第2章

Amaterialrefuge。Hehadnothing。Hehadnotevenamoralrefuge——therefugeofconfidence。Towhomcouldhegowiththistale——inallthisgreat,greatland?

Razumovstampedhisfoot——andunderthesoftcarpetofsnowfeltthehardgroundofRussia,inanimate,cold,inert,likeasullenandtragicmotherhidingherfaceunderawinding—sheet——hisnativesoil!——hisveryown——withoutafireside,withoutaheart!

Hecasthiseyesupwardsandstoodamazed。Thesnowhadceasedtofall,andnow,asifbyamiracle,hesawabovehisheadtheclearblackskyofthenorthernwinter,decoratedwiththesumptuousfiresofthestars。Itwasacanopyfitfortheresplendentpurityofthesnows。

Razumovreceivedanalmostphysicalimpressionofendlessspaceandofcountlessmillions。

HerespondedtoitwiththereadinessofaRussianwhoisborntoaninheritanceofspaceandnumbers。Underthesumptuousimmensityofthesky,thesnowcoveredtheendlessforests,thefrozenrivers,theplainsofanimmensecountry,obliteratingthelandmarks,theaccidentsoftheground,levellingeverythingunderitsuniformwhiteness,likeamonstrousblankpageawaitingtherecordofaninconceivablehistory。ItcoveredthepassivelandwithitslivesofcountlesspeoplelikeZiemianitchanditshandfulofagitatorslikethisHaldin——murderingfoolishly。

Itwasasortofsacredinertia。Razumovfeltarespectforit。

Avoiceseemedtocrywithinhim,\"Don’ttouchit。\"Itwasaguaranteeofduration,ofsafety,whilethetravailofmaturingdestinywenton——aworknotofrevolutionswiththeirpassionatelevityofactionandtheirshiftingimpulses——butofpeace。Whatitneededwasnottheconflictingaspirationsofapeople,butawillstrongandone:itwantednotthebabbleofmanyvoices,butaman——strongandone!

Razumovstoodonthepointofconversion。Hewasfascinatedbyitsapproach,byitsoverpoweringlogic。Foratrainofthoughtisneverfalse。Thefalsehoodliesdeepinthenecessitiesofexistence,insecretfearsandhalf—formedambitions,inthesecretconfidencecombinedwithasecretmistrustofourselves,intheloveofhopeandthedreadofuncertaindays。

InRussia,thelandofspectralideasanddisembodiedaspirations,manybravemindshaveturnedawayatlastfromthevainandendlessconflicttotheonegreathistoricalfactoftheland。Theyturnedtoautocracyforthepeaceoftheirpatrioticconscienceasawearyunbeliever,touchedbygrace,turnstothefaithofhisfathersfortheblessingofspiritualrest。LikeotherRussiansbeforehim,Razumov,inconflictwithhimself,feltthetouchofgraceuponhisforehead。

\"Haldinmeansdisruption,\"hethoughttohimself,beginningtowalkagain。\"Whatishewithhisindignation,withhistalkofbondage——withhistalkofGod’sjustice?Allthatmeansdisruption。Betterthatthousandsshouldsufferthanthatapeopleshouldbecomeadisintegratedmass,helplesslikedustinthewind。Obscurantismisbetterthanthelightofincendiarytorches。Theseedgerminatesinthenight。Outofthedarksoilspringstheperfectplant。Butavolcaniceruptionissterile,theruinofthefertileground。AndamI,wholovemycountry——whohavenothingbutthattoloveandputmyfaithin——amItohavemyfuture,perhapsmyusefulness,ruinedbythissanguinaryfanatic?\"

ThegraceenteredintoRazumov。Hebelievednowinthemanwhowouldcomeattheappointedtime。

Whatisathrone?Afewpiecesofwoodupholsteredinvelvet。

Butathroneisaseatofpowertoo。Theformofgovernmentistheshapeofatool——aninstrument。Buttwentythousandbladdersinflatedbythenoblestsentimentsandjostlingagainsteachotherintheairareamiserableincumbranceofspace,holdingnopower,possessingnowill,havingnothingtogive。

Hewentonthus,heedlessoftheway,holdingadiscoursewithhimselfwithextraordinaryabundanceandfacility。Generallyhisphrasescametohimslowly,afteraconsciousandpainstakingwooing。Somesuperiorpowerhadinspiredhimwithaflowofmasterlyargumentascertainconvertedsinnersbecomeoverwhelminglyloquacious。

Hefeltanaustereexultation。

\"Whataretheluridlysmokylucubrationsofthatfellowtothecleargraspofmyintellect?\"hethought。\"Isnotthismycountry?HaveInotgotfortymillionbrothers?\"heaskedhimself,unanswerablyvictoriousinthesilenceofhisbreast。

AndthefearfulthrashinghehadgiventheinanimateZiemianitchseemedtohimasignofintimateunion,apatheticallyseverenecessityofbrotherlylove。\"No!IfImustsufferletmeatleastsufferformyconvictions,notforacrimemyreason——mycoolsuperiorreason——rejects。\"

Heceasedtothinkforamoment。Thesilenceinhisbreastwascomplete。Buthefeltasuspiciousuneasiness,suchaswemayexperiencewhenweenteranunlightedstrangeplace——theirrationalfeelingthatsomethingmayjumpuponusinthedark——theabsurddreadoftheunseen。

Ofcoursehewasfarfrombeingamoss—grownreactionary。

Everythingwasnotforthebest。Despoticbureaucracy……

abuses……corruption……andsoon。Capablemenwerewanted。

Enlightenedintelligences。Devotedhearts。Butabsolutepowershouldbepreserved——thetoolreadyfortheman——forthegreatautocratofthefuture。Razumovbelievedinhim。Thelogicofhistorymadehimunavoidable。Thestateofthepeopledemandedhim,\"Whatelse?\"heaskedhimselfardently,\"couldmoveallthatmassinonedirection?Nothingcould。Nothingbutasinglewill。\"

Hewaspersuadedthathewassacrificinghispersonallongingsofliberalism——rejectingtheattractiveerrorforthesternRussiantruth。\"That’spatriotism,\"heobservedmentally,andadded,\"There’snostoppingmidwayonthatroad,\"andthenremarkedtohimself,\"Iamnotacoward。\"

AndagaintherewasadeadsilenceinRazumov’sbreast。Hewalkedwithloweredhead,makingroomfornoone。Hewalkedslowlyandhisthoughtsreturningspokewithinhimwithsolemnslowness。

\"WhatisthisHaldin?AndwhatamI?Onlytwograinsofsand。

Butagreatmountainismadeupofjustsuchinsignificantgrains。Andthedeathofamanorofmanymenisaninsignificantthing。Yetwecombatacontagiouspestilence。

DoIwanthisdeath?No!IwouldsavehimifIcould——butnoonecandothat——heisthewitheredmemberwhichmustbecutoff。

IfImustperishthroughhim,letmeatleastnotperishwithhim,andassociatedagainstmywillwithhissombrefollythatunderstandsnothingeitherofmenorthings。WhyshouldIleaveafalsememory?\"

