第3章

humour。

\"Ah,then,yousawthatwonderfullady?\"

\"Wonderfulshewasindeed。Isawherafterwards,too,sittingontheterraceinthestarlight。Iimagineshewasnotalone。\"

\"No,indeed,Iwaswithher——fornearlyanhour。ThenIwalkedhomewithher。\"

\"Ah!Anddidyougoin?\"

\"No,shesaiditwastoolatetoaskme;thoughsheremarkedthatinageneralwayshedidnotstanduponceremony。\"

\"Shedidherselfinjustice。Whenitcametolosingyourmoneyforyou,shemadeyouinsist。\"

\"Ah,younoticedthattoo?\"criedPickering,stillquiteunconfused。

\"Ifeltasifthewholetablewerestaringatme;buthermannerwassograciousandreassuringthatIsupposedshewasdoingnothingunusual。Sheconfessed,however,afterwards,thatsheisveryeccentric。Theworldbegantocallherso,shesaid,beforesheeverdreamedofit,andatlastfindingthatshehadthereputation,inspiteofherself,sheresolvedtoenjoyitsprivileges。Now,shedoeswhatshechooses。\"

\"Inotherwords,sheisaladywithnoreputationtolose!\"

Pickeringseemedpuzzled;hesmiledalittle。\"Isnotthatwhatyousayofbadwomen?\"

\"Ofsome——ofthosewhoarefoundout。\"

\"Well,\"hesaid,stillsmiling,\"IhavenotyetfoundoutMadameBlumenthal。\"

\"Ifthat’shername,Isupposeshe’sGerman。\"

\"Yes;butshespeaksEnglishsowellthatyouwouldn’tknowit。Sheisveryclever。Herhusbandisdead。\"

Ilaughedinvoluntarilyattheconjunctionofthesefacts,andPickering’sclearglanceseemedtoquestionmymirth。\"Youhavebeensobluntlyfrankwithme,\"Isaid,\"thatItoomustbefrank。Tellme,ifyoucan,whetherthiscleverMadameBlumenthal,whosehusbandisdead,hasgivenapointtoyourdesireforasuspensionofcommunicationwithSmyrna。\"

Heseemedtopondermyquestion,unshrinkingly。\"Ithinknot,\"hesaid,atlast。\"Ihavehadthedesireforthreemonths;IhaveknownMadameBlumenthalforlessthantwenty—fourhours。\"

\"Verytrue。Butwhenyoufoundthisletterofyoursonyourplaceatbreakfast,didyouseemforamomenttoseeMadameBlumenthalsittingopposite?\"

\"Opposite?\"

\"Opposite,mydearfellow,oranywhereintheneighbourhood。Inaword,doessheinterestyou?\"

\"Verymuch!\"hecried,joyously。

\"Amen!\"Ianswered,jumpingupwithalaugh。\"Andnow,ifwearetoseetheworldinamonth,thereisnotimetolose。LetusbeginwiththeHardtwald。\"

Pickeringrose,andwestrolledawayintotheforest,talkingoflighterthings。Atlastwereachedtheedgeofthewood,satdownonafallenlog,andlookedoutacrossanintervalofmeadowatthelongwoodedwavesoftheTaunus。WhatmyfriendwasthinkingofIcan’tsay;Iwasmeditatingonhisqueerbiography,andlettingmywondermentwanderawaytoSmyrna。SuddenlyIrememberedthathepossessedaportraitoftheyounggirlwhowaswaitingforhimthereinawhite—walledgarden。Iaskedhimifhehaditwithhim。Hesaidnothing,butgravelytookouthispocket—bookanddrewforthasmallphotograph。Itrepresented,asthepoetsays,asimplemaideninherflower——aslightyounggirl,withacertainchildishroundnessofcontour。Therewasnoeaseinherposture;shewasstanding,stifflyandshyly,forherlikeness;sheworeashort—waistedwhitedress;herarmshungathersidesandherhandswereclaspedinfront;herheadwasbentdownwardalittle,andherdarkeyesfixed。

