第3章

AndIsaid,\"Hassheevertriedtomove?\"

Andhesaid,\"Sometimesalimbhasquivered。Butsheiswise;sheknowsshecannotrisewiththeburdenonher。\"

AndIsaid,\"Whydoesnothewhostandsbyherleaveherandgoon?\"

Andhesaid,\"Hecannot。Look——\"

AndIsawabroadbandpassingalongthegroundfromonetotheother,anditboundthemtogether。

Hesaid,\"Whilesheliestherehemuststandandlookacrossthedesert。\"

AndIsaid,\"Doesheknowwhyhecannotmove?\"

Andhesaid,\"No。\"

AndIheardasoundofsomethingcracking,andIlooked,andIsawthebandthatboundtheburdenontoherbackbrokenasunder;andtheburdenrolledontotheground。

AndIsaid,\"Whatisthis?\"

Andhesaid,\"TheAge—of—muscular—forceisdead。TheAge—of—nervous—forcehaskilledhimwiththeknifeheholdsinhishand;andsilentlyandinvisiblyhehascreptuptothewoman,andwiththatknifeofMechanicalInventionhehascutthebandthatboundtheburdentoherback。TheInevitableNecessityitbroken。Shemightrisenow。\"

AndIsawthatshestilllaymotionlessonthesand,withhereyesopenandherneckstretchedout。Andsheseemedtolookforsomethingonthefar—

offborderofthedesertthatnevercame。AndIwonderedifshewereawakeorasleep。AndasIlookedherbodyquivered,andalightcameintohereyes,likewhenasunbeambreaksintoadarkroom。

Isaid,\"Whatisit?\"

Hewhispered\"Hush!thethoughthascometoher,’MightInotrise?’\"

AndIlooked。Andsheraisedherheadfromthesand,andIsawthedentwhereherneckhadlainsolong。Andshelookedattheearth,andshelookedatthesky,andshelookedathimwhostoodbyher:buthelookedoutacrossthedesert。

AndIsawherbodyquiver;andshepressedherfrontkneestotheearth,andveinsstoodout;andIcried;\"Sheisgoingtorise!\"

Butonlyhersidesheaved,andshelaystillwhereshewas。

Butherheadsheheldup;shedidnotlayitdownagain。Andhebesidemesaid,\"Sheisveryweak。See,herlegshavebeencrushedunderhersolong。\"

AndIsawthecreaturestruggle:andthedropsstoodoutonher。

AndIsaid,\"Surelyhewhostandsbesideherwillhelpher?\"

Andhebesidemeanswered,\"Hecannothelpher:shemusthelpherself。

Letherstruggletillsheisstrong。\"

AndIcried,\"Atleasthewillnothinderher!See,hemovesfartherfromher,andtightensthecordbetweenthem,andhedragsherdown。\"

Andheanswered,\"Hedoesnotunderstand。Whenshemovesshedrawsthebandthatbindsthem,andhurtshim,andhemovesfartherfromher。Thedaywillcomewhenhewillunderstand,andwillknowwhatsheisdoing。

Letheroncestaggerontoherknees。Inthatdayhewillstandclosetoher,andlookintohereyeswithsympathy。\"

Andshestretchedherneck,andthedropsfellfromher。Andthecreatureroseaninchfromtheearthandsankback。

AndIcried,\"Oh,sheistooweak!shecannotwalk!Thelongyearshavetakenallherstrengthfromher。Canshenevermove?\"

Andheansweredme,\"Seethelightinhereyes!\"

Andslowlythecreaturestaggeredontoitsknees。

AndIawoke:andalltotheeastandtotheweststretchedthebarrenearth,withthedrybushesonit。Theantsranupanddownintheredsand,andtheheatbeatfiercely。Ilookedupthroughthethinbranchesofthetreeattheblueskyoverhead。Istretchedmyself,andImusedoverthedreamIhadhad。AndIfellasleepagain,withmyheadonmysaddle。

