第7章

\"Easyforhim,\"mutteredPeterbitterly。\"Alwaysdoeshaveanappointmentoutsidethemomentshebegins。\"

Tommyappearedtobethrowingherverysoulintotheperformance。

Passers—byinCraneCourtpaused,regardedthefirst—floorwindowsofthepublishingandeditorialofficesofGoodHumourwithtroubledlooks,thenhurriedon。

\"Shehas——remarkablyfirmdouch!\"shoutedthedoctorintoPeter’sear。\"Willseeyou——evening。Someting——saytoyou。\"

Thefatlittledoctortookhishatanddeparted。Tommy,ceasingsuddenly,cameoverandseatedherselfonthearmofPeter’schair。

\"Feelinggrumpy?\"askedTommy。

\"Itisn’t,\"explainedPeter,\"thatImindthenoise。I’dputupwiththatifIcouldseethegoodofit。\"

\"It’sgoingtohelpmetogetahusband,dad。Seemstomeanoddwayofdoingit;butBillysaysso,andBillyknowsallabouteverything。\"

\"Ican’tunderstandyou,asensiblegirl,listeningtosuchnonsense,\"saidPeter。\"It’sthatthattroublesme。\"

\"Dad,whereareyourwits?\"demandedTommy。\"Isn’tBillyactinglikeabrick?Why,hecouldgointoFleetStreettohalfadozenotherpapersandmakefivehundredayearasadvertising—agent——youknowhecould。Buthedoesn’t。Hestickstous。Ifmymakingmyselfridiculouswiththattinpottheypersuadedhimwasapianoisgoingtopleasehim,isn’titcommonsenseandsoundbusiness,tosaynothingofgoodnatureandgratitude,formetodoit?Dad,I’vegotasurpriseforhim。Listen。\"AndTommy,springingfromthearmofPeter’schair,returnedtothepiano。

\"Whatwasit?\"questionedTommy,havingfinished。\"Couldyourecogniseit?\"

\"Ithink,\"saidPeter,\"itsoundedlike——Itwasn’t’Home,SweetHome,’wasit?\"

Tommyclappedherhands。\"Yes,itwas。You’llendbylikingityourself,dad。We’llhavemusical’AtHomes。’\"

\"Tommy,haveIbroughtyouupproperly,doyouthink?\"

\"Nodad,youhaven’t。Youhaveletmehavemyownwaytoomuch。

Youknowtheproverb:’Goodmothersmakebaddaughters。’Clodd’sright;you’vespoiltme,dad。Doyouremember,dad,whenIfirstcametoyou,sevenyearsago,araggedlittlebratoutofthestreets,thatdidn’tknowitselfwhether’twasaboyoragirl?DoyouknowwhatIthoughttomyselfthemomentIseteyesonyou?

’Here’sasoftoldjuggins;I’llbeallrightifIcangetinhere!’Itmakesyousmart,knockingaboutintheguttersandbeingknockedabout;youreadfacesquickly。\"

\"Doyourememberyourcooking,Tommy?You’hadanaptitudeforit,’accordingtoyourownidea。\"

Tommylaughed。\"Iwonderhowyoustoodit。\"

\"Youweresoobstinate。Youcametomeas’cookandhousekeeper,’

andascookandhousekeeper,andasnothingelse,wouldyouremain。

IfIsuggestedanychange,upwouldgoyourchinintotheair。I

darednotevendineouttoooften,youweresuchalittletyrant。

Theonlythingyouwerealwaysreadytodo,ifIwasn’tsatisfied,wastomarchoutofthehouseandleaveme。Whereverdidyougetthatsavageindependenceofyours?\"

\"Idon’tknow。Ithinkitmusthavebeenfromawoman——perhapsshewasmymother;Idon’tknow——whousedtositupinthebedandcough,allnightitseemedtome。Peoplewouldcometoseeus——

ladiesinfineclothes,andgentlemenwithoilyhair。Ithinktheywantedtohelpus。Manyofthemhadkindvoices。Butalwaysahardlookwouldcomeintoherface,andshewouldtellthemwhateventhenIknewtobeuntrue——itwasoneofthefirstthingsIcanrecollect——thatwehadeverythingwewanted,thatweneedednohelpfromanyone。Theywouldgoaway,shruggingtheirshoulders。I

grewupwiththefeelingthatseemedtohavebeenburntintomybrain,thattotakefromanybodyanythingyouhadnotearnedwasshameful。Idon’tthinkIcoulddoitevennow,notevenfromyou。

Iamusefultoyou,dad——Idohelpyou?\"

TherehadcreptaterrorintoTommy’svoice。Peterfeltthelittlehandsuponhisarmtrembling。

\"Helpme?Why,youworklikeanigger——likeaniggerissupposedtowork,butdoesn’t。Noone——whateverwepaidhim——woulddohalfasmuch。Idon’twanttomakeyourheadmoreswollenthanitis,youngwoman,butyouhavetalent;Iamnotsureitisnotgenius。\"

Peterfeltthelittlehandstightenuponhisarm。

\"Idowantthispapertobeasuccess;thatiswhyIstrumuponthepianotopleaseClodd。Isithumbug?\"

\"Iamafraiditis;buthumbugisthesweetoilthathelpsthiswhirlingworldofourstospinroundsmoothly。Toomuchofitcloys:wedropitverygently。\"

\"Butyouaresureitisonlyhumbug,Tommy?\"ItwasPeter’svoiceintowhichfearhadenterednow。\"ItisnotthatyouthinkheunderstandsyoubetterthanIdo——woulddomoreforyou?\"

\"YouwantmetotellyouallIthinkofyou,andthatisn’tgoodforyou,dad——nottoooften。Itwouldbeyouwhowouldhaveswelledheadthen。\"

\"Iamjealous,Tommy,jealousofeveryonethatcomesnearyou。

Lifeisatragedyforusoldfolks。Weknowtheremustcomeadaywhenyouwillleavethenest,leaveusvoiceless,ridiculous,flittingamongbarebranches。Youwillunderstandlater,whenyouhavechildrenofyourown。Thisfoolishtalkaboutahusband!Itisworseforamanthanitisforthewoman。Themotherlivesagaininherchild:themanisrobbedofall。\"

