TheDukeinthebeginningofhermourningdurstpayhernootherrespectsbutsuchasdecencyrequired;heknewMadamdeClevesenoughtobesensiblethatgreatimportunitiesandeagernesswouldbedisagreeabletoher;butwhathelearnedafterwardsplainlyconvincedhimthatheoughttoobservethesameconductagreatwhilelonger。
AservantoftheDuke’sinformedhimthatMonsieurdeCleves’sgentleman,whowashisintimatefriend,hadtoldhim,intheexcessofhisgriefforthelossofhismaster,thatMonsieurdeNemours’sjourneytoColomierswastheoccasionofhisdeath。
TheDukewasextremelysurprisedtohearthis;butafterhavingreflecteduponit,heguessedthetruthinpart,andrightlyjudgedwhatMadamdeCleves’ssentimentswouldbeatfirst,andwhatadistanceitwouldthrowhimfromher,ifshethoughtherhusband’sillnesswasoccasionedbyhisjealousy;hewasofopinionthatheoughtnotsomuchastoputherinmindofhisnameverysoon,andheabidedbythatconduct,howeversevereitappearedtohim。
HetookajourneytoParis,norcouldheforbearcallingatherhousetoenquirehowshedid。Hewastold,thatshesawnobody,andthatshehadevengivenstrictordersthattheyshouldnottroubleherwithanaccountofanythatmightcometoseeher;
thoseverystrictorders,perhaps,weregivenwithaviewtotheDuke,andtopreventherhearinghimspokenof;buthewastoomuchinlovetobeabletolivesoabsolutelydeprivedofthesightofMadamdeCleves;heresolvedtofindthemeans,letthedifficultybewhatitwould,togetoutofaconditionwhichwassoinsupportabletohim。
ThegriefofthatPrincessexceededtheboundsofreason;ahusbanddying,anddyingonheraccount,andwithsomuchtendernessforher,neverwentoutofhermind:shecontinuallyrevolvedinherthoughtswhatsheowedhim,andshecondemnedherselffornothavinghadapassionforhim,asifthathadbeenathingwhichdependedonherself;shefoundnoconsolationbutinthethoughtthatshelamentedhimashedeservedtobelamented,andthatshewoulddonothingduringtheremainderofherlife,butwhathewouldhavebeengladsheshouldhavedone,hadhelived。
Shehadoftenbeenthinkinghowhecametoknow,thattheDukedeNemourshadbeenatColomiers;shecouldnotsuspectthattheDukehimselfhadtoldit;thoughitwasindifferenttoherwhetherhehadorno,shethoughtherselfsoperfectlycuredofthepassionshehadhadforhim;andyetshewasgrievedatthehearttothinkthathewasthecauseofherhusband’sdeath;andsherememberedwithpainthefearMonsieurdeClevesexpressed,whendying,lestsheshouldmarrytheDuke;butallthesegriefswereswallowedupinthatforthelossofherhusband,andshethoughtshehadnootherbutthatone。
Afterseveralmonthstheviolenceofhergriefabated,andshefellintoalanguishingkindofmelancholy。MadamdeMartiguesmadeajourneytoParis,andconstantlyvisitedherduringthetimeshestayedthere:sheentertainedherwithanaccountoftheCourt,andwhatpassedthere;andthoughMadamdeClevesappearedunconcerned,yetstillshecontinuedtalkingonthatsubjectinhopestodiverther。
ShetalkedtoheroftheViscount,ofMonsieurdeGuise,andofallothersthatweredistinguishedeitherinpersonormerit。
\"AsfortheDukedeNemours,\"saysshe,\"Idon’tknowifStateaffairshavenottakenpossessionofhisheartintheroomofgallantry;heisabundantlylessgaythanheusedtobe,andseemswhollytodeclinethecompanyofwomen;heoftenmakesjourneystoParis,andIbelieveheistherenow。\"TheDukedeNemours’snamesurprisedMadamdeCleves,andmadeherblush;shechangedthediscourse,nordidMadamdeMartiguestakenoticeofherconcern。
ThenextdayMadamdeCleves,whoemployedherselfinthingssuitabletotheconditionshewasin,wenttoaman’shouseinherneighbourhood,thatwasfamousforworkingsilkafteraparticularmanner,andshedesignedtobespeaksomepiecesforherself;havingseenseveralkindsofhiswork,shespiedachamberdoor,whereshethoughtthereweremore,anddesireditmightbeopened:themasteranswered,hehadnotthekey,andthattheroomwastakenbyaman,whocametheresometimesinthedaytimetodrawtheplansandprospectsofthefinehousesandgardensthatweretobeseenfromhiswindows;\"heisoneofthehandsomestmenIeversaw,\"addedhe,\"anddoesnotlookmuchlikeonethatworksforhisliving;wheneverhecomeshere,I
observehealwayslookstowardsthegardensandhouses,butI
neverseehimwork。\"
