CHAPTERI—MASTERHUMPHREY,FROMHISCLOCK—SIDEINTHECHIMNEY
CORNER
THEreadermustnotexpecttoknowwhereIlive。Atpresent,itistrue,myabodemaybeaquestionoflittleornoimporttoanybody;
butifIshouldcarrymyreaderswithme,asIhopetodo,andthereshouldspringupbetweenthemandmefeelingsofhomelyaffectionandregardattachingsomethingofinteresttomatterseversoslightlyconnectedwithmyfortunesormyspeculations,evenmyplaceofresidencemightonedayhaveakindofcharmforthem。Bearingthispossiblecontingencyinmind,Iwishthemtounderstand,intheoutset,thattheymustneverexpecttoknowit。
Iamnotachurlisholdman。FriendlessIcanneverbe,forallmankindaremykindred,andIamonilltermswithnoonememberofmygreatfamily。ButformanyyearsIhaveledalonely,solitarylife;—whatwoundIsoughttoheal,whatsorrowtoforget,originally,mattersnotnow;itissufficientthatretirementhasbecomeahabitwithme,andthatIamunwillingtobreakthespellwhichforsolongatimehassheditsquietinfluenceuponmyhomeandheart。
IliveinavenerablesuburbofLondon,inanoldhousewhichinbygonedayswasafamousresortformerryroysterersandpeerlessladies,longsincedeparted。Itisasilent,shadyplace,withapavedcourtyardsofullofechoes,thatsometimesIamtemptedtobelievethatfaintresponsestothenoisesofoldtimeslingerthereyet,andthattheseghostsofsoundhauntmyfootstepsasI
paceitupanddown。Iamthemoreconfirmedinthisbelief,because,oflateyears,theechoesthatattendmywalkshavebeenlessloudandmarkedthantheywerewonttobe;anditispleasantertoimagineinthemtherustlingofsilkbrocade,andthelightstepofsomelovelygirl,thantorecogniseintheiralterednotethefailingtreadofanoldman。
Thosewholiketoreadofbrilliantroomsandgorgeousfurniturewouldderivebutlittlepleasurefromaminutedescriptionofmysimpledwelling。Itisdeartomeforthesamereasonthattheywouldholditinslightregard。Itsworm—eatendoors,andlowceilingscrossedbyclumsybeams;itswallsofwainscot,darkstairs,andgapingclosets;itssmallchambers,communicatingwitheachotherbywindingpassagesornarrowsteps;itsmanynooks,scarcelargerthanitscorner—cupboards;itsverydustanddulness,arealldeartome。Themothandspideraremyconstanttenants;
forinmyhousetheonebasksinhislongsleep,andtheotherplieshisbusyloomsecureandundisturbed。Ihaveapleasureinthinkingonasummer’sdayhowmanybutterflieshavesprungforthefirsttimeintolightandsunshinefromsomedarkcorneroftheseoldwalls。
WhenIfirstcametolivehere,whichwasmanyyearsago,theneighbourswerecurioustoknowwhoIwas,andwhenceIcame,andwhyIlivedsomuchalone。Astimewenton,andtheystillremainedunsatisfiedonthesepoints,Ibecamethecentreofapopularferment,extendingforhalfamileround,andinonedirectionforafullmile。Variousrumourswerecirculatedtomyprejudice。Iwasaspy,aninfidel,aconjurer,akidnapperofchildren,arefugee,apriest,amonster。MotherscaughtuptheirinfantsandranintotheirhousesasIpassed;meneyedmespitefully,andmutteredthreatsandcurses。Iwastheobjectofsuspicionanddistrust—ay,ofdownrighthatredtoo。
ButwhenincourseoftimetheyfoundIdidnoharm,but,onthecontrary,inclinedtowardsthemdespitetheirunjustusage,theybegantorelent。Ifoundmyfootstepsnolongerdogged,astheyhadoftenbeenbefore,andobservedthatthewomenandchildrennolongerretreated,butwouldstandandgazeatmeasIpassedtheirdoors。Itookthisforagoodomen,andwaitedpatientlyforbettertimes。BydegreesIbegantomakefriendsamongthesehumblefolks;andthoughtheywereyetshyofspeaking,wouldgivethem’goodday,’andsopasson。Inalittletime,thosewhomI
hadthusaccostedwouldmakeapointofcomingtotheirdoorsandwindowsattheusualhour,andnodorcourtesytome;children,too,cametimidlywithinmyreach,andranawayquitescaredwhenI
pattedtheirheadsandbadethembegoodatschool。Theselittlepeoplesoongrewmorefamiliar。Fromexchangingmerewordsofcoursewithmyolderneighbours,Igraduallybecametheirfriendandadviser,thedepositaryoftheircaresandsorrows,andsometimes,itmaybe,thereliever,inmysmallway,oftheirdistresses。AndnowIneverwalkabroadbutpleasantrecognitionsandsmilingfaceswaitonMasterHumphrey。
Itwasawhimofmine,perhapsasawhettothecuriosityofmyneighbours,andakindofretaliationuponthemfortheirsuspicions—itwas,Isay,awhimofmine,whenIfirsttookupmyabodeinthisplace,toacknowledgenoothernamethanHumphrey。
Withmydetractors,IwasUglyHumphrey。WhenIbegantoconvertthemintofriends,IwasMr。HumphreyandOldMr。Humphrey。AtlengthIsettleddownintoplainMasterHumphrey,whichwasunderstoodtobethetitlemostpleasanttomyear;andsocompletelyamatterofcoursehasitbecome,thatsometimeswhenI
amtakingmymorningwalkinmylittlecourtyard,Ioverhearmybarber—whohasaprofoundrespectforme,andwouldnot,Iamsure,abridgemyhonoursfortheworld—holdingforthontheothersideofthewall,touchingthestateof’MasterHumphrey’s’health,andcommunicatingtosomefriendthesubstanceoftheconversationthatheandMasterHumphreyhavehadtogetherinthecourseoftheshavingwhichhehasjustconcluded。
ThatImaynotmakeacquaintancewithmyreadersunderfalsepretences,orgivethemcausetocomplainhereafterthatIhavewithheldanymatterwhichitwasessentialforthemtohavelearntatfirst,Iwishthemtoknow—andIsmilesorrowfullytothinkthatthetimehasbeenwhentheconfessionwouldhavegivenmepain—thatIamamisshapen,deformedoldman。
Ihaveneverbeenmadeamisanthropebythiscause。Ihaveneverbeenstungbyanyinsult,norwoundedbyanyjestuponmycrookedfigure。AsachildIwasmelancholyandtimid,butthatwasbecausethegentleconsiderationpaidtomymisfortunesunkdeepintomyspiritandmademesad,eveninthoseearlydays。Iwasbutaveryyoungcreaturewhenmypoormotherdied,andyetI
rememberthatoftenwhenIhungaroundherneck,andoftenerstillwhenIplayedabouttheroombeforeher,shewouldcatchmetoherbosom,andburstingintotears,wouldsoothemewitheverytermoffondnessandaffection。GodknowsIwasahappychildatthosetimes,—happytonestleinherbreast,—happytoweepwhenshedid,—happyinnotknowingwhy。
Theseoccasionsaresostronglyimpresseduponmymemory,thattheyseemtohaveoccupiedwholeyears。Ihadnumberedvery,veryfewwhentheyceasedforever,butbeforethentheirmeaninghadbeenrevealedtome。
Idonotknowwhetherallchildrenareimbuedwithaquickperceptionofchildishgraceandbeauty,andastrongloveforit,butIwas。IhadnothoughtthatIremember,eitherthatI
possesseditmyselforthatIlackedit,butIadmireditwithanintensitythatIcannotdescribe。Alittleknotofplaymates—
theymusthavebeenbeautiful,forIseethemnow—wereclusteredonedayroundmymother’skneeineageradmirationofsomepicturerepresentingagroupofinfantangels,whichsheheldinherhand。
Whosethepicturewas,whetheritwasfamiliartomeorotherwise,orhowallthechildrencametobethere,Iforget;Ihavesomedimthoughtitwasmybirthday,butthebeginningofmyrecollectionisthatwewerealltogetherinagarden,anditwassummerweather,—
Iamsureofthat,foroneofthelittlegirlshadrosesinhersash。Thereweremanylovelyangelsinthispicture,andI
rememberthefancycominguponmetopointoutwhichofthemrepresentedeachchildthere,andthatwhenIhadgonethroughmycompanions,Istoppedandhesitated,wonderingwhichwasmostlikeme。Irememberthechildrenlookingateachother,andmyturningredandhot,andtheircrowdingroundtokissme,sayingthattheylovedmeallthesame;andthen,andwhentheoldsorrowcameintomydearmother’smildandtenderlook,thetruthbrokeuponmeforthefirsttime,andIknew,whilewatchingmyawkwardandungainlysports,howkeenlyshehadfeltforherpoorcrippledboy。
Iusedfrequentlytodreamofitafterwards,andnowmyheartachesforthatchildasifIhadneverbeenhe,whenIthinkhowoftenheawokefromsomefairychangetohisownoldform,andsobbedhimselftosleepagain。
Well,well,—allthesesorrowsarepast。Myglancingatthemmaynotbewithoutitsuse,foritmayhelpinsomemeasuretoexplainwhyIhaveallmylifebeenattachedtotheinanimateobjectsthatpeoplemychamber,andhowIhavecometolookuponthemratherinthelightofoldandconstantfriends,thanasmerechairsandtableswhichalittlemoneycouldreplaceatwill。
ChiefandfirstamongalltheseismyClock,—myold,cheerful,companionableClock。HowcanIeverconveytoothersanideaofthecomfortandconsolationthatthisoldClockhasbeenforyearstome!
