humour。
\"Ah,then,yousawthatwonderfullady?\"
\"Wonderfulshewasindeed。Isawherafterwards,too,sittingontheterraceinthestarlight。Iimagineshewasnotalone。\"
\"No,indeed,Iwaswithher——fornearlyanhour。ThenIwalkedhomewithher。\"
\"Ah!Anddidyougoin?\"
\"No,shesaiditwastoolatetoaskme;thoughsheremarkedthatinageneralwayshedidnotstanduponceremony。\"
\"Shedidherselfinjustice。Whenitcametolosingyourmoneyforyou,shemadeyouinsist。\"
\"Ah,younoticedthattoo?\"criedPickering,stillquiteunconfused。
\"Ifeltasifthewholetablewerestaringatme;buthermannerwassograciousandreassuringthatIsupposedshewasdoingnothingunusual。Sheconfessed,however,afterwards,thatsheisveryeccentric。Theworldbegantocallherso,shesaid,beforesheeverdreamedofit,andatlastfindingthatshehadthereputation,inspiteofherself,sheresolvedtoenjoyitsprivileges。Now,shedoeswhatshechooses。\"
\"Inotherwords,sheisaladywithnoreputationtolose!\"
Pickeringseemedpuzzled;hesmiledalittle。\"Isnotthatwhatyousayofbadwomen?\"
\"Ofsome——ofthosewhoarefoundout。\"
\"Well,\"hesaid,stillsmiling,\"IhavenotyetfoundoutMadameBlumenthal。\"
\"Ifthat’shername,Isupposeshe’sGerman。\"
\"Yes;butshespeaksEnglishsowellthatyouwouldn’tknowit。Sheisveryclever。Herhusbandisdead。\"
Ilaughedinvoluntarilyattheconjunctionofthesefacts,andPickering’sclearglanceseemedtoquestionmymirth。\"Youhavebeensobluntlyfrankwithme,\"Isaid,\"thatItoomustbefrank。Tellme,ifyoucan,whetherthiscleverMadameBlumenthal,whosehusbandisdead,hasgivenapointtoyourdesireforasuspensionofcommunicationwithSmyrna。\"
Heseemedtopondermyquestion,unshrinkingly。\"Ithinknot,\"hesaid,atlast。\"Ihavehadthedesireforthreemonths;IhaveknownMadameBlumenthalforlessthantwenty—fourhours。\"
\"Verytrue。Butwhenyoufoundthisletterofyoursonyourplaceatbreakfast,didyouseemforamomenttoseeMadameBlumenthalsittingopposite?\"
\"Opposite?\"
\"Opposite,mydearfellow,oranywhereintheneighbourhood。Inaword,doessheinterestyou?\"
\"Verymuch!\"hecried,joyously。
\"Amen!\"Ianswered,jumpingupwithalaugh。\"Andnow,ifwearetoseetheworldinamonth,thereisnotimetolose。LetusbeginwiththeHardtwald。\"
Pickeringrose,andwestrolledawayintotheforest,talkingoflighterthings。Atlastwereachedtheedgeofthewood,satdownonafallenlog,andlookedoutacrossanintervalofmeadowatthelongwoodedwavesoftheTaunus。WhatmyfriendwasthinkingofIcan’tsay;Iwasmeditatingonhisqueerbiography,andlettingmywondermentwanderawaytoSmyrna。SuddenlyIrememberedthathepossessedaportraitoftheyounggirlwhowaswaitingforhimthereinawhite—walledgarden。Iaskedhimifhehaditwithhim。Hesaidnothing,butgravelytookouthispocket—bookanddrewforthasmallphotograph。Itrepresented,asthepoetsays,asimplemaideninherflower——aslightyounggirl,withacertainchildishroundnessofcontour。Therewasnoeaseinherposture;shewasstanding,stifflyandshyly,forherlikeness;sheworeashort—waistedwhitedress;herarmshungathersidesandherhandswereclaspedinfront;herheadwasbentdownwardalittle,andherdarkeyesfixed。
