Arewewise?OurabstrusecalculationsArebasedonexperiencelong;
Arewesanguine?OurhighexpectationsArefoundedonhopethatisstrong;
Thuswebuildanair-castlethatcrumblesAnddriftstillnotracesremain,Andthefoolbuildsagainwhilehegrumbles,Andthewiseonelaughs,buildingagain。
\"Howcametheytopass,theserashblunders,Thesefalsestepssohardtodefend?\"
Ourfriendputsthequestionandwonders,Welaughandreply,\"Ah!myfriend,Couldyoutracethefirststridefalselytaken,Thedistancemisjudged,whereorhow,Whenyoupick’dyourselfup,stunn’dandshaken,Atthefence’twixttheturfandtheplough?\"
Inthejarofthepanelrebounding!
Inthecrashofthesplinteringwood!
Intheearstotheearthshockresounding!
Intheeyesflashingfireandblood!
Inthequartersaboveyourevolving!
Inthesodsunderneathheavinghigh!
TherewaslittletoaidyouinsolvingSuchquestions——thehoworthewhy。
Anddestiny,steadfastintrifles,IssteadfastforbetterorworseIngreatthings,itcrushesandstifles,Andswallowsthehopesthatwenurse。
Menwiserthanwearemaywonder,Whenthefuturetheyclingtosofast,Totherollofthatdestiny’sthunder,Goesdownwiththewrecksofthepast。
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Thepast!thedeadpast!thathasswallow’dAllthehoneyoflifeandthemilk,Brighterdreamsthanmerepastimeswe’vefollow’d,Betterthingsthanourscarletorsilk;
Aye,andworsethings——thatpastisitreallyDeadtouswhoagainandagainFeelsharply,hearplainly,seeclearly,Pastdayswiththeirjoyandtheirpain?
Likecorpsesembalm’dandunburiedTheylie,andinspiteofourwill,Oursoulsonthewingsofthoughtcarried,Revisittheirsepulchresstill;
Downthechannelsofmysterygliding,Theyconjurestrangetales,rarelyread,OfthepriestsofdeadPharaohspresidingAtmysticalfeastsofthedead。
Weirdpicturesarise,quaintdevices,Rudeemblems,bakedfuneralmeats,Strongincense,rarewines,andrichspices,Theashes,theshrouds,andthesheets;
DoesourthraldomfallshortofcompletenessForthemagicofacharnel-housecharm,Andtheflavourofapoisonoussweetness,Andtheodourofapoisonousbalm?
Andthelinksofthepast——but,nomatter,ForI’mgettingbeyondyou,Iguess,Andyou’llcallme\"asmadasahatter\"
IfmythoughtsItoofreelyexpress;
Isubjoinaquotation,praylearnit,AndwiththeaidofyourlexicontellusThemeaningthereof——\"ResdiscernitSapiens,quasconfunditasellus。\"
Alreadygreenhillocksareswelling,Andcombingwhitelocksonthebar,Whereadull,droningmurmuristellingOfwindsthathavegather’dafar;
Thusweknownottheday,northemorrow,Noryetwhatthenightmaybringforth,Northestorm,northesleep,northesorrow,Northestrife,northerest,northewrath。
Yettheskiesarestilltranquilandstarlit,Thesun’twixtthewaveandthewestDiesinpurple,andcrimson,andscarlet,Andgold;letushopeforthebest,SinceagainfromtheearthhiseffulgenceThedarknessanddamp-dewsshallwipe。
Kindreader,extendyourindulgenceTothisthelastlayof\"ThePipe\"。
TheRolloftheKettledrum;or,TheLayoftheLastCharger\"YouhavethePyrrhicdanceasyet,WhereisthePyrrhicphalanxgone?
Oftwosuchlessons,whyforgetThenoblerandthemanlierone?\"——Byron。
Onelineofswartprofilesandbeardedlipsdressing,Oneridgeofbrighthelmets,onecrestoffairplumes,Onestreakofbluesword-bladesallbaredforthefleshing,Onerowofrednostrilsthatscentbattle-fumes。
Forward!thetrumpetsweresoundingthecharge,Therollofthekettledrumrapidlyran,Thatmusic,likewild-firespreadingatlarge,Madden’dthewar-horseaswellastheman。
Forward!stillforward!wethunder’dalong,Steadilyyet,forourstrengthwewerenursing;
TallEwart,oursergeant,washummingasong,Lance-corporalBlackWillwasblasphemingandcursing。
Open’dtheirvolleyofgunsonourright,Puffsofgreysmoke,veilinggleamsofredflame,Curlingtoleeward,wereseenontheheight,Wherethebatterieswereposted,asonwardwecame。
Spreadingbeforeustheircavalrylay,Squadrononsquadron,troopupontroop;
Weweresofew,andsomanywerethey——
Eagleswaitcalmlythesparrow-hawk’sstoop。
Forward!stillforward!steedansweringsteedCheerilyneigh’d,whilethefoamflakesweretoss’dFrombridletobridle——thetopofourspeedWasgain’d,buttheprideofourorderwaslost。
Onewasthereleadingbynearlyarood,Thoughwewereracinghekepttothefore,Stillasarockinhisstirrupshestood,Highinthesunlighthissabrehebore。
Suddenlytottering,backwardshecrash’d,Loudlyhishelmrightinfrontofusrung;
Ironhoofsthunder’d,andnakedsteelflash’dOverhim——youngest,wheremanywereyoung。
Nowwewereclosetothem,everyhorsestridingMadly;——St。Lucepass’dwithneveragroan;——
Sadlymymasterlook’dround——hewasridingOntheboy’sright,withalineofhisown。
Thrustinghishandinhisbreastorbreast-pocket,Whilefromhiswristtheswordswungbyachain,Swiftlyhedrewoutsometrinketorlocket,Kiss’dit(Ithink)andreplaceditagain。
Burst,whilehisfingersreclosedonthehaft,Jarringconcussionandearthshakingdin,Horse’counter’dhorse,andIreel’d,buthelaugh’d,Downwenthisman,clovencleantothechin!
