第2章

\"Ibegofyounottopersistinpayingmecompliments。Igettoomuchofthatcheaparticleelsewhere。IhatetobetoldthatIambetterthanIknowIam。Ifyouaretodomeanygoodbyyourinstruction,youmustbeperfectlysinceretowardme,andtellmeplainlyofmyshort—comings。IpromiseyoubeforehandthatIshallneverbeoffended。Thereismyhand。

Now,isitabargain?\"

Hisfingersclosedinvoluntarilyoverthesoftbeautifulhand,andoncemoretheluxuryofhertouchsentathrillofdelightthroughhim。

\"Ihavenotbeeninsincere,\"hemurmured,\"butIshallbeonmyguardinfuture,evenagainsttheappearanceofinsincerity。\"

\"AndwhenIplaydetestably,youwillsayso,andnotsmoothitoverwithunmeaningflatteries?\"

\"Iwilltry。\"

\"Verywell,thenweshallgetonwelltogether。Donotimaginethatthisisamerefemininewhimofmine。Ineverwasmoreinearnest。Men,andIbelieveforeigners,toagreaterdegreethanAmericans,havetheideathatwomenmustbetreatedwithgentleforbearance;

thattheirfollies,iftheyarefoolish,mustbeglossedoverwithsomepolitename。

Theyexertthemselvestotheutmosttomakeusmereplaythings,and,assuch,contemptiblebothinourowneyesandintheirs。Nosincererespectcanexistwherethetruthhastobeavoided。ButthemajorityofAmericanwomenaremadeoftoosternastufftobedealtwithinthatway。Theyfeelthelurkinginsincerityevenwherepolitenessforbidsthemtoshowit,anditmakesthemdisgustedbothwiththemselves,andwiththeflatterer。Andnowyoumustpardonmeforhavingspokensoplainlytoyouonsoshortanacquaintance;butyouareaforeigner,anditmaybeanactoffriendshiptoinitiateyouassoonaspossibleintoourwaysandcustoms。\"

Hehardlyknewwhattoanswer。Hervehemencewassosudden,andthesentimentsshehadutteredsodifferentfromthosewhichhehadhabituallyascribedtowomen,thathecouldonlysitandgazeatherinmuteastonishment。

Hecouldnotbutadmitthatinthemainshehadjudgedhimrightly,andthathisownattitudeandthatofothermentowardhersex,werebaseduponanimpliedassumptionofsuperiority。

\"IamafraidIhaveshockedyou,\"sheresumed,noticingthestartledexpressionofhiscountenance。\"Butreallyitwasquiteinevitable,ifwewereatalltounderstandeachother。

Youwillforgiveme,won’tyou?\"

\"Forgive!\"stammeredhe,\"Ihavenothingtoforgive。Itwasonlyyourmercilesstruth—

fulnesswhichstartledme。Iratheroweyouthanks,ifyouwillallowmetobegratefultoyou。Itseemsanenviableprivilege。\"

\"Now,\"interruptedEdith,raisingherforefingerinplayfulthreat,\"rememberyourpromise。\"

Thelessonwasnowcontinuedwithoutfurtherinterruption。Whenitwasfinished,alittlegirl,withherhairdoneupincurl—papers,andaverystifflystarcheddress,whichstoodoutonallsidesalmosthorizontally,entered,accompaniedbyMrs。VanKirk。Halfdanimmediatelyrecognizedhisacquaintancefromthepark,anditappearedtohimagoodomenthatthischild,whosefriendlyinterestinhimhadwarmedhisheartinamomentwhenhisfortunesseemedsodesperate,shouldcontinuetobeassociatedwithhislifeonthisnewcontinent。Clarawasevidentlygreatlyimpressedbythechangeinhisappearance,andcouldwithdifficultyberestrainedfromcommentinguponit。

Sheprovedaveryaptscholarinmusic,andenjoyedthelessonsthemoreforhercordiallikingofherteacher。

Itwillbenecessaryhenceforthtoomitthelesssignificantdetailsinthecareerofourfriend\"Mr。Birch。\"Beforeamonthwaspast,hehadfirmlyestablishedhimselfinthefavorofthedifferentmembersoftheVanKirkfamily。

Mrs。VanKirkspokeofhimtoherladyvisitorsas\"aperfectjewel,\"frequentlyleavingthemindoubtastowhetherhewasacookoracoachman。Edithapostrophizedhimtoherfashionablefriendsas\"arealgenius,\"leavingadimimpressionupontheirmindsofflowinglocks,ashinyvelvetjacket,slouchedhat,defiantneck—tieandageneralairofdisreputablepretentiousness。Geniusesoftheforeigntypewerenever,intheestimationoffashionableNewYorksociety,whatyouwouldcall\"exactlynice,\"andagainstprejudicesofthisordernoamountofargumentwilleverprevail。Clara,whohadbythistimediscoveredthatherteacherpossessedaninexhaustiblefundoffairystories,assuredherplaymatesacrossthestreetthathewas\"justsplendid,\"andfrequentlyinvitedthemovertolistentohiswonderfultales。Mr。

VanKirkhimself,ofcourse,wasnon—committal,butpaidthebillsunmurmuringly。

HalfdaninthemeanwhilewasvainlystrugglingagainsthisgrowingpassionforEdith;

butthemoreherebelledthemorehopelesslyhefoundhimselfentangledinitsinextricablenet。Thefly,aslongasitkeepsquietinthespider’sweb,mayforamomentforgetitssituation;buttheleastefforttoescapeisapttofrustrateitselfandagainrevealtheimminentperil。Thushetoo\"kickedagainstthepricks,\"

hoped,feared,rebelledagainsthisdestiny,andagain,fromsheerweariness,relapsedintoadull,benumbedapathy。Inspiteofherfriendlysympathy,heneverfeltsokeenlyhisalienismasinherpresence。Sheacceptedthespontaneoushomagehepaidher,sometimeswithimpatience,assomethingthatwasreallybeneathhernotice;atothertimesshefranklyrecognizedit,banteredhimwithhis\"OldWorldchivalry,\"whichwouldsoonevaporateinthepracticalAmericanatmosphere,andcalledhimherViking,herknightandherfaithfulsquire。

