第4章

Arewewise?OurabstrusecalculationsArebasedonexperiencelong;

Arewesanguine?OurhighexpectationsArefoundedonhopethatisstrong;

Thuswebuildanair-castlethatcrumblesAnddriftstillnotracesremain,Andthefoolbuildsagainwhilehegrumbles,Andthewiseonelaughs,buildingagain。

\"Howcametheytopass,theserashblunders,Thesefalsestepssohardtodefend?\"

Ourfriendputsthequestionandwonders,Welaughandreply,\"Ah!myfriend,Couldyoutracethefirststridefalselytaken,Thedistancemisjudged,whereorhow,Whenyoupick’dyourselfup,stunn’dandshaken,Atthefence’twixttheturfandtheplough?\"

Inthejarofthepanelrebounding!

Inthecrashofthesplinteringwood!

Intheearstotheearthshockresounding!

Intheeyesflashingfireandblood!

Inthequartersaboveyourevolving!

Inthesodsunderneathheavinghigh!

TherewaslittletoaidyouinsolvingSuchquestions——thehoworthewhy。

Anddestiny,steadfastintrifles,IssteadfastforbetterorworseIngreatthings,itcrushesandstifles,Andswallowsthehopesthatwenurse。

Menwiserthanwearemaywonder,Whenthefuturetheyclingtosofast,Totherollofthatdestiny’sthunder,Goesdownwiththewrecksofthepast。

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Thepast!thedeadpast!thathasswallow’dAllthehoneyoflifeandthemilk,Brighterdreamsthanmerepastimeswe’vefollow’d,Betterthingsthanourscarletorsilk;

Aye,andworsethings——thatpastisitreallyDeadtouswhoagainandagainFeelsharply,hearplainly,seeclearly,Pastdayswiththeirjoyandtheirpain?

Likecorpsesembalm’dandunburiedTheylie,andinspiteofourwill,Oursoulsonthewingsofthoughtcarried,Revisittheirsepulchresstill;

Downthechannelsofmysterygliding,Theyconjurestrangetales,rarelyread,OfthepriestsofdeadPharaohspresidingAtmysticalfeastsofthedead。

Weirdpicturesarise,quaintdevices,Rudeemblems,bakedfuneralmeats,Strongincense,rarewines,andrichspices,Theashes,theshrouds,andthesheets;

DoesourthraldomfallshortofcompletenessForthemagicofacharnel-housecharm,Andtheflavourofapoisonoussweetness,Andtheodourofapoisonousbalm?

Andthelinksofthepast——but,nomatter,ForI’mgettingbeyondyou,Iguess,Andyou’llcallme\"asmadasahatter\"

IfmythoughtsItoofreelyexpress;

Isubjoinaquotation,praylearnit,AndwiththeaidofyourlexicontellusThemeaningthereof——\"ResdiscernitSapiens,quasconfunditasellus。\"

Alreadygreenhillocksareswelling,Andcombingwhitelocksonthebar,Whereadull,droningmurmuristellingOfwindsthathavegather’dafar;

Thusweknownottheday,northemorrow,Noryetwhatthenightmaybringforth,Northestorm,northesleep,northesorrow,Northestrife,northerest,northewrath。

Yettheskiesarestilltranquilandstarlit,Thesun’twixtthewaveandthewestDiesinpurple,andcrimson,andscarlet,Andgold;letushopeforthebest,SinceagainfromtheearthhiseffulgenceThedarknessanddamp-dewsshallwipe。

Kindreader,extendyourindulgenceTothisthelastlayof\"ThePipe\"。

TheRolloftheKettledrum;or,TheLayoftheLastCharger\"YouhavethePyrrhicdanceasyet,WhereisthePyrrhicphalanxgone?

Oftwosuchlessons,whyforgetThenoblerandthemanlierone?\"——Byron。

Onelineofswartprofilesandbeardedlipsdressing,Oneridgeofbrighthelmets,onecrestoffairplumes,Onestreakofbluesword-bladesallbaredforthefleshing,Onerowofrednostrilsthatscentbattle-fumes。

Forward!thetrumpetsweresoundingthecharge,Therollofthekettledrumrapidlyran,Thatmusic,likewild-firespreadingatlarge,Madden’dthewar-horseaswellastheman。

Forward!stillforward!wethunder’dalong,Steadilyyet,forourstrengthwewerenursing;

TallEwart,oursergeant,washummingasong,Lance-corporalBlackWillwasblasphemingandcursing。

Open’dtheirvolleyofgunsonourright,Puffsofgreysmoke,veilinggleamsofredflame,Curlingtoleeward,wereseenontheheight,Wherethebatterieswereposted,asonwardwecame。

Spreadingbeforeustheircavalrylay,Squadrononsquadron,troopupontroop;

Weweresofew,andsomanywerethey——

Eagleswaitcalmlythesparrow-hawk’sstoop。

Forward!stillforward!steedansweringsteedCheerilyneigh’d,whilethefoamflakesweretoss’dFrombridletobridle——thetopofourspeedWasgain’d,buttheprideofourorderwaslost。

Onewasthereleadingbynearlyarood,Thoughwewereracinghekepttothefore,Stillasarockinhisstirrupshestood,Highinthesunlighthissabrehebore。

Suddenlytottering,backwardshecrash’d,Loudlyhishelmrightinfrontofusrung;

Ironhoofsthunder’d,andnakedsteelflash’dOverhim——youngest,wheremanywereyoung。

Nowwewereclosetothem,everyhorsestridingMadly;——St。Lucepass’dwithneveragroan;——

Sadlymymasterlook’dround——hewasridingOntheboy’sright,withalineofhisown。

Thrustinghishandinhisbreastorbreast-pocket,Whilefromhiswristtheswordswungbyachain,Swiftlyhedrewoutsometrinketorlocket,Kiss’dit(Ithink)andreplaceditagain。

Burst,whilehisfingersreclosedonthehaft,Jarringconcussionandearthshakingdin,Horse’counter’dhorse,andIreel’d,buthelaugh’d,Downwenthisman,clovencleantothechin!