\"Dad,doyouknowhowoldIam?——thatyouaretalkingterriblenonsense?\"

\"Hewillcome,littlegirl。\"

\"Yes,\"answeredTommy,\"Isupposehewill;butnotforalongwhile——oh,notforaverylongwhile。Don’t。Itfrightensme。\"

\"You?Whyshoulditfrightenyou?\"

\"Thepain。Itmakesmefeelacoward。Iwantittocome;Iwanttotastelife,todrainthewholecup,tounderstand,tofeel。Butthatistheboyinme。Iammorethanhalfaboy,Ialwayshavebeen。Butthewomaninme:itshrinksfromtheordeal。\"

\"Youtalk,Tommy,asifloveweresomethingterrible。\"

\"Thereareallthingsinit;Ifeelit,dad。Itislifeinasingledraught。Itfrightensme。\"

Thechildwasstandingwithherfacehiddenbehindherhands。OldPeter,alwaysverybadatlying,stoodsilent,notknowingwhatconsolationtoconcoct。Theshadowpassed,andTommy’slaughingeyeslookedoutagain。

\"Haven’tyouanythingtodo,dad——outside,Imean?\"

\"Youwanttogetridofme?\"

\"Well,I’venothingelsetooccupymetilltheproofscomein。I’mgoingtopractise,hard。\"

\"IthinkI’llturnovermyarticleontheEmbankment,\"saidPeter。

\"There’sonethingyouallofyououghttobegratefultomefor,\"

laughedTommy,assheseatedherselfatthepiano。\"Idoinduceyoualltotakemorefreshairthanotherwiseyouwould。\"

Tommy,leftalone,setherselftohertaskwiththeenergyandthoroughnessthatwerecharacteristicofher。Strugglingwithcomplicatedscales,TommybenthereyescloserandcloseroverthepagesofCzerny’sExercises。Glancinguptoturnapage,Tommy,tohersurprise,mettheeyesofastranger。Theywerebrowneyes,theirexpressionsympathetic。Belowthem,lookinggoldenwiththesunlightfallingonit,wasamoustacheandbeardcutshortinVandykefashion,notaltogetherhidingapleasantmouth,aboutthecornersofwhichlurkedasmile。

\"Ibegyourpardon,\"saidthestranger。\"Iknockedthreetimes。

Perhapsyoudidnothearme?\"

\"No,Ididn’t,\"confessedTommy,closingthebookofCzerny’sExercises,andrisingwithchinatananglethat,toanyoneacquaintedwiththechartofTommy’stemperament,mighthavesuggestedtheadvisabilityofseekingshelter。

\"ThisistheeditorialofficeofGoodHumour,isitnot?\"inquiredthestranger。

\"Itis。\"

\"Istheeditorin?\"

\"Theeditorisout。\"

\"Thesub—editor?\"suggestedthestranger。

\"Iamthesub—editor。\"

Thestrangerraisedhiseyebrows。Tommy,onthecontrary,loweredhers。

\"Wouldyoumindglancingthroughthat?\"Thestrangerdrewfromhispocketafoldedmanuscript。\"Itwillnottakeyouamoment。I

ought,ofcourse,tohavesentitthroughthepost;butIamsotiredofsendingthingsthroughthepost。\"

Thestranger’smannerwascompoundedofdignifiedimpudencecombinedwithpathetichumility。Hiseyesbothchallengedandpleaded。Tommyheldoutherhandforthepaperandretiredwithitbehindtheprotectionofthebigeditorialdeskthat,flankedononesidebyascreenandontheotherbyaformidablerevolvingbookcase,stretchedfortress—likeacrossthenarrowroom。Thestrangerremainedstanding。

\"Yes。It’spretty,\"criticisedthesub—editor。\"Worthprinting,perhaps,notworthpayingfor。\"

\"Notmerelya——anominalsum,sufficienttodistinguishitfromtheworkoftheamateur?\"

Tommypursedherlips。\"Poetryisquiteadruginthemarket。Wecangetasmuchaswewantofitfornothing。\"

\"Sayhalfacrown,\"suggestedthestranger。

Tommyshotaswiftglanceacrossthedesk,andforthefirsttimesawthewholeofhim。Hewascladinathreadbare,long,brownulster——long,thatis,itwouldhavebeenuponanordinaryman,butthestrangerhappeningtoberemarkablytall,itappearedonhimridiculouslyshort,reachingonlytohisknees。Roundhisneckandtuckedintohiswaistcoat,thuscompletelyhidingtheshirtandcollarhemayhavebeenwearingormaynot,wascarefullyarrangedabluesilkmuffler。Hishands,whichwerebare,lookedblueandcold。Yettheblackfrock—coatandwaistcoatandFrenchgreytrousersboretheunmistakablecutofafirst—classtailorandfittedhimtoperfection。Hishat,whichhehadrestedonthedesk,shoneresplendent,andthehandleofhissilkumbrellawasaneagle’sheadingold,withtwosmallrubiesfortheeyes。

\"Youcanleaveitifyoulike,\"consentedTommy。\"I’llspeaktotheeditoraboutitwhenhereturns。\"

\"Youwon’tforgetit?\"urgedthestranger。

\"No,\"answeredTommy。\"Ishallnotforgetit。\"

Herblackeyeswerefixeduponthestrangerwithoutherbeingawareofit。Shehaddroppedunconsciouslyintoher\"stocktaking\"

attitude。

\"Thankyouverymuch,\"saidthestranger。\"Iwillcallagainto—

morrow。\"

Thestranger,movingbackwardtothedoor,wentout。

Tommysatwithherfacebetweenherhands。Czerny’sExerciseslayneglected。

\"Anybodycalled?\"askedPeterHope。

\"No,\"answeredTommy。\"Oh,justaman。Leftthis——notbad。\"

\"Theoldstory,\"musedPeter,asheunfoldedthemanuscript。\"Weallofusbeginwithpoetry。Thenwetaketoproseromances;

poetrydoesn’tpay。Finally,wewritearticles:’HowtobeHappythoughMarried,’’WhatshallwedowithourDaughters?’Itislifesummarised。Whatisitallabout?\"

