第3章

Hewonderedwhatthosemenhadeatenthattheycouldbeinsuchhastetoforcetheirwaytogrimchancesofdeath。Ashewatchedhisenvygrewuntilhethoughtthathewishedtochangeliveswithoneofthem。Hewouldhavelikedtohaveusedatremendousforce,hesaid,throwoffhimselfandbecomeabetter。Swiftpicturesofhimself,apart,yetinhimself,cametohim——abluedesperatefigureleadingluridchargeswithonekneeforwardandabrokenbladehigh——ablue,determinedfigurestandingbeforeacrimsonandsteelassault,gettingcalmlykilledonahighplacebeforetheeyesofall。Hethoughtofthemagnificentpathosofhisdeadbody。

Thesethoughtsupliftedhim。Hefeltthequiverofwardesire。Inhisears,heheardtheringofvictory。Heknewthefrenzyofarapidsuccessfulcharge。Themusicofthetramplingfeet,thesharpvoices,theclankingarmsofthecolumnnearhimmadehimsoarontheredwingsofwar。Forafewmomentshewassublime。

Hethoughtthathewasabouttostartforthefront。Indeed,hesawapictureofhimself,dust—

stained,haggard,panting,flyingtothefrontatthepropermomenttoseizeandthrottlethedark,leeringwitchofcalamity。

Thenthedifficultiesofthethingbegantodragathim。Hehesitated,balancingawkwardlyononefoot。

Hehadnorifle;hecouldnotfightwithhishands,saidheresentfullytohisplan。Well,riflescouldbehadforthepicking。Theywereextraordinarilyprofuse。

Also,hecontinued,itwouldbeamiracleifhefoundhisregiment。Well,hecouldfightwithanyregiment。

Hestartedforwardslowly。Hesteppedasifheexpectedtotreaduponsomeexplosivething。

Doubtsandhewerestruggling。

Hewouldtrulybeawormifanyofhiscom—

radesshouldseehimreturningthus,themarksofhisflightuponhim。Therewasareplythattheintentfightersdidnotcareforwhathappenedrearwardsavingthatnohostilebayonetsap—

pearedthere。Inthebattle—blurhisfacewould,inawaybehidden,likethefaceofacowledman。

Butthenhesaidthathistirelessfatewouldbringforth,whenthestrifelulledforamoment,amantoaskofhimanexplanation。Inimagina—

tionhefeltthescrutinyofhiscompanionsashepainfullylaboredthroughsomelies。

Eventually,hiscourageexpendeditselfupontheseobjections。Thedebatesdrainedhimofhisfire。

Hewasnotcastdownbythisdefeatofhisplan,for,uponstudyingtheaffaircarefully,hecouldnotbutadmitthattheobjectionswereveryformidable。

Furthermore,variousailmentshadbeguntocryout。Intheirpresencehecouldnotpersistinflyinghighwiththewingsofwar;theyrendereditalmostimpossibleforhimtoseehim—

selfinaheroiclight。Hetumbledheadlong。

Hediscoveredthathehadascorchingthirst。

Hisfacewassodryandgrimythathethoughthecouldfeelhisskincrackle。Eachboneofhisbodyhadanacheinit,andseeminglythreatenedtobreakwitheachmovement。Hisfeetwereliketwosores。Also,hisbodywascallingforfood。Itwasmorepowerfulthanadirecthunger。

Therewasadull,weightlikefeelinginhisstom—

ach,and,whenhetriedtowalk,hisheadswayedandhetottered。Hecouldnotseewithdistinct—

ness。Smallpatchesofgreenmistfloatedbeforehisvision。

Whilehehadbeentossedbymanyemotions,hehadnotbeenawareofailments。Nowtheybesethimandmadeclamor。Ashewasatlastcompelledtopayattentiontothem,hiscapacityforself—hatewasmultiplied。Indespair,hedeclaredthathewasnotlikethoseothers。Henowconcededittobeimpossiblethatheshouldeverbecomeahero。Hewasacravenloon。

Thosepicturesofglorywerepiteousthings。Hegroanedfromhisheartandwentstaggeringoff。

Acertainmothlikequalitywithinhimkepthiminthevicinityofthebattle。Hehadagreatdesiretosee,andtogetnews。Hewishedtoknowwhowaswinning。

Hetoldhimselfthat,despitehisunprecedentedsuffering,hehadneverlosthisgreedforavictory,yet,hesaid,inahalf—apologeticmannertohisconscience,hecouldnotbutknowthatadefeatforthearmythistimemightmeanmanyfavor—

ablethingsforhim。Theblowsoftheenemywouldsplinterregimentsintofragments。Thus,manymenofcourage,heconsidered,wouldbeobligedtodesertthecolorsandscurrylikechickens。Hewouldappearasoneofthem。

Theywouldbesullenbrothersindistress,andhecouldtheneasilybelievehehadnotrunanyfartherorfasterthanthey。Andifhehimselfcouldbelieveinhisvirtuousperfection,hecon—

ceivedthattherewouldbesmalltroubleincon—

vincingallothers。

Hesaid,asifinexcuseforthishope,thatpreviouslythearmyhadencounteredgreatdefeatsandinafewmonthshadshakenoffallbloodandtraditionofthem,emergingasbrightandvaliantasanewone;thrustingoutofsightthememoryofdisaster,andappearingwiththevalorandconfidenceofunconqueredlegions。

Theshrillingvoicesofthepeopleathomewouldpipedismallyforatime,butvariousgeneralswereusuallycompelledtolistentotheseditties。

Heofcoursefeltnocompunctionsforproposingageneralasasacrifice。Hecouldnottellwhothechosenforthebarbsmightbe,sohecouldcenternodirectsympathyuponhim。Thepeoplewereafarandhedidnotconceivepublicopiniontobeaccurateatlongrange。Itwasquiteprobabletheywouldhitthewrongmanwho,afterhehadrecoveredfromhisamazementwouldperhapsspendtherestofhisdaysinwrit—

ingrepliestothesongsofhisallegedfailure。Itwouldbeveryunfortunate,nodoubt,butinthiscaseageneralwasofnoconsequencetotheyouth。

Inadefeattherewouldbearoundaboutvindicationofhimself。Hethoughtitwouldprove,inamanner,thathehadfledearlybecauseofhissuperiorpowersofperception。Aseriousprophetuponpredictingafloodshouldbethefirstmantoclimbatree。Thiswoulddemon—

stratethathewasindeedaseer。

Amoralvindicationwasregardedbytheyouthasaveryimportantthing。Withoutsalve,hecouldnot,hethought,wearthesorebadgeofhisdishonorthroughlife。Withhisheartcon—

tinuallyassuringhimthathewasdespicable,hecouldnotexistwithoutmakingit,throughhisactions,apparenttoallmen。

Ifthearmyhadgonegloriouslyonhewouldbelost。Ifthedinmeantthatnowhisarmy’sflagsweretiltedforwardhewasacondemnedwretch。Hewouldbecompelledtodoomhimselftoisolation。Ifthemenwereadvancing,theirindifferentfeetweretramplinguponhischancesforasuccessfullife。

Asthesethoughtswentrapidlythroughhismind,heturneduponthemandtriedtothrustthemaway。Hedenouncedhimselfasavillain。

Hesaidthathewasthemostunutterablyselfishmaninexistence。Hismindpicturedthesoldierswhowouldplacetheirdefiantbodiesbeforethespearoftheyellingbattlefiend,andashesawtheirdrippingcorpsesonanimaginedfield,hesaidthathewastheirmurderer。

Againhethoughtthathewishedhewasdead。

Hebelievedthatheenviedacorpse。Thinkingoftheslain,heachievedagreatcontemptforsomeofthem,asiftheywereguiltyforthusbecominglifeless。Theymighthavebeenkilledbyluckychances,hesaid,beforetheyhadhadopportunitiestofleeorbeforetheyhadbeenreallytested。Yettheywouldreceivelaurelsfromtradition。Hecriedoutbitterlythattheircrownswerestolenandtheirrobesofglori—

ousmemorieswereshams。However,hestillsaidthatitwasagreatpityhewasnotasthey。

Adefeatofthearmyhadsuggesteditselftohimasameansofescapefromtheconsequencesofhisfall。Heconsidered,now,however,thatitwasuselesstothinkofsuchapossibility。Hiseducationhadbeenthatsuccessforthatmightybluemachinewascertain;thatitwouldmakevictoriesasacontrivanceturnsoutbuttons。Hepresentlydiscardedallhisspeculationsintheotherdirection。Hereturnedtothecreedofsoldiers。

Whenheperceivedagainthatitwasnotpossibleforthearmytobedefeated,hetriedtobethinkhimofafinetalewhichhecouldtakebacktohisregiment,andwithitturntheexpectedshaftsofderision。

But,ashemortallyfearedtheseshafts,itbecameimpossibleforhimtoinventatalehefelthecouldtrust。Heexperimentedwithmanyschemes,butthrewthemasideonebyoneasflimsy。Hewasquicktoseevulnerableplacesinthemall。

Furthermore,hewasmuchafraidthatsomearrowofscornmightlayhimmentallylowbeforehecouldraisehisprotectingtale。

Heimaginedthewholeregimentsaying:

\"Where’sHenryFleming?Herun,didn’t’e?

