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ThenIsawinmydreamthathecommandedthemtoliedown;which,whentheydid,hechastisedthemsore,toteachthemthegoodwaywhereintheyshouldwalk[Deut。25:2];andashechastisedthemhesaid,\"AsmanyasIlove,Irebukeandchasten;bezealous,therefore,andrepent。\"[2Chron。6:26,27,Rev。3:19]Thisdone,hebidthemgoontheirway,andtakegoodheedtotheotherdirectionsoftheshepherds。Sotheythankedhimforallhiskindness,andwentsoftlyalongtherightway,singing——

Comehither,youthatwalkalongtheway;

Seehowthepilgrimsfarethatgoastray。

Theycatchedareinanentanglingnet,’Causetheygoodcounsellightlydidforget:

’Tistruetheyrescuedwere,butyetyousee,They’rescourgedtoboot。Letthisyourcautionbe。

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Now,afterawhile,theyperceived,afaroff,onecomingsoftlyandalone,allalongthehighwaytomeetthem。ThensaidChristiantohisfellow,YonderisamanwithhisbacktowardsZion,andheiscomingtomeetus。



HOPE。Iseehim;letustakeheedtoourselvesnow,lestheshouldproveaflattereralso。Sohedrewnearerandnearer,andatlastcameupuntothem。HisnamewasAtheist,andheaskedthemwhithertheyweregoing。

CHR。WearegoingtoMountZion。



ThenAtheistfellintoaverygreatlaughter。

CHR。Whatisthemeaningofyourlaughter?

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ATHEIST。Ilaughtoseewhatignorantpersonsyouare,totakeuponyousotediousajourney,andyouareliketohavenothingbutyourtravelforyourpains。



CHR。Why,man,doyouthinkweshallnotbereceived?

ATHEIST。Received!Thereisnosuchplaceasyoudreamofinallthisworld。

CHR。Butthereisintheworldtocome。

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ATHEIST。WhenIwasathomeinmineowncountry,Iheardasyounowaffirm,andfromthathearingwentouttosee,andhavebeenseekingthiscitythistwentyyears;butfindnomoreofitthanIdidthefirstdayIsetout。[Jer。22:12,Eccl。10:15]

CHR。Wehavebothheardandbelievethatthereissuchaplacetobefound。



ATHEIST。HadnotI,whenathome,believed,Ihadnotcomethusfartoseek;butfindingnone,(andyetIshould,hadtherebeensuchaplacetobefound,forIhavegonetoseekitfurtherthanyou),Iamgoingbackagain,andwillseektorefreshmyselfwiththethingsthatIthencastaway,forhopesofthatwhich,Inowsee,isnot。

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CHR。ThensaidChristiantoHopefulhisfellow,Isittruewhichthismanhathsaid?



Hope。Takeheed,heisoneoftheflatterers;rememberwhatithathcostusoncealreadyforourhearkeningtosuchkindoffellows。

What!noMountZion?Didwenotsee,fromtheDelectableMountainsthegateofthecity?Also,arewenotnowtowalkbyfaith?

Letusgoon,saidHopeful,lestthemanwiththewhipovertakeusagain。[2Cor。5:7]Youshouldhavetaughtmethatlesson,whichIwillroundyouintheearswithal:\"Cease,myson,toheartheinstructionthatcausethtoerrfromthewordsofknowledge。\"[Prov。19:27]Isay,mybrother,ceasetohearhim,andletus\"believetothesavingofthesoul\"。[Heb。10:39]

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CHR。Mybrother,IdidnotputthequestiontotheeforthatIdoubtedofthetruthofourbeliefmyself,buttoprovethee,andtofetchfromtheeafruitofthehonestyofthyheart。

Asforthisman,Iknowthatheisblindedbythegodofthisworld。

LettheeandIgoon,knowingthatwehavebeliefofthetruth,\"andnolieisofthetruth\"。[1John2:21]

HOPE。NowdoIrejoiceinhopeofthegloryofGod。Sotheyturnedawayfromtheman;andhe,laughingatthem,wenthisway。

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Isawtheninmydream,thattheywenttilltheycameintoacertaincountry,whoseairnaturallytendedtomakeonedrowsy,ifhecameastrangerintoit。

AndhereHopefulbegantobeverydullandheavyofsleep;

whereforehesaiduntoChristian,IdonowbegintogrowsodrowsythatIcanscarcelyholdupmineeyes,letusliedownhereandtakeonenap。



CHR。Bynomeans,saidtheother,lestsleeping,weneverawakemore。

HOPE。Why,mybrother?Sleepissweettothelabouringman;

wemayberefreshedifwetakeanap。

CHR。DoyounotrememberthatoneoftheShepherdsbidusbewareoftheEnchantedGround?Hemeantbythatthatweshouldbewareofsleeping;\"Thereforeletusnotsleep,asdoothers,butletuswatchandbesober。\"[1Thess。5:6]

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HOPE。Iacknowledgemyselfinafault,andhadIbeenherealoneIhadbysleepingrunthedangerofdeath。Iseeitistruethatthewisemansaith,Twoarebetterthanone。Hithertohaththycompanybeenmymercy,andthoushalthaveagoodrewardforthylabour。[Eccl。9:9]



CHR。Nowthen,saidChristian,topreventdrowsinessinthisplace,letusfallintogooddiscourse。

HOPE。Withallmyheart,saidtheother。



CHR。Whereshallwebegin?

