第1章

byJosephConrad\"……ButtheDwarfanswered:No;

somethinghumanisdearertomethanthewealthofalltheworld。\"GRIMM’STALES。

TOMYWIFE

YOUTH:ANARRATIVE

THIScouldhaveoccurrednowherebutinEngland,wheremenandseainterpenetrate,sotospeak——theseaenteringintothelifeofmostmen,andthemenknow—

ingsomethingoreverythingaboutthesea,inthewayofamusement,oftravel,orofbread—winning。

Weweresittingroundamahoganytablethatreflectedthebottle,theclaret—glasses,andourfacesasweleanedonourelbows。Therewasadirectorofcompanies,anaccountant,alawyer,Marlow,andmyself。Thedirec—

torhadbeenaCONWAYboy,theaccountanthadservedfouryearsatsea,thelawyer——afinecrustedTory,HighChurchman,thebestofoldfellows,thesoulofhonor——

hadbeenchiefofficerintheP。&;O。serviceinthegoodolddayswhenmail—boatsweresquare—riggedatleastontwomasts,andusedtocomedowntheChinaSeabeforeafairmonsoonwithstun’—sailssetalowandaloft。Weallbeganlifeinthemerchantservice。Betweenthefiveofustherewasthestrongbondofthesea,andalsothefellowshipofthecraft,whichnoamountofenthusiasmforyachting,cruising,andsooncangive,sinceoneisonlytheamusementoflifeandtheotherislifeitself。

Marlow(atleastIthinkthatishowhespelthisname)

toldthestory,orratherthechronicle,ofavoyage:

\"Yes,IhaveseenalittleoftheEasternseas;butwhatIrememberbestismyfirstvoyagethere。Youfellowsknowtherearethosevoyagesthatseemorderedfortheillustrationoflife,thatmightstandforasymbolofexistence。Youfight,work,sweat,nearlykillyourself,sometimesdokillyourself,tryingtoaccomplishsome—

thing——andyoucan’t。Notfromanyfaultofyours。

Yousimplycandonothing,neithergreatnorlittle——

notathingintheworld——notevenmarryanoldmaid,orgetawretched600—toncargoofcoaltoitsportofdesti—

nation。

\"Itwasaltogetheramemorableaffair。ItwasmyfirstvoyagetotheEast,andmyfirstvoyageassecondmate;itwasalsomyskipper’sfirstcommand。You’lladmititwastime。Hewassixtyifaday;alittleman,withabroad,notverystraightback,withbowedshoul—

dersandonelegmorebandythantheother,hehadthatqueertwisted—aboutappearanceyouseesoofteninmenwhoworkinthefields。Hehadanut—crackerface——chinandnosetryingtocometogetheroverasunkenmouth——

anditwasframediniron—grayfluffyhair,thatlookedlikeachinstrapofcotton—woolsprinkledwithcoal—dust。

Andhehadblueeyesinthatoldfaceofhis,whichwereamazinglylikeaboy’s,withthatcandidexpressionsomequitecommonmenpreservetotheendoftheirdaysbyarareinternalgiftofsimplicityofheartandrectitudeofsoul。Whatinducedhimtoacceptmewasawonder。

IhadcomeoutofacrackAustralianclipper,whereI

hadbeenthirdofficer,andheseemedtohaveaprejudiceagainstcrackclippersasaristocraticandhigh—toned。

Hesaidtome,’Youknow,inthisshipyouwillhavetowork。’IsaidIhadtoworkineveryshipIhadeverbeenin。’Ah,butthisisdifferent,andyougentlemenoutofthembigships;……butthere!Idaresayyouwilldo。Jointo—morrow。’

\"Ijoinedto—morrow。Itwastwenty—twoyearsago;

andIwasjusttwenty。Howtimepasses!Itwasoneofthehappiestdaysofmylife。Fancy!Secondmateforthefirsttime——areallyresponsibleofficer!Iwouldn’thavethrownupmynewbilletforafortune。Thematelookedmeovercarefully。Hewasalsoanoldchap,butofanotherstamp。HehadaRomannose,asnow—white,longbeard,andhisnamewasMahon,butheinsistedthatitshouldbepronouncedMann。Hewaswellconnected;

yettherewassomethingwrongwithhisluck,andhehadnevergoton。

\"Astothecaptain,hehadbeenforyearsincoasters,thenintheMediterranean,andlastintheWestIndiantrade。HehadneverbeenroundtheCapes。Hecouldjustwriteakindofsketchyhand,anddidn’tcareforwritingatall。Bothwerethoroughgoodseamenofcourse,andbetweenthosetwooldchapsIfeltlikeasmallboybetweentwograndfathers。

