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heasked,withpainedanxiety。——‘Who——split?’hissedBelfast,comingbackastep。‘IwouldsplityournosethisminytifIhadn’tJimmytolookafter!Whod’yethinkweare?’DonkinroseandwatchedBelfast’sbacklurchthroughthedoorway。Onallsidesmenslept,breathingcalmly。Heseemedtodrawcourageandfuryfromthepeacearoundhim。Venomousandthin—faced,heglaredfromtheamplemisfitofborrowedclothesasiflookingforsomethinghecouldsmash。Hisheartleapedwildlyinhisnarrowchest。Theyslept!Hewantedtowringnecks,gougeeyes,spitonfaces。Heshookadirtypairofmeagrefistsatthesmokinglights。‘Ye’renomen!’hecried,inadeadenedtone。Noonemoved。‘Yer’aven’tthepluckofamouse!’

Hisvoicerosetoahuskyscreech。Wamiboblinked,uncomprehendingbutinterested。Donkinsatdownheavily;heblewwithforcethroughquiveringnostrils,hegroundandsnappedhisteeth,and,withthechinpressedhardagainstthebreast,heseemedbusygnawinghiswaythroughit,asiftogetattheheartwithin……

Inthemorningtheship,beginninganotherdayofherwanderinglife,hadanaspectofsumptuousfreshness,likethespring—timeoftheearth。Thewasheddecksglistenedinalongclearstretch;theobliquesunlightstrucktheyellowbrassesindazzlingsplashes,dartedoverthepolishedrodsinlinesofgold,andthesingledropsofsaltwaterforgottenhereandtherealongtherailwereaslimpidasdropsofdew,andsparkledmorethanscattereddiamonds。Thesailsslepthushedbyagentlebreeze。

Thesun,risinglonelyandsplendidinthebluesky,sawasolitaryshipglidingclose—hauledonthebluesea。

Themenpressedthreedeepabreastofthemainmastandoppositethecabin—door。Theyshuffled,pushed,hadanirresolutemienandstolidfaces。AteveryslightmovementKnowleslurchedheavilyonhisshortleg。Donkinglidedbehindbacks,restlessandanxious,likeamanlookingforanambush。CaptainAllistouncameoutsuddenly。Hewalkedtoandfrobeforethefront。Hewasgrey,slight,alert,shabbyinthesunshine,andashardasadamant。Hehadhisrighthandintheside—pocketofhisjacket,andalsosomethingheavyintherethatmadefoldsalldownthatside。Oneoftheseamenclearedhisthroatominously。——‘Ihaven’ttillnowfoundfaultwithyoumen,’saidthemaster,stoppingshort。Hefacedthemwithhisworn,steelygaze,thatbyanuniversalillusionlookedstraightintoeveryindividualpairofthetwentypairsofeyesbeforehisface。Athisback,Mr。baker,bloomyandbull—necked,gruntedlow;Mr。Creighton,freshaspaint,hadrosycheeksandaready,resolutebearing。‘AndIdon’tnow,’continuedthemaster;‘butIamheretodrivethisshipandkeepeveryman—jackaboardofheruptothemark。IfyouknewyourworkaswellasIdomine,therewouldbenotrouble。You’vebeenbrayinginthedarkabout\"Seeto—morrowmorning!\"

Well,youseemenow。Whatdoyouwant?’Hewaited,steppingquicklytoandfro,givingthemsearchingglances。Whatdidtheywant?

Jimmywasforgotten;noonethoughtofhim,aloneforwardinhiscabin,fightinggreatshadows,clingingtobrazenlies,chucklingpainfullyoverhistransparentdeceptions。No,notJimmy;hewasmoreforgottenthanifhehadbeendead。Theywantedgreatthings。AndsuddenlyallthesimplewordstheyknewseemedtobelostforeverPage99

intheimmensityoftheirvagueandburningdesire。Theyknewwhattheywanted,buttheycouldnotfindanythingworthsaying。Theystirredononespot,swinging,attheendofmusculararms,bigtarryhandswithcrookedfingers。Amurmurdiedout。——‘Whatisit——food?’

askedthemaster,‘youknowthestoreshadbeenspoiledofftheCape。’——‘Weknowthat,sir,’saidabeardedshell—backinthefrontrank——‘Worktoohard——eh?Toomuchforyourstrength?’heaskedagain。Therewasanoffendedsilence。

——‘Wedon’twanttogoshorthanded,sir,’beganatlastDaviesinawaveringvoice,‘andthis’ereblack——……

’——‘Enough!’criedthemaster。Hestoodscanningthemforamoment,thenwalkingafewstepsthiswayandthatbegantostormatthemcoldly,ingustsviolentandcuttinglikethegalesofthoseicyseasthathadknownhisyouth。——‘Tellyouwhat’sthematter?Toobigforyourboots。Thinkyourselvesdamngoodmen。Knowhalfyourwork。Dohalfyourduty。Thinkittoomuch。Ifyoudidtentimesasmuchitwouldn’tbeenough。’——‘Wedidourbestbyher,sir,’criedsomeonewithshakyexasperation。——‘Yourbest,’stormedonthemaster;‘Youherealotonshore,don’tyou?Theydon’ttellyouthereyourbestisn’tmuchtoboastof。

Itellyou——yourbestisnobetterthanbad。Youcandonomore?No,Iknow,andsaynothing。ButyoustopyourcaperorIwillstopitforyou!Stopit!’Heshookafingeratthecrowd。‘Astothatman,’heraisedhisvoiceverymuch;‘astothatman,ifheputshisnoseoutondeckwithoutmyleaveIwillclaphiminirons。There!’Thecookheardhimforward,ranoutofthegalleyliftinghisarms,horrified,unbelieving,amazed,andraninagain。Therewasamomentofprofoundsilenceduringwhichabow—leggedseaman,steppingaside,expectorateddecorouslyintothescupper。‘Thereisanotherthing,’saidthemastercalmly。Hemadeaquickstrideandwithaswingtookanironbelaying—pinoutofhispocket。‘This!’