Butitneveroccurredtohertoregardhisdevotioninaseriouslight,andtolookuponhimasapossibleloverhadevidentlyneverenteredherhead。Astheirintercoursegrewmoreintimate,hehadvolunteeredtoreadhisfavoritepoetswithher,andhadgraduallysucceededinimpartingtohersomethingofhisownpassionatelikingforHeineandBjrnson。ShehadinreturncalledhisattentiontotheworksofAmericanauthorswhohadhithertobeenlittlemorethannamestohim,andtheyhadthusmanagedtobeofmutualbenefittoeachother,andtospendmanyapleasanthourduringthelongwinterafternoonsineachother’scompany。

ButEdithhadaverykeensenseofhumor,andcouldhardlyrestrainhersecretamusementwhensheheardhimreadingLongfellow’s\"PsalmofLife\"andPoe’s\"Raven\"(whichhadbeenfamiliartoherfromherbabyhood),oftenwithfalseaccent,butalwayswithintenseenthusiasm。

Thereflectionthathehadhadnopartofhislifeincommonwithher,——thathedidnotlovethethingswhichsheloved,——couldnotshareherprejudices(andwomenhaveafeelingakintocontemptforamanwhodoesnotrespondtotheirprejudices)——removedhimattimesalmostbeyondthereachofhersympathy。Itwasinterestingenoughaslongastheexperiencewasnovel,tobethusunconsciouslyexploringanotherperson’smindandfindingsomanystrangeobjectsthere;butafterawhilethethingbegantoassumeanuncomfortablyseriousaspect,andthenthereseemedtobesomethingalmostterribleaboutit。Atsuchtimesacallfromagentlemanofherownnation,eventhoughhewereoneoftheplacidlystupidtype,wouldbeapositiverelief;shecouldabandonherselftothesecuresenseofbeingathome;

sheneedfearnosurprises,andinthesmoothshallowsoftheirtalktherewerenounsuspecteddepthstoexciteandtobaffleheringenuity。

And,again,revertinginherthoughttoHalfdan,hisconversationalbrilliancywouldalmostrepelher,assomethingodiousandun—American,thecheapresultofoutlandishbirthandunrepublicaneducation。Notthatshehadevervaluedrepublicanismveryhighly;shewasoneofthosewhoassociatedpoliticswithnoisyvulgarityinspeechanddress,andthereforethankedfortunethatwomenwerepermittedtokeepalooffromit。Butinthepresenceofthisalienshefoundherselfgrowingpatriotic;thatmuch—discussedabstraction,whichwecallourcountry(andwhichisnothingbuttheaggregateofalltheslowandinvisibleinfluenceswhichgotowardmakingupourownbeing),becamebydegreesaverypalpableandintelligiblefacttoher。

FrequentlywhileherAmericanselfwasthusloudlyassertingitself,Edithinflictedmanyacruelwounduponherforeignadorer。Once,——

itwastheFourthofJuly,morethanayearafterHalfdan’sarrival,anumberofyoungladiesandgentlemen,afterhavinglistenedtoapatrioticoration,wereinvitedintoaninformalluncheon。

Whilewaiting,theynaturallyenoughspenttheirtimeinsingingnationalsongs,andHalfdan’scleartenordidgoodserviceinkeepingthestragglingvoicestogether。Whentheyhadfinished,Edithwentuptohimandwasquiteeffusiveinherexpressionsofgratitude。

\"Iamsureweoughtalltobeverygratefultoyou,Mr。Birch,\"shesaid,\"andI,formypart,canassureyouthatIam。\"

\"Grateful?Why?\"demandedHalfdan,lookingquiteunhappy。

\"ForsingingOURnationalsongs,ofcourse。

Now,won’tyousingoneofyourown,please?

WeshouldallbesodelightedtohearhowaSwedish——orNorwegian,isit?——nationalsongsounds。\"

\"Yes,Mr。Birch,DOsingaSwedishsong,\"

echoedseveralvoices。

They,ofcourse,didnotevenremotelysuspecttheirowncruelty。Hehad,inhisenthusiasmforthedayallowedhimselftoforgetthathewasnotmadeofthesameclayastheywere,thathewasanexileandastranger,andmusteverremainso,thathehadnorighttosharetheirjoyintheblessingofliberty。Edithhadtakenpainstodispelthehappyillusion,andhadsenthimoncemorewhirlingtowardhiscoldnativePole。Hispassioncamenearchokinghim,and,toconcealhisimpetuousemotion,heflunghimselfdownonthepiano—stool,andstrucksomeintroductorychordswithperhapsalittlesuperfluousemphasis。SuddenlyhisvoiceburstoutintotheSwedishnationalanthem,\"OurLand,ourLand,ourFatherland,\"andtheairshookandpalpitatedwithstrongmartialmelody。

Hisindignation,hisloveandhismisery,impartedstrengthtohisvoice,anditsoccasionaltrembleinthePIANOpassageswassomethingmorethananartisticintention。Hewasloudlyapplaudedashearose,andtheyoungladiesthrongedabouthimtoaskifhe\"wouldn’tpleasewriteoutthemusicforthem。\"

