第6章

Afteramoment’ssurprise,Craigrosetohisfeet,and,facinghimsquarely,tooktheofferedhandinbothofhisandhelditfastwithoutaword.Graemewasthefirsttospeak,andhisvoicewasdeepwithemotion——

’Youareagreatman,agoodman.I’dgivesomethingtohaveyourgrit.’

PoorCraigstoodlookingathim,notdaringtospeakforsomemoments,thenhesaidquietly——

’Notgoodnorgreat,but,thankGod,notquiteatraitor.’

’Goodman!’wentonGraeme,pattinghimontheshoulder.’Goodman!Butit’stough.’

Craigsatdownquickly,saying,’Don’tdothat,oldchap!’

IwentupwithCraigtoMrs.Mavor’sdoor.Shedidnothearuscoming,butstoodnearthewindowgazingupatthemountains.Shewasdressedinsomerichsoftstuff,andworeatherbreastabunchofwild—flowers.Ihadneverseenhersobeautiful.IdidnotwonderthatCraigpausedwithhisfootuponthethresholdtolookather.Sheturnedandsawus.Withagladcry,’Oh!mydarling;

youhavecometome,’shecamewithoutstretchedarms.Iturnedandfled,butthecryandthevisionwerelongwithme.

ItwasdecidedthatnightthatMrs.Mavorshouldgothenextweek.

Aminerandhiswifeweregoingeast,andItoowouldjointheparty.

Thecampwentintomourningatthenews;butitwasunderstoodthatanydisplayofgriefbeforeMrs.Mavorwasbadform.Shewasnottobeannoyed.

ButwhenIsuggestedthatsheshouldleavequietly,andavoidthepainofsayinggood—bye,sheflatlyrefused——

’Imustsaygood—byetoeveryman.TheylovemeandIlovethem.’

Itwasdecided,too,atfirst,thatthereshouldbenothinginthewayofatestimonial,butwhenCraigfoundoutthatthemenwerecomingtoherwithallsortsofextraordinarygifts,heagreedthatitwouldbebetterthattheyshoulduniteinonegift.SoitwasagreedthatIshouldbuyaringforher.Andwereitnotthatthecontributionswerestrictlylimitedtoonedollar,thepursethatSlavinhandedherwhenShawreadtheaddressatthefarewellsupperwouldhavebeenmanytimesfilledwiththegoldthatwaspresseduponthecommittee.Therewerenospeechesatthesupper,exceptonebymyselfinreplyonMrs.Mavor’sbehalf.Shehadgivenmethewordstosay,andIwasthoroughlyprepared,elseIshouldnothavegotthrough.Ibeganintheusualway:’Mr.Chairman,ladiesandgentlemen,Mrs.Mavoris——’butIgotnofurther,foratthementionofhernamethemenstoodonthechairsandyelleduntiltheycouldyellnomore.Therewereovertwohundredandfiftyofthem,andtheeffectwasoverpowering.ButIgotthroughmyspeech.Irememberitwell.Itbegan——

’Mrs.Mavorisgreatlytouchedbythismarkofyourlove,andshewillwearyourringalwayswithpride.’Anditendedwith——

’Shehasonerequesttomake,thatyouwillbetruetotheLeague,andthatyoustandcloseaboutthemanwhodidmosttomakeit.

Shewishesmetosaythathoweverfarawayshemayhavetogo,sheisleavingherheartinBlackRock,andshecanthinkofnogreaterjoythantocomebacktoyouagain.’

Thentheyhad’TheSweetByandBy,’butthemenwouldnotjoinintherefrain,unwillingtoloseanoteofthegloriousvoicetheylovedtohear.Beforethelastverseshebeckonedtome.IwenttoherstandingbyCraig’ssideasheplayedforher.’Askthemtosing,’sheentreated;’Icannotbearit.’

’Mrs.Mavorwishesyoutosingintherefrain,’Isaid,andatoncethemensatupandclearedtheirthroats.Thesingingwasnotgood,butatthefirstsoundofthehoarsenotesofthemenCraig’sheadwentdownovertheorgan,forhewasthinkingIsupposeofthedaysbeforethemwhentheywouldlonginvainforthatthrillingvoicethatsoaredhighovertheirownhoarsetones.Andafterthevoicesdiedawayhekeptonplayingtill,halfturningtowardhim,shesangaloneoncemoretherefraininavoicelowandsweetandtender,asifforhimalone.Andsohetookit,forhesmiledupatherhisoldsmilefullofcourageandfulloflove.

Thenforonewholehourshestoodsayinggood—byetothoserough,gentle—heartedmenwhoseinspirationtogoodnessshehadbeenforfiveyears.Itwasverywonderfulandveryquiet.Itwasunderstoodthattherewastobenononsense,andAbehadbeenheardtodeclarethathewould’throwoutanycotton—backedfoolwhocouldn’tholdhimselfdown,’andfurther,hehadenjoinedthemtorememberthat’herarmwasn’tapump—handle.’

Atlasttheywereallgone,allbutherguardofhonour——Shaw,VernonWinton,Geordie,Nixon,Abe,Nelson,Craig,andmyself.

Thiswastherealfarewell;for,thoughintheearlylightofthenextmorningtwohundredmenstoodsilentaboutthestage,andthenasitmovedoutwavedtheirhatsandyelledmadly,thiswasthelasttouchtheyhadofherhand.Herplacewasuponthedriver’sseatbetweenAbeandMr.Craig,whoheldlittleMarjorieonhisknee.TherestoftheguardofhonourweretofollowwithGraeme’steam.ItwasWinton’sfinesensethatkeptGraemefromfollowingthemclose.’Lethergooutalone,’hesaid,andsoweheldbackandwatchedhergo.

ShestoodwithherbacktowardsAbe’splungingfour—horseteam,andsteadyingherselfwithonehandonAbe’sshoulder,gazeddownuponus.Herheadwasbare,herlipspartedinasmile,hereyesglowingwiththeirowndeeplight;andso,facingus,erectandsmiling,shedroveaway,wavingusfarewelltillAbeswunghisteamintothecanyonroadandwesawhernomore.Asighshudderedthroughthecrowd,and,withasobinhisvoice,Wintonsaid:’Godhelpusall.’

Iclosemyeyesandseeitallagain.Thewavingcrowdofdark—

facedmen,theplunginghorses,and,highupbesidethedriver,theswaying,smiling,wavingfigure,andaboutallthemountains,framingthepicturewiththeirdarksidesandwhitepeakstippedwiththegoldoftherisingsun.ItisapictureIlovetolookupon,albeititcallsupanotherthatIcanneverseebutthroughtears.

Ilookacrossastripofever—wideningwater,atagroupofmenuponthewharf,standingwithheadsuncovered,everymanahero,thoughnotamanofthemsuspectsit,leastofallthemanwhostandsinfront,strong,resolute,self—conquered.And,gazinglong,IthinkIseehimturnagaintohisplaceamongthemenofthemountains,notforgetting,buteverydayrememberingthegreatlovethatcametohim,andremembering,too,thatloveisnotall.

Itisthenthetearscome.

Butforthatpicturetwoofusatleastarebettermento—day.

CHAPTERXIII

HOWNELSONCAMEHOME

Throughthelongsummerthemountainsandthepineswerewithme.

Andthroughthewinter,too,busyasIwasfillinginmyBlackRocksketchesfortherailwaypeoplewhowouldstillpersistinorderingthembythedozen,thememoryofthatstirringlifewouldcomeoverme,andoncemoreIwouldbeamongthesilentpinesandthemightysnow—peakedmountains.Andbeforemewouldappearthered—shirtedshantymenordark—facedminers,great,free,boldfellows,drivingmealmostmadwiththedesiretoseizeandfixthoseswiftlychanginggroupsofpicturesquefigures.AtsuchtimesIwoulddropmysketch,andwitheagerbrushseizeagroup,aface,afigure,andthatishowmystudiocomestobefilledwiththemenofBlackRock.Theretheyareallaboutme.Graemeandthemenfromthewoods,Sandy,Baptiste,theCampbells,andinmanyattitudesandgroupsoldmanNelson;Craig,too,andhisminers,Shaw,Geordie,Nixon,andpooroldBillyandthekeeperoftheLeaguesaloon.