\"Theshipalsowasold。HernamewastheJudea。

Queername,isn’tit?ShebelongedtoamanWilmer,Wilcox——somenamelikethat;buthehasbeenbankruptanddeadthesetwentyyearsormore,andhisnamedon’tmatter。ShehadbeenlaidupinShadwellbasinforeversolong。Youcanimagineherstate。Shewasallrust,dust,grime——sootaloft,dirtondeck。Tomeitwaslikecomingoutofapalaceintoaruinedcottage。Shewasabout400tons,hadaprimitivewindlass,woodenlatchestothedoors,notabitofbrassabouther,andabigsquarestern。Therewasonit,belowhernameinbigletters,alotofscrollwork,withthegiltoff,andsomesortofacoatofarms,withthemotto’DoorDie’under—

neath。Irememberittookmyfancyimmensely。Therewasatouchofromanceinit,somethingthatmademelovetheoldthing——somethingthatappealedtomyyouth!

\"WeleftLondoninballast——sandballast——toloadacargoofcoalinanorthernportforBankok。Bankok!

Ithrilled。Ihadbeensixyearsatsea,buthadonlyseenMelbourneandSydney,verygoodplaces,charmingplacesintheirway——butBankok!

\"WeworkedoutoftheThamesundercanvas,withaNorthSeapilotonboard。HisnamewasJermyn,andhedodgedalldaylongaboutthegalleydryinghishand—

kerchiefbeforethestove。Apparentlyheneverslept。

Hewasadismalman,withaperpetualtearsparklingattheendofhisnose,whoeitherhadbeenintrouble,orwasintrouble,orexpectedtobeintrouble——couldn’tbehappyunlesssomethingwentwrong。Hemistrustedmyyouth,mycommon—sense,andmyseamanship,andmadeapointofshowingitinahundredlittleways。I

daresayhewasright。ItseemstomeIknewverylittlethen,andIknownotmuchmorenow;butIcherishahateforthatJermyntothisday。

\"WewereaweekworkingupasfarasYarmouthRoads,andthenwegotintoagale——thefamousOctobergaleoftwenty—twoyearsago。Itwaswind,lightning,sleet,snow,andaterrificsea。Wewereflyinglight,andyoumayimaginehowbaditwaswhenItellyouwehadsmashedbulwarksandafloodeddeck。Onthesecondnightsheshiftedherballastintotheleebow,andbythattimewehadbeenblownoffsomewhereontheDoggerBank。Therewasnothingforitbutgobelowwithshovelsandtrytorighther,andtherewewereinthatvasthold,gloomylikeacavern,thetallowdipsstuckandflickeringonthebeams,thegalehowlingabove,theshiptossingaboutlikemadonherside;thereweallwere,Jermyn,thecaptain,everyone,hardlyabletokeepourfeet,engagedonthatgravedigger’swork,andtry—

ingtotossshovelfulsofwetsanduptowindward。Ateverytumbleoftheshipyoucouldseevaguelyinthedimlightmenfallingdownwithagreatflourishofshov—

els。Oneoftheship’sboys(wehadtwo),impressedbytheweirdnessofthescene,weptasifhisheartwouldbreak。Wecouldhearhimblubberingsomewhereintheshadows。

\"Onthethirddaythegalediedout,andby—and—byanorth—countrytugpickedusup。WetooksixteendaysinalltogetfromLondontotheTyne!Whenwegotintodockwehadlostourturnforloading,andtheyhauledusofftoatierwhereweremainedforamonth。

Mrs。Beard(thecaptain’snamewasBeard)camefromColchestertoseetheoldman。Shelivedonboard。Thecrewofrunnershadleft,andthereremainedonlytheofficers,oneboy,andthesteward,amulattowhoan—

sweredtothenameofAbraham。Mrs。Beardwasanoldwoman,witharaceallwrinkledandruddylikeawinterapple,andthefigureofayounggirl。Shecaughtsightofmeonce,sewingonabutton,andinsistedonhavingmyshirtstorepair。Thiswassomethingdifferentfromthecaptains’wivesIhadknownonboardcrackclippers。

WhenIbroughthertheshirts,shesaid:’Andthesocks?Theywantmending,Iamsure,andJohn’s——

CaptainBeard’s——thingsareallinordernow。Iwouldbegladofsomethingtodo。’Blesstheoldwoman。Sheoverhauledmyoutfitforme,andmeantimeIreadforthefirsttime’SartorResartus’andBurnaby’s’RidetoKhiva。’Ididn’tunderstandmuchofthefirstthen;

butIrememberIpreferredthesoldiertothephilosopheratthetime;apreferencewhichlifehasonlyconfirmed。