\"Oh,theusualsortofthing,\"explainedTommy。\"Hewantshalfacrownforit。\"

\"Poordevil!Lethimhaveit。\"

\"That’snotbusiness,\"growledTommy。

\"Nobodywilleverknow,\"saidPeter。\"We’llenteritas’telegrams。’\"

Thestrangercalledearlythenextday,pocketedhishalf—crown,andleftanothermanuscript——anessay。Alsoheleftbehindhimhisgold—handledumbrella,takingawaywithhiminsteadanoldalpacathingCloddkeptinreserveforexceptionallydirtyweather。Peterpronouncedtheessayusable。

\"Hehasastyle,\"saidPeter;\"hewriteswithdistinction。Makeanappointmentformewithhim。\"

Clodd,onmissinghisumbrella,wasindignant。

\"What’sthegoodofthisthingtome?\"commentedClodd。\"Sortofthingforadudeinapantomime!Thefellowmustbeablitheringass!\"

Tommygavetothestrangermessagesfrombothwhennexthecalled。

Heappearedmoregrievedthansurprisedconcerningtheumbrellas。

\"Youdon’tthinkMr。Cloddwouldliketokeepthisumbrellainexchangeforhisown?\"hesuggested。

\"Hardlyhisstyle,\"explainedTommy。

\"It’sverypeculiar,\"saidthestranger,withasmile。\"Ihavebeentryingtogetridofthisumbrellaforthelastthreeweeks。

Onceuponatime,whenIpreferredtokeepmyownumbrella,peopleusedtotakeitbymistake,leavingallkindsofshabbythingsbehindtheminexchange。Now,whenI’dreallyliketogetquitofit,nobodywillhaveit。\"

\"Whydoyouwanttogetridofit?\"askedTommy。\"Itlooksaverygoodumbrella。\"

\"Youdon’tknowhowithampersme,\"saidthestranger。\"Ihavetoliveuptoit。Itrequiresacertainamountofresolutiontoenteracheaprestaurantaccompaniedbythatumbrella。WhenIdo,thewaitersdrawmyattentiontothemostexpensivedishesandrecommendmespecialbrandsoftheirso—calledchampagne。TheyseemquitesurprisedifIonlywantachopandaglassofbeer。I

haven’talwaysgotthecouragetodisappointthem。Itisreallybecomingquiteacursetome。IfIuseittostopa’bus,threeorfourhansomsdashupandquarreloverme。Ican’tdoanythingI

wanttodo。Iwanttolivesimplyandinexpensively:itwillnotletme。\"

Tommylaughed。\"Can’tyouloseit?\"

Thestrangerlaughedalso。\"Loseit!Youhavenoideahowhonestpeopleare。Ihadn’tmyself。Thewholeworldhasgoneupinmyestimationwithinthelastfewweeks。Peoplerunaftermeforquitelongdistancesandforceitintomyhand——peopleonrainydayswhohaven’tgotumbrellasoftheirown。Itisthesamewiththishat。\"Thestrangersighedashetookitup。\"IamalwaystryingtogetOFFwithsomethingreasonablyshabbyinexchangeforit。Iamalwaysfoundoutandstopped。\"

\"Whydon’tyoupawnthem?\"suggestedthepracticableTommy。

Thestrangerregardedherwithadmiration。

\"Doyouknow,Ineverthoughtofthat,\"saidthestranger。\"Ofcourse。Whatagoodidea!Thankyousomuch。\"

Thestrangerdeparted,evidentlymuchrelieved。

\"Sillyfellow,\"musedTommy。\"Theywon’tgivehimaquarterofthevalue,andhewillsay:’Thankyousomuch,’andbequitecontented。\"ItworriedTommyagooddealthatday,thethoughtofthatstranger’shelplessness。

Thestranger’snamewasRichardDanvers。HelivedtheothersideofHolborn,inFeatherstoneBuildings,butmuchofhistimecametobespentintheofficesofGoodHumour。

Peterlikedhim。\"Fullofpromise,\"wasPeter’sopinion。\"Hiscriticismofthatarticleofmineon’TheEducationofWoman’

showedbothsenseandfeeling。Ascholarandathinker。\"

Flipp,theoffice—boy(speltPhilip),likedhim;andFlipp’sattitude,ingeneral,wascensorial。\"He’sallright,\"pronouncedFlipp;\"nothingstuck—upabouthim。He’sgotplentyofsense,lyinghiddenaway。\"

MissRamsbothamlikedhim。\"Themen——themenwethinkaboutatall,\"explainedMissRamsbotham——\"maybedividedintotwoclasses:

themenweoughttolike,butdon’t;andthementhereisnoparticularreasonforourliking,butthatwedo。PersonallyI

couldgetveryfondofyourfriendDick。Thereisnothingwhateverattractiveabouthimexcepthimself。\"

EvenTommylikedhiminherway,thoughattimesshewasseverewithhim。

\"Ifyoumeanabigstreet,\"grumbledTommy,whowasgoingoverproofs,\"whynotsayabigstreet?Whymustyoualwayscallita’mainartery’?\"

\"Iamsorry,\"apologisedDanvers。\"Itisnotmyownidea。Youtoldmetostudythehigher—classjournals。\"

\"Ididn’ttellyoutoselectandfollowalltheirfaults。Hereitisagain。Yourcrowdisalwaysa’hydra—headedmonster’;yourtea’thecupthatcheersbutnotinebriates。’\"

\"IamafraidIamadealoftroubletoyou,\"suggestedthestaff。

\"Iamafraidyouare,\"agreedthesub—editor。

\"Don’tgivemeup,\"pleadedthestaff。\"Imisunderstoodyou,thatisall。IwillwriteEnglishforthefuture。\"

\"Shallbegladifyouwill,\"growledthesub—editor。

DickDanversrose。\"Iamsoanxiousnottogetwhatyoucall’thesack’fromhere。\"

Thesub—editor,mollified,thoughtthestaffneedbeundernoapprehension,provideditshoweditselfteachable。

