第5章

Lucindo。What’sthis?Youspeakofstones,bays,wormsandmud?

Butrocksandcragstowerupwardseverywhere,Ineveryspotaspringcomesbubblingforth:

Whetherimpetuous,low,high——whatmatter?

MysteriousplacesstillaretobefoundWhereweareheldenrapturedandspellbound。

Toseethemwakesexcitementinmybreast,Andifitbursts,why,itisjest,nomore。

Sotakemewhereyouwill,yes,tothatgoal!

Waverandfalternot,butlet’saway!

Pertini。TherollingthunderfirstmustceaseitsdinErethepurelightningcleanseyourbreastwithin。

SotoaspotI’llmakemyselfyourguideWhere,Imuchfear,you’llwishtoolongtoabide。

Lucindo。Oh,letourjourney’sgoalliewhereitmay,I’llfollowyou,ifyouwillleadtheway。

Pertini。Mistrustful!(Theybothgoout。)Scene3AroominPertini’shouse。Oulanemisalone,seatedatatable,writing。Paperslieabout。

Suddenlyhespringsup,walkszipanddown,thenstopsabruptlyandstandswithfoldedarms。

Oulanem。Alllost!Thehourisnowexpired,andtimeStandsstill。Thispigmyuniversecollapses。

SoonIshallclaspEternityandhowlHumanity’sgiantcurseintoitsear。

Eternity!Itiseternalpain,Deathinconceivable,immeasurable!

Anevilartificecontrivedtotauntus,Whoarebutclockwork,blindmachineswoundupTobethecalendar—foolsofTime;tobe,Onlythatsomethingthusatleastmighthappen;

Andtodecay,thattheremightbedecay!

Theworldsmusthavehadneedofonethingmore—

Dumb,searingagonytosendthemwhirling。

Deathcomestolifeandputsonshoesandstockings;

Thesorrowingplant,thestone’sinerterosion,ThebirdsthatfindnosongtotellthepainOftheiraethereallife,thegeneraldiscordAndtheblindstrivingoftheAlltoshakeItselfoutofitself,becrushedinquarrel—

Thisnowstandsupandhasapairoflegs,Andhasabreasttofeelthecurseoflife!

Ha,Imusttwinemeonthewheelofflame,AndinEternity’sringI’lldancemyfrenzy!

Ifaughtbesidesthatfrenzycoulddevour,I’dleaptherein,thoughImustsmashaworldThattoweredhighbetweenmyselfandit!

Itwouldbeshatteredbymylong—drawncurse,AndIwoulddingmyarmsaroundcruelBeing,Embracingme,’twouldsilentpassaway。

ThensilentwouldIsinkintothevoid。

Whollytosink,notbe——oh,thiswereLife,ButsweptalonghighonEternity’scurrentToroaroutthrenodiesfortheCreator,Scornonthebrow!CanSunburnitaway?

Boundincompulsion’ssway,curseindefiance!

Lettheenvenomedeyeflashforthdestruction—

Doesithurlofftheponderousworldsthatbind?

Boundineternalfear,splinteredandvoid,BoundtotheverymarbleblockofBeing,Bound,boundforever,andforeverbound!

Theworlds,theyseeitandgorollingonAndhowltheburialsongoftheirowndeath。

Andwe,weApesofacoldGod,stillcherishWithfrenziedpainuponourlovingbreastThevipersovoluptuouslywarm,ThatitasUniversalFormrearsupAndfromitsplaceonhighgrinsdownonus!

Andinourear,tillloathing’sallconsumed,Thewearywaveroarsonward,everonward!

Nowquick,thedieiscast,andallisready;

Destroywhatonlypoetry’sliecontrived,Acurseshallfinishwhatacurseconceived。

(Hesitsdownatthetableandwrites。)Scene4Alwander’shouse;first—beforethehouse。Lucindo,Pertini。

Lucindo。Whybringmehere?