Onewasaman,andtheotherwaseithermore——orless。

However,theyarebothdead,andMrs。Beardisdead,andyouth,strength,genius,thoughts,achievements,simplehearts——alldie……Nomatter。

\"Theyloadedusatlast。Weshippedacrew。Eightableseamenandtwoboys。Wehauledoffoneeveningtothebuoysatthedock—gates,readytogoout,andwithafairprospectofbeginningthevoyagenextday。Mrs。

Beardwastostartforhomebyalatetrain。Whentheshipwasfastwewenttotea。Wesatrathersilentthroughthemeal——Mahon,theoldcouple,andI。I

finishedfirst,andslippedawayforasmoke,mycabinbeinginadeck—housejustagainstthepoop。Itwashighwater,blowingfreshwithadrizzle;thedoubledock—

gateswereopened,andthesteamcolliersweregoinginandoutinthedarknesswiththeirlightsburningbright,agreatplashingofpropellers,rattlingofwinches,andalotofhailingonthepier—heads。Iwatchedtheprocessionofhead—lightsglidinghighandofgreenlightsglidinglowinthenight,whensuddenlyaredgleamflashedatme,vanished,cameintoviewagain,andremained。Thefore—endofasteamerloomedupclose。

Ishouteddownthecabin,’Comeup,quick!’andthenheardastartledvoicesayingafarinthedark,’Stopher,sir。’Abelljingled。Anothervoicecriedwarningly,’Wearegoingrightintothatbark,sir。’Theanswertothiswasagruff’Allright,’andthenextthingwasaheavycrashasthesteamerstruckaglancingblowwiththebluffofherbowaboutourfore—rigging。Therewasamomentofconfusion,yelling,andrunningabout。

Steamroared。Thensomebodywasheardsaying,’Allclear,sir。’……’Areyouallright?’askedthegruffvoice。Ihadjumpedforwardtoseethedamage,andhailedback,’Ithinkso。’’Easyastern,’saidthegruffvoice。Abelljingled。’Whatsteameristhat?’

screamedMahon。Bythattimeshewasnomoretousthanabulkyshadowmaneuveringalittlewayoff。Theyshoutedatussomename——awoman’sname,MirandaorMelissa——orsomesuchthing。’Thismeansanothermonthinthisbeastlyhole,’saidMahontome,aswepeeredwithlampsaboutthesplinteredbulwarksandbrokenbraces。’Butwhere’sthecaptain?’

\"Wehadnotheardorseenanythingofhimallthattime。Wewentafttolook。Adolefulvoicearosehail—

ingsomewhereinthemiddleofthedock,’Judeaahoy!’……Howthedevildidhegetthere?……’Hallo!’

weshouted。’Iamadriftinourboatwithoutoars,’hecried。Abelatedwatermanofferedhisservices,andMahonstruckabargainwithhimforhalf—a—crowntotowourskipperalongside;butitwasMrs。Beardthatcameuptheladderfirst。Theyhadbeenfloatingaboutthedockinthatmizzlycoldrainfornearlyanhour。I

wasneversosurprisedinmylife。

\"Itappearsthatwhenheheardmyshout’Comeup,’

heunderstoodatoncewhatwasthematter,caughtuphiswife,ranondeck,andacross,anddownintoourboat,whichwasfasttotheladder。Notbadforasixty—year—

old。Justimaginethatoldfellowsavingheroicallyinhisarmsthatoldwoman——thewomanofhislife。Hesetherdownonathwart,andwasreadytoclimbbackonboardwhenthepaintercameadriftsomehow,andawaytheywenttogether。Ofcourseintheconfusionwedidnothearhimshouting。Helookedabashed。Shesaidcheerfully,’Isupposeitdoesnotmattermylosingthetrainnow?’’No,Jenny——yougobelowandgetwarm,’hegrowled。Thentous:’Asailorhasnobusi—

nesswithawife——Isay。ThereIwas,outoftheship。

Well,noharmdonethistime。Let’sgoandlookatwhatthatfoolofasteamersmashed。’

\"Itwasn’tmuch,butitdelayedusthreeweeks。Attheendofthattime,thecaptainbeingengagedwithhisagents,IcarriedMrs。Beard’sbagtotherailway—sta—

tionandputherallcomfyintoathird—classcarriage。

Sheloweredthewindowtosay,’Youareagoodyoungman。IfyouseeJohn——CaptainBeard——withouthismuffleratnight,justremindhimfrommetokeephisthroatwellwrappedup。’’Certainly,Mrs。Beard,’I

said。’Youareagoodyoungman;Inoticedhowat—

tentiveyouaretoJohn——toCaptain——’Thetrainpulledoutsuddenly;Itookmycapofftotheoldwoman:Ineversawheragain……Passthebottle。