Hismovementwassounexpectedandsuddenthatthecrowdsteppedback。

Hegazedfixedlyattheirfaces,andsomeatonceputonasurprisedairasthoughtheyhadneverseenabelaying—pinbefore。Hehelditup。‘Thisismyaffair。Idon’taskyouanyquestions,butyouallknowit;ithasgottogowhereitcamefrom。’Hiseyesbecameangry。Thecrowdstirreduneasily。Theylookedawayfromthepieceofiron,theyappearedshy,theywerePage100

embarrassedandshockedasthoughithadbeensomethinghorrid,scandalous,orindelicate,thatincommondecencyshouldnothavebeenflourishedlikethisinbroaddaylight。Themasterwatchedthemattentively。‘Donkin,’

hecalledoutinashort,sharptone。

Donkindodgedbehindone,thenbehindanother,buttheylookedovertheirshouldersandmovedaside。Therankskeptonopeningbeforehim,closingbehind,tillatlastheappearedalonebeforethemasterasthoughhehadcomeupthroughthedeck。CaptainAllistounmovedclosetohim。Theyweremuchofasize,andatshortrangethemasterexchangedadeadlyglancewiththebeadyeyes。Theywavered,——‘Youknowthis,’askedthemaster。——‘No,Idon’t,’

answeredtheotherwithcheekytrepidation。——‘Youareacur。

Takeit,’orderedthemaster。Donkin’sarmsseemedgluedtohisthighs;hestood,eyesfront,asifdrawnonparade。‘Takeit,’

repeatedthemaster,andsteppedcloser;theybreathedononeanother。

‘Takeit,’saidCaptainAllistounagain,makingamenacinggesture。Donkintoreawayonearmfromhisside。——‘Vyhareyerdownhonme?’hemumbledwitheffortasifhismouthhadbeenfullofdough。——‘Ifyoudon’t……’beganthemaster。Donkinsnatchedatthepinasthoughhisintentionhadbeentorunawaywithit,andremainedstockstillholdingitlikeacandle。‘Putitbackwhereyoutookitfrom,’saidCaptainAllistoun,lookingathimfiercely。Donkinsteppedbackopeningwideeyes。‘Go,youblackguard,orIwillmakeyou,’criedthemaster,drivinghimslowlybackwardsbyamenacingadvance。Hedodged,andwiththedangerousirontriedtoguardhisheadfromathreateningfist。Mr。Bakerceasedgruntingforamoment。——‘Good!ByJove,’murmuredappreciativelyMr。Creightoninthetoneofaconnoisseur。——‘Don’ttechme,’snarledDonkin,backingaway。——‘Thengo。

Gofaster。’——‘Don’tyer’itme……Iwillpullyerhupaforethemagistryt……I’llshowyerhup。’CaptainAllistounmadealongstrideandDonkin,turninghisbackfairly,ranoffalittle,thenstoppedandoverhisshouldershowedyellowteeth。——‘Furtheron,fore—rigging,’urgedthemaster,pointingwithhisarm。——

‘Hareyergoin’tostandbyandseemebullied,’screamedDonkinatthesilentcrowdthatwatchedhim。CaptainAllistounwalkedathimsmartly。Hestartedoffagainwithaleap,dashedatthefore—rigging,Page101

rammedthepinintoitsholeviolently。‘Iwillbehevenwithyeryet,’hescreamedattheshipatlargeandvanishedbeyondtheforemast。CaptainAllistounspunroundandwalkedbackaftwithacomposedface,asthoughhehadalreadyforgottenthescene。Menmovedoutofhisway。Helookedatnoone。——‘Thatwilldo,Mr。Baker。

Sendthewatchbelow,’hesaidquietly。‘Andyoumentrytowalkstraightforthefuture,’headdedinacalmvoice。

Helookedpensivelyforawhileattheoftheimpressedandretreatingcrowd。‘Breakfast,steward,’hecalledinatoneofreliefthroughthecabindoor。——‘Ididn’tliketoseeyou——

Ough!——givethatpintothatchap,sir,’observedMr。Baker;

‘hecouldhavebust——Ough!——bustyourheadlikeaneggshellwithit。’——‘O!he!’mutteredthemasterabsently。‘Queerlot,’hewentoninalowvoice。‘I

supposeit’sallrightnow。Cannevertelltho’,nowadays,withsucha……yearsago;Iwasayoungmasterthen——oneChinavoyageIhadamutiny;realmutiny,Baker。Differentmentho’。Iknewwhattheywanted:theywantedtobroachcargoandgetattheliquor。Verysimple……Weknockedthemaboutfortwodays,andwhentheyhadenough——gentleaslambs。Goodcrew。

AndasmarttripImade。’Heglancedaloftattheyardsbracedsharpup。‘Headwinddayafterday,’heexclaimedbitterly。

‘Willwenevergetadecentslantthispassage?’——

‘Ready,sir,’saidthestewardappearingbeforethemasifbymagicandwithastainednapkininhishand。——‘Ah!

Allright。ComealongMr。Baker——it’slate——withallthisnonsense。’

chapter05Chapter5Aheavyatmosphereofoppressivequietudepervadedtheship。

Intheafternoonmenwentaboutwashingclothesandhangingthemouttodryintheunprosperousbreezewiththemeditativelanguageofdisenchantedphilosophers。Verylittlewassaid。Theproblemoflifeseemedtoovoluminousforthenarrowlimitsofhumanspeech,andbycommonconsentitwasabandonedtothegreatseathathadfromthebeginningenfoldeditinitsimmensegrip;totheseathatknewall,andwouldintimeinfalliblyunveiltoeachthewisdomhiddeninalltheerrors,thecertitudethatlurksindoubts,therealmofsafetyandpeacebeyondthefrontiersofsorrowandfear。

