第7章

Theynowreturned。Shecastvexedlooksonthepassers-by。\"Howstupidallthesepeopleseem,\"shesaid。Thenraisinghereyestothecountenanceofhercompanion,sheadded:\"You,too,likealltherest。\"

M。deBelvignebowed。TurningaroundshesawthatthePrinceandtheChevalierhaddisappeared。Servigny,dejectedanddripping,ceasedplayingonthetrumpet,andwalkedwithagloomyairatthesideofthetwoweariedyoungmen,whoalsohadstoppedthedrumplaying。

Shebegantolaughdryly,saying:

\"Youseemtohavehadenough;nevertheless,thatiswhatyoucallhavingagoodtime,isn\'tit?Youcameforthat;Ihavegivenyouyourmoney\'sworth。\"

Thenshewalkedon,sayingnothingfurther;andsuddenlyBelvigneperceivedthatshewasweeping。Astounded,heinquired:

\"Whatisthematter?\"

Shemurmured:\"Letmealone,itdoesnotconcernyou。\"

Butheinsisted,likeafool:\"Oh,Mademoiselle,come,whatisthematter,hasanyoneannoyedyou?\"

Sherepeatedimpatiently:\"Willyoukeepstill?\"

Thensuddenly,nolongerabletoresistthedespairingsorrowwhichdrownedherheart,shebegantosobsoviolently,thatshecouldnolongerwalk。Shecoveredherfacewithherhands,pantingforbreath,chokedbytheviolenceofherdespair。

Belvignestoodstillatherside,quitebewildered,repeating:\"I

don\'tunderstandthisatall。\"

ButServignybrusquelycameforward:\"Letusgohome,Mam\'zelle,sothatpeoplemaynotseeyouweepinginthestreet。Whydoyouperpetratefollieslikethatwhentheyonlymakeyousad?\"

Andtakingherarmhedrewherforward。Butassoonastheyreachedtheirongateofthevillashebegantorun,crossedthegarden,andwentupstairs,andshutherselfinherroom。Shedidnotappearagainuntilthedinnerhour,verypaleandserious。Servignyhadboughtfromacountrystorekeeperaworkingman\'scostume,withvelvetpantaloons,afloweredwaistcoatandablouse,andheadoptedthelocaldialect。Yvettewasinahurryforthemtofinish,feelinghercourageebbing。Assoonasthecoffeewasservedshewenttoherroomagain。

Sheheardthemerryvoicesbeneathherwindow。TheChevalierwasmakingequivocaljokes,foreignwitticisms,vulgarandclumsy。Shelistened,indespair。Servigny,justabittipsy,wasimitatingthecommonworkingman,callingtheMarquise\"theMissus。\"AndallofasuddenhesaidtoSaval:\"Well,Boss?\"Thatcausedagenerallaugh。

ThenYvettedecided。Shefirsttookasheetofpaperandwrote:

\"Bougival,Sunday,nineo\'clockintheevening。

\"IdiesothatImaynotbecomeakeptwoman。

\"YVETTE。\"

Theninapostscript:

\"Adieu,mydearmother,pardon。\"

Shesealedtheenvelope,andaddressedittotheMarquiseObardi。

Thensherolledherlongchairnearthewindow,drewalittletablewithinreachofherhand,andplaceduponitthebigbottleofchloroformbesideahandfulofwadding。

Agreatrose-treecoveredwithflowers,climbingashighasherwindow,exhaledinthenightasoftandgentleperfume,inlightbreaths;andshestoodforamomentenjoyingit。Themoon,initsfirstquarter,wasfloatinginthedarksky,alittleraggedattheleft,andveiledattimesbyslightmists。

Yvettethought:\"Iamgoingtodie!\"Andherheart,swollenwithsobs,nearlybursting,almostsuffocatedher。Shefeltinheraneedofaskingmercyfromsomeone,ofbeingsaved,ofbeingloved。

ThevoiceofServignyarousedher。Hewastellinganimproperstory,whichwasconstantlyinterruptedbyburstsoflaughter。TheMarquiseherselflaughedlouderthantheothers。

\"Thereisnobodylikehimfortellingthatsortofthing,\"shesaid,laughing。

Yvettetookthebottle,uncorkedit,andpouredalittleoftheliquidonthecotton。Astrong,sweet,strangeodorarose;andasshebroughtthepieceofcottontoherlips,thefumesenteredherthroatandmadehercough。