HOPE。WhereGodbeganwithus。Butdoyoubegin,ifyouplease。

CHR。Iwillsingyoufirstthissong:——



Whensaintsdosleepygrow,letthemcomehither,Andhearhowthesetwopilgrimstalktogether:

Yea,letthemlearnofthem,inanywise,Thustokeepopetheirdrowsyslumb’ringeyes。

Saints’fellowship,ifitbemanagedwell,Keepsthemawake,andthatinspiteofhell。

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CHR。ThenChristianbeganandsaid,Iwillaskyouaquestion。

Howcameyoutothinkatfirstofsodoingasyoudonow?

HOPE。Doyoumean,howcameIatfirsttolookafterthegoodofmysoul?

CHR。Yes,thatismymeaning。

HOPE。Icontinuedagreatwhileinthedelightofthosethingswhichwereseenandsoldatourfair;thingswhich,Ibelievenow,wouldhave,hadIcontinuedinthem,stilldrownedmeinperditionanddestruction。

CHR。Whatthingsarethey?



HOPE。Allthetreasuresandrichesoftheworld。Also,Idelightedmuchinrioting,revelling,drinking,swearing,lying,uncleanness,Sabbath—breaking,andwhatnot,thattendedtodestroythesoul。ButIfoundatlast,byhearingandconsideringofthingsthataredivine,whichindeedIheardofyou,asalsoofbelovedFaithfulthatwasputtodeathforhisfaithandgoodlivinginVanityFair,that\"theendofthesethingsisdeath\"。

[Rom。6:21—23]Andthatforthesethings’sake\"comeththewrathofGoduponthechildrenofdisobedience\"。[Eph。5:6]

CHR。Anddidyoupresentlyfallunderthepowerofthisconviction?

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HOPE。No,Iwasnotwillingpresentlytoknowtheevilofsin,northedamnationthatfollowsuponthecommissionofit;

butendeavoured,whenmymindatfirstbegantobeshakenwiththeWord,toshutmineeyesagainstthelightthereof。

CHR。ButwhatwasthecauseofyourcarryingofitthustothefirstworkingsofGod’sblessedSpirituponyou?

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HOPE。Thecauseswere,1。IwasignorantthatthiswastheworkofGoduponme。Ineverthoughtthat,byawakeningsforsin,Godatfirstbeginstheconversionofasinner。2。Sinwasyetverysweettomyflesh,andIwasloathtoleaveit。3。

Icouldnottellhowtopartwithmineoldcompanions,theirpresenceandactionsweresodesirableuntome。4。Thehoursinwhichconvictionswereuponmeweresuchtroublesomeandsuchheart—affrightinghoursthatIcouldnotbear,nonotsomuchastheremembranceofthem,uponmyheart。

CHR。Then,asitseems,sometimesyougotridofyourtrouble。

HOPE。Yes,verily,butitwouldcomeintomymindagain,andthenIshouldbeasbad,nay,worse,thanIwasbefore。

CHR。Why,whatwasitthatbroughtyoursinstomindagain?

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HOPE。Manythings;as,1。IfIdidbutmeetagoodmaninthestreets;or,2。IfIhaveheardanyreadintheBible;or,3。Ifmineheaddidbegintoache;or,4。IfIweretoldthatsomeofmyneighboursweresick;or,5。IfIheardthebelltollforsomethatweredead;or,6。IfIthoughtofdyingmyself;or,7。IfIheardthatsuddendeathhappenedtoothers;

8。Butespecially,whenIthoughtofmyself,thatImustquicklycometojudgment。

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CHR。Andcouldyouatanytime,withease,getofftheguiltofsin,whenbyanyofthesewaysitcameuponyou?

HOPE。No,notI,forthentheygotfasterholdofmyconscience;

andthen,ifIdidbutthinkofgoingbacktosin,(thoughmymindwasturnedagainstit),itwouldbedoubletormenttome。

CHR。Andhowdidyoudothen?



HOPE。IthoughtImustendeavourtomendmylife;forelse,thoughtI,Iamsuretobedamned。

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CHR。Anddidyouendeavourtomend?

HOPE。Yes;andfledfromnotonlymysins,butsinfulcompanytoo;

andbetookmetoreligiousduties,asprayer,reading,weepingforsin,speakingtruthtomyneighbours,&c。ThesethingsdidI,withmanyothers,toomuchheretorelate。

CHR。Anddidyouthinkyourselfwellthen?



HOPE。Yes,forawhile;butatthelast,mytroublecametumblinguponmeagain,andthatovertheneckofallmyreformations。

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CHR。Howcamethatabout,sinceyouwerenowreformed?