Thusmonthaftermonthpassedby,andeverydaybroughtitsownmisery。Mrs。VanKirk’spatronizingmanners,andostentatiouskindness,oftentestedhispatiencetotheutmost。Ifhewasguiltyofaninnocentwitticismoralittlequaintnessofexpression,shealwaysassumedittobeamistakeoftermsandcorrectedhimwithanairofbenignsuperiority。Attimes,ofcourse,hercorrectionswerelegitimate,asforinstance,whenhespokeofWEARINGacane,insteadofCARRYINGone,butinninecasesoutoftenthefaultlayinherownlackofimaginationandnotinhisignoranceofEnglish。OnsuchoccasionsEdithoftentookpityonhim,defendedhimagainsthermother’scriticism,andinsistedthatifthisorthatexpressionwasnotincommonvogue,thatwasnoreasonwhyitshouldnotbeused,asitwasperfectlygrammatical,and,moreover,inkeepingwiththespiritofthelanguage。Andhe,listeningpassivelyinadmiringsilencetoherargument,thankedherevenforthemomentarypainbecauseitwasfollowedbysogreatahappiness。

ForitwassosweettobedefendedbyEdith,tofeelthatheandshewerestandingtogethersidebysideagainsttheouterworld。Couldheonlyshowherintheoldheroicmannerhowmuchhelovedher!Wouldonlysomeonethatwasdeartoherdie,sothathe,inthatbreakingdownofsocialbarrierswhichfollowsagreatcalamity,mightcomfortherinhersorrow。

Wouldshethen,perhaps,weeping,leanherwonderfulheaduponhisbreast,feelingbutthathewasafellow—mortal,whohadaheartthatwasloyalandtrue,andforgetting,foronebriefinstant,thathewasaforeigner。Then,totouchthatdelicateElizabethanfrillwhichwounditselfsodaintilyaboutEdith’sneck——

whatinconceivablerapture!Butitwasquiteimpossible。Itcouldneverbe。Thesewereselfishthoughts,nodoubt,buttheywerealover’sselfishness,and,assuch,boreaclosekinshiptoallthatispurestandbestinhumannature。

Itisoneofthetragicfactsofthislife,thatarelationsounequalasthatwhichexistedbetweenHalfdanandEdith,isatallpossible。AsforEdith,Imustadmitthatshewaswellawarethatherteacherwasinlovewithher。Womenhavewonderfullykeensensesforphenomenaofthatkind,anditisanillusionifanyoneimagines,asourNorsemandid,thathehaslockedhissecretsecurelyinthehiddenchamberofhisheart。Infleetingintonations,unconsciousglancesandattitudes,andthroughahundredotherchannelsitwillmakeitswayout,andthebereavedjailermaystillclasphiskeyinfiercetriumph,neverknowingthathehasbeenrobbed。ItwasofcoursenofaultofEdith’sthatshehadbecomepossessedofHalfdan’sheart—secret。Sheregardeditasonthewholeratheranabsurdaffair,andprizeditverylightly。Thatalovesostrongandyetsohumble,sodestituteofhopeandstillsounchanging,reverentandfaithful,hadsomethinggrandandtouchinginit,hadneveroccurredtoher。Itisatruismtosaythatinoursocialcodethevalueofaman’scharacterisdeterminedbyhisposition;

andfinetraitsinaforeigner(unlessheshouldhappentobesomethingverygreat)

strikeusratheraspartofasupposedmentalalienism,andassuch,naturallysuspicious。Itisratherdisgracefulthanotherwisetohaveyourmusicteacherinlovewithyou,andcriticalfriendswillneverquitebanishthesuspicionthatyouhaveencouragedhim。

Edithhad,inherfirstdelightatthediscoveryofHalfdan’stalent,franklyadmittedhimtoarelationofapparentequality。Hewasamanofculture,hadthemannersandbearingofagentleman,andhadnoneofthosetheatricalairswhichsooftenraiseasortofinvisiblewallbetweenforeignersandAmericans。Hermother,wholovedtoplaythepatron,especiallytoyoungmen,hadinvitedhimtodinner—partiesandintroducedhimtotheirfriends,untilalmosteveryonelookeduponhimasaprotegeofthefamily。Heappearedsowellinaparlor,andhadreallysuchadistinguishedpresence,thatitwasapleasuretolookathim。HewasremarkablyfreefromthoseobnoxioustraitswhichgeneralizingAmericantravelershaveledustobelievewereinseparablefromforeignbirth;hisfinger—nailswereinnowayconspicuous;hedidnot,asaFrenchcount,aformeradorerofEdith’s,haddone,indulgeanunmasculinetastefordiamondrings(possiblybecausehehadnone);hispolitenesswasunobtrusiveandsubdued,andofhisaccenttherewasjustenoughlefttogiveanagreeablecolorofindividualitytohisspeech。But,forallthat,Edithcouldneverquiteridherselfoftheimpressionthathewasintenselyun—American。

Therewasacertainidyllicquiescenceabouthim,achild—likedirectnessandsimplicity,andatotalabsenceof\"push,\"whichwerestartlinglyatvariancewiththespiritofAmericanlife。AnAmericancouldneverhavebeencontenttoremaininaninferiorpositionwithouttrying,insomeway,tobetterhisfortunes。

ButHalfdancouldstandstillandsee,withoutthefainteststirringofenvy,hisplebeianfriendOlson,whoseeducationandtalentscouldbearnocomparisonwithhisown,riserapidlyabovehim,andapparentlyhavenodesiretoemulatehim。Hecouldsitonacricketinacorner,withClaraonhislap,andtwoorthreelittlegirlsnestlingabouthim,andtellthemfairystoriesbythehour,whilehiskindlyfacebeamedwithinnocenthappiness。AndifClara,tocoaxhimintocontinuingtheentertainment,offeredtokisshim,hismeasureofjoywasfull。