\"Wewenttoseanextday。WhenwemadethatstartforBankokwehadbeenalreadythreemonthsoutofLondon。Wehadexpectedtobeafortnightorso——attheoutside。

\"ItwasJanuary,andtheweatherwasbeautiful——thebeautifulsunnywinterweatherthathasmorecharmthaninthesummer—time,becauseitisunexpected,andcrisp,andyouknowitwon’t,itcan’t,lastlong。It’slikeawindfall,likeagodsend,likeanunexpectedpieceofluck。

\"ItlastedalldowntheNorthSea,alldownChannel;

anditlastedtillwewerethreehundredmilesorsotothewestwardoftheLizards:thenthewindwentroundtothesou’westandbegantopipeup。Intwodaysitblewagale。TheJudea,hoveto,wallowedontheAtlanticlikeanoldcandlebox。Itblewdayafterday:itblewwithspite,withoutinterval,withoutmercy,withoutrest。

Theworldwasnothingbutanimmensityofgreatfoam—

ingwavesrushingatus,underaskylowenoughtotouchwiththehandanddirtylikeasmokedceiling。Inthestormyspacesurroundingustherewasasmuchflyingsprayasair。Dayafterdayandnightafternighttherewasnothingroundtheshipbutthehowlofthewind,thetumultofthesea,thenoiseofwaterpouringoverherdeck。Therewasnorestforherandnorestforus。

Shetossed,shepitched,shestoodonherhead,shesatonhertail,sherolled,shegroaned,andwehadtoholdonwhileondeckandclingtoourbunkswhenbelow,inaconstanteffortofbodyandworryofmind。

\"OnenightMahonspokethroughthesmallwindowofmyberth。Itopenedrightintomyverybed,andI

waslyingtheresleepless,inmyboots,feelingasthoughIhadnotsleptforyears,andcouldnotifItried。Hesaidexcitedly——

\"’Yougotthesounding—rodinhere,Marlow?Ican’tgetthepumpstosuck。ByGod!it’snochild’splay。’

\"Igavehimthesounding—rodandlaydownagain,tryingtothinkofvariousthings——butIthoughtonlyofthepumps。WhenIcameondecktheywerestillatit,andmywatchrelievedatthepumps。Bythelightofthelanternbroughtondecktoexaminethesounding—

rodIcaughtaglimpseoftheirweary,seriousfaces。

Wepumpedallthefourhours。Wepumpedallnight,allday,alltheweek,——watchandwatch。Shewaswork—

ingherselfloose,andleakedbadly——notenoughtodrownusatonce,butenoughtokilluswiththeworkatthepumps。Andwhilewepumpedtheshipwasgoingfromuspiecemeal:thebulwarkswent,thestanchionsweretornout,theventilatorssmashed,thecabin—doorburstin。Therewasnotadryspotintheship。Shewasbeingguttedbitbybit。Thelong—boatchanged,asifbymagic,intomatchwoodwhereshestoodinhergripes。

Ihadlashedhermyself,andwasratherproudofmyhandiwork,whichhadwithstoodsolongthemaliceofthesea。Andwepumped。Andtherewasnobreakintheweather。Theseawaswhitelikeasheetoffoam,likeacaldronofboilingmilk;therewasnotabreakintheclouds,no——notthesizeofaman’shand——no,notforsomuchastenseconds。Therewasforusnosky,therewereforusnostars,nosun,nouniverse——nothingbutangrycloudsandaninfuriatedsea。Wepumpedwatchandwatch,fordearlife;anditseemedtolastformonths,foryears,foralleternity,asthoughwehadbeendeadandgonetoahellforsailors。Weforgotthedayoftheweek,thenameofthemonth,whatyearitwas,andwhetherwehadeverbeenashore。Thesailsblewaway,shelaybroadsideonunderaweather—cloth,theoceanpouredoverher,andwedidnotcare。Weturnedthosehandles,andhadtheeyesofidiots。AssoonaswehadcrawledondeckIusedtotakearoundturnwitharopeaboutthemen,thepumps,andthemainmast,andweturned,weturnedincessantly,withthewatertoourwaists,toournecks,overourheads。Itwasallone。

Wehadforgottenhowitfelttobedry。

\"Andtherewassomewhereinmethethought:ByJove!thisisthedeuceofanadventure——somethingyoureadabout;anditismyfirstvoyageassecondmate——

andIamonlytwenty——andhereIamlastingitoutaswellasanyofthesemen,andkeepingmychapsuptothemark。Iwaspleased。Iwouldnothavegivenuptheexperienceforworlds。Ihadmomentsofexultation。