\"Ihavebeenratheraworthlessfellow,MissHope,\"confessedDickDanvers。\"IwasbeginningtodespairofmyselftillIcameacrossyouandyourfather。Theatmospherehere——Idon’tmeanthematerialatmosphereofCraneCourt——issoinvigorating:itssimplicity,itssincerity。Iusedtohaveideals。Itriedtostiflethem。Thereisasetthatsneersatallthatsortofthing。

NowIseethattheyaregood。Youwillhelpme?\"

Everywomanisamother。Tommyfeltforthemomentthatshewantedtotakethisbigboyonherkneeandtalktohimforhisgood。Hewasonlyanovergrownlad。Butsoexceedinglyovergrown!Tommyhadtocontentherselfwithholdingoutherhand。DickDanversgraspedittightly。

Cloddwastheonlyonewhodidnotapproveofhim。

\"Howdidyougetholdofhim?\"askedCloddoneafternoon,heandPeteraloneintheoffice。

\"Hecame。Hecameintheusualway,\"explainedPeter。

\"Whatdoyouknowabouthim?\"

\"Nothing。Whatistheretoknow?Onedoesn’taskforacharacterwithajournalist。\"

\"No,Isupposethatwouldn’twork。Foundoutanythingabouthimsince?\"

\"Nothingagainsthim。Whysosuspiciousofeverybody?\"

\"Becauseyouarejustawoollylambandwantadogtolookafteryou。Whoishe?Onafirstnighthegivesawayhisstallandsneaksintothepit。Whenyousendhimtoapicture—gallery,hedodgestheprivateviewandgoesonthefirstshillingday。Ifaninvitationcomestoapublicdinner,heasksmetogoandeatitforhimandtellhimwhatit’sallabout。Thatdoesn’tsuggestthefrankandhonestjournalist,doesit?\"

\"Itisunusual,itcertainlyisunusual,\"Peterwasboundtoadmit。

\"Idistrusttheman,\"saidClodd。\"He’snotourclass。Whatishedoinghere?\"

\"Iwillaskhim,Clodd;Iwillaskhimstraightout。\"

\"Andbelievewhateverhetellsyou。\"

\"No,Ishan’t。\"

\"Thenwhat’sthegoodofaskinghim?\"

\"Well,whatamItodo?\"demandedthebewilderedPeter。

\"Getridofhim,\"suggestedClodd。

\"Getridofhim?\"

\"Gethimaway!Don’thavehiminandoutoftheofficealldaylong—lookingatherwiththosecollie—dogeyesofhis,arguingartandpoetrywithherinthatcushat—dovevoiceofhis。Gethimcleanaway——ifitisn’ttoolatealready。\"

\"Nonsense,\"saidPeter,whohadturnedwhite,however。\"She’snotthatsortofgirl。\"

\"Notthatsortofgirl!\"CloddhadnopatiencewithPeterHope,andtoldhimso。\"Whyarethereneverinkstainsonherfingersnow?Thereusedtobe。Whydoesshealwayskeepalemoninherdrawer?Whendidshelasthaveherhaircut?I’lltellyouifyoucaretoknow——theweekbeforehecame,fivemonthsago。Sheusedtohaveitcutonceafortnight:saidittickledherneck。WhydoesshejumponpeoplewhentheycallherTommyandtellthemthathernameisJane?ItneverusedtobeJane。Maybewhenyou’reabitolderyou’llbegintonoticethingsforyourself。\"

Cloddjammedhishatonhisheadandflunghimselfdownthestairs。

Peter,slippingoutaminutelater,boughthimselfanounceofsnuff。

\"Fiddle—de—dee!\"saidPeterashehelpedhimselftohisthirteenthpinch。\"Don’tbelieveit。I’llsoundher。Ishan’tsayaword——

I’lljustsoundher。\"

Peterstoodwithhisbacktothefire。Tommysatatherdesk,correctingproofsofafancifulstory:TheManWithoutaPast。

\"Ishallmisshim,\"saidPeter;\"IknowIshall。\"

\"Misswhom?\"demandedTommy。

\"Danvers,\"sighedPeter。\"Italwayshappensso。Yougetfriendlywithaman;thenhegoesaway——abroad,backtoAmerica,Lordknowswhere。Youneverseehimagain。\"

Tommylookedup。Therewastroubleinherface。

\"Howdoyouspell’harassed’?\"questionedTommy!\"twor’sorone。\"

\"Oner,\"Peterinformedher,\"twos’s。\"

\"Ithoughtso。\"ThetroublepassedfromTommy’sface。

\"Youdon’taskwhenhe’sgoing,youdon’taskwherehe’sgoing,\"

complainedPeter。\"Youdon’tseemtobeinterestedintheleast。\"

\"Iwasgoingtoask,sosoonasIhadfinishedcorrectingthissheet,\"explainedTommy。\"Whatreasondoeshegive?\"

Peterhadcrossedoverandwasstandingwherehecouldseeherfaceilluminedbythelamplight。

\"Itdoesn’tupsetyou——thethoughtofhisgoingaway,ofyourneverseeinghimagain?\"

\"Whyshouldit?\"Tommyansweredhissearchinggazewithaslightlypuzzledlook。\"Ofcourse,I’msorry。Hewasbecominguseful。Butwecouldn’texpecthimtostopwithusalways,couldwe?\"

Peter,rubbinghishands,brokeintoachuckle。\"Itoldhim’twasallfiddlesticks。Clodd,hewouldhaveityouweregrowingtocareforthefellow。\"

\"ForDickDanvers?\"Tommylaughed。\"Whateverputthatintohishead?\"

\"Oh,well,therewereoneortwolittlethingsthatwehadnoticed。\"

\"We?\"

\"ImeanthatCloddhadnoticed。\"

I’mgladitwasCloddthatnoticedthem,notyou,dad,thoughtTommytoherself。They’dhavebeenprettyobviousifyouhadnoticedthem。

\"Itnaturallymademeanxious,\"confessedPeter。\"Yousee,weknowabsolutelynothingofthefellow。\"

\"Absolutelynothing,\"agreedTommy。

\"Hemaybeamanofthehighestintegrity。Personally,Ithinkheis。Ilikehim。Ontheotherhand,hemaybeathorough—pacedscoundrel。Idon’tbelieveforamomentthatheis,buthemaybe。

