第6章

neverthelessthelightisallone。\"

AndIsawoverthebridgenearestme,whichwaswiderthantheother,countlessfootmarksgo。IaskedGodwhysomanywentoverit。

Godsaid,\"Itslopeslessdeeply,andleadstothefirstheaven。\"

AndIsawthatsomeofthefootmarkswereoffeetreturning。IaskedGodhowitwas。

Hesaid,\"NomanwhohasonceenteredHeaveneverleavesit;butsome,whentheyhavegonehalfway,turnback,becausetheyareafraidthereisnolandbeyond。\"

Isaid,\"Hasnoneeverreturned?\"

Godsaid,\"No;onceinHeavenalwaysinHeaven。\"

AndGodtookmeover。Andwhenwecametooneofthegreatdoors——forHeavenhasmoredoorsthanone,andtheyareallopen——thepostsroseupsohighoneithersideIcouldnotseethetop,norindeediftherewereany。

AnditseemedtomesowidethatallHellcouldgointhroughit。

IsaidtoGod,\"Whichisthelarger,HeavenorHell?\"

Godsaid,\"Hellisaswide,butHeavenisdeeper。AllHellcouldbeengulfedinHeaven,butallHeavencouldnotbeengulfedinHell。\"

Andweentered。Itwasastillgreatland。Themountainsroseoneveryhand,andtherewasapaleclearlight;andIsawitcamefromtherocksandstones。IaskedGodhowitwas。

ButGoddidnotanswerme。

Ilookedandwondered,forIhadthoughtHeavenwouldbeotherwise。Andafterawhileitbegantogrowbrighter,asifthedaywerebreaking,andI

askedGodifthesunwerenotgoingtorise。

Godsaid,\"No;wearecomingtowherethepeopleare。\"

Andaswewentonitgrewbrighterandbrightertillitwasburningday;

andontherockwereflowersblooming,andtreesblossomedattheroadside;

andstreamsofwaterraneverywhere,andIheardthebirdssinging;IaskedGodwheretheywere。

Godsaid,\"Itisthepeoplecallingtooneanother。\"

AndwhenwecamenearerIsawthemwalking,andtheyshoneastheywalked。

IaskedGodhowitwastheyworenocovering。

Godsaid,\"Becausealltheirbodygivesthelight;theydarenotcoveranypart。\"

AndIaskedGodwhattheyweredoing。

Godsaid,\"Shiningontheplantsthattheymaygrow。\"

AndIsawthatsomewereworkingincompanies,andsomealone,butmostwereintwos,sometimestwomenandsometimestwowomen;butgenerallytherewasonemanandonewoman;andIaskedGodhowitwas。

Godsaid,\"Whenonemanandonewomanshinetogether,itmakesthemostperfectlight。Manyplantsneedthatfortheirgrowing。Nevertheless,therearemorekindsofplantsinHeaventhanone,andtheyneedmanykindsoflight。\"

Andonefromamongthepeoplecamerunningtowardsme;andwhenhecamenearitseemedtomethatheandIhadplayedtogetherwhenwewerelittlechildren,andthatwehadbeenbornonthesameday。AndItoldGodwhatI

felt;Godsaid,\"AllmenfeelsoinHeavenwhenanothercomestowardsthem。\"

Andhewhorantowardsmeheldmyhand,andledmethroughthebrightlights。Andwhenwecameamongthetreeshesangaloud,andhiscompanionanswered,anditwasawoman,andheshowedmetoher。Shesaid,\"Hemusthavewater\";andshetooksomeinherhands,andfedme(IhadbeenafraidtodrinkofthewaterinHell),andtheygatheredfruitforme,andgaveitmetoeat。Theysaid,\"Weshonelongtomakeitripen,\"andtheylaughedtogetherastheysawmeeatit。

Themansaid,\"Heisveryweary;hemustsleep\"(forIhadnotdaredtosleepinHell),andhelaidmyheadonhiscompanion’skneeandspreadherhairoutoverme。Islept,andallthewhileinmysleepIthoughtIheardthebirdscallingacrossme。AndwhenIwokeitwaslikeearlymorning,withthedewoneverything。

Andthemantookmyhandandledmetoahiddenspotamongtherocks。Thegroundwasveryhard,butoutofitweresproutingtinyplants,andtherewasalittlestreamrunning。Hesaid,\"Thisisagardenwearemaking,nooneelseknowsofit。Weshinehereeveryday;see,thegroundhascrackedwithourshining,andthislittlestreamisburstingout。See,theflowersaregrowing。\"

Andheclimbedontherocksandpickedfromabovetwolittleflowerswithdewonthem,andgavethemtome。AndItookoneineachhand;myhandsshoneasIheldthem。Hesaid,\"Thisgardenisforallwhenitisfinished。\"Andhewentawaytohiscompanion,andIwentoutintothegreatpathway。

