestrangerwillwanderasnowinthecity;

Romewillbehere,andthePopethecustodeofVaticanmarbles。

Ihavenoheart,however,foranymarbleorfresco;

Ihaveessayeditinvain;’tisinvainasyettoessayit:

ButImayhaplyresumesomedaymystudiesinthiskind;

NotastheScripturesays,is,Ithink,thefact。Ereourdeath-day,Faith,Ithink,doespass,andLove;butKnowledgeabideth。

LetusseekKnowledge;——therestmaycomeandgoasithappens。

Knowledgeishardtoseek,andharderyettoadhereto。

Knowledgeispainfuloften;andyetwhenweknowwearehappy。

Seekit,andleavemereFaithandLovetocomewiththechances。

AsforHope,——to-morrowIhopetobestartingforNaples。

Romewillnotdo,Isee,formanyverygoodreasons。

Eastward,then,Isuppose,withthecomingofwinter,toEgypt。

XI。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。

Youhaveheardnothing;ofcourseIknowyoucanhaveheardnothing。

Ah,well,morethanonceIhavebrokenmypurpose,andsometimes,Onlytoooften,havelookedforthelittlelakesteamertobringhim。

Butitisonlyfancy,——Idonotreallyexpectit。

Oh,andyouseeIknowsoexactlyhowhewouldtakeit:

Findingthechancesprevailagainstmeetingagain,hewouldbanishForthwitheverythoughtofthepoorlittlepossiblehope,whichImyselfcouldnothelp,perhaps,thinkingonlytoomuchof;

Hewouldresignhimself,andgo。Iseeitexactly。

SoIalsosubmit,althoughinadifferentmanner。

Canyounotreallycome?WegoveryshortlytoEngland。

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Sogoforthtotheworld,tothegoodreportandtheevil!

Go,littlebook!thytale,isitnotevilandgood?

Go,andifstrangersrevile,passquietlybywithoutanswer。

Go,andifcuriousfriendsaskofthyrearingandage,Say,’IamflittingaboutmanyyearsfrombrainuntobrainofFeebleandrestlessyouthsborntoingloriousdays:

But,’sofinishtheword,’IwaswritinaRomanchamber,WhenfromJaniculanheightsthunderedthecannonofFrance。’