Itisassociatedwithmyearliestrecollections。Itstooduponthestaircaseathome(Icallithomestillmechanically),nighsixtyyearsago。Ilikeitforthat;butitisnotonthataccount,norbecauseitisaquaintoldthinginahugeoakencasecuriouslyandrichlycarved,thatIprizeitasIdo。Iinclinetoitasifitwerealive,andcouldunderstandandgivemebacktheloveIbearit。
Andwhatotherthingthathasnotlifecouldcheermeasitdoes?
whatotherthingthathasnotlife(Iwillnotsayhowfewthingsthathave)couldhaveprovedthesamepatient,true,untiringfriend?HowoftenhaveIsatinthelongwintereveningsfeelingsuchsocietyinitscricket—voice,thatraisingmyeyesfrommybookandlookinggratefullytowardsit,thefacereddenedbytheglowoftheshiningfirehasseemedtorelaxfromitsstaidexpressionandtoregardmekindly!howofteninthesummertwilight,whenmythoughtshavewanderedbacktoamelancholypast,haveitsregularwhisperingsrecalledthemtothecalmandpeacefulpresent!howofteninthedeadtranquillityofnighthasitsbellbrokentheoppressivesilence,andseemedtogivemeassurancethattheoldclockwasstillafaithfulwatcheratmychamber—door!Myeasy—chair,mydesk,myancientfurniture,myverybooks,Icanscarcelybringmyselftoloveeventheselastlikemyoldclock。
Itstandsinasnugcorner,midwaybetweenthefiresideandalowarcheddoorleadingtomybedroom。Itsfameisdiffusedsoextensivelythroughouttheneighbourhood,thatIhaveoftenthesatisfactionofhearingthepublican,orthebaker,andsometimeseventheparish—clerk,petitioningmyhousekeeper(ofwhomIshallhavemuchtosayby—and—by)toinformhimtheexacttimebyMasterHumphrey’sclock。Mybarber,towhomIhavereferred,wouldsoonerbelieveitthanthesun。Noraretheseitsonlydistinctions。Ithasacquired,Iamhappytosay,another,inseparablyconnectingitnotonlywithmyenjoymentsandreflections,butwiththoseofothermen;asIshallnowrelate。
Ilivedalonehereforalongtimewithoutanyfriendoracquaintance。Inthecourseofmywanderingsbynightandday,atallhoursandseasons,incitystreetsandquietcountryparts,I
cametobefamiliarwithcertainfaces,andtotakeittoheartasquiteaheavydisappointmentiftheyfailedtopresentthemselveseachatitsaccustomedspot。ButtheseweretheonlyfriendsI
knew,andbeyondthemIhadnone。
Ithappened,however,whenIhadgoneonthusforalongtime,thatIformedanacquaintancewithadeafgentleman,whichripenedintointimacyandclosecompanionship。Tothishour,Iamignorantofhisname。Itishishumourtoconcealit,orhehasareasonandpurposeforsodoing。Ineithercase,Ifeelthathehasarighttorequireareturnofthetrusthehasreposed;andashehasneversoughttodiscovermysecret,Ihaveneversoughttopenetratehis。Theremayhavebeensomethinginthistacitconfidenceineachotherflatteringandpleasanttousboth,anditmayhaveimpartedinthebeginninganadditionalzest,perhaps,toourfriendship。Bethisasitmay,wehavegrowntobelikebrothers,andstillIonlyknowhimasthedeafgentleman。
Ihavesaidthatretirementhasbecomeahabitwithme。WhenI
add,thatthedeafgentlemanandIhavetwofriends,Icommunicatenothingwhichisinconsistentwiththatdeclaration。Ispendmanyhoursofeverydayinsolitudeandstudy,havenofriendsorchangeoffriendsbutthese,onlyseethematstatedperiods,andamsupposedtobeofaretiredspiritbytheverynatureandobjectofourassociation。
Wearemenofsecludedhabits,withsomethingofaclouduponourearlyfortunes,whoseenthusiasm,nevertheless,hasnotcooledwithage,whosespiritofromanceisnotyetquenched,whoarecontenttoramblethroughtheworldinapleasantdream,ratherthaneverwakenagaintoitsharshrealities。Wearealchemistswhowouldextracttheessenceofperpetualyouthfromdustandashes,temptcoyTruthinmanylightandairyformsfromthebottomofherwell,anddiscoveronecrumbofcomfortoronegrainofgoodinthecommonestandleast—regardedmatterthatpassesthroughourcrucible。Spiritsofpasttimes,creaturesofimagination,andpeopleofto—dayarealiketheobjectsofourseeking,and,unliketheobjectsofsearchwithmostphilosophers,wecaninsuretheircomingatourcommand。
ThedeafgentlemanandIfirstbegantobeguileourdayswiththesefancies,andournightsincommunicatingthemtoeachother。Wearenowfour。Butinmyroomtherearesixoldchairs,andwehavedecidedthatthetwoemptyseatsshallalwaysbeplacedatourtablewhenwemeet,toremindusthatwemayyetincreaseourcompanybythatnumber,ifweshouldfindtwomentoourmind。
Whenoneamongusdies,hischairwillalwaysbesetinitsusualplace,butneveroccupiedagain;andIhavecausedmywilltobesodrawnout,thatwhenwearealldeadthehouseshallbeshutup,andthevacantchairsstillleftintheiraccustomedplaces。Itispleasanttothinkthateventhenourshadesmay,perhaps,assembletogetherasofyorewedid,andjoininghostlyconverse。
Onenightineveryweek,astheclockstrikesten,wemeet。Atthesecondstrokeoftwo,Iamalone。
AndnowshallItellhowthatmyoldservant,besidesgivingusnoteoftime,andtickingcheerfulencouragementofourproceedings,lendsitsnametooursociety,whichforitspunctualityandmyloveischristened’MasterHumphrey’sClock’?
NowshallItellhowthatinthebottomoftheolddarkcloset,wherethesteadypendulumthrobsandbeatswithhealthyaction,thoughthepulseofhimwhomadeitstoodstilllongago,andnevermovedagain,therearepilesofdustypapersconstantlyplacedtherebyourhands,thatwemaylinkourenjoymentswithmyoldfriend,anddrawmeanstobeguiletimefromtheheartoftimeitself?ShallI,orcanI,tellwithwhatasecretprideIopenthisrepositorywhenwemeetatnight,andstillfindnewstoreofpleasureinmydearoldClock?
Friendandcompanionofmysolitude!mineisnotaselfishlove;I
wouldnotkeepyourmeritstomyself,butdispersesomethingofpleasantassociationwithyourimagethroughthewholewideworld;
Iwouldhavemencouplewithyournamecheerfulandhealthythoughts;Iwouldhavethembelievethatyoukeeptrueandhonesttime;andhowitwouldgladdenmetoknowthattheyrecognisedsomeheartyEnglishworkinMasterHumphrey’sclock!
THECLOCK—CASE
Itismyintentionconstantlytoaddressmyreadersfromthechimney—corner,andIwouldfainhopethatsuchaccountsasIshallgivethemofourhistoriesandproceedings,ourquietspeculationsormorebusyadventures,willneverbeunwelcome。Lest,however,I
shouldgrowprolixintheoutsetbylingeringtoolonguponourlittleassociation,confoundingtheenthusiasmwithwhichIregardthischiefhappinessofmylifewiththatminordegreeofinterestwhichthosetowhomIaddressmyselfmaybesupposedtofeelforit,Ihavedeemeditexpedienttobreakoffastheyhaveseen。
But,stillclingingtomyoldfriend,andnaturallydesirousthatallitsmeritsshouldbeknown,Iamtemptedtoopen(somewhatirregularlyandagainstourlaws,Imustadmit)theclock—case。
ThefirstrollofpaperonwhichIlaymyhandisinthewritingofthedeafgentleman。Ishallhavetospeakofhiminmynextpaper;
andhowcanIbetterapproachthatwelcometaskthanbyprefacingitwithaproductionofhisownpen,consignedtothesafekeepingofmyhonestClockbyhisownhand?