Thenshuttinghermouth,shebegantoinhaleit。Shetookinlongbreathsofthisdeadlyvapor,closinghereyes,andforcingherselftostifleinhermindallthoughts,sothatshemightnotreflect,thatshemightknownothingmore。

Itseemedtoheratfirstthatherchestwasgrowinglarger,wasexpanding,andthathersoul,recentlyheavyandburdenedwithgrief,wasbecominglight,light,asiftheweightwhichoverwhelmedherwaslifted,waftedaway。Somethinglivelyandagreeablepenetratedeventotheextremitiesofherlimbs,eventothetipsofhertoesandfingersandenteredherflesh,asortofdreamyintoxication,ofsoftfever。Shesawthatthecottonwasdry,andshewasastonishedthatshewasnotalreadydead。Hersensesseemedmoreacute,moresubtle,morealert。Sheheardthelowestwhisperontheterrace。PrinceKravalowwastellinghowhehadkilledanAustriangeneralinaduel。

Then,furtheroff,inthefields,sheheardthenoiseofthenight,theoccasionalbarkingsofadog,theshortcryofthefrogs,thealmostimperceptiblerustlingoftheleaves。

Shetookthebottleagain,andsaturatedoncemorethelittlepieceofwadding;thenshebegantobreatheinthefumesagain。Forafewmomentsshefeltnothing;thenthatsoftandsoothingfeelingofcomfortwhichshehadexperiencedbeforeenvelopedher。

Twiceshepouredmorechloroformuponthecotton,eagernowforthatphysicalandmentalsensation,thatdreamytorpor,whichbewilderedhersoul。

Itseemedtoherthatshehadnomorebones,flesh,legs,orarms。

Thedrughadgentlytakenalltheseawayfromher,withoutherperceivingit。Thechloroformhaddrawnawayherbody,leavingheronlyhermind,moreawakened,moreactive,larger,andmorefreethanshehadeverfeltit。

Sherecalledathousandforgottenthings,littledetailsofherchildhood,trifleswhichhadgivenherpleasure。Endowedsuddenlywithanawakenedagility,hermindleapedtothemostdiverseideas,ranthroughathousandadventures,wanderedinthepast,andlostitselfinthehoped-foreventsofthefuture。Andherlivelyandcarelessthoughtshadasensuouscharm:sheexperiencedadivinepleasureindreamingthus。

Shestillheardthevoices,butshecouldnolongerdistinguishthewords,whichtoherseemedtohaveadifferentmeaning。Shewasinakindofstrangeandchangingfairyland。

Shewasonagreatboatwhichfloatedthroughabeautifulcountry,allcoveredwithflowers。Shesawpeopleontheshore,andthesepeoplespokeveryloudly;thenshewasagainonland,withoutaskinghow,andServigny,cladasaprince,cametoseekher,totakehertoabull-fight。

Thestreetswerefilledwithpassers-by,whoweretalking,andsheheardconversationswhichdidnotastonishher,asifshehadknownthepeople,forthroughherdreamyintoxication,shestillheardhermother\'sfriendslaughingandtalkingontheterrace。

Theneverythingbecamevague。Thensheawakened,deliciouslybenumbed,andshecouldhardlyrememberwhathadhappened。

So,shewasnotyetdead。Butshefeltsocalm,insuchastateofphysicalcomfort,thatshewasnotinhastetofinishwithit——shewantedtomakethisexquisitedrowsinesslastforever。

Shebreathedslowlyandlookedatthemoon,oppositeher,abovethetrees。Somethinghadchangedinherspirit。Shenolongerthoughtasshehaddonejustnow。Thechloroformquietingherbodyandhersoulhadcalmedhergriefandlulledherdesiretodie。

Whyshouldshenotlive?Whyshouldshenotbeloved?Whyshouldshenotleadahappylife?Everythingappearedpossibletohernow,andeasyandcertain。Everythinginlifewassweet,everythingwascharming。Butasshewishedtodreamonstill,shepouredmoreofthedream-wateronthecottonandbegantobreatheitinagain,stoppingattimes,soasnottoabsorbtoomuchofitanddie。

Shelookedatthemoonandsawinitaface,awoman\'sface。Shebegantoscornthecountryinthefancifulintoxicationofthedrug。

Thatfaceswunginthesky;thenitsang,itsangwithawell-knownvoicethealleluiaoflove。

ItwastheMarquise,whohadcomeinandseatedherselfatthepiano。

Yvettehadwingsnow。Shewasflyingthroughaclearnight,abovethewoodandstreams。Shewasflyingwithdelight,openingandclosingherwings,bornebythewindasbyacaress。Shemovedintheair,whichkissedherskin,andshewentsofast,sofast,thatshehadnotimetoseeanythingbeneathher,andshefoundherselfseatedonthebankofapondwithalineinherhand;shewasfishing。