Wedgedinthemidstofthatstrugglingmass,Afterthefirstshock,whereeachhisfoesingled,Littlewasseen,saveadazzle,likeglassInthesun,withgreysmokeandblackdustintermingled。
Hereandthereredden’dapistolshot,flashingThroughtheredsparkleofsteeluponsteel!
Redderthesparkseem’d,andloudertheclashing,Struckfromthehelmbytheiron-shodheel!
Overfallenriders,likewither’dleavesstrewingUplandsinautumn,wesunder’dtheirranks;
Steedsrearingandplunging,menhackingandhewing,Fiercegrindingofsword-blades,sharpgoadingofflanks。
Shortwasthecrisisofconflictsoonover,Beingtoogood(Isuppose)tolastlong;
Throughthemwecut,asthescythecutstheclover,Batter’dandstain’dweemerg’dfromtheirthrong。
Someofoursaddleswereemptied,ofcourse;
Toheaven(orelsewhere)BlackWillhadbeencarried!
NedSullivanmountedWill’sriderlesshorse,Hismarebeinghurt,whiletensecondswetarried。
Andthenwere-formed,andwentatthemoncemore,Anderetheyhadrightlycloseduptheoldtrack,Webrokethroughthelanewehadopen’dbefore,Andaswewentforwarde’ensowecameback。
Ournumberswerefew,andourlossfarfromsmall,Theycouldfight,and,besides,theyweretwentytoone;
Wewereclearofthemallwhenweheardtherecall,Andthuswereturned,butmytaleisnotdone。
Forthehandofmyriderfeltstrangeonmybit,Hebreathedonceortwicelikeonepartiallychoked,Andsway’dinhisseat,thenIknewhewashit;——
Hemusthavebledfast,formywithersweresoak’d,Andscarcelyaninchofmyhousingwasdry;
Islacken’dmyspeed,yetIneverquitestopp’d,Erehepattedmyneck,said,\"Oldfellow,good-bye!\"
Anddropp’doffmegently,andlaywherehedropp’d!
Ah,me!afterall,theymaycallusdumbcreatures——
Itriedhardtoneigh,butthesobstookmybreath,YetIguess’dgazingdownatthosestill,quietfeatures,Hewasnevermorehappyinlifethanindeath。
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Twoyearsback,atAldershot,ElringtonmentionedMynametoourcolonelonefield-day。Hesaid,\"`Count’,`Steeltrap’,and`Challenger’oughttobepension’d;\"
\"Count\"diedthesameweek,andnow\"Steeltrap\"isdead。
Thatmorningourcolonelwasriding\"Theresa\",Thefillyby\"Teddington\"outof\"Mistake\";
Hisgirls,prettyAliceandfair-hairedLouisa,WerethereontheponieshepurchasedfromBlake。
Irememberhepointedmeouttohisdaughters,Saidhe,\"InthistroopImayfairlytakepride,ButI’venoneleftlikehiminmyofficers’quarters,Whoselife-bloodthemaneofold`Challenger’dyed。\"
Wherearethey?thewar-steedswhosharedinourglory,The\"Lanercost\"colt,andthe\"Acrobat\"mare,AndtheIrishdivision,\"KateKearney\"and\"Rory\",Andrushing\"Roscommon\",andeager\"Kildare\",And\"Freeny\",afavouriteoncewithmymaster,And\"Warlock\",asluggard,buthonestandtrue,And\"Tancred\",ashonestas\"Warlock\",butfaster,And\"Blacklock\",and\"Birdlime\",and\"MollyCarew\"?——
Allvanish’d,whatwonder!twelvesummershavepass’dSincethen,andmycomradeliesburiedthisday,——
Old\"Steeltrap\",thekicker,——andnowI’mthelastOfthechargerswhosharedinthatgloriousfray。
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Come,\"Harlequin\",keepyournoseoutofmymanger,You’llgetyourallowance,myboy,andnomore;
Snort!\"Silvertail\",snort!whenyou’veseenasmuchdangerAsIhave,youwon’tmindtheratsinthestraw。
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Ourgallantoldcolonelcamelimpingandhalting,Thedaybeforeyesterday,intomystall;
Oh!lighttothesaddleI’veonceseenhimvaulting,Infullmarchingorder,steelbroadswordandall。
AndnowhisleftlegthanhisrightismadeshorterThreeinches,hestoops,andhischestisunsound;
Hespoketomegently,andpattedmyquarter,Ilaidmyearsback,andlook’dplayfullyround。
Forthatwordkindlymeant,thatcaresskindlygiven,Ithank’dhim,thoughdumb,butmycheerfulnessfled;
MoresadnessIdrewfromthefaceofthelivingThanyearsbackIdidfromthefaceofthedead。
Forthedeadface,upturn’d,tranquil,joyous,andfearless,Look’dstraightfromgreensodtobluefathomlessskyWithasmile;butthelivingface,gloomyandtearless,Andhaggardandharass’d,look’ddownwithasigh。
Didhethinkonthefirsttimehekiss’dLadyMary?