Itpassedthroughhismindthattherewasnooneintheworldwhocaredwhatsortofmemoryheleftbehindhim。Heexclaimedtohimselfinstantly,\"Perishvainlyforafalsehood!……Whatamiserablefate!\"

Hewasnowinamoreanimatedpartofthetown。Hedidnotremarkthecrashoftwocollidingsledgesclosetothecurb。

Thedriverofonebellowedtearfullyathisfellow——

\"Oh,thouvilewretch!\"

Thishoarseyell,letoutnearlyinhisear,disturbedRazumov。

Heshookhisheadimpatientlyandwentonlookingstraightbeforehim。Suddenlyonthesnow,stretchedonhisbackrightacrosshispath,hesawHaldin,solid,distinct,real,withhisinvertedhandsoverhiseyes,cladinabrownclose—fittingcoatandlongboots。Hewaslyingoutofthewayalittle,asthoughhehadselectedthatplaceonpurpose。Thesnowroundhimwasuntrodden。

ThishallucinationhadsuchasolidityofaspectthatthefirstmovementofRazumovwastoreachforhispockettoassurehimselfthatthekeyofhisroomswasthere。Buthecheckedtheimpulsewithadisdainfulcurveofhislips。Heunderstood。Histhought,concentratedintenselyonthefigureleftlyingonhisbed,hadculminatedinthisextraordinaryillusionofthesight。

Razumovtackledthephenomenoncalmly。Withasternface,withoutacheckandgazingfarbeyondthevision,hewalkedon,experiencingnothingbutaslighttighteningofthechest。

Afterpassingheturnedhisheadforaglance,andsawonlytheunbrokentrackofhisfootstepsovertheplacewherethebreastofthephantomhadbeenlying。

Razumovwalkedonandafteralittletimewhisperedhiswondertohimself。

\"Exactlyasifalive!Seemedtobreathe!Andrightinmywaytoo!

Ihavehadanextraordinaryexperience。\"

Hemadeafewstepsandmutteredthroughhissetteeth——

\"Ishallgivehimup。\"

Thenforsometwentyyardsormoreallwasblank。Hewrappedhiscloakcloserroundhim。Hepulledhiscapwellforwardoverhiseyes。

\"Betray。Agreatword。Whatisbetrayal?Theytalkofamanbetrayinghiscountry,hisfriends,hissweetheart。Theremustbeamoralbondfirst。Allamancanbetrayishisconscience。

Andhowismyconscienceengagedhere;bywhatbondofcommonfaith,ofcommonconviction,amIobligedtoletthatfanaticalidiotdragmedownwithhim?Onthecontrary——everyobligationoftruecourageistheotherway。\"

Razumovlookedroundfromunderhiscap。

\"Whatcantheprejudiceoftheworldreproachmewith?HaveI

provokedhisconfidence?No!HaveIbyasingleword,look,orgesturegivenhimreasontosupposethatIacceptedhistrustinme?No!ItistruethatIconsentedtogoandseehisZiemianitch。Well,Ihavebeentoseehim。AndIbrokeastickonhisbacktoo——thebrute。\"

Somethingseemedtoturnoverinhisheadbringinguppermostasingularlyhard,clearfacetofhisbrain。

\"Itwouldbebetter,however,\"hereflectedwithaquitedifferentmentalaccent,\"tokeepthatcircumstancealtogethertomyself。\"

Hehadpassedbeyondtheturnleadingtohislodgings,andhadreachedawideandfashionablestreet。Someshopswerestillopen,andalltherestaurants。Lightsfellonthepavementwheremeninexpensivefurcoats,withhereandtheretheelegantfigureofawoman,walkedwithanairofleisure。Razumovlookedatthemwiththecontemptofanausterebelieverforthefrivolouscrowd。Itwastheworld——thoseofficers,dignitaries,menoffashion,officials,membersoftheYachtClub。Theeventofthemorningaffectedthemall。Whatwouldtheysayiftheyknewwhatthisstudentinacloakwasgoingtodo?

\"NotoneofthemiscapableoffeelingandthinkingasdeeplyasIcan。Howmanyofthemcouldaccomplishanactofconscience?\"

Razumovlingeredinthewell—lightedstreet。Hewasfirmlydecided。Indeed,itcouldhardlybecalledadecision。Hehadsimplydiscoveredwhathehadmeanttodoallalong。Andyethefelttheneedofsomeothermind’ssanction。

Withsomethingresemblinganguishhesaidtohimself——

\"Iwanttobeunderstood。\"TheuniversalaspirationwithallitsprofoundandmelancholymeaningassailedheavilyRazumov,who,amongsteightymillionsofhiskithandkin,hadnohearttowhichhecouldopenhimself。

Theattorneywasnottobethoughtof。Hedespisedthelittleagentofchicanetoomuch。Onecouldnotgoandlayone’sconsciencebeforethepolicemanatthecorner。NeitherwasRazumovanxioustogotothechiefofhisdistrict’spolice——acommon—lookingpersonwhomheusedtoseesometimesinthestreetinashabbyuniformandwithasmoulderingcigarettestucktohislowerlip。\"Hewouldbeginbylockingmeupmostprobably。Atanyrate,heiscertaintogetexcitedandcreateanawfulcommotion,\"thoughtRazumovpracticallyAnactofconsciencemustbedonewithoutwarddignity。

Razumovlongeddesperatelyforawordofadvice,formoralsupport。Whoknowswhattruelonelinessis——nottheconventionalword,butthenakedterror?Tothelonelythemselvesitwearsamask。Themostmiserableoutcasthugssomememoryorsomeillusion。Nowandthenafatalconjunctionofeventsmaylifttheveilforaninstant。Foraninstantonly。

Nohumanbeingcouldbearasteadyviewofmoralsolitudewithoutgoingmad。

Razumovhadreachedthatpointofvision。Toescapefromitheembracedforawholeminutethedeliriouspurposeofrushingtohislodgingsandflinginghimselfonhiskneesbythesideofthebedwiththedarkfigurestretchedonit;topouroutafullconfessioninpassionatewordsthatwouldstirthewholebeingofthatmantoitsinnermostdepths;thatwouldendinembracesandtears;inanincrediblefellowshipofsouls——suchastheworldhadneverseen。Itwassublime!

Inwardlyheweptandtrembledalready。Buttothecasualeyesthatwerecastuponhimhewasawarethatheappearedasatranquilstudentinacloak,outforaleisurelystroll。

Henoted,too,thesidelong,brilliantglanceofaprettywoman——withadelicatehead,andcoveredinthehairyskinsofwildbeastsdowntoherfeet,likeafrailandbeautifulsavage——whichrestedforamomentwithasortofmockingtendernessonthedeepabstractionofthatgood—lookingyoungman。

SuddenlyRazumovstoodstill。Theglimpseofapassinggreywhisker,caughtandlostinthesameinstant,hadevokedthecompleteimageofPrinceK———,themanwhooncehadpressedhishandasnoothermanhadpressedit——afaintbutlingeringpressurelikeasecretsign,likeahalf—unwillingcaress。

AndRazumovmarvelledathimself。Whydidhenotthinkofhimbefore!