ItseemedasifIlivedamongthem,andtheillusionwasgreatlyhelpedbythevividlettersGraemesentmefromtimetotime.

BriefnotescamenowandthenfromCraigtoo,towhomIhadsentafaithfulaccountofhowIhadbroughtMrs.Mavortohership,andofhowIhadwatchedhersailawaywithnonetoobraveaface,assheheldupherhandthatboretheminers’ring,andsmiledwiththatdeeplightinhereyes.Ah!thoseeyeshavedrivenmetodespairandmademefearthatIamnogreatpainterafterall,inspiteofwhatmyfriendstellmewhocomeintosmokemygoodcigarsandpraisemybrush.Icangetthebrowandhair,andmouthandpose,buttheeyes!theeyeseludeme——andthefacesofMrs.

Mavoronmywall,thatthemenpraiseandraveover,arenotsuchasIcouldshowtoanyofthemenfromthemountains.

Graeme’sletterstellmechieflyaboutCraigandhisdoings,andaboutoldmanNelson;whilefromCraigIhearaboutGraeme,andhowheandNelsonarestandingathisback,anddoingwhattheycantofillthegapthatnevercanbefilled.Thethreearemuchtogether,Icansee,andIamgladforthemall,butchieflyforCraig,whoseface,grief—strickenbutresolute,andoftengentleasawoman’s,willnotleavemenorletmerestinpeace.

Thenoteofthankshesentmewasentirelycharacteristic.Therewerenoheroics,muchlesspiningorself—pity.Itwassimpleandmanly,notignoringthepainbutmakingmuchofthejoy.Andthentheyhadtheirworktodo.Thatnote,soclear,somanly,sonoblysensible,stiffensmybackyetattimes.

InthespringcamethestartlingnewsthatBlackRockwouldsoonbenomore.TheminesweretoclosedownonApril1.Thecompany,havingalluredtheconfidingpublicwithenticingdescriptionsofmarvellousdrifts,veins,assays,andprospects,andhavingexpendedvastsumsofthepublic’smoneyindevelopingtheminestilltheassuranceoftheirreliabilitywasabsolutelyfinal,calmlyshutdownandvanished.WiththeirvanishingvanishesBlackRock,notwithoutlossandmuchdeepcursingonthepartofthemenbroughtsomehundredsofmilestoaidthecompanyinitsextraordinaryandwhollyinexplicablegame.

PersonallyitgrievedmetothinkthatmyplanofreturningtoBlackRockcouldneverbecarriedout.Itwasagreatcompensation,however,thatthethreemenmostrepresentativetomeofthatlifeweresoontovisitmeactuallyinmyownhomeandden.Graeme’slettersaidthatinonemonththeymightbeexpectedtoappear.AtleastheandNelsonweresoontocome,andCraigwouldsoonfollow.

Onreceivingthegreatnews,IatoncelookedupyoungNelsonandhissister,andweproceededtocelebratethejoyfulprospectwithaspeciallygooddinner.Ifoundthegreatestdelightinpicturingthejoyandprideoftheoldmaninhischildren,whomhehadnotseenforfifteenorsixteenyears.Themotherhaddiedsomefiveyearsbefore,thenthefarmwassold,andthebrotherandsistercameintothecity;andanyfathermightbeproudofthem.Thesonwasawell—madeyoungfellow,handsomeenough,thoughtful,andsolid—looking.Thegirlremindedmeofherfather.Thesameresolutionwasseeninmouthandjaw,andthesamepassionslumberedinthedarkgreyeyes.Shewasnotbeautiful,butshecarriedherselfwell,andonewouldalwayslookathertwice.Itwouldbeworthsomethingtoseethemeetingbetweenfatheranddaughter.

Butfate,thegreatestartistofusall,takeslittlecountofthecarefuldrawingandthebrightcolouringofourfancy’spictures,butwithrudehandderangesall,andwithoneswiftsweeppaintsoutthebrightandpaintsinthedark.Andthistrickheservedmewhen,oneJunenight,afterlongandanxiouswaitingforsomewordfromthewest,mydoorsuddenlyopenedandGraemewalkedinuponmelikeaspectre,greyandvoiceless.Myshoutofwelcomewaschokedbackbythelookinhisface,andIcouldonlygazeathimandwaitforhisword.Hegrippedmyhand,triedtospeak,butfailedtomakewordscome.

’Sitdown,oldman,’Isaid,pushing,himintomychair,’andtakeyourtime.’

Heobeyed,lookingupatmewithburning,sleeplesseyes.Myheartwassoreforhismisery,andIsaid:’Don’tmind,oldchap;itcan’tbesoawfullybad.You’reheresafeandsoundatanyrate,’

andsoIwentontogivehimtime.Butheshudderedandlookedroundandgroaned.

’Nowlookhere,Graeme,let’shaveit.Whendidyoulandhere?

WhereisNelson?Whydidn’tyoubringhimup?’

’Heisatthestationinhiscoffin,’heansweredslowly.

’Inhiscoffin?’Iechoed,mybeautifulpicturesallvanishing.

’Howwasit?’

’Throughmycursedfolly,’hegroanedbitterly.

’Whathappened?’Iasked.Butignoringmyquestion,hesaid:’I

mustseehischildren.Ihavenotsleptforfournights.IhardlyknowwhatIamdoing;butIcan’tresttillIseehischildren.I

promisedhim.Getthemforme.’

’To—morrowwilldo.Gotosleepnow,andweshallarrangeeverythingto—morrow,’Iurged.

’No!’hesaidfiercely;’to—night——now!’

Inhalfanhourtheywerelistening,paleandgrief—stricken,tothestoryoftheirfather’sdeath.

PoorGraemewasrelentlessinhisself—condemnationashetoldhow,throughhis’cursedfolly,’oldNelsonwaskilled.Thethree,Craig,Graeme,andNelson,hadcomeasfarasVictoriatogether.

TheretheyleftCraig,andcameontoSanFrancisco.InanevilhourGraememetacompanionofotherandevildays,anditwasnotlongtilltheoldfevercameuponhim.

InvainNelsonwarnedandpleaded.ThereactionfromthemonotonyandpovertyofcamplifetotheexcitementandluxuryoftheSanFranciscogamingpalacesswungGraemequiteoffhisfeet,andallthatNelsoncoulddowastofollowfromplacetoplaceandkeepwatch.

’Andtherehewouldsit,’saidGraemeinahard,bittervoice,’waitingandwatchingoftentillthegreymorninglight,whilemymadnessheldmefasttothetable.Onenight,’herehepausedamoment,puthisfaceinhishandsandshuddered;butquicklyhewasmasterofhimselfagain,andwentoninthesamehardvoice——’OnenightmypartnerandIwereplayingtwomenwhohaddoneusupbefore.Iknewtheywerecheating,butcouldnotdetectthem.

Gameaftergametheywon,tillIwasfuriousatmystupidityinnotbeingabletocatchthem.HappeningtoglanceatNelsoninthecorner,Icaughtameaninglook,andlookingagain,hethrewmeasignal.Iknewatoncewhatthefraudwas,andnextgamechargedthefellowwithit.Hegavemethelie;Istruckhismouth,butbeforeIcoulddrawmygun,hispartnerhadmebythearms.WhatfollowedIhardlyknow.WhileIwasstrugglingtogetfree,Isawhimreachforhisweapon;but,ashedrewit,Nelsonsprangacrossthetable,andborehimdown.Whentherowwasever,threemenlayonthefloor.OnewasNelson;hetooktheshotmeantforme.’

Againthestorypaused.

’Andthemanthatshothim?’

Istartedattheintensefiercenessinthevoice,and,lookinguponthegirl,sawhereyesblazingwithaterriblelight.

’Heisdead,’answeredGraemeindifferently.

’Youkilledhim?’sheaskedeagerly.

Graemelookedathercuriously,andansweredslowly——

’Ididnotmeanto.Hecameatme.IstruckhimharderthanI

knew.Henevermoved.’