Butherawkwardnesswasasprettyasthatofsomeangularseraphinamediaevalcarving,andinhertimidgazethereseemedtolurkthequestioninggleamofchildhood。\"Whatisthisfor?\"hercharmingeyesappearedtoask;\"whyhaveIbeendressedupforthisceremonyinawhitefrockandamberbeads?\"

\"Graciouspowers!\"Isaidtomyself;\"whatanenchantingthingisinnocence!\"

\"Thatportraitwastakenayearandahalfago,\"saidPickering,asifwithanefforttobeperfectlyjust。\"Bythistime,Isuppose,shelooksalittlewiser。\"

\"Notmuch,Ihope,\"Isaid,asIgaveitback。\"Sheisverysweet!\"

\"Yes,poorgirl,sheisverysweet——nodoubt!\"Andheputthethingawaywithoutlookingatit。

Weweresilentforsomemoments。Atlast,abruptly——\"Mydearfellow,\"Isaid,\"IshouldtakesomesatisfactioninseeingyouimmediatelyleaveHomburg。\"

\"Immediately?\"

\"To—day——assoonasyoucangetready。\"

Helookedatme,surprised,andlittlebylittleheblushed。\"ThereissomethingIhavenottoldyou,\"hesaid;\"somethingthatyoursayingthatMadameBlumenthalhasnoreputationtolosehasmademehalfafraidtotellyou。\"

\"IthinkIcanguessit。MadameBlumenthalhasaskedyoutocomeandplayhergameforheragain。\"

\"Notatall!\"criedPickering,withasmileoftriumph。\"Shesaysthatshemeanstoplaynomoreforthepresent。Shehasaskedmetocomeandtaketeawithherthisevening。\"

\"Ah,then,\"Isaid,verygravely,\"ofcourseyoucan’tleaveHomburg。\"

Heanswerednothing,butlookedaskanceatme,asifhewereexpectingmetolaugh。\"Urgeitstrongly,\"hesaidinamoment。

\"Sayit’smyduty——thatIMUST。\"

Ididn’tquiteunderstandhim,but,featheringtheshaftwithaharmlessexpletive,ItoldhimthatunlesshefollowedmyadviceI

wouldneverspeaktohimagain。

Hegotup,stoodbeforeme,andstruckthegroundwithhisstick。

\"Good!\"hecried;\"Iwantedanoccasiontobreakarule——toleapabarrier。Hereitis。Istay!\"

Imadehimamockbowforhisenergy。\"That’sveryfine,\"Isaid;

\"butnow,toputyouinapropermoodforMadameBlumenthal’stea,wewillgoandlistentothebandplaySchubertunderthelindens。\"Andwewalkedbackthroughthewoods。

IwenttoseePickeringthenextday,athisinn,andonknocking,asdirected,athisdoor,wassurprisedtohearthesoundofaloudvoicewithin。Myknockremainedunnoticed,soIpresentlyintroducedmyself。Ifoundnocompany,butIdiscoveredmyfriendwalkingupanddowntheroomandapparentlydeclaimingtohimselffromalittlevolumeboundinwhitevellum。Hegreetedmeheartily,threwhisbookonthetable,andsaidthathewastakingaGermanlesson。

\"Andwhoisyourteacher?\"Iasked,glancingatthebook。

Heratheravoidedmeetingmyeye,asheanswered,afteraninstant’sdelay,\"MadameBlumenthal。\"

\"Indeed!Hasshewrittenagrammar?\"

\"It’snotagrammar;it’satragedy。\"Andhehandedmethebook。

Iopenedit,andbeheld,indelicatetype,withaverylargemargin,anHistorischesTrauerspielinfiveacts,entitled\"Cleopatra。\"