Pertini。Forasucculentpieceofwoman,That’sall!Seeforyourself,andifshesoftlyBreathesamelodiouspeaceintoyoursoul,Thenforward!

Lucindo。What!You’retakingmetowhores?

AndattheverytimewhenallofLifeComesdownwithcrushingforceuponmyshoulders,AndwhenmybreastswellsirresistiblyInamadfrenzycravingself—destruction;

Wheneachbreathbreathesathousanddeathsforme,Andnowawoman!

Pertini。Ha!Raveon,youngman,Breathehellfireanddestruction,breatheaway!

Whatwhores?DidImisunderstandyourmeaning?

See,there’sthehouse。Doesitlooklikeabrothel?

YouthinkIwanttoplaythepimpforyou,Andusetheverydaylightforalantern?

That’srich。Butenterfirstandthere,perhaps,You’lllearnwhatyoudesire。

Lucindo。Iseeyourtrick。

Thestuffyoumadeitofisverycheap。

Youreallyseektoslipthehandthatholdsyou。

BegratefulthatthismomentImusthearyou;

Buttemporisingwillcostyouyourlife。

(Theygointothehouse。Thecurtainfallsandanotherisraised。Amodern,elegantroom。Beatriceissittingonthesofa,aguitarbesideher。Lucindo,Pertini,Beatrice。)

Pertini。Beatrice,ayoungtravellerIbring,Apleasantgentleman,mydistantkinsman。

Beatrice(toLucindo)。Welcome!

Lucindo。ForgivemeifIfindnowords,Nospeechtoexpressmyheart’sastonishment。

Beautysorarequiteoverwhelmsthespirits;

Thebloodleapshigh,butnotawordwillcome。

Beatrice。Fairwords,youngsir。Youareinapleasantmood。

Ithankyourdisposition,notthefavourThatNaturehasdeniedmesounkindly,When’tisyourtonguethatspeaks,andnotyourheart。

Lucindo。Oh,ifmyheartmightspeak,ifitmightonlyPourforthwhatyouhavequickenedinitsdepths,Thewordswouldallbeflamesofmelody,Andeverybreathawholeeternity,AHeaven,anEmpireinfinitelyvast,InwhichallliveswouldsparklebrightwiththoughtsFullofsoftyearning,fullofharmonies,LockingtheWorldsosweetlyinitsbreast,Streamingwithradianceofpureloveliness,Sinceeverywordwouldonlybearyourname!

Pertini。Youwillnottakeitinbadpart,younglady,IfIexplaintoyouthatheisGermanAndalwaysravesofMelodyandSoul。

Beatrice。AGerman!ButIliketheGermanswell,AndIamproudtobeofthatsamestock。

Come,sithere,Germansir。(Sheoffershimaplaceonthesofa。)

Lucindo。Thankyou,mylady。(AsidetoPertini。)

Away!Thereisstilltime;hereIamlost!

Beatrice(abashed)。DidIspeakoutofplace?(Lucindowantstospeak,butPertinicutsin。)

Pertini。Spareusyourflourishesandyourflattery!

Twasnothing,Beatrice;merelysomebusinessThatImuststillarrangeforhiminhaste。

Lucindo(confused,inalowvoice)。

ByGod,Pertini,youareplayingwithme!

Pertini(aloud)。Takeitnotsotoheart,don’tbesoscared!

Theladytrustsmyword,isitnotso?

Beatrice,hemaystay,isitnotso,TillIamback。Andpleaseremember——prudence;

Youareastranger,sonofoolishness。

Beatrice。Oh,come,youngsir,wasthenmywelcomesuchThatyoucouldthinkI’dbanishyou,astranger,FriendofPertini,anoldfriendofours,Unceremoniouslyfromthishouse,Whosehospitabledoorsareopentoall?

Youneednotflatter,butyoumustbefair。

Lucindo。ByGod,yourgraciouskindnessoverwhelmsme!