Shedrewasighofsatisfaction,andwaited.

’Igothimtoaprivateward,hadthebestdoctorinthecity,andsentforCraigtoVictoria.Forthreedayswethoughthewouldlive——hewaskeentogethome;butbythetimeCraigcamewehadgivenuphope.Oh,butIwasthankfultoseeCraigcomein,andthejoyintheoldman’seyeswasbeautifultosee.Therewasnopainatlast,andnofear.Hewouldnotallowmetoreproachmyself,sayingoverandover,\"Youwouldhavedonethesameforme\"——asIwould,fastenough——\"anditisbettermethanyou.Iamoldanddone;youwilldomuchgoodyetfortheboys.\"AndhekeptlookingatmetillIcouldonlypromisetodomybest.

’ButIamgladItoldhimhowmuchgoodhehaddonemeduringthelastyear,forheseemedtothinkthattoogoodtobetrue.AndwhenCraigtoldhimhowhehadhelpedtheboysinthecamp,andhowSandyandBaptisteandtheCampbellswouldalwaysbebettermenforhislifeamongthem,theoldman’sfaceactuallyshone,asiflightwerecomingthrough.Andwithsurpriseandjoyhekeptonsaying,\"Doyouthinkso?Doyouthinkso?Perhapsso,perhapsso.\"AtthelasthetalkedofChristmasnightatthecamp.Youwerethere,youremember.Craighadbeenholdingaservice,andsomethinghappened,Idon’tknowwhat,buttheybothknew.’

’Iknow,’Isaid,andIsawagainthepictureoftheoldmanunderthepine,uponhiskneesinthesnow,withhisfaceturneduptothestars.

’Whateveritwas,itwasinhismindattheverylast,andIcanneverforgethisfaceasheturnedittoCraig.Onehearsofsuchthings:Ihadoften,buthadneverputmuchfaithinthem;butjoy,rapture,triumph,thesearewhatwereinhisface,ashesaid,hisbreathcomingshort,\"Yousaid——Hewouldn’t——failme——youwereright——notonce——notonce——Hestucktome——I’mgladhetoldme——

thankGod——foryou——youshowed——me——I’llseeHim——and——tellHim——’

AndCraig,kneelingbesidehimsosteady——Iwasbehavinglikeafool——smileddownthroughhisstreamingtearsintothedimeyessobrightly,tilltheycouldseenomore.Thankhimforthat!Hehelpedtheoldmanthrough,andhehelpedmetoo,thatnight,thankGod!’AndGraeme’svoice,hardtillnow,brokeinasob.

Hehadforgottenus,andwasbackbesidehispassingfriend,andallhisself—controlcouldnotkeepbacktheflowingtears.

’Itwashislifeformine,’hesaidhuskily.

Thebrotherandsisterwerequietlyweeping,butspokenoword,thoughIknewGraemewaswaitingforthem.

Itookuptheword,andtoldofwhatIhadknownofNelson,andhisinfluenceuponthemenofBlackRock.Theylistenedeagerlyenough,butstillwithoutspeaking.Thereseemednothingtosay,tillIsuggestedtoGraemethathemustgetsomerest.Thenthegirlturnedtohim,and,impulsivelyputtingoutherhand,said——

’Oh,itisallsosad;buthowcanweeverthankyou?’

’Thankme!’gaspedGraeme.’Canyouforgiveme?Ibroughthimtohisdeath.’

’No,no!Youmustnotsayso,’sheansweredhurriedly.’Youwouldhavedonethesameforhim.’

’GodknowsIwould,’saidGraemeearnestly;’andGodblessyouforyourwords!’AndIwasthankfultoseethetearsstartinhisdry,burningeyes.

Wecarriedhimtotheoldhomeinthecountry,thathemightliebythesideofthewifehehadlovedandwronged.Afewfriendsmetusatthewaysidestation,andfollowedinsadprocessionalongthecountryroad,thatwoundpastfarmsandthroughwoods,andatlastuptotheascentwherethequaint,oldwoodenchurch,blackwiththerainsandsnowsofmanyyears,stoodamongitssilentgraves.

Thelittlegraveyardslopedgentlytowardsthesettingsun,andfromitonecouldsee,faroneveryside,thefieldsofgrainandmeadowlandthatwanderedoffoversoftlyundulatinghillstomeetthemaplewoodsatthehorizon,dark,green,andcool.Hereandtherewhitefarmhouses,withgreatbarnsstandingnear,lookedoutfromclusteringorchards.

Upthegrass—grownwalk,andthroughthecrowdingmounds,overwhichwaves,uncut,thelong,tanglinggrass,webearourfriend,andlethimgentlydownintothekindlybosomofmotherearth,dark,moist,andwarm.Thesoundofadistantcowbellmingleswiththevoiceofthelastprayer;theclodsdropheavilywithheart—

startlingecho;themoundisheapedandshapedbykindlyfriends,sharingwithoneanotherthetask;thelongroughsodsarelaidoverandpattedintoplace;theoldministertakesfarewellinafewwordsofgentlesympathy;thebrotherandsister,withlingeringlooksatthetwogravessidebyside,theoldandthenew,stepintothefarmer’scarriage,anddriveaway;thesextonlocksthegateandgoeshome,andweareleftoutsidealone.

ThenwewentbackandstoodbyNelson’sgrave.

AfteralongsilenceGraemespoke.

’Connor,hedidnotgrudgehislifetome——andIthink’——andherethewordscameslowly——’Iunderstandnowwhatthatmeans,\"WholovedmeandgaveHimselfforme.\"’

Thentakingoffhishat,hesaidreverently,’ByGod’shelpNelson’slifeshallnotend,butshallgoon.Yes,oldman!’

lookingdownuponthegrave,’I’mwithyou’;andliftinguphisfacetothecalmsky,’Godhelpmetobetrue.’

Thenheturnedandwalkedbrisklyaway,asonemightwhohadpressingbusiness,orassoldiersmarchfromacomrade’sgravetoamerrytune,notthattheyhaveforgotten,buttheyhavestilltofight.

AndthiswasthewayoldmanNelsoncamehome.

CHAPTERSXIV.

GRAEME’SNEWBIRTH

TherewasmoreleftinthatgravethanoldmanNelson’sdeadbody.

ItseemedtomethatGraemeleftpart,atleast,ofhisoldselfthere,withhisdeadfriendandcomrade,inthequietcountrychurchyard.Iwaitedlongfortheoldcareless,recklessspirittoappear,buthewasneverthesameagain.Thechangewasunmistakable,buthardtodefine.Heseemedtohaveresolvedhislifeintoadefinitepurpose.Hewashardlysocomfortableafellowtobewith;hemademefeelevenmorelazyanduselessthanwasmywont;butIrespectedhimmore,andlikedhimnonetheless.

Asalionhewasnotasuccess.Hewouldnotroar.Thiswasdisappointingtome,andtohisfriendsandmine,whohadbeenwaitinghisreturnwitheagerexpectationoftalesofthrillingandbloodthirstyadventure.

Hisfirstdayswerespentinmakingright,orasnearlyrightashecould,thebreakthatdrovehimtothewest.Hisoldfirm(andI

havehadmorerespectforthehumanityoflawyerseversince)

behavedreallywell.Theyprovedtherestorationoftheirconfidenceinhisintegrityandabilitybyofferinghimaplaceinthefirm,which,however,hewouldnotaccept.Then,whenhefeltclean,ashesaid,hepostedoffhome,takingmewithhim.Duringtherailwayjourneyoffourhourshehardlyspoke;butwhenwehadleftthetownbehind,andhadfairlygotuponthecountryroadthatledtowardthehometenmilesaway,hisspeechcametohiminagreatflow.Hisspiritsranover.Hewaslikeaboyreturningfromhisfirstcollegeterm.Hisveryfaceworetheboy’sopen,innocent,earnestlookthatusedtoattractmentohiminhisfirstcollegeyear.Hisdelightinthefieldsandwoods,inthesweetcountryairandthesunlight,waswithoutbound.Howoftenhadwedriventhisroadtogetherintheolddays!