ThemanuscriptrunsthusINTRODUCTIONTOTHEGIANTCHRONICLES
Onceuponatime,thatistosay,inthisourtime,—theexactyear,month,anddayareofnomatter,—theredweltinthecityofLondonasubstantialcitizen,whounitedinhissinglepersonthedignitiesofwholesalefruiterer,alderman,common—councilman,andmemberoftheworshipfulCompanyofPatten—makers;whohadsuperaddedtotheseextraordinarydistinctionstheimportantpostandtitleofSheriff,andwhoatlength,andtocrownall,stoodnextinrotationforthehighandhonourableofficeofLordMayor。
Hewasaverysubstantialcitizenindeed。Hisfacewaslikethefullmooninafog,withtwolittleholespunchedoutforhiseyes,averyripepearstuckonforhisnose,andawidegashtoserveforamouth。Thegirthofhiswaistcoatwashungupandletteredinhistailor’sshopasanextraordinarycuriosity。Hebreathedlikeaheavysnorer,andhisvoiceinspeakingcamethicklyforth,asifitwereoppressedandstifledbyfeather—beds。Hetrodthegroundlikeanelephant,andeatanddranklike—likenothingbutanalderman,ashewas。
Thisworthycitizenhadrisentohisgreateminencefromsmallbeginnings。Hehadoncebeenaverylean,weazenlittleboy,neverdreamingofcarryingsuchaweightoffleshuponhisbonesorofmoneyinhispockets,andgladenoughtotakehisdinneratabaker’sdoor,andhisteaatapump。Buthehadlongagoforgottenallthis,asitwasproperthatawholesalefruiterer,alderman,common—councilman,memberoftheworshipfulCompanyofPatten—
makers,pastsheriff,and,aboveall,aLordMayorthatwastobe,should;andheneverforgotitmorecompletelyinallhislifethanontheeighthofNovemberintheyearofhiselectiontothegreatgoldencivicchair,whichwasthedaybeforehisgranddinneratGuildhall。
Ithappenedthatashesatthateveningallaloneinhiscounting—
house,lookingoverthebilloffarefornextday,andcheckingoffthefatcaponsinfifties,andtheturtle—soupbythehundredquarts,forhisprivateamusement,—ithappenedthatashesataloneoccupiedinthesepleasantcalculations,astrangemancameinandaskedhimhowhedid,adding,’IfIamhalfasmuchchangedasyou,sir,youhavenorecollectionofme,Iamsure。’
Thestrangemanwasnotoverandabovewelldressed,andwasveryfarfrombeingfatorrich—lookinginanysenseoftheword,yethespokewithakindofmodestconfidence,andassumedaneasy,gentlemanlysortofanair,towhichnobodybutarichmancanlawfullypresume。Besidesthis,heinterruptedthegoodcitizenjustashehadreckonedthreehundredandseventy—twofatcapons,andwascarryingthemovertothenextcolumn;andasifthatwerenotaggravationenough,thelearnedrecorderforthecityofLondonhadonlytenminutespreviouslygoneoutatthatverysamedoor,andhadturnedroundandsaid,’Goodnight,mylord。’Yes,hehadsaid,’mylord;’—he,amanofbirthandeducation,oftheHonourableSocietyoftheMiddleTemple,Barrister—at—Law,—hewhohadanuncleintheHouseofCommons,andanauntalmostbutnotquiteintheHouseofLords(forshehadmarriedafeeblepeer,andmadehimvoteassheliked),—he,thisman,thislearnedrecorder,hadsaid,’mylord。’’I’llnotwaittillto—morrowtogiveyouyourtitle,myLordMayor,’sayshe,withabowandasmile;’youareLordMayorDEFACTO,ifnotDEJURE。Goodnight,mylord。’
TheLordMayorelectthoughtofthis,andturningtothestranger,andsternlybiddinghim’gooutofhisprivatecounting—house,’
broughtforwardthethreehundredandseventy—twofatcapons,andwentonwithhisaccount。
’Doyouremember,’saidtheother,steppingforward,—’DOyourememberlittleJoeToddyhigh?’
Theportwinefledforamomentfromthefruiterer’snoseashemuttered,’JoeToddyhigh!WhataboutJoeToddyhigh?’
’IamJoeToddyhigh,’criedthevisitor。’Lookatme,lookhardatme,—harder,harder。Youknowmenow?YouknowlittleJoeagain?
Whatahappinesstousboth,tomeettheverynightbeforeyourgrandeur!O!givemeyourhand,Jack,—bothhands,—both,forthesakeofoldtimes。’
’Youpinchme,sir。You’rea—hurtingofme,’saidtheLordMayorelectpettishly。’Don’t,—supposeanybodyshouldcome,—Mr。
Toddyhigh,sir。’
’Mr。Toddyhigh!’repeatedtheotherruefully。
’O,don’tbother,’saidtheLordMayorelect,scratchinghishead。
’Dearme!Why,Ithoughtyouwasdead。Whatafellowyouare!’
Indeed,itwasaprettystateofthings,andworthythetoneofvexationanddisappointmentinwhichtheLordMayorspoke。JoeToddyhighhadbeenapoorboywithhimatHull,andhadoftentimesdividedhislastpennyandpartedhislastcrusttorelievehiswants;forthoughJoewasadestitutechildinthosetimes,hewasasfaithfulandaffectionateinhisfriendshipasevermanofmightcouldbe。Theypartedonedaytoseektheirfortunesindifferentdirections。Joewenttosea,andthenowwealthycitizenbeggedhiswaytoLondon,Theyseparatedwithmanytears,likefoolishfellowsastheywere,andagreedtoremainfastfriends,andiftheylived,soontocommunicateagain。
Whenhewasanerrand—boy,andevenintheearlydaysofhisapprenticeship,thecitizenhadmanyatimetrudgedtothePost—
officetoaskiftherewereanyletterfrompoorlittleJoe,andhadgonehomeagainwithtearsinhiseyes,whenhefoundnonewsofhisonlyfriend。Theworldisawideplace,anditwasalongtimebeforethelettercame;whenitdid,thewriterwasforgotten。
ItturnedfromwhitetoyellowfromlyinginthePost—officewithnobodytoclaimit,andincourseoftimewastornupwithfivehundredothers,andsoldforwaste—paper。Andnowatlast,andwhenitmightleasthavebeenexpected,herewasthisJoeToddyhighturningupandclaimingacquaintancewithagreatpubliccharacter,whoonthemorrowwouldbecrackingjokeswiththePrimeMinisterofEngland,andwhohadonly,atanytimeduringthenexttwelvemonths,tosaytheword,andhecouldshutupTempleBar,andmakeitnothoroughfareforthekinghimself!
’IamsureIdon’tknowwhattosay,Mr。Toddyhigh,’saidtheLordMayorelect;’Ireallydon’t。It’sveryinconvenient。I’dsoonerhavegiventwentypound,—it’sveryinconvenient,really。’—A
thoughthadcomeintohismind,thatperhapshisoldfriendmightsaysomethingpassionatewhichwouldgivehimanexcuseforbeingangryhimself。Nosuchthing。Joelookedathimsteadily,butverymildly,anddidnotopenhislips。
’OfcourseIshallpayyouwhatIoweyou,’saidtheLordMayorelect,fidgetinginhischair。’Youlentme—Ithinkitwasashillingorsomesmallcoin—whenwepartedcompany,andthatofcourseIshallpaywithgoodinterest。Icanpaymywaywithanyman,andalwayshavedone。IfyoulookintotheMansionHousethedayafterto—morrow,—sometimeafterdusk,—andaskformyprivateclerk,you’llfindhehasadraftforyou。Ihaven’tgottimetosayanythingmorejustnow,unless,’—hehesitated,for,coupledwithastrongdesiretoglitterforonceinallhisgloryintheeyesofhisformercompanion,wasadistrustofhisappearance,whichmightbemoreshabbythanhecouldtellbythatfeeblelight,—’unlessyou’dliketocometothedinnerto—morrow。
Idon’tmindyourhavingthisticket,ifyouliketotakeit。A
greatmanypeoplewouldgivetheirearsforit,Icantellyou。’
Hisoldfriendtookthecardwithoutspeakingaword,andinstantlydeparted。Hissunburntfaceandgrayhairwerepresenttothecitizen’smindforamoment;butbythetimehereachedthreehundredandeighty—onefatcapons,hehadquiteforgottenhim。
JoeToddyhighhadneverbeeninthecapitalofEuropebefore,andhewanderedupanddownthestreetsthatnightamazedatthenumberofchurchesandotherpublicbuildings,thesplendouroftheshops,therichesthatwereheapeduponeveryside,theglareoflightinwhichtheyweredisplayed,andtheconcourseofpeoplewhohurriedtoandfro,indifferent,apparently,toallthewondersthatsurroundedthem。Butinallthelongstreetsandbroadsquares,therewerenonebutstrangers;itwasquitearelieftoturndownaby—wayandhearhisownfootstepsonthepavement。Hewenthometohisinn,thoughtthatLondonwasadreary,desolateplace,andfeltdisposedtodoubttheexistenceofonetrue—heartedmaninthewholeworshipfulCompanyofPatten—makers。Finally,hewenttobed,anddreamedthatheandtheLordMayorelectwereboysagain。
Hewentnextdaytothedinner;andwheninaburstoflightandmusic,andinthemidstofsplendiddecorationsandsurroundedbybrilliantcompany,hisformerfriendappearedattheheadoftheHall,andwashailedwithshoutsandcheering,hecheeredandshoutedwiththebest,andforthemomentcouldhavecried。Thenextmomenthecursedhisweaknessinbehalfofamansochangedandselfish,andquitehatedajolly—lookingoldgentlemanoppositefordeclaringhimselfintheprideofhisheartaPatten—maker。
