\"Idon’tthinkofSundayonprinciple,\"saidGogolsimply,\"anymorethanIstareatthesunatnoonday。\"
\"Well,thatisapointofview,\"saidSymethoughtfully。\"Whatdoyousay,Professor?\"
TheProfessorwaswalkingwithbentheadandtrailingstick,andhedidnotansweratall。
\"Wakeup,Professor!\"saidSymegenially。\"TelluswhatyouthinkofSunday。\"
TheProfessorspokeatlastveryslowly。
\"Ithinksomething,\"hesaid,\"thatIcannotsayclearly。Or,rather,IthinksomethingthatIcannoteventhinkclearly。Butitissomethinglikethis。Myearlylife,asyouknow,wasabittoolargeandloose。
Well,whenIsawSunday’sfaceIthoughtitwastoolarge——
everybodydoes,butIalsothoughtitwastooloose。Thefacewassobig,thatonecouldn’tfocusitormakeitafaceatall。
Theeyewassofarawayfromthenose,thatitwasn’taneye。
Themouthwassomuchbyitself,thatonehadtothinkofitbyitself。Thewholethingistoohardtoexplain。\"
Hepausedforalittle,stilltrailinghisstick,andthenwenton——
\"Butputitthisway。Walkinguparoadatnight,Ihaveseenalampandalightedwindowandacloudmaketogetheramostcompleteandunmistakableface。IfanyoneinheavenhasthatfaceIshallknowhimagain。YetwhenIwalkedalittlefartherIfoundthattherewasnoface,thatthewindowwastenyardsaway,thelamptenhundredyards,thecloudbeyondtheworld。Well,Sunday’sfaceescapedme;itranawaytorightandleft,assuchchancepicturesrunaway。Andsohisfacehasmademe,somehow,doubtwhetherthereareanyfaces。Idon’tknowwhetheryourface,Bull,isafaceoracombinationinperspective。Perhapsoneblackdiscofyourbeastlyglassesisquitecloseandanotherfiftymilesaway。Oh,thedoubtsofamaterialistarenotworthadump。Sundayhastaughtmethelastandtheworstdoubts,thedoubtsofaspiritualist。IamaBuddhist,Isuppose;andBuddhismisnotacreed,itisadoubt。MypoordearBull,Idonotbelievethatyoureallyhaveaface。I
havenotfaithenoughtobelieveinmatter。\"
Syme’seyeswerestillfixedupontheerrantorb,which,reddenedintheeveninglight,lookedlikesomerosierandmoreinnocentworld。
\"Haveyounoticedanoddthing,\"hesaid,\"aboutallyourdescriptions?EachmanofyoufindsSundayquitedifferent,yeteachmanofyoucanonlyfindonethingtocomparehimto——theuniverseitself。Bullfindshimliketheearthinspring,Gogollikethesunatnoonday。TheSecretaryisremindedoftheshapelessprotoplasm,andtheInspectorofthecarelessnessofvirginforests。TheProfessorsaysheislikeachanginglandscape。Thisisqueer,butitisqueererstillthatIalsohavehadmyoddnotionaboutthePresident,andIalsofindthatIthinkofSundayasIthinkofthewholeworld。\"
\"Getonalittlefaster,Syme,\"saidBull;\"nevermindtheballoon。\"
\"WhenIfirstsawSunday,\"saidSymeslowly,\"Ionlysawhisback;
andwhenIsawhisback,Iknewhewastheworstmanintheworld。
Hisneckandshoulderswerebrutal,likethoseofsomeapishgod。
Hisheadhadastoopthatwashardlyhuman,likethestoopofanox。Infact,Ihadatoncetherevoltingfancythatthiswasnotamanatall,butabeastdressedupinmen’sclothes。\"
\"Geton,\"saidDr。Bull。
\"Andthenthequeerthinghappened。Ihadseenhisbackfromthestreet,ashesatinthebalcony。ThenIenteredthehotel,andcomingroundtheothersideofhim,sawhisfaceinthesunlight。
Hisfacefrightenedme,asitdideveryone;butnotbecauseitwasbrutal,notbecauseitwasevil。Onthecontrary,itfrightenedmebecauseitwassobeautiful,becauseitwassogood。\"
\"Syme,\"exclaimedtheSecretary,\"areyouill?\"
\"Itwaslikethefaceofsomeancientarchangel,judgingjustlyafterheroicwars。Therewaslaughterintheeyes,andinthemouthhonourandsorrow。Therewasthesamewhitehair,thesamegreat,grey—cladshouldersthatIhadseenfrombehind。ButwhenIsawhimfrombehindIwascertainhewasananimal,andwhenIsawhiminfrontIknewhewasagod。\"