Butherawkwardnesswasasprettyasthatofsomeangularseraphinamediaevalcarving,andinhertimidgazethereseemedtolurkthequestioninggleamofchildhood。\"Whatisthisfor?\"hercharmingeyesappearedtoask;\"whyhaveIbeendressedupforthisceremonyinawhitefrockandamberbeads?\"
\"Graciouspowers!\"Isaidtomyself;\"whatanenchantingthingisinnocence!\"
\"Thatportraitwastakenayearandahalfago,\"saidPickering,asifwithanefforttobeperfectlyjust。\"Bythistime,Isuppose,shelooksalittlewiser。\"
\"Notmuch,Ihope,\"Isaid,asIgaveitback。\"Sheisverysweet!\"
\"Yes,poorgirl,sheisverysweet——nodoubt!\"Andheputthethingawaywithoutlookingatit。
Weweresilentforsomemoments。Atlast,abruptly——\"Mydearfellow,\"Isaid,\"IshouldtakesomesatisfactioninseeingyouimmediatelyleaveHomburg。\"
\"Immediately?\"
\"To—day——assoonasyoucangetready。\"
Helookedatme,surprised,andlittlebylittleheblushed。\"ThereissomethingIhavenottoldyou,\"hesaid;\"somethingthatyoursayingthatMadameBlumenthalhasnoreputationtolosehasmademehalfafraidtotellyou。\"
\"IthinkIcanguessit。MadameBlumenthalhasaskedyoutocomeandplayhergameforheragain。\"
\"Notatall!\"criedPickering,withasmileoftriumph。\"Shesaysthatshemeanstoplaynomoreforthepresent。Shehasaskedmetocomeandtaketeawithherthisevening。\"
\"Ah,then,\"Isaid,verygravely,\"ofcourseyoucan’tleaveHomburg。\"
Heanswerednothing,butlookedaskanceatme,asifhewereexpectingmetolaugh。\"Urgeitstrongly,\"hesaidinamoment。
\"Sayit’smyduty——thatIMUST。\"
Ididn’tquiteunderstandhim,but,featheringtheshaftwithaharmlessexpletive,ItoldhimthatunlesshefollowedmyadviceI
wouldneverspeaktohimagain。
Hegotup,stoodbeforeme,andstruckthegroundwithhisstick。
\"Good!\"hecried;\"Iwantedanoccasiontobreakarule——toleapabarrier。Hereitis。Istay!\"
Imadehimamockbowforhisenergy。\"That’sveryfine,\"Isaid;
\"butnow,toputyouinapropermoodforMadameBlumenthal’stea,wewillgoandlistentothebandplaySchubertunderthelindens。\"Andwewalkedbackthroughthewoods。
IwenttoseePickeringthenextday,athisinn,andonknocking,asdirected,athisdoor,wassurprisedtohearthesoundofaloudvoicewithin。Myknockremainedunnoticed,soIpresentlyintroducedmyself。Ifoundnocompany,butIdiscoveredmyfriendwalkingupanddowntheroomandapparentlydeclaimingtohimselffromalittlevolumeboundinwhitevellum。Hegreetedmeheartily,threwhisbookonthetable,andsaidthathewastakingaGermanlesson。
\"Andwhoisyourteacher?\"Iasked,glancingatthebook。
Heratheravoidedmeetingmyeye,asheanswered,afteraninstant’sdelay,\"MadameBlumenthal。\"
\"Indeed!Hasshewrittenagrammar?\"
\"It’snotagrammar;it’satragedy。\"Andhehandedmethebook。
Iopenedit,andbeheld,indelicatetype,withaverylargemargin,anHistorischesTrauerspielinfiveacts,entitled\"Cleopatra。\"
Therewereagreatmanymarginalcorrectionsandannotations,apparentlyfromtheauthor’shand;thespeecheswereverylong,andtherewasaninordinatenumberofsoliloquiesbytheheroine。Oneofthem,Iremember,towardstheendoftheplay,beganinthisfashion—