MadamdeCleveslistenedtothisstoryveryattentively,andwhatMadamdeMartigueshadtoldherofMonsieurdeNemours’scomingnowandthentoParis,sheappliedinherfancytothathandsomeman,whocametoaplacesonearherhouse;andthisgaveheranideaofMonsieurdeNemoursendeavouringtoseeher;whichraisedadisorderinher,ofwhichshedidnotknowthecause:shewenttowardsthewindowstoseewheretheylookedinto,andshefoundtheyoverlookedallhergardens,anddirectlyfacedherapartment:andwhenshewasinherownroom,shecouldeasilyseethatverywindowwhereshewastoldthemancametotakehisprospects。ThethoughtthatitwastheDukedeNemours,entirelychangedthesituationofhermind;shenolongerfoundherselfinthatpensivetranquillitywhichshehadbeguntoenjoy,herspiritswereruffledagainaswithatempest:atlast,notbeingabletostayathome,shewentabroadtotaketheairinagardenwithoutthesuburbs,whereshehopedtobealone;shewalkedaboutagreatwhile,andfoundnolikelihoodofanyone’sbeingthere。
Havingcrossedalittlewildernesssheperceivedattheendofthewalk,inthemostremotepartofthegarden,akindofabower,openonallsides,andwenttowardsit;whenshewasnear,shesawamanlyingonthebenches,whoseemedsunkintoadeepcontemplation,andshediscovereditwastheDukedeNemours。
Uponthisshestoppedshort:butherattendantsmadesomenoise,whichrousedtheDukeoutofhismusing:hetooknonoticewhothepersonswerethatdisturbedhim,butgotupinordertoavoidthecompanythatwascomingtowardshim,andmakingalowbow,whichhinderedhimfromseeingthosehesaluted,heturnedintoanotherwalk。
Ifhehadknownwhomheavoided,withwhateagernesswouldhehavereturned?Buthewalkeddownthealley,andMadamdeClevessawhimgooutatabackdoor,wherehiscoachwaitedforhim。
WhataneffectdidthistransientviewproduceintheheartofMadamdeCleves?Whataflamerekindledoutoftheembersofherlove,andwithwhatviolencediditburn?ShewentandsatdowninthesameplacefromwhichMonsieurdeNemourswasnewlyrisen,andseemedperfectlyoverwhelmed;hisimageimmediatelypossessedherfancy,andsheconsideredhimasthemostamiablepersonintheworld,asonewhohadlonglovedherwithapassionfullofvenerationandsincerity,slightingallforher,payingrespecteventohergrief,tohisowntorture,labouringtoseeherwithoutathoughtofbeingseenbyher,quittingtheCourt(thoughtheCourt’sdelight)tocomeandlookonthewallswhereshewasshutup,andtopasshismelancholyhoursinplaceswherehecouldnothopetomeether;inaword,amanwhoseattachmenttoheralonemeritedreturnsoflove,andforwhomshehadsostronganinclination,thatsheshouldhavelovedhim,thoughshehadnotbeenbelovedbyhim;andbesides,onewhosequalitywassuitabletohers:alltheobstaclesthatcouldrisefromdutyandvirtuewerenowremoved,andallthetracethatremainedonhermindoftheirformerconditionwasthepassiontheDukedeNemourshadforher,andthatwhichshehadforhim。
Alltheseideaswerenewtoher;herafflictionforthedeathofherhusbandhadlefthernoroomforthoughtsofthiskind,butthesightofMonsieurdeNemoursrevivedthem,andtheycrowdedagainintohermind;butwhenshehadtakenherfillofthem,andrememberedthatthisveryman,whomsheconsideredasapropermatchforher,wasthesameshehadlovedinherhusband’slifetime,andwasthecauseofhisdeath,andthatonhisdeath-bedhehadexpressedafearofhermarryinghim,herseverevirtuewassoshockedattheimagination,thatshethoughtitwouldbeascriminalinhertomarryMonsieurdeNemoursnow,asitwastolovehimbefore:inshort,sheabandonedherselftothesereflectionssopernicioustoherhappiness,andfortifiedherselfinthembytheinconveniencywhichsheforesawwouldattendsuchamarriage。Aftertwohours’stayinthisplaceshereturnedhome,convincedthatitwasindispensablyherdutytoavoidthesightofthemansheloved。
Butthisconviction,whichwastheeffectofreasonandvirtue,didnotcarryherheartalongwithit;herheartwassoviolentlyfixedontheDukedeNemours,thatshebecameevenanobjectofcompassion,andwaswhollydeprivedofrest。Neverdidshepassanightinsouneasyamanner;inthemorning,thefirstthingshedidwastoseeiftherewasanybodyatthewindowwhichlookedtowardsherapartment;shesawthereMonsieurdeNemours,andwassosurpriseduponit,andwithdrewsohastily,asmadehimjudgesheknewhim;hehadoftenwishedtobeseenbyher,eversincehehadfoundoutthatmethodofseeingher,andwhenhehadnohopesofobtainingthatsatisfaction,hiswaywastogotomuseinthegardenwhereshefoundhim。