Asthebanquetproceeded,hetookmoreandmoretohearttherichcitizen’sunkindness;andthat,notfromanyenvy,butbecausehefeltthatamanofhisstateandfortunecouldallthebetteraffordtorecogniseanoldfriend,evenifhewerepoorandobscure。Themorehethoughtofthis,themorelonelyandsadhefelt。Whenthecompanydispersedandadjournedtotheball—room,hepacedthehallandpassagesalone,ruminatinginaverymelancholyconditionuponthedisappointmenthehadexperienced。
Itchanced,whilehewasloungingaboutinthismoodystate,thathestumbleduponaflightofstairs,dark,steep,andnarrow,whichheascendedwithoutanythoughtaboutthematter,andsocameintoalittlemusic—gallery,emptyanddeserted。Fromthiselevatedpost,whichcommandedthewholehall,heamusedhimselfinlookingdownupontheattendantswhowereclearingawaythefragmentsofthefeastverylazily,anddrinkingoutofallthebottlesandglasseswithmostcommendableperseverance。
Hisattentiongraduallyrelaxed,andhefellfastasleep。
Whenheawoke,hethoughttheremustbesomethingthematterwithhiseyes;but,rubbingthemalittle,hesoonfoundthatthemoonlightwasreallystreamingthroughtheeastwindow,thatthelampswereallextinguished,andthathewasalone。Helistened,butnodistantmurmurintheechoingpassages,noteventheshuttingofadoor,brokethedeepsilence;hegropedhiswaydownthestairs,andfoundthatthedooratthebottomwaslockedontheotherside。Hebegannowtocomprehendthathemusthavesleptalongtime,thathehadbeenoverlooked,andwasshutupthereforthenight。
Hisfirstsensation,perhaps,wasnotaltogetheracomfortableone,foritwasadark,chilly,earthy—smellingplace,andsomethingtoolarge,foramansosituated,tofeelathomein。However,whenthemomentaryconsternationofhissurprisewasover,hemadelightoftheaccident,andresolvedtofeelhiswayupthestairsagain,andmakehimselfascomfortableashecouldinthegalleryuntilmorning。Asheturnedtoexecutethispurpose,heheardtheclocksstrikethree。
Anysuchinvasionofadeadstillnessasthestrikingofdistantclocks,causesittoappearthemoreintenseandinsupportablewhenthesoundhasceased。Helistenedwithstrainedattentioninthehopethatsomeclock,laggingbehinditsfellows,hadyettostrike,—lookingallthetimeintotheprofounddarknessbeforehim,untilitseemedtoweaveitselfintoablacktissue,patternedwithahundredreflectionsofhisowneyes。Butthebellshadallpealedouttheirwarningforthatonce,andthegustofwindthatmoanedthroughtheplaceseemedcoldandheavywiththeirironbreath。
Thetimeandcircumstanceswerefavourabletoreflection。Hetriedtokeephisthoughtstothecurrent,unpleasantthoughitwas,inwhichtheyhadmovedallday,andtothinkwithwhataromanticfeelinghehadlookedforwardtoshakinghisoldfriendbythehandbeforehedied,andwhatawideandcrueldifferencetherewasbetweenthemeetingtheyhadhad,andthatwhichhehadsooftenandsolonganticipated。Still,hewasdisorderedbywakingtosuchsuddenloneliness,andcouldnotpreventhismindfromrunninguponoddtalesofpeopleofundoubtedcourage,who,beingshutupbynightinvaultsorchurches,orotherdismalplaces,hadscaledgreatheightstogetout,andfledfromsilenceastheyhadneverdonefromdanger。Thisbroughttohismindthemoonlightthroughthewindow,andbethinkinghimselfofit,hegropedhiswaybackupthecrookedstairs,—butverystealthily,asthoughhewerefearfulofbeingoverheard。
Hewasverymuchastonishedwhenheapproachedthegalleryagain,toseealightinthebuilding:stillmoreso,onadvancinghastilyandlookinground,toobservenovisiblesourcefromwhichitcouldproceed。Buthowmuchgreateryetwashisastonishmentatthespectaclewhichthislightrevealed。
Thestatuesofthetwogiants,GogandMagog,eachabovefourteenfeetinheight,thosewhichsucceededtostillolderandmorebarbarousfigures,aftertheGreatFireofLondon,andwhichstandintheGuildhalltothisday,wereendowedwithlifeandmotion。
TheseguardiangeniioftheCityhadquittedtheirpedestals,andreclinedineasyattitudesinthegreatstainedglasswindow。
Betweenthemwasanancientcask,whichseemedtobefullofwine;
fortheyoungerGiant,clappinghishugehanduponit,andthrowinguphismightyleg,burstintoanexultinglaugh,whichreverberatedthroughthehalllikethunder。
JoeToddyhighinstinctivelystoopeddown,and,moredeadthanalive,felthishairstandonend,hiskneesknocktogether,andacolddampbreakoutuponhisforehead。Butevenatthatminutecuriosityprevailedovereveryotherfeeling,andsomewhatreassuredbythegood—humouroftheGiantsandtheirapparentunconsciousnessofhispresence,hecrouchedinacornerofthegallery,inassmallaspaceashecould,and,peepingbetweentherails,observedthemclosely。
ItwasthenthattheelderGiant,whohadaflowinggraybeard,raisedhisthoughtfuleyestohiscompanion’sface,andinagraveandsolemnvoiceaddressedhimthus:
FIRSTNIGHTOFTHEGIANTCHRONICLES
TurningtowardshiscompaniontheelderGiantutteredthesewordsinagrave,majestictone:
’Magog,doesboisterousmirthbeseemtheGiantWarderofthisancientcity?Isthisbecomingdemeanourforawatchfulspiritoverwhosebodilessheadsomanyyearshaverolled,somanychangessweptlikeemptyair—inwhoseimpalpablenostrilsthescentofbloodandcrime,pestilence,cruelty,andhorror,hasbeenfamiliarasbreathtomortals—inwhosesightTimehasgatheredintheharvestofcenturies,andgarneredsomanycropsofhumanpride,affections,hopes,andsorrows?Bethinkyouofourcompact。Thenightwanes;feasting,revelry,andmusichaveencroacheduponourusualhoursofsolitude,andmorningwillbehereapace。Erewearestrickenmuteagain,bethinkyouofourcompact。’
Pronouncingtheselatterwordswithmoreofimpatiencethanquiteaccordedwithhisapparentageandgravity,theGiantraisedalongpole(whichhestillbearsinhishand)andtappedhisbrotherGiantrathersmartlyonthehead;indeed,theblowwassosmartlyadministered,thatthelatterquicklywithdrewhislipsfromthecask,towhichtheyhadbeenapplied,and,catchinguphisshieldandhalberd,assumedanattitudeofdefence。Hisirritationwasbutmomentary,forhelaidtheseweaponsasideashastilyashehadassumedthem,andsaidashedidso:
’Youknow,Gog,oldfriend,thatwhenweanimatetheseshapeswhichtheLondonersofoldassigned(andnotunworthily)totheguardiangeniioftheircity,wearesusceptibleofsomeofthesensationswhichbelongtohumankind。ThuswhenItastewine,Ifeelblows;
whenIrelishtheone,Idisrelishtheother。Therefore,Gog,themoreespeciallyasyourarmisnoneofthelightest,keepyourgoodstaffbyyourside,elsewemaychancetodiffer。Peacebebetweenus!’
’Amen!’saidtheother,leaninghisstaffinthewindow—corner。
’Whydidyoulaughjustnow?’
’Tothink,’repliedtheGiantMagog,layinghishanduponthecask,’ofhimwhoownedthiswine,andkeptitinacellarhoardedfromthelightofday,forthirtyyears,—\"tillitshouldbefittodrink,\"quothhe。Hewastwoscoreandtenyearsoldwhenheburieditbeneathhishouse,andyetneverthoughtthathemightbescarcely\"fittodrink\"whenthewinebecameso。Iwonderitneveroccurredtohimtomakehimselfunfittobeeaten。Thereisverylittleofhimleftbythistime。’
’Thenightiswaning,’saidGogmournfully。
’Iknowit,’repliedhiscompanion,’andIseeyouareimpatient。
Butlook。Throughtheeasternwindow—placedoppositetous,thatthefirstbeamsoftherisingsunmayeverymorninggildourgiantfaces—themoon—raysfalluponthepavementinastreamoflightthattomyfancysinksthroughthecoldstoneandgushesintotheoldcryptbelow。Thenightisscarcelypastitsnoon,andourgreatchargeissleepingheavily。’
Theyceasedtospeak,andlookedupwardatthemoon。Thesightoftheirlarge,black,rollingeyesfilledJoeToddyhighwithsuchhorrorthathecouldscarcelydrawhisbreath。Stilltheytooknonoteofhim,andappearedtobelievethemselvesquitealone。
’Ourcompact,’saidMagogafterapause,’is,ifIunderstandit,that,insteadofwatchinghereinsilencethroughthedrearynights,weentertaineachotherwithstoriesofourpastexperience;withtalesofthepast,thepresent,andthefuture;
withlegendsofLondonandhersturdycitizensfromtheoldsimpletimes。Thateverynightatmidnight,whenSt。Paul’sbelltollsoutone,andwemaymoveandspeak,wethusdiscourse,norleavesuchthemestillthefirstgraygleamofdayshallstrikeusdumb。
Isthatourbargain,brother?’
