第4章

ButIfindnone,noranyvestigeofany;andstrangestofall,notracks.Ithastoliveontheground,itcannothelpitself;

therefore,howdoesitgetaboutwithoutleavingatrack?Ihavesetadozentraps,buttheydonogood.Icatchallsmallanimalsexceptthatone;animalsthatmerelygointothetrapoutofcuriosity,Ithink,toseewhatthemilkistherefor.Theyneverdrinkit.

ThreeMonthsLaterThekangaroostillcontinuestogrow,whichisverystrangeandperplexing.Ineverknewonetobesolonggettingitsgrowth.

Ithasfuronitsheadnow;notlikekangaroofur,butexactlylikeourhair,exceptthatitismuchfinerandsofter,andinsteadofbeingblackisred.Iamliketolosemymindoverthecapriciousandharassingdevelopmentsofthisunclassifiablezoologicalfreak.

IfIcouldcatchanotherone——butthatishopeless;itisanewvariety,andtheonlysample;thisisplain.ButIcaughtatruekangarooandbroughtitin,thinkingthatthisone,beinglonesome,wouldratherhavethatforcompanythanhavenokinatall,oranyanimalitcouldfeelanearnesstoorgetsympathyfrominitsforlornconditionhereamongstrangerswhodonotknowitswaysorhabits,orwhattodotomakeitfeelthatitisamongfriends;

butitwasamistake——itwentintosuchfitsatthesightofthekangaroothatIwasconvincedithadneverseenonebefore.I

pitythepoornoisylittleanimal,butthereisnothingIcandotomakeithappy.IfIcouldtameit——butthatisoutofthequestion;themoreItry,theworseIseemtomakeit.Itgrievesmetothehearttoseeitinitslittlestormsofsorrowandpassion.Iwantedtoletitgo,butshewouldn\'thearofit.Thatseemedcruelandnotlikeher;andyetshemayberight.Itmightbelonelierthanever;forsinceIcannotfindanotherone,howcouldit?

FiveMonthsLaterItisnotakangaroo.No,foritsupportsitselfbyholdingtoherfinger,andthusgoesafewstepsonitshindlegs,andthenfallsdown.Itisprobablysomekindofabear;andyetithasnotail——asyet——andnofur,exceptonitshead.Itstillkeepsongrowing——thatisacuriouscircumstance,forbearsgettheirgrowthearlierthanthis.Bearsaredangerous——sinceourcatastrophe——andIshallnotbesatisfiedtohavethisoneprowlingabouttheplacemuchlongerwithoutamuzzleon.Ihaveofferedtogetherakangarooifshewouldletthisonego,butitdidnogood——sheisdeterminedtorunusintoallsortsoffoolishrisks,Ithink.Shewasnotlikethisbeforeshelosthermind.

AFortnightLaterIexamineditsmouth.Thereisnodangeryet;ithasonlyonetooth.Ithasnotailyet.Itmakesmorenoisenowthaniteverdidbefore——andmainlyatnight.Ihavemovedout.ButIshallgoover,mornings,tobreakfast,andtoseeifithasmoreteeth.

Ifitgetsamouthfulofteeth,itwillbetimeforittogo,tailornotail,forabeardoesnotneedatailinordertobedangerous.

FourMonthsLaterIhavebeenoffhuntingandfishingamonth,upintheregionthatshecallsBuffalo;Idon\'tknowwhy,unlessitisbecausetherearenotanybuffaloesthere.Meantimethebearhaslearnedtopaddlearoundallbyitselfonitshindlegs,andsays\"poppa\"

and\"momma.\"Itiscertainlyanewspecies.Thisresemblancetowordsmaybepurelyaccidental,ofcourse,andmayhavenopurposeormeaning;buteveninthatcaseitisstillextraordinary,andisathingwhichnootherbearcando.Thisimitationofspeech,takentogetherwithgeneralabsenceoffurandentireabsenceoftail,sufficientlyindicatesthatthisisanewkindofbear.Thefurtherstudyofitwillbeexceedinglyinteresting.MeantimeI

willgooffonafarexpeditionamongtheforestsoftheNorthandmakeanexhaustivesearch.Theremustcertainlybeanotheronesomewhere,andthisonewillbelessdangerouswhenithascompanyofitsownspecies.Iwillgostraightway;butIwillmuzzlethisonefirst.

ThreeMonthsLaterIthasbeenaweary,wearyhunt,yetIhavehadnosuccess.Inthemeantime,withoutstirringfromthehomeestate,shehascaughtanotherone!Ineversawsuchluck.Imighthavehuntedthesewoodsahundredyears,Inevershouldhaverunacrossthatthing.

NextDayIhavebeencomparingthenewonewiththeoldone,anditisperfectlyplainthattheyarethesamebreed.Iwasgoingtostuffoneofthemformycollection,butsheisprejudicedagainstitforsomereasonorother;soIhaverelinquishedtheidea,thoughIthinkitisamistake.Itwouldbeanirreparablelosstoscienceiftheyshouldgetaway.Theoldoneistamerthanitwas,andcanlaughandtalkliketheparrot,havinglearnedthis,nodoubt,frombeingwiththeparrotsomuch,andhavingtheimitativefacultyinahighlydevelopeddegree.Ishallbeastonishedifitturnsouttobeanewkindofparrot,andyetIoughtnottobeastonished,forithasalreadybeeneverythingelseitcouldthinkof,sincethosefirstdayswhenitwasafish.Thenewoneisasuglynowastheoldonewasatfirst;hasthesamesulphur—and—raw—meatcomplexionandthesamesingularheadwithoutanyfuronit.ShecallsitAbel.

TenYearsLaterTheyareboys;wefounditoutlongago.Itwastheircominginthatsmall,immatureshapethatpuzzledus;wewerenotusedtoit.

Therearesomegirlsnow.Abelisagoodboy,butifCainhadstayedabearitwouldhaveimprovedhim.Afteralltheseyears,IseethatIwasmistakenaboutEveinthebeginning;itisbettertoliveoutsidetheGardenwithherthaninsideitwithouther.

AtfirstIthoughtshetalkedtoomuch;butnowIshouldbesorrytohavethatvoicefallsilentandpassoutofmylife.Blessedbethechestnutthatbroughtusneartogetherandtaughtmetoknowthegoodnessofherheartandthesweetnessofherspirit!