第2章

Anditwasnightinhisheartalso。

Thenfromthemarshestohisrightandleftcoldmistsaroseandclosedabouthim。Afine,imperceptiblerainfellinthedark,andgreatdropsgatheredonhishairandclothes。Hisheartbeatslowly,andanumbnesscreptthroughallhislimbs。Then,lookingup,twomerrywisplightscamedancing。Heliftedhisheadtolookatthem。Nearer,nearertheycame。

Sowarm,sobright,theydancedlikestarsoffire。Theystoodbeforehimatlast。Fromthecentreoftheradiatingflameinonelookedoutawoman’sface,laughing,dimpled,withstreamingyellowhair。Inthecentreoftheotherweremerrylaughingripples,likethebubblesonaglassofwine。Theydancedbeforehim。

\"Whoareyou,\"askedthehunter,\"whoalonecometomeinmysolitudeanddarkness?\"

\"WearethetwinsSensuality,\"theycried。\"Ourfather’snameisHuman—

Nature,andourmother’snameisExcess。Weareasoldasthehillsandrivers,asoldasthefirstman;butweneverdie,\"theylaughed。

\"Oh,letmewrapmyarmsaboutyou!\"criedthefirst;\"theyaresoftandwarm。Yourheartisfrozennow,butIwillmakeitbeat。Oh,cometome!\"

\"Iwillpourmyhotlifeintoyou,\"saidthesecond;\"yourbrainisnumb,andyourlimbsaredeadnow;buttheyshalllivewithafiercefreelife。

Oh,letmepouritin!\"

\"Oh,followus,\"theycried,\"andlivewithus。Noblerheartsthanyourshavesathereinthisdarknesstowait,andtheyhavecometousandwetothem;andtheyhaveneverleftus,never。Allelseisadelusion,butwearereal,wearereal,wearereal。Truthisashadow;thevalleysofsuperstitionareafarce:theearthisofashes,thetreesallrotten;butwe——feelus——welive!Youcannotdoubtus。Feelushowwarmweare!Oh,cometous!Comewithus!\"

Nearerandnearerroundhisheadtheyhovered,andthecolddropsmeltedonhisforehead。Thebrightlightshotintohiseyes,dazzlinghim,andthefrozenbloodbegantorun。Andhesaid:

\"Yes,whyshouldIdiehereinthisawfuldarkness?Theyarewarm,theymeltmyfrozenblood!\"andhestretchedouthishandstotakethem。

Theninamomenttherearosebeforehimtheimageofthethinghehadloved,andhishanddroppedtohisside。

\"Oh,cometous!\"theycried。

Butheburiedhisface。

\"Youdazzlemyeyes,\"hecried,\"youmakemyheartwarm;butyoucannotgivemewhatIdesire。Iwillwaithere——waittillIdie。Go!\"

Hecoveredhisfacewithhishandsandwouldnotlisten;andwhenhelookedupagaintheyweretwotwinklingstars,thatvanishedinthedistance。

Andthelong,longnightrolledon。

Allwholeavethevalleyofsuperstitionpassthroughthatdarkland;butsomegothroughitinafewdays,somelingerthereformonths,someforyears,andsomediethere。

Atlastforthehunterafaintlightplayedalongthehorizon,andherosetofollowit;andhereachedthatlightatlast,andsteppedintothebroadsunshine。ThenbeforehimrosethealmightymountainsofDry—factsandRealities。Theclearsunshineplayedonthem,andthetopswerelostintheclouds。Atthefootmanypathsranup。Anexultantcryburstfromthehunter。Hechosethestraightestandbegantoclimb;andtherocksandridgesresoundedwithhissong。Theyhadexaggerated;afterall,itwasnotsohigh,norwastheroadsosteep!Afewdays,afewweeks,afewmonthsatmost,andthenthetop!Notonefeatheronlywouldhepickup;

hewouldgatherallthatothermenhadfound——weavethenet——captureTruth—

—holdherfast——touchherwithhishands——claspher!

Helaughedinthemerrysunshine,andsangloud。Victorywasverynear。

Nevertheless,afterawhilethepathgrewsteeper。Heneededallhisbreathforclimbing,andthesingingdiedaway。Ontherightandleftrosehugerocks,devoidoflichenormoss,andinthelava—likeearthchasmsyawned。Hereandtherehesawasheenofwhitebones。Nowtoothepathbegantogrowlessandlessmarked;thenitbecameameretrace,withafootmarkhereandthere;thenitceasedaltogether。Hesangnomore,butstruckforthapathforhimself,untilitreachedamightywallofrock,smoothandwithoutbreak,stretchingasfarastheeyecouldsee。\"Iwillrearastairagainstit;and,oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere,\"hesaidbravely;andworked。Withhisshuttleofimaginationhedugoutstones;buthalfofthemwouldnotfit,andhalfamonth’sworkwouldrolldownbecausethosebelowwereillchosen。Butthehunterworkedon,sayingalwaystohimself,\"Oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere。Thisgreatworkended!\"

