Nearthevergeofaboldpromontorystandsthehotel,andlookssoutheastwardoverasweepofseaunbrokentothehorizon。Behinditstretchesthevastforest,whichaftertwohundredyearshasresumedthesterilecoastwrestedfromitbythefirstPilgrims,andhasbeguntoeffacetheevidencesoftheinroadmadeinrecentyearsbytheboldspeculatorforwhomJocelyn’sisnamed。TheyoungbirchesandsprucesarebreasthighinthedrivesandavenuesatJocelyn’s;thelowblackberryvinesandthesweetferncoverthecarefully-gradedsidewalks,andobscurethedivisionsofthelots;thechildrenoftheboardershavefoundsquawberriesinthepublicsquareonthespotwheretheband-standwastohavebeen。Thenotionofasea-sideresortatthispointwascourageouslyconceived,andtoacertainextentitwasgenerouslyrealized。Exceptforitsremotenessfromtherailroad,adrawbackwhichfutureenterprisemightbeexpectedtoremedyinsomeway,theplacehasmanynaturaladvantages。Thebroadplateauiscooledbyabreezefromthevastforestsbehindit,whichcomesladenwithhealthandfreshnessfromtheyoungpines;theseaatitsfeetiswarmedbytheGulfStreamtoatemperaturedeliciousforbathing。Therearecertainlymosquitoesfromthewoods;buttherearemosquitoeseverywhere,andthereportthatpeoplehavebeendrivenawaybythemismanifestlyuntrue,forwhoevercomestoJocelyn’sremains。Thebeachatthefootofthebluffisalmostamileatitscurve,anditissosmoothandhardthatitglistenslikepolishedmarblewhennewlywashedbythetide。Itistruethatyoureachitfromthetopbyaflightofeightysteps,butitwasintendedtohaveanelevator,likethoseneartheWhirlpoolatNiagara。Inthemeantimeitiseasyenoughtogodown,andtheladiesgodowneveryday,takingtheirnovelsortheirneedle-workwiththem。Theyhavevariousnotionsofabath:someconceivethatitisbathingtositintheedgeofthewater,andemitshrieksasthesurgesweepsagainstthem;othersrunboldlyin,andafteramomentofpoignanthesitationjumpupanddownhalf-a-dozentimes,andrunout;yetothersimagineitbettertoremainimmersedtothechinforagivenspace,lookingtowardtheshorewithlipstightlyshutandthebreathheld。Butafterthebaththeyareallofonemind;theylaytheirshawlsonthewarmsand,and,spreadingouttheirhairtodry,theydozeinthesun,insuchcoilsandmassesastheunconsciousfigurelendsitselfto。Whentheyrisefromtheirbeds,theysitintheshelterofthecliffandknitorsew,whileoneofthemreadsaloud,andanotherstandswatchtoannouncethecomingoftheseals,whichfrequentareefneartheshoreingreatnumbers。Ithasbeensaidatrivalpointsonthecoastthattheladieslingerthereindespairofeverbeingabletoremounttothehotel。Ayoungmanwhoclamberedalongtheshorefromoneofthosepointsreportedfindingdayafterdaythesameyoungladystretchedoutonthesameshawl,dryingthesameyellowhair,whohadapparentlynevergoneupstairssincetheseasonbegan。Buttherecurrenceofthisphenomenoninthisspotattheverymomentwhentheyoungmancamebymighthavebeenaccountedforuponothertheories。
Jocelyn’swassosecludedthatshecouldnothaveexpectedanyonetofindhertheretwice,andifshehadexpectedthisshewouldnothavepermittedit。Probablyhesawadifferentyoungladyeachtime。
Manyofthesameboarderscomeyearafteryear,andthesetrembleatthesuggestionofachangeforthebetterinJocelyn’s。ThelandlordhasalwaysbelievedthatJocelyn’swouldcomeup,someday,whentimesgotbetter。Hebelievesthatthenarrow-gaugerailroadfromNewLeyden——
arrestedonpaperatthedisastrousmomentwhenthefortunesofJocelyn’sfeltthegeneralcrash——willbepushedthroughyet;andeverysummerhepromisesthatnextsummertheyaregoingtohaveasteam-launchrunningtwiceadayfromLeydenHarbor。Butatpresenthishouseisvisitedonceadaybyabarge,astheNewEnglandcoast-folkscallthevehicleinwhichtheyconveycityboarderstoandfromthestation,andtheoldfrequentersoftheplacehopethatthestationwillneverbenearerJocelyn’sthanatpresent。Someofthemarerichenoughtoaffordasojournatmorefashionableresorts;butmostofthemarenot,thoughtheyareoftenpeopleofpolitetastesandofaestheticemployments。
Theytalkwithslightofthelargewatering-places,andprobablytheywouldnotlikethem,thoughitisreallyeconomythatinspirestheirpassionforJocelyn’swithmostofthem,andtheyknowofthesplendid。
wearinessofNewportmostlybyhearsay。Newarrivalsarenotfavored,buttherearenotoftennewarrivalsatJocelyn’s。Thechiefbusinessofthebargeistobringfreshmeatforthetableandthegauntbagwhichcontainsthemail;forinthefirstflushoftheenterprisetheplacewasmadeapost-office,andthelandlordispostmaster;hehasthehelpofthelady-boardersinhisofficialduties。
Scatteredaboutamongtheyoungbirchesthereareseveralofthosepineframesknownasshells,withineasywalkofthehotel,wheretheirinmatesboard。Theyarepicturesqueinteriors,andareoninformaltermswiththepublicastomanydomesticdetails。Theladyofthehouse,doingherbackhairatherdressing-roomglass,isdividedfromherhusband,smokingattheparlorfire-place,onlybyapartitionofunlathedstudding。Thearrestofdevelopmentintheseshellsischaracteristicofeverythingabouttheplace。NoneoftheimprovementsinventedsincethehardtimesbeganhavebeenaddedtoJocelyn’s;
lawntennisisstillunknownthere;butthereisacroquet-groundbeforethehotel,wheretheshort,toughgrassiskeptintolerableorder。Thewicketsareprettyrusty,anditisusuallythechildrenwhoplay;buttowardthecloseofacertain,afternoonayoungladywaspushingtheballsaboutthere。Sheseemedtobegoingoveragamejustplayed,andtryingtotracethecauseofherfailure。Shemadebadshots,andlaughedatherblunders。Anotheryoungladydroopedlanguidlyonabenchatthesideofthecroquet-ground,andfollowedhermovementswithindifference。
\"Idon’tseehowyoudidit,Louise,\"pantedtheplayer;\"it’sastonishinghowyoubeatme。\"
Theladyonthebenchmadeasiftoanswer,butendedbycoughinghoarsely。
\"Oh,dearchild!\"criedthefirst,droppinghermallet,andrunningtoher。\"Yououghttohaveputonyourshawl!\"Sheliftedtheknitshawllyingbesideheronthebench,andlaiditacrosstheother’sshoulders,anddrewitcloseaboutherneck。
\"Oh,don’t!\"saidtheother。\"Itchokesmetobebundledupsotight。\"
Sheshruggedtheshawldowntohershoulderswithaprettypetulance。
\"Ifmychest’sprotected,that’sallthat’snecessary。\"Butshemadenomotiontodrapetheoutlinewhichherneatly-fitteddressdisplayed,andshedidnotmovefromherplace,orlookupatheranxiousfriend。
\"Oh,butdon’tsithere,Louise,\"thelatterpleaded,lingeringnearher。
\"Iwaswrongtoletyousitdownatallafteryouhadgotheated。\"
\"Well,Grace,Ihadto,\"saidshewhowascalledLouise。\"Iwassotiredout。I’mnotgoingtotakemorecold。IcanalwaystellwhenIam。
I’llputontheshawlinhalfaminute;orelseI’llgoin。
I’msurethere’snothingtokeepmeout。That’stheworstoftheselonelyplaces:mymindpreysuponitself。That’swhatDr。Nixonalwayssaid:hesaiditwasnouseinairsolongasmymindpreyeduponitself。
HesaidthatIoughttodivertmymindallIcould,andkeepitfrompreyinguponitself;thatitwasworthallthemedicineintheworld。\"
\"That’sperfectlytrue。\"
\"Thenyououghtn’ttokeepremindingmeallthetimethatI’msick。
That’swhatstartsmymindtopreyinguponitself;andwhenitgetsgoingonceIcan’tstopit。Ioughttotreatmyselfjustlikeawellperson;
that’swhatthedoctorsaid。\"
Theotherstoodlookingatthespeakerinfrowningperplexity。Shewasaserious-facedgirl,andnowwhenshefrownedherblackbrowsmetsternlyabovehergrayeyes。Butshecontrolledanyimpulseshehadtoseverity,andaskedgently,\"ShallIsendBellatoyou?\"
\"Oh,no!Ican’tmakesocietyoutofachildthewholetime。I’lljustsitheretillthebargecomesin。Isupposeitwillbeasemptyasagourd,asusual。\"Sheadded,withasickandwearynegligence,\"Idon’tevenknowwhereBellais。She’srunoff,somewhere。\"
\"It’squitetimesheshouldbelookedup,fortea。I’llwanderoutthatwayandlookforher。\"Sheindicatedthewildernessgenerally。
\"Thanks,\"saidLouise。Shenowgratefullydrewhershawlupoverhershoulders,andfacedaboutonthebenchsoastocommandaneasyviewofthearrivingbarge。Theothermetitonherwaytotheplaceinthewoodswherethechildrenusuallyplayed,andfounditasemptyasherfriendhadforeboded。Butthedriverstoppedhishorses,andleanedoutofthesideofthewagonwithalittlepackageinhishand。Hereadthesuperscription,andthenglancedconsciouslyatthegirl。\"You’reMissBreen,ain’tyou?\"
\"Yes,\"shesaid,withlady-likesweetnessandasortofbusiness-likealertness。
\"Well,\"suggestedthedriver,\"thisisforMissGraceBreen,M。D。\"
\"Forme,thankyou,\"saidtheyounglady。\"I’mDr。Breen。\"SheputoutherhandforthelittlepackagefromthehomoeopathicpharmacyinBoston;
andthedriveryieldeditwithablushthatreddenedhimtohishair。
\"Well,\"hesaidslowly,staringatthehandsomegirl,whodidnotvisiblysharehisembarrassment,\"theytoldmeyouwastheone;butIcouldn’tseemtogetitthroughme。Ithoughtitmustbetheoldlady。\"
\"MymotherisMrs。Breen,\"theyoungladybrieflyexplained,andwalkedrapidlyaway,leavingthedriverstuckintheheavysandofSea-GlimpseAvenue。
\"Why,getup!\"heshoutedtohishorses。\"Goin’tostayhereallday?\"
Hecranedhisneckroundthesideofthewagonforasightofher。
\"Well,dumm’fIdon’twishIwassick!Stepsalong,\"hemused,watchingtheswirlandrippleofherskirt,\"like——Idunnowhat。\"
WithherfaceturnedfromhimDr。Breenblushed,too;shewasnotyetsousedtoherqualityofphysicianthatshecouldcoldlybeartheconfusiontowhichherbeingadoctorputmen。Shelaughedalittletoherselfatthehelplessnessofthedriver,confrontedprobablyforthefirsttimewithagraduateoftheNewYorkhomoeopathicschool;butshebelievedthatshehadreasonsfortakingherselfseriouslyineveryway,andshehadnotentereduponthiscareerwithoutdefinitepurposes。Whenshewasnotyetoutofherteens,shehadanunhappyloveaffair,whichwasalwaysdarklyreferredtoasadisappointmentbypeoplewhoknewofitatthetime。Thoughtheparticularsofthecasedonotdirectlyconcernthisstory,itmaybestatedthattherecreantloverafterwardsmarriedherdearestgirl-friend,whomhehadfirstmetinhercompany。Itwascruelenough,andthehurtwentdeep;butitneithercrushednorhardenedher。Itbenumbedherforatime;shesankoutofsight;butwhenshereturnedtotheknowledgeoftheworldsheshowednomarkoftheblowexceptwhatwasthoughtastrangeeccentricityinagirlsuchasshehadbeen。Theworldwhichhadknownher——itwasthatofaninlandNewEnglandcity——heardofherdefinitelyafterseveralyearsasastudentofmedicineinNewYork。Thosewhohadmoreofherintimacyunderstoodthatshehadchosenthisworkwiththeintentionofgivingherlifetoit,inthespiritinwhichotherwomenenterconvents,orgoouttoheathenlands;butprobablythisconceptionhaditsexaggerations。Whatwascertainwasthatshewasrichenoughtohavenoneedofherprofessionasameansofsupport,andthatitsstudyhadcosthermorethantheusualsufferingthatitbringstopersonsofsensitivenerves。Somedetailswerealmostinsuperablyrepugnant;butinschoolingherselftothemshebelievedthatshewaspreparingtoencounteranythingintheapplicationofherscience。
Herfirstintentionhadbeentogobacktoherowntownafterhergraduation,andbeginthepracticeofherprofessionamongthosewhohadalwaysknownher,andwhosescrutinyandcriticismwouldbehardesttobear,andtherefore,asshefancied,themostusefultoherintheformationofcharacter。Butafterwardssherelinquishedherpurposeinfavorofadesignwhichshethoughtwouldbemoreusefultoothers:sheplannedgoingtooneofthegreatfactorytowns,andbeginningpracticethere,incompanywithanolderphysician,amongthechildrenoftheoperatives。Pendingthecompletionofthisarrangement,whichwaswaitinguponthedecisionoftheotherlady,shehadcometoJocelyn’swithhermother,andwithMrs。Maynard,whohadarrivedfromtheWest,aimlesslysickandunfriended,justastheywereaboutleavinghome。
Therewasnoresourcebuttoinviteherwiththem,andDr。Breenwasfindingherfirstpatientinthisunexpectedguest。Shedidnotwhollyregrettheaccident;this,too,wasusefulwork,thoughnotthatshewouldhavechosen;buthermother,afterafortnight,openlyrepined,andcouldnotmentionMrs。Maynardwithoutsomerebelliousmurmur。Shewasanoldlady,whohadoncekeptaveryvigilantconscienceforherself;
butaftermakingherlifeunhappywithitforsomethreescoreyears,shenowapplieditentirelytotheexasperationandcondemnationofothers。
SheespeciallydevotedittofrettingaNewEnglandgirl’snaturallymorbidsenseofdutyinherdaughter,andkeepingitintheirritationofperpetualself-question。Shehadneveractivelyopposedherstudyingmedicine;thatambitionhadharmonizedverywellwithcertainradicaltendenciesofherown,anditwasatleastnotmarriage,whichshehadfoundtolerableonlyinitsmodifiedformofwidowhood;butateverystepafterthedecisivestepwastakenshewasbesetwithmisgivingslestGracewasnotfullyalivetothegraveresponsibilitiesofheroffice,whichsheaccumulateduponthegirlinproportionassheflungoffallresponsibilitiesofherown。ShewasdoubtlessdeceivedbythatshowofcalmwhichsometimesdeceivedGraceherself,who,intutoringhersoultobearwhatithadtobear,mistookhertenseeffortforspiritualrepose,andscarcelyrealizedthroughhertinglingnervesthestrainshewasundergoing。Inspiteofthebitterexperienceofherlife,shewasstillveryardentinherhopesofusefulness,veryscornfulofdistressordiscomforttoherself,andalittleinclinedtoexacttheheroismshewasreadytoshow。Shehadachild’sseveremorality,andshehadhardlylearnedtounderstandthatthereismuchevilintheworldthatdoesnotcharacterizetheperpetrators:sheheldherselfasstrictlytoaccountforeverywordanddeedassheheldothers,andshehadanalmostpassionatedesiretomeettheconsequenceofhererrors;tillthatwasfelt,anintolerabledoomhungoverher。Shetriednottobeimpulsive;
thatwascriminalinoneofhercalling;andshestruggledforpatiencewithanendeavorthatwaslargelysuccessful。
Astotheeffectofhercareeroutsideofherself,andofthosewhomherskillwastobenefit,shetriedtothinkneitherarrogantlynormeanly。
Shewouldnotentertainthevanitythatshewasservingwhatiscalledthecauseofwoman,andshewouldnotassumeanydutiesorresponsibilitiestowardit。Shethoughtmenwereasgoodaswomen;
atleastonemanhadbeennoworsethanonewoman;anditwasinnorepresentativeorexemplarycharacterthatshehadchosenhercourse。
Atthesametimethatsheheldthesesaneopinions,shebelievedthatshehadputawaythehopeswiththepleasuresthatmightoncehavetakenherasayounggirl。Inregardtowhathadchangedthecurrentofherlife,shementallyassertedhermerenullity,herabsolutenon-existence。Thethoughtofitnolongerrankled,andthatinterestcouldneverbehersagain。Ifithadnotbeensomuchlikeaffectation,andsocountertoherstrongaestheticinstinct,shemighthavemadeherdresssomehowsignificantofhercompleteabeyanceinsuchmatters;butasitwassheonlystudiedsimplicity,andaswehaveseenfromtheimpressionofthebarge-drivershedidnotfinallyescapedistinctionindressandmanner。
Infact,shecouldnothaveescapedthateffectifshewould;anditwasoneoftheindomitablecontradictionsofhernaturethatshewouldnot。
Whenshecamebacktothecroquet-ground,leadingthelittlegirlbythehand,shefoundMrs。Maynardnolongeraloneandnolongersad。Shewaschattingandlaughingwithaslimyoungfellow,whosegayblueeyeslookedoutofasunburntface,andwhosestrawhat,carriedinhishand,exposedacloselyshavenhead。Heworeasuitofgrayflannel,andMrs。
MaynardexplainedthathewascampingonthebeachatBirkman’sCove,andhadcomeoverinthesteamerwithherwhenshereturnedfromEurope。SheintroducedhimasMr。Libby,andsaid,\"Oh,Bella,youdirtylittlething!\"
Mr。LibbybowedanxiouslytoGrace,andturnedforrefugetothelittlegirl。\"Hello,Bella!\"\"Hello!\"saidthechild。\"Rememberme?\"ThechildputherlefthandonthatofGraceholdingherright,andprettilypressedherheadagainstthegirl’sarminbashfulsilence。Gracesaidsomecoldlycivilwordstotheyoungman:withoutlookingatMrs。
Maynard,andpassedonintothehouse。
\"Youdon’tmeanthat’syourdoctor?\"hescarcelymorethanwhispered。
\"Yes,Ido,\"answeredMrs。Maynard。\"Isn’tshetoolovely?Andshe’sjustasgood!Sheusedtostandupatschoolforme,whenallthegirlsweredownonmebecauseIwasWestern。AndwhenIcameEast,thistime,Ijustwentrightstraighttoherhouse。Iknewshecouldtellmeexactlywhattodo。Andthat’sthereasonI’mhere。Ishallalwaysrecommendthisairtoanybodywithlungdifficulties。It’sthegreatestthing!I’malmostanotherperson。Oh,youneedn’tlookafterher,Mr。Libby!There’snothingflirtatiousaboutGrace,\"saidMrs。Maynard。
TheyoungmanrecoveredhimselffromhisabsentmindedstareinthedirectionGracehadtaken,withafranklaugh。\"Somuchthebetterforafellow,Ishouldsay!\"
Gracehandedthelittlegirlovertohernurse,andwenttoherownroom,whereshefoundhermotherwaitingtogodowntotea。
\"WhereisMrs。Maynard?\"askedMrs。Breen。
\"Outonthecroquet-ground,\"answeredthedaughter。
\"Ishouldthinkitwouldbedamp,\"suggestedMrs。Green。
\"Shewillcomeinwhenthetea-bellrings。Shewouldn’tcomeinnow,ifItoldher。\"
\"Well,\"saidtheelderlady,\"forapersonwholetsherdoctorpayherboard,Ithink’she’sveryindependent。\"
\"Iwishyouwouldn’tspeakofthat,mother,\"saidthegirl。
\"Ican’thelpit,Grace。It’sridiculous,——that’swhatitis;it’sridiculous。\"
\"Idon’tseeanythingridiculousinit。Aphysicianneednotchargeanythingunlesshechooses,orshe;andifIchoosetomakeLouisemyguesthereit’squitethesameasifsheweremyguestathome。\"
\"Idon’tlikeyoutohavesuchaguest,\"saidMrs。Green。\"Idon’tseewhatclaimshehasuponyourhospitality。\"
\"Shehasadoubleclaimuponit,\"Graceanswered,withaflush。\"Sheisinsicknessandintrouble。Idon’tseehowshecouldhaveabetterclaim。EvenifshewerequitewellIshouldconsiderthewayshehadbeentreatedbyherhusbandsufficient,andIshouldwanttodoeverythingIcouldforher。\"
\"Ishouldwanthertobehaveherself,\"saidMrs。Breendryly。
\"Howbehaveherself?Whatdoyoumean?\"demandedGrace,withguiltyheat。
\"YouknowwhatImean,Grace。Awomaninherpositionoughttobemorecircumspectthananyotherwoman,ifshewantspeopletobelievethatherhusbandtreatedherbadly。\"
\"Weoughtn’ttoblameherfortryingtoforgethertroubles。It’sessentialtoherrecoveryforhertobeascheerfulasshecanbe。I
knowthatshe’simpulsive,andshe’sfreeinhermannerswithstrangers;
butIsupposethat’sherWesternism。She’salmostdistracted。Shewascryinghalfthenight,withhertroubles,andkeptBellaandmebothawake。\"
\"IsBellawithhernow?\"
\"No,\"Graceadmitted。\"Jane’sgettingherreadytogodownwithus。
Louiseistalkingwithagentlemanwhocameoveronthesteamerwithher;
he’scampingonthebeachnearhere。Ididn’twaittohearparticulars。\"
Whenthenursebroughtthelittlegirltotheirdoor,Mrs。GreentookonehandandGracetheother,andtheyledherdowntotea。Mrs。Maynardwasalreadyattable,andtoldthemallaboutmeetingMr。Libbyabroad。
UntilthepresenttimesheandGracehadnotseeneachothersincetheywereatschooltogetherinSouthington,wherethegirlusedtohearsomuchtothedisadvantageofhernativesectionthatshewouldhardlyhaveownedtoitifheraccenthadnotfoundherout。Itwouldhavebeenpleasantertobefriendanotherperson,butthelittleWesternersufferedaveritablepersecution,andthatwasenoughtomakeGraceherfriend。
Shortlyaftershereturnedhomefromschoolshemarried,inthatcasualandtentativefashioninwhichsomanymarriagesseemmade。GracehadheardofherastravellinginEuropewithherhusband,fromwhomshewasnowseparated。ShereportedthathehadknownMr。Libbyinhisbachelordays,andthatMr。Libbyhadtravelledwiththem。Mr。MaynardappearedtohavelefttoMr。Libbythearrangementofhiswife’spleasures,thesupervisionofhershopping,andthedirectionoftheircommonjourneysandsojourns;anditseemedtohavebeenindifferenttohimwhetherhisfriendwassmokingandtellingstorieswithhim,orgoingwithhiswifetotheopera,oruponsuchexcursionsashehadnotastefor。Shegavethedetailsofthetriangularintimacywithafrankunconsciousness;andafternineo’clockshereturnedfromamoonlightwalkonthebeachwithMr。Libby。
Gracesatwaitingforheratthelittleone’sbedside,forBellahadbeenafraidtogotosleepalone。
\"Howgoodyouare!\"criedLouise,inagratefulunder-tone,asshecamein。ShekissedGrace,andchokeddownacoughwithherhandoverhermouth。
\"Louise,\"saidGracesternly,\"thisisshameful!Youforgetthatyouaremarried,andill,too。\"
\"Oh,I’meversomuchbetter,to-night。Theair’sjustasdry!Andyouneedn’tmindMr。Libby。He’ssuchanoldfriend!Besides,I’msuretogainthecase。\"
\"No,matter。Evenasadivorcedwoman,yououghtn’ttogooninthisway。\"
\"Well,Iwouldn’t,witheveryone。Butit’squitedifferentwithMr。
Libby。And,besides,Ihavetokeepmymindfrompreyingonitselfsomehow。\"
II。
Mrs。Maynardsatinthesunontheseaward-lookingpiazzaofthehotel,andcoughedinthewarmair。Shetoldtheladies,astheycameoutfrombreakfast,thatshewaseversomuchbettergenerally,butthatsheseemedtohavemoreofthatticklinginherthroat。Eachofthemadvisedherforgood,andsuggestedthisspecificandthat;andtheyallaskedherwhatMissBreenwasdoingforhercough。Mrs。Maynardreplied,betweentheparoxysms,thatshedidnotknow:itwassomekindofpowders。Thentheysaidtheywouldthinkshewouldwanttotrysomethingactive;eventhoseamongthemwhowerehomoeopathistsinsinuatedafinedistrustofaphysicianoftheirownsex。\"Oh,it’snothingserious,\"
Mrs。Maynardexplained。\"It’sjustbronchial。Theairwilldomemoregoodthananything。I’mkeepingoutinitallIcan。\"
Aftertheyweregone,aqueer,gauntmancameandglancedfromthedoorwayather。Hehadoneeyeinunnaturalfixity,andtheothersetatthatabnormalslantwhichissaidtoqualifytheownerforlookingroundacornerbeforehegetstoit。Adrolltwistofhismouthseemedpartlyphysical,but:thereisnodoubtthathehadoftenahumorousintention。
ItwasBarlow,theman-of-all-work,whokilledandpluckedthepoultry,peeledthepotatoesandpickedthepeas,pulledthesweet-cornandthetomatoes,kindledthekitchenfire,harnessedtheoldsplayfootedmare,——safeforladiesandchildren,andintolerableforallothers,whichformedtheentirestudoftheJocelynHousestables,——dugtheclams,rowedandsailedtheboat,lookedafterthebath-houses,andcameincontactwiththeguestsatsomanypointsthathewasoneasytermswiththemall。Thiseasetendedtoanintimacywhichhewashimselfpowerlesstorepress,andwhich,fromtimetotime,requiredtheirintervention。
Henowworeasimplecostumeofshirtandtrousers,thelatterterminatedbyapairofbrokenshoes,andsustainedbywhathecalledasinglegallows;hisbroad-brimmedstrawhatscoopeddownuponhisshouldersbehind,andinfrontaddedtohiscongenitaldifficultyofgettingpeopleinfocus。\"Howdoyoudo,thismorning,Mrs。Maynard?\"hesaid。
\"Oh,I’mfirst-rate,Mr。Barlow。Whatsortofdaydoyouthinkit’sgoingtobeforasail?\"
Barlowcameouttotheedgeofthepiazza,andlookedattheseaandsky。
\"First-rate。Fog’smostburntawaynow。Youdon’toftenseeafogatJocelyn’safterteno’clockinthemornin’。\"
HelookedforapprovaltoMrs。Maynard,whosaid,\"That’sso。Theair’sjustsplendid。It’sdoingeverythingforme。\"
\"It’sthesepinewoods,backo’here。Everybreathon’emdoesyegood。
It’sthebalsaminit。D’youevertry,\"heasked,stretchinghishandasfarupthepiazza-postasbecould,andswingingintoaconversationalposture,——\"d’youevertrywhiskey——goododdBourbonwhiskey——withwhite-
pinechipsinit?\"
Mrs。Maynardlookedupwithinterest,but,shakingherhead,coughedforno。
\"Well,Ishouldliketohaveyoutrythat。\"
\"Whatdoesitdo?\"shegasped,whenshecouldgetherbreath。
\"Well,it’ssoothin’t’thecough,anditbuildsyeup,everyways。Why,mybrother,\"continuedthefactotum,\"hediedofconsumptionwhenIwasaboy,——reg’laroldNewEnglandconsumption。Don’thardlyeverhearofitanymore,roundhere。Well,Idon’tsupposethere’sbeenacaseofreg’laroldNewEnglandconsumption——well,nottheoldNewEnglandkind——sincethesewoodsgrowedup。Heusedtotakewhiskeywithwhite-pinechipsinit;andIcanrememberhearin’emsaythatitdonehimmoregoodthanallthedoctor’sstuff。He’dbeenouttoDemarary,andeverywheres,andhecomehomeinthelaststages,andtookupwiththiswhiskeywithwhitepinechipsinit。Well,it’sjustlikethis,Ipresumeit’sthebalsaminthechips。Itdon’tmakeanydifferencehowyougitthebalsamintoyoursystem,so’s’tyougititthere。Ishouldliketohaveyoutrywhiskeywithwhite-pinechipsinit。\"
HelookedconvincinglyatMrs。Maynard,whosaidsheshouldliketotryit。\"It’sjustbronchialwithme,youknow。ButIshouldliketotryit。Iknowitwouldbesoothing;andI’vealwaysheardthatwhiskeywastheverythingtobuildyouup。But,\"sheadded,lapsingfromthisvisionofrecovery,\"Icouldn’ttakeitunlessGracesaidso。She’dbesuretofinditout。\"
\"Why,lookhere,\"saidBarlow。\"Asfarforthasthatgoes,youcouldkeepthebottleinmyroom。NotbutwhatIbelieveingoingbyyourdoctor’sdirections,itdon’tmatterwhoyourdoctoris。Iain’tsayin’
nothin’againstMissBreen,youunderstand?\"
\"Oh,no!\"criedMrs。Maynard。
\"Ineverseemuchnicerladiesthanherandhermotherinthehouse。
Butyoujusttellheraboutthewhiskeywiththewhite-pinechipsinit。
Maybesheneverheardofit。Well,shehain’thadagreatdealofexperienceyet。\"
\"No,\"saidMrs。Maynard。\"AndIthinkshe’llbegladtohearofit。
YoumaybesureI’lltellher,Mr。Barlow。Graceiseverythingforthebalsamicpropertiesoftheair,downhere。That’swhatshesaid;andasyousay,itdoesn’tmatterhowyougetthebalsamintoyoursystem,soyougetitthere。\"
\"No,\"saidthefactotum,inatoneofmisgiving,asiftherepetitionofthewordspresentedthetheoryinanewlighttohim。
\"WhatIthinkis,andwhatI’malwaystellingGrace,\"pursuedMrs。
Maynard,inthatconfidentialspiritinwhichshehelplesslyspokeofherfriendsbytheirfirstnamestoeveryone,\"thatifIcouldoncegetmydigestionallright,thenthecoughwouldstopofitself。Thedoctorsaid——Dr。Nixon,thatis——thatitwasmorethanhalfthedigestionanyway。ButjustassoonasIeatanything——orifIover-eatalittle——thenthatticklinginmythroatbegins,andthenIcommencecoughing;andI’mbackjustwhereIwas。It’sthedigestion。Ioughtn’ttohaveeatenthatmincepie,yesterday。\"
\"No,\"admittedBarlow。Thenhesaid,inindirectdefenceofthekitchen,\"Ithinkyouhadn’toughttobeoutinthenightair,——well,notagreatdeal。\"
\"Well,Idon’tsupposeitdoesdomemuchgood,\"Mrs。Maynardsaid,turninghereyesseaward。
Barlowlethishanddropfromthepiazzapost,andslouchedin-doors;buthecameoutagainasifprickedbyconsciencetoreturn。
\"Afterall,youknow,itdidn’tcurehim。\"
\"Whatcurehim?\"askedMrs。Maynard。
\"Thewhiskeywiththewhite-pinechipsinit。\"
\"Curewho?\"
\"Mybrother。\"
\"Oh!Oh,yes!Butmine’sonlybronchial。Ithinkitmightdomegood。
IshalltellGraceaboutit。\"
Barlowlookedtroubled,asifhissuccessinthesuggestionofthisremedywerenotfinallyapleasure;butasMrs。Maynardkepthereyespersistentlyturnedfromhim,andwasevidentlytired,hehadnothingforitbuttogoin-doorsagain。HemetGrace,andmadewayforheronthethresholdtopassout。
AsshejoinedMrs。Maynard,\"Well,Grace,\"saidthelatter,\"Idobelieveyouareright。Ihavetakensomemorecold。Butthatshowsthatitdoesn’tgetworseofitself,andIthinkweoughttobeencouragedbythat。
I’mgoingtobemorecarefulofthenightairafterthis。\"
\"Idon’tthinkthenightairwastheworstthingaboutit,Louise,\"saidGracebluntly。
\"Youmeanthedampfromthesand?Iputonmyrubbers。\"
\"Idon’tmeanthedampsand,\"saidGrace,beginningtopulloversomesewingwhichshehadinherlap,andlookingdownatit。
Mrs。Maynardwatchedherawhileinexpectationthatshewouldsaymore,butshedidnotspeak。\"Oh,——well!\"shewasforcedtocontinueherself,\"ifyou’regoingtogoonwiththat!\"
\"Thequestionis,\"saidGrace,gettingthethreadshewanted,\"whetheryouaregoingonwithit。\"
\"Why,Ican’tseeanypossibleharminit,\"protestedMrs。Maynard。
\"Isupposeyoudon’texactlylikemygoingwithMr。Libby,andIknowthatundersomecircumstancesitwouldn’tbequitethething。Butdidn’tItellyoulastnighthowhelivedwithusinEurope?AndwhenwewereallcomingoveronthesteamertogetherMr。LibbyandMr。Maynardweretogetherthewholetime,smokingandtellingstories。Theywerethegreatestfriends!Why,itisn’tasifhewasastranger,oranenemyofMr。Maynard’s。\"
Gracedroppedhersewingintoherlap。\"Really,Louise,you’reincredible!\"Shelookedsternlyattheinvalid;butbrokeintoalaugh,onwhichMrs。Maynardwaitedwithapuzzledface。AsGracesaidnothingmore,shehelplesslyresumed:——
\"Wedidn’texpecttogodownthecliffwhenhefirstcalledintheevening。Buthesaidhewouldhelpmeupagain,and——hedid,nicely。
Iwasn’texhaustedabit;andhowItookmorecoldIcan’tunderstand;
Iwaswrappedupwarmly。IthinkItookthecoldwhenIwassittingthereafterourgameofcroquet,withmyshawloff。Don’tyouthinkso?\"
shewheedled。
\"Perhaps,\"saidGrace。
\"Hedidnothingbuttalkaboutyou,Grace,\"saidMrs。Maynard,withaslylookattheother。\"He’sawfullyafraidofyou,andhekeptaskingaboutyou。\"
\"Louise,\"saidtheother,gravelyignoringthesefacts,\"Ineverundertookthecareofyousocially,andIobjectverymuchtolecturingyou。YouarenearlyasoldasIam,andyouhavehadagreatdealmoreexperienceoflifethanIhave。\"Mrs。Maynardsigheddeeplyinassent。
\"Butitdoesn’tseemtohavetaughtyouthatifyouwillprovokepeopletotalkofyou,youmustexpectcriticism。Oneafteranotheryou’vetoldnearlyeverywomaninthehouseyouraffairs,andtheyhaveallsympathizedwithyouandpitiedyou。Ishallhavetobeplain,andtellyouthatIcan’thavethemsneeringandlaughingatanyonewhoismyguest。Ican’tletyoudefypublicopinionhere。\"
\"Why,Grace,\"saidMrs。Maynard,buoyedaboveoffenceatherfriend’swordsbyherconsciousnessofthepointshewasabouttomake,\"youdefypublicopinionyourselfagooddealmorethanIdo,everyminute。\"
\"I?HowdoIdefyit?\"demandedGraceindignantly。
\"Bybeingadoctor。\"
Graceopenedherlipstospeak,butshewasnotareadyperson,andshefeltthethrust。BeforeshecouldsayanythingMrs。Maynardwenton:
\"Thereisn’toneofthemthatdoesn’tthinkyou’remuchmorescandalousthanifyouwerethegreatestflirtalive。But,Idon’tmindthem,andwhyshouldyou?\"
TheseriousgirlwhomsheaddressedwasinthathelplesssubjectiontothetruthinwhichsomanyNewEnglandwomenpasstheirlives。Shecouldnotdenythetruthwhichlurkedintheexaggerationofthesewords,anditunnervedher,asthefactthatshewasdoingwhatthevastmajorityofwomenconsideredunwomanlyalwaysunnervedherwhenshesufferedherselftothinkofit。\"Youareright,Louise,\"shesaidmeeklyandsadly。
\"Theythinkaswellofyouastheydoofme。\"
\"Yes,that’sjustwhatIsaid!\"criedMrs。Maynard,gladofhersuccessfulargument。
Buthoweverdisabled,herfriendresumed:\"Theonlysafewayforyouistotakethegroundthatsolongasyouwearyourhusband’snameyoumusthonorit,nomatterhowcruelandindifferenttoyouhehasbeen。\"
\"Yes,\"assentedMrs。Maynardruefully,\"ofcourse。\"
\"Imeanthatyoumustn’tevenhavetheappearanceoflikingadmiration,orwhatyoucallattentions。It’swicked。\"
\"Isupposeso,\"murmuredtheculprit。
\"YouhavebeenbroughtuptohavesuchdifferentideasofdivorcefromwhatIhave,\"continuedGrace,\"thatIdon’tfeelasifIhadanyrighttoadviseyouaboutwhatyouaretodoafteryougainyoursuit。\"
\"Ishallnotwanttogetmarriedagainforonewhile;Iknowthatmuch,\"
Mrs。Maynardinterpolatedself-righteously。
\"Buttillyoudogainit,yououghtnottoregarditasemancipatingyouintheslightestdegree。\"
\"No,\"cameinsadassentfromthevictimofthelaw’sdelays。
\"AndIwantyoutopromisemethatyouwon’tgowalkingwithMr。Libbyanymore;andthatyouwon’tevenseehimalone,afterthis。\"
\"Why,butGrace!\"criedMrs。Maynard,asmuchinamazementasinannoyance。\"Youdon’tseemtounderstand!Haven’tItoldyouhewasafriendofthefamily?He’squiteasmuchMr。Maynard’sfriendasheismine。I’msure,\"sheadded,\"ifIaskedMr。Libby,Ishouldneverthinkofgettingdivorced。He’sallforGeorge;andit’sasmuchasIcandotoputupwithhim。\"
\"Nomatter。Thatdoesn’taltertheappearancetopeoplehere。Idon’twishyoutogowithhimaloneanymore。\"
\"Well,Grace,Iwon’t,\"saidMrs。Maynardearnestly。\"Iwon’t,indeed。
Andthatmakesmethink:hewantedyoutogoalongthismorning。\"
\"Togoalong?Wantedme——Whatareyoutalkingabout?\"
\"Why,Isupposethat’shisboat,outthere,now。\"Mrs。Maynardpointedtoalittlecraftjustcomingtoanchorinsidethereef。\"Hesaidhewantedmetotakeasailwithhim,thismorning;andhesaidhewouldcomeupandaskyou,too。Idohopeyou’llgo,Grace。It’sjustascalm;andhealwayshasamanwithhimtohelpsailtheboat,sothereisn’ttheleastdanger。\"Gracelookedatherinsilentsorrow,andMrs。
Maynardwentonwithsympatheticseriousness:\"Oh!there’sonethingI
wanttoaskyouabout,Grace:Idon’tliketohaveanyconcealmentsfromyou。\"Gracedidnotspeak,butshepermittedMrs。Maynardtoproceed:
\"Barlowrecommendedit,andhe’slivedhereagreatwhile。Hisbrothertookit,andhehadtheregularoldNewEnglandconsumption。IthoughtI
shouldn’tliketotryitwithoutyourknowingit。\"
\"Tryit?Whatareyoutalkingabout,Louise?\"
\"Why,whiskeywithwhite-pinechipsinit。\"
Gracerose,andmovedtowardsthedoor,withthethingsdroppingfromherlap。Oneofthesewasaspool,thatrolleddownthestepsandoutuponthesandyroad。Sheturnedtopursueit,andrecovereditatthecostofdroppingherscissorsandthimbleoutofoppositesidesofherskirt,whichshehadgatheredupapronwisetoholdherwork。Whensherosefromthecomplicateddifficulty,inwhichMrs。Maynardhadamiablylentheraid,sheconfrontedMr。Libby,whowascomingtowardsthemfromthecliff。Shegavehimastiffnod,andattemptedtomoveaway;butinturningroundandaboutshehadspunherselfintothefoldsofastoutlinenthreadescapingfromitsspool。Thesegyvesnotonlyboundherskirtsbutinvolvedherfeetinanextraordinarymesh,whichtightenedatthefirststepandbroughthertoastandstill。
Mrs。Maynardbegantolaughandcough,asMr。Libbycametoherfriend’shelp。Hegotthespoolinhishand,andwalkedaroundherintheendeavortofreeher;butinvain。Sheextendedhimthescissorswiththesternpassivityofafate。\"Cutit,\"shecommanded,andMr。Libbykneltbeforeherandobeyed。\"Thanks,\"shesaid,takingbackthescissors;andnowshesatdownagain,andbegandeliberatelytoputupherworkinherhandkerchief。
\"I’llgooutandgetmythings。Iwon’tbegonehalfaminute,Mr。
Libby,\"saidMrs。Maynard,withherfirstbreath,asshevanishedindoors。
Mr。LibbyleanedagainstthepostlatelyoccupiedbythefactotuminhistalkwithMrs。Maynard,andlookeddownatGraceasshebentoverherwork。Ifhewishedtospeaktoher,andwaswaveringastotheappropriatestyleofaddressforahandsomegirl,whowasatonceayoungladyandaphysician,shesparedhimtheagonyofadecisionbylookingupathimsuddenly。
\"Ihope,\"hefaltered,\"thatyoufeellikeasail,thismorning?
DidMrs。Maynard——\"
\"Ishallhavetoexcusemyself,\"answeredGrace,withaconscienceagainstsayingshewassorry。\"Iamaverybadsailor。\"
\"Well,soamI,forthatmatter,\"saidMr。Libby。\"Butit’ssmoothasapond,to-day。\"
Giicemadenodirectresponse,andhegrewvisiblyuncomfortableunderthecoldabstractionofthegazewithwhichsheseemedtolookthroughhim。\"Mrs。MaynardtellsmeyoucameoverwithherfromEurope。\"
’Ohyes!\"criedtheyoungman,thelightofpleasantrecollectionkindlinginhisgayeyes。\"Wehadagoodtime。Maynardwasalong:he’safirst-ratefellow。Iwishhewerehere。\"
\"Yes,\"saidGrace,\"Iwishso,too。\"Shedidnotknowwhattomakeofthisfranknessoftheyoungman’s,andshedidnotknowwhethertoconsiderhimverydepravedorveryinnocent。Inherquestionshecontinuedtostareathim,withoutbeingawareoftheembarrassmenttowhichshewasputtinghim。
IheardofMrs。Maynard’sbeinghere,andIthoughtIshouldfindhim,too。Icameoveryesterdaytogethimtogointothewoodswithus。\"
Gracedecidedthatthiswasmereeffrontery。\"Itisapitythatheisnothere,\"shesaid;andthoughitoughttohavebeenpossibleforhertogoonandrebuketheyoungfellowforbestowinguponMrs。Maynardthecomradeshipintendedforherhusband,itwasnotso。Shecouldonlylookseverelyathim,andtrustthathemightconceivetheintentionwhichshecouldnotexpress。Sherebelledagainsttheconventionandagainstherownweakness,whichwouldnotletherboldlyinterfereinwhatshebelievedawrong;shehaddefiedsociety,inthemass,buthere,withthisman,whomasanatomofthemassshewouldhavedespised,shewaspowerless。
\"Haveyoueverseenhim?\"Libbyasked,perhapsclingingtoMaynardbecausehewasatopicofconversationindefaultofwhichtheremightbenothingtosay。
\"No,\"answeredGrace。
\"He’sfunny。He’sgotlotsofthatWesternhumor,andhetellsastorybetterthananymanIeversaw。Therewasonestoryofhis\"——
\"Ihavenosenseofhumor,\"interruptedGraceimpatiently。\"Mr。Libby,\"
shebrokeout,\"I’msorrythatyou’veaskedMrs。Maynardtotakeasailwithyou。Theseaair\"——shereddenedwiththeshameofnotbeingabletoproceedwithoutthiswretchedsubterfuge——\"won’tdoheranygood。\"
\"Then,\"saidtheyoungman,\"youmustn’tlethergo。\"
\"Idon’tchoosetoforbidher,\"Gracebegan。
\"Ibegyourpardon,\"hebrokein。\"I’llbebackinamoment。\"
Heturned,andrantotheedgeofthecliff,overwhichhevanished,andhedidnotreappeartillMrs。MaynardhadrejoinedGraceonthepiazza。
\"Ihopeyouwon’tminditsbeingalittlerough,Mrs。Maynard,\"hesaid,breathingquickly。\"Adamsthinkswe’regoingtohaveitprettyfreshbeforewegetback。\"
\"Indeed,Idon’twanttogo,then!\"criedMrs。Maynard,inpetulantdisappointment,lettingherwrapsfalluponachair。
Mr。LibbylookedatGrace,whohaughtilyrejectedapartintheconspiracy。\"Iwishyoutogo,Louise,\"shedeclaredindignantly。
\"Iwilltaketheriskofalltheharmthatcomestoyoufromthebadweather。\"Shepickeduptheshawls,andhandedthemtoMr。Libby,onwhomhereyesblazedtheircontemptandwonder。ItcostagreatdealofpersuasionandinsistencenowtomakeMrs。Maynardgo,andheleftallthistoGrace,notutteringawordtillhegaveMrs。Maynardhishandtohelpherdownthesteps。Thenhesaid,\"Well,IwonderwhatMissBreendoeswant。\"
\"I’msureIdon’tknow,\"saidtheother。\"Atfirstshedidn’twantmetogo,thismorning,andnowshemakesme。Idohopeitisn’tgoingtobeastorm。\"
\"Idon’tbelieveitis。Alittlefresh,perhaps。Ithoughtyoumightbeseasick。\"
\"Don’tyouremember?I’mneverseasick!That’soneoftheworstsigns。\"
\"Oh,yes。\"
\"IfIcouldbethoroughlyseasickonce,itwouldbethebestthingI
coulddo。\"
\"Isshecapricious?\"askedMr。Libby。
\"Grace?\"criedMrs。Maynard,releasingherhandhalf-waydownthesteps,inordertoenjoyherastonishmentwithoutlimitationofanysort。
\"Gracecapricious!\"
\"Yes,\"saidMr。Libby,\"that’swhatIthought。Bettertakemyhandagain,\"andhesecuredthatofMrs。Maynard,whocontinuedherdescent。
\"IsupposeIdon’tunderstandherexactly。Perhapsshedidn’tlikemynotcallingherDoctor。Ididn’tcallheranything。IsupposeshethoughtIwasdodgingit。Iwas。IshouldhavehadtocallherMissBreen,ifIcalledheranything。\"
\"Shewouldn’thavecared。Sheisn’tadoctorforthenameofit。\"
\"Isupposeyouthinkit’sapity?\"heasked。
\"What?\"
\"Herbeingadoctor。\"
\"I’lltellheryousayso。\"
\"No,don’t。Butdon’tyou?\"
\"Well,Iwouldn’twanttobeone,\"saidMrs。Maywardcandidly。
\"Isupposeit’sallright,ifshedoesitfromasenseofduty,asyousay,\"hesuggested。
\"Oh,yes,she’sallright。Andshe’sjustasmuchofagirlasanybody;
thoughshedon’tknowit,\"Mrs。Maynardaddedastutely。\"Whywouldn’tshecomewithus?Wereyouafraidtoaskher?\"
\"Shesaidshewasn’tagoodsailor。Perhapsshethoughtweweretooyoung。Shemustbeolderthanyou。\"
\"Yes,andyou,too!\"criedMrs。Maynard,withgood-naturedderision。
\"Shedoesn’tlookold,\"returnedMr。Libby。
\"She’stwenty-eight。Howoldareyou?\"
\"Ipromisedthecensus-takernottotelltillhisreportcameout。\"
\"Whatisthecolorofherhair?\"
\"Brown。\"
\"Andhereyes?\"
\"Idon’tknow!\"
\"Youhadbetterlookout,Mr。Libby!\"saidMrs。Maynard,puttingherfootonthegroundatlast。
Theywalkedacrossthebeachtowherehisdorylay,andGracesawhimpullingouttothesailboatbeforeshewentinfromthepiazza。Thenshewenttohermother’sroom。Theelderlyladywaskeepingindoors,uponatheorythatthedewwason,andthatitwasnotwholesometogoouttillitwasoff。Sheasked,accordingtoherhabitwhenshemetherdaughteralone,\"WhereisMrs。Maynard?\"
\"Whydoyoualwaysaskthat,mother?\"retortedGrace,withhergrowingirritationinregardtoherpatientintensifiedbytherecentinterview。
\"Ican’tbewithherthewholetime。\"
\"Iwishyoucould,\"saidMrs。Breen,withnoncommittalsuggestion。
Gracecouldnotkeepherselffromdemanding,\"Why?\"ashermotherexpected,thoughsheknewwhytoowell。
\"Becauseshewouldn’tbeinmischiefthen,\"returnedMrs。Breen。
\"She’sinmischiefnow!\"criedthegirlvehemently;\"andit’smyfault!
Ididit。IsentherofftosailwiththatridiculousMr。Libby!\"
\"Why?\"askedMrs。Breen,inherturn,withunbrokentranquillity。
\"BecauseIama,fool,andIcouldn’thelphimlieoutofhisengagementwithher。\"
\"Didn’thewanttogo?\"
\"Idon’tknow。Yes。Theybothwantedmetogowiththem。Simpletons!
Andwhileshehadgoneup-stairsforherwrapsImanagedtomakehimunderstandthatIdidn’twishhertogo,either;andherandowntohisboat,andcamebackwithastoryaboutitsgoingtoberough,andlookedatmeperfectlydelighted,asifIshouldbepleased。Ofcourse,then,I
madehimtakeher。\"
\"Andisn’titgoingtoberough?\"askedMrs。Green。
\"Why,mother,thesea’slikeglass。\"
Mrs。Breenturnedthesubject。\"Youwouldhavedonebetter,Grace,tobeginasyouhadplanned。YourgoingtoFallRiver,andbeginningpracticethereamongthosefactorychildren,wastheonlythingthatI
everentirelylikedinyourtakingupmedicine。Therewassenseinthat。
Youhadstudiedspeciallyforit。Youcouldhavedonegoodthere。\"
\"Oh,yes,\"sighedthegirl,\"Iknow。ButwhatwasItodo,whenshecametous,sickandpoor?Icouldn’tturnmybackonher,especiallyafteralwaysbefriendingher,asIusedto,atschool,andgettinghertodependonme。\"
\"Idon’tseehowyoueverlikedher,\"saidMrs。Breen。
\"Ineverdidlikeher。Ipitiedher。Ialwaysthoughtherapoor,flimsylittlething。Butthatoughtn’ttomakeanydifference,ifshewasintrouble。\"
\"No,\"Mrs。Breenconceded,andincompensationGraceadmittedsomethingmoreonherside:\"She’sworsethansheusedtobe,——sillier。Idon’tsupposeshehasawrongthought;butshe’saslightasfoam。\"
\"Oh,itisn’tthewickedpeoplewho,dotheharm,\"saidMrs。Green。
\"Iwassurethatthisairwouldbeeverythingforher;andsoitwould,withanyordinarycase。Butachildwouldtakebettercareofitself。
Ihavetowatchhereveryminute,likeachild;andIneverknowwhatshewilldonext。\"
\"Yes;it’saburden,\"saidMrs。Breen,withasympathywhichshehadnotexpressedbefore。\"Andyou’reagoodgirl,Grace,\"sheaddedinveryunwontedrecognition。
Thegratefultearsstoleintothedaughter’seyes,butshekeptafirmface,evenaftertheybegantofollowoneanotherdownhercheeks。\"AndifLouisehadn’tcome,youknow,mother,thatIwasanxioustohavesomeolderpersonwithmewhenIwenttoFallRiver。Iwasgladtohavethisrespite;itgivesmeachancetothink。Ifeltalittletimidaboutbeginningalone。\"
\"Amanwouldn’t,\"Mrs。Breenremarked。
\"No。Iamnotaman。Ihaveacceptedthat;withalltherest。Idon’trebelagainstbeingawoman。IfIhadbeenaman,Ishouldn’thavestudiedmedicine。Youknowthat。IwishedtobeaphysicianbecauseI
wasawoman,andbecause——because——Ihadfailedwhere——otherwomen’shopesare。\"Shesaiditoutfirmly,andhermothersoftenedtoherinproportiontothegirl’sownstrength。\"Imighthavebeenjustanurse。
YouknowIshouldhavebeenwillingtobethat,butIthoughtIcouldbesomethingmore。Butit’snousetalking。\"Sheadded,afteraninterval,inwhichhermotherrockedtoandfrowithagentlemotionthatsearchedthejointsofherchair,andbroughtoutitsmostplaintivesqueakinpatheticiteration,andwatchedGrace,asshesatlookingseawardthroughtheopenwindow,\"Ithinkit’sratherhard,mother,thatyoushouldbealwaystalkingasifIwishedtotakemycallingmannishly。AllthatI
intendisnottotakeitwomanishly;butasfornotbeingawomanaboutit,oraboutanything,that’ssimplyimpossible。Awomanisremindedofherinsufficiencytoherselfeveryhouroftheday。Andit’salwaysamanthatcomestoherhelp。Idroppedsomethingsoutofmylapdownthere,andbythetimeIhadgatheredthemupIwaswoundroundandroundwithlinenthreadsothatIcouldn’tmoveastep,andMr。Libbycutmeloose。Icouldhavedoneitmyself,butitseemedrightandnaturalthatheshoulddoit。Idaresayheplumedhimselfuponhisservicetome,——thatwouldbenatural,too。Ihavethingsenoughtokeepmemeek,mother!\"
ShedidnotlookroundatMrs。Breen,whosaid,\"Ithinkyouaremorbidaboutit。\"
\"Yes。AndIhavethesatisfactionofknowingthatwhateverpeoplethinkofLouise’sgiddiness,I’m,agreatdealmorescandaloustothemthansheissimplybecauseIwishtodosomegoodintheworld,inawaythatwomenhaven’tdoneit,usually。\"
\"Nowyouaremorbid。\"
\"Oh,yes!Talkaboutmenbeingobstacles!It’sotherwomen!Thereisn’tawomaninthehousethatwouldn’tsoonertrustherselfinthehandsofthestupidestboythatgothisdiplomawithmethanshewouldinmine。Louiseknowsit,andshefeelsthatshehasaclaimuponmeinbeingmypatient。AndI’venoinfluencewithheraboutherconductbecausesheunderstandsperfectlywellthattheyallconsidermemuchworse。Shepridesherselfondoingmejustice。Shepatronizesme。ShetellsmethatI’mjustasniceas,ifIhadn’t’beenthroughallthat。’\"
Gracerose,andalaugh,whichwashalfasob,brokefromher。
Mrs。Breencouldnotfeelthehumorofthepredicament。\"Sheputsyouinafalseposition。\"
\"Imustgoandseewherethatpoorlittlewretchofachildis,\"saidGrace,goingoutoftheroom。Shereturnedinanhour,andaskedhermotherforthearnica。\"Bellahashadabump,\"sheexplained。
\"Why,haveyoubeenallthistimelookingforher?
\"No,Icouldn’tfindher,andI’vebeenreading。Barlowhasjustbroughtherin。HEcouldfindher。Shefelloutofatree,andshe’sfrightfullybruised。\"
Shewasmakingsearchonaclosetshelfasshetalked。Whenshereappearedwiththebottleinherhand,hermotherasked,\"Isn’titveryhotandclose?\"
\"Very,\"saidGrace。
\"Ishouldcertainlythinktheywouldperish,\"saidMrs。Breen,hazardingthepronoun,withawoman’sconfidencethatherinterlocutorwouldapplyitcorrectly。
WhenGracehadseenBellaproperlybathedandbrown-papered,andinthewaytoforgetfulnessofherwoundsinsleep,shecamedowntothepiazza,andstoodlookingouttosea。Theladiesappearedonebyoneovertheedgeofthecliff,andcameup,languidlystringingtheirshawlsafterthem,orclaspingtheirnovelstotheirbosoms。
\"Thereisn’tabreathdownthere,\"theysaid,oneafteranother。Thelastoneadded,\"Barlowsaysit’sthehottestdayhe’severseenhere。\"
InaminuteBarlowhimselfappearedattheheadofthestepswiththeladies’remainingwraps,andconfirmedtheirreportinperson。\"Itellyou,\"hesaid,wipinghisforehead,\"it’saripper。\"
\"Itmustbeanawfuldayintown,\"saidoneoftheladies,fanningherselfwithanewspaper。
\"Isthatto-day’sAdvertiser,Mrs。Alger?\"askedanother。
\"Oh,dear,no!yesterday’s。Wesha’n’thavetoday’stillthisafternoon。
Itshowswhatanewarrivalyouare,Mrs。Scott——yourasking。\"
\"Tobesure。Butit’ssuchacomfortbeingwhereyoucanseetheAdvertiserthesamemorning。IalwayslookattheWeatherReportthefirstthing。Iliketoknowwhattheweatherisgoingtobe。\"
\"Youcan’tatJocelyn’s。Youcanonlyknowwhatit’sbeen。\"
\"Well,\"Barlowinterposed,jealousforJocelyn’s,\"youcanmostal’aystellbythelooko’things。\"
\"Yes,\"saidoneoftheladies;\"butI’drathertrusttheWeatherReport。
It’swonderfulhowitcomestrue。Idon’tthinkthere’sanythingthatyoumissmoreinEuropethanourAmericanWeatherReport。\"
\"I’msureyoumisstheoysters,\"saidanother。
\"Yes,\"thefirstadmitted,\"youdomisstheoysters。ItwasthelastoftheRmonthswhenwelandedinNewYork;anddoyouknowwhatwedidthefirstthing——?WedrovetoFultonMarket,andhadoneofthoseFultonMarketbroils!MyhusbandsaidweshouldhavehaditifithadbeenJuly。HeusedtodreamoftheAmericanoysterswhenwewereinEurope。
Gentlemenaresofondofthem。\"
Barlow,fromscanningtheheavens,turnedroundandfacedthecompany,whichhaddroopedinseveralattitudesofexhaustiononthebenchingofthepiazza。\"Well,Icanmostal’aystellaboutJocelyn’sasgoodastheWeatherReport。ItoldMrs。Maynardherethismornin’thatthefogwasgoin’toburnoff。\"
\"Burnoff?\"criedMrs。Alger。\"Ishouldthinkithad!\"Theotherladieslaughed。
\"Andyou’llsee,\"addedBarlow,\"thatthewind’llchangeatnoon,andwe’llhaveitcooler。\"
\"Ifit’sashotonthewaterasitishere,\"saidMrs。Scott,\"Ishouldthinkthosepeoplewouldgetasunstroke。\"
\"Well,soshouldI,Mrs。Scott,\"cordiallyexclaimedalittlefatlady,asifhereatlastwereanopinioninwhichallmightrejoicetosympathize。
\"It’sneversohotonthewater,Mrs。Merritt,\"saidMrs。Alger,withtheinstructivenessofanoldhabitude。