\"Asenator,adignitary,agreatpersonage,theveryman——He!\"

AstrangesofteningemotioncameoverRazumov——madehiskneesshakealittle。Herepresseditwithanew—bornausterity。Allthatsentimentwasperniciousnonsense。Hecouldn’tbequickenough;andwhenhegotintoasledgeheshoutedtothedriver——

\"TotheK———Palace。Geton——you!Fly!\"Thestartledmoujik,beardeduptotheverywhitesofhiseyes,answeredobsequiously——

\"Ihear,yourhighNobility。\"

ItwasluckyforRazumovthatPrinceK———wasnotamanoftimidcharacter。OnthedayofMr。deP———’smurderanextremealarmanddespondencyprevailedinthehighofficialspheres。

PrinceK———,sittingsadlyaloneinhisstudy,wastoldbyhisalarmedservantsthatamysteriousyoungmanhadforcedhiswayintothehall,refusedtotellhisnameandthenatureofhisbusiness,andwouldnotmovefromtheretillhehadseenhisExcellencyinprivate。Insteadoflockinghimselfupandtelephoningforthepolice,asnineoutoftenhighpersonageswouldhavedonethatevening,thePrincegavewaytocuriosityandcamequietlytothedoorofhisstudy。

Inthehall,thefrontdoorstandingwideopen,herecognisedatonceRazumov,paleasdeath,hiseyesblazing,andsurroundedbyperplexedlackeys。

ThePrincewasvexedbeyondmeasure,andevenindignant。Buthishumaneinstinctsandasubtlesenseofself—respectcouldnotallowhimtoletthisyoungmanbethrownoutintothestreetbybasemenials。Heretreatedunseenintohisroom,andafteralittleranghisbell。Razumovheardinthehallanominouslyraisedharshvoicesayingsomewherefaraway——

\"Showthegentlemaninhere。\"

Razumovwalkedinwithoutatremor。Hefelthimselfinvulnerable——raisedfarabovetheshallownessofcommonjudgment。ThoughhesawthePrincelookingathimwithblackdispleasure,thelucidityofhismind,ofwhichhewasveryconscious,gavehimanextraordinaryassurance。Hewasnotaskedtositdown。

Halfanhourlatertheyappearedinthehalltogether。Thelackeysstoodup,andthePrince,movingwithdifficultyonhisgoutyfeet,washelpedintohisfurs。Thecarriagehadbeenorderedbefore。Whenthegreatdoubledoorwasflungopenwithacrash,Razumov,whohadbeenstandingsilentwithalostgazebutwitheveryfacultyintenselyonthealert,heardthePrince’svoice——

\"Yourarm,youngman。\"

Themobile,superficialmindoftheex—Guardsofficer,manofshowymissions,experiencedinnothingbuttheartsofgallantintrigueandworldlysuccess,hadbeenequallyimpressedbythemoreobviousdifficultiesofsuchasituationandbyRazumov’squietdignityinstatingthem。

Hehadsaid,\"No。UponthewholeIcan’tcondemnthestepyouventuredtotakebycomingtomewithyourstory。Itisnotanaffairforpoliceunderstrappers。Thegreatestimportanceisattachedto……Setyourmindatrest。Ishallseeyouthroughthismostextraordinaryanddifficultsituation。\"

ThenthePrincerosetoringthebell,andRazumov,makingashortbow,hadsaidwithdeference——

\"Ihavetrustedmyinstinct。AyoungmanhavingnoclaimuponanybodyintheworldhasinanhouroftrialinvolvinghisdeepestpoliticalconvictionsturnedtoanillustriousRussian——that’sall。\"

ThePrincehadexclaimedhastily——

\"Youhavedonewell。\"

Inthecarriage——itwasasmallbroughamonsleighrunners——

Razumovbrokethesilenceinavoicethattrembledslightly。

\"Mygratitudesurpassesthegreatnessofmypresumption。\"

Hegasped,feelingunexpectedlyinthedarkamomentarypressureonhisarm。

\"Youhavedonewell,\"repeatedthePrince。

WhenthecarriagestoppedthePrincemurmuredtoRazumov,whohadneverventuredasinglequestion——

\"ThehouseofGeneralT———。\"

Inthemiddleofthesnow—coveredroadwayblazedagreatbonfire。

SomeCossacks,thebridlesoftheirhorsesoverthearm,werewarmingthemselvesaround。Twosentriesstoodatthedoor,severalgendarmesloungedunderthegreatcarriagegateway,andonthefirst—floorlandingtwoorderliesroseandstoodatattention。RazumovwalkedatthePrince’selbow。

Asurprisingquantityofhot—houseplantsinpotscumberedtheflooroftheante—room。Servantscameforward。Ayoungmanincivilianclothesarrivedhurriedly,waswhisperedto,bowedlow,andexclaimingzealously,\"Certainly——thisminute,\"fledwithinsomewhere。ThePrincesignedtoRazumov。

Theypassedthroughasuiteofreception—roomsallbarelylitandoneofthempreparedfordancing。ThewifeoftheGeneralhadputoffherparty。Anatmosphereofconsternationpervadedtheplace。

ButtheGeneral’sownroom,withheavysombrehangings,twomassivedesks,anddeeparmchairs,hadallthelightsturnedon。Thefootmanshutthedoorbehindthemandtheywaited。

TherewasacoalfireinanEnglishgrate;Razumovhadneverbeforeseensuchafire;andthesilenceoftheroomwaslikethesilenceofthegrave;perfect,measureless,foreventheclockonthemantelpiecemadenosound。Fillingacorner,onablackpedestal,stoodaquarter—life—sizesmooth—limbedbronzeofanadolescentfigure,running。ThePrinceobservedinanundertone—

\"Spontini’s。’FlightofYouth。’Exquisite。\"

\"Admirable,\"assentedRazumovfaintly。

Theysaidnothingmoreafterthis,thePrincesilentwithhisgrandair,Razumovstaringatthestatue。Hewasworriedbyasensationresemblingthegnawingofhunger。

Hedidnotturnwhenheheardaninnerdoorflyopen,andaquickfootstep,muffledonthecarpet。

ThePrince’svoiceimmediatelyexclaimed,thickwithexcitement——

\"Wehavegothim——_cemiserable。_Aworthyyoungmancametome——

No!It’sincredible……\"

Razumovheldhisbreathbeforethebronzeasifexpectingacrash。Behindhisbackavoicehehadneverheardbeforeinsistedpolitely——

\"_Asseyez—vousdonc_。\"

ThePrincealmostshrieked,\"_Maiscomprenez—vous,moncher!