Atlasthecameoutuponthetop,andhelookedabouthim。Farbelowrolledthewhitemistoverthevalleysofsuperstition,andabovehimtoweredthemountains。Theyhadseemedlowbefore;theywereofanimmeasurableheightnow,fromcrowntofoundationsurroundedbywallsofrock,thatrosetierabovetierinmightycircles。Uponthemplayedtheeternalsunshine。Heutteredawildcry。Hebowedhimselfontotheearth,andwhenherosehisfacewaswhite。Inabsolutesilencehewalkedon。Hewasverysilentnow。Inthosehighregionstherarefiedairishardtobreathebythoseborninthevalleys;everybreathhedrewhurthim,andthebloodoozedoutfromthetipsofhisfingers。Beforethenextwallofrockhebegantowork。Theheightofthisseemedinfinite,andhesaidnothing。Thesoundofhistoolrangnightanddayupontheironrocksintowhichhecutsteps。Yearspassedoverhim,yetheworkedon;butthewalltoweredupalwaysabovehimtoheaven。Sometimesheprayedthatalittlemossorlichenmightspringuponthosebarewallstobeacompaniontohim;butitnevercame。

Andtheyearsrolledon;hecountedthembythestepshehadcut——afewforayear——onlyafew。Hesangnomore;hesaidnomore,\"Iwilldothisorthat\"——heonlyworked。Andatnight,whenthetwilightsettleddown,therelookedoutathimfromtheholesandcrevicesintherocksstrangewildfaces。

\"Stopyourwork,youlonelyman,andspeaktous,\"theycried。

\"Mysalvationisinwork,ifIshouldstopbutforonemomentyouwouldcreepdownuponme,\"hereplied。Andtheyputouttheirlongnecksfurther。

\"Lookdownintothecreviceatyourfeet,\"theysaid。\"Seewhatliethere—

—whitebones!Asbraveandstrongamanasyouclimbedtotheserocks。\"

Andhelookedup。Hesawtherewasnouseinstriving;hewouldneverholdTruth,neverseeher,neverfindher。Sohelaydownhere,forhewasverytired。Hewenttosleepforever。Heputhimselftosleep。Sleepisverytranquil。Youarenotlonelywhenyouareasleep,neitherdoyourhandsache,noryourheart。Andthehunterlaughedbetweenhisteeth。

\"HaveItornfrommyheartallthatwasdearest;haveIwanderedaloneinthelandofnight;haveIresistedtemptation;haveIdweltwherethevoiceofmykindisneverheard,andlabouredalone,toliedownandbefoodforyou,yeharpies?\"

Helaughedfiercely;andtheEchoesofDespairslunkaway,forthelaughofabrave,strongheartisasadeathblowtothem。

Neverthelesstheycreptoutagainandlookedathim。

\"Doyouknowthatyourhairiswhite?\"theysaid,\"thatyourhandsbegintotremblelikeachild’s?Doyouseethatthepointofyourshuttleisgone?——itiscrackedalready。Ifyoushouldeverclimbthisstair,\"theysaid,\"itwillbeyourlast。Youwillneverclimbanother。\"

Andheanswered,\"Iknowit!\"andworkedon。

Theold,thinhandscutthestonesillandjaggedly,forthefingerswerestiffandbent。Thebeautyandthestrengthofthemanwasgone。

Atlast,anold,wizened,shrunkenfacelookedoutabovetherocks。Itsawtheeternalmountainsrisewithwallstothewhiteclouds;butitsworkwasdone。

Theoldhunterfoldedhistiredhandsandlaydownbytheprecipicewherehehadworkedawayhislife。Itwasthesleepingtimeatlast。Belowhimoverthevalleysrolledthethickwhitemist。Onceitbroke;andthroughthegapthedyingeyeslookeddownonthetreesandfieldsoftheirchildhood。Fromafarseemedbornetohimthecryofhisownwildbirds,andheheardthenoiseofpeoplesingingastheydanced。Andhethoughtheheardamongthemthevoicesofhisoldcomrades;andhesawfaroffthesunlightshineonhisearlyhome。Andgreattearsgatheredinthehunter’seyes。