\"Pan,\"saidtheProfessordreamily,\"wasagodandananimal。\"
\"Then,andagainandalways,\"wentonSymelikeamantalkingtohimself,\"thathasbeenformethemysteryofSunday,anditisalsothemysteryoftheworld。WhenIseethehorribleback,Iamsurethenoblefaceisbutamask。WhenIseethefacebutforaninstant,Iknowthebackisonlyajest。Badissobad,thatwecannotbutthinkgoodanaccident;goodissogood,thatwefeelcertainthatevilcouldbeexplained。ButthewholecametoakindofcrestyesterdaywhenIracedSundayforthecab,andwasjustbehindhimalltheway。\"
\"Hadyoutimeforthinkingthen?\"askedRatcliffe。
\"Time,\"repliedSyme,\"foroneoutrageousthought。Iwassuddenlypossessedwiththeideathattheblind,blankbackofhisheadreallywashisface——anawful,eyelessfacestaringatme!AndI
fanciedthatthefigurerunninginfrontofmewasreallyafigurerunningbackwards,anddancingasheran。\"
\"Horrible!\"saidDr。Bull,andshuddered。
\"Horribleisnottheword,\"saidSyme。\"Itwasexactlytheworstinstantofmylife。Andyettenminutesafterwards,whenheputhisheadoutofthecabandmadeagrimacelikeagargoyle,Iknewthathewasonlylikeafatherplayinghide—and—seekwithhischildren。\"
\"Itisalonggame,\"saidtheSecretary,andfrownedathisbrokenboots。
\"Listentome,\"criedSymewithextraordinaryemphasis。\"ShallI
tellyouthesecretofthewholeworld?Itisthatwehaveonlyknownthebackoftheworld。Weseeeverythingfrombehind,anditlooksbrutal。Thatisnotatree,butthebackofatree。Thatisnotacloud,butthebackofacloud。Cannotyouseethateverythingisstoopingandhidingaface?Ifwecouldonlygetroundinfront——\"
\"Look!\"criedoutBullclamorously,\"theballooniscomingdown!\"
TherewasnoneedtocryouttoSyme,whohadnevertakenhiseyesoffit。Hesawthegreatluminousglobesuddenlystaggerinthesky,rightitself,andthensinkslowlybehindthetreeslikeasettingsun。
ThemancalledGogol,whohadhardlyspokenthroughalltheirwearytravels,suddenlythrewuphishandslikealostspirit。
\"Heisdead!\"hecried。\"AndnowIknowhewasmyfriend——myfriendinthedark!\"
\"Dead!\"snortedtheSecretary。\"Youwillnotfindhimdeadeasily。
Ifhehasbeentippedoutofthecar,weshallfindhimrollingasacoltrollsinafield,kickinghislegsforfun。\"
\"Clashinghishoofs,\"saidtheProfessor。\"Thecoltsdo,andsodidPan。\"
\"Panagain!\"saidDr。Bullirritably。\"YouseemtothinkPaniseverything。\"
\"Soheis,\"saidtheProfessor,\"inGreek。Hemeanseverything。\"
\"Don’tforget,\"saidtheSecretary,lookingdown,\"thathealsomeansPanic。\"
Symehadstoodwithouthearinganyoftheexclamations。
\"Itfelloverthere,\"hesaidshortly。\"Letusfollowit!\"
Thenheaddedwithanindescribablegesture——
\"Oh,ifhehascheatedusallbygettingkilled!Itwouldbelikeoneofhislarks。\"
Hestrodeofftowardsthedistanttreeswithanewenergy,hisragsandribbonsflutteringinthewind。Theothersfollowedhiminamorefootsoreanddubiousmanner。Andalmostatthesamemomentallsixmenrealisedthattheywerenotaloneinthelittlefield。
Acrossthesquareofturfatallmanwasadvancingtowardsthem,leaningonastrangelongstafflikeasceptre。Hewascladinafinebutold—fashionedsuitwithknee—breeches;itscolourwasthatshadebetweenblue,violetandgreywhichcanbeseenincertainshadowsofthewoodland。Hishairwaswhitishgrey,andatthefirstglance,takenalongwithhisknee—breeches,lookedasifitwaspowdered。Hisadvancewasveryquiet;butforthesilverfrostuponhishead,hemighthavebeenonetotheshadowsofthewood。
\"Gentlemen,\"hesaid,\"mymasterhasacarriagewaitingforyouintheroadjustby。\"
\"Whoisyourmaster?\"askedSyme,standingquitestill。