Andintheconfusedcurrentofimpotentthoughtsthatsetunceasinglythiswayandthatthroughbodiesofmen,Jimmybobbedupuponthesurface,compellingattention,likeablackbuoychainedtothebottomofamuddystream。Falsehoodtriumphed。Ittriumphedthroughdoubt,throughstupiditythroughpity,throughsentimentalism。Wesetourselvestobolsteritup,fromcompassionfromrecklessness,fromasenseoffun。Jimmy’ssteadfastnesstohisuntruthfulattitudeinthefaceoftheinevitabletruthhadtheproportionsofacolossalenigma——ofamanifestationgrandandincomprehensiblethatattimesinspiredawonderingawe;andtherewasalso,tomany,somethingexquisitelydrollinfoolinghimthustothetopofhisbent。ThelatentegoismoftendernesstosufferingappearedinthedevelopinganxietynottoseePage103

himdie。Hisobstinatenon—recognitionoftheonlycertitudewhoseapproachwecouldwatchfromdaytodaywasasdisquietingasthefailureofsomelawofnature。Hewassoutterlywrongabouthimselfthatonecouldnotbutsuspecthimofhavingaccesstosomesourceofsupernaturalknowledge。

Hewasabsurdtothepointofinspiration。Hewasunique,andasfascinatingasonlysomethinginhumancouldbe;heseemedtoshouthisdenialsalreadyfrombeyondtheawfulborder。Hewasbecomingimmateriallikeanapparition;

hischeekbonesrose,theforeheadslantedmore;thefacewasallhollows,patchesofshade;andthefleshlessheadresembledadisinterredblackskull,fittedwithtworestlessglobesofsilverinthesocketsofeyes。

Hewasdemoralising。Throughhimwewerebecominghighlyhumanised,tender,complex,excessivelydecadent:weunderstoodthesubtletyofhisfear,sympathisedwithallhisrepulsions,shrinkingsevasions,delusions——

asthoughwehadbeenover—civilised,androtten,andwithoutanyknowledgeofthemeaningoflife。Wehadtheairofbeinginitiatedinsomeinfamousmysteries;wehadtheprofoundgrimacesofconspirators,exchangedmeaningglances,significantshortwords。Wewereinexpressiblyvileandverymuchpleasedwithourselves。Weliedtohimwithgravity,withemotion,withunction,asifperformingsomemoraltrickwithaviewtoaneternalreward。

Wemadeachorusofaffirmationtohiswildestassertions,asthoughhehadbeenamillionaire,apolitician,orareformer——andweacrowdofambitiouslubbers。Whenweventuredtoquestionhisstatementswediditafterthemannerofobsequioussycophants。totheendthathisgloryshouldbeaugmentedbytheflatteryofourdissent。Heinfluencedthemoraltoneofourworldasthoughhehaditinhispowertodistributehonours,treasures,orpain;andhecouldgiveuanothingbuthiscontempt。Itwasimmense;

itseemedtogrowgraduallylarger,ashisbodydaybydayshrankalittlemore,whilewelooked。Itwastheonlythingabouthim——ofhim——thatgavetheimpressionofdurabilityandvigour。Itlivedwithinhimwithanunquenchablelife。Itspokethroughtheeternalpoutofhisblacklips;

itlookedatusthroughtheprofoundimpertinenceofhislargeeyes,thatstoodfaroutofhisheadliketheeyesofcrabs。Wewatchedthemintently。

Nothingelseofhimstirred。Heseemedunwillingtomove,asifdistrustfulofhisownsolidity。Theslightestgesturemusthavedisclosedtohim(itcouldnotsurelybeotherwise)hisbodilyweakness,andcausedapangofmentalsuffering。Hewascharyofmovements。Helaystretchedout,chinonblanket,inakindofsly,cautiousimmobility。Onlyhiseyesroamedoverfaces:hiseyesdisdainful,penetratingandsad。

ItwasatthattimethatBelfast’sdevotion——andalsohispugnacity——secureduniversalrespect。HespenteverymomentofhissparetimeinJimmy’scabin。Hetendedhim,talkedtohim;wasasgentleasawoman,astenderlygayasanoldphilanthropist,assentimentallycarefulofhisniggerasamodelslave—owner。Butoutsidehewasirritable,explosiveasgunpowder,sombre,suspicious,andnevermorebrutalthanwhenmostsorrowful。Withhimitwasatearandablow:atearforJimmy,ablowforanyonewhodidnotseemtotakeascrupulouslyorthodoxviewofJimmy’scase。Wetalkedaboutnothingelse。ThetwoScandinavians,even,discussedthesituation——butitwasimpossibletoknowinwhatspirit,becausetheyquarreledintheirownlanguage。Belfastsuspectedthemofirreverence,andinthisincertitudethoughtthattherewasnooptionbuttofightthemboth。Theybecameverymuchterrifiedbyhistruculence,andhenceforthlivedamongstus,dejected,likeapairofmutes。Wamiboneverspokeintelligibly,buthewasassmilelessasananimal——seemedtoknowmuchlessaboutitallthanthecat——andconsequentlywassafe。

MoreoverhehadbelongedtothechosenbandofJimmy’srescuers,andwasabovesuspicion。Archiewassilentgenerally,butoftenspentanhourorsotalkingtoJimmyquietlywithanairofproprietorship。AtanytimeofthedayandoftenthroughthenightsomemancouldbeseensittingonJimmy’sbox。Intheevening,betweensixandeight,thecabinwascrowded,andtherewasaninterestedgroupatthedoor。Everyonestaredatthenigger。

Hebaskedinthewarmthofourinterest。Hiseyesgleamedironically,andinaweakvoicehereproacheduswithourcowardice。Hewouldsay,‘IfyoufellowshadstuckoutformeIwouldbenowondeck。’Wehungourheads。‘Yes,butifyouthinkIamgoingtoletthemputmeinironsjusttoshowyousport……Well,no……Itruinsmyhealth,thislyingup,itdoes。Youdon’tcare。’