Everyturnwasfamiliar.Theswampwherethetamaracksstoodstraightandslimoutoftheirbedsofmoss;thebrule,asweusedtocallit,wherethepine—stumps,hugeandblackened,werehalf—

hiddenbythenewgrowthofpoplarsandsoftmaples;thebighill,whereweusedtogetoutandwalkwhentheroadswerebad;theorchards,wheretheharvestappleswerebestandmostaccessible——

allhadtheirmemories.

ItwasoneofthoseperfectafternoonsthatsooftencomeintheearlyCanadiansummer,beforeNaturegrowswearywiththeheat.

Thewhitegravelroadwastrimmedoneithersidewithturfoflivinggreen,closecroppedbythesheepthatwanderedinflocksalongitswholelength.Beyondthepicturesquesnake—fencesstretchedthefieldsofspringinggrain,ofvaryingshadesofgreen,withhereandthereadarkbrownpatch,markingaturnipfieldorsummerfallow,andfarbackwerethewoodsofmapleandbeechandelm,withhereandtherethetuftedtopofamightypine,thelonelyrepresentativeofavanishedrace,standingclearabovethehumblertrees.

Aswedrovethroughthebigswamp,wheretheyawning,hauntedgullyplungesdowntoitsgloomydepths,Graemeremindedmeofthatnightwhenourhorsesawsomethinginthatsamegully,andrefusedtogopast;andIfeltagain,thoughitwasbroaddaylight,somethingofthegruethatshivereddownmyback,asIsawinthemoonlightthegleamofawhitethingfarthroughthepinetrunks.

Aswecamenearerhomethehousesbecamefamiliar.Everyhousehaditstale:wehadeatenorsleptinmostofthem;wehadsampledapples,andcherries,andplumsfromtheirorchards,openlyasguests,orsecretlyasmarauders,undercoverofnight——themoredelightfulway,Ifear.Ah!happydays,withtheseinnocentcrimesandfleetingremorses,howbravelywefacedthem,andhowgailywelivedthem,andhowyearninglywelookbackatthemnow!Thesunwasjustdippingintothetree—topsofthedistantwoodsbehindaswecametothetopofthelasthillthatoverlookedthevalley,inwhichlaythevillageofRiverdale.Woodedhillsstoodaboutitonthreesides,and,wherethehillsfadedout,therelaythemill—

pondsleepingandsmilinginthesun.Throughthevillageranthewhiteroad,uppasttheoldframechurch,andontothewhitemansestandingamongthetrees.ThatwasGraeme’shome,andminetoo,forIhadneverknownanotherworthyofthename.Weheldupourteamtolookdownoverthevalley,withitsrampartofwoodedhills,itsshiningpond,anditsnestlingvillage,andonpasttothechurchandthewhitemanse,hidingamongthetrees.Thebeauty,thepeace,thewarm,lovinghomelinessofthescenecameaboutourhearts,but,beingmen,wecouldfindnowords.

’Let’sgo,’criedGraeme,anddownthehillwetoreandrockedandswayedtotheamazementofthesteadyteam,whoseeducationfromtheearliestyearshadimpressedupontheirmindsthecriminalityofattemptingtodoanythingbutwalkcarefullydownahill,atleastfortwo—thirdsoftheway.Throughthevillage,inacloudofdust,weswept,catchingaglimpseofawell—knownfacehereandthere,andflingingasalutationaswepassed,leavingtheownerofthefacerootedtohisplaceinastonishmentatthesightofGraemewhirlingoninhisold—time,well—knownrecklessmanner.OnlyoldDunc.M’Leodwasequaltothemoment,forasGraemecalledout,’Hello,Dunc.!’theoldmanlifteduphishands,andcalledbackinanawedvoice:’Blessmysoul!isityourself?’

’Standshiswhiskywell,pooroldchap!’wasGraeme’scomment.

Aswenearedthechurchhepulleduphisteam,andwewentquietlypastthesleepersthere,thenagainonthefullrundownthegentleslope,overthelittlebrook,anduptothegate.Hehadhardlygothisteampulledupbefore,flingingmethelines,hewasoutoverthewheel,forcomingdownthewalk,withherhandsliftedhigh,wasadaintylittlelady,withthefaceofanangel.InamomentGraemehadherinhisarms.Iheardthefaintcry,’Myboy,myboy,’andgotdownontheothersidetoattendtomyoffhorse,surprisedtofindmyhandstremblingandmyeyesfulloftears.

Backuponthestepsstoodanoldgentleman,withwhitehairandflowingbeard,handsome,straight,andstately——Graeme’sfather,waitinghisturn.

’Welcomehome,mylad,’washisgreeting,ashekissedhisson,andthetremorofhisvoice,andthesightofthetwomenkissingeachother,likewomen,sentmeagaintomyhorses’heads.

’There’sConnor,mother!’shoutedoutGraeme,andthedaintylittlelady,inherblacksilkandwhitelace,cameouttomequickly,withoutstretchedhands.

’You,too,arewelcomehome,’shesaid,andkissedme.

Istoodwithmyhatoff,sayingsomethingaboutbeinggladtocome,butwishingthatIcouldgetawaybeforeIshouldmakequiteafoolofmyself.ForasIlookeddownuponthatbeautifulface,pale,exceptforafaintflushuponeachfadedcheek,andreadthestoryofpainenduredandconquered,andasIthoughtofallthelongyearsofwaitingandofvainhoping,Ifoundmythroatdryandsore,andthewordswouldnotcome.Butherquicksenseneedednowords,andshecametomyhelp.

’YouwillfindJackatthestable,’shesaid,smiling;’heoughttohavebeenhere.’

Thestable!WhyhadInotthoughtofthatbefore?Thankfullynowmywordscame——

’Yes,certainly,I’llfindhim,Mrs.Graeme.Isupposehe’sasmuchofascapegraceasever,andoffIwenttolookupGraeme’syoungbrother,whohadgiveneverypromiseintheolddaysofdevelopingintoasstirringarascalasonecoulddesire;butwho,asIfoundoutlater,hadnotlivedtheseyearsinhismother’shomefornothing.

’Oh,Jack’sagoodboy,’sheanswered,smilingagain,assheturnedtowardtheothertwo,nowwaitingforheruponthewalk.

Theweekthatfollowedwasahappyoneforusall;butforthemotheritwasfulltothebrimwithjoy.Hersweetfacewasfullofcontent,andinhereyesrestedagreatpeace.Ourdayswerespentdrivingaboutamongthehills,orstrollingthroughthemaplewoods,ordownintothetamarackswamp,wherethepitcherplantsandtheswampliliesandthemarigoldwavedabovethedeepmoss.

Intheeveningswesatunderthetreesonthelawntillthestarscameoutandthenightdewsdroveusin.Liketwolovers,Graemeandhismotherwouldwanderofftogether,leavingJackandmetoeachother.Jackwasreadingfordivinity,andwasreallyafine,manlyfellow,withallhisbrother’sturnforrugby,andItooktohimamazingly;butafterthedaywasoverwewouldgatheraboutthesuppertable,andthetalkwouldbeofallthingsunderheaven——

art,football,theology.Themotherwouldleadinall.Howquickshewas,howbrightherfancy,howsubtleherintellect,andthroughallagentlegrace,verywinningandbeautifultosee!

DowhatIwould,Graemewouldtalklittleofthemountainsandhislifethere.

’Mylionwillnotroar,Mrs.Graeme,’Icomplained;’hesimplywillnot.’

’Youshouldtwisthistail,’saidJack.

’Thatseemstobethedifficulty,Jack,’saidhismother,’togetholdofhistale.’

’Oh,mother,’groanedJack;’youneverdidsuchathingbefore!

Howcouldyou?IsitthisbalefulWesterninfluence?’

’Ishallreform,Jack,’sherepliedbrightly.

’But,seriously,Graeme,’Iremonstrated,’yououghttotellyourpeopleofyourlife——thatfree,gloriouslifeinthemountains.’

’Free!Glorious!Tosomemen,perhaps!’saidGraeme,andthenfellintosilence.