’Yes,’saidtheGiantGog,’thatistheleaguebetweenuswhoguardthiscity,bydayinspirit,andbynightinbodyalso;andneveronancientholidayshaveitsconduitsrunwinemoremerrilythanwewillpourforthourlegendarylore。Weareoldchroniclersfromthistimehence。Thecrumbledwallsencircleusoncemore,thepostern—gatesareclosed,thedrawbridgeisup,andpentinitsnarrowdenbeneath,thewaterfoamsandstruggleswiththesunkenstarlings。Jerkinsandquarter—stavesareinthestreetsagain,thenightlywatchisset,therebel,sadandlonelyinhisTowerdungeon,triestosleepandweepsforhomeandchildren。Aloftuponthegatesandwallsarenobleheadsglaringfiercelydownuponthedreamingcity,andvexingthehungrydogsthatscentthemintheair,andtearthegroundbeneathwithdismalhowlings。Theaxe,theblock,therack,intheirdarkchambersgivesignsofrecentuse。TheThames,floatingpastlonglinesofcheerfulwindowswhencecomeaburstofmusicandastreamoflight,bearssuddenlytothePalacewallthelastredstainbroughtonthetidefromTraitor’sGate。Butyourpardon,brother。Thenightwears,andIamtalkingidly。’
TheotherGiantappearedtobeentirelyofthisopinion,forduringtheforegoingrhapsodyofhisfellow—sentinelhehadbeenscratchinghisheadwithanairofcomicaluneasiness,orratherwithanairthatwouldhavebeenverycomicalifhehadbeenadwarforanordinary—sizedman。Hewinkedtoo,andthoughitcouldnotbedoubtedforamomentthathewinkedtohimself,stillhecertainlycockedhisenormouseyetowardsthegallerywherethelistenerwasconcealed。Norwasthisall,forhegaped;andwhenhegaped,Joewashorriblyremindedofthepopularprejudiceonthesubjectofgiants,andoftheirfabledpowerofsmellingoutEnglishmen,howevercloselyconcealed。
Hisalarmwassuchthathenearlyswooned,anditwassomelittletimebeforehispowerofsightorhearingwasrestored。WhenherecoveredhefoundthattheelderGiantwaspressingtheyoungertocommencetheChronicles,andthatthelatterwasendeavouringtoexcusehimselfonthegroundthatthenightwasfarspent,anditwouldbebettertowaituntilthenext。Wellassuredbythisthathewascertainlyabouttobegindirectly,thelistenercollectedhisfacultiesbyagreateffort,anddistinctlyheardMagogexpresshimselftothefollowingeffect:
InthesixteenthcenturyandinthereignofQueenElizabethofgloriousmemory(albeithergoldendaysaresadlyrustedwithblood),therelivedinthecityofLondonaboldyoung’prenticewholovedhismaster’sdaughter。Therewerenodoubtwithinthewallsagreatmany’prenticesinthiscondition,butIspeakofonlyone,andhisnamewasHughGraham。
ThisHughwasapprenticedtoanhonestBowyerwhodweltinthewardofCheype,andwasrumouredtopossessgreatwealth。Rumourwasquiteasinfallibleinthosedaysasatthepresenttime,butithappenedthenasnowtobesometimesrightbyaccident。ItstumbleduponthetruthwhenitgavetheoldBowyeramintofmoney。HistradehadbeenaprofitableoneinthetimeofKingHenrytheEighth,whoencouragedEnglisharcherytotheutmost,andhehadbeenprudentanddiscreet。ThusitcametopassthatMistressAlice,hisonlydaughter,wastherichestheiressinallhiswealthyward。YoungHughhadoftenmaintainedwithstaffandcudgelthatshewasthehandsomest。Todohimjustice,Ibelieveshewas。
IfhecouldhavegainedtheheartofprettyMistressAlicebyknockingthisconvictionintostubbornpeople’sheads,Hughwouldhavehadnocausetofear。ButthoughtheBowyer’sdaughtersmiledinsecrettohearofhisdoughtydeedsforhersake,andthoughherlittlewaiting—womanreportedallhersmiles(andmanymore)toHugh,andthoughhewasatavastexpenseinkissesandsmallcointorecompenseherfidelity,hemadenoprogressinhislove。HedurstnotwhisperittoMistressAlicesaveonsureencouragement,andthatshenevergavehim。Aglanceofherdarkeyeasshesatatthedooronasummer’seveningafterprayer—time,whileheandtheneighbouring’prenticesexercisedthemselvesinthestreetwithbluntedswordandbuckler,wouldfireHugh’sbloodsothatnonecouldstandbeforehim;butthensheglancedatothersquiteaskindlyasonhim,andwherewastheuseofcrackingcrownsifMistressAlicesmileduponthecrackedaswellasonthecracker?
StillHughwenton,andlovedhermoreandmore。Hethoughtofherallday,anddreamedofherallnightlong。Hetreasureduphereverywordandgesture,andhadapalpitationoftheheartwheneverheheardherfootsteponthestairsorhervoiceinanadjoiningroom。Tohim,theoldBowyer’shousewashauntedbyanangel;
therewasenchantmentintheairandspaceinwhichshemoved。ItwouldhavebeennomiracletoHughifflowershadsprungfromtherush—strewnfloorsbeneaththetreadoflovelyMistressAlice。
Neverdid’prenticelongtodistinguishhimselfintheeyesofhislady—lovesoardentlyasHugh。Sometimeshepicturedtohimselfthehousetakingfirebynight,andhe,whenalldrewbackinfear,rushingthroughflameandsmoke,andbearingherfromtheruinsinhisarms。Atothertimeshethoughtofarisingoffiercerebels,anattackuponthecity,astrongassaultupontheBowyer’shouseinparticular,andhefallingonthethresholdpiercedwithnumberlesswoundsindefenceofMistressAlice。Ifhecouldonlyenactsomeprodigyofvalour,dosomewonderfuldeed,andletherknowthatshehadinspiredit,hethoughthecoulddiecontented。
SometimestheBowyerandhisdaughterwouldgoouttosupperwithaworthycitizenatthefashionablehourofsixo’clock,andonsuchoccasionsHugh,wearinghisblue’prenticecloakasgallantlyas’prenticemight,wouldattendwithalanternandhistrustyclubtoescortthemhome。Thesewerethebrightestmomentsofhislife。
ToholdthelightwhileMistressAlicepickedhersteps,totouchherhandashehelpedheroverbrokenways,tohaveherleaningonhisarm,—itsometimesevencametothat,—thiswashappinessindeed!
Whenthenightswerefair,Hughfollowedintherear,hiseyesrivetedonthegracefulfigureoftheBowyer’sdaughterassheandtheoldmanmovedonbeforehim。Sotheythreadedthenarrowwindingstreetsofthecity,nowpassingbeneaththeoverhanginggablesofoldwoodenhouseswhencecreakingsignsprojectedintothestreet,andnowemergingfromsomedarkandfrowninggatewayintotheclearmoonlight。Atsuchtimes,orwhentheshoutsofstragglingbrawlersmetherear,theBowyer’sdaughterwouldlooktimidlybackatHugh,beseechinghimtodrawnearer;andthenhowhegraspedhisclubandlongedtodobattlewithadozenrufflers,fortheloveofMistressAlice!
TheoldBowyerwasinthehabitoflendingmoneyoninteresttothegallantsoftheCourt,andthusithappenedthatmanyarichly—
dressedgentlemandismountedathisdoor。Morewavingplumesandgallantsteeds,indeed,wereseenattheBowyer’shouse,andmoreembroideredsilksandvelvetssparkledinhisdarkshopanddarkerprivatecloset,thanatanymerchantsinthecity。Inthosetimesnolessthaninthepresentitwouldseemthattherichest—lookingcavaliersoftenwantedmoneythemost。
Oftheseglitteringclientstherewasonewhoalwayscamealone。
Hewasnoblymounted,and,havingnoattendant,gavehishorseinchargetoHughwhileheandtheBowyerwereclosetedwithin。OnceashesprungintothesaddleMistressAlicewasseatedatanupperwindow,andbeforeshecouldwithdrawhehaddoffedhisjewelledcapandkissedhishand。Hughwatchedhimcaracolingdownthestreet,andburntwithindignation。Buthowmuchdeeperwastheglowthatreddenedinhischeekswhen,raisinghiseyestothecasement,hesawthatAlicewatchedthestrangertoo!
Hecameagainandoften,eachtimearrayedmoregailythanbefore,andstillthelittlecasementshowedhimMistressAlice。Atlengthoneheavyday,shefledfromhome。Ithadcostherahardstruggle,forallheroldfather’sgiftswerestrewnaboutherchamberasifshehadpartedfromthemonebyone,andknewthatthetimemustcomewhenthesetokensofhislovewouldwringherheart,—yetshewasgone。
SheleftalettercommandingherpoorfathertothecareofHugh,andwishinghemightbehappierthaneverhecouldhavebeenwithher,forhedeservedtheloveofabetterandapurerheartthanshehadtobestow。Theoldman’sforgiveness(shesaid)shehadnopowertoask,butsheprayedGodtoblesshim,—andsoendedwithablotuponthepaperwherehertearshadfallen。
Atfirsttheoldman’swrathwaskindled,andhecarriedhiswrongtotheQueen’sthroneitself;buttherewasnoredresshelearntatCourt,forhisdaughterhadbeenconveyedabroad。Thisafterwardsappearedtobethetruth,astherecamefromFrance,afteranintervalofseveralyears,aletterinherhand。Itwaswrittenintremblingcharacters,andalmostillegible。Littlecouldbemadeoutsavethatsheoftenthoughtofhomeandherolddearpleasantroom,—andthatshehaddreamtherfatherwasdeadandhadnotblessedher,—andthatherheartwasbreaking。
ThepooroldBowyerlingeredon,neversufferingHughtoquithissight,forheknewnowthathehadlovedhisdaughter,andthatwastheonlylinkthatboundhimtoearth。Itbrokeatlengthandhedied,—bequeathinghisold’prenticehistradeandallhiswealth,andsolemnlycharginghimwithhislastbreathtorevengehischildifeverhewhohadworkedhermiserycrossedhispathinlifeagain。
FromthetimeofAlice’sflight,thetilting—ground,thefields,thefencing—school,thesummer—eveningsports,knewHughnomore。
Hisspiritwasdeadwithinhim。Herosetogreateminenceandreputeamongthecitizens,butwasseldomseentosmile,andnevermingledintheirrevelriesorrejoicings。Brave,humane,andgenerous,hewasbelovedbyall。Hewaspitiedtoobythosewhoknewhisstory,andtheseweresomanythatwhenhewalkedalongthestreetsaloneatdusk,eventherudecommonpeopledoffedtheircapsandmingledaroughairofsympathywiththeirrespect。
OnenightinMay—itwasherbirthnight,andtwentyyearssinceshehadleftherhome—HughGrahamsatintheroomshehadhallowedinhisboyishdays。Hewasnowagray—hairedman,thoughstillintheprimeoflife。Oldthoughtshadbornehimcompanyformanyhours,andthechamberhadgraduallygrownquitedark,whenhewasrousedbyalowknockingattheouterdoor。
Hehasteneddown,andopeningitsawbythelightofalampwhichhehadseizedupontheway,afemalefigurecrouchingintheportal。Ithurriedswiftlypasthimandglidedupthestairs。Helookedforpursuers。Therewerenoneinsight。No,notone。
Hewasinclinedtothinkitavisionofhisownbrain,whensuddenlyavaguesuspicionofthetruthflasheduponhismind。Hebarredthedoor,andhastenedwildlyback。Yes,thereshewas,—
there,inthechamberhehadquitted,—thereinheroldinnocent,happyhome,sochangedthatnonebuthecouldtraceonegleamofwhatshehadbeen,—thereuponherknees,—withherhandsclaspedinagonyandshamebeforeherburningface。
’MyGod,myGod!’shecried,’nowstrikemedead!ThoughIhavebroughtdeathandshameandsorrowonthisroof,O,letmedieathomeinmercy!’