\"Iwastoldyouknewhisname,\"saidthemanrespectfully。
Therewasasilence,andthentheSecretarysaid——
\"Whereisthiscarriage?\"
\"Ithasbeenwaitingonlyafewmoments,\"saidthestranger。\"Mymasterhasonlyjustcomehome。\"
Symelookedleftandrightuponthepatchofgreenfieldinwhichhefoundhimself。Thehedgeswereordinaryhedges,thetreesseemedordinarytrees;yethefeltlikeamanentrappedinfairyland。
Helookedthemysteriousambassadorupanddown,buthecoulddiscovernothingexceptthattheman’scoatwastheexactcolourofthepurpleshadows,andthattheman’sfacewastheexactcolouroftheredandbrownandgoldensky。
\"Showustheplace,\"Symesaidbriefly,andwithoutawordthemaninthevioletcoatturnedhisbackandwalkedtowardsagapinthehedge,whichletinsuddenlythelightofawhiteroad。
Asthesixwanderersbrokeoutuponthisthoroughfare,theysawthewhiteroadblockedbywhatlookedlikealongrowofcarriages,sucharowofcarriagesasmightclosetheapproachtosomehouseinParkLane。Alongthesideofthesecarriagesstoodarankofsplendidservants,alldressedinthegrey—blueuniform,andallhavingacertainqualityofstatelinessandfreedomwhichwouldnotcommonlybelongtotheservantsofagentleman,butrathertotheofficialsandambassadorsofagreatking。Therewerenolessthansixcarriageswaiting,oneforeachofthetatteredandmiserableband。Alltheattendants(asifincourt—dress)woreswords,andaseachmancrawledintohiscarriagetheydrewthem,andsalutedwithasuddenblazeofsteel。
\"Whatcanitallmean?\"askedBullofSymeastheyseparated。\"IsthisanotherjokeofSunday’s?\"
\"Idon’tknow,\"saidSymeashesankwearilybackinthecushionsofhiscarriage;\"butifitis,it’soneofthejokesyoutalkabout。It’sagood—naturedone。\"
Thesixadventurershadpassedthroughmanyadventures,butnotonehadcarriedthemsoutterlyofftheirfeetasthislastadventureofcomfort。Theyhadallbecomeinuredtothingsgoingroughly;butthingssuddenlygoingsmoothlyswampedthem。Theycouldnotevenfeeblyimaginewhatthecarriageswere;itwasenoughforthemtoknowthattheywerecarriages,andcarriageswithcushions。Theycouldnotconceivewhotheoldmanwaswhohadledthem;butitwasquiteenoughthathehadcertainlyledthemtothecarriages。
Symedrovethroughadriftingdarknessoftreesinutterabandonment。Itwastypicalofhimthatwhilehehadcarriedhisbeardedchinforwardfiercelysolongasanythingcouldbedone,whenthewholebusinesswastakenoutofhishandshefellbackonthecushionsinafrankcollapse。
Verygraduallyandveryvaguelyherealisedintowhatrichroadsthecarriagewascarryinghim。Hesawthattheypassedthestonegatesofwhatmighthavebeenapark,thattheybegangraduallytoclimbahillwhich,whilewoodedonbothsides,wassomewhatmoreorderlythanaforest。Thentherebegantogrowuponhim,asuponamanslowlywakingfromahealthysleep,apleasureineverything。
Hefeltthatthehedgeswerewhathedgesshouldbe,livingwalls;
thatahedgeislikeahumanarmy,disciplined,butallthemorealive。Hesawhighelmsbehindthehedges,andvaguelythoughthowhappyboyswouldbeclimbingthere。Thenhiscarriagetookaturnofthepath,andhesawsuddenlyandquietly,likealong,low,sunsetcloud,along,lowhouse,mellowinthemildlightofsunset。Allthesixfriendscomparednotesafterwardsandquarrelled;buttheyallagreedthatinsomeunaccountablewaytheplaceremindedthemoftheirboyhood。Itwaseitherthiselm—toporthatcrookedpath,itwaseitherthisscrapoforchardorthatshapeofawindow;buteachmanofthemdeclaredthathecouldrememberthisplacebeforehecouldrememberhismother。
Whenthecarriageseventuallyrolleduptoalarge,low,cavernousgateway,anothermaninthesameuniform,butwearingasilverstaronthegreybreastofhiscoat,cameouttomeetthem。ThisimpressivepersonsaidtothebewilderedSyme——