Oh,my!\"Herecalledvariouspersonswhowouldbequitesuretoleavehimnopeaceaboutit。Theywoulddoubtlessquestionhimwithsneers,andlaughathisstammeringhesi—

tation。Inthenextengagementtheywouldtrytokeepwatchofhimtodiscoverwhenhewouldrun。

Whereverhewentincamp,hewoulden—

counterinsolentandlingeringlycruelstares。Asheimaginedhimselfpassingnearacrowdofcomrades,hecouldhearsomeonesay,\"Therehegoes!\"

Then,asiftheheadsweremovedbyonemuscle,allthefaceswereturnedtowardhimwithwide,derisivegrins。Heseemedtohearsomeonemakeahumorousremarkinalowtone。

Atittheothersallcrowedandcackled。Hewasaslangphrase。

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CHAPTERXII。

THEcolumnthathadbuttedstoutlyattheobstaclesintheroadwaywasbarelyoutoftheyouth’ssightbeforehesawdarkwavesofmencomesweepingoutofthewoodsanddownthroughthefields。Heknewatoncethatthesteelfibershadbeenwashedfromtheirhearts。

Theywereburstingfromtheircoatsandtheirequipmentsasfromentanglements。Theychargeddownuponhimliketerrifiedbuffaloes。

Behindthembluesmokecurledandcloudedabovethetreetops,andthroughthethicketshecouldsometimesseeadistantpinkglare。Thevoicesofthecannonwereclamoringinintermi—

nablechorus。

Theyouthwashorrorstricken。Hestaredinagonyandamazement。Heforgotthathewasengagedincombatingtheuniverse。Hethrewasidehismentalpamphletsonthephiloso—

phyoftheretreatedandrulesfortheguidanceofthedamned。

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Thefightwaslost。Thedragonswerecom—

ingwithinvinciblestrides。Thearmy,helplessinthemattedthicketsandblindedbytheover—

hangingnight,wasgoingtobeswallowed。War,theredanimal,war,theblood—swollengod,wouldhavebloatedfill。

Withinhimsomethingbadetocryout。Hehadtheimpulsetomakearallyingspeech,tosingabattlehymn,buthecouldonlygethistonguetocallintotheair:\"Why——why——what——what’sth’matter?\"

Soonhewasinthemidstofthem。Theywereleapingandscamperingallabouthim。

Theirblanchedfacesshoneinthedusk。Theyseemed,forthemostpart,tobeveryburlymen。

Theyouthturnedfromonetoanotherofthemastheygallopedalong。Hisincoherentquestionswerelost。Theywereheedlessofhisappeals。

Theydidnotseemtoseehim。

Theysometimesgabbledinsanely。Onehugemanwasaskingofthesky:\"Say,wheredeplankroad?Wheredeplankroad!\"Itwasasifhehadlostachild。Heweptinhispainanddismay。

Presently,menwererunninghitherandthitherinallways。Theartillerybooming,forward,rearward,andontheflanksmadejumbleofideasofdirection。Landmarkshadvanishedintothegatheredgloom。Theyouthbegantoimaginethathehadgotintothecenterofthetremendousquarrel,andhecouldperceivenowayoutofit。Fromthemouthsofthefleeingmencameathousandwildquestions,butnoonemadeanswers。

Theyouth,afterrushingaboutandthrowinginterrogationsattheheedlessbandsofretreatinginfantry,finallyclutchedamanbythearm。Theyswungaroundfacetoface。

\"Why——why——\"stammeredtheyouthstrug—

glingwithhisbalkingtongue。

Themanscreamed:\"Letgome!Letgome!\"Hisfacewaslividandhiseyeswereroll—

inguncontrolled。Hewasheavingandpanting。

Hestillgraspedhisrifle,perhapshavingfor—

gottentoreleasehisholduponit。Hetuggedfrantically,andtheyouthbeingcompelledtoleanforwardwasdraggedseveralpaces。

\"Letgome!Letgome!\"

\"Why——why——\"stutteredtheyouth。

\"Well,then!\"bawledthemaninaluridrage。Headroitlyandfiercelyswunghisrifle。

Itcrushedupontheyouth’shead。Themanranon。

Theyouth’sfingershadturnedtopasteupontheother’sarm。Theenergywassmittenfromhismuscles。Hesawtheflamingwingsoflight—

ningflashbeforehisvision。Therewasadeaf—

eningrumbleofthunderwithinhishead。

Suddenlyhislegsseemedtodie。Hesankwrithingtotheground。Hetriedtoarise。Inhiseffortsagainstthenumbingpainhewaslikeamanwrestlingwithacreatureoftheair。

Therewasasinisterstruggle。

Sometimeshewouldachieveapositionhalferect,battlewiththeairforamoment,andthenfallagain,grabbingatthegrass。Hisfacewasofaclammypallor。Deepgroanswerewrenchedfromhim。

Atlast,withatwistingmovement,hegotuponhishandsandknees,andfromthence,likeababetryingtowalk,tohisfeet。Pressinghishandstohistempleshewentlurchingoverthegrass。

Hefoughtanintensebattlewithhisbody。

Hisdulledsenseswishedhimtoswoonandheopposedthemstubbornly,hismindportrayingunknowndangersandmutilationsifheshouldfalluponthefield。Hewenttallsoldierfashion。

Heimaginedsecludedspotswherehecouldfallandbeunmolested。Tosearchforonehestroveagainstthetideofhispain。

Onceheputhishandtothetopofhisheadandtimidlytouchedthewound。Thescratchingpainofthecontactmadehimdrawalongbreaththroughhisclinchedteeth。Hisfingersweredabbledwithblood。Heregardedthemwithafixedstare。

Aroundhimhecouldhearthegrumbleofjoltedcannonasthescurryinghorseswerelashedtowardthefront。Once,ayoungofficeronabesplashedchargernearlyranhimdown。Heturnedandwatchedthemassofguns,men,andhorsessweepinginawidecurvetowardagapinafence。Theofficerwasmakingexcitedmotionswithagauntletedhand。Thegunsfollowedtheteamswithanairofunwillingness,ofbeingdraggedbytheheels。

Someofficersofthescatteredinfantrywerecursingandrailinglikefishwives。Theirscold—

ingvoicescouldbeheardabovethedin。Intotheunspeakablejumbleintheroadwayrodeasquadronofcavalry。Thefadedyellowoftheirfacingsshonebravely。Therewasamightyaltercation。

Theartillerywereassemblingasifforacon—

ference。

Thebluehazeofeveningwasuponthefield。

Thelinesofforestwerelongpurpleshadows。

Onecloudlayalongthewesternskypartlysmotheringthered。

Astheyouthleftthescenebehindhim,heheardthegunssuddenlyroarout。Heimaginedthemshakinginblackrage。Theybelchedandhowledlikebrassdevilsguardingagate。Thesoftairwasfilledwiththetremendousremon—

strance。Withitcametheshatteringpealofopposinginfantry。Turningtolookbehindhim,hecouldseesheetsoforangelightilluminetheshadowydistance。Thereweresubtleandsuddenlightningsinthefarair。Attimeshethoughthecouldseeheavingmassesofmen。

Hehurriedoninthedusk。Thedayhadfadeduntilhecouldbarelydistinguishplaceforhisfeet。Thepurpledarknesswasfilledwithmenwholecturedandjabbered。Sometimeshecouldseethemgesticulatingagainsttheblueandsombersky。Thereseemedtobeagreatruckofmenandmunitionsspreadaboutintheforestandinthefields。

Thelittlenarrowroadwaynowlaylifeless。

Therewereoverturnedwagonslikesun—driedbowlders。Thebedoftheformertorrentwaschokedwiththebodiesofhorsesandsplinteredpartsofwarmachines。

Ithadcometopassthathiswoundpainedhimbutlittle。Hewasafraidtomoverapidly,how—

ever,foradreadofdisturbingit。Heheldhisheadverystillandtookmanyprecautionsagainststumbling。Hewasfilledwithanxiety,andhisfacewaspinchedanddrawninanticipationofthepainofanysuddenmistakeofhisfeetinthegloom。

Histhoughts,ashewalked,fixedintentlyuponhishurt。Therewasacool,liquidfeelingaboutitandheimaginedbloodmovingslowlydownunderhishair。Hisheadseemedswollentoasizethatmadehimthinkhisnecktobeinadequate。

Thenewsilenceofhiswoundmademuchworriment。Thelittleblisteringvoicesofpainthathadcalledoutfromhisscalpwere,hethought,definiteintheirexpressionofdanger。