Impossibletosay。\"

\"Quiteimpossible,\"agreedTommy。

\"Consideredmerelyasajournalist,itdoesn’tmatter。Hewriteswell。Hehasbrains。There’sanendofit。\"

\"Heisverypainstaking,\"agreedTommy。

\"Personally,\"addedPeter,\"Ilikethefellow。\"Tommyhadreturnedtoherwork。

OfwhatusewasPeterinacrisisofthiskind?Petercouldn’tscold。Petercouldn’tbully。TheonlypersontotalktoTommyasTommyknewsheneededtobetalkedtowasoneJane,ayoungwomanofdignitywithsenseoftheproprieties。

\"Idohopethatatleastyouarefeelingashamedofyourself,\"

remarkedJanetoTommythatsamenight,asthetwainsattogetherintheirlittlebedroom。

\"Donenothingtobeashamedof,\"growledTommy。

\"Makingafoolofyourselfopenly,foreverybodytonotice。\"

\"Cloddain’teverybody。He’sgoteyesatthebackofhishead。

Seesthingsbeforetheyhappen。\"

\"Where’syourwoman’spride:fallinginlovewithamanwhohasneverspokentoyou,exceptintermsofthemostordinarycourtesy。\"

\"I’mnotinlovewithhim。\"

\"Amanaboutwhomyouknowabsolutelynothing。\"

\"Notinlovewithhim。\"

\"Wheredoeshecomefrom?Whoishe?\"

\"Idon’tknow,don’tcare;nothingtodowithme。\"

\"Justbecauseofhissofteyes,andhiswheedlingvoice,andthathalf—caressing,half—devotionalmannerofhis。Doyouimaginehekeepsitspeciallyforyou?Igaveyoucreditformoresense。\"

\"I’mnotinlovewithhim,Itellyou。He’sdownonhisluck,andI’msorryforhim,that’sall。\"

\"Andifheis,whosefaultwasit,doyouthink?\"

\"Itdoesn’tmatter。Wearenoneofussaints。He’stryingtopullhimselftogether,andIrespecthimforit。It’sourdutytobecharitableandkindtooneanotherinthisworld!\"

\"Oh,well,I’lltellyouhowyoucanbekindtohim:bypointingouttohimthatheiswastinghistime。Withhistalents,nowthatheknowshisbusiness,hecouldbeonthestaffofsomebigpaper,earningagoodincome。Putitnicelytohim,butbefirm。Insistonhisgoing。Thatwillbeshowingtruekindnesstohim——andtoyourself,too,I’mthinking,mydear。\"

AndTommyunderstoodandappreciatedthesoundgoodsenseunderlyingJane’sadvice,andtheverynextdaybutone,seizingthefirstopportunity,acteduponit;andallwouldhavegoneascontemplatedifonlyDickDanvershadsatstillandlistened,asithadbeenarrangedinTommy’sprogrammethatheshould。

\"ButIdon’twanttogo,\"saidDick。

\"Butyououghttowanttogo。Stayingherewithusyouaredoingyourselfnogood。\"

Heroseandcametowhereshestoodwithonefootuponthefender,lookingdownintothefire。Hisdoingthisdisconcertedher。Solongasheremainedseatedattheotherendoftheroom,shewasthesub—editor,counsellingthestaffforitsowngood。Nowthatshecouldnotraisehereyeswithoutencounteringhis,shefeltpainfullyconsciousofbeingnothingmoreimportantthanalittlewomanwhowastrembling。

\"Itisdoingmeallthegoodintheworld,\"hetoldher,\"beingneartoyou。\"

\"Oh,pleasedositdownagain,\"sheurgedhim。\"Icantalktoyousomuchbetterwhenyou’resittingdown。\"

Buthewouldnotdoanythingheshouldhavedonethatday。Insteadhetookherhandsinhis,andwouldnotletthemgo;andthereasonandthewillwentoutofher,leavingherhelpless。

\"Letmebewithyoualways,\"hepleaded。\"Itmeansthedifferencebetweenlightanddarknesstome。Youhavedonesomuchforme。

Willyounotfinishyourwork?Willyounottrustme?Itisnohotpassionthatcanpassaway,myloveforyou。Itspringsfromallthatisbestinme——fromthepartofmethatiswholesomeandjoyousandstrong,thepartofmethatbelongstoyou。\"

Releasingher,heturnedaway。

\"Theotherpartofme——theblackguard——itisdead,dear,——deadandburied。IdidnotknowIwasablackguard,Ithoughtmyselfafinefellow,tillonedayitcamehometome。SuddenlyIsawmyselfasIreallywas。AndthesightofthethingfrightenedmeandIranawayfromit。IsaidtomyselfIwouldbeginlifeafresh,inanewcountry,freeofeverytiethatcouldbindmetothepast。Itwouldmeanpoverty——privation,maybe,inthebeginning。Whatofthat?Thestrugglewouldbraceme。Itwouldbegoodsport。Ah,well,youcanguesstheresult:theawakeningtothecoldfacts,thereactionoffeeling。InwhatwaywasIworsethanothermen?

WhowasI,toplaythepriginaworldwhereotherswerelaughinganddining?Ihadtrampedyourcitytillmybootswerewornintoholes。Ihadbuttoabandonmyquixoticideals——returntowhereshamelaywaitingforme,tobewelcomedwiththefattedcalf。ItwouldhaveendedsohadInotchancedtopassbyyourdoorthatafternoonandhearyoustrummingonthepiano。\"

SoBillywasright,afterall,thoughtTommytoherself,thepianodoeshelp。

\"Itwassoincongruous——apianoinCraneCourt——Ilookedtoseewherethenoisecamefrom。Ireadthenameofthepaperonthedoorpost。’Itwillbemylastchance,’Isaidtomyself。’Thisshalldecideit。’\"

Hecamebacktoher。Shehadnotmoved。\"Iamnotafraidtotellyouallthis。Youaresobig—hearted,sohuman;youwillunderstand,youcanforgive。Itisallpast。Lovingyoutellsamanthathehasdonewithevil。Willyounottrustme?\"