Youspeakasgentlyastheangelsspeak。

ForgiveifoverawedandovercomeBythewildstreamofpassionlongforgotten,Thelipsspokewhattheyoughttohaveconcealed。

YetseetheskyallclearandluminousSmiledownuponusfromtheclouds’bluerealm,Andseethecoloursthrobsosweetandbright,Nowwrappedinshadeandnowingentlelight,Minglinginharmoniessosoftandfull,Onelovelypicture,oneinspiredsoul。

Seethis,andthenbesilentifyourlipsObey。Butno!yourheartenchantedleaps,Prudenceandcircumspectionvanishedall。

Thelipsmustspeakwhatholdsyourheartinthrall。

EvenastheAeolianlyreisstirredtosoundWhenZephyrwrapshisflutteringpinionsround。

Beatrice。ReproofIcannotfindwithinmyheart,Youdressthepoison,sir,withsuchsweetart。

Lucindo(asidetoPertini)。

Confoundedvillain,yetgoodvillaintoo,WhatshallIdo?Getoutofhere,byGod!

Pertini(aloud)。

Itranklesinhismind,rememberinghowItookthewordsoutofhismouthjustnow。

Inlanguagebeautifulhewouldhavetalked,Whenbymyinterruptionhewasbalked。

Butnevermind,’tisBeatrice’sbeliefYoukindlywishedtoaffordhersomereliefFromyourgrandtalk;likeanyGermanjest,Onceswallowed,it’snoteasytodigest。

Igo。

Lucindo(inalowvoice)。Butman!

Pertini(aloud)。ThinkofthesympathiesThatfromthestomachtotheheartsoonrise;

I’llsoonbebacktofetchyouswiftaway,Orelseinthissweetplacetoolongyou’llstay。

(Aside。)Imustbegone。Andwhilehepayshiscourt,I’llseetheoldmanbringsitalltonaught。

(ExitPertini。Lucindoisinconfusion。)

Beatrice。AndmustIyetoncemorebidyoubeseated?

Lucindo。I’llgladlysithereifyoutrulywishit。(Sitsdown。)

Beatrice。OurfriendPertini’softenstrangelymoody。

Lucindo。Yes,strangelyso!Moststrangely!Verystrangely!

(Pause。)

Forgiveme,lady——youesteemthisman!

Beatrice。Hehaslongbeenatruefriendofthehousehold,Andalwaystreatedmemostamiably。

Andyet——Iknownotwhy——Icannotbearhim。

He’softenviolent。Oftenfromhisbreast—

Forgiveme,he’syourfriend——somesecretspiritCallsstrangely,inavoiceIdonotlike。

ItisasthoughsomeinnerturbulentdarknessShrankfromthedaylight’sopenlookofloveAndfearedtomakeresponse,asifheharbouredAnevilworsethanhistonguespeaks,worseevenThanhisheartdarestothink。Thisisbutsurmise,AndIdowrong,confidingitsosoon;

Itissuspicion;suspicionisaviper。

Lucindo。Doyouregretconfidinginme,then?

Beatrice。Wereitasecretthatconcernedmyself—

Butoh,whatamIsaying!HaveyouwonMytrustalready?YetitisnotwrongThatIshouldtellyoueverythingIknow;

Icouldconfideitalltoanyone,SinceIknownothingthat’snotknowntoall。

Lucindo。Toall?Wellsaid!Youwouldbekindtoall?

Beatrice。Wouldyounottoo?

Lucindo。Oangel,Osweetbeing!

Beatrice。Youmakemefearful,sir。Whatmeanthesewords?

Youjumpsosuddenlyfromthemetotheme!

