\"Ultimatelyagoodharewasfoundwhichtookthefieldat……
Therethehoundspressedher,andonthehuntarrivingattheedgeoftheclifftheharecouldbeseencrossingthebeachandgoingrightouttosea。Aboatwasprocured,andthemasterandsomeothersrowedouttoherjustasshedrowned,and,bringingthebodyin,gaveittothehounds。Ahareswimmingouttoseaisasightnotoftenwitnessed。\"——/Localpaper,January/1911。
\"……Alongcheckoccurredinthelatterpartofthishunt,theharehavinglaidupinahedgerow,fromwhichshewasatlastevictedbyacrackofthewhip。Hernextplaceofrefugewasahorse-pond,whichshetriedtoswim,butgotstuckintheicemidway,andwassinking,whenthehuntsmanwentinafterher。Itwasanovelsighttoseehuntsmanandharebeingliftedoverawalloutofthepond,theeagerpackwaitingfortheirpreybehindthewall。\"——/Localpaper,February/1911。
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Theauthorsupposesthatthefirstoftheaboveextractsmusthaveimpressedhim。Atanyrate,onthenightafterthereadingofit,justashewenttosleep,oronthefollowingmorningjustasheawoke,hecannottellwhich,therecametohimthetitleandtheoutlinesofthisfantasy,includingthecommandwithwhichitends。WithaparticularclearnessdidheseemtoseethepictureoftheGreatWhiteRoad,\"straightasthewayoftheSpirit,andbroadasthebreastofDeath,\"andofthelittleHaretravellingtowardstheawfulGates。
LiketheMahatmaofthisfable,heexpressesnoopinionastothemeritsofthecontroversybetweentheRed-facedManandtheHarethat,withoutsearchonhisownpart,presenteditselftohismindinsooddafashion。Itisoneonwhichanybodyinterestedinsuchmatterscanformanindividualjudgment。
THEMAHATMA[*]
[*]Mahatma,\"great-souled。\"\"Oneofaclassofpersonswithpreter-
naturalpowers,imaginedtoexistinIndiaandThibet。\"——/NewEnglishDictionary/。
Everyonehasseenahare,eithercrouchedorrunninginthefields,orhangingdeadinapoulterer’sshop,orlastlypathetic,evendreadful-
lookingandinthisformalmostindistinguishablefromaskinnedcat,onthedomestictable。ButnotmanypeoplehavemetaMahatma,atleasttotheirknowledge。NotmanypeopleknowevenwhoorwhataMahatmais。Themajorityofthosewhochancetohaveheardthetitleareapttoconfuseitwithanother,thatofMadHatter。
Thisisevendoneofmaliceprepense(especially,forobviousreasons,ifahareisinanywayconcerned)inscorn,notinignorance,bypersonswhoarewellacquaintedwiththerealmeaningofthewordandevenwithitsSanscritorigin。ThetruthisthatanincredulousWesternworldputsnofaithinMahatmas。ToitaMahatmaisakindofspiritualMrs。Harris,givinganaddressinThibetatwhichnolettersaredelivered。Either,itsays,thereisnosuchperson,orheisafraudulentscampwithnogreateroccultpowers——well,thanahare。
IconfessthatthisviewofMahatmasisonethatdoesnotsurprisemeintheleast。Inevermet,andIscarcelyexpecttomeet,anindividualentitledtoset\"Mahatma\"afterhisname。Certainly/I/
havenorighttodoso,whoonlytookthattitleonthespurofthemomentwhentheHareaskedmehowIwascalled,andnowmakeuseofitasa/nom-de-plume/。ItistruethereisJorsen,bywhoseorder,foritamountstothat,Ipublishthishistory。ForaughtIknowJorsenmaybeaMahatma,buthedoesnotintheleastlookthepart。
Imagineabluffpersonwithastrong,hardface,piercinggreyeyes,andveryprominent,bushyeyebrows,ofaboutfiftyorsixtyyearsofage。AddaScotchaccentandameerschaumpipe,whichhesmokesevenwhenheiswearingafrockcoatandatallhat,andyouhaveJorsen。I
believethathelivessomewhereinthecountry,iswelloff,andpractisesgardening。Ifsohehasneveraskedmetohisplace,andI
onlymeethimwhenhecomestoTown,asIunderstand,tovisitflower-
shows。
ThenIalwaysmeethimbecauseheordersmetodoso,notbyletterorbywordofmouthbutinquiteadifferentway。SuddenlyIreceiveanimpressioninmymindthatIamtogotoacertainplaceatacertainhour,andthatthereIshallfindJorsen。Idogo,sometimestoanhotel,sometimestoalodging,sometimestoarailwaystationortothecornerofaparticularstreetandthereIdofindJorsensmokinghisbigmeerschaumpipe。Weshakehandsandheexplainswhyhehassentforme,afterwhichwetalkofvariousthings。Nevermindwhattheyare,forthatwouldbetellingJorsen’ssecretsaswellasmyown,whichImustnotdo。
ItmaybeaskedhowIcametoknowJorsen。Well,inastrangeway。
Nearlythirtyyearsagoadreadfulthinghappenedtome。Iwasmarriedand,althoughstillyoung,apersonofsomemarkinliterature。IndeedevennowoneortwoofthebookswhichIwrotearereadandremembered,althoughitissupposedthattheirauthorhaslonglefttheworld。
ThethingwhichhappenedwasthatmywifeandourdaughterwerecomingoverfromtheChannelIslands,wheretheyhadbeenonavisit(shewasaJerseywoman),and,and——well,theshipwaslost,that’sall。Theshockbrokemyheart,insuchawaythatithasneverbeenmendedagain,butunfortunatelydidnotkillme。