Therewasnotearuponherfacethen,butshetrembledandglancedroundthechamber。Everythingwasinitsoldplace。Herbedlookedasifshehadrisenfromitbutthatmorning。Thesightofthesefamiliarobjects,markingthedearremembranceinwhichshehadbeenheld,andtheblightshehadbroughtuponherself,wasmorethanthewoman’sbetternaturethathadcarriedhertherecouldbear。Sheweptandfellupontheground。
Arumourwasspreadabout,inafewdays’time,thattheBowyer’scrueldaughterhadcomehome,andthatMasterGrahamhadgivenherlodginginhishouse。Itwasrumouredtoothathehadresignedherfortune,inorderthatshemightbestowitinactsofcharity,andthathehadvowedtoguardherinhersolitude,butthattheywerenevertoseeeachothermore。Theserumoursgreatlyincensedallvirtuouswivesanddaughtersintheward,especiallywhentheyappearedtoreceivesomecorroborationfromthecircumstanceofMasterGrahamtakinguphisabodeinanothertenementhardby。Theestimationinwhichhewasheld,however,forbadeanyquestioningonthesubject;andastheBowyer’shousewascloseshutup,andnobodycameforthwhenpublicshowsandfestivitieswereinprogress,ortoflauntinthepublicwalks,ortobuynewfashionsatthemercers’booths,allthewell—conductedfemalesagreedamongthemselvesthattherecouldbenowomanthere。
Thesereportshadscarcelydiedawaywhenthewonderofeverygoodcitizen,maleandfemale,wasutterlyabsorbedandswallowedupbyaRoyalProclamation,inwhichherMajesty,stronglycensuringthepracticeofwearinglongSpanishrapiersofpreposterouslength(asbeingabullyingandswaggeringcustom,tendingtobloodshedandpublicdisorder),commandedthatonaparticulardaythereinnamed,certaingravecitizensshouldrepairtothecitygates,andthere,inpublic,breakallrapierswornorcarriedbypersonsclaimingadmission,thatexceeded,thoughitwereonlybyaquarterofaninch,threestandardfeetinlength。
RoyalProclamationsusuallytaketheircourse,letthepublicwonderneversomuch。Ontheappointeddaytwocitizensofhighreputetookuptheirstationsateachofthegates,attendedbyapartyofthecityguard,themainbodytoenforcetheQueen’swill,andtakecustodyofallsuchrebels(ifany)asmighthavethetemeritytodisputeit:andafewtobearthestandardmeasuresandinstrumentsforreducingallunlawfulsword—bladestotheprescribeddimensions。Inpursuanceofthesearrangements,MasterGrahamandanotherwerepostedatLudGate,onthehillbeforeSt。
Paul’s。
Aprettynumerouscompanyweregatheredtogetheratthisspot,for,besidestheofficersinattendancetoenforcetheproclamation,therewasamotleycrowdoflookers—onofvariousdegrees,whoraisedfromtimetotimesuchshoutsandcriesasthecircumstancescalledforth。Aspruceyoungcourtierwasthefirstwhoapproached:heunsheathedaweaponofburnishedsteelthatshoneandglistenedinthesun,andhandeditwiththenewestairtotheofficer,who,findingitexactlythreefeetlong,returneditwithabow。Thereuponthegallantraisedhishatandcrying,’GodsavetheQueen!’passedonamidsttheplauditsofthemob。Thencameanother—abettercourtierstill—whoworeabladebuttwofeetlong,whereatthepeoplelaughed,muchtothedisparagementofhishonour’sdignity。Thencameathird,asturdyoldofficerofthearmy,girdedwitharapieratleastafootandahalfbeyondherMajesty’spleasure;athimtheyraisedagreatshout,andmostofthespectators(butespeciallythosewhowerearmourersorcutlers)
laughedveryheartilyatthebreakagewhichwouldensue。Buttheyweredisappointed;fortheoldcampaigner,coollyunbucklinghisswordandbiddinghisservantcarryithomeagain,passedthroughunarmed,tothegreatindignationofallthebeholders。Theyrelievedthemselvesinsomedegreebyhootingatallblusteringfellowwithaprodigiousweapon,whostoppedshortoncominginsightofthepreparations,andafteralittleconsiderationturnedbackagain。Butallthistimenorapierhadbeenbroken,althoughitwashighnoon,andallcavaliersofanyqualityorappearanceweretakingtheirwaytowardsSaintPaul’schurchyard。
Duringtheseproceedings,MasterGrahamhadstoodapart,strictlyconfininghimselftothedutyimposeduponhim,andtakinglittleheedofanythingbeyond。Hesteppedforwardnowasarichly—
dressedgentlemanonfoot,followedbyasingleattendant,wasseenadvancingupthehill。
Asthispersondrewnearer,thecrowdstoppedtheirclamour,andbentforwardwitheagerlooks。MasterGrahamstandingaloneinthegateway,andthestrangercomingslowlytowardshim,theyseemed,asitwere,setfacetoface。Thenobleman(forhelookedone)hadahaughtyanddisdainfulair,whichbespoketheslightestimationinwhichheheldthecitizen。Thecitizen,ontheotherhand,preservedtheresolutebearingofonewhowasnottobefrowneddownordaunted,andwhocaredverylittleforanynobilitybutthatofworthandmanhood。Itwasperhapssomeconsciousnessonthepartofeach,ofthesefeelingsintheother,thatinfusedamoresternexpressionintotheirregardsastheycameclosertogether。
’Yourrapier,worthysir!’
AttheinstantthathepronouncedthesewordsGrahamstarted,andfallingbacksomepaces,laidhishanduponthedaggerinhisbelt。
’YouarethemanwhosehorseIusedtoholdbeforetheBowyer’sdoor?Youarethatman?Speak!’
’Out,you’prenticehound!’saidtheother。
’Youarehe!Iknowyouwellnow!’criedGraham。’Letnomanstepbetweenustwo,orIshallbehismurderer。’Withthathedrewhisdagger,andrushedinuponhim。
Thestrangerhaddrawnhisweaponfromthescabbardreadyforthescrutiny,beforeawordwasspoken。Hemadeathrustathisassailant,butthedaggerwhichGrahamclutchedinhislefthandbeingthedirkinuseatthattimeforparryingsuchblows,promptlyturnedthepointaside。Theyclosed。Thedaggerfellrattlingontheground,andGraham,wrestinghisadversary’sswordfromhisgrasp,plungeditthroughhisheart。Ashedrewitoutitsnappedintwo,leavingafragmentinthedeadman’sbody。
Allthispassedsoswiftlythatthebystanderslookedonwithoutanefforttointerfere;butthemanwasnosoonerdownthananuproarbrokeforthwhichrenttheair。Theattendantrushingthroughthegateproclaimedthathismaster,anobleman,hadbeensetuponandslainbyacitizen;thewordquicklyspreadfrommouthtomouth;
SaintPaul’sCathedral,andeverybook—shop,ordinary,andsmoking—
houseinthechurchyardpouredoutitsstreamofcavaliersandtheirfollowers,whominglingtogetherinadensetumultuousbody,struggled,swordinhand,towardsthespot。
Withequalimpetuosity,andstimulatingeachotherbyloudcriesandshouts,thecitizensandcommonpeopletookupthequarrelontheirside,andencirclingMasterGrahamahundreddeep,forcedhimfromthegate。Invainhewavedthebrokenswordabovehishead,cryingthathewoulddieonLondon’sthresholdfortheirsacredhomes。Theyborehimon,andeverkeepinghiminthemidst,sothatnomancouldattackhim,foughttheirwayintothecity。
Theclashofswordsandroarofvoices,thedustandheatandpressure,thetramplingunderfootofmen,thedistractedlooksandshrieksofwomenatthewindowsaboveastheyrecognisedtheirrelativesorloversinthecrowd,therapidtollingofalarm—bells,thefuriousrageandpassionofthescene,werefearful。Thosewho,beingontheoutskirtsofeachcrowd,couldusetheirweaponswitheffect,foughtdesperately,whilethosebehind,maddenedwithbaffledrage,struckateachotherovertheheadsofthosebeforethem,andcrushedtheirownfellows。Whereverthebrokenswordwasseenabovethepeople’sheads,towardsthatspotthecavaliersmadeanewrush。Everyoneofthesechargeswasmarkedbysuddengapsinthethrongwheremenweretroddendown,butasfastastheyweremade,thetidesweptoverthem,andstillthemultitudepressedonagain,aconfusedmassofswords,clubs,staves,brokenplumes,fragmentsofrichcloaksanddoublets,andangry,bleedingfaces,allmixeduptogetherininextricabledisorder。
ThedesignofthepeoplewastoforceMasterGrahamtotakerefugeinhisdwelling,andtodefendituntiltheauthoritiescouldinterfere,ortheycouldgaintimeforparley。Buteitherfromignoranceorintheconfusionofthemomenttheystoppedathisoldhouse,whichwascloselyshut。Sometimewaslostinbeatingthedoorsopenandpassinghimtothefront。Aboutascoreoftheboldestoftheotherpartythrewthemselvesintothetorrentwhilethiswasbeingdone,andreachingthedooratthesamemomentwithhimselfcuthimofffromhisdefenders。
’Ineverwillturninsucharighteouscause,sohelpmeHeaven!’
criedGraham,inavoicethatatlastmadeitselfheard,andconfrontingthemashespoke。’LeastofallwillIturnuponthisthresholdwhichowesitsdesolationtosuchmenasye。Igivenoquarter,andIwillhavenone!Strike!’
