Thesevisitors,comingstraightfromforeignlandstothelittleMainevillage,broughtwiththemanamelessenchantmenttothechildren,andespeciallytoRebecca,whoseimaginationalwayskindledeasily。Theromanceofthatvisithadneverdiedinherheart,andamongthemanycareersthatdazzledheryouthfulvisionwasthatofconvertingsuchSyrianheathenasmightcontinueinidolworshipaftertheBurches’effortsintheirbehalfhadceased。ShethoughtattheageofeighteenshemightbesuitablyequippedforstormingsomeminorcitadelofMohammedanism;andMrs。Burchhadencouragedherintheidea,not,itistobefeared,becauseRebeccashowedanysurplusofvirtueorChristiangrace,butbecausehergiftoflanguage,hertactandsympathy,andhermusicaltalentseemedtofitherforthework。
ItchancedthatthequarterlymeetingoftheMaineMissionarySocietyhadbeenappointedjustatthetimewhenaletterfromMrs。BurchtoMissJaneSawyersuggestedthatRebeccashouldformachildren’sbranchinRiverboro。Mrs。Burch’srealideawasthattheyoungpeopleshouldsavetheirpenniesanddivertagentlestreamoffinancialaidintotheparentfund,thuslearningearlyinlifetobeusefulinsuchwork,eitherathomeorabroad。
Thegirlsthemselves,however,readintoherletternosuchmodestparticipationintheconversionoftheworld,andwishingtoeffectanorganizationwithoutdelay,theychoseanafternoonwheneveryhouseinthevillagewasvacant,andseizedupontheRobinsons’barnchamberastheplaceofmeeting。
Rebecca,AliceRobinson,EmmaJanePerkins,CandaceMilliken,andPersisWatson,eachwithherhymnbook,hadclimbedtheladderleadingtothehaymowahalfhourbeforeAbijahFlagghadheardthestrainsof\"DaughtersofZion\"floatingouttotheroad。
Rebecca,beinganexecutiveperson,hadcarried,besidesherhymnbook,asilvercall-bellandpencilandpaper。Ananimateddiscussionregardingoneoftwonamesforthesociety,TheJuniorHeraldsorTheDaughtersofZion,hadresultedinaunanimousvoteforthelatter,andRebeccahadbeenelectedpresidentatanearlystageofthemeeting。ShehadmodestlysuggestedthatAliceRobinson,asthegranddaughterofamissionarytoChina,wouldbemuchmoreeligible。
\"No,\"saidAlice,withentiregoodnature,\"whoeverisELECTED
president,youWILLbe,Rebecca——you’rethatkind——soyoumightaswellhavethehonor;I’djustaslievesbesecretary,anyway。\"
\"Ifyoushouldwantmetobetreasurer,Icouldbe,aswellasnot,\"saidPersisWatsonsuggestively;\"foryouknowmyfatherkeepschinabanksathisstore——onesthatwillholdasmuchastwodollarsifyouwillletthem。Ithinkhe’dgiveusoneifI
happentobetreasurer。\"
Thethreeprincipalofficerswerethuselectedatonefellswoopandwithanentireabsenceofthatredtapewhichcommonlyrendersorganizationsotiresome,CandaceMillikensuggestingthatperhapsshe’dbetterbevice-president,asEmmaJanePerkinswasalwayssobashful。
\"Weoughttohavemoremembers,\"sheremindedtheothergirls,\"butifwehadinvitedthemthefirstdaythey’dhaveallwantedtobeofficers,especiallyMinnieSmellie,soit’sjustaswellnottoaskthemtillanothertime。IsThirzaMeservetoolittletojoin?\"
\"Ican’tthinkwhyanybodynamedMeserveshouldhavecalledababyThirza,\"saidRebecca,somewhatoutoforder,thoughthemeetingwascarriedonwithsmallrecognitionofparliamentarylaws。\"Italwaysmakesmewanttosay:
ThirzaMeserverHeavenpreserveher!
ThirzaMeserverDowedeserveher?
She’slittle,butshe’ssweet,andabsolutelywithoutguile。I
thinkweoughttohaveher。\"
\"Is’guile’thesameas’guilt?\"inquiredEmmaJanePerkins。
\"Yes,\"thepresidentanswered;\"exactlythesame,exceptoneiswrittenandtheotherspokenlanguage。\"(Rebeccawasrathergoodatimbibinginformation,andamasterhandatimpartingit!)
\"Writtenlanguageisforpoemsandgraduationsandoccasionslikethis——kindoflikeabestSunday-go-to-meetingdressthatyouwouldn’tliketogoblueberryinginforfearofgettingitspotted。\"
\"I’djustas’lievesget’guile’spottedasnot,\"affirmedtheunimaginativeEmmaJane。\"Ithinkit’sanawfulfoolishword;butnowwe’reallnamedandourofficerselected,whatdowedofirst?It’seasyenoughforMaryandMarthaBurch;theyjustplayatmissionaryingbecausetheirfolksworkatit,sameasLivingandIusedtomakebelievebeblacksmithswhenwewerelittle。\"
\"Itmustbenicermissionaryinginthoseforeignplaces,\"saidPersis,\"becauseon’Afric’sshoresandIndia’splainsandotherspotswhereSatanreigns’(that’sfather’sfavoritehymn)there’salwaysaheathenbowingdowntowoodandstone。Youcantakeawayhisidolsifhe’llletyouandgivehimabibleandthebeginning’sallmade。Butwho’llwebeginon?JethroSmall?\"
\"Oh,he’sentirelytoodirty,andfoolishbesides!\"exclaimedCandace。\"WhynotEthanHunt?Heswearsdreadfully。\"
\"Helivesonnutsandisahermit,andit’samiletohiscampthroughthethickwoods;mymother’llneverletmegothere,\"
objectedAlice。\"There’sUncleTutJudson。\"
\"He’stooold;he’smostahundredanddeafasapost,\"
complainedEmmaJane。\"Besides,hismarrieddaughterisaSabbath-schoolteacher——whydoesn’tsheteachhimtobehave?I
can’tthinkofanybodyjustrighttostarton!\"
\"Don’ttalklikethat,EmmaJane,\"andRebecca’stonehadatingeofreproofinit。\"WeareacopperatedbodynamedtheDaughtersofZion,and,ofcourse,we’vegottofindsomethingtodo。
Foreignersaretheeasiest;there’saScotchfamilyatNorthRiverboro,anEnglishoneinEdgewood,andoneCubanmanatMillkin’sMills。\"
\"Haven’tforeignersgotanyreligionoftheirown?\"inquiredPersiscuriously。
\"Ye-es,Is’poseso;kindofaone;butforeigners’religionsareneverright——oursistheonlygoodone。\"ThiswasfromCandace,thedeacon’sdaughter。