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abashedasifithadbeentrue。Hissuperbimpudencecarriedallbeforeit。Wewouldnothavedaredtorevolt。Wedidn’twanttoreally。Wewantedtokeephimalivetillhome——totheendofthevoyage。

Singletonasusualheldaloof,appearingtoscorntheinsignificanteventsofanendedlife。Onceonlyhecamealong,andunexpectedlystoppedinthedoorway。HepeeredatJimmyinprofoundsilence,asifdesiroustoaddthatblackimagetothecrowdofShadesthatpeopledhisoldmemory。

WekeptveryquietandforalongtimeSingletonstoodthereasthoughhehadcomebyappointmenttocallforsomeone,ortoseesomeimportantevent。JamesWaitlayperfectlystillandapparentlynotawareofthegazescrutinisinghimwithasteadinessfullofexpectation。Therewasasenseoftussleintheair。Wefelttheinwardstrainofmenwatchingawrestlingbout。AtlastJimmywithperceptibleapprehensionturnedhisheadonthepillow。——‘Goodevening,’hesaidinaconciliatingtone。——‘H’m,’answeredtheoldseaman,grumpily。

ForamomentlongerhelookedatJimmywithseverefixity,thensuddenlywentaway。Itwasalongtimebeforeanyonespokeinthelittlecabin,thoughweallbreathedmorefreelyasmendoafteranescapefromsomedangeroussituation。Weallknewtheoldman’sideasaboutJimmy,andnobodydaredtocombatthem。Theywereunsettlingtheycausedpain;and,whatwasworse,theymighthavebeentrueforallweknew。Onlyoncedidhecondescendtoexplainthemfully,buttheimpressionwaslasting。HesaidthatJimmywasthecauseofheadwinds。Mortallysickmen——hemaintained——lingertillthefirstsightofland,andthendie;andJimmyknewthatthelandwoulddrawhislifefromhim。Itissoineveryshi。Didn’tweknowit?Heaskeduswithausterecontempt:whatdidweknow?Whatwouldwedoubtnext?Jimmy’sdesireencouragedbyusandaidedbyWamibo’sspellsdelayedtheshipintheopensea。Onlylubberlyfoolscouldn’tseeit。

Whoeverheardofsucharunofcalmsandheadwinds?Itwasn’tnatural……

Wecouldnotdenythatitwasstrange。Wefeltuneasy。Thecommonsaying,‘moredays,moredollars,’didnotgivetheusualcomfortbecausethestoreswererunningshort。MuchhadbeenspoiledofftheCape,andwewereonhalfallowanceofbiscuit。Peas,sugarandteahadbeenfinishedPage106

longago。Saltmeatwasgivingout。Wehadplentyofcoffeebutverylittlewatertomakeitwith。Wetookupanotherholeinourbeltsandwentonscraping,polishing,paintingtheshipfrommorningtonight。Andsoonshelookedasthoughshehadcomeoutofaband—box;buthungerlivedonboardofher。Notdeadstarvation,butsteady,livinghungerthatstalkedaboutonthedecks,sleptintheforecastle;thetormentorofwakingmoments,thedisturberofdreams。Welookedtowindwardforsignsofchange。Everyfewhoursofnightanddayweputherroundwiththehopethatshewouldcomeuponthattackatlast!Shedidn’t。Sheseemedtohaveforgottenthewayhome;sherushedtoandfro,headingnorth—west,headingeast;

sheranbackwardsandforwards,distracted,likeatimidcreatureatthefootofawall。Sometimes,asiftiredtodeath,shewouldwallowlanguidlyforadayinthesmoothswellofanunruffledsea。Alluptotheswingingmaststhesailsthrashedfuriouslythroughthehotstillnessofthecalm。

Wewereweary,hungry,thirsty;wecommencedtobelieveSingleton,butwithunshakenfidelitydissembledtoJimmy。Wespoketohimwithjocoseallusiveness,likecheerfulaccomplicesinacleverplot;butwelookedtothewestwardovertherailwithmournfuleyesforasignofhope,forasignoffairwind;evenifitsfirstbreathshouldbringdeathtoourreluctantJimmy。Invain!TheuniverseconspiredwithJamesWait。Lightairsfromthenorthwardsprungupagain;theskyremainedclear;androundourwearinesstheglitteringsea。touchedbythebreeze,baskedvoluptuouslyinthegreatsunshine,asthoughithadforgottenourlifeandtrouble。

Donkinlookedoutforafairwindalongwiththerest。

Nooneknewthevenomofhisthoughtsnow。Hewassilent,andappearedthinner,asifconsumedslowlybyaninwardrageattheinjusticeofmenandfate。Hewasignoredbyallandspoketonoone,buthishateforeverymanlookedoutthroughhiseyes。Hetalkedwiththecookonly,havingsomehowpersuadedthegoodmanthathe——Donkin——wasamuchcalumniatedandpersecutedperson。Togethertheybewailedtheimmoralityoftheship’scompany。Therecouldbenogreatercriminalsthanwe,whobyourliesconspiredtosendthesoulofapoorignorantblackmantoever—lastingperdition。

Podmorecookedwhattherewastocook,remorsefully,Page107

andfeltallthetimethatbypreparingthefoodofsuchsinnersheimperilledhisownsalvation。AstotheCaptain——hehadlivedwithhimforsevenyears,hesaid,andwouldnothavebelieveditpossiblethatsuchaman……‘Well。Well……Thereitis……Can’tgetoutofit。Judgmentcapsizedallinaminute……Struckinallhispride……Morelikeavisitationthananythingelse。’Donkin,perchedsullenlyonthecoal—locker,swunghislegsandconcurred。Hepaidinthecoinofspuriousassentfortheprivilegetositinthegalley;hewasdisheartenedandscandalised;heagreedwiththecook;couldfindnowordssevereenoughtocriticiseourconduct;andwhenintheheatofreprobationhesworeatus,Podmore,whowouldhavelikedtoswearalsoifithadn’tbeenforhisprinciples,pretendednottohear。SoDonkin,unrebuked,cursedenoughfortwo,cadgedformatches,borrowedtobacco,andloafedforhours,verymuchathomebeforethestove。Fromtherehecouldhearusontheothersideofthebulkhead,talkingtoJimmy。Thecookknockedthepotsabout,slammedtheovendoor,mutteredpropheciesofdamnationforalltheship’scompany;andDonkin,whodidnotadmitofanyhereafter,exceptforthepurposesofblasphemy,listened,concentratedandangry,gloatingfiercelyoveracalled—upimageofinfinitetorment——likemengloatovertheaccursedimagesofcrueltyandrevenge,ofgreed,andofpower……