Tiredatlastwithsounfortunateanduncertainacondition,heresolvedtoattemptsomethingtodeterminehisfate:\"WhatshouldIwaitfor?\"saidhe。\"Ihavelongknownshelovesme;
sheisfree;shehasnodutynowtopleadagainstme;whyshouldIsubmitmyselftothehardshipofseeingher,withoutbeingseenbyherorspeakingtoher?Isitpossibleforlovesoabsolutelytohavedeprivedmeofreasonandcourage,andtohaverenderedmesodifferentfromwhatIhavebeeninallmyotheramours?ItwasfitIshouldpayaregardtoMadamdeCleves’sgrief;butI
doittoolong,andIgiveherleisuretoextinguishtheinclinationshehadforme。\"
Afterthesereflections,heconsideredwhatmeasuresheoughttotaketoseeher;hefoundhehadnolongeranyreasontoconcealhispassionfromtheViscountdeChartres;heresolvedtospeaktohimofit,andtocommunicatetohimhisdesignwithregardtohisniece。
TheViscountwasthenatParis,thetownbeingextremelyfull,andeverybodybusyinpreparingequipagesanddressestoattendtheKingofNavarre,whowastoconducttheQueenofSpain:
MonsieurdeNemours,wenttotheViscount,andmadeaningenuousconfessiontohimofallhehadconcealedhitherto,exceptMadamdeCleves’ssentiments,whichhewouldnotseemtoknow。
TheViscountreceivedwhathetoldhimwithagreatdealofpleasure,andassuredhim,thatthoughhewasnotacquaintedwithhissentimentsonthatsubject,hehadoftenthought,sinceMadamdeCleveshadbeenawidow,thatshewastheonlyladythatdeservedhim。MonsieurdeNemoursentreatedhimtogivehimanopportunityofspeakingtoher,andlearningwhatdispositionshewasin。
TheViscountproposedtocarryhimtoherhouse,buttheDukewasofopinionshewouldbeshockedatit,becauseasyetshesawnobody;sothattheyagreed,itwouldbebetterfortheViscounttoaskhertocometohim,undersomepretence,andfortheDuketocometothembyaprivatestaircase,thathemightnotbeobserved。Accordinglythiswasexecuted;MadamdeClevescame,theViscountwenttoreceiveher,andledherintoagreatclosetattheendofhisapartment;sometimeafterMonsieurdeNemourscamein,asbychance:MadamdeCleveswasingreatsurprisetoseehim;sheblushedandendeavouredtohideit;theViscountatfirstspokeofindifferentmatters,andthenwentout,asifhehadsomeorderstogive,tellingMadamdeCleveshemustdesirehertoentertaintheDukeinhisstead,andthathewouldreturnimmediately。
ItisimpossibletoexpressthesentimentsofMonsieurdeNemours,andMadamdeCleves,whentheysawthemselvesalone,andatlibertytospeaktooneanother,astheyhadneverbeenbefore:theycontinuedsilentawhile;atlength,saidMonsieurdeNemours,\"Canyou,Madam,pardontheViscountforgivingmeanopportunityofseeingyou,andspeakingtoyou,anopportunitywhichyouhavealwayssocruellydeniedme?\"\"Ioughtnottopardonhim,\"repliedshe,\"forhavingforgottheconditionIamin,andtowhatheexposesmyreputation。\"Havingspokethesewords,shewouldhavegoneaway;butMonsieurdeNemoursstoppingher,\"Fearnot,Madam,\"saidhe;\"youhavenothingtoapprehend;nobodyknowsIamhere;hearme,Madam,hearme,ifnotoutofgoodness,yetatleastforyourownsake,andtofreeyourselffromtheextravagancieswhichapassionIamnolongermasterofwillinfalliblyhurrymeinto。\"MadamdeClevesnowfirstyieldedtotheinclinationshehadfortheDukedeNemours,andbeholdinghimwitheyesfullofsoftnessandcharms,\"Butwhatcanyouhopefor,\"saysshe,\"fromthecomplaisanceyoudesireofme?Youwillperhapsrepentthatyouhaveobtainedit,andIshallcertainlyrepentthatIhavegrantedit。Youdeserveahappierfortunethanyouhavehithertohad,orthanyoucanhaveforthefuture,unlessyouseekitelsewhere。\"\"I,Madam,\"saidhe,\"seekhappinessanywhereelse?Oristhereanyhappinessforme,butinyourlove?ThoughIneverspokeofitbefore,Icannotbelieve,Madam,thatyouarenotacquaintedwithmypassion,orthatyoudonotknowittobethegreatestandmostsincerethateverwas;whattrialshasitsufferedinthingsyouareastrangerto?Whattrialshaveyouputittobyyourrigour?\"
\"SinceyouaredesirousIshouldopenmyselftoyou,\"answeredMadamdeCleves,\"I’llcomplywithyourdesire,andI’lldoitwithasinceritythatisrarelytobemetwithinpersonsofmysex:IshallnottellyouthatIhavenotobservedyourpassionforme;perhapsyouwouldnotbelievemeifIshouldtellyouso;