HOPE。Therewereseveralthingsbroughtituponme,especiallysuchsayingsasthese:\"Allourrighteousnessesareasfilthyrags。\"[Isa。64:6]\"Bytheworksofthelawshallnofleshbejustified。\"[Gal。2:16]\"Whenyeshallhavedoneallthosethings,say,Weareunprofitable\",[Luke17:10]withmanymoresuchlike。FromwhenceIbegantoreasonwithmyselfthus:

IfALLmyrighteousnessesarefilthyrags;if,bythedeedsofthelaw,NOmancanbejustified;andif,whenwehavedoneALL,weareyetunprofitable,thenitisbutafollytothinkofheavenbythelaw。

Ifurtherthoughtthus:Ifamanrunsahundredpoundsintotheshopkeeper’sdebt,andafterthatshallpayforallthatheshallfetch;yet,ifthisolddebtstandsstillinthebookuncrossed,forthattheshopkeepermaysuehim,andcasthimintoprisontillheshallpaythedebt。

CHR。Well,andhowdidyouapplythistoyourself?

HOPE。Why;Ithoughtthuswithmyself。Ihave,bymysins,runagreatwayintoGod’sbook,andthatmynowreformingwillnotpayoffthatscore;thereforeIshouldthinkstill,underallmypresentamendments,ButhowshallIbefreedfromthatdamnationthatIhavebroughtmyselfindangerofbymyformertransgressions?

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CHR。Averygoodapplication:but,pray,goon。



HOPE。Anotherthingthathathtroubledme,evensincemylateamendments,is,thatifIlooknarrowlyintothebestofwhatIdonow,Istillseesin,newsin,mixingitselfwiththebestofthatIdo;sothatnowIamforcedtoconclude,thatnotwithstandingmyformerfondconceitsofmyselfandduties,Ihavecommittedsinenoughinonedutytosendmetohell,thoughmyformerlifehadbeenfaultless。

CHR。Andwhatdidyoudothen?

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HOPE。Do!Icouldnottellwhattodo,untilIbrakemymindtoFaithful,forheandIwerewellacquainted。Andhetoldme,thatunlessIcouldobtaintherighteousnessofamanthatneverhadsinned,neithermineown,noralltherighteousnessoftheworldcouldsaveme。

CHR。Anddidyouthinkhespaketrue?

HOPE。HadhetoldmesowhenIwaspleasedandsatisfiedwithmineownamendment,Ihadcalledhimfoolforhispains;

butnow,sinceIseemineowninfirmity,andthesinthatcleavestomybestperformance,Ihavebeenforcedtobeofhisopinion。

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CHR。Butdidyouthink,whenatfirsthesuggestedittoyou,thattherewassuchamantobefound,ofwhomitmightjustlybesaidthathenevercommittedsin?



HOPE。Imustconfessthewordsatfirstsoundedstrangely,butafteralittlemoretalkandcompanywithhim,Ihadfullconvictionaboutit。

CHR。Anddidyouaskhimwhatmanthiswas,andhowyoumustbejustifiedbyhim?



HOPE。Yes,andhetoldmeitwastheLordJesus,thatdwellethontherighthandoftheMostHigh。Andthus,saidhe,youmustbejustifiedbyhim,evenbytrustingtowhathehathdonebyhimself,inthedaysofhisflesh,andsufferedwhenhedidhangonthetree。

Iaskedhimfurther,howthatman’srighteousnesscouldbeofthatefficacytojustifyanotherbeforeGod?AndhetoldmehewasthemightyGod,anddidwhathedid,anddiedthedeathalso,notforhimself,butforme;towhomhisdoings,andtheworthinessofthem,shouldbeimputed,ifIbelievedonhim。[Heb。10,Rom。

6,Col。1,1Pet。1]

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CHR。Andwhatdidyoudothen?



HOPE。Imademyobjectionsagainstmybelieving,forthatIthoughthewasnotwillingtosaveme。

CHR。AndwhatsaidFaithfultoyouthen?



HOPE。Hebidmegotohimandsee。ThenIsaiditwaspresumption;

buthesaid,No,forIwasinvitedtocome。[Matt。11:28]

ThenhegavemeabookofJesus,hisinditing,toencouragemethemorefreelytocome;andhesaid,concerningthatbook,thateveryjotandtittlethereofstoodfirmerthanheavenandearth。

[Matt。24:35]ThenIaskedhim,WhatImustdowhenIcame;andhetoldme,Imustentreatuponmyknees,withallmyheartandsoul,theFathertorevealhimtome。[Ps。95:6,Dan。6:10,Jer。29:12,13]

ThenIaskedhimfurther,howImustmakemysupplicationtohim?

Andhesaid,Go,andthoushaltfindhimuponamercy—seat,wherehesitsalltheyearlong,togivepardonandforgivenesstothemthatcome。ItoldhimthatIknewnotwhattosaywhenIcame。

Andhebidmesaytothiseffect:

Godbemercifultomeasinner,andmakemetoknowandbelieveinJesusChrist;forIsee,thatifhisrighteousnesshadnotbeen,orIhavenotfaithinthatrighteousness,Iamutterlycastaway。

Lord,IhaveheardthatthouartamercifulGod,andhastordainedthatthySonJesusChristshouldbetheSaviouroftheworld;

andmoreover,thatthouartwillingtobestowhimuponsuchapoorsinnerasIam,(andIamasinnerindeed);Lord,takethereforethisopportunityandmagnifythygraceinthesalvationofmysoul,throughthySonJesusChrist。Amen。

[Exo。25:22,Lev。16:2,Num。7:89,Heb。4:16]

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CHR。Anddidyoudoasyouwerebidden?