AfterwardsItooktodrinkandsank,asdrunkardsdo。Thentheriverbegantodrawme。IhadalodginginapoorstreetatChelsea,andI
couldheartherivercallingmeatnight,and——Iwishedtodieastheothershaddied。AtlastIyielded,forthedrinkhadrottedoutallmymoralsense。Aboutoneo’clockofawild,wintermorningIwenttoabridgeIknewwhereinthosedayspolicemenrarelycame,andlistenedtothatcallofthewater。
\"Come!\"itseemedtosay。\"Thisworldistherealhell,endingintheeternalnaught。Thedreamsofalifebeyondandofre-uniontherearebutademon’smockingbreathedintothemortalheart,lestbyitsuniversalsuicidemankindshouldrobhimofhistorture-pit。Thereisnotruthinallyourfathertaughtyou\"(hewasaclergymanandrathereminentinhisprofession),\"thereisnohopeforman,thereisnothinghecanwinexceptthedeephappinessofsleep。Comeandsleep。\"
SuchweretheargumentsofthatVoiceoftheriver,theold,familiarargumentsofdesolationanddespair。Ileantovertheparapet;inanothermomentIshouldhavebeengone,whenIbecameawarethatsomeonewasstandingneartome。Ididnotseethepersonbecauseitwastoodark。Ididnothearhimbecauseoftheravingofthewind。ButI
knewthathewasthere。SoIwaiteduntilthemoonshoneoutforawhilebetweentheedgesoftworaggedclouds,theshapesofwhichI
canseetothishour。ItshowedmeJorsen,lookingjustashedoesto-day,forheneverseemstochange——Jorsen,onwhom,tomyknowledge,Ihadnotseteyesbefore。
\"Evenayearago,\"hesaid,inhisstrong,roughvoice,\"youwouldnothaveallowedyourmindtobeconvincedbysuchargumentsasthosewhichyouhavejustheardintheVoiceoftheriver。Thatisoneoftheworstsidesofdrink;itdecaysthereasonasitdoesthebody。
Youmusthavenoticedityourself。\"
IrepliedthatIhad,forIwassurprisedintoacquiescence。ThenI
grewdefiantandaskedhimwhatheknewoftheargumentswhichwereorwerenotinfluencingme。Tomysurprise——no,thatisnottheword——tomybewilderment,herepeatedthemtomeonebyonejustastheyhadarisenafewminutesbeforeinmyheart。Moreover,hetoldmewhatI
hadbeenabouttodo,andwhyIwasabouttodoit。
\"Youknowmeandmystory,\"Imutteredatlast。
\"No,\"heanswered,\"atleastnotmorethanIknowthatofmanymenwithwhomIchancetobeintouch。Thatis,Ihavenotmetyoufornearlyelevenhundredyears。Athousandandeighty-six,tobecorrect。
IwasablindpriestthenandyouwerethecaptainofIrene’sguard。\"
AtthisnewsIburstoutlaughingandthelaughdidmegood。
\"IdidnotknowIwassoold,\"Isaid。
\"Doyoucallthatold?\"answeredJorsen。\"Why,thefirsttimethatwehadanythingtodowitheachother,sofarasIcanlearn,thatis,wasovereightthousandyearsago,inEgyptbeforethebeginningofrecordedhistory。\"
\"IthoughtthatIwasmad,butyouaremadder,\"Isaid。
\"Doubtless。Well,IamsomadthatImanagedtobehereintimetosaveyoufromsuicide,asonceinthepastyousavedme,forthusthingscomeround。Butyourroomsarenear,aretheynot?Letusgothereandtalk。Thisplaceiscoldandtheriverisalwayscalling。\"
ThatwashowIcametoknowJorsen,whomIbelievetobeoneofthegreatestmenalive。OnthisparticularnightthatIhavedescribedhetoldmemanythings,andsincethenhehastaughtmemuch,meandafewothers。ButwhetherheiswhatiscalledaMahatmaIamsureIdonotknow。Hehasneverclaimedsucharankinmyhearing,orindeedtobeanythingmorethanamanwhohassucceededinwinningaknowledgeofhisownpowersoutofthedepthsofthedarkthatliesbehindus。
OfcourseImeanoutofhispastinotherincarnationslongbeforehewasJorsen。Moreover,bydegrees,asIgrewfittobearthelight,heshowedmesomethingofmyown,andofhowthetwowereintertwined。
ButallthesethingsaresecretsofwhichIhaveperhapsnorighttospeakatpresent。ItisenoughtosaythatJorsenchangedthecurrentofmylifeonthatnightwhenhesavedmefromdeath。
Forinstance,fromthatdayonwardstothepresenttimeIhavenevertouchedthedrinkwhichsonearlyruinedme。Alsothedarknesshasrolledaway,andwithiteverydoubtandfear;Iknowthetruth,andforthattruthIlive。Consideredfromcertainaspectssuchknowledge,Iadmit,isnotaltogetherdesirable。Thusithasdeprivedmeofmyinterestinearthlythings。Ambitionhasleftmealtogether;foryearsIhavehadnowishtosucceedintheprofessionwhichIadoptedinmyyouth,orinanyother。IndeedIdoubtwhethertheelementsofworldlysuccessstillremaininme;whethertheyarenotentirelyburntawaybythatfireofwisdominwhichIhavebathed。Howcanwestrivetowinacrownwehavenolongeranydesiretowear?NowIdesireothercrownsandattimesIwearthem,ifonlyforalittlewhile。Myspiritgrowsandgrows。Itisdraggingatitsstrings。
WhatamItolookat?Asmall,white-hairedmanwithathinandratherplaintivefaceinwhicharesettwolarge,darkeyesthatcontinuallyseemtosoftenanddevelop。Thatismypicture。AndwhatamIintheworld?Iwilltellyou。OncertaindaysoftheweekIemploymyselfineditingatradejournalthathastodowithhaberdashery。OnanotherdayIactasauctioneertoafirmwhichimportsandsellscheapItalianstatuary;modern,verymoderncopiesoftheantique,floridmarblevases,andsoforth。Someofyouwhoreadmayhavepassedsuchmartsindifferentpartsofthecity,orevenhavedroppedinandpurchasedabustoratazzaforasurprisinglysmallsum。PerhapsI