Iconfessthereforetoyou,notonlythatIhaveobservedit,butthatIhaveobserveditinsuchlightsasyouyourselfcouldwishitmightappeartomein。\"\"Andifyouhaveseenmypassion,Madam,\"saidhe,\"isitpossibleforyounottohavebeenmovedbyit?AndmayIventuretoask,ifithasmadenoimpressiononyourheart?\"\"Youshouldhavejudgedofthatfrommyconduct,\"repliedshe;\"butIshouldbegladtoknowwhatyouthoughtofit。\"\"Ioughttobeinahappiercondition,\"
repliedhe,\"toventuretoinformyou;myfortunewouldcontradictwhatIshouldsay;allIcantellyou,Madam,isthatIheartilywishedyouhadnotacknowledgedtoMonsieurdeCleveswhatyouconcealedfromme,andthatyouhadconcealedfromhimwhatyoumadeappeartome。\"\"Howcameyoutodiscover,\"
repliedsheblushing,\"thatIacknowledgedanythingtoMonsieurdeCleves?\"\"Ilearneditfromyourself,Madam,\"repliedhe;
\"butthatyoumaythebetterpardontheboldnessIshowedinlisteningtowhatyousaid,rememberifIhavemadeanilluseofwhatIheard,ifmyhopesroseuponit,orifIwasthemoreencouragedtospeaktoyou。\"
HerehebegantorelatehowhehadoverheardherconversationwithMonsieurdeCleves;butsheinterruptedhimbeforehehadfinished;\"Saynomoreofit,\"saidshe,\"Iseehowyoucametobesowellinformed;IsuspectedyouknewthebusinessbuttoowellattheQueen-Dauphin’s,wholearnedthisadventurefromthoseyouhadentrustedwithit。\"
UponthisMonsieurdeNemoursinformedherinwhatmannerthethingcametopass;\"Noexcuses,\"saysshe;\"Ihavelongforgivenyou,withoutbeinginformedhowitwasbroughtabout;
butsinceyouhavelearnedfrommyownselfwhatIdesignedtoconcealfromyouallmylife,IwillacknowledgetoyouthatyouhaveinspiredmewithsentimentsIwasunacquaintedwithbeforeI
sawyou,andofwhichIhadsoslenderanidea,thattheygavemeatfirstasurprisewhichstilladdedtothepainthatconstantlyattendsthem:Iamthelessashamedtomakeyouthisconfession,becauseIdoitatatimewhenImaydoitwithoutacrime,andbecauseyouhaveseenthatmyconducthasnotbeengovernedbymyaffections。\"
\"Canyoubelieve,Madam,\"saidMonsieurdeNemours,fallingonhisknees,\"butIshallexpireatyourfeetwithjoyandtransport?\"\"Ihavetoldyounothing,\"saidshesmiling,\"butwhatyouknewtoowellbefore。\"\"Ah!Madam,\"saidhe,\"whatadifferenceistherebetweenlearningitbychance,andknowingitfromyourself,andseeingwithalthatyouarepleasedIknowit。\"\"Itistrue,\"answeredshe,\"Iwouldhaveyouknowit,andIfindapleasureintellingityou;Idon’tevenknowifIdonottellityoumoreformyownsake,thanforyours;for,afterall,thisconfessionwillhavenoconsequences,andIshallfollowtheaustereruleswhichmydutyimposesuponme。\"\"How!Madam;youarenotofthisopinion,\"repliedMonsieurdeNemours;\"youarenolongerunderanyobligationofduty;youareatliberty;andifIdurst,Ishouldeventellyou,thatitisinyourpowertoactso,thatyourdutyshallonedayobligeyoutopreservethesentimentsyouhaveforme。\"\"Myduty,\"repliedshe,\"forbidsmetothinkofanyman,butofyouthelastintheworld,andforreasonswhichareunknowntoyou。\"\"Thosereasonsperhapsarenotunknowntome,\"answeredhe,\"buttheyarefarfrombeinggoodones。IbelievethatMonsieurdeClevesthoughtmehappierthanIwas,andimaginedthatyouapprovedofthoseextravagancieswhichmypassionledmeintowithoutyourapprobation。\"\"Letustalknomoreofthatadventure,\"saidshe;\"Icannotbearthethoughtofit,itgivingmeshame,andtheconsequencesofithavebeensuchthatitistoomelancholyasubjecttobespokenof;itisbuttootruethatyouwerethecauseofMonsieurdeCleves’sdeath;thesuspicionswhichyourinconsiderateconductgavehim,costhimhislifeasmuchasifyouhadtakenitawaywithyourownhands:
judgewhatIoughttohavedone,hadyoutwofoughtaduel,andhebeenkilled;Iknowverywell,itisnotthesamethingintheeyeoftheworld,butwithmethere’snodifference,sinceIknowthathisdeathwasowingtoyou,andthatitwasonmyaccount。\"
\"Ah!Madam,\"saidMonsieurdeNemours,\"whatphantomofdutydoyouopposetomyhappiness?What!Madam,shallavainandgroundlessfancyhinderyoufrommakingamanhappy,forwhomyouhaveaninclination?What,haveIhadsomegroundtohopeI
mightpassmylifewithyou?hasmyfateledmetolovethemostdeservingladyintheworld?haveIobservedinherallthatcanmakeamistressadorable?Hasshehadnodislikingtome?HaveIfoundinherconducteverythingwhichperhapsIcouldwishforinawife?Forinshort,Madam,youareperhapstheonlypersoninwhomthosetwocharactershaveeverconcurredtothedegreetheyareinyou;thosewhomarrymistresses,bywhomtheyareloved,tremblewhentheymarrythem,andcannotbutfearlesttheyshouldobservethesameconducttowardsotherswhichtheyobservedtowardsthem;butinyou,Madam,Icanfearnothing,I