Bythemhebelievedthathecouldmeasurehisplight。Butwhentheyremainedominouslysilenthebecamefrightenedandimaginedter—

riblefingersthatclutchedintohisbrain。

Amidithebegantoreflectuponvariousincidentsandconditionsofthepast。Hebe—

thoughthimofcertainmealshismotherhadcookedathome,inwhichthosedishesofwhichhewasparticularlyfondhadoccupiedprominentpositions。Hesawthespreadtable。Thepinewallsofthekitchenwereglowinginthewarmlightfromthestove。Too,herememberedhowheandhiscompanionsusedtogofromtheschool—

housetothebankofashadedpool。Hesawhisclothesindisorderlyarrayuponthegrassofthebank。Hefelttheswashofthefragrantwateruponhisbody。Theleavesoftheoverhangingmaplerustledwithmelodyinthewindofyouth—

fulsummer。

Hewasovercomepresentlybyadraggingweariness。Hisheadhungforwardandhisshoulderswerestoopedasifhewerebearingagreatbundle。Hisfeetshuffledalongtheground。

Heheldcontinuousargumentsastowhetherheshouldliedownandsleepatsomenearspot,orforcehimselfonuntilhereachedacertainhaven。Heoftentriedtodismissthequestion,buthisbodypersistedinrebellionandhissensesnaggedathimlikepamperedbabies。

Atlastheheardacheeryvoicenearhisshoulder:\"Yehseemt’beinaprettybadway,boy?\"

Theyouthdidnotlookup,butheassentedwiththicktongue。\"Uh!\"

Theownerofthecheeryvoicetookhimfirmlybythearm。\"Well,\"hesaid,witharoundlaugh,\"I’mgoin’yourway。Th’hullgangisgoin’yourway。An’IguessIkingiveyehalift。\"Theybegantowalklikeadrunkenmanandhisfriend。

Astheywentalong,themanquestionedtheyouthandassistedhimwiththereplieslikeonemanipulatingthemindofachild。Sometimesheinterjectedanecdotes。\"Whatreg’mentdoyehb’longteh?Eh?What’sthat?Th’304thN’

York?Why,whatcorpsisthatin?Oh,itis?

Why,Ithoughttheywasn’tengagedt’—day——

they’re’wayoverinth’center。Oh,theywas,eh?Well,prettynearlyeverybodygottheirshare’afightin’t’—day。Bydad,Igivemyselfupferdeadanynumber’atimes。Therewasshootin’

herean’shootin’there,an’hollerin’herean’

hollerin’there,inth’damn’darkness,untilI

couldn’ttellt’savem’soulwhichsideIwason。

SometimesIthoughtIwassure’noughfromOhier,an’othertimesIcould’asworeIwasfromth’bitterendofFlorida。Itwasth’mostmixedupdernthingIeversee。An’theseherehullwoodsisareg’larmess。It’llbeamiracleifwefindourreg’mentst’—night。Prettysoon,though,we’llmeeta—plentyofguardsan’provost—

guards,an’onethingan’another。Ho!theretheygowithanoff’cer,Iguess。Lookathishanda—draggin’。He’sgotallth’warhewants,Ibet。

Hewon’tbetalkin’sobigabouthisreputationan’allwhentheygot’sawin’offhisleg。Poorfeller!Mybrother’sgotwhiskersjestlikethat。

Howdidyehgit’wayoverhere,anyhow?Yourreg’mentisalongwayfromhere,ain’tit?Well,Iguesswecanfindit。Yehknowtherewasaboykilledinmycomp’nyt’—daythatIthoughtth’worldan’allof。Jackwasanicefeller。Byginger,ithurtlikethundert’seeol’Jackjestgitknockedflat。Wewasa—standin’purtypeaceableferaspell,’thoughtherewasmenrunnin’ev’rywayall’roundus,an’whilewewasa—standin’

likethat,’longcomeabigfatfeller。Hebegant’peckatJack’selbow,an’heses:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’river?’An’Jack,heneverpaidnoattention,an’th’fellerkeptona—peckin’athiselbowan’sayin’:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’

river?’Jackwasa—lookin’aheadallth’timetryin’t’seeth’Johnniescomin’throughth’

woods,an’heneverpaidnoattentiont’thisbigfatfellerferalongtime,butatlastheturned’roundan’heses:’Ah,got’hellan’findth’

roadt’th’river!’An’jestthenashotslappedhimbangonth’sideth’head。Hewasasergeant,too。Themwashislastwords。Thunder,Iwishwewassure’afindin’ourreg’mentst’—night。It’sgoin’t’belonghuntin’。ButIguesswekindoit。\"

Inthesearchwhichfollowed,themanofthecheeryvoiceseemedtotheyouthtopossessawandofamagickind。Hethreadedthemazesofthetangledforestwithastrangefortune。Inencounterswithguardsandpatrolshedisplayedthekeennessofadetectiveandthevalorofagamin。Obstaclesfellbeforehimandbecameofassistance。Theyouth,withhischinstillonhisbreast,stoodwoodenlybywhilehiscompanionbeatwaysandmeansoutofsullenthings。

Theforestseemedavasthiveofmenbuzzingaboutinfranticcircles,butthecheerymancon—

ductedtheyouthwithoutmistakes,untilatlasthebegantochucklewithgleeandself—satisfaction。

\"Ah,thereyehare!Seethatfire?\"

Theyouthnoddedstupidly。

\"Well,there’swhereyourreg’mentis。An’

now,good—by,ol’boy,goodluckt’yeh。\"

Awarmandstronghandclaspedtheyouth’slanguidfingersforaninstant,andthenheheardacheerfulandaudaciouswhistlingasthemanstrodeaway。Ashewhohadsobefriendedhimwasthuspassingoutofhislife,itsuddenlyoc—

curredtotheyouththathehadnotonceseenhisface。

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CHAPTERXIII。

THEyouthwentslowlytowardthefirein—

dicatedbyhisdepartedfriend。Ashereeled,hebethoughthimofthewelcomehiscomradeswouldgivehim。Hehadaconvictionthathewouldsoonfeelinhissoreheartthebarbedmissilesofridicule。Hehadnostrengthtoin—

ventatale;hewouldbeasofttarget。

Hemadevagueplanstogooffintothedeeperdarknessandhide,buttheywerealldestroyedbythevoicesofexhaustionandpainfromhisbody。Hisailments,clamoring,forcedhimtoseektheplaceoffoodandrest,atwhatevercost。

Heswungunsteadilytowardthefire。Hecouldseetheformsofmenthrowingblackshadowsintheredlight,andashewentneareritbecameknowntohiminsomewaythatthegroundwasstrewnwithsleepingmen。

Ofasuddenheconfrontedablackandmonstrousfigure。Ariflebarrelcaughtsomeglintingbeams。\"Halt!halt!\"Hewasdis—

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mayedforamoment,buthepresentlythoughtthatherecognizedthenervousvoice。Ashestoodtotteringbeforetheriflebarrel,hecalledout:\"Why,hello,Wilson,you——youhere?\"

Theriflewasloweredtoapositionofcautionandtheloudsoldiercameslowlyforward。Hepeeredintotheyouth’sface。\"Thatyou,Henry?\"

\"Yes,it’s——it’sme。\"

\"Well,well,ol’boy,\"saidtheother,\"byginger,I’mgladt’seeyeh!Igiveyehupferagoner。Ithoughtyehwasdeadsureenough。\"Therewashuskyemotioninhisvoice。

Theyouthfoundthatnowhecouldbarelystanduponhisfeet。Therewasasuddensinkingofhisforces。Hethoughthemusthastentopro—

ducehistaletoprotecthimfromthemissilesalreadyatthelipsofhisredoubtablecomrades。

So,staggeringbeforetheloudsoldier,hebegan:

\"Yes,yes。I’ve——I’vehadanawfultime。I’vebeenallover。Wayoveronth’right。Ter’blefightin’overthere。Ihadanawfultime。Igotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Overonth’right,Igotshot。Inth’head。Ineverseesechfightin’。Awfultime。Idon’tseehowIcould’agotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Igotshot,too。\"

Hisfriendhadsteppedforwardquickly。

\"What?Gotshot?Whydidn’tyehsaysofirst?Poorol’boy,wemust——hol’onaminnit;

whatamIdoin’。I’llcallSimpson。\"

Anotherfigureatthatmomentloomedinthegloom。Theycouldseethatitwasthecorporal。

\"Whoyehtalkin’to,Wilson?\"hedemanded。

Hisvoicewasanger—toned。\"Whoyehtalkin’

to?Yehth’derndestsentinel——why——hello,Henry,youhere?Why,Ithoughtyouwasdeadfourhoursago!GreatJerusalem,theykeepturnin’upeverytenminutesorso!Wethoughtwe’dlostforty—twomenbystraightcount,butiftheykeepona—comin’thisway,we’llgitth’comp’nyallbackbymornin’yit。Wherewasyeh?\"

\"Overonth’right。Igotseparated\"——begantheyouthwithconsiderableglibness。

Buthisfriendhadinterruptedhastily。\"Yes,an’hegotshotinth’headan’he’sinafix,an’wemustseet’himrightaway。\"Herestedhisrifleinthehollowofhisleftarmandhisrightaroundtheyouth’sshoulder。