AndinthefierceheatIhadanotherdream。

IsawadesertandIsawawomancomingoutofit。Andshecametothebankofadarkriver;andthebankwassteepandhigh。(ThebanksofanAfricanriveraresometimesahundredfeethigh,andconsistofdeepshiftingsands,throughwhichinthecourseofagestheriverhaswornitsgiganticbed。)Andonitanoldmanmether,whohadalongwhitebeard;

andastickthatcurledwasinhishand,andonitwaswrittenReason。Andheaskedherwhatshewanted;andshesaid\"Iamwoman;andIamseekingforthelandofFreedom。\"

Andhesaid,\"Itisbeforeyou。\"

Andshesaid,\"Iseenothingbeforemebutadarkflowingriver,andabanksteepandhigh,andcuttingshereandtherewithheavysandinthem。\"

Andhesaid,\"Andbeyondthat?\"

Shesaid,\"Iseenothing,butsometimes,whenIshademyeyeswithmyhand,IthinkIseeonthefurtherbanktreesandhills,andthesunshiningonthem!\"

Hesaid,\"ThatistheLandofFreedom。\"

Shesaid,\"HowamItogetthere?\"

Hesaid,\"Thereisoneway,andoneonly。DownthebanksofLabour,throughthewaterofSuffering。Thereisnoother。\"

Shesaid,\"Istherenobridge?\"

Heanswered。\"None。\"

Shesaid,\"Isthewaterdeep?\"

Hesaid,\"Deep。\"

Shesaid,\"Isthefloorworn?\"

Hesaid,\"Itis。Yourfootmayslipatanytime,andyoumaybelost。\"

Shesaid,\"Haveanycrossedalready?\"

Hesaid,\"Somehavetried!\"

Shesaid,\"Isthereatracktoshowwherethebestfordingis?\"

Hesaid,\"Ithastobemade。\"

Sheshadedhereyeswithherhand;andshesaid,\"Iwillgo。\"

Andhesaid,\"Youmusttakeofftheclothesyouworeinthedesert:theyaredraggeddownbythemwhogointothewatersoclothed。\"

AndshethrewfromhergladlythemantleofAncient—received—opinionsshewore,foritwaswornfullofholes。Andshetookthegirdlefromherwaistthatshehadtreasuredsolong,andthemothsflewoutofitinacloud。Andhesaid,\"Taketheshoesofdependenceoffyourfeet。\"

Andshestoodtherenaked,butforonewhitegarmentthatclungclosetoher。

Andhesaid,\"Thatyoumaykeep。SotheywearclothesintheLandofFreedom。Inthewateritbuoys;italwaysswims。\"

AndIsawonitsbreastwaswrittenTruth;anditwaswhite;thesunhadnotoftenshoneonit;theotherclotheshadcovereditup。Andhesaid,\"Takethisstick;holditfast。Inthatdaywhenitslipsfromyourhandyouarelost。Putitdownbeforeyou;feelyourway:whereitcannotfindabottomdonotsetyourfoot。\"

Andshesaid,\"Iamready;letmego。\"

Andhesaid,\"No——butstay;whatisthat——inyourbreast?\"

Shewassilent。

Hesaid,\"Openit,andletmesee。\"

Andsheopenedit。Andagainstherbreastwasatinything,whodrankfromit,andtheyellowcurlsabovehisforeheadpressedagainstit;andhiskneesweredrawnuptoher,andheheldherbreastfastwithhishands。

AndReasonsaid,\"Whoishe,andwhatishedoinghere?\"

Andshesaid,\"Seehislittlewings——\"

AndReasonsaid,\"Puthimdown。\"

Andshesaid,\"Heisasleep,andheisdrinking!IwillcarryhimtotheLandofFreedom。Hehasbeenachildsolong,solong,Ihavecarriedhim。

IntheLandofFreedomhewillbeaman。Wewillwalktogetherthere,andhisgreatwhitewingswillovershadowme。Hehaslispedonewordonlytomeinthedesert——’Passion!’Ihavedreamedhemightlearntosay’Friendship’inthatland。\"

AndReasonsaid,\"Puthimdown!\"