\"Idothinkitmustbedreadful,beingbornwithareligionandgrowingupwithit,andthenfindingoutit’snouseandallyourtimewasted!\"HereRebeccasighed,chewedastraw,andlookedtroubled。
\"Well,that’syourpunishmentforbeingaheathen,\"retortedCandace,whohadbeenbroughtupstrictly。
\"ButIcan’tforthelifeofmeseehowyoucanhelpbeingaheathenifyou’reborninAfrica,\"persistedPersis,whowaswellnamed。
\"Youcan’t。\"Rebeccawasclearonthispoint。\"IhadthatalloutwithMrs。BurchwhenshewasvisitingAuntMiranda。Shesaystheycan’thelpbeingheathen,butifthere’sasinglemissionstationinthewholeofAfrica,they’reaccountableiftheydon’tgothereandgetsaved。\"
\"Arethereplentyofstagesandrailroads?\"askedAlice;\"becausetheremustbedreadfullylongdistances,andwhatiftheycouldn’tpaythefare?\"
\"Thatpartofitissodreadfullypuzzlywemustn’ttalkaboutit,please,\"saidRebecca,hersensitivefacequiveringwiththeforceoftheproblem。Poorlittlesoul!Shedidnotrealizethathersuperiorsinageandintellecthadspentmanyasleeplessnightoverthatsame\"accountabilityoftheheathen。\"
\"It’stoobadtheSimpsonshavemovedaway,\"saidCandace。\"It’ssoseldomyoucanfindarealbigwickedfamilylikethattosave,withonlyClaraBelleandSusangoodinit。\"
\"Andnumberscountforsomuch,\"continuedAlice。\"Mygrandmothersaysifmissionariescan’tconvertaboutsomanyinayeartheBoardadvisesthemtocomebacktoAmericaandtakeupsomeotherwork。\"
\"Iknow,\"Rebeccacorroborated;\"andit’sthesamewithrevivalists。AttheCentennialpicnicatNorthRiverboro,arevivalistsatoppositetoMr。LaddandAuntJaneandme,andhewastellingabouthiswonderfulsuccessinBangorlastwinter。
He’dconvertedahundredandthirtyinamonth,hesaid,oraboutfourandathirdaday。Ihadjustfinishedfractions,soIaskedMr。Laddhowthethirdofamancouldbeconverted。Helaughedandsaiditwasjusttheotherway;thatthemanwasathirdconverted。ThenheexplainedthatifyouweretryingtoconvinceapersonofhissinonaMonday,andcouldn’tquitefinishbysundown,perhapsyouwouldn’twanttositupallnightwithhim,andperhapshewouldn’twantyouto;soyou’dbeginagainonTuesday,andyoucouldn’tsayjustwhichdayhewasconverted,becauseitwouldbetwothirdsonMondayandonethirdonTuesday。\"
\"Mr。Laddisalwaysmakingfun,andtheBoardcouldn’texpectanygreatthingsofusgirls,newbeginners,\"suggestedEmmaJane,whowasbeingconstantlywarnedagainsttautologybyherteacher。
\"Ithinkit’sawfulrude,anyway,togorightoutandtrytoconvertyourneighbors;butifyouborrowahorseandgotoEdgewoodLowerCorner,orMilliken’sMills,Is’posethatmakesitForeignMissions。\"
\"Wouldweeachgoaloneorwaituponthemwithacommittee,astheydidwhentheyaskedDeaconTuttleforacontributionforthenewhearse?\"askedPersis。
\"Oh!Wemustgoalone,\"decidedRebecca;\"itwouldbemuchmorerefinedanddelicate。AuntMirandasaysthatonemanalonecouldnevergetasubscriptionfromDeaconTuttle,andthat’sthereasontheysentacommittee。ButitseemstomeMrs。Burchcouldn’tmeanforustotryandconvertpeoplewhenwe’renoneofusevenchurchmembers,exceptCandace。IthinkallwecandoistopersuadethemtogotomeetingandSabbathschool,orgivemoneyforthehearse,orthenewhorsesheds。Nowlet’sallthinkquietlyforaminuteortwowho’stheverymostheathenishandreperrehensiblestpersoninRiverboro。\"
Afteraverybriefperiodofsilencethewords\"JacobMoody\"fellfromalllipswithentireaccord。
\"Youareright,\"saidthepresidenttersely;\"andaftersinginghymnnumbertwohundredseventyfour,tobefoundonthesixty-sixthpage,wewilltakeupthequestionofpersuadingMr。
Moodytoattenddivineserviceortheminister’sBibleclass,henothavingbeeninthemeeting-houseforlo!thesemanyyears。
’DaughterofZion,thepowerthathathsavedtheeExtolledwiththeharpandthetimbrelshouldbe。’
\"Singwithoutreading,ifyouplease,omittingthesecondstanza。
Hymntwoseventyfour,tobefoundonthesixty-sixthpageofthenewhymnbookoronpagethirtytwoofEmmaJanePerkins’soldone。\"
II
ItisdoubtfuliftheRev。Mr。BurchhadeverfoundinSyriaapersonmoredifficulttopersuadethanthealready\"gospel-hardened\"JacobMoodyofRiverboro。
Tall,gaunt,swarthy,black-bearded——hismassesofgrizzled,uncombedhairandtheredscaracrosshisnoseandcheekaddedtohissinisterappearance。Histumble-downhousestoodonarockybitoflandbackoftheSawyerpasture,andtheacresofhisfarmstretchedoutonallsidesofit。Helivedalone,atealone,plowed,planted,sowed,harvestedalone,andwasmorethanwillingtodiealone,\"unwept,unhonored,andunsung。\"Theroadthatbordereduponhisfieldswascomparativelylittleusedbyanyone,andnotwithstandingthefactthatitwasthicklysetwithchokecherrytreesandblackberrybushesithadbeenforyearspracticallydesertedbythechildren。Jacob’sRedAstrakhanandGrannyGarlandtreeshungthickwithapples,butnoRiverboroorEdgewoodboystolethem;forterrifyingaccountsofthefatethathadovertakenoneurchinintimesagonehadbeenhandedalongfromboytoboy,protectingtheMoodyfruitfarbetterthananypolicepatrol。
Perhapsnocircumstancescouldhaveextenuatedtheoldman’ssurlymannersorhislackofallcitizenlygracesandvirtues;
buthisneighborscommonlyrebukedhispresentwayoflivingandforgotthetroubledpastthathadbroughtitabout:thesharp-tonguedwife,theunlovinganddisloyalsons,thedaughter’shaplessfate,andalltheothersorrytricksthatfortunehadplayeduponhim——atleastthatwasthewayinwhichhehadalwaysregardedhisdisappointmentsandgriefs。
This,then,wasthepersonagewhosemoralrehabilitationwastobeaccomplishedbytheDaughtersofZion。Buthow?