ButIsawGraemeasanewmanthenighthetalkedtheologywithhisfather.TheoldministerwasasplendidCalvinist,ofheroictype,andashediscoursedofGod’ssovereigntyandelection,hisfaceglowedandhisvoicerangout.

Graemelistenedintently,nowandthenputtinginaquestion,asonewouldakeenknife—thrustintoafoe.Buttheoldmanknewhisground,andmovedeasilyamonghisideas,demolishingtheenemyasheappeared,withjauntygrace.Inthefullflowofhistriumphantargument,Graemeturnedtohimwithsuddenseriousness.

’Lookhere,father!IwasbornaCalvinist,andIcan’tseehowanyonewithalevelheadcanholdanythingelse,thanthattheAlmightyhassomeideaastohowHewantstorunHisuniverse,andHemeanstocarryoutHisidea,andiscarryingitout;butwhatwouldyoudoinacaselikethis?’ThenhetoldhimthestoryofpoorBillyBreen,hisfightandhisdefeat.

’Wouldyoupreachelectiontothatchap?’

Themother’seyeswereshiningwithtears.

Theoldgentlemanblewhisnoselikeatrumpet,andthensaidgravely——

’No,myboy,youdon’tfeedbabeswithmeat.Butwhatcametohim?’

ThenGraemeaskedmetofinishthetale.AfterIhadfinishedthestoryofBilly’sfinaltriumphandofCraig’spartinit,theysatlongsilent,tilltheminister,clearinghisthroathardandblowinghisnosemorelikeatrumpetthanever,saidwithgreatemphasis——

’ThankGodforsuchamaninsuchaplace!Iwishthereweremoreofuslikehim.’

’Ishouldliketoseeyououtthere,sir,’saidGraemeadmiringly;

’you’dgetthem,butyouwouldn’thavetimeforelection.’

’Yes,yes!’saidhisfatherwarmly;’Ishouldlovetohaveachancejusttopreachelectiontothesepoorlads.WouldIweretwentyyearsyounger!’

’Itisworthaman’slife,’saidGraemeearnestly.Hisyoungerbrotherturnedhisfaceeagerlytowardthemother.Foranswersheslippedherhandintohisandsaidsoftly,whilehereyesshonelikestars——

’Someday,Jack,perhaps!Godknows.’ButJackonlylookedsteadilyather,smilingalittleandpattingherhand.

’You’dshinethere,mother,’saidGraeme,smilinguponher;’you’dbettercomewithme.’Shestarted,andsaidfaintly——

’Withyou?’Itwasthefirsthinthehadgivenofhispurpose.

’Youaregoingback?’

’What!asamissionary?’saidJack.

’Nottopreach,Jack;I’mnotorthodoxenough,’lookingathisfatherandshakinghishead;’buttobuildrailroadsandlendahandtosomepoorchap,ifIcan.’

’Couldyounotfindworknearerhome,myboy?’askedthefather;

’thereisplentyofbothkindsnearushere,surely.’

’Lotsofwork,butnotmine,Ifear,’answeredGraeme,keepinghiseyesawayfromhismother’sface.’Amanmustdohisownwork.’

Hisvoicewasquietandresolute,andglancingatthebeautifulfaceattheendofthetable,Isawinthepalelipsandyearningeyesthatthemotherwasofferingupherfirstborn,thatancientsacrifice.Butnotalltheagonyofsacrificecouldwringfromherentreatyorcomplaintinthehearingofhersons.Thatwasforotherearsandforthesilenthoursofthenight.Andnextmorningwhenshecamedowntomeetusherfacewaswanandweary,butitworethepeaceofvictoryandaglorynotofearth.Hergreetingwasfullofdignity,sweetandgentle;butwhenshecametoGraemeshelingeredoverhimandkissedhimtwice.Andthatwasallthatanyofuseversawofthatsorefight.

AttheendoftheweekItookleaveofthem,andlastofallofthemother.

Shehesitatedjustamoment,thensuddenlyputherhandsuponmyshouldersandkissedme,sayingsoftly,’Youarehisfriend;youwillsometimescometome?’

’Gladly,ifImay,’Ihastenedtoanswer,forthesweet,bravefacewastoomuchtobear;and,tillsheleftusforthatworldofwhichshewasapart,Ikeptmyword,tomyowngreatandlastinggood.

WhenGraememetmeinthecityattheendofthesummer,hebroughtmeherlove,andthenburstforth——

’Connor,doyouknow,Ihavejustdiscoveredmymother!Ihaveneverknownhertillthissummer.’

’Morefoolyou,’Ianswered,foroftenhadI,whohadneverknownamother,enviedhimhis.

’Yes,thatistrue,’heansweredslowly;’butyoucannotseeuntilyouhaveeyes.’

BeforehesetoutagainforthewestIgavehimasupper,askingthemenwhohadbeenwithusintheold’Varsitydays.Iwasdoubtfulastothewisdomofthis,andwaspersuadedonlybyGraeme’seagerassenttomyproposal.

’Certainly,let’shavethem,’hesaid;’Ishallbeawfullygladtoseethem;greatstufftheywere.’

’But,Idon’tknow,Graeme;yousee——well——hangit!——youknow——

you’redifferent,youknow.’

Helookedatmecuriously.

’IhopeIcanstillstandagoodsupper,andiftheboyscan’tstandme,why,Ican’thelpit.I’lldoanythingbutroar,anddon’tyoubegintoworkoffyourmenagerieact——now,youhearme!’

’Well,itisratherhardlinesthatwhenIhavebeentalkingupmylionforayear,andthenfinallysecurehim,thathewillnotroar.’

’Serveyouright,’hereplied,quiteheartlessly;’butI’lltellyouwhatI’lldo,I’llfeed!Don’tyouworry,’headdssoothingly;

’thesupperwillgo.’

Andgoitdid.Thesupperwasofthebest;thewinesfirst—class.

IhadaskedGraemeaboutthewines.

’Doasyoulike,oldman,’washisanswer;’it’syoursupper,but,’

headded,’arethemenallstraight?’

Iranthemoverinmymind.

’Yes;Ithinkso.’

Ifnot,don’tyouhelpthemdown;andanyway,youcan’tbetoocareful.Butdon’tmindme;Iamquitofthewholebusinessfromthisout.’SoIventuredwines,forthelasttime,asithappened.

Wewereaquaintcombination.Old’Beetles,’whosenicknamewaspropheticofhisfuturefameasabugman,asthefellowsirreverentlysaid;’Stumpy’Smith,ademonbowler;PollyLindsay,slowaseverandassureaswhenheheldthehalf—backlinewithGraeme,andusedtomakemyheartstandstillwithterrorathiscooldeliberation.Buthewasneverknowntofumblenortofunk,andsomehowhealwaysgotusoutsafeenough.ThentherewasRattray——’Rat’forshort——who,fromaswell,haddevelopedintoacynicwithasneer,awfullycleverandagoodenoughfellowatheart.Little’Wig’Martin,thesharpestquartereverseen,andbigBarneyLundy,centrescrimmage,whoseterrificroarandrushhadoftenstruckterrortotheenemy’sheart,andwhowasGraeme’sslave.Suchwastheparty.

Asthesupperwentonmyfearsbegantovanish,forifGraemedidnot’roar,’hedidthenextbestthing——ateandtalkedquiteuptohisoldform.Nowweplayedourmatchesoveragain,bitterlylamentingthe’if’s’thathadlostusthechampionships,andwildlyapprovingthetacklesthathadsaved,andtherunsthathadmadethe’Varsitycrowdgomadwithdelightandhadwonforus.Andastheirnamescameupintalk,welearnedhowlifehadgonewiththosewhohadbeenourcomradesoftenyearsago.Some,successhadliftedtohighplaces;some,failurehadleftupontherocks,andafewlayintheirgraves.