Foramomenttheystoodatbay。Atthatmomentashotfromanunseenhand,apparentlyfiredbysomepersonwhohadgainedaccesstooneoftheoppositehouses,struckGrahaminthebrain,andhefelldead。Alowwailwasheardintheair,—manypeopleintheconcoursecriedthattheyhadseenaspiritglideacrossthelittlecasementwindowoftheBowyer’shouse—
Adeadsilencesucceeded。Afterashorttimesomeoftheflushedandheatedthronglaiddowntheirarmsandsoftlycarriedthebodywithindoors。Othersfellofforslunkawayinknotsoftwoorthree,otherswhisperedtogetheringroups,andbeforeanumerousguardwhichthenrodeupcouldmusterinthestreet,itwasnearlyempty。
ThosewhocarriedMasterGrahamtothebedup—stairswereshockedtoseeawomanlyingbeneaththewindowwithherhandsclaspedtogether。Aftertryingtorecoverherinvain,theylaidhernearthecitizen,whostillretained,tightlygraspedinhisrighthand,thefirstandlastswordthatwasbrokenthatdayatLudGate。
TheGiantutteredtheseconcludingwordswithsuddenprecipitation;
andontheinstantthestrangelightwhichhadfilledthehallfadedaway。JoeToddyhighglancedinvoluntarilyattheeasternwindow,andsawthefirstpalegleamofmorning。HeturnedhisheadagaintowardstheotherwindowinwhichtheGiantshadbeenseated。Itwasempty。Thecaskofwinewasgone,andhecoulddimlymakeoutthatthetwogreatfiguresstoodmuteandmotionlessupontheirpedestals。
Afterrubbinghiseyesandwonderingforfullhalfanhour,duringwhichtimeheobservedmorningcomecreepingonapace,heyieldedtothedrowsinesswhichoverpoweredhimandfellintoarefreshingslumber。Whenheawokeitwasbroadday;thebuildingwasopen,andworkmenwerebusilyengagedinremovingthevestigesoflastnight’sfeast。
Stealinggentlydownthelittlestairs,andassumingtheairofsomeearlyloungerwhohaddroppedinfromthestreet,hewalkeduptothefootofeachpedestalinturn,andattentivelyexaminedthefigureitsupported。Therecouldbenodoubtaboutthefeaturesofeither;herecollectedtheexactexpressiontheyhadwornatdifferentpassagesoftheirconversation,andrecognisedineverylineandlineamenttheGiantsofthenight。Assuredthatitwasnovision,butthathehadheardandseenwithhisownpropersenses,hewalkedforth,determiningatallhazardstoconcealhimselfintheGuildhallagainthatevening。Hefurtherresolvedtosleepallday,sothathemightbeverywakefulandvigilant,andaboveallthathemighttakenoticeofthefiguresattheprecisemomentoftheirbecominganimatedandsubsidingintotheiroldstate,whichhegreatlyreproachedhimselffornothavingdonealready。
CORRESPONDENCETOMASTERHUMPHREY
’SIR,—Beforeyouproceedanyfurtherinyouraccountofyourfriendsandwhatyousayanddowhenyoumeettogether,excusemeifIproffermyclaimtobeelectedtooneofthevacantchairsinthatoldroomofyours。Don’trejectmewithoutfullconsideration;forifyoudo,youwillbesorryforitafterwards—
youwill,uponmylife。
’Ienclosemycard,sir,inthisletter。Ineverwasashamedofmyname,andInevershallbe。Iamconsideredadevilishgentlemanlyfellow,andIactuptothecharacter。Ifyouwantareference,askanyofthemenatourclub。Askanyfellowwhogoestheretowritehisletters,whatsortofconversationmineis。AskhimifhethinksIhavethesortofvoicethatwillsuityourdeaffriendandmakehimhear,ifhecanhearanythingatall。Asktheservantswhattheythinkofme。There’snotarascalamong’em,sir,butwilltrembletohearmyname。Thatremindsme—don’tyousaytoomuchaboutthathousekeeperofyours;it’salowsubject,damnedlow。
’Itellyouwhat,sir。Ifyouvotemeintooneofthoseemptychairs,you’llhaveamongyouamanwithafundofgentlemanlyinformationthat’llratherastonishyou。Icanletyouintoafewanecdotesaboutsomefinewomenoftitle,thatarequitehighlife,sir—thetiptopsortofthing。Iknowthenameofeverymanwhohasbeenoutonanaffairofhonourwithinthelastfive—and—twentyyears;Iknowtheprivateparticularsofeverycrossandsquabblethathastakenplaceupontheturf,atthegaming—table,orelsewhere,duringthewholeofthattime。Ihavebeencalledthegentlemanlychronicle。Youmayconsideryourselfaluckydog;uponmysoul,youmaycongratulateyourself,thoughIsayso。
’It’sanuncommongoodnotionthatofyours,notlettinganybodyknowwhereyoulive。Ihavetriedit,buttherehasalwaysbeenananxietyrespectingme,whichhasfoundmeout。Yourdeaffriendisacunningfellowtokeephisnamesoclose。Ihavetriedthattoo,buthavealwaysfailed。Ishallbeproudtomakehisacquaintance—tellhimso,withmycompliments。
’Youmusthavebeenaqueerfellowwhenyouwereachild,confoundedqueer。It’sodd,allthataboutthepictureinyourfirstpaper—prosy,buttoldinadevilishgentlemanlysortofway。InplaceslikethatIcouldcomeinwithgreateffectwithatouchoflife—don’tyoufeelthat?