seenothinginyoubutmatterofadmiration:haveIhadaprospectofsomuchfelicityfornootherendbuttoseeitobstructedbyyou?Ah!Madam,youforget,thatyouhavedistinguishedmeaboveothermen;orrather,youhavenotdistinguishedme;youhavedeceivedyourself,andIhaveflatteredmyself。\"
\"Youhavenotflatteredyourself,\"repliedshe;\"thereasonsofmydutywouldnotperhapsappearsostrongtomewithoutthatdistinctionofwhichyoudoubt,anditisthatwhichmakesmeapprehendunfortunateconsequencesfromyouralliance。\"\"I
havenothingtoanswer,Madam,\"repliedhe,\"whenyoutellmeyouapprehendunfortunateconsequences;butIown,thatafterallyouhavebeenpleasedtosaytome,Ididnotexpectfromyousocruelareason。\"\"Thereasonyouspeakof,\"repliedMadamdeCleves,\"issolittledisobligingastoyou,thatIdon’tknowhowtotellityou。\"\"Alas!Madam,\"saidhe,\"howcanyoufearIshouldflattermyselftoomuchafterwhatyouhavebeensayingtome?\"\"Ishallcontinuetospeaktoyou,\"saysshe,\"withthesamesinceritywithwhichIbegun,andI’lllayasidethatdelicacyandreservethatmodestyobligesonetoinafirstconversation,butIconjureyoutohearmewithoutinterruption。
\"IthinkIowetheaffectionyouhaveforme,thepoorrecompsensenottohidefromyouanyofmythoughts,andtoletyouseethemsuchastheyreallyare;thisinallprobabilitywillbetheonlytimeIshallallowmyselfthefreedomtodiscoverthemtoyou;andIcannotconfesswithoutablush,thatthecertaintyofnotbeinglovedbyyou,asIam,appearstomesodreadfulamisfortune,thatifIhadnotinvinciblereasonsgroundedonmyduty,Icouldnotresolvetosubjectmyselftoit;
Iknowthatyouarefree,thatIamsotoo,andthatcircumstancesaresuch,thatthepublicperhapswouldhavenoreasontoblameeitheryouorme,shouldweuniteourselvesforever;butdomencontinuetolove,whenunderengagementsforlife?OughtItoexpectamiracleinmyfavour?AndshallI
placemyselfinaconditionofseeingcertainlythatpassioncometoanend,inwhichIshouldplaceallmyfelicity?MonsieurdeCleveswasperhapstheonlymanintheworldcapableofcontinuingtoloveaftermarriage;itwasmyillfatethatIwasnotabletoenjoythathappiness,andperhapshispassionhadnotlastedbutthathefoundnone,inme;butIshouldnothavethe,samewayofpreservingyours;Ieventhinkyourconstancyisowingtotheobstaclesyouhavemetwith;youhavemetwithenoughtoanimateyoutoconquerthem;andmyunguardedactions,orwhatyoulearnedbychance,gaveyouhopesenoughnottobediscouraged。\"\"Ah!Madam,\"repliedMonsieurdeNemours,\"I
cannotkeepthesilenceyouenjoinedme;youdometoomuchinjustice,andmakeitappeartooclearlythatyouarefarfrombeingprepossessedinmyfavour。\"\"Iconfess,\"answeredshe,\"thatmypassionsmayleadme,buttheycannotblindme;nothingcanhindermefromknowingthatyouarebornwithadispositionforgallantry,andhaveallthequalitiespropertogivesuccess;
youhavealreadyhadagreatmanyamours,andyouwillhavemore;
Ishouldnolongerbesheyouplacedyourhappinessin;Ishouldseeyouaswarmforanotherasyouhadbeenforme;thiswouldgrievouslyvexme,andIamnotsureIshouldnothavethetormentofjealousy;Ihavesaidtoomuchtoconcealfromyouthatyouhavealreadymademeknowwhatjealousyis,andthatI
sufferedsuchcruelinquietudestheeveningtheQueengavemeMadamdeThemines’sletter,whichitwassaidwasaddressedtoyou,thattothismomentIretainanideaofit,whichmakesmebelieveitistheworstofallills。
\"Thereisscarceawomanbutoutofvanityorinclinationdesirestoengageyou;thereareveryfewwhomyoudonotplease,andmyownexperiencewouldmakemebelieve,thattherearenonewhomitisnotinyourpowertoplease;Ishouldthinkyoualwaysinloveandbeloved,norshouldIbeoftenmistaken;andyetinthiscaseIshouldhavenoremedybutpatience,nayIquestionifIshoulddaretocomplain:alovermaybereproached;butcanahusbandbeso,whenonehasnothingtourge,butthathelovesonenolonger?ButadmitIcouldaccustommyselftobearamisfortuneofthisnature,yethowcouldIbearthatofimaginingIconstantlysawMonsieurdeCleves,accusingyouofhisdeath,reproachingmewithhavinglovedyou,withhavingmarriedyou,andshowingmethedifferencebetwixthisaffectionandyours?