Somethingpulledonthecord,andwhenshedrewitoutofthewater,itboreamagnificentpearlnecklace,whichshehadlongedforsometimeago。Shewasnotatallastonishedatthisdeed,andshelookedatServigny,whohadcometoherside——sheknewnothow。Hewasfishingalso,anddrewoutoftheriverawoodenhorse。

Thenshehadanewthefeelingofawaking,andsheheardsomeonecallingdownstairs。Hermotherhadsaid:

\"Putoutthecandle。\"ThenServigny\'svoicerose,clearandjesting:

\"Putoutyourcandle,Mam\'zelleYvette。\"

Andalltookupthechorus:\"Mam\'zelleYvette,putoutyourcandle。\"

Sheagainpouredchloroformonthecotton,but,asshedidnotwanttodie,sheplaceditfarenoughfromherfacetobreathethefreshair,whileneverthelessherroomwasfilledwiththeasphyxiatingodorofthenarcotic,forsheknewthatsomeonewascoming,andtakingasuitableposture,aposeofthedead,shewaited。

TheMarquisesaid:\"Iamalittleuneasy!Thatfoolishchildhasgonetosleepleavingthelightonhertable。IwillsendClemencetoputitout,andtoshutthebalconywindow,whichiswideopen。\"

Andsoonthemaidrappedonthedoorcalling:\"Mademoiselle,Mademoiselle!\"Afteramoment\'ssilence,sherepeated:

\"Mademoiselle,MadametheMarquisebegsyoutoputoutyourcandleandshutthewindow。\"

Clemencewaitedalittle,thenknockedlouder,andcried:

\"Mademoiselle,Mademoiselle!\"

AsYvettedidnotreply,theservantwentawayandreportedtotheMarquise:

\"Mademoisellemusthavegonetosleep,herdoorisbolted,andI

couldnotawakenher。\"

MadameObardimurmured:

\"Butshemustnotstaylikethat,\"

Then,atthesuggestionofServigny,theyallgatheredunderthewindow,shoutinginchorus:

\"Hip!hip!hurrah!Mam\'zelleYvette。\"

Theirclamorroseinthecalmnight,throughthetransparentairbeneaththemoon,overthesleepingcountry;andtheyhearditdieawayinthedistancelikethesoundofadisappearingtrain。

AsYvettedidnotanswertheMarquisesaid:\"Ionlyhopethatnothinghashappened。Iambeginningtobeafraid。\"

ThenServigny,pluckingredrosesfromabigrosebushtrainedalongthewallandbudsnotyetopened,begantothrowthemintotheroomthroughthewindow。

Atthefirstrosethatfellatherside,Yvettestartedandalmostcriedout。Othersfelluponherdress,othersuponherhair,whileothersgoingoverherheadfelluponthebed,coveringitwitharainofflowers。

TheMarquise,inachokingvoice,cried:\"Come,Yvette,answer。\"

ThenServignydeclared:\"Trulythisisnotnatural;Iamgoingtoclimbupbythebalcony。\"

ButtheChevaliergrewindignant。

\"Now,letmedoit,\"hesaid。\"ItisagreatfavorIask;itistoogoodameans,andtoogoodatimetoobtainarendezvous。\"

Alltherest,whothoughttheyounggirlwasjoking,cried:\"Weprotest!Heshallnotclimbup。\"

ButtheMarquise,disturbed,repeated:\"Andyetsomeonemustgoandsee。\"

ThePrinceexclaimedwithadramaticgesture:

\"ShefavorstheDuke,wearebetrayed。\"

\"Letustossacointoseewhoshallgoup,\"saidtheChevalier。Hetookafive-francpiecefromhispocket,andbeganwiththePrince。

\"Tail,\"saidhe。Itwashead。

ThePrincetossedthecoininhisturnsayingtoSaval:\"Call,Monsieur。\"

Savalcalled\"Head。\"Itwastail。

ThePrincethengavealltheothersachance,andtheyalllost。

Servigny,whowasstandingoppositehim,exclaimedinhisinsolentway:\"PARBLEU!heischeating!\"

TheRussianputhishandonhisheartandheldoutthegoldpiecetohisrival,saying:\"Tossityourself,mydearDuke。\"