L’assassin!_themurderer——wehavegothim……\"

Razumovspunround。TheGeneral’ssmoothbigcheeksrestedonthestiffcollarofhisuniform。HemusthavebeenalreadylookingatRazumov,becausethatlastsawthepaleblueeyesfastenedonhimcoldly。

ThePrincefromachairwavedanimpressivehand。

\"ThisisamosthonourableyoungmanwhomProvidenceitself……Mr。Razumov。\"

TheGeneralacknowledgedtheintroductionbyfrowningatRazumov,whodidnotmaketheslightestmovement。

SittingdownbeforehisdesktheGenerallistenedwithcompressedlips。

Itwasimpossibletodetectanysignofemotiononhisface。

Razumovwatchedtheimmobilityofthefleshyprofile。Butitlastedonlyamoment,tillthePrincehadfinished;andwhentheGeneralturnedtotheprovidentialyoungman,hisfloridcomplexion,theblue,unbelievingeyesandthebrightwhiteflashofanautomaticsmilehadanairofjovial,carelesscruelty。Heexpressednowonderattheextraordinarystory——nopleasureorexcitement——noincredulityeither。Hebetrayednosentimentwhatever。Onlywithapolitenessalmostdeferentialsuggestedthat\"thebirdmighthaveflownwhileMr。——Mr。Razumovwasrunningaboutthestreets。\"

Razumovadvancedtothemiddleoftheroomandsaid,\"ThedoorislockedandIhavethekeyinmypocket。\"

Hisloathingforthemanwasintense。Ithadcomeuponhimsounawaresthathefelthehadnotkeptitoutofhisvoice。TheGenerallookedupathimthoughtfully,andRazumovgrinned。

AllthiswentovertheheadofPrinceK———seatedinadeeparmchair,verytiredandimpatient。

\"AstudentcalledHaldin,\"saidtheGeneralthoughtfully。

Razumovceasedtogrin。

\"Thatishisname,\"hesaidunnecessarilyloud。\"VictorVictorovitchHaldin——astudent。\"

TheGeneralshiftedhispositionalittle。

\"Howishedressed?Wouldyouhavethegoodnesstotellme?\"

RazumovangrilydescribedHaldin’sclothinginafewjerkywords。

TheGeneralstaredallthetime,thenaddressingthePrince——

\"Wewerenotwithoutsomeindications,\"hesaidinFrench。\"A

goodwomanwhowasinthestreetdescribedtoussomebodywearingadressofthesortasthethrowerofthesecondbomb。WehavedetainedherattheSecretariat,andeveryoneinaTcherkesscoatwecouldlayourhandsonhasbeenbroughttohertolookat。Shekeptoncrossingherselfandshakingherheadatthem。

Itwasexasperating……\"HeturnedtoRazumov,andinRussian,withfriendlyreproach——

\"Takeachair,Mr。Razumov——do。Whyareyoustanding?\"

RazumovsatdowncarelesslyandlookedattheGeneral。

\"Thisgoggle—eyedimbecileunderstandsnothing,\"hethought。

ThePrincebegantospeakloftily。

\"Mr。Razumovisayoungmanofconspicuousabilities。Ihaveitatheartthathisfutureshouldnot……\"

\"Certainly,\"interruptedtheGeneral,withamovementofthehand。\"Hasheanyweaponsonhim,doyouthink,Mr。Razumov?\"

TheGeneralemployedagentlemusicalvoice。Razumovansweredwithsuppressedirritation——

\"No。Butmyrazorsarelyingabout——youunderstand。\"

TheGeneralloweredhisheadapprovingly。

\"Precisely。\"

ThentothePrince,explainingcourteously——

\"Wewantthatbirdalive。Itwillbethedevilifwecan’tmakehimsingalittlebeforewearedonewithhim。\"

Thegrave—likesilenceoftheroomwithitsmuteclockfelluponthepolitemodulationsofthisterriblephrase。ThePrince,hiddeninthechair,madenosound。

TheGeneralunexpectedlydevelopedathought。

\"Fidelitytomenacedinstitutionsonwhichdependthesafetyofathroneandofapeopleisnochild’splay。Weknowthat,_monPrince,_and——_tenez_——\"hewentonwithasortofflatteringharshness,\"Mr。Razumovherebeginstounderstandthattoo。\"

HiseyeswhichheturneduponRazumovseemedtobestartingoutofhishead。ThisgrotesquenessofaspectnolongershockedRazumov。Hesaidwithgloomyconviction——

\"Haldinwillneverspeak。\"

\"Thatremainstobeseen,\"mutteredtheGeneral。

\"Iamcertain,\"insistedRazumov。\"Amanlikethisneverspeaks……DoyouimaginethatIamherefromfear?\"headdedviolently。HefeltreadytostandbyhisopinionofHaldintothelastextremity。

\"Certainlynot,\"protestedtheGeneral,withgreatsimplicityoftone。\"AndIdon’tmindtellingyou,Mr。Razumov,thatifhehadnotcomewithhistaletosuchastaunchandloyalRussianasyou,hewouldhavedisappearedlikeastoneinthewater……

whichwouldhavehadadetestableeffect,\"headded,withabright,cruelsmileunderhisstonystare。\"Soyousee,therecanbenosuspicionofanyfearhere。\"

ThePrinceintervened,lookingatRazumovroundthebackofthearmchair。

\"Nobodydoubtsthemoralsoundnessofyouraction。Beateaseinthatrespect,pray。\"

HeturnedtotheGeneraluneasily。

\"That’swhyIamhere。YoumaybesurprisedwhyIshould……\"

TheGeneralhastenedtointerrupt。

\"Notatall。Extremelynatural。Yousawtheimportance……

\"Yes,\"brokeinthePrince。\"AndIventuretoaskinsistentlythatmineandMr。Razumov’sinterventionshouldnotbecomepublic。Heisayoungmanofpromise——ofremarkableaptitudes。\"

\"Ihaven’tadoubtofit,\"murmuredtheGeneral。\"Heinspiresconfidence。\"

\"Allsortsofperniciousviewsaresowidespreadnowadays——theytaintsuchunexpectedquarters——that,monstrousasitseems,hemightsuffer……Hisstudies……His……\"

TheGeneral,withhiselbowsonthedesk,tookhisheadbetweenhishands。

\"Yes。Yes。Iamthinkingitout……Howlongisitsinceyoulefthimatyourrooms,Mr。Razumov?\"

Razumovmentionedthehourwhichnearlycorrespondedwiththetimeofhisdistractedflightfromthebigslumhouse。HehadmadeuphismindtokeepZiemianitchoutoftheaffaircompletely。Tomentionhimatallwouldmeanimprisonmentforthe\"brightsoul,\"perhapscruelfloggings,andintheendajourneytoSiberiainchains。Razumov,whohadbeatenZiemianitch,feltforhimnowavague,remorsefultenderness。

TheGeneral,givingwayforthefirsttimetohissecretsentiments,exclaimedcontemptuously——

\"Andyousayhecameintomakeyouthisconfidencelikethis——fornothing——_aproposdesbottes_。\"