Itisimpossibletoover-rulesuchstrongreasonsasthese;I
mustcontinueintheconditionIamin,andintheresolutionI
havetakennevertoalterit。\"\"Doyoubelieveyouhavethepowertodoit,Madam?\"criedtheDukedeNemours。\"Doyouthinkyourresolutioncanholdoutagainstamanwhoadores,andwhohasthehappinesstopleaseyou?Itismoredifficultthanyouimagine,Madam,toresistapersonwhopleasesandlovesoneatthesametime;youhavedoneitbyanausterityofvirtue,whichisalmostwithoutexample;butthatvirtuenolongeropposesyourinclinations,andIhopeyouwillfollowtheminspiteofyourself。\"\"IknownothingcanbemoredifficultthanwhatIundertake,\"repliedMadamdeCleves;\"Idistrustmystrengthinthemidstofmyreasons;whatIthinkIowetothememoryofMonsieurdeCleveswouldbeaweakconsideration,ifnotsupportedbytheinterestofmyeaseandrepose;andthereasonsofmyreposehaveneedtobesupportedbythoseofmyduty;butthoughIdistrustmyself,IbelieveIshallneverovercomemyscruples,nordoIsomuchashopetoovercometheinclinationIhaveforyou;thatinclinationwillmakemeunhappy,andIwilldenymyselfthesightofyou,whateverviolenceitistome:Iconjureyou,byallthepowerIhaveoveryou,toseeknooccasionofseeingme;Iaminaconditionwhichmakesthatcriminalwhichmightbelawfulatanothertime;
decencyforbidsallcommercebetweenus。\"MonsieurdeNemoursthrewhimselfatherfeet,andgavealoosetoalltheviolentmotionswithwhichhewasagitated;heexpressedbothbyhiswordsandtearstheliveliestandmosttenderpassionthateverheartwastouchedwith;norwastheheartofMadamdeClevesinsensible;shelookeduponhimwitheyesswelledwithtears:
\"Whywasit,\"criesshe,\"thatIcanchargeyouwithMonsieurdeCleves’sdeath?WhydidnotmyfirstacquaintancewithyoubeginsinceIhavebeenatliberty,orwhydidnotIknowyoubeforeIwasengaged?Whydoesfateseparateusbysuchinvincibleobstacles?\"\"Therearenoobstacles,Madam,\"
repliedMonsieurdeNemours;\"itisyoualoneopposemyhappiness;youimposeonyourselfalawwhichvirtueandreasondonotrequireyoutoobey。\"\"’Tistrue,\"saysshe,\"I
sacrificeagreatdealtoadutywhichdoesnotsubsistbutinmyimagination;havepatience,andexpectwhattimemayproduce;
MonsieurdeClevesisbutjustexpired,andthatmournfulobjectistooneartoleavemeclearanddistinctviews;inthemeantimeenjoythesatisfactiontoknowyouhavegainedtheheartofapersonwhowouldneverhavelovedanyone,hadshenotseenyou:
believetheinclinationIhaveforyouwilllastforever,andthatitwillbeuniformandthesame,whateverbecomesofme:
Adieu,\"saidshe;\"thisisaconversationIoughttoblushfor;
however,giveanaccountofittotheViscount;Iagreetoit,anddesireyoutodoit。\"
Withthesewordsshewentaway,norcouldMonsieurdeNemoursdetainher。InthenextroomshemetwiththeViscount,whoseeingherundersomuchconcernwouldnotspeaktoher,butledhertohercoachwithoutsayingaword;hereturnedtoMonsieurdeNemours,whowassofullofjoy,grief,admiration,andofallthoseaffectionsthatattendapassionfullofhopeandfear,thathehadnottheuseofhisreason。ItwasalongtimeeretheViscountcouldgetfromhimanaccountoftheconversation;
atlasttheDukerelatedittohim,andMonsieurdeChartres,withoutbeinginlove,nolessadmiredthevirtue,witandmeritofMadamdeCleves,thandidMonsieurdeNemourshimself;theybegantoexaminewhatissuecouldreasonablybehopedforinthisaffair;andhoweverfearfultheDukedeNemourswasfromhislove,heagreedwiththeViscount,thatitwasimpossibleMadamdeClevesshouldcontinueintheresolutionshewasin;theywereofopinionneverthelessthatitwasnecessarytofollowherorders,forfear,uponthepublic’sperceivingtheinclinationhehadforher,sheshouldmakedeclarationsandenterintoengagementswithrespecttotheworld,thatshewouldafterwardsabideby,lestitshouldbethoughtshelovedhiminherhusband’slifetime。
MonsieurdeNemoursdeterminedtofollowtheKing;itwasajourneyhecouldnotwellexcusehimselffrom,andsoheresolvedtogowithoutendeavouringtoseeMadamdeClevesagainfromthewindowoutofwhichhehadsometimesseenher;hebeggedtheViscounttospeaktoher;andwhatdidhenotdesirehimtosayinhisbehalf?Whataninfinitenumberofreasonsdidhefurnishhimwith,topersuadehertoconquerherscruples?Inshort,greatpartofthenightwasspentbeforehethoughtofgoingaway。