Andshesaid,\"Iwillcarryhimso——withonearm,andwiththeotherIwillfightthewater。\"

Hesaid,\"Layhimdownontheground。Whenyouareinthewateryouwillforgettofight,youwillthinkonlyofhim。Layhimdown。\"Hesaid,\"Hewillnotdie。Whenhefindsyouhavelefthimalonehewillopenhiswingsandfly。HewillbeintheLandofFreedombeforeyou。ThosewhoreachtheLandofFreedom,thefirsthandtheyseestretchingdownthebanktohelpthemshallbeLove’s。Hewillbeamanthen,notachild。Inyourbreasthecannotthrive;puthimdownthathemaygrow。\"

Andshetookherbosomfromhismouth,andhebither,sothatthebloodrandownontotheground。Andshelaidhimdownontheearth;andshecoveredherwound。Andshebentandstrokedhiswings。AndIsawthehaironherforeheadturnedwhiteassnow,andshehadchangedfromyouthtoage。

Andshestoodfaroffonthebankoftheriver。Andshesaid,\"ForwhatdoIgotothisfarlandwhichnoonehaseverreached?Oh,Iamalone!Iamutterlyalone!\"

AndReason,thatoldman,saidtoher,\"Silence!Whatdoyouhear?\"

Andshelistenedintently,andshesaid,\"Ihearasoundoffeet,athousandtimestenthousandandthousandsofthousands,andtheybeatthisway!\"

Hesaid,\"Theyarethefeetofthosethatshallfollowyou。Leadon!makeatracktothewater’sedge!Whereyoustandnow,thegroundwillbebeatenflatbytenthousandtimestenthousandfeet。\"Andhesaid,\"Haveyouseenthelocustshowtheycrossastream?Firstonecomesdowntothewater—edge,anditissweptaway,andthenanothercomesandthenanother,andthenanother,andatlastwiththeirbodiespiledupabridgeisbuiltandtherestpassover。\"

Shesaid,\"And,ofthosethatcomefirst,somearesweptaway,andareheardofnomore;theirbodiesdonotevenbuildthebridge?\"

\"Andaresweptaway,andareheardofnomore——andwhatofthat?\"hesaid。

\"Andwhatofthat——\"shesaid。

\"Theymakeatracktothewater’sedge。\"

\"Theymakeatracktothewater’sedge——。\"Andshesaid,\"Overthatbridgewhichshallbebuiltwithourbodies,whowillpass?\"

Hesaid,\"Theentirehumanrace。\"

Andthewomangraspedherstaff。

AndIsawherturndownthatdarkpathtotheriver。

AndIawoke;andallaboutmewastheyellowafternoonlight:thesinkingsunlitupthefingersofthemilkbushes;andmyhorsestoodbymequietlyfeeding。AndIturnedonmyside,andIwatchedtheantsrunbythousandsintheredsand。IthoughtIwouldgoonmywaynow——theafternoonwascooler。Thenadrowsinesscreptovermeagain,andIlaidbackmyheadandfellasleep。

AndIdreamedadream。

IdreamedIsawaland。Andonthehillswalkedbravewomenandbravemen,handinhand。Andtheylookedintoeachother’seyes,andtheywerenotafraid。

AndIsawthewomenalsoholdeachother’shands。

AndIsaidtohimbesideme,\"Whatplaceisthis?\"

Andhesaid,\"Thisisheaven。\"

AndIsaid,\"Whereisit?\"

Andheanswered,\"Onearth。\"

AndIsaid,\"Whenshallthesethingsbe?\"

Andheanswered,\"INTHEFUTURE。\"

AndIawoke,andallaboutmewasthesunsetlight;andonthelowhillsthesunlay,andadeliciouscoolnesshadcreptovereverything;andtheantsweregoingslowlyhome。AndIwalkedtowardsmyhorse,whostoodquietlyfeeding。Thenthesunpasseddownbehindthehills;butIknewthatthenextdayhewouldariseagain。