\"Ah!theywhodietheredonotdiealone,\"hecried。

Thenthemistsrolledtogetheragain;andheturnedhiseyesaway。

\"Ihavesought,\"hesaid,\"forlongyearsIhavelaboured;butIhavenotfoundher。Ihavenotrested,Ihavenotrepined,andIhavenotseenher;

nowmystrengthisgone。WhereIliedownwornoutothermenwillstand,youngandfresh。BythestepsthatIhavecuttheywillclimb;bythestairsthatIhavebuilttheywillmount。Theywillneverknowthenameofthemanwhomadethem。Attheclumsyworktheywilllaugh;whenthestonesrolltheywillcurseme。Buttheywillmount,andonmywork;theywillclimb,andbymystair!Theywillfindher,andthroughme!Andnomanlivethtohimselfandnomandiethtohimself。\"

Thetearsrolledfrombeneaththeshrivelledeyelids。IfTruthhadappearedabovehiminthecloudsnowhecouldnothaveseenher,themistofdeathwasinhiseyes。

\"Mysoulhearstheirgladstepcoming,\"hesaid;\"andtheyshallmount!

theyshallmount!\"Heraisedhisshrivelledhandtohiseyes。

Thenslowlyfromthewhiteskyabove,throughthestillair,camesomethingfalling,falling,falling。Softlyitfluttereddown,anddroppedontothebreastofthedyingman。Hefeltitwithhishands。Itwasafeather。Hediedholdingit。

III。THEGARDENSOFPLEASURE。

Shewalkeduponthebeds,andthesweetrichscentarose;andshegatheredherhandsfullofflowers。ThenDuty,withhiswhiteclearfeatures,cameandlookedather。Thensheceasedfromgathering,butshewalkedawayamongtheflowers,smiling,andwithherhandsfull。

ThenDuty,withhisstillwhiteface,cameagain,andlookedather;butshe,sheturnedherheadawayfromhim。Atlastshesawhisface,andshedroppedthefairestoftheflowersshehadheld,andwalkedsilentlyaway。

Thenagainhecametoher。Andshemoaned,andbentherheadlow,andturnedtothegate。Butasshewentoutshelookedbackatthesunlightonthefacesoftheflowers,andweptinanguish。Thenshewentout,anditshutbehindherforever;butstillinherhandsheheldofthebudsshehadgathered,andthescentwasverysweetinthelonelydesert。

Buthefollowedher。Oncemorehestoodbeforeherwithhisstill,white,death—likeface。Andsheknewwhathehadcomefor:sheunbentthefingers,andlettheflowersdropout,theflowersshehadlovedso,andwalkedonwithoutthem,withdry,achingeyes。Thenforthelasttimehecame。Andsheshowedhimheremptyhands,thehandsthatheldnothingnow。

Butstillhelooked。Thenatlengthsheopenedherbosomandtookoutofitonesmallflowershehadhiddenthere,andlaiditonthesand。Shehadnothingmoretogivenow,andshewanderedaway,andthegreysandwhirledabouther。

IV。INAFAR—OFFWORLD。

Thereisaworldinoneofthefar—offstars,andthingsdonothappenhereastheyhappenthere。

Inthatworldwereamanandwoman;theyhadonework,andtheywalkedtogethersidebysideonmanydays,andwerefriends——andthatisathingthathappensnowandtheninthisworldalso。

Buttherewassomethinginthatstar—worldthatthereisnothere。Therewasathickwood:wherethetreesgrewclosest,andthestemswereinterlocked,andthesummersunnevershone,therestoodashrine。Inthedayallwasquiet,butatnight,whenthestarsshoneorthemoonglintedonthetree—tops,andallwasquietbelow,ifonecreptherequitealoneandkneltonthestepsofthestonealtar,anduncoveringone’sbreast,sowoundeditthatthebloodfelldownonthealtarsteps,thenwhateverhewhoknelttherewishedforwasgrantedhim。Andallthishappens,asI

said,becauseitisafar—offworld,andthingsoftenhappenthereastheydonothappenhere。

Now,themanandwomanwalkedtogether;andthewomanwishedwelltotheman。Onenightwhenthemoonwasshiningsothattheleavesofallthetreesglinted,andthewavesoftheseaweresilvery,thewomanwalkedalonetotheforest。Itwasdarkthere;themoonlightfellonlyinlittleflecksonthedeadleavesunderherfeet,andthebrancheswereknottedtightoverhead。Fartherinitgotdarker,notevenafleckofmoonlightshone。Thenshecametotheshrine;shekneltdownbeforeitandprayed;

therecamenoanswer。Thensheuncoveredherbreast;withasharptwo—

edgedstonethatlaythereshewoundedit。Thedropsdrippedslowlydownontothestone,andavoicecried,\"Whatdoyouseek?\"

Sheanswered,\"Thereisaman;Iholdhimnearerthananything。Iwouldgivehimthebestofallblessings。\"

Thevoicesaid,\"Whatisit?\"

Thegirlsaid,\"Iknownot,butthatwhichismostgoodforhimIwishhimtohave。\"