Onthemorninghewing’dHoraceGrevillethebeau?
Onthewinnerhesteer’dinthegrandmilitary?
Onthechargethatheheadedtwelvelongyearsago?
Didhethinkoneachfreshyear,offreshgrieftheherald?
Onlidsthataresunken,andlocksthataregrey?
OnAlice,whoboltedwithBrianFitzgerald?
OnRupert,hisfirst-born,dishonour’dby\"play\"?
OnLouey,hisdarling,whosleeps’neaththecypress,Thatshadesherandonewhoselastbreathgaveherlife?
Isawthosestrongfingershardovereacheyepress——
Oh!thedeadrestinpeacewhenthequicktoilinstrife!
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Scoff,man!egotistical,proud,unobservant,SinceIwithman’sgriefdaretosympathisethus;
Whyscoff?——fellow-creatureIam,fellow-servantOfGod,canmanfathomGod’sdealingswithus?
ThewidegulfthatpartsusmayyetbenowiderThanthatwhichpartsyoufromsomebeingmoreblest;
Andtheremaybemorelinks’twixtthehorseandhisriderThaneveryourshallowphilosophyguess’d。
Youareproudofyourpower,andvainofyourcourage,Andyourblood,Anglo-Saxon,orNorman,orCelt;
Thoughyourgiftsyouextol,andourgiftsyoudisparage,Yourperils,yourpleasures,yoursorrowswe’vefelt。
We,too,sprungfrommaresoftheprophetofMecca,Andnursedonthepridethatwasbornwiththemilk,Andfilteredthrough\"Crucifix\",\"Beeswing\",\"Rebecca\",Welovesheenofscarletandshimmerofsilk。
We,too,sprungfromloinsoftheIshmaelitestallions,Wegloryindaringthatdiesorprevails;
From’counterofsquadrons,andcrashofbattalions,Torendingofblackthorns,andrattleofrails。
Inallstrifewherecourageistested,andpower,Fromthemeetonthehill-side,thehorn-blast,thefind,Theburst,thelonggallopthatseemstodevourThechampaign,allobstaclesflingingbehind,Tothecheerandtheclarion,thewar-musicblendedWithwar-cry,thefuriousdashatthefoe,Theterribleshock,therecoil,andthesplendidBaresword,flashingblue,risingredfromtheblow。
I’veborneONEthroughperilswheremanyhaveseenus,Notyrant,akindfriend,apatientinstructor,AndI’vefeltsomestrangeelementflashingbetweenus,Tillthesaddleseem’dturn’dtoalightningconductor。
Didhesee?couldhefeelthroughthefaintness,thenumbness,Whilelinger’dthespirithalf-loosedfromtheclay,Dumbeyesseekinghisintheirpiteousdumbness,Dumbquiveringnostrils,toostrickentoneigh?
Andwhatthen?thecoloursreversed,thedrumsmuffled,Theblacknoddingplumes,thedeadmarchandthepall,Thesternfaces,soldier-like,silent,unruffled,Theslowsacredmusicthatfloatsoverall!
Crosscarbineandboar-spear,hangbugleandbanner,Spur,sabre,andsnaffle,andhelm——Isitwell?
Vain’scutcheon,falsetrophiesofMarsandDiana,——
Canthedeadlaurelsproutwiththeliveimmortelle?
Itmaybe,——wefollow,andthoughweinheritOurstrengthforaseason,ourprideforaspan,Say!vanityarethey?vexationofspirit?
Notso,sincetheyserveforatimehorseandman。
Theyserveforatime,andtheymakelifeworthliving,Inspiteoflife’stroubles——’tisvaintodespond;
Oh,man!WEatleast,WEenjoy,withthanksgiving,God’sgiftsonthisearth,thoughwelooknotbeyond。
YOUsin,andYOUsuffer,andwe,too,findsorrow,PerchancethroughYOURsin——yetitsoonwillbeo’er;
Welabourto-day,andweslumberto-morrow,Stronghorseandboldrider!——andWHOKNOWETHMORE?