Razumovfeltdangerintheair。Themercilesssuspicionofdespotismhadspokenopenlyatlast。SuddenfearsealedRazumov’slips。Thesilenceoftheroomresemblednowthesilenceofadeepdungeon,wheretimedoesnotcount,andasuspectpersonissometimesforgottenforever。ButthePrincecametotherescue。

\"ProvidenceitselfhasledthewretchinamomentofmentalaberrationtoseekMr。Razumovonthestrengthofsomeold,utterlymisinterpretedexchangeofideas——somesortofidlespeculativeconversation——monthsago——Iamtold——andcompletelyforgottentillnowbyMr。Razumov。\"

\"Mr。Razumov,\"queriedtheGeneralmeditatively,afterashortsilence,\"doyouoftenindulgeinspeculativeconversation?\"

\"No,Excellency,\"answeredRazumov,coolly,inasuddenaccessofself—confidence。\"Iamamanofdeepconvictions。Crudeopinionsareintheair。Theyarenotalwaysworthcombating。

Buteventhesilentcontemptofaseriousmindmaybemisinterpretedbyheadlongutopists。\"

TheGeneralstaredfrombetweenhishands。PrinceK———

murmured——

\"Aseriousyoungman。_Unespritsuperieur_。\"

\"Iseethat,_moncherPrince_,\"saidtheGeneral。\"Mr。Razumovisquitesafewithme。Iaminterestedinhim。Hehas,itseems,thegreatandusefulqualityofinspiringconfidence。

WhatIwaswonderingatiswhytheothershouldmentionanythingatall——Imeaneventhebarefactalone——ifhisobjectwasonlytoobtaintemporaryshelterforafewhours。For,afterall,nothingwaseasierthantosaynothingaboutitunless,indeed,heweretrying,underacrazymisapprehensionofyourtruesentiments,toenlistyourassistance——eh,Mr。Razumov?\"

ItseemedtoRazumovthatthefloorwasmovingslightly。

Thisgrotesquemaninatightuniformwasterrible。Itwasrightthatheshouldbeterrible。

\"IcanseewhatyourExcellencyhasinyourmind。ButIcanonlyanswerthatIdon’tknowwhy。\"

\"Ihavenothinginmymind,\"murmuredtheGeneral,withgentlesurprise。

\"Iamhisprey——hishelplessprey,\"thoughtRazumov。Thefatiguesandthedisgustsofthatafternoon,theneedtoforget,thefearwhichhecouldnotkeepoff,reawakenedhishateforHaldin。

\"ThenIcan’thelpyourExcellency。Idon’tknowwhathemeant。

IonlyknowtherewasamomentwhenIwishedtokillhim。TherewasalsoamomentwhenIwishedmyselfdead。Isaidnothing。I

wasovercome。Iprovokednoconfidence——Iaskedfornoexplanations——\"

Razumovseemedbesidehimself;buthismindwaslucid。Itwasreallyacalculatedoutburst。

\"Itisratherapity,\"theGeneralsaid,\"thatyoudidnot。

Don’tyouknowatallwhathemeanstodo?\"Razumovcalmeddownandsawanopeningthere。

\"Hetoldmehewasinhopesthatasledgewouldmeethimabouthalfanhouraftermidnightattheseventhlamp—postontheleftfromtheupperendofKarabelnaya。Atanyrate,hemeanttobethereatthattime。Hedidnotevenaskmeforachangeofclothes。\"

\"_Ahvoila_!\"saidtheGeneral,turningtoPrinceKwithanairofsatisfaction。\"Thereisawaytokeepyour_protege_,Mr。

Razumov,quiteclearofanyconnexionwiththeactualarrest。WeshallbereadyforthatgentlemaninKarabelnaya。\"

ThePrinceexpressedhisgratitude。Therewasrealemotioninhisvoice。Razumov,motionless,silent,satstaringatthecarpet。TheGeneralturnedtohim。

\"Halfanhouraftermidnight。Tillthenwehavetodependonyou,Mr。Razumov。Youdon’tthinkheislikelytochangehispurpose?\"

\"HowcanItell?\"saidRazumov。\"Thosemenarenotofthesortthateverchangesitspurpose。\"

\"Whatmendoyoumean?\"

\"Fanaticalloversoflibertyingeneral。LibertywithacapitalL,Excellency。Libertythatmeansnothingprecise。Libertyinwhosenamecrimesarecommitted。\"

TheGeneralmurmured——

\"Idetestrebelsofeverykind。Ican’thelpit。It’smynature!\"

Heclenchedafistandshookit,drawingbackhisarm。\"Theyshallbedestroyed,then。\"

\"Theyhavemadeasacrificeoftheirlivesbeforehand,\"saidRazumovwithmaliciouspleasureandlookingtheGeneralstraightintheface。\"IfHaldindoeschangehispurposeto—night,youmaydependonitthatitwillnotbetosavehislifebyflightinsomeotherway。Hewouldhavethoughtthenofsomethingelsetoattempt。Butthatisnotlikely。\"

TheGeneralrepeatedasiftohimself,\"Theyshallbedestroyed。\"

Razumovassumedanimpenetrableexpression。

ThePrinceexclaimed——

\"Whataterriblenecessity!\"

TheGeneral’sarmwasloweredslowly。

\"Onecomfortthereis。Thatbroodleavesnoposterity。I’vealwayssaidit,oneeffort,pitiless,persistent,steady——andwearedonewiththemforever。\"

Razumovthoughttohimselfthatthismanentrustedwithsomucharbitrarypowermusthavebelievedwhathesaidorelsehecouldnothavegoneonbearingtheresponsibility。

\"Idetestrebels。Thesesubversiveminds!Theseintellectual_debauches_!Myexistencehasbeenbuiltonfidelity。It’safeeling。

TodefenditIamreadytolaydownmylife——andevenmyhonour——ifthatwereneeded。Butpraytellmewhathonourcantherebeasagainstrebels——againstpeoplethatdenyGodHimself——perfectunbelievers!

Brutes。Itishorribletothinkof。\"

DuringthistiradeRazumov,facingtheGeneral,hadnoddedslightlytwice。PrinceK———,standingononesidewithhisgrandair,murmured,castinguphiseyes——

\"_Helas!_\"

Thenloweringhisglanceandwithgreatdecisiondeclared——

\"Thisyoungman,General,isperfectlyfittoapprehendthebearingofyourmemorablewords。\"

TheGeneral’swholeexpressionchangedfromdullresentmenttoperfecturbanity。

\"Iwouldasknow,Mr。Razumov,\"hesaid,\"toreturntohishome。

NotethatIdon’taskMr。Razumovwhetherhehasjustifiedhisabsencetohisguest。Nodoubthedidthissufficiently。ButI

don’task。Mr。Razumovinspiresconfidence。Itisagreatgift。

Ionlysuggestthatamoreprolongedabsencemightawakenthecriminal’ssuspicionsandinducehimperhapstochangehisplans。\"

Heroseandwithascrupulouscourtesyescortedhisvisitorstotheante—roomencumberedwithflower—pots。