\"WhowillvolunteertovisitMr。Moody?\"blandlyaskedthepresident。
VISITMR。MOODY!Itwasawondertheroofofthebarnchamberdidnotfall;itdid,indeedechothewordsandinsomewaymakethemsoundmoregrimandsatirical。
\"Nobody’llvolunteer,RebeccaRowenaRandall,andyouknowit,\"
saidEmmaJane。
\"Whydon’twedrawlots,whennoneofuswantstospeaktohimandyetoneofusmust?\"
ThissuggestionfellfromPersisWatson,whohadbeenpaleandthoughtfuleversincethefirstmentionofJacobMoody。(ShewasfondofGrannyGarlands;shehadoncemetJacob;and,astowhatbefell,well,weallhaveoursecrettragedies!)
\"Wouldn’titbewickedtosettleitthatway?\"
\"It’sgamblersthatdrawlots。\"
\"PeoplediditintheBibleeversooften。\"
\"Itdoesn’tseemniceforamissionarymeeting。\"
Theseremarksfellalltogetheruponthepresident’sbewilderedearthewhile(asshealwayssaidincompositions)——\"thewhile\"
shewastryingtoadjusttheethicsofthisunexpectedanddifficultdilemma。
\"Itisaverypuzzlyquestion,\"shesaidthoughtfully。\"IcouldaskAuntJaneifwehadtime,butIsupposewehaven’t。Itdoesn’tseemnicetodrawlots,andyethowcanwesettleitwithout?Weknowwemeanright,andperhapsitwillbe。Alice,takethispaperandtearofffivenarrowpieces,alldifferentlengths。\"
Atthismomentavoicefromadistancefloateduptothehaymow——avoicesayingplaintively:\"Willyouletmeplaywithyou,girls?Huldahhasgonetoride,andI’mallalone。\"
Itwasthevoiceoftheabsolutely-without-guileThirzaMeserve,anditcameatanopportunemoment。
\"Ifsheisgoingtobeamember,\"saidPersis,\"whynotlethercomeupandholdthelots?She’dberealhonestandnotfavoranybody。\"
Itseemedanexcellentidea,andwasfollowedupsoquicklythatscarcelythreeminutesensuedbeforetheguilelessonewasholdingthefivescrapsinherhotlittlepalm,laboriouslychangingtheirplacesagainandagainuntiltheylookedexactlyalikeandallrathersoiledandwilted。
\"Come,girls,draw!\"commandedthepresident。\"Thirza,youmustn’tchewgumatamissionarymeeting,itisn’tpolitenorholy。Takeitoutandstickitsomewheretilltheexercisesareover。\"
ThefiveDaughtersofZionapproachedthespotsochargedwithfate,andextendedtheirtremblinghandsonebyone。Thenafteramoment’ssilentclutchoftheirpaperstheydrewnearertooneanotherandcomparedthem。
EmmaJanePerkinshaddrawntheshortone,becomingthusthedestinedinstrumentforJacobMoody’sconversiontoamoreseemlymanneroflife!
Shelookedaboutherdespairingly,asiftoseeksomepainlessandrespectablemethodofself-destruction。
\"Dolet’sdrawoveragain,\"shepleaded。\"I’mtheworstofallofus。I’msuretomakeamessofittillIkindo’gettrainedin。\"
Rebecca’sheartsankatthisfrankconfession,whichonlycorroboratedherownfears。
\"I’msorry,Emmy,dear,\"shesaid,\"butouronlyexcusefordrawinglotsatallwouldbetohaveitsacred。Wemustthinkofitasakindofasign,almostlikeGodspeakingtoMosesintheburningbush。\"
\"Oh,IWISHtherewasaburningbushrighthere!\"criedthedistractedandrecalcitrantmissionary。\"HowquickI’dstepintoitwithoutevenstoppingtotakeoffmygarnetring!\"
\"Don’tbesuchascare-cat,EmmaJane!\"exclaimedCandacebracingly。\"JacobMoodycan’tkillyou,evenifhehasanawfultemper。Trotrightalongnowbeforeyougetmorefrightened。
Shallwegocrosslotswithher,Rebecca,andwaitatthepasturegate?ThenwhateverhappensAlicecanputitdownintheminutesofthemeeting。\"
IntheseterriblecrisesoflifetimegallopswithsuchincrediblevelocitythatitseemedtoEmmaJaneonlyabreathbeforeshewasbeingdraggedthroughthefieldsbytheotherDaughtersofZion,theguilelesslittleThirzapantingintherear。
AttheentrancetothepastureRebeccagaveheranimpassionedembrace,andwhispering,\"WHATEVERYOUDO,BECAREFULHOWYOU
LEADUP,\"liftedoffthetoprailandpushedherthroughthebars。Thenthegirlsturnedtheirbacksreluctantlyonthepatheticfigure,andeachsoughtatreeunderwhosefriendlyshadeshecouldwatch,andperhapspray,untilthemissionaryshouldreturnfromherfieldoflabor。
AliceRobinson,whosecompositionswerealwaysmarked96or97,——100symbolizingsuchperfectionascouldbeattainedinthemortalworldofRiverboro,——Alice,notonlyDaughter,butScribeofZion,sharpenedherpencilandwroteafewwell-chosenwordsofintroduction,tobeusedwhentherecordsoftheafternoonhadbeenmadebyEmmaJanePerkinsandJacobMoody。