Sheputherhandsinhis。\"Iamtrustingyou,\"shesaid,\"withallmylife。Don’tmakeamuddleofit,dear,ifyoucanhelpit。\"

Itwasanoddwooing,asTommylaughinglytoldherselfwhenshecametothinkitoverinherroomthatnight。Butthatishowitshapeditself。

WhattroubledhermostwasthathehadnotbeenquitefrankwithPeter,sothatPeterhadtodefendheragainstherself。

\"Iattackedyousosuddenly,\"explainedPeter,\"youhadnottimetothink。Youactedfrominstinct。Awomanseekstohideherloveevenfromherself。\"

\"Iexpect,afterall,Iammoreofagirlthanaboy,\"fearedTommy:\"Iseemtohavesomanywomanishfailings。\"

Petertookhimselfintoquiteplacesandtrainedhimselftofacethefactthatanotherwouldbemoretoherthanhehadeverbeen,andCloddwentabouthisworklikeabearwithasorehead;buttheyneitherofthemneedhavetroubledthemselvessomuch。Themarriagedidnottakeplacetillnearlyfifteenyearshadpassedaway,andmuchwaterhadtoflowbeneatholdLondonBridgebeforethatday。

Thepastisnoteasilygotridof。Atalewasoncewrittenofawomanwhokilledherbabeandburieditinalonelywood,andlaterstolebackinthenightandsawthere,whiteinthemoonlight,achild’shandcallingthroughtheearth,andburieditagainandyetagain;butalwaysthatwhitebabyhandcalledupwardsthroughtheearth,trampleitdownasshewould。Tommyreadthestoryoneeveninginanoldmiscellany,andsatlongbeforethedeadfire,thebookopenonherlap,andshivered;fornowsheknewthefearthathadbeenhauntingher。

Tommylivedexpectingher。ShecameonenightwhenTommywasalone,workinglateintheoffice。Tommyknewherthemomentsheenteredthedoor,ahandsomewoman,withsnake—like,rustlingskirts。Sheclosedthedoorbehindher,anddrawingforwardachair,seatedherselftheothersideofthedesk,andthetwolookedlongandanxiouslyatoneanother。

\"TheytoldmeIshouldfindyouherealone,\"saidthewoman。\"Itisbetter,isitnot?\"

\"Yes,\"saidTommy,\"itisbetter。\"

\"Tellme,\"saidthewoman,\"areyouverymuchinlovewithhim?\"

\"WhyshouldItellyou?\"

\"Because,ifnot——ifyouhavemerelyacceptedhimthinkinghimagoodcatch——whichheisn’t,mydear;hasn’tapennytoblesshimselfwith,andneverwillifhemarriesyou——why,thenthematterissoonsettled。Theytellmeyouareabusiness—likeyounglady,andIampreparedtomakeabusiness—likeproposition。\"

Therewasnoanswer。Thewomanshruggedhershoulders。

\"If,ontheotherhand,youarethatabsurdcreature,ayounggirlinlove——why,then,Isupposeweshallhavetofightforhim。\"

\"Itwouldbemoresporting,woulditnot?\"suggestedTommy。

\"Letmeexplainbeforeyoudecide,\"continuedthewoman。\"DickDanversleftmesixmonthsago,andhaskeptfrommeeversince,becausehelovedme。\"

\"Itsoundsacuriousreason。\"

\"IwasamarriedwomanwhenDickDanversandIfirstmet。Sinceheleftme——formysakeandhisown——Ihavereceivedinformationofmyhusband’sdeath。\"

\"AnddoesDick——doesheknow?\"askedthegirl。

\"Notyet。Ihaveonlylatelylearntthenewsmyself。\"

\"Thenifitisasyousay,whenheknowshewillgobacktoyou。\"

\"Therearedifficultiesintheway。\"

\"Whatdifficulties?\"

\"Mydear,this。Totryandforgetme,hehasbeenmakinglovetoyou。Mendothesethings。Imerelyaskyoutoconvinceyourselfofthetruth。Goawayforsixmonths——disappearentirely。Leavehimfree——uninfluenced。Ifhelovesyou——ifitbenotmerelyasenseofhonourthatbindshim——youwillfindhimhereonyourreturn。Ifnot——ifintheintervalIhavesucceededinrunningoffwithhim,well,isnotthetwoorthreethousandpoundsIampreparedtoputintothispaperofyoursafairpriceforsuchalover?\"

Tommyrosewithalaughofgenuineamusement。Shecouldneveraltogetherputasidehersenseofhumour,letFatecomewithwhatterrifyingfaceitwould。

\"Youmayhavehimfornothing——ifheisthatman,\"thegirltoldher;\"heshallbefreetochoosebetweenus。\"

\"Youmeanyouwillreleasehimfromhisengagement?\"

\"ThatiswhatImean。\"

\"Whynottakemyoffer?Youknowthemoneyisneeded。Itwillsaveyourfatheryearsofanxietyandstruggle。Goaway——travel,foracoupleofmonths,ifyou’reafraidofthesix。Writehimthatyoumustbealone,tothinkthingsover。\"

Thegirlturneduponher。

\"Andleaveyouafreefieldtolieandtrick?\"

Thewoman,too,hadrisen。\"Doyouthinkhereallycaresforyou?

Atthemomentyouinteresthim。Atnineteeneverywomanisamystery。Whenthemoodispast——anddoyouknowhowlongaman’smoodlasts,youpoorchit?Tillhehascaughtwhatheisrunningafter,andhastastedit——thenhewillthinknotofwhathehaswon,butofwhathehaslost:ofthesocietyfromwhichhehascuthimselfadrift;ofalltheoldpleasuresandpursuitshecannolongerenjoy;oftheluxuries——necessitiestoamanofhisstamp——

thatmarriagewithyouhasdeprivedhimof。Thenyourfacewillbeaperpetualremindertohimofwhathehaspaidforit,andhewillcurseiteverytimeheseesit。\"

\"Youdon’tknowhim,\"thegirlcried。\"Youknowjustapartofhim——thepartyouwouldknow。Alltherestofhimisagoodman,thatwouldratherhisself—respectthanalltheluxuriesyoumention——youincluded。\"