knockeditdowntoyou,onlytoopleasedtofinda/bonafide/bidderamongstmycompany。
Asfortherestofmytime——well,IemployitindoingwhatgoodIcanamongthepoorandthosewhoneedcomfortorwhoarebereaved,especiallyamongthosewhoarebereaved,fortosuchIamsometimesabletobringthebreathofhopethatblowsfromanothershore。
OccasionallyalsoIamusemyselfinmyownfashion。ThussureknowledgehascometomeaboutcertainepochsinthepastinwhichI
livedinothershapes,andIstudythoseepochs,hopingthatonedayI
mayfindtimetowriteofthemandofthepartsIplayedinthem。Someofthesepartsareextremelyinteresting,especiallyasIamofcourseabletocontrastthemwithourmodernmodesofthoughtandaction。
Theydonotallcomebacktomewithequalclearness,theearlierlivesbeing,asonemightexpect,themoredifficulttorecoverandthecomparativelyrecentonestheeasiest。Alsotheyseemtorangeoveravaststretchoftime,backindeedtothedaysofprimeval,prehistoricman。Inshort,Ithinkthesubconsciousinsomewaysresemblestheconsciousandnaturalmemory;thatwhichisveryfarofftoitgrowsdimandblurred,thatwhichiscomparativelycloseremainsclearandsharp,althoughofcoursethisruleisnotinvariable。
Moreoverthereisforesightaswellasmemory。AtleastfromtimetotimeIseemtocomeintouchwithfutureeventsandstatesofsocietyinwhichIshallhavemyshare。
Ibelievesomethinkersholdatheorythatsuchconditionsasthoseofpast,present,andfuturedonotinfactexist;thateverythingalreadyis,standinglikeacompletedcolumnbetweenearthandheaven;
thatthesumisaddedup,theequationworkedout。AttimesIamtemptedtobelieveinthetruthofthisproposition。Butifitbetrue,ofcourseitremainsdifficulttoobtainaclearviewofotherpartsofthecolumnthanthatinwhichwehappentofindourselvesobjectivelyconsciousatanygivenperiod,andneedlesstosayimpossibletoseeitfrombasetocapital。
Howeverthismaybe,noindividualentitypervadesallthecolumn。
Therearegreatsectionsofitwithwhichthatentityhasnothingtodo,althoughitalwaysseemstoappearagainabove。Isupposethatthosesectionswhichareemptyofanindividualandhisatmosphererepresenttheintervalsbetweenhisliveswhichhespendsinsleep,orinstatesofexistencewithwhichthisworldisnotconcerned,butofsuchgulfsofoblivionandstatesofbeingIknownothing。
TotakeasingleinstanceofwhatIdoknow:oncethisspiritofmine,thatnowbytheworkingsofdestinyforalittlewhileoccupiesthebodyofafourth-rateauctioneer,andoftheeditorofatradejournal,dweltinthatofaPharaohofEgypt——nevermindwhichPharoah。Yes,althoughyoumaylaughandthinkmemadtosayit,formethelegionsfoughtandthundered;tomethepeoplesbowedandthesecretsanctuarieswereopenedthatIandIalonemightcommunewiththegods;Iwhointhefleshandafteritmyselfwasworshippedasagod。
Well,ofthisforgottenRoyaltyofwhomlittleisknownsavewhatafewinscriptionshavetotell,thereremainsaportraitstatueintheBritishMuseum。SometimesIgotolookatthatstatueandtrytorecallexactlyunderwhatcircumstancesIcausedittobeshaped,puzzlingoutthestorybitbybit。
NotlongagoIstoodthusabsorbedanddidnotnoticethatthehouroftheclosingofthegreatgalleryhadcome。StillIstoodandgazedanddreamttillthepolicemanonduty,seeingandsuspectingme,cameupandroughlyorderedmetobegone。
Theman’stoneangeredme。Ilaidmyhandonthefootofthestatue,forithadjustcomebacktomethatitwasa\"Ka\"image,asacredthing,anyEgyptologistwillknowwhatImean,whichforageshadsatinachamberofmytomb。ThentheKathatclingstoiteternallyawokeatmytouchandknewme,orsoIsuppose。AtleastIfeltmyselfchange。Anewstrengthcameintome;myshape,batteredinthisworld’sstorms,putonsomethingofitsancientdignity;myeyesgrewroyal。IlookedatthatmanasPharaohmayhavelookedatonewhohaddonehiminsult。Hesawthechangeandtrembled——yes,trembled。I
believehethoughtIwassomeimperialghostthattheshadowsofeveninghadcausedhimtomistakeforman;atanyratehegaspedout——
\"Ibegyourpardon,Iwasobeyingorders。IhopeyourMajestywon’thurtme。NowIthinkofitIhavebeentoldthatthingscomeoutoftheseoldstatuesinthenight。\"
Thenturningheran,literallyran,wheretoIamsureIdonotknow,probablytoseekthefellowshipofsomeotherpoliceman。InduecourseIfollowed,and,liftingthebarattheendofthehall,departedwithoutfurtherquestionasked。AfterwardsIwasverygladtothinkthatIhaddonethemannoinjury。AtthemomentIknewthatIcouldhurthimifIwould,andwhatismoreIhadthedesiretodoso。Itcametome,Isuppose,withthatbreathofthepastwhenIwassogreatandabsolute。PerhapsI,orthatpartofmethenincarnate,wasatyrantinthosedays,andthisiswhynowImustbesohumble。Fateisturningmypridetoitshammerandbeatingitoutofme。