Servignytookitandspinningitup,said:\"Head。\"Itwastail。

Hebowedandpointingtothepillarofthebalconysaid:\"Climbup,Prince。\"ButthePrincelookedabouthimwithadisturbedair。

\"Whatareyoulookingfor?\"askedtheChevalier。

\"Well,——I——would——like——aladder。\"Agenerallaughfollowed。

Saval,advancing,said:\"Wewillhelpyou。\"

Heliftedhiminhisarms,asstrongasthoseofHercules,tellinghim:

\"Nowclimbtothatbalcony。\"

ThePrinceimmediatelyclungtoit,and。Savallettinghimgo,heswungthere,suspendedintheair,movinghislegsinemptyspace。

ThenServigny,seeinghisstrugglinglegswhichsoughtarestingplace,pulledthemdownwardwithallhisstrength;thehandslosttheirgripandthePrincefellinaheaponMonsieurdeBelvigne,whowascomingtoaidhim。\"Whoseturnnext?\"askedServigny。Nooneclaimedtheprivilege。

\"Come,Belvigne,courage!\"

\"Thankyou,mydearboy,Iamthinkingofmybones。\"

\"Come,Chevalier,youmustbeusedtoscalingwalls。\"

\"Igivemyplacetoyou,mydearDuke。\"

\"Ha,ha,thatisjustwhatIexpected。\"

Servigny,withakeeneye,turnedtothepillar。Thenwithaleap,clingingtothebalcony,hedrewhimselfuplikeagymnastandclimbedoverthebalustrade。

Allthespectators,gazingathim,applauded。Butheimmediatelyreappeared,calling:

\"Come,quick!Come,quick!Yvetteisunconscious。\"TheMarquiseutteredaloudcry,andrushedforthestairs。

Theyounggirl,hereyesclosed,pretendedtobedead。Hermotherentereddistracted,andthrewherselfuponher。

\"Tellmewhatisthematterwithher,whatisthematterwithher?\"

Servignypickedupthebottleofchloroformwhichhadfallenuponthefloor。

\"Shehasdruggedherself,\"saidhe。

Heplacedhiseartoherheart;thenheadded:

\"Butsheisnotdead;wecanresuscitateher。Haveyouanyammonia?\"

Themaid,bewildered,repeated:\"Anywhat,Monsieur?\"

\"Anysmelling-salts。\"

\"Yes,Monsieur。\"\"Bringthematonce,andleavethedooropentomakeadraftofair。\"

TheMarquise,onherknees,wassobbing:\"Yvette!Yvette,mydaughter,mydaughter,listen,answerme,Yvette,mychild。Oh,myGod!myGod!whathasshedone?\"

Themen,frightened,movedaboutwithoutspeaking,bringingwater,towels,glasses,andvinegar。Someonesaid:\"Sheoughttobeundressed。\"AndtheMarquise,whohadlostherhead,triedtoundressherdaughter;butdidnotknowwhatshewasdoing。Herhandstrembledandfaltered,andshegroaned:

\"Icannot,——Icannot——\"

Themaidhadcomebackbringingadruggist\'sbottlewhichServignyopenedandfromwhichhepouredouthalfuponahandkerchief。ThenheappliedittoYvette\'snose,causinghertochoke。

\"Good,shebreathes,\"saidhe。\"Itwillbenothing。\"

Andhebathedhertemples,cheeks,andneckwiththepungentliquid。

Thenhemadeasigntothemaidtounlacethegirl,andwhenshehadnothingmoreonthanaskirtoverherchemise,heraisedherinhisarmsandcarriedhertothebed,quivering,movedbytheodorandcontactofherflesh。Thenshewasplacedinbed。Hearoseverypale。

\"Shewillcometoherself,\"hesaid,\"itisnothing。\"Forhehadheardherbreatheinacontinuousandregularway。ButseeingallthemenwiththeireyesfixedonYvetteinbed,hewasseizedwithajealousirritation,andadvancedtowardthem。\"Gentlemen,\"hesaid,\"therearetoomanyofusinthisroom;bekindenoughtoleaveusalone,——MonsieurSavalandme——withtheMarquise。\"

Hespokeinatonewhichwasdryandfullofauthority。

MadameObardihadgraspedherlover,andwithherheadupliftedtowardhimshecriedtohim:

\"Saveher,oh,saveher!\"

ButServignyturningaroundsawaletteronthetable。Heseizeditwitharapidmovement,andreadtheaddress。Heunderstoodandthought:\"PerhapsitwouldbebetteriftheMarquiseshouldnotknowofthis,\"andtearingopentheenvelope,hedevouredataglancethetwolinesitcontained:

