第2章

HAMILTON

Quiteso。Farewell。

JohnBrownThoughforyoursakeIwouldnothaveyounowSoneartometonightasnowyouare,GodknowshowmuchastrangertomyheartWasanycoldwordthatImayhavewritten;

Andyou,poorwomanthatImademywife,Youhavehadmoreofloneliness,Ifear,ThanI——thoughIhavebeenthemostalone,Evenwhenthemostattended。SoitwasGodsetthemarkofhisinscrutableNecessityononethatwastogrope,Andserve,andsuffer,andwithalbegladForwhatwashis,andis,andistobe,Whenhisoldbones,thatareaburdennow,AresayingwhatthemanwhocarriedthemHadnotthepowertosay。Bonesinagrave,Coverthemastheywillwithchokingearth,Mayshoutthetruthtomenwhoputthemthere,Morethanallorators。Andso,mydear,SinceyouhavecheatedwisdomforthesakeOfsorrow,letyoursorrowbeforyou,Thislastofnightsbeforethelastofdays,ThelyingghostofwhatthereisofmeThatisthemostalive。ThereisnodeathFormeinwhattheydo。TheirdeathitisTheyshouldheedmostwhenthesuncomesagainTomakethemsolemn。TherearesomeIknowWhoseeyeswillhardlyseetheiroccupation,Fortearsinthem——andallforoneoldman;

Forsomeofthemwillpitythisoldman,WhotookuponhimselftheworkofGodBecausehepitiedmillions。ThatwillbeForthem,Ifancy,theircompassionateBestwayofsayingwhatisbestinthemTosay;fortheycansaynomorethanthat,AndtheycandonomorethanwhatthedawnOfonemoredayshallgivethemlightenoughTodo。Buttherearemanydaystobe,Andtherearemanymentogivetheirblood,AsIgavemineforthem。Maytheycomesoon!

Maytheycomesoon,Isay。Andwhentheycome,MayallthatIhavesaidunheardbeheard,Provingatlast,ormaybenot——nomatter——

WhatsortofmadnesswasthepartofmeThatmademestrike,whetherIfoundthemarkOrmissedit。Meanwhile,I’veastrangecontent,Apatience,andavastindifferenceTowhatmensayofmeandwhatmenfearTosay。Therewasaworktobebegun,AndwhentheVoice,thatIhaveheardsolong,AnnouncedasinathousandsilencesAnendofpreparation,IbeganThecomingworkofdeathwhichistobe,Thatlifemaybe。ThereisnootherwayThantheoldwayofwarforanewlandThatwillnotknowitselfandistonightAstrangertoitself,andtotheworldAmoreprodigiousupstartamongstatesThanIwasamongmen,andsoshallbeTilltheyaretoldandtold,andtoldagain;

Formenarechildren,waitingtobetold,Andmostofthemarechildrenalltheirlives。

ThegoodGodinhiswisdomhadthemso,ThatnowandthenamadmanoraseerMayshakethemoutoftheircomplacencyAndshamethemintodeeds。ThemajorfileSeeonlywhattheirfathersmayhaveseen,Ormayhavesaidtheysawwhentheysawnothing。

Idonotsayitmatterswhattheysaw。

NowandagaintosomelonesoulorotherGodspeaks,andthereishangingtobedone,——

AsoncetherewasaburningofourbodiesAlive,albeitoursoulsweresorryfuel。

Butnowthefiresarefew,andwearepoisedAccordingly,forthestate’sbenefit,Afewstillminutesbetweenheavenandearth。

Thepurposeis,whentheyhaveseenenoughOfwhatitisthattheyarenottosee,Topluckmeasanunripefruitoftreason,AndthentoflingmebacktothesameearthOfwhichtheyare,asIsuppose,theflower——

NotgiventoknowtheriperfruitthatwaitsForamorecomprehensiveharvesting。

Yes,maytheycome,andsoon。AgainIsay,Maytheycomesoon!——beforetoomanyofthemShallbethebloodycostofourdefection。

Whenhellwaitsonthedawnofanewstate,Betteritwerethathellshouldnotwaitlong,——

OrsoitisIseeitwhoshouldseeAsfarorfartherintotimetonightThantheywhotalkandtrembleformenow,OrwishmetothoseeverlastingfiresThatareformenofear。ToomanyfiresHavesoughtmeoutandsearedmetothebone——

Thereby,forallIknow,totempermeForwhatwasminetodo。IfIdidillWhatIdidwell,letmensayIwasmad;

OrletmynameforeverbeaquestionThatwillnotsleepinhistory。WhatmensayIwaswillcoolnocannon,dullnosword,Invalidatenotruth。Meanwhile,Iwas;

Andthelongtrainislightedthatshallburn,Thoughfloodsofwrathmaydrenchit,andhotfeetMaystampitforaslighttimeintosmokeThatshallblazeupagainwithgrowingspeed,UntilatlastafierycrashwillcomeTocleanseandshakeawoundedhemisphere,AndhealitofalongmalignityThatangrytimediscreditsanddisowns。

Tonighttherearemensayingmanythings;

AndsomewhoseelifeinthelastofmeWillanswerfirstthecomingcalltodeath;

Fordeathiswhatiscoming,andthenlife。

IdonotsayagainforthedullsakeOfspeechwhatyouhaveheardmesaybefore,ButratherforthesakeofallIam,AndallGodmadeofme。AmantodieAsIdomusthavedonesomeotherworkThanman’salone。Iwasnotafterglory,Buttherewasglorywithme,likeafriend,Throughoutthosecripplingyearswhenfriendswerefew,AndfearfultobeknownbytheirownnamesWhenminewasvilifiedfortheirapproval。

Yetfriendstheyare,andtheydidwhatwasgivenTheirwilltodo;theycouldhavedonenomore。

Iwastheonemanmadenough,itseems,Todomywork;andnowmyworkisover。

Andyou,mydear,arenottomournforme,Orforyoursons,morethanasoulshouldmournInParadise,donewithevilandwithearth。

ThereisnotmuchofearthinwhatremainsForyou;andwhattheremaybeleftofitForyourenduranceyoushallhaveatlastInpeace,withoutthetwingeofanyfearFormycondition;forIshallbedoneWithplansandactionsthathaveheretoforeMadeyourdayslongandyournightsominousWithdarknessandthemanydistancesThatwerebetweenus。Whenthesilencecomes,IshallinfaithbenearertoyouthenThanIamnowinfact。WhatyouseenowIsonlytheoutsideofanoldman,Olderthanyearshavemadehim。Lethimdie,Andlethimbeathingforlittlegrief。

Therewasatimeforservice,andheserved;

AndthereisnomoretimeforanythingButashortgratefulnesstothosewhogaveTheirscaredallegiancetoanenterpriseThathasthenameoftreason——whichwillserveAswellasanyotherforthepresent。

Therearesomedeedsofmenthathavenonames,Andminemaylikeasnotbeoneofthem。

Iamnotlookingfarfornamestonight。

TheKingofGlorywaswithoutanameUntilmengavehimone;yetthereHewas,BeforewefoundHimandaffrontedHimWithnumerousingenuitiesofevil,Ofwhichone,withHisaid,istobesweptAndwashedoutoftheworldwithfireandblood。

OnceIbelieveditmighthavecometopassWithasmallcostofblood;butIwasdreaming——

DreamingthatIbelieved。TheVoiceIheardWhenIleftyoubehindmeinthenorth,——

TowaitthereandtowonderandgrowoldOfloneliness,——toldonlywhatwasbest,Andwithasavingvagueness,IshouldknowTillIknewmore。AndhadIknowneventhen——

Aftergrimyearsofsearchandsuffering,Somanyofthemtoendastheybegan——

AftermysickeningdoubtsandestimationsOfplansabandonedandofnewplansvain——

AfterawearydelvingeverywhereFormenwitheveryvirtuebuttheVision——

CouldIhaveknown,Isay,beforeIleftyouThatsummermorning,alltherewastoknow——

EvenuntothelastconsumingwordThatwouldhaveblastedeverymortalanswerAslightningwouldannihilatealeaf,Imighthavetrembledonthatsummermorning;

Imighthavewavered;andImighthavefailed。

AndtherearemanyamongmentodayTosayofmethatIhadbesthavewavered。

Sohasitbeen,soshallitalwaysbe,ForthoseofuswhogiveourselvestodieBeforewearesoparcelledandapprovedAstobeslaughteredbyauthority。

WedonotmakesomuchofwhattheysayAstheyofwhatourfollysaysofus;

Theygiveushardlytimeenoughforthat,Andtherebywegainmuchbylosinglittle。

Fewarealiveto-daywithlesstoloseThanIwhotellyouthis,ormoretogain;

AndwhetherIspeakasonetobedestroyedFornogoodendoutsidehisowndestruction,TimeshallhavemoretosaythanmenshallhearBetweennowandthecomingofthatharvestWhichistocome。Beforeitcomes,Igo——

BytheshortroadthatmysterymakeslongForman’senduranceofaccomplishment。

IshallhavemoretosaywhenIamdead。

TheFalseGods\"Wearefalseandevanescent,andawareofourdeceit,Fromthestrawthatisourvitalstotheclaythatisourfeet。

Youmayserveusifyoumust,andyoushallhaveyourwageofashes,——

Thougharrearsduethereaftermaybehardforyoutomeet。

\"Youmayswearthatwearesolid,youmaysaythatwearestrong,Butweknowthatweareneitherandwesaythatyouarewrong;

Youmayfindaneasyworshipinacclaimingourindulgence,Butyourlargeadmirationofusnowisnotforlong。

\"Ifyourdoomistoadoreuswithadoubtthat’sneverstill,Andyoupraytoseeourfaces——prayinearnest,andyouwill。

Youmaygazeatusandlive,andliveassuredofourconfusion:

FortheFalseGodsaremortal,andaremadeforyoutokill。

\"Andyoumayaswellobserve,whileapprehensivelyateaseWithanArtthat’sinorganicandisanythingyouplease,Thatanonyournewestruinmayliecrumblingunregarded,Likeanoldshrineforgotteninaforestofnewtrees。

\"Howsoeverlikenootherbethemodeyoumayemploy,There’sanorderintheagesfortheagestoenjoy;

ThoughthetemplesyouareshapingandthepassionsyouaresingingArealongwayfromAthensandalongerwayfromTroy。

\"Whenwepromisemorethaneverofwhatnevershallarrive,Andyouseemalittlemorethanordinarilyalive,Makeanotethatyouaresureyouunderstandourobligations——

Forthere’sgriefalwaysauditingwheretwoandtwoarefive。

\"Therewasthisforustosayandtherewasthisforyoutoknow,Thoughithumblesandithurtsuswhenwehavetotellyouso。

Ifyoudoubttheonlytruthinallourperjuredcomposition,MaytheTrueGodsattendyouandforgetuswhenwego。\"

Archibald’sExampleOldArchibald,inhiseternalchair,Wheretrespassers,whatevertheirdegree,Weresoonfrownedoutagain,waslookingoffAcrossthecloverwhenhesaidtome:

\"Mygreenhillyonder,wherethesungoesdownWithoutascratch,wasonceinhabitedBytreesthatinjuredhim——aneviltrashThatmadeacage,andheldhimwhilehebled。

\"Gonefiftyyears,IseethemastheywereBeforetheyfell。TheywereacrookedlotTospoilmysunset,andIsawnotimeInfiftyyearsforcrookedthingstorot。

\"Trees,yes;butnotaserviceorajoyToGodorman,fortheywerethievesoflight。

Sodowntheycame。NatureandIlookedon,Andweweregladwhentheywereoutofsight。

\"Treesarelikemen,sometimes;andthatbeingso,Somuchforthat。\"Hetwinkledinhischair,AndlookedacrosstheclovertotheplaceThatherememberedwhenthetreeswerethere。

LondonBridge\"DoIhearthem?Yes,Ihearthechildrensinging——andwhatofit?

Haveyoucomewitheyesafiretofindmenowandaskmethat?

IfIwerenottheirfatherandifyouwerenottheirmother,Wemightbelievetheymadeanoise……Whatareyou——drivingat!\"

\"Well,begladthatyoucanhearthem,andbegladtheyaresonearus,——

ForIhaveheardthestarsofheaven,andtheywerenearerstill。

AllwithinanhouritisthatIhaveheardthemcalling,AndthoughIprayforthemtocease,Iknowtheyneverwill;

Fortheirmusiconmyheart,thoughyoumayfreezeit,willfallalways,Likesummersnowthatnevermeltsuponamountain-top。

Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthemoverhead——thechildren——singing?

Doyouhearthechildrensinging?……God,willyoumakethemstop!\"

\"Andwhatnowinhisholynamehaveyoutodowithmountains?

We’rebacktotownagain,mydear,andwe’veadancetonight。

Frozenheartsandfallingmusic?Snowandstars,and——whatthedevil!

Sayitovertomeslowly,andbesureyouhaveitright。\"

\"GodknowsifIberightorwronginsayingwhatItellyou,OrifIknowthemeaninganymoreofwhatIsay。

AllIknowis,itwillkillmeifItrytokeepithidden——

Well,Imethim……Yes,Imethim,andItalkedwithhim——today。\"

\"Youmethim?Didyoumeettheghostofsomeoneyouhadpoisoned,Longago,beforeIknewyouforthewomanthatyouare?

Takeachair;anddon’tbeginyourstoriesalwaysinthemiddle。

Washeman,orwashedemon?Anyhow,you’vegonetoofarTogoback,andI’myourservant。I’mthelord,butyou’rethemaster。

Nowgoonwithwhatyouknow,forI’mexcited。\"

\"Doyoumean——

DoyoumeantomakemetrytothinkthatyouknowlessthanIdo?\"

\"Iknowthatyouforeshadowthebeginningofascene。

Praybecareful,andasaccurateasifthedoorsofheavenWeretoswingortostayboltedfromnowonforevermore。\"

\"Doyouconceive,withallyoursmoothcontemptofeveryfeeling,Ofhidingwhatyouknowandwhatyoumusthaveknownbefore?

Isitworthawoman’storturetostandhereandhaveyousmiling,Withonlyyourpoorfetishofpossessiononyourside?

Nothingbutoneiswhollysure,andthat’snotonetoscareme;

WhenImeetitImaysaytoGodatlastthatIhavetried。

Andyet,forallIknow,orallIdarebelieve,mytrialsHenceforwardwillbemoreforyoutobearthanareyourown;

AndyoumustgivemekeysofyourstoroomsIhavenotentered。

Doyouseemeonyourthresholdallmylife,andtherealone?

Willyoutellmewhereyouseemeinyourfancy——whenitleadsyouFarenoughbeyondthemomentforaglanceattheabyss?\"

\"WillyoutellmewhatintrinsicandamazingsortofnonsenseYouarecrowdingonthepatienceofthemanwhogivesyou——this?

Lookaroundyouandbesorryyou’renotlivinginanattic,Withacivetandafish-net,andwithyoutopaytherent。

Isaywordsthatyoucanspellwithouttheuseofallyourletters;

AndIgrant,ifyouinsist,thatI’veaguessatwhatyoumeant。\"

\"HaveItoldyou,then,fornothing,thatImethim?AreyoutryingTobemerrywhileyoutrytomakemehateyou?\"

\"Thinkagain,Mydear,beforeyoutellme,inalanguageunbecomingToalady,whatyouplantotellmenext。IfIcomplain,IfIseemanatompeevishatthepreferenceyoumention——

Orimply,tobeprecise——youmaybelieve,oryoumaynot,ThatI’matriflemoreawareofwhathewantsthanyouare。

ButIshouldn’tthrowthatatyou。MakebelievethatIforgot。

Makebelievethathe’sagenius,ifyoulike,——butinthemeantimeDon’tgobacktorocking-horses。There,there,there,now。\"

\"Makebelieve!

Whenyouseemestandinghelplessonaplankaboveawhirlpool,DoIdrown,ordoIhearyouwhenyousayit?Makebelieve?

HowmuchmoreamItosayordoforyoubeforeItellyouThatImethim!What’stofollownowmaybeforyoutochoose。

Doyouhearme?Won’tyoulisten?It’saneasythingtolisten……\"

\"Andit’seasytobecrazywhenthere’severythingtolose。\"

\"IfatlastyouhaveanotionthatImeanwhatIamsaying,DoIseemtotellyounothingwhenItellyouIshalltry?

Ifyousaveme,andIlosehim——Idon’tknow——itwon’tmuchmatter。

IdaresaythatI’veliedenough,butnowIdonotlie。\"

\"DoyoufancymetheonemanwhohaswaitedandsaidnothingWhileawifehasdraggedanoldinfatuationfromatomb?

Givethethingalittleairanditwillvanishintoashes。

Thereyouare——piff!presto!\"

\"WhenIcameintothisroom,ItseemedasifIsawtheplace,andyouthereatyourtable,Asyouarenowatthismoment,forthelasttimeinmylife;

AndItoldmyselfbeforeIcametofindyou,`Ishalltellhim,IfIcan,whatIhavelearnedofhimsinceIbecamehiswife。’

Andifyousay,asI’venodoubtyouwillbeforeIfinish,Thatyouhavetriedunceasingly,withallyourmightandmain,Toteachme,knowingmorethanIofwhatitwasIneeded,Don’tthink,withallyoumayhavethought,thatyouhavetriedinvain;

ForyouhavetaughtmemorethanhidesinalltheshelvesofknowledgeOfhowlittleyoufoundthat’sinmeandwasinmeallalong。

Ibelieved,ifIintrudednothingonyouthatIcaredfor,I’dbehalfasmuchashorses,——anditseemsthatIwaswrong;

Ibelievedtherewasenoughofearthinme,withallmynonsenseOverthingsthatmadeyousleepy,tokeepsomethingstillawake;

Butyoutaughtmesoontoreadmybook,andGodknowsIhavereadit——

Ageslongerthananangelwouldhavereaditforyoursake。

IhavesaidthatyoumustopenotherdoorsthanIhaveentered,ButIwonderedwhileIsaiditifImightnotbeobscure。

IsthereanythinginallyourpedigreesandinventoriesWithavaluemoreelusivethanadollar’s?AreyousureThatifIstarveanotheryearforyouIshallbestrongerToendureanotherlikeit——andanother——tillI’mdead?\"

\"Hasyourtamecatsoldapicture?——ormorelikelyhadawindfall?

OrforGod’ssake,what’sbrokeloose?Haveyouabee-hiveinyourhead?

Alittlemoreofthisfromyouwillnotbeeasyhearing。

Doyouknowthat?Understandit,ifyoudo;forifyouwon’t……

Whatthedevilareyousaying!Makebelieveyouneversaidit,AndI’llsayIneverheardit……Oh,you……Ifyou……\"

\"IfIdon’t?\"

\"Therearemenwhosaythere’sreasonhiddensomewhereinawoman,ButIdoubtifGodhimselfrememberswherethekeywashung。\"

\"Hemaynot;fortheysaythatevenGodhimselfisgrowing。

Iwonderifhemakesbelievethatheisgrowingyoung;

IwonderifhemakesbelievethatwomenwhoaregivingAlltheyhaveinholyloathingtoastrangeralltheirlivesArethewiseoneswhobuildhousesintheBible……\"

\"Stop——youdevil!\"

\"……Orthatsoulsareanywhiterwhentheirbodiesarecalledwives。

Ifadollar’sworthofgoldwillhoopthewallsofhelltogether,Whyneedheavenbesucharuinofaplacethatneverwas?

AndifatlastIliedmystarvingsoulawaytonothing,Areyousureyoumightnotmissit?HaveyoucometosuchapassThatyouwouldhavemelongerinyourarmsifyoudiscoveredThatImadeyouintosomeoneelse……Oh!……Well,thereareworseways。

Butwhyaimitatmyfeet——unlessyoufearyoumaybesorry……

Therearemanydaysaheadofyou。\"

\"Idonotseethosedays。\"

\"Icanseethem。GrantedevenIamwrong,therearethechildren。

Andaretheytopraisetheirfatherforhisinsightifwedie?

Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthemoverhead——thechildren——singing?

Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthechildren?\"

\"Damnthechildren!\"

\"Why?

WhathaveTHEYdone?……Well,then,——doit……Doitnow,andhaveitover。\"

\"Oh,youdevil!……Oh,you……\"

\"No,I’mnotadevil,I’maprophet——

OnewhoseestheendalreadyofsomuchthatoneendmoreWouldhavenowthesmallimportanceofoneothersmallillusion,Whichinturnwouldhaveawelcomewheretheresthavegonebefore。

ButifIwereyou,myfancywouldlookonalittlefartherFortheglimpseofareleasethatmaybesomewherestillinsight。

Furthermore,youmustrememberthosetwohundredinvitationsForthedancingafterdinner。Weshallhavetoshinetonight。

Weshalldance,andbeashappyasapairofmerryspectres,Onthegraveofalltheliesthatweshallneverhavetotell;

Weshalldanceamongtheruinsofthetombofourendurance,AndIhavenotadoubtthatweshalldoitverywell。

There!——I’mgladyou’veputitback;forIdon’tlikeit。

Shutthedrawernow。

No——no——don’tcancelanything。I’lldanceuntilIdrop。

Ican’twalkyet,butI’mgoingto……Goawaysomewhere,andleaveme……

Oh,youchildren!Oh,youchildren!……God,willtheyneverstop!\"

TaskerNorcross\"Whetheralltownsandallwholiveinthem——

SolongastheybesomewhereinthisworldThatweinourcomplacencycallours——

Aremoreorlessthesame,Ileavetoyou。

Ishouldsayless。Whetherornot,meanwhile,We’vealltwolegs——andasforthat,wehaven’t——

TherewerethreekindsofmenwhereIwasborn:

Thegood,thenotsogood,andTaskerNorcross。

Nowtherearetwokinds。\"

\"Meaning,asIdivine,Yourfriendisdead,\"Iventured。

Ferguson,WhotalkedhimselfatlastoutoftheworldHecensured,andisthereforesilentnow,Agreedindifferently:\"Myfriendsaredead——

Ormostofthem。\"

\"Rememberonethatisn’t,\"

Isaid,protesting。\"Honorhimforhisears;

Treasurehimalsoforhisunderstanding。\"

Fergusonsighed,andthentalkedonagain:

\"YouhaveanovergrownalacrityForsayingnothingmuchandhearingless;

AndI’veathanklesswonder,atthestart,HowmuchitistoyouthatIshalltellWhatIhavenowtosayofTaskerNorcross,Andhowmuchtotheairthatisaroundyou。

ButgivenapatiencethatisnotaverseTotheslowtragediesofhauntedmen——

Horrors,infact,ifyou’veaskilfuleyeToknowthemattheirfiresides,oroutwalking,——\"

\"Horrors,\"Isaid,\"aremynecessity;

AndIwouldhavethem,fortheirbesteffect,Alwaysoutwalking。\"

Fergusonfrownedatme:

\"ThewisestofusarenotthosewholaughBeforetheyknow。Mostofusneverknow——

OrthelongtoilofourmortalityWouldnotbedone。Mostofusneverknow——

AndthereyouhaveareasontobelieveInGod,ifyoumayhavenoother。Norcross,OrsoIgatherofhisinfirmity,Wasgiventoknowmorethanheshouldhaveknown,AndonlyGodknowswhy。SeeforyourselfAnoldhousefullofghostsofancestors,Whodidtheirbest,orworst,andhavingdoneit,Diedhonorably;andeachwithadistinctionThathardlywouldhavebeenforhimthathadit,Hadhonorfailedhimwhollyasafriend。

Honorthatisafriendbegetsafriend。

Whetherornotwelovehim,stillwehavehim;

Andwemustlivesomehowbywhatwehave,Orthenwedie。Ifyousaychemistry,Thenyoumusthaveyourmoleculesinmotion,Andintheirrightabundance。Failingeither,Youhavenotlongtodance。Failingafriend,Agenius,oramadness,orafaithLargerthandesperation,youarehereForasmuchlongerthanyoulikeasmaybe。

Imaginingnow,bywayofanexample,Myselfamoreorlessrememberedphantom——

Again,Ishouldsayless——howmanytimesAdayshouldIcomebacktoyou?Noanswer。

ForgivemewhenIseemalittlecareless,Butwemusthaveexamples,orbelucidWithoutthem;andIquestionyouradherenceTosuchanundramaticnarrativeAsthisofmine,withoutthepersonalhook。\"

\"AtimeisgiveninEcclesiastesFordiversworks,\"Itoldhim。\"IsthereoneForsayingnothinginreturnfornothing?

Ifnot,thereshouldbe。\"Icouldfeelhiseyes,AndtheywereliketwocoldinquiringpointsOfasharpmetal。WhenIlookedagain,Toseethemshine,thecoldthatIhadfeltWasgonetomakewayforasmoulderingOflonelyfirethatI,asIknewthen,Couldneverquenchwithkindnessorwithlies。

IshouldhavedonewhatevertherewastodoForFerguson,yetIcouldnothavemournedInhonestyforoncearoundtheclockThelossofhim,formysakeorforhis,TryasImight;norwouldhisghostapprove,HadIthepowerandtheunthinkingwillTomakehimtreadagainwithoutanaimTheroadthatwasbehindhim——andwithoutThefaith,orfriend,orgenius,orthemadnessThathecontendedwasimperative。

Afterasilencethathadbeentoolong,\"Itmaybequiteaswellwedon’t,\"hesaid;

\"Aswell,Imean,thatwedon’talwayssayit。

YouknowbestwhatImean,andIsupposeYoumighthavesaiditbetter。Whatwasthat?

Incorrigible?AmIincorrigible?

Well,it’saword;andawordhasitsuse,Or,likeaman,itwillsoonhaveagrave。

It’sagoodwordenough。Incorrigible,Maybe,forallIknow,thewordforNorcross。

SeeforyourselfthathouseofhisagainThathecalledhome:Anoldhouse,paintedwhite,Squareasabox,andchillierthanatombTolookatortolivein。Thereweretrees——

Toomanyofthem,ifsuchathingmaybe——

Beforeitandaroundit。DowninfrontTherewasaroad,arailroad,andariver;

Thentherewerehillsbehindit,andmoretrees。

Thethingwouldfairlystareatyouthroughtrees,LikeapaleinmateoutofabarredwindowWithagreenshadehalfdown;andIdaresayPeoplewhopassedhavesaid:`There’swherehelives。

Weknowhim,butwedonotseemtoknowThatwerememberanygoodofhim,Oranyevilthatisinteresting。

Thereyouhaveallweknowandallwecare。’

Theymighthavesaiditinallsortsofways;

Andthen,iftheyperceivedacat,theymightOrmightnothaverememberedwhattheysaid。

Thecatmighthaveapersonality——

AndmaybethesameonetheLordleftoutOfTaskerNorcross,who,forlackofit,Sawthesamesungodownyearafteryear;

Allwhichatlastwasmydiscovery。

Andonlymine,sofarasevidenceEnlightensonemoredarkness。YouhaveknownAllroundyou,allyourdays,menwhoarenothing——

Nothing,Imean,sofarastimetellsyetOfanyotherneedithasofthemThantomakesextonshardy——butnolessAretothemselvesincalculablysomething,Andthereforetobecherished。God,yousee,Beingsorryforthemintheirfashioning,IndemnifiedthemwithaquaintesteemOfself,andwithillusionslongaslife。

Youknowthemwell,andyouhavesmiledatthem;

Andthey,intheirserenity,mayhavehadTheirtimetosmileatyou。BlessedaretheyThatseethemselvesforwhattheyneverwereOrweretobe,andare,fortheirdefect,AteasewithmirrorsandthedimremarksThatpasstheirtranquilears。\"

\"Come,come,\"saidI;

\"TheremaybenamesinyourcompendiumThatwearenotyetallonfireforshouting。

Skinmostofusofourmediocrity,Weshouldhavenothingthenthatwecouldscratch。

Thepicturesmarts。Coverit,ifyouplease,Anddosorathergently。NowforNorcross。\"

Fergusonclosedhiseyesinresignation,Whileadeadsighcameoutofhim。\"GoodGod!\"

Hesaid,andsaiditonlyhalfaloud,Asifheknewnolongernow,norcared,Ifoneweretheretolisten:\"HaveIsaidnothing——

Nothingatall——ofNorcross?DoyoumeanTopatronizehimtillhisnamebecomesAtoymadeoutofletters?IfanameIsallyouneed,arrangeanhonestcolumnOfallthepeopleyouhaveeverknownThatyouhaveneverliked。You’llhaveenough;

Andyou’llhavemine,moreover。No,notyet。

IfIassumetoomanyprivileges,Ipay,andIalone,fortheirassumption;

Bywhich,ifIassumeadarkerknowledgeOfNorcrossthananother,lettheweightOfmyinjusticeaggravatetheloadThatisnotonyourshoulders。WhenIcameToknowthisfellowNorcrossinhishouse,IfoundhimasIfoundhiminthestreet——

Nomore,noless;indifferent,butnobetter。

`Worse’werenotquitetheword:hewasnotbad;

Hewasnot……well,hewasnotanything。

HasyourinventioneverentertainedThepictureofadustywormsodryThateventheearlybirdwouldshakehisheadAndflyonfartherforanotherbreakfast?\"

\"Butwhyforgetthefortuneoftheworm,\"

Isaid,\"ifinthedrynessyoudeploreSalvationcentredandendured?YourNorcrossMayhavebeenoneformanytohaveenvied。\"

\"Salvation?Fortune?Wouldthewormsaythat?

Hemight;andthereforeIdismissthewormWithalldrythingsbutone。Figuresaway,Doyoubegintoseethismanalittle?

Doyoubegintoseehimintheair,WithallthevacanthorrorsofhisoutlineForyoutofillwithmorethanitwillhold?

Ifso,youneedn’tcrownyourselfatonceWithepiclaurelifyouseemtofillit。

Horrors,Isay,forinthefiresandforksOfanewhell——ifonewerenotenough——

IdoubtifanewhorrorwouldhaveheldhimWithamalignantingenuityMoretobefearedthanhisbeforehedied。

Yousmile,asifindoubt。Well,smileagain。

Nowcomeintohishouse,alongwithme:

ThefoursquaresombrethingsthatyouseefirstAroundyouarefourwallsthatgoashighAstotheceiling。Norcrossknewthemwell,Andheknewotherslikethem。FastentothatWithalltheclawsofyourintelligence;

AndholdthemanbeforeyouinhishouseAsifhewereawhiteratinabox,Andonethatknewhimselftobenoother。

Itellyoutwicethatheknewallaboutit,ThatyoumaynotforgettheworstofallOurtragediesbeginwithwhatweknow。

CouldNorcrossonlynothaveknown,IwonderHowmanywouldhaveblessedandenviedhim!

CouldhehavehadtheusualeyeforspotsOnothers,andfornoneuponhimself,IsmiletoponderonthecarriagesThatmightaswellasnothavecloggedthetownInhonorofhisend。Fortherewasgold,Yousee,thoughallheneededwasalittle,Andwhathegavesaidnothingofwhogaveit。

HewouldhavegivenitallifinreturnTheremighthavebeenamoresufficientfaceTogreethimwhenheshaved。ThoughyouinsistItisthedower,andalways,ofourdegreeNottobecursedwithsuchinvidiousinsight,Rememberthatyoustand,youandyourfancy,Nowinhishouse;andsincewearetogether,Seeforyourselfandtellmewhatyousee。

Tellmethebestyousee。MakeaslightnoiseOfrecognitionwhenyoufindabookThatyouwouldnotasliefreadupsidedownAsotherwise,forexample。Ifthereyoufail,Observethewallsandleadmetotheplace,Whereyouareled。IfthereyoumeetapictureThatholdsyounearitforalongertimeThanyouaresorry,youmaycallityours,Andhangitinthedarkofyourremembrance,WhereNorcrossneversees。HowcanheseeThathasnoeyestosee?Andasformusic,HepaidwithemptywonderforthepangsOfhisinfrequentforcedenduranceofit;

Andhavinghadnopleasure,paidnomoreForneedlessimmolation,orforthesightOfthosewhoheardwhathewasnevertohear。

ToseethemlisteningwasitselfenoughTomakehimsuffer;andtowatchworneyes,Onotherdays,ofstrangerswhoforgotTheirsorrowsandtheirfailuresandthemselvesBeforeafewmysteriousoddsandendsOfmarblecartedfromtheParthenon——

Andallforseeingwhathewasnevertosee,Becauseitwasaliveandhewasdead——

HerewasawonderthatwasmoreprofoundThananythatwasinfiddlesandbrasshorns。

\"Heknew,andinhisknowledgetherewasdeath。

HeknewtherewasaregionallaroundhimThatlayoutsideman’shavocandaffairs,Andyetwasnotallhostiletotheirtumult,Wherepoetswouldhaveservedandhonoredhim,Andsavedhim,hadtherebeenanythingtosave。

Buttherewasnothing,andhistetheredrangeWasonlyasmalldesert。KingsofsongArenotforthronesindeserts。TowersofsoundAndflowersofsensearebutawasteofheavenWherethereisnonetoknowthemfromtherocksAndsand-grassofhisownmonotonyThatmakesearthlessthanearth。Hecouldseethat,Andhecouldseenomore。ThecapturedlightThatmayhavebeenornot,forallhecared,Thesongthatisinsculpturewasnothis,Butonly,tohisGod-forgotteneyes,OnemoreimmortalnonsenseinaworldWhereallwasmortal,orhadbestbeso,Andsobedonewith。`Art,’hewouldhavesaid,`Isnotlife,andmustthereforebealie;’

AndwithafewprofunditieslikethatHewouldhavecontrovertedanddismissedThebenefitoftheGreeks。Hehadheardofthem,Ashehadheardofhisaspiringsoul——

Nevertotheperceptibleadvantage,Inhisesteem,ofeither。`Faith,’hesaid,Orwouldhavesaidifhehadthoughtofit,`LivesinthesamehousewithPhilosophy,WherethetwofeedonscrapsandareforlornAsorphansafterwar。Hecouldseestars,Onaclearnight,buthehadnotaneyeToseebeyondthem。Hecouldhearspokenwords,Buthadnoearforsilencewhenalone。

Hecouldeatfoodofwhichheknewthesavor,ButhadnopalatefortheBreadofLife,Thathumandesperation,tohisthinking,Madefamouslongago,havingnoother。

Nowdoyousee?Doyoubegintosee?\"

ItoldhimthatIdidbegintosee;

AndIwasnearerthanIshouldhavebeenTolaughingathismaligninclusiveness,WhenIconsideredthat,withallourspeed,Wearenotlaughingyetatfunerals。

IseehimnowasIcouldseehimthen,AndIseenowthatitwasgoodforme,Asitwasgoodforhim,thatIwasquiet;

ForTime’seyewasonFerguson,andtheshaftOfitsinquiringhesitancyhadtouchedhim,OrsoIchosetofancymorethanonceBeforehetoldofNorcross。WhenthewordOfhisrelease(hewouldhavecalleditso)

Madehalfaninchofnews,therewerenotearsThatarerecorded。WomentheremayhavebeenTowishhimback,thoughIshouldsay,notknowing,Thefewthereweretomournwerenotforlove,Andwerenotlovely。Nothingofthem,atleast,WasinthemeagrelegendthatIgatheredYearsafter,whenachanceoftraveltookmeSoneartheregionofhisnativityThatafewmilesofleisurebroughtmethere;

ForthereIfoundafriendlycitizenWholedmetohishouseamongthetreesThatwereabovearailroadandariver。

SquareasaboxandchillierthanatombItwasindeed,tolookatortolivein——

AllwhichhadIbeentold。\"Fergusondied,\"

Thestrangersaid,\"andthentherewasanauction。

Ilivehere,butI’veneveryetbeenwarm。

Rememberhim?Yes,Irememberhim。

Iknewhim——asamanmayknowatree——

Fortwentyyears。HemayhaveheldhimselfAlittlehighwhenhewashere,butnow……

Yes,IrememberFerguson。Oh,yes。\"

Others,Ifound,rememberedFerguson,ButnoneofthemhadheardofTaskerNorcross。

ASongatShannon’sTwomencameoutofShannon’shavingknownThefacesofeachotherforaslongAstheyhadlistenedtheretoanoldsong,SungthinlyinawastrelmonotoneBysomeunhappynight-bird,whohadflownToomanytimesandwithawingtoostrongTosavehimself,andsodoneheavywrongTomorefrailelementsthanhisalone。

Slowlyawaytheywent,leavingbehindMorelightthanwasbeforethem。NeithermetTheother’seyesagainorsaidaword。

Eachtohislonelinessortohiskind,Wenthisownway,andwithhisownregret,Notknowingwhattheothermayhaveheard。

SouvenirAvanishedhousethatforanhourIknewBysomeforgottenchancewhenIwasyoungHadonceaglimmeringwindowoverhungWithhoneysucklewetwitheveningdew。

Alongthepathtallduskydahliasgrew,AndshadowyhydrangeasreachedandswungFerociously;andoverme,amongThemothsandmysteries,ablurredbatflew。

SomewherewithinthereweredimpresencesOfdaysthathoveredandofyearsgoneby。

Iwaited,andbetweentheirsilencesTherewasanevanescentfadednoise;

Andthoughachild,IknewitwasthevoiceOfonewhoseoccupationwastodie。

DiscoveryWetoldofhimasonewhoshouldhavesoaredAndseenforusthedevastatinglightWhereofthereisnoteitherdayornight,AndsharedwithustheglamouroftheWordThatfellonceuponAmostorecordFormenateaseinZion,whenthesightOfillsobscuredaggrievedhimandthemightOfHamathwasawarningoftheLord。

Assuredsomehowthathewouldmakeuswise,Ourpleasurewastowait;andoursurpriseWashardwhenweconfessedthedryreturnOfhisregret。ForwewerestilltolearnThatearthhasnotaschoolwherewemaygoForwisdom,orformorethanwemayknow。

FirelightTenyearstogetherwithoutyetacloud,Theyseekeachother’seyesatintervalsOfgratefulnesstofirelightandfourwallsForlove’sobliterationofthecrowd。

SerenelyandperenniallyendowedAndboweredasfewmaybe,theirjoyrecallsNosnake,nosword;andoverthemtherefallsTheblessingofwhatneithersaysaloud。

Wiserforsilence,theywerenotsogladWereshetoreadthegraventaleoflinesOnthewanfaceofonesomewherealone;

NorweretheymorecontentcouldhehavehadHerthoughtsamomentsinceofonewhoshinesApart,andwouldbehersifhehadknown。

TheNewTenantsThedaywasherewhenitwashistoknowHowfaredthebarriershehadbuiltbetweenHistriumphandhisenemiesunseen,Forthemtoundermineandoverthrow;

AnditwashisnolongertoforegoThesightofthem,insidiousandserene,WheretheyweredelvingalwaysandhadbeenLeftalwaystobeviciousandtogrow。

Andtherewerethenewtenantswhohadcome,Bydoorsthatwereleftopenunawares,Intohishouse,andweresomuchathomeTherenowthathewouldhardlyhavetoguess,Bytheslowguileoftheirvindictiveness,Whatultimateinsolencewouldsoonbetheirs。

InferentialAlthoughIsawbeforemetherethefaceOfonewhomIhadhonoredamongmenTheleast,andonregardinghimagainWouldnothavehadhiminanotherplace,HefittedwithanunfamiliargraceThecoffinwhereIcouldnotseehimthenAsIhadseenhimandappraisedhimwhenIdeemedhimunessentialtotherace。

FortherewasmoreofhimthanwhatIsaw。

AndtherewasonmemorethantheoldaweThatisthecommongeniusofthedead。

Imightaswellhaveheardhim:\"Nevermind;

Ifsomeofuswerenotsofarbehind,Therestofuswerenotsofarahead。\"

TheRatAsoftenashelethimselfbeseenWepitiedhim,orscornedhim,ordeploredTheinscrutableprofusionoftheLordWhoshapedasoneofusathingsomean——

WhomadehimhumanwhenhemighthavebeenArat,andsobeenwhollyinaccordWithanyothercreatureweabhorredAsalwaysuselessandnotalwaysclean。

Nowheishidingallalonesomewhere,Andinafinalholenotreadythen;

FornowheisamongthoseoverthereWhoarenotcomingbacktousagain。

AndwewhodothefictionofourshareSaylessofratsandrathermoreofmen。

RaheltoVarnhagenNote。——RahelRobertandVarnhagenvonEnseweremarried,aftermanyprotestationsonherpart,in1814。Themarriage——sofarashewasconcerned,atanyrate——appearstohavebeensatisfactory。

Nowyouhavereadthemall;orifnotall,AsmanyasinallconscienceIshouldfancyTobeenough。Therearenomoreofthem——

Ornonetoburnyoursleep,ortobringdreamsOfdevils。Ifthesearenotsufficient,surelyYouareastrangeyoungman。ImightliveonAlone,andforanotherfortyyears,Ornotquiteforty,——areyouhappiernow?——

AlwaystoaskifthereprevailedelsewhereAnotherlikeyourselfthatwouldhaveheldTheseagedhandsaslongasyouhaveheldthem,Notonceobserving,forallIcansee,Howtheyarelikeyourmother’s。Well,youhavereadHislettersnow,andyouhaveheardmesayThatinthemarethecindersofapassionThatwasmylife;andyouhavenotyetbrokenYourwayoutofmyhouse,outofmysight,——

Intothestreet。Youareastrangeyoungman。

Iknowasmuchasthatofyou,forcertain;

AndI’malreadypraying,foryoursake,Thatyoubenottoostrange。ToomuchofthatMayleadyoubyeandbyethroughgloomylanesToasadwilderness,whereonemaygropeAlone,andalways,oruntilhefeelsFerociousandinvisibleanimalsThatwaitformenandeattheminthedark。