Thisfairchild,withheraffectionateways,andherconfidingprattle,woundherselfevermorecloselyabouthishomelessheart,andheclungtoherwithatouchingdevotion。Forshewastheonlyonewhoseemedtobeunconsciousofthedifferenceofblood,whohadnotyetlearnedthatshewasanAmericanandhe——aforeigner。

VI。

Threeyearshadpassedbyandstillthesituationwasunchanged。Halfdanstilltaughtmusicandtoldfairystoriestothechildren。Hehadagoodmanymorepupilsnowthanthreeyearsago,althoughhehadmadenoefforttosolicitpatronage,andhadnevertriedtoadvertisehistalentbywhatheregardedasvulgarandinartisticdisplay。ButMrs。VanKirk,whohadbythistimediscoveredhisdisinclinationtoasserthimself,hadbeenonlythemoreactive;had\"talkedhimup\"amongheraristocraticfriends;

hadgivenmusicalsoirees,atwhichshehadcoaxedhimtoplaytheprincipalrole,andhadinvariousotherwaysexertedherselfinhisbehalf。Itwasgettingtobequitefashionabletoadmirehisquiet,unostentatiousstyleofplaying,whichwassofarremovedfromthenoisybravadoandclap—trapthencommonlyinvogue。

Evenprofessionalmusiciansbegantoindorsehim,andsome,whohaddiscoveredthat\"therewasmoneyinhim,\"madehimtemptingoffersforapublicengagement。But,withcharacteristicmodesty,hedistrustedtheirverdict;hissensitivenatureshrankfromanythingwhichhadtheappearanceofself—assertionordisplay。

ButEdith——ah,ifithadnotbeenforEdithhemighthavefoundcouragetoenteratthedooroffortune,whichwasnowopenedajar。

Thatfame,ifheshouldgainit,wouldbringhimanynearertoher,wasathoughtthatwasalientosounworldlyatemperamentashis。

Andanyactionthathadnobearinguponhisrelationtoher,lefthimcold——seemedunworthyoftheeffort。Ifshehadaskedhimtoplayinpublic;ifshehadrequiredofhimtogototheNorthPole,ortocuthisownthroat,Iverilybelievehewouldhavedoneit。AndatlastEdithdidaskhimtoplay。SheandOlsonhadplottedtogether,andfromtheveryfriendliestmotivesagreedtoplayintoeachother’shands。

\"IfyouonlyWOULDconsenttoplay,\"saidshe,inherownpersuasiveway,onedayastheyhadfinishedtheirlesson,\"weshouldallbesohappy。

Onlythinkhowproudweshouldbeofyoursuccess,foryouknowthereisnothingyoucan’tdointhewayofmusicifyoureallywantto。\"

\"Doyoureallythinkso?\"exclaimedhe,whilehiseyessuddenlygrewlargeandluminous。

\"IndeedIdo,\"saidEdith,emphatically。

\"Andif——ifIplayedwell,\"falteredhe,\"woulditreallypleaseyou?\"

\"Ofcourseitwould,\"criedEdith,laughing;

\"howcanyouasksuchafoolishquestion?\"

\"BecauseIhardlydaredtobelieveit。\"

\"Nowlistentome,\"continuedthegirl,leaningforwardinherchair,andbeamingalloverwithkindlyofficiousness;\"nowforonceyoumustberationalanddojustwhatItellyou。I

shallneverlikeyouagainifyouopposemeinthis,forIhavesetmyheartuponit;youmustpromisebeforehandthatyouwillbegoodandnotmakeanyobjection。Doyouhear?\"

WhenEdithassumedthistonetowardhim,shemightwellhavemadehimpromisetoperformmiracles。Shewastoointentuponherbenevolentschemetoheedthepossibleinferenceswhichhemightdrawfromhersuddendisplayofinterest。

\"Thenyoupromise?\"repeatedshe,eagerly,ashehesitatedtoanswer。

\"Yes,Ipromise。\"

\"Now,youmustnotbesurprised;butmammaandIhavemadearrangementswithMr。

S————thatyouaretoappearunderhisauspicesataconcertwhichistobegivenaweekfromto—night。Allourfriendsaregoing,andweshalltakeupallthefrontseats,andIhavealreadytoldmygentlemenfriendstoscatterthroughtheaudience,andiftheycareanythingformyfavor,theywillhavetoapplaudvigorously。\"

Halfdanreddeneduptohistemples,andbegantotwisthiswatch—chainnervously。

\"Youmusthavesmallconfidenceinmyability,\"hemurmured,\"sinceyouresorttoprecautionslikethese。\"

\"ButmydearMr。Birch,\"criedEdith,whowasquicktodiscoverthatshehadmadeamistake,\"itisnotkindinyoutomistrustmeinthatway。IfaNewYorkaudiencewereashighlycultivatedinmusicasyouare,Iadmitthatmyprecautionswouldbesuperfluous。Butthepapers,youknow,willtaketheirtonefromtheaudience,andthereforewemustmakeuseofalittleinnocentartificetomakesureofit。

Everythingdependsuponthesuccessofyourfirstpublicappearance,andifyourfriendscaninthiswayhelpyoutoestablishthereputationwhichisnothingbutyourright,Iamsureyououghtnottobindtheirhandsbyyourfoolishsensitiveness。Youdon’tknowtheAmericanwayofdoingthingsaswellasIdo,thereforeyoumuststandbyyourpromise,andleaveeverythingtome。\"

ItwasimpossiblenottobelievethatanythingEdithchosetodowasabovereproach。Shelookedsobewitchinginherexcitedeagernessforhiswelfarethatitwouldhavebeeninhumantoopposeher。Sohemeeklysuccumbed,andbegantodiscusswithhertheprogrammefortheconcert。