AndasIwalkedinthelightIheardaloudsoundofmuchsinging。AndwhenIcamenearerIsawonewithclosedeyes,singing,andhisfellowswerestandingroundhim;andthelightontheclosedeyeswasbrighterthananythingIhadseeninHeaven。Iaskedonewhoitwas。Andhesaid,\"Hush!Oursingingbird。\"

AndIaskedwhytheeyesshoneso。

Andhesaid,\"Theycannotsee,andwehavekissedthemtilltheyshoneso。\"

Andthepeoplegatheredcloserroundhim。

AndwhenIwentalittlefurtherIsawacrowdcrossingamongthetreesoflightwithgreatlaughter。WhentheycamecloseIsawtheycarriedonewithouthandsorfeet。AndalightcamefromthemaimedlimbssobrightthatIcouldnotlookatthem。

AndIsaidtoone,\"Whatisit?\"

Heanswered,\"Thisisourbrotherwhooncefellandlosthishandsandfeet,andsincethenhecannothelphimself;butwehavetouchedthemaimedstumpssooftenthatnowtheyshinebrighterthananythinginHeaven。Wepasshimonthathemayshineonthingsthatneedmuchheat。Nooneisallowedtokeephimlong,hebelongstoall\";andtheywentonamongthetrees。

IsaidtoGod,\"Thisisastrangeland。Ihadthoughtblindnessandmaimednessweregreatevils。Heremenmakethemtoarejoicing。\"

Godsaid,\"Didstthouthenthinkthatlovehadneedofeyesandhands!\"

AndIwalkeddowntheshiningwaywithpalmsoneitherhand。IsaidtoGod,\"EversinceIwasalittlechildandsataloneandcried,Ihavedreamedofthisland,andnowIwillnotgoawayagain。Iwillstayhereandshine。\"AndIbegantotakeoffmygarments,thatImightshineasothersinthatland;butwhenIlookeddownIsawmybodygavenolight。I

saidtoGod,\"Howisit?\"

Godsaid,\"Istherenodarkbloodinyourheart;isitbitteragainstnone?\"

AndIsaid,\"Yes——\";andIthought——\"NowisthetimewhenIwilltellGod,thatwhichIhavebeen,meaningtotellhimallalong,howbadlymyfellow—

menhavetreatedme。Howtheyhavemisunderstoodme。HowIhaveintendedtobemagnanimousandgeneroustothem,andthey——。\"AndIbegantotellGod;butwhenIlookeddownalltheflowerswerewitheringundermybreath,andIwassilent。

AndGodcalledmetocomeuphigher,andIgatheredmymantleaboutmeandfollowedhim。

Andtherocksgrewhigherandsteeperoneveryside;andwecameatlasttoaplacewhereagreatmountainrose,whosetopwaslostintheclouds。AndonitssideIsawmenworking;andtheypickedattheearthwithhugepicks;andIsawthattheylabouredmightily。Andsomelabouredincompanies,butmostlabouredsingly。AndIsawthedropsofsweatfallfromtheirforeheads,andthemusclesoftheirarmsstandoutwithlabour。

AndIsaid,\"Ihadnotthoughtinheaventoseemenlabourso!\"AndI

thoughtofthegardenwheremensangandloved,andIwonderedthatanyshouldchoosetolabouronthatbaremountain—side。AndIsawupontheforeheadsofthemenastheyworkedalight,andthedropswhichfellfromthemastheyworkedhadlight。

AndIaskedGodwhattheywereseekingfor。

AndGodtouchedmyeyes,andIsawthatwhattheyfoundweresmallstones,whichhadbeentoobrightformetoseebefore;andIsawthatthelightofthestonesandthelightonthemen’sforeheadswasthesame。AndIsawthatwhenonefoundastonehepasseditontohisfellow,andhetoanother,andhetoanother。Nomankeptthestonehefound。Andattimestheygatheredingreatcompanyaboutwhenalargestonewasfound,andraisedagreatshoutsothattheskyrang;thentheyworkedonagain。

AndIaskedGodwhattheydidwiththestonestheyfoundatlast。ThenGodtouchedmyeyesagaintomakethemstronger;andIlooked,andatmyveryfeetwasamightycrown。Thelightstreamedoutfromit。

Godsaid,\"Eachstoneastheyfinditissethere。\"

Andthecrownwaswroughtaccordingtoamarvellouspattern;onepatternranthroughall,yeteachpartwasdifferent。

IsaidtoGod,\"Howdoeseachmanknowwheretosethisstone,sothatthepatternisworkedout?\"

Godsaid,\"Becauseinthelighthisforeheadshedseachmanseesfaintlyoutlinedthatfullcrown。\"