HOPE。Yes;over,andover,andover。

CHR。AnddidtheFatherrevealhisSontoyou?

HOPE。Notatthefirst,norsecond,northird,norfourth,norfifth;

no,noratthesixthtimeneither。

CHR。Whatdidyoudothen?

HOPE。What!whyIcouldnottellwhattodo。

CHR。Hadyounotthoughtsofleavingoffpraying?



HOPE。Yes;anhundredtimestwicetold。

CHR。Andwhatwasthereasonyoudidnot?



HOPE。Ibelievedthatthatwastruewhichhadbeentoldme,towit,thatwithouttherighteousnessofthisChrist,alltheworldcouldnotsaveme;andtherefore,thoughtIwithmyself,ifIleaveoffIdie,andIcanbutdieatthethroneofgrace。

Andwithal,thiscameintomymind,\"Thoughittarry,waitforit;

becauseitwillsurelycome,itwillnottarry。\"[Heb。2:3]

SoIcontinuedprayinguntiltheFathershowedmehisSon。

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CHR。Andhowwasherevealeduntoyou?



HOPE。Ididnotseehimwithmybodilyeyes,butwiththeeyesofmyunderstanding;[Eph。1:18,19]andthusitwas:

OnedayIwasverysad,Ithinksadderthanatanyonetimeinmylife,andthissadnesswasthroughafreshsightofthegreatnessandvilenessofmysins。AndasIwasthenlookingfornothingbuthell,andtheeverlastingdamnationofmysoul,suddenly,asIthought,IsawtheLordJesusChristlookdownfromheavenuponme,andsaying,\"BelieveontheLordJesusChrist,andthoushaltbesaved。\"

[Acts16:30,31]

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ButIreplied,Lord,Iamagreat,averygreatsinner。

Andheanswered,\"Mygraceissufficientforthee。\"[2Cor。12:9]

ThenIsaid,But,Lord,whatisbelieving?AndthenIsawfromthatsaying,\"Hethatcomethtomeshallneverhunger,andhethatbelievethonmeshallneverthirst\",thatbelievingandcomingwasallone;andthathethatcame,thatis,ranoutinhisheartandaffectionsaftersalvationbyChrist,heindeedbelievedinChrist。[John6:35]Thenthewaterstoodinmineeyes,andIaskedfurther。But,Lord,maysuchagreatsinnerasIambeindeedacceptedofthee,andbesavedbythee?AndIheardhimsay,\"Andhimthatcomethtome,Iwillinnowisecastout。\"[John6:37]ThenIsaid,Buthow,Lord,mustIconsideroftheeinmycomingtothee,thatmyfaithmaybeplacedarightuponthee?Thenhesaid,\"ChristJesuscameintotheworldtosavesinners。\"[1Tim。1:15]\"Heistheendofthelawforrighteousnesstoeveryonethatbelieveth。\"[Rom。

10:4]

\"Hediedforoursins,androseagainforourjustification。\"

[Rom。4:25]\"Helovedus,andwashedusfromoursinsinhisownblood。\"[Rev。1:5]\"HeismediatorbetwixtGodandus。\"

[1Tim。2:5]\"Heeverlivethtomakeintercessionforus。\"

[Heb。7:24,25]FromallwhichIgathered,thatImustlookforrighteousnessinhisperson,andforsatisfactionformysinsbyhisblood;thatwhathedidinobediencetohisFather’slaw,andinsubmittingtothepenaltythereof,wasnotforhimself,butforhimthatwillacceptitforhissalvation,andbethankful。

Andnowwasmyheartfullofjoy,mineeyesfulloftears,andmineaffectionsrunningoverwithlovetothename,people,andwaysofJesusChrist。

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CHR。ThiswasarevelationofChristtoyoursoulindeed;

buttellmeparticularlywhateffectthishaduponyourspirit。

HOPE。Itmademeseethatalltheworld,notwithstandingalltherighteousnessthereof,isinastateofcondemnation。

ItmademeseethatGodtheFather,thoughhebejust,canjustlyjustifythecomingsinner。Itmademegreatlyashamedofthevilenessofmyformerlife,andconfoundedmewiththesenseofmineownignorance;fortherenevercamethoughtintomyheartbeforenowthatshowedmesothebeautyofJesusChrist。

Itmademeloveaholylife,andlongtodosomethingforthehonourandgloryofthenameoftheLordJesus;yea,IthoughtthathadInowathousandgallonsofbloodinmybody,IcouldspillitallforthesakeoftheLordJesus。

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IsawtheninmydreamthatHopefullookedbackandsawIgnorance,whomtheyhadleftbehind,comingafter。Look,saidhetoChristian,howfaryonderyoungsterloiterethbehind。

CHR。Ay,ay,Iseehim;hecarethnotforourcompany。

HOPE。ButItrowitwouldnothavehurthimhadhekeptpacewithushitherto。

CHR。Thatistrue;butIwarrantyouhethinkethotherwise。

HOPE。That,Ithink,hedoth;but,however,letustarryforhim。

Sotheydid。

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ThenChristiansaidtohim,Comeaway,man,whydoyoustaysobehind?