\"What,afterall,islifebutsensation,andsensationbutdeception?——realitythatpalesbeforethelightofone’sdreamsasOctavia’sdullbeautyfadesbesidemine?Butletmebelieveinsomeintenserbliss,andseekitinthearmsofdeath!\"
\"Itseemsdecidedlypassionate,\"Isaid。\"Hasthetragedyeverbeenacted?\"
\"Neverinpublic;butMadameBlumenthaltellsmethatshehaditplayedatherownhouseinBerlin,andthatsheherselfundertookthepartoftheheroine。\"
Pickering’sunworldlylifehadnotbeenofasorttosharpenhisperceptionoftheridiculous,butitseemedtomeanunmistakablesignofhisbeingunderthecharm,thatthisinformationwasverysoberlyoffered。Hewaspreoccupied,hewasirresponsivetomyexperimentalobservationsonvulgartopics——thehotweather,theinn,theadventofAdelinaPatti。Atlast,utteringhisthoughts,heannouncedthatMadameBlumenthalhadprovedtobeanextraordinarilyinterestingwoman。HeseemedtohavequiteforgottenourlongtalkintheHartwaldt,andbetrayednosenseofthisbeingaconfessionthathehadtakenhisplungeandwasfloatingwiththecurrent。HeonlyrememberedthatIhadspokenslightinglyofthelady,andhenowhintedthatitbehovedmetoamendmyopinion。Ihadreceivedthedaybeforesostronganimpressionofasortofspiritualfastidiousnessinmyfriend’snature,thatonhearingnowthestrikingofanewhour,asitwere,inhisconsciousness,andobservinghowtheechoesofthepastwereimmediatelyquenchedinitsmusic,Isaidtomyselfthatithadcertainlytakenadelicatehandtowindupthatfinemachine。NodoubtMadameBlumenthalwasacleverwoman。ItisagoodGermancustomatHomburgtospendthehourprecedingdinnerinlisteningtotheorchestraintheKurgarten;
MozartandBeethoven,fororganismsinwhichtheinterfusionofsoulandsenseispeculiarlymysterious,areavigorousstimulustotheappetite。PickeringandIconformed,aswehaddonethedaybefore,tothefashion,andwhenwewereseatedunderthetrees,hebegantoexpatiateonhisfriend’smerits。
\"Idon’tknowwhethersheiseccentricornot,\"hesaid;\"tomeeveryoneseemseccentric,andit’snotforme,yetawhile,tomeasurepeoplebymynarrowprecedents。Ineversawagamingtableinmylifebefore,andsupposedthatagamblerwasofnecessitysomeduskyvillainwithanevileye。InGermany,saysMadameBlumenthal,peopleplayatrouletteastheyplayatbilliards,andherownvenerablemotheroriginallytaughthertherulesofthegame。Itisarecognisedsourceofsubsistencefordecentpeoplewithsmallmeans。
ButIconfessMadameBlumenthalmightdoworsethingsthanplayatroulette,andyetmakethemharmoniousandbeautiful。Ihaveneverbeeninthehabitofthinkingpositivebeautythemostexcellentthinginawoman。Ihavealwayssaidtomyselfthatifmyheartwereevertobecaptureditwouldbebyasortofgeneralgrace——asweetnessofmotionandtone——onwhichonecouldcountforsoothingimpressions,asonecountsonamusicalinstrumentthatisperfectlyintune。MadameBlumenthalhasit——thisgracethatsoothesandsatisfies;anditseemsthemoreperfectthatitkeepsorderandharmonyinacharacterreallypassionatelyardentandactive。Withhereagernatureandherinnumerableaccomplishmentsnothingwouldbeeasierthanthatsheshouldseemrestlessandaggressive。Youwillknowher,andIleaveyoutojudgewhethershedoesseemso!Shehaseverygift,andculturehasdoneeverythingforeach。WhatgoesoninhermindIofcoursecan’tsay;whatreachestheobserver——theadmirer——issimplyasortoffragrantemanationofintelligenceandsympathy。\"