Butastheeveningworeon,IbegantowishthatIhadleftoutthewines,forthemenbegantodropanoccasionaloath,thoughIhadletthemknowduringthesummerthatGraemewasnotthemanhehadbeen.ButGraemesmokedandtalkedandheedednot,tillRattraysworebythatnamemostsacredofalleverbornebyman.ThenGraemeopeneduponhiminacool,slowway——

’Whatanawfulfoolamanis,todamnthingsasyoudo,Rat.

Thingsarenotdamned.Itismenwhoare;andthatistoobadtobetalkedmuchaboutbutwhenamanflingsoutofhisfoulmouththenameofJesusChrist’——hereheloweredhisvoice——’it’sashame——it’smore,it’sacrime.’

Therewasdeadsilence,thenRattrayreplied——

’Isupposeyou’rerightenough,itisbadform;butcrimeisratherstrong,Ithink.’

’Notifyouconsiderwhoitis,’saidGraemewithemphasis.

’Oh,comenow,’brokeinBeetles.’Religionisallright,isagoodthing,andIbelieveanecessarythingfortherace,butnoonetakesseriouslyanylongertheChristmyth.’

’Whataboutyourmother,Beetles?’putinWigMartin.

Beetlesconsignedhimtothepitandwassilent,forhisfatherwasanEpiscopalclergyman,andhismotherasaintlywoman.

’Ifooledwiththatforsometime,Beetles,butitwon’tdo.Youcan’tbuildareligionthatwilltakethedeviloutofamanonamyth.Thatwon’tdothetrick.Idon’twanttoargueaboutit,butIamquiteconvincedthemyththeoryisnotreasonable,andbesides,itwontwork.’

’Willtheotherwork?’askedRattray,withasneer.

’Sure!’saidGrame;’I’veseenit.’

’Where?’challengedRattray.’Ihaven’tseenmuchofit.’

’Yes,youhave,Rattray,youknowyouhave,’saidWigagain.ButRattrayignoredhim.

’I’lltellyou,boys,’saidGraeme.’Iwantyoutoknow,anyway,whyIbelievewhatIdo.’

ThenhetoldthemthestoryofoldmanNelson,fromtheoldcoastdays,beforeIknewhim,totheend.Hetoldthestorywell.Thesternfightandthevictoryofthelife,andtheself—sacrificeandthepathosofthedeathappealedtothesemen,wholovedfightandcouldunderstandsacrifice.

’That’swhyIbelieveinJesusChrist,andthat’swhyIthinkitacrimetoflingHisnameabout!’

’IwishtoHeavenIcouldsaythat,’saidBeetles.

’Keepwishinghardenoughanditwillcometoyou,’saidGraeme.

’Lookhere,oldchap,’saidRattray;’you’requiterightaboutthis;I’mwillingtoownup.Wigiscorrect.Iknowafew,atleast,ofthatstamp,butmostofthosewhogoinforthatsortofthingarenotmuchaccount’

’Fortenyears,Rattray,’saidGraemeinadownright,matter—of—

factway,’youandIhavetriedthissortofthing’——tappingabottle——’andwegotoutofitallthereistobegot,paidwellforit,too,and——faugh!youknowit’snotgoodenough,andthemoreyougoinforit,themoreyoucurseyourself.SoIhavequitthisandIamgoinginfortheother.’

’What!goinginforpreaching?’

’Notmuch——railroading——moneyinit——andlendingahandtofellowsontherocks.’

’Isay,don’tyouwantacentreforward?’saidbigBarneyinhisdeepvoice.

’Everymanmustplayhisgameinhisplace,oldchap.I’dliketoseeyoutackleit,though,rightwell,’saidGraemeearnestly.Andsohedid,intheafteryears,andgoodtacklingitwas.Butthatisanotherstory.

’But,Isay,Graeme,’persistedBeetles,’aboutthisbusiness,doyoumeantosayyougothewholething——Jonah,youknow,andtherestofit?’

Graemehesitated,thensaid——

’Ihaven’tmuchofacreed,Beetles;don’treallyknowhowmuchI

believe.But,’bythistimehewasstanding,’Idoknowthatgoodisgood,andbadisbad,andgoodandbadarenotthesame.AndI

knowaman’safooltofollowtheone,andawisemantofollowtheother,and,’loweringhisvoice,’IbelieveGodisatthebackofamanwhowantstogetdonewithbad.I’vetriedallthatfolly,’

sweepinghishandovertheglassesandbottles,’andallthatgoeswithit,andI’vedonewithit’

’I’llgoyouthatfar,’roaredbigBarney,followinghisoldcaptainasofyore.

’Goodman,’saidGraeme,strikinghandswithhim.

’Putmedown,’saidlittleWigcheerfully.

ThenItookuptheword,forthererosebeforemethesceneintheLeaguesaloon,andIsawthebeautifulfacewiththedeepshiningeyes,andIwasspeakingforheragain.ItoldthemofCraigandhisfightforthesemen’slives.Itoldthem,too,ofhowIhadbeentooindolenttobegin.’But,’Isaid,’Iamgoingthisfarfromto—night,’andIsweptthebottlesintothechampagnetub.

’Isay,’saidPollyLindsay,comingupinhisoldstyle,slowbutsure,’let’sallgoin,sayforfiveyears.’Andsowedid.Wedidn’tsignanything,buteverymanshookhandswithGraeme.

AndasItoldCraigaboutthisayearlater,whenhewasonhiswaybackfromhisOldLandtriptojoinGraemeinthemountains,hethrewuphisheadintheoldwayandsaid,’Itwaswelldone.Itmusthavebeenworthseeing.OldmanNelson’sworkisnotdoneyet.Tellmeagain,’andhemademegooverthewholescenewithallthedetailsputin.

ButwhenItoldMrs.Mavor,aftertwoyearshadgone,sheonlysaid,’Oldthingsarepassedaway,allthingsarebecomenew’;butthelightglowedinhereyestillIcouldnotseetheircolour.

Butallthat,too,isanotherstory.

CHAPTERXV

COMINGTOTHEIROWN

Amanwithaconscienceisoftenprovoking,sometimesimpossible.

Persuasionislostuponhim.Hewillnotgetangry,andhelooksatonewithsuchafar—awayexpressioninhisfacethatinstrivingtopersuadehimonefeelsearthlyandevenfiendish.AtleastthiswasmyexperiencewithCraig.HespentaweekwithmejustbeforehesailedfortheOldLand,forthepurpose,ashesaid,ofgettingsomeofthecoaldustandothergrimeoutofhim.

Hemademeangrythelastnightofhisstay,andallthemorethatheremainedquitesweetlyunmoved.ItwasastrategicmistakeofminetotellhimhowNelsoncamehometous,andhowGraemestoodupbeforethe’VarsitychapsatmysupperandmadehisconfessionandconfusedRattray’seasy—steppingprofanity,andstartedhisownfive—yearleague.ForallthisstirredinCraigthehero,andhewasreadyforallsortsofheroicnonsense,asIcalledit.Wetalkedofeverythingbuttheonething,andaboutthatwesaidnotawordtill,bendinglowtopokemyfireandtohidemyface,I

plunged——

’Youwillseeher,ofcourse?’

Hemadenopretenceofnotunderstandingbutanswered——

’Ofcourse.’

’There’sreallynosenseinherstayingoverthere,’Isuggested.

’Andyetsheisawisewoman,’hesaid,asifcarefullyconsideringthequestion.

’Heapsoflandlordsneverseetheirtenants,andtheyarenonetheworse.’

’Thelandlords?’

’No,thetenants.’

’Probably,havingsuchlandlords.’

’Andasfortheoldlady,theremustbesomeoneintheconnectiontowhomitwouldbeaGodsendtocareforher.’

’Now,Connor,’hesaidquietly,’don’t.Wehavegoneoverallthereistobesaid.Nothingnewhascome.Don’tturnitallupagain.’

ThenIplayedtheheathenandraged,asGraemewouldhavesaid,tillCraigsmiledalittlewearilyandsaid——

’Youexhaustyourself,oldchap.Haveapipe,do’;andafterapauseheaddedinhisownway,’Whatwouldyouhave?Thepathliesstraightfrommyfeet.ShouldIquitit?Icouldnotsodisappointyou——andallofthem.’

AndIknewhewasthinkingofGraemeandtheladsinthemountainshehadtaughttobetruemen.Itdidnothelpmyrage,butitcheckedmyspeech;soIsmokedinsilencetillhewasmovedtosay——

’Andafterall,youknow,oldchap,therearegreatcompensationsforalllosses;butforthelossofagoodconsciencetowardsGod,whatcanmakeup?’

But,allthesame,IhopedforsomebetterresultfromhisvisittoBritain.Itseemedtomethatsomethingmustturnuptochangesuchanunbearablesituation.

Theyearpassed,however,andwhenIlookedintoCraig’sfaceagainIknewthatnothinghadbeenchanged,andthathehadcomebacktotakeupagainhislifealone,moreresolutelyhopefulthanever.

Buttheyearhadleftitsmarkuponhimtoo.Hewasabroaderanddeeperman.Hehadbeenlivingandthinkingwithmenoflargerideasandricherculture,andhewasfartooquickinsympathywithlifetoremainuntouchedbyhissurroundings.Hewasmoretolerantofopinionsotherthanhisown,butmoreunrelentinginhisfidelitytoconscienceandmoreimpatientofhalf—heartednessandself—indulgence.Hewasfullofreverenceforthegreatscholarsandthegreatleadersofmenhehadcometoknow.

’Great,noblefellowstheyare,andextraordinarilymodest,’hesaid——’thatis,thereallygreataremodest.Thereareplentyoftheothersort,neithergreatnormodest.Andthebookstoberead!Iamquitehopelessaboutmyreading.Itgavemeaqueersensationtoshakehandswithamanwhohadwrittenagreatbook.

Tohearhimmakecommonplaceremarks,towitnessafalteringinknowledge——oneexpectsthesementoknoweverything——andtoexperiencerespectfulkindnessathishands!’

’Whatoftheyoungermen?’Iasked.

’Bright,keen,generousfellows.Inthingstheoretical,omniscient;

butinthingspractical,quitehelpless.Theytossaboutgreatideasastheminerslumpsofcoal.Theycancallthembytheirbooknameseasilyenough,butIoftenwonderedwhethertheycouldputthemintoEnglish.SomeofthemIcovetedforthemountains.Menwithclearheadsandbighearts,andbuiltafterSandyM’Naughton’smodel.ItdoesseemasinfulwasteofGod’sgoodhumanstufftoseethesefellowspotterawaytheirlivesamongtheorieslivinganddead,andendupbyproducingabook!Theyarealleithermakingorgoingtomakeabook.Agoodthingwehaven’ttoreadthem.Buthereandthereamongthemissomequietchapwhowillmakeabookthatmenwilltumbleovereachothertoread.’

Thenwepausedandlookedateachother.

’Well?’Isaid.Heunderstoodme.

’Yes!’heansweredslowly,’doinggreatwork.Everyoneworshipsherjustaswedo,andsheismakingthemalldosomethingworthwhile,assheusedtomakeus.’

Hespokecheerfullyandreadilyasifhewererepeatingalessonwelllearned,buthecouldnothumbugme.Ifelttheheartacheinthecheerfultone.

’Tellmeabouther,’Isaid,forIknewthatifhewouldtalkitwoulddohimgood.Andtalkhedid,oftenforgettingme,till,asIlistened,Ifoundmyselflookingagainintothefathomlesseyes,andhearingagaintheheart—searchingvoice.Isawhergoinandoutofthelittlered—tiledcottagesanddownthenarrowbacklanesofthevillage;Iheardhervoiceinasweet,lowsongbythebedofadyingchild,orpouringforthfloodsofmusicinthegreatnewhallofthefactorytownnearby.ButIcouldnotsee,thoughhetriedtoshowme,thestatelygraciousladyreceivingthecountryfolkinherhome.Hedidnotlingeroverthatscene,butwentbackagaintothegate—cottagewhereshehadtakenhimonedaytoseeBillyBreen’smother.

’Ifoundtheoldwomanknewallaboutme,’hesaid,simplyenough;

’butthereweremanythingsaboutBillyshehadneverheard,andI

wasgladtoputherrightonsomepoints,thoughMrs.Mavorwouldnothearit.’

Hesatsilentforalittle,lookingintothecoals;thenwentoninasoft,quietvoice——

’ItbroughtbackthemountainsandtheolddaystohearagainBilly’stonesinhismother’svoice,andtoseehersittingthereintheverydresssheworethenightoftheLeague,youremember——

somesoftstuffwithblacklaceaboutit——andtohearhersingasshedidforBilly——ah!ah!’Hisvoiceunexpectedlybroke,butinamomenthewasmasterofhimselfandbeggedmetoforgivehisweakness.IamafraidIsaidwordsthatshouldnotbesaid——athingIneverdo,exceptwhensuddenlyandutterlyupset.

’Iamgettingselfishandweak,’hesaid;’Imustgettowork.I

amgladtogettowork.Thereismuchtodo,anditisworthwhile,ifonlytokeeponefromgettinguselessandlazy.’

’Uselessandlazy!’Isaidtomyself,thinkingofmylifebesidehis,andtryingtogetcommandofmyvoice,soasnottomakequiteafoolofmyself.Andformanyadaythosewordsgoadedmetoworkandtotheexerciseofsomemildself—denial.Butmorethanallelse,afterCraighadgonebacktothemountains,Graeme’slettersfromtherailwayconstructioncampstirredonetodounpleasantdutylongpostponed,andrendereduncomfortablemyhoursofmostluxuriousease.Manyoftheoldgangwerewithhim,bothoflumbermenandminers,andCraigwastheirminister.Andtheletterstoldofhowhelabouredbydayandbynightalongthelineofconstruction,carryinghistentandkitwithhim,preachingstraightsermons,watchingbysickmen,writingtheirletters,andwinningtheirhearts;makingstrongtheirlives,andhelpingthemtodiewellwhentheirhourcame.Oneday,theselettersprovedtoomuchforme,andIpackedawaymypaintsandbrushes,andmademyvowuntotheLordthatIwouldbe’uselessandlazy’nolonger,butwoulddosomethingwithmyself.Inconsequence,IfoundmyselfwithinthreeweekswalkingtheLondonhospitals,finishingmycourse,thatImightjointhatbandofmenwhoweredoingsomethingwithlife,or,ifthrowingitaway,werenotlosingitfornothing.

Ihadfinishedbeingafool,Ihoped,atleastafooloftheuselessandluxuriouskind.TheletterthatcamefromGraeme,inreplytomyrequestforapositiononhisstaff,wascharacteristicoftheman,bothnewandold,fullofgayesthumourandofmostearnestwelcometothework.

Mrs.Mavor’sreplywaslikeherself——

’Iknewyouwouldnotlongbecontentwiththemakingofpictures,whichtheworlddoesnotreallyneed,andwouldjoinyourfriendsinthedearWest,makinglivesthattheworldneedssosorely.’

Butherlastwordstouchedmestrangely——

’ButbesuretobethankfuleverydayforyourprivilegeItwillbegoodtothinkofyouall,withthegloriousmountainsaboutyou,andChrist’sownworkinyourhandsAh!howwewouldliketochooseourwork,andtheplaceinwhichtodoit!’

Thelongingdidnotappearinthewords,butIneedednowordstotellmehowdeepandhowconstantitwas.AndItakesomecredittomyself,thatinmyreplyIgavehernobiddingtojoinourband,butratherpraisedtheworkshewasdoinginherplace,tellingherhowIhadheardofitfromCraig.

ThesummerfoundmereligiouslydoingParisandVienna,gainingamoreperfectacquaintancewiththeextentandvarietyofmyownignorance,andsofullyoccupiedinthisinterestingandwholesomeoccupationthatIfelloutwithallmycorrespondents,withtheresultofweeksofsilencebetweenus.

TwolettersamongtheheapwaitingonmytableinLondonmademyheartbeatquick,butwithhowdifferentfeelings:onefromGraemetellingmethatCraighadbeenveryill,andthathewastotakehimhomeassoonashecouldbemoved.Mrs.Mavor’slettertoldmeofthedeathoftheoldlady,whohadbeenhercareforthepasttwoyears,andofherintentiontospendsomemonthsinheroldhomeinEdinburgh.Andthisletteritisthataccountsformypresenceinamiserable,dingy,dirtylittlehallrunningoffacloseinthehistoricCowgate,redolentofthegloriesofthesplendidpast,andofthevariousodoursoftheevil—smellingpresent.IwastheretohearMrs.Mavorsingtothecrowdofgaminsthatthrongedtheclosesintheneighbourhood,andthathadbeengatheredintoaclubby’afineleddiefraetheWestEnd,’fortheloveofChristandHislost.Thiswasan’AtHome’night,andthemothersandfathers,sistersandbrothers,ofallagesandsizeswerepresent.OfallthesadfacesIhadeverseen,thosemotherscarriedthesaddestandmostwoe—stricken.’Heavenpityus!’Ifoundmyselfsaying;’isthisthebeautiful,thecultured,theheaven—exaltedcityofEdinburgh?Willitnot,forthis,becastdownintohellsomeday,ifitrepentnotofitsclosesandtheirdensofdefilement?Oh!theutterweariness,thedazedhopelessnessoftheghastlyfaces!Donotthekindly,gentlechurch—goingfolkofthecrescentsandthegardensseethemintheirdreams,oraretheirdreamstooheavenlyfortheseghastlyfacestoappear?’

Icannotrecalltheprogrammeoftheevening,butinmymemory—

galleryisavividpictureofthatface,sweet,sad,beautiful,alightwiththedeepglowofhereyes,asshestoodandsangtothatdingycrowd.AsIsatuponthewindow—ledgelisteningtothevoicewithitsflowingsong,mythoughtswerefaraway,andIwaslookingdownoncemoreupontheeager,coal—grimedfacesintherudelittlechurchinBlackRock.Iwasbroughtbacktofindmyselfswallowinghardbyanaudiblewhisperfromaweelassietohermother——

’Mither!Seetillyonman.He’sgreetin’.’

WhenIcametomyselfshewassinging’TheLando’theLeal,’theScotch’JerusalemtheGolden,’immortal,perfect.Itneededexperienceofthehunger—hauntedCowgatecloses,chillwiththeblackmistofaneasternhaar,tofeelthefullblissofthevisioninthewords——

’There’snaesorrowthere,Jean,There’sneithercauldnorcare,Jean,ThedayisayefairinTheLando’theLeal.’

Alandoffair,warmdays,untouchedbysorrowandcare,wouldbeheavenindeedtothedwellersoftheCowgate.

Therestofthateveningishazyenoughtomenow,tillIfindmyselfoppositeMrs.Mavoratherfire,readingGraeme’sletter;

thenallisvividagain.

Icouldnotkeepthetruthfromher.Iknewitwouldbefollytotry.SoIreadstraightontillIcametothewords——

’Hehashadmountainfever,whateverthatmaybe,andhewillnotpullupagain.IfIcan,Ishalltakehimhometomymother’——whenshesuddenlystretchedoutherhand,saying,’Oh,letmeread!’andIgavehertheletter.Inaminuteshehadreadit,andbeganalmostbreathlessly——

’Listen!mylifeismuchchanged.Mymother—in—lawisgone;sheneedsmenolonger.Mysolicitortellsme,too,thatowingtounfortunateinvestmentsthereisneedofmoney,sogreatneed,thatitispossiblethateithertheestatesortheworksmustgo.Mycousinhashisallintheworks——ironworks,youknow.Itwouldbewrongtohavehimsuffer.Ishallgiveuptheestates——thatisbest.’Shepaused.

’Andcomewithme,’Icried.

’Whendoyousail?’

’Nextweek,’Iansweredeagerly.

Shelookedatmeafewmoments,andintohereyestherecamealightsoftandtender,asshesaid——

’Ishallgowithyou.’

Andsoshedid;andnooldRomaninallthegloryofaTriumphcarriedaprouderheartthanI,asIboreherandherlittleonefromthetraintoGraeme’scarriage,crying——

’I’vegother.’

Buthiswasthebettersense,forhestoodwavinghishatandshouting——

’He’sallright,’atwhichMrs.Mavorgrewwhite;butwhensheshookhandswithhim,theredwasinhercheekagain.

’Itwasthecabledidit,’wentonGraeme.’Connor’sagreatdoctor!Hisfirstcasewillmakehimfamous.Goodprescription——

aftermountainfevertryacablegram!’Andtheredgrewdeeperinthebeautifulfacebesideus.

Neverdidthecountrylooksolovely.Thewoodswereintheirgayestautumndress;thebrownfieldswerebathedinapurplehaze;

theairwassweetandfreshwithasuspicionofthecomingfrostsofwinter.Butinspiteofalltheroadseemedlong,anditwasasifhourshadgonebeforeoureyesfelluponthewhitemansestandingamongthegoldenleaves.

’Letthemgo,’Icried,asGraemepausedtotakeintheview,anddowntheslopingdustyroadweflewonthedeadrun.

’RemindsonealittleofAbe’scurves,’saidGraeme,aswedrewupatthegate.ButIansweredhimnot,forIwasintroducingtoeachotherthetwobestwomenintheworld.AsIwasabouttorushintothehouse,Graemeseizedmebythecollar,saying——

’Holdon,Connor!youforgetyourplace,you’renext.’

’Why,certainly,’Icried,thankfullyenough;’whatanassIam!’

’Quitetrue,’saidGraemesolemnly.

’Whereishe?’Iasked.

’Atthispresentmoment?’heasked,inashockedvoice.’Why,Connor,yousurpriseme.’

’Oh,Isee!’

’Yes,’hewentongravely;’youmaytrustmymothertobediscreetlyattendingtoherdomesticduties;sheisagreatwoman,mymother.’

Ihadnodoubtofit,foratthatmomentshecameouttouswithlittleMarjorieinherarms.

’YouhaveshownMrs.Mavortoherroom,mother,Ihope,’saidGraeme;butsheonlysmiledandsaid——

’Runawaywithyourhorses,yousillyboy,’atwhichhesolemnlyshookhishead.’Ah,mother,youaredeep——whowouldhavethoughtitofyou?’

Thateveningthemanseoverflowedwithjoy,andthedaysthatfollowedwerelikedreamssettosweetmusic.

Butforsheerwilddelight,nothinginmymemorycanquitecomeuptothedemonstrationorganisedbyGraeme,withassistancefromNixon,Shaw,Sandy,Abe,Geordie,andBaptiste,inhonourofthearrivalincampofMr.andMrs.Craig.And,inmyopinion,itaddedsomethingtotheoccasion,thatafterallthecheersforMr.

andMrs.Craighaddiedaway,andafterallthehatshadcomedown,Baptiste,whohadnevertakenhiseyesfromthatradiantface,shouldsuddenlyhavesweptthecrowdintoaperfectstormofcheersbyexcitedlyseizinghistuque,andcallingoutinhisshrillvoice——

’Bygar!TreecheerforMrs.Mavor.’

AndformanyadaythemenofBlackRockwouldeasilyfallintotheoldandwell—lovedname;butupanddownthelineofconstruction,inallthecampsbeyondtheGreatDivide,thenewnamebecameasdearastheoldhadeverbeeninBlackRock.

Thoseoldwilddaysarelongsincegoneintothedimdistanceofthepast.Theywillnotcomeagain,forwehavefallenintoquiettimes;butofteninmyquietesthoursIfeelmyheartpauseinitsbeattohearagainthatstrong,clearvoice,likethesoundofatrumpet,biddingustobemen;andIthinkofthemall——Graeme,theirchief,Sandy,Baptiste,Geordie,Abe,theCampbells,Nixon,Shaw,allstronger,betterfortheirknowingofhim,andthenI

thinkofBillyasleepunderthepines,andofoldmanNelsonwiththelonggrasswavingoverhiminthequietchurchyard,andallmynonsenseleavesme,andIblesstheLordforallHisbenefits,butchieflyforthedayImetthemissionaryofBlackRockinthelumber—campamongtheSelkirks.