\"Refreshmentsareprovidedforyouinyourroom。\"
Syme,undertheinfluenceofthesamemesmericsleepofamazement,wentupthelargeoakenstairsaftertherespectfulattendant。Heenteredasplendidsuiteofapartmentsthatseemedtobedesignedspeciallyforhim。Hewalkeduptoalongmirrorwiththeordinaryinstinctofhisclass,topullhistiestraightortosmoothhishair;andtherehesawthefrightfulfigurethathewas——bloodrunningdownhisfacefromwheretheboughhadstruckhim,hishairstandingoutlikeyellowragsofrankgrass,hisclothestornintolong,waveringtatters。Atoncethewholeenigmasprangup,simplyasthequestionofhowhehadgotthere,andhowhewastogetoutagain。Exactlyatthesamemomentamaninblue,whohadbeenappointedashisvalet,saidverysolemnly——
\"Ihaveputoutyourclothes,sir。\"
\"Clothes!\"saidSymesardonically。\"Ihavenoclothesexceptthese,\"andheliftedtwolongstripsofhisfrock—coatinfascinatingfestoons,andmadeamovementasiftotwirllikeaballetgirl。
\"Mymasterasksmetosay,\"saidtheattendant,thatthereisafancydressballtonight,andthathedesiresyoutoputonthecostumethatIhavelaidout。Meanwhile,sir,thereisabottleofBurgundyandsomecoldpheasant,whichhehopesyouwillnotrefuse,asitissomehoursbeforesupper。\"
\"Coldpheasantisagoodthing,\"saidSymereflectively,\"andBurgundyisaspankinggoodthing。ButreallyIdonotwanteitherofthemsomuchasIwanttoknowwhatthedevilallthismeans,andwhatsortofcostumeyouhavegotlaidoutforme。Whereisit?\"
Theservantliftedoffakindofottomanalongpeacock—bluedrapery,ratherofthenatureofadomino,onthefrontofwhichwasemblazonedalargegoldensun,andwhichwassplashedhereandtherewithflamingstarsandcrescents。
\"You’retobedressedasThursday,sir,\"saidthevaletsomewhataffably。
\"DressedasThursday!\"saidSymeinmeditation。\"Itdoesn’tsoundawarmcostume。\"
\"Oh,yes,sir,\"saidtheothereagerly,\"theThursdaycostumeisquitewarm,sir。Itfastensuptothechin。\"
\"Well,Idon’tunderstandanything,\"saidSyme,sighing。\"Ihavebeenusedsolongtouncomfortableadventuresthatcomfortableadventuresknockmeout。Still,ImaybeallowedtoaskwhyI
shouldbeparticularlylikeThursdayinagreenfrockspottedalloverwiththesunandmoon。Thoseorbs,Ithink,shineonotherdays。IoncesawthemoononTuesday,Iremember。\"
\"Begpardon,sir,\"saidthevalet,\"Biblealsoprovidedforyou,\"
andwitharespectfulandrigidfingerhepointedoutapassageinthefirstchapterofGenesis。Symereaditwondering。Itwasthatinwhichthefourthdayoftheweekisassociatedwiththecreationofthesunandmoon。Here,however,theyreckonedfromaChristianSunday。
\"Thisisgettingwilderandwilder,\"saidSyme,ashesatdowninachair。\"WhoarethesepeoplewhoprovidecoldpheasantandBurgundy,andgreenclothesandBibles?Dotheyprovideeverything?\"
\"Yes,sir,everything,\"saidtheattendantgravely。\"ShallIhelpyouonwithyourcostume?\"
\"Oh,hitchtheballythingon!\"saidSymeimpatiently。
Butthoughheaffectedtodespisethemummery,hefeltacuriousfreedomandnaturalnessinhismovementsastheblueandgoldgarmentfellabouthim;andwhenhefoundthathehadtowearasword,itstirredaboyishdream。Ashepassedoutoftheroomheflungthefoldsacrosshisshoulderwithagesture,hisswordstoodoutatanangle,andhehadalltheswaggerofatroubadour。
Forthesedisguisesdidnotdisguise,butreveal。
CHAPTERXV
THEACCUSER