Rebecca’sheartbeattumultuouslyunderherginghamdress。Shefeltthatadramawasbeingenacted,andthoughunfortunatelyshewasnotthecentralfigure,shehadatleastamodestpartinit。
TheshortlothadnotfallentotheproperestDaughter,thatshequiterealized;yetwouldanyoneofthemsucceedinwinningJacobMoody’sattention,inengaginghiminpleasantconversation,andfinallyinbringinghimtoarealizationofhismistakenwayoflife?Shedoubted,butatthesamemomentherspiritsroseatthethoughtofthedifficultiesinvolvedintheundertaking。
DifficultiesalwaysspurredRebeccaon,buttheydauntedpoorEmmaJane,whohadnolittlethrillsofexcitementandwonderandfearandlongingtosustainherlaggingsoul。Thatherinterviewwastobeenteredas\"minutes\"byasecretaryseemedtoherthelaststraw。Herblueeyeslookedlighterthanusualandhadtheglazeofchinasaucers;herusuallypinkcheekswerepale,butshepressedon,determinedtobeafaithfulDaughterofZion,andabovealltobeworthyofRebecca’sadmirationandrespect。
\"Rebeccacandoanything,\"shethought,withenthusiasticloyalty,\"andImustn’tbeanystupiderthanIcanhelp,orshe’llchooseoneoftheothergirlsforhermostintimatefriend。\"So,musteringallhercourage,sheturnedintoJacobMoody’sdooryard,wherehewaschoppingwood。
\"It’sapleasantafternoon,Mr。Moody,\"shesaidinapolitebuthoarsewhisper,Rebecca’swords,\"LEADUP!LEADUP!ringinginclariontonesthroughherbrain。
JacobMoodylookedathercuriously。\"Goodenough,Iguess,\"hegrowled;\"butIdon’tneverhavetimetolookatafternoons。\"
EmmaJaneseatedherselftimorouslyontheendofalargelognearthechoppingblock,supposingthatJacob,likeotherhosts,wouldpauseinhistasksandchat。
\"Theblockiskindoflikeanidol,\"shethought;\"IwishIcouldtakeitawayfromhim,andthenperhapshe’dtalk。\"
AtthismomentJacobraisedhisaxeandcamedownontheblockwithsuchastunningblowthatEmmaJanefairlyleapedintotheair。
\"You’dbetterlookout,Sissy,oryou’llgitchipsintheeye!\"
saidMoody,grimlygoingonwithhiswork。
TheDaughterofZionsentupasilentprayerforinspiration,butnonecame,andshesatsilent,givingnervousjumpsinspiteofherselfwhenevertheaxefelluponthelogJacobwascutting。
Finally,thehostbecametiredofhisdumbvisitor,andleaningonhisaxehesaid,\"Lookhere,Sis,whathaveyoucomefor?
What’syourerrant?Doyouwantapples?Orcider?Orwhat?Speakout,orGITout,oneort’other。\"
EmmaJane,whohadwrungherhandkerchiefintoaclammyball,gaveitalastdespairingwrench,andfaltered:\"Wouldn’tyoulike——hadn’tyoubetter——don’tyouthinkyou’doughttobemoreconstantatmeetingandSabbathschool?\"
Jacob’saxealmostdroppedfromhisnervelesshand,andheregardedtheDaughterofZionwithunspeakablerageanddisdain。
Then,thebloodmountinginhisface,hegatheredhimselftogether,andshouted:\"Youtakeyourselfoffthatlogandouto’
thisdooryarddouble-quick,youimperdentsanct’omusyoungone!
YoujustletmeketchBillPerkins’childtryingtoteachmewhereIshallgo,atmyage!Scuttle,Itellye!AndifIseeyourpiouscantin’littlemuginsidemyfenceag’inonsechabusinessI’llchaseyedownthehillorsetthedogonye!SCOOT,ITELLYE!\"
EmmaJaneobeyedorderssummarily,takingherselfoffthelog,outthedooryard,andotherwisescuttlingandscootingdownthehillatapacenevercontemplatedevenbyJacobMoody,whostoodregardingherflyingheelswithasardonicgrin。
Downshestumbled,thetearscoursingoverhercheeksandminglingwiththedustofherflight;blightedhope,shame,fear,rage,alltearingherbosominturn,tillwithahystericalshriekshefelloverthebarsandintoRebecca’sarmsoutstretchedtoreceiveher。TheotherDaughterswipedhereyesandsupportedheralmostfaintingform,whileThirza,thoroughlyfrightened,burstintosympathetictears,andrefusedtobecomforted。
Noquestionswereasked,foritwasfeltbyallpartiesthatEmmaJane’sdemeanorwasansweringthembeforetheycouldbeframed。
\"Hethreatenedtosetthedogonme!\"shewailedpresently,when,astheynearedtheSawyerpasture,shewasabletocontrolhervoice。\"Hecalledmeapious,cantin’youngone,andsaidhe’dchasemeouto’thedooryardifIevercameagain!Andhe’lltellmyfather——Iknowhewill,forhehateshimlikepoison。\"
AllatoncetheadultpointofviewdawneduponRebecca。Sheneversawituntilitwastooobvioustobeignored。HadtheydonewrongininterviewingJacobMoody?WouldAuntMirandabeangry,aswellasMr。Perkins?