\"Itseemstoresolveitselfintowhatmannerofmanheis,\"laughedthewoman。

Thegirllookedatherwatch。\"Hewillbehereshortly;heshalltellushimself。\"

\"Howdoyoumean?\"

\"Thathere,betweenthetwoofus,heshalldecide——thisverynight。\"Sheshowedherwhitefacetothewoman。\"DoyouthinkI

couldlivethroughaseconddayliketothis?\"

\"Thescenewouldberidiculous。\"

\"Therewillbenoneheretoenjoythehumourofit。\"

\"Hewillnotunderstand。\"

\"Oh,yes,hewill,\"thegirllaughed。\"Come,youhavealltheadvantages;youarerich,youareclever;youbelongtohisclass。

Ifheelectstostopwithme,itwillbebecauseheismyman——

mine。Areyouafraid?\"

Thewomanshivered。Shewrappedherfurcloakabouthercloserandsatdownagain,andTommyreturnedtoherproofs。Itwaspress—

night,andtherewasmuchtobedone。

Hecamealittlelater,thoughhowlongthetimemayhaveseemedtothetwowomenonecannotsay。Theyheardhisfootsteponthestair。Thewomanroseandwentforward,sothatwhenheopenedthedoorshewasthefirsthesaw。Buthemadenosign。Possiblyhehadbeenschoolinghimselfforthismoment,knowingthatsoonerorlateritmustcome。Thewomanheldoutherhandtohimwithasmile。

\"Ihavenotthehonour,\"hesaid。

Thesmilediedfromherface。\"Idonotunderstand,\"shesaid。

\"Ihavenotthehonour,\"herepeated。\"Idonotknowyou。\"

Thegirlwasleaningwithherbackagainstthedeskinasomewhatmannishattitude。Hestoodbetweenthem。ItwillalwaysremainLife’schiefcomicsuccess:themanbetweentwowomen。Thesituationhasamusedtheworldforsomanyyears。Yet,somehow,hecontrivedtomaintainacertaindignity。

\"Maybe,\"hecontinued,\"youareconfoundingmewithaDickDanverswholivedinNewYorkuptoafewmonthsago。Iknewhimwell——aworthlessscampyouhaddonebetternevertohavemet。\"

\"Youbearawonderfulresemblancetohim,\"laughedthewoman。

\"Thepoorfoolisdead,\"heanswered。\"Andheleftforyou,mydearlady,thisdyingmessage:that,fromthebottomofhissoul,hewassorryforthewronghehaddoneyou。Heaskedyoutoforgivehim——andforgethim。\"

\"Theyearappearstobeopeningunfortunatelyforme,\"saidthewoman。\"Firstmylover,thenmyhusband。\"

Hehadnervedhimselftofighttheliving。Thiswasablowfromthedead。Themanhadbeenhisfriend。

\"Dead?\"

\"Hewaskilled,itappears,inthatlastexpeditioninJuly,\"

answeredthewoman。\"IreceivedthenewsfromtheForeignOfficeonlyafortnightago。\"

Anuglylookcameintohiseyes——thelookofacorneredcreaturefightingforitslife。\"Whyhaveyoufollowedmehere?WhydoI

findyouherealonewithher?Whathaveyoutoldher?\"

Thewomanshruggedhershoulders。\"Onlythetruth。\"

\"Allthetruth?\"hedemanded——\"all?Ah!bejust。Tellheritwasnotallmyfault。Tellherallthetruth。\"

\"Whatwouldyouhavemetellher?ThatIplayedPotiphar’swifetoyourJoseph?\"

\"Ah,no!Thetruth——onlythetruth。ThatyouandIwereapairofidlefoolswiththedevildancingroundus。Thatweplayedafool’sgame,andthatitisover。\"

\"Isitover?Dick,isitover?\"Sheflungherarmstowardshim;

buthethrewherfromhimalmostbrutally。\"Themanisdead,I

tellyou。Hisfollyandhissinliedeadwithhim。Ihavenothingtodowithyou,noryouwithme。\"

\"Dick!\"shewhispered。\"Dick,cannotyouunderstand?Imustspeakwithyoualone。\"

Buttheydidnotunderstand,neitherthemannorthechild。

\"Dick,areyoureallydead?\"shecried。\"Haveyounopityforme?

DoyouthinkthatIhavefollowedyouheretogrovelatyourfeetformerewhim?AmIactinglikeawomansaneandsound?Don’tyouseethatIammad,andwhyIammad?MustItellyoubeforeher?

Dick——\"Shestaggeredtowardshim,andthefinecloakslippedfromhershoulders;andthenitwasthatTommychangedfromachildintoawoman,andraisedtheotherwomanfromthegroundwithcrooningwordsofencouragementsuchasmothersuse,andledhertotheinnerroom。\"Donotgo,\"shesaid,turningtoDick;\"Ishallbebackinafewminutes。\"

HecrossedtooneofthewindowsagainstwhichbeattheCity’sroar,anditseemedtohimasthethrobofpassingfootstepsbeatingdownthroughthedarknesstowherehelayinhisgrave。

Shere—entered,closingthedoorsoftlybehindher。\"Itistrue?\"

sheasked。

\"Itcanbe。Ihadnotthoughtofit。\"

Theyspokeinlow,matter—of—facttones,aspeopledowhohavegrownwearyoftheirownemotions。

\"Whendidhegoaway——herhusband?\"

\"About——itisFebruarynow,isitnot?Abouteighteenmonthsago。\"

\"Anddiedjusteightmonthsago。Ratherconveniently,poorfellow。\"

\"Yes,I’mgladheisdead——poorLawrence。\"

\"Whatistheshortesttimeinwhichamarriagecanbearranged?\"

\"Idonotknow,\"heansweredlistlessly。\"Idonotintendtomarryher。\"

\"Youwouldleavehertobearitalone?\"

\"Itisnotasifshewereapoorwoman。Youcandoanythingwithmoney。\"

\"Itwillnotmendreputation。Herpositioninsocietyiseverythingtothatclassofwoman。\"

\"Mymarryinghernow,\"hepointedout,\"wouldnotsaveher。\"