AndIsaid,\"Buthowisitthateachstoneisjoinedalongitsedgestoitsfellows,sothatthereisnoseamanywhere?\"

Godsaid,\"Thestonesarealive;theygrow。\"

AndIsaid,\"Butwhatdoeseachmangainbyhisworking?\"

Godsaid,\"Heseeshisoutlinefilled。\"

Isaid,\"Butthosestoneswhicharelastsetcoverthosewhichwerefirst;

andthosewillagainbecoveredbythosewhichcomelater。\"

Godsaid,\"Theyarecovered,butnothid。Thelightisthelightofall。

Withoutthefirst,nolast。\"

AndIsaidtoGod,\"Whenwillthiscrownbeended?\"

AndGodsaid,\"Lookup!\"

Ilookedup;andIsawthemountaintoweraboveme,butitssummitIcouldnotsee;itwaslostintheclouds。

Godsaidnomore。

AndIlookedatthecrown:thenalongingseizedme。Likethepassionofamotherforthechildwhomdeathhastaken;liketheyearningofafriendforthefriendwhomlifehasburied;likethehungerofdyingeyesforalifethatisslipping;likethethirstofasoulforloveatitsfirstspringwaking,so,butfiercerwasthelonginginme。

IcriedtoGod,\"Itoowillworkhere;Itoowillsetstonesinthewonderfulpattern;itshallgrowbeneathMYhand。Andifitbethat,labouringhereforyears,Ishouldnotfindonestone,atleastIwillbewiththementhatlabourhere。Ishallheartheirshoutofjoywheneachstoneisfound;Ishalljoinintheirtriumph,Ishallshoutamongthem;I

shallseethecrowngrow。\"SogreatwasmylongingasIlookedatthecrown,Ithoughtafaintlightfellfrommyforeheadalso。

Godsaid,\"Doyounothearthesinginginthegardens?\"

Isaid,\"No,Ihearnothing;Iseeonlythecrown。\"AndIwasdumbwithlonging;IforgotalltheflowersofthelowerHeavenandthesingingthere。AndIranforward,andthrewmymantleontheearthandbenttoseizeoneofthemightytoolswhichlaythere。Icouldnotliftitfromtheearth。

Godsaid,\"WherehastTHOUearnedthestrengthtoraiseit?Takeupthymantle。\"

AndItookupmymantleandfollowedwhereGodcalledme;butIlookedback,andIsawthecrownburning,mycrownthatIhadloved。

Higherandhigherweclimbed,andtheairgrewthinner。Notatreeorplantwasonthebarerocks,andthestillnesswasunbroken。Mybreathcamehardandquick,andthebloodcreptwithinmyfinger—tips。IsaidtoGod,\"IsthisHeaven?\"

Godsaid,\"Yes;itisthehighest。\"

Andstillweclimbed。IsaidtoGod,\"Icannotbreathesohigh。\"

Godsaid,\"Becausetheairispure?\"

Andmyheadgrewdizzy,andasIclimbedthebloodburstfrommyfinger—

tips。

Thenwecameoutuponalonelymountain—top。

Nolivingbeingmovedthere;butfaroffonasolitarypeakIsawalonelyfigurestanding。WhetheritweremanorwomanIcouldnottell;forpartlyitseemedthefigureofawoman,butitslimbswerethemightylimbsofaman。IaskedGodwhetheritwasmanorwoman。

Godsaid,\"IntheleastHeavensexreignssupreme;inthehigheritisnotnoticed;butinthehighestitdoesnotexist。\"

AndIsawthefigurebendoveritswork,andlabourmightily,butwhatitlabouredatIcouldnotsee。

IsaidtoGod,\"Howcameithere?\"

Godsaid,\"Byabloodystair。StepbystepitmountedfromthelowestHell,anddaybydayasHellgrewfartherandHeavennonearer,ithungalonebetweentwoworlds。Hourbyhourinthatbitterstruggleitslimbsgrewlarger,tilltherefellfromitragbyragthegarmentswhichitstartedwith。Dropsfellfromitseyesasitstrainedthem;eachstepitclimbedwaswetwithblood。Thenitcameouthere。\"

AndIthoughtofthegardenwheremensangwiththeirarmsaroundoneanother;andthemountain—sidewheretheyworkedincompany。AndI

shuddered。

AndIsaid,\"Isitnotterriblyalonehere?\"

Godsaid,\"Itisneveralone!\"

Isaid,\"Whathasitforallitslabour?Iseenothingreturntoit。\"

ThenGodtouchedmyeyes,andIsawstretchedoutbeneathustheplainsofHeavenandHell,andallthatwaswithinthem。