IGNOR。Itakemypleasureinwalkingalone,evenmoreagreatdealthanincompany,unlessIlikeitthebetter。

ThensaidChristiantoHopeful,(butsoftly),DidInottellyouhecarednotforourcompany?But,however,saidhe,comeup,andletustalkawaythetimeinthissolitaryplace。

ThendirectinghisspeechtoIgnorance,hesaid,Come,howdoyou?

HowstandsitbetweenGodandyoursoulnow?

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IGNOR。Ihopewell;forIamalwaysfullofgoodmotions,thatcomeintomymind,tocomfortmeasIwalk。

CHR。Whatgoodmotions?pray,tellus。

IGNOR。Why,IthinkofGodandheaven。

CHR。Sodothedevilsanddamnedsouls。

IGNOR。ButIthinkofthemanddesirethem。

CHR。Sodomanythatareneverliketocomethere。

\"Thesoulofthesluggarddesireth,andhathnothing。\"[Prov。

13:4]

IGNOR。ButIthinkofthem,andleaveallforthem。

CHR。ThatIdoubt;forleavingallisahardmatter:yea,ahardermatterthanmanyareawareof。Butwhy,orbywhat,artthoupersuadedthatthouhastleftallforGodandheaven。

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IGNOR。Myhearttellsmeso。

CHR。Thewisemansays,\"Hethattrustshisownheartisafool。\"

[Prov。28:26]

IGNOR。Thisisspokenofanevilheart,butmineisagoodone。

CHR。Buthowdostthouprovethat?

IGNOR。Itcomfortsmeinhopesofheaven。

CHR。Thatmaybethroughitsdeceitfulness;foraman’sheartmayministercomforttohiminthehopesofthatthingforwhichheyethasnogroundtohope。

IGNOR。Butmyheartandlifeagreetogether,andthereforemyhopeiswellgrounded。

CHR。Whotoldtheethatthyheartandlifeagreetogether?

IGNOR。Myhearttellsmeso。

CHR。AskmyfellowifIbeathief!Thyhearttellstheeso!

ExcepttheWordofGodbearethwitnessinthismatter,othertestimonyisofnovalue。

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IGNOR。Butisitnotagoodheartthathathgoodthoughts?

andisnotthatagoodlifethatisaccordingtoGod’scommandments?

CHR。Yes,thatisagoodheartthathathgoodthoughts,andthatisagoodlifethatisaccordingtoGod’scommandments;

butitisonething,indeed,tohavethese,andanotherthingonlytothinkso。

IGNOR。Pray,whatcountyougoodthoughts,andalifeaccordingtoGod’scommandments?

CHR。Therearegoodthoughtsofdiverskinds;somerespectingourselves,someGod,someChrist,andsomeotherthings。



IGNOR。Whatbegoodthoughtsrespectingourselves?

CHR。SuchasagreewiththeWordofGod。

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IGNOR。WhendoourthoughtsofourselvesagreewiththeWordofGod?

CHR。WhenwepassthesamejudgmentuponourselveswhichtheWordpasses。Toexplainmyself——theWordofGodsaithofpersonsinanaturalcondition,\"Thereisnonerighteous,thereisnonethatdoethgood。\"[Rom。3]Itsaithalso,that\"everyimaginationoftheheartofmanisonlyevil,andthatcontinually。\"[Gen。6:5]Andagain,\"Theimaginationofman’sheartisevilfromhisyouth。\"[Rom。8:21]Nowthen,whenwethinkthusofourselves,havingsensethereof,thenareourthoughtsgoodones,becauseaccordingtotheWordofGod。

IGNOR。Iwillneverbelievethatmyheartisthusbad。

CHR。Thereforethouneverhadstonegoodthoughtconcerningthyselfinthylife。Butletmegoon。AstheWordpassethajudgmentuponourheart,soitpassethajudgmentuponourways;andwhenOURthoughtsofourheartsandwaysagreewiththejudgmentwhichtheWordgivethofboth,thenarebothgood,becauseagreeingthereto。

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IGNOR。Makeoutyourmeaning。

CHR。Why,theWordofGodsaiththatman’swaysarecrookedways;

notgood,butperverse。[Ps。125:5,Prov。2:15]Itsaiththeyarenaturallyoutofthegoodway,thattheyhavenotknownit。

[Rom。3]Now,whenamanthusthinkethofhisways,——Isay,whenhedothsensibly,andwithheart—humiliation,thusthink,thenhathhegoodthoughtsofhisownways,becausehisthoughtsnowagreewiththejudgmentoftheWordofGod。

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IGNOR。WhataregoodthoughtsconcerningGod?