Thevoicesaid,\"Yourprayerisanswered;heshallhaveit。\"

Thenshestoodup。Shecoveredherbreastandheldthegarmenttightuponitwithherhand,andranoutoftheforest,andthedeadleavesflutteredunderherfeet。Outinthemoonlightthesoftairwasblowing,andthesandglitteredonthebeach。Sheranalongthesmoothshore,thensuddenlyshestoodstill。Outacrossthewatertherewassomethingmoving。Sheshadedhereyesandlooked。Itwasaboat;itwasslidingswiftlyoverthemoonlitwaterouttosea。Onestooduprightinit;thefacethemoonlightdidnotshow,butthefiguresheknew。Itwaspassingswiftly;itseemedasifnoonepropelledit;themoonlight’sshimmerdidnotletherseeclearly,andtheboatwasfarfromshore,butitseemedalmostasiftherewasanotherfiguresittinginthestern。Fasterandfasteritglidedoverthewateraway,away。Sheranalongtheshore;shecamenonearerit。Thegarmentshehadheldclosedflutteredopen;shestretchedoutherarms,andthemoonlightshoneonherlongloosehair。

Thenavoicebesideherwhispered,\"Whatisit?\"

Shecried,\"WithmybloodIboughtthebestofallgiftsforhim。Ihavecometobringithim!Heisgoingfromme!\"

Thevoicewhisperedsoftly,\"Yourprayerwasanswered。Ithasbeengivenhim。\"

Shecried,\"Whatisit?\"

Thevoiceanswered,\"Itisthathemightleaveyou。\"

Thegirlstoodstill。

Faroutatseatheboatwaslosttosightbeyondthemoonlightsheen。

Thevoicespokesoftly,\"Artthoucontented?\"

Shesaid,\"Iamcontented。\"

Atherfeetthewavesbrokeinlongripplessoftlyontheshore。

V。THREEDREAMSINADESERT。

UnderaMimosa—Tree。

AsItravelledacrossanAfricanplainthesunshonedownhotly。ThenI

drewmyhorseupunderamimosa—tree,andItookthesaddlefromhimandlefthimtofeedamongtheparchedbushes。Andalltorightandtoleftstretchedthebrownearth。AndIsatdownunderthetree,becausetheheatbeatfiercely,andallalongthehorizontheairthrobbed。Andafterawhileaheavydrowsinesscameoverme,andIlaidmyheaddownagainstmysaddle,andIfellasleepthere。And,inmysleep,Ihadacuriousdream。

IthoughtIstoodontheborderofagreatdesert,andthesandblewabouteverywhere。AndIthoughtIsawtwogreatfigureslikebeastsofburdenofthedesert,andonelayuponthesandwithitsneckstretchedout,andonestoodbyit。AndIlookedcuriouslyattheonethatlayupontheground,forithadagreatburdenonitsback,andthesandwasthickaboutit,sothatitseemedtohavepiledoveritforcenturies。

AndIlookedverycuriouslyatit。Andtherestoodonebesidemewatching。

AndIsaidtohim,\"Whatisthishugecreaturewholieshereonthesand?\"

Andhesaid,\"Thisiswoman;shethatbearsmeninherbody。\"

AndIsaid,\"Whydoesshelieheremotionlesswiththesandpiledroundher?\"

Andheanswered,\"Listen,Iwilltellyou!Agesandageslongshehaslainhere,andthewindhasblownoverher。Theoldest,oldest,oldestmanlivinghasneverseenhermove:theoldest,oldestbookrecordsthatshelayherethen,assheliesherenow,withthesandabouther。Butlisten!

Olderthantheoldestbook,olderthantheoldestrecordedmemoryofman,ontheRocksofLanguage,onthehard—bakedclayofAncientCustoms,nowcrumblingtodecay,arefoundthemarksofherfootsteps!Sidebysidewithhiswhostandsbesideheryoumaytracethem;andyouknowthatshewhonowliesthereoncewanderedfreeovertherockswithhim。\"

AndIsaid,\"Whydoesshelietherenow?\"

Andhesaid,\"Itakeit,agesagotheAge—of—dominion—of—muscular—forcefoundher,andwhenshestoopedlowtogivesucktoheryoung,andherbackwasbroad,heputhisburdenofsubjectionontoit,andtieditonwiththebroadbandofInevitableNecessity。Thenshelookedattheearthandthesky,andknewtherewasnohopeforher;andshelaydownonthesandwiththeburdenshecouldnotloosen。Eversinceshehaslainhere。Andtheageshavecome,andtheageshavegone,butthebandofInevitableNecessityhasnotbeencut。\"

AndIlookedandsawinhereyestheterriblepatienceofthecenturies;

thegroundwaswetwithhertears,andhernostrilsblewupthesand。