Lucindo。Imustactquickly,forthehourisstriking。

Whyhesitate?Deathisineveryminute。

CanIconcealit?It’samiracle,Ihavejustmetyou;strangethoughitappears,Wemighthaveknowneachothermanyyears。

ItisasifthemusicIheardsoundWithinmyownheart,livingformhadfound,Andintovibrant,warmrealityThespirit—bondunitingusbreaksfree。

Beatrice。Iwon’tdenyit:youarenottomeAstranger,yetstillstrangeyouare,unknown。

ButasdarkspiritswouldnotletusseeEachothertillthishour,sowemustownTheremaybeotherspiritswhosedeceitBindsuswithtreacherousbonds,howeversweet。

Foresightandwisdomwemustnotdespise;

Thestrongestlightningstrikesnotfromdarkskies。

Lucindo。Ofairphilosopheroftheheart!OGod,Icanresistnomore,foryoucompelme!

DonotimaginethatIdonotholdYouinrespectbecausemyheartgrowsbold。

Itthrobstobursting,allmynervesaretense。

Icanresistnomore。SoonI’llbegone,Far,farawayfromhere,fromyoudivided。

Then,worlds,plungedown,plungedownintotheabyss!

Forgiveme,sweetmychild,forgivethehourThatdrivesmeonwardwithsuchviolentpower。

Iloveyou,Beatrice,byGodIswearit,AndLoveandBeatricemakebutonewordThatIcanutteronlyinonebreath,AndinthisthoughtI’dgotomeetmydeath。

Beatrice。Sincegoodcannevercomeofit,IpraySpeaknomorethus。If——butthiscannotbe——

Youweretowinmyheart,now,straightaway,Surelyyouwouldnolongerhonourme。

You’dsaythatIwasjustacommonthing,Ready,asthousandsare,tohaveherfling。

IfforamomentsuchanotioncrossedYourmind,thenloveandhonourwouldbelost。

Twouldmeanthatyoucaredformenotajot,Andself—reproachwouldhavetobemylot。

Lucindo。Tenderandlovelybeing,hearmeplead!

Ifonlyinmybosomyoucouldread,Ineverlovedtillnow,byGodabove,Andyourreproachesmakeamockoflove。

Letthebasemerchanthaggleoverflaws,Byshrewddelaysmoreprofitstillhedraws。

Lovebringstheunionoftheworldsabout,Naughtisbeyond,andnaughtelsetodesire。

Letthosewhobindthemselvesinhatreddoubt。

LoveisaflashingsparkfromLife’sownfire,Magicthatholdsusinanopenring,Soyieldtoit——thisistheonlythingThatcountsinlove,notprudentcarefulness;

Forloveisquicktokindle,quicktobless。

Beatrice。ShallIbemodest?Coy?No,Imustdare,Howeverhighmayleaptheflames’fierceflare。

YetmybreasttightensunderfearfulstrainAsifdelightweremixedwithsearingpain,AsifbetweenouruniontherecamefloatingAhissingsoundmixedinbydevilsgloating。

Lucindo。Itisthefirewhichyoudonotyetknow,Andtheoldlife,whichnowhasturnedtogoAwayfromus,isspeakingitslastword;

Thenitsreproacheswillnomorebeheard。

Buttellme,Beatrice,howwillyoubemine!

Beatrice。MyfatherwantstotiemetoamanWhomIwouldhateifIcouldhatemyfellows。

Butbeassuredyousoonwillhearfromme。

Whereareyoustaying,sweetfriendofmyheart?

Lucindo。Why,atPertini’shouse。

Beatrice。I’llsendacourier。

Butnowyourname?MostsurelyitmustsoundAsdoesthemusicofthecirclingspheres。

Lucindo(inaseriousvoice)。Lucindoismyname。

Beatrice。Lucindo!Sweet,Sweetringsthatnametome。Ah,myLucindo,Heismyworld,myGod,myheart,myall。

Lucindo。Beatrice,that’syourself,andyouaremore,Youareyetmorethanall,foryouareBeatrice。(Hepressesherardentlytohisbreast。ThedoorburstsopenandWierinenters。)

Wierin。Aprettysight!OBeatrice!Osnake!