CHR。EvenasIhavesaidconcerningourselves,whenourthoughtsofGoddoagreewithwhattheWordsaithofhim;andthatis,whenwethinkofhisbeingandattributesastheWordhathtaught,ofwhichIcannotnowdiscourseatlarge;buttospeakofhimwithreferencetous:ThenwehaverightthoughtsofGod,whenwethinkthatheknowsusbetterthanweknowourselves,andcanseesininuswhenandwherewecanseenoneinourselves;

whenwethinkheknowsourinmostthoughts,andthatourheart,withallitsdepths,isalwaysopenuntohiseyes;also,whenwethinkthatallourrighteousnessstinksinhisnostrils,andthat,therefore,hecannotabidetoseeusstandbeforehiminanyconfidence,eveninallourbestperformances。

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IGNOR。DoyouthinkthatIamsuchafoolastothinkGodcanseenofurtherthanI?or,thatIwouldcometoGodinthebestofmyperformances?

CHR。Why,howdostthouthinkinthismatter?

IGNOR。Why,tobeshort,IthinkImustbelieveinChristforjustification。

CHR。How!thinkthoumustbelieveinChrist,whenthouseestnotthyneedofhim!Thouneitherseestthyoriginalnoractualinfirmities;

buthastsuchanopinionofthyself,andofwhatthoudost,asplainlyrenderstheetobeonethatdidneverseeanecessityofChrist’spersonalrighteousnesstojustifytheebeforeGod。

How,then,dostthousay,IbelieveinChrist?

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IGNOR。Ibelievewellenoughforallthat。

CHR。Howdostthoubelieve?



IGNOR。IbelievethatChristdiedforsinners,andthatIshallbejustifiedbeforeGodfromthecurse,throughhisgraciousacceptanceofmyobediencetohislaw。Orthus,Christmakesmyduties,thatarereligious,acceptabletohisFather,byvirtueofhismerits;

andsoshallIbejustified。

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CHR。Letmegiveananswertothisconfessionofthyfaith:——

1。Thoubelievestwithafantasticalfaith;forthisfaithisnowheredescribedintheWord。

2。Thoubelievestwithafalsefaith;becauseittakethjustificationfromthepersonalrighteousnessofChrist,andappliesittothyown。

3。ThisfaithmakethnotChristajustifierofthyperson,butofthyactions;andofthypersonforthyactions’sake,whichisfalse。

4。Therefore,thisfaithisdeceitful,evensuchaswillleavetheeunderwrath,inthedayofGodAlmighty;fortruejustifyingfaithputsthesoul,assensibleofitsconditionbythelaw,uponflyingforrefugeuntoChrist’srighteousness,whichrighteousnessofhisisnotanactofgrace,bywhichhemakethforjustification,thyobedienceacceptedwithGod;buthispersonalobediencetothelaw,indoingandsufferingforuswhatthatrequiredatourhands;

thisrighteousness,Isay,truefaithaccepteth;undertheskirtofwhich,thesoulbeingshrouded,andbyitpresentedasspotlessbeforeGod,itisaccepted,andacquitfromcondemnation。

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IGNOR。What!wouldyouhaveustrusttowhatChrist,inhisownperson,hasdonewithoutus?Thisconceitwouldloosenthereinsofourlust,andtolerateustoliveaswelist;forwhatmatterhowwelive,ifwemaybejustifiedbyChrist’spersonalrighteousnessfromall,whenwebelieveit?

CHR。Ignoranceisthyname,andasthynameis,soartthou;

eventhisthyanswerdemonstratethwhatIsay。Ignorantthouartofwhatjustifyingrighteousnessis,andasignoranthowtosecurethysoul,throughthefaithofit,fromtheheavywrathofGod。

Yea,thoualsoartignorantofthetrueeffectsofsavingfaithinthisrighteousnessofChrist,whichis,tobowandwinoverthehearttoGodinChrist,tolovehisname,hisword,ways,andpeople,andnotasthouignorantlyimaginest。

HOPE。AskhimifeverhehadChristrevealedtohimfromheaven。

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IGNOR。What!youareamanforrevelations!Ibelievethatwhatbothyou,andalltherestofyou,sayaboutthatmatter,isbutthefruitofdistractedbrains。

HOPE。Why,man!ChristissohidinGodfromthenaturalapprehensionsoftheflesh,thathecannotbyanymanbesavinglyknown,unlessGodtheFatherrevealshimtothem。

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IGNOR。Thatisyourfaith,butnotmine;yetmine,Idoubtnot,isasgoodasyours,thoughIhavenotinmyheadsomanywhimsiesasyou。

CHR。Givemeleavetoputinaword。Yououghtnotsoslightlytospeakofthismatter;forthisIwillboldlyaffirm,evenasmygoodcompanionhathdone,thatnomancanknowJesusChristbutbytherevelationoftheFather;[Matt。11:27]yea,andfaithtoo,bywhichthesoullayethholduponChrist,ifitberight,mustbewroughtbytheexceedinggreatnessofhismightypower;

theworkingofwhichfaith,Iperceive,poorIgnorance,thouartignorantof。[1Cor。12:3,Eph。1:18,19]Beawakened,then,seethineownwretchedness,andflytotheLordJesus;

andbyhisrighteousness,whichistherighteousnessofGod,forhehimselfisGod,thoushaltbedeliveredfromcondemnation。

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IGNOR。Yougosofast,Icannotkeeppacewithyou。

Doyougoonbefore;Imuststayawhilebehind。

Thentheysaid——

Well,Ignorance,wiltthouyetfoolishbe,Toslightgoodcounsel,tentimesgiventhee?