Godsaid,\"Fromthatloneheightonwhichhestands,allthingsareopen。

Tohimiscleartheshininginthegarden,heseestheflowerbreakforthandthestreamssparkle;noshoutisraiseduponthemountain—sidebuthisearmayhearit。Heseesthecrowngrowandthelightshootfromit。AllHellisopentohim。Heseesthepathsmountupwards。Tohim,HellistheseedgroundfromwhichHeavensprings。Heseesthesapascending。\"

AndIsawthefigurebendoveritswork,andthelightfromitsfacefelluponit。

AndIsaidtoGod,\"Whatisitmaking?\"

AndGodsaid,\"Music!\"

Andhetouchedmyears,andIheardit。

AndafteralongwhileIwhisperedtoGod,\"ThisisHeaven。\"

AndGodaskedmewhyIwascrying。ButIcouldnotanswerforjoy。

Andthefaceturnedfromitswork,andthelightfelluponme。ThenitgrewsobrightIcouldnotseethingsseparately;andwhichwereGod,ortheman,orI,Icouldnottell;wewereallblended。IcriedtoGod,\"Whereareyou?\"buttherewasnoanswer,onlymusicandlight。

Afterwards,whenithadgrownsodarkagainthatIcouldseethingsseparately,IfoundthatIwasstandingtherewrappedtightinmylittleold,brown,earthlycloak,andGodandthemanwereseparatedfromeachother,andfromme。

IdidnotdaresayIwouldgoandmakemusicbesidetheman。IknewI

couldnotreacheventohisknee,normovetheinstrumentheplayed。ButI

thoughtIwouldstandthereonmylittlepeakandsinganaccompanimenttothatgreatmusic。AndItried;butmyvoicefailed。Itpipedandquavered。Icouldnotsingthattune。Iwassilent。

ThenGodpointedtome,thatIshouldgooutofHeaven。

AndIcriedtoGod,\"Oh,letmestayhere!Ifindeeditbe,asIknowitis,thatIamnotgreatenoughtosinguponthemountain,norstrongenoughtolabouronitsside,norbrightenoughtoshineandlovewithinthegarden,atleastletmegodowntothegreatgateway;humblyIwillkneeltheresweeping;and,asthesavedpassin,Iwillseethelightupontheirfaces。Ishallhearthesinginginthegarden,andtheshoutuponthehillside——\"

Godsaid,\"Itmaynotbe;\"hepointed。

AndIcried,\"IfImaynotstayinHeaven,thenletmegodowntoHell,andIwillgraspthehandsofmenandwomenthere;andslowly,holdingoneanother’shands,wewillworkourwayupwards。\"

StillGodpointed。

AndIthrewmyselfupontheearthandcried,\"Earthissosmall,somean!

ItisnotmeetasoulshouldseeHeavenandbecastoutagain!\"

AndGodlaidhishandonme,andsaid,\"Gobacktoearth:thatwhichyouseekisthere。\"

Iawoke:itwasmorning。Thesilenceanddarknessofthenightweregone。

ThroughmynarrowatticwindowIsawthelightofanotherday。Iclosedmyeyesandturnedtowardsthewall:Icouldnotlookuponthedullgreyworld。

Inthestreetsbelow,menandwomenstreamedpastbyhundreds;Iheardthebeatoftheirfeetonthepavement。Menontheirwaytobusiness;servantsonerrands;boyshurryingtoschool;wearyprofessorspacingslowlytheoldstreet;prostitutes,menandwomen,draggingtheirfeetwearilyafterlastnight’sdebauch;artistswithquick,impatientfootsteps;tradesmenfororders;childrentoseekforbread。Iheardthestreambeatby。Andatthealley’smouth,atthestreetcorner,abrokenbarrel—organwasplaying;

sometimesitquaveredandalmoststopped,thenwentonagain,likeabrokenhumanvoice。

Ilistened:myheartscarcelymoved;itwasascoldaslead。Icouldnotbearthelongdaybeforeme;andItriedtosleepagain;yetstillIheardthefeetuponthepavement。AndsuddenlyIheardthemcryloudastheybeat,\"Weareseeking!——weareseeking!——weareseeking!\"andthebrokenbarrel—organatthestreetcornersobbed,\"TheBeautiful!——theBeautiful!——

theBeautiful!\"Andmyheart,whichhadbeendead,criedoutwitheverythrob,\"Love!——Truth!——theBeautiful!——theBeautiful!\"ItwasthemusicI

hadheardinHeaventhatIcouldnotsingthere。

AndfullyIawoke。

Uponthefadedquilt,acrossmybedalongyellowstreakofpaleLondonsunlightwaslying。Itfellthroughmynarrowatticwindow。

Ilaughed。Irose。

Iwasgladthelongdaywasbeforeme。

ParisandLondon。