Oncleareveningsthesilentship,underthecoldsheenofthedeadmoon,tookonthefalseaspectofpassionlessreposeresemblingthewinteroftheearth。Underheralongbandofgoldbarredtheblackdiscofthesea。Footstepsechoedonherquietdecks。Themoonlightclungtoherlikeafrostedmist,andthewhitesailsstoodoutindazzlingconesasofstainlesssnow。Inthemagnificenceofthephantomraystheshipappearedpurelikeavisionofidealbeauty,illusivelikeatenderdreamofserenepeace。Andnothinginherwasreal,nothingwasdistinctandsolidbuttheheavyshadowsthatfilledherdeckswiththeirunceasingandnoiselessstir;theshadowsblackerthanthenightandmorerestlessthanthethoughtsofmen。

Donkinprowledspitefulandaloneamongsttheshadows,thinkingthatJimmytoolongdelayedtodie。Thatevening,justbeforedark,landhadbeenreportedfromaloft,andthemaster,Page108

whileadjustingthetubesofthelongglass,hadobservedwithquietbitternesstoMr。Bakerthat,afterfightingourwayinchbyinchtotheWesternIslandstherewasnothingtoexpectnowbutaspellofcalm。Theskywasclearandthebarometerhigh。Thelightbreezedroppedwiththesun,andanenormousstillness,theforerunnerofanightwithoutwind,descendedupontheheatedwatersoftheocean。Aslongasdaylightlasted,thehandscollectedontheforecastle—headwatchedontheeasternskytheislandofFlores,thatroseabovethelevelexpanseoftheseawithirregularandbrokenoutlineslikeasombreruinuponavastanddesertedplain。

Itwasthefirstlandseenfornearlyfourmonths。Charleywasexcited,andinthemidstofgeneralindulgencetooklibertieswithhisbetters。

Menstrangelyelatedwithoutknowingwhy,talkedingroups,andpointedwithbaredarms。ForthefirsttimethatvoyageJimmy’sshamexistenceseemedforamomentforgotteninthefaceofasolidreality。Wehadgotsofaranyhow。Belfastdiscoursed,quotingimaginaryexamplesofshorthomewardpassagesfromtheIslands。‘Themsmartfruitschoonersdoitinfivedays,’heaffirmed。‘Whatdoyouwant?

——onlyagoodlittlebreeze。’Archiemaintainedthatsevendayswastheshortestpassage,andtheydisputedamicablywithinsultingwords。

Knowlesdeclaredhecouldalreadysmellhomefromthere,andwithaheavylistonhisshortleglaughedfittosplithissides。Agroupofgrizzledsea—dogslookedoutforatimeinsilenceandwithgrimabsorbedfaces。

Onesaidsuddenly——‘Tain’tfartoLondonnow。’——

‘Myfirstnightashore,blammeifIhaven’tsteakandonionsforsupper……andapintofbitter,’saidanother。——‘A

barrelyemean,’shoutedsomeone。——‘Haman’eggsthreetimesaday。That’sthewayIlive!’criedanexcitedvoice。

Therewasastir,appreciativemurmurs;eyesbegantoshine;jawschamped;

shortnervouslaughswereheard。Archiesmiledwithreservealltohimself。

Singletoncameup,gaveanegligentglance,andwentdownagainwithoutsayingaword,indifferent,likeamanwhohadseenFloresanincalculablenumberoftimes。ThenighttravellingfromtheEastblottedoutofthelimpidskythepurplestainofthehighland。‘Deadcalm,’

saidsomebodyquietly。Themurmuroflivelytalksuddenlywavered,diedout;theclustersbrokeup;menbegantodriftawayonebyone,descendingtheladdersslowlyandwithseriousfacesasifsoberedbythatreminderoftheirdependenceupontheinvisible。Andwhenthebigyellowmoonascendedgentlyabovethesharprimoftheclearhorizonitfoundtheshipwrappedupinabreathlesssilence;afearlessshipthatseemedtosleepprofoundly,dreamlessly,onthebosomofthesleepingandterriblesea。

Donkinchafedatthepeace——attheship——attheseathatstretchedawayonallsidesmergedintotheillimitablesilenceofallcreation。Hefelthimselfpulledupsharpbyunrecognisedgrievances。

Hehadbeenphysicallycowed,buthisinjureddignityremainedindomitabe,andnothingcouldhealhislaceratedfeelings。Herewaslandalready——

homeverysoon——abadpay—day——noclothes——morehardwork。Howoffensiveallthiswas。Land。Thelanddrawsawaylifefromsicksailors。Thatniggertherehadmoney——clothes——easytimes;andwouldnotdie。Landdrawslifeaway……Hefelttemptedtogoandseewhetheritdid。Perhapsalready……Itwouldbeabitofluck。Therewasmoneyinthebeggar’schest。Hesteppedbrisklyoutoftheshadowsintothemoonlight,and,instantly,hiscraving,hungryfacefromsallowbecamelivid。Heopenedthedoorofthecabinandhadashock。Sureenough,Jimmywasdead!Hemovednomorethanarecumbentfigurewithclaspedhands,carvedonthelidofastonecoffin。Donkinglaredwithavidity。ThenJimmy,withoutstirring,blinkedhiseyelids,andDonkinhadanothershock。Thoseeyeswereratherstartling。Heshutthedoorbehindhisbackwithgentlecare,lookingintentlythewhileatJamesWaitasthoughhehadcomeinthereatgreatrisktotellsomesecretofstartlingimportance。Jimmydidnotmovebutglancedlanguidlyoutofthecornersofhiseyes。‘Calm?’heasked。——‘Yuss,’

saidDonkin,verydisappointed,andsatdownonthebox。

Jimmybreathedwithcomposure。Hewasusetosuchvisitsatalltimesofnightorday。Mensucceededoneanother。Theyspokeinclearvoices,pronouncedcheerfulwords,repeatedoldjokes,listenedtohim;andeach,goingout,seemedtoleavebehindalittleofhisownvitality,surrendersomeofhisownstrength,renewtheassuranceoflife——theindestructablething!Hedidnotliketobealoneinhiscabin,because,whenhewasalone,itseemedtohimasifhehadn’tbeenthereatall。