VI。ADREAMOFWILDBEES。

Amothersataloneatanopenwindow。Throughitcamethevoicesofthechildrenastheyplayedundertheacacia—trees,andthebreathofthehotafternoonair。Inandoutoftheroomflewthebees,thewildbees,withtheirlegsyellowwithpollen,goingtoandfromtheacacia—trees,droningallthewhile。Shesatonalowchairbeforethetableanddarned。Shetookherworkfromthegreatbasketthatstoodbeforeheronthetable:

somelayonherkneeandhalfcoveredthebookthatrestedthere。Shewatchedtheneedlegoinandout;andthedrearyhumofthebeesandthenoiseofthechildren’svoicesbecameaconfusedmurmurinherears,assheworkedslowlyandmoreslowly。Thenthebees,thelong—leggedwasp—likefellowswhomakenohoney,flewcloserandclosertoherhead,droning。

Thenshegrewmoreandmoredrowsy,andshelaidherhand,withthestockingoverit,ontheedgeofthetable,andleanedherheaduponit。

Andthevoicesofthechildrenoutsidegrewmoreandmoredreamy,camenowfar,nownear;thenshedidnothearthem,butshefeltunderherheartwheretheninthchildlay。Bentforwardandsleepingthere,withthebeesflyingaboutherhead,shehadaweirdbrain—picture;shethoughtthebeeslengthenedandlengthenedthemselvesoutandbecamehumancreaturesandmovedroundandroundher。Thenonecametohersoftly,saying,\"Letmelaymyhanduponthysidewherethechildsleeps。IfIshalltouchhimheshallbeasI。\"

Sheasked,\"Whoareyou?\"

Andhesaid,\"IamHealth。WhomItouchwillhavealwaystheredblooddancinginhisveins;hewillnotknowwearinessnorpain;lifewillbealonglaughtohim。\"

\"No,\"saidanother,\"letmetouch;forIamWealth。IfItouchhimmaterialcareshallnotfeedonhim。Heshallliveonthebloodandsinewsofhisfellow—men,ifhewill;andwhathiseyelustsfor,hishandwillhave。Heshallnotknow’Iwant。’\"Andthechildlaystilllikelead。

Andanothersaid,\"Letmetouchhim:IamFame。ThemanItouch,Ileadtoahighhillwhereallmenmayseehim。Whenhediesheisnotforgotten,hisnameringsdownthecenturies,eachechoesitontohisfellows。Think——nottobeforgottenthroughtheages!\"

Andthemotherlaybreathingsteadily,butinthebrain—picturetheypressedclosertoher。

\"Letmetouchthechild,\"saidone,\"forIamLove。IfItouchhimheshallnotwalkthroughlifealone。Inthegreatestdark,whenheputsouthishandheshallfindanotherhandbyit。Whentheworldisagainsthim,anothershallsay,’YouandI。’\"Andthechildtrembled。

Butanotherpressedcloseandsaid,\"Letmetouch;forIamTalent。Icandoallthings——thathavebeendonebefore。Itouchthesoldier,thestatesman,thethinker,andthepoliticianwhosucceed;andthewriterwhoisneverbeforehistime,andneverbehindit。IfItouchthechildheshallnotweepforfailure。\"

Aboutthemother’sheadthebeeswereflying,touchingherwiththeirlongtaperinglimbs;and,inherbrain—picture,outoftheshadowoftheroomcameonewithsallowface,deep—lined,thecheeksdrawnintohollows,andamouthsmilingquiveringly。Hestretchedouthishand。Andthemotherdrewback,andcried,\"Whoareyou?\"Heanswerednothing;andshelookedupbetweenhiseyelids。Andshesaid,\"Whatcanyougivethechild——health?\"

Andhesaid,\"ThemanItouch,therewakesupinhisbloodaburningfever,thatshalllickhisbloodasfire。ThefeverthatIwillgivehimshallbecuredwhenhislifeiscured。\"

\"Yougivewealth?\"

Heshookhishead。\"ThemanwhomItouch,whenhebendstopickupgold,heseessuddenlyalightoverhisheadinthesky;whilehelooksuptoseeit,thegoldslipsfrombetweenhisfingers,orsometimesanotherpassingtakesitfromthem。\"