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Inourbarrack-squareshoutedDrill-sergeantM’Cluskie,Therollofthekettledrumrapidlyran,Thecolonelwheel’dshort,speakingonce,dryandhusky,\"WouldtoGodIhaddiedwithyourmaster,oldman!\"
[EndofSeaSprayandSmokeDrift。]
BushBallads&GallopingRhymesADedicationtotheAuthorof\"HolmbyHouse\"
TheyarerhymesrudelystrungwithintentlessOfsoundthanofwords,Inlandswherebrightblossomsarescentless,Andsonglessbrightbirds;
Where,withfireandfiercedroughtonhertresses,InsatiableSummeroppressesSerewoodlandsandsadwildernesses,Andfaintflocksandherds。
Whereindreariestdays,whenalldewsend,Andallwindsarewarm,WildWinter’slargeflood-gatesareloosen’d,Andfloods,freedbystorm,Frombrokenupfountainheads,dashonDrydesertswithlongpentuppassion——
Hererhymewasfirstframedwithoutfashion,Songshapedwithoutform。
Whencegather’d?——Thelocust’sgladchirrupMayfurnishastave;
Theringofarowelandstirrup,Thewashofawave。
Thechauntofthemarshfroginrushes,ThatchimesthroughthepausesandhushesOfnightfall,thetorrentthatgushes,Thetempeststhatrave。
Inthedeep’ningofdawn,whenitdapplesTheduskofthesky,Withstreaksliketheredd’ningofapples,Theripeningofrye。
Toeastward,whenclusterbycluster,Dimstarsanddullplanetsthatmuster,WaxwaninaworldofwhitelustreThatspreadsfarandhigh。
Inthegatheringofnightgloomo’erhead,inThestillsilentchange,Allfire-flushedwhenforesttreesreddenOnslopesoftherange。
Whenthegnarl’d,knottedtrunksEucalyptianSeemcarved,likeweirdcolumnsEgyptian,Withcuriousdevice——quaintinscription,Andhieroglyphstrange。
IntheSpring,whenthewattlegoldtrembles’Twixtshadowandshine,Wheneachdew-ladenairdraughtresemblesAlongdraughtofwine;
Whenthesky-line’sblueburnish’dresistanceMakesdeeperthedreamiestdistance,Somesonginallheartshathexistence,——
Suchsongshavebeenmine。
Theycameinallguises,somevividToclaspandtokeep;
SomesuddenandswiftasthelividBluethunder-flame’sleap。
ThissweptthroughthefirstbreathofcloverWithmemoriesrenew’dtotherover——
Thatflash’dwhiletheblackhorseturn’doverBeforethelongsleep。
Toyou(havingcunningtocolourApagewithyourpen,Thatthroughdulldays,andnightsevenduller,Longyearsagoten,Fairpicturesinfeverafforded)——
Isendtheserudestaves,roughlywordedByoneinwhosebrainstandsrecordedAsclearnowasthen,\"Thegreatrushofgrey`Northernwater’,Thegreenridgeofbank,The`sorrel’withcurvedsweepofquarterCurl’dclosetocleanflank,TheRoyalistsaddlefastsquarely,Andwherethebrightuplandsstretchfairly,Behind,beyondpistol-shotbarely,TheRoundheadedrank。
\"Alonglaunch,withclingingofmuscles,Andclenchingofteeth!
Theloosedoubletripplesandrustles!
Theswirlshootsbeneath!\"
Enough。Inreturnforyourgarland——
Inlieuoftheflowersfromyourfarland——
Takewildgrowthofdreamlandorstarland,Takeweedsforyourwreath。
Yetrhymehadnotfail’dmeforreason,Norreasonforrhyme,SweetSong!hadIsoughtyouinseason,Andfoundyouintime。
Youbeckoninyourbrightbeautyyonder,AndI,waxingfainter,yetfonder,NowwearytoosoonwhenIwander——
NowfallwhenIclimb。
Itmattersbutlittleinthelongrun,Theweakhavesomeright——
Someshareintheracethatthestrongrun,Thefightthestrongfight。
Ifwordsthatareworthlessgowestward,Yettheworstwordshallbeasthebestword,Inthedaywhenallriotsweepsrestward,Indarknessorlight。
TheSickStockriderHoldhard,Ned!Liftmedownoncemore,andlaymeintheshade。
Oldman,you’vehadyourworkcutouttoguideBothhorses,andtoholdmeinthesaddlewhenIsway’d,Allthroughthehot,slow,sleepy,silentride。
Thedawnat\"Moorabinda\"wasamistrackdullanddense,Thesunrisewasasullen,sluggishlamp;
IwasdozinginthegatewayatArbuthnot’sbound’ryfence,IwasdreamingontheLimestonecattlecamp。
WecrossedthecreekatCarricksford,andsharplythroughthehaze,Andsuddenlythesunshotflamingforth;
Tosouthwardlay\"Katawa\",withthesandpeaksallablaze,Andtheflush’dfieldsofGlenLomondlaytonorth。
NowwestwardwindsthebridlepaththatleadstoLindisfarm,Andyonderloomsthedouble-headedBluff;
Fromthefarsideofthefirsthill,whentheskiesareclearandcalm,YoucanseeSylvester’swoolshedfairenough。
FivemilesweusedtocallitfromourhomesteadtotheplaceWherethebigtreespanstheroadwaylikeanarch;
’TwashereweranthedingodownthatgaveussuchachaseEightyearsago——orwasitnine?——lastMarch。
’Twasmerryintheglowingmorn,amongthegleaminggrass,Towanderaswe’vewanderedmanyamile,Andblowthecooltobaccocloud,andwatchthewhitewreathspass,Sittinglooselyinthesaddleallthewhile。
’Twasmerry’midtheblackwoods,whenwespiedthestationroofs,Towheelthewildscrubcattleattheyard,Witharunningfireofstockwhipsandafieryrunofhoofs;
Oh!thehardestdaywasneverthentoohard!
Aye!wehadagloriousgallopafter\"Starlight\"andhisgang,WhentheyboltedfromSylvester’sontheflat;
Howthesun-driedreed-bedscrackled,howtheflint-strewnrangesrangTothestrokesof\"Mountaineer\"and\"Acrobat\"。
Hardbehindtheminthetimber,harderstillacrosstheheath,Closebesidethemthroughthetea-treescrubwedash’d;
Andthegolden-tintedfernleaves,howtheyrustledunderneath!
Andthehoneysuckleosiers,howtheycrash’d!
Weledthehuntthroughout,Ned,onthechestnutandthegrey,Andthetrooperswerethreehundredyardsbehind,Whileweemptiedoursix-shootersonthebushrangersatbay,Inthecreekwithstuntedbox-treeforablind!