Therewasnothing。Nopain。Notnow。Perfectlyright——buthecouldn’tenjoyhishealthfulreposeunlesssomeonewasbytoseeit。Thismanwoulddoasanybody。Donkinwatchedhimstealthily。——‘Soonhomenow,’observedWait。——‘Whyd’yerwhisper?’askedDonkinwithinterest,‘can’tyouspeakhupz?’Jimmylookedannoyedandsaidnothingforawhile;theninalifelessunringingvoice:——‘WhyshouldIshout?Youain’tdeafthatIknow。——‘Oh!Ican’earrightenough,’answeredDonkininalowtone,andlookeddown。

HewasthinkingsadlyofgoingoutwhenJimmyspokeagain。——‘Timewedidgethome……togetsomethingdecenttoeat……Iamalwayshungry。’

Donkinfeltangryallofasudden。——‘Whathaboutme,’

hehissed,‘Iam’ungrytooan’gotterwork。You,’ungry!——

‘Yourworkwon’tkillyou,’commentedWait,feebly;‘there’sacoupleofbiscuitsinthelowerbunkthere——youmayhaveone。Ican’teatthem。’Donkindivedin,gropedinthecornerandwhenhecameupagainhismouthwasfull。Hemunchedwithardour。Jimmyseemedtodozewithopeneyes。Donkinfinishedhishardbreadandgotup。——‘You’renotgoing?askedJimmy,staringattheceiling。——‘No,’

saidDonkinimpulsively,andinsteadofgoingoutleanedhisbackagainstthecloseddoor。HelookedatJamesWait,andsawhimlong,lean,driedup,asthoughallhisfleshhadshrivelledonhisbonesintheheatofawhitefurnace;themeagrefingersofonehandmovedlightlyupontheedgeofthebunkplayinganendlesstune。Tolookathimwasirritatingandfatiguing;hecouldlastlikethisfordays;hewasoutrageous——belongingwhollyneithertodeathnorlife,andperfectlyinvulnerableinhisapparentignoranceofboth。Donkinfelttemptedtoenlightenhim。——‘Whathareyerthinkin’of?’heaskedsurlily。JamesWaithadagrimacingsmilethatpassedoverthedeathlikeimpassivenessofhisbonyface。incredibleandfrightfulaswould,inadream,havebeenthesuddensmileofacorpse。

‘Thereisagirl,’whisperedWait……‘CantonStreetgirl——ShechuckedathirdengineerofaRennieboat——forme。

CooksoystersjustasIlike……Shesays——shewouldchuck——anytoff——foracolouredgentleman……That’sme。Iamkindtowomen。’

headdedashadelouder。

Donkincouldhardlybelievehisears。Hewasscandalised。

——‘Wouldshe?Yerwouldn’tbehanygoodto’er,’hesaidwithunrestraineddisgust。Waitwasnottheretohearhim。HewasPage111

swaggeringuptheeastIndiaDockRoad;sayingkindly,‘Comealongforatreat。’pushingglassswing—doors,,posingwithsuperbassuranceinthegaslightaboveamahoganycounter。——‘D’yerthinkyerwillhevergetashore?’askedDonkinangrily。Waitcamebackwithastart。——‘Tendays,’hesaidpromptly,andreturnedatoncetotheregionsofmemorythatknownothingoftime。

Hefeltuntired,calm,andasifsafelywithdrawnwithinhimselfbeyondthereachofeverygraveincertitude。Therewassomethingoftheimmutablequalityofeternityintheslowmomentsofhiscompleterestfulness。Hewasveryquietandeasyamongsthisvividreminiscenceswhichhemistookjoyfullyforimagesofanundoubtedfuture。Hecaredfornoone。Donkinfeltthisvaguelylikeablindmanmayfeelinhisdarknessthefatalantagonismofallthesurroundingexistences,thattohimshallforeverremainirrealisable,unseenandenviable。Hehadadesiretoasserthisimportance,tobreak,tocrush;tobeevenwitheverybodyforeverything;toteartheveil,unmaskexpose,leavenorefuge——aperfidiousdesireoftruthfulness!Helaughedinamockingsplutterandsaid:

‘Tendays。StrikemeblindifIhever!……Youwillbedeadbythistimeto—morrowp’r’aps。Tendays!’Hewaitedforawhile。‘D’ye’earme?Blammeifyerdon’tlookdeadhalready。’

Jimmymusthavebeencollectinghisstrengthforhesaidalmostaloud——‘You’reastinking,cadgingliar。Everyoneknowsyou。’Andsittingup,againstallprobability,startledhisvisitorhorribly。ButverysoonDonkinrecoveredhimself。Heblustered,‘What?

What?Who’saliar?Youhare——thecrowdhare——theskipper——heverybody。

Ihaint!Puttingonhairs!who’syer?’Henearlychokedhimselfwithindignation。‘Who’syertoputonhairs,’herepeatedtrembling。‘’Aveone——’aveone,says’ee——an’cawn’theat’em’isself。NowI’ll’aveboth。ByGawd——Iwill!Yernobody!’