Duringthenextweektherewashardlyadaythathedidnotreadsomestartlingparagraphinthenewspapersabout\"thecelebratedScandinavianpianist,\"whoseappearanceatS————

Hallwaslookedforwardtoastheprincipaleventofthecomingseason。Heinwardlyrebelledagainstthewell—meantexaggerations;

butashesuspectedthatitwasEdith’sinfluencewhichwasinthiswayassertingitselfinhisbehalf,hesethisconscienceatrestandremainedsilent。

Theeveningoftheconcertcameatlast,and,asthepapersstatedthenextmorning,\"thelargehallwascrowdedtoitsutmostcapacitywithaselectandhighlyappreciativeaudience。\"

Edithmusthaveplayedherpartoftheperformanceskillfully,forashewalkedoutuponthestage,hewaswelcomedwithanenthusiasticburstofapplause,asifhehadbeenaworld—

renownedartist。AtEdith’ssuggestion,hertwofavoritenocturneshadbeenplacedfirstupontheprogramme;thenfollowedoneofthoseballadsofChopin,whoserhythmicdinandrushsweeponward,beleagueringtheearlikeeager,melodioushosts,charginginthickeningranksandcolumns,beatingimpetuousretreats,andagainunitingwithonegrandemotionthewide—spreadingarmyofsoundforthefinalvictory。Besidesthese,therewasoneofLiszt’s\"RhapsodiesHongroises,\"animpromptubySchubert,andseveralorchestralpieces;butthegreaterpartoftheprogrammewasdevotedtoChopin,becauseHalfdan,withhisgreat,hopelesspassionlaboringinhisbreast,feltthathecouldinterpretChopinbetterthanhecouldanyothercomposer。Hecarriedhisaudiencebystorm。Asheretiredtothedressing—room,afterhavingfinishedthelastpiece,hisfriends,amongwhomEdithandMrs。VanKirkwerethemostconspicuous,throngedabouthim,showeringtheirpraisesandcongratulationsuponhim。Theyinsistedwithmuchfriendlyurgingupontakinghimhomeintheircarriage;

Clarakissedhim,Mrs。VanKirkintroducedhimtoherladyacquaintancesas\"ourfriend,Mr。Birch,\"andEdithheldhishandsolonginhersthathecamenearlosinghispresenceofmindandtellingherthenandtherethathelovedher。Ashiseyesrestedonher,theybecamesuddenlysuffusedwithtears,andavastbewilderinghappinessvibratedthroughhisframe。Atlasthetorehimselfawayandwanderedaimlesslythroughthelong,lonelystreets。

WhycouldhenottellEdiththathelovedher?

Wasthereanydisgraceinloving?Thisheavenlypassionwhichsosuddenlyhadtransfusedhisbeing,andyearbyyeardeadenedthesubstanceofhisoldself,creatinginitssteadsomethingnewandwildandstrangewhichhenevercouldknow,butstillheldinfinitelydear——haditbeensenttohimmerelyasascourgetotesthiscapacityforsuffering?

Once,whilehewasachild,hismotherhadtoldhimthatsomewhereinthiswideworldtherelivedamaidenwhomGodhadcreatedforhim,andforhimalone,andwhenheshouldseeher,heshouldloveher,andhislifeshouldthenceforthbeallforher。Ithadhardlyoccurredtohim,then,toquestionwhethershewouldlovehiminreturn,ithadappearedsoverynaturalthatsheshould。Nowhehadfoundthismaiden,andshehadbeenverykindtohim;butherkindnesshadbeenlittlebetterthancruelty,becausehehaddemandedsomethingmorethankindness。Andstillhehadnevertoldherofhislove。Hemusttellhereventhisverynightwhilethemoonrodehighintheheavensandallthesmalldifferencesbetweenhumanbeingsseemedlostinthevaststarlitstillness。Heknewwellthatbytherelentlessglareofthedaylighthisowninsignificancewouldbecruellyconspicuousinthepresenceofhersplendor;hisscrupleswouldrevive,andhiscouragefade。

Thenightwasclearandstill。Aclockstruckeleveninsomechurchtowernearby。TheVanKirkmansionrosetallandstatelyinthemoonlight,flingingadensemassofshadowacrossthestreet。Upinthethirdstoryhesawtwowindowslighted;thecurtainsweredrawn,buttheblindswerenotclosed。Alltherestofthehousewasdark。HeraisedhisvoiceandsangaSwedishserenadewhichseemedinperfectconcordwithhisownmood。Hiscleartenorrosethroughthesilenceofthenight,andafeebleechoflungitbackfromthemansionopposite:

[3]\"Star,sweetstar,thatbrightlybeamest,Glitteringontheskiesnocturnal,Hidethineeyenomorefromme,Hidethineeyenomorefromme!\"

[3]FreetranslationofaSwedishserenade,thenameofwhoseauthorI

haveforgotten。H。H。B。

Thecurtainwasdrawnaside,thewindowcautiouslyraised,andtheoutlineofEdith’sbeautifulheadappeareddarkanddistinctagainstthelightwithin。Sheinstantlyrecognizedhim。

\"Youmustgoaway,Mr。Birch,\"camehervoiceinananxiouswhisperoutoftheshadow。

\"Praygoaway。Youwillwakeupthepeople。\"

Herwordswereaudibleenough,buttheyfailedtoconveyanymeaningtohisexcitedmind。Oncemorehisvoicefloatedupwardtoheropenedwindow:

\"AndIyearntoreachthydwelling,Yearntorisefromearth’sfierceturmoil;

Sweeteststarupwardtothee,Yearntorise,brightstartothee。\"