Andifthouyetrefuseit,thoushaltknow,Erelong,theevilofthydoingso。

Remember,man,intime,stoop,donotfear;

Goodcounseltakenwell,saves:thereforehear。

Butifthouyetshaltslightit,thouwiltbeTheloser,(Ignorance),I’llwarrantthee。

ThenChristianaddressedthushimselftohisfellow:——

CHR。Well,come,mygoodHopeful,IperceivethatthouandI

mustwalkbyourselvesagain。

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SoIsawinmydreamthattheywentonapacebefore,andIgnorancehecamehobblingafter。ThensaidChristiantohiscompanion,Itpitiesmemuchforthispoorman,itwillcertainlygoillwithhimatlast。

HOPE。Alas!thereareabundanceinourtowninhiscondition,wholefamilies,yea,wholestreets,andthatofpilgrimstoo;

andiftherebesomanyinourparts,howmany,thinkyou,musttherebeintheplacewherehewasborn?

CHR。IndeedtheWordsaith,\"Hehathblindedtheireyes,lesttheyshouldsee\",&c。Butnowwearebyourselves,whatdoyouthinkofsuchmen?Havetheyatnotime,thinkyou,convictionsofsin,andsoconsequentlyfearsthattheirstateisdangerous?

HOPE。Nay,doyouanswerthatquestionyourself,foryouaretheelderman。

CHR。ThenIsay,sometimes(asIthink)theymay;buttheybeingnaturallyignorant,understandnotthatsuchconvictionstendtotheirgood;andthereforetheydodesperatelyseektostiflethem,andpresumptuouslycontinuetoflatterthemselvesinthewayoftheirownhearts。

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HOPE。Idobelieve,asyousay,thatfeartendsmuchtomen’sgood,andtomakethemright,attheirbeginningtogoonpilgrimage。

CHR。Withoutalldoubtitdoth,ifitberight;forsosaystheWord,\"ThefearoftheLordisthebeginningofwisdom。\"

[Prov。1:7,9:10,Job28:28,Ps。111:10]

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HOPE。Howwillyoudescriberightfear?



CHR。Trueorrightfearisdiscoveredbythreethings:——

1。Byitsrise;itiscausedbysavingconvictionsforsin。

2。ItdriveththesoultolayfastholdofChristforsalvation。

3。ItbegettethandcontinuethinthesoulagreatreverenceofGod,hisWord,andways,keepingittender,andmakingitafraidtoturnfromthem,totherighthandortotheleft,toanythingthatmaydishonourGod,breakitspeace,grievetheSpirit,orcausetheenemytospeakreproachfully。

HOPE。Wellsaid;Ibelieveyouhavesaidthetruth。

ArewenowalmostgotpasttheEnchantedGround?

CHR。Why,artthouwearyofthisdiscourse?

HOPE。No,verily,butthatIwouldknowwhereweare。

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CHR。Wehavenotnowabovetwomilesfurthertogothereon。

Butletusreturntoourmatter。Nowtheignorantknownotthatsuchconvictionsastendtoputtheminfeararefortheirgood,andthereforetheyseektostiflethem。

HOPE。Howdotheyseektostiflethem?

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CHR。1。Theythinkthatthosefearsarewroughtbythedevil,(thoughindeedtheyarewroughtofGod);and,thinkingso,theyresistthemasthingsthatdirectlytendtotheiroverthrow。

2。Theyalsothinkthatthesefearstendtothespoilingoftheirfaith,when,alas,forthem,poormenthattheyare,theyhavenoneatall!andthereforetheyhardentheirheartsagainstthem。

3。Theypresumetheyoughtnottofear;and,therefore,indespiteofthem,waxpresumptuouslyconfident。

4。Theyseethatthosefearstendtotakeawayfromthemtheirpitifuloldself—holiness,andthereforetheyresistthemwithalltheirmight。

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HOPE。Iknowsomethingofthismyself;for,beforeIknewmyself,itwassowithme。

CHR。Well,wewillleave,atthistime,ourneighbourIgnorancebyhimself,andfalluponanotherprofitablequestion。

HOPE。Withallmyheart,butyoushallstillbegin。



CHR。Wellthen,didyounotknow,abouttenyearsago,oneTemporaryinyourparts,whowasaforwardmaninreligionthen?



HOPE。Knowhim!yes,hedweltinGraceless,atownabouttwomilesoffofHonesty,andhedweltnextdoortooneTurnback。

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CHR。Right,hedweltunderthesameroofwithhim。Well,thatmanwasmuchawakenedonce;Ibelievethatthenhehadsomesightofhissins,andofthewagesthatwereduethereto。

HOPE。Iamofyourmind,for,myhousenotbeingabovethreemilesfromhim,hewouldofttimescometome,andthatwithmanytears。

TrulyIpitiedtheman,andwasnotaltogetherwithouthopeofhim;

butonemaysee,itisnoteveryonethatcries,Lord,Lord。

CHR。Hetoldmeoncethathewasresolvedtogoonpilgrimage,aswedonow;butallofasuddenhegrewacquaintedwithoneSave—self,andthenhebecameastrangertome。