Heplungedintothelowerbunk,rootedinthereandbroughttolightanotherdustybiscuit。HehelditupbeforeJimmy——weethentookabitedefiantly。

‘Whatnow?’heaskedwithfeverishimpatience。‘Yermaytakeone——saysyer。Whynotgiv’meboth?

No。I’mamangydorg。Oneforamangydorg。I’lltykeboth。Canyerstopme?Try。Comeon。Try。’

Jimmywasclaspinghislegsandhidinghisfaceontheknees。Hisshirtclungtohim。Everyribwasvisible。Hisemaciatedbackwasshakeninrepeatedjerksbythepantingcatchesofhisbreath。

‘Yerwon’t?Yercan’t?WhatdidIsay?’

wentonDonkinfiercely。Heswallowedanotherdrymouthfulwithahastyeffort。Theother’ssilenthelplessness,hisweakness,hisshrinkingattitudeexasperatedhim。‘Ye’redone!’hecried。‘Who’syertobeliedto;tobewaitedon’andandfootlikeabloomin’hymperor。

Yernobody。Yernooneatall!’hesplutteredwithsuchastrengthofunerringconvictionthatitshookhimfromheadtofootincomingout,andlefthimvibratinglikeareleasedstring。

Jimmyralliedagain。HeliftedhisheadandturnedbravelyatDonkin,whosawastrangeface,anunknownface,afantasticandgrimacingmaskofdespairandfury。Itslipsmovedrapidly;andhollow,moaning,whistlingsoundsfilledthecabinwithavaguemutterfullofmenace,complaintanddesolation,likethefar—offmurmurofarisingwind。Waitshookhishead;rolledhiseyes;hedenied,cursed,menaced——andnotawordhadthestrengthtopassbeyondthesorrowfulpoutofthoseblacklips。Itwasincomprehensibleanddisturbing;agibberishofemotions,afranticdumbshowofspeechpleadingforimpossiblethings,threateningashadowyvengeance。ItsoberedDonkinintoascrutinisingwatchfulness。

‘Yercan’tholler。See?WhatdidItellyer?’

hesaidslowlyafteramomentofattentiveexamination。Theotherkeptonheadlongandunheard,noddingpassionately,grinningwithgrotesqueandappallingflashesofbigwhiteteeth。Donkin,asiffascinatedbythedumbeloquenceandangerofthatblackphantom,approached,stretchinghisneckoutwithdistrustfulcuriosity;anditseemedtohimsuddenlythathewaslookingonlyattheshadowofamancrouchinghighinthebunkonthelevelwithhiseyes。——‘What?What?’hesaid。

Heseemedtocatchtheshapeofsomewordsinthecontinuouspantinghiss。

‘YerwilltellBelfast!Willyer?Hareyerabloomin’kid?’

Hetrembledwithalarmandrage。‘Tellyergran’mother!Yerafeard!

Who’syerterbeafeardmore’nhanyone?’Hispassionatesenseofhisownimportanceranawaywithalastremnantofcaution。‘Tellan’bedamned!Tellifyercan!’hecried。‘I’vebeentreatedworse’nadorgbyyourbloomingback—lickers。They’assetmeon,honlytoturnagainstme,IhamthehonlymanPage113

’ere。Theychokedme,kickedme——an’yerlaffed——yerblack,rottenincumbrance,you!Youwillpayfurit。Theygiv’yertheirgrub,theirwater——yerwillpayfurhittome,byGawd!Whohaxedmeter’aveadrinkofwater?Theyputtheirbloomin’ragsonyerthatnight,an’whatdidtheygiv’terme——acloutonthebloomin’mouth——blasttheir……S’elpme!……Yerwillpayfurhitwithyermoney。Hi’mgoin’ter’aveitinaminyte;hassoonhasye’redead,yerbloomin’uselessfraud。That’sthemanIham。Anye’reathing————abloodything。Yah——youcorpse!

HeflungatJimmy’sheadthebiscuithehadbeenallthetimeclutchinghard,butitonlygrazed,andstrikingwithaloudcrackthebulkheadbeyondburstlikeahand—grenadeintoflyingpieces。JamesWait,asthoughwoundedmortally,fellbackonthepillow。Hislipsceasedtomoveandtherollingeyesbecamequietandstaredupwardswithanintenseandsteadypersistence。Donkinwassurprised;hesatsuddenlyonthechest,andlookeddown,exhaustedandgloomy。Afteramomenthebegantomuttertohimself,‘Die,youbeggar——die。Somebody’llcomein……I

wishIwasdrunk……Tendays……Hoysters……’Helookedupandspokelouder。‘No……nomoreforyer……nomorebloomin’galsthatcookhoysters……Who’syer?Hit’smyturnnow……IwishIwasdrunk;

Iwouldsoongiv’youaleguphaloft。That’swhereyerwillgo。Feetfirst,throughaport……Splash!Neverseeyerhanymore。Hoverboard!Good’nufffuryer。’

Jimmy’sheadmovedslightlyandheturnedhiseyestoDonkin’sface;agazeunbelieving,desolatedandappealing,ofachildfrightenedbythemenaceofbeingshutupaloneinthedark。Donkinobservedhimfromthechestwithhopefuleyes;thenwithoutrisinghetriedthelid。Locked。

‘IwishIwasdrunk。’hemutteredandgettinguplistenedanxiouslytothedistantsoundoffootstepsonthedeck。Theyapproached——ceased。Someoneyawnedinterminablyjustoutsidethedoor,andthefootstepswentawayshufflinglazily。Donkin’sflutteringhearteaseditspace,andwhenhelookedtowardsthebunkagainJimmywasstaringasbeforeatthewhitebeam。——‘’Owd’yerfeelnow?’heasked。

——‘Bad,’breathedoutJimmy。

Donkinsatdownpatientandpurposeful。Everyhalf—hourthebellsspoketooneanotherringingalongthewholelengthoftheship。

Jimmy’srespirationwassorapidthatitcouldn’tbecounted,sofaintthatitcouldn’tbeheard。Hiseyeswereterrifiedasthoughhehadbeenlookingatunspeakablehorrors;andbyhisfaceonecouldseethathewasthinkingofabominablethings。Suddenlywithanincrediblystrongandheart—breakingvoicehesobbedout:

‘Overboard!……I!……MyGod!’