Thereyougrappledwiththeleader,mantomanandhorsetohorse,Andyouroll’dtogetherwhenthechestnutrear’d;
Heblazedawayandmissedyouinthatshallowwatercourse——
Anarrowshave——hispowdersingedyourbeard!
Inthesehourswhenlifeisebbing,howthosedayswhenlifewasyoungComebacktous;howclearlyIrecallEventheyarnsJackHallinvented,andthesongsJemRopersung;
AndwherearenowJemRoperandJackHall?
Aye!nearlyallourcomradesoftheoldcolonialschool,Ourancientbooncompanions,Ned,aregone;
Hardliversforthemostpart,somewhatrecklessasarule,ItseemsthatyouandIareleftalone。
TherewasHughes,whogotintroublethroughthatbusinesswiththecards,Itmatterslittlewhatbecameofhim;
Butasteerripp’dupMacPhersonintheCooramintayards,AndSullivanwasdrown’datSink-or-swim;
AndMostyn——poorFrankMostyn——diedatlastafearfulwreck,In\"thehorrors\",attheUpperWandinong,AndCarisbrooke,therider,attheHorsefallbrokehisneck,Faith!thewonderwashesavedhisnecksolong!
Ah!thosedaysandnightswesquanderedattheLogans’intheglen——
TheLogans,manandwife,havelongbeendead。
Elsie’stallestgirlseemstallerthanyourlittleElsiethen;
AndEthelisawomangrownandwed。
I’vehadmyshareofpastime,andI’vedonemyshareoftoil,Andlifeisshort——thelongestlifeaspan;
Icarenotnowtotarryforthecornorfortheoil,Orforthewinethatmakethgladtheheartofman。
Forgoodundoneandgiftsmisspentandresolutionsvain,’Tissomewhatlatetotrouble。ThisIknow——
Ishouldlivethesamelifeover,ifIhadtoliveagain;
AndthechancesareIgowheremostmengo。
Thedeepblueskieswaxdusky,andthetallgreentreesgrowdim,Theswardbeneathmeseemstoheaveandfall;
Andsickly,smokyshadowsthroughthesleepysunlightswim,Andontheverysun’sfaceweavetheirpall。
Letmeslumberinthehollowwherethewattleblossomswave,Withneverstoneorrailtofencemybed;
Shouldthesturdystationchildrenpullthebushflowersonmygrave,Imaychancetohearthemrompingoverhead。
TheSwimmerWithshort,sharp,violentlightsmadevivid,Tosouthwardfarasthesightcanroam,Onlytheswirlofthesurgeslivid,Theseasthatclimbandthesurfsthatcomb。
Onlythecragandtheclifftonor’ward,Andtherocksreceding,andreefsflungforward,Andwaifswreck’dseawardandwastedshorewardOnshallowssheetedwithflamingfoam。
Agrim,greycoastandaseaboardghastly,Andshorestrodseldombyfeetofmen——
Wherethebatter’dhullandthebrokenmastlie,Theyhavelainembeddedtheselongyearsten。
Love!whenwewander’dheretogether,Handinhandthroughthesparklingweather,Fromtheheightsandhollowsoffernandheather,Godsurelylovedusalittlethen。
Theskieswerefairerandshoreswerefirmer——
Theblueseaoverthebrightsandroll’d;
Babbleandprattle,andrippleandmurmur,Sheenofsilverandglamourofgold——
Andthesunsetbath’dinthegulftolendherAgarlandofpinksandofpurplestender,Atingeofthesun-god’srosysplendour,Atitheofhisgloriesmanifold。
Man’sworksaregraven,cunning,andskilfulOnearth,wherehistabernaclesare;
Buttheseaiswanton,theseaiswilful,Andwhoshallmendherandwhoshallmar?
ShallwecarvesuccessorrecorddisasterOnthebosomofherheavingalabaster?
WillherpurplepulsebeatfainterorfasterForfallensparroworfallenstar?
Iwouldthatwithsleepy,softembracesTheseawouldfoldme——wouldfindmerest,Inluminousshadesofhersecretplaces,Indepthswherehermarvelsaremanifest;
SotheearthbeneathhershouldnotdiscoverMyhiddencouch——northeheavenaboveher——
Asastrongloveshieldingawearylover,Iwouldhavehershieldmewithshiningbreast。
Whenlightintherealmsofspacelayhidden,Whenlifewasyetinthewomboftime,Erefleshwasfetteredtofruitsforbidden,Andsoulswereweddedtocareandcrime,Wasthecourseforeshapedforthefuturespirit——
Aburdenoffolly,avoidofmerit——
Thatwouldfainthewisdomofstarsinherit,Andcannotfathomtheseassublime?
Undertheseaorthesoil(whatmatter?
Theseaandthesoilareunderthesun),Asintheformerdaysinthelatter,Thesleepingorwakingisknownofnone。
SurelythesleepershallnotawakenTogriefsforgottenorjoysforsaken,Forthepriceofallthingsgivenandtaken,Thesumofallthingsdoneandundone。
Shallwecountoffencesorcoinexcuses,Orweighwithscalesthesoulofaman,Whomastronghandbindsandasurehandlooses,Whoselightisasparkandhislifeaspan?
Theseedhesow’dorthesoilhecumber’d,Thetimeheservedorthespaceheslumber’d,Willitprofitamanwhenhisdaysarenumber’d,Orhisdeedssincethedaysofhislifebegan?