\"Fame?\"

Heanswered,\"likelynot。ForthemanItouchthereisapathtracedoutinthesandbyafingerwhichnomansees。Thathemustfollow。Sometimesitleadsalmosttothetop,andthenturnsdownsuddenlyintothevalley。

Hemustfollowit,thoughnoneelseseesthetracing。\"

\"Love?\"

Hesaid,\"Heshallhungerforit——butheshallnotfindit。Whenhestretchesouthisarmstoit,andwouldlayhisheartagainstathingheloves,then,faroffalongthehorizonheshallseealightplay。Hemustgotowardsit。Thethingheloveswillnotjourneywithhim;hemusttravelalone。Whenhepressessomewhattohisburningheart,crying,’Mine,mine,myown!’heshallhearavoice——’Renounce!renounce!thisisnotthine!’\"

\"Heshallsucceed?\"

Hesaid,\"Heshallfail。Whenherunswithotherstheyshallreachthegoalbeforehim。Forstrangevoicesshallcalltohimandstrangelightsshallbeckonhim,andhemustwaitandlisten。Andthisshallbethestrangest:faroffacrosstheburningsandswhere,toothermen,thereisonlythedesert’swaste,heshallseeabluesea!Onthatseathesunshinesalways,andthewaterisblueasburningamethyst,andthefoamiswhiteontheshore。Agreatlandrisesfromit,andheshallseeuponthemountain—topsburninggold。\"

Themothersaid,\"Heshallreachit?\"

Andhesmiledcuriously。

Shesaid,\"Itisreal?\"

Andhesaid,\"WhatISreal?\"

Andshelookedupbetweenhishalf—closedeyelids,andsaid,\"Touch。\"

Andheleanedforwardandlaidhishanduponthesleeper,andwhisperedtoit,smiling;andthisonlysheheard——\"Thisshallbethyreward——thattheidealshallberealtothee。\"

Andthechildtrembled;butthemothersleptonheavilyandherbrain—

picturevanished。Butdeepwithinhertheantenatalthingthatlayherehadadream。Inthoseeyesthathadneverseentheday,inthathalf—

shapedbrainwasasensationoflight!Light——thatitneverhadseen。

Light——thatperhapsitnevershouldsee。Light——thatexistedsomewhere!

Andalreadyithaditsreward:theIdealwasrealtoit。

London。

VII。INARUINEDCHAPEL。

\"Icannotforgive——Ilove。\"

Therearefourbarewalls;thereisaChristuponthewalls,inred,carryinghiscross;thereisaBlessedBambinowiththefacerubbedout;

thereisMadonnainblueandred;thereareRomansoldiersandaChristwithtiedhands。Alltheroofisgone;overheadistheblue,blueItaliansky;therainhasbeatenholesinthewalls,andtheplasterispeelingfromit。Thechapelstandsherealoneuponthepromontory,andbydayandbynighttheseabreaksatitsfeet。Somesaythatitwassetherebythemonksfromtheislanddownbelow,thattheymightbringtheirsickhereintimesofdeadlyplague。Somesaythatitwassetherethatthepassingmonksandfriars,astheyhurriedbyupontheroadway,mightstopandsaytheirprayershere。Nownoonestopstoprayhere,andthesickcomenomoretobehealed。

BehinditrunstheoldRomanroad。IfyouclimbitandcomeandsittherealoneonahotsunnydayyoumayalmosthearatlasttheclinkoftheRomansoldiersuponthepavement,andthesoundofthatoldertime,asyousitthereinthesun,whenHannibalandhismenbrokethroughthebrushwood,andnoroadwas。

Nowitisveryquiet。Sometimesapeasantgirlcomesridingbybetweenherpanniers,andyouhearthemule’sfeetbeatuponthebricksofthepavement;sometimesanoldwomangoespastwithabundleofweedsuponherhead,orabrigand—lookingmanhurriesbywithabundleofsticksinhishand;butfortheresttheChapelliesherealoneuponthepromontory,betweenthetwobaysandhearstheseabreakatitsfeet。