Therewereagreatmanymarginalcorrectionsandannotations,apparentlyfromtheauthor’shand;thespeecheswereverylong,andtherewasaninordinatenumberofsoliloquiesbytheheroine。Oneofthem,Iremember,towardstheendoftheplay,beganinthisfashion—

\"What,afterall,islifebutsensation,andsensationbutdeception?——realitythatpalesbeforethelightofone’sdreamsasOctavia’sdullbeautyfadesbesidemine?Butletmebelieveinsomeintenserbliss,andseekitinthearmsofdeath!\"

\"Itseemsdecidedlypassionate,\"Isaid。\"Hasthetragedyeverbeenacted?\"

\"Neverinpublic;butMadameBlumenthaltellsmethatshehaditplayedatherownhouseinBerlin,andthatsheherselfundertookthepartoftheheroine。\"

Pickering’sunworldlylifehadnotbeenofasorttosharpenhisperceptionoftheridiculous,butitseemedtomeanunmistakablesignofhisbeingunderthecharm,thatthisinformationwasverysoberlyoffered。Hewaspreoccupied,hewasirresponsivetomyexperimentalobservationsonvulgartopics——thehotweather,theinn,theadventofAdelinaPatti。Atlast,utteringhisthoughts,heannouncedthatMadameBlumenthalhadprovedtobeanextraordinarilyinterestingwoman。HeseemedtohavequiteforgottenourlongtalkintheHartwaldt,andbetrayednosenseofthisbeingaconfessionthathehadtakenhisplungeandwasfloatingwiththecurrent。HeonlyrememberedthatIhadspokenslightinglyofthelady,andhenowhintedthatitbehovedmetoamendmyopinion。Ihadreceivedthedaybeforesostronganimpressionofasortofspiritualfastidiousnessinmyfriend’snature,thatonhearingnowthestrikingofanewhour,asitwere,inhisconsciousness,andobservinghowtheechoesofthepastwereimmediatelyquenchedinitsmusic,Isaidtomyselfthatithadcertainlytakenadelicatehandtowindupthatfinemachine。NodoubtMadameBlumenthalwasacleverwoman。ItisagoodGermancustomatHomburgtospendthehourprecedingdinnerinlisteningtotheorchestraintheKurgarten;

MozartandBeethoven,fororganismsinwhichtheinterfusionofsoulandsenseispeculiarlymysterious,areavigorousstimulustotheappetite。PickeringandIconformed,aswehaddonethedaybefore,tothefashion,andwhenwewereseatedunderthetrees,hebegantoexpatiateonhisfriend’smerits。

\"Idon’tknowwhethersheiseccentricornot,\"hesaid;\"tomeeveryoneseemseccentric,andit’snotforme,yetawhile,tomeasurepeoplebymynarrowprecedents。Ineversawagamingtableinmylifebefore,andsupposedthatagamblerwasofnecessitysomeduskyvillainwithanevileye。InGermany,saysMadameBlumenthal,peopleplayatrouletteastheyplayatbilliards,andherownvenerablemotheroriginallytaughthertherulesofthegame。Itisarecognisedsourceofsubsistencefordecentpeoplewithsmallmeans。

ButIconfessMadameBlumenthalmightdoworsethingsthanplayatroulette,andyetmakethemharmoniousandbeautiful。Ihaveneverbeeninthehabitofthinkingpositivebeautythemostexcellentthinginawoman。Ihavealwayssaidtomyselfthatifmyheartwereevertobecaptureditwouldbebyasortofgeneralgrace——asweetnessofmotionandtone——onwhichonecouldcountforsoothingimpressions,asonecountsonamusicalinstrumentthatisperfectlyintune。MadameBlumenthalhasit——thisgracethatsoothesandsatisfies;anditseemsthemoreperfectthatitkeepsorderandharmonyinacharacterreallypassionatelyardentandactive。Withhereagernatureandherinnumerableaccomplishmentsnothingwouldbeeasierthanthatsheshouldseemrestlessandaggressive。Youwillknowher,andIleaveyoutojudgewhethershedoesseemso!Shehaseverygift,andculturehasdoneeverythingforeach。WhatgoesoninhermindIofcoursecan’tsay;whatreachestheobserver——theadmirer——issimplyasortoffragrantemanationofintelligenceandsympathy。\"