RazumovpartedwiththePrinceatthecornerofastreet。Inthecarriagehehadlistenedtospeecheswherenaturalsentimentstruggledwithcaution。EvidentlythePrincewasafraidofencouraginganyhopesoffutureintercourse。Buttherewasatouchoftendernessinthevoiceutteringinthedarktheguardedgeneralphrasesofgoodwill。AndthePrincetoosaid——

\"Ihaveperfectconfidenceinyou,Mr。Razumov。\"

\"Theyall,itseems,haveconfidenceinme,\"thoughtRazumovdully。Hehadanindulgentcontemptforthemansittingshouldertoshoulderwithhimintheconfinedspace。Probablyhewasafraidofsceneswithhiswife。Shewassaidtobeproudandviolent。

Itseemedtohimbizarrethatsecrecyshouldplaysuchalargepartinthecomfortandsafetyoflives。ButhewantedtoputthePrince’smindatease;andwithaproperamountofemphasishesaidthat,beingconsciousofsomesmallabilitiesandconfidentinhispowerofwork,hetrustedhisfuturetohisownexertions。Heexpressedhisgratitudeforthehelpinghand。

Suchdangeroussituationsdidnotoccurtwiceinthecourseofonelife——headded。

\"Andyouhavemetthisonewithafirmnessofmindandcorrectnessoffeelingwhichgivemeahighideaofyourworth,\"

thePrincesaidsolemnly。\"Youhavenowonlytopersevere——topersevere。\"

OngettingoutonthepavementRazumovsawanunglovedhandextendedtohimthroughtheloweredwindowofthebrougham。Itdetainedhisowninitsgraspforamoment,whilethelightofastreetlampfelluponthePrince’slongfaceandold—fashionedgreywhiskers。

\"Ihopeyouareperfectlyreassurednowastotheconsequences……\"

\"AfterwhatyourExcellencyhascondescendedtodoforme,Icanonlyrelyonmyconscience。\"

\"_Adieu_,\"saidthewhiskeredheadwithfeeling。

Razumovbowed。Thebroughamglidedawaywithaslightswishinthesnow——hewasaloneontheedgeofthepavement。

Hesaidtohimselfthattherewasnothingtothinkabout,andbeganwalkingtowardshishome。

Hewalkedquietly。Itwasacommonexperiencetowalkthushometobedafteraneveningspentsomewherewithhisfellowsorinthecheaperseatsofatheatre。Afterhehadgonealittlewaythefamiliarityofthingsgotholdofhim。Nothingwaschanged。Therewasthefamiliarcorner;andwhenheturnedithesawthefamiliardimlightoftheprovisionshopkeptbyaGermanwoman。Therewereloavesofstalebread,bunchesofonionsandstringsofsausagesbehindthesmallwindow—panes。Theywereclosingit。Thesicklylamefellowwhomheknewsowellbysightstaggeredoutintothesnowembracingalargeshutter。

Nothingwouldchange。Therewasthefamiliargatewayyawningblackwithfeebleglimmersmarkingthearchesofthedifferentstaircases。

Thesenseoflife’scontinuitydependedontriflingbodilyimpressions。Thetrivialitiesofdailyexistencewereanarmourforthesoul。AndthisthoughtreinforcedtheinwardquietnessofRazumovashebegantoclimbthestairsfamiliartohisfeetinthedark,withhishandonthefamiliarclammybanister。Theexceptionalcouldnotprevailagainstthematerialcontactswhichmakeonedayresembleanother。To—morrowwouldbelikeyesterday。

Itwasonlyonthestagethattheunusualwasoutwardlyacknowledged。

\"Isuppose,\"thoughtRazumov,\"thatifIhadmadeupmymindtoblowoutmybrainsonthelandingIwouldbegoingupthesestairsasquietlyasIamdoingitnow。What’samantodo?

Whatmustbemustbe。Extraordinarythingsdohappen。Butwhentheyhavehappenedtheyaredonewith。Thus,too,whenthemindismadeup。Thatquestionisdonewith。Andthedailyconcerns,thefamiliaritiesofourthoughtswallowitup——andthelifegoesonasbeforewithitsmysteriousandsecretsidesquiteoutofsight,astheyshouldbe。Lifeisapublicthing。\"

Razumovunlockedhisdoorandtookthekeyout;enteredveryquietlyandboltedthedoorbehindhimcarefully。

Hethought,\"Hehearsme,\"andafterboltingthedoorhestoodstillholdinghisbreath。Therewasnotasound。Hecrossedthebareouterroom,steppingdeliberatelyinthedarkness。Enteringtheother,hefeltalloverhistableforthematchbox。Thesilence,butforthegropingofhishand,wasprofound。Couldthefellowbesleepingsosoundly?

Hestruckalightandlookedatthebed。Haldinwaslyingonhisbackasbefore,onlybothhishandswereunderhishead。

Hiseyeswereopen。Hestaredattheceiling。

Razumovheldthematchup。Hesawtheclear—cutfeatures,thefirmchin,thewhiteforeheadandthetopknotoffairhairagainstthewhitepillow。Therehewas,lyingflatonhisback。

Razumovthoughtsuddenly,\"Ihavewalkedoverhischest。\"

Hecontinuedtostaretillthematchburntitselfout;thenstruckanotherandlitthelampinsilencewithoutlookingtowardsthebedanymore。HehadturnedhisbackonitandwashanginghiscoatonapegwhenheheardHaldinsighprofoundly,thenaskinatiredvoice——

\"Well!Andwhathaveyouarranged?\"

TheemotionwassogreatthatRazumovwasgladtoputhishandsagainstthewall。Adiabolicalimpulsetosay,\"Ihavegivenyouuptothepolice,\"frightenedhimexceedingly。Buthedidnotsaythat。Hesaid,withoutturninground,inamuffledvoice——

\"It’sdone。\"

AgainheheardHaldinsigh。Hewalkedtothetable,satdownwiththelampbeforehim,andonlythenlookedtowardsthebed。

Inthedistantcornerofthelargeroomfarawayfromthelamp,whichwassmallandprovidedwithaverythickchinashade,Haldinappearedlikeadarkandelongatedshape——rigidwiththeimmobilityofdeath。ThisbodyseemedtohavelesssubstancethanitsownphantomwalkedoverbyRazumovinthestreetwhitewithsnow。Itwasmorealarminginitsshadowy,persistentrealitythanthedistinctbutvanishingillusion。

Haldinwasheardagain。

\"Youmusthavehadawalk——suchawalk……\"hemurmureddeprecatingly。\"Thisweather……\"

Razumovansweredwithenergy——

\"Horriblewalk……Anightmareofawalk。\"

Heshudderedaudibly。Haldinsighedoncemore,then——

\"AndsoyouhaveseenZiemianitch——brother?\"

\"I’veseenhim。\"

Razumov,rememberingthetimehehadspentwiththePrince,thoughtitprudenttoadd,\"Ihadtowaitsometime。\"