\"Whywashesodreadful,Emmy?\"shequestionedtenderly。\"Whatdidyousayfirst?Howdidyouleaduptoit?\"
EmmaJanesobbedmoreconvulsively,andwipedhernoseandeyesimpartiallyasshetriedtothink。
\"IguessIneverledupatall;notamite。Ididn’tknowwhatyoumeant。Iwassentonanerrant,andIwentanddoneitthebestIcould!(EmmaJane’sgrammaralwayslapsedinmomentsofexcitement。)AndthenJakeroaredatmelikeSquireWinship’sbull……Andhecalledmyfaceamug……Youshutupthatsecretarybook,AliceRobinson!IfyouwritedownasinglewordI’llneverspeaktoyouagain……AndIdon’twanttobeamember’anotherminuteforfearofdrawinganothershortlot。
I’vegotenoughoftheDaughtersorZiontolastmetheresto’
mylife!Idon’tcarewhogoestomeetin’andwhodon’t。\"
ThegirlswereatthePerkins’sgatebythistime,andEmmaJanewentsadlyintotheemptyhousetoremovealltracesofthetragedyfromherpersonbeforehermothershouldcomehomefromthechurch。
Theotherswendedtheirwayslowlydownthestreet,feelingthattheirpromisingmissionarybranchhaddiedalmostassoonasithadbudded。
\"Goodby,\"saidRebecca,swallowinglumpsofdisappointmentandchagrinasshesawthewholeinspiringplanbreakandvanishintothinairlikeaniridescentbubble。\"It’salloverandwewon’tevertryitagain。I’mgoingintodoovercastingashardasI
can,becauseIhatethattheworst。AuntJanemustwritetoMrs。
Burchthatwedon’twanttobehomemissionaries。Perhapswe’renotbigenough,anyway。I’mperfectlycertainit’snicertoconvertpeoplewhenthey’reyelloworbrownoranycolorbutwhite;andIbelieveitmustbeeasiertosavetheirsoulsthanitistomakethemgotomeeting。\"
ThirdChronicleREBECCA’STHOUGHTBOOK
I
The\"Sawyergirls’\"barnstillhaditshaymowinRebecca’stime,althoughthehaywasadozenyearsoldormore,and,intheopinionoftheoccasionalvisitinghorse,sadlyjuicelessandwantinginflavor。Itstillsheltered,too,oldDeaconIsraelSawyer’scarryallandmowing-machine,withhispung,hissleigh,andadozenothersurvivalsofanearlierera,whenthebroadacresofthebrickhousewenttomakeoneofthefinestfarmsinRiverboro。
Therewerenohorsesorcowsinthestallsnowadays;nopiggruntingcomfortablyoffuturespareribsinthesty;nohenstopecktheplantsinthecherishedgardenpatch。TheSawyergirlsweregettingoninyears,and,mindfulthatcareoncekilledacat,theyorderedtheirliveswiththeviewofescapingthatparticulardoom,atleast,andsucceededfairlywelluntilRebecca’sadventmadeexistenceatriflemoresensational。
Onceamonthforyearsuponyears,MissMirandaandMissJanehadputtowelsovertheirheadsandmadeasolemnvisittothebarn,takingofftheenameledclothcoverings(occasionallycalled\"emmanuelcovers\"inRiverboro),dustingtheancientimplements,andsometimessweepingtheheaviestofthecobwebsfromthecorners,orgivingabrushtothefloor。
DeaconIsrael’stotteringladderstillstoodinitsaccustomedplace,proppedagainstthehaymow,andtheheavenlystairwayleadingtoeternalgloryscarcelylookedfairertoJacobofoldthanthistoRebecca。Bymeansofitsdustyroundsshemounted,mounted,mountedfarawayfromtimeandcareandmaidenaunts,farawayfromchildishtasksandchildishtroubles,tothebarnchamber,aplacesofullofgoldendreams,happyreveries,andvaguelongings,that,asherlittlebrownhandsclungtothesidesoftheladderandherfeettrodtheroundscautiouslyinherascent,herheartalmoststoppedbeatinginthesheerjoyofanticipation。
Oncehavinggainedtheheights,thenextthingwastounlatchtheheavydoorsandgivethemagentleswingoutward。Then,oh,evernewParadise!Then,oh,everlovelygreenandgrowingworld!ForRebeccahadthatsomethinginhersoulthat\"GivestoseasandsunsetskiesTheunspentbeautyofsurprise。\"
AtthetopofGuideBoardhillshecouldseeAliceRobinson’sbarnwithitsshiningweathervane,ahugeburnishedfishthatswamwiththewindandforetoldthedaytoallRiverboro。Themeadow,withitssunnyslopesstretchinguptothepinewoods,wassometimesaflowingsheetofshimmeringgrass,sometimes——whendaisiesandbuttercupswereblooming——avisionofwhiteandgold。Sometimestheshornstubblewouldbedottedwith\"thehappyhillsofhay,\"andalittlelatertherockmapleontheedgeofthepineswouldstandoutlikeagoldenballagainstthegreen;itsneighbor,thesugarmaple,glowingbesideit,braveinscarlet。
ItwasononeoftheseautumndayswithawintrynipintheairthatAdamLadd(Rebecca’sfavorite\"Mr。Aladdin\"),aftersearchingforherinfieldandgarden,suddenlynoticedtheopendoorsofthebarnchamber,andcalledtoher。Atthesoundofhisviceshedroppedherpreciousdiary,andflewtotheedgeofthehaymow。Heneverforgotthevisionofthestartledlittlepoetess,bookinonemittenedhand,pencilintheother,darkhairallruffled,withthepicturesqueadditionofanoccasionalgladeofstraw,hercheekscrimson,hereyesshining。
\"ASapphoinmittens!\"hecriedlaughingly,andathereagerquestiontoldhertolookuptheunknownladyintheschoolencyclopedia,whenshewasadmittedtotheFemaleSeminaryatWareham。
Now,allbeingready,Rebeccawenttoacornerofthehaymow,andwithdrewathickblank-bookwithmottledcovers。Outofherginghamapronpocketcameapencil,abitofrubber,andsomepiecesofbrownpaper;thensheseatedherselfgravelyonthefloor,anddrewaninvertedsoapboxnearertoherforatable。
Thebookwasreverentlyopened,andtherewasaseriousreadingoftheextractsalreadycarefullycopiedtherein。Mostofthemwereapparentlytothewriter’sliking,fordimplesofpleasureshowedthemselvesnowandthen,andsmilesofobviousdelightplayedaboutherface;butonceinawhiletherewasaknittingofthebrowsandasighofdiscouragement,showingthattheartistinthechildwasnotwhollysatisfied。
Thencamethecrucialmomentwhenthebuddingauthorwassupposedlytoberackedwiththethroesofcomposition;butseeminglytherewerenothroes。Othergirlscouldwieldthedarningorcrochetorknittingneedle,andsendthetattingshuttlethroughloopsofthefinestcotton;hemstitch,oversew,braidhairinthirteenstrands,butthepencilwasneverobedientintheirfingers,andthepenandink-potwereahorrorfromearlychildhoodtotheendoftime。
NotsowithRebecca;herpencilmovedaseasilyashertongue,andnomorestrikingsimilecouldpossiblybeused。HerhandwritingwasnotSpencerian;shehadneithertime,norpatience,itistobefeared,forcopybookmethods,andherunformedcharacterswerefrequentlythedespairofherteachers;
butwriteshecould,writeshewould,writeshemustanddid,inseasonandout;fromthetimeshemadepothooksatsix,tillnow,writingwastheeasiestofallpossibletasks;tobeindulgedinassolaceandbalmwhentheterrorsofexamplesinleastcommonmultiplethreatenedtodethronethereason,ortherulesofgrammarloomedhugeandunconquerableinthenearhorizon。
Astospelling,itcametoherinthemainbyfreegrace,andnotbytraining,andthoughsheslippedattimesfromthebeatenpath,herextraordinaryearandgoodvisualmemorykeptherfrommanyorflagrantmistakes。Itwasherintention,especiallywhensayingherprayersatnight,tolookupalldoubtfulwordsinhersmalldictionary,beforecopyingherThoughtsintothesacredbookfortheinspirationofposterity;butwhengeniusburnedwithabrilliantflame,andparticularlywhenshewasinthebarnandthedictionaryinthehouse,impulseasusualcarriedtheday。
TheresitsRebecca,then,intheopendooroftheSawyersbarnchamber——thesunsetdoor。Howmanyatimehadhergrandfather,thegooddeacon,satjustunderneathinhistipped-backchair,whenMrs。Israel’stemperwasuncertain,andtheserenityofthebarnwasincomfortingcontrasttohisownfireside!