\"MadameBlumenthal,\"Isaid,smiling,\"mightbetheloveliestwomanintheworld,andyoutheobjectofherchoicestfavours,andyetwhatIshouldmostenvyyouwouldbe,notyourpeerlessfriend,butyourbeautifulimagination。\"

\"That’sapolitewayofcallingmeafool,\"saidPickering。\"Youareasceptic,acynic,asatirist!IhopeIshallbealongtimecomingtothat。\"

\"Youwillmakethejourneyfastifyoutravelbyexpresstrains。Butpraytellme,haveyouventuredtointimatetoMadameBlumenthalyourhighopinionofher?\"

\"Idon’tknowwhatImayhavesaid。Shelistensevenbetterthanshetalks,andIthinkitpossibleImayhavemadeherlistentoagreatdealofnonsense。ForafterthefirstfewwordsIexchangedwithherIwasconsciousofanextraordinaryevaporationofallmyolddiffidence。Ihave,intruth,Isuppose,\"headdedinamoment,\"owingtomypeculiarcircumstances,agreataccumulatedfundofunutteredthingsofallsortstogetridof。Lastevening,sittingtherebeforethatcharmingwoman,theycameswarmingtomylips。

VerylikelyIpouredthemallout。Ihaveasenseofhavingenshroudedmyselfinasortofmistoftalk,andofseeingherlovelyeyesshiningthroughitoppositetome,likefog—lampsatsea。\"Andhere,ifIrememberrightly,Pickeringbrokeoffintoanardentparenthesis,anddeclaredthatMadameBlumenthal’seyeshadsomethinginthemthathehadneverseeninanyothers。\"Itwasajumbleofcruditiesandinanities,\"hewenton;\"theymusthaveseemedtohergreatrubbish;butIfeltthewiserandthestronger,somehow,forhavingfiredoffallmyguns——theycouldhurtnobodynowiftheyhit—

—andIimagineImighthavegonefarwithoutfindinganotherwomaninwhomsuchanexhibitionwouldhaveprovokedsolittleofmerecoldamusement。\"

\"MadameBlumenthal,onthecontrary,\"Isurmised,\"enteredintoyoursituationwithwarmth。\"

\"Exactlyso——thegreatest!Shehasfeltandsuffered,andnowsheunderstands!\"

\"Shetoldyou,Iimagine,thatsheunderstoodyouasifshehadmadeyou,andsheofferedtobeyourguide,philosopher,andfriend。\"

\"Shespoketome,\"Pickeringanswered,afterapause,\"asIhadneverbeenspokentobefore,andsheofferedme,formally,alltheofficesofawoman’sfriendship。\"

\"Whichyouasformallyaccepted?\"

\"Toyouthescenesoundsabsurd,Isuppose,butallowmetosayI

don’tcare!\"Pickeringspokewithanairofgenialdefiancewhichwasthemostinoffensivethingintheworld。\"Iwasverymuchmoved;

Iwas,infact,verymuchexcited。Itriedtosaysomething,butI

couldn’t;Ihadhadplentytosaybefore,butnowIstammeredandbungled,andatlastIboltedoutoftheroom。\"

\"Meanwhileshehaddroppedhertragedyintoyourpocket!\"

\"Notatall。Ihadseenitonthetablebeforeshecamein。

AfterwardsshekindlyofferedtoreadGermanaloudwithme,fortheaccent,twoorthreetimesaweek。’Whatshallwebeginwith?’sheasked。’Withthis!’Isaid,andheldupthebook。Andsheletmetakeittolookitover。\"