\"Gee,itmusthurtlikethunder!\"hesaid。

Theyouthleanedheavilyuponhisfriend。

\"Yes,ithurts——hurtsagooddeal,\"hereplied。

Therewasafalteringinhisvoice。

\"Oh,\"saidthecorporal。Helinkedhisarmintheyouth’sanddrewhimforward。\"Comeon,Henry。I’lltakekeer’ayeh。\"

Astheywentontogethertheloudprivatecalledoutafterthem:\"Put’imt’sleepinmyblanket,Simpson。An’——hol’onaminnit——here’smycanteen。It’sfull’acoffee。Lookathisheadbyth’firean’seehowitlooks。Maybeit’saprettybadun。WhenIgitrelievedinacouple’aminnits,I’llbeoveran’seet’him。\"

Theyouth’ssensesweresodeadenedthathisfriend’svoicesoundedfromafarandhecouldscarcelyfeelthepressureofthecorporal’sarm。

Hesubmittedpassivelytothelatter’sdirectingstrength。Hisheadwasintheoldmannerhang—

ingforwarduponhisbreast。Hiskneeswobbled。

Thecorporalledhimintotheglareofthefire。\"Now,Henry,\"hesaid,\"let’shavelookatyerol’head。\"

Theyouthsatdownobedientlyandthecor—

poral,layingasidehisrifle,begantofumbleinthebushyhairofhiscomrade。Hewasobligedtoturntheother’sheadsothatthefullflushofthefirelightwouldbeamuponit。Hepuckeredhismouthwithacriticalair。Hedrewbackhislipsandwhistledthroughhisteethwhenhisfingerscameincontactwiththesplashedbloodandtherarewound。

\"Ah,hereweare!\"hesaid。Heawkwardlymadefurtherinvestigations。\"JestasIthought,\"

headded,presently。\"Yeh’vebeengrazedbyaball。It’sraisedaqueerlumpjestasifsomefellerhadlammedyehonth’headwithaclub。

Itstoppeda—bleedin’longtimeago。Th’mostaboutitisthatinth’mornin’yeh’llfeelthatanumbertenhatwouldn’tfityeh。An’yourhead’llbeallhetupan’feelasdryasburntpork。

An’yehmaygitalot’aothersicknesses,too,bymornin’。Yehcan’tnevertell。Still,Idon’tmuchthinkso。It’sjestadamn’goodbeltonth’

head,an’nothin’more。Now,youjestsitherean’don’tmove,whileIgoroutoutth’relief。

ThenI’llsendWilsont’takekeer’ayeh。\"

Thecorporalwentaway。Theyouthre—

mainedonthegroundlikeaparcel。Hestaredwithavacantlookintothefire。

Afteratimehearoused,forsomepart,andthethingsabouthimbegantotakeform。Hesawthatthegroundinthedeepshadowswasclutteredwithmen,sprawlingineverycon—

ceivableposture。Glancingnarrowlyintothemoredistantdarkness,hecaughtoccasionalglimpsesofvisagesthatloomedpallidandghostly,litwithaphosphorescentglow。Thesefacesexpressedintheirlinesthedeepstuporofthetiredsoldiers。Theymadethemappearlikemendrunkwithwine。Thisbitofforestmighthaveappearedtoanetherealwandererasasceneoftheresultofsomefrightfuldebauch。

Ontheothersideofthefiretheyouthobservedanofficerasleep,seatedboltupright,withhisbackagainstatree。Therewassome—

thingperilousinhisposition。Badgeredbydreams,perhaps,heswayedwithlittlebouncesandstarts,likeanoldtoddy—strickengrandfatherinachimneycorner。Dustandstainswereuponhisface。Hislowerjawhungdownasiflackingstrengthtoassumeitsnormalposition。Hewasthepictureofanexhaustedsoldierafterafeastofwar。

Hehadevidentlygonetosleepwithhisswordinhisarms。Thesetwohadslumberedinanembrace,buttheweaponhadbeenallowedintimetofallunheededtotheground。Thebrass—mountedhiltlayincontactwithsomepartsofthefire。

Withinthegleamofroseandorangelightfromtheburningstickswereothersoldiers,snoringandheaving,orlyingdeathlikeinslumber。Afewpairsoflegswerestuckforth,rigidandstraight。Theshoesdisplayedthemudordustofmarchesandbitsofroundedtrousers,protrudingfromtheblankets,showedrentsandtearsfromhurriedpitchingsthroughthedensebrambles。

Thefirecrackledmusically。Fromitswelledlightsmoke。Overheadthefoliagemovedsoftly。Theleaves,withtheirfacesturnedtowardtheblaze,werecoloredshiftinghuesofsilver,oftenedgedwithred。Farofftotheright,throughawindowintheforestcouldbeseenahandfulofstarslying,likeglitteringpebbles,ontheblacklevelofthenight。

Occasionally,inthislow—archedhall,asoldierwouldarouseandturnhisbodytoanewposi—

tion,theexperienceofhissleephavingtaughthimofunevenandobjectionableplacesuponthegroundunderhim。Or,perhaps,hewouldlifthimselftoasittingposture,blinkatthefireforanunintelligentmoment,throwaswiftglanceathisprostratecompanion,andthencuddledownagainwithagruntofsleepycontent。

Theyouthsatinaforlornheapuntilhisfriendtheloudyoungsoldiercame,swingingtwocanteensbytheirlightstrings。\"Well,now,Henry,ol’boy,\"saidthelatter,\"we’llhaveyehfixedupinjestaboutaminnit。\"

Hehadthebustlingwaysofanamateurnurse。Hefussedaroundthefireandstirredthestickstobrilliantexertions。Hemadehispatientdrinklargelyfromthecanteenthatcontainedthecoffee。Itwastotheyouthadeliciousdraught。

Hetiltedhisheadafarbackandheldthecanteenlongtohislips。Thecoolmixturewentcaress—

inglydownhisblisteredthroat。Havingfinished,hesighedwithcomfortabledelight。

Theloudyoungsoldierwatchedhiscomradewithanairofsatisfaction。Helaterproducedanextensivehandkerchieffromhispocket。Hefoldeditintoamannerofbandageandsousedwaterfromtheothercanteenuponthemiddleofit。Thiscrudearrangementheboundovertheyouth’shead,tyingtheendsinaqueerknotatthebackoftheneck。

\"There,\"hesaid,movingoffandsurveyinghisdeed,\"yehlookliketh’devil,butIbetyehfeelbetter。\"

Theyouthcontemplatedhisfriendwithgrate—

fuleyes。Uponhisachingandswellingheadthecoldclothwaslikeatenderwoman’shand。

\"Yehdon’thollernersaynothin’,\"remarkedhisfriendapprovingly。\"IknowI’mablack—

smithattakin’keer’asickfolks,an’yehneversqueaked。Yeragoodun,Henry。Most’amenwoulda’beeninth’hospitallongago。Ashotinth’headain’tfoolin’business。\"

Theyouthmadenoreply,butbegantofumblewiththebuttonsofhisjacket。

\"Well,come,now,\"continuedhisfriend,\"comeon。Imustputyeht’bedan’seethatyehgitagoodnight’srest。\"

Theothergotcarefullyerect,andtheloudyoungsoldierledhimamongthesleepingformslyingingroupsandrows。Presentlyhestoopedandpickeduphisblankets。Hespreadtherubberoneuponthegroundandplacedthewoolenoneabouttheyouth’sshoulders。

\"Therenow,\"hesaid,\"liedownan’gitsomesleep。\"

Theyouth,withhismannerofdoglikeobe—

dience,gotcarefullydownlikeacronestoop—

ing。Hestretchedoutwithamurmurofreliefandcomfort。Thegroundfeltlikethesoftestcouch。

Butofasuddenheejaculated:\"Hol’onaminnit!Whereyougoin’t’sleep?\"

Hisfriendwavedhishandimpatiently。

\"Rightdowntherebyyeh。\"

\"Well,buthol’onaminnit,\"continuedtheyouth。\"Whatyehgoin’t’sleepin?I’vegotyour——\"

Theloudyoungsoldiersnarled:\"Shetupan’goont’sleep。Don’tbemakin’adamn’fool’ayerself,\"hesaidseverely。

Afterthereprooftheyouthsaidnomore。

Anexquisitedrowsinesshadspreadthroughhim。

Thewarmcomfortoftheblanketenvelopedhimandmadeagentlelanguor。Hisheadfellfor—

wardonhiscrookedarmandhisweightedlidswentsoftlydownoverhiseyes。Hearingasplatterofmusketryfromthedistance,hewonderedindifferentlyifthosemensometimesslept。Hegavealongsigh,snuggleddownintohisblanket,andinamomentwaslikehiscom—

rades。

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CHAPTERXIV。

WHENtheyouthawokeitseemedtohimthathehadbeenasleepforathousandyears,andhefeltsurethatheopenedhiseyesuponanunex—

pectedworld。Graymistswereslowlyshiftingbeforethefirsteffortsofthesunrays。Anim—

pendingsplendorcouldbeseenintheeasternsky。Anicydewhadchilledhisface,andim—

mediatelyuponarousinghecurledfartherdownintohisblanket。Hestaredforawhileattheleavesoverhead,movinginaheraldicwindoftheday。