\"Acharacter——eh?It’sextraordinarywhatasenseofthenecessityoffreedomthereisinthatman。Andhehassayingstoo——simple,tothepoint,suchasonlythepeoplecaninventintheirroughsagacity。Acharacterthat……\"

\"I,youunderstand,haven’thadmuchopportunity……\"Razumovmutteredthroughhisteeth。

Haldincontinuedtostareattheceiling。

\"Yousee,brother,Ihavebeenagooddealinthathouseoflate。Iusedtotaketherebooks——leaflets。Notafewofthepoorpeoplewholivetherecanread。And,yousee,theguestsforthefeastoffreedommustbesoughtforinbywaysandhedges。

Thetruthis,Ihavealmostlivedinthathouseoflate。Isleptsometimesinthestable。Thereisastable……\"

\"That’swhereIhadmyinterviewwithZiemianitch,\"interruptedRazumovgently。Amockingspiritenteredintohimandheadded,\"Itwassatisfactoryinasense。Icameawayfromitmuchrelieved。\"

\"Ah!he’safellow,\"wentonHaldin,talkingslowlyattheceiling。\"Icametoknowhiminthatway,yousee。Forsomeweeksnow,eversinceIresignedmyselftodowhathadtobedone,Itriedtoisolatemyself。Igaveupmyrooms。Whatwasthegoodofexposingadecentwidowwomantotheriskofbeingworriedoutofhermindbythepolice?Igaveupseeinganyofourcomrades……\"

Razumovdrewtohimselfahalf—sheetofpaperandbegantotracelinesonitwithapencil。

\"Uponmyword,\"hethoughtangrily,\"heseemstohavethoughtofeverybody’ssafetybutmine。\"

Haldinwastalkingon。

\"Thismorning——ah!thismorning——thatwasdifferent。HowcanI

explaintoyou?BeforethedeedwasdoneIwanderedatnightandlayhidintheday,thinkingitout,andIfeltrestful。

Sleeplessbutrestful。Whatwasthereformetotormentmyselfabout?Butthismorning——after!ThenitwasthatIbecamerestless。Icouldnothavestoppedinthatbighousefullofmisery。Themiserableofthisworldcan’tgiveyoupeace。

Thenwhenthatsillycaretakerbegantoshout,Isaidtomyself,’Thereisayoungmaninthistownheadandshouldersabovecommonprejudices。’\"

\"Ishelaughingatmei?\"。Razumovaskedhimself,goingonwithhisaimlessdrawingoftrianglesandsquares。Andsuddenlyhethought:\"Mybehaviourmustappeartohimstrange。ShouldhetakefrightatmymannerandrushoffsomewhereIshallbeundonecompletely。ThatinfernalGeneral……\"

Hedroppedthepencilandturnedabruptlytowardsthebedwiththeshadowyfigureextendedfulllengthonit——somuchmoreindistinctthantheoneoverwhosebreasthehadwalkedwithoutfaltering。Wasthis,too,aphantom?

Thesilencehadlastedalongtime。\"Heisnolongerhere,\"wasthethoughtagainstwhichRazumovstruggleddesperately,quitefrightenedatitsabsurdity。\"Heisalreadygoneandthis……

only……\"

Hecouldresistnolonger。Hesprangtohisfeet,sayingaloud,\"Iamintolerablyanxious,\"andinafewheadlongstridesstoodbythesideofthebed。HishandfelllightlyonHaldin’sshoulder,anddirectlyhefeltitsrealityhewasbesetbyaninsanetemptationtogripthatexposedthroatandsqueezethebreathoutofthatbody,lestitshouldescapehiscustody,leavingonlyaphantombehind。

Haldindidnotstiralimb,buthisovershadowedeyesmovingalittlegazedupwardsatRazumovwithwistfulgratitudeforthismanifestationoffeeling。

Razumovturnedawayandstrodeupanddowntheroom。\"Itwouldhavebeenpossiblyakindness,\"hemutteredtohimself,andwasappalledbythenatureofthatapologyforamurderousintentionhismindhadfoundsomewherewithinhim。Andallthesamehecouldnotgiveitup。Hebecamelucidaboutit。\"Whatcanheexpecti?\"hethought。\"Thehalter——intheend。AndI……\"

ThisargumentwasinterruptedbyHaldin’svoice。

\"Whybeanxiousforme?Theycankillmybody,buttheycannotexilemysoulfromthisworld。Itellyouwhat——IbelieveinthisworldsomuchthatIcannotconceiveeternityotherwisethanasaverylonglife。ThatisperhapsthereasonIamsoreadytodie。\"

\"H’m,\"mutteredRazumov,andbitinghislowerliphecontinuedtowalkupanddownandtocarryonhisstrangeargument。

Yes,toamaninsuchasituation——ofcourseitwouldbeanactofkindness。Thequestion,however,wasnothowtobekind,buthowtobefirm。Hewasaslipperycustomer\"Itoo,VictorVictorovitch,believeinthisworldofours,\"hesaidwithforce。\"Itoo,whileIlive……Butyouseemdeterminedtohauntit。Youcan’tseriously……mean\"

ThevoiceofthemotionlessHaldinbegan——

\"Hauntit!Truly,theoppressorsofthoughtwhichquickenstheworld,thedestroyersofsoulswhichaspiretoperfectionofhumandignity,theyshallbehaunted。Astothedestroyersofmymerebody,Ihaveforgiventhembeforehand。\"

Razumovhadstoppedapparentlytolisten,butatthesametimehewasobservinghisownsensations。HewasvexedwithhimselfforattachingsomuchimportancetowhatHaldinsaid。

\"Thefellow’smad,\"hethoughtfirmly,butthisopiniondidnotmollifyhimtowardsHaldin。Itwasaparticularlyimpudentformoflunacy——andwhenitgotlooseinthesphereofpubliclifeofacountry,itwasobviouslythedutyofeverygoodcitizen……

ThistrainofthoughtbrokeoffshortthereandwassucceededbyaparoxysmofsilenthatredtowardsHaldin,sointensethatRazumovhastenedtospeakatrandom。

\"Yes。Eternity,ofcourse。I,too,can’tverywellrepresentittomyself……Iimagineit,however,assomethingquietanddull。

Therewouldbenothingunexpected——don’tyousee?Theelementoftimewouldbewanting。\"

Hepulledouthiswatchandgazedatit。Haldinturnedoveronhissideandlookedonintently。

Razumovgotfrightenedatthismovement。Aslipperycustomerthisfellowwithaphantom。Itwasnotmidnightyet。Hehastenedon——

\"Andunfathomablemysteries!CanyouconceivesecretplacesinEternity?Impossible。Whereaslifeisfullofthem。Therearesecretsofbirth,forinstance。Onecarriesthemontothegrave。Thereissomethingcomical……butnevermind。Andtherearesecretmotivesofconduct。Aman’smostopenactionshaveasecretsidetothem。Thatisinterestingandsounfathomable!