Donkinwrithedalittleonthebox。Helookedunwillingly。

Jimmywasmute。Histwolongbonyhandssmoothedtheblanketupwards,asthoughhehadwishedtogatheritallupunderhischin。Atear,abigsolitarytear,escapedfromthecornerofhiseyeand,withouttouchingthehollowcheek,fellonthepillow,histhroatrattledfaintly。

AndDonkin,watchingtheendofthathatefulnigger,felttheanguishinggraspofagreatsorrowonhisheartatthethoughtthathehimself,someday,wouldhavetogothroughitall——justlikethis——perhaps!Hiseyesbecamemoist。‘Poorbeggar,’hemurmured。Thenightseemedtogobyinaflash;itseemedtohimhecouldheartheirremediablerushofpreciousminutes。Howlongwouldthisbloomingaffairlast?Toolongsurely。Noluck。Hecouldnotrestrainhimself。Hegotupandapproachedthebunk。Waitdidnotstir。Onlyhiseyesappearedaliveandhishandscontinuedtheirsmoothingmovementwithahorribleandtirelessindustry。Donkinbentover。

‘Jimmy,’hecalledlow。Therewasnoanswer,buttherattlestopped。‘D’yerseeme?’heaskedtrembling。Jimmy’schestheaved。Donkin,lookingaway,benthiseartoJimmy’slipsandheardasoundliketherustleofasingledryleafdrivenalongthesmoothsandofabeach。Itshapeditself。

‘Light……thelamp……and……go。’breathedoutWait。

Donkin,instinctively,glancedoverhisshoulderattheblazingflame;then,stilllookingaway,feltunderthepillowforakey。

hegotitatonceandforthenextfewminuteswasshakilybutswiftlybusyaboutthebox。whenhegotup,hisface——forthefisttimeinhislife——hadapinkflush——perhapsoftriumph。

Heslippedthekeyunderthepillowagain,avoidingtoglanceatJimmy,whohadnotmoved。Heturnedhisbacksquarelyfromthebunkandstartedtothedoorasthoughheweregoingtowalkamile。Athissecondstridehehadhisnoseagainstit。HeclutchedPage115

thehandlecautiously,butatthatmomenthereceivedtheirresistibleimpressionofsomethinghappeningbehindhisback。Hespunroundasthoughhehadbeentappedontheshoulder。HewasjustintimetoseeJimmy’seyesblazeupandgooutatonceliketwolampsoverturnedtogetherbyasweepingblow。Somethingresemblingascarletthreadhungdownhischinoutofthecornerofhislips——andhehadceasedtobreathe。

Donkinclosedthedoorbehindhimgentlybutfirmly。Sleepingmen,huddledunderjackets,madeonthelighteddeckshapelessdarkmoundsthathadtheappearanceofneglectedgraves。Nothinghadbeendoneallthroughthenightandhehadn’tbeenmissed。Hestoodmotionlessandperfectlyastoundedtofindtheworldoutsideashehadleftit;therewasthesea,theship——sleepingmen;andhewonderedabsurdlyatit,asthoughhehadexpectedtofindthemendead,familiarthingsgoneforever;asthough,likeawandererreturningaftermanyyears,hehadexpectedtoseebewilderingchanges。Heshudderedalittleinthepenetratingfreshnessoftheair,andhuggedhimselfforlornly。Thedecliningmoondroopedsadlyinthewesternboardasifwitheredbythecoldtouchofapaledawn。Theshipslept。

Andtheimmortalseastretchedaway,immenseandhazy,liketheimageoflifewithaglitteringsurfaceandlightlessdepths;promising,emptyinspiring——terrible。Donkingaveitadefiantglanceandslunkoffnoiselesslyasifjudgedandcastoutbytheaugustsilenceofitsmight。

Jimmy’sdeath,afterall,cameasatremendoussurprise。

Wedidnotknowtillthenhowmuchfaithwehadputinhisdelusions。Wehadtakenhischancesoflifesomuchathisownvaluationthathisdeath,likethedeathofanoldbeliefshookthefoundationsofoursociety。A

commonbondwasgone;thestrong,effectiveandrespectablebondofasentimentallie。Allthatdaywemoonedatourwork,withsuspiciouslooksandadisabusedair。InourheartswethoughtthatinthematterofhisdepartureJimmyhadactedinaperverseandunfriendlymanner。Hedidn’tbackusup,asashipmateshould。Ingoinghetookawaywithhimselfthegloomyandsolemnshadowinwhichourfollyhadposed,withhumansatisfaction,asatenderarbiteroffate。AndnowwesawitwasnoPage116

suchthing。Itwasjustcommonfoolishness;asillyandineffectualmeddlingwithissuesofmajesticimport——thatis,ifPodmorewasright。

Perhapshewas?DoubtsurvivedJimmy;and,likeacommunityofbandedcriminalsdisintegratedbyatouchofgrace,wewereprofoundlyscandalisedwitheachother。Menspokeunkindlytotheirbestchums。Othersrefusedtospeakatall。Singletononlywasnotsurprised。‘Dead——ishe?Ofcourse,’hesaid,pointingattheislandrightabeam:forthecalmstillheldtheshipspell—boundwithinsightofFlores。Dead——ofcourse。Hewasn’tsurprised。Herewastheland,andthere,ontheforehatchandwaitingforthesailmaker——therewasthatcorpse。Causeandeffect。Andforthefisttimethatvoyage,theoldseamanbecamequitecheeryandgarrulous,explainingandillustratingfromthestoresofexperiencehow,insickness,thesightofanisland(evenaverysmallone)isgenerallymorefatalthantheviewofacontinent。Buthecouldn’texplainwhy。