Forthusinthelonghistoryofthesoulitservesallourvices。
THEGREATWHITEROAD
Now,asIhavehinted,undertheteachingofJorsen,whosavedmefromdegradationandself-murder,yes,andhelpedmewithmoneyuntilonceagainIcouldearnalivelihood,Ihaveacquiredcertainknowledgeandwisdomofasortthatarenotcommon。Thatis,Jorsentaughtmetheelementsofthesethings;hesetmyfeetuponthepathwhichthenceforward,havingthesight,Ihavebeenabletofollowformyself。HowIfolloweditdoesnotmatter,norcouldIteachothersifIwould。
Iamnomemberofanymysticbrotherhood,and,asIhaveexplained,noMahatma,althoughIhavecalledmyselfthusforpresentpurposesbecausethenameisaconvenientcloak。IrepeatthatIamignorantiftherearesuchpeopleasMahatmas,thoughifsoIthinkJorsenmustbeoneofthem。Stillhenevertoldmethis。Whathehastoldisthateveryindividualspiritmustworkoutitsowndestinyquiteindependentlyofothers。Indeed,beingratherfondoffinephrases,hehassometimesspokentomeof,orrather,insisteduponwhathecalled\"thelonesomesplendourofthehumansoul,\"whichitisourbusinesstoperfectthroughvariouslivestillIcanscarcelyappreciateandamcertainlyunabletodescribe。
Totellthetruth,thethoughtofthis\"lonesomesplendour\"towhichitseemssomeofusmayattain,alarmsme。Ihavehadenoughofbeinglonesome,andIdonotaskforanyparticularsplendour。MyonlyambitionsaretofindthosewhomIhavelost,andinwhateverlifeI
livetobeofusetoothers。However,asIgatherthattheexaltedconditiontowhichJorsenalludesisthousandsofagesoffforanyofus,andmayafterallmeansomethingquitedifferenttowhatitseemstomean,thethoughtofitdoesnottroublemeovermuch。MeanwhilewhatIseekisthevisionofthoseIlove。
NowIhavethispower。OccasionallywhenIamindeepsleepsomepartofmeseemstoleavemybodyandtobetransportedquiteoutsidetheworld。Ittravels,asthoughIwerealreadydead,totheGatesthatallwholivemustpass,andtheretakesitsstand,ontheGreatWhiteRoad,watchingthosewhohavebeencalledspeedbycontinually。ThoseupontheearthknownothingofthatRoad。Blindedbytheirpompsandvanities,theycannotsee,theywillnotseeitalwaysgrowingtowardsthefeetofeveryoneofthem。ButIseeandknow。Ofcourseyouwhoreadwillsaythatthisisbutadreamofmine,anditmaybe。Still,ifso,itisaverywonderfuldream,andexceptforthechangeofthepassingpeople,orratherofthosewhohavebeenpeople,alwaysverymuchthesame。
There,straightasthewayoftheSpiritandbroadasthebreastofDeath,istheGreatWhiteRoadrunningIknownotwhence,uptothoseGatesthatgleamlikemoonlightandarehigherthantheAlps。TherebeyondtheGatestheradiantPresencesmovemysteriously。ThenceattheappointedtimetheVoicecriesandtheyareopenedwithasoundliketothatofdeepestthunder,orsometimesareburnedaway,whilefromtheGlorythatliesbeyondflowthesweet-facedwelcomerstogreetthoseforwhomtheywait,bearingthecupsfromwhichtheygivetodrink。Idonotknowwhatisinthecups,whetheritbeadraughtofLetheorsomebaptismalwaterofnewbirth,orboth;butalwaysthethirsting,world-wornsoulappearstochange,andthenasitweretobelostinthePresencethatgavethecup。Atleasttheyarelosttomysight。Iseethemnomore。
WhydoIwatchthoseGates,intruthorindream,beforemytime?Oh!
Youcanguess。ThatperchanceImaybeholdthoseforwhommyheartburnswithaquenchless,eatingfire。AndonceIbeheld——notthemotherbutthechild,mychild,changedindeed,mysterious,wonderful,gleaminglikeastar,witheyessodeepthatintheirdepthsmyhumanityseemedtoswoon。
Shecameforward;sheknewme;shesmiledandlaidherfingeronherlips。Sheshookherhairaboutherandinitvanishedasinacloud。
Yetasshevanishedavoicespokeinmyheart,hervoice,andthewordsitsaidwere——
\"Wait,ourBeloved!Wait!\"
Markwell。\"OurBeloved,\"not\"MyBeloved。\"SothereareothersbywhomIambeloved,oratleastoneother,andIknowwellwhothatonemustbe。
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Afterthisdream,perhapsIhadbettercallitadream,Iwasillforalongwhile,forthejoyandthegloryofitoverpoweredmeandbroughtmeneartothedeathIhadalwayssought。ButIrecovered,formyhourisnotyet。Moreover,foralongwhileaswereckontime,someyearsindeed,IobeyedtheinjunctionandsoughttheGreatWhiteRoadnomore。AtlengththelonginggrewtoostrongformeandIreturnedthither,butneveragaindidthevisioncome。Itswordwasspoken,itsmissionwasfulfilled。YetfromtimetotimeI,amortal,seemtostanduponthebordersofthatimmortalRoadandwatchthenewlydeadwhotravelittowardsthegloriousGates。
OnceortwicetherehavebeenamongthempeoplewhomIhaveknown。AsthesepassmeIappeartohavethepoweroflookingintotheirhearts,andthereIreadstrangethings。Sometimestheyarebeautifulthingsandsometimesuglythings。ThusIhavelearnedthatthoseIthoughtbadwerereallygoodinthemain,forwhocanclaimtobequitegood?