\"MadameBlumenthal,\"Isaid,smiling,\"mightbetheloveliestwomanintheworld,andyoutheobjectofherchoicestfavours,andyetwhatIshouldmostenvyyouwouldbe,notyourpeerlessfriend,butyourbeautifulimagination。\"
\"That’sapolitewayofcallingmeafool,\"saidPickering。\"Youareasceptic,acynic,asatirist!IhopeIshallbealongtimecomingtothat。\"
\"Youwillmakethejourneyfastifyoutravelbyexpresstrains。Butpraytellme,haveyouventuredtointimatetoMadameBlumenthalyourhighopinionofher?\"
\"Idon’tknowwhatImayhavesaid。Shelistensevenbetterthanshetalks,andIthinkitpossibleImayhavemadeherlistentoagreatdealofnonsense。ForafterthefirstfewwordsIexchangedwithherIwasconsciousofanextraordinaryevaporationofallmyolddiffidence。Ihave,intruth,Isuppose,\"headdedinamoment,\"owingtomypeculiarcircumstances,agreataccumulatedfundofunutteredthingsofallsortstogetridof。Lastevening,sittingtherebeforethatcharmingwoman,theycameswarmingtomylips。
VerylikelyIpouredthemallout。Ihaveasenseofhavingenshroudedmyselfinasortofmistoftalk,andofseeingherlovelyeyesshiningthroughitoppositetome,likefog—lampsatsea。\"Andhere,ifIrememberrightly,Pickeringbrokeoffintoanardentparenthesis,anddeclaredthatMadameBlumenthal’seyeshadsomethinginthemthathehadneverseeninanyothers。\"Itwasajumbleofcruditiesandinanities,\"hewenton;\"theymusthaveseemedtohergreatrubbish;butIfeltthewiserandthestronger,somehow,forhavingfiredoffallmyguns——theycouldhurtnobodynowiftheyhit—
—andIimagineImighthavegonefarwithoutfindinganotherwomaninwhomsuchanexhibitionwouldhaveprovokedsolittleofmerecoldamusement。\"
\"MadameBlumenthal,onthecontrary,\"Isurmised,\"enteredintoyoursituationwithwarmth。\"
\"Exactlyso——thegreatest!Shehasfeltandsuffered,andnowsheunderstands!\"
\"Shetoldyou,Iimagine,thatsheunderstoodyouasifshehadmadeyou,andsheofferedtobeyourguide,philosopher,andfriend。\"
\"Shespoketome,\"Pickeringanswered,afterapause,\"asIhadneverbeenspokentobefore,andsheofferedme,formally,alltheofficesofawoman’sfriendship。\"
\"Whichyouasformallyaccepted?\"
\"Toyouthescenesoundsabsurd,Isuppose,butallowmetosayI
don’tcare!\"Pickeringspokewithanairofgenialdefiancewhichwasthemostinoffensivethingintheworld。\"Iwasverymuchmoved;
Iwas,infact,verymuchexcited。Itriedtosaysomething,butI
couldn’t;Ihadhadplentytosaybefore,butnowIstammeredandbungled,andatlastIboltedoutoftheroom。\"
\"Meanwhileshehaddroppedhertragedyintoyourpocket!\"
\"Notatall。Ihadseenitonthetablebeforeshecamein。
AfterwardsshekindlyofferedtoreadGermanaloudwithme,fortheaccent,twoorthreetimesaweek。’Whatshallwebeginwith?’sheasked。’Withthis!’Isaid,andheldupthebook。Andsheletmetakeittolookitover。\"
Iwasneitheracynicnorasatirist,butevenifIhadbeen,ImighthavebeendisarmedbyPickering’sassurance,beforeweparted,thatMadameBlumenthalwishedtoknowmeandexpectedhimtointroduceme。