\"DearMr。Birch,\"shewhisperedoncemoreintonesofdistress。\"PrayDOgoaway。Orperhaps,\"sheinterruptedherself\"——waitonemomentandIwillcomedown。\"

Presentlythefrontdoorwasnoiselesslyopened,andEdith’stall,litheform,dressedinawhiteflowingdress,andwithherblondehairrollinglooselyoverhershoulders,appearedforaninstant,andthenagainvanished。WithoneleapHalfdansprangupthestairsandpushedthroughthehalf—openeddoor。Edithclosedthedoorbehindhim,thenwithrapidstepsledthewaytothebackparlorwherethemoonbrokefeeblythroughthebarsoftheclosedshutters。

\"NowMr。Birch,\"shesaid,seatingherselfuponalounge,\"youmayexplaintomewhatthisunaccountablebehaviorofyoursmeans。

IshouldhardlythinkIhaddeservedtobetreatedinthiswaybyyou。\"

Halfdanwasutterlybewildered;anervousfitoftremblingranthroughhim,andheendeavoredinvaintospeak。Hehadbeenpreparedforpassionatereproaches,butthiscalmseveritychilledhimthrough,andhecouldonlygaspandtremble,butcouldutternowordinhisdefense。

\"Isupposeyouareaware,\"continuedEdith,inthesameimperturbablemanner,\"thatifI

hadnotinterruptedyou,thepolicemanwouldhaveh*eardyou,andyouwouldhavebeenarrestedforstreetdisturbance。Thento—morrowweshouldhaveseenitinallthenewspapers,andIshouldhavebeenthelaughing—stockofthewholetown。\"

No,surelyhehadneverthoughtofitinthatlight;theideastruckhimasentirelynew。

Therewasalongpause。Acockcrowedwithadrowsyremotenessinsomeneighboringyard,andthelittleclockonthemantel—piecetickedonpatientlyinthemoonlitdusk。

\"Ifyouhavenothingtosay,\"resumedEdith,whilethesternindifferenceinhervoiceperceptiblyrelaxed,\"thenIwillbidyougood—

night。\"

Shearose,andwithagrandsweepofherdrapery,movedtowardthedoor。

\"MissEdith,\"criedhe,stretchinghishandsdespairinglyafterher,\"youmustnotleaveme。\"

Shepaused,tossedherhairbackwithherhands,andgazedathimoverhershoulder。Hethrewhimselfonhisknees,seizedthehemofherdress,andpressedittohislips。Itwasagestureofsuchinexpressiblehumilitythatevenastonewouldhaverelented。

\"Donotbefoolish,Mr。Birch,\"shesaid,try—

ingtopullherdressawayfromhim。\"Getup,andifyouhaveanythingrationaltosaytome,Iwillstayandlisten。\"

\"Yes,yes,\"hewhispered,hoarsely,\"Ishallberational。Onlydonotleaveme。\"

Sheagainsankdownwearilyuponthelounge,andlookedathiminexpectantsilence。

\"MissEdith,\"pleadedheinthesamehoarse,passionateundertone,\"havepityonme,anddonotdespiseme。Iloveyou——oh——ifyouwouldbutallowmetodieforyou,Ishouldbethehappiestofmen。\"

Againheshuddered,andstoodlonggazingatherwithamute,pitifulappeal。AtearstoleintoEdith’seyeandtrickleddownoverhercheek。

\"Ah,Mr。Birch,\"shemurmured,whileasighshookherbosom,\"Iamsorry——verysorrythatthismisfortunehashappenedtoyou。Youhavedeservedabetterfatethantoloveme——toloveawomanwhocannevergiveyouanythinginreturnforwhatyougiveher。\"

\"Never?\"herepeatedmournfully,\"never?\"

\"No,never!Youhavebeenagoodfriendtome,andassuchIvalueyouhighly,andIhadhopedthatyouwouldalwaysremainso。ButIseethatitcannotbe。Itwillperhapsbebestforyouhenceforthnottoseeme,atleastnotuntil——pardontheexpression——youhaveout—

livedthisgenerousfolly。Andnow,youknow,youwillneedmenomore。Youhavemadeasplendidreputation,andifyouchoosetoavailyourselfofit,yourfortuneisalreadymade。I

shallalwaysrejoicetohearofyoursuccess,and——andifyoushouldeverneedaFRIEND,youmustcometonoonebutme。Iknowthatthesearefeeblewords,Mr。Birch,andiftheyseemcoldtoyou,youmustpardonme。Icansaynothingmore。\"

Theywereindeedfeeblewords,althoughmostcordiallyspoken。Hetriedtoweighthem,tomeasuretheirmeaning,buthismindwasasifbenumbed,andutterlyincapableofthought。

Hewalkedacrossthefloor,perhapsonlytodosomething,notfeelingwherehetrod,butstillwithanabsurdsensationthathewastakingimmoderatelylongsteps。Thenhestoppedabruptly,wrunghishands,andgazedatEdith。

Andsuddenly,likeaflashinavacuum,thethoughtshotthroughhisbrainthathehadseenthisveryscenesomewhere——inadream,inaremotechildhood,inapreviousexistence,hedidnotknowwhenorwhere。Itseemedstrangelyfamiliar,andinthenextinstantstrangelymean—

inglessandunreal。Thewalls,thefloor——

everythingbegantomove,towhirlabouthim;hestruckhishandsagainsthisforehead,andsankdownintoadamask—coveredeasy—chair。Withafaintcryofalarm,Edithsprangup,seizedabottleofcolognewhichhappenedtobewithinreach,andkneltdownathisside。Sheputherarmaroundhisneck,andraisedhishead。

\"Mr。Birch,dearMr。Birch,\"shecried,inafrightenedwhisper,\"forGod’ssakecometoyourself!OGod,whathaveIdone?\"