AndontheotherhandthatthoseIbelievedtobeashonestastheday——well,hadtheirfaults。
TotakeanexamplewhichIquotebecauseitissoabsurd。TheroomsI
liveinwereownedbyaprimoldwomanwhoformorethantwentyyearswasmylandlady。SheandIweregreatfriends,indeedshetendedmelikeamother,andwhenIwassoillnursedmeasperhapsfewmotherswouldhavedone。YetwhileIwaswatchingontheRoadsuddenlyshecameby,andwithhorrorIsawthatduringallthoseyearsshehadbeenrobbingme,taking,Iamsorrytosay,manythings,inmoney,trinkets,andfood。OftenIhaddiscussedwithherwherethesearticlescouldpossiblyhavegone,tillfinallysuspicionsettleduponthemanwhocleanedthewindows。Yes,andworstofall,hewasprosecuted,andIgaveevidenceagainsthim,orratherstrengthenedherevidence,onfaithofwhichthemagistratesenthimtoprisonforamonth。
\"Oh!MrsSmithers,\"Isaidtoher,\"how/could/youdoit,Mrs。
Smithers?\"
Shestoppedandlookedaboutherterrified,sothatmyheartsmotemeandIaddedinhaste,\"Don’tbefrightened,Mrs。Smithers;Iforgiveyou。\"
\"Ican’tseeyou,sir,\"sheexclaimed,orsoIdreamed,\"butthere!I
alwaysknewyouwould。\"
\"Yes,Mrs。Smithers,\"Ireplied;\"buthowaboutthewindow-cleanerwhowenttojailandlosthissituation?\"
Thenshepassedonorwasdrawnawaywithoutmakinganyanswer。
Nowcomestheoddpartofthestory。WhenIwokeuponthefollowingmorninginmyrooms,itwastobeinformedbythefrightenedmaid-of-
all-workthatMrs。Smithershadbeenfounddeadinherbed。Moreover,afewdayslaterIlearnedfromalawyerthatshehadmadeawillleavingmeeverythingshepossessed,includingtheleaseofherhouseandnearly£1000,forshehadbeenasavingoldpersonduringallherlonglife。
Well,Isoughtoutthatwindow-cleanerandcompensatedhimhandsomely,sayingthatIhadfoundIwasmistakenintheevidenceIgaveagainsthim。TherestofthepropertyIkept,andIhopethatitwasnotwrongofmetodoso。Itwillberememberedthatsomeofitwasalreadymyown,temporarilydivertedintoanotherchannel,andfortherestI
havesomanytohelp。TobefrankIdonotspendmuchuponmyself。
THEHARE
NowIhavedonewithmyself,orratherwithmyowninsignificantpresenthistory,andcometothatoftheHare。Itimpressedmeagooddealatthetime,whichisnotlongago,somuchindeedthatI
communicatedthefactstoJorsen。Heorderedmetopublishthem,andwhatJorsenordersmustbedone。Idon’tknowwhythisshouldbe,butitisso。HehasauthorityofasortthatIamunabletodefine。
Onenightaftertheusualaspirationsandconcentrationofmind,whichbythewayarenotalwayssuccessful,Ipassedintowhatoccultistscallspirit,andothersastateofdream。AtanyrateIfoundmyselfuponthebordersoftheGreatWhiteRoad,asneartothemightyGatesasIameverallowedtocome。HowfarthatmaybeawayIcannottell。
Perhapsitisbutafewyardsandperhapsitisthewidthofthisgreatworld,forinthatplacewhichmyspiritvisitstimeanddistancedonotexist。Thereallthingsarenewandstrange,nottobereckonedbyourmeasures。Therethesightisnotoursightnorthehearingourhearing。Irepeatthatallthingsaredifferent,butthatdifferenceIcannotdescribe,andifIcoulditwouldprovepastcomprehension。
ThereIsatbythebordersoftheGreatWhiteRoad,myeyesfixedupontheGatesabovewhichthetowersmountformilesonmiles,outlinedagainstanencirclinggloomwiththeradianceoftheworldbeyondtheworlds。Four-squaretheystand,thosetowers,andfourfoldthegatesthatopentothedenizensofotherearths。ButoftheseIhavenoknowledgebeyondthefactthatitissoinmyvisions。
IsatuponthebordersoftheRoad,myeyesfixedinhopeupontheGates,thoughwellIknewthatthehopewouldneverbefulfilled,andwatchedthedeadgoby。
Theyweremanythatnight。SomeplaguewasworkingintheEastandunchainingthousands。ThefolkthatitloosedwerestrangetomewhointhisparticularlifehaveseldomleftEngland,andIstudiedthemwithcuriosity;high-featured,dark-huedpeoplewithapatientair。
TheknowledgewhichIhavetoldmethatoneandalltheywereveryancientsoulswhooftenandoftenhadwalkedthisRoadbefore,andtherefore,althoughasyettheydidnotknowit,werewellaccustomedtothejourney。No,Iamwrong,forhereandthereanindividualdidknow。Indeedonedeep-eyed,wistfullittlewoman,whocarriedababyinherarms,stoppedforamomentandspoketome。
\"TheotherscannotseeyouasIdo,\"shesaid。\"PriestoftheQueenofqueens,Iknowyouwell;handinhandweclimbedbythesevenstairwaystothealtarsofthemoon。\"