Theopendoorsswingingouttothepeacefullandscape,thesolaceofthepipe,notallowedinthe\"settin’-room\"——howbeautifullythesesimpleagentshaveministeredtothefamilypeaceindaysagone!\"IfIhadn’thadmybarnandmystoreBOTH,Icouldn’tneverhavelivedinholymatrimonywithMaryliza!\"oncesaidMr。
Watsonfeelingly。
Butthedeacon,lookingonhiswavinggrassfields,histasselingcornandhistimberlands,brightandhonestaswerehiseyes,neversawsuchvisionsasRebecca。Thechild,transplantedfromherhomefarmatSunnybrook,fromthecareoftheoverworkedbuteasy-goingmother,andthecompanionshipofthescantilyfed,scantilyclothed,happy-go-luckybrothersandsisters——shehadindeedfallenonshadydaysinRiverboro。Theblindswereclosedineveryroomofthehousebuttwo,andthesamemighthavebeensaidofMissMiranda’smindandheart,thoughMissJanehadafewwindowsopeningtothesun,andRebeccaalreadyhadherunconscioushandonseveralothers。Brickhouseruleswererigidandmanyforalittlecreaturesofulloflife,butRebecca’sgayspiritcouldnotbepinionedinastraitjacketforlongatatime;itescapedsomehowandwingeditsmerrywayintothesunshineandfreeair;ifshewerenotallowedtosingintheorchard,likethewildbirdshewas,shecouldstillsinginthecage,likethecanary。
II
Ifyouhadopenedthecarefullyguardedvolumewiththemottledcovers,youwouldfirsthaveseenawonderfultitlepage,constructedapparentlyonthesamelinesasanobituary,ortheinscriptiononatombstone,saveforthequantityandvarietyofinformationcontainedinit。Muchofthematterwouldseemtothecaptiouscriticbetteradaptedtothebodyofthebookthantothetitlepage,butRebeccawasapparentlyanxiousthattheprincipalpersonagesinherchronicleshouldbewelldescribedattheoutset。
Sheseemstohavehadaconvictionthatheredityplaysitspartintheevolutionofgenius,andherbeliefthattheworldwillbeinspiredbythepossessionofherThoughtsistooartlesstobeoffensive。Sheevidentlyhasrespectforrichmaterialconfidedtoherteacher,andonecanimagineMissDearborn’swoehadshebeenconfrontedbyRebecca’schosenliteraryexecutorandbiddentodelivercertain\"ValuablePoetryandThoughts,\"thepropertyofposterity\"unlesscarelesslydestroyed。\"
THOUGHTBOOKofRebeccaRowenaRandallReallyofSunnybrookFarmButtemporilyofTheBrickHouseRiverboro。
OwnnieceofMissMirandaandJaneSawyerSecondofsevenchildrenofherfather,Mr。L。D。M。Randall(NowatrestinTemperancecemmetaryandtherewillbeamonumentassoonaswepayoffthemortgageonthefarm)
AlsoofhermotherMrs。AureliaRandallIncaseofDeaththebestoftheseThoughtsMaybeprintedinmyRemerniscencesFortheSundaySchoolLibraryatTemperance,MaineWhichneedsmorebooksfearfullyAndIherebyWillandTestamentthemtoMr。AdamLaddWhobought300cakesofsoapfrommeAndthussecuredapremiumAGreatlyNeededBanquetLampFormyfriendstheSimpsons。
HeistheonlyonethatincouragesMywritingRemerniscencesandMyteacherMissDearbornwillHavemuchvaluablePoetryandThoughtsTogivehimunlesscarelesslydestroyed。
ThepicturesarebythesamehandthatWrotetheThoughts。
ITISNOTNOWDECIDEDWHETHERREBECCAROWENARANDALLWILLBEA
PAINTERORANAUTHOR,BUTAFTERHERDEATHITWILLBEKNOWNWHICH
SHEHASBEEN,IFANY。
FINIS
Fromthetitlepage,withitswealthofdetail,anditsunnecessaryandirrelevantinformation,thebookripplesonlikeabrook,andtothewearyreaderofproblemnovelsitmayhavesomethingofthebrook’srefreshingquality。
OURDIARIESMay,187——
AllthegirlsarekeepingadiarybecauseMissDearbornwasverymuchashamedwhentheschooltrusteestoldherthatmostofthegirls’andalloftheboys’compositionsweredisgraceful,andmustbeimproveduponnextterm。Sheaskedtheboystowriteletterstoheronceaweekinsteadofkeepingadiary,whichtheythoughtwasgirlishlikeplayingwithdolls。Theboysthoughtitwasdreadfultohavetowriteletterseverysevendays,butshetoldthemitwasnothalfasbadforthemasitwasforherwhohadtoreadthem。
TomakemydiaryalittledifferentIamgoingtocallitaTHOUGHTBook(writtenjustlikethat,withcapitals)。IhavethoughtsthatInevercanuseunlessIwritethemdown,forAuntMirandaalwayssays,Keepyourthoughtstoyourself。AuntJaneletsmetellhersome,butdoesnotlikemyqueeronesandmytruethoughtsaremostlyqueer。EmmaJanedoesnotmindhearingthemnowandthen,andthatismyonlychance。
IfMissDearborndoesnotlikethenameThoughtBookIwillcallitRemerniscences(writtenjustlikethatwithacapitalR)。
Remerniscencesarethingsyourememberaboutyourselfandwritedownincaseyoushoulddie。AuntJanedoesn’tliketoreadanyotherkindofbooksbutjustlivesofinterestingdeadpeopleandshesaysthatiswhatLongfellow(whowasborninthestateofMaineandweshouldbeveryproudofitandtrytowritelikehim)meantinhispoem:
\"LivesofgreatmenallremindusWeshouldmakeourlivessublime,Anddeparting,leavebehindusFootprintsonthesandsoftime。\"
IknowwhatthismeansbecausewhenEmmaJaneandIwenttothebeachwithUncleJerryCobbweranalongthewetsandandlookedattheshapesourbootsmade,justasiftheywerestampedinwax。EmmaJaneturnsinherleftfoot(splayfoottheboyscallit,whichisnotpolite)andSethStrouthadjustpatchedoneofmyshoesanditallcameoutinthesandpictures。WhenIlearnedThePsalmofLifeforFridayafternoonspeakingIthoughtI
shouldn’tliketoleaveapatchedfootprint,norhaveEmmaJane’slookcrookedonthesandsoftime,andrightawayIthoughtOh!