Amongthefoolishthingswhich,accordingtohisownaccount,hehaduttered,weresomegenerouswordsinmypraise,towhichshehadcivillyreplied。IconfessIwascurioustoseeher,butIbeggedthattheintroductionshouldnotbeimmediate,forIwishedtoletPickeringworkouthisdestinyalone。ForsomedaysIsawlittleofhim,thoughwemetattheKursaalandstrolledoccasionallyinthepark。Iwatched,inspiteofmydesiretolethimalone,forthesignsandportentsoftheworld’sactionuponhim——ofthatportionoftheworld,inespecial,ofwhichMadameBlumenthalhadconstitutedherselftheagent。Heseemedveryhappy,andgavemeinadozenwaysanimpressionofincreasedself—confidenceandmaturity。Hismindwasadmirablyactive,andalways,afteraquarterofanhour’stalkwithhim,Iaskedmyselfwhatexperiencecouldreallydo,thatinnocencehadnotdone,tomakeitbrightandfine。Iwasstruckwithhisdeepenjoymentofthewholespectacleofforeignlife——itsnovelty,itspicturesqueness,itslightandshade——andwiththeinfinitefreedomwithwhichhefelthecouldgoandcomeandroveandlingerandobserveitall。Itwasanexpansion,anawakening,acomingtomoralmanhood。EachtimeImethimhespokealittlelessofMadameBlumenthal;butheletmeknowgenerallythathesawheroften,andcontinuedtoadmireher。Iwasforcedtoadmittomyself,inspiteofpreconceptions,thatifshewerereallytherulingstarofthishappyseason,shemustbeaverysuperiorwoman。Pickeringhadtheairofaningenuousyoungphilosophersittingatthefeetofanausteremuse,andnotofasentimentalspendthriftdanglingaboutsomesupremeincarnationoflevity。
CHAPTERII。
MadameBlumenthalseemed,forthetime,tohaveabjuredtheKursaal,andInevercaughtaglimpseofher。Heryoungfriend,apparently,wasaninterestingstudy,andthestudiousmindprefersseclusion。
Shereappeared,however,atlast,oneeveningattheopera,wherefrommychairIperceivedherinabox,lookingextremelypretty。
AdelinaPattiwassinging,andaftertherisingofthecurtainIwasoccupiedwiththestage;butonlookingroundwhenitfellfortheentr’acte,Isawthattheauthoressof\"Cleopatra\"hadbeenjoinedbyheryoungadmirer。Hewassittingalittlebehindher,leaningforward,lookingoverhershoulderandlistening,whileshe,slowlymovingherfantoandfroandlettinghereyewanderoverthehouse,wasapparentlytalkingofthispersonandthat。Nodoubtshewassayingsharpthings;butPickeringwasnotlaughing;hiseyeswerefollowinghercovertindications;hismouthwashalfopen,asitalwayswaswhenhewasinterested;helookedintenselyserious。I
wasgladthat,havingherbacktohim,shewasunabletoseehowhelooked。Itseemedthepropermomenttopresentmyselfandmakehermybow;butjustasIwasabouttoleavemyplaceagentleman,whominamomentIperceivedtobeanoldacquaintance,cametooccupythenextchair。Recognitionandmutualgreetingsfollowed,andIwasforcedtopostponemyvisittoMadameBlumenthal。Iwasnotsorry,foritverysoonoccurredtomethatNiedermeyerwouldbejustthemantogivemeafairproseversionofPickering’slyrictributestohisfriend。HewasanAustrianbybirth,andhadformerlylivedaboutEuropeagreatdealinaseriesofsmalldiplomaticposts。