\"WhoistheQueenofqueens?\"Iasked。
\"Haveyouforgottenherofthehundrednameswhoseveilsweliftedonebyone;herwhosebreastwasbeautyandwhoseeyesweretruth?Inadaytocomeyouwillremember。FarewelltillwewalkthisRoadnomore。\"
\"Stay——whendidwemeet?\"
\"Whenoursoulswereyoung,\"sheanswered,andfadedfrommykenlikeashadowfromthesea。
AftertheEasternscamemanyothersfromallpartsoftheearth。ThensuddenlyappearedacompanyofaboutsixhundredfolkofeveryageandEnglishintheirlooks。Theywerenotsocalmasarethemajorityofthosewhomakethisjourney。WhenIreadthepapersafewdayslaterI
understoodwhy。Agreatpassengershiphadsunksuddenlyinmidoceanandtheywereallcutoffunprepared。
When,followedbyafewstragglers,thesehadpassedandgatheredthemselvesintheredshadowbeneaththegatewaytowerswaitingforthesummons,anunusualthingoccurred。ForafewmomentstheRoadwasleftquiteempty。AfterthatlastgreatstrokeDeathseemedtoberestingonhislaurels。Whenthusunpeopleditlookedaveryvastplaceliketoahugearchedcauseway,borderedoneithersidebyblackness,butitselfgleamingwithacuriousphosphorescencesuchasonceortwiceIhaveseeninthewatersofasummerseaatnight。
Presentlyintheverycentreofthisilluminateddesolation,whilstitwasasyetfaraway,somethingcaughtmyeye,somethingsostrangetotheplace,soutterlyunfamiliarthatIwatcheditearnestly,wonderingwhatitmightbe。Nearerandneareritcame,withcurious,uncertainhops;yes,alittlebrownobjectthathopped。
\"Well,\"Isaidtomyself,\"ifIwerenotwhereIamIshouldsaythatyonderthingwasahare。OnlywhatwouldaharebedoingontheGreatWhiteRoad?Howcouldaharetreadthepathwayofeternalsouls?I
mustbemistaken。\"
SoIreflectedwhilststillthethinghoppedon,untilIbecamecertainthateitherIsufferedfromdelusions,orthatitwasahare;
indeedaparticularlyfinehare,muchsuchaoneasafriendofmyoldlandlady,Mrs。Smithers,hadoncesentherasaChristmaspresentfromNorfolk,whichhareIate。
Afewmorehopsbroughtitoppositetomypostofobservation。Hereithaltedasthoughitseemedtoseeme。Atanyrateitsatupinthealertfashionthathareshave,itsforepawshangingabsurdlyinfrontofit,withoneear,onwhichtherewasagreyblotch,cockedandonedragging,andsniffedwithitsfunnylittlenostrils。Thenitbegantotalktome。Idonotmeanthatitreallytalked,butthethoughtswhichwereinitsmindwereflashedontomymindsothatIunderstoodperfectly,yes,andcouldanswertheminthesamefashion。Itsaid,orthought,thus:——
\"Youarereal。Youareamanwhoyetlivesbeneaththesun,thoughhowyoucamehereIdonotknow。Ihatemen,allharesdo,formenarecrueltothem。Stillitisacomfortinthisstrangeplacetoseesomethingonehasseenbeforeandtobeabletotalkeventoaman,whichIcouldneverdountilthechangecame,thedreadfulchange——I
meanbecauseofthewayofit,\"anditseemedtoshiver。\"MayIaskyousomequestions?\"
\"Certainly,\"Isaidorratherthoughtback。
\"Youaresurethattheywon’tmakeyouangrysothatyouhurtme?\"
\"Ican’thurtyou,evenifIwishedtodoso。Youarenotahareanylonger,ifyoueverwereone,butonlytheshadowofahare。\"
\"Ah!Ithoughtasmuch,andthat’sagoodthinganyhow。Tellme,Man,haveyoueverbeentorntopiecesbydogs?\"
\"Goodgracious!no。\"
\"Orcoursed,orhunted,orcaughtinatrap,orshotalloveryourback,ortwistedupinnetsandchokedinsnares?Orhaveyouswumouttoseatodiemoreeasily,orseenyourmateandmotherandfatherkilled?\"
\"No,no。Pleasestop,Hare;yourquestionsareveryunpleasant。\"
\"Nothalfsounpleasantasthethingsarethemselves,Icanassureyou,Man。Iwilltellyoumystoryifyoulike;thenyoucanjudgeforyourself。Butfirst,ifyouwill,doyoutellmewhyIamhere。Haveyouseenmoreharesaboutthisplace?\"
\"Never,noranyotheranimals。No,Iamwrong,onceIsawadog。\"
TheHarelookedaboutitanxiously。
\"Adog。Howhorrible!Whatwasitdoing?Hunting?Iftherearenoharesherewhatcoulditbehunting?Arabbit,orapheasantwithabrokenwing,orperhapsafox?Ishouldnotmindsomuchifitwereafox。Ihatefoxes;theycatchyounghareswhentheyareasleepandeatthem。\"
\"Noneofthesethings。Iwastoldthatitbelongedtoalittlegirlwhodied。Thatbrokeitsheart,sothatitdiedalsowhentheyshutherupinabox。Thereforeitwasallowedtoaccompanyherherebecauseithadlovedsomuch。IndeedIsawthemtogether,bothveryhappy,andtogethertheywentthroughthosegates。\"