AsforMadamdeCleves,shewasinnoconditiontorest;itwasathingsonewtohertohavebrokeloosefromtherestraintsshehadlaidonherself,tohaveenduredthefirstdeclarationsoflovethateverweremadetoher,andtohaveconfessedthatsheherselfwasinlovewithhimthatmadethem,allthiswassonewtoher,thatsheseemedquiteanotherperson;shewassurprisedatwhatshehaddone;sherepentedofit;shewasgladofit;allherthoughtswerefullofanxietyandpassion;sheexaminedagainthereasonsofherduty,whichobstructedherhappiness;shewasgrievedtofindthemsostrong,andwassorrythatshehadmadethemoutsocleartoMonsieurdeNemours:thoughshehadentertainedthoughtsofmarryinghim,assoonasshebeheldhiminthegardenofthesuburbs,yetherlateconversationwithhimmadeamuchgreaterimpressiononhermind;atsomemomentsshecouldnotcomprehendhowshecouldbeunhappybymarryinghim,andshewasreadytosayinherheart,thatherscruplesastowhatwaspast,andherfearsforthefuture,wereequallygroundless:atothertimes,reasonandherdutyprevailedinherthoughts,andviolentlyhurriedherintoaresolutionnottomarryagain,andnevertoseeMonsieurdeNemours;butthiswasaresolutionhardtobeestablishedinaheartsosoftenedashers,andsolatelyabandonedtothecharmsoflove。Atlast,togiveherselfalittleease,sheconcludedthatitwasnotyetnecessarytodoherselftheviolenceofcomingtoanyresolution,anddecencyallowedheraconsiderabletimetodeterminewhattodo:howeversheresolvedtocontinuefirminhavingnocommercewithMonsieurdeNemours。TheViscountcametoseeher,andpleadedhisfriend’scausewithallthewitandapplicationimaginable,butcouldnotmakeheralterherconduct,orrecallthesevereordersshehadgiventoMonsieurdeNemours;shetoldhimherdesignwasnottochangehercondition;thatsheknewhowdifficultitwastostandtothatdesign,butthatshehopedsheshouldbeabletodoit;shemadehimsosensiblehowfarshewasaffectedwiththeopinionthatMonsieurdeNemourswasthecauseofherhusband’sdeath,andhowmuchshewasconvincedthatitwouldbecontrarytoherdutytomarryhim,thattheViscountwasafraiditwouldbeverydifficulttotakeawaythoseimpressions;
hedidnot,however,telltheDukewhathethought,whenhegavehimanaccountofhisconversationwithher,butlefthimasmuchhopeasamanwhoislovedmayreasonablyhave。
Theysetoutthenextday,andwentaftertheKing;theViscountwrotetoMadamdeClevesatMonsieurdeNemours’srequest,andinasecondletter,whichsoonfollowedthefirst,theDukewrotealineortwoinhisownhand;butMadamdeClevesdeterminednottodepartfromtherulesshehadprescribedherself,andfearingtheaccidentsthatmighthappenfromletters,informedtheViscountthatshewouldreceivehislettersnomore,ifhecontinuedtospeakofMonsieurdeNemours,anddiditinsoperemptoryamanner,thattheDukedesiredhimnottomentionhim。
DuringtheabsenceoftheCourt,whichwasgonetoconducttheQueenofSpainasfarasPoitou,MadamdeClevescontinuedathome;andthemoredistantshewasfromMonsieurdeNemours,andfromeverythingthatcouldputherinmindofhim,themoresherecalledthememoryofthePrinceofCleves,whichshemadeitherglorytopreserve;thereasonsshehadnottomarrytheDukedeNemoursappearedstrongwithrespecttoherduty,butinvinciblewithrespecttoherquiet;theopinionshehad,thatmarriagewouldputanendtohislove,andthetormentsofjealousy,whichshethoughttheinfallibleconsequencesofmarriage,gavehertheprospectofacertainunhappinessifsheconsentedtohisdesires;ontheotherhand,shethoughtitimpossible,ifhewerepresent,torefusethemostamiablemanintheworld,themanwholovedher,andwhomsheloved,andtoopposehiminathingthatwasneitherinconsistentwithvirtuenordecency:shethoughtthatnothingbutabsenceanddistancecouldgiveherthepowertodoit;andshefoundshestoodinneedofthem,notonlytosupportherresolutionnottomarry,buteventokeepherfromseeingMonsieurdeNemours;sheresolvedthereforetotakealongjourney,inordertopassawaythetimewhichdecencyobligedhertospendinretirement;thefineestateshehadnearthePyreneesseemedthemostproperplaceshecouldmakechoiceof;shesetoutafewdaysbeforetheCourtreturned,andwroteatpartingtotheViscounttoconjurehimnottothinkofonceenquiringafterher,orofwritingtoher。