Whenevertheolddismantledcraftpitchedheavilywithhercounterhighintheair,sheseemedtometothrowup,likeanappeal,likeadefiance,likeacrytothecloudswithoutmercy,thewordswrittenonherstern:’Judea,London。DoorDie。’

\"Oyouth!Thestrengthofit,thefaithofit,theimaginationofit!Tomeshewasnotanoldrattle—trapcartingabouttheworldalotofcoalforafreight——tomeshewastheendeavor,thetest,thetrialoflife。I

thinkofherwithpleasure,withaffection,withregret——

asyouwouldthinkofsomeonedeadyouhaveloved。I

shallneverforgether……Passthebottle。

\"Onenightwhentiedtothemast,asIexplained,wewerepumpingon,deafenedwiththewind,andwithoutspiritenoughinustowishourselvesdead,aheavyseacrashedaboardandsweptcleanoverus。AssoonasI

gotmybreathIshouted,asindutybound,’Keepon,boys!’whensuddenlyIfeltsomethinghardfloatingondeckstrikethecalfofmyleg。Imadeagrabatitandmissed。Itwassodarkwecouldnotseeeachother’sfaceswithinafoot——youunderstand。

\"Afterthatthumptheshipkeptquietforawhile,andthething,whateveritwas,struckmylegagain。

ThistimeIcaughtit——anditwasasauce—pan。Atfirst,beingstupidwithfatigueandthinkingofnothingbutthepumps,IdidnotunderstandwhatIhadinmyhand。

Suddenlyitdawneduponme,andIshouted,’Boys,thehouseondeckisgone。Leavethis,andlet’slookforthecook。’

\"Therewasadeck—houseforward,whichcontainedthegalley,thecook’sberth,andthequartersofthecrew。Aswehadexpectedfordaystoseeitsweptaway,thehandshadbeenorderedtosleepinthecabin——theonlysafeplaceintheship。Thesteward,Abraham,however,persistedinclingingtohisberth,stupidly,likeamule——fromsheerfrightIbelieve,likeananimalthaton’tleaveastablefallinginanearthquake。Sowewenttolookforhim。Itwaschancingdeath,sinceonceoutofourlashingswewereasexposedasifonaraft。

Butwewent。Thehousewasshatteredasifashellhadexplodedinside。Mostofithadgoneoverboard——stove,men’squarters,andtheirproperty,allwasgone;buttwoposts,holdingaportionofthebulkheadtowhichAbraham’sbunkwasattached,remainedasifbyamir—

acle。Wegropedintheruinsandcameuponthis,andtherehewas,sittinginhisbunk,surroundedbyfoamandwreckage,jabberingcheerfullytohimself。Hewasoutofhismind;completelyandforevermad,withthissuddenshockcominguponthefag—endofhisendurance。

Wesnatchedhimup,luggedhimaft,andpitchedhimhead—firstdownthecabincompanion。Youunderstandtherewasnotimetocarryhimdownwithinfinitepre—

cautionsandwaittoseehowhegoton。Thosebelowwouldpickhimupatthebottomofthestairsallright。

Wewereinahurrytogobacktothepumps。Thatbusi—

nesscouldnotwait。Abadleakisaninhumanthing。

\"Onewouldthinkthatthesolepurposeofthatfiend—

ishgalehadbeentomakealunaticofthatpoordevilofamulatto。Iteasedbeforemorning,andnextdaytheskycleared,andastheseawentdowntheleaktookup。

Whenitcametobendingafreshsetofsailsthecrewdemandedtoputback——andreallytherewasnothingelsetodo。Boatsgone,deckssweptclean,cabingutted,menwithoutastitchbutwhattheystoodin,storesspoiled,shipstrained。Weputherheadforhome,and——wouldyoubelieveit?Thewindcameeastrightinourteeth。

Itblewfresh,itblewcontinuously。Wehadtobeatupeveryinchoftheway,butshedidnotleaksobadly,thewaterkeepingcomparativelysmooth。Twohours’

pumpingineveryfourisnojoke——butitkeptherafloatasfarasFalmouth。

\"Thegoodpeoplethereliveoncasualtiesofthesea,andnodoubtweregladtoseeus。Ahungrycrowdofshipwrightssharpenedtheirchiselsatthesightofthatcarcassofaship。And,byJove!theyhadprettypick—

ingsoffusbeforetheyweredone。Ifancytheownerwasalreadyinatightplace。Thereweredelays。Thenitwasdecidedtotakepartofthecargooutandcalkhertopsides。Thiswasdone,therepairsfinished,cargore—

shipped;anewcrewcameonboard,andwewentout——

forBankok。Attheendofaweekwewerebackagain。

Thecrewsaidtheyweren’tgoingtoBankok——ahundredandfiftydays’passage——inasomethinghookerthatwantedpumpingeighthoursoutofthetwenty—four;

andthenauticalpapersinsertedagainthelittlepara—

graph:’Judea。Bark。TynetoBankok;coals;putbacktoFalmouthleakyandwithcrewrefusingduty。’