WhatasplendidthoughtformyThoughtBookwhenAuntJanebuysmeafifteen-centoneovertoWatson’sstore。
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REMERNISCENCES
June,187——
ItoldAuntJaneIwasgoingtobeginmyRemerniscences,andshesaysIamfullyoung,butIremindedherthatCandaceMilliken’ssisterdiedwhenshewasten,leavingnofootprintswhatever,andifIshoulddiesuddenlywhowouldwritedownmyRemerniscences?
AuntMirandasaysthesunandmoonwouldriseandsetjustthesame,anditwasnomatteriftheydidn’tgetwrittendown,andtogoupatticandfindherpiece-bag;butIsaiditwould,astherewasonlyoneofeverybodyintheworld,andnobodyelsecoulddotheirremerniscensingforthem。IfIshoulddietonightIknownowwhowoulddescribemeright。MissDearbornwouldsayonethingandbrotherJohnanother。EmmaJanewouldtrytodomejustice,buthasnowords;andIamgladAuntMirandanevertakesthepeninhand。
Mydictionaryissosmallithasnotmanygenteelwordsinit,andIcannotfindhowtospellRemerniscences,butIrememberfromthecoverofAuntJane’sbookthattherewasan\"s\"anda\"c\"closetogetherinthemiddleofit,whichIthoughtfoolishandnotneedful。
Allthegirlsliketheirdairiesverymuch,butMinnieSmelliegotAliceRobinson’swhereshehadhiditundertheschoolwoodpileandreaditallthrough。Shesaiditwasnoworsethanreadinganybody’scomposition,butwetoldheritwasjustlikepeekingthroughakeyhole,orlisteningatawindow,oropeningabureaudrawer。Shesaidshedidn’tlookatitthatway,andI
toldherthatunlesshereyesgotunscealedshewouldneverleaveanykindofasublimefootprintonthesandsoftime。ItoldheradiarywasverysacredasyougenerallypouredyourdeepestfeelingsintoitexpectingnobodytolookatitbutyourselfandyourindulgentheavenlyFatherwhoseeethallthings。
OfcourseitwouldnothurtPersisWatsontoshowherdiarybecauseshehasnotasacredplanandthisisthewayitgoes,forshereadsitoutloudtous:
\"Aroseatsixthismorning——(youalwaysariseinadiarybutyousaygetupwhenyoutalkaboutit)。Atebreakfastathalfpastsix。Hadsodabiscuits,coffee,fishhashanddoughnuts。Wipedthedishes,fedthehensandmademybedbeforeschool。Hadagoodarithmeticlesson,butwentdowntwoinspelling。AthalfpastfourplayedhideandcoopintheSawyerpasture。Fedhensandwenttobedateight。\"
Shesaysshecan’tputinwhatdoesn’thappen,butasIdon’tthinkherdiaryisinterestingshewillaskhermothertohavemeathashinsteadoffish,withpiewhenthedoughnutsgiveout,andshewillfeedthehensbeforebreakfasttomakeachange。Weareallgoingnowtotryandmakesomethinghappeneverysingledaysothediarieswon’tbesodullandthefootprintssocommon。
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ANUNCOMMONTHOUGHT
July187——
Wedugupourrosecakestoday,andthatgavemeagoodRemerniscence。Thewayyoumakerosecakesis,youtaketheleavesoffullblownrosesandmixthemwithalittlecinnamonandasmuchbrownsugarastheywillgiveyou,whichisneverhalfenoughexceptPersisWatson,whoseaffectionateparentslethergotothebarrelintheirstore。Thenyoudouplittlebitslikesedlitzpowders,firstinsoftpaperandtheninbrown,andburytheminthegroundandletthemstayaslongasyoupossiblycanholdout;thendigthemupandeatthem。EmmaJaneandI
stickuplittlesignsovertheholesinthegroundwiththedateweburiedthemandwhenthey’llbedoneenoughtodigup,butwecanneverwait。WhenAuntJanesawusshesaiditwasthefirstthingforchildrentolearn,——nottobeimpatient,——sowhenI
wenttothebarnchamberImadeapoem。
IMPATIENCE
Wedugourrosecakesupoh!alltoosoon。
Twasintheorchardjustatnoon。
TwasinabrightJulyforenoon。
Twasinthesunnyafternoon。
Twasunderneaththeharvestmoon。
Itwasnotthatwayatall;itwasafoggymorningbeforeschool,andIshouldthinkpoetscouldneverpossiblygettoheaven,foritissohardtosticktothetruthwhenyouarewritingpoetry。
EmmaJanethinksitisnobody’sbusinesswhenwedugtherosecakesup。Ilikethelineabouttheharvestmoonbest,butitwouldgiveawrongideaofourlivesandcharacterstothepeoplethatreadmyThoughts,fortheywouldthinkwewereuplatenights,soIhavefixeditlikethis:
IMPATIENCE
Wedugourrosecakesupoh!alltoosoon,Wethoughttheirsweetnesswouldbesuchaboon。
Wene’ersuspicionedtheywouldnotbedoneAfterthreedaysofautumnwindandsun。
Whydidwefromtheearthourtreasuresdraw?