Puppetofvirtue,areyou,coldasmarble!

Lucindo。Whatdoyoumeanbythis?Whatdoyouseek?

ByGod,noapecouldeverlooksosleek。

Wierin。Damnedboy,you’llsoonenoughlearnwhatImean。

We’llspeaktogether,youandI,OrivalFashionedinhumanformtomakeitloathsome,Creaturepuffedupwithimpudentconceit,Apieceofblotting—papertowipepenson,Acomicheroofsomewretchedjape。

Lucindo。Andasremarked,beholdthecompleteape!

Shameonyouthustobandywordswithme!

Suchcourageislikebarrel—organmusicPlayedtoapaintedpictureofabattle。

Soontherealthingwillcount。

Wierin。Soon?Nowboy,nowwe’llhavethismatterout!

B—b—byGod——myverybloodrunscold!

Beatrice,I’llfinishoffthisparamour。

Lucindo。Silence,fellow,I’llfollowyouthisinstant。

(Pertinienters。)

Pertini。What’sallthisnoise?Youthinkyou’reonthestreet?(ToWierin。)

Whydoyouscreech,youcrow?I’llstopyourmouth!(Aside。)

I’vecomejustinthenickoftime。ThefellowHassomewhatmisinterpretedmymeaning。

(Beatricefallsinafaint。)

Lucindo。Help!Sheswoons!OGod!

(Hebendsoverher。)

Cometoyourself,angel,sweetspirit,speak!(Hekissesher。)

Feelyouthewarmth?Hereyelidsflutter,shebreathes!

Beatrice,whyareyouso?Oh,tellme,why?

Youwanttokillme?CanIseeyouthus?

(Heraisesherup,embracingher。Wierinwantstorushuponhim。Pertiniholdshimback。)

Pertini。Come,friendCrow,justafewwordsinyourear。

Beatrice(inafaintvoice)。Lucindo,myLucindo,ah,mylostone,Andlosttome,myheart,beforeIwonyou。

Lucindo。Becalm,myangel,nothingshallbelost,AndsoonI’llseethisfellowbreathehislast。

(Hecarrieshertothesofa。)

Liethereawhile;wecannotlongremain,Thisholyplacemustbearnoevilstain。

Wierin。Come,weshallspeaktogether。

Pertini。I’llcometoo。

Onesecondataduelissomethingnew。

Lucindo。Composeyourself,sweetchild,beofgoodcheer。

Beatrice。Farewell。

Lucindo。Angel,farewell。

Beatrice(withadeepsigh)。I’mfulloffear。

(Curtain。EndofActI。)

Bookofverse——KarlMarxSONGTOTHESTARSYoudanceroundandaroundInshimmeringraysoflight,YoursoaringshapesaboundInnumberinfinite。

HerebreaksthenoblestSoul,Thefullheartburstsintwain,AndlikeajewelingoldIsclaspedbymortalpain。

ItturnsonyouitslookDarkly,compellingly,Fromyou,babe—like,wouldsuckHopeandEternity。

Alas,yourlightisneverMorethanaethereallyrare。

NodivinebeingeverCastintoyouhisfire。

Youarefalseimages,Facesofradiantflame;

Heart’swarmthandtendernessAndSoulyoucannotclaim。

AmockeryisyourshiningOfAction,Pain,Desire。

OnyouisdashedallyearningAndtheheart’ssongoffire。

Grieving,wemustturngrey,Endindespairandpain,ThenseethemockeryThatEarthandHeavenremain;

That,aswetrembleeven,Andworldswithinusdrown,Notreetrunk’severriven,Nostargoesplungingdown。

Deadyou’dbeotherwise,Yourgravetheoceanblue,Allgone,theshiningrays,Andallfirespentinyou。

Truthyou’dspeaksilently,Notdazzlewithdeadlight,Norshineinclarity;

AndallroundwouldbeNight。