\"Thereweremoredelays——moretinkering。Theownercamedownforaday,andsaidshewasasrightasalittlefiddle。PooroldCaptainBeardlookedliketheghostofaGeordieskipper——throughtheworryandhumiliationofit。Rememberhewassixty,anditwashisfirstcommand。Mahonsaiditwasafoolishbusiness,andwouldendbadly。Ilovedtheshipmorethanever,andwantedawfullytogettoBankok。ToBankok!

Magicname,blessedname。Mesopotamiawasn’tapatchnit。RememberIwastwenty,anditwasmyfirstsecondmate’sbillet,andtheEastwaswaitingforme。

\"Wewentoutandanchoredintheouterroadswithafreshcrew——thethird。Sheleakedworsethanever。

Itwasasifthoseconfoundedshipwrightshadactuallymadeaholeinher。Thistimewedidnotevengooutside。Thecrewsimplyrefusedtomanthewindlass。

\"Theytowedusbacktotheinnerharbor,andwebe—

cameafixture,afeature,aninstitutionoftheplace。

Peoplepointedusouttovisitorsas’That’erebarkthat’sgoingtoBankok——hasbeenheresixmonths——putbackthreetimes。’Onholidaysthesmallboyspullingaboutinboatswouldhail,’Judea,ahoy!’andifaheadshowedabovetherailshouted,’Whereyouboundto?——

Bankok?’andjeered。Wewereonlythreeonboard。

Thepooroldskippermoonedinthecabin。Mahonun—

dertookthecooking,andunexpectedlydevelopedallaFrenchman’sgeniusforpreparingnicelittlemesses。I

lookedlanguidlyaftertherigging。WebecamecitizensofFalmouth。Everyshopkeeperknewus。Atthebar—

ber’sortobacconist’stheyaskedfamiliarly,’DoyouthinkyouwillevergettoBankok?’Meantimetheowner,theunderwriters,andthechartererssquabbledamongstthemselvesinLondon,andourpaywenton……Passthebottle。

\"Itwashorrid。Morallyitwasworsethanpumpingforlife。Itseemedasthoughwehadbeenforgottenbytheworld,belongedtonobody,wouldgetnowhere;itseemedthat,asifbewitched,wewouldhavetoliveforeverandeverinthatinnerharbor,aderisionandaby—

wordtogenerationsoflong—shoreloafersanddishonestboatmen。Iobtainedthreemonths’payandafivedays’

leave,andmadearushforLondon。Ittookmeadaytogetthereandprettywellanothertocomeback——butthreemonths’paywentallthesame。Idon’tknowwhatIdidwithit。Iwenttoamusic—hall,Ibelieve,lunched,dined,andsuppedinaswellplaceinRegentStreet,andwasbacktotime,withnothingbutacompletesetofByron’sworksandanewrailwayrugtoshowforthreemonths’work。Theboatmanwhopulledmeofftotheshipsaid:’Hallo!Ithoughtyouhadlefttheoldthing。

SHEwillnevergettoBankok。’’That’sallYOUknowaboutit,’Isaidscornfully——butIdidn’tlikethatproph—

ecyatall。

\"Suddenlyaman,somekindofagenttosomebody,appearedwithfullpowers。Hehadgrogblossomsalloverhisface,anindomitableenergy,andwasajollysoul。Weleapedintolifeagain。Ahulkcamealong—

side,tookourcargo,andthenwewentintodrydocktogetourcopperstripped。Nowondersheleaked。Thepoorthing,strainedbeyondendurancebythegale,had,asifindisgust,spatoutalltheoakumofherlowerseams。Shewasrecalked,newcoppered,andmadeastightasabottle。Wewentbacktothehulkandre—

shippedourcargo。

\"Thenonafinemoonlightnight,alltheratslefttheship。

\"Wehadbeeninfestedwiththem。Theyhaddestroyedoursails,consumedmorestoresthanthecrew,affablysharedourbedsandourdangers,andnow,whentheshipwasmadeseaworthy,concludedtoclearout。I

calledMahontoenjoythespectacle。Ratafterratap—

pearedonourrail,tookalastlookoverhisshoulder,andleapedwithahollowthudintotheemptyhulk。