Wedgedinthemidstofthatstrugglingmass,Afterthefirstshock,whereeachhisfoesingled,Littlewasseen,saveadazzle,likeglassInthesun,withgreysmokeandblackdustintermingled。

Hereandthereredden’dapistolshot,flashingThroughtheredsparkleofsteeluponsteel!

Redderthesparkseem’d,andloudertheclashing,Struckfromthehelmbytheiron-shodheel!

Overfallenriders,likewither’dleavesstrewingUplandsinautumn,wesunder’dtheirranks;

Steedsrearingandplunging,menhackingandhewing,Fiercegrindingofsword-blades,sharpgoadingofflanks。

Shortwasthecrisisofconflictsoonover,Beingtoogood(Isuppose)tolastlong;

Throughthemwecut,asthescythecutstheclover,Batter’dandstain’dweemerg’dfromtheirthrong。

Someofoursaddleswereemptied,ofcourse;

Toheaven(orelsewhere)BlackWillhadbeencarried!

NedSullivanmountedWill’sriderlesshorse,Hismarebeinghurt,whiletensecondswetarried。

Andthenwere-formed,andwentatthemoncemore,Anderetheyhadrightlycloseduptheoldtrack,Webrokethroughthelanewehadopen’dbefore,Andaswewentforwarde’ensowecameback。

Ournumberswerefew,andourlossfarfromsmall,Theycouldfight,and,besides,theyweretwentytoone;

Wewereclearofthemallwhenweheardtherecall,Andthuswereturned,butmytaleisnotdone。

Forthehandofmyriderfeltstrangeonmybit,Hebreathedonceortwicelikeonepartiallychoked,Andsway’dinhisseat,thenIknewhewashit;——

Hemusthavebledfast,formywithersweresoak’d,Andscarcelyaninchofmyhousingwasdry;

Islacken’dmyspeed,yetIneverquitestopp’d,Erehepattedmyneck,said,\"Oldfellow,good-bye!\"

Anddropp’doffmegently,andlaywherehedropp’d!

Ah,me!afterall,theymaycallusdumbcreatures——

Itriedhardtoneigh,butthesobstookmybreath,YetIguess’dgazingdownatthosestill,quietfeatures,Hewasnevermorehappyinlifethanindeath。

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Twoyearsback,atAldershot,ElringtonmentionedMynametoourcolonelonefield-day。Hesaid,\"`Count’,`Steeltrap’,and`Challenger’oughttobepension’d;\"

\"Count\"diedthesameweek,andnow\"Steeltrap\"isdead。

Thatmorningourcolonelwasriding\"Theresa\",Thefillyby\"Teddington\"outof\"Mistake\";

Hisgirls,prettyAliceandfair-hairedLouisa,WerethereontheponieshepurchasedfromBlake。

Irememberhepointedmeouttohisdaughters,Saidhe,\"InthistroopImayfairlytakepride,ButI’venoneleftlikehiminmyofficers’quarters,Whoselife-bloodthemaneofold`Challenger’dyed。\"

Wherearethey?thewar-steedswhosharedinourglory,The\"Lanercost\"colt,andthe\"Acrobat\"mare,AndtheIrishdivision,\"KateKearney\"and\"Rory\",Andrushing\"Roscommon\",andeager\"Kildare\",And\"Freeny\",afavouriteoncewithmymaster,And\"Warlock\",asluggard,buthonestandtrue,And\"Tancred\",ashonestas\"Warlock\",butfaster,And\"Blacklock\",and\"Birdlime\",and\"MollyCarew\"?——

Allvanish’d,whatwonder!twelvesummershavepass’dSincethen,andmycomradeliesburiedthisday,——

Old\"Steeltrap\",thekicker,——andnowI’mthelastOfthechargerswhosharedinthatgloriousfray。

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Come,\"Harlequin\",keepyournoseoutofmymanger,You’llgetyourallowance,myboy,andnomore;

Snort!\"Silvertail\",snort!whenyou’veseenasmuchdangerAsIhave,youwon’tmindtheratsinthestraw。

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Ourgallantoldcolonelcamelimpingandhalting,Thedaybeforeyesterday,intomystall;

Oh!lighttothesaddleI’veonceseenhimvaulting,Infullmarchingorder,steelbroadswordandall。

AndnowhisleftlegthanhisrightismadeshorterThreeinches,hestoops,andhischestisunsound;

Hespoketomegently,andpattedmyquarter,Ilaidmyearsback,andlook’dplayfullyround。

Forthatwordkindlymeant,thatcaresskindlygiven,Ithank’dhim,thoughdumb,butmycheerfulnessfled;

MoresadnessIdrewfromthefaceofthelivingThanyearsbackIdidfromthefaceofthedead。

Forthedeadface,upturn’d,tranquil,joyous,andfearless,Look’dstraightfromgreensodtobluefathomlessskyWithasmile;butthelivingface,gloomyandtearless,Andhaggardandharass’d,look’ddownwithasigh。

Didhethinkonthefirsttimehekiss’dLadyMary?

Onthemorninghewing’dHoraceGrevillethebeau?

Onthewinnerhesteer’dinthegrandmilitary?

Onthechargethatheheadedtwelvelongyearsago?

Didhethinkoneachfreshyear,offreshgrieftheherald?

Onlidsthataresunken,andlocksthataregrey?

OnAlice,whoboltedwithBrianFitzgerald?

OnRupert,hisfirst-born,dishonour’dby\"play\"?

OnLouey,hisdarling,whosleeps’neaththecypress,Thatshadesherandonewhoselastbreathgaveherlife?

Isawthosestrongfingershardovereacheyepress——

Oh!thedeadrestinpeacewhenthequicktoilinstrife!

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Scoff,man!egotistical,proud,unobservant,SinceIwithman’sgriefdaretosympathisethus;

Whyscoff?——fellow-creatureIam,fellow-servantOfGod,canmanfathomGod’sdealingswithus?

ThewidegulfthatpartsusmayyetbenowiderThanthatwhichpartsyoufromsomebeingmoreblest;

Andtheremaybemorelinks’twixtthehorseandhisriderThaneveryourshallowphilosophyguess’d。

Youareproudofyourpower,andvainofyourcourage,Andyourblood,Anglo-Saxon,orNorman,orCelt;

Thoughyourgiftsyouextol,andourgiftsyoudisparage,Yourperils,yourpleasures,yoursorrowswe’vefelt。

We,too,sprungfrommaresoftheprophetofMecca,Andnursedonthepridethatwasbornwiththemilk,Andfilteredthrough\"Crucifix\",\"Beeswing\",\"Rebecca\",Welovesheenofscarletandshimmerofsilk。

We,too,sprungfromloinsoftheIshmaelitestallions,Wegloryindaringthatdiesorprevails;

From’counterofsquadrons,andcrashofbattalions,Torendingofblackthorns,andrattleofrails。

Inallstrifewherecourageistested,andpower,Fromthemeetonthehill-side,thehorn-blast,thefind,Theburst,thelonggallopthatseemstodevourThechampaign,allobstaclesflingingbehind,Tothecheerandtheclarion,thewar-musicblendedWithwar-cry,thefuriousdashatthefoe,Theterribleshock,therecoil,andthesplendidBaresword,flashingblue,risingredfromtheblow。

I’veborneONEthroughperilswheremanyhaveseenus,Notyrant,akindfriend,apatientinstructor,AndI’vefeltsomestrangeelementflashingbetweenus,Tillthesaddleseem’dturn’dtoalightningconductor。

Didhesee?couldhefeelthroughthefaintness,thenumbness,Whilelinger’dthespirithalf-loosedfromtheclay,Dumbeyesseekinghisintheirpiteousdumbness,Dumbquiveringnostrils,toostrickentoneigh?

Andwhatthen?thecoloursreversed,thedrumsmuffled,Theblacknoddingplumes,thedeadmarchandthepall,Thesternfaces,soldier-like,silent,unruffled,Theslowsacredmusicthatfloatsoverall!

Crosscarbineandboar-spear,hangbugleandbanner,Spur,sabre,andsnaffle,andhelm——Isitwell?

Vain’scutcheon,falsetrophiesofMarsandDiana,——

Canthedeadlaurelsproutwiththeliveimmortelle?

Itmaybe,——wefollow,andthoughweinheritOurstrengthforaseason,ourprideforaspan,Say!vanityarethey?vexationofspirit?

Notso,sincetheyserveforatimehorseandman。

Theyserveforatime,andtheymakelifeworthliving,Inspiteoflife’stroubles——’tisvaintodespond;

Oh,man!WEatleast,WEenjoy,withthanksgiving,God’sgiftsonthisearth,thoughwelooknotbeyond。

YOUsin,andYOUsuffer,andwe,too,findsorrow,PerchancethroughYOURsin——yetitsoonwillbeo’er;

Welabourto-day,andweslumberto-morrow,Stronghorseandboldrider!——andWHOKNOWETHMORE?

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Inourbarrack-squareshoutedDrill-sergeantM’Cluskie,Therollofthekettledrumrapidlyran,Thecolonelwheel’dshort,speakingonce,dryandhusky,\"WouldtoGodIhaddiedwithyourmaster,oldman!\"

[EndofSeaSprayandSmokeDrift。]

BushBallads&GallopingRhymesADedicationtotheAuthorof\"HolmbyHouse\"

TheyarerhymesrudelystrungwithintentlessOfsoundthanofwords,Inlandswherebrightblossomsarescentless,Andsonglessbrightbirds;

Where,withfireandfiercedroughtonhertresses,InsatiableSummeroppressesSerewoodlandsandsadwildernesses,Andfaintflocksandherds。

Whereindreariestdays,whenalldewsend,Andallwindsarewarm,WildWinter’slargeflood-gatesareloosen’d,Andfloods,freedbystorm,Frombrokenupfountainheads,dashonDrydesertswithlongpentuppassion——

Hererhymewasfirstframedwithoutfashion,Songshapedwithoutform。

Whencegather’d?——Thelocust’sgladchirrupMayfurnishastave;

Theringofarowelandstirrup,Thewashofawave。

Thechauntofthemarshfroginrushes,ThatchimesthroughthepausesandhushesOfnightfall,thetorrentthatgushes,Thetempeststhatrave。

Inthedeep’ningofdawn,whenitdapplesTheduskofthesky,Withstreaksliketheredd’ningofapples,Theripeningofrye。

Toeastward,whenclusterbycluster,Dimstarsanddullplanetsthatmuster,WaxwaninaworldofwhitelustreThatspreadsfarandhigh。

Inthegatheringofnightgloomo’erhead,inThestillsilentchange,Allfire-flushedwhenforesttreesreddenOnslopesoftherange。

Whenthegnarl’d,knottedtrunksEucalyptianSeemcarved,likeweirdcolumnsEgyptian,Withcuriousdevice——quaintinscription,Andhieroglyphstrange。

IntheSpring,whenthewattlegoldtrembles’Twixtshadowandshine,Wheneachdew-ladenairdraughtresemblesAlongdraughtofwine;

Whenthesky-line’sblueburnish’dresistanceMakesdeeperthedreamiestdistance,Somesonginallheartshathexistence,——

Suchsongshavebeenmine。

Theycameinallguises,somevividToclaspandtokeep;

SomesuddenandswiftasthelividBluethunder-flame’sleap。

ThissweptthroughthefirstbreathofcloverWithmemoriesrenew’dtotherover——

Thatflash’dwhiletheblackhorseturn’doverBeforethelongsleep。

Toyou(havingcunningtocolourApagewithyourpen,Thatthroughdulldays,andnightsevenduller,Longyearsagoten,Fairpicturesinfeverafforded)——

Isendtheserudestaves,roughlywordedByoneinwhosebrainstandsrecordedAsclearnowasthen,\"Thegreatrushofgrey`Northernwater’,Thegreenridgeofbank,The`sorrel’withcurvedsweepofquarterCurl’dclosetocleanflank,TheRoyalistsaddlefastsquarely,Andwherethebrightuplandsstretchfairly,Behind,beyondpistol-shotbarely,TheRoundheadedrank。

\"Alonglaunch,withclingingofmuscles,Andclenchingofteeth!

Theloosedoubletripplesandrustles!

Theswirlshootsbeneath!\"

Enough。Inreturnforyourgarland——

Inlieuoftheflowersfromyourfarland——

Takewildgrowthofdreamlandorstarland,Takeweedsforyourwreath。

Yetrhymehadnotfail’dmeforreason,Norreasonforrhyme,SweetSong!hadIsoughtyouinseason,Andfoundyouintime。

Youbeckoninyourbrightbeautyyonder,AndI,waxingfainter,yetfonder,NowwearytoosoonwhenIwander——

NowfallwhenIclimb。

Itmattersbutlittleinthelongrun,Theweakhavesomeright——

Someshareintheracethatthestrongrun,Thefightthestrongfight。

Ifwordsthatareworthlessgowestward,Yettheworstwordshallbeasthebestword,Inthedaywhenallriotsweepsrestward,Indarknessorlight。

TheSickStockriderHoldhard,Ned!Liftmedownoncemore,andlaymeintheshade。

Oldman,you’vehadyourworkcutouttoguideBothhorses,andtoholdmeinthesaddlewhenIsway’d,Allthroughthehot,slow,sleepy,silentride。

Thedawnat\"Moorabinda\"wasamistrackdullanddense,Thesunrisewasasullen,sluggishlamp;

IwasdozinginthegatewayatArbuthnot’sbound’ryfence,IwasdreamingontheLimestonecattlecamp。

WecrossedthecreekatCarricksford,andsharplythroughthehaze,Andsuddenlythesunshotflamingforth;

Tosouthwardlay\"Katawa\",withthesandpeaksallablaze,Andtheflush’dfieldsofGlenLomondlaytonorth。

NowwestwardwindsthebridlepaththatleadstoLindisfarm,Andyonderloomsthedouble-headedBluff;

Fromthefarsideofthefirsthill,whentheskiesareclearandcalm,YoucanseeSylvester’swoolshedfairenough。

FivemilesweusedtocallitfromourhomesteadtotheplaceWherethebigtreespanstheroadwaylikeanarch;

’TwashereweranthedingodownthatgaveussuchachaseEightyearsago——orwasitnine?——lastMarch。

’Twasmerryintheglowingmorn,amongthegleaminggrass,Towanderaswe’vewanderedmanyamile,Andblowthecooltobaccocloud,andwatchthewhitewreathspass,Sittinglooselyinthesaddleallthewhile。

’Twasmerry’midtheblackwoods,whenwespiedthestationroofs,Towheelthewildscrubcattleattheyard,Witharunningfireofstockwhipsandafieryrunofhoofs;

Oh!thehardestdaywasneverthentoohard!

Aye!wehadagloriousgallopafter\"Starlight\"andhisgang,WhentheyboltedfromSylvester’sontheflat;

Howthesun-driedreed-bedscrackled,howtheflint-strewnrangesrangTothestrokesof\"Mountaineer\"and\"Acrobat\"。

Hardbehindtheminthetimber,harderstillacrosstheheath,Closebesidethemthroughthetea-treescrubwedash’d;

Andthegolden-tintedfernleaves,howtheyrustledunderneath!

Andthehoneysuckleosiers,howtheycrash’d!

Weledthehuntthroughout,Ned,onthechestnutandthegrey,Andthetrooperswerethreehundredyardsbehind,Whileweemptiedoursix-shootersonthebushrangersatbay,Inthecreekwithstuntedbox-treeforablind!

Thereyougrappledwiththeleader,mantomanandhorsetohorse,Andyouroll’dtogetherwhenthechestnutrear’d;

Heblazedawayandmissedyouinthatshallowwatercourse——

Anarrowshave——hispowdersingedyourbeard!

Inthesehourswhenlifeisebbing,howthosedayswhenlifewasyoungComebacktous;howclearlyIrecallEventheyarnsJackHallinvented,andthesongsJemRopersung;

AndwherearenowJemRoperandJackHall?

Aye!nearlyallourcomradesoftheoldcolonialschool,Ourancientbooncompanions,Ned,aregone;

Hardliversforthemostpart,somewhatrecklessasarule,ItseemsthatyouandIareleftalone。

TherewasHughes,whogotintroublethroughthatbusinesswiththecards,Itmatterslittlewhatbecameofhim;

Butasteerripp’dupMacPhersonintheCooramintayards,AndSullivanwasdrown’datSink-or-swim;

AndMostyn——poorFrankMostyn——diedatlastafearfulwreck,In\"thehorrors\",attheUpperWandinong,AndCarisbrooke,therider,attheHorsefallbrokehisneck,Faith!thewonderwashesavedhisnecksolong!

Ah!thosedaysandnightswesquanderedattheLogans’intheglen——

TheLogans,manandwife,havelongbeendead。

Elsie’stallestgirlseemstallerthanyourlittleElsiethen;

AndEthelisawomangrownandwed。

I’vehadmyshareofpastime,andI’vedonemyshareoftoil,Andlifeisshort——thelongestlifeaspan;

Icarenotnowtotarryforthecornorfortheoil,Orforthewinethatmakethgladtheheartofman。

Forgoodundoneandgiftsmisspentandresolutionsvain,’Tissomewhatlatetotrouble。ThisIknow——

Ishouldlivethesamelifeover,ifIhadtoliveagain;

AndthechancesareIgowheremostmengo。

Thedeepblueskieswaxdusky,andthetallgreentreesgrowdim,Theswardbeneathmeseemstoheaveandfall;

Andsickly,smokyshadowsthroughthesleepysunlightswim,Andontheverysun’sfaceweavetheirpall。

Letmeslumberinthehollowwherethewattleblossomswave,Withneverstoneorrailtofencemybed;

Shouldthesturdystationchildrenpullthebushflowersonmygrave,Imaychancetohearthemrompingoverhead。

TheSwimmerWithshort,sharp,violentlightsmadevivid,Tosouthwardfarasthesightcanroam,Onlytheswirlofthesurgeslivid,Theseasthatclimbandthesurfsthatcomb。

Onlythecragandtheclifftonor’ward,Andtherocksreceding,andreefsflungforward,Andwaifswreck’dseawardandwastedshorewardOnshallowssheetedwithflamingfoam。

Agrim,greycoastandaseaboardghastly,Andshorestrodseldombyfeetofmen——

Wherethebatter’dhullandthebrokenmastlie,Theyhavelainembeddedtheselongyearsten。

Love!whenwewander’dheretogether,Handinhandthroughthesparklingweather,Fromtheheightsandhollowsoffernandheather,Godsurelylovedusalittlethen。

Theskieswerefairerandshoreswerefirmer——

Theblueseaoverthebrightsandroll’d;

Babbleandprattle,andrippleandmurmur,Sheenofsilverandglamourofgold——

Andthesunsetbath’dinthegulftolendherAgarlandofpinksandofpurplestender,Atingeofthesun-god’srosysplendour,Atitheofhisgloriesmanifold。

Man’sworksaregraven,cunning,andskilfulOnearth,wherehistabernaclesare;

Buttheseaiswanton,theseaiswilful,Andwhoshallmendherandwhoshallmar?

ShallwecarvesuccessorrecorddisasterOnthebosomofherheavingalabaster?

WillherpurplepulsebeatfainterorfasterForfallensparroworfallenstar?

Iwouldthatwithsleepy,softembracesTheseawouldfoldme——wouldfindmerest,Inluminousshadesofhersecretplaces,Indepthswherehermarvelsaremanifest;

SotheearthbeneathhershouldnotdiscoverMyhiddencouch——northeheavenaboveher——

Asastrongloveshieldingawearylover,Iwouldhavehershieldmewithshiningbreast。

Whenlightintherealmsofspacelayhidden,Whenlifewasyetinthewomboftime,Erefleshwasfetteredtofruitsforbidden,Andsoulswereweddedtocareandcrime,Wasthecourseforeshapedforthefuturespirit——

Aburdenoffolly,avoidofmerit——

Thatwouldfainthewisdomofstarsinherit,Andcannotfathomtheseassublime?

Undertheseaorthesoil(whatmatter?

Theseaandthesoilareunderthesun),Asintheformerdaysinthelatter,Thesleepingorwakingisknownofnone。

SurelythesleepershallnotawakenTogriefsforgottenorjoysforsaken,Forthepriceofallthingsgivenandtaken,Thesumofallthingsdoneandundone。

Shallwecountoffencesorcoinexcuses,Orweighwithscalesthesoulofaman,Whomastronghandbindsandasurehandlooses,Whoselightisasparkandhislifeaspan?

Theseedhesow’dorthesoilhecumber’d,Thetimeheservedorthespaceheslumber’d,Willitprofitamanwhenhisdaysarenumber’d,Orhisdeedssincethedaysofhislifebegan?

One,gladbecauseofthelight,saith,\"ShallnotTherighteousJudgeofalltheearthdoright,Forbeholdthesparrowsonthehouse-topsfallnotSaveasseemethtoHimgoodinHissight?\"

Andthisman’sjoyshallhavenoabiding,Throughlightsdepartingandlivesdividing,Heissoonasoneinthedarknesshiding,Onelovingdarknessratherthanlight。

Alittleseasonofloveandlaughter,Oflightandlife,andpleasureandpain,Andahorrorofouterdarknessafter,Anddustreturnethtodustagain。

Thenthelesserlifeshallbeasthegreater,Andtheloveroflifeshalljointhehater,Andtheonethingcomethsoonerorlater,Andnooneknoweththelossorgain。

Loveofmylife!wehadlightsinseason——

Hardtopartfrom,hardertokeep——

Wehadstrengthtolabourandsoulstoreason,Andseedtoscatterandfruitstoreap。

Thoughtimeestrangesandfatedisperses,WehaveHADourlovesandourlovingmercies;

Thoughthegiftsofthelightintheendarecurses,Yetbidesthegiftofthedarkness——sleep!

See!girtwithtempestandwing’dwiththunder,Andcladwithlightningandshodwithsleet,ThestrongwindstreadingtheswiftwavessunderTheflyingrollerswithfrothyfeet。

Onegleamlikeabloodshotsword-bladeswimsonThesky-line,stainingthegreengulfcrimson,Adeathstrokefiercelydealtbyadimsun,Thatstrikesthroughhisstormywinding-sheet。

Oh!bravewhitehorses!yougatherandgallop,Thestormspriteloosensthegustyreins;

NowthestoutestshipwerethefrailestshallopInyourhollowbacks,oryourhigharch’dmanes。

IwouldrideasneveramanhasriddenInyoursleepy,swirlingsurgeshidden,Togulfsforeshadow’dthroughstraitsforbidden,Wherenolightweariesandnolovewanes。

FromtheWreck\"Turnout,boys!\"——\"What’supwithoursuper。to-night?

Theman’smad——TwohourstodaybreakI’dswear——

Starkmad——why,thereisn’taglimmeroflight。\"

\"TakeBolingbroke,Alec,giveJacktheyoungmare;

Looksharp。Alargevesselliesjamm’donthereef,Andmanyonboardstill,andsomewash’donshore。

Ridestraightwiththenews——theymaysendsomereliefFromthetownship;andwe——wecandolittlemore。

You,Alec,youknowthenearcuts;youcancross`TheSugarloaf’fordwithascramble,Ithink;

Don’tsparethebloodfilly,noryettheblackhorse;

Shouldthewindrise,Godhelpthem!theshipwillsoonsink。

OldPeter’sawaydownthepaddock,todriveThenagstothestockyardasfastashecan——

Alifeanddeathmatter;so,lads,lookalive。\"

Half-dress’d,inthedark,tothestockyardweran。

Therewasbridlingwithhurry,andsaddlingwithhaste,Confusionandcursingforlackofamoon;

\"Bequickwiththesebuckles,we’venotimetowaste;\"

\"Mindthemare,shecanuseherhindlegstosometune。\"

\"Makesureofthecrossing-place;striketheoldtrack,They’vefencedoffthenewone;lookoutfortheholesOnthewombathills。\"\"Downwiththesliprails;standback。\"

\"Andride,boys,thepairofyou,rideforyoursouls。\"

Inthelowbranchesheavilyladenwithdew,Inthelonggrassesspoilingwithdeadwoodthatday,Wheretheblackwood,thebox,andthebastardoakgrew,Betweenthetallgum-treeswegallop’daway——

Wecrash’dthroughabrushfence,wesplash’dthroughaswamp——

Westeeredforthenorthnear\"TheEaglehawk’sNest\"——

Weboretotheleft,justbeyond\"TheRedCamp\",Androundtheblacktea-treebeltwheel’dtothewest——

Wecross’dalowrangesicklyscentedwithmuskFromwattle-treeblossom——weskirtedamarsh——

Thenthedawnfaintlydappledwithorangethedusk,Andpeal’doverheadthejay’slaughternoteharsh,Andshotthefirstsunstreakbehindus,andsoonThedimdewyuplandsweredreamywithlight;

Andfullonourleftflash’d\"TheReedyLagoon\",Andsharply\"TheSugarloaf\"rear’donourright。

Asmotheredcursebrokethroughthebushman’sbrownbeard,Heturn’dinhissaddle,hisbrick-colour’dcheekFlush’dfeeblywithsundawn,said,\"JustwhatIfear’d;

Lastfortnight’slaterainfallhasfloodedthecreek。\"

BlackBolingbrokesnorted,andstoodonthebrinkOneinstant,thendeepinthedarksluggishswirlPlungedheadlong。Isawthehorsesuddenlysink,Tillroundtheman’sarmpitsthewavesseemedtocurl。

Wefollow’d,——onecoldshock,anddeeperwesankThantheydid,andtwicetriedthelandinginvain;

Thethirdstrugglewonit;straightupthesteepbankWestagger’d,thenoutontheskirtsoftheplain。

Thestockrider,Alec,atstartinghadgotThelead,andhadkeptitthroughout;’twashisboastThatthroughthickestofscrubhecouldsteerlikeashot,Andtheblackhorsewascountedthebestonthecoast。

Themarehadbeenawkwardenoughinthedark,Shewaseagerandheadstrong,andbarelyhalfbroke;

Shehadhadmetooclosetoabigstringy-bark,Andhadmadeanearthingofacrookedsheoak;

Butnowontheopen,litupbythemorn,Sheflungthewhitefoam-flakesfromnostriltoneck,Andchasedhim——Ihatless,withshirtsleevesalltorn(Forhemayrideraggedwhoridesfromawreck)——

AndfasterandfasteracrossthewideheathWerodetillweraced。ThenIgaveherherhead,Andshe——stretchingoutwiththebitinherteeth——

Shecaughthim,outpacedhim,andpassedhim,andled。

Wenearedthenewfence,wewerewideofthetrack;

Ilook’drightandleft——shehadneverbeentriedAtastiffleap;’twaslittlehecaredontheblack。

\"You’remorethanamilefromthegateway,\"hecried。

Ihungtoherhead,touchedherflankwiththespurs(Intheredstreakofrailnottheghostofagap);

Sheshortenedherlongstroke,sheprickedhersharpears,Sheflungitbehindherwithhardlyarap——

IsawthepostquiverwhereBolingbrokestruck,AndguessedthatthepacewehadcomethelastmileHadblownhimabit(hecouldjumplikeabuck)。

Wegallopedmoresteadilythenforawhile。

Theheathwassoonpass’d,inthedimdistancelayThemountain。ThesunwasjustclearingthetipsOftherangestoeastward。Themare——couldshestay?

ShewasbredverynearlyascleanasEclipse;

Sheled,andasoftashecametoherside,Shetookthebitfreeanduntiringasyet;

Herneckwasarcheddouble,hernostrilswerewide,Andthetipsofhertaperingearsnearlymet——

\"You’relighterthanIam,\"saidAlecatlast;

\"Thehorseisdeadbeatandthemareisn’tblown。

Shemustbeagoodone——rideonandridefast,Youknowyourwaynow。\"SoIrodeonalone。

Stillgallopingforwardwepass’dthetwoflocksAtM’Intyre’shutandM’Allister’shill——

ShewasgallopingstrongattheWarrigalRocks——

OntheWallabyRangeshewasgallopingstill——

Andoverthewastelandandunderthewood,Bydownandbydale,andbyfellandbyflat,Shegallop’d,andhereinthestirrupsIstoodToeaseher,andthereinthesaddleIsatTosteerher。WesuddenlystrucktheredloamOfthetracknearthetroughs——thenshereeledontherise——

Fromhercresttohercroupcoveredoverwithfoam,Andblood-redhernostrils,andbloodshothereyes,Adipinthedellwherethewattlefirebloomed——

Abendroundabankthathadshutouttheview——

Largeframedinthemildlightthemountainhadloomed,Withatall,purplepeakburstingoutfromtheblue。

Ipull’dhertogether,Ipress’dher,andsheShotdownthedeclinetotheCompany’syard,Andonbythepaddocks,yetundermykneeIcouldfeelherheartthumpingthesaddle-flapshard。

Yetamileandanother,andnowwewerenearThegoal,andthefieldsandthefarmsflittedpast;

And’twixtthetwofencesIturnedwithacheer,Foragreengrass-fedmare’twasafarthingandfast;

Andlabourers,rousedbyhergallopinghoofs,Sawbare-headedriderandfoam-sheetedsteed;

Andshonethewhitewallsandtheslate-colouredroofsOfthetownship。Isteadiedherthen——Ihadneed——

Wherestoodtheoldchapel(wherestandsthenewchurch——

Sincechapelstochurcheshavechangedinthattown)。

Ashort,sidelongstagger,along,forwardlurch,Aslight,chokingsob,andthemarehadgonedown。

Islipp’doffthebridle,Islacken’dthegirth,Iranonandleftherandtoldthemmynews;

Isawhersoonafterwards。Whatwassheworth?

Howmuchforherhide?Shehadneverwornshoes。

NoName\"Astoneuponherheartandhead,Butnonamewrittenonthatstone;

Sweetneighbourswhisperlowinstead,Thissinnerwasalovingone。\"——Mrs。Browning。

’Tisanamelessstonethatstandsatyourhead——

ThegustsinthegloomygorgeswhirlBrownleavesandredtilltheycoveryourbed——

NowItrustthatyoursleepisasoundone,girl!

Isaidinmywrath,whenhisshadowcross’dFromyourgardengatetoyourcottagedoor,\"Whatdoesitmatterforonesoullost?

Millionsofsoulshavebeenlostbefore。\"

YetIwarn’dyou——ah!butmywordscametrue——

\"Perhapssomedayyouwillfindhimout。\"

Hewhowasnotworthytoloosenyourshoe,Doeshisconsciencethereforeprickhim?Idoubt。

Youlaughedandweredeaftomywarningvoice——

Blush’dandwereblindtohisclovenhoof——

Youhavehadyourchance,youhavetakenyourchoiceHowcouldIhelpyou,standingaloof?

Hehasprosper’dwellwiththeworld——hesaysIammad——ifso,andifhebesane,I,atleast,giveGodthanksgivingandpraiseThatthereliesbetweenusonedifferenceplain。

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YouinyourbeautyabovemebentInthepauseofawildwestcountryball——

Spoketome——touchedmewithoutintent——

Mademeyourservantforonceandall。

Lightlaughterrippledyourrose-redlip,Andyousweptmycheekwithashiningcurl,Thatstray’dfromyourshoulder’ssnowytip——

NowIpraythatyoursleepisasoundone,girl!

FromalongwayofftolookatyourcharmsMademybloodrunredderineveryvein,Andhe——hehasheldyoulonginhisarms,Andhaskiss’dyouoverandoveragain。

Isitwellthathekeepswelloutofmyway?

Ifwemet,heandI——wealone——wetwo——

WouldIgivehimonemoment’sgracetopray?

NotI,forthesakeofthesoulheslew。

Alifelikeashuttlecockmaybetoss’dWiththehandoffateforabattledore;

Butitmattersmuchforyoursweetsoullost,Asmuchasamillionsoulsandmore。

AndIknowthatif,hereorthere,alone,Ifoundhim,fairlyandfacetoface,Havingslainhisbody,Iwouldslaymyown,ThatmysoultoSatanhissoulmightchase。

Hehardenshisheartinthepublicway——

WhoamI?Iambutanamelesschurl;

ButGodwillputallthingsstraightsomeday——

Tillthenmayyoursleepbeasoundone,girl!

WolfandHound\"ThehillslikegiantsatahuntinglayChinuponhand,toseethegameatbay。\"——Browning。

You’lltakemytalewithalittlesalt,Butitneedsnone,nevertheless,Iwasfoil’dcompletely,fairlyatfault,Dishearten’d,too,Iconfess。

Atthesplitters’tentIhadseenthetrackOfhorse-hoofsfreshonthesward,AndthoughDarbyLynchandDonovanJack(Whocouldswearthroughaten-inchboard)

Solemnlysworehehadnotbeenthere,Iwasjustassurethattheylied,FortoDarbyallthatisfoulwasfair,AndJackforhislifewastried。

WehadrunhimforsevenmilesandmoreAshardasournagscouldsplit;

Atthestarttheywerealltoowearyandsore,Andhiswasquitefreshandfit。

YoungMarsden’sponyhadhadenoughOntheplain,wherethechasewashot;

WebreastedtheswelloftheBittern’sBluff,AndMarkcouldn’traiseatrot;

Whenthesea,likeasplendidsilvershield,Tothesouth-westsuddenlylay;

OnthebrowoftheBeetlethechestnutreel’d,AndIbidgood-byetoM’Crea——

AndIwasalonewhenthemarefelllame,Withapointedflintinhershoe,OntheStonyFlats:Ihadlostthegame,Andwhatwasamantodo?

IturnedawaywithnofixedintentAndheadedforHawthorndell;

Icouldneithereatinthesplitters’tent,Nordrinkatthesplitters’well;

Iknewthattheygloriedinmymishap,AndIcursedthembetweenmyteeth——

Ablood-redsunsetthroughBrayton’sGapFlungaluridfireontheheath。

CouldIreachtheDell?Ihadlittlereck,AndwithscarceachoiceofmyownIthrewthereinsonMiladi’sneck——

Ihadfreedherfootfromthestone。

Thatseasonmostoftheswampsweredry,Andaftersohardaburst,Inthesultrynoonofsohotasky,Shewaskeentoappeaseherthirst——

Orbyinstincturgedorimpelledbyfate——

Icarenottosolvethesethings——

CertainitisthatshetookmestraightTotheWarrigalwatersprings。

IcanshutmyeyesandrecallthegroundAsthoughitwereyesterday——

Withashelfofthelow,greyrocksgirtround,Thespringsintheirbasinlay;

WoodstotheeastandwoldstothenorthInthesundownsullenlybloom’d;

DeadblackonacurtainofcrimsonclothLargepeakstothewestwardloomed。

IledMiladithroughweedandsedge,Sheleisurelydrankherfill;

Therewassomethingclosetothewater’sedge,Andmyheartwithoneleapstoodstill,Forahorse’sshoeandarider’sbootHadleftcleanprintsontheclay;

Someonehadwateredhisbeastonfoot。

’Twashe——hehadgone。Whichway?

Thenthemouthofthecavernfacedmefair,AsIturnedandfrontedtherocks;

So,atlast,Ihadpressedthewolftohislair,Ihadruntohisearththefox。

Ithoughtso。Perhapshewasresting。PerhapsHewaswaiting,watchingforme。

Iexaminedallmyrevolvercaps,Ihitchedmymaretoatree——

Ihadsworntohavehim,aliveordead,Andtogivehimachancewasloth。

Heknewhislifehadbeenforfeited——

Hehadevenheardofmyoath。

InmystockingsolestotheshelfIcrept,Icrawl’dsafeintothecave——

Allsilent——ifhewastherehesleptNotthere。Alldarkasthegrave。

ThroughthecrackIcouldheartheleadenhiss!

Seethelividfacethroughtheflame!

HowstrangeitseemsthatamanshouldmissWhenhislifedependsonhisaim!

Therecouldn’thavebeenabetterlightForhim,noraworseforme。

Wewerecoop’dup,cagedlikebeastsforafight,Anddumbasdumbbeastswerewe。

Flash!flash!bang!bang!andweblazedaway,Andthegreyroofreddenedandrang;

Flash!flash!andIfelthisbulletflayThetipofmyear。Flash!bang!

Bang!flash!andmypistolarmfellbroke;

Istruckwithmylefthandthen——

Struckatacorpsethroughacloudofsmoke——

Ihadshothimdeadinhisden!

DeTeAburningglassofburnishedbrass,Thecalmseacaughtthenoontiderays,AndsunnyslopesofgoldengrassAndwastesofweed-flowerseemtoblaze。