Thedistancewassplinteringandblaringwiththenoiseoffighting。Therewasinthesoundanexpressionofadeadlypersistency,asifithadnotbegunandwasnottocease。

Abouthimweretherowsandgroupsofmenthathehaddimlyseenthepreviousnight。Theyweregettingalastdraughtofsleepbeforetheawakening。Thegaunt,carewornfeaturesanddustyfiguresweremadeplainbythisquaint139

lightatthedawning,butitdressedtheskinofthemenincorpselikehuesandmadethetangledlimbsappearpulselessanddead。Theyouthstartedupwithalittlecrywhenhiseyesfirstsweptoverthismotionlessmassofmen,thick—

spreadupontheground,pallid,andinstrangepostures。Hisdisorderedmindinterpretedthehalloftheforestasacharnelplace。Hebelievedforaninstantthathewasinthehouseofthedead,andhedidnotdaretomovelestthesecorpsesstartup,squallingandsquawking。Inasecond,however,heachievedhispropermind。

Hesworeacomplicatedoathathimself。Hesawthatthissomberpicturewasnotafactofthepresent,butamereprophecy。

Heheardthenthenoiseofafirecracklingbrisklyinthecoldair,and,turninghishead,hesawhisfriendpotteringbusilyaboutasmallblaze。Afewotherfiguresmovedinthefog,andheheardthehardcrackingofaxeblows。

Suddenlytherewasahollowrumbleofdrums。Adistantbuglesangfaintly。Similarsounds,varyinginstrength,camefromnearandfarovertheforest。Thebuglescalledtoeachotherlikebrazengamecocks。Thenearthunderoftheregimentaldrumsrolled。

Thebodyofmeninthewoodsrustled。Therewasageneralupliftingofheads。Amurmuringofvoicesbrokeupontheair。Inittherewasmuchbassofgrumblingoaths。Strangegodswereaddressedincondemnationoftheearlyhoursnecessarytocorrectwar。Anofficer’speremptorytenorrangoutandquickenedthestiffenedmovementofthemen。Thetangledlimbsunraveled。Thecorpse—huedfaceswerehiddenbehindfiststhattwistedslowlyintheeyesockets。

Theyouthsatupandgaveventtoanenormousyawn。\"Thunder!\"heremarkedpetulantly。

Herubbedhiseyes,andthenputtinguphishandfeltcarefullyofthebandageoverhiswound。

Hisfriend,perceivinghimtobeawake,camefromthefire。\"Well,Henry,ol’man,howdoyehfeelthismornin’?\"hedemanded。

Theyouthyawnedagain。Thenhepuckeredhismouthtoalittlepucker。Hishead,intruth,feltpreciselylikeamelon,andtherewasanun—

pleasantsensationathisstomach。

\"Oh,Lord,Ifeelprettybad,\"hesaid。

\"Thunder!\"exclaimedtheother。\"Ihopedye’dfeelallrightthismornin’。Let’sseeth’

bandage——Iguessit’sslipped。\"Hebegantotinkeratthewoundinratheraclumsywayuntiltheyouthexploded。

\"Gosh—dernit!\"hesaidinsharpirritation;

\"you’rethehangdestmanIeversaw!Youwearmuffsonyourhands。Whyingoodthunderationcan’tyoubemoreeasy?I’dratheryou’dstandoffan’throwgunsatit。Now,goslow,an’don’tactasifyouwasnailingdowncarpet。\"

Heglaredwithinsolentcommandathisfriend,butthelatteransweredsoothingly。

\"Well,well,comenow,an’gitsomegrub,\"hesaid。\"Then,maybe,yeh’llfeelbetter。\"

Atthefiresidetheloudyoungsoldierwatchedoverhiscomrade’swantswithtender—

nessandcare。Hewasverybusymarshalingthelittleblackvagabondsoftincupsandpour—

ingintothemthestreaming,ironcoloredmixturefromasmallandsootytinpail。Hehadsomefreshmeat,whichheroastedhurriedlyuponastick。Hesatdownthenandcontemplatedtheyouth’sappetitewithglee。

Theyouthtooknoteofaremarkablechangeinhiscomradesincethosedaysofcamplifeupontheriverbank。Heseemednomoretobecon—

tinuallyregardingtheproportionsofhispersonalprowess。Hewasnotfuriousatsmallwordsthatprickedhisconceits。Hewasnomorealoudyoungsoldier。Therewasabouthimnowafinereliance。Heshowedaquietbeliefinhispurposesandhisabilities。Andthisin—

wardconfidenceevidentlyenabledhimtobeindifferenttolittlewordsofothermenaimedathim。

Theyouthreflected。Hehadbeenusedtoregardinghiscomradeasablatantchildwithanaudacitygrownfromhisinexperience,thought—

less,headstrong,jealous,andfilledwithatinselcourage。Aswaggeringbabeaccustomedtostrutinhisowndooryard。Theyouthwonderedwherehadbeenborntheseneweyes;whenhiscomradehadmadethegreatdiscoverythatthereweremanymenwhowouldrefusetobesubjectedbyhim。Apparently,theotherhadnowclimbedapeakofwisdomfromwhichhecouldperceivehimselfasaveryweething。Andtheyouthsawthateverafteritwouldbeeasiertoliveinhisfriend’sneighborhood。

Hiscomradebalancedhisebonycoffee—cuponhisknee。\"Well,Henry,\"hesaid,\"whatd’yehthinkth’chancesare?D’yehthinkwe’llwal—

lop’em?\"

Theyouthconsideredforamoment。\"Day—

b’fore—yesterday,\"hefinallyreplied,withboldness,\"youwould’a’betyou’dlickthehullkit—an’—

boodleallbyyourself。\"

Hisfriendlookedatrifleamazed。\"WouldI?\"heasked。Hepondered。\"Well,perhapsI

would,\"hedecidedatlast。Hestaredhumblyatthefire。

Theyouthwasquitedisconcertedatthissur—

prisingreceptionofhisremarks。\"Oh,no,youwouldn’teither,\"hesaid,hastilytryingtore—

trace。

Buttheothermadeadeprecatinggesture。

\"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry,\"hesaid。\"Ibe—

lieveIwasaprettybigfoolinthosedays。\"Hespokeasafteralapseofyears。

Therewasalittlepause。

\"Allth’officerssaywe’vegotth’rebsinaprettytightbox,\"saidthefriend,clearinghisthroatinacommonplaceway。\"Theyallseemt’thinkwe’vegot’emjestwherewewant’em。\"

\"Idon’tknowaboutthat,\"theyouthreplied。

\"WhatIseenoveronth’rightmakesmethinkitwasth’otherwayabout。FromwhereIwas,itlookedasifwewasgettin’agoodpoundin’

yestirday。\"

\"D’yehthinkso?\"inquiredthefriend。\"I

thoughtwehandled’emprettyroughyestir—

day。\"

\"Notabit,\"saidtheyouth。\"Why,lord,man,youdidn’tseenothingofthefight。Why!\"

Thenasuddenthoughtcametohim。\"Oh!

JimConklin’sdead。\"

Hisfriendstarted。\"What?Ishe?JimConklin?\"

Theyouthspokeslowly。\"Yes。He’sdead。

Shotinth’side。\"

\"Yehdon’tsayso。JimConklin……poorcuss!\"

Allaboutthemwereothersmallfiressur—

roundedbymenwiththeirlittleblackutensils。

Fromoneofthesenearcamesuddensharpvoicesinarow。Itappearedthattwolight—

footedsoldiershadbeenteasingahuge,beardedman,causinghimtospillcoffeeuponhisblueknees。Themanhadgoneintoarageandhadsworncomprehensively。Stungbyhislanguage,histormentorshadimmediatelybristledathimwithagreatshowofresentingunjustoaths。

Possiblytherewasgoingtobeafight。

Thefriendaroseandwentovertothem,mak—

ingpacificmotionswithhisarms。\"Oh,here,now,boys,what’sth’use?\"hesaid。\"We’llbeatth’rebsinless’nanhour。What’sth’

goodfightin’’mongourselves?\"

Oneofthelight—footedsoldiersturneduponhimred—facedandviolent。\"Yehneedn’tcomearoundherewithyerpreachin’。Is’poseyehdon’tapprove’afightin’sinceCharleyMorganlickedyeh;butIdon’tseewhatbusinessthishereis’ayoursoranybodyelse。\"

\"Well,itain’t,\"saidthefriendmildly。\"StillIhatet’see——\"

Therewasatangledargument。

\"Well,he——,\"saidthetwo,indicatingtheiropponentwithaccusativeforefingers。

Thehugesoldierwasquitepurplewithrage。

Hepointedatthetwosoldierswithhisgreathand,extendedclawlike。\"Well,they——\"

Butduringthisargumentativetimethede—

siretodealblowsseemedtopass,althoughtheysaidmuchtoeachother。Finallythefriendre—

turnedtohisoldseat。Inashortwhilethethreeantagonistscouldbeseentogetherinanamiablebunch。