Wetriedtocountthem,butsoonlostthetale。Mahonsaid:’Well,well!don’ttalktomeabouttheintelligenceofrats。Theyoughttohaveleftbefore,whenwehadthatnarrowsqueakfromfoundering。Thereyouhavetheproofhowsillyisthesuperstitionaboutthem。Theyleaveagoodshipforanoldrottenhulk,wherethereisnothingtoeat,too,thefools!……Idon’tbelievetheyknowwhatissafeorwhatisgoodforthem,anymorethanyouorI。’

\"Andaftersomemoretalkweagreedthatthewisdomofratshadbeengrosslyoverrated,beinginfactnogreaterthanthatofmen。

\"Thestoryoftheshipwasknown,bythis,alluptheChannelfromLand’sEndtotheForelands,andwecouldgetnocrewonthesouthcoast。TheysentusoneallcompletefromLiverpool,andweleftoncemore——forBankok。

\"Wehadfairbreezes,smoothwaterrightintothetropics,andtheoldJudealumberedalonginthesun—

shine。Whenshewenteightknotseverythingcrackedaloft,andwetiedourcapstoourheads;butmostlyshestrolledonattherateofthreemilesanhour。Whatcouldyouexpect?Shewastired——thatoldship。Heryouthwaswheremineis——whereyoursis——youfellowswholistentothisyarn;andwhatfriendwouldthrowyouryearsandyourwearinessinyourface?Wedidn’tgrumbleather。Tousaft,atleast,itseemedasthoughwehadbeenborninher,rearedinher,hadlivedinherforages,hadneverknownanyothership。Iwouldjustassoonhaveabusedtheoldvillagechurchathomefornotbeingacathedral。

\"Andformetherewasalsomyyouthtomakemepa—

tient。TherewasalltheEastbeforeme,andalllife,andthethoughtthatIhadbeentriedinthatshipandhadcomeoutprettywell。AndIthoughtofmenofoldwho,centuriesago,wentthatroadinshipsthatsailednobetter,tothelandofpalms,andspices,andyellowsands,andofbrownnationsruledbykingsmorecruelthanNerotheRomanandmoresplendidthanSolomontheJew。Theoldbarklumberedon,heavywithherageandtheburdenofhercargo,whileIlivedthelifeofyouthinignoranceandhope。Shelumberedonthroughaninterminableprocessionofdays;andthefreshgild—

ingflashedbackatthesettingsun,seemedtocryoutoverthedarkeningseathewordspaintedonherstern,’Judea,London。DoorDie。’

\"ThenweenteredtheIndianOceanandsteerednorth—

erlyforJavaHead。Thewindswerelight。Weeksslippedby。Shecrawledon,doordie,andpeopleathomebegantothinkofpostingusasoverdue。

\"OneSaturdayevening,Ibeingoffduty,themenaskedmetogivethemanextrabucketofwaterorso——

forwashingclothes。AsIdidnotwishtoscrewonthefresh—waterpumpsolate,Iwentforwardwhistling,andwithakeyinmyhandtounlocktheforepeakscuttle,intendingtoservethewateroutofasparetankwekeptthere。

\"Thesmelldownbelowwasasunexpectedasitwasfrightful。Onewouldhavethoughthundredsofpar—

affin—lampshadbeenflaringandsmokinginthatholefordays。Iwasgladtogetout。Themanwithmecoughedandsaid,’Funnysmell,sir。’Ianswerednegli—

gently,’It’sgoodforthehealth,theysay,’andwalkedaft。

\"ThefirstthingIdidwastoputmyheaddownthesquareofthemidshipventilator。AsIliftedthelidavisiblebreath,somethinglikeathinfog,apuffoffainthaze,rosefromtheopening。Theascendingairwashot,andhadaheavy,sooty,paraffinysmell。Igaveonesniff,andputdownthelidgently。Itwasnousechokingmy—

self。Thecargowasonfire。

\"Nextdayshebegantosmokeinearnest。Youseeitwastobeexpected,forthoughthecoalwasofasafekind,thatcargohadbeensohandled,sobrokenupwithhandling,thatitlookedmorelikesmithycoalthanany—

thingelse。Thenithadbeenwetted——morethanonce。

Itrainedallthetimeweweretakingitbackfromthehulk,andnowwiththislongpassageitgotheated,andtherewasanothercaseofspontaneouscombustion。

\"Thecaptaincalledusintothecabin。Hehadachartspreadonthetable,andlookedunhappy。Hesaid,’ThecoastofWestAustraliaisnear,butImeantoproceedtoourdestination。Itisthehurricanemonthtoo;butwewilljustkeepherheadforBankok,andfightthefire。