Twasnotforfearthatratormolemightnaw,Anagedauntdothsayimpatiencewasthereason,Shesaysthatyouthiseveroutofseason。
ThatisjustasAuntJanesaidit,anditgavemethethoughtforthepoemwhichisratheruncommon。
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ADREADFULQUESTION
September,187——
WHICHHASBEENTHEMOSTBENEFERCENTINFLUENCEONCHARACTER——
PUNISHMENTORREWARD?
ThistrulydreadfulquestionwasgivenusbyDr。Moseswhenhevisitedschooltoday。HeisaSchoolCommittee;notawholeonebutIdonotknowthesingularnumberofhim。Hetolduswecouldaskourfamilieswhattheythought,thoughhewouldratherwewouldn’t,butwemustwriteourownwordsandhewouldhearthemnextweek。
Afterhewentoutandshutthedoorthescholarswereallplungedingloomandyoucouldhaveheardapindrop。AliceRobinsoncriedandborrowedmyhandkerchief,andtheboyslookedasiftheschoolhousehadbeenstruckbylightning。TheworstofallwaspoorMissDearborn,whowillloseherplaceifshedoesnotmakeusbetterscholarssoon,forDr。Moseshasadaughterallreadytoputrightintotheschoolandshecanboardathomeandsaveallherwages。LibbyMosesishername。
MissDearbornstaredoutthewindow,andhermouthandchinshooklikeAliceRobinson’s,forsheknew,ah!alltowell,whatthecomingweekwouldbringforth。
ThenIraisedmyhandforpermissiontospeak,andstoodupandsaid:\"MissDearborn,don’tyoumind!Justexplaintouswhatbenefercent’meansandwe’llwritesomethingrealinteresting;
forallofusknowwhatpunishmentis,andhaveseenothersgetrewards,anditisnotsobadasubjectassome。\"AndDickCarterwhispered,\"GOODONYOURHEAD,REBECCA!\"whichmeanhewassorryforhertoo,andwouldtryhisbest,buthasnowords。
Thenteachersmiledandsaidbenefercentmeantgoodorhealthyforanybody,andwouldallrisewhothoughtpunishmentmadethebestscholarsandmenandwomen;andeverybodysatstockstill。
Andthensheaskedalltostandwhobelievedthatrewardsproducedthefinestresults,andtherewasamightysoundlikeuntotherushingofwaters,butreallywasourfeetscrapingthefloor,andthescholarsstoodup,anditlookedlikeanarmy,thoughitwasonlynineteen,becauseofthestrongbeliefthatwasinthem。ThenMissDearbornlaughedandsaidshewasthankfulforeverywhippingshehadwhenshewasachild,andLivingPerkinssaidperhapswehadn’tgottothethankfulage,orperhapsherfatherhadn’tusedastrap,andshesaidoh!no,itwashermotherwiththeopenhand;andDickCartersaidhewouldn’tcallthatpunishment,andSamSimpsonsaidsotoo。
IamgoingtowriteaboutthesubjectinmyThoughtBookfirst,andwhenImakeitintoacomposition,Icanleaveoutanythingaboutthefamilyornotgenteel,asthereismuchtorelateaboutpunishmentnotpleasantorniceandhardlypolite。
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PUNISHMENT
Punishmentisaverypuzzlything,butIbelieveinitwhenreallydeserved,onlywhenIpunishmyselfitdoesnotalwaysturnoutwell。WhenIleanedoverthenewbridge,andgotmydressallpaint,andAuntSarahCobbcouldn’tgetitout,Ihadtowearitspottedforsixmonthswhichhurtmypride,butwasright。IstayedathomefromAliceRobinson’sbirthdaypartyforapunishment,andwenttothecircusnextdayinstead,butAlice’spartiesareverycoldandstiff,asMrs。Robinsonmakestheboysstandonnewspapersiftheycomeinsidethedoor,andtheblindsarealwaysshut,andMrs。Robinsontellsmehowbadherlivercomplaintisthisyear。SoIthought,topayforthecircusandafewotherthings,Ioughttogetmorepunishment,andIthrewmypinkparasoldownthewell,asthemothersinthemissionarybooksthrowtheirinfantstothecrocodilesintheGangesriver。Butitgotstuckinthechainthatholdsthebucket,andAuntMirandahadtogetAbijahFlaggtotakeoutallthebrokenbitsbeforewecouldringupwater。
IpunishedmyselfthiswaybecauseAuntMirandasaidthatunlessIimprovedIwouldbenothingbutaBurdenandaBlight。
Therewasanoldmanusedtogobyourfarmcarryingalotofbrokenchairstobottom,andmotherusedtosay——\"Poorman!Hisbackistooweakforsuchaburden!\"andIusedtotakehimoutadoughnut,andthisisthepartIwanttogointotheRemerniscences。OnceItoldhimweweresorrythechairsweresoheavy,andhesaidTHEYDIDN’TSEEMSOHEAVYWHENHEHADETTHE
DOUGHNUT。ThisdoesnotmeanthatthedoughnutwasheavierthanthechairswhichiswhatbrotherJohnsaid,butitisabeautifulthoughtandshowshowthehumanraceshouldhavesympathy,andhelpbearburdens。
IknowaboutaBlight,fortherewasadreadfuleastwindoveratourfarmthatdestroyedallthelittleyoungcropsjustoutoftheground,andthefarmerscalledittheBlight。AndIwouldratherbehail,sleet,frost,orsnowthanaBlight,whichismeanandsecret,andwhichisthereasonIthrewawaythedearestthingonearthtome,thepinkparasolthatMissRossbroughtmefromParis,France。Ihavealsowrappedupmybeadpurseinthreepapersandputitawaymarkednottobeopenedtillaftermydeathunlessneededforaparty。
ImustnotbeBurden,ImustnotbeBlight,Theangelsinheavenwouldweepatthesight。