\"JimmieRogerssesI’llhavet’fighthimafterth’battlet’—day,\"announcedthefriendasheagainseatedhimself。\"Heseshedon’tallownointerferin’inhisbusiness。Ihatet’seeth’boysfightin’’mongthemselves。\"

Theyouthlaughed。\"Yerchangedagoodbit。Yehain’tatalllikeyehwas。Irememberwhenyouan’thatIrishfeller——\"Hestoppedandlaughedagain。

\"No,Ididn’tuset’bethatway,\"saidhisfriendthoughtfully。\"That’strue’nough。\"

\"Well,Ididn’tmean——\"begantheyouth。

Thefriendmadeanotherdeprecatorygesture。

\"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry。\"

Therewasanotherlittlepause。

\"Th’reg’mentlostoverhalfth’menyestir—

day,\"remarkedthefriendeventually。\"Ithoughtacoursetheywasalldead,but,laws,theykep’

a—comin’backlastnightuntilitseems,afterall,wedidn’tlosebutafew。They’dbeenscatteredallover,wanderin’aroundinth’woods,fightin’

withotherreg’ments,an’everything。Jestlikeyoudone。\"

\"So?\"saidtheyouth。

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CHAPTERXV。

THEregimentwasstandingatorderarmsatthesideofalane,waitingforthecommandtomarch,whensuddenlytheyouthrememberedthelittlepacketenwrappedinafadedyellowenvelopewhichtheloudyoungsoldierwithlugu—

briouswordshadintrustedtohim。Itmadehimstart。Heutteredanexclamationandturnedtowardhiscomrade。

\"Wilson!\"

\"What?\"

Hisfriend,athissideintheranks,wasthought—

fullystaringdowntheroad。Fromsomecausehisexpressionwasatthatmomentverymeek。

Theyouth,regardinghimwithsidelongglances,feltimpelledtochangehispurpose。\"Oh,noth—

ing,\"hesaid。

Hisfriendturnedhisheadinsomesurprise,\"Why,whatwasyehgoin’t’say?\"

\"Oh,nothing,\"repeatedtheyouth。

Heresolvednottodealthelittleblow。It148

wassufficientthatthefactmadehimglad。Itwasnotnecessarytoknockhisfriendontheheadwiththemisguidedpacket。

Hehadbeenpossessedofmuchfearofhisfriend,forhesawhoweasilyquestioningscouldmakeholesinhisfeelings。Lately,hehadas—

suredhimselfthatthealteredcomradewouldnottantalizehimwithapersistentcuriosity,buthefeltcertainthatduringthefirstperiodofleisurehisfriendwouldaskhimtorelatehisadventuresofthepreviousday。

Henowrejoicedinthepossessionofasmallweaponwithwhichhecouldprostratehiscom—

radeatthefirstsignsofacross—examination。Hewasmaster。Itwouldnowbehewhocouldlaughandshoottheshaftsofderision。

Thefriendhad,inaweakhour,spokenwithsobsofhisowndeath。Hehaddeliveredamel—

ancholyorationprevioustohisfuneral,andhaddoubtlessinthepacketofletters,presentedvari—

ouskeepsakestorelatives。Buthehadnotdied,andthushehaddeliveredhimselfintothehandsoftheyouth。

Thelatterfeltimmenselysuperiortohisfriend,butheinclinedtocondescension。Headoptedtowardhimanairofpatronizinggoodhumor。

Hisself—pridewasnowentirelyrestored。Intheshadeofitsflourishinggrowthhestoodwithbracedandself—confidentlegs,andsincenothingcouldnowbediscoveredhedidnotshrinkfromanencounterwiththeeyesofjudges,andallowednothoughtsofhisowntokeephimfromanattitudeofmanfulness。Hehadperformedhismistakesinthedark,sohewasstillaman。

Indeed,whenherememberedhisfortunesofyesterday,andlookedatthemfromadistancehebegantoseesomethingfinethere。Hehadlicensetobepompousandveteranlike。

Hispantingagoniesofthepastheputoutofhissight。

Inthepresent,hedeclaredtohimselfthatitwasonlythedoomedandthedamnedwhoroaredwithsincerityatcircumstance。Fewbuttheyeverdidit。Amanwithafullstomachandtherespectofhisfellowshadnobusinesstoscoldaboutanythingthathemightthinktobewronginthewaysoftheuniverse,orevenwiththewaysofsociety。Lettheunfortunatesrail;theothersmayplaymarbles。

Hedidnotgiveagreatdealofthoughttothesebattlesthatlaydirectlybeforehim。Itwasnotessentialthatheshouldplanhiswaysinregardtothem。Hehadbeentaughtthatmanyobligationsofalifewereeasilyavoided。Thelessonsofyesterdayhadbeenthatretributionwasalaggardandblind。Withthesefactsbeforehimhedidnotdeemitnecessarythatheshouldbecomefeverishoverthepossibilitiesoftheensuingtwenty—fourhours。Hecouldleavemuchtochance。Besides,afaithinhimselfhadsecretlyblossomed。Therewasalittleflowerofconfidencegrowingwithinhim。Hewasnowamanofexperience。Hehadbeenoutamongthedragons,hesaid,andheassuredhimselfthattheywerenotsohideousashehadimaginedthem。

Also,theywereinaccurate;theydidnotstingwithprecision。Astoutheartoftendefied,anddefying,escaped。

And,furthermore,howcouldtheykillhimwhowasthechosenofgodsanddoomedtogreatness?

Herememberedhowsomeofthemenhadrunfromthebattle。Asherecalledtheirterror—

struckfaceshefeltascornforthem。Theyhadsurelybeenmorefleetandmorewildthanwasabsolutelynecessary。Theywereweakmortals。

Asforhimself,hehadfledwithdiscretionanddignity。

Hewasarousedfromthisreveriebyhisfriend,who,havinghitchedaboutnervouslyandblinkedatthetreesforatime,suddenlycoughedinanintroductoryway,andspoke。

\"Fleming!\"

\"What?\"

Thefriendputhishanduptohismouthandcoughedagain。Hefidgetedinhisjacket。

\"Well,\"hegulped,atlast,\"Iguessyehmightaswellgivemebackthemletters。\"Dark,prick—

lingbloodhadflushedintohischeeksandbrow。

\"Allright,Wilson,\"saidtheyouth。Heloosenedtwobuttonsofhiscoat,thrustinhishand,andbroughtforththepacket。Asheex—

tendedittohisfriendthelatter’sfacewasturnedfromhim。

Hehadbeenslowintheactofproducingthepacketbecauseduringithehadbeentryingtoinventaremarkablecommentupontheaffair。

Hecouldconjurenothingofsufficientpoint。Hewascompelledtoallowhisfriendtoescapeunmolestedwithhispacket。Andforthishetookuntohimselfconsiderablecredit。Itwasagenerousthing。

Hisfriendathissideseemedsufferinggreatshame。Ashecontemplatedhim,theyouthfelthisheartgrowmorestrongandstout。Hehadneverbeencompelledtoblushinsuchmannerforhisacts;hewasanindividualofextraordi—

naryvirtues。

Hereflected,withcondescendingpity:\"Toobad!Toobad!Thepoordevil,itmakeshimfeeltough!\"

Afterthisincident,andashereviewedthebattlepictureshehadseen,hefeltquitecom—

petenttoreturnhomeandmaketheheartsofthepeopleglowwithstoriesofwar。Hecouldseehimselfinaroomofwarmtintstellingtalestolisteners。Hecouldexhibitlaurels。Theywereinsignificant;still,inadistrictwherelaurelswereinfrequent,theymightshine。

Hesawhisgapingaudiencepicturinghimasthecentralfigureinblazingscenes。Andheimaginedtheconsternationandtheejaculationsofhismotherandtheyoungladyattheseminaryastheydrankhisrecitals。Theirvaguefeminineformulaforbelovedonesdoingbravedeedsonthefieldofbattlewithoutriskoflifewouldbedestroyed。

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CHAPTERXVI。

ASPUTTERINGofmusketrywasalwaystobeheard。Later,thecannonhadenteredthedis—

pute。Inthefog—filledairtheirvoicesmadeathuddingsound。Thereverberationswerecon—

tinued。Thispartoftheworldledastrange,battlefulexistence。

Theyouth’sregimentwasmarchedtorelieveacommandthathadlainlonginsomedamptrenches。Thementookpositionsbehindacurv—

inglineofriflepitsthathadbeenturnedup,likealargefurrow,alongthelineofwoods。Beforethemwasalevelstretch,peopledwithshort,deformedstumps。Fromthewoodsbeyondcamethedullpoppingoftheskirmishersandpickets,firinginthefog。Fromtherightcamethenoiseofaterrificfracas。