\"IdiesothatImaynotbecomeakeptwoman。\"

\"Yvette。\"

\"Adieu,mydearmother,pardon。\"

\"Thedevil!\"hethought,\"thiscallsforreflection。\"Andhehidtheletterinhispocket。

Thenheapproachedthebed,andimmediatelythethoughtcametohimthattheyounggirlhadregainedconsciousnessbutthatshedarednotshowit,fromshame,fromhumiliation,andfromfearofquestioning。TheMarquisehadfallenonherkneesnow,andwasweeping,herheadonthe,footofthebed。Suddenlysheexclaimed:

\"Adoctor,wemusthaveadoctor!\"

ButServigny,whohadjustsaidsomethinginalowtonetoSaval,repliedtoher:\"No,itisallover。Come,gooutaminute,justaminute,andIpromiseyouthatshewillkissyouwhenyoucomeback。\"AndtheBaron,takingMadameObardibythearm,ledherfromtheroom。

ThenServigny,sitting-bythebed,tookYvette\'shandandsaid:

\"Mam\'zelle,listentome。\"

Shedidnotanswer。Shefeltsowell,sosoftandwarminbed,thatshewouldhavelikednevertomove,nevertospeak,andtolivelikethatforever。Aninfinitecomforthadencompassedher,acomfortthelikeofwhichshehadneverexperienced。

Themildnightaircominginbyvelvetybreathstouchedhertemplesinanexquisitealmostimperceptibleway。Itwasacaresslikeakissofthewind,likethesoftandrefreshingbreathofafanmadeofalltheleavesofthetreesandofalltheshadowsofthenight,ofthemistofrivers,andofalltheflowerstoo,fortherosestossedupfrombelowintoherroomanduponherbed,andtherosesclimbingatherbalcony,mingledtheirheavyperfumewiththehealthfulsavoroftheeveningbreeze。

Shedrankinthisairwhichwassogood,hereyesclosed,herheartreposingintheyetpervadingintoxicationofthedrug,andshehadnolongeratallthedesiretodie,butastrong,imperiouswishtolive,tobehappy——nomatterhow——tobeloved,yes,tobeloved。

Servignyrepeated:\"Mam\'zelleYvette,listentome。\"

Andshedecidedtoopenhereyes。

Hecontinued,ashesawherreviving:\"Come!Come!whatdoesthisnonsensemean?\"

Shemurmured:\"MypoorMuscade,Iwassounhappy。\"

Hesqueezedherhand:\"Andthatledyouintoaprettyscrape!Come,youmustpromisemenottotryitagain。\"

Shedidnotreply,butnoddedherheadslightlywithanalmostimperceptiblesmile。Hedrewfromhispockettheletterwhichhehadfoundonthetable:

\"HadIbettershowthistoyourmother?\"

Sheshookherhead,no。Heknewnotwhatmoretosayforthesituationseemedtohimwithoutanoutlet。Sohemurmured\"Mydearchild,everyonehashardthingstobear。IunderstandyoursorrowandIpromiseyou——\"

Shestammered:\"Youaregood。\"

Theyweresilent。Helookedather。Shehadinherglancesomethingoftenderness,ofweakness;andsuddenlysheraisedbothherarms,asifshewoulddrawhimtoher;hebentoverher,feelingthatshecalledhim,andtheirlipsmet。

Foralongtimetheyremainedthus,theireyesclosed。

But,knowingthathewouldlosehishead,hedrewaway。Shesmiledathimnow,mosttenderly;and,withbothherhandsclingingtohisshoulders,sheheldhim。

\"Iamgoingtocallyourmother,\"hesaid。

Shemurmured:\"Justasecondmore。Iamsohappy。\"

Thenafterasilence,shesaidinatonesolowthatitcouldscarcelybeheard:\"Willyoulovemeverymuch?Tellme!\"

Hekneeledbesideherbed,andkissingthehandshehadgivenhim,said:\"Iadoreyou。\"Butsomeonewaswalkingnearthedoor。Hearosewithabound,andcalledinhisordinaryvoice,whichseemedneverthelessalittleironical:\"Youmaycomein。Itisallrightnow。\"

TheMarquisethrewherselfonherdaughter,withbotharmsopen,andclaspedherfrantically,coveringhercountenancewithtears,whileServignywithradiantsoulandquiveringbodywentoutuponthebalconytobreathethefreshairofthenight,hummingtohimselftheoldcouplet:

\"Awomanchangethofthermind:

Yetfoolsstilltrustinwomankind。\"