\"Ifdogslovelittlegirlswhydon’ttheylovehares,atleastasanythinglikestobeloved,forthedogdidn’twanttoeatthelittlegirl,didit?Iseeyoucan’tanswerme。Nowwouldyoulikemetotellyoumystory?SomethinginsideofmeissayingthatIamtodosoifyouwilllisten;alsothatthereisplentyoftime,forIamnotwantedatpresent,andwhenIamIcanruntothosegatesmuchquickerthanyoucould。\"
\"Ishouldlikeitverymuch,Hare。Onceaprophetheardanassspeakinordertowarnhim。Butsincethen,exceptvery,veryrarelyindreams,nocreaturehastalkedtoaman,sofarasIknow。Perhapsyouwishtowarnmeaboutsomething,orothersthroughme,astheasswarnedBalaam。\"
\"WhoisBalaam?IneverheardofBalaam。Hewasn’tthemanwhofetchesdeadpheasantsinthedonkey-cart,washe?Ifso,I’veseenhimmaketheasstalk——withathickstick。No?Well,nevermind,IdaresayI
shouldnotunderstandabouthimifyoutoldme。Nowformystory。\"
ThentheHaresatitselfdown,plantingitsforepawsfirmlyinfrontofit,astheseanimalsdowhentheyareonthewatch,lookedupatmeandbegantopourthecontentsofitsmindintomine。
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Iwasborn,itsaid,orrathertoldmebythoughttransference,inafieldofgrowingcornneartoabigwood。AtleastIsupposeIwasbornthere,thoughthefirstthingIrememberisplayingaboutinthewheatwithtwootherlittleonesofmyownsize,abrotherandasisterthatwerebornwithme。Itwasatnight,foragreat,round,shiningthingwhichInowknowwasthemoon,hungintheskyaboveus。
Wegambolledtogetherandwereveryhappy,tillpresentlymymothercame——Irememberhowbigshelooked——andcuffedmewithherpawbecauseIhadledtheothersawayfromtheplacewhereshehadtoldustostop,andgivenheragreathunttofindus。ThatisthefirstthingIrememberaboutmymother。Afterwardssheseemedsorrybecauseshehadhurtme,andnursedusallthree,lettingmehavethemostmilk。Mymotheralwayslovedmethebestofus,becauseIwassuchafineleveret,withaprettygreypatchonmyleftear。JustasIhadfinisheddrinkinganotherharecamewhowasmyfather。Hewasverylarge,withaglossycoatandbigshiningeyesthatalwaysseemedtoseeeverything,evenwhenitwasbehindhim。
Hewasfrightenedaboutsomething,andhustledmymotheranduslittleonesoutofthewheat-fieldintothebigwoodbywhichitisbordered。
AsweleftthefieldIsawtwotallcreaturesthatafterwardsIcametoknowweremen。Theywereplacingwire-nettingroundthefield——youseeIunderstandnowwhatallthesethingswere,althoughofcourseI
didnotatthetime。Thetwoendsofthewirenettinghadnearlycometogether。Therewasonlyalittlegapleftthroughwhichwecouldrun。
Anotheryounghare,oritmayhavebeenarabbit,hadgotentangledinit,andoneofthemenwasbeatingittodeathwithastick。I
rememberthatthesoundofitsscreamsmademefeelcolddowntheback,forIhadneverheardanythinglikethatbefore,andthiswasthefirstthatIhadseenofpainanddeath。
Theothermansawusslippingthroughandranatuswithhisstick。Mymotherwentfirstandescapedhim。Thencamemysister,thenI,thenmybrother。Myfatherwaslastofall。Themanhitwithhisstickanditcamedownthudalongsideofme,justtouchingmyfur。Hehitagainandbroketheforelegofmybrother。Stillweallmanagedtogetthroughintothewood,exceptmyfatherwhowasbehind。
\"There’stheoldbuck!\"criedoneofthemen(Iunderstandwhathesaidnow,thoughatthetimeitmeantnothingtome)。\"Knockhimonthehead!\"
Soleavingusalonetheyranathim。Butmyfatherwasmuchtooquickforthem。Herushedbackintothecornandafterwardsjoinedusinthewood,forhehadseenwirebeforeandknewhowtoescapeit。Stillhewasterriblyfrightenedandmadeuskeepinthewoodtillthefollowingevening,notevenallowingmymothertogotoherformintheroughpastureonitsothersideandlieupthere。
Alsowewereintroublebecausemybrother’sforepawwasbroken。Itgavehimagreatdealofpain,sothathecouldnotrestorsleep。
Afterawhile,however,itmendedupinafashion,buthewasneverabletorunasfastaswecould,nordidhegrowsobig。Intheendthemotherfoxkilledhim,asIshalltell。
Mymotheraskedmyfatherwhatthemenwiththesticksweredoing——
for,youknow,manyanimalscantalktoeachotherintheirownway,eveniftheyareofdifferentkinds。Hetoldherthattheywereprotectingthewheattopreventusfromeatingit,towhichsheansweredangrilythatharesmustlivesomehow,especiallywhentheyhadyoungonestonurse。Myfatherrepliedthatmendidnotseemtothinkso,andperhapstheyhadyoungonesalso。Iseenowthatmyfatherwasaphilosophichare。Butareyoutiredofmystory?