Themencuddledbehindthesmallembank—

mentandsatineasyattitudesawaitingtheirturn。Manyhadtheirbackstothefiring。Theyouth’sfriendlaydown,buriedhisfaceinhis154

arms,andalmostinstantly,itseemed,hewasinadeepsleep。

Theyouthleanedhisbreastagainstthebrowndirtandpeeredoveratthewoodsandupanddowntheline。Curtainsoftreesinterferedwithhiswaysofvision。Hecouldseethelowlineoftrenchesbutforashortdistance。Afewidleflagswereperchedonthedirthills。Behindthemwererowsofdarkbodieswithafewheadsstickingcuriouslyoverthetop。

Alwaysthenoiseofskirmisherscamefromthewoodsonthefrontandleft,andthedinontherighthadgrowntofrightfulproportions。

Thegunswereroaringwithoutaninstant’spauseforbreath。Itseemedthatthecannonhadcomefromallpartsandwereengagedinastupendouswrangle。Itbecameimpossibletomakeasen—

tenceheard。

Theyouthwishedtolaunchajoke——aquota—

tionfromnewspapers。Hedesiredtosay,\"AllquietontheRappahannock,\"butthegunsrefusedtopermitevenacommentupontheiruproar。

Heneversuccessfullyconcludedthesentence。

Butatlastthegunsstopped,andamongthemenintheriflepitsrumorsagainflew,likebirds,buttheywerenowforthemostpartblackcreatureswhoflappedtheirwingsdrearilyneartothegroundandrefusedtoriseonanywingsofhope。Themen’sfacesgrewdolefulfromtheinterpretingofomens。Talesofhesitationanduncertaintyonthepartofthosehighinplaceandresponsibilitycametotheirears。Storiesofdisasterwereborneintotheirmindswithmanyproofs。Thisdinofmusketryontheright,grow—

inglikeareleasedgenieofsound,expressedandemphasizedthearmy’splight。

Themenweredisheartenedandbegantomutter。Theymadegesturesexpressiveofthesentence:\"Ah,whatmorecanwedo?\"Anditcouldalwaysbeseenthattheywerebewilderedbytheallegednewsandcouldnotfullycompre—

hendadefeat。

Beforethegraymistshadbeentotallyob—

literatedbythesunrays,theregimentwasmarch—

inginaspreadcolumnthatwasretiringcarefullythroughthewoods。Thedisordered,hurryinglinesoftheenemycouldsometimesbeseendownthroughthegrovesandlittlefields。Theywereyelling,shrillandexultant。

Atthissighttheyouthforgotmanypersonalmattersandbecamegreatlyenraged。Heex—

plodedinloudsentences。\"B’jiminey,we’regeneraledbyalot’alunkheads。\"

\"Morethanonefellerhassaidthatt’—day,\"

observedaman。

Hisfriend,recentlyaroused,wasstillverydrowsy。Helookedbehindhimuntilhismindtookinthemeaningofthemovement。Thenhesighed。\"Oh,well,Is’posewegotlicked,\"heremarkedsadly。

Theyouthhadathoughtthatitwouldnotbehandsomeforhimtofreelycondemnothermen。

Hemadeanattempttorestrainhimself,butthewordsuponhistongueweretoobitter。Hepresentlybeganalongandintricatedenunciationofthecommanderoftheforces。

\"Mebbe,itwa’n’tallhisfault——notallto—

gether。Hedidth’bestheknowed。It’sourluckt’gitlickedoften,\"saidhisfriendinawearytone。Hewastrudgingalongwithstoopedshouldersandshiftingeyeslikeamanwhohasbeencanedandkicked。

\"Well,don’twefightlikethedevil?Don’twedoallthatmencan?\"demandedtheyouthloudly。

Hewassecretlydumfoundedatthissentimentwhenitcamefromhislips。Foramomenthisfacelostitsvalorandhelookedguiltilyabouthim。Butnoonequestionedhisrighttodealinsuchwords,andpresentlyherecoveredhisairofcourage。Hewentontorepeatastatementhehadheardgoingfromgrouptogroupatthecampthatmorning。\"Thebrigadiersaidheneversawanewreg’mentfightthewaywefoughtyestirday,didn’the?Andwedidn’tdobetterthanmanyanotherreg’ment,didwe?

Well,then,youcan’tsayit’sth’army’sfault,canyou?\"

Inhisreply,thefriend’svoicewasstern。\"’A

coursenot,\"hesaid。\"Nomandaresaywedon’tfightliketh’devil。Nomanwilleverdaresayit。Th’boysfightlikehell—roosters。Butstill——still,wedon’thavenoluck。\"

\"Well,then,ifwefightlikethedevilan’

don’teverwhip,itmustbethegeneral’sfault,\"

saidtheyouthgrandlyanddecisively。\"AndI

don’tseeanysenseinfightingandfightingandfighting,yetalwayslosingthroughsomedernedoldlunkheadofageneral。\"

Asarcasticmanwhowastrampingattheyouth’sside,thenspokelazily。\"Mebbeyehthinkyehfitth’hullbattleyestirday,Fleming,\"

heremarked。

Thespeechpiercedtheyouth。Inwardlyhewasreducedtoanabjectpulpbythesechancewords。Hislegsquakedprivately。Hecastafrightenedglanceatthesarcasticman。

\"Why,no,\"hehastenedtosayinaconcili—

atingvoice,\"Idon’tthinkIfoughtthewholebattleyesterday。\"

Buttheotherseemedinnocentofanydeepermeaning。Apparently,hehadnoinformation。

Itwasmerelyhishabit。\"Oh!\"herepliedinthesametoneofcalmderision。

Theyouth,nevertheless,feltathreat。Hismindshrankfromgoingneartothedanger,andthereafterhewassilent。Thesignificanceofthesarcasticman’swordstookfromhimallloudmoodsthatwouldmakehimappearprominent。

Hebecamesuddenlyamodestperson。

Therewaslow—tonedtalkamongthetroops。

Theofficerswereimpatientandsnappy,theircountenancescloudedwiththetalesofmisfor—

tune。Thetroops,siftingthroughtheforest,weresullen。Intheyouth’scompanyonceaman’slaughrangout。Adozensoldiersturnedtheirfacesquicklytowardhimandfrownedwithvaguedispleasure。

Thenoiseoffiringdoggedtheirfootsteps。

Sometimes,itseemedtobedrivenalittleway,butitalwaysreturnedagainwithincreasedinsolence。Themenmutteredandcursed,throwingblacklooksinitsdirection。

Inaclearspacethetroopswereatlasthalted。

Regimentsandbrigades,brokenanddetachedthroughtheirencounterswiththickets,grewtogetheragainandlineswerefacedtowardthepursuingbarkoftheenemy’sinfantry。

Thisnoise,followingliketheyellingsofeager,metallichounds,increasedtoaloudandjoyousburst,andthen,asthesunwentserenelyupthesky,throwingilluminatingraysintothegloomythickets,itbrokeforthintoprolongedpealings。

Thewoodsbegantocrackleasifafire。

\"Whoop—a—dadee,\"saidaman,\"hereweare!

Everybodyfightin’。Bloodan’destruction。\"

\"Iwaswillin’t’betthey’dattackassoonasth’sungotfairlyup,\"savagelyassertedthelieutenantwhocommandedtheyouth’scompany。

Hejerkedwithoutmercyathislittlemustache。

Hestrodetoandfrowithdarkdignityintherearofhismen,whowerelyingdownbehindwhateverprotectiontheyhadcollected。

Abatteryhadtrundledintopositionintherearandwasthoughtfullyshellingthedistance。

Theregiment,unmolestedasyet,awaitedthemomentwhenthegrayshadowsofthewoodsbeforethemshouldbeslashedbythelinesofflame。Therewasmuchgrowlingandswearing。

\"GoodGawd,\"theyouthgrumbled,\"we’realwaysbeingchasedaroundlikerats!Itmakesmesick。Nobodyseemstoknowwherewegoorwhywego。Wejustgetfiredaroundfrompillartopostandgetlickedhereandgetlickedthere,andnobodyknowswhatit’sdonefor。Itmakesamanfeellikeadamn’kitteninabag。

Now,I’dliketoknowwhattheeternalthunderswewasmarchedintothesewoodsforanyhow,THEREDBADGEOFCOURAGE161

unlessitwastogivetherebsaregularpotshotatus。Wecameinhereandgotourlegsalltangledupinthesecussedbriers,andthenwebegintofightandtherebshadaneasytimeofit。

Don’ttellmeit’sjustluck!Iknowbetter。It’sthisdernedold——\"

Thefriendseemedjaded,butheinterruptedhiscomradewithavoiceofcalmconfidence。

\"It’llturnoutallrightinth’end,\"hesaid。

\"Oh,thedevilitwill!Youalwaystalklikeadog—hangedparson。Don’ttellme!Iknow——\"

Atthistimetherewasaninterpositionbythesavage—mindedlieutenant,whowasobligedtoventsomeofhisinwarddissatisfactionuponhismen。\"Youboysshutrightup!Therenoneed’ayourwastin’yourbreathinlong—windedargumentsaboutthisan’thatan’th’other。

You’vebeenjawin’likealot’aoldhens。Allyou’vegott’doistofight,an’you’llgetplenty’athatt’doinabouttenminutes。Lesstalkin’an’

morefightin’iswhat’sbestforyouboys。Ineversawsechgabblingjackasses。\"