One,gladbecauseofthelight,saith,\"ShallnotTherighteousJudgeofalltheearthdoright,Forbeholdthesparrowsonthehouse-topsfallnotSaveasseemethtoHimgoodinHissight?\"
Andthisman’sjoyshallhavenoabiding,Throughlightsdepartingandlivesdividing,Heissoonasoneinthedarknesshiding,Onelovingdarknessratherthanlight。
Alittleseasonofloveandlaughter,Oflightandlife,andpleasureandpain,Andahorrorofouterdarknessafter,Anddustreturnethtodustagain。
Thenthelesserlifeshallbeasthegreater,Andtheloveroflifeshalljointhehater,Andtheonethingcomethsoonerorlater,Andnooneknoweththelossorgain。
Loveofmylife!wehadlightsinseason——
Hardtopartfrom,hardertokeep——
Wehadstrengthtolabourandsoulstoreason,Andseedtoscatterandfruitstoreap。
Thoughtimeestrangesandfatedisperses,WehaveHADourlovesandourlovingmercies;
Thoughthegiftsofthelightintheendarecurses,Yetbidesthegiftofthedarkness——sleep!
See!girtwithtempestandwing’dwiththunder,Andcladwithlightningandshodwithsleet,ThestrongwindstreadingtheswiftwavessunderTheflyingrollerswithfrothyfeet。
Onegleamlikeabloodshotsword-bladeswimsonThesky-line,stainingthegreengulfcrimson,Adeathstrokefiercelydealtbyadimsun,Thatstrikesthroughhisstormywinding-sheet。
Oh!bravewhitehorses!yougatherandgallop,Thestormspriteloosensthegustyreins;
NowthestoutestshipwerethefrailestshallopInyourhollowbacks,oryourhigharch’dmanes。
IwouldrideasneveramanhasriddenInyoursleepy,swirlingsurgeshidden,Togulfsforeshadow’dthroughstraitsforbidden,Wherenolightweariesandnolovewanes。
FromtheWreck\"Turnout,boys!\"——\"What’supwithoursuper。to-night?
Theman’smad——TwohourstodaybreakI’dswear——
Starkmad——why,thereisn’taglimmeroflight。\"
\"TakeBolingbroke,Alec,giveJacktheyoungmare;
Looksharp。Alargevesselliesjamm’donthereef,Andmanyonboardstill,andsomewash’donshore。
Ridestraightwiththenews——theymaysendsomereliefFromthetownship;andwe——wecandolittlemore。
You,Alec,youknowthenearcuts;youcancross`TheSugarloaf’fordwithascramble,Ithink;
Don’tsparethebloodfilly,noryettheblackhorse;
Shouldthewindrise,Godhelpthem!theshipwillsoonsink。
OldPeter’sawaydownthepaddock,todriveThenagstothestockyardasfastashecan——
Alifeanddeathmatter;so,lads,lookalive。\"
Half-dress’d,inthedark,tothestockyardweran。
Therewasbridlingwithhurry,andsaddlingwithhaste,Confusionandcursingforlackofamoon;
\"Bequickwiththesebuckles,we’venotimetowaste;\"
\"Mindthemare,shecanuseherhindlegstosometune。\"
\"Makesureofthecrossing-place;striketheoldtrack,They’vefencedoffthenewone;lookoutfortheholesOnthewombathills。\"\"Downwiththesliprails;standback。\"
\"Andride,boys,thepairofyou,rideforyoursouls。\"
Inthelowbranchesheavilyladenwithdew,Inthelonggrassesspoilingwithdeadwoodthatday,Wheretheblackwood,thebox,andthebastardoakgrew,Betweenthetallgum-treeswegallop’daway——
Wecrash’dthroughabrushfence,wesplash’dthroughaswamp——
Westeeredforthenorthnear\"TheEaglehawk’sNest\"——
Weboretotheleft,justbeyond\"TheRedCamp\",Androundtheblacktea-treebeltwheel’dtothewest——
Wecross’dalowrangesicklyscentedwithmuskFromwattle-treeblossom——weskirtedamarsh——
Thenthedawnfaintlydappledwithorangethedusk,Andpeal’doverheadthejay’slaughternoteharsh,Andshotthefirstsunstreakbehindus,andsoonThedimdewyuplandsweredreamywithlight;
Andfullonourleftflash’d\"TheReedyLagoon\",Andsharply\"TheSugarloaf\"rear’donourright。
Asmotheredcursebrokethroughthebushman’sbrownbeard,Heturn’dinhissaddle,hisbrick-colour’dcheekFlush’dfeeblywithsundawn,said,\"JustwhatIfear’d;
Lastfortnight’slaterainfallhasfloodedthecreek。\"
BlackBolingbrokesnorted,andstoodonthebrinkOneinstant,thendeepinthedarksluggishswirlPlungedheadlong。Isawthehorsesuddenlysink,Tillroundtheman’sarmpitsthewavesseemedtocurl。
Wefollow’d,——onecoldshock,anddeeperwesankThantheydid,andtwicetriedthelandinginvain;
Thethirdstrugglewonit;straightupthesteepbankWestagger’d,thenoutontheskirtsoftheplain。
Thestockrider,Alec,atstartinghadgotThelead,andhadkeptitthroughout;’twashisboastThatthroughthickestofscrubhecouldsteerlikeashot,Andtheblackhorsewascountedthebestonthecoast。
Themarehadbeenawkwardenoughinthedark,Shewaseagerandheadstrong,andbarelyhalfbroke;
Shehadhadmetooclosetoabigstringy-bark,Andhadmadeanearthingofacrookedsheoak;
Butnowontheopen,litupbythemorn,Sheflungthewhitefoam-flakesfromnostriltoneck,Andchasedhim——Ihatless,withshirtsleevesalltorn(Forhemayrideraggedwhoridesfromawreck)——
AndfasterandfasteracrossthewideheathWerodetillweraced。ThenIgaveherherhead,Andshe——stretchingoutwiththebitinherteeth——
Shecaughthim,outpacedhim,andpassedhim,andled。
Wenearedthenewfence,wewerewideofthetrack;
Ilook’drightandleft——shehadneverbeentriedAtastiffleap;’twaslittlehecaredontheblack。
\"You’remorethanamilefromthegateway,\"hecried。
Ihungtoherhead,touchedherflankwiththespurs(Intheredstreakofrailnottheghostofagap);
Sheshortenedherlongstroke,sheprickedhersharpears,Sheflungitbehindherwithhardlyarap——
IsawthepostquiverwhereBolingbrokestruck,AndguessedthatthepacewehadcomethelastmileHadblownhimabit(hecouldjumplikeabuck)。
Wegallopedmoresteadilythenforawhile。
Theheathwassoonpass’d,inthedimdistancelayThemountain。ThesunwasjustclearingthetipsOftherangestoeastward。Themare——couldshestay?