’Iamanxiouslywaitingforyournextpapertoknowwhetheryourfriendsliveuponthepremises,andatyourexpense,whichItakeitforgrantedisthecase。IfIamrightinthisimpression,I
knowacharmingfellow(anexcellentcompanionandmostdelightfulcompany)whowillbeproudtojoinyou。Someyearsagohesecondedagreatmanyprize—fighters,andoncefoughtanamateurmatchhimself;sincethenhehasdrivenseveralmails,brokenatdifferentperiodsallthelampsontheright—handsideofOxford—
street,andsixtimescarriedawayeverybell—handleinBloomsbury—
square,besidesturningoffthegasinvariousthoroughfares。Inpointofgentlemanlinessheisunrivalled,andIshouldsaythatnexttomyselfheisofallmenthebestsuitedtoyourpurpose。
’Expectingyourreply,’Iam,’&c。&c。’
MasterHumphreyinformsthisgentlemanthathisapplication,bothasitconcernshimselfandhisfriend,isrejected。
CHAPTERII—MASTERHUMPHREY,FROMHISCLOCK—SIDEINTHECHIMNEY—
CORNER
MYoldcompaniontellsmeitismidnight。Thefireglowsbrightly,cracklingwithasharpandcheerfulsound,asifitlovedtoburn。
Themerrycricketonthehearth(myconstantvisitor),thisruddyblaze,myclock,andI,seemtosharetheworldamongus,andtobetheonlythingsawake。Thewind,highandboisterousbutnow,hasdiedawayandhoarselymuttersinitssleep。Ilovealltimesandseasonseachinitsturn,andamapt,perhaps,tothinkthepresentonethebest;butpastorcomingIalwayslovethispeacefultimeofnight,whenlong—buriedthoughts,favouredbythegloomandsilence,stealfromtheirgraves,andhauntthescenesoffadedhappinessandhope。
Thepopularfaithinghostshasaremarkableaffinitywiththewholecurrentofourthoughtsatsuchanhourasthis,andseemstobetheirnecessaryandnaturalconsequence。Forwhocanwonderthatmanshouldfeelavaguebeliefintalesofdisembodiedspiritswanderingthroughthoseplaceswhichtheyoncedearlyaffected,whenhehimself,scarcelylessseparatedfromhisoldworldthanthey,isforeverlingeringuponpastemotionsandbygonetimes,andhovering,theghostofhisformerself,abouttheplacesandpeoplethatwarmedhisheartofold?ItisthusthatatthisquiethourIhauntthehousewhereIwasborn,theroomsIusedtotread,thescenesofmyinfancy,myboyhood,andmyyouth;itisthusthatIprowlaroundmyburiedtreasure(thoughnotofgoldorsilver),andmournmyloss;itisthusthatIrevisittheashesofextinguishedfires,andtakemysilentstandatoldbedsides。Ifmyspiritshouldeverglidebacktothischamberwhenmybodyismingledwiththedust,itwillbutfollowthecourseitoftentookintheoldman’slifetime,andaddbutonemorechangetothesubjectsofitscontemplation。
InallmyidlespeculationsIamgreatlyassistedbyvariouslegendsconnectedwithmyvenerablehouse,whicharecurrentintheneighbourhood,andaresonumerousthatthereisscarceacupboardorcornerthathasnotsomedismalstoryofitsown。WhenIfirstentertainedthoughtsofbecomingitstenant,Iwasassuredthatitwashauntedfromrooftocellar,andIbelievethatthebadopinioninwhichmyneighboursonceheldme,haditsriseinmynotbeingtorntopieces,oratleastdistractedwithterror,onthenightI
tookpossession;ineitherofwhichcasesIshoulddoubtlesshavearrivedbyashortcutattheverysummitofpopularity。
Buttraditionsandrumoursalltakenintoaccount,whosoabetsmeineveryfancyandchimeswithmyeverythought,asmydeardeaffriend?andhowoftenhaveIcausetoblessthedaythatbroughtustwotogether!OfalldaysintheyearIrejoicetothinkthatitshouldhavebeenChristmasDay,withwhichfromchildhoodweassociatesomethingfriendly,hearty,andsincere。
Ihadwalkedouttocheermyselfwiththehappinessofothers,and,inthelittletokensoffestivityandrejoicing,ofwhichthestreetsandhousespresentsomanyuponthatday,hadlostsomehours。NowIstoppedtolookatamerrypartyhurryingthroughthesnowonfoottotheirplaceofmeeting,andnowturnedbacktoseeawholecoachfulofchildrensafelydepositedatthewelcomehouse。
Atonetime,Iadmiredhowcarefullytheworkingmancarriedthebabyinitsgaudyhatandfeathers,andhowhiswife,trudgingpatientlyonbehind,forgotevenhercareofhergayclothes,inexchanginggreetingwiththechildasitcrowedandlaughedoverthefather’sshoulder;atanother,Ipleasedmyselfwithsomepassingsceneofgallantryorcourtship,andwasgladtobelievethatforaseasonhalftheworldofpovertywasgay。
Asthedayclosedin,Istillrambledthroughthestreets,feelingacompanionshipinthebrightfiresthatcasttheirwarmreflectiononthewindowsasIpassed,andlosingallsenseofmyownlonelinessinimaginingthesocialityandkind—fellowshipthateverywhereprevailed。AtlengthIhappenedtostopbeforeaTavern,and,encounteringaBillofFareinthewindow,itallatoncebroughtitintomyheadtowonderwhatkindofpeopledinedaloneinTavernsuponChristmasDay。
Solitarymenareaccustomed,Isuppose,unconsciouslytolookuponsolitudeastheirownpeculiarproperty。Ihadsataloneinmyroomonmany,manyanniversariesofthisgreatholiday,andhadneverregardeditbutasoneofuniversalassemblageandrejoicing。
Ihadexcepted,andwithanachingheart,acrowdofprisonersandbeggars;butTHESEwerenotthemenforwhomtheTaverndoorswereopen。Hadtheyanycustomers,orwasitamereform?—aform,nodoubt。
Tryingtofeelquitesureofthis,Iwalkedaway;butbeforeIhadgonemanypaces,Istoppedandlookedback。TherewasaprovokingairofbusinessinthelampabovethedoorwhichIcouldnotovercome。Ibegantobeafraidtheremightbemanycustomers—
youngmen,perhaps,strugglingwiththeworld,utterstrangersinthisgreatplace,whosefriendslivedatalongdistanceoff,andwhosemeansweretooslendertoenablethemtomakethejourney。
Thesuppositiongaverisetosomanydistressinglittlepictures,thatinpreferencetocarryingthemhomewithme,Ideterminedtoencountertherealities。SoIturnedandwalkedin。
Iwasatoncegladandsorrytofindthattherewasonlyonepersoninthedining—room;gladtoknowthattherewerenotmore,andsorrythatheshouldbetherebyhimself。HedidnotlooksooldasI,butlikemehewasadvancedinlife,andhishairwasnearlywhite。ThoughImademorenoiseinenteringandseatingmyselfthanwasquitenecessary,withtheviewofattractinghisattentionandsalutinghiminthegoodoldformofthattimeofyear,hedidnotraisehishead,butsatwithitrestingonhishand,musingoverhishalf—finishedmeal。
Icalledforsomethingwhichwouldgivemeanexcuseforremainingintheroom(Ihaddinedearly,asmyhousekeeperwasengagedatnighttopartakeofsomefriend’sgoodcheer),andsatwhereI
couldobservewithoutintrudingonhim。Afteratimehelookedup。
Hewasawarethatsomebodyhadentered,butcouldseeverylittleofme,asIsatintheshadeandheinthelight。Hewassadandthoughtful,andIforboretotroublehimbyspeaking。
Letmebelieveitwassomethingbetterthancuriositywhichrivetedmyattentionandimpelledmestronglytowardsthisgentleman。I
neversawsopatientandkindaface。Heshouldhavebeensurroundedbyfriends,andyetherehesatdejectedandalonewhenallmenhadtheirfriendsaboutthem。Asoftenasherousedhimselffromhisreveriehewouldfallintoitagain,anditwasplainthat,whateverwerethesubjectofhisthoughts,theywereofamelancholykind,andwouldnotbecontrolled。
Hewasnotusedtosolitude。Iwassureofthat;forIknowbymyselfthatifhehadbeen,hismannerwouldhavebeendifferent,andhewouldhavetakensomeslightinterestinthearrivalofanother。Icouldnotfailtomarkthathehadnoappetite;thathetriedtoeatinvain;thattimeaftertimetheplatewaspushedaway,andherelapsedintohisformerposture。
HismindwaswanderingamongoldChristmasdays,Ithought。Manyofthemsprunguptogether,notwithalonggapbetweeneach,butinunbrokensuccessionlikedaysoftheweek。Itwasagreatchangetofindhimselfforthefirsttime(IquitesettledthatitWASthefirst)inanemptysilentroomwithnosoultocarefor。I
couldnothelpfollowinghiminimaginationthroughcrowdsofpleasantfaces,andthencomingbacktothatdullplacewithitsboughofmistletoesickeninginthegas,andsprigsofhollyparchedupalreadybyaSimoomofroastandboiled。Theverywaiterhadgonehome;andhisrepresentative,apoor,lean,hungryman,waskeepingChristmasinhisjacket。
Igrewstillmoreinterestedinmyfriend。Hisdinnerdone,adecanterofwinewasplacedbeforehim。Itremaineduntouchedforalongtime,butatlengthwithaquiveringhandhefilledaglassandraisedittohislips。Sometenderwishtowhichhehadbeenaccustomedtogiveutteranceonthatday,orsomebelovednamethathehadbeenusedtopledge,trembleduponthematthemoment。Heputitdownveryhastily—tookituponcemore—againputitdown—pressedhishanduponhisface—yes—andtearsstoledownhischeeks,Iamcertain。
WithoutpausingtoconsiderwhetherIdidrightorwrong,Isteppedacrosstheroom,andsittingdownbesidehimlaidmyhandgentlyonhisarm。
’Myfriend,’Isaid,’forgivemeifIbeseechyoutotakecomfortandconsolationfromthelipsofanoldman。IwillnotpreachtoyouwhatIhavenotpractised,indeed。Whateverbeyourgrief,beofagoodheart—beofagoodheart,pray!’
’Iseethatyouspeakearnestly,’hereplied,’andkindlyIamverysure,but—’
InoddedmyheadtoshowthatIunderstoodwhathewouldsay;forI
hadalreadygathered,fromacertainfixedexpressioninhisface,andfromtheattentionwithwhichhewatchedmewhileIspoke,thathissenseofhearingwasdestroyed。’Thereshouldbeafreemasonrybetweenus,’saidI,pointingfromhimselftometoexplainmymeaning;’ifnotinourgrayhairs,atleastinourmisfortunes。
YouseethatIambutapoorcripple。’
Ineverfeltsohappyundermyafflictionsincethetryingmomentofmyfirstbecomingconsciousofit,aswhenhetookmyhandinhiswithasmilethathaslightedmypathinlifefromthatday,andwesatdownsidebyside。
Thiswasthebeginningofmyfriendshipwiththedeafgentleman;
andwhenwasevertheslightandeasyserviceofakindwordinseasonrepaidbysuchattachmentanddevotionashehasshowntome!
Heproducedalittlesetoftabletsandapenciltofacilitateourconversation,onthatourfirstacquaintance;andIwellrememberhowawkwardandconstrainedIwasinwritingdownmyshareofthedialogue,andhoweasilyheguessedmymeaningbeforeIhadwrittenhalfofwhatIhadtosay。Hetoldmeinafalteringvoicethathehadnotbeenaccustomedtobealoneonthatday—thatithadalwaysbeenalittlefestivalwithhim;andseeingthatIglancedathisdressintheexpectationthatheworemourning,headdedhastilythatitwasnotthat;ifithadbeenhethoughthecouldhaveborneitbetter。Fromthattimetothepresentwehavenevertoucheduponthistheme。Uponeveryreturnofthesamedaywehavebeentogether;andalthoughwemakeitourannualcustomtodrinktoeachotherhandinhandafterdinner,andtorecallwithaffectionategarrulityeverycircumstanceofourfirstmeeting,wealwaysavoidthisoneasifbymutualconsent。