Sheblewtheeau—de—cologneintohisface,and,ashelanguidlyopenedhiseyes,hefeltthetouchofherwarmhanduponhischeeksandhisforehead。

\"Thankheaven!heisbetter,\"shemurmured,stillcontinuingtobathehistemples。\"Howdoyoufeelnow,Mr。Birch?\"sheadded,inatoneofanxiousinquiry。

\"Thankyou,itwasanunpardonableweakness,\"

hemuttered,withoutchanginghisattitude。

\"Donottroubleyourselfaboutme。I

shallsoonbewell。\"

Itwassosweettobeconsciousofhergentleministry,thatitrequiredagreateffort,aneffortofconscience,torousehimoncemore,ashisstrengthreturned。

\"Hadyounotbetterstay?\"sheasked,asherosetoputonhisovercoat。\"Iwillcalloneoftheservantsandhavehimshowyouaroom。

Wewillsayto—morrowmorningthatyouweretakenill,andnobodywillwonder。\"

\"No,no,\"heresponded,energetically。\"I

amperfectlystrongnow。\"Buthestillhadtoleanonachair,andhisfacewasdeathlypale。

\"Farewell,MissEdith,\"hesaid;andatendersadnesstrembledinhisvoice。\"Farewell。Weshall——probably——nevermeetagain。\"

\"Donotspeakso,\"sheanswered,seizinghishand。\"Youwilltrytoforgetthis,andyouwillstillbegreatandhappy。Andwhenfortuneshallagainsmileuponyou,and——and——

youwillbecontenttobemyfriend,thenweshallseeeachotherasbefore。\"

\"No,no,\"hebrokeforth,withasuddenhoarseness。\"Itwillneverbe。\"

Hewalkedtowardthedoorwiththemotionsofonewhofeelsdeathinhislimbs;thenstoppedoncemoreandhiseyeslingeredwithinexpressiblesadnessonthewonderful,belovedformwhichstooddimlyoutlinedbeforehiminthetwilight。ThenEdith’smeasureofmisery,too,seemedfull。Withthedivineheedlessnesswhichbelongstohersex,sherusheduptowardhim,andrememberingonlythathewasweakandunhappy,andthathesufferedforhersake,shetookhisfacebetweenherhandsandkissedhim。Hewastoogenerousamantomisinterprettheact;sohewhisperedbutoncemore:

\"Farewell,\"andhastenedaway。

VII。

AfterthateventfulDecembernight,AmericawasnomorewhatithadbeentoHalfdanBjerk。Astrangetorpidityhadcomeoverhim;

everyrisingdaygazedintohiseyeswithafierceunmeaningglare。Thenoiseofthestreetannoyedhimandmadehimchildishlyfretful,andthesolitudeofhisownroomseemedstillmoredrearyanddepressing。Hewentmechanicallythroughthedailyroutineofhisdutiesasifthesoulhadbeentakenoutofhiswork,andlefthislifeallbarrennessanddesolation。Hemovedrestlesslyfromplacetoplace,roamedatalltimesofthedayandnightthroughthecityanditssuburbs,tryingvainlytoexhausthisphysicalstrength;gradually,ashislethargydeepenedintoanumb,helplessdespair,itseemedsomehowtoimpartacertaintoughnesstohisotherwisedelicateframe。Olson,whowasnowajuniorpartnerinthefirmofRemsen,VanKirkandCo。,stoodbyhimfaithfullyinthesedaysofsorrow。Hewasnevereffusiveinhissympathy,butwaspatientlyforbearingwithhisfriend’swhimsandmoods,andhumoredhimasifhehadbeenasickchildintrustedtohiscustody。ThatEdithmightbethemovingcauseofOlson’skindnesswasathoughtwhich,strangelyenough,hadneveroccurredtoHalfdan。

Atlast,whenspringcame,thevacancyofhismindwassuddenlyinvadedwithastrongdesiretorevisithisnativeland。HedisclosedhisplantoOlson,who,afterduedeliberationandseveralvisitstotheVanKirkmansion,decidedthatthepleasureofseeinghisoldfriendsandthescenesofhischildhoodmightpushthepainfulmemoriesoutofsight,andrenewhisinterestinlife。So,onemorning,whiletheMaysunshonewithasoftradianceuponthebeautifulharbor,ourNorsemanfoundhimselfstandingonthedeckofahugeblack—hulledCunarder,shiveringinspiteofthewarmth,andfeelingachilllonelinesscreepingoverhimatthesightofthekissingandaffectionateleave—

takingswhichweregoingonallaroundhim。

Olsonwasrunningbackandforth,attendingtohisbaggage;buthehimselftooknothought,andfeltnomoreresponsibilitythanifhehadbeenahelplesschild。Hehalfregrettedthathisownwishhadprevailed,andwasinclinedtoholdhisfriendresponsibleforit;andstillhehadnotenergyenoughtoprotestnowwhenthejourneyseemedinevitable。Hisheartstillclungtotheplacewhichheldthecorpseofhisruinedlife,asamanmayclingtothespotwhichhideshisbeloveddead。

AbouttwoweekslaterHalfdanlandedinNorway。Hewashalfreluctanttoleavethesteamer,andthelandofhisbirthexcitednoemotioninhisbreast。HewasbutconsciousofadimregretthathewassofarawayfromEdith。Atlast,however,hebetookhimselftoahotel,wherehespenttheafternoonsittingwithhalf—closedeyesatawindow,watchinglistlesslythedrowsyslow—pulsedlifewhichdribbledlanguidlythroughthenarrowthoroughfare。ThenoisyuproarofBroadwaychimedremotelyinhisears,likethedistantroarofatempest—tossedsea,andwhathadoncebeenaperpetualannoyancewasnowasweetmemory。HowoftenwithEdithathissidehadhethreadedhiswaythroughthesurgingcrowdsthatpour,onafineafternoon,inanunceasingcurrentupanddownthestreetbetweenUnionandMadisonSquares。Howfriendly,andsweet,andgracious,Edithhadbeenatsuchtimes;

howfreshhervoice,howwittyandanimatedherchanceremarkswhentheystoppedtogreetapassingacquaintance;and,aboveall,howinspiringthesightofherheavenlybeauty。