ShewasbredverynearlyascleanasEclipse;
Sheled,andasoftashecametoherside,Shetookthebitfreeanduntiringasyet;
Herneckwasarcheddouble,hernostrilswerewide,Andthetipsofhertaperingearsnearlymet——
\"You’relighterthanIam,\"saidAlecatlast;
\"Thehorseisdeadbeatandthemareisn’tblown。
Shemustbeagoodone——rideonandridefast,Youknowyourwaynow。\"SoIrodeonalone。
Stillgallopingforwardwepass’dthetwoflocksAtM’Intyre’shutandM’Allister’shill——
ShewasgallopingstrongattheWarrigalRocks——
OntheWallabyRangeshewasgallopingstill——
Andoverthewastelandandunderthewood,Bydownandbydale,andbyfellandbyflat,Shegallop’d,andhereinthestirrupsIstoodToeaseher,andthereinthesaddleIsatTosteerher。WesuddenlystrucktheredloamOfthetracknearthetroughs——thenshereeledontherise——
Fromhercresttohercroupcoveredoverwithfoam,Andblood-redhernostrils,andbloodshothereyes,Adipinthedellwherethewattlefirebloomed——
Abendroundabankthathadshutouttheview——
Largeframedinthemildlightthemountainhadloomed,Withatall,purplepeakburstingoutfromtheblue。
Ipull’dhertogether,Ipress’dher,andsheShotdownthedeclinetotheCompany’syard,Andonbythepaddocks,yetundermykneeIcouldfeelherheartthumpingthesaddle-flapshard。
Yetamileandanother,andnowwewerenearThegoal,andthefieldsandthefarmsflittedpast;
And’twixtthetwofencesIturnedwithacheer,Foragreengrass-fedmare’twasafarthingandfast;
Andlabourers,rousedbyhergallopinghoofs,Sawbare-headedriderandfoam-sheetedsteed;
Andshonethewhitewallsandtheslate-colouredroofsOfthetownship。Isteadiedherthen——Ihadneed——
Wherestoodtheoldchapel(wherestandsthenewchurch——
Sincechapelstochurcheshavechangedinthattown)。
Ashort,sidelongstagger,along,forwardlurch,Aslight,chokingsob,andthemarehadgonedown。
Islipp’doffthebridle,Islacken’dthegirth,Iranonandleftherandtoldthemmynews;
Isawhersoonafterwards。Whatwassheworth?
Howmuchforherhide?Shehadneverwornshoes。
NoName\"Astoneuponherheartandhead,Butnonamewrittenonthatstone;
Sweetneighbourswhisperlowinstead,Thissinnerwasalovingone。\"——Mrs。Browning。
’Tisanamelessstonethatstandsatyourhead——
ThegustsinthegloomygorgeswhirlBrownleavesandredtilltheycoveryourbed——
NowItrustthatyoursleepisasoundone,girl!
Isaidinmywrath,whenhisshadowcross’dFromyourgardengatetoyourcottagedoor,\"Whatdoesitmatterforonesoullost?
Millionsofsoulshavebeenlostbefore。\"
YetIwarn’dyou——ah!butmywordscametrue——
\"Perhapssomedayyouwillfindhimout。\"
Hewhowasnotworthytoloosenyourshoe,Doeshisconsciencethereforeprickhim?Idoubt。
Youlaughedandweredeaftomywarningvoice——
Blush’dandwereblindtohisclovenhoof——
Youhavehadyourchance,youhavetakenyourchoiceHowcouldIhelpyou,standingaloof?
Hehasprosper’dwellwiththeworld——hesaysIammad——ifso,andifhebesane,I,atleast,giveGodthanksgivingandpraiseThatthereliesbetweenusonedifferenceplain。
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YouinyourbeautyabovemebentInthepauseofawildwestcountryball——
Spoketome——touchedmewithoutintent——
Mademeyourservantforonceandall。
Lightlaughterrippledyourrose-redlip,Andyousweptmycheekwithashiningcurl,Thatstray’dfromyourshoulder’ssnowytip——
NowIpraythatyoursleepisasoundone,girl!