Nomoreputtingbackanywhere,ifweallgetroasted。

Wewilltryfirsttostiflethis’eredamnedcombustionbywantofair。’

\"Wetried。Webatteneddowneverything,andstillshesmoked。Thesmokekeptcomingoutthroughim—

perceptiblecrevices;itforceditselfthroughbulkheadsandcovers;itoozedhereandthereandeverywhereinslenderthreads,inaninvisiblefilm,inanincomprehen—

siblemanner。Itmadeitswayintothecabin,intotheforecastle;itpoisonedtheshelteredplacesonthedeck,itcouldbesniffedashighasthemainyard。Itwasclearthatifthesmokecameouttheaircamein。Thiswasdisheartening。Thiscombustionrefusedtobestifled。

\"Weresolvedtotrywater,andtookthehatchesoff。

Enormousvolumesofsmoke,whitish,yellowish,thick,greasy,misty,choking,ascendedashighasthetrucks。

Allhandsclearedoutaft。Thenthepoisonouscloudblewaway,andwewentbacktoworkinasmokethatwasnothickernowthanthatofanordinaryfactorychimney。

\"Weriggedtheforcepump,gotthehosealong,andby—and—byitburst。Well,itwasasoldastheship——aprehistorichose,andpastrepair。Thenwepumpedwiththefeeblehead—pump,drewwaterwithbuckets,andinthiswaymanagedintimetopourlotsofIndianOceanintothemainhatch。Thebrightstreamflashedinsun—

shine,fellintoalayerofwhitecrawlingsmoke,andvan—

ishedontheblacksurfaceofcoal。Steamascendedminglingwiththesmoke。Wepouredsaltwaterasintoabarrelwithoutabottom。Itwasourfatetopumpinthatship,topumpoutofher,topumpintoher;andafterkeepingwateroutofhertosaveourselvesfrombeingdrowned,wefranticallypouredwaterintohertosaveourselvesfrombeingburnt。

\"Andshecrawledon,doordie,inthesereneweather。

Theskywasamiracleofpurity,amiracleofazure。

Theseawaspolished,wasblue,waspellucid,wasspark—

linglikeapreciousstone,extendingonallsides,allroundtothehorizon——asifthewholeterrestrialglobehadbeenonejewel,onecolossalsapphire,asinglegemfashionedintoaplanet。AndonthelusterofthegreatcalmwaterstheJudeaglidedimperceptibly,envelopedinlanguidanduncleanvapors,inalazycloudthatdriftedtoleeward,lightandslow:apestiferousclouddefilingthesplendorofseaandsky。

\"Allthistimeofcoursewesawnofire。Thecargosmolderedatthebottomsomewhere。OnceMahon,aswewereworkingsidebyside,saidtomewithaqueersmile:’Now,ifsheonlywouldspringatidyleak——

likethattimewhenwefirstlefttheChannel——itwouldputastopperonthisfire。Wouldn’tit?’Iremarkedirrelevantly,’Doyouremembertherats?’

\"Wefoughtthefireandsailedtheshiptooascarefullyasthoughnothinghadbeenthematter。Thestewardcookedandattendedonus。Oftheothertwelvemen,eightworkedwhilefourrested。Everyonetookhisturn,captainincluded。Therewasequality,andifnotexactlyfraternity,thenadealofgoodfeeling。Some—

timesaman,ashedashedabucketfulofwaterdownthehatchway,wouldyellout,’HurrahforBankok!’andtherestlaughed。Butgenerallyweweretaciturnandseri—

ous——andthirsty。Oh!howthirsty!Andwehadtobecarefulwiththewater。Strictallowance。Theshipsmoked,thesunblazed……Passthebottle。

\"Wetriedeverything。Weevenmadeanattempttodigdowntothefire。Nogood,ofcourse。Nomancouldremainmorethanaminutebelow。Mahon,whowentfirst,faintedthere,andthemanwhowenttofetchhimoutdidlikewise。Weluggedthemoutondeck。

ThenIleapeddowntoshowhoweasilyitcouldbedone。

Theyhadlearnedwisdombythattime,andcontentedthemselvesbyfishingformewithachain—hooktiedtoabroom—handle,Ibelieve。Ididnotoffertogoandfetchupmyshovel,whichwasleftdownbelow。

\"Thingsbegantolookbad。Weputthelong—boatintothewater。Thesecondboatwasreadytoswingout。

Wehadalsoanother,afourteen—footthing,ondavitsaft,whereitwasquitesafe。