Nowthatwasallpast。PerhapsheshouldneverseeEdithagain。

Thenextdayhesaunteredthroughthecity,meetingsomeoldfriends,whoallseemedchangedandsingularlyuninteresting。Theywereallengagedormarried,andcouldtalkofnothingbutmatrimony,andtheirprospectsofadvancementintheGovernmentservice。Onehadaninfluentialunclewhohadbeenachumofthepresentministeroffinance;anotherbasedhishopesoffutureprosperityuponthefamilyconnectionsofhisbetrothed,andathirdwaswaitingwithapatientperseverance,worthyofabettercause,forthedeathorresignationofanantiquatedchef—de—bureau,which,accordingtothepromiseofsomemightyman,wouldopenapositionforhimintheDepartmentofJustice。

AllhadthemostabsurdtheoriesaboutAmericandemocracy,andindulgedfreelyinpropheciesofcomingdisasters;butabouttheirowngovernmenttheyhadnoopinionwhatever。IfHalfdanattemptedtosetthemright,theyatoncegrewexcitedanddeclamatory;theiropinionswerebaseduponconvictionandacharmingignoranceoffacts,andtheywerenottobemoved。TheyknewallaboutTweedandtheTammanyRing,andbelievedthemtoberepresentativecitizensofNewYork,ifnotoftheUnitedStates;butofCharlesSumnerandCarlSchurztheyhadneverheard。Halfdan,who,inspiteofhismisfortunesinthelandofhisadoption,cherishedaverytenderfeelingforit,wasoftensothoroughlyarousedatthefoolishprejudiceswhicheverywheremethim,thathistorpiditygraduallythawedaway,andhebegantolookmorelikehisformerself。

TowardautumnhereceivedaninvitationtovisitacountryclergymanintheNorth,adistantrelativeofhisfather’s,andtherewhiledawayhistime,fishingandshooting,untilwintercame。ButasChristmasdrewnear,andthedaywrestledfeeblywiththeall—conqueringnight,theoldsorrowrevived。Inthedarknesswhichnowbroodedoverlandandsea,thethoughtsneedednolongerbeonguardagainstthemselves;

theycouldroamfarandwideastheylisted。WherewasEdithnow,thesweet,thewonderfulEdith?Wasthereyetthesamedancinglightinherbeautifuleyes,thesamegoldensheeninherhair,thesamemerryringinhervoice?Andhadshenotsaidthatwhenhewascontenttobeonlyherfriend,hemightreturntoher,andshewouldreceivehimintheoldjoyousandconfidingway?Surelytherewasnolifetohimapartfromher:whyshouldhenotbeherfriend?Onlyaglimpseofherlovelyface——ah,itwasworthalifetime;itwouldconsecrateanageofmisery,aglimpseofEdith’sface。Thusranhisfanciesdaybyday,andthenightonlylentadeeperintensitytotheyearningsoftheday。Hewalkedaboutasinadream,seeingnothing,heedingnothing,whilethisonestrongdesire——toseeEdithoncemore——throbbedandthrobbedwithaslow,feverishperseverancewithinhim。Edith——Edith,theverynamehadastrange,potentfascination。

Everythoughtwhispered\"Edith,\"——hispulsebeat\"Edith,\"——andhisheartrepeatedthebelovedname。Itwashispulse—beat,——hisheartbeat,——hislife—beat。

Andonemorningashestoodabsentlylookingathisfingersagainstthelight——andtheyseemedstrangelywanandtransparent——thethoughtatlasttookshape。Itrusheduponhimwithsuchvehemence,thathecouldnomoreresistit。Sohebadetheclergymangood—bye,gatheredhisfewworldlygoodstogetherandsetoutforBergen。TherehefoundanEnglishsteamerwhichcarriedhimtoHull,andafewweekslater,hewasoncemoreinNewYork。

ItwaslateoneeveninginJanuarythatatug—boatarrivedandtookthecabinpassengersashore。Themoonsailedtranquillyoverthedeepbluedomeofthesky,thestarstracedtheirglitteringpathsoflightfromthezenithdownward,anditwassharp,bittercold。Northwardovertheriverlayagreatbankofcloud,dense,grayandmassive,thespectreofthecomingsnow—storm。Thereitlaysohugeandfantasticallyhuman,rufflingitselfup,asfowlsdo,indefenseagainstthecold。Halfdanwalkedonatabriskrate——strangetosay,allthestreet—

carshemetwentthewrongway——startlingeverynowandthensomepreciousmemory,somewordorlookorgestureofEdith’swhichhadhoveredlongoverthosescenes,waitingforhisrecognition。Therewasthegreatjewel—storewhereEdithhadtakenhimsooftentoconsulthistastewheneverafriendofherswastobemarried。ItwastherethattheyhadhadanamicablequarreloverthatbronzestatueofFaustwhichshehadfoundbeautiful,whilehe,witharudenesswhichseemednowquiteincomprehensible,hadinsistedthatitwasnot。

Andwhenhehadfailedtoconvinceher,shehadgivenhimherhandintokenofreconciliation——

andEdithhadawonderfulwayofgivingherhand,whichmadeanyonefeelthatitwasapeculiarprivilegetopressit——andtheyhadwalkedoutarminarmintotheanimated,gas—