ASSymestrodealongthecorridorhesawtheSecretarystandingatthetopofagreatflightofstairs。Themanhadneverlookedsonoble。Hewasdrapedinalongrobeofstarlessblack,downthecentreofwhichfellabandorbroadstripeofpurewhite,likeasingleshaftoflight。Thewholelookedlikesomeverysevereecclesiasticalvestment。TherewasnoneedforSymetosearchhismemoryortheBibleinordertorememberthatthefirstdayofcreationmarkedthemerecreationoflightoutofdarkness。Thevestmentitselfwouldalonehavesuggestedthesymbol;andSymefeltalsohowperfectlythispatternofpurewhiteandblackexpressedthesoulofthepaleandaustereSecretary,withhisinhumanveracityandhiscoldfrenzy,whichmadehimsoeasilymakewarontheanarchists,andyetsoeasilypassforoneofthem。Symewasscarcelysurprisedtonoticethat,amidalltheeaseandhospitalityoftheirnewsurroundings,thisman’seyeswerestillstern。NosmellofaleororchardscouldmaketheSecretaryceasetoaskareasonablequestion。
IfSymehadbeenabletoseehimself,hewouldhaverealisedthathe,too,seemedtobeforthefirsttimehimselfandnooneelse。
ForiftheSecretarystoodforthatphilosopherwholovestheoriginalandformlesslight,Symewasatypeofthepoetwhoseeksalwaystomakethelightinspecialshapes,tosplititupintosunandstar。Thephilosophermaysometimeslovetheinfinite;thepoetalwayslovesthefinite。Forhimthegreatmomentisnotthecreationoflight,butthecreationofthesunandmoon。
AstheydescendedthebroadstairstogethertheyovertookRatcliffe,whowascladinspringgreenlikeahuntsman,andthepatternuponwhosegarmentwasagreentangleoftrees。Forhestoodforthatthirddayonwhichtheearthandgreenthingsweremade,andhissquare,sensibleface,withitsnotunfriendlycynicism,seemedappropriateenoughtoit。
TheywereledoutofanotherbroadandlowgatewayintoaverylargeoldEnglishgarden,fulloftorchesandbonfires,bythebrokenlightofwhichavastcarnivalofpeopleweredancinginmotleydress。SymeseemedtoseeeveryshapeinNatureimitatedinsomecrazycostume。Therewasamandressedasawindmillwithenormoussails,amandressedasanelephant,amandressedasaballoon;thetwolast,together,seemedtokeepthethreadoftheirfarcicaladventures。Symeevensaw,withaqueerthrill,onedancerdressedlikeanenormoushornbill,withabeaktwiceasbigashimself——thequeerbirdwhichhadfixeditselfonhisfancylikealivingquestionwhilehewasrushingdownthelongroadattheZoologicalGardens。Therewereathousandothersuchobjects,however。Therewasadancinglamp—post,adancingappletree,adancingship。Onewouldhavethoughtthattheuntamabletuneofsomemadmusicianhadsetallthecommonobjectsoffieldandstreetdancinganeternaljig。Andlongafterwards,whenSymewasmiddle—agedandatrest,hecouldneverseeoneofthoseparticularobjects——alamppost,oranappletree,orawindmill——
withoutthinkingthatitwasastrayedrevellerfromthatrevelofmasquerade。
Ononesideofthislawn,alivewithdancers,wasasortofgreenbank,liketheterraceinsuchold—fashionedgardens。
Alongthis,inakindofcrescent,stoodsevengreatchairs,thethronesofthesevendays。GogolandDr。Bullwerealreadyintheirseats;theProfessorwasjustmountingtohis。Gogol,orTuesday,hadhissimplicitywellsymbolisedbyadressdesigneduponthedivisionofthewaters,adressthatseparateduponhisforeheadandfelltohisfeet,greyandsilver,likeasheetofrain。TheProfessor,whosedaywasthatonwhichthebirdsandfishes——theruderformsoflife——werecreated,hadadressofdimpurple,overwhichsprawledgoggle—eyedfishesandoutrageoustropicalbirds,theunioninhimofunfathomablefancyandofdoubt。Dr。Bull,thelastdayofCreation,woreacoatcoveredwithheraldicanimalsinredandgold,andonhiscrestamanrampant。Helaybackinhischairwithabroadsmile,thepictureofanoptimistinhiselement。
Onebyonethewanderersascendedthebankandsatintheirstrangeseats。Aseachofthemsatdownaroarofenthusiasmrosefromthecarnival,suchasthatwithwhichcrowdsreceivekings。