FromalongwayofftolookatyourcharmsMademybloodrunredderineveryvein,Andhe——hehasheldyoulonginhisarms,Andhaskiss’dyouoverandoveragain。
Isitwellthathekeepswelloutofmyway?
Ifwemet,heandI——wealone——wetwo——
WouldIgivehimonemoment’sgracetopray?
NotI,forthesakeofthesoulheslew。
Alifelikeashuttlecockmaybetoss’dWiththehandoffateforabattledore;
Butitmattersmuchforyoursweetsoullost,Asmuchasamillionsoulsandmore。
AndIknowthatif,hereorthere,alone,Ifoundhim,fairlyandfacetoface,Havingslainhisbody,Iwouldslaymyown,ThatmysoultoSatanhissoulmightchase。
Hehardenshisheartinthepublicway——
WhoamI?Iambutanamelesschurl;
ButGodwillputallthingsstraightsomeday——
Tillthenmayyoursleepbeasoundone,girl!
WolfandHound\"ThehillslikegiantsatahuntinglayChinuponhand,toseethegameatbay。\"——Browning。
You’lltakemytalewithalittlesalt,Butitneedsnone,nevertheless,Iwasfoil’dcompletely,fairlyatfault,Dishearten’d,too,Iconfess。
Atthesplitters’tentIhadseenthetrackOfhorse-hoofsfreshonthesward,AndthoughDarbyLynchandDonovanJack(Whocouldswearthroughaten-inchboard)
Solemnlysworehehadnotbeenthere,Iwasjustassurethattheylied,FortoDarbyallthatisfoulwasfair,AndJackforhislifewastried。
WehadrunhimforsevenmilesandmoreAshardasournagscouldsplit;
Atthestarttheywerealltoowearyandsore,Andhiswasquitefreshandfit。
YoungMarsden’sponyhadhadenoughOntheplain,wherethechasewashot;
WebreastedtheswelloftheBittern’sBluff,AndMarkcouldn’traiseatrot;
Whenthesea,likeasplendidsilvershield,Tothesouth-westsuddenlylay;
OnthebrowoftheBeetlethechestnutreel’d,AndIbidgood-byetoM’Crea——
AndIwasalonewhenthemarefelllame,Withapointedflintinhershoe,OntheStonyFlats:Ihadlostthegame,Andwhatwasamantodo?
IturnedawaywithnofixedintentAndheadedforHawthorndell;
Icouldneithereatinthesplitters’tent,Nordrinkatthesplitters’well;
Iknewthattheygloriedinmymishap,AndIcursedthembetweenmyteeth——
Ablood-redsunsetthroughBrayton’sGapFlungaluridfireontheheath。
CouldIreachtheDell?Ihadlittlereck,AndwithscarceachoiceofmyownIthrewthereinsonMiladi’sneck——
Ihadfreedherfootfromthestone。
Thatseasonmostoftheswampsweredry,Andaftersohardaburst,Inthesultrynoonofsohotasky,Shewaskeentoappeaseherthirst——
Orbyinstincturgedorimpelledbyfate——
Icarenottosolvethesethings——
CertainitisthatshetookmestraightTotheWarrigalwatersprings。
IcanshutmyeyesandrecallthegroundAsthoughitwereyesterday——
Withashelfofthelow,greyrocksgirtround,Thespringsintheirbasinlay;
WoodstotheeastandwoldstothenorthInthesundownsullenlybloom’d;
DeadblackonacurtainofcrimsonclothLargepeakstothewestwardloomed。
IledMiladithroughweedandsedge,Sheleisurelydrankherfill;
Therewassomethingclosetothewater’sedge,Andmyheartwithoneleapstoodstill,Forahorse’sshoeandarider’sbootHadleftcleanprintsontheclay;
Someonehadwateredhisbeastonfoot。
’Twashe——hehadgone。Whichway?
Thenthemouthofthecavernfacedmefair,AsIturnedandfrontedtherocks;
So,atlast,Ihadpressedthewolftohislair,Ihadruntohisearththefox。
Ithoughtso。Perhapshewasresting。PerhapsHewaswaiting,watchingforme。
Iexaminedallmyrevolvercaps,Ihitchedmymaretoatree——
Ihadsworntohavehim,aliveordead,Andtogivehimachancewasloth。
Heknewhislifehadbeenforfeited——
Hehadevenheardofmyoath。
InmystockingsolestotheshelfIcrept,Icrawl’dsafeintothecave——
Allsilent——ifhewastherehesleptNotthere。Alldarkasthegrave。
ThroughthecrackIcouldheartheleadenhiss!
Seethelividfacethroughtheflame!
HowstrangeitseemsthatamanshouldmissWhenhislifedependsonhisaim!
Therecouldn’thavebeenabetterlightForhim,noraworseforme。
Wewerecoop’dup,cagedlikebeastsforafight,Anddumbasdumbbeastswerewe。
Flash!flash!bang!bang!andweblazedaway,Andthegreyroofreddenedandrang;
Flash!flash!andIfelthisbulletflayThetipofmyear。Flash!bang!
Bang!flash!andmypistolarmfellbroke;
Istruckwithmylefthandthen——
Struckatacorpsethroughacloudofsmoke——
Ihadshothimdeadinhisden!
DeTeAburningglassofburnishedbrass,Thecalmseacaughtthenoontiderays,AndsunnyslopesofgoldengrassAndwastesofweed-flowerseemtoblaze。