Iwasneitheracynicnorasatirist,butevenifIhadbeen,ImighthavebeendisarmedbyPickering’sassurance,beforeweparted,thatMadameBlumenthalwishedtoknowmeandexpectedhimtointroduceme。

Amongthefoolishthingswhich,accordingtohisownaccount,hehaduttered,weresomegenerouswordsinmypraise,towhichshehadcivillyreplied。IconfessIwascurioustoseeher,butIbeggedthattheintroductionshouldnotbeimmediate,forIwishedtoletPickeringworkouthisdestinyalone。ForsomedaysIsawlittleofhim,thoughwemetattheKursaalandstrolledoccasionallyinthepark。Iwatched,inspiteofmydesiretolethimalone,forthesignsandportentsoftheworld’sactionuponhim——ofthatportionoftheworld,inespecial,ofwhichMadameBlumenthalhadconstitutedherselftheagent。Heseemedveryhappy,andgavemeinadozenwaysanimpressionofincreasedself—confidenceandmaturity。Hismindwasadmirablyactive,andalways,afteraquarterofanhour’stalkwithhim,Iaskedmyselfwhatexperiencecouldreallydo,thatinnocencehadnotdone,tomakeitbrightandfine。Iwasstruckwithhisdeepenjoymentofthewholespectacleofforeignlife——itsnovelty,itspicturesqueness,itslightandshade——andwiththeinfinitefreedomwithwhichhefelthecouldgoandcomeandroveandlingerandobserveitall。Itwasanexpansion,anawakening,acomingtomoralmanhood。EachtimeImethimhespokealittlelessofMadameBlumenthal;butheletmeknowgenerallythathesawheroften,andcontinuedtoadmireher。Iwasforcedtoadmittomyself,inspiteofpreconceptions,thatifshewerereallytherulingstarofthishappyseason,shemustbeaverysuperiorwoman。Pickeringhadtheairofaningenuousyoungphilosophersittingatthefeetofanausteremuse,andnotofasentimentalspendthriftdanglingaboutsomesupremeincarnationoflevity。

CHAPTERII。

MadameBlumenthalseemed,forthetime,tohaveabjuredtheKursaal,andInevercaughtaglimpseofher。Heryoungfriend,apparently,wasaninterestingstudy,andthestudiousmindprefersseclusion。

Shereappeared,however,atlast,oneeveningattheopera,wherefrommychairIperceivedherinabox,lookingextremelypretty。

AdelinaPattiwassinging,andaftertherisingofthecurtainIwasoccupiedwiththestage;butonlookingroundwhenitfellfortheentr’acte,Isawthattheauthoressof\"Cleopatra\"hadbeenjoinedbyheryoungadmirer。Hewassittingalittlebehindher,leaningforward,lookingoverhershoulderandlistening,whileshe,slowlymovingherfantoandfroandlettinghereyewanderoverthehouse,wasapparentlytalkingofthispersonandthat。Nodoubtshewassayingsharpthings;butPickeringwasnotlaughing;hiseyeswerefollowinghercovertindications;hismouthwashalfopen,asitalwayswaswhenhewasinterested;helookedintenselyserious。I

wasgladthat,havingherbacktohim,shewasunabletoseehowhelooked。Itseemedthepropermomenttopresentmyselfandmakehermybow;butjustasIwasabouttoleavemyplaceagentleman,whominamomentIperceivedtobeanoldacquaintance,cametooccupythenextchair。Recognitionandmutualgreetingsfollowed,andIwasforcedtopostponemyvisittoMadameBlumenthal。Iwasnotsorry,foritverysoonoccurredtomethatNiedermeyerwouldbejustthemantogivemeafairproseversionofPickering’slyrictributestohisfriend。HewasanAustrianbybirth,andhadformerlylivedaboutEuropeagreatdealinaseriesofsmalldiplomaticposts。