\"Notatall,\"Ianswered;\"goon,please。Itisveryinterestingtohearthingsdescribedfromtheanimal’spointofview,especiallywhenthatanimalhasgrownwiseandlearnedtounderstand。\"
\"Ah,\"answeredtheHare。\"Iseewhatyoumean。Anditisodd,butIdounderstand。Allhasbecomecleartome。Idon’tknowwhathappenedwhenIdied,buttherecameachange,andIknewthatIwhowasbutabeastalwayshavebeenandstillamanecessarypartofeverythingasmuchasyouare,thoughmorehelplessandhumble。Yes,Iamasancientandasfar-reachingasyourself,buthowIbeganandhowIshallendisdarktome。Well,Iwillgoonwithmystory。
Itmusthavebeenamoonorsolater,aftermymotherhadgivenupnursingme,thatIwenttolieoutbymyself。Therewasabighouseonthehillsideoverlookingthesea,andneartoitweregardenssurroundedbyawall。Alsooutsideofthiswallwasanotherpatchofgardenwherecabbagesgrew。Ifoundawaytothosecabbagesandkeptitsecret,forIwasgreedyandwantedthemallformyself。Iusedtocreepinatnightandeatthem,alsosomeflowerswithspikyleavesthatgrewroundthemwhichhadaveryfineflavour。ThenafterthedawncameIwenttoaformwhichIhadmadeunderafurzebushontheslopethatrandowntothesea,andsleptthere。
OnedayIwasawakenedbysomethingwhite,hard,androundwhichrolledgentlyandstoppedstillquiteclosetome。Itwasnotalive,althoughithadaqueersmell,andIwonderedwhyitmovedatall。
PresentlyIheardvoicesandthereappearedalittleman,andwithhimsomebodywhowasnotamanbecauseitwasdifferentlydressedandspokeinahighervoice。Isawthattheyhadsticksintheirhandsandthoughtofrunningaway,thenthatitwouldbesafertoliequiteclose。Theycameuptomeandthelittlemansaid——
\"There’stheball;pickitup,Ella,thelieistoobad。\"
She,fornowIknowitwaswhatiscalledagirl,stoopedtoobeyandsawmyback。
\"Tom,\"shesaidinawhisper,\"here’sayounghareonitsform。\"
\"Getoutofthelight,\"heanswered,\"andI’llkillit,\"andheliftedthestickheheld,whichhadatwistedironend。
\"No,\"shesaid,\"catchitalive;Iwantaharetobeafriendtomyrabbit,whichhaslostallitslittleones。\"
\"Lostthem?Eatenthem,youmean,becauseyouwouldalwaysgoandstareatit,\"saidTom。\"Where’stheleveret?Oh!Isee。Now,lookout!\"
AmomentlaterandIwasindarkness。Tomhadthrownhimselfuponthetopofmeandwasgrabbingatmewithhishands。Inearlygotaway,butasmyheadpokedupunderhisarmthegirlcaughtholdofit。
\"Oh!it’sscratching,\"shecried,asindeedIwaswithallmymight。
\"Holdit,Tom,holdit!\"
\"Holdityourself,\"saidTom,\"myfaceisfulloffurzeprickles。\"Sosheheldandpresentlyhehelpedher,tillintheendIwastiedupinapocket-handkerchiefandcarriedIknewnotwhither。IndeedIwasalmostmadwithfear。
WhenIcametomyselfIfoundthatIwaswithinakindofwirerunwhichsmeltfoully,asthoughhundredsofthingshadlivedinitforyears。Therewasahutchattheendoftheruninwhichsatanenormousshe-rabbit,quiteasbigasmymother,afierce-lookingbrutewithlongyellowteeth。IwasafraidofthatrabbitandgotasfarfromitasIcould。Presentlyithoppedoutandlookedatme。
\"Whatareyoudoinghere?\"itasked。\"Can’tyoutalk?Well,itdoesn’tmatter。IfIgethungryI’lleatyou!Doyouhearthat?I’lleatyou,asIdidalltheothers,\"anditshoweditsbigyellowteethandhoppedbackintothehutch。
AfterthatTomandthegirlcameandgaveusplentyoffoodwhichthebigrabbitate,forIcouldtouchnothing。Fortwodaystheycame,andthenIthinktheyforgotallaboutus。Igrewveryhungry,andatnightfilledmyselfwithsomeoftheremainingfood,suchasstalecabbageleaves。Bynextmorningallwasgone,andthebigrabbitgrewhungryalso。Allthatdayithoppedaboutsniffingatmeandshowingitsyellowteeth。
\"Ishalleatyouto-night,\"itsaid。
Iranroundandroundthepeninterror,tillatlastIfoundaplacewhereratshadbeenworkingunderthewire,almostbigenoughformetosqueezethrough,butnotquite。
Thesunwentdownandthebigshe-rabbitcameout。
\"NowIamgoingtoeatyou,\"itsaid,\"asIatealltheothers。Iamhungry,veryhungry,\"anditproddedmeaboutwithitsnoseandrolledmeover。
Atlastwithalittlesquealitdroveitsbigyellowteethintomebehind。Oh!howtheyhurt!Iwasneartherat-hole。Irushedatit,scrabblingandwriggling。Thebigrabbitpouncedonmewithitsfore-
feet,tryingtoholdme,buttoolate,forIwasthrough,leavingsomeofmyfurbehindme。Iran,howIran!withoutstopping,tillatlengthIfoundmymotherintheroughpasturebythewoodandtoldhereverything。
\"Ah!\"shesaid,\"that’swhatcomesofgreedinessandoftryingtobetooclever。Now,perhaps,youwilllearntostopathome。\"
SoIdidforalongwhile。