Hepaused,readytopounceuponanymanwhomighthavethetemeritytoreply。Nowordsbeingsaid,heresumedhisdignifiedpacing。

\"There’stoomuchchinmusican’toolittlefightin’inthiswar,anyhow,\"hesaidtothem,turninghisheadforafinalremark。

Thedayhadgrownmorewhite,untilthesunshedhisfullradianceuponthethrongedforest。

Asortofagustofbattlecamesweepingtowardthatpartofthelinewherelaytheyouth’sregi—

ment。Thefrontshiftedatrifletomeetitsquare—

ly。Therewasawait。Inthispartofthefieldtherepassedslowlytheintensemomentsthatpre—

cedethetempest。

Asinglerifleflashedinathicketbeforetheregiment。Inaninstantitwasjoinedbymanyothers。Therewasamightysongofclashesandcrashesthatwentsweepingthroughthewoods。

Thegunsintherear,arousedandenragedbyshellsthathadbeenthrownburlikeatthem,suddenlyinvolvedthemselvesinahideousalter—

cationwithanotherbandofguns。Thebattleroarsettledtoarollingthunder,whichwasasingle,longexplosion。

Intheregimenttherewasapeculiarkindofhesitationdenotedintheattitudesofthemen。

Theywereworn,exhausted,havingsleptbutlit—

tleandlaboredmuch。Theyrolledtheireyestowardtheadvancingbattleastheystoodawait—

ingtheshock。Someshrankandflinched。Theystoodasmentiedtostakes。

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CHAPTERXVII。

THISadvanceoftheenemyhadseemedtotheyouthlikearuthlesshunting。Hebegantofumewithrageandexasperation。Hebeathisfootupontheground,andscowledwithhateattheswirlingsmokethatwasapproachinglikeaphan—

tomflood。Therewasamaddeningqualityinthisseemingresolutionofthefoetogivehimnorest,togivehimnotimetositdownandthink。

Yesterdayhehadfoughtandhadfledrapidly。

Therehadbeenmanyadventures。Forto—dayhefeltthathehadearnedopportunitiesforcontem—

plativerepose。Hecouldhaveenjoyedportrayingtouninitiatedlistenersvariousscenesatwhichhehadbeenawitnessorablydiscussingthepro—

cessesofwarwithotherprovedmen。Tooitwasimportantthatheshouldhavetimeforphysicalrecuperation。Hewassoreandstifffromhisex—

periences。Hehadreceivedhisfillofallexer—

tions,andhewishedtorest。

Butthoseothermenseemednevertogrowweary;theywerefightingwiththeiroldspeed。

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Hehadawildhatefortherelentlessfoe。Yester—

day,whenhehadimaginedtheuniversetobeagainsthim,hehadhatedit,littlegodsandbiggods;to—dayhehatedthearmyofthefoewiththesamegreathatred。Hewasnotgoingtobebadgeredofhislife,likeakittenchasedbyboys,hesaid。Itwasnotwelltodrivemenintofinalcorners;atthosemomentstheycouldalldevelopteethandclaws。

Heleanedandspokeintohisfriend’sear。Hemenacedthewoodswithagesture。\"Iftheykeeponchasingus,byGawd,they’dbetterwatchout。Can’tstandTOOmuch。\"

Thefriendtwistedhisheadandmadeacalmreply。\"Iftheykeepona—chasin’usthey’lldriveusallintehth’river。\"

Theyouthcriedoutsavagelyatthisstate—

ment。Hecrouchedbehindalittletree,withhiseyesburninghatefullyandhisteethsetinacur—

likesnarl。Theawkwardbandagewasstillabouthishead,anduponit,overhiswound,therewasaspotofdryblood。Hishairwaswondrouslytousled,andsomestraggling,movinglockshungovertheclothofthebandagedowntowardhisforehead。Hisjacketandshirtwereopenatthethroat,andexposedhisyoungbronzedneck。

Therecouldbeseenspasmodicgulpingsathisthroat。

Hisfingerstwinednervouslyabouthisrifle。

Hewishedthatitwasanengineofannihilatingpower。Hefeltthatheandhiscompanionswerebeingtauntedandderidedfromsincereconvic—

tionsthattheywerepoorandpuny。Hisknowl—

edgeofhisinabilitytotakevengeanceforitmadehisrageintoadarkandstormyspecter,thatpos—

sessedhimandmadehimdreamofabominablecruelties。Thetormentorswerefliessuckingin—

solentlyathisblood,andhethoughtthathewouldhavegivenhislifeforarevengeofseeingtheirfacesinpitifulplights。

Thewindsofbattlehadsweptallabouttheregiment,untiltheonerifle,instantlyfollowedbyothers,flashedinitsfront。Amomentlatertheregimentroaredforthitssuddenandvaliantre—

tort。Adensewallofsmokesettledslowlydown。

Itwasfuriouslyslitandslashedbytheknifelikefirefromtherifles。

Totheyouththefightersresembledanimalstossedforadeathstruggleintoadarkpit。Therewasasensationthatheandhisfellows,atbay,werepushingback,alwayspushingfierceon—

slaughtsofcreatureswhowereslippery。Theirbeamsofcrimsonseemedtogetnopurchaseuponthebodiesoftheirfoes;thelatterseemedtoevadethemwithease,andcomethrough,between,around,andaboutwithunopposedskill。

When,inadream,itoccurredtotheyouththathisriflewasanimpotentstick,helostsenseofeverythingbuthishate,hisdesiretosmashintopulptheglitteringsmileofvictorywhichhecouldfeeluponthefacesofhisenemies。

Thebluesmoke—swallowedlinecurledandwrithedlikeasnakesteppedupon。Itswungitsendstoandfroinanagonyoffearandrage。

Theyouthwasnotconsciousthathewaserectuponhisfeet。Hedidnotknowthedirectionoftheground。Indeed,onceheevenlostthehabitofbalanceandfellheavily。Hewasupagainimmediately。Onethoughtwentthroughthechaosofhisbrainatthetime。Hewonderedifhehadfallenbecausehehadbeenshot。Butthesuspicionflewawayatonce。Hedidnotthinkmoreofit。

Hehadtakenupafirstpositionbehindthelit—

tletree,withadirectdeterminationtoholditagainsttheworld。Hehadnotdeemeditpossi—

blethathisarmycouldthatdaysucceed,andfromthishefelttheabilitytofightharder。Butthethronghadsurgedinallways,untilhelostdirectionsandlocations,savethatheknewwherelaytheenemy。

Theflamesbithim,andthehotsmokebroiledhisskin。Hisriflebarrelgrewsohotthatordi—

narilyhecouldnothaveborneituponhispalms;

buthekeptonstuffingcartridgesintoit,andpoundingthemwithhisclanking,bendingram—

rod。Ifheaimedatsomechangingformthroughthesmoke,hepulledhistriggerwithafiercegrunt,asifheweredealingablowofthefistwithallhisstrength。

Whentheenemyseemedfallingbackbeforehimandhisfellows,hewentinstantlyforward,likeadogwho,seeinghisfoeslagging,turnsandinsistsuponbeingpursued。Andwhenhewascompelledtoretireagain,hediditslowly,sul—

lenly,takingstepsofwrathfuldespair。

Oncehe,inhisintenthate,wasalmostalone,andwasfiring,whenallthosenearhimhadceased。

Hewassoengrossedinhisoccupationthathewasnotawareofalull。

Hewasrecalledbyahoarselaughandasen—

tencethatcametohisearsinavoiceofcontemptandamazement。\"Yehinfernalfool,don’tyehknowenought’quitwhenthereain’tanythingt’

shootat?GoodGawd!\"

Heturnedthenand,pausingwithhisriflethrownhalfintoposition,lookedatthebluelineofhiscomrades。Duringthismomentofleisuretheyseemedalltobeengagedinstaringwithastonishmentathim。Theyhadbecomespecta—

tors。Turningtothefrontagainhesaw,undertheliftedsmoke,adesertedground。

Helookedbewilderedforamoment。Thenthereappearedupontheglazedvacancyofhiseyesadiamondpointofintelligence。\"Oh,\"hesaid,comprehending。

Hereturnedtohiscomradesandthrewhim—

selfupontheground。Hesprawledlikeamanwhohadbeenthrashed。Hisfleshseemedstrange—

lyonfire,andthesoundsofthebattlecontinuedinhisears。Hegropedblindlyforhiscanteen。

Thelieutenantwascrowing。Heseemeddrunkwithfighting。Hecalledouttotheyouth:

\"Byheavens,ifIhadtenthousandwildcatslikeyouIcouldtearth’stomachoutathiswarinless’naweek!\"Hepuffedouthischestwithlargedignityashesaidit。

Someofthemenmutteredandlookedattheyouthinawe—struckways。Itwasplainthatashehadgoneonloadingandfiringandcursingwithouttheproperintermission,theyhadfoundtimetoregardhim。Andtheynowlookeduponhimasawardevil。