Forinstance,amangoesoutofaroomforawalk。Nothingmoretrivialinappearance。Andyetitmaybemomentous。Hecomesback——hehasseenperhapsadrunkenbrute,takenparticularnoticeofthesnowontheground——andbeholdheisnolongerthesameman。Themostunlikelythingshaveasecretpoweroverone’sthoughts——thegreywhiskersofaparticularperson——thegoggleeyesofanother。\"

Razumov’sforeheadwasmoist。Hetookaturnortwointheroom,hisheadlowandsmilingtohimselfviciously。

\"Haveyoueverreflectedonthepowerofgoggleeyesandgreywhiskers?Excuseme。YouseemtothinkImustbecrazytotalkinthisveinatsuchatime。ButIamnottalkinglightly。I

haveseeninstances。Ithashappenedtomeoncetobetalkingtoamanwhosefatewasaffectedbyphysicalfactsofthatkind。

Andthemandidnotknowit。Ofcourse,itwasacaseofconscience,butthematerialfactssuchasthesebroughtaboutthesolution……Andyoutellme,VictorVictorovitch,nottobeanxious!Why!Iamresponsibleforyou,\"

Razumovalmostshrieked。

HeavoidedwithdifficultyaburstofMephistophelianlaughter。

Haldin,verypale,raisedhimselfonhiselbow。

\"Andthesurprisesoflife,\"wentonRazumov,afterglancingattheotheruneasily。\"Justconsidertheirastonishingnature。A

mysteriousimpulseinducesyoutocomehere。Idon’tsayyouhavedonewrong。Indeed,fromacertainpointofviewyoucouldnothavedonebetter。Youmighthavegonetoamanwithaffectionsandfamilyties。Youhavesuchtiesyourself。Astome,youknowIhavebeenbroughtupinaneducationalinstitutewheretheydidnotgiveusenoughtoeat。Totalkofaffectioninsuchaconnexion——youperceiveyourself……Astoties,theonlytiesIhaveintheworldaresocial。ImustgetacknowledgedinsomewaybeforeIcanactatall。Isithereworking……Anddon’tyouthinkIamworkingforprogresstoo?

I’vegottofindmyownideasofthetrueway……Pardonme,\"

continuedRazumov,afterdrawingbreathandwithashort,throatylaugh,\"butIhaven’tinheritedarevolutionaryinspirationtogetherwitharesemblancefromanuncle。\"

Helookedagainathiswatchandnoticedwithsickeningdisgustthattherewereyetagoodmanyminutestomidnight。Hetorewatchandchainoffhiswaistcoatandlaidthemonthetablewellinthecircleofbrightlamplight。Haldin,recliningonhiselbow,didnotstir。Razumovwasmadeuneasybythisattitude。

\"Whatmoveishemeditatingoversoquietly?\"hethought。\"Hemustbeprevented。Imustkeepontalkingtohim。\"

Heraisedhisvoice。

\"Youareason,abrother,anephew,acousin——Idon’tknowwhat——tonoendofpeople。Iamjustaman。HereIstandbeforeyou。Amanwithamind。Diditeveroccurtoyouhowamanwhohadneverheardawordofwarmaffectionorpraiseinhislifewouldthinkonmattersonwhichyouwouldthinkfirstwithoragainstyourclass,yourdomestictradition——yourfiresideprejudices?……Didyoueverconsiderhowamanlikethatwouldfeel?Ihavenodomestictradition。Ihavenothingtothinkagainst。Mytraditionishistorical。WhathaveItolookbacktobutthatnationalpastfromwhichyougentlemenwanttowrenchawayyourfuture?AmItoletmyintelligence,myaspirationstowardsabetterlot,berobbedoftheonlythingithastogouponatthewillofviolententhusiasts?Youcomefromyourprovince,butallthislandismine——orIhavenothing。Nodoubtyoushallbelookeduponasamartyrsomeday——asortofhero——apoliticalsaint。ButIbegtobeexcused。I

amcontentinfittingmyselftobeaworker。Andwhatcanyoupeopledobyscatteringafewdropsofbloodonthesnow?OnthisImmensity。OnthisunhappyImmensity!Itellyou,\"hecried,inavibrating,subduedvoice,andadvancingonestepnearerthebed,\"thatwhatitneedsisnotalotofhauntingphantomsthatIcouldwalkthrough——butaman!\"

Haldinthrewhisarmsforwardasiftokeephimoffinhorror。

\"Iunderstanditallnow,\"heexclaimed,withawestruckdismay。

\"Iunderstand——atlast。\"

Razumovstaggeredbackagainstthetable。Hisforeheadbrokeoutinperspirationwhileacoldshudderrandownhisspine。

\"WhathaveIbeensaying?\"heaskedhimself。\"HaveIlethimslipthroughmyfingersafterall?

\"Hefelthislipsgostifflikebuckram,andinsteadofareassuringsmileonlyachievedanuncertaingrimace。

\"Whatwillyouhave?\"hebeganinaconciliatingvoicewhichgotsteadyafterthefirsttremblingwordortwo。\"Whatwillyouhave?

Consider——amanofstudious,retiredhabits——andsuddenlylikethis……

Iamnotpractisedintalkingdelicately。But……

\"Hefeltanger,awickedanger,getholdofhimagain。

\"Whatwerewetodotogethertillmidnight?Sithereoppositeeachotherandthinkofyour——your—shambles?\"

Haldinhadasubdued,heartbrokenattitude。Hebowedhishead;

hishandshungbetweenhisknees。Hisvoicewaslowandpainedbutcalm。

\"Iseenowhowitis,Razumov——brother。Youareamagnanimoussoul,butmyactionisabhorrenttoyou——alas……\"

Razumovstared。Fromfrighthehadsethisteethsohardthathiswholefaceached。Itwasimpossibleforhimtomakeasound。

\"Andevenmyperson,too,isloathsometoyouperhaps,\"Haldinaddedmournfully,afterashortpause,lookingupforamoment,thenfixinghisgazeonthefloor。\"Forindeed,unlessone……\"

Hebrokeoffevidentlywaitingforaword。Razumovremainedsilent。Haldinnoddedhisheaddejectedlytwice。

\"Ofcourse。Ofcourse,\"hemurmured……\"Ah!wearywork!\"

Heremainedperfectlystillforamoment,thenmadeRazumov’sleadenheartstrikeaponderousblowbyspringingupbriskly。

\"Sobeit,\"hecriedsadlyinalow,distincttone。\"Farewellthen。\"

Razumovstartedforward,butthesightofHaldin’sraisedhandcheckedhimbeforehecouldgetawayfromthetable。Heleanedonitheavily,listeningtothefaintsoundsofsometownclocktollingthehour。Haldin,alreadyatthedoor,tallandstraightasanarrow,withhispalefaceandahandraisedattentively,mighthaveposedforthestatueofadaringyouthlisteningtoaninnervoice。Razumovmechanicallyglanceddownathiswatch。WhenhelookedtowardsthedooragainHaldinhadvanished。Therewasafaintrustlingintheouterroom,thefeebleclickofaboltdrawnbacklightly。Hewasgone——almostasnoiselessasavision。