\"Practicallyspeakingitwould,\"thegirlpleaded。\"Theworlddoesnotgooutofitswaytofindoutthingsitdoesnotwanttoknow。

Marryherasquietlyaspossibleandtravelforayearortwo。\"

\"WhyshouldI?Ah!itiseasyenoughtocallamanacowardfordefendinghimselfagainstawoman。Whatishetodowhenheisfightingforhislife?Mendonotsinwithgoodwomen。\"

\"Thereisthechildtobeconsidered,\"sheurged——\"yourchild。Yousee,dear,wealldowrongsometimes。Wemustnotletotherssufferforourfaultmore——morethanwecanhelp。\"

Heturnedtoherforthefirsttime。\"Andyou?\"

\"I?Oh,Ishallcryforalittlewhile,butlateronIshalllaugh,asoften。Lifeisnotalllove。Ihavemywork。\"

Heknewherwellbythistime。Andalsoitcametohimthatitwouldbeafinerthingtobeworthyofherthaneventopossessher。

Sohedidherbiddingandwentoutwiththeotherwoman。Tommywasgladitwaspress—night。Shewouldnotbeabletothinkforhourstocome,andthen,perhaps,shewouldbefeelingtootired。Workcanbeverykind。

Werethisanartisticstory,here,ofcourse,onewouldwrite\"Finis。\"Butintheworkadayworldoneneverknowstheendingtillitcomes。Haditbeenotherwise,IdoubtIcouldhavefoundcouragetotellyouthisstoryofTommy。Itisnotalltrue——atleast,Idonotsupposeso。Onedriftsunconsciouslyalittlewayintodream—landwhenonesitsoneselfdowntorecallthehappeningsoflongago;whileFancy,withaslywink,whisperseverandagaintoMemory:\"Letmetellthisincident——picturethatscene:Icanmakeitsomuchmoreinterestingthanyouwould。\"ButTommy——howcanIputitwithoutsayingtoomuch:thereissomeoneIthinkofwhenIspeakofher?Torememberonlyherdearwounds,andnotthehealingofthem,wouldhavebeenatasktoopainful。Ilovetodwellontheirnextmeeting。Flipp,passinghimonthesteps,didnotknowhim,thetall,sunburntgentlemanwiththesweet,grave—

facedlittlegirl。

\"Seenthatfacesomewherebefore,\"musedFlipp,asatthecornerofBedfordStreetheclimbedintoahansom,\"seenitsomewhereonathinnerman。\"

ForDickDanvers,thathedidnotrecogniseFlipp,therewasmoreexcuse。AveryoldyoungmanhadFlippbecomeatthirty。Flippnolongerenjoyedpopularjournalism。Heproducedit。

Thegold—bounddoorkeeperfearedthemightyCloddwouldbeunabletoseesoinsignificantanatomasanunappointedstranger,butwouldletthecardofMr。RichardDanverspleadforitself。Tothegold—boundkeeper’ssurprisecamedownthemessagethatMr。Danverswastobeatonceshownup。

\"Ithought,somehow,youwouldcometomefirst,\"saidtheportlyClodd,advancingwithout—stretchedhand。\"Andthisis——?\"

\"Mylittlegirl,Honor。Wehavebeentravellingforthelastfewmonths。\"

Cloddtookthegrave,smallfacebetweenhisbig,roughhands:

\"Yes。Sheislikeyou。Butlooksasifsheweregoingtohavemoresense。Forgiveme,Iknewyourfathermydear,\"laughedClodd;\"whenhewasyounger。\"

Theylittheircigarsandtalked。

\"Well,notexactlydead;weamalgamatedit,\"winkedCloddinanswertoDanvers’inquiry。\"ItwasjustatrifleTOOhigh—class。

Besides,theoldgentlemanwasnotgettingyounger。Ithurthimalittleatfirst。ButthencameTommy’sgreatsuccess,andthathasreconciledhimtoallthings。DotheyknowyouareinEngland?\"

\"No,\"explainedDanvers;\"wearrivedonlylastnight。\"

Cloddcalleddirectionsdownthespeaking—tube。

\"Youwillfindhardlyanychangeinher。Onestillhastokeepone’seyeuponherchin。Shehasnotevenlostheroldhabitoftakingstockofpeople。Youremember。\"Cloddlaughed。

Theytalkedalittlelonger,tilltherecameawhistle,andCloddputhiseartothetube。

\"Ihavetoseeheronbusiness,\"saidClodd,rising;\"youmayaswellcomewithme。Theyarestillintheoldplace,GoughSquare。\"

Tommywasout,butPeterwasexpectinghereveryminute。

PeterdidnotknowDick,butwouldnotadmitit。Forgetfulnesswasasignofage,andPeterstillfeltyoung。

\"Iknowyourfacequitewell,\"saidPeter;\"can’tputanametoit,that’sall。\"

Cloddwhisperedittohim,togetherwithinformationbringinghistoryuptodate。Andthenlightfellupontheoldlinedface。

HecametowardsDick,meaningtotakehimbybothhands,but,perhapsbecausehehadbecomesomewhatfeeble,heseemedgladwhentheyoungermanputhisarmsaroundhimandheldhimforamoment。

Itwasun—English,andbothofthemfeltalittleashamedofthemselvesafterwards。

\"Whatwewant,\"saidClodd,addressingPeter,\"wethree——you,I,andMissDanvers——isteaandcakes,withcreaminthem;andIknowashopwheretheysellthem。Wewillcallbackforyourfatherinhalfanhour。\"CloddexplainedtoMissDanvers;\"hehastotalkoveramatterofbusinesswithMissHope。\"

\"Iknow,\"answeredthegrave—facedlittleperson。ShedrewDick’sfacedowntohersandkissedit。Andthenthethreewentouttogether,leavingDickstandingbythewindow。

\"Couldn’twehidesomewheretillshecomes?\"suggestedMissDanvers。\"Iwanttoseeher。\"

Sotheywaitedintheopendoorwayofanearprinting—housetillTommydroveup。BothPeterandCloddwatchedthechild’sfacewithsomeanxiety。Shenoddedgravelytoherselfthreetimes,thenslippedherhandintoPeter’s。

Tommyopenedthedoorwithherlatchkeyandpassedin。