第4章

I\'mverygratefultoyou,andwe\'llpartfriends。Good-night,sir。\"

Thefatherheldouthishandinsilence。Theheavyportieredroppednoiselesslybehindtheson,andhewentupthewide,curvingstairwaytohisownroom。

MeantimeJohnWeightmansatinhiscarvedchairintheJacobeandining-room。Hefeltstrangelyoldanddull。TheportraitsofbeautifulwomenbyLawrenceandReynoldsandRaeburn,whichhadoftenseemedlikerealcompanytohim,lookedremoteanduninteresting。

Hefanciedsomethingcoldandalmostunfriendlyintheirexpression,asiftheywerestaringthroughhimorbeyondhim。Theycarednothingforhisprinciples,hishopes,hisdisappointments,hissuccesses;

theybelongedtoanotherworld,inwhichhehadnoplace。Atthishefeltavagueresentment,asenseofdiscomfortthathecouldnothavedefinedorexplained。Hewasusedtobeingconsidered,respected,appreciatedathisfullvalueineveryregion,eveninthatofhisowndreams。

Presentlyherangforthebutler,tellinghimtoclosethehouseandnottositup,andwalkedwithlaggingstepsintothelonglibrary,wheretheshadedlampswereburning。Hiseyefelluponthelowshelvesfullofcostlybooks,buthehadnodesiretoopenthem。Eventhecarefullychosenpicturesthathungabovethemseemedtohavelosttheirattraction。HepausedforamomentbeforeanidyllofCorot——adanceofnymphsaroundsomeforgottenaltarinavaporousglade——andlookedatitcuriously。Therewassomethingrapturousandsereneaboutthepicture,abreathofspring-timeinthemistytrees,aharmonyofjoyinthedancingfigures,thatwakenedinhimafeelingofhalf-pleasureandhalf-envy。Itrepresentedsomethingthathehadneverknowninhiscalculated,orderlylife。Hewasdimlymistrustfulofit。

\"Itiscertainlyverybeautiful,\"hethought,\"butitisdistinctlypagan;

thataltarisbuilttosomeheathengod。ItdoesnotfitintotheschemeofaChristianlife。Idoubtwhetheritisconsistentwiththetoneofmyhouse。Iwillsellitthiswinter。ItwillbringthreeorfourtimeswhatIpaidforit。Thatwasagoodpurchase,averygoodbargain。\"

Hedroppedintotherevolvingchairbeforehisbiglibrarytable。

Itwascoveredwithpamphletsandreportsofthevariousenterprisesinwhichhewasinterested。Therewasapileofnewspaperclippingsinwhichhisnamewasmentionedwithpraiseforhissustainingpowerasapillaroffinance,forhisjudiciousbenevolence,forhissupportofwiseandprudentreformmovements,forhisdiscretioninmakingpermanentpublicgifts——\"theWeightmanCharities,\"oneverycomplaisanteditorcalledthem,asiftheydeservedclassificationasadistinctspecies。

Heturnedhepapersoverlistlessly。Therewasadescriptionandapictureofthe\"WeightmanWingoftheHospitalforCripples,\"

ofwhichhewaspresident;andanarticleonthenewprofessorinthe\"WeightmanChairofPoliticalJurisprudence\"inJacksonUniversity,ofwhichhewasatrustee;andanillustratedaccountoftheopeningofthe\"WeightmanGrammar-School\"atDulwich-on-the-Sound,wherehehadhislegalresidenceforpurposesoftaxation。

ThislastwasperhapsthemostcarefullyplannedofalltheWeightmanCharities。Hedesiredtowintheconfidenceandsupportofhisruralneighbors。IthadpleasedhimmuchwhenthelocalnewspaperhadspokenofhimasanidealcitizenandthelogicalcandidatefortheGovernorshipoftheState;butuponthewholeitseemedtohimwisertokeepoutofactivepolitics。ItwouldbeeasierandbettertoputHaroldintotherunning,tohavehimsenttotheLegislaturefromtheDulwichdistrict,thentothenationalHouse,thentotheSenate。

Whynot?TheWeightmaninterestswerelargeenoughtoneedadirectrepresentativeandguardianatWashington。

Butto-nightalltheseplanscamebacktohimwithdustuponthem。

Theyweredryandcrumblinglikeforsakenhabitations。Thesonuponwhomhiscomplacentambitionhadrestedhadturnedhisbackuponthemansionofhisfather\'shopes。Thebreakmightnotbefinal;

andinanyeventtherewouldbemuchtolivefor;thefortunesofthefamilywouldbesecure。ButthezestofitallwouldbegoneifJohnWeightmanhadtogiveuptheassuranceofperpetuatinghisnameandhisprinciplesinhisson。Itwasabitterdisappointment,andhefeltthathehadnotdeservedit。

Herosefromthechairandpacedtheroomwithleadenfeet。

Forthefirsttimeinhislifehisagewasvisiblyuponhim。

Hisheadwasheavyandhot,andthethoughtsthatrolledinitwereconfusedanddepressing。Coulditbethathehadmadeamistakeintheprinciplesofhisexistence?TherewasnoargumentinwhatHaroldhadsaid——itwasalmostchildish——andyetithadshakentheeldermanmoredeeplythanhecaredtoshow。

Itheldasilentattackwhichtouchedhimmorethanopencriticism。

Supposetheendofhislifewerenearerthanhethought——theendmustcomesometime——whatifitwerenow?Hadhenotfoundedhishouseuponarock?HadhenotkepttheCommandments?

Washenot,\"touchingthelaw,blameless\"?Andbeyondthis,evenifthereweresomefaultsinhischaracter——andallmenaresinners——

yethesurelybelievedinthesavingdoctrinesofreligion——theforgivenessofsins,theresurrectionofthebody,thelifeeverlasting。

Yes,thatwasthetruesourceofcomfort,afterall。HewouldreadabitintheBible,ashedideverynight,andgotobedandtosleep。

Hewentbacktohischairatthelibrarytable。Astrangeweightofwearinessresteduponhim,butheopenedthebookatafamiliarplace,andhiseyesfellupontheverseatthebottomofthepage。

\"Laynotupforyourselvestreasuresuponearth。\"

Thathadbeenthetextofthesermonafewweeksbefore。

Sleepily,heavily,hetriedtofixhisminduponitandrecallit。

WhatwasitthatDoctorSnodgrasshadsaid?Ah,yes——thatitwasamistaketopausehereinreadingtheverse。Wemustreadonwithoutapause——Laynotuptreasuresuponearthwheremothandrustdocorruptandwherethievesbreakthroughandsteal——thatwasthetruedoctrine。

Wemayhavetreasuresuponearth,buttheymustnotbeputintounsafeplaces,butintosafeplaces。Amostcomfortingdoctrine!

Hehadalwaysfollowedit。Mothsandrustandthieveshaddonenoharmtohisinvestments。

JohnWeightman\'sdroopingeyesturnedtothenextverse,atthetopofthesecondcolumn。

\"Butlayupforyourselvestreasuresinheaven。\"

NowwhathadtheDoctorsaidaboutthat?Howwasittobeunderstood——inwhatsense——treasures——inheaven?

Thebookseemedtofloatawayfromhim。Thelightvanished。

HewondereddimlyifthiscouldbeDeath,comingsosuddenly,soquietly,soirresistibly。Hestruggledforamomenttoholdhimselfup,andthensankslowlyforwarduponthetable。Hisheadresteduponhisfoldedhands。Heslippedintotheunknown。

Howlongafterwardconsciouslifereturnedtohimhedidnotknow。