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HOPE。Now,sincewearetalkingabouthim,letusalittleinquireintothereasonofthesuddenbackslidingofhimandsuchothers。

CHR。Itmaybeveryprofitable,butdoyoubegin。



HOPE。Well,then,thereareinmyjudgmentfourreasonsforit:——

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1。Thoughtheconsciencesofsuchmenareawakened,yettheirmindsarenotchanged;therefore,whenthepowerofguiltwearethaway,thatwhichprovokedthemtobereligiousceaseth,whereforetheynaturallyturntotheirowncourseagain,evenasweseethedogthatissickofwhathehaseaten,solongashissicknessprevailshevomitsandcastsupall;notthathedoththisofafreemind(ifwemaysayadoghasamind),butbecauseittroublethhisstomach;

butnow,whenhissicknessisover,andsohisstomacheased,hisdesirebeingnotatallalienatefromhisvomit,heturnshimaboutandlicksupall,andsoitistruewhichiswritten,\"Thedogisturnedtohisownvomitagain。\"[2Pet。2:22]ThusIsay,beinghotforheaven,byvirtueonlyofthesenseandfearofthetormentsofhell,astheirsenseofhellandthefearsofdamnationchillsandcools,sotheirdesiresforheavenandsalvationcoolalso。Sothenitcomestopass,thatwhentheirguiltandfearisgone,theirdesiresforheavenandhappinessdie,andtheyreturntotheircourseagain。

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2。Anotherreasonis,theyhaveslavishfearsthatdoovermasterthem;

Ispeaknowofthefearsthattheyhaveofmen,for\"thefearofmanbringethasnare\"。[Prov。29:25]Sothen,thoughtheyseemtobehotforheaven,solongastheflamesofhellareabouttheirears,yetwhenthatterrorisalittleover,theybetakethemselvestosecondthoughts;namely,thatitisgoodtobewise,andnottorun(fortheyknownotwhat)thehazardoflosingall,or,atleast,ofbringingthemselvesintounavoidableandunnecessarytroubles,andsotheyfallinwiththeworldagain。

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3。Theshamethatattendsreligionliesalsoasablockintheirway;

theyareproudandhaughty;andreligionintheireyeislowandcontemptible,therefore,whentheyhavelosttheirsenseofhellandwrathtocome,theyreturnagaintotheirformercourse。

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4。Guilt,andtomeditateterror,aregrievoustothem。

Theylikenottoseetheirmiserybeforetheycomeintoit;

thoughperhapsthesightofitfirst,iftheylovedthatsight,mightmakethemflywhithertherighteousflyandaresafe。

Butbecausetheydo,asIhintedbefore,evenshunthethoughtsofguiltandterror,therefore,whenoncetheyareridoftheirawakeningsabouttheterrorsandwrathofGod,theyhardentheirheartsgladly,andchoosesuchwaysaswillhardenthemmoreandmore。

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CHR。Youareprettynearthebusiness,forthebottomofallisforwantofachangeintheirmindandwill。Andthereforetheyarebutlikethefelonthatstandethbeforethejudge,hequakesandtrembles,andseemstorepentmostheartily,butthebottomofallisthefearofthehalter;notthathehathanydetestationoftheoffence,asisevident,because,letbutthismanhavehisliberty,andhewillbeathief,andsoaroguestill,whereas,ifhismindwaschanged,hewouldbeotherwise。

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HOPE。NowIhaveshowedyouthereasonsoftheirgoingback,doyoushowmethemannerthereof。

CHR。SoIwillwillingly。



1。Theydrawofftheirthoughts,allthattheymay,fromtheremembranceofGod,death,andjudgmenttocome。

2。Thentheycastoffbydegreesprivateduties,asclosetprayer,curbingtheirlusts,watching,sorrowforsin,andthelike。

3。ThentheyshunthecompanyoflivelyandwarmChristians。

4。Afterthattheygrowcoldtopublicduty,ashearing,reading,godlyconference,andthelike。

5。Thentheybegintopickholes,aswesay,inthecoatsofsomeofthegodly;andthatdevilishly,thattheymayhaveaseemingcolourtothrowreligion(forthesakeofsomeinfirmitytheyhaveespiedinthem)behindtheirbacks。

6。Thentheybegintoadhereto,andassociatethemselveswith,carnal,loose,andwantonmen。

7。Thentheygivewaytocarnalandwantondiscoursesinsecret;

andgladaretheyiftheycanseesuchthingsinanythatarecountedhonest,thattheymaythemoreboldlydoitthroughtheirexample。

8。Afterthistheybegintoplaywithlittlesinsopenly。

9。Andthen,beinghardened,theyshowthemselvesastheyare。

Thus,beinglaunchedagainintothegulfofmisery,unlessamiracleofgracepreventit,theyeverlastinglyperishintheirowndeceivings。

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NowIsawinmydream,thatbythistimethePilgrimsweregotovertheEnchantedGround,andenteringintothecountryofBeulah,whoseairwasverysweetandpleasant,thewaylyingdirectlythroughit,theysolacedthemselvesthereforaseason。Yea,heretheyheardcontinuallythesingingofbirds,andsaweverydaytheflowersappearontheearth,andheardthevoiceoftheturtleintheland。