MonsieurdeNemourswasasmuchtroubledatthisjourneyasanotherwouldhavebeenforthedeathofhismistress;thethoughtofbeingdeprivedsolongatimeofthesightofMadamdeClevesgrievedhimtothesoul,especiallyasithappenedatatimewhenhehadlatelyenjoyedthepleasureofseeingher,andofseeinghermovedbyhispassion;howeverhecoulddonothingbutafflicthimself,andhisafflictionincreasedeveryday。
MadamdeCleves,whosespiritshadbeensomuchagitated,wasnosoonerarrivedathercountryseat,butshefelldesperatelyill;
thenewsofitwasbroughttoCourt;MonsieurdeNemourswasinconsolable;hisgriefproceededeventodespairandextravagance;theViscounthadmucha-dotohinderhimfromdiscoveringhispassioninpublic,andasmucha-dotokeephimfromgoinginpersontoknowhowshedid;therelationandfriendshipbetweenherandtheViscountservedasanexcuseforsendingfrequentmessengers;atlasttheyheardshewasoutoftheextremityofdangershehadbeenin,butcontinuedinalanguishingmaladythatleftbutlittlehopesoflife。
Thenatureofherdiseasegaveheraprospectofdeathbothnear,andatadistance,andshowedherthethingsofthislifeinaverydifferentviewfromthatinwhichtheyareseenbypeopleinhealth;thenecessityofdying,towhichshesawherselfsonear,taughthertoweanherselffromtheworld,andthelingeringnessofherdistemperbroughthertoahabitinit;yetwhenshewasalittlerecovered,shefoundthatMonsieurdeNemourswasnoteffacedfromherheart;buttodefendherselfagainsthim,shecalledtoheraidallthereasonswhichshethoughtshehadnevertomarryhim;afteralongconflictinherself,shesubduedtherelicsofthatpassionwhichhadbeenweakenedbythesentimentsherillnesshadgivenher;thethoughtsofdeathhadreproachedherwiththememoryofMonsieurdeCleves,andthisremembrancewassoagreeabletoherduty,thatitmadedeepimpressionsinherheart;thepassionsandengagementsoftheworldappearedtoherinthelight,inwhichtheyappeartopersonswhohavemoregreatandmoredistantviews。Theweaknessofherbody,whichwasbroughtverylow,aidedherinpreservingthesesentiments;
butassheknewwhatpoweropportunitieshaveoverthewisestresolutions,shewouldnothazardthebreachofthoseshehadtaken,byreturningintoanyplacewhereshemightseehimsheloved;sheretired,underpretenceofchangeofair,intoaconvent,butwithoutdeclaringasettledresolutionofquittingtheCourt。
Uponthefirstnewsofit,MonsieurdeNemoursfelttheweightofthisretreat,andsawtheimportanceofit;hepresentlythoughthehadnothingmoretohope,butomittednotanythingthatmightobligehertoreturn;heprevailedwiththeQueentowrite;hemadetheViscountnotonlywrite,butgotoher,butalltonopurpose;theViscountsawher,butshedidnottellhimshehadfixedherresolution;andyethejudged,shewouldneverreturntoCourt;atlastMonsieurdeNemourshimselfwenttoher,underpretenceofusingthewaters;shewasextremelygrievedandsurprisedtohearhewascome,andsenthimwordbyapersonofmeritabouther,thatshedesiredhimnottotakeitillifshedidnotexposeherselftothedangerofseeinghim,andofdestroyingbyhispresencethosesentimentsshewasobligedtopreserve;thatshedesiredheshouldknow,thathavingfounditbothagainstherdutyandpeaceofmindtoyieldtotheinclinationshehadtobehis,allthingselsewerebecomesoindifferenttoher,thatshehadrenouncedthemforever;thatshethoughtonlyofanotherlife,andhadnosentimentremainingastothis,butthedesireofseeinghiminthesamedispositionsshewasin。
MonsieurdeNemourswasliketohaveexpiredinthepresenceoftheladywhotoldhimthis;hebeggedherathousandtimestoreturntoMadamdeCleves,andtogetleaveforhimtoseeher;
butshetoldhimthePrincesshadnotonlyforbiddenhertocomebackwithanymessagefromhim,buteventoreporttheconversationthatshouldpassbetweenthem。AtlengthMonsieurdeNemourswasobligedtogoback,oppressedwiththeheaviestgriefamaniscapableof,whohaslostallhopesofeverseeingagainaperson,whomhelovednotonlywiththemostviolent,butmostnaturalandsincerepassionthateverwas;yetstillhewasnotutterlydiscouraged,butusedallimaginablemethodstomakeheralterherresolution;atlast,afterseveralyears,timeandabsenceabatedhisgrief,andextinguishedhispassion。
MadamdeCleveslivedinamannerthatleftnoprobabilityofhereverreturningtoCourt;shespentonepartoftheyearinthatreligioushouse,andtheotheratherown,butstillcontinuedtheausterityofretirement,andconstantlyemployedherselfinexercisesmoreholythantheseverestconventscanpretendto;
andherlife,thoughitwasshort,leftexamplesofinimitablevirtues。