Cupswereclashedandtorchesshaken,andfeatheredhatsflungintheair。Themenforwhomthesethroneswerereservedweremencrownedwithsomeextraordinarylaurels。Butthecentralchairwasempty。
SymewasonthelefthandofitandtheSecretaryontheright。
TheSecretarylookedacrosstheemptythroneatSyme,andsaid,compressinghislips——
\"Wedonotknowyetthatheisnotdeadinafield。\"
AlmostasSymeheardthewords,hesawontheseaofhumanfacesinfrontofhimafrightfulandbeautifulalteration,asifheavenhadopenedbehindhishead。ButSundayhadonlypassedsilentlyalongthefrontlikeashadow,andhadsatinthecentralseat。Hewasdrapedplainly,inapureandterriblewhite,andhishairwaslikeasilverflameonhisforehead。
Foralongtime——itseemedforhours——thathugemasqueradeofmankindswayedandstampedinfrontofthemtomarchingandexultantmusic。Everycoupledancingseemedaseparateromance;
itmightbeafairydancingwithapillar—box,orapeasantgirldancingwiththemoon;butineachcaseitwas,somehow,asabsurdasAliceinWonderland,yetasgraveandkindasalovestory。Atlast,however,thethickcrowdbegantothinitself。
Couplesstrolledawayintothegarden—walks,orbegantodrifttowardsthatendofthebuildingwherestoodsmoking,inhugepotslikefish—kettles,somehotandscentedmixturesofoldaleorwine。Aboveallthese,uponasortofblackframeworkontheroofofthehouse,roaredinitsironbasketagiganticbonfire,whichlitupthelandformiles。Itflungthehomelyeffectoffirelightoverthefaceofvastforestsofgreyorbrown,anditseemedtofillwithwarmtheventheemptinessofuppernight。
Yetthisalso,afteratime,wasallowedtogrowfainter;thedimgroupsgatheredmoreandmoreroundthegreatcauldrons,orpassed,laughingandclattering,intotheinnerpassagesofthatancienthouse。Soontherewereonlysometenloiterersinthegarden;soononlyfour。Finallythelaststraymerry—makerranintothehousewhoopingtohiscompanions。Thefirefaded,andtheslow,strongstarscameout。Andthesevenstrangemenwereleftalone,likesevenstonestatuesontheirchairsofstone。
Notoneofthemhadspokenaword。
Theyseemedinnohastetodoso,butheardinsilencethehumofinsectsandthedistantsongofonebird。ThenSundayspoke,butsodreamilythathemighthavebeencontinuingaconversationratherthanbeginningone。
\"Wewilleatanddrinklater,\"hesaid。\"Letusremaintogetheralittle,wewhohavelovedeachothersosadly,andhavefoughtsolong。Iseemtorememberonlycenturiesofheroicwar,inwhichyouwerealwaysheroes——epiconepic,iliadoniliad,andyoualwaysbrothersinarms。Whetheritwasbutrecently(fortimeisnothing),oratthebeginningoftheworld,Isentyououttowar。Isatinthedarkness,wherethereisnotanycreatedthing,andtoyouIwasonlyavoicecommandingvalourandanunnaturalvirtue。Youheardthevoiceinthedark,andyouneverhearditagain。Thesuninheavendeniedit,theearthandskydeniedit,allhumanwisdomdeniedit。AndwhenImetyouinthedaylightI
denieditmyself。\"
Symestirredsharplyinhisseat,butotherwisetherewassilence,andtheincomprehensiblewenton。
\"Butyouweremen。Youdidnotforgetyoursecrethonour,thoughthewholecosmosturnedanengineoftorturetotearitoutofyou。Iknewhownearyouweretohell。Iknowhowyou,Thursday,crossedswordswithKingSatan,andhowyou,Wednesday,namedmeinthehourwithouthope。\"
Therewascompletesilenceinthestarlitgarden,andthentheblack—browedSecretary,implacable,turnedinhischairtowardsSunday,andsaidinaharshvoice——
\"Whoandwhatareyou?\"
\"IamtheSabbath,\"saidtheotherwithoutmoving。\"IamthepeaceofGod。\"
TheSecretarystartedup,andstoodcrushinghiscostlyrobeinhishand。
\"Iknowwhatyoumean,\"hecried,\"anditisexactlythatthatI
cannotforgiveyou。Iknowyouarecontentment,optimism,whatdotheycallthething,anultimatereconciliation。Well,Iamnotreconciled。Ifyouwerethemaninthedarkroom,whywereyoualsoSunday,anoffensetothesunlight?Ifyouwerefromthefirstourfatherandourfriend,whywereyoualsoourgreatestenemy?Wewept,wefledinterror;theironenteredintooursouls——andyouarethepeaceofGod!Oh,IcanforgiveGodHisanger,thoughitdestroyednations;butIcannotforgiveHimHispeace。\"
Sundayanswerednotaword,butveryslowlyheturnedhisfaceofstoneuponSymeasifaskingaquestion。
\"No,\"saidSyme,\"Idonotfeelfiercelikethat。Iamgratefultoyou,notonlyforwineandhospitalityhere,butformanyafinescamperandfreefight。ButIshouldliketoknow。Mysoulandheartareashappyandquiethereasthisoldgarden,butmyreasonisstillcryingout。Ishouldliketoknow。\"
SundaylookedatRatcliffe,whoseclearvoicesaid——
\"Itseemssosillythatyoushouldhavebeenonbothsidesandfoughtyourself。\"
Bullsaid——
\"lunderstandnothing,butIamhappy。Infact,Iamgoingtosleep。\"
\"Iamnothappy,\"saidtheProfessorwithhisheadinhishands,\"becauseIdonotunderstand。Youletmestrayalittletooneartohell。\"
AndthenGogolsaid,withtheabsolutesimplicityofachild——
\"IwishIknewwhyIwashurtsomuch。\"
StillSundaysaidnothing,butonlysatwithhismightychinuponhishand,andgazedatthedistance。Thenatlasthesaid——
\"Ihaveheardyourcomplaintsinorder。Andhere,Ithink,comesanothertocomplain,andwewillhearhimalso。\"
Thefallingfireinthegreatcressetthrewalastlonggleam,likeabarofburninggold,acrossthedimgrass。Againstthisfierybandwasoutlinedinutterblacktheadvancinglegsofablack—cladfigure。Heseemedtohaveafineclosesuitwithknee—breechessuchasthatwhichwaswornbytheservantsofthehouse,onlythatitwasnotblue,butofthisabsolutesable。Hehad,liketheservants,akindofwordbyhisside。Itwasonlywhenhehadcomequiteclosetothecrescentofthesevenandflunguphisfacetolookatthem,thatSymesaw,withthunder—struckclearness,thatthefacewasthebroad,almostape—likefaceofhisoldfriendGregory,withitsrankredhairanditsinsultingsmile。
\"Gregory!\"gaspedSyme,half—risingfromhisseat。\"Why,thisistherealanarchist!\"
\"Yes,\"saidGregory,withagreatanddangerousrestraint,\"Iamtherealanarchist。\"
\"’Nowtherewasaday,’\"murmuredBull,whoseemedreallytohavefallenasleep,\"’whenthesonsofGodcametopresentthemselvesbeforetheLord,andSatancamealsoamongthem。’\"
\"Youareright,\"saidGregory,andgazedallround。\"Iamadestroyer。IwoulddestroytheworldifIcould。\"
AsenseofapathosfarundertheearthstirredupinSyme,andhespokebrokenlyandwithoutsequence。
\"Oh,mostunhappyman,\"hecried,\"trytobehappy!Youhaveredhairlikeyoursister。\"
\"Myredhair,likeredflames,shallburnuptheworld,\"saidGregory。\"IthoughtIhatedeverythingmorethancommonmencanhateanything;butIfindthatIdonothateeverythingsomuchasIhateyou!\"
\"Ineverhatedyou,\"saidSymeverysadly。
Thenoutofthisunintelligiblecreaturethelastthundersbroke。
\"You!\"hecried。\"Youneverhatedbecauseyouneverlived。Iknowwhatyouareallofyou,fromfirsttolast——youarethepeopleinpower!Youarethepolice——thegreatfat,smilingmeninblueandbuttons!YouaretheLaw,andyouhaveneverbeenbroken。Butisthereafreesoulalivethatdoesnotlongtobreakyou,onlybecauseyouhaveneverbeenbroken?WeinrevolttalkallkindofnonsensedoubtlessaboutthiscrimeorthatcrimeoftheGovernment。Itisallfolly!TheonlycrimeoftheGovernmentisthatitgoverns。Theunpardonablesinofthesupremepoweristhatitissupreme。Idonotcurseyouforbeingcruel。Idonotcurseyou(thoughImight)forbeingkind。Icurseyouforbeingsafe!Yousitinyourchairsofstone,andhavenevercomedownfromthem。Youarethesevenangelsofheaven,andyouhavehadnotroubles。Oh,Icouldforgiveyoueverything,youthatruleallmankind,ifIcouldfeelforoncethatyouhadsufferedforonehourarealagonysuchasI——\"
Symesprangtohisfeet,shakingfromheadtofoot。
\"Iseeeverything,\"hecried,\"everythingthatthereis。Whydoeseachthingontheearthwaragainsteachotherthing?Whydoeseachsmallthingintheworldhavetofightagainsttheworlditself?Whydoesaflyhavetofightthewholeuniverse?Whydoesadandelionhavetofightthewholeuniverse?ForthesamereasonthatIhadtobealoneinthedreadfulCounciloftheDays。Sothateachthingthatobeyslawmayhavethegloryandisolationoftheanarchist。Sothateachmanfightingforordermaybeasbraveandgoodamanasthedynamiter。SothatthereallieofSatanmaybeflungbackinthefaceofthisblasphemer,sothatbytearsandtorturewemayearntherighttosaytothisman,’Youlie!’Noagoniescanbetoogreattobuytherighttosaytothisaccuser,’Wealsohavesuffered。’
\"Itisnottruethatwehaveneverbeenbroken。Wehavebeenbrokenuponthewheel。Itisnottruethatwehaveneverdescendedfromthesethrones。Wehavedescendedintohell。Wewerecomplainingofunforgettablemiseriesevenattheverymomentwhenthismanenteredinsolentlytoaccuseusofhappiness。Irepeltheslander;
wehavenotbeenhappy。IcananswerforeveryoneofthegreatguardsofLawwhomhehasaccused。Atleast——\"
HehadturnedhiseyessoastoseesuddenlythegreatfaceofSunday,whichworeastrangesmile。
\"Haveyou,\"hecriedinadreadfulvoice,\"haveyoueversuffered?\"
Ashegazed,thegreatfacegrewtoanawfulsize,grewlargerthanthecolossalmaskofMemnon,whichhadmadehimscreamasachild。
Itgrewlargerandlarger,fillingthewholesky;theneverythingwentblack。Onlyintheblacknessbeforeitentirelydestroyedhisbrainheseemedtohearadistantvoicesayingacommonplacetextthathehadheardsomewhere,\"CanyedrinkofthecupthatIdrinkof?\"
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Whenmeninbooksawakefromavision,theycommonlyfindthemselvesinsomeplaceinwhichtheymighthavefallenasleep;
theyyawninachair,orliftthemselveswithbruisedlimbsfromafield。Syme’sexperiencewassomethingmuchmorepsychologicallystrangeiftherewasindeedanythingunreal,intheearthlysense,aboutthethingshehadgonethrough。ForwhilehecouldalwaysrememberafterwardsthathehadswoonedbeforethefaceofSunday,hecouldnotrememberhavingevercometoatall。Hecouldonlyrememberthatgraduallyandnaturallyheknewthathewasandhadbeenwalkingalongacountrylanewithaneasyandconversationalcompanion。Thatcompanionhadbeenapartofhisrecentdrama;itwasthered—hairedpoetGregory。Theywerewalkinglikeoldfriends,andwereinthemiddleofaconversationaboutsometriviality。ButSymecouldonlyfeelanunnaturalbuoyancyinhisbodyandacrystalsimplicityinhismindthatseemedtobesuperiortoeverythingthathesaidordid。Hefelthewasinpossessionofsomeimpossiblegoodnews,whichmadeeveryotherthingatriviality,butanadorabletriviality。
Dawnwasbreakingovereverythingincoloursatonceclearandtimid;asifNaturemadeafirstattemptatyellowandafirstattemptatrose。Abreezeblewsocleanandsweet,thatonecouldnotthinkthatitblewfromthesky;itblewratherthroughsomeholeinthesky。Symefeltasimplesurprisewhenhesawrisingallroundhimonbothsidesoftheroadthered,irregularbuildingsofSaffronPark。HehadnoideathathehadwalkedsonearLondon。Hewalkedbyinstinctalongonewhiteroad,onwhichearlybirdshoppedandsang,andfoundhimselfoutsideafencedgarden。TherehesawthesisterofGregory,thegirlwiththegold—redhair,cuttinglilacbeforebreakfast,withthegreatunconsciousgravityofagirl。