Allherhelpfulnesswassoontobeneeded。Thedisease,whichhadlingeredmorethanusualintheearlystages,suddenlyapproachedacrisis。ThatnightMrs。MaynardgrewsomuchworsethatGracesentLibbyatdaybreakforDr。Mulbridge;andtheyoungman,afterleadingouthisownmaretoseeifherlamenesshadabated,ruefullyputherbackinthestable,andsetofftoCorbitantwiththesplay-footatarateofspeedunparalleled,probably,intheanimal’srecollectionofalongandusefullife。Inthetwoanxiousdaysthatfollowed,LibbyandGracewereassociatedinthefreedomofacommoninterestoutsideofthemselves;
shewenttohimforhelpandsuggestion,andhegavethem,asifnothinghadpassedtorestrictorembarrasstheirrelations。Therewasthat,infact,intheaweofthetimeandaninvoluntarydisoccupationofhersthatthrewthemtogetherevenmoreconstantlythanbefore。Dr。Mulbridgeremainedwithhispatientwellintotheforenoon;intheafternoonhecameagain,andthatnighthedidnotgoaway。HesupersededGraceasanursenolesscompletelythanhehaddisplacedherasaphysician。Heletherrelievehimwhenheflunghimselfdownforafewminutes’sleep,orwhenhewentoutforthehugemealswhichhedevoured,preferringtheunwholesomethingswithadepravityshockingtothetenderphysicalconsciencesoftheladieswholookedon;butwhenhereturnedtohischarge,heshowedhimselfjealousofallthatGracehaddoneinvolvingtheexerciseofmorethanaservilediscretion。Whensheaskedhimonceiftherewerenothingelsethatshecoulddo,hesaid,\"fires,keepthosewomenandchildrenquiet,\"inatonethatclassedherwithboth。ShelongedtoaskhimwhathethoughtofMrs。Maynard’scondition;butshehadnotthecouragetoinvoketheintelligencethatignoredhersocompletely,andshestruggledinsilencewithsuchdishearteningauguriesashertheoreticalscienceenabledhertomake。
ThenextdaywasaSunday,andtheSabbathhushwhichalwayshungoverJocelyn’swasintensifiedtothesenseofthosewhoachedbetweenhopeandfearforthelifethatseemedtowaverandflickerinthatstillair。
Dr。Mulbridgewatchedbesidehispatient,notingeverychangewithawaryintelligencewhichnofactescapedandnoanxietyclouded;alert,gentle,prompt;sufferingnoquestion,andabsolutelysilentastoallimpressions。HeallowedGracetoremainwithhimwhensheliked,andletherdohisbiddinginminormatters;butwhenfromtimetotimesheescapedfromtheintolerabletensioninwhichhisreticenceandherownfearheldher,hedidnotseemtoseewhethershewentorcame。TowardnightfallshemethimcomingoutofMrs。Maynard’sroom,asshedrewnearinthenarrowcorridor。
\"Whereisyourfriend——theyoungman——theonewhosmokes?\"heasked,asifnothingunusualhadoccupiedhim。\"Iwanthimtogivemeacigar。\"
\"Dr。Mulbridge,\"shesaid,\"Iwillnotbearthisanylonger。Imustknowtheworst——youhavenorighttotreatmeinthisway。Tellmenow——tellmeinstantly:willshelive?\"
Helookedatherwithanimaginableapprehensionofhysterics,butasshecontinuedfirm,andplacedherselfresolutelyinhisway,herelaxedhisscrutiny,andsaid,withasmile,\"Oh,Ithinkso。Whatmadeyouthinkshewouldn’t?\"
Shedrewherselfaside,andmadewayfarhim。
\"Go!\"shecried。Shewouldhavesaidmore,butherindignationchokedher。
Hedidnotpassatonce,andhedidnotseemtroubledatheranger。\"Dr。
Breen,\"hesaid,\"Isawagooddealofpneumoniainthearmy,andIdon’trememberasinglecasethatwassavedbytheanxietyofthesurgeon。\"
Hewentnow,aspeopledowhentheyfancythemselvestohavemadeagoodpoint;andsheheardhimaskingBarlowforLibby,outside,andthenwalkingoverthegraveltowardthestable。AtthatmomentshedoubtedandhatedhimsomuchthatsheworldhavebeengladtokeepLibbyfromtalkingorevensmokingwithhim。Butsherelentedalittletowardhimafterwards,whenhereturnedandresumedthechargeofhispatientwiththegentle,vigilantcheerfulnesswhichshehadadmiredinhimfromthefirst,omittingnocareandbetrayingnone。HeappearedtotakeitforgrantedthatGracesawanimprovement,butherecognizeditbynothingexplicittillheroseandsaid,\"IthinkIwillleaveMrs。Maynardwithyouto-night,Dr。Breen。\"
Thesickwoman’seyesturnedtohimimploringlyfromherpillow,andGracespoketheterrorofbothwhenshefalteredinreturn,\"Areyou——youarenotgoinghome?\"
\"Ishallsleepinthehouse。\"
\"Oh,thankyou!\"shecriedfervently。
\"Andyoucancallmeifyouwish。Buttherewon’tbeanyoccasion。Mrs。
Maynardisverymuchbetter。\"Hewaitedtogive,inasortofabsent-
mindedway,certaindirections。Thenhewentout,andGracesankbackintothechairfromwhichshehadstartedathisrising,andweptlongandsilentlywithahiddenface。Whenshetookawayherhandsanddriedhertears,shesawMrs。Maynardbeckoningtoher。Shewenttothebedside。
\"Whatisit,dear?\"sheaskedtenderly。
\"Stoopdown,\"whisperedtheother;andasGracebowedherearMrs。
Maynardtouchedhercheekwithherdrylips。Inthiskissdoubtlesssheforgavethewrongwhichshehadhoardedinherheart,andtherepervertedintoadeadlyinjury。Buttheybothknewuponwhattermsthepardonwasaccorded,andthatifMrs。Maynardhaddied,shewouldhavediedholdingGraceanswerableforherundoing。
IX。
InthemorningDr。MulbridgedrovebacktoCorbitant,andintheeveningLibbycameoverfromNewLeydenwithMaynard,inahiredwagon。Hewasadaylaterthanhiswifehadcomputed,butassheappearedtohavereflected,shehadlefttheinterveningSundayoutofhercalculation;
thiswasoneofthefewthingsshetaxedherselftosay。Fortherest,sheseemedtobehoardingherstrengthagainsthiscoming。
Gracemethimatalittledistancefromthehouse,whithershehadwalkedwithBella,forabreathofthefreshairafterherlongdayinthesick-
room,anddidnotfindhimtheboisterousandjovialHoosiershehadimaginedhim。Itwas,infact,hardlythemomentfortheexpressionofWesternhumor。Hearrivedasleep-broken,travel-creasedfigure,withmorethantheWesternman’susualindifferencetodress;withsad,dulleyes,andanuntrimmedbeardthathunginpointsandtags,andthinlyhidthecornersofalargemouth。Hetookherhandlaxlyinhis,andbowingoverherfromhislankheightlistenedtoherreportofhiswife’sstate,whileheheldhislittlegirlonhisleftarm,andthechildfondlypressedhercheekagainsthisbeardedface,towhichhehadquietlyliftedherassoonashealightedfromLibby’sbuggy。
LibbyintroducedGraceasDr。Breen,anddroveon,andMaynardgaveherthetitlewheneverheaddressedher,withaperfecteffectofsingle-
mindednessinhisgravity,asifitwereanevery-daythingwithhimtomeetyoungladieswhowerephysicians。Hehadacertainneighborlymannerofhavingknownheralongtime,andofbeingongoodtermswithher;andsomewherethereresidedinhislooselyknitorganismapowerfulenergy。Shehadalmosttoruninkeepingathisside,ashewalkedontothehouse,carryinghislittlegirlonhisarm,andglancingabouthim;
andshewasnotsureatlastthatshehadsucceededinmakinghimunderstandhowseriousthecasehadbeen。
\"Idon’tknowwhetherIoughttoletyougoin,\"shesaid,\"withoutpreparingher。\"
\"She’sbeenexpectingme,hasn’tshe?\"heasked。
\"Yes,but\"——
\"Andshe’sawake?\"
\"ThenI’lljustgoinandpreparehermyself。I’maprettygoodhandatpreparingpeopletomeetme。You’veabeautifullocationhere,Dr。
Breen;andyourtownhasachancetogrow。Iliketoseeatownhavesomechance,\"headded,withasadnesspasttearsinhismelancholyeyes。
\"Bellacanshowmethewaytotheroom,Ireckon,\"hesaid,settingthelittleonedownonthepiazza,andfollowingherindoors;andwhenGraceventured,later,toknockatthedoor,Maynard’svoicebadehercomein。
Hesatbesidehiswife’spillow,withherhandinhisleft;onhisrightarmperchedthelittlegirl,andrestedherheadonhisshoulder。Theydidnotseemtohavebeentalking,andtheydidnotmovewhenGraceenteredtheroom。But,apparently,Mrs。MaynardhadknownhowtobehavetoGeorgeMaynard,andpeacewasvisiblybetweenthem。
\"Now,youtellmeaboutthemedicines,Dr。Breen,andthenyougoandgetsomerest,\"saidMaynardinhismild,soothingvoice。\"IusedtounderstandMrs。Maynard’swaysprettywell,andIcantakecareofher。
Libbytoldmeallaboutyouandyourdoings,andIknowyoumustfeelaspaleasyoulook。\"
\"Butyoucan’thavehadanysleepontheway,\"Gracebegan。
\"Sleep?\"Maynardrepeated,lookingwanlyather。\"Ineversleep。I’dassoonthinkofdigesting。\"
Aftershehadgivenhimtheneededinstructionsherosefromtherocking-
chairin-whichhehadbeensoftlyswingingtoandfro,andfollowedheroutintothecorridor,caressingwithhislargehandthechildthatlayonhisshoulder。\"Ofcourse,\"shesaid,\"Mrs。Maynardisstillverysick,andneedsthegreatestcareandattention。\"
\"Yes,Iunderstandthat。ButIreckonitwillcomeoutallrightintheend,\"hesaid,withtheoptimisticfatalismwhichistherealreligionofourorientalizingWest。\"Good-night,doctor。\"
Shewentaway,feelingsuddenlyaloneinthisexclusionfromthecaresthathadabsorbedher。Therewasnooneonthepiazza,whichthemoonlightprintedwiththeshadowsofthepostsandthefancifuljigsawworkofthearchesbetweenthem。Sheheardasteponthesandywalkroundthecorner,andwaitedwistfully。
ItwasBarlowwhocameinsight,assheknewatonce,butsheasked,\"Mr。
Barlow?\"
\"Yes’m,\"saidBarlow。\"WhatcanIdoforyou?\"
\"Nothing。IthoughtitmightbeMr。Libbyatfirst。Doyouknowwhereheis?\"
\"Well,Iknowwhereheain’t,\"saidBarlow;andhavingineffectuallywaitedtobequestionedfurther,headded,\"Heain’there,foroneplace。
He’sgonebacktoLeyden。Hehadtotakethathorseback。\"
\"Oh!\"shesaid。
\"N’Iguesshe’sgoin’tostay。\"
\"Tostay?Where?\"
\"Well,thereyou’vegotmeagain。AllIknowisI’vegottodrivethatmareofhis’noverto-morrow,ifIcangitoff,andnextdayifIcan’t。
Didn’tyouknowhewasgoin’?\"askedBarlow,willingtorecompensehimselffortheinformationhehadgiven。
\"Well!\"headdedsympathetically,atalittlehesitationofhers:
Thenshesaid,\"Iknewhemustgo。Good-night,Mr。Barlow,\"andwentindoors。SherememberedthathehadsaidhewouldgoassoonasMaynardcame,andthatshehadconsentedthatthiswouldbebest。Buthisgoingnowseemedabrupt,thoughsheapprovedit。Shethoughtthatshehadsomethingmoretosaytohim,whichmightconsolehimorreconcilehim;
shecouldnotthinkwhatthiswas,butitleftanindefinitelonging,anunsatisfiedpurposeinherheart;andtherewassomewhereatremuloussenseofsupportwithdrawn。PerhapsthiswasamechanicaleffectofthecessationofheranxietyforMrs。Maynard,whichhadbeenasupportaswellasaburden。Thehousewasstrangelyquiet,asifsomegreatnoisehadjustbeenhushed,anditseemedempty。Shefelttimidinherroom,butshedreadedthenextdaymorethanthedark。Herlifewaschanged,andthefuture,whichshehadonceplannedsoclearly,andhadfeltsostrongtoencounter,hadfallentoaruin,inwhichshevainlyendeavoredtofindsomeclewormotiveofthepast。Shefeltremandedtotheconditionsofthegirlhoodthatshefanciedshehadaltogetheroutlived;
sheturnedherfaceuponherpillowinagriefofbewilderedaspirationandbrokenpride,andshedtearsscarcelypredicableofadoctorofmedicine。
Butthereisnolapseoraberrationofcharacterwhichcanbehalfsosurprisingtoothersasitistoone’sself。ShehadresentedLibby’streatingheruponatheory,butshetreatedherselfuponatheory,andwealltreatourselvesuponatheory。Weproceedeachofusuponthetheorythatheisverybrave,orgenerous,orgentle,orliberal,ortruthful,orloyal,orjust。Wemayhavethedefectsofourvirtues,butnothingismorecertainthanthatwehaveourvirtues,tilltherecomesafataljuncture,notatalllikethejunctureinwhichwehadoftenimaginedourselvestriumphingagainsttemptation。Itpasses,andtheherofinds,tohisdismayandhorror,thathehasrunaway;thegenerousmanhasbeenniggard;thegentlemanhasbehavedlikearuffian,andtheliberallikeabigot;thechampionoftruthhasfoolishlyandvainlylied;thesteadfastfriendhasbetrayedhisneighbor,thejustpersonhasoppressedhim。
Thisisthefruitfulmoment,apparentlysosterile,inwhichcharactermayspringandfloweranew;butthemoodofabjecthumilityinwhichthetheoristofhisowncharacterisplungedandstrugglesforhislostself-
respectisfullofdeceitforothers。Itcannotlast:itmayendindisowningandretrievingtheerror,oritmayendinjustifyingit,andbuildingitintothereconstructedcharacter,assomethinguponthewholeunexpectedlyfine;butitmustend,forafterallitisonlyamood。Insuchamood,intheanguishofherdisappointmentatherself,awomanclingstowhateversupportoffers,anditisathisownriskthatthemanwhochancestobethissupportacceptstheweightwithwhichshecastsherselfuponhimasthemeasureofherdependence,thoughhemaymakehimselfnecessarytoher,ifhehasthegraceorstrengthtodoit。
Withoutbeingabletounderstandfullythecausesofthedejectioninwhichthisgirlseemedtoappealtohim,Mulbridgemightwellhavebelievedhimselfthemantoturnitinhisfavor。Ifhedidnotsympathizewithherdistress,orevenclearlydivineit,stillhisboldgeneralizations,hefound,alwayshadtheireffectwithwomen,whosenaturesareoftentothemselvessuchunknownterritorythatamanwhoassumestoknowthemhasgonefartomasterthem。Hesawthatarudemoralforcealoneseemedtohaveacharmwithhisladypatients,——womenwhohadbeenbredtoeaseandwealth,andwhohadcultivated,ifnotverydisciplined,minds。Theirintellectualdissipationhadapparentlymadethemadifferentracefromthesimpler-heartedwomenkindofhisneighbors,apttojudgemeninasharpignoranceofwhatisfascinatinginheroes;anditwouldnotbestrangeifheincludedGraceinthesortofcontemptuousamusementwithwhichheregardedthese-flatteringlydependentandsubmissiveinvalids。Heatleastdidnotconceiveofherassheconceivedofherself;butthismaybeimpossibletoanymanwithregardtoanywoman。
Withhisexperienceofotherwomen’sexplicitandeveneagerobedience,theresistancewhichhehadatfirstencounteredinGracegavezesttoherfinalsubmission。Sincehehaddemolishedthepositionshehadattemptedtoholdagainsthim,helikedherforhavingimaginedshecouldholdit;andshehadcontinuedtopiqueandinteresthim。Herelishedallherscruplesandmisgivings,andtheremorseshehadtriedtoconfidetohim;andifhisenjoymentofthesefoiblesofherstooktoolittleaccountofherpain,itwasneverhischaracteristictobetenderofpeopleingoodhealth。Hewas,indeed,asalientoherPuritanspiritasifhehadbeenborninNaplesinsteadofCorbitant。HecameofoneofthosefamilieswhichonefindsinnearlyeveryNewEnglandcommunity,asthoroughlyNewEnglandinraceastherest,butflourishinginahardyscepticismandcontemptofthegeneralsense。WhateverrelationsuchpeopleheldtotheoldPuritancommonwealthwhenPuritanismwasabsolute,theymustlaterhavetakenanactivepartinitsdisintegration,andwereprobablyalwaysadestructiveforceatitsheart。
Mulbridge’sgrandfatherwasoneofthelastcaptainswhosailedaslaverfromCorbitant。Whenthiscommercebecameprecarious,heretiredfromtheseas,tookayoungwifeinsecondmarriage,andpassedhisdecliningdaysinrobustinebriety。HelivedtocastadyingvoteforGeneralJackson,andhisson,thefirstDr。Mulbridge,survivedtoillustratethemagnanimityofhisfellow-townsmenduringthefirstyearofthecivilwar,asatoleratedCopperhead。Thenhedied,andhisson,whowasintheWest,lookingupalocationforpractice,wasknowntohavegoneoutassurgeonwithoneoftheregimentsthere。Itwasnotsupposedthathewentfrompatriotism;butwhenhecameback,ayearbeforetheendofthestruggle,andsettledinhisnativeplace,hisserviceinthearmywasacceptedamonghisoldneighborsasevidenceofabetterdispositionofsomesortthanhadhithertobeenattributabletoanyofhisname。
Infact,thelazy,good-naturedboy,whomtheychieflyrememberedbeforehiscollegedays,hadalwaysbeenwellenoughlikedamongthosewhohadsincegrowntobefirstmatesandshipcaptainsinthelittleportwherehewasbornandgrewup。Theyhadnowallretiredfromthesea,and,havingsurviveditsmanifoldperils,werepatientlywaitingtobedrownedinsail-boatsonthebay。Theywereofthesecondgenerationofships’
captainsstilllivinginCorbitant;buttheywouldbethelast。Thecommerceofthelittleporthadchangedintothewhalingtradeintheirtime;thishadceasedinturn,andthewharveshadrottedaway。Dr。
Mulbridgefoundlittlepracticeamongthem;whileattendingtheirappointedfate,theyweresothoroughlysaltedagainstdecayastopreserveeventheirfamilies。Buthegraduallygatheredintohishands,fromtheclairvoyantandtheIndiandoctor,thebusinesswhichtheyhadsharedbetweenthemsincehisfather’sdeath。Therewashereandthereatragicalcaseofconsumptionamongthefarmingfamiliesalongthecoast,andnowandthenafrightfulaccidentamongthefishermen;thespring,andautumnbroughttheirtyphoid;thecitypeoplewhocamedowntotheneighboringhotelsweremostlysick,orfellsick;andwiththesmallpropertyhisfatherhadleft,heandhismothercontrivedtolive。
Theydweltveryharmoniouslytogether;forhismother,whohadpassedmorethanaquarterofacenturyinstrongresistancetoherhusband’swill,hadsuccumbed,asnotuncommonlyhappenswithsuchwomen,totheauthorityofherson,whomshehadnoparticularpleasureoradvantageinthwarting。Inthephraseandbeliefofhisneighbors,hetookafterher,ratherthanhisfather;buttherewassomethingironicalandbafflinginhim,whichthelocalexpertscouldnottracetoeithertheMulbridgesortheGardiners。Theyhadaquiet,indifferentfaithinhisabilitytomakehimselfapositionandnameanywhere;buttheywerenotsurprisedthathehadcomebacktoliveinCorbitant,whichwassomanifestlythebestplaceintheworld,andwhich,ifsomewhatlackinginopportunity,wasampleintheleisuretheybelievedmorecongenialtohimthansuccess。Someofhisladypatientsatthehotels,whofeltattimesthattheycouldnotlivewithouthim,wouldhavecarriedhimbacktothecitywiththembyagentleviolence;buttherewasnothinginanythinghesaidordidthatbetrayedambitiononhispart。Helikedtohearthemtalk,especiallyoftheirideasofprogress,astheycalledthem,atwhich,withthereadyadaptabilityoftheirsex,theyjoinedhiminlaughingwhentheyfoundthathecouldnottakethemseriously。Thesocial,theemotionalexpressionofthenewscientificcivilizationstruckhimasdroll,particularlyinrespecttotheemancipationofwomen;andhesometimesgavetheseladiestheimpressionthathedidnotvaluewoman’sintellectatitstrueworth。Hewasfarfromlighttreatmentofthem,hewasconsiderateofthedistancesthatshouldbeguarded;butheconveyedthesenseofhisscepticismastotheirfitnessforsomethingstowhichtheboldestofthemaspired。
Hismotherwouldhavebeenwillingtohavehimgotothecityifhewished,butshewastooignorantoftheworldoutsideofCorbitanttoguessathispossibilitiesinit,andsuchpeopleasshehadseenfromithadnotpleasedherwithit。Thosesummer-boardingladypatientswhocametoseehimweresometimessufferedtowaitwithhertillhecamein,andtheyusedtotellherhowhappyshemustbetokeepsuchasonwithher,andtwitteredtheirpatronageofherandherniceold-fashionedparlor,andtheirpraisesofhisskillinsuchwiseagainstherecholesssilencethatsheconceivedastrongrepugnanceforalltheirtribe,inwhichshenaturallyincludedGracewhensheappeared。Shehaddecidedthegirltobeparticularlyforth-putting,fromsomethingpromptandself-reliantinhermannerthatday;andsheviewedwithtacitdisgustherson’stolerationofahandsomeyoungwomanwhohadtakenupaman’sprofession。Theywerenotpeoplewhogossipedtogether,orconfidedineachother,andshewouldhaveknownnothingandaskednothingfromhimabouther,furtherthanshehadseenforherself。ButBarlowhadfolks,ashecalledthem,atCorbitant;andwithoutherownconnivanceshehadheardfromthemofallthatwaspassingatJocelyn’s。
Itwasherfashiontoapproachanysubjectuponwhichshewishedhersontotalkasiftheyhadalreadytalkedofit,andheacceptedthisconventionwithaperfectunderstandingthatshethusexpressedatonceherdeferencetohimandherresolutiontospeakwhetherhelikeditornot。ShehadnotaskedhimaboutMrs。Maynard’ssickness,orshownanyinterestinit;butaftershelearnedfromtheBarlowsthatshewasnolongerindanger,shesaidtohersononemorning,beforehedroveawayuponhisdailyvisit,\"Isherhusbandgoingtostaywithher,orishegoingback?\"
\"Idon’tknow,really,\"heanswered,glancingatherwhereshesaterectacrossthetablefromhim,withherhandonthelidofthecoffee-pot,andhereyesdowncast;itwasthefaceofsilentdeterminationnottobeputoff,whichheknew。\"Idon’tsupposeyoucare,mother,\"headdedpleasantly。
\"She’snothingtome,\"sheassented。\"What’sthatfriendofhersgoingtodo?\"
\"Whichfriend?\"
\"Youknow。Theonethatcameafteryou。\"
\"Oh!Dr。Breen。Yes。Whatdidyouthinkofher?\"
\"Idon’tseewhyyoucallherdoctor。\"
\"Oh,Idoitoutofpoliteness。Besides,sheisonesortofdoctor。
Littlepills,\"headded,withanenjoymentofhismother’sgrimnessonthispoint。
\"Ishouldliketoseeadaughterofminepretendingtobeadoctor,\"saidMrs。Mulbridge。
\"Thenyouwouldn’tlikeDr。Breenforadaughter,\"returnedherson,inthesametoneasbefore。
\"Shewouldn’tlikemeforamother,\"Mrs。Mulbridgeretorted。
Hersonlaughed,andhelpedhimselftomorebakedbeansandafreshsliceofrye-and-Indian。Hehadthehomelytastesandthestrongdigestionofthepeoplefromwhomhesprung;andbehandedhiscuptobefilledwithhismother’sstrongcoffeeineasydefianceofconsequences。Ashetookitbackfromherhesaid,\"IshouldliketoseeyouandMrs。Breentogether。Youwouldmakeastrongteam。\"Hebutteredhisbread,withanotherlaughinappreciationofhisconceit。\"Ifyouhappenedtopullthesameway。Ifyoudidn’t,somethingwouldbreak。Mrs。Breenisaladyofpowerfulconvictions。Shethinksyououghttobegood,andyououghttobeverysorryforit,butnotsosorryasyououghttobeforbeinghappy。Idon’tthinkshehasgivenherdaughteranyreasontocomplainonthelastscore。\"Hebrokeintohislaughagain,andwatchedhismother’sfrownwithinterest。\"Isuspectthatshedoesn’tlikemeverywell。Youcouldmeetoncommongroundthere:youdon’tlikeherdaughter。\"
\"Theymustbeapairofthem,\"saidMrs。Mulbridgeimmovably。\"Didhermotherlikeherstudyingforadoctor?\"
\"Yes,Iunderstandso。Hermotherisprogressiveshebelievesintheadvancementofwomen;shethinksthemenwouldoppressthemiftheygotachance。\"
\"Ifonehalftheboldthingsthatarerunningaboutthecountryhadmastersitwouldbethebestthing,\"saidMrs。Mulbridge,openingthelidofthecoffee-pot,andclappingittowithforce,afteraglanceinside。
\"That’swhereMrs。Greenwouldn’tagreewithyou。Perhapsbecauseitwouldmaketheboldthingshappytohavemasters,thoughshedoesn’tsayso。Probablyshewantsthewomentohavewomendoctorssotheywon’tbesowell,andcanhavemoretimetothinkwhethertheyhavebeengoodornot。Yououghttohearsomeoftheladiesovertheretalk,mother。\"
\"Ihaveheardenoughoftheirtalk。\"
\"Well,yououghttohearMissGleason。ThereareveryfewthingsthatMissGleasondoesn’tthinkcanbedonewithcutflowers,fromaweddingtoafuneral。\"
Mrs。MulbridgeperceivedthathersonwasspeakingfigurativelyofMissGleason’ssentimentality,butshewasnotverypatientwiththesketchhe,enjoyedgivingofher。\"IssheafriendofthatBreengirl’s?\"sheinterruptedtoask。
\"She’sanhumblefriend,anadmirer,aworshipper。TheBreengirlisheridealwoman。ShethinkstheBreengirlissosuperiortoanymanlivingthatshewouldliketomakeamatchforher。\"Hismotherglancedsharplyathim,buthewentoninthetoneofeasygeneralization,andwithacertainpleasureintheprojectionofthesestrangefiguresagainstherdistortingimagination:\"Yousee,mother,thatthemostadvancedthinkersamongthoseladiesarenotsoverydifferent,afterall,fromyouold-
fashionedpeople。Whentheytrytothinkofthegreatestgoodfortunethatcanbefallanidealwoman,itistohavehermarried。Theonlytroubleistofindamangoodenough;andiftheycan’tfindone,they’reapttoinventone。Theyhavestrongimaginations。\"
\"Ishouldthinktheywouldmakeyousick,amongstthem,\"saidhismother。
\"Areyougoingtohaveanythingmoretoeat?\"sheasked,withahousekeeper’slatentimpatiencetogethertableclearedaway。
\"Yes,\"saidDr。Mulbridge;\"Ihaven’tfinishedyet。AndI’minnohurrythismorning。Sitstill,mother;IwantyoutohearsomethingmoreaboutmyladyfriendsatJocelyn’s。Dr。Breen’smotherandMissGleasondon’tfeelalikeabouther。HermotherthinksshewasweakingivingupMrs。
Maynard’scasetome;butMissGleasontoldmeabouttheirdiscussion,andshethinksitisthegreatheroicactofDr。Breen’slife。\"
\"Itshowedsomesense,atleast,\"Mrs。Mulbridgereplied。Shehadtacitlyofferedtoreleasehersonfromtellingheranythingwhenshehadmadehermotiontorise;ifhechosetogoonnow,itwashisownaffair。
Shehandedhimtheplateofbiscuit,andhetookone。
\"Itshowedinspiration,MissGleasonsays。Thetearscameintohereyes;
Iunderstoodhertosayitwasgodlike。’Andonlytothink,doctor,’\"hecontinued,withaclumsy,butunmistakablesuggestionofMissGleason’sperfervidmanner,\"’thatsuchagirlshouldbedraggeddownbyherownmothertothelevelofpetty,every-daycaresandduties,andshouldbeblamedforthemostbeautifulactofself-sacrifice!Isn’tittoobad?’\"
\"Rufus,Rufus!\"criedhismother,\"Ican’tstun’it!Stop!\"
\"Oh,Dr。Breenisn’tsobad——nothalfsodivineasMissGleasonthinksher。AndMrs。Maynarddoesn’tconsiderhersurrenderingthecaseanactofself-sacrificeatall。\"
\"Ishouldhopenot!\"saidMrs。Mulbridge。\"Iguessshewouldn’thavebeenalivetotellthetale,ifithadn’tbeenforyou。\"
\"Oh,youcan’tbesureofthat。Youmustn’tbelievetoomuchindoctors,mother。Mrs。Maynardisprettytough。Andshe’shadwonderfullygoodnursing。You’veonlyheardtheBarlowsideofthematter,\"saidhersun,betrayingnowforthefirsttimethathehadbeenawareofanyknowledgeofitonherpart。Thatwastheirway:thoughtheyseldomtoldeachotheranything,andwentonasiftheyknewnothingofeachother’saffairs,yetwhentheyrecognizedthisknowledgeitwaswithoutsurpriseoneitherside。\"Icouldtellyouadifferentstory。
She’saveryfinegirl,mother;coolandcarefulunderinstruction,andperfectlytractableandintelligent。She’sasdifferentfromthoseotherwomenyou’veseenasyouare。Youwouldlikeher!\"Hehadsuddenlygrownearnest,andcrushingthecrustofabiscuitinthestronglefthandwhichherestedonthetable,hegazedkeenlyatherundemonstrativeface。\"She’snobaby,either。She’sgotawillandatemperofherown。
She’stheonlyoneofthemIeversawthatwasworthhersalt。\"
\"Ithoughtyoudidn’tlikeself-willedwomen,\"saidhismotherimpassively。
\"Sheknowswhentogiveup,\"heanswered,withunrelaxedscrutiny。
Hismotherdidnotlifthereyes,yet。\"Howlongshallyouhavetovisitoverthere?\"
\"I’vemademylastprofessionalvisit。\"
\"Whereareyougoingthismorning?\"
\"ToJocelyn’s。\"
Mrs。Mulbridgenowlookedup,andmetherson’seye。\"Whatmakesyouthinkshe’llhaveyou?\"
Hedidnotshrinkathercomingstraighttothepointthemomentthewaywasclear。Hehadintendedit,andhelikedit……Buthefrownedalittleashesaid,\"BecauseIwanthertohaveme,foronething。\"Hisjawclosedheavily,buthisfacelostacertainbrutallookalmostasquicklyasithadassumedit。\"Iguess,\"hesaid,withasmile,\"thatit’stheonlyreasonI’vegot。\"
\"Younoneedtosaythat,\"saidhismother,resentingtheimplicationthatanywomanwouldnothavehim。
\"Oh,I’mnotprettytolookat,mother,andI’mnotparticularlyyoung;
andforawhileIthoughttheremightbesomeone,else。\"
\"Who?\"
\"Theyoungfellowthatcamewithher,thatday。\"
\"Thatwhipper-snapper?\"
Dr。Mulbridgeassentedbyhissilence。\"ButIguessIwasmistaken。I
guesshe’striedandmissedit。Thefieldis’clear,forallIcansee。
Andshe’smadeafailureinoneway,andthenyouknowawomanisinthehumortotryitinanother。Shewantsagoodexcuseforgivingup。
That’swhatIthink。\"
\"Well,\"saidhismother,\"Ipresumeyouknowwhatyou’reabout,Rufus!\"
Shetookupthecoffee-potonthelidofwhichshehadbeenkeepingherhand,andwentintothekitchenwithit。Sheremovedthedishes,andlefthimsittingbeforetheemptytable-cloth。Whenshecameforthat,hetookholdofherhand,andlookedupintoherface,overwhichascarcelydiscernibletremorpassed。\"Well,mother?\"
\"It’swhatIalwaysknewIhadgottocometo,firstorlast。AndI
supposeIoughttofeelgladenoughIdidn’thavetocometoitatfirst。\"
\"No!\"saidherson。\"I’mnotastriplinganylonger。\"Helaughed,keepinghismother’shand。
Shefreeditandtakingupthetable-clothfoldeditlengthwiseandthenacross,andlaiditneatlyawayinthecupboard。\"Isha’n’tinterferewithyou,noranywomanthatyoubringheretobeyourwife。I’vehadmyday,andI’mnotoneoftheoldfoolsthatthinkthey’regoingtohaveandtoholdforever。You’vealwaysbeenagoodboytome,andIguessyouhain’teverhadtocomplain’ofyourmotherstan’in’inyourway。I
sha’n’tnow。ButIdidthink\"
Shestoppedandshutherlipsfirmly。\"Speakup,mother!\"hecried。
\"IguessIbetternot,\"sheanswered,settingherchairbackagainstthewall。
\"Iknowwhatyoumean。Youmeanaboutmylaughingatwomenthattrytotakemen’splacesintheworld。Well,Ididlaughatthem。They’reridiculous。Idon’twanttomarrythisgirlbecauseshe’sadoctor。
Thatwastheprincipaldrawback,inmymind。Butitdoesn’tmakeanydifference,andwouldn’tnow,ifshewasadozendoctors。\"
Hismotherletdowntheleavesofthetable,andpusheditagainstthewall,andherosefromthechairinwhichhewasleftsittinginthemiddleoftheroom。\"Ipresume,\"shesaid,withherbacktowardhim,asshestraightenedthetableaccuratelyagainstthemopboard,\"thatyoucanletmehavethelittlehouseatGrant’sCorner。\"
\"Why,mother!\"hecried。\"Youdon’tsupposeIshouldeverletyoubeturnedoutofhouseandhome?Youcanstayhereaslongasyoulive。
Butithasn’tcometothat,yet。Idon’tknowthatshecaresanythingaboutme。Buttherearechances,andtherearesigns。Thechancesarethatshewon’thavethecouragetotakeupherplanoflifeagain,andthatshe’llconsideranyotherthat’spressedhomeuponher。AndItakeitforagoodsignthatshe’ssentthatfellowadrift。Ifhermindhadn’tbeensetonsomeoneelse,she’dhavetakenhim,inthisbroken-upstateofhers。Besides,shehasformedthehabitofdoingwhatIsay,andthere’sagreatdealinmerecontinuityofhabit。Itwillbeeasierforhertosayyesthantosayno;itwouldbeveryhardforhertosayno。\"
Whileheeagerlypressedtheseargumentshismotherlistenedstonily,withoutapparentinterestorsympathy。Butattheendsheasked,\"Howareyougoingtosupportawife?Yourpracticeherewon’tdoit。Hasshegotanything?\"
\"Shehasproperty,Ibelieve,\"repliedherson。\"Sheseemstohavebeenbroughtupinthatway。\"
\"Shewon’twanttocomeandlivehere,then。She’llhavenotionsofherown。Ifshe’sliketherestofthem,she’llneverhaveyou。\"
\"Ifshewereliketherestofthem,I’dneverhaveher。Butsheisn’t。
AsfarasI’mconcerned,it’snothingagainstherthatshe’sstudiedmedicine。Shedidn’tdoitfromvanity,orambition,oranyabnormalloveofit。Shedidit,sofarsoIcanfindout,becauseshewishedtodogoodthatway。She’sbeenalittlenotional,she’shadherheadaddledbywomen’stalk,andshe’sinaqueerfreak;butit’sonlyagirl’sfreakafterall:youcan’tsayanythingworseofher。She’sasplendidwoman,andherproperty’sneitherherenorthere。Icouldsupporther。\"
\"Ipresume,\"repliedhismother,\"thatshe’sbeenusedtowaysthatain’tlikeourways。I’vealwaysstuckupforyou,Rufus,stiffenough,Iguess;butIain’tagoin’todenythatyou’recountrybornandbred。
Icanseethat,andshecanseeit,too。Itmakesagreatdifferencewithgirls。Idon’tknowasshe’dcallyouwhattheycallagentleman。\"
Dr。Mulbridgeflushedangrily。EveryAmerican,ofwhateverstandingorbreeding,thinksofhimselfasagentleman,andnothingcangallhimmorethantheinsinuationthatheisless。\"Whatdoyoumean,mother?\"
\"Youhain’teverbeeninsuchladies’societyashersinthesameway。
Iknowthattheyallthinktheworldofyou,andflatteryouup,andthey’reasbiddableasyoupleasewhenyou’redoctorin’’em;butIguessitwouldbedifferentifyouwastosetupforoneoftheirownkindamongst’em。\"
\"Thereisn’toneofthem,\"heretorted,\"thatIdon’tbelieveIcouldhavefortheturnofmyhand,especiallyifitwasdoubledintoafist。
Theylikeforce。\"
\"Oh,you’veonlyseenthesickmarriedones。Iguessyou’llfindawellgirlisanotherthing。\"
\"They’reallalike。AndIthinkIshouldbesomethingofareliefifI
wasn’tlikewhatshe’sbeenusedtohearingcalledagentleman;she’dprefermeonthataccount。Butifyoucometoblood,IguesstheMulbridgesandGardiner,canholduptheirheadswiththebest,anywhere。\"
\"Yes,liketheCamfersandRafllins。\"Thesewerepeopleofancestralconsequenceandlocalhistory,whohadgoneuptoBostonfromCorbitant,andhadsucceededseverallyasgreen-grocersandretaildry-goodsmen,withthenaturallyattendantsocialdistinction。
\"Pshaw!\"criedherson。\"Ifshecaresformeatall,shewon’tcareforthecutofmyclothes,ormytablemanners。\"
\"Yes,that’sso。’Tain’tonmyaccountthatIwantyoushouldmakesureshedooscare。\"
Helookedhardatherimmovableface,withitsfalleneyes,andthenwentoutoftheroom。Heneverquarrelledwithhismother,becausehisanger,likeherown,wasdumb,andsilencedhimasitmounted。Hermisgivingshadstunghimdeeply,andatthebottomofhisindolenceandindifferencewasafierypride,noteasilykindled,butunquenchable。Heflungtheharnessuponhisoldunkempthorse,andtackledhimtothemud-encrustedbuggy,forwhoseshabbinesshehadnevercaredbefore。Hewastemptedtogobackintothehouse,andchangehisuncouthCanadahomespuncoatforthebroadclothfrockwhichheworewhenhewenttoBoston;buthescornfullyresistedit,anddroveoffinhisaccustomedfigure。
Hismother’slastwordsrepeatedthemselvestohim,andinthatdialogue,inwhichhecontinuedtodramatizetheirdifferentfeelings,hekeptreplying,\"Well,thewaytofindoutwhethershecaresistoaskher。\"
X。
DuringherconvalescenceMrs。MaynardhadthetimeandinclinationtogiveGracesomegoodadvice。Shesaidthatshehadthoughtagreatdealaboutitthroughouthersickness,andshehadcometotheconclusionthatGracewasthrowingawayherlife。
\"You’renotfittobeadoctor,Grace,\"shesaid。\"You’retoonervous,andyou’retooconscientious。Itisn’tmerelyyourwantofexperience。
Nomatterhowmuchexperienceyouhad,ifyousawacasegoingwronginyourhands,you’dwanttocallinsomeoneelsetosetitright。DoyousupposeDr。Mulbridgewouldhavegivenmeuptoanotherdoctorbecausehewasafraidhecouldn’tcureme?No,indeed!He’dhaveletmediefirst,andIshouldn’thaveblamedhim。OfcourseIknowwhatpressureI
broughttobearuponyou,butyouhadnobusinesstomindme。Yououghtn’ttohavemindedmytalkanymorethanthebuzzingofamosquito,andnorealdoctorwould。Ifhewantstobeasuccess,hemustbehard-
hearted;ashard-heartedas\"——shepausedforacomparison,andfailinganyotheradded——\"asallpossessed。\"Tothelikelarge-mindedandimpartialeffect,she,ranonatgreatlength。\"No,Grace,\"sheconcluded,\"whatyouwanttodoistogetmarried。Youwouldbeagoodwife,andyouwouldbeagoodmother。TheonlytroubleisthatIdon’tknowanymanworthyofyou,orhalfworthy。No,Idon’t!\"
Nowthatherrecoverywasassured,Mrs。Maynardwasveryforgivingandsweetandkindwitheveryone。Theladieswhocameintotalkwithhersaidthatshewasachangedcreature;shegavethemallthebestadvice,andshehadabsolutelynoshamewhateverfortheinconsistencyinvolvedbyherreconciliationwithherhusband。Sheratherflauntedthehappinessofherreunioninthefaceofthepublic,andshevouchsafedanexplanationtonoone。Therehadneverbeenanythingdefiniteinherchargesagainsthim,eventoGrace,andhertacitwithdrawalofthemsucceededperfectlywell。Theladies,aftersomecynicaltittering,forgotthem,andrejoicedinthespectacleofconjugalharmonyaffordedthem:womenaregenerouscreatures,andthereishardlyanyoffencewhichtheyarenotwillinganotherwomanshouldforgiveherhusband,whenoncetheyhavesaidthattheydonotseehowshecouldeverforgivehim。
Mrs。Maynard’ssilenceseemedinsufficienttononebutMrs。Breenandherownhusband。TheformervigorouslydenounceditswantoflogictoGraceasallbutcriminal,thoughshehadnoobjectiontoMr。Maynard。He,infact,treatedherwithafilialrespectwhichwentfartoeffaceherpreconceptions;andhedidwhathecouldtoretrievehimselffromthedisgraceofaseparationinGrace’seyes。Perhapshethoughtthatthelatesituationwasknowntoheralone,whenhecasuallysuggested,oneday,thatMrs。Maynardwaspeculiar。
\"Yes,\"saidGracemercifully;\"butshehasbeenoutofhealthsolong。
Thatmakesagreatdifference。She’sgoingtobebetternow。\"
\"Oh,it’sgoingtocomeoutallrightintheend,\"hesaid,withhisunbuoyanthopefulness,\"andIreckonI’vegottohelpitalong。Why,I
supposeeveryman’satrialattimes,doctor?\"
\"Idaresay。Iknowthateverywomanis,\"saidthegirl。
\"Isthatso?Well,maybeyou’repartlyright。Butyoudon’tsupposebutwhatamangenerallybeginsit,doyou?TherewasAdam,youknow。
Hedidn’tpulltheapple;buthefelloffintothatsleep,andwokeupwithoneofhisribsdislocated,andthat’swhatreallycommencedthetrouble。Ifithadn’tbeenforAdam,therewouldn’thavebeenanywoman,youknow;andyoucouldn’tblameherforwhathappenedaftershegotgoing?\"Therevasnogleamofinsinuationinhismelancholyeye,andGracelistenedwithoutquiteknowingwhattomakeofitall。\"AndthenI
supposehewasn’tpunctualatmeals,andstoodroundtalkingpoliticsatnight,whenheoughttohavebeenathomewithhisfamily?\"
\"Who?\"askedGrace。
\"Adam,\"repliedMr。Maynardlifelessly。\"Well,theygotalongprettywelloutside,\"hecontinued。\"Someofthechildrendidn’tturnoutjustwhatyoumighthaveexpected;butraisingchildrenismightyuncertainbusiness。Yes,theygotalong。\"Heendedhisparablewithasortofwearysigh,asifoppressedbyexperience。Gracelookedathisslovenlyfigure,hissmokycomplexion,andtheshaggyoutlinemadebyhisuntrimmedhairandbeard,andshewonderedhowLouisecouldmarryhim;
butshelikedhim,andshewaswillingtoacceptforallreasonthecauseofunhappinessatwhichhefurtherhinted。\"Yousee,doctor,anincompatibilityisaprettyhardthingtomanage。Youcan’tforgiveitlikearealgrievance。Youhavetotryotherthings,andfindoutthatthereareworsethings,andthenyoucomebacktoitandstandit。We’retalkingWyomingandcattlerange,now,andMrs。Maynardisallforthenewdeal;it’sgoingtomakeushealthy,wealthy,andwise。Well,I
supposetheairwillbegoodforher,outthere。Youdoctorsaresendinglotsofyourpatientsourway,now。\"ThegravitywithwhichhealwaysassumedthatGracewasaphysicianinfullandregularpracticewouldhavehaditsedgeofsatire,comingfromanother;butfromhim,ifitwasironical,itwasalsocaressing,andshedidnotresentit。\"I’vehadsometalkwithyourcolleague,here,Dr。Mulbridge,andheseemstothinkitwillbethebestthingforher。Isupposeyouagreewithhim?\"
\"Oh,yes,\"saidGrace,\"hisopinionwouldbeofgreatvalue。Itwouldn’tbeatallessentialthatIshouldagreewithhim:’
\"Well,Idon’tknowaboutthat,\"saidMaynard。\"Ireckonhethinksagooddealofyouragreeingwithhim。I’vebeentalkingwithhimaboutsettlingoutourway。We’vegotamagnificentcountry,andthere’sboundtobeplentyofsicknessthere,soonerorlater。Why,doctor,itwouldbeagoodopeningforyou!It’sjusttheplaceforyou。You’reoffhereinacorner,inNewEngland,andyouhaven’tgotanysortofscope;
butatCheyenneyou’dhavethewholefieldtoyourself;thereisn’tanotherladydoctorinCheyenne。Now,youcomeoutwithus。Bringyourmotherwithyou,andgrowupwiththecountry。Yourmotherwouldlikeit。There’senoughmoralobliquityinCheyennetokeepherconscienceinastateofhealthfulactivityallthetime。Yes,you’dgetalongoutthere。\"
Gracelaughed,andshookherhead。ItwaspartofthejokewhichlifeseemedtobewithMr。MaynardthattheinhabitantsofNewEnglandwerealleagertoescapefromtheirnativesection,andthattheyoughttobepitiedandabettedinthisdesire。Assoonashiswife’sconvalescencereleasedhimfromconstantattendanceuponher,hebegananinspectionoftheregionfromthecompassionatepointofview;thesmall,frugalhusbandryappealedtohiscommiseration,andheprofessedtohavefoundtheuseofcanvascapsuponthehaycocksintolerablypathetic。\"Why,I’mtold,\"hesaid,\"thattheyhavetoblankettheapple-treeswhilethefruitissetting;andtheykilloffourColoradobugsbyturningthemloose,oneatatime,onthepotato-patches:thebugstarvestodeathinforty-eighthours。Butyou’vegotplentyofschoolhouses,doctor;itdoesbeatall,abouttheschoolhouses。Andit’sanawfulpitythattherearenochildrentogotoschoolinthem。Why,ofcoursethepeoplegoWestasfastastheycan,buttheyoughttobehelped;theGovernmentoughttodosomething。They’regoodpeople;makefirst-ratecitizenswhenyougetthemwakedup,outthere。Buttheyoughtalltobegotaway,andletsomebodyrunNewEngland’asasummerresort。It’spretty,andit’scoolandpleasant,andthefishingisexcellent;milk,eggs,andallkindsofberriesandhistoricalassociationsonthepremises;anditcouldbemadeveryattractivethreemonthsoftheyear;butmygoodness!
yououghtn’ttoaskanybodytolivehere。Youcomeoutwithus,doctor,andseethatcountry,andyou’llknowwhatImean。\"
Hisboastswerealwaysutteredwithawan,lack-lustreirony,asifhewereburlesquingtheconventionalWesternbragandenjoyingthemystificationsofhislistener,whosefeeblesenseofhumoroftenfailedtoseizehisintention,andtowhomanydepreciationofNewEnglandwasnaturallyunintelligible。Shehadnotcometoherfinallikingforhimwithoutaseasonofseriousmisgiving,butafterthatsherestedinpeaceuponwhateveryoneknowinghimfelttobehisessentialneighborliness。
HerwonderhadthencometobehowhecouldmarryLouise,whentheysattogetherontheseawardpiazza,andhepouredouthiseasytalk,unweariedandunwearying,while,withonelong,lanklegcrossedupontheother,heswunghisunblacked,thin-soledboottoandfro。
\"Well,hewasthiskindofafellow:WhenwewereinSwitzerland,hewasalwaysclimbingsomemountainorother。Theycouldn’thavehiredmetoclimboneoftheirmountainsifthey’dgivenmealltheirscenery,andthrowntheirgoitresin。Iusedtotellhimthatthesideofahousewasgoodenoughforme。Butnothingbutthetallestmountainswoulddohim;
andonedaywhenhewasupthereonthecomboftheroofsomewhere,tiedwitharoperoundhiswaisttotheguideandaFrenchman,theguide’sfootslipped,andhecommencedgoingdown。TheFrenchmanwasjustgoingtocuttheropeandlettheguideplayitalone;butheknockedtheknifeoutofhishandwithhislong-handledaxe,andwhenthejerkcamehewasontheothersideofthecomb,wherehecouldbracehimself,andbroughtthembothupstanding。Well,he’sgotmuscleslikebunchesofsteelwire。Didn’theevertellyouaboutit?\"
\"No,\"saidGracesadly。
\"Well,somebodyoughttoexposeLibby。Idon’tsupposeIshouldeverhaveknownaboutitmyself,ifIhadn’thappenedtoseetheguide’sfriendsandrelationscryingoverhimnextdayasifhewastheguide’sfuneral。Hello!There’sthedoctor。\"Heunlimberedhislanklegs,androsewithaneffectofopeninghispersonlikeapocket-knife。\"AsI
understandit,thisisanunprofessionalvisit,andthedoctorishereamongusasaguest。Idon’tknowexactlywhattodounderthecircumstances,whetherweoughttotalkaboutMrs。Maynard’shealthortheopera;butIreckonifweshowourgoodintentionsitwillcomeoutallrightintheend。\"
Hewentforwardtomeetthedoctor,whocameuptoshakehandswithGrace,andthenfollowedhimin-doorstoseeMrs。Maynard。Graceremainedinherplace,andshewasstillsittingtherewhenDr。Mulbridgereturnedwithouthim。Hecamedirectlytoher,andsaid,\"Iwanttospeakwithyou,MissBreen。CanIseeyoualone?\"
\"Is——isMrs。Maynardworse?\"sheasked,risinginalittletrepidation。
\"No;ithasnothingtodowithher。She’spracticallywellnow;Icanremandthecasetoyou。Iwishtoseeyou——aboutyourself。\"Shehesitatedatthispeculiarsummons,butsomepressurewasuponhertoobeyDr。Mulbridge,astherewasuponmostpeoplewherehewishedtoobeyhim。\"Iwanttotalkwithyou,\"headded,\"aboutwhatyouaregoingtodo,——aboutyourfuture。Willyoucome?\"
\"Oh,yes,\"sheanswered;andshesufferedhimtoleadthewaydownfromthepiazza,andoutupononeofthesandyavenuestowardthewoods,inwhichitpresentlylostitself。\"Buttherewillbeverylittletotalkabout,\"shecontinued,astheymovedaway,\"ifyouconfineyourselftomyfuture。Ihavenone。\"
\"Idon’tseehowyou’vegotridofit,\"herejoined。\"You’vegotafutureasmuchasyouhaveapast,andthere’sthisadvantage,——thatyoucandosomethingwithyourfuture。\"
\"Doyouthinkso?\"sheasked,withalittlebitterness。\"Thathasn’tbeenmyexperience。\"
\"It’sbeenmine,\"hesaid,\"andyoucanmakeityours。Come,Iwanttotalkwithyouaboutyourfuture,becauseIhavebeenthinkingveryseriouslyaboutmyown。Iwanttoaskyouradviceandtogiveyoumine。
I’llcommencebyaskingyours。Whatdoyouthinkofmeasaphysician?
Iknowyouareabletojudge。\"
Shewasflattered,inspiteofherself。Therewerelongarrearsofcoolindifferencetoherownclaimsinthatdirection,whichshemightverywellhaveresented;butshedidnot。Therewasthatflatteryinhisquestionwhichthejuniorinanyvocationfeelsintheappealofhissenior;andtherewastheflatterywhichanywomanfeelsinaman’srecoursetoherjudgment。Still,shecontrivedtoparryitwithalittlethrust。\"Idon’tsupposetheopinionofamerehomoeopathistcanbeofanyvaluetoaregularpractitioner。\"
Helaughed。\"Youhavebeenaregularpractitioneryourselfforthelastthreeweeks。Whatdoyouthinkofmymanagementofthecase?\"
\"Ihaveneverabandonedmyprinciples,\"shebegan。
\"Oh,Iknowallaboutthat?Whatdoyouthinkofmeasadoctor?\"hepersisted。
\"OfcourseIadmireyou。Whydoyouaskmethat?\"
\"BecauseIwishedtoknow。AndbecauseIwishedtoaskyousomethingelse。Youhavebeenbroughtupinacity,andIhavealwayslivedhereinthecountry,exceptthetwoyearsIwasoutwiththearmy。DoyouthinkIshouldsucceedifIpulleduphere,andsettledinBoston?\"
\"IhavenotlivedinBoston,\"sheanswered。\"Myopinionwouldn’tbeworthmuchonthatpoint。\"
\"Yes,itwould。Youknowcitypeople,andwhattheyare。Ihaveseenagooddealoftheminmypracticeatthehotelsabouthere,andsomeoftheladies——whentheyhappenedtofeelmorecomfortable——haveadvisedmetocometoBoston。\"Hisderisionseemedtothrowcontemptonallhersex;butheturnedtoher,andaskedagainearnestly,\"Whatdoyouthink?
Someoftheprofessionknowmethere。WhenIlefttheschool,someofthefacultyurgedmetotrymychanceinthecity。\"
Shewaitedamomentbeforesheanswered。\"YouknowthatImustrespectyourskill,andIbelievethatyoucouldsucceedanywhere。Ijudgeyourfitnessbymyowndeficiency。ThefirsttimeIsawyouwithMrs。
Maynard,IsawthatyouhadeverythingthatIhadn’t。IsawthatIwasafailure,andwhy,andthatitwouldbefoolishformetokeepupthestruggle。\"
\"Doyoumeanthatyouhavegivenitup?\"hedemanded,withatriumphinwhichtherewasnosympathy。
\"Ithasgivenmeup。Ineverlikedit,——Itoldyouthatbefore,——andI
nevertookitupfromanyambitiousmotive。Itseemedashameformetobeofnouseintheworld;andIhopedthatImightdosomethinginawaythatseemednaturalforwomen。AndIdon’tgiveupbecauseI’munfitasawoman。Imightbeaman,andstillbeimpulsiveandtimidandnervous,andeverythingthatIthoughtIwasnot。\"
\"Yes,youmightbeallthat,andbeaman;butyou’dbeanexceptionalman,andIdon’tthinkyou’reanexceptionalwoman。Ifyou’vefailed,itisn’tyourtemperamentthat’stoblame。\"
\"Ithinkitis。Thewrongissomewhereinmeindividually。Iknowitis。\"
Dr。Mulbridge,walkingbesideher,withhishandsclaspedbehindhim,threwuphisheadandlaughed。\"Well,haveityourownway,MissBreen。
OnlyIdon’tagreewithyou。Whyshouldyouwishtospareyoursexatyourownexpense?Butthat’sthewaywithsomeladies,I’venoticed。
Theyapproveofwhatwomenattemptbecausewomenattemptit,andtheybelievetheattemptreflectshonoronthem。It’stremendoustothinkwhatmencouldaccomplishfortheirsex,iftheyonlyhungtogetheraswomendo。Buttheycan’t。Theyhaven’tthegenerosity。\"
\"Ithinkyoudon’tunderstandme,\"saidGrace,withaseveritythatamusedhim。\"Iwishedtoregardmyself,intakingupthisprofession,entirelyasIbelievedamanwouldhaveregardedhimself。\"
\"Andwereyouabletodoit?\"
\"No,\"sheunintentionallyrepliedtothisunexpectedquestion。
\"Haw,haw,haw!\"laughedDr。Mulbridgeatherhelplesscandor。\"Andareyousurethatyougiveitupasamanwould?\"
\"Idon’tknowhowyoumean,\"shesaid,vexedandbewildered。
\"Doyoudoitfairlyandsquarelybecauseyoubelievethatyou’reafailure,orbecauseyoupartlyfeelthatyouhaven’tbeenfairlydealtwith?\"
\"IbelievethatifMrs。MaynardhadhadthesameconfidenceinmethatshewouldhavehadinanymanIshouldnothavefailed。ButeverywomanphysicianhasadoubledisadvantagethatIhadn’tthestrengthtoovercome,——herowninexperienceandthedistrustofotherwomen。\"
\"Well,whosefaultisthat?\"
\"Notthemen’s。Itisthemenalonewhogivewomenanychance。Theyarekindandgenerousandliberal-minded。Ihavenoblameforthem,andI
havenopatiencewithwomenwhowanttotreatthemastheenemiesofwomen’sadvancement。Womencan’tmoveastepforwardswithouttheirsufferanceandhelp。Dr。Mulbridge,\"shecried,\"IwishtoapologizeforthehastyandsillywordsIusedtoyouthedayIcametoaskyoutoconsultwithme。Ioughttohavebeengratefultoyouforconsentingatfirst,andwhenyoutookbackyourconsentIoughttohaveconsideredyourposition。Youwereentirelyright。Wehadnocommongroundtomeeton,andIbehavedlikeapetulant,foolish,vulgargirl!\"
\"No,no,\"heprotested,laughinginrecollectionofthescene。\"Youwereallright,andIwasinafix;andifyourownfearshadn’tcometotherescue,Idon’tknowhowIshouldhavegotoutofit。Itwouldhavebeendisgraceful,wouldn’tit,torefusealady’s。request。Youdon’tknowhownearIwastogivingway。Icantellyou,nowthatit’sallover。I
hadneverseenaladyofourprofessionbefore,\"headdedhastily,\"andmycuriositywasup。Ialwayshadmydoubtsaboutthethoroughnessofwomen’sstudy,andIshouldhavelikedtoseewhereyourtrainingfailed。
ImustsayIfounditverygood,——I’vetoldyouthat。Youwouldn’tfailindividually:youwouldfailbecauseyouareawoman。\"
\"Idon’tbelievethat,\"saidGrace。
\"Well,then,becauseyourpatientsarewomen。It’sallone。Whatwillyoudo?\"
\"Ishallnotdoanything。Ishallgiveitallup。\"
\"Butwhatshallyoudothen?\"
\"I-don’tknow。\"
\"Whatareyougoingtobe?Afashionablewoman?OrareyougoingtoEurope,andsettledowntherewiththeotherAmericanfailures?I’veheardaboutthem,——inRomeandFlorenceandParis。Areyougoingtothrowawaythestudyyou’veputintothisprofession?Youtookitupbecauseyouwantedtodogood。Don’tyouwanttodogoodanymore?Hasthehumanraceturnedoutunworthy?\"
Shecoweredatthisarraignment,inwhichshecouldnotseparatethemockingfromthejustice。\"Whatdoyouadvisemetodo?DoyouthinkI
couldeversucceed?\"
\"Youcouldneversucceedalone。\"
\"Yes,Iknowthat;Ifeltthatfromthefirst。ButIhaveplannedtounitewithawomanphysicianolderthanmyself。\"
\"Anddoubleyourdeficiency。Sitdownhere,\"hesaid;\"Iwishtotalkbusiness。\"TheyhadenteredtheborderofthewoodsencompassingJocelyn’s,andhepaintedtoastump,besidewhichlaythefallentree。
Sheobeyedmechanically,andheremainedstandingnearher,withonefootliftedtothelog;heleanedforwardoverher,andseemedtoseizeaphysicaladvantageintheposture。\"Fromyourownpointofview,youwouldhavenorighttogiveupyourundertakingiftherewasachanceofsuccessinit。Youwouldhavenomorerighttogiveupthanawomanwhohadgoneoutasamissionary。\"
\"Idon’tpretendtocomparemyselfwithsuchawoman;butIshouldhavenomorerighttogiveup,\"sheanswered,helplessagainstthelogicofherfate,whichhehadsomehowdivined。
\"Well,then,listentome。Icangiveyouthischance。AreyousatisfiedthatwithmyadviceyoucouldhavesucceededinMrs。Maynard’scase?\"
\"Yes,Ithinkso。Butwhat\"——
\"Ithinkso,too。Don’trise!\"
Hiswillovercametheimpulsethathadbetrayeditself,andshesankbacktoherseat。\"Iofferyoumyadvicefromthistimeforward;Iofferyoumyhelp。\"
\"Thatisverygoodofyou,\"shemurmured;\"andIappreciateyourgenerositymorethanIcansay。Iknowtheprejudiceyoumusthavehadtoovercomeinregardtowomenphysiciansbeforeyoucouldbringyourselftodothis;andIknowhowyoumusthavedespisedmeforfailinginmyattempt,andgivingmyselfuptomyfeebletemperament。But\"——
\"Oh,wewon’tspeakofallthat,\"heinterrupted。\"OfcourseIfelttheprejudiceagainstwomenenteringtheprofessionwhichweallfeel;itwasridiculousanddisgustingtometillIsawyou。Iwon’turgeyoufromanypersonalmotivetoacceptmyoffer。ButIknowthatifyoudoyoucanrealizeallyourhopesofusefulness;andIaskyoutoconsiderthatcertainly。Butyouknowtheonlywayitcouldbedone。\"
Shelookedhimintheeyes,withdismayinhergrowingintelligence。
\"What——whatdoyoumean?\"
\"ImeanthatIaskyoutoletmehelpyoucarryoutyourplanoflife,andtosaveallyouhavedone,andallyouhavehoped,fromwaste——asyourhusband。Think\"——
Shestruggledtoherfeetasifhewereopposingapalpableresistance,sostronglyshefeltthepressureofhiswill。\"Itcan’tbe,Dr。
Mulbridge。Oh,itcan’t,indeed!Letusgoback;Iwishtogoback!\"
Buthehadplantedhimselfinherway,andblockedheradvance,unlessshechosetomakeitaflight。
\"Iexpectedthis,\"hesaid,withasmile,asifherwildtrepidationinterestedhimasananticipatedsymptom。\"Thewholeideaisnewandstartlingtoyou。ButIknowyouwon’tdismissitabruptly,andIwon’tbediscouraged。\"
\"Yes,yes,youmust!Iwillnotthinkofit